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occudo · 1 year ago

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I just thought about long-haired Jon designs, and how I don't tend to draw him like that, but then I remembered I did once for this lonely!Jon comic, I looked it up and decided to redraw it in color.

#occudo's art #tma fanart #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #lonely!jon #beholder!martin #still on my lonely blues

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courfee · 7 months ago

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“Regulus would be proud of us,” James whispered quietly to no one in particular, still gripping onto the painting like a life raft.

— Tender Curiosities, Baby! @otrtbs

#tender curiosities baby #art heist baby #james potter fanart #james potter #jegulus #rosekiller #rosekiller fanart #marauders #marauders fanart #evan rosier #barty crouch jr #jegulus fanart #jegulus fanfiction #fic: ahb #art heist baby!#mine #my art #hp #ahb #ive thought about this scene for so long it just took me forever to draw cause once again the anatomy of cars is the bane of my existence #like originally i wanted evan and barty holding hands to be visible to have the contrast of sad lonely james and sad not lonely rosekiller #but alas cars wont allow it #ahb just still has my entire heart you dont get it #i have a none blurry rosekiller and a just james in front of blue with stars version of this but i think ill only put them on insta...#(sneaky end notes: i do have to admit i am not too pleased with evan and barty but this was my first time drawing them)#(so i couldnt figure it out quite yet hency why they look a little. less efforty...)#(also the snake ring is the same design that i drew for chapter 34 of ahb in my little chapter illustrations for my typeset)#((nvm i just checked back and i am fully lying here i used a different one for my typeset and now im vaguely upset oops)#(i shouldnt make decisions only half awake im going to think about this for too long now i am sad))#((like suddenly i was like. hold up. i had a different design there didnt i... it was an open ring goddamnit))

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tsuchinokoroyale · 11 months ago

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Happy new years… let’s stay hydrated together ✨

#I didn’t end up going to the rave just stayed in with my buddies and had KFC (( Korean fried chicken )) and laughed til we cried so #it was still a wonderful start to the new year 💞🥰💞#but the fwb wanted pics of my potential rave look so I figured eh I brought the stuff anyways #and now I’m imagining locking eyes with a stranger on the warm and writhing dance floor #the beat thumps and shakes and rattles the air in our breath as the spotlights dance in the reflections of our held gaze #he pushes his way through the crowd with a singular stare and a wicked smile on his face #I smile and turn my back on him arching myself so he knows I am giving what he’s looking for #I take careful steps through the revelry toward the edge where the crowd thins out #I prop myself up on an available stool in a lonely corner of the club as he closes the distance between us #“now I wonder why you dragged me all the way here” he utters in a playful growl “trying to get far away from the crowd?”#I smile and I nod. “obviously. can’t really do what I want with you out there”#his eyes perk up and his smile gives away the desire building inside him. “yeah? why don’t you show me then.”#“I thought you’d never ask” I smirk. I reach down into my pants and pull out my phone #“so this one is blue. he’s the oldest but he’s sooooo sweet. and that’s Eva. my only girl she’s sassy but she loves swea-” he leaves #whaddahell I say demurely whimpering even… whaddahell…#gpoy

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yrsonpurpose · 11 months ago

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Happy Christmas, Henry

#rwrb #rwrbedit #red white and royal blue #alex x henry #firstprince #userninz #userveronika #chrissiewatts #usersteen #usernuria #userclara #usermegsb #mine*#merry christmas to those who celebrate!!!!!!#this is your canon reminder that henry's holidays are no longer lonely now he is spending them with alex :')#casey's brain was massive when they wrote this letter to alex from henry #bc uuhhhhh writer henry writing alex love letters and poems is exactly what he deserves #anyway to anyone still reading this and still putting up w my gifsets then i appreciate u loads #i hope you all have an amazing christmas🥺

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reverentwormpriest · 6 months ago

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#snufmin #snufkin #moomins #its that type of night again #against my better judgement i rewatch the the lonely mountains ep #which is kinda funny considering i was watching blue eye samurai before that. very tonally different. still gay though

