#spot's projects

[original-bookshelf]

Little bitty project list for myself so I can check it off as I go.

Pocket Redactedverse Post (I will get to you all. I just need a minute)

imp! Maddie and imp! Allan video -> story boarding right now should have it all drawn out soon, audio's been picked out for a little while here

Redacted Roleplay Bingo Card

Redacted RP Doodles -> i've got at least four of them planned out and i want to play with a bit of a different style there

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Another year has passed, and with it the opportunity to reflect back on all that has happened. While my growth was not as dramatic as last year, I can still see lots of positive change.

I'll never have enough ways to say thank you for all the love and support you have given me this year. On to 2025!

(2023 summary here!)

[frootertooter]

A whole bunch of JLU Question doodles

Shout out to these comments that changed how I saw certain scenes + Jeffrey Combs' entire performance (his voice is so goodd)

Adding another compulsive nerd to my "favourite compulsive nerd characters" collection

[frowncake]

call boy

[peebiies]

sun🌇

[polyshodivorce]

Its not a true wxs MV if Emu and Rui don’t stop to say hi

[lucielleblanc]

me when i call. boy

[hinamie]

quick lmhs itafushi because god help me i have Not been able to get the concept of yuuji smiling/laughing into kisses out of my head

jjk atla!au with @philosophiums

[barksbog]

custom plush for @sauriaaaaaan of their really fun Aardcroc!

glow in the dark embroidery details

3D mochi nose and pawpads

big soft ears!!

custom printed shannon minky (printed on grey/brown base)

weighted with poly pellets

glow in the dark glass eyes

[zondearts]

GoG au leoneed

[alabasterwasps]

here’s a silly (shitty) little gif for some enjoyment

[original-bookshelf]

'sup! I go by Spot and I'm in a few fandoms. I already run a few RP blogs for one of them and I'm having a lot of fun with that. Those fandoms are...

The Penumbra Podcast

ASMR RP (Escaped Audios, Redacted Audio, Castle Audios, and a few others)

Avatar the Last Airbender

The Bad Batch

Epic: The Musical

There are probably more that'll join the list as time goes on here. I like discovering new stuff. I'm a neurodivergent queer fellow and I like to write and make art. Sometimes that's making graphics like my header here, other times it's rough sketches and fun doodles. I might post some of that here at some point and have fun with that. As far as writing goes, I've mainly been a fanfic writer but I might dive into some script writing at some point.

Ask box is always open for requests and questions and general tomfoolery.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Thank you all for an incredible 500 days of love and support. I offer you: answers to questions that no one has asked.

(As always, more can be found in the tags <3)

[project-sekai-facts]

The lyrics of SEIBAI ITAAAAAASU! contain a reference to the lyrics of Niccori^^Chousa-tai no Theme, both of which were produced by WONDERFUL☆OPPORTUNITY. In Niccori, there is a lyric where Tsukasa panics because he forgot to pack spare underwear for the trip, and in Seibai Itaaaaaasu!, released 2 and a half years later, there is a lyric where he says that he has matured because he didn't forget them this time.

[sunsetsover]

i wish i wasn't so exhausted because i want nothing more than to sit here and properly pick apart the inherent but unconventional ways their dom/sub dynamic presents itself between kant and bison. bc it's definitely always been there esp in these last few episodes but in episode 10 it was in everything. everything.

the pool scene was obvious. i already pulled that apart. but it was also in the way kant's reaction to being told off for being distracting during the mission was so different from the way bison reacted when kant told him off - bison basically looks like he's indulging a pouting child, while kant's face drops and he gets all sad looking. and it's in how different their reactions were to the being distracted too, how kant whined about how bison had promised not to distracted while bison firmly tells kant off for even trying.

and it's in how pissed and hurt kant when he finally saw bison in that car park - imo not so much because bison had told him they needed to stay away from each other, but because bison had been sneaking around watching kant when kant had no way of seeing bison or knowing he was alright at all, and that was so unfair to him, because that's not how it was supposed to work between them. they had just found their equilibrium and here bison was knocking it off kilter by giving and receiving while simultaneously withholding kant's ability to give and receive back. and that's not how they were supposed to work.

and it's in how silly kant was. how rambly and cute when he talked about the titanic experiment he saw or when he tried to get bison to reenact the king of the world scene. but also the way kant was just a brat the entire episode - going kinda rogue while on mission and mentioning the narc thing when he knows it pisses bison off and constantly pushing and pushing and pushing bison to find where the line is where bison will stop indulging him and start reprimanding him.

and it's the way bison does reprimand him and how kant listens. and it's in the way kant's eyes got all big and pleading when bison got all pissy and asked him if he wanted another scratch - and dare i say that and the pool scene were the first real little glimpses we see of what kant's like in actual subspace. and it's in the way you see bison notice that and realise kant's reacting positively, and how he reacts to that reaction with clear desire, but also decides to store that info away as opposed to acting on it bc it's not the time or place.

and most of all it's in kant asking bison to teach him to be like him. in kant handing himself over to bison the assassin and going 'use me. please please make use of me. mould me into a weapon you can wield.' and bison refusing to do that. refusing to make a killer of the boy he loves. in bison knowing kant's limit when kant doesn't and not crossing it. of protecting him from himself. but also making use of him anyway. knowing kant well enough to know that that's what he needed. to be used. because being used is being useful, and being useful is what kant has learned will have him kept around. and bc right now they don't have the time or spare energy to start unpicking that knot, bison meets it where it is: he finds uses for kant while also doing everything he possibly can to give kant agency and control: you don't have to do this. i can take it from here. will you help me with one more thing?

i know i've missed so much that i will kick myself for later. i also know this is incoherent. i've got maybe 10 hours of sleep in the past week. but i can't stop thinking about this fucking dynamic. it's so unique and yet so well defined in what it is. and i know the people that don't get that dynamic won't get what i'm trying to point at with this post. and tbh i get it! as obvious as it is there's also something elusive about it! it reminds me of that kaveh akbar quote where he's says trying to describe god is like trying to imagine a bladeless knife with no handle. the more language you try to put to kant and bison's dynamic, the more it recedes from view.

[fraternum-momentum]

The way you draw Kylar is so soft [to be fair all of your art is very soft from a physical aspect but I mean more emotionally in this case] and it reminds me of the way paintings of lovers are described in books or the way a rose petal feels idk

I very much like it and I just wanted to say that

it was 100 percent influenced by the music i was listening to at that time but thats such a pretty way of putting it, thank you,,