#sorry this may be tmi but like!!
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#sorry this may be tmi but like!!#HAHA MAYBE GOING TO AN ACTUAL DOCTOR AND GETTING LIKE MEDICATION THAT LIKE HAS SCIENTIFIC BACKING AND ACTUAL INGREDIENT LISTS#IS A GOOD THING LMAO#bro made me take herbal pills that we didnt know what was in them for like weeks and like six of those things a day#but the thing that finally made me have a period was like actual medication stuff WHO WOULD HAVE GUESSED LMAO#anyways yayyy finally got a periof after like 8 months or more or something#family was scared i wouldnt be able to have kids but i was morre scared that i had/have an actual concerning thing wrong#like idk cancer or something since it runs in the family…
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feels like. most of the past few months have just been me waiting in drs offices alone hoping for answers or a solution that will stick. and it sucks
#currently waiting to discuss the anxiety medication ive been on lately oh and also tmi warning cnencnnfn regarding My Brain#sorry ur all getting too much insight into my dumb stupid molecules probably#i just want to not feel like garbage all the time#and anxious and like im dying#and advocating for your own mental health is so hard#bc i KNOW this shit isn't working#it's been 3 months#and i feel only vaguely improved#but still bad overall#plus i keep losing weight bc i have no appetite#down like uhhh 35 lbs i think since this all started in may#and im always worried these ppl and doctors think im like#asking for a magic pill to fix everything but thats not the case at all#its not for lack of trying its brain chemistry and i know it is bc ive struggled with it my entire life#anways#hope i can get these thoughts across to the dr without like barfing#im so nervous im nauseous#i just wanna wake up and not have my chest hurt from the panic#tbd
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i remember once seeing an ad for scar reducing creams and ended up deciding no that's not reasonable to buy if it's literally self inflicted. but because of this now being in a visible place (can probably hide until summer, but after it's too warm to wear long sleeves... oh gosh. :< ) I feel like I probably should do research on how to minimise scarring at least for visible cuts for the sake of others.
and maybe invest in a nice light summer cardigan :) you know those pretty lacy ones, I bet I could pull that off, and I've wanted one for ages so this might be my motivation :)
....I should also do research on how to hide them before they've healed, because I've got a simulation next Tuesday. If necessary I talk to the person running the sim and get permission to be in long sleeves for that
oh gosh why did I forget. I'll have to be in short sleeves for placement. oh gosh oh gosh I am an idiot
#[editing to add that there is somewhat graphic description of self harm below. i'm no judge of how graphic or otherwise something is but i#kinda described it a bit ig]#I might invest in some good coverage makeup of some kind idk. if i can find something like that that will hide the scarring. but like. it's#stretching halfway along my forearm and it will all scar#tmi sorry#looks nasty already but at least it's stopped bleeding#shoutout to the knife sharpener i could Not use at the time so it wasn't as deep as it would've been#anyway#such is life#tw sh#puddleglum hours#personal#the first time i harmed was May last year. i only actually seriously started harming during february this year and all this time i have#worked SO HARD on making sure i DON'T harm in a visible place#and then! whaddaya know! it got too much!#honestly tho i'd nearly talked myself down it was rlly weird#bc it was like i just. blanked for a second and became aware of it having happened a second later it was weird#the muscles feel really weird now tho idk why#not damaged or i don't think so anyway and yknow. didn't need stitches or anything#don't know how deep they are
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When I get nice comments from people on my writing, it makes all the times I was mocked as a teenager for being into fandom and bandom and writing smut about boys in said bandoms worth it tbh.
Like 18 year old me writing smutty fanfic at length about boys in pop punk bands is so proud of 32 year old me. She'd probably find the fact I'm trans masc confusing cos I was so far on the closet back then. But hey, my writing has really improved through sheer perseverance and reading/writing lots of smut, lol.
(And yes, I really did write bandom rpf fic and rp for a good 10?? ish years. I'm not precisely proud of it but it did shape my views on fandom generally, rpf, fandom wank and kink, I stand by that.)
#i was once infamous in a youtuber fandom for my piss kink url#if that rings a bell (i had 3k followers so. never know ig) for you im so so so sorry about the whole#yknow#me in my twenties thing#i was goin thru it#i include about the url cos it still makes me laugh that i was so out there about that kink in particular like#25 yo oli how did you amass 3k followers with an omorashi url? the world may never know...#tagging these for safetycand blacklists#kink talk#kink stuff#unsanitary cw#gross cw#tmi cw#idk how to tag this tbh#fandom stuff
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6ft tall Lily but it's Alice when she grows very big in the house, in wondrland
no because this image has been living in my mind rent free these past couple of days….
