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The Silence in Faith
I don't know what I believe anymore. I don't feel him anymore. When I pray I feel like no one is listening to me and I'm alone.
I'm losing my faith and I don't know what to do. I move through a dream, where shadows blur and nothing is real; whenever I try to think of the future I see nothing,
Nothing but darkness, a suffocating weight pressing on my chest.
I read to escape my world— but it’s not enough.
I want the noise in my head to quiet, I want the chaos to end.”
Sometimes, I wish I could die... But I can’t— people rely on me, so I must stay.
I will wait— but I still don’t feel him anymore.
This too will pass;
I will feel normal again.
Whatever normal even means anymore.
(I wrote this poem during a difficult time when I was struggling with my sexuality while being a Christian. It reflects feelings of doubt, isolation, and the search for faith amidst confusion.)
#poetry#authors#english literature#spilled ink#faith crisis#losing faith#spiritual struggles#dark poetry#existential thoughts#religious doubt#depression#self reflection#heavy thoughts#emotional writing#personal poetry
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I haven't been my Self lately, I haven't been honoring my true soul. Bad habits, lack of good ones that brighten the soul. Numbing myself with excess material things. I don't know why. Why am I avoiding my Self? Time to put down my phone and knuck up.
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okay so this is a bit of a rant and weird for me to be voicing actual thoughts on here (maybe i'll delete) but i felt like getting this out.
i just got back home from my bfs place (which is two hours away) today, and i've had several epiphanies. it's actually crazy how healing it is for me being there versus how energetically drained and overwhelmed i feel at home. and currently, i feel so ashamed of how i let that affect my worship and everyday practice.
i spent roughly two weeks there (uni is on strike rn and i work remotely so i admit i took that opportunity to flee lol) and during all of that i felt so spiritually connected all the time, had time to research things in my practice that i've been putting on hold for very long, reignited my burning love for this path and made me want to put more effort into it. in a way, reviving this blog was part of that start, since it's really the only way i can connect to a community that does what i do and understands my beliefs. also you guys are just very neat. just scrolling here makes my heart melt completely. it's beautiful to see.
i really want to get closer to my deities and restart my worship the right way. because a long time ago, for a number of reasons, i paused everything. and since then i've been non-practicing/low effort and subtly researching, but now i feel like i've neglected them for far too long. i've also been scared to even attempt to climb out of this hole i've dug myself into. it became a vicious cycle and it's ridiculous.
but these last two weeks were just so peaceful. so quiet. i longed for that. in the quiet i found myself listening to them again. i finally felt like i had the space to go into myself and face a part of me i had completely ignored! so it doesn't help that the minute i get back home, i'm bombarded with chaos!! and not the good kind lol!! i understand some things aren't all my family's fault, sometimes things just happen. it's also my job as part of it to help them through it, they're family. i get it. i love them. but fuck it's so draining. like i need to move out. i got back TODAY and the amount of craziness i had to deal with?? i beg of yall to be less messy cause i cannot handle this anymore.
i'm making it my mission now to absorb as much knowledge as i can, set aside some time to figure out what i want to do in my practice, then actually do something with it!! to really put effort into deity work, because if just thinking about the theoi moves me to tears, i cannot imagine how life would be if i were to put my whole heart into them.
i think this is also a reminder for me that it's okay to feel drained but don't settle into that energy. don't lose yourself. it's rough but it'll get better! cleanse your space. take care of yourself. do something. anything!!! you're a big girl. get moving!!!
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even if you are stuck i encourage you to rise spiritually, you are above this and this part of your life you can separate yourself and eventually you will leave, and time will heal all.🌬️
#nature#healing#holisticwellness#landscape#mother earth#holisticliving#gratitude#spiritual#spiritual journey#spiritual healing#spiritualgrowth#spiritual awakening#spirituality#healing journey#self awareness#overwhelmed#struggle
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hey so do you guys remember how zuko was deemed worthy and blessed with the true nature of fire by the guardians of light themselves and became 100x the firebender he was after, with a newfound understanding and oneness with his element
kind of like how katara handled the moon and ocean spirit with her own hands and was blessed with unmatched waterbending power and oneness with her element and also spirit water but get this, also the healing ability to bring someone back from certain death
y'all remember that
#zutara#the parallels never end#i 100% hc that katara was blessed singularly by the spirits and that is why she went from struggling to THRIVING in her mastery#able to bloodbend on her first try ffs#katara and zuko have a degree if spirituality that a@ng ironically does not have. he is religious#but they are spiritual#and take bending seriously as a sacred gift not meant to be raken lightly#unlike someone
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queer love is beautiful and sacred, don't let anyone tell you otherwise 🫵
#i was a baby gay when i started this blog i was super passionate abt queer justice and liberation#it was the closest I've felt to god ever#left school got a job was forced back further into the closet#started struggling with my faith and spirituality became more apathetic b/c of the isolation & repression#recently met a girl who had me mentally falling to my knees and thanking god for letting us cross paths it was pure joy and whimsy#had to say a prayer of thanksgiving in the middle of texting#queer ppl are beautifully and wonderfully made guys...........
