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Poem: Sprite
Stomach is upset. Food poisoning? Possibly.
Vending machine downstairs. I'll get sprite.
I hit sprite button. Sprite cost 3 dollars.
I grab three 1 dollar bills from wallet.
I insert first dollar. Machine registers 1 dollar.
I attempt to insert 2nd dollar. It refuses to take it.
I smooth out the dollar. No luck. I flip it around. No luck. I smooth it out more and flip it upside down. No luck. It refuses to take another dollar.
The red 1 dollar icon blinks at me, unchanging and unfeeling. Machine cares not for my efforts.
I give up and hit return change. Machine makes awful noise.
A single quarter lands in the change tray.
I check the change tray. I feel around and bend down and look. My observations reveal there is in fact only one quarter.
I'm down 75 cents and no sprite. I put the two dollars and quarter in my pocket.
I still want sprite. I pull out my debit card. I have a split second to think, this feels like a bad idea maybe I should use the credit card instead. I remember that I'd have to text my dad to explain.
I swipe my debit card on the machine. It says sorry could not read. I sigh. I just want sprite.
I swipe a second time. Super slow. I pretend I am a geriatric sloth.
The machine blinks. It loads. It loads. It loads. Finally the word authorizing appears. I'm allowed to make my selection.
I whack the button with prejudice. I just want a single can of sprite on account of the possible food poisoning.
The elevator dings behind me. No one steps out.
The machine makes the expected banging noises of a metal can falling, distracting me from the elevator.
The sprite arrives at the bottom. I grab it, feeling accomplished. It's a 16oz can.
Before I can celebrate, the machine immediately starts blinking and flashing the words, sold out. I think oh thank goodness I got the last sprite then.
The machine keeps flashing. The words Sorry. Mistake. Refunding. Sold out. Sold out. Mistake. Sold out. Sorry.
I have no clue what it's doing and I've overstayed my welcome. I hit the cancel button just in case and leave with my prize.
I walk up the stairs. I open my phone and attempt to check my bank account. A single statement. "There was a mistake on our end. Please retry."
I log out and log back in. I see the machine charged me 8 dollars. There is a quick moment of "fuck me did I just pay 8.75 for a single can of sprite"
New notification. Machine refunded me 8 dollars.
Payed 75 cents for 16 oz sprite can. (and ~15 mins)
The end. Feel vaguely haunted.
#spirits and sprite#not sure what happened there#but net benefit I guess??#still possibly food poisoned#but whatever#sprite#short story#rambling or something#semi poem
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every time he steps into the kitchen he invents a new health code violation
follow for more. whatever this is
#happy 800 followers. more xie lian giving people food poisoning yay#you guyses tags were so good on the original#i was inspired#there is an informational sign banning him from the kitchen. hes caused 3 separate grease fires#he got the nickname the white clothed calamity because he made the soft serve machine explode#how is hua cheng still alive at this point tbh.#lmao imagine a no magic modern au but the toxicity of xlâs cooking necessitates that hua cheng still be a ghost somehow#also!! sqx!! she tries to make her uniform as cute as possible#whenever swd comes around they argue about the dress code#sqx has also been decorating he xuanâs uniform against his will#the beefleaf arc here is that it turns out he xuan doesnt actually work here. he just works shifts to gain sqx/swdâs trust#when this is revealed they have a fistfight in the parking lot#all three get fired#instead of he xuan giving back the fan he gives back the apron she bedazzled :(#sorry for making you think about beefleaf on the mcdonalds doodle. lmao#xie lian#tgcf#art#tgcf mcdonalds au#digital art#my art#mxtx#tian guan ci fu#shi qingxuan#hob#heaven officialâs blessing#lmao#tgcf meme
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I ate half a serving of some really really good pesto pasta in the evening. Just rocketed out of bed at 3 AM after an hour or so of intense rounds of pain and Iâm not going to go into details but holy shit I wish I never ate more than a couple bites of it and just brought a smoothie or soup to the restaraunt instead this is AWFUL. Literally hauled myself into the bathtub with warm water just to breathe.
#will I take a sick day at work#probably not because I really need to hear those meeting discussions this week#will I have a carousel of unpredictable symptoms the rest of the night? possibly#oh my god. oh my god.#it was the best pesto pasta I ever had. itâs becoming the worst pesto pasta Iâve ever had. I am so sad#me: DO I HAVE FOOD POISONING????#also me: has a known GI condition that is the much more Occamâs razor answer to what caused this situation#and yet somehow still me: DO I SUDDENLY HAVE LACTOSE INTOLERANCE???#girl. itâs 4 am. meditate yourself to fucking chill in this bathtub.#then see if you can go back to sleep#anyway. lessons are being learned#I donât have any idea what happened but it was sooooooooooo rich and Iâm guessing it was too much fat or too much fiber or both#brb about to look up almond and pesto sauce nutrition labels#health#future me I hope this never happens to you again#gastroparesis#if Iâm taking a warm bath in the middle of my worst POTS flare since 2017-2018#you know how bad I must feel to make that worth it lol
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How does one go about getting tested for MCAS...
#still trying to see a geneticist about EDS#and now because of long covid conversations talking about MCAS im realizing that may be a relevant problem to me as well#from BEFORE I got COVID#ive had idiopathic anaphylaxis episodes in the past but its been a few years since i had one#so idk if that rules that out#but i do have seemingly ever-changing food allergies/reactions too#like i went a whole year without eating red meat because everytime i ate it i had food poisoning symptoms after for a day or so#and have had constant gastro problems with seemingly random triggers since i was a teenager#also year round allergies#to what? idk#but i live my life sniffling with my ears and throat and skin itching all the time#and heat intolerance#and being seemingly allergic to my own sweat#idk it feels like im looking for reasons for it to be that because imposter syndrome but also with the pots dx#and then my rheum sending me for genetic testing for EDS cuz my labs show i have an autoimmune disease but no positive for anything specific#has me side eyeing in the direction of MCAS because i know how those issues all love to show up in a three for one bundle#ig ill wait and see how the genetic testing goes#cuz idk where to even begin for possible MCAS#and now having long covid too i feel like anything possibly related to that will get shrugged off#because doctors HATE long covid and things that are possibly related to long covid
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wdym christmas is next week?????