#i fear i may not have been kidding when i said i might have a giantess kink#like ive been looking it up just to make sure….#and im just saying. it has awoken something in me.#me talking about giant lily: i hope this doesnt awaken anything in me#asks#tmi in the tag sorry hugs and kisses
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hate when i vent abt my pain and ppl tell me "everyone has stomach aches, it's normal" okay but are their pains bad enough to make them cry or unable to stand..... at least once a week...... bc i think that if this was normal society might've collapsed by now. but what do i know
#at least I'm on the way to get another test to see if it really is crohn's or not :')#my other tests came out negative but the last doctor i saw said it's worth checking again :')#bc. he claims. you're never gonna guess it. these pains are NOT normal ✨️ who could've thought!#sorry for the bitterness. as you may be able to infer from this i am in severe pain and having a hard time standing up or moving at all#btw through this doctor i went to i found out i actually had internal inflammation back in 2018 too and i was just. never told abt it.#like i was in the hospital and they ran a test but bc it was for smth else they didn't think to point it out??#why do i have to learn 5 years later that i had smth wrong with me that probably got worse with time and that's why I'm like that now 😭😭😭#(i wanna apply good faith to this. they probably thought it was a result of my other stomach issues so it'll pass once they do.#but like. if it really didn't go away and in fact got worse with time. i feel like i have the right to blame them yknow?)#vent#possibly a tmi one idk ajskflglh#sorry. i am very tired
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maybe i got kicked out but the bouncer said i was cool and nice 👍🏻😎
#im fine and okay actually sorry abt the vent post lmao#i was very embarrassed abt being asked to leave but i was more worried that i may have been like#a messy rude asshole but i wasn't! i was polite and normal and i just threw up on a chair a little bit#but by that point it was all water so at least it wasn't the worst mess :'( i had some food when i got home and i feel better#ew tmi lol but yeah#everything is okay i was with friends we had fun and nobody got hurt <3#emetophobia /#buggy muggy
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It's not like this will change my opinion of him but what did Frank say about Affirmative Action? Homophobia too while we're at it. Also, if I had to guess I would probably attribute his "leftist" statements to like. Being a libertarian or something. Not like that's something he's ever openly identified as. I just have a feeling
ok so! I mostly brought these up to illustrate a specific point. they're from when frank was in college, so I'm obviously not saying we need to Hold Him Accountable or that he's Problematic for this or some bullshit like that lmao.
So, Frank made a webpage while he was in college for his college work x
One entry from it goes around quite often. You may have seen it? He discusses his reaction to a video about homophobic violence x (week 10). It's sweet. It's kind of naïve. he seems genuinely upset about the whole idea of homophobia.
on week 8 however, he discusses an essay on affirmative action:
It's not the worst thing ever, it's just extremely white and ignorant, and pretty cringeworthy.
I think my point with bringing these posts up was to illustrate a general pattern people have of:
highlighting the positive, progressive aspects of the people they like (i see the entry he made about homophobia going around a fair bit like i said)
ignoring the more problematic aspects that have always been present and not at all hidden
being shocked and betrayed when the person doesn't live up to this polished up version of themselves that's been created.
Like. frank's a decent guy. he's had genuinely progressive, cool ideas. he's also Always had times where he's said pretty ignorant shit. That's nothing new. and i do think that if youre obsessing over someone to the degree a lot of us do you should be aware of that persons less than admirable tendencies, just to avoid the weird obsessive hero worship/obsessive hatred cycle when that person inevitably frustrates you.
#ugh this may not be very articulate my head is full of snot#sorry tmi there lol#also sorry for taking a while! i have been visiting friends and then sick and then the link i needed took a bit of finding#asks#op#yeah i think frank is basically a decent guy hes just like. a liberal white man and people seem to forget that#frank in particular seems to come in for this kind of thing out of all the band members. hes just some guy!