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There's something about reading really great writing that's so relaxing. You can just sit back and let the words wash over you, knowing that you can trust the writer.
#random thought of the day#books#part of the reason i'm not getting writing done today was because i spent most of my free time reading from books i've let sit for too long#i haven't been able to sink into good fiction for a while#so elizabeth goudge felt like a spiritual experience#cleansing and uplifting#it always takes me a while to get into her books#there's a learning curve of a couple of chapters to adjust to the style#but once i break through it's bliss#it becomes easy as breathing#there's nothing quite like what she does#i love books that understand that goodness isn't boring or trite#you don't need to have 'darkness' and 'grit' to be complex#like one bit that took my breath away was the talk about sallie and david's marriage struggles#they're both good people who love each other#but they also have their differences because they're human and that causes struggles#not marriage-breaking struggles just nuanced life struggles#and i'm not sure i've seen something like that in a book before#it's a good marriage they married the right people but that doesn't mean life is perfect#goudge uderstands that marriage isn't happily ever after--heaven is#and a good marriage is two people partnering up to help each other reach that goal#it's so much more adult than any 'complex adult' work i've seen
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guys please pray for me
#I don't know how to explain what's going on but I'm struggling and don't know how to get a handle on it#I think that there's two issues going on that are probably somewhat intertwined because I'm fixating on them as such#so maybe I need to separate out the one that is stupid and I shouldn't be fixating on it#and then just focus on the other thing as it is and not as a symptom of whatever else#idk but it's so weird and complicated that I just can't figure out how to explain it#and I've gone to my mom over stuff related to this enough lately so I won't again#idk I'm just. maybe I'm having a hard time because I'm so tired. I've been getting up early every day this week#and yet still can't fall asleep earlier so I'm not getting enough sleep I don't think.#I haven't had a break since friday#maybe that's part of it#bc I was fine for a while and then this week I'm fixating on what ifs and my own failures (that are somewhat out of my control#because I... don't know how to capture my thoughts while I'm literally mostly asleep? probably habit when I'm awake lol)#so i think there's a level of spiritual attack making me fixate and also just#tiredness#yeah.#anyway.#prayer request
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Schrodinger's Human: The Star Child
Halfa's aren't natural by any stretch of the imagination and they certainly were never supposed to come into existence. Yes, you could come come back as a zombie or a revenant, maybe even return as good as new or the complete opposite, but never truly return so... cleanly split.
Despite being the balance of both the living and the dead, Danny Phantom was never truly supposed to come to pass and was a happy accident, a one in an extremely rare umpteenth chance, rather than Danny Fenton dying in the unfortunate lab accident like in all the other timelines and multiverse.
Despite the truly miraculous odds of his survival, the young Halfling realized something was wrong somehow, when he awoke in the hospital. At first he thought it was because of the lab accident causing the scarring on his body and face that made people look away, but that wasn't it. It has been months and yet nobody looks his way.
Not once since the accident has his parents, sister, or his friends (or anyone, really) have looked him in the eyes. He just suspected that they must've felt guilty for getting him hurt...but then even his rouges seem to have always averted their gaze when they fight, so what gives!? Was the damage that severe? He likes to think he healed up pretty nicely with just a few prominent scars.
As Phantom, they weren't even visible! Then one day, he snapped after a particularly rough fight and demanded an answer, pinning the ghost and demanding, screaming, that they look him in his watery eyes.
"We can't! We physically can't look at you without adverting our gaze. Even the humans you call friends and family are unable to so much as look at you. We don't know why!"
It made Danny stop and think. Did...did he get a meta gene awoken from the lab accident? For his sanity, he deduces that it was some form of attention repellant power, that had to be it...right? After confronting his friends and family, they told them the same thing. At least the explanation was there. It made the pain bearable when he was around them.
