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Gays are forever
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âi probably spent as much time hating you as you didâ
This line drives me balls to the wall insane. Curtâs mind is either racing or unable to comprehend a single thought the whole reason he decided to do this was for nothing he spent all of those years in nothing but grief and guilt and despair for fucking NOTHING. And Owen knows this he knows Curt has repented and suffered and grieved but he doesnât CARE because it was all his fault. He feels that every second of that suffering and more was deserved. That deep utter loathing and loss.
And it makes me wonder if Owen knew of Curtâs state of mind for the past four years because he was watching him, or if he just knew Curt that well. That Owen just knew Curt so deeply that he was aware he would blame himself and throw himself into isolation and misery and relished in the thought.
Itâs lines like this that make me wish that these characters were from a book trilogy or just anything where we could spend more time sitting in these intricacies then a comedy musical (as much as I do love the show) allows for
#saf#spies are forever#Curt mega#special agent curt mega#agent curt mega#GOD#HE MESSES ME UP#CURT MEGA WHEN I GET YOU. WHEN I GET YOU CURT.#owen carvour#joey richter#damn you joey richter#I would kill to hear the inner monologue to really appreciate the depth of both of their pain#curtwen
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What Do We Have Here?
AN: Finally finished the milestone celebration, & Iâm already almost halfway to the next one! I canât believe how much this blog has grown, my 15 year old self would be so shook if she knew how far sheâd come. But Iâm not here to get sappy, Iâm here to deliver some highly requested curtwen fluff! Hope yâall enjoy the newest installment of the fake interrogation series!
All traditions must start somewhere, even the more unconventional ones. Especially the unconventional ones. Curt remembered it like it was yesterday...
He had just disposed of the remaining guards in the long hallway. The entire building had been strangely sparse, with few obstacles in his path which could only mean one thing: Owen got their first.
Damn it, he really hated when Owen got there before he did. He took all the fun out of it, only to later rub it in his face. It looked like it was shaping up to be one of those times.
That is, until Curt stumbled upon a room being used to interrogate one Owen Carvour. Oh, this was just too good.
He managed to change into one of the less bloodied uniforms from a previously disposed guard. He put on a straight face and marched in like he owned the place. All three heads snapped to look his way.
"Sorry to interrupt gentlemen, but there's been an issue. You're both needed in the lab."
"Excuse me?"
"Who the hell are-"
"Don't give me your fucking lip! Get to the lab now, that's an order!" Curt demanded in such a tone that left little room for argument. The interrogators reluctantly left their battered victim, but not before one spat on Owen before leaving. The other stared him down as he walked out of the room. Curt let them get halfway down the hall before firing two shots, watching them crumble.
Curt was sure they had been the last ones in the building, but just to be safe, he shut the heavy door, concealing them as he freed his partner.
"Perfect timing Mega, they were just about to go for the teeth," Owen quipped as Curt sauntered towards him.
"Pity. If only I'd been a few minutes late," he teased, squatting in front of him to untie his legs. Owen smirked down at him, biting back a larger grin.
"I'll be sure to remember that the next time you're in this situation," he shot back, cocking his head smugly. Curt rolled his eyes, reaching up to squeeze his knee in retaliation. He expected an annoyed huff, maybe a chuckle, but what he got in return was so much better. He shrieked and his entire body jerked in his bonds, even making the chair hop slightly.
They locked eyes, and it only took a moment for Curt to put the pieces together. Owen was already shaking his head, "No no no, Curt wait!"
"Why didn't you tell me you were ticklish?" he asked instead, cutting him off abruptly. "We could've been having so much fun together," he practically purred, rubbing his hands up and down his thighs. His legs twitched in response, tugging on the rope around his ankles.
"That's exactly why, now quit fooling around and get me out of here!" he demanded, hissing through clenched teeth. Curt hummed in thought, tapping his fingers impatiently on Owen's bouncing knee.
"I don't knooooow," he drawled as he stood up and began pacing the room. "This is a very interesting situation." He didn't even bother trying to hide his smirk as he watched Owen glare up at him from his seat. "Oh come on, don't give me that look."
"Then let me out."
"On second thought- no. After all, a man doesn't get in a situation like this every day..." he mused, circling his trapped partner like a hungry wolf.
"Curt, I'm serious!"