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#not to be TMI on here but I’ve had some kind of bug for like a day and a half now and I think I may be dying#I just want to sleep someone knock me out xxx#sorry for posting about this lmao I’m upset and grumpy and tired and sleepy and need to be taken care of
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are you ever coming back? :(
no way I just typed a two paragraph answer to this and TUMBLR JUST DELETED IT??? uhm excuse mee?? Is this how you welcome me back??? sigh anyways lemme try rephrase what I wrote like a clown
SO YES. uhm.. hi? I am alive ?? I am just hijacking this ask as my 'I am alive and back' post I hope that's okay anon. 🥹 I swear it was NEVER my intention to just- uhm ghost my account here? But uni was kinda busy and I am kind of a procrastinating kinda gal so time management is really one of my weaknesses and uh I am rambling anyways-
From now on I promise to be more active again!! Like I WILL make sure of that lol. If not you all can haunt my inbox with angry messages until I come back okay thanks
Also this message made me actually happy to read because I didn't think that people would miss me?? So thanks anon you're the best awww🥺🥺🫶❤️❤️
#ask#once again#I am sorry#really truly#but you may be delighted to hear that ive been working on my spideymon fic#which i have uhm abandoned for too long too#sigh#i have to work on my time management and make sure i have the time and mental capacity to be a normal person#once again this is tmi but uhm i like to overexplain#ill shut up now#not yr
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fuck marry and kill: supernova trio / ASL / monster trio
damn this is hard as fuck
i’m gonna have to go
fuck supernova trio
marry monster trio
kill asl
i’m so sorry to ace and sabo cus i’d definitely put them in the fuck/marry category if sanji wasn’t up there cus he is the most malewife character and i need that in my life
#also luffy being in all three is taking me out#i wouldn’t fuck him he literally is so ace#i feel like if i married him we’d just be besties who hang out which honestly is how my bf is#except tmi i’m closer to hypersexual if anything#so yeah :/#i feel like sabo and ace have higher potential to fall in love and would be fun partners but long term commitment doesn’t seem their style#they’re both too on the go#at the same time they’re deeply devoted to those they’re aligned with#but again i feel like their involvements with those groups would keep them from giving you time#not cus they don’t love you but cus they have shit to do#chief of staff and second commander? you’ll never see them#whereas sanji may be one of the lead fighters of the straw hats but he seems like he’d be devoted if he loved you#sorry for the character analysis i have a lot of thoughts 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
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ya know the singular upside to having to go off my meds is that maybe my satisfying orgasms will return from the war 😔🤔
#tw tmi#lol#minors dni#ive been medicated since 2017 and off lexapro on pristiq since 2020#and like i feel like i realized fairly recently so very slow on the uptake that orgasms used to feel better#like dont get me wrong its still fine but i feel like it used to be better and like actually satisfying and relaxing#so hey ill take the singular plus that me being to broke to afford the meds may give lol#lmao extremely sorry for ur eyes if u have read this
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Hey sex witch. I’ve never done anything below the belt with another person and I didn’t have very good sex ed growing up, so I’m not sure if this is abnormal or not. I’m a light-skinned poc and there are areas on the creases of my labia minora that are darker than others. I tried to google this to see if it was an issue but google just kept trying to tell me that I have cancer. It doesn’t look like a skin condition or anything, it’s just that the skin color is inconsistent. I know that porn isn’t very realistic, but that’s the only time I’ve ever seen another person’s genitals and the people in porn always have unicolor vaginas. Sorry if this is stupid or tmi, but I don’t go to a gynecologist or anything, I’m too embarrassed to ask my friends, and I’m twenty so I feel like I’m too old to go to my mom with this sort of question.
hi anon,
that's totally normal!
as is often the case, porn is a poor substitute for real life. most people's genitals and nipples get a little darker and more visible during puberty, and may be a range of colors. it's perfectly natural, in same way that it's completely normal for your skin to be darker or lighter on other parts of your body. almost nothing about human bodies is uniform, and that includes our coloration!
if you'd like some points of comparison outside of porn, with a variety of different features, you might want to check out the Labia Library, which features photographs of a many different labias up close and personal in all their glory:
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Thank you for tagging me, P'Fox!!! 🧡
I wish I could say I'm also obsessed with someone from a series airing right now, but I'm using the little free time I have this month to catch up with older shows I couldn't watch at the time they were airing. From those, the one I'm enjoying the most is Never Let Me Go (there are only two episodes left now and I'm avoiding them because I don't want it to end lol), and the character I've been thinking about the most is Mam:
Watching her talk about her story and her feelings, and seeing how her decisions affected her family, was like having a conversation I really needed to have with somebody else.
Honestly, at first I thought I would hate her. After all, she left Palm when he was but a little kid! How could she! Did she not love him!? How could she not love him!!!
