#still not over them and probably never will be tbh!!!
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I think that trying to expand on or explore Yue Qingyuan's or Shen Jiu's parents could be really fun. Espeeeecially SJ. Like why were these two poor kids thrown in the dirt?
Like yeah I know tragedy and storytelling and blah blah blah but lemme just squish them.
Anyway so I had another random idea, feel free to use as always, involving our special boy Shen Yuan. Basically he is a half demon (what flavor is up to you, but I was specifically imagining some type of bug 🐛). He is this very pretty little thing who lives in the demon realm with his Cultivator mom, except they're both like basically kept/imprisoned in this Demon Lord's compound.
His mom always told him about how she used to be in love with this other Cultivator and they had another son together. But shortly after he was born the Demon Lord like killed the dad, stole the mom, and threw the baby in a ditch. She's a real peerless beauty type. SY has always mourned for his older brother he never met and for how much his mom hates it here, even if she's done everything in her power to love him and teach him cultivation.
SY is also a super pretty boy and he's like? 11 or 12 or so? And his dad decides that since he's kinda useless otherwise he's gunna marry SY off. His mom helps him escape before that can happen and he swears to get enough power to free her someday.
Cue like a big chase but he makes it out of the Demon Realm and into the Human Realm. By complete coincidence he ends up running into like 9 y/o Binghe while his mom is super sick. Even the he can't do much he uses some of his demon powers and like heals her! But she's still really weak. And helps take care of SY for a bit before he encourages the two of them to go to CMS to be Cultivators. (She doesn't know that SY is a half demon, neither does LBH.)
They leave together and SY like admits that he wish he could save HIS mom and gives LBH a censored (of the demon stuff) version of his own mom's story. LBH promises to get super strong someday so he can help SY rescue her and SY is touched.
Anyway they do the hole digging and there is one set of eyes like LOCKED on SY the whole time. SQQ can see that FOOL making sopping eyes at the dirty little kid who looks like a younger version of himself. Before YQY can pick him, SQQ does and is so mad he like leaves the rest of the selection.
(LBH Still gets chosen! By YQY!)
Cue a lot of SQQ being a dick but over time like weirdly protective of the sassy, spitfire kid who is his little clone. SY is glad he saved LBH from a future of torment at SQQ's hands even if he brought it on himself instead. And SQQ over time is kinda... well, not nice. But he's not as bad as PIDW always talked about. Too bad he can't focus on that AS much when he's trying to keep his demon parts hidden!!
Eventually, like after SY has been there a few years, SQQ would find out the story about SY's missing older brother. And even tho he's probably been convinced it's just a passing resemblance, alarm bells start going off in his head. Some Airplane Flavored Bullshit would happen and would reveal the two of them are actually related by blood, too.
SQQ demanding to know what happened to their mother (since he knows his dad's fate :( ) and SY reluctantly telling him. OG Story just off the rails at this point. LBH is like 17 and has become YQY's head disciple and is living his best life with his depressed Shizun.
Not really sure where it would go from there tbh. But SY/SJ's mom would be rescued and I think she deserves to be in lesbians with LBH's mom. As a treat. Maybe they could do some shit with TLJ some the plot is so bad cause the demon lord was the one who half took his place after TLJ was sealed? Like, enemy of my enemy is my friend kinda shit to take out the demon lord properly. Ideal is we somehow bring back SYX and then the 4 parents form like a polycule. Big "Gee, TLJ! How come the author lets you have THREE hot wives??" Energy.
Anyway happy mother's day
#svsss#shen yuan#shen jiu#luo binghe#the chronic illness has taken me like all day today so this is what i came up with#ignore typos im on my phone#i dunno what pairings this would have feel free to impose your own#actually as an aside i think that aus where lbh go to yqy's peak are a fun concept#put his powers of manipulation to good use#he would be fucking unstoppable#plus like imagine whatever weird relationship he would have with yqy#do you see my vision
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Hi Dee! I just saw that you accept request and if you could I would love to read abouts the male strawhats with a soft dom male reader, it doesn't need to be nsfw, but the reader being confident and sweet to them, it would be so cute. Thank you hon!!!
Heya first request! That’s no problem for me;P enjoy (no chopper). Not even nsfw but some mentions of sex, pegging, sniffing a girls panties because brook, etc. this is not proofread but I think everything’s fine in this post tbh
Luffy loves it, firstly. Being the future king of the pirates can be tough, so he loves a relationship where he can be his carefree self, (not that he isn’t gonna be regardless) and know he’ll always have you to fall back on. And even comfort him when he needs it. Though that’s a side you’ll almost never see to Luffy because he usually wants to be a person others rely on. But sometimes.. some nights.. he’ll think about Ace as you hold him tightly to your chest in a comforting hug, and he’ll just curl up on you like the little monkey boy he once was (and still is). Luffy has a strong relationship with his masculinity but he doesn’t have a huge complex with being a man. Being the more submissive one in the relationship doesn’t make him any less of the future king. If kid ever makes fun of him though he’ll probably get into a fight with him over it. That being said, you definitely wear the pants. You come up with the dates (because otherwise Luffy wouldn’t even bother cause man.. he seriously doesn’t know how to do all that stuff!), you’re the one typically paying for dinner (he never has money), and all that classic traditional stuff a more “dominant” role would do. Of course, Luffy will give back just in a more … Luffy fashion. Like gifting you a bug he thinks is cool or sharing his food with you. Also, Luffy definitely hangs on you like you’re his personal jungle gym.