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nagiseal · 6 months ago

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oh abandonment issues nagi how i love you

#blue lock #episode nagi #nagi seishiro #my horribly sad son #this dude is actively seeking reassurance that reo won't leave him #and people will still say he doesnt care #NNAAGIII😭😭#me when im terribly lonely #and codependent #close enough welcome back break alex g #seishiro nagi #help me

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theladyfae · 2 months ago

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i think human nature/family of blood is a really good two parter in how it manages to show how full of shit ten is 🫶

#look . i LOVE ten . esp whatevers going on w him in s3 he's horrible and i like that #but just !! martha :(#its so incredibly unfair to martha he doesnt unleash his wrath on the Family he chooses to hide instead and okay yeah fair #and sure u can say the tardis chose the setting and time period for them to hide in but like #did that not filter in to his calculations he went through all that turned himself human put his friendship with martha to the test in #the worst way possible. knowing she wouldn't let herself leave him even if he was Abhorrent towards her (and he was) because #of her duty to the universe and beyond and whatever . to blend in and keep the Family off their tails #and she's put in a demeaning position and degraded and even he doesn't seem to care much for her but she still hangs on #and then in the end its like its all for naught. all that pain and suffering martha went through being the only one w her wits about her #he had the capacity to deal w the threat the whole time he had the ability to dole out a horrible punishment he could definitely #have dealt with them a different way than that too .#and instead in his quest to be the bigger person he ends up putting martha through the horrors and then #does the same with the Family anyway ! i dont think he can ever tell her how harshly he dealt with them #surely this isnt an original thought im just thinking Way too much about blue moon by niki #he Does care more about being good than being good to her specifically !! and its so upsetting theyre so volatile i miss them #its more complicated than that sure but at the same time. it sort of isnt .#anyway martha jones my love my life u deserved at least a billion apologies alongside the thanks like god . whats wrong w him #oh and also he wants to move on without properly talking about it . act as if it never happened #like girl be fucking considerate for ONCE she just went through a personal hell for you !!! how insanely lonely she must of been #i dont believe martha ever let him just brush past it w no acknowledgement like yes i think she definitely didnt want to discuss the #accidental confession but i Do think she would sit him down to finally get him to Accept he cant just take her wherever in the past #if he's not ready to look out for her . its a vital conversation i think they need to have otherwise martha would just walk out there #not even love could make her stay through that its been established already she has the strength to try walk away #and also to try and but through his bullshit and demand answers . and here more than ever she deserves his acknowledgement and he Knows it

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widowshill · 3 months ago

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— Are you sure Burke wants to buy Collinwood? — Yes, he said so. I'm just afraid it's only the beginning of what he wants.

#76.#➤ roger collins & victoria winters & burke devlin. ┊ to know how it ends‚ and still begin to sing it again.#gifs.#➤ edits & art. ┊ the evans cottage art gallery.#➤ roger collins. ┊ I and my ghosts want a drink.#➤ victoria winters. ┊ because she’s lost and lonely. because she looks in shadows.#➤ re: burke devlin. ┊ I am stranded in a hungerland of great prosperity.#I just think about Lou’s acting choices a lot.#the little pleading pout he gives her �� the yearning after her... the fussing that she's talking to burke in the doorway...#and the way vicki holds eye contact with him ... hhhh.#and this is sandwiched between talking to her on the cliffs and taking her out to the blue whale !! (i think all the same day?)#it's just so... impactful. that this is blocked in the threshold.#lingering between burke and roger; the drawing room and foyer; pulled to either side by two versions of what happened ten years ago.#roger tugging (forcefully) at her loyalty to the collins family and her gratitude for giving her a home and family;#burke tugging her sympathies because he also wants a home; roots; a big house to raise his kids in — he's alone in the world like she is.#[heathcliff] is more myself than i am!#and you can see the realization on his face that should burke tug her too far;#roger's cord of communion will snap and he will take to bleeding inwardly.#vicki by nature of her character not only responds to truth with her favor — but; conversely; by giving her favor creates truth.#when she likes and trusts and wants to spend time w/ roger he fares very well: a breakfast date where she supplies him with an alibi —#a dinner date that covers up his perjury meeting. vicki's good opinion is indispensable for his survival —#the very minute he loses that — when she is certain he's bill's murderer — she turns on him and so does everyone else and he immediately #loses his freedom (albeit only temporarily held at the police station rather than 5 years in prison)#she's not literally taken laura's place with them — but it's remarkable how much her romantic intentions influence the outcome of that #decade-old case; in just the same way that laura choosing roger as her husband and supplying truth through her testimony lead to #burke's condemnation before. it's much the same game roger is playing at this point in the story (at a significant disadvantage #to last time; because he can't offer vicki — penultimate Good Girl — a ring)#vicki's heart; affection; attraction; tied up fundamentally in Justice. and her position as narrator #making it all the more compelling that she writes Truth as vicki is navigating who *very literally* holds the Pen.#burke's story or roger's story? burke's [redacted] or roger's [redacted]?