Stuff I was expected to think, I imagine. And what I probably would have thought till the very end, had they not given her a chance to speak for herself. But, surprisingly, they did! They did, and the more she opened up, the more I saw my own mother, and myself, in her. A dreadful thing, really. But it meant so much to me.
I understand what is like to love your family and still feel like they're suffocating you; stopping you from being who you are in your essence and doing what you want to do. I understand the desire to free yourself, to run away, even at the cost of losing something you might never be able to recover. At the cost of never being forgiven for it. In fact, I've been thinking about that dilemma a lot, and now, when I think of it, there is also her. Her face, like the patron saint of Freedom. Like she was my chance to take a peek into the future and reevaluate my options.
So, there is that. But that aside, I also think she's so cool! She's honest, she takes no shit from anybody, and in her own way, she cares for her people. She gave Palm plenty of advice, but didn't try to stop him from doing what he had his heart set onto. She questioned, she listened, and she gave him space to make his own choices. She may not be the best mom, but she was a really good friend for both Palm and Nueng.
When I think about it, it doesn't feel like I met Palm's mother. I just met a woman. Someone that felt real. And I really liked her.
Character You Are Currently Obsessed With
I’m really bored today and thought it might be fun to tag some moots and hopefully start some reblog chains. Feel free to elaborate on why you are obsessed with the character or just list them/picture them w/out context.
I’ll start:
Gonna tag a bunch of people but please add additional tags with your own if you so desire…and no pressure at all! @aprilblossomgirl, @nihilisticcondensedmilk , @k-white, @firstyok, @firstkanaphans, @abstractelysium, @gallavichsuperlover, @fuckingcrescendos, @vegasandhishedgehog , @itsmelb, @khaofirsts, @thewayuarent, @ranchthoughts, @insignificantbrandybottle, @waitmyturtles, @autisticbokutoenthusiast, @sandrayy, @fanfictionroxs, @lurkingshan, @invisiblegarters, @sunnenfinster, @frostluvrs, @bird-inacage, @dreamedofyou, @thegalwhorants
#tag game#sorry for the rant with TMI 😅#my current obsession may be hard to understand if I don't give it some background#BOTTOM LINE IS: some negligent parents can be forgiven.#NOT ALL. but a few.#(I'm also surprised to see myself making exceptions on this subject. but eh. life is full of surprises.)#(BESIDES. it's not like she left Palm in the streets. she left him in the care of his other parent.)#also I'm still upset about what happened to her :(
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hi my fayebae, i just read ‘you don’t want him to know, do you’ and i’m🧎♀️🧎♀️🧎♀️absolutely in love with it ahhh, feeding my brain and oh god i sudd had a thought…
his fingers… please
soobin x reader??? let’s just say that in this reality, soobin is able to play the piano beautifully. With his long fingers giving him the advantage of reaching the many keys he needs to, sometimes your mind wonders of how those long fingers would feel inside you…
the way he would play with your cunt… the way he would make sure youre stretched out and then finger fucks you…purposely bringing out his fingers from you. Sucking of your cum from his fingers, making you imagine how his tongue would feel against your clit.which of course then leads to freaky freaky heheh
ahhh i fr had this thought i hope u like it🧎♀️🧎♀️🧎♀️
• MELODIES OF TEMPTATION
SB 000 .F23 2024
wc 3.4k
pairings musictutor!Soobin x fem!reader
warnings oral sex, fingering, making out, nipple pinching (dream)
faye's note TMI: I was summoned to hell for the goddamn thesis, that's why I uploaded this late. Wth. Fuck school.
Hope you still enjoy this tho hehe, especially to my Beomgyu's kitten, I'm sorry for uploading so late, omg I hate myself 😭 anyway, I love your asks, really. Kith kith 💋
The soft clinks of the keys of the piano resonated inside the confinement of an empty room, long slender fingers dancing gracefully across the keys. Soft hums come from a comforting voice. The cold windy breeze blows at the open windows flowing through the guy's long fringe as his eyes flutter close feeling the notes hit his ears quietly. His movements came to a halt, head snapping towards the door --soft knocks waking him from his wandering thoughts.
'Hi, are you, perhaps, Choi Soobin?" You quietly asked, clutching on the straps of your crossbody bag.
"Uh, yeah?" he hesitated out of confusion, "May I help you?" -- "Oh, where are my manners, come in." he stood up from the piano as he walked toward the small table on the corner.