"Oh so am I! I mean, this is a real golden opportunity here!"
"Seriously Curt, stop quoting It's a Wonderful Life, you're not George Bailey," Owen scolded as he tried to free himself, seeing as Curt would be useless in that effort. "Have you forgotten we have a job to do?"
"Actually," he corrected with a shit eating grin. "I finished it. Cleared the building too." Owen felt his heart sink to the pit of his stomach. "So really, we have all the time in the world."
Owen frantically shook his head, scooting the chair away from his downright evil companion. "No we don't! I'm supposed to be back at headquarters in 2 hours!"
Curt shrugged, "Alright, so you got a little tied up." He couldn't help but snicker at the pun, making Owen roll his eyes dramatically. "Wouldn't be the first time we ran late."
"Curt."
"I'll just let Cynthia know," he cut him off, pulling up the call on his watch.
"Mega, I hope you're calling with good news," came the unamused drawl through the crackle of static.
"Sure am! Just finishing up around here. But Owen and I are gonna stop off and get a beer, so don't wait up."
"Wasn't planning to." With a click, she was gone, and they were alone once more.
"I hate you."
"That's a lie," Curt said, pointing an accusatory finger and smirking.
Owen snorted, "Not right now, it's not." Curt scoffed, placing his hands on his hips.
"Oh you are so asking for it."
"The only thing I'm asking for is to be let go," he insisted, but the effort was futile. Curt's mind was made up.
"And you will! ... Eventually," Curt said, dropping his voice an octave and putting on a halfway decent Russian accent. Owen smirked in amusement, cocking an eyebrow skeptically.
"Uuh, what are you doing?" he asked, barely holding back a laugh.
"Shut up, I'm interrogating you! What's it look like?"
"Do you really want me to answer that?"
"Oh you'll be answering for a lot, actually," Curt mused. He made a show of grabbing the tray of torture tools and dragging it closer. The tiny wheels slid across the smooth, concrete floor and the sound alone sent a chill down Owen's spine. He knew Curt wasn't planning on using them, but the knowledge of their proximity and the damage they could inflict definitely made his heart race more than he'd like to admit.
Curt began rummaging through the tools at his disposal, picking them up for inspection before tossing them haphazardly over his shoulder. "Nope. Not that one. Nu uh. Too quick. No, too messy. No. No. No..." The tools clattered to the ground one after the other. Owen didn't miss the looks tossed his way as Curt showed off, clearly trying to cheer him up.
"Keep doing that, and you'll have nothing left," Owen piped up smugly. He froze and turned to look at him, a dangerous glint in his eye as he held his hands behind his back. He crouched down to speak directly in his ear.
"Trust me, that's the plan," he purred, and Owen hated how good he was at that stupid fucking accent. A deep chuckle curled around his neck, drawing his attention back to his partner.
That was a mistake, because he was met with fingers wiggling threateningly in his direction and he flinched at the sight, giving himself away. He swore under his breath as Curt laughed at him.
"A little jumpy are we?" he teased with a shit eating grin.
"Fuck you," he barked, feeling the last bit of defiance surge within him.
"Well well well, someone's eager to start!"
"Curt, don't!"
"Who is this "Curt" you keep speaking of? I'm Viktor, world class interrogator. And you will talk..."
Owen rolled his eyes, a smart ass quip on the tip of his tongue, when gentle fingers prodding his sides made him swallow the retort. He sucked in a breath through clenched teeth, closing his eyes so he wouldn't have to meet Curt's teasing gaze.
"They all do."
"That's a bit clichĂŠ, even for you, love," Owen said, tilting his head back to smirk up at him.
"Yeah well, I'm not the one tied up, so I wouldn't know," Curt shot back, slipping out of his fake accent before falling back into character. "So... What is it you were hoping to find, snooping around?"
Owen scoffed at the snide dig, but despite his growing annoyance (as well as nerves) he couldn't deny his amusement at the show on display. It was for his benefit, after all. Might as well enjoy it while he still could.
"Your mother's telephone number," he smirked, reveling in the way Curt's jaw dropped to the floor.
And then he felt hands digging into his thighs, and he was a goner.
"I'm sorry, I don't think I heard you correctly. What were you looking for?" Curt repeated, kneading into the soft flesh.
"Curt plehehease! Thihis ihihis stupid!" Owen pleaded through his already growing laughter.