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obstinaterixatrix · 6 months ago

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also I told them that I think I can say I don’t like 50s pop from the usa, but as we kept going I was like ‘well, I guess I do like [specific 50s pop song]’ and we kept having to narrow it down & sister thinks, specifically, I don’t like slow white doo-wop from the 50s. she might be right

#my ramblings #I don’t really like bobby vinton.#I find mr lonely insufferable to listen to.#blue velvet is ok I guess.#I like tennessee waltz fine.#I love the platters and I LOOOVE their cover of smoke gets in your eyes #I HATE LOLLIPOP I HAVENT THOUGHT ABOUT THAT SONG IN FOREVER #I like nat king cole but I feel like that’s more jazz than pop #tutti fruity is catchy but I don’t enjoy it #oh frank sinatra is on here. yeah I like most of his covers #the thing is tho some jazz covers do this thing with rhythm that I think gets in the way of my enjoyment #also still more jazz than pop. actually I guess sinatra is… basically pop culturally speaking. huh.#I do know I like swing & big band jazz #and I consistently like ragtime of course #ok I’m done going through this list of 50s songs #anyway this further proves that genres are too broad to make sweeping negative statements on

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bibleofficial · 17 days ago

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where is my fat husband

#stream #i’m lonely !!!! i want a man !!!!!!#me: where’s my man #me at the same time: not leaving the house nor dating apps & also is having a mental breakdown everyday while self medicating #also i’m 90% sure my meds are starting to fail again ALSKALKSLAKSLAKLSAKLSMAKSKK #ANYWAY #i didn’t even go to gay bars when i was allowed to drink like 😭😭😭#it’s all a bunch of straight people #there’s no point #like i constantly here old queens going ‘young gays don’t do xyz’ or ‘don’t know how to xyz’ like ok girl its because that shit died like #idk probably before the pandemic truly it was dying but the pandemic was the nail in the coffin like girl …….. i turned 21 a month into #lockdowns like #ok so i did stuff illegally & went to other shit but it still was straight bars 90% of the time there’s like 6 gay bars in houston total 😭😭😭#like idk what they expect like if … those venues aren’t there & are increasingly AGAINST doing the goofy tings …. how would the YOUNG KNOW #like at this point idk i truly think that it’s kinda on the elders at this point ALSKALSKLAKSAKSLAN like yea they’re boomers at the end of #the day so like i’m not saying that they didn’t have it hard they did they did ok but. get over it ? ALSKALSKALKSLAKSLA like alright … but #i’m saying this as someone who knows the history & bullshit like ok yea everyone needs to understand what it’s like to have your community #die before ur eyes but at the same time. there’s no community now ? ALSKALSKALKSLAKSLAKSLLA like girl …#girl …….#yall HAD a community but now all that shit is gone & none of us young ppl have any funds to make that 😭😭😭#like girl i have 12$ in my bank account i dream of being able to rent a flat at some point like a ONE BEDROOM u know W A LIVING ROOM & yall #own rentals so like this is UP TO YALL …..#like ur the problem ? 😭😭😭😭😭#@gays for trump & loghouse republicans i’m looking at YALL #a lot of these mfs are liberal too - pro invasion of iraq democrat back the blue bootlickin NIMBA faggots 😭😭😭💔#anyway that’s just me bitching #i’ve been so fucking IRRITABLE today

