#spiritual crisis

[lilyminer]

I think the funniest part of my early teenage spiritual crisis was the point where I was in denial that I didn't believe the same things as Christians and then started googling stuff that sounds really funny in retrospect like:

Me: "Can Christians believe in reincarnation?"

Google: "No"

Me: "FUCK"

I was really out here tryna compromise to find any way I can believe in what I do and still be Christian, unfortunately it definitely didn't work out especially when I realized I'm more of an omnist then anything.

[turiyatitta]

The Unraveling of the Self

Emotional and Mental Breakdowns During Spiritual AwakeningIntroductionThe journey toward spiritual awakening often appears, from the outside, as a serene and enlightened path. Yet, for those who walk it, the experience can be anything but peaceful. Emotional and mental breakdowns are common, and they serve a profound purpose. These breakdowns are not merely unfortunate side effects but are…

[a-higher-perspective]

I know this firsthand- it's good to be educated about what to expect before venturing too far into the rabbit hole

[chocnoire]

You don't have to pretend you're ok anymore

When you live in your mind, you believe every story, mental image, assumption and thoughts it creates about yourself in order to protect your wellbeing. Each thing you do has a motivation from within, some motivations are in the light (you’re conscious of them) some are in the dark (you’re unconscious of them). The dark here is also referred to as the subconscious mind by therapists. When you’re…

[mydayswithtarotbystella]

Spiritual Troubles and Mental Health

I want to share my experiences and struggles with spiritual and mental health issues. It’s been a difficult journey, and I hope that by sharing, others who are going through similar experiences might find some solace and understanding. Spiritual Troubles My spiritual troubles continued when I turned to the demon King Asmodeus. I thought that seeking help from him might solve my problems when…

[therhetoricofmagic]

The Tower Card: A Symbol of Transformation (B.O.T.A. Version)

This morning I went to Sunday Service at Builders of the Adytum, and the speaker was giving a talk on one of the most challenging tarot cards in the deck, The Tower. B.O.T.A is a modern mystery school that was founded in the early 20th century in Los Angeles that combines elements of Western esotericism, Qabalah, astrology, and Tarot. Paul Foster Case, the founder, was a highly influential…

[fringeexistence]

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This thirty-five part serial memoir describes a chilling ride I barely made it through during a hot spring and summer in 2020. Adult reading only, please. Also, if you like to read papers on uncommon and controversial topics involving the paranormal and supernatural, click the link.

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[cjoat-boost]

This all happened rather suddenly; I apologize, I’m at the crisis center as of late last night.

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Wanted to let folks know where I am in case something happens…Living situation update.

Where I’ll go…no body knows…

@a-captions-blog

Just need to…function

I’m keeping things up to date while during this situation. I have a lot of videos scheduled ahead of time, but this was rather sudden.

[canisalbus]

forgive me if this has been answered previously, but what were the circumstances around vasco finding out about machete's death? i'm heartbroken but fascinated to think about what his immediate reaction could have been

They don't live together, Vasco was at home in Florence at the time. Either someone who knew of their relationship managed to alert him of the murder, or he showed up in Rome to visit him just like countless of times before, and one time he was just gone. He would've missed the funeral for sure, and since Machete doesn't have family, his belongings would most likely end up escheated and subsequently liguidated by the church. He certainly wasn't remembed fondly, for the most part it was like he had never been there in the first place.

I don't want to get into the details but of course he was devastated. The threat of death was a constant presence in Machete's later years, he survived at least a couple of assassination attempts and his health kept getting worse. I think he tried to keep Vasco in the dark about how bad things were exactly, but Vasco didn't miss how his fear of death ramped up in intensity towards the end. So it wasn't a complete surprise when he found out they had finally gotten him. For a long time he had hard time not blaming himself for it, thinking whether he could've done something to prevent the outcome, whether his presence would've changed how things played out. Over the years he learned to live with the sudden and violent end of their relationship, but the first few years were extremely rough, the whole ordeal broke him in unprecedented ways and he never fully recovered to his previous state.

[fatedroses]

That one teacher/mentor moment and Zenos feeling embarrassed for the first time in years (and reacting just about as well as you'd expect him to).

[immensity-to-dream]

au where claw, not yet seeking world domination, is in the business of ousting and punishing fake psychics. suzuki sends serizawa to figure out if reigen's a fraud, but he forgets to factor in the power of gay tendencies. and also its the 1970s.

[turiyatitta]

The Dark Night of the Soul vs. The Dark Knight of the Soul

[its-simply-just-krys]

select the answer that best applies to you :

□ girl

□ boy

☑ a mystical ethereal being beyond one’s comprehension

[wanderlust-in-my-soul]

Characters who are so done with this shit. (Part1/?)

Kieta Hatsukoi

Semantic Error

Minato Shouji Coin Laundry

Love Mechanics

Behind Cut

History 2: Crossing The Line

About Youth

Kabe-Koji

My favorite bl-tropes collection, in no particular order.

[yeoldenews]

I know this is long, but I promise it’s worth the read.

Absolute literary masterpiece. Best thing I’ve read all year.

(source: The Macon Times-Democrat, December 19, 1901.)

[bookshelf-in-progress]

The Dilemma

New inspiration for my time travel Inklings idea! Stepping away from the story worked!

Just found two new books written in exactly the time period and place I'm now drawing from.

These could just make it possible to get just enough historical detail that I could pull off setting this in the real world.

But I'm already running out of writing time and won't have time to read books and write something that satisfies my worries about historical accuracy before the deadline.

Plus real-world details could interfere with the story.

Even though the themes make more sense in the real world, going with a "real world with the names filed off" fantasy world seems to be the only real option here.

Plus it would be fun to throw in even a few fantasy worldbuilding bits.

I'm still downloading those books though.