"I told you, I am Viktor," he corrected, squeezing from his upper thighs all the way down to his kneecaps. He gasped and jerked in his bonds when he felt Curt "crack an egg" on his knees, so to speak. His fingers continued scratching his knees in that odd jellyfish-like motion.
Owen's legs twitched from where they were tied down, and he barely held back a surprised laugh. "Q-quit plahaying around! I'm warning yo- NOHO DON'T!" he barked out a laugh when Curt squeezed his knees. He threw his head back and cackled when he didn't stop, only encouraged by the sounds of mirth spilling free from his mouth.
"It would seem I've found your weak spot, Agent Carvour," Curt purred, whispering in his ear so his warm breath curled around his ear and neck. He giggled and scrunched his neck, leaning away in his chair. Curt's eyes sparkled with mischief as he cocked his head.Â
"Oh, what's this? Is your neck a little sensitive?" he cooed, scratching under his chin teasingly. He let out a choked snicker, slamming his chin down. Curt chuckled and pulled away. "I'll have to remember that."
"No!"
"I'm sorry, but who's the one tied to the chair?" Curt sassed, slipping back into his normal noice. Owen glared at him instead of answering, and Curt smirked. "Yeah that's what I thought."
"Curt, Ihihi swear, as s-soon as I gehet out of hehehere I'm kihicking your ahahass!" Owen tried to sound threatening through his growing hysterics, but failed miserably.
"I don't think so. See, you'll be way too tired to even lay a finger on me," Curt bragged, scribbling his fingers from his ribs down his sides, pausing to drill his thumbs in the hollows of his hipbones. Owen shrieked and bucked against the ropes that tied him to the chair. In fact, you'll be so tired I'll have to carry you out."
Owen whimpered at the threat, the blush on his cheeks darkening. Curt smirked.
"You'd like that, wouldn't you?" he taunted. Owen's jaw dropped.
"I would not!" he denied, yelping when he felt Curt drill circles against the bone.
"Lying will only make things worse, you know," he teased, shooting him a wink. Owen sputtered for an excuse as he squirmed in the chair.
"Ihi hate you!" he giggled, tossing his head back. Curt grabbed his hair and yanked his head back to look at him, and Owen did not need to dwell on how that made him feel right now.
"Oh I'll make you change your mind," he growled, raking his fingers down his ribs. Owen strained against the ropes holding him to the chair as his laughter grew in pitch.
"Ohohokahay, okahay! You wihihin!" Owen conceded, not wanting to give Curt any more reason to torture him.
"Aw, thanks. Can you be my prize?" he asked, walking his fingers up his ribs. Owen gasped and squirmed in his seat.
"Wha- no! Absolutely not!" He sucked in his belly and barked out a laugh when Curt's other hand dug in without warning, scribbling against toned muscle.
âYeah, well, you shouldâve thought of that before saying I win,â he taunted, scribbling over his sides ruthlessly. Owen shrieked, bright laughter pouring from his mouth as he strained against the ropes tied around his body.
âPlehease, behehe reasonable!â he pleaded, bucking like a bull once Curt latched onto his thighs.
âI think Iâm being very reasonable, all things considered,â he cooed, raking his nails down the backs of Owenâs knees. He practically convulsed, blushing when a loud snort forced its way out. Curt let out a gleeful, downright sadistic cackle of his own.
âI didnât peg you as a snorter, Carvour. Didnât peg you as ticklish either, yet here we are,â he winked at him before scratching the backs of his knees and thighs, drawing out another snort.
âThere wonât be pegging of any kind if you donât hurry and get me the fuck out of here!â He managed to sound semi threatening as he caught his breath, glaring up at Curt. He looked absolutely ravishing as the blush spread across his cheeks, his hair matted to his forehead with a layer of sweat. Curt couldnât resist, and grabbed him by the chin, pulling him in for a quick kiss.
âI will babe, but Iâm having too much fun right now. Maybe in a few minutes, I promise.â
âYouâre going to regret this once we get back to the hotel.â
âOh I donât doubt it.â Curt placed his hands on his hips, resting his forehead against Owenâs as his breath hitched. âIn fact, Iâm counting on it.â
Owen heaved a deeply annoyed sigh, though he sported a sly smirk. âFine then. As long as you know what youâre in for.â
Curt knew full and well what was in store for him, but right now, seeing Owen tied up and at his mercy, he knew any retribution heâd face would be worth it.