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mikrrokosmos · 18 days ago

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firstly, ummmmmmmmm YOUR HEADER MISS MA'AM???????????? HOBI ONE CHANCE PLEASE SIR JUST ONE CHANCE LIKE I PROMISE I WON'T EPICALLY FUMBLE, JUST A SINGULAR CHANCE LIKE—

now that i have sufficiently recovered ♡ i have some questions for you ♡ all based on my own degenerate taste ofc ofc

yun or come back to me? lonely or domodachi? tokyo or uhgood? what if... or arson? hangsang or more? blue side or on the street? d-day or what do you think? the last or amygdala? snooze or people pt. 2? who or like crazy? set me free pt. 2 or smeraldo garden marching band? slow dancing or fri(end)s? love me again or rainy days? too sad to dance or shot glass of tears? yes or no or please don't change? moon or abyss? the astronaut or i'll be there?

the ptd in la concert really was a date for the Looks, huh? and hobi in that picture in particular is just *chefs kiss*

yun or come back to me? lonely or domadochi? tokyo or uhgood? what if… or arson? hangsang or more? blue side or on the street? d-day or what to you think? the last or amygdala? snooze or people pt 2? who or like crazy? set me free pt 2 or smeraldo garden marching band? slow dancing or fri(end)s? love me again or rainy days? too sad to dance or shot glass of tears? yes or no or please don’t change? moon or abyss? the astronaut or i’ll be there?

#choosing my least favourite of indigo and rpwp is bold wkskwjdkfh #i looooove the eerie vibes and storyline of domodachi but i have cried to lonely. so.#the correct answer is actually everythingoes <3 #ARSON WIEKSKSKWOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *my* song #hangsang is saur cunty like #i’ll be the blue side to your on the street 🫶🏻 dare i say his most underrated song #the last has had me on my hands and knees in the kitchen processing it but amygdala has never left my mind.#if it was people i’d choose people but snooze easily wins this cake #who slayed but like crazy is the QUEEN #and set me free of 2 us sooo powerful but sgmb is just! so cute! was on repeat for a whole month and will be now after you’ve reminded me #friends is still one of the best pop songs the tannies have done it’s so fucking catchy #love me again is so <3 yearning soothing beloved #shot glass of tears vocals my beloved #please don’t change is severely underrated imo but yes or no’s bridge … heavenly #very hard to choose between since abyss is so endeared to my heart. but i’ve had moon’s lyrics in my bio for a REASON #the astronaut is the best enlistment gift we’ve ever been given 🫶🏻#hope these rambling explanations make up for me not seeing this within .2 seconds of you sending it 🔪#answered asks #olive tag

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occudo · 1 year ago

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'We need you... I need you.' 'No, you don't.'

#occudo's art #tma fanart #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #still on my lonely blues #just how many lonely fanart can I make with these colors #before i get sick of it #we'll find out #right down to the monochrome

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red-dyed-sarumane · 23 days ago

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augh i want to change my layout around the new rinrin art but i have to ask myself what anime girl do i want as an icon for my birthday. how can i give up my dear tenshi-chan. but i love my frog daughter. but then theres also rime. must things be hard. is nothing easy.