#wasnt yesterday just november??? hello????????#im still writing ânovâ in my dates by mistake lmao wdym weâll be in a new year 2 weeks from now#but aaaaa⊠christmas huh~~~~~~ itâs that time of year when i have to come up with excuses to skip the family gathering again#i havent gone since. like. 2019(?) and i like to keep it that way#b u t~ if i can skip the gathering iâll finally get back to idol sengen~~~~ maybe~~~~~~~#vol 5 has been out since f o r e v e r i really ought to get at least the asuna pov chapters done before the year ends (pipe dream)#wait no iâll get the asuna povs done before next cny. yeah. thatâll give me an extra month!!!!!!!!!!!!!#but hmmmmmmmmmm⊠once im done with vol 5 (in a million years) i gotta polish up my mona novel tl too⊠man.#maybe iâll make a mona tl masterpost after all that~~~~ minus the honeypre event tls bc thatâs a whole other âverse lol#but i really wanna do monaâs honeypre main story too⊠it gives context as to how she landed the event gig (that led to her getting scouted)#âŠshould my nyâs resolution to be to finish all possible mona tls that have yet to be done maybeâŠ?#âŠnah im just gonna make it âlearn to ride a bikeâ for the 15th year in a row. giggity#a n y w a y s merry early christmas from my workplace ig? the âmas luncheon from a couple days back sure gifted every other person something#that they didnt ask for â(read: food poisoning). the fact that it took out over half my department still gets me thoughhhhhhh#(i wasnt affected though~~~~ ((didnt eat anything)) i did lose my 1h break for the day though⊠what a waste.)#ok thatâs enough of being annoying for one day~~~~ see yâall tomorrow (maybe) if hw decides to drop an announcement or sth#which would âprolly be either their comi.ket lineup or chizuchan manga vol 2âs cover but heyâ)
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it's that time of the night where I want to have a nice fancy burger. maybe it's just like. oogh need carbs need meat need the happy chemicals from food that doesn't make me want to off myself or that it's been like ten hours since I last ate
#I feel like there's about five different things preventing me from truly feeling good about eating#one of them's health related one's mental illness related the main one as I often bemoan#I live with a grandmother who thinks that hashbrowns/chicken soup/peas/cornflakes as a casserole sounds good#and will get incredibly rude and nasty if you dare not want her cooking#that is either Bad to mediocre served at the wrong time (think six o'clock when we don't get home til eight) or when neither of us#are hungry due to medication side effects or just because the food is Evil#I know I can talk my cooking is fairly bad and possibly dangerous#but. the horror that is her sweet and sour sauce recipes. her curry. her casseroles.#the meal that was grey unidentifiable mince served with microwaved potato and gravy that genuinely looked#like the hospital food we still make fun of four years later because it looked like actual slimy shits.#and then we discovered that I dodged a massive bullet by immediately spitting it out since it was a week expired when it was cooked#and the freezer had done it no favours. yeah the 'mysterious' stomach upset that I avoided was Food Poisoning.#yeah like when we can't even guarantee ingredients won't be used in those sorts of horrors (and genuinely they are horrors)#it's fairly difficult to ensure that you're gonna eat. not only well in the technical sense but things you like and enjoy
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Sometimes I think a lot about my mom's cat
My mom's cat is a common domestic shorthair we found on the side of the road as a kitten
Regular cat, not a maine coon or one of those massive breeds. His mom was smaller than a loaf of bread
But in a sort of a Clifford The Big Red Dog situation, he grew super fast, and really really big, and took a super long time to stop growing
Worried that she was overfeeding him, she eased back his portions, but he stayed a massive round baby
When he started having kidney problems, she took him to the vet.
The vet took a look at him and said, "holy fuck, what are you feeding him", checked the nutritional listings on his chow, and told her "Yeah, maybe he's reacting badly to the amount of grain in this, try a meatier diet"
So my mom wound up special-ordering this specific high-protein prescription cat food made of like. Kangaroo meat or some shit that cost like sixty bucks a bag
And, as typical act two in an episode of House, he somehow got worse on the fancy specialized stuff that was supposed to be Primo Athlete Olympic Feline Blend
Like. WAY worse. His guts were inflamed and his kidneys were shutting down and he was all sore and HE WAS STILL HUGE, just miserable and sad
So shetook him back to the vet, where they had to help him pee (he was apparently close to bursting and had some kind of blockage too) and went "Yeah no this is NOT normal and we don't know what's going on, we're gonna do some tests but in the meantime you should go back to what he was eating before, at least that wasn't actively killing him" so she did
And he still wasn't great, but he also improved
And so they take his blood and do an ultrasound and a couple g's later she gets a call back like "this is gonna sound crazy, but we want you to put him on a low-meat diet. Just the least amount of protein and iron and shit. We need you to find the grainiest, filler-iest dollar tree kibble available and give him some of that bad bad shit"
And my mother is a woman of science. So she did
And he GOT BETTER
His energy picked back up, inflammation went down, he started drinking normally again, got back to pissing like a fuckin champion
And so it turns out that out of all the random ass freeway bonus cats we possibly could have scooped out of a ditch, WE got the one-in-a-million freak of nature with a SPECIFIC genetic defect that means a paleo protein free range diet is essentially poison and he THRIVES on cheap ass garbage
Like. He medically NEEDS junk food
I dont really understand how that works, but i cant argue with results.
If we had four of him, they'd outweigh my mom. And he's FINE
Also blind, but that's unrelated
Im not using him as a symbol or a metaphor or anything. I just keep catching myself thinking about my mom's Big Fucking Cat
#I'm sorry#I feel like this is supposed to be some kind of message from the universe#Like maybe I'm the cat and the garbage food is. Something#But nope he just lives in my head rent free#The biggest fucking boy
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My friend Sama has been through a lot. She's lost her husband after making a fundraiser with the dream of being able to save her whole family and be able to escape as one piece. That did not happen, but she still has herself and her two kids, Nour and Arkan. They get skin diseases that are expensive to care for and because they live on a tent on the beach, she wakes up to find poisonous bugs that enter the tent while her children sleep.
Her current goal is to reach $15,000 by the end of October, to help procure winter gear and food. So please help in any way possible.
Flyers (eng + es) + vet
#viva palestina#free palestine#save palestine#palestinian genocide#i stand with palestine#free gaza#gaza strip#gaza#gazaunderattack
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365 Days of Writing Prompts: Day 341
Adjective: Dangerous
Noun: Finger
Definitions for those who need/want them:
Dangerous: able or likely to cause harm or injury; likely to cause problems or to have adverse consequences
Finger: each of the four slender jointed parts attached to either hand (or five, if the thumb is included); a part of a glove intended to cover a finger; a measure of liquor in a glass, based on the breadth of a finger; an object that has roughly the long, narrow shape of a finger
#im a bit late again#this time i have a more valid excuse than 'i was busy and i accidentay fell asleep'#i was ill with a migraine and/or food poisoning and/or something else all day (yesterday)#and im still dealing with trying to heal from all of that#so thats been fun#the highlight of my day tho was my girlfriend made me breakfast and it was delicious#(im mega sad it didnt stay in my stomach tho)#anyway this prompt may seem a little silly but i think i can find a way to make it terrifying#especially if i write my poem about a world that has magic in it#then the possibilities feel rather wide#so im excited to pin down what im going to write more so later#tw vomit#(its implied but still just to be safe)#thanks for reading#writing#writer#creative writing#writing prompt#writeblr#trying to be a writeblr at least
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Ooh ahh on that APUSH grind while my body hurts ooh ahhh
#polarâs sad rambles#i already forgot my venting tag oops đđ#Itâs my fucking menstrual cycle rn Iâm dying#my cramps are killing me#especially when the pain travels đđ#but Iâm too lazy to get smth#after a bad case of food poisoning this is literally not my month!!!! like!! it was supposed to be fun college hunting/making my#Halloween costume!!! not in pain. dying. sick. or something!1!1!1!1!#sorry Im just hngnggngngjgn <333333#anyways will possibly delete in like a couple of hours (itâs like 12am with still a bunch of hmwk to do for APUSH đđ)#im dying FR!1!!1!1 /j#anyways bye bye
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Birdritch part 2 Yeah, there's a subscription post now...
Danny pulled another sweet potato fry from his bag before refolding the top to keep it warm. Heâd finish all the fries before he even got home, he knew that, but that was future himâs problem. Right then being able to munch on the sweet, salty goodness as he took a shortcut through the park was just what he needed. There was something about Robinson park that always settled him.
It was probably because of the parkâs wild, otherworldly nature that came from Poison Ivyâs control. It almost felt ghostly in how unreal it was. It was another thing Danny tried not to think too hard on and just enjoyed. It wasnât that Danny was ignoring the fact that he was half ghost (as he always tried to convince himself), he just wasnât dwelling on it anymore. Ghosts had consumed his life for so long and he needed a break.