Zoro is the one with a bit more of a complex over it. Definitely has some toxic masculinity towards himself, and would be adverse to it. Would reject the idea of you taking care of him at first, he’s not really used to people caring for him beyond looking after his injuries, which to him is sorta different because it was usually Nami, who acts like an annoying sister to him, and chopper, who’s a doctor (and his little man!) Zoro will eventually learn to accept this but it’s kinda hard for him and even behind closed doors has a complex about it. You have to constantly remind him it’s just you two, no judgment and no peering eyes. As he grows more comfortable well… still.. you’ll have to remind him. There’s been a couple times he’s had to yell at you for whatever “spell” you put on him, that makes him so damn needy and clingy during your make-out sessions. During these moments, he lets go for a moment and goes koala mode on you, legs wrapped around your waist and arms around your neck. He gets very embarrassed about it afterward. Other times, your big muscular boyfriend likes to straddle your lap and just sit there in your arms, it’s adorable the more comfortable he becomes, even if he never truly settles into the idea. He’s just scared of the idea of being any less strong or manly.
As for Sanji, he’s more welcoming. Sanji realizing he even likes you, a man, is a whole other trouble on its own. But once he’s in, he’s in. And that means pretty much anything. Sanji is pretty flexible (wink), so he truly will just become whatever you need him to be. But naturally, Sanji is a more submissive man in a relationship, which should be kinda obvious. He loves to fawn over you when you treat him so gently, like you could break him if you treat him too roughly! Sanji needs a soft guy like you in his life, after the rough childhood he’s had. Sanji loves to cook for you and then just sit in your lap while you eat, (and maybe tease you a little..) as always Sanji is a total flirt with you. He loves taking care of others because nobody really took care of him growing up (save for the Zeff, Reiju, and his mama) so he really loved you looking after him and hell even spoiling him (don’t worry he does it back for you too!) Sanji will listen to any demands you have and is off quickly to fetch anything you need! We all know how Sanji is, he’d be your slave if you asked him. But let’s be nice to this sweetie. He’ll try to act cute and sometimes garner sympathy from you when he fights with Zoro to get your attention, just because he knows you’ll treat him to a nice bath.
Usopp loves it and needs it in his life. Usopp loves being taken care of and being treated like the sweet angel he undoubtedly is. He’s the type of guy to clasp his hands together and bat his eyelashes at you, whispering “you’ll protect me, right?” before heading out on some adventure Luffy forced the crew to go on with him. Usopp seeks your kindness, protection, and comfort. It reminds him of home, and the days with his mother. Even when she was dying, she provided him a sense of comfort nobody else has been able to replace. And maybe you can’t replace it, but you certainly remind him of it. He constantly seeks it out. He will constantly cry and scream (though, that’s on par for him anyway) even if he’s not actually afraid, just so you’ll hug and comfort him. He loves squeezing your upper arms with a grin, and go “oooh-! So manly!” Usopp is such a flirt, even though he can get flustered by you pretty easily. He loves just nuzzling his face into your chest before falling asleep in your protective, comforting embrace. Just beware, if you’re dating Usopp, Nami unfortunately gets all the gossip on your habits and also how good you are in bed, sorry. Thankfully, Usopp only has good things to say.
Given how big of a dude Franky is, many assume he’s the more dominant one. However, Franky doesn’t really care for things like that and you’ll be surprised to find he’s probably more submissive in a relationship to begin with (but he could go either way). He’s very open to the idea, and despite his size you’ll carry him like he’s your little princess. Franky likes sitting in your lap while he tinkers away! Or even laying his head in your lap before taking a fat nap. He’s the type of man to blush and fangirl over you if you do something he finds attractive or even cute, like flipping your hair a certain way, or sticking out your tongue when you’re focused. He loves being carried by you, since he’s used to carrying other people. He has no qualms with being open and vulnerable, (obviously) and not thinking any less of himself as a man. Franky can be irresponsible at times, it’s a good thing you’re the one that plans your dates with him. Franky can be oddly romantic at times too-! Sometimes he may try to pull the same card as Usopp, bat his eyelashes at you and all. It’s a bit harder for him to be taken seriously given he’s in his late 30s but hey, you think it’s still cute. Franky likes resting his head on your chest, just talking with you about life, sometimes his past if he’s feeling wistful. Would probably fangirl at you defending him and his honor, he’s a dork. Also, is very open to bottoming since he has probably gotten pegged in past relationships to be totally honest so he’s already got that more submissive thing going for him, it’s just very unexpected given his appearance.