Then the fight with Pariah Dark happened and everything went down hill from there (he just didn't know it yet).
It made Danny glad that the Ghost King couldn't see him properly (he stuck to the side with the eye patch) and continued his assault on the blind spots with gusto. It took a while but he eventually felled Dark and took the title of King of the Infinite Realms, much to his shock.
With the Ring of Rage and Crown in his possession, he returned to Amity Park exhausted, muttering to himself a desire before he let sleep take over.
"̸̙͐M̷̫̕a̶̯͗ỳ̸̲b̶̙͆e̵̳͋ ̸̹͆n̴̗̏ó̴͙w̸̖͂ ̵̢̀a̶̳͛ş̷̈́ ̴̡̒Ķ̵̊î̷̝n̸̻͌ĝ̷͕,̴̤̈́ ̵͓͗I̴͇͌ ̵̙͑c̸̣̀á̴̮n̷͕͝ ̴̫͐ơ̸̱r̷̮̆d̵̜͗e̷̲̊r̶̞͐ ̸̘̉g̵̖̈́h̵̝͊o̶̦̓s̷͎͂ț̷̂s̶̢̐ ̶̰̚t̵̠̐ỏ̵̺ ̷̘͋g̸̩̕o̷͉͝ ̵̣͋b̶̮͋ā̵̩c̸̨͆ǩ̵͍ ̴͙͘t̴͈͛ǫ̶͊ ̷͇̓ṱ̸̚h̴̞̀e̸̱͋ ̸͖͋R̸̲̀ë̸̪́ả̷̺l̸̙͝m̷̡͘s̶̢͒.̴̮̓.̵̤́.̸͖̈́ȁ̵̡t̸̖͂ ̵̺͐l̵̙͐e̴̢͘a̴͙͆s̶̼̔t̶̢̔ ̷̭̑ú̸͇n̸̗͗ť̷͖ǐ̷͜l̸͇̄ ̸̛̬I̶̺̾ ̶͔͂c̷̫̿a̸̟͊n̶̺̓ ̴̻͝f̶̦̒i̴̥͗ň̶̡i̸̡̊s̷̗̄h̶͖͐ ̵̝̒a̵̧̓ĺ̷̮l̷͍͐ ̶̤͠m̵̲̆y̷͎̐ ̸͙͌s̷̘͛c̵̯͋ḣ̵̖o̴͔͂o̶̫͝l̶͕͛ī̴̼n̴̝͋g̵͝ͅ ̷̨̿f̵̤͆ì̸͈r̸̥̆s̸̠̎ť̶̞,̶̧̑ ̸͈̅i̵̠͌n̴̻̉c̵̩̈́l̷̳͌ǘ̷̲d̵̟͂ĩ̸̳n̴͓͌g̴̪̈́ ̸̲̈c̸̗̿o̶̪͆l̴̤͋l̵̹͋ë̶͍́ä̸̼́g̷̼̑ủ̶̝e̷̩̿.̶͕̂.̸͈̾.̵͖͂I̴̞̽ ̵̣͘w̴̙͝i̵̯̚s̸̼̈h̸̦̉ ̸̟̓t̶̡͒h̵̨͊á̷̖t̵̛͕ ̷̨̿ĩ̴̡t̵̳̐.̷̫̄.̷͙̔.̶͎̃w̶̲͊a̶̳͝s̶̨̋ ̷̫̓t̴̜́h̵̢͌a̵̗͌ṯ̷̾.̵̠̕.̶̤́.̷͓̍ḛ̷̈́a̵̙͘s̷̭̔y̴͈͂.̵͉͂"̴̼̍
(Maybe now as King, I can order ghosts to go back to the Realms...at least until I can finish all my schooling first, including colleague...Yeah right...I wish that it...was that...easy.)
And like a true wish upon a star, it overidded all logic in the universe to the Boy King's whimsy. The ghosts left over night and all natural portals sealed themselves shut with no means to open themselves back up anytime soon.
And across the planet it vanished as well, stray pools of fermented ectoplasm, medicines that used it and even machinery powered by the stuff went missing, with the exception of the Fenton Ghost Zone Portal, that sealed it self with no means for anything to enter or exit.
The young Boy King's actions were far from subtle.
Many are now without their precious magic, Gods have llst their powers, the Speed Force had been stripped away, and Lanterns across all the emotional spectrum found themselves on their homeworlds with rings that failed to respond, their lights snuffed out. Two birds are now sound asleep, unable to open their eyes.