Even before his accident (it was easier to just call it an accident when people asked about his scars), his parentâs obsession controlled their house, family, and lives. He got now that it wasnât normal to grow up not cooking because the food might eat you. Or because your parents were too busy in the basement lab to remember. His time away from Amity Park in college made Danny realize that Jazz and his childhood had been at best unsafe and at worst negligent.
It had taken Danny a lot of therapy to be able to say those words.
Being honest, Danny still needed a lot of therapy, but there was only so much progress he could make when he couldnât really explain that he was half dead and had spent the end of his childhood fighting ghosts, the government, and his parents. He was half tempted to try and track down Harley Quinn and see if she was up to taking on a new patient. (Danny was pretty sure that she wouldnât rat him out to the authorities.)
A vine thrashed suddenly in front of Danny, hitting the sidewalk with a meaty thump.
Danny froze.
Fuck.
His phone was out of power.
He couldnât check if something was going on in the park.
While Poison Ivy was much more Pamela Isley than rogue these days, as seen by the city just letting her have control of much of the park, she was still temperamental and the rightâ or wrongâ sort of thing could set her and her plants off. (Sometimes the plants went off on their own. Everyone knew not to be a sleaze bag in Robinson park.)
Slowly Danny started to back up.
Several more vines wretched themselves out of the ground around him.
He could hear shouting somewhere off to his left. Out of the corner of his eye he could see movement from the plants that direction.
Alright, not angry at him then.
Danny crept forward slowly, keeping his motions as calm and small as possible. Just because they plants werenât angry at him it didnât mean they werenât a threat to him. His best chance was to stay on the path and head in the direction away from the noise.
And away from the over sized flowers.
Well fuckity fuck.
Most things Poison Ivy could do werenât really a threat to Danny. He could phase away from vines, after all. But the flowers? The flowers had pollen and pollen was an unknown; one that Danny didnât want to be known. Sam was rather certain that the pollens could effect Danny in odd and unknown ways due to his half ghost nature.
He had refused to let Sam experiment on him to figure it out. Comparing her fervor to his parentâs helped shut that idea down for good. Danny didnât regret avoiding being a lab rat, even as he was staring down the ruby red flowers to his right. He still just had to keep his motions as calm and small as possible.
The flowers were only an issue if they let their pollen out.
Danny started to move in as wide of an arc as he could around the flowers.
While they were closed up he was safe.
Dannyâs left hand spasmed.
The paper bag of food crinkled.
The flower petals unfurled.
Fuck.
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AN: I know there are issues, another no read through late night post, but I'm getting my serotonin where I can. Stay delightful, darlings.
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Went out for st patricks day and only took 2 shots and they were both pepto bismol
#i am still suffering#jury is out to whether this is medication related or food poisoning#i canât believe my wallet chewable pepto fell out and I had to go buy more#no alchyhol but I did get my shamrock shake#so also possibly I developed lack toast and tolerance
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áŻáĄŁđ© END OF THE DAY ! ᥣđ©áŻ
pairing. lando norris x reader
summary. being a supportive girlfriend during an awfully stressful time is hard, so when reader and lando ends up fighting, neither of them is surprised. however, she canât help but be in love with him at the end of the day.
notes. pretty short and not proofread đđ
YOU WERE WALKING ON EGGSHELLS FOR THE PAST two weeks around your boyfriend. he was thrown into contention for the title mid-season and as the last race weekend of the season was getting excruciatingly closer, landoâs mood was dropping drastically. you understood it, not in the way that you were in the same situation as him, but frustration, pressure and disappointment werenât strangers to you. you could see that your boyfriend was gradually becoming a ticking bomb, yet unsure when will his breaking point happen.
as it turned out, it happened on a second day after he got back from brazil. it was a silly argument that escalated to a major fight, resulting in you, driving back to your apartment in ventimiglia to give the brit his required space.
it wasnât ideal, coming home, you hardly stepped a foot into your apartment, when lando was in monaco as you usually stayed at his place to get as much of him as possible in the â usually â short period of time. norris, unbeknownst to you, immediately felt terrible just as he watched you left. guilt creeped up his spine, yet he made no effort to stop you, knowing that he needed some space to get ahold of himself. no title could make him fill the void if he lost you.
so, after a few days of radio silence from one another, you were starting to feel like you were losing the precious time you had with lando. the clip from max fewtrellâs stream with your boyfriend there, saying that heâs eating food that sat in his fridge for more than six months or staying awake for 26 hours, has found its way into your twitter feed. it made you worry restlessly.
thirty or so minutes later, while lando was still playing some game with max and a few of their friends, you let yourself into his apartment and started rummaging through his to find all those expired items and threw them out, already making an order for new groceries. as much petty as you could be sometimes, you didnât want your boyfriend to end up with food poisoning, it was kind of oscarâs thing now.
cleaning his fridge took you fifteen minutes at most, considering that you threw up a huge portion of its content. it was just then, when you decided to put on your big girl pants and face him. you made him some tea with lemon and honey, before quietly tapping him on the shoulder.
âjesus christ!â he shrieked, causing you to giggle. âmate, i think iâm having some sorta proper hallucinations.â your boyfriend spoke into his headset, not believing the sight in front of him â not believing that he was seeing you. you couldâve easily picked up the guys taking a piss out of him, which made you laugh even harder.
âyou need sleep, lad.â âyeah, you sound like a maniac.â âthatâs the expired meat speaking.â
âdonât worry âbout it, lads. iâll take care of him.â you moved closer to the microphone to let the guys know that everythingâs taken care of, fully aware that max, your boyfriendâs best friend, would get concerned.
âiâm super sorry.â lando spoke softly, once you left the discord call. his arms snuck around your waist, pulling you flush against him â almost as if he had really missed you. âi love you so much, please donât break up with me.â he added. you pulled your bottom lip between your teeth to bite back the chuckle upon not only hearing his words, but also upon seeing his childish-like expression.
you managed to escape his embrace, dropping your hand into his, while trying to drag him back into his room for a nap. it wasnât a hard task with lando trailing right behind you until you sat him down at the edge of the bed.
âiâm not mad at you, baby.â you reassured him in a gentle tone. your hand caressing his cheek. âi still love you, okay? but you gotta go to bed, lando. weâll talk later, alright?â you tried to coax him into listening to you and youâve succeeded.
WHEN YOUR BOYFRIEND WOKE UP A FEW HOURS later, he thought that your presence in his apartment was just a dream. having pushed himself off the bed, he walked to the kitchen to finish off his expired chicken. thatâs when he found you lounging on the couch, while eating something that smelled incredibly well.
yup, he mustâve been hallucinating.
with that in mind, he didnât even approach you, trying not to feed into his delusions. if his mates knew that he started seeing his girlfriend after eating something that spent a few months in his fridge, they would never let him live it down. he furrowed his brows at the sight of a pan full of carbonara that he had no recollection of making â maybe he should go see a doctor?
lando sighed in relief after having taken a sniff of the dish, realising that somehow itâs not gone bad. how did it ended up in his place? no idea.
âbloody hell, no more eating expired food. iâm seeing stuff.â the brit muttered, rubbing his face in slight frustration. upon hearing his quiet mutter, you let out a small chuckle, tilting your head to the side in amusement.
âlando, you know iâm real, right?â you mused, a small smile creeping up on your lips. your boyfriendâs forehead creased in confusion. god, he seemed so out of it. âas in, i came here this afternoon, youâre not seeing stuff.â your words were coated with hilarity as you gave him a look.
lando was bewildered. twenty six hours of sleep werenât that much, how did he forget that you got to his apartment and, apparently, talked to him? his cheeks flushed in embarrassment as he put the plate down on the coffee table and sat next to you.