You walked slowly, observing the naked room, almost doubting if you really did come to the right place. "Please take a seat," Soobin said as he offered you a glass of water.
"So uh, my mother, found out about these some piano class thing? And, forced me to take it?"
"Is that so? Well, I have no students this session. it's been a while actually, so I'm afraid I can't make classes as of now." He answered.
You wiped your palms on your jeans, "Uhm, is there, like, nothing we can do about it then?"
"The whole lesson fee is actually divided over students. It's just that I can't let you pay the whole price. It's too expensive, given that... you still look like a student." He explained observing your overall figure that totally gives off a student vibe.
"I can pay for the whole price. Just... just let me take the lesson," you pleaded, hands clasped in front of you, "I just can't do anything about it. My mother is expecting me to play the piano in 3 months. I'm supposed to play at my brother's wedding." You rolled your eyes at the request your mother asked you. It just didn't make sense. Why ask you to learn the piano when they could just hire a whole band if they wanted to?
"I see." he meekly answered, nodding slowly. "Then I think we can do something about it." He stood up and walked towards the small cabinet just near the table.
"You can fill up this form, for legal purposes. And we can proceed on talking about your schedule." He handed you a folder. "Do you want to pay it whole or do you want to pay it every session?" He asked as he watched you fill up the form. "I'll pay during every session." You smiled at him and continued answering the necessary form.
You slide back the form towards him, "Y/n Y/s/n, 22." he muttered under his breath before closing the folder. "When are you free?" He asked as he pulled out his phone. "I am free on weekdays afternoon, and weekends the whole day."
"Should we do it on weekends?" he asked, checking his calendar. "We will have 24 sessions in total," he added.
"I'll take it. Weekends, I mean." You agreed.
"Is 5-8 in the evening okay with you?" His head tilted to the side, and you simply nodded.
Soobin stood up, "Okay then, come back this Saturday. we'll start at five." You stoop up after him taking his hand to shake it. As you were about to leave, you turned around once again, "I don't have to pay any deposit?" He chuckled as he answered with a dimpled smile, "No deposits."
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You gasped as you looked at your wristwatch, what were you doing all this time? It was already four in the afternoon. You fumbled to fix your things as you quickly got up.
"Something wrong?" One of your friends asked, "We still have a movie to watch." "Go ahead, I have an appointment this afternoon, I'm sorry, I'll make it up to you guys on Monday!" You scurried out of the cafe only to go back again to order drinks.
"Two iced americanos, to go."
You knocked at the door twice before pushing it open. He was playing the piano again. he has a huge frame, you thought to yourself. His broad shoulders complement his tall figure, despite the fact that he has a big body build, Soobin has a small waist, emphasized with how his white shirt was tucked in his pants.
You walk towards the small couch and place the drinks on the table. You close your eyes as you listen to his soothing voice. He quietly sings with the melody he is playing. When he was done, you cleared your throat to let him know you were already there.
"Oh, I'm sorry, I did not notice you." he shyly walks over to the couch to talk to you. You offered him the drink as he expressed a small "thank you."
"You have a great voice." You complimented him. A flush crept up on his face, to be honest, he's not used to being complimented.
"Shall we get started? I'm glad to walk you through your music journey." His dimples showed up nicely. They're cute, it makes you want to poke them but it doesn't make you seem professional.
The session ended up well. Besides, Soobin did not have to start from the very beginning, since you already know some of the basics.
The following sessions wrapped up well too. According to Soobin, you are a fast learner. You pick up everything he says quickly. Well, aside from Soobin having longer fingers, it was difficult for you to press keys that were far apart. Other than that you didn't have any problem.
"Can I just cut my fingers and have yours instead?" You were growing frustrated, you were not able to press the right key, making a disturbing sound instead of a good melody. You always end up twisting and wrenching your hand when trying to hit the notes.
"I quit!" You exclaimed only for Soobin to chuckle at your complaints. "You can do it, you are a fast learner," Soobin commented, his arms crossed on his chest. "I am, but the keys make me want to kill myself." You blurted. "It's easy, look." Soobin gently placed his finger on the keys, easily pressing down each note. "You have long fingers, I don't." You pouted. "Not my fault I have longer fingers than you." He answered while laughing only to make you pout again.
"Let's end here, come back tomorrow, you should rest for now, it's getting late." Soobin closed the windows of the room.