#curtwen#curtwen fic#owen carvour#curt mega#special agent curt mega#spies are forever#saf#spies are forever fic#saf fic#spies are forever tickle fic#saf tickle fic#ticklish!owen
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So I Spied Another Day...
You know it was a good show when you canât decide whether your heart is so full from all the love and joy, or so empty because it's over.
Really do buckle up, because this is a long one.
So the show went a little like this. They played the Spies pro-shoot on a giant movie screen, but any time a song started, the audio changed to the instrumental track, the video typically faded to simple background graphics, and the cast came out to perform the number live in concert style. There were also a series of audience participation prompts up on the movie screen, such as standing to deliver a line in unison, giving Lauren a standing ovation for the Pay Attention! Reprise, enthusiastically booing Dr. Baron von Nazi and the still infuriatingly catchy Not So Bad (for anyone whoâs curious, in addition to encouraging boos and yelled disagreements with von Nazi, they also cut the audience participation bit from the song).
The energy in the room was so electric and full of joy and warmth. People shouted out iconic lines, went wild for everyoneâs entrances, and absolutely lost their damn minds over Curtwen at pretty much every opportunity. And the cast were clearly having just as much fun. Doing This has always been my favorite, and there was something so sweet about them singing it again all these years later. We finally got Joey performing Spies Are Forever (Evil Reprise) again and it was just as chilling and beautiful as youâd expect. And One Step Ahead was just on a whole new level. I donât want to give anything away, but the details in that performance were INCREDIBLE.
It was simply so special seeing most of the original gang come back while also bringing some new friends along. Shout out to Mariah for coming out at the top of the show so ready to play, setting the tone for the whole evening. Shout out to James for putting his comedy chops on full display (LET JAMES BE FUNNY MORE) and dancing the hell out of One More Shot (another favorite number). And shoutout to Carlos Alazraqui (taking over the roles of Sergio and Vladimir Poopin) and Tommy Link for coming into this crazy part of our world with such enthusiasm and silliness. Brian deserves a medal for agreeing to once again play the most cringe-worthy character in all of Pulp-StarCanWrecked history, and for sounding so fucking good while doing it. Tessa was having a blast in full unhinged glory and I gladly worship at her altar. Lauren is maybe the funniest person alive and deserved her standing ovation, prompted or not. Seeing Joe Walker perform live has been Item Number One on my fandom bucket list since I moved to LA a couple of years ago, and I still canât quite believe I managed it. Iâd wondered if heâd be rusty, but honestly he sounded great; it was like no time had passed. Mary Kate still has one of my all-time favorite voices and her Tatiana remains forever engaging. Joey showed up dressed to slay as a gay evil genius Bond-movie supervillain and proceeded to thoroughly deliver on that promise. And Curt⌠every time I watch Spies I am increasingly blown away by what he does with this arrogant, broken mess of a character. He clearly loves Agent Mega as much as any of us, and to see a performance refined and powered by such clear and thoughtful passion is just a huge treat.
(And while he wasnât in the cast, I canât not mention Corey. Between his roles as director and co-writer, so much of what Spies is comes directly from him and we donât appreciate that nearly enough. And shout out to Esther Fallick for her wonderful work as Susan and the Informant. She might not have been there in person, but her incredible performance was with us the whole time.)
I know this is preaching to the choir, but Spies Are Forever really is such a special show. Itâs a story about recovery, and devastating as it can be, I think thereâs also something deeply healing about it at its core. For one thing, I know it played a huge role in mending my relationship with my asexuality. I will forever be grateful to it for existing, to TCB, Talkfine, and the original cast for creating it, and to those same people for maintaining its legacy with the amount of love and care it deserves. It was a privilege to be in the room as so many people came to celebrate this miraculous little musical. There were a couple of minor tech glitches (I wonder if theyâll even include the âbig oneââthe projector jumping over most of the staircase scene before getting fixedâin the digital ticket version), but nothing that could even begin to damper the magic of the night.
We all know that spies never die (except for Owen and the Informant, oops). And at times like this concert, I think this special little show with its short run in 2016 will prove to be just as immortal.