Brook is very open minded about it. If you honestly think Brook cares he’s the more submissive one… well… that would just be silly. He’s lived many years in his head in complete solitude, he’s just happy to have finally found a relationship and intimacy with somebody after years of thinking it’s something he would never get to experience beyond sniffing a girls panties. And honestly after being alone for so long he was happy to have friends and .. well somebody to comfort him when he really needs it. He loves laying down tucked into your chest and enjoying your company. He’s not the most comfortable to cuddle with, being only bones.. but you’re fine with that, right? You wonder how you’re supposed to have sex with him, but if there’s a will, there’s a way… regardless Brook lets you take care of him just fine and he loves when you protect him. He loves your confidence, and he always lets you have it your way. Whatever that means…Brook may tease and make perverted comments towards you but that’s all what Brooks about. Hes a tall guy, but he tends to wrap his arms around your neck and look down at you with that toothy smile on his face, a pink blush somehow dusting his boney, hallow cheeks. He can’t really kiss you… he doesn’t have lips.. so he tends to nuzzle you instead. He’d love it if you kissed his teeth though!
Jinbe certainly doesn’t mind. Hes a mature enough man to fight the demons of toxic masculinity and he is more than comfortable with being the more submissive one but this isn’t a trait he shows publicly or really in front of the strawhats (but he still trusts them, mans just isn’t a fan of PDA in general and since he considers them family, this is even moreso the case). Jinbe loves laying on top of you (if it won’t crush you) and absolutely loves when you look after him, brush his hair, treat him like a little angel. He never gets that reprieve, that time to relax. He can get so stressed out. You’ve helped him so much with all of that. Sometimes he just likes to bathe in the sun with you, or even swim with you. He loves when you treat him like some delicate flower, when he’s far from it. There’s something so sweet and intimate about it. However, he has spent a long time being the more dominant one so the first time you guys had sex it was kinda overwhelming for him and he definitely cried (happy tears!) cause he was the one being taken care of for once. He feels very loved by you and it shows. Also kinda just lets you do whatever, if you want something or wanna do something, he always says “whatever you want honey” “no problem” he’s willing to do anything you want!
#op x reader#op x you#op x y/n#one piece x reader#one piece x y/n#one piece x you#jinbe x reader#brook x reader#usopp x reader#usopp x you#franky x reader#cutty flam x reader#zoro roronoa x reader#zoro x reader#zoro x you#sanji x reader#sanji x you#luffy x reader#luffy x you
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As a crafter and ADHDer I'm a firm believer in picking hobbies that fit your likes and symptoms and/or shaping hobbies to do so
For example: when i rented a saxophone I didn't practice as much as when I bought a piano keyboard. The sax has a lot of set-up time: opening the case, putting the sax together, wetting the reed, setting up my band stand. The piano keyboard I just turn on the piano. It's possible to practice piano for 10 minutes but not possible to practice sax in 10 minutes because the set up takes more than 5 and the takedown+put away takes more than 5
Here are some factors that make some hobbies fit better in my life:
Ok this actually got long so I'm putting it under the cut but all of this came from trying to recognize my own patterns of behavior and seeing what hobbies i was returning to vs what i wasn't. Lower the bar for yourself and play to your strengths, set yourself up to enjoy your hobbies. It's also not unique to ADHDers, and my collection of symptoms aren't universal to adhders either but this is what works for me
Little or no set-up and takedown time, includes not having to clean the hobby area or supplies before or after
Being able to leave supplies out and set up. This often takes the form of not needing too many supplies for each project so they don't take up too much space when I leave them out
Portable! I like being able to work anywhere! including on public transit, waiting for events to start, watching tv
Able to undo or cover up mistakes. Or each piece is so small that I don't feel bad about scrapping something I messed up, like you can't uncut something in kirigami but it's just paper ykwim. Also tape exists
Can pause at any time
Not forced to pause at any time. Like if something needs to dry and therefore i can't touch it anymore even tho I don't want to be done with that crafting time. This can be circumvented by having multiple projects at a time, like I never got mad at clay for needing to dry when I was in a ceramics class
3D or a tactile element. I like to touch things
Can be completed in one sitting. Now that I'm older, I'm more able to return to the same project over and over, altho my ideal would still be to complete one step every time I work on something. But as a kid/teen I did wire craft and origami, v easy to finish a piece or multiple pieces in one crafting session
Cheap supplies that don't take up a lot of storage space. I'm working with a friend on a quilt and it's ONE quilt but the fabric is so big. I have beads that i could make hundreds of projects with and it takes up less space. Quilting blankets is probably not going to be a hobby I return to as much as beadwork (not just for this reason tho)
Planning fluidity. Like the ability to change the plan as I go, and to not need a fully fleshed out plan from the beginning. I'm working on finishing two projects rn that grew in scale over the course of working on them and I'm so happy with them. If i needed a full plan from the start, I probably never would've started
IRL progress bar. Like I can see the amount I have finished at every point and see how much I have left to go. I've taken 1.5 online free programming courses for fun and I enjoyed them but there was no way to guess at any point if the next step was going to be 5 minutes or an hour. Compared to crosstitch which is like if the aida is 50% filled then I'm approximately 50% done
Little to no finishing/editing steps. When I'm done with the craft part of the craft I want to be fully done. I didn't like needle felting but when I was done with the final needle felting step I just had to put it on my shelf to display. But when I've done a mosaic kit, I finished the mosaic and then had to glue it down, and then had to grout it. I still haven't grouted it tbh
#adhd#tbh i put this together to think about why i don't enjoy watercolor#and how i can try watercolor a different way to maximize enjoyment because i really do want to do more watercolor
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HIII, I just saw your post in which you headcannon which second language would the Faroff guys have and my dumbass can't figure it out if you are showing that Tobi would be French and Fenn German, or if its supposed to be from the other's pov (aka Fenn speaking French to Tobi and vice versa), for some reason I can see it being either way so I wanted to discover what did you meant! (Also I would love to know more of your headcanons 👀)
Also that post made me think of something and I would love to know your opinion, how do you think the story would go (specially the beginning) if their countries had different languages? Do you think that there would be a big language barrier or that maybe there would exist some "universal" language (like how English is perceived nowadays) that they would use? I think this topic is pretty interesting to explore since it could add many layers and opportunities of misunderstandings, but I wanted to hear your thoughts! :D
HELL YEAH A FAROFF ASK I HAVEN'T HAD ONE OF THESE IN A WHILE!!!