âi, uh, wanted to call.â he spoke, his head hanging a bit lower. âtâwas unnecessary, my outburst, i mean.â a sigh escaped his lips. he was slowly beginning to look like a sad, kicked puppy.
âit was super unnecessary.â you agreed, running a hand through his hand in a slow motion. âwe canât really go back in time, can we?â he shook his head at your words, taking your hand in his hair as an invitation, so he moved closer to you, his arm sneaking around your waist.
âbut you still love me?â
âyes, lando. i still love you.â you leaned your head on his shoulder.
âgood, i would probably kill myself, uh, or die without you.â
#lando norris x reader#lando norris#landoscar#lando norris x you#lando norris x y/n#ln4#ln4 x reader#ln4 imagine#ln4 one shot#lando norris fanfic#lando norris fic#ln4 fluff#ln4 fic#lando norris fluff#lando#lando imagine#formula 1#formula 1 drabble#formula one x reader#formula 1 x reader#formula 1 imagine#formula 1 fanfic#formula one#formula uno
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also just got right into it with roommate hahaha yeah guy is smart to be sleeping out in the common room
#5 months left of this lease#5 fucking months left#iight be driven to stop smoking just so that i can get as many jobs as fucking possible#just so that i can get out of here quicker#holy fuck#seriously imagine#so not in the fucking mood for this shit#imagine trying someone eith anger issues when they have fucking food poisoning#i flew to my phone and was like AYO [THERAPIST] ARE WE STILL SCHEDULED FOR TOMORROW I AM SOME FUCKING R A N T S TO DO#and she was like yes :)#immediately#not even a second later#she was SO QUICK TO RESPOND LOL#usually it takes her like 5 hours or more#half the time she never responds
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FATUM NOS IUNGEBIT 1/4
(König x F!Reader)
Summary: You have seen him in your dreams. The seer has divined his coming. But nothing has prepared you for witnessing him in the flesh. (Historical AU where König fights for the Roman Empire in an auxiliary unit, finds a cute barbarian woman and decides to keep her as his own.) Word count: 5.3 k Tags/warnings: 18+ ONLY. Spoils of war/enemies to lovers trope, graphic depictions of violence, historical gruesomeness, pining, odd banter, mixed feelings, romantic fluff, dubcon cuddling, eventual smut. Captor/captive dynamic. König is a brutal warrior... and a gentle giant. A/N: Lol what now? König dual wields 2 swords, goes Mike Tyson on his enemies, teaches his captive girl constellations in German, cuddles her and feeds her grapes, buuut mainly just tries to get into her pants (which historically did not exist at the time) A bit of a slow burn, but don't worry, they'll bang eventually ^^
AD 90, somewhere in the untamed frontiers of the Roman EmpireâŠ
The end of the world is here.
Not only have the crops failed for two years in a row, making chieftains beggars and beggars food for the fish, but now there are rumours that the god of war has arrived to destroy the land. The accursed Romans had turned their eagle gaze back to your land after years of sending their troops elsewhere, making it seem like they were not interested in your distant land after all. Untamed, they called it, harsh and barren and therefore inferior â your lush, abundant, beautiful land. No doubt they spat on it in their war councils because your roads were not paved, because your crops and villages were modest, and the women sometimes fought alongside men. Their storytellers immortalized false tales about you, calling you barbarians, but the only barbarians you could think of were the Romans themselves â crude, filthy and boorish creatures, drowning in wine and shit in their cities.
Rumours started to get fat and distressed when the troops approached your village. They said there was a giant at the head of the army, that the Romans followed a Titan's son who loved to eat men, torture women and impale children. They said he didn't accept proper food but preferred to eat his fallen enemies, washed his weapons with the blood of children, and split captured women apart with his cock, as long and sharp as his sword. They told that the Titan ordered his soldiers to poison the wells and destroy the growing crops with salt and vinegar. The rumours said that his tent was bigger than any chieftain's house and that he still struggled to stand at full height inside it.Â
Even the land itself seemed to bow before him. Good weather followed his conquest wherever he went; ambushes failed, scouts got caught and tortured, exposing more villages to pillage and ruin. Your brother told you to flee the village, but how could you survive without your clansmen? You didn't know how to hunt; you barely knew how to fish. Your task in the village was to gather clams from the shore, dye wool and help the old Seer. How long could you survive on sorrels and clams alone? Â
. . .
The old woman calls you to see her on the brink of war, and tells you to prepare for a ceremonial offering. Two horses, black as night if possible, brown at the very least, to appease the Great Mother of the Earth and quench her thirst for blood. If the Mother is satisfied with your offering, She will perhaps stop the approaching army or convince the Titan to leave your village alone.
She does a small rite before you, and you need to stay with her through her visions. You hate the smell of the leaves she burns, and try to cover your nose with your tunic to prevent breathing in the bitter fumes. The seer looks like sheâs just lying herself down to sleep, but itâs always a burden when the spirits arrive and she starts to talk. You turn your back on her to coax them to rise: a mortal stare annoys the chthonic ones. You nearly fall asleep too as you wait, wanting nothing more than to go back to your own hut and have a good nightâs sleep. Perhaps because youâre lousy tonight, and less vigilant as you should be, the spirits arrive sooner than either of you thought.
âHeâs strong,â the seer croaks from the earthen bed, and you fight the urge to turn around and peek at the old woman, currently in the clutches of spirits.Â
âInvincible⊠Hungry... The horsesâŠwonât sufficeâŠâ
She drifts someplace else, and you try to memorize every word, every intonation, as cryptic or as simple as they are, for later interpretation.
âI see you,â she says in a slightly more cheerful tone, which is odd because the old woman is never happy or satisfied, no matter how bright the sun shines or how much food there is in the storages and pits.
âMe?â You dare to speak even though youâre not allowed to disturb the spirits. You could slap yourself for blurting out a single word, but luckily, the hungry ones donât attack you for your insolence.
âYou.. will be his downfall,â she speaks as if you are having a conversation here. âBe there. When he arrives.â
â...Be there? Why?â You dare to utter again, more concerned about what the Mother implies than the potential fury of some lowly earthen spirits. You havenât got the faintest clue about what She might be suggesting. Why do you have to participate in the battle? How can you be there without getting killed? Youâre not a warrior⊠The Mother has it all wrong.Â
Suddenly, you curse the night, you curse the whole day, knowing your brotherâs late proposal was perhaps a warning, a hint from the gods to leave, and leave quickly.
The old woman laughs dryly on the ground - the throaty, outright sick cackle makes you flinch.Â
You donât like this... You donât like this at all.
âMother. What must I do?â You demand to know, thinking about how all the gods, spirits, old women, and Titans should go to hell.
âBecome a tree,â the old woman offers as if itâs the easiest thing to do. âA flower. Me...â
. . .
You become a marten first, then a bird. Then perhaps a tree.
You climb a spruce and wait there. You wait until the sunrise; you wait until noon. You wait until you see the glint of the Roman spearheads and hear the sound of their march.
Youâve dreamed of the Titan ever since you left the seerâs hut. Youâve dreamed of him slaying everyone in the village; youâve dreamed of him driving a thick spear into the ground and grabbing you with an intent to raise you into the air and impale you on it. Youâve dreamed of him behind you, above you, inside you. You wake up one morning only to see that half of the people have left. You donât know where they have gone, and you canât follow them even if you did because the old woman waits for you in front of her hut and gives you a nod the instant you walk into another beautiful, sunny day.
Thatâs why youâve turned into a branch in a tree, but for what purpose, you have no idea. You canât understand why you must be here to witness the worldâs end.