"Where do you live? Shall we go out together?" You asked.
"Call," he replied with a dimply smile.
You two ended up dropping by at a convenience store to grab a snack. You found out that you go back by the same way, so you thought might as well take the same bus later.
"I thought you were much older than me." You chimed when you found out he's just one year older than you. "Shall we talk casually, then?" He asks as he sips on the hot chocolate he bought. "If you don't mind." You nodded giddily.
Soobin saw how you shivered at the chilly breeze. "Wear my jacket, you've been shivering since earlier." He offered, taking off his jacket to hand it to you. "I forgot mine." You sheepishly answered as you wrapped his jacket around your body.
"Let's go. You might freeze to death if we stay here any longer." Soobin laughed quietly, picking up the trash on the table as he chucked it into the nearest trash can.
You took the same bus that night. He even bid you goodbye and breathed a soft "Take care, see you next week" before you got off.
Soobin is a shy guy. But he's gentle and caring. He's also talented, not to mention his face card did not decline.
That same night when you got home, you did not know what had gotten into you. You did not know the reason why you let your senses engulf the perfume on his jacket, nor when you tried to close your eyes only to vividly imagine how your night went on. You even quietly prayed and hoped each day that week came fast. Your heart raced at the thought of seeing him again. You grew nervous each day, the anticipation made you bounce your legs in class. It got you checking and re-checking the date.
Maybe the heavens above heard your silent pleas. Because the weekend arrived so quickly. You were so used to wearing just pants and shirts whenever you went to the music tutoring. However, this time, you find yourself fumbling through your dresses as you look for clothes you can wear that gaev off the "I dressed up well for you but I'm not gonna make it obvious" vibe.
You stood in front of the mirror, wearing a skirt and a knitted long sleeve. You look silly, but your heart is about to burst out from the giddiness you were feeling. It's not that you were gonna meet up with a date or something, but, maybe, you like him. Maybe you like Soobin a little bit. Your sessions were more than halfway done, with just 10 sessions remaining.
However, when you stepped inside, there was no Soobin to be found. Nor his things to be seen. The windows were open, though.
You were clutching onto his jacket he had lent you as you scan the room once again, still not used to the naked ass room he's holding the lesson in. However, a bigger couch caught your attention, it looks new. You sat on the couch and watched the clock ticking slowly. You placed his jacket on the couch, as you tried to make it puffy to serve as a makeshift pillow. It's still early anyway, taking a nap won't hurt, besides, he's still not here.
Soobin stepped inside the room, his hair a bit messy as if he just got up from a nap, or a fight, or whatever it was. His words are slurred. Was he drunk? "Hey, are you alright?" You asked as you stood up and walked closer to his tall frame still standing at the door. He grabbed your face and crashed his lips onto yours. His hands fumbled over your body as he pressed your back against the wall.
"H-hey.. S-soobin.. ah.." You tried to push him away but to no avail, he's much larger and stronger than you. His tongue grazed your neck as he sucked lightly as if he wanted to leave a mark. His slender fingers danced across your waist, slipping underneath your long sleeve. He lightly pinched your nipples, eliciting a soft moan from you. His hand travels back to your waist down to your thighs as he lifts your skirt. Your blood ran south, heat pooling on your slit. You can't help but whimper at his touch, his fingers gently rubbing your clothed pussy. He pushed your underwear to the side to slide his fingers in--
"Hey, hey y/n, are you okay?" His face was painted with worry as he tapped your shoulder to wake you up. Your eyes snapped open. "You were whining in your sleep, is everything fine?" He asked grabbing a glass of water. Your face turned red. You can't believe you were dreaming about him, and a sexual dream at that. You chugged down the whole glass of water, you couldn't look him in the eyes, what was that dream all about? Oh god.
"I'm sorry, I was late, something came up and I needed to take care of it, that's why I uh, wasn't here." He apologized, his face still painted with worry.
"N-no it's fine. I mean, I early.. I'm got.. I was... I got here earlier t-than our scheduled time." You cannot even form your words straight. He let out a laugh, as he look at you once again. "You got me worried from all that whining." He sighed, "I thought you were having a bad dream." You scratch the back of your nape as you play with the glass in your hand, you can't tell him about your weird dream, it's not something to spill.
"Shall we start? I'll play a song first, then you'll play once I'm done and apply what you have learnt." He instructed as he strides towards the piano.