#anyways I just had the best time#and it took a couple of days because I've been so busy but I had to write down how special it all really was#so grateful#spies are forever#spy another day#tin can bros#tcb#tinlightenment#agent curt mega#curt mega#owen carvour#tatiana slozhno#cynthia houston#the deadliest man alive#doctor baron von nazi#the informant#joey richter#lauren lopez#brian rosenthal#corey lubowich#mary kate wiles#mariah rose faith casillas#james tolbert#joe walker#tessa netting#tom lenk#Carlos Alazraqui
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*taps mic* Owen Carvour and Curt Mega are both gnc (but in diff ways)
#something about redefining or wanting to redefine masculinity and gender expression in a time period that forced traditional gender norms#something about the relationship between queerness and masculinity#something about the struggle to find your own identity as a spy when youâre expected to be hyper-masc#Also Owen liking drag is just special to me#I think that Curt would explore/express his femininity in more understated ways while Owen would go full hyper femme#idk man just thoughts#spies are forever#curtwen#owen carvour#agent curt mega#gnc
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It's literally 4am and I'm watching a youtube video and they pointed out that Curt sings the line "If you fall, you know I got your back" during one more shot and now I am back in the spies are forever brainrot so while I'm writing this I should mention that ages ago I noticed Curt that before he goes to tell Tatiana about Chimera when she says "no more little birdies to worry about" he looks so worried about her and just ahhhh this show is just so good.
I am once again on my saf bullshit so prepare for my brainrot and maybe some angsty headcanons (â Â â ęâ á´â ęâ )
#tin can bros#tin can brothers#spies are forever brainrot#spies are forever my beloved#spies are forever#agent curt mega#owen carvour#tatiana slozhno#I love these silly little guys#it's real saf hours#lets fuckin goooooo#special interest
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ehhhg since i'm in my spy brainworms era (apparently ?????) might as well rewatch spies are forever. been a while
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I just exploded
Inspired by @considerablecolors silly little ofmd/saf crossover-ish fic (âRunning In The Shadows (Damn Your Love, Damn Your Lies)â).
Also shoutout to them for making me absolutely sob with another one of their fics (itâs called âAll The Living Are Dead, And The Dead Are All Living (The War Is Over, And We Are Beginning)â and I cannot recommend is enough).
I love all their saf stuff on Ao3- Seriously go check them out.
#agent curt mega#owen carvour#curtwen#how dare u combine two of my special interests like this#how am I supposed to be normal in these conditions#how am I supposed to sleep now
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Painting practice
#agent curt mega#spies are forever#special agent curt mega#tcb spies are forever#tcb saf#tin can bros#saf fanart#myart#trying out a new style#so might be meh
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if tin can bros ever dropped live and let spy theyâd have to give Special Agent Curt Mega a new boyfriend because he deserves happiness but heâd have to be played by Joey Richter because I deserve happiness
#spies are forever#saf#this is a joke#Iâm simply desperate and weak willed#I want the best for my favorite characters but Iâm also nuerodivergent#so#erm#do you see the dilemma#special agent Curt mega#Curt mega#curtwen
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i think i just need to see owen carvour get wrecked by curt
i think that would heal me
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Youâre gonna be thriving once I finish my milestone celebration fic! In the meantime, a lil sneak peek to hold you over
"I'll be sure to remember that the next time you're in this situation," he shot back, cocking his head smugly. Curt rolled his eyes, reaching up to squeeze his knee in retaliation. He expected an annoyed huff, maybe a chuckle, but what he got in return was so much better. He shrieked and his entire body jerked in his bonds, even making the chair hop slightly.
They locked eyes, and it only took a moment for Curt to put the pieces together. Owen was already shaking his head, "No no no, Curt wait!"
"Why didn't you tell me you were ticklish?" he asked instead, cutting him off abruptly. "We could've been having so much fun together," he practically purred, rubbing his hands up and down his thighs. His legs twitched it response, tugging on the rope around his ankles.
"That's exactly why, now quit fooling around and get me out of here!" he demanded, hissing through clenched teeth. Curt hummed in thought, tapping his fingers impatiently on Owen's bouncing knee.
"I don't knooooow," he drawled as he stood up and began pacing the room. "This is a very interesting situation." He didn't even bother trying to hide his smirk as he watched Owen glare up at him from his seat. "Oh come on, don't give me that look."