I very much understand how the edit could be misinterpreted tbh, but it was intended to be Tobias speaking French to Fenn and Fenn speaking German to Tobias! :)
Answer to your other question below the split, it was getting a bit long ↓↓↓
It's really neat that you ask how I think the story would go if their countries had different languages, because I do actually have headcanons about Fenn and Tobias' knowledge of other languages, despite having never thought about this scenario exactly before. Basically, I think Tobias would've been taught multiple different languages in his studies, but in Sona I think learning multiple languages would be looked down upon or maybe even banned (it helps the government keep them brainwashed if their ability to read, understand, and learn from other countries is limited), so I don't think Fenn would've been taught another language aside from his main one.
SO! If their countries had different main languages. I think there would be a huge language barrier on Sona's side, because I think the majority of Sonan soldiers wouldn't speak the Vaylinian language, including Fenn (I can see Oskar knowing it and having taught him some words and phrases, though.) However, I think it's very possible and maybe even likely that Tobias would've known the Sonan language.
Therefore, in the beginning they would've spoken entirely in the Sonan language. We probably would've only seen the Vaylinian language being spoken when Tobias is alone, in flashbacks, and when he's saying something he doesn't want Fenn to understand.
I also think Fenn would have a huge mental rule against speaking the Vaylinian language at all, to the point where he'd see it as a betrayal to his country, so there would've been no teaching him anything in the beginning unfortunately. He probably would've gotten very aggressive when hearing Tobias speak in the Vaylinian language as well, because I think he would take it as 'I can't understand what he's saying' = 'he's planning something', which, as we all know, means he'd go absolutely berserk and DEMAND to know what he's saying. (It would be really funny if Tobias just came up with random bullshit and told Fenn that's what he said LMAOOOO)
But over time, as he got closer to Tobias, it would've changed a bit. Especially after their truce agreement, I think he'd still ask what Tobias is saying when he speaks in Vaylinian, but it would be more out of genuine curiosity rather than paranoia. Still no speaking it himself, though. Maybe he would've spoken it to Tobias for the first time around the same time that he let him stay in his quarters, and started trying to actually learn it shortly after the current point we are at in the story? (For any time travellers, the "current point" as of this post is Episode 83 - Truth: Part 2)
Anyway this was a SUPER COOL ask to receive and there are almost definitely more interesting possibilities of this AU aside from the stuff I mentioned 👀
#cod answers#fizz answers#ask answered#faroff ask#faroff#faroff webcomic#faroff webtoon#faroffwebtoon#faroffwebcomic#fenn velle#tobias hawkfordt#tobias faroff#fenn faroff#faroff discussion#faroff headcanon
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| tzjd + ‘some protector’ by Role Model
#violently throwing up!!!#still not over them and probably never will be tbh!!!#kicking a dead horse rn#anywayyyssd tried a new style this time really wanted that Haunted feeling yk#anaheim ducks#philadephia flyers#trevor zegras#jamie drysdale#tzjd#drygras#hockey poetry#hockey textposts#𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐩𝐢𝐞 𝐞𝐩#hockey web weaving#hockey edit#nhl#tz11#jd9
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i often really do feel like an .. unwanted part of the fandom, i dont draw beautiful landscapes, i have unpopular but strong opinions im constantly annoying about and rarely change, dont like/dont draw the pretty young popular twinks and hot gurls to fanboi over nor do i turn characters into one, the opposite moreso, draw only one ship no ones heard of really, got little energy to interact with the few people that are nice to me and send me asks so it probably looks like im ignoring everyone and unfortunately but still rarely get so stressed i get overwhelmed and emotional about pehaps seemingly minor things and spiral almost into a breakdown feeling super embarrassed about it afterwards but the damage is already done and i look like a freak or agressive weirdo