#the answer is edit them all together #but uh. blue/gold red & green is. certainly a color combination #i should be 14 again & draw all my favorite characters together & interacting. i cater to ME #thinking about the art where i drew shuupro & owasera & dangitronpa characters all together #and i was so right to do so #birthday present to myself [draws tenshi & labo & rime & lapis & rinrin & wataru & ryoshu & mafuyu together]#i cater to myself alone. lone wolf life style. awoo.#i jest but putting all of those characters together is so funny. ryoshu would kill them without trying just via mere proximity #do i still have that art posted here hold on

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dreamyberry · 25 days ago

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/3.11.24

#it’s incredible how i feel tired just by the thought of swiping peoples profiles on a friend/meet app #like I really have to force myself #I forced myself to say to a girl I saw in july if she wanted to meet and she couldn’t back then and now I’m like okay I tried it I’m #I whine to myself I’m lonely yet looking for people is not a thing I fancy #I am convinced the people who would matter wouldn’t be found like this anyway #but chances of meeting people are 0 #still clinging on to this person I met at the only friends of friend group thing which is almost sci -fi for me #despite I probably shouldn’t #and on top ov everything I always mess everything up because I can’t communicate well what I feel or actually I don’t really know that anywa #colleague added to me to a chat group pf expats here it doesn’t look exciting but I imagined that #I should see a high school mate after xmas #i am genuinely glad about it #although I am kinda thinking I should probably pretend it’s all fine #last time was..2020 which feels like yesterday but is 4 years ago #Jesus cjrist #maybe I should still reply to that girl who gave me depression but her and the sister were quite into me #asked like in may if i wanted to hang out and do creative stuff (3rd time #and I had told myself after the second time which was also major depression time and winter #blues #that I was done with it although always pretending it was fun #but god I was getting depression from them #would take pics of us where I think I never forced a smile more than that time #and my policy is just b clear and polite #but I swear I don’t have energies to just text and say sorry we don’t match

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crmsnmth · 5 months ago

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Mannequins

This room is filled with mannequins Some dressed up as people from my past There's the girl with the ocean blue eyes Who I still love even after all this time Dressed in sunshine and forgotten dance steps

There's the violent codependent abusive With red blood painted on it's pale plastic skin I stare at it, daring it to make a move because this time I won't let them in

There's the gay man who sold me drugs sometimes for money, sometimes for love Where I learned I have no limits for depravity and that I never really knew my own sexuality

Here's the girl from California who I think of daily my best friend when I had no friends the one who listened to me cry on late and lonely nights And I'm reminded of how much I miss her

Leaning haphazardly against the wall is kid a tragic romance if there ever was one five years of each other's life we wasted before we realized we just didn't work

With missing limbs is my junkie angel And her last words to me play like a scratched vinyl "You need to get clean or your going to die" And a month later she swallowed her tongue and i skipped out on the funeral

I walk through this room of memories The most important people in my stories And I am overwhelmed with nostalgia and sadness I miss you all so much, so so much.

I see my best friend growing up we stopped talking ten years ago because he said he didn't want to watch me burn And I can't say I'd ever blame him

I love you all. I'm sorry.

#This room is filled with mannequins #Some dressed up as people from my past #There's the girl with the ocean blue eyes #Who I still love even after all this time #Dressed in sunshine and forgotten dance steps #There's the violent codependent abusive #With red blood painted on it's pale plastic skin #I stare at it #daring it to make a move #because this time I won't let them in #There's the gay man who sold me drugs #sometimes for money #sometimes for love #Where I learned I have no limits for depravity #and that I never really knew my own sexuality #Here's the girl from California who I think of daily #my best friend when I had no friends #the one who listened to me cry on late and lonely nights #And I'm reminded of how much I miss her #Leaning haphazardly against the wall is kid #a tragic romance if there ever was one #five years of each other's life we wasted #before we realized we just didn't work #With missing limbs is my junkie angel #And her last words to me play like a scratched vinyl #“You need to get clean or your going to die”#And a month later she swallowed her tongue #and i skipped out on the funeral #I walk through this room of memories #The most important people in my stories

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scrambledslut · 1 year ago

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just finished Red, White & Royal Blue and holy shit that was such a feel good movie

#it was so funny but also so sweet my queer heart is filled with so much joy #i don’t think i’ll ever stop feeling this strange emotion when faced with genuine queer content #idk how to describe it #i just feel so seen #it may be 2023 but being queer can still be so isolating and lonely #especially if you’re from a small town like me #great now i’m crying #alex’s speech broke me bruh #red white and royal blue #rwrb movie #rwrb

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