Your men scream and shout and roar as they crash into the thick forest of spears. The enemy is silent: itâs eerie, how the world burns and falls into ruin around you, people are screaming; everyone who has a soul and a heart is screaming for Mother as they die, but the men behind the Roman shields refuse to emit a sound. They donât curse or shout or summon their gods; they simply stand their ground and pant mist into the air as wave after wave of men break on their shields and die before their feet. Somebody loses his spear because it gets stuck between your clansmanâs ribs, but the Roman simply draws his sword in its stead: itâs the only sound among the pitched wails that cut through the forest â the cold, clear ring of a gladius being pulled from its sheath.
That is why you flinch at the sound of the first shout, a brutish command that sends all the shields to the side, only to present more shields: the Romans switch positions in their formation as if theyâre not even human beings like the rest of you, just a single enormous creature made of iron and leather and bone, operating it's flat forest of weapons.
And then you see him: the giant of your dreams, the hungry titan everyone has told you about. He rises from the tide of helmets like a summoned god, concealed as one of the soldiers and only now revealing his true nature. He stands at least two heads taller than the rest, pushes his own soldiers to the side and breaks out of the formation these vicious Romans love so much. You knew he would be strong and big, but you didn't know he refused to show his face⊠You wonder what kind of a monster hides behind the black cloth with nothing but two eye holes ripped on it. As if this man needed the additional effort to stand out from other soldiers...
He's like a God of War, just like the survivors said: his armour is of Roman design, but the amount of metal that had to be scraped together to cover this man's shoulders and chest must've demanded a fortune in gold. He doesn't seem to care about the Roman ways, however: he throws his shield away as soon as he's out of the cumbersome formation as if he has carried it only as a decoration up until this point. He draws another sword in its stead â if any other man did such a stupid thing, traded his shield for a weapon, you would snort. But not now.
Standing between the Romans and your clansmen like a challenge, a threat, a deity, even the men possessed by the seer's blood spells hesitate to approach him. But when they do, the god unleashes carnage: the first warrior gets his stomach slashed open, and the two thick swords look like toothpicks when wielded by this man. A stomach wound is a gruesome, slow way to die - but just before the warrior's entrails spill to dangle between his feet, the brute grants him mercy by sweeping his head off with a single blow of his gladius.Â
A roar finally rises from your enemy: they cheer Death on as the head of your neighbour meets the mud next. The soil is already soaked in blood, but the Mother is hungry still. The forest booms with Her bloodlust as the god moves around like a slow tempest of muscle, metal and darkness: he breaks every Roman rule by fighting as his own man instead of demeaning himself as one of them, a lowly part of this odd metal beast before you. He sends a limb flying in the air with a swing of a sword; he uses the same weapon as a bludgeon to bash in someone's skull. He crushes a man's chest simply by sinking down onto one knee, breaking bone, tendon and flesh to splinters as a whole ribcage gets crushed under his massive weight.Â
Warriors flee before him, they fall under the combined wrath of the Mother and the Titan's sword. The dead seem to fall eternally, along with your heart, before meeting the ground with a hollow thud.Â
Your chieftain is among the last men standing, meeting this unstoppable foe with admirable courage. Not having succumbed to the spells of bloodlust in years, he meets his death as a seasoned but old warrior. With his fighting years behind him, your chief doesn't have a chance against this man, but you have to grant the beast a feather's worth of honour, because he recognizes your chieftain as the veteran he is and salutes him with his sword. Then he proceeds with the bloodbath: flinging your leader's sword and axe easily to the side, he walks straight into his arms like he would into a hug, grabs him by the waist, and raises him into the air like he's nothing but a child.Â
Your scream never leaves your lungs as you watch how the Titan raises the draping cloth from his face, just enough to sink his teeth into your beloved chieftainâs neck. The noise that erupts from your elder is not that of a man but a tortured animal. Itâs not from this world, what you witness next: the giant tears a hunk of flesh from your chief like heâs a piece of roasted meat. Blood streams forth, his screams fade away all too slowly, and you hear your own weak wail in the air as the Titan lets go of the heap that used to be a strong male and a wise leader.Â
Your chieftain is dead; his essence spills to the earth in spurts to appease the God of War, who spits blood and flesh to the ground, making you gag into the cold spring air.Â
Then he raises his swords towards the sun, and the forest erupts into a roar with him: the thundering, ear-splitting cheer from his warriors makes the very earth quake beneath your tree. It seems to shake the branches of the forest, and before you know it, the giantâs howl of triumph breaks the one youâre curled around, and you fall, fall, fall into the mud beneath you.Â
You're not a tree anymore. No: youâre very much a human woman there in the dirt as the sound of shouting ceases like a distant dream.Â
And he turns.Â
Death turns.
Mother always said you were a curious creature, which is perhaps why you search for his eyes, even though you should be running. She also said you were a smart one, which is why you know that running is futile. Your limbs wouldnât carry you far anyway. It is a cruel joke from the gods to have what little strength you have left pour out of you into the ground and up to the feet of the enemy who is already strong, both in body and in will.
The Titan looks at you with genuine wonder, a curiosity that surpasses your own. To your odd thrill, you find that his eyes are blue: the same blue of the sea which you used to collect delicious clams from.Â
The soldiers behind him shift with lust â their gear clinks as they devour you with unbridled hunger. The Titan is the only one who looks at you like youâre simply a cute little squirrel who happened to fall from a tree right there at his feet. Then his eyes drop to your breasts, and the familiar hunger that lives in men gives the ocean of his eyes a clouded look. When his stare finds yours again, he's a different man: the treacherous beast of your dreams.
You had hoped for a swift death⊠Violent but quick. But itâs clear that itâs not death he has in store for you as he takes a step towards you. Itâs not a quick nor a slow death; itâs not death at all, becauseâ
No.
No.
Youâd rather have your arms torn off and fed to the Romans rather than have him thrust the sword between his legs, his third weapon, inside you. If youâre going to die screaming, it will not happen on your back; you will not amuse this beast with your womanhood and tears.
You scramble forward to pick up something, anything: a bronze dirk from a fallen warrior. The giantâs eyes fall on the sad excuse of a weapon, then on the sorry excuse of you. He thinks youâre planning to fight him with that thing, and the corners of his eyes crease a little from the prospect of having to subdue you. Youâre proving to be quite the entertainment, and you curse those eyes, looking so kind and lively when just moments ago, the same eyes were inhuman and possessed. His are the eyes of a wayfarer, a wanderer, not a soldier: you catch a hint of sadness in them and curse again.
Heâs not human, you remind yourself and show him what actual humans are made of. What women are made of. You give him another name, Giant, because youâve always feared giants and hated the stories about them. Dumb and reckless creatures they are, stupid destroyers who always place their trust in their size. You never meant to fight him, and he only catches up on it as you turn the dagger towards yourself and guide it to point straight at your heart.Â
You will be his downfall, just like the seer said.
âNeinâWarte,â the Giant speaks his first words, surprisingly soft to belong to a man like him.Â
The sorrow in his stare consumes you in full now. It gushes forth like a tide, causing your breath and hands to shake when they need to be stern. You straighten your spine, jut your chin forward, and call for Mother: you donât even know if youâre yelling for your bearer, or the Great Mother, or the earth that gives life to all. Perhaps you call them all to gather around and witness your sacrifice, higher in price than any of the Titanâs offerings combined. The blood youâre about to spill onto the soil will surely appease the land and raise it to arms to finally fight against this beast.Â
He says something else just before you pull the blade back to strike it into your chest, and you curse for the third time in your mind: giants arenât supposed to move that fast; they arenât supposed to interfere in your last ritual.Â
But the worst of it is that even when he finally subdues you, even as he wrestles the blade away from you, he ends up drawing a large gash on his forearm⊠As if he is trying his best to protect you from accidentally cutting yourself.
