#srsly I can’t even
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So I substitute taught today.
And I have never been so affirmed in my choice to go after a COUNSELING career, rather than return to teaching.
First thing was that detention is “supposed to be a punishment,” and like my whole body is “immediately no.”
Punishment as a concept is about control, is not a long-term, beneficial solution, and fuck that shit.
Consequences that create self control and self discipline and support self reflection, yes.
Arbitrary, authoritarian punishment, hell no.
Second was this catch up credit program that had a kid watching 20 minute videos and answering dove quiz questions at the end. As if that’s a history education. WHERE IS THE THINKING?! WHERE IS THE DISCUSSION?! WHERE IS THE CRITICAL ANALYSIS?! THE DISCOVERY OF THE DEPTHS AND HEIGHTS HUMANITY CAN GO TO?! THE MORAL QUANDRIES?!
It wasn’t even good history videos, just lame dates and numbers and AUGH.
And the AMOUNT of kids who had “finished their work” (per the teacher), and could just … do nothing. Their butts had to be in these classroom seats, and they had no work to do.
Oh. My. God.
The LEVEL of “teach to the test” things have sunk to; I had no idea.
And having them just sit … omg, get them out growing a garden. Moving. Building shit. Doing art. An improv class.
There were coloring pages, but like THESE ARE HIGH SCHOOL KIDS.
There were no good books in the room (except the one I brought in my bag.)
Just.
I was sad.
And they had to go to the bathroom and be back in 5 minutes.
Now I get we don’t want kids meandering the hallways, but like.
Good grief.
I just.
I’m tired.
I was also distressed by the things the kids talked about going on in their personal lives, and was like “YUP. COUNSELOR.”
So. Yeah.
#education#us education#srsly I can’t even#I was so shook#so they just went on their phones#which was the expected and allowed thing to do#like absolutely not#y’all gonna learn some shit#do some grounding#something
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oh my god i‘ve just seen the new photos of the aftermath of the siege on al shifa hospital these war criminals have burned it it’s almost unrecognizable! the remains of the executed people in the yard still wearing handcuffs! surgeons killed! a whole ass medical team kidnapped! i am at a loss for words at the fact people are still so caught up in their own bubble that they simply IGNORE this
#had a friend visit recently whom I’ve seen the last time on Oct 9 and back then I already said to her:#I think this is gonna get real bad and israel will use what happened as a twisted excuse to unleash something huge on gaza#everyone who has been a bit in the picture before knew this would happen but I couldn’t imagine it could get THIS DERANGED#and she was here a few days ago and I mentioned gaza and she was like ah well I can’t deal with this horrific stuff I need to be in my bubbl#like u love horror movies? srsly why even watch them when all u gotta do is watch the news from palestine#and no matter how awful u think oct 7 was you can’t tell me u think what happened ever since is justified or oct 7 was »just as bad«#free palestine#free gaza
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ouuuughhh my birthday is in 3 days yaaaaaayayyynghhhh why was I cursed with having birthday depression school anxiety and seasonal depression (I get it in summer for some reason) all in the same month……………
#im fine………..soooo fine#srsly tho I am for the most part doing ok lol#I made this image earlier when I was particularly stressed out lmao#but your ol pal hana bobo finch will push through this dreaded month#if I can just turn my brain off most of the time it’ll be smooth sailing#vent post#not a pikmin post#< technically it is but I use that tag in personal posts so ppl can block them#the passage of time scares me ahahah#things are going too fast I can’t keep up. I’m gonna have RESPONSIBILITIES soon enough#oughhh why csnt I just enjoy my teenage years without worrying about the future#wtf am I even supposed to do for the next like. 60 70ish years.#ughhhh idk I’ll feel better after some sleep#oof I realize how much I’ve been yapping whoops this is social media not a journal
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Listen, LISTEN, what makes Kanej such a compelling and unique ship is that they IN FACT don’t need skin on skin contact to love each other. They don’t need what other couples have to feel how they feel or to show their affection for each other. They have so much trauma and issues they have to deal with but that does not stop them from being willing to try to be together despite their struggles. They can barely hold hands but that does not erase the yearning and the love and devotion they so clearly feel for the other.
Kaz is willing to try to put himself together for her. He shows he cares by giving her everything she ever wanted: her freedom and her parents and a ship to hunt slavers.