But before Nabu had been pulled out of his Helmet, he told his wearer one cruical message.
"The Source has been sealed away by a being powerful enough to possess all Sapient life in Multiverse, The Anti Life Equation has been unleashed."
#dc x dp#dp x dc#dp x dc crossover#dp x dc prompt#Anti Life Equation!Danny#Danny: Can't I catch a break!? 😔#Infinite Realms: Sure thing Short King#The Infinite Realms is the Source#Everyone who uses Divine/Otherworldly power: WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON!?#Nobody can look at the Anti Life Equation so that means nobody can look at Danny and now he has depression#Obtaining the Ring and Crown has elevated his powers to bend the sentience of both the Mortal/Spiritual planes#The Leauge memebers are freaking out because they think it's Darkseid#While Darkseid thinks the Earthlings may have discovered it and is preparing to invade#Jason and Damian are in comas because the Ectoplasm in their bodies was ripped out by the wish#Ras al Ghul and many of his ninja has been bathing in sewage for so long that it sent them to the Realms and is executed for cheating death#When the Leauge eventually finds out about Phantom they're gonna demand he fix everything#Bruce wants his boys back and will probably threaten if nobody gags him first#Danny will be beyond pissed because he has struggled to keep Amity Park safe for years and got zero help from the “Heroes”#Only for them to barge in and start chastising him#He's gonna fix the issues first and then beat them into paste for their lack of empathy and ban them from Amity Park#It's like they forgot that he didn't know he some unstoppable force and is actually a teenager who needed so much help#Darkseid shows up in the middle of the fight and Danny erases him and every evil being on Apocalypse with a snap of his fingers
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Ephesians 6:12 (NIV) - For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
#Ephesians 6:12#struggle#against#flesh#blood#rulers#authorities#powers#dark#world#spiritual#forces#evil#heavenly
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Finding Light in Darkness: My Journey to Self-Reliance and Healing
New beginnings, what does the day bring to you that makes you feel new and energized? What does your life consist of when you are full of energy? What are Your thoughts, and your habits?
New beginnings can be both exhilarating and daunting, especially when they involve overcoming personal struggles and reclaiming one’s space and autonomy. For some time now, I have been grappling with challenges that have deeply affected my sense of self and well-being. These issues, primarily involving my sister and J.T., have created a toxic environment where I feel my boundaries and personal…
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#Boundaries#Creative Expression#Finding Home#Growth and Transformation#healing#Inspirational#Mental Health#New Beginnings#Overcoming Challenges#Personal Journey#Personal Space#Self-Reliance#Spiritual Growth#Spiritual Struggles#Tarot Cards
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#Tuvok#bea art tag#every so often you've gotta draw a piece of art copying directly from Your Special Guy#just to remember what he actually looks like [handsome]#star trek voyager#st voyager#Concept: Tuvok's experience with Teero - Trauma - Vulcan Katras and Tuvok's line about newly struggling with spirituality#<- Remembering things/people and having things/people [the self] forcefully erased#ITS HAPPENING!!!! I am... DISSOCIATING!! -everyone cheers and claps for me-#<- First time this summer. Heh. What a beautiful life I lead <3
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it has resulted in kind of a funny way to relate to other people who grew up the way i did because i never decided it was all a scam or whatever, or that some other thing was secretly the only true thing. i still say hello to my family's god when i visit home. those places and books and rituals still hold power, it is just a power that does not particularly like me very much. and that is fine by me. i belong to something else and it belongs to me and the rest of it is simply none of my concern.
#i am just simply contented.#birdenest#i did go through the period of deep spiritual mourning and feeling the hole where there used to be a great meaning below the world...#but i do not feel that way anymore. i havent felt like that for a long time...#i sometimes struggle to remember how to relate to people who left the way i did and who are still Searching for something#for me i did not like Searching particularly much. i did not need to search it was a trick. it was already there...#scraps book
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#my chemical romance#spiritual warfare#spirituality#faith#demons#ephesians 6:12#for our struggle is not against flesh and blood 🩸 but against principalitiespowers#against rulers of the darkness of this world#and spiritual wickedness in high places#god#spiritual awakening#good and evil#catholicism#christanity#catholic gothic#emocore#goths#religioncore#christian goth#goth#christianity#christian posting#catholic girl#gerard way
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