#ganondoodles talks#also probably sounds like self pity#but this feeling hits everytime i see a super popular artist be the popular cool artist#i am a little weird i know that and thats not somethign bad i think#but the internet never gets to see that much of me#i tend to write posts when i am at my worst bc it has to go somewhere#so the image it tells people is that im a weirdly strong opiniod freak that gets breakdowns over nothing#i also dont feel like im otherwise -cool tm- enough to balance that out#i dont think my art is as stylized or as inventive as others nor am i cool to interact with bc idk how to be cool to interact with#i feel double bad when i misstepped with someone i used to talk to bc of something stupid ... or just dont know what i did wrong#im guessing its especially when i am in that spiraling state of mind where i really am not myself tbh#it still feels very bad bc i feel like i can never make it up to anyone again#sorry i acted like a jerk my brain was exploding in emotions in a desperate attempt to deal with something idk how to deal with-#-and made me not act like myself but now i feel really dumb about it#doesnt sound like a good excuse#... i want to thank those that do stick with me#even if i acted strange sometimes- even if i disappointed sometimes- even when i couldnt keep a promise#there are little things that still make me angry at myself#like that one time i asked in the tags whod read as long as the end of them and if someone did shoudl send me an ask so id draw a lil thing#and i got two#and i kept trying to remeber oh shit i need to do that and forgetting again/not having energy for it in a loop#i still feel like a jerk about it but now its probably too late#i wish i could answer all asks i get but man my energy for that is always rock bottom#no matter how much i enjoy the ask#and i love getting asks!!!#im sorry :((
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funny thought that just came to me do you think watanuki would start crying getting spooned for the first time because he's emotionally overwhelmed
#tbh i feel like this would be his reaction to many things#fundamental part of his personality is shoving his emotions down then them bursting out when hes shown love#i think hes one of those people where physicality which cant be disguised or understated would drive him nuts in many ways#itd take a little bit of time for him to not have like a whole Thing whenever doing anything like this but its cute and he has the worlds#most patient bf on the planet who very much gets how he ticks and sees things for what they are#watanuki would probably still be a bit embarrassed about that vulnerability at first tho#just cause its being taken in new situations#douwata#yet another post where all the juice is in the tagd#this is inspired by me getting overwhelmed when someone did that to me the first time it felt legitimately insane#when i was a teenager i was the big spoon for the girl i liked and thats something i like to do but id never had the reverse#like i had it offered to me the next time i loved someone and i remember thinking in the moment like#is that allowed??? for me??? ME??? are you sure???#it wasnt a romantic relationship but i got kind of emotionally overwhelmed and giddy having the tables turned#i still remember it fondly#theres benefits to both and i miss both of those experiences SOOOO bad#as soon as i end up in a situation with a friend or partner where i can do it again its over for everyone#in my last relationship i did a lot of pillow hugging but it wasnt quite the same. definitely fantasised abt it a lot tho#there is something so beneficial to being someone whose mind ticks somewhat similarly to your fav#you can READ THEIR MIND ITS SO GOOD YOU CAN CALL THEM OUT#picks watanuki up like a longcat and shakes them around i know what you are!!! i know what you are!!!#ok but imagine doumeki immediately catching on#hooking his head over and just kinda#gently nuzzling him like a rabbit while getting to see the look on his faceeeee#doumeki is first and foremost hamster coded to me and secondary kind of like a hawk or a crow but hes also kinda rabbit#namely the thing rabbits do where they chin things and people and other rabbits to show affection and possession#and also that sometimes they kinda just quietly show affection in that way that screams 'this thing understands everything'#this is anecdotal i havent got to hang out with a rabbit yet im just very online on rabbit reddit
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love how hua cheng is just like "I support xie lian rights and xie lian wrongs, except he can never do anything wrong ever even when he kills a bunch of people. Go off king" and Xie Lian is like “This is my beautiful husband, he has committed war crimes, but haven’t we all?”
And their relationship is somehow healthier than anything I've ever been in.