And Inej canonically states she doesn’t think she could ever have a normal relationship with anybody else, she doesn’t want that, she’s not made for that life. What she wants is Kaz being willing to try to open up for her. The “I will have you without armor” is not about her wanting him to remove his gloves for her and give her physical affection. SHE DOESN’T EVEN KNOW IF SHE COULD EVEN HANDLE THAT.
What she wants is Kaz being willing to try for her. If she was going to make herself vulnerable and open her heart to a relationship with him she needs him to meet her in the middle. She knows what she deserves and she was not going to try if Kaz was going to give her nothing but his usual emotionally repressed self.
That’s it. It’s not about skin on skin contact, it’s not about Inej needing a man without trauma to fulfill physical needs she cannot even handle just yet because she was the victim of human trafficking and repeated SA in the Menagerie. And I DESPISE the writers for completely erasing that aspect and daring to imply something between Inej and Tolya. Tolya who canonically states he has no interest in romance, who literally says his books and his poetry are more than enough! That one writer with their stupid IG post, I swear they don’t have even the most basic understanding of these characters and what make them so unique and special. LITERALLY NO ONE ASKED FOR A LOVE TRIANGLE WHERE ITS NOT NEEDED STOP THAT SHIT RIGHT THIS INSTANT!
#kanej#shadow and bone#six of crows#sorry for the rant but that ig post literally made my skin crawl#how dare they?!#even if it was just a stupid plot device to make kaz jealous like lmao have you met kaz?! do you even know him AT ALL?!#that man would 100% give up if he thought Inej would be happy with someone else#like we’re talking about the man who bought a whole ship for her to leave even when he desperately wanted her to stay in ketterdam#knowing damn well she might not ever return#if he thought Inej was happy with someone else#he wouldn’t even try he’d just brood from a distance and try to convince himself it’s for the better#he is so self deprecating he would instantly be like: you know what? yes she deserves so much better and he can give her everything I can’t#like srsly if that is the direction they’re going with I don’t want it thanks they can have their garbage bye#inej ghafa#kaz brekker
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I fear I do not know what to do now that I’m free 🫠
#you mean to say I just can do nothing ?#that feels so wrong#I feel like I have to do something rn#stop this is actually insane I don’t need to sleep from 10 ish till 2 am anymore ?!!#and I don’t need to study from 3am till 10 pm anymore ?!#I feel like crying I can’t believe it#like people don’t wake up at 3 am to do things ?!#above everything though I’m so terrified of things going back to how they were a month ago#bro if i went back to that period I would’ve soon actually committed suicide I’m not even gonna lie#like srsly it was so bad I fell down so hard#and yet of course nobody was there with me so#I had no friends to help me through that time no support nothing#and in truth I still have nobody I can rely on#I only can ever truly rely on myself which sucks cause I’m not reliable with these things#anyways if I don’t come back I guess you can be certain that I had succeeded at killing myself ar long last LOL#I don’t think anybody realises JUST how bad things are for me yk#not that they care remotely#which is okay I guess#I just wished someone would care for starters#and that someone would prove they cared even though that seems like it’s too much to ask for someone like myself#clearly I don’t deserve anything at all#oh well#dora daily
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I want to rewatch sp so bad, but ever since they changed the website so that you can’t use ad blockers and there is that annoying ever-present cookies button in the corner, I just can’t be bothered. Please, almighty kung fu panda (or whoever else controls the universe ig) restore the website back to it’s original form… I am but a humble girl; I don’t ask much… just this one favor and maybe like some money bc I’m kinda poor rn. Thx
#original post#south park#sp#south park’s annoying bitchass website#and i know i can watch it on soap2day#but most episodes are censored#and have bad audio quality#and no (or late/slow) subtitels#and on the sp site you get a discription of the episode and shit#and it helps when i’m bored and just kinda wanna scroll through to see what i want#point is#i’m a complainy little bitch#but srsly tho#why’d they massacre the website#it was amazing b4#now i can’t even remember where i left off on my rewatch#also i can’t log in on my account at all bc it’s fucking broken#what the fuck#so many tags#does anybody read these#comment balls fire emoji 🔥 if you are reading this#then i know you’re a real one