. . .Â
You are brought to his tent, screaming.Â
Itâs not as big as a chieftainâs house; itâs barely the size of yours. But it is larger than the tents you saw when you got carried there: as a spitting, screeching, hissing package of what these brutes would no doubt consider a true barbarian woman with uncivilized manners and a fuckable cunt. They will talk about you around their campfires tonight: about you getting broken in by their true commander. Itâs enough to satisfy them for now: to imagine their champion to fuck you bloody and sore. And who knows: perhaps theyâll receive the scraps if the Titan gets tired of you.
The precious dagger is somewhere in the mud, probably trampled there like itâs nothing but a piece of worthless metal. Your own trampling is only about to begin as the Giant marches into his abode and sends the men away, giving you uneasy looks in the process, perhaps checking if any of them had enough time to have a go at you. Luckily for him, youâre in the same condition as he left you: legs together, safe and pretty, because he bound them with a rope along with your hands. You are nothing but a delivery, thrown on the floor of dirt and a few animal skins. He just nods at you, happy to acknowledge that you are untouched by the others, as if it would somehow be worse for you to be raped by ten of those petite men than be raped by him: a cruel, bloodthirsty Giant with a giant cock.Â
Your ankles and wrists get sore as you watch him doff his armour. He takes off the helmet, the belted straps, the segmented plates of his shoulder guards and the heavy Roman cuirass. The gods have truly favoured this man, not only gifting him tremendous height but insurmountable strength too. His muscles are large and lean and quiver with latent power as he moves; his back is so broad it almost competes with the wide mouth of the tent. He doesnât seem to suffer from the cold either, but he keeps his mask on for whatever ghastly reason. Even if there is a monster under that mask, his body speaks of virility: heâs a man in his prime, a giant at his strongest, making you feel like an elf, a tiny little creature in the feet of this man who must be descended from titans indeed.
You continue to watch as he washes his hands in a small basin, cleans his mouth and neck, too. You reckon the water in that bowl is blood red and dark when he finally dries himself with a white cloth. He stands before you in nothing but his mask and the dark red tunic he had under the armour. He ties it from the waist with a simple leather belt, and it only now makes sense to you why Roman soldiers dye their clothes red: youâre pretty sure you can still see the darker spots on the hem of that tunic, the ones that used to be the lifeblood of your clansmen and kin.
He has the audacity to ask you - wordlessly - to clean his wound, the one you caused him. He sets you free from your bounds, and you are given fresh water and another cloth. He even opens a smallish wooden box of salve that has a familiar smell to it: pine tar and honey, used by your people to treat minor wounds and prevent bad spirits from getting into the wound. You wonder how he even knows about such a balm: is this warrior a Roman at all, or is he some odd creature hauled from the edges of the world to fight for them? You wonder if he has made the salve himself, extracted the tar from the pine and foraged the wax and honey himself, then cursed with his coarse language when he got stung by multiple beesâŠ
You drive away the thoughts that threaten to make this brute human by snorting at his injury. The damage he gave to himself when he tried to guide the blade away from you at the price of his own blood.Â
It still troubles you that he did it. Even a tiny wound like this can bring any man down if it starts to fester. The cold winds and rains of spring can easily get into the gash and make it rot.Â
The idea of this giant being forced to his knees because of some filthy dagger wielded by a squirrel of a woman makes you smile inside. It would be a fitting fate for this man. But the vision also makes your heart sting. The thought of him dying of a simple flesh wound, alone and far away from his home, makes your heart grow kinder than it should.Â
You decide there is nothing you can do but treat his arm, strong and scarred from previous battles. He sits down while you get to stay on the ground, and you try to ignore it that your face is now level with his groin. He sits with a wide spread in those powerful thighs, and you wonder if it's because the rumours about his cock are true. You keep your eyes everywhere else except the hem of that tunic and what's going on under there. He purrs at your touch, making it clear that it doesn't need much more than your soft fingertips to get him hard after a triumphant day on the field of battle.Â
The wound is not deep, but you clean it carefully, trying to ignore the way his eyes seem to bore into you as you take care of him. Your hand is somewhat steady as you treat the damage with the nice-smelling salve, but you flinch as his hand suddenly meets your cheek. You look up at him, heart plummeting, thighs instinctively pressing together from the gentle way with which he cups your face.
âSchön,â he says, again with a tender voice and an adoring, almost worshipful stare. You donât have a clue what heâs saying, but you know now for sure that it's not the tongue of the Romans he speaks. The scent of pines and bees lingers between you as he brushes a thumb over your lower lip. You are weak enough to give him a breath, a helpless, hot little exhale that meets his hand like a gift.
âSchön wie eine Fee,â he rumbles, sounding intoxicated or like he's under a spell of sleep.
âWhat the hell are you saying,â you whisper in your own tongue: just a meek little sputter, a tiny, horrified breath, but the giantâs eyes narrow with a smile.
âSie redet,â he says happily, and your shoulders sink â you are on the verge of screaming from frustration alone. Whatever you do seems to only amuse this man, and you snap your mouth shut. Your cheeks heat up with recurring waves of odd fever. The ground beneath your shins is all but warm, and yet you feel warm all over: a dangerous sign, you know, and oddly tied to the peculiar bodings you have seen all week.
Because there have been many omens in the air lately.Â
Itâs just that none of them were portents of war.Â
The cranes started to mate early this year, and you have found a lot of clams from the shore every day. Even your brother encountered a boar with nine piglets; everyone celebrated him as some holy man who had seen the Great Mother when he returned to the village that day. The wind started to blow from south soon after, and the moon has grown along with your womb: this morning, on the brink of war, you woke up wet and restless.Â
All the omens speak of fertility, of growth, of a new cycle and of birth: of spring and life. Thereâs nothing about death and decay, nothing except what the people have told you about⊠him. The death himself. The war god.
âKönig,â he says as if he can hear your thoughts and wishes to correct them. You look up and see heâs pointing to himself, or rather, holding his hand over his heart. You fight the urge to scoff at the gesture. As if this beast had a heartâŠ
âKönig,â he repeats the word and pats his chest, and you realize heâs trying to tell you his name. You wrinkle your nose in distaste, and he smiles. Itâs easy to tell when he does, even with the cloth that covers his face: you can see the joy clearly from his eyes, the boyish grin that must be occurring under that mask.
âDu?â He points at you next, inquisitive. He has an odd way of pointing: with two fingers, slightly crooked, and you understand very well what heâs asking of you. You refuse to tell him your name, however, settling for pouting a lip at him next. The smile in his eyes only deepens.
âFee,â he pokes you gently on the shoulder and leans back in his odd Roman chair, seemingly content with having now named you.Â
And Mother was right: you are curious, so incredibly curious to know what this beast has chosen to call you and why. Are you a rat to him� Some bird? Perhaps simply a girl?
He is so pleased with your conversation that he pours himself some wine and drinks the whole cup with one gulp. Great, you sigh inside your head, a beast and a drunkard. He pours another cup and tries to offer it to you, and when you donât make a move to grab the clay mug, he brings it to your lips. You entertain him with a tiny sip: youâve heard of wine and know that Romans are fond of it, but you have never tasted it yourself.Â
The tart, bitter flavour almost makes you cough. You thought wine was supposed to be sweet: everyone always describes it as something like milk or honey or juice from an overripe apple. It very much is not, and you almost choke on it and then make a wry face at your captor. He - König - only laughs. Itâs another thing that catches you off guard: first those boyish, sad eyes and now this hearty, grown manâs laugh. You have proved to be such an amusement to him that he doesnât force you to drink any more wine and enjoys the rest of it himself.Â
Then he rises and makes you shrink from him again, towers above you for a moment, and looks at you with that warm curiosity that makes your heart race.