Your eyes were fixated on how his fingers danced gracefully on the keys. His beautiful fingers were able to reach the notes you were unable to do. Choi Soobin was actually known for his exceptional piano skills even when he was still at a young age. To most, him playing melodies effortlessly could enrapture the audience, but to you, his fingers stirred thoughts that went far beyond music. You had always thought how his fingers were so pretty although he was a man. It was as though he gave them extra care. The thought even caused you to dream about him. Not to mention you were dreaming about him inside his tutor room.
He had finished playing long ago, but you were still staring at his fingers, still in a daze. His body was already turned to you, examining your eyes and what they were staring at. An enigmatic smile played on his lips, "Care to tell what you are thinking about?" He asked, voice low and inviting. "W-what?" Your eyes snapped back at him. "What's on your mind, y/n." He chuckled when you avoided his gaze, he stood up, "Care to tell?" His head was tilted to the side once again. "Nothing... I.. I just think you're really good at playing the piano.. and that your fingers are p-pretty," you stuttered.
Soobin walks back to the couch where you were sitting, he draws his face near to yours as you back down, leaning your head on the backrest of the couch. "Is that all you're thinking about?" You felt your heart thump faster and harder as you nodded frantically, your palms sweaty. "I don't think so," he leans closer, one wrong move and you'll get your lips crashed with his, "I heard you call my name in your sleep -- let me correct myself, you were actually moaning my name." His arms were on both sides of your head, you're trapped on the couch.
"I'm not the type to let myself go in this kind of situation, but," he stopped as he twirled the end of your hair on his fingers, "You excite me. I'm actually surprised." He chuckled. "S-soobin, I... I didn't mean t--" "Mhm, you didn't baby, you didn't." He nods as he presses his thumb on your glossy lips. You gripped his jacket on your lap with nowhere to ground yourself. Your eyes flutter close at the skin contact. "See? You really didn't." He whispered before closing the gap between the two of you.
You did not know what happened, or what had gotten unto him, but there's one thing you were sure of. Your music tutor is making out with you.
"My, my... You were thinking about what else my fingers can do, am I right?" He remarked as he pulled away a bit. You bit your lips as you nodded lightly. "Naughty girl." He smirked.
His fingers danced across your face, touching your cheeks as he kissed you. You can't help but hold onto his arms.
"Stand up," he commanded as he pulled away. He gently drags you and makes you sit on the soft cushion chair in front of the piano. "Show me what you have learned." He ordered as he kneeled in front of you. "You look pretty by the way," he added.
You slowly pressed on the keys of the piano with an unstable rhythm and a pounding heart. "Spread your legs, I'll show you something," he chuckled at the thought. You clenched your hand as you slowly spread your legs in front of him. "Don't stop playing until I say so," he instructed as he pushed your underwear to the side.
You continued playing on the piano with a more uneven tone and rhythm as you trembled under his touch. His fingers danced gracefully on your pussy, slightly grazing your clit, making you shiver.
He bunches up your skirt to your waist and pulls your underwear all the way for easier access. "Tell me once again that you didn't mean what you were doing earlier," a playful smirk was plastered on his face as he looked up at you. "I... I didn't m-mean to m-moan your n-name..." You whispered with a shaky voice. "Is that right?" He asked, his finger nudging your clit. You nodded as you felt your body shrink at his melting gaze.
"Your body says otherwise, lovely." He chimed as his middle finger slides easily inside you making you gasp. "Continue playing, I'm grading you." He reminded.
You don't even know if the notes you're playing were making sense or if it's the right key, you just kept on pressing the keys with trembling hands as you felt Soobin's finger scissoring your pussy. "You're so wet that all I can hear is the squelching sound, your notes are being drowned," he commented, pressing on your sweet spots.
"S-soobin, I can't a-anymore..." Your fingers stopped, as you shook your head. "I'm grading you y/n. It's either you pass, or I'm going to refer you to another tutor." He warned. "B-but--" "No buts, pretty. Continue."
You did not know where your mind flew to. All you can think about is how his pretty fingers are stretching you out and reaching the spots your own fingers weren't able to reach. "I'm g-gonna cum..." Your voice all trembling and shaking as much as your legs do.
"So soon?" Soobin started to move a bit faster, the sound your pussy was making was so lewd and dirty. You're toes curled, your hand gripped on his shoulder as you try to stop yourself from cumming. Soobin smirked, you're so lovely to look at. "Hmm, pretty." He chuckled as he stared at you.