"Then let me out."
"On second thought- no. After all, a man doesn't get in a situation like this every day..." he mused, circling his trapped partner like a hungry wolf.
"Curt, I'm serious!"
"Oh so am I! I mean, this is a real golden opportunity here!"
"Seriously, quit playing around, we have a job to do!" Owen scolded as he tried to free himself, seeing as Curt would be useless in that effort.
"Actually," he corrected with a shit eating grin. "I finished it. Cleared the building too." Owen felt his heart sink to the pit of his stomach. "So really, we have all the time in the world."
Owen frantically shook his head, scooting the chair away from his downright evil companion. "No we don't! I'm supposed to be back at headquarters in 2 hours!"
Curt shrugged, "Alright, so you got a little tied up." He couldn't help but snicker at the pun, making Owen roll his eyes dramatically. "Wouldn't be the first time we ran late."
#asks#anon ask#âď¸ anon#fic in the works#fic sneak peek#spies are forever#saf#curtwen#special agent curt mega#curt mega#owen carvour
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The headcanon that keeps me up at night is the idea that Owen Carvour was this very closed-off, isolated guy who just singlemindedly devoted himself to spycraft (almost as if it were his special interest) and was generally disinterested in any sort of relationship- romantic or otherwise- and suddenly agent Curt Mega strolls into his life and stubbornly insists on being part of it.
And Owen is just completely, utterly fascinated with this guy. Infatuated with him. How could he not be? Curt is perhaps the only person on Earth that can keep pace with Owen, that can best him (not that Owen would ever admit to it). He's so different from Owen, but they're also very much the same.
And over a number of years Curt wins his trust. First by being an excellent (if unconventional) partner, and then they start a physical relationship. And then Owen actually finds himself in love with this person, an attachment he never wanted but now can't live without (in a way he sort of resents Curt for sometimes).
He feels these things in an overwhelming but impossible to articulate way, to the degree that he willingly puts himself in a position to be outnumbered 21 to 1 to rescue Curt from a Russian weapons facility- because that's what you do when you love someone, right? You flip off god and walk backwards into hell for them.
So when Curt leaves Owen to die, part of him just fractures. This delicate, imperfect, but still very real trust he had in Curt is absolutely shattered. He's afraid and helpless and critically injured, and the last thing he can remember before waking up in unimaginable pain, his body and brain damaged in a way he will never fully recover from, is the look of horror on Curt's face as he ran away.
And the worst part is that there is no way for Owen to disengage from those feelings. He will never have any sort of distance from Curt and his betrayal ever again. His body hurts constantly, his mobility is impacted, he gets headaches and vertigo and panic attacks, and every single time he is forced to relive the moment that Curt left him. Forced to relive that terror.
Every time his leg gives out while he's forcing himself to walk without crutches, or the burn scars start to ache, or his vision goes blurry and his heart feels like its going to burst out of his chest, he feels that hurt. The only person he would've ever confided those feelings in is the reason those feelings exist to begin with. That person thinks Owen is dead. And Owen sometimes wishes he had died too.
And Owen hates Curt, but more than anything he hates himself for trusting Curt. For putting himself in a vulnerable position to save Curt, only to be destroyed by Curt's hubris- part of the very same thing that made Curt irresistible to him. That cocky confidence, the effortless charm, the completely intuitive, instinctive way his mind worked- a style that had never let him down before. Owen loved him, and he knows that if the situation were reversed he would've gone back for him. He would've laid down and died next to him. And it's blisteringly painful to him to realize that the same wasn't true for Curt.
And for Curt's part I don't think he was like "oh well, fuck it, time to book." I don't think he thought at all in that moment. He didn't decide to leave Owen so much as his body, his adrenaline, his instinct made the decision for him. It was fight or flight, and his body chose flight. Speaking from personal experience, when you have ADHD and you realize that you've screwed up and you're suddenly overwhelmed with emotion, your body can just kinda carry you away without thinking.
But the leaving being involuntary doesn't help Curt deal with his grief and shame and self-hatred, because he still has to live with the decisions he did consciously make that night- leaving the banana peel on the steps, deciding to blow up the facility instead of just sending the blueprints with the watch, setting the timer for three minutes instead of four.