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Train somewhere in Montana this morning around 5:30am
#i srsly can’t even figure out where this dining car is they keep making announcements abt it and I feel like I’m in an episode#of the twilight zone bruh every time I walk around looking for it I get more confused and I can’t find anyone who works on this mfing train#I just want some water and a sandwich or smth I still have like 8 or 9 hours on this thing#montana#pnw#my posts
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you are SOOO right about desi!james. that boy is WHITEE through and through. can get behind a desi lily maybe, but (to me) james is just a HEAVILY privileged guy who didn’t know how well he had it. making him desi would talk away from that in my opinion, with white privilege and all. that may just be me! idk
no ur so right like it’s not even an opinion that’s just a fact, desi lily id understand (still would prefer they just keep them white and make new original desi characters that everyone loves but whatever)
so many desi boys could act like james like so many of them do irl but the difference is that james gets away with it and is never punished in the same ways as a desi boy would
ALSO???? U KNOW WHATS INSANE TO ME. the most popular desi fancast isn’t even a desi actor. reiky de valk didn’t have a drop of desi in him like pleeeeease don’t take the piss
#when I found that out I srsly had to sit there in silence for a minute#and now it’s just rando brown boys let’s be serious#anyone is a fancast for anyone these days like the 3 marauders were the only ones (and now regulus) that had solid fancast#can’t even stick to one brown boy now?!?!#Idc it’s still ATJ for me#asks#anon
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SOMEONE PLEASE CAPTION THIS
(this is from the commercial, not a leak :D)
#toh#theowlhouse#the owl house#I JUST CAN’T ANYMORE XDDDD#kirvee#LIKE SRSLY THO WHAT EVEN IS THIS#HUNTER LOOKS LIKE A DUCK#HE LOOKS LIKE HE’S ABOUT TO LAY AN EGG#HE’S A DUCK NOW#AND WILLOW LOOKS SO DONE WITH IT#WILLOW JUST LOOKS LIKE “HUNTER STOP LAYING AN EGG”
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Whenever I feel strange and distant from myself I like to go on google maps street view and explore the villages where my family are
#the problem is finding them cos there are a whole bunch of small places named alcantarilla#yday I was at a festival and there was a paella stall#the guy sighed thinking I was another person after vegan paella#and I asked if he had any paella marinera left and then he got excited#apparently no one had been getting it. it was unpopular.#that broke my heart. anyway we had a nice chat !#the paella was alright. I suppose if you’re making large batches for English folk you aren’t gonna put loads of saffron#also it’s best when fresh made but you also can’t do that at a festival rly. you make it and that’s what there is even a few hrs later#but I had paella im happy:)))))))))))#I’ve been too tired to make it myself lately#I enjoy making it Moreso when it’s for someone#but everyone ik hates seafood. srsly we live on an island why do you hate seafood
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i easily get annoyed seeing my sister wake up late and prepare slowly before going out because she doesn’t mind following filipino time nd it’s such blatant disrespect to the people she made plans with :/
#and then she gets snappy because we keep rushing her Girl.#personally i extend understanding when the cause of tardiness is traffic because traffic here is horrible n unpredictable#but when u live here u also have to adjust to help respect others’ time like ??#anyway my sister woke up late asked me like four times to help her decide for an outfit#and she hasn’t even planned how to get there.#like i am grateful she doesn’t carry eldest sibling anxiety or whatever but srsly… the disregard for time#i can’t bear it i feel like i’m the one who would get punished for her tardiness#moi
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Ofc my hyperfixation(?) leads to wanting to draw her so I looked up references and… 😶 the gap…. Pg-13 in America vs banned in Australia fejivefkjfjer
Update; its 3am but ,,, I did that glkas little doodle
#irt sagiri#it’s getting late so sleep will probs overtake wanting to draw but…#do masamune and sagiri get together… why is that so ominous sounding…#fyi- no they don’t. I read the ending… the author chickened out w.. probs for the best#a 15 year old and a 13 year old in a relationship would seem kinda weird to me imho…#when you’re a teenager even a few months can feel like a MASSIVE gap gloss hence - I can’t imagine a 15yr old EVER looking to date a 13yr ol#(I may be misremembering their ages but I think sagiri is chuu1 and masamune kou1 or set :’) unthinkable www … and that’s putting aside That#I felt so sorry for sagiri ngl….I get why she’s a shut in TT I rly do… the author srsly sucks :’) pls…#at least if masamune makes her feel safe and happy to be around that’s smt but srsly these kids NEED adults around them#kanna rambles#I could go on forever…