#emma posts#to be fair everything involving me didn’t have me aware that it was a thing#but I couldn’t compete anyway#tcgf#is it dating someone if they never told you they were dates and you misinterpreted them?#not asking for a friend#this is just straight up every situation I’ve been in#that’s as close as I’ve ever actually gotten to dating someone#I’ve witnessed plenty of other people’s relationships though#‘we’ve been dating for six months’ ‘those were dates?!’ ‘you asked me out first’ ‘and you rejected me!’ <- closest to dating I’ve been#all the other times I didn’t even ask the person out first. the just flat out never said it was a date and I thought we were just chilling#and all the other times I’ve asked someone out they rejected me and then DIDN’T ask me out without telling me they were asking me out#how was I supposed to know he changed his mind?#I’m still not over how I didn’t know we were dating until after we broke up#just the sheer comedy of my love life gets to me#comedy of errors ass love life#I’m getting really side tracked#Xie Liana’s friends were totally reasonable to think that someone stalking someone for several centuries is alarming#but somehow those two had it happen in the healthiest way possible???#I respect it tbh#only healthy relationship I’ve ever had that much sheer dedication in is me and my favorite cat which is a very maternal relationship#and i didn’t even actually kill the people who threatened him. they weren’t real threats but they knew they did psychological damage#to this day I wish I bit them until I tasted blood#but being in detention with them would have meant being around them longer than I had to be 😑#they have probably changed a lot since then but I still never want to see them again in my life#that might actually have played a slight role in how feral I get about protecting my cat 🐈⬛#I’m getting into personal issues again#our co-dependent parental dynamic. me and my cat. is perfectly healthy and I will not change it#said by someone who is not healthy but definitely will not change this specific thing#and the co-dependency is in fract mutual. that’s why it’s CO dependent
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The pokemon anime subreddit fascinates and frustrates me on equally deep levels
#smiling and blinking innocently. long tags ahead :) being normal :)🌸☀️☘️✌️💐#i'm such a 'minding my own business' person in fandom. i feel like my usual reaction to seeing takes I disagree with is#'well. people probably hate some of my takes so whatever'. perhaps even the ones i'm about to share#but. man.#it's like a portal to 2010 forum discourse but goh and serena are there this time.#deeply fascinated by the repetition of old ship wars too????#what do you mean we're still having legitimate 'but drew and gary are mean' discourse 😭#i mean by all means they should keep arguing because mostly i'm just glad that the wider pokeani sphere remembers drew at all#but that being said i wonder what kind of rivalry these people would have wanted instead?????#because there's other rivalries we could point to where they weren't air-quotes 'mean'. but we have those and people ignore them lol#because they're-imo- usually less engaging and dynamic. except for dawn and zoey who have never done anything wrong in their lives.#like we COULD give everyone the supportive happy rival experience a la may and grace or whatever but that's just not the SAME#and augh. taking psychic damage and trying to be normal but that's the THINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG OKAY#are Gary and Drew needlessly mean in early episodes? yeah lmao. i'm not arguing on that. they suck ❤️ completely insufferable.#b u t#there's that line. right. the line where it slowly slides into backhanded compliments too and giving that motivation-#-for their rival to work harder and the fact that they want that reaction and attention from this one person so badly.#like shipping aside I really do think that the friction of the Gary/Ash and May/Drew rivalries is what made them GOOD.#and yeah sometimes it was out of line but also that's just how the dub is as a whole tbh. they just said whatever shit they could 😭#AND BACK TO THE BEING NICE THING. Ash and May both got growth from their nice rivalries but not what they got from Gary/Drew.#it's different types of growth and lessons and they needed both kinds from different sources. I'd argue the rougher rivalries taught more?#regardless of your opinions on the characters themselves you can't deny that Gary/Paul/Drew/Harley/etc- the rivals that pushed A&M-#had the biggest impact on their growth over the rivals that didn't push. note that 'friends' and 'rivals' are different categories for this#I'm pitting. like. gary and paul against morrison and ritchie and not against dawn or pikachu or brock or whatever. different convo.#but it was growth out of spite to be better than the jackass rival at first and then that CHANGED INTO MUTUAL BETTERMENT#AND WANTING TO BE BETTER ✨FOR✨ AND ✨WITH✨ THEIR RIVAL. OKAY. (re: gary and drew specifically)#and as a result of all of this. drew and gary did get better to be fair!#well gary did kind of just start picking on goh instead gjkhsdkfj (joking) but ykwim.#DAMN IT I'M OUT OF ROOM AND IT DELETED A WHOLE ASS PART 2 THAT I HAD TYPED OUT#fine. i'll make this its own post at some point because i yearn to yap on about it
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i miss her…
#cant believe i forgot about her till the photobook q&a im so sorry witch mona~~~~~~~#press f for honeypre atelier gachas it was gone too soon™️#(currently e x t r e m e l y worried and stressed for tomorrow like never before b u t i have to appear like im fine sobs save me monachann)#(can i go on a stress-prompted tangent here about something inane? no? toooo bad im gonna go off anyway~~~~)#ok so. like. since witch mona is the image i have up ‘ere and since it’s still 七月… today’s tangent will be on irl spooky stories!!#s o. presenting a decently repressed memory from my childhood that resurfaced while i was hibernating at home:#anyways. well. thoughts about the afterlife can vary from person to person yes? there’s no one true correct belief after all#but the one question that unites us all is probably the one and only ‘are ghosts real?’#and well. for personal reasons i think so. i mean i’ve seen this one dude i hate get possessed a couple of times so welp. cant deny it ig.