For years, when he's not too drunk to think at all, he endlessly relives each point where things could have gone differently. He obsessively thinks about how his pride was a bit bruised by needing to be rescued, by being chewed out by a boss who seemed to prefer his partner to him, and wondering if maybe he was more over the top than usual out of spite or insecurity, to save face with Cynthia and Barb, to impress Owen (because he loved Owen and respected him and cared about what Owen thought of him).
He wonders if Owen was right about his drinking, and then he drinks to shut out the pain of that thought.
He has to live with the decision his adrenaline made, tortured by the idea that he should've somehow fought back against that flight impulse in the moment and gone back for Owen. Tortured by the idea that maybe, if his rational brain had been fully present, he might have still made the same decision- leaving Owen to save himself.
He saw Owen twitching on the ground, grasping onto the banana peel, bleeding out on the concrete. He was almost certainly about to die, but when Curt left Owen hadn't died yet. So maybe, maybe, maybe there was a chance and Curt missed it. And every time he thinks about the possibility he feels sick. And he drinks. And he has imaginary conversations with his dead partner before passing out curled up in the corner of his bed, clutching a pillow, his eyes red and burning from the tears.
This was supposed to just be a couple of short paragraphs, but that's what I get for thinking about curtwen I guess
#cannot believe the inciting incident of this show is âman trips on banana peel- diesâ#spies are forever#tin can bros#curtwen#owen carvour#agent curt mega#saf#tcb#saf headcanons
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Life Is A Highway - Rascal Flatts Life is a highway and I'm gonna ride it - all night long
Family Line - Conan Gray I watch the fathers with their little girls and wonder what I did to did to deserve this
Midnight Rain - Taylor Swift They wanted a son, I was making my own name Chasing that fame - they stayed the same All of me changed like midnight rain
Lift Off - Labrinth 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, gone You see my rocket ship Head up in the clouds when my space shift lit ignite Hit me from the ground, I'm about to lift off 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 Baby, I'm a star, watch a girl go lift off
Man! I Feel Like A Woman! - Shaina Twain The best thing about bein' a woman Is the prerogative to have a little fun Color my hair, do what I dare Man, I feel like a woman
History - One Direction Minibars, expensive cars, hotel rooms and new tattoos The good champagne and private planes But they don't mean anything... ...We can make it you know it, you know You and me got a whole lot of history
It Girl - Aliyah's Interlude I-T-G-I-R-L, you know I am that girl
You're Gonna Go Far - Noah Kahan And we'll all be here forever, you're gonna go far
Sign of the Times - Harry Styles Just stop your crying, it's the sign of the times Welcome to the final show I hope you're wearing your best clothes
This is just a little filler until Christmas! Right now, I'm at about 6k words and still have a lot to go, so I'm hoping that I do reach 10k for this special chapter!
I hope you are all doing well! Much love <3
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Guys Iâm sorry but if no one puts Agent Curt Mega in jorts for any of the days of Curtwen week this week then we as a fandom have lost. This is a special moment and we must remember it.
#spies are forever#tin can bros#agent curt mega#curtwen#curtwen week#(I know this isnât something for the week celebration but I need this message to get out there)#owen carvour#(he would hate them and I think thatâs important)
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I did it. You can read it here, but mind the tags.
Welp, looks like I'm writing a Spies Are Forever fanfic now.
#spies are forever#owen carvour#agent curt mega#curtwen#my fanfiction#i can't do the special big button link that other people do because ao3 and tumblr hate me
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SAF LONDON WAS SO FUCKING GOOD AND IF U WERE THERE PRETTY PLS FEEL FREE TO YELL IN MY DIRECTION ABT IT. if any of u made conversation with an awkward mf in a rainbow bowtie and a patch vest (with a glittery bunny build-a-bear named agent curt mega), that was me lmao. special shoutout to everyone who handed out stuff, u are all absolute legends :D
also. the whole cast was not only immensely talented and perfectly cast but also SMOKIN hot. i feel very bisexually abt it all. that torture tango performance is burned into my brain forevermore and i could not be happier
#someone gave me a shiny metallic one more shot bracelet and i actually squealed in excitement#'favourite song huh?' APPARENTLY LOL#also. to the person who came up to me specifically to offer me a badge. know that i have not shut up abt my richard big badge since#i will treasure it forever i fear#it really is about honour...#og#saf london#spies are forever
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