âMĂŒde?âÂ
He tilts his head, the bag of darkness shifts, the blue eyes behold you fondly, and for some reason, you whimper an answer to yet another question you canât even understand. He takes your little squeak as a yes and falls to crouch before you, then raises a massive hand to the leather strings that keep your demure little dress up.Â
To your horror, he pulls the knotted tangle open before you can stop him. Your dress falls from your shoulders and drops to pool around you, and you simply and verily stop breathing.
His eyes wash over you, he examines every little part of exposed skin like an entire treasure chest has suddenly opened before him. You pray to all the gods that he would find it in his heart to be gentle tonight. Your nipples perk up â from the cold or from his stare, you donât know.Â
The rough callous of his palm meets your breast and encloses it in warm support. He cups you, weighs you like he would a fruit, and then he squeezes you, rather hard, too: a deliberate attempt to make you squeal again. He replies to your pathetic mewl with an approving rumble, and you look up at him with all the helpless tenderness of the Mother, hoping that Her gentle pleas might persuade this man not to hurt you.
âPlease donât,â you whisper, and his eyes dart to your mouth, to your eyes, then back to your lips again. He immediately softens his touch. Then he lifts you from inside your poor dress, picks you up like you weigh nothing at all, and carries you to his broad bed, the sturdiest you have ever seen.Â
This man feels like the strangest of fates, like a hopeless destiny, as he sets you on the skins and straw mattress, right next to your fluttering heart. Your insides ache as he undresses before you, entirely without shame. Heâs hard under the tunic he rips off and tosses on the cold ground. Your eyes are glued to the legendary cock youâve heard so much about, the cock that splits women apart: and itâs true that it's huge. It resembles the ones youâve seen on horses, not on men, and your thighs are glued together as he comes next to you while that pale, monstrous cock sways long and heavy between his thighs. He moves you around a little, and you squeal from how weak you feel: weak as a mouse as he covers you with one of those rich furs he has in plenty on the bed. Then crawls under it too, right next to you.
Your heart almost wrenches itself out of your chest as a strong arm pulls you against him: the swell of your ass meets his thighs, solid and broad like treetrunks, and your lower back meets the hot, almost too hot horse cock. It starts to leak and throb against your skin the instant your flesh is pressed against his. You try not to whimper and moan as the Giant, König, curls around you like you two have always done this.
He takes a long, earnest inhale from your neck and hair, rumbles deeply and contently, and tightens his grip. Apparently, you smell and feel goodâŠÂ
You wait and wait to be plundered and raped, but König only settles for holding you tightly, like youâre a childrenâs toy made of the softest straw and purest undyed wool. You relax slowly, and he purrs against your back, starts to fondle your breasts, ardently, until your body betrays you and you find yourself wet again; he squeezes and squishes your teats slowly, approvingly, then pinches your nipple once before finally falling into a heavy, deep sleep.
âŠ
Please forgive your author for any historical inaccuracies and other silly things you find facepalmable <3 During this time König would've probably spoken some form of Old Saxon but since I'm not a TOLKIEN we have to settle for modern-day German here. I don't have a taglist for this fic so please check my pinned masterlist for future updates.
Translations
Nein, warte - No, wait
Schön - BeautifulÂ
Schön wie eine Fee - Beautiful as a fairy
Sie redet - She talks
Du? - You?
MĂŒde? - Tired?
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Saviour
Eris Vanserra x Fem!Reader
Word Count: 2.5k
Warnings: mentions of torture. blood and injury. survivors guilt.
Summary: After Amarantha had kept Y/N locked up for ten years, she is finally reunited with Eris.
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Y/N was unaware of how long it had been since she was locked away deep below the mountain. There was no sun, barely any light and the only company she had were the rats that frequented her cell. It hadnât always been this way, before she was locked away, she at least had contact with othersâ despite how unpleasant it was. It wasnât until she made her third escape attempt that she was thrown into this very cell, even more isolated than the ones several feet above her.Â
It had been a long time since Y/Nâs hope had abandoned her, memories had begun to fade in her dire existence despite her efforts to cling onto them. The one memory she did retain was one of beauty and love, one she treasured above all. Erisâs Vanserraâs face was one she would never be able to forget even if she tried. The final caress of his face was burned onto her palm. Even with all of her hope gone, there was still that miniscule spark that still shone brightly within her.Â
Y/N wasnât certain that anyone would ever come looking for her. When Amarantha had personally dragged her down here, the look on everyone elseâs faces was one of pure dread. No one thought she would still be alive. Her shackles around Y/Nâs wrists and ankles made her power useless so she couldnât even try and signal for anyone to help her. Not that anyone would even attempt such a fatal action.Â
It had been a while since she had been given food and her small water supply was gone; Y/N was beginning to become restless. Even in the damp and cold cell she was in, a full meal was brought to her once a day. At first Y/N refused to eat anything in fear it was poisoned but the more her hope was melted, she began to eat, not afraid if it was poisoned anymore.Â
Y/N dragged her body to the bars and held into them. The long hall before her was pitch black and the only light was two everburning torches each fixed to the walls outside of her cell. Everything was even more deathly silent now.Â
Her voice hadnât been used in years and even opening her mouth to speak was a foreign feeling.
âHello?â Y/N didnât recognise her own voice. It was scratchy and quiet and nothing like the elegant speech she once heard flow from her own mouth.Â
There was no response. Everything remained silent; not even the rats made a noise. Y/N crawled back over to the pile of rags in the corner of her cellâ her rather poor excuse for a bed. Her eyes closed and Y/N wasnât entirely sure if they would open again.Â
***
When Y/N awoke, it was sudden as her sleep was disturbed by the echo of footsteps coming from down the long passageway. Her eyes opened and in the far distance she could see the flicker of a flame. Y/N sat up from the bundle of rags, chains rattling.Â
The flame grew closer and closer until a figure was visible, a dark cloak draped over their shoulders. It was a cloak Y/N didnât recognise and that small spark within her ignited once more. She tried to call out but it was as if her voice had failed her completely. The words were stuck in her throat.Â
The figure drew closer and Y/N gripped onto the bars of the cell tightly. With each step, her heartbeat sped up as a million possibilities swam through her head. What if it was someone coming to finally kill her? What if it was someone finally coming to save her?
The flame which was hovering above the figure's hand disappeared and Y/Nâs eyes widened in recognition. A hand pulled back the figureâs hood and tears welled in Y/Nâs eyes.Â
âY/N?â The unmistakable voice of Eris Vanserra whispered.Â
Once again Y/N tried to speak but her voice caught in her throat. More tears flowed.Â
âY/NâŠâ Eris said softly, bending down, his hands encasing hers that were gripping the bars. Y/N only continued to cry.
The only sound that echoed was Y/Nâs sobs and the small cries from Eris. Y/N was afraid to close her eyes and find that everything was a dream. Everything felt too good to be true.
âHow can I get you out of here?â Eris asked, his voice a whisper of disbelief.Â
Y/N slowly pointed to the keys hung next to one of the torches. âAmarantha wanted my freedom to be within sight but without ever being able to reach it.â It was the most Y/N had spoken in a long time.Â
Eris was immediately up on his feet and grabbed the keys before placing the key in the lock on the cell door.Â
This is it, Y/N thought. I will finally be free.Â
The metal door screeched open and Y/N sat back as Eris stepped forward and crouched down. He held his hand out to unlock the shackles next. Y/N stared at his hand for a moment before placing her hand in his. His touch was warm and comforting, it was just as she remembered.Â
The shackles were taken off one by one. The scars they each left behind was going to be a reminder to Y/N for her entire life.Â
âCan you stand?â Eris asked.