#wild story about that actually. back in the day my family’s finances were allegedly doing so badly that [dude i hate] had to pick up#a *c e r t a i n* side hustle for extra cash. that side hustle? literal grave digging at the cemetary. at night no less#and *ofc* he wasn’t respectful about it in the least so ofc some spirits followed him home. yay. free roommates.#one(?) of them even took residence in my room at the time and im 80% sure they ate my history textbook :( much sads#anyways well once that guy had too much to drink (which was rather often tbh) he’d get possessed. fun!#the only possession i ever saw was the n-rarity angry ghost who’d just huff and puff in silence with unfocused eyes most of the time#he’d occasionally put on a leather jacket too. but that was like a r-rarity event that didn’t happen that often#my mother had the chance to also witness the mosquito (who tried to barge into my room for fresh blood) and the 姑娘 (self-explanatory)#which is kinda unfair tbh. i wanted to see the ur-rarity ones too :( mostly bc it’d be funny to see a guy i hate act ooc (impure intentions)#oh right. how did we get the dude out of his possession? we just shook his arm really hard. prolly caused some lasting effects but who know#i think he could also just sleep off the possession but idk i was asleep for the ur-rarity incidents.#cant ask the one witness of it bc i dont want to bring back unnecessary flashbacks of [guy we hate]#anyways it’s been years since we moved out from that place and i still want my history textbook back. mostly for the principle of it but—#and so that’s the tangent of the day. i feel weirdly less stressed now thanks witch mona#i do wonder how my grandparents are faring on this 七月 though…#b u t !!!!! tomorrow’s date on the lunar calendar says it’s an auspicious day for wishful activity and starting a new job!!! so… maybe~~~~?#hauauauauauauauuauaaaaaa anyways insane tangent over stream mona’s new album ok bye#oops forgor to disable rbs i hate how easy it is to forget to use this function man
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fucked up
#im slowly becoming more aware of the paranoid brainworms. or maybe theyve grown over time.#but its been. not fun.#and i think theyre dumb. they should stop it tbh.#and now that ive recognized that theyre a problem (yesterday being a tipping point). i dont want to entertain them.#or i will try not to entertain them.#which i decided just now. i opened the automatic door to the cinema like 15 mins ago.#and the brainworms go 'ooohhhh but what if you did it WRONG. what if they arent actually open and your stupid.?#what if you made. and are actively making a MISTAKE. if this is the case you will never be redeemed as a human. ever'#and. as i got up to the stairs i just. stopped.#for some reason it clicked that. this is not something i should be listening to.#with my counselor ive been working on selfconvidence. and mostly about being assertive about my wants.#but i think its also been highlighting my paranoia. and as i said ive been aware of this for the past few weeks.#and i guess just now was the epifany of 'what the fuck are you doing'. and it was something i couldnt explain by actual anxities.#so im. quitting paranoia ig. yayyay#sillyposting#ik it can sound dumb and i also know that this is serious but: not walking up those stairs to doublecheck was scary.#and it by far wont be the scariest thing i have to do to stop this now.#i will probably start by trying to check the time and location for classes less.#i already took the step a few weeks ago that made me ~show that i have wants in front of my family wooo scaryy~#aka. putting sugar in my smoothies and not. or trying not to. care about what my parents thought about it.#which again. the voices are calling me stupid for being scared of this.#but im sitting here actually nearly tearing up talking about it.#whatwver.......#anyyay ig what i wanted to say is: erm i have problems. but i did something today that challenged them and i was fine. i will try it again.#hm. changing yourself is not awesome.#and the fact that im doing by myself?#it both feels childish that i need the voices to stop me and relieving that im able to do this for me.#hhmhmh.....#its also challenging bc some paranoia is in my head. still very very much warranted. good even.#but i know that im just telling myself that to dig a deeper hole to an extend. to not feel forced to change myself. whatever
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i feel like there must be a gold mine of yo-kai watch stuff that my moms bought and then never actually gave to me.

i have this now-
#puppy rambles#yo-kai watch#it's just a novelization of the first anime episode meant for. level 2 readers i guess. whatever that means-#my yo-kai watch collection is growing without me even doing anything i haven't bought anything but the games#okay that's a lie i did buy my jibanyan and rudy plushies. but other than that-#i have the jibanyan baddinyan n robonyan medal moments figures courtesy of my moms buying them years ago#when dollar tree sold yo-kai watch stuff (i miss those days)#that one jibanyan feature you can pose and change the expression of with stickers also courtesy of dollar tree#a bunch of medals courtesy of blind bags i got for my birthday and also a yo-kai watch that i got at the same time#i have a komasan figure that's like the jibanyan one somewhere. and a jibanyan figure you can switch to baddinyan. also from dollar tree#oh i have a komajiro medal moments figure from one of my elementary school friends who liked yo-kai watch. okay we weren't really friends#we were kinda friends. we mostly just bonded over liking yo-kai watch and never talked beyond that-#god i miss those days 😔#oh right i also bought the manga volumes i have myself. still need the others. should probably put them on my wishlist#anyways. yea i didn't buy 90% of my yo-kai watch merchandise-#also those medal blind bags basically just got me a bunch of snotsolong. i got like five. i got a lot of other stuff too#but i have so many snotsolongs. five different snotsolong wanted to be my friend i guess-#i have no use for the yo-kai watch tbh. it's way too loud 😔#cool to have tho
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have had a bit of my crash after flying too close to the sun this past week and you know what, it’s very annoying and also very good for me in a stabilizing way.