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I wish I could inject pasilyo into my brain so I can have permanent happiness
#There’s this specific part of the song#It srsly alters my brain chemistry#Anyways#i hate tumblr sm#Idk like I Gen hate being on here sm#No matter what account I make no matter if I tell ppl about it whether I don’t tell ppl I just hate this place soooo much#Like if I have a following it sucks because it’s rlly lonely if I don’t it’s still lonely and then if there’s nobody at all it’s lonely#Loneliness is what got me to discord boy so like :D#The fact I am genuinely missing him sm I’m gonna krill myself 😻🙏#Also I think I hate talking to minors cause these kids be letting themselves get groomed all the time I’m so tired of seeing it#The creep in my course is being so weird to Raisa who is a minor … I can’t help but think it’s all my fault … I invited her to the pharm gc#To show her how messy it was ….#I didn’t expect her to follow and accept requests of everyone …#Anyways I just am so annoyed. Like I wish I could have one person just one where I can be confident in being their no.1 but every time I th#Think I’m maybe somewhere high up on someone’s list of important ppl I realise I overestimated my position even tho I’m rlly self conscious#And being myself down over that. Also I still hate Eid. I hate Eid sm. How do ppl genuinely enjoy Eid. Idk if I’ve ever been excited for Ei#It’s like I’m just suddenly getting more sick of ppl by the day. I Gen don’t like talking to ppl at all even tho I used to rely on talking#To others like its sustenance now it’s just such a hassle to me because I’m so sick of being unimportant to literally every single person I#Have ever known. Literally everyone except maybe dahlia idk. the only person who has never gotten mad/snapped at me o is dahlia#And knowing my luck that will soon be taken from me too. Anyways good riddance to tumblr i loathe this site and im sick of the mind games#All the time from just existing on here. Gen makes me feel ill. I’m so sick of that girl I like and sick of everyone. The only time ppl car#Is when I cause a scene. And ykw atp I loathe being showed sympathy and pity for these sorts of posts because it just feels like a big joke#Cause why couldn’t you just care when I was fine. Why do you ONLY care when I’ve had enough of your bad behaviour. How does one make someon#Like me go mad with all these things#Istg if I come back to this dumb site whether to this acc to the tora one or my other account everyone has permission to beat me up.#dora daily#Tldr;I HATE ppl and everyone ever + I’m just sick of pretending like everyone doesn’t suck cause how can ppl be so insufferable intolerable#Insane horrible in every way and ppl like them. How do they live with themselves when they’re this aggravating. Every day I hate ppl more#Because their mannerisms their everything is just so embarrassing.#Essay tags 😻😻😻
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#I HATE BEING DUMB AND HAVING TO DO IMPORTANT THINGS 😭😭😭😭#have to put my signature on an online document but the document doesnt allow to download and sign it w a drawover feature/procreate/ect ????#also filling out this whole form i feel like an idiot…… i dont know what most of it even referred to i had to keep looking stuff up#and then the part where i had to write a paragraph for all my reasons ect i feel so stupid#theyre all gonna laugh at me and deny me#BUT SRSLY THAT SIGNATURE THING ?? DO I JUST LEAVE IT BLANK ?#I FEEL LIKE I CANT DO THAT EITHER#but i literally can’t sign it and they have it for submitting online !?! WHAT T.T
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not enough posts about nice blorbos. what about a character who has committed no atrocities. and if he has he’s real sorry about it.
#anyway bear with me#srsly where are the spots abt nice blorbos#posts*#blorbocore#this is prlly about Barry Allen#flashpoint wasn’t even remotely his fault#I think that is canon actually#also jayce talis#he’s a centrist he can’t help it#also Hank pym#he was trying to solve robots…#also valkyrie Cain#she’s real depressed about it
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Every time I open this app, I have to battle with the urge to rewatch the entirety of Gravity Falls.
#srsly#y’all need to stop posting about it#especially your AUs and head canons#they look so good#I can’t even get into it rn#I accidentally spawned in the Gravity Falls ao3 tag the other day#I literally do not rmbr how I got there#I was just suddenly there#I couldn’t even believe it#I’m probs gonna rewatch the show soon atp#gravity falls
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