Y/N shook her head. She hadnât even attempted but she already knew that she was too weak to support her own weight. Eris nodded and gently listed Y/N into his arms, cradling her against his chest. For the first time in years, Y/N felt her body relax. She was safe.
Eris began to walk down the passageway and Y/Nâs eyes slowly shut. She allowed herself to fall unconscious in the arms of her love.
***
In a cabin deep in the Autumn Forest, Eris gently laid an unconscious Y/N down upon a bed. There was dried blood surrounding her wrists like a braceletâ a bracelet Eris wishes never decorated her body.Â
Eris didnât want to leave her alone but he needed supplies to clean the wounds around her wrists and ankles. The moment he gathered the supplies he was immediately by her bedside.Â
The bond between themâ the only word to describe it was sensitive. Eris felt everything Y/N did, every bit of pain, every bit of happiness. He felt everything.Â
Y/N looked so fragile laid upon the bed. It had been ten years since Amarantha dragged Y/N away and that was the day the bond went silent. For ten years Eris thought Y/N was deadâ he thought he was searching for her body.Â
When Erisâs eyes landed upon her frail figure behind those cell doors, he was relieved but at the same time he thought of everything Y/N had been through since she had been locked away. He never even got to say goodbye to her, nobody knew of their relationship and if Amarantha was to find out, Eris couldnât even begin to imagine the worse torment she would have put Y/N through.Â
Eris gently cleaned away the dried blood from Y/Nâs body and the moment he was done, his eyes burned as tears formed. He quietly cried as he gently gripped onto her hand.Â
âIâm sorry I wasnât there,â Eris whispered, bringing her hand to his mouth. âI should have saved you years ago.â
A gentle kiss was pressed to Y/Nâs hand as Eris allowed his tears to finally fall.Â
***
When Y/N woke, she was shocked to feel a soft mattress pressing into her back instead of hard stone. The smell of the damp walls was replaced with the sweet smell of her favourite tea. It had been so long since she had smelt it.Â
Her body felt lighter too. As she lifted her hand she was pleased to not hear the metal of the shackles bashing together. Y/N cracked one eye open and light flooded her vision and she quickly closed them once more. She had spent years in the dark with her only source of light being two torches. Seeing natural light was a luxury Y/N never thought she would see again.Â
Y/N tried once again to open her eyes. Light flooded her vision once again but she persevered. As she got used to it, the wider she opened them, being greeted to the sight of the homey decoration of a cabin. Decoration she picked out herself many years ago.Â
Footsteps came closer to the door and Y/Nâs body tensed as it was opened. Her body relaxed once she saw the familiar face of her mate.Â
âErisâŠâ Y/N whispered.Â
The glass of water Eris held in his hand shook as he took a step closer to the bed and placed the water down on the bedside table. âY/NâŠâ he said.Â
Y/N slowly lifted her arm, it felt strange without the weight forcing it down. She reached out for Eris and he happily complied, sitting by her side in an instant, warm hands encasing her cold ones.
âIâm alive?â She asked, wanting to know that this wasnât some trick of her mind.
Eris nodded, seemingly afraid to use his voice.Â
âYou saved me,â Y/N said with the strangest feeling on her face. It was a smile. Y/N couldnât remember the last time she smiled.Â
âI did,â Eris replied. âI should have saved you sooner.â
âYou saved me,â Y/N repeated. âThank you.â
âPlease donât thank me,â Eris mumbled. âI should have saved you the moment Amarantha took you away. I shouldnât have waited until after her deathââ
âSheâs dead?â Y/N questioned.Â
Eriâs eyebrows furrowed. âHow much do you know?â
âNothing,â Y/N said. âMy last memory of anything out of that cell was being dragged away after attempting to escape. How long ago was that? Everything blurred together in that cell.â
âTen years ago,â Eris said, his grip tightening on her hand.Â
Y/Nâs eyes widened. Ten years had passed since she was locked in that cell. Ten years of torture at the hands of Amarantha. Ten years away from her mate.Â
âBut she is dead, correct?â Y/N said, wanting complete confirmation.Â
Eris nodded. âTamlin killed her.â
âGood,â Y/N said. âThatâs good.â
âY/Nââ
âThatâs amazing. She stole ten years of my life,â Y/N cried, tears falling down her cheeks. âShe took ten years from me, away from everyone, bound where no one will hear me. She took me away from you.â
âY/Nââ âThat isnât fair. How can she kill so many under that stupid mountain but leave me alive? That isnât fair! Why did she keep me alive and alone for a decade?â Y/N cried.Â
Y/Nâs body shook with her sobs as she felt her whole body being encased, though it was pleasant. Y/Nâs arms wrapped around Eris as she melted into him. It felt nice to be held by him once again. His scent invaded her nose and she breathed it in deeply. No matter how much time had passed, his scent was still the same. It had always comforted her, as it always would.Â
âI donât know,â Eris muttered against her head. âI wish I did but I donât.â
Eris continued to hold Y/N in his arms until she pulled away, wanting to look at his face. She hadnât taken in his features at all. He still looked the same, though he looked tired and exhausted. His hair was longer too, tied neatly at the back of his neck, a few strands escaping to rest over his forehead.Â
âI thought of you every night,â Y/N whispered. âI gave up hope long ago of anyone finding me, but every so often that hope was ignited again by the thought of you.â
âI thought I was searching for a body,â Eris confessed, his hold on Y/N tightening. âWhen she took you, I could no longer feel the bond. It was as if it had been erased.â
âIt was the shackles,â Y/N replied, looking at her scarred wrists and ankles. âIt blocked all magic and that included the mating bond.â
âSince I no longer felt the bond, I thought you were dead,â Eris said. âWhen Amarantha was killed and everyone left to go to their homes, I stayed to search the whole place for your body. And all I could think of was how I never got to say goodbye to you.â
âI should have died,â Y/N muttered. âHow can I live when so many others died? High lords included. What was so special about me?â
The warmth of Erisâs hand caressed her face. âEverything is special about you. Every little thing, donât ever forget that. Every single night under that damned mountain I would pray for you and I am sure I have never prayed in my life. I prayed that we would be reunited one day, either in this life or the next. My prayers were answered when I found you alive.â
âButââ
âY/N, I canât say I know how you feel but I know what I feel and what I feel in pure love and adoration for you,â Eris said. âI will help you out with whatever you are feeling. I will go wherever you wish to go. I will leave if you wish for space to heal on your own. But I need you to know that I will help you. You are my mate and the love of my life, I donât wish to see you blame yourself for anything.â
âThank you, Eris,â Y/N said, hugging him tighter, burying her head into his shoulder.
âDonât thank me,â Eris replied, âI will do anything for you, Y/N.â
âRight now, I only want to lay here with you,â Y/N said. âEverything still doesnât feel real. Iâm afraid to wake up in that cell again.â
âI can guarantee that this is real Y/N, we are finally home,â Eris said. A small, genuine smile twitched at Y/Nâs lips. âAnd by some hellish reason that this isnât real, then you must know that I will still be looking for you. In every universe I will be looking for you and I will never stop until I find you, no matter how long it takes.â
âI love you, Eris,â Y/N said, cuddling into Erisâs side.Â
âI love you too, Y/N,â Eris said, pressing a soft kiss to the top of her head. âI love you so much.â
It wasnât long until Y/N drifted off to sleep once more, the exhaustion weighing heavily upon her. She was no longer afraid to fall asleep, not while Eris was beside her. He would always protect her and would always stand by her side, as he always hadâ as he always would.Â
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