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Behold, my latest and most enamouring new obsession:

Malina, Lady of the Chief of the Northern Water Tribe. As if Red Lotus child OCs weren’t niche enough
#my art#artists on tumblr#the legend of korra#lok malina#still feel like that’s too vague of a tag but I can’t come up with anything better for now#and yeah. she has completely stolen by heart and I don’t know how to feel about that#don’t think I ever was this attracted to my own art before#to be fair the design isn’t mine. it’s very heavily based on something nina drew back in 2021#because I did not have the energy or creativity to come up with my own thing#but the art is all mine and I genuinely adore it. super proud of myself which is a rare occurrence#anyways. kat and I spent three days digging this niche lower and lower and now have a he#*hell of a lot of lore about this basically nonexistent character#for lore about a lady from the North Pole a lot of it is rather hot… to the point my cheeks are burning non stop#I would say I’d let her do anything she wants to me but in my very specific aroace-adjacent case it’s more like#I’d let her tell me to do anything she wants to her#if that makes any sense and I have not completely lost my goddamn mind yet#okay. enough yapping. back to the art itself#lazy background because I suck at those and am not currently attempting to learn them. I’ll probably do that over the summer#about time anyway. my characters have been placed against an off-white background for far. far too long#this is the first piece in just over a year that isn’t tagged with sotrl. which is kinda weird tbh#I’ve been drawing my OCs almost exclusively for nearly 5 years so it is genuinely surprise I’m branching out#*surprising#less branching out and more diving from one hole into another but y’know#anyway. in my personal and very correct opinion she turned out absolutely gorgeous#her servants are way too lucky and unalaq is way too much of an idiot. no offence to vaatu but he could never beat out this#and I also have Kat’s personal and very correct opinion to back up my own. two against the void. once again we’re winning#I wanna draw her a lot more bc she has completely possessed my brain. I just wish character interactions were easier to draw 😭#I’ll figure it out. just need to fight my visualisation issues for a proper idea. brb#okay I’m almost at the tag limit so. in summary:#she 🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵
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Thinking about how I rarely get the yuri I want in non-yuri specific media that has canon queer characters or a least a sizable yuri fanbase
#korasami was the first time I got what I wanted and bubbline the second and then never again#why don't most canon yuri ships appeal to me#99% of pokémon's popular game ships are objectively wrong#why are you shipping Hilda with Rosa when her childhood best friend is right there?#Jasmine canonically regularly hangs out with and admires Erica#stop making kris and lyra related when their only similarity is their hair style make them make out instead#mad that pricefield is technically canon when max regularly swoons over kate#still never understood how Kim and Ron got together (they never would have let Kigo become canon at that point)#but also Kim was too good for Ron tbh and I thought he'd be cute with Monique#I will probably never like HarleyIvy because Ivy was always a dick to Harley in btas and hardly a better option for her than the joker#(at least I can enjoy HarleyJoker knowing it's a terrible and toxic ship without having that reconned in all future media#and pretending I have some sort of moral high ground)#but also JokerHarley fans are terrible and keep them away from me#I bet you if the joker was female yuris would eat that shit up#where is my AkaneRanma yuri I'm dying please#I just need akane to be bi for ranma give me bi akane merch#invisible talking moose#someone watch Jubei-chan with me so I can stop being thr only person alive to ship her with Freesia
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hang on are cougars like panthers
#'the cougar also known as the panther' SCREAM#dont mind me rewatching carmilla as a side effect of my newfound interest in vampires#you'd think it was renewed interest in vampires but no#i actually have never been all that interested in vampires as their own thing i was just gay#and i dont think carmilla really explored the concept itself#like A* in using the medium. D or whatever in exploring their subject matter#actually tbf their subject matter was lesbianism so. again probably an A. they knew what they wanted and they did it well#idk how letter grades work tbh#also not actually sure how much they got into the vampire thing which is why im rewatching to check#bc i was reading iwtv and i was like damn carmilla left stuff on the table#but i also think a lot went over my head#even just english wise im a little stunned at how much i didnt catch. like i was fluent in 2015 for sure but. you do keep learning words#also carmilla is like a popculture remix and i dont have a lot of popculture knowledge so a lot of that went over my head too#now i have just enough to know that im missing a lot#like theres a line in s1 where laura goes 'im living with a vampire. an honest to lestat vampire' and like. never caught that#bc i didnt know how the fuck that was fhkjghgh#but anyway im watching s2 and laura's like 'vampire seductress here is just crabby bc im not falling for her 17th century idea of game'#and like they keep calling armand Ancient right? but carmilla is not much younger#just the difference in framing is what made me start thinking abt it all#like carmilla is 400smth and laura is aware abt that to joke abt it and probably thinks it's a little hot but then you think abt how they#depict that kinda age with armand like what he says to madeleine. 'how do you go on when everything from your era is gone'#and sure carmilla has that loneliness but DAMN. like fuck. shes been doing this same trick. being like the abigail hobbs to the dean for#centuries? i mean there was that century or idk how long where she was buried alive or whatever. but THAT TOO#like damn fuck!!!!!!!!!! ive been going through the fanfic again this week and like there really isnt much#at least doesnt seem to be much that explores this. unless it's in all the aus bc i filtered those out (and still got them)#also interesting difference is if i remember correctly the hollstein happy ending is that carmilla becomes human#in iwtv of course like every important relationship is between vampires. and every lover turns vampire. and every vampire is a lover#sorta. bc abuse themes and stuff. so the inversion makes sense but wouldnt it have been kinda cool if she turned laura tho#anyway. can you believe they were like 'well shes a cougar thats her job and also her supernatural power' dhfkhjgkh as i said: A*
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