"P-please Soobin, I'm gonna cum..." You pleaded. He twisted his fingers, scissored and pushed it more inside your gummy walls, you're too weak to hold back. You came on his fingers as you shuddered with his finger still fucking inside you. You were whining and squirming, but he's too strong for your weakened body.
He pulled his fingers out. He stares at his sticky and slicked-covered fingers and looks at you. He saw how the flush crept over your cheeks. "We will continue our sessions, you still have a lot to learn." His gaze at you is unwavering, waiting for you to look back at him. And when you did, his fingers disappeared in his own mouth.
"Fuck, you taste so sweet." He moaned, cleaning his own fingers covered with your cum. His low voice gives you a shiver down your spine. He continued on licking his fingers, eyes locked on yours. You lean down to kiss him, tasting yourself on his tongue. He pulled away. "I'm still not done, hold your skirt up." As a good student, you gladly obliged, clutching on your skirt.
He placed one of your thighs on his shoulder as he dives into your pussy. Lapping every essence dripping down. You squirmed and gripped on his hair. His tongue poking on your cunt. "S-soobin ahh, shit." You've lost it. Your tutor is eating you out, the guy you have a little crush on.
He keeps on humming in your pussy, the vibration adds to the tingly sensation you are feeling. You were in ecstasy.
"N-no more... Hng.." he did not stop. No way he's gonna stop. Not when Soobin is already hard and on the verge of cumming just by eating you out. But he holds back. "Shit!" Soobin felt you clench on his tongue, riding your other high. Your legs spasmed while he was cleaning you with his tongue, scraping every drop of your cum. It's something he can't waste.
He looks up at you, wiping his glistening mouth and nose with the back of his hand.
"Lay on the couch." He bosses, as he proceeded to lock the door. "Maybe buying this bigger couch has a purpose. Too bad it'll get soiled today, I just bought it yesterday." He smiled as he unzipped his pants, "Bend over. You're the one to grade me this time. Which is the best? My finger, my tongue, or my cock."
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how bada would handle being in public with her s/o
requested: yep!
genre + content: headcanons, gn!reader, me being delusional, lower case intended (I'm annoying, I know and im sorry), unedited because I can't be bothered
warnings: none i believe, just fluff!
I still don't really understand the term, but I think I could describe a romantic relationship with bada as 'private but not a secret.'
she wouldn't want to keep you a secret, but she's also aware of the strife being in the public eye can cause, so how much/how little she reveals about the relationship is completely up to you.
and believe me, she tries so hard to keep her mouth shut about you, but sometimes it proves a bit too difficult.
hell, your relationship being revealed to the public was a complete and utter accident. bada was on instagram live as usual, and one of the comments had asked her for a tmi. she thought for a moment, before remembering that you had gifted her the very hoodie that she was wearing.
bada didn't even notice the comments going absolutely batshit at the mention of her having a partner, too focused on how much the hoodie smelled like you.
cue a now wide eyed bada watching a myriad of comments shocked at her statement fly in at lighting speed, as she slowly realises what she just said.
you bet your ass that she ended the live at that moment, entering to your shared apartment and flopping onto you immediately, squeezing any part of you that her hands could reach, she needed the comfort right now. when you ask her what happened, she begs you to promise to not get upset (which can't be promised but you do it anyway to ease her mind)
she realises a statement of sorts on her instagram, asking for the respect of her fans for your relationship and turns off her phone after posting it, cuddling with you and trying to sleep the day away.
from then on, you and bada start going out together more frequently, since you're no longer so well hidden anymore, you might as well enjoy this new found freedom. fans and paparazzi being outside of any location that bada is in is a given, but its still alot for you to take in.
bada always has a hand on you when you're out together, she just needs to know that you're close and that you're okay. whether it be a hand a hand on your waist or shoulders, a hand around your wrist or holding yours, it eases her. but she prefers you walking in front of her so she can have you in her vision also so she can check you out, two birds, one stone
call her a bit possessive (and you'd be correct) but she also likes when you wear something of hers over your outfit when you're in public, like a hoodie or a jacket.
as for interviews, she mentions you passively, usually by accident once again. but she will never take the bait if an interviewer tries to pry into the deeper parts of your relationship. she values intimacy with you far too much.
overall, your relationship is sacred to bada, and she earnestly tries to keep it under wraps as much as possible, although she may not be the best at that, since she also desperately wants to show you off. so basically, you get the best of both worlds.
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