#sorry im rambling

[cyanorth]

does tumblr know about blindfate (darkthur/oscar)

based on this

[giormless]

My favorite page, or at least a very strong contender for my favorite page in House of Leaves has no words at all, and that's page 479.

I'll be talking about spoilers and why I love it so much:

I love when music is used in the specific way it is on this page, I mean how the lyrics are twisted into something unique to the context of the story around it, and it becomes fucking eerie.

It's the beginning of When Johnny Comes Marching Home, jesus fucking christ. I love this so much.

It feels so specific to Johnny, it's only one part of a full verse, but it's become so unnervingly tailored to his mental state at that point, which is especially creepy because Zampanò wrote that in there.

The last time we hear from Johnny before page 479 appears is on page 413, that's a while. He said that after finifhing this footnote, he would ftop reading, leave the trunk and all papers in a ftorage room, and then leave for good. On page 491, we're met with another footnote. It's a series of scattered entries, the most notable currently being these:

October 19, 1998: Back in LA. Went to my storage unit and retrieved the book. Sold my car. Checked into an awful hotel.

October 25, 1998: Lude's dead.

October 29, 1998: Sleep under benches. All I have are these fluttering pages in my Dante book, a Florentine something I can't remember getting or buying. Maybe I found it? Scribble like a maniac.

Then the intro is dated October 31. Johnny tried to stop reading, but these pages soon became all he had left. At his lowest, after his only close friend died, when he is so far gone and detached from everything else around him he came right back to that house on the pages, he took them out of the storage unit.

It sounds like the house is cheering, celebrating that Johnny is going right back to it. He's marching home again, I'm losing my mind

[l0s3r335]

i started watching pantheon!! like i finished season 1 on netflix and now watch 2 on "somewhere else" 🤫 because it's so good and im not waiting for it to possibly maybe one day get on my streaming services 😭 and why is there no fandom?? i need to scream at the top of my lungs to someone abt this show it's so good i might have to add some fics and art if i can get myself to 🤧

gonna ramble more in the tags :3 i love it sm rararara

[messrsrarchives]

sirius with an enchanted moon phase tattoo. he doesn't really need it, he memorised the cycles ages ago and even if he hadn't, the smallest tell from remus gives it away. a certain scrunch of his eyebrows and sirius knows that the full is six days away, the pop of his back and sirius knows they're at the middle point now - just as far to the next as they are from the last.

he doesn't need the tattoo, but he got it.

sirius in azkaban with an enchanted moon tattoo, clinging to it in the first few weeks as he waits for remus to come and get him out. mourning, the first time it turns to full. mourning the fact that he isn't there with remus, mourning himself becaue remus hasn't come to get him.

sirius, years into azkaban, looking at a moon on his wrist that hasn't changed in a while. his magic barely working, the ink still and for some reason, it makes his chest ache. if he were given water, maybe he'd cry. maybe he'd shed a tear about the fact he doesn't remember why he has it, or maybe he'll look out the window and see the moon. full. and he'll remember that one full moon in fifth year, one of the only ones left.

and then he's dragging nails along the tattoo to get rid of it and UGH SIRIUS WITH AN ENCHANTED MOON TATTOO IN AZKABAN

[esthyradler]

Should I start making the Zam au into a comic? I've been thinking about if for a while , since that's the only story that in my head, have a start and an ending planned out

Maybe that would help putting my thoughts together, it not being only in my head and just uploading bits an pieces

Maybe then we can put Tenn in it, i dont know, i can take suggestions before I start lol

[saelterlude]

once again thinking of emma and i hate. i hate. how in the s2 op her hand is reaching out as she falls.

she didn't want to die, she was reaching out to cxs, she was willing to be saved.

i wanna shake cheng xiaoshi and scream. im sorry you couldnt save her, im sorry she died, im sorry but she was fated to die. your involvement doesnt matter at all.

but look at this! she reached out to you! you did that! you couldnt change her fate but what you did was still so kind. she was murdered cheng xiaoshi, without you she wouldnt have reached out, without you there wouldnt be a murder. without you there would be a suicide.

you gave her this! she reached out, she's not okay but she has hope. because of you! its so morbid, you didnt stop her death, but you did stopped her suicide. its still so sad, and death is not a good thing, but im glad that she was murdered instead. you couldnt save her but what you did was so kind cheng xiaoshi.

in her last moments, she was looking forward to the future and not regretting the past. you gave her that, cheng xiaoshi.

[elliebell77]

he would not fucking say that

[domwitch]

Lately I've been obsessed with the idea of some powerful warlord (warlady?) invading a church and taking the prettiest boy there to be her concubine. Just.... His "purity" which he vigilently guarded for so long is violently taken by what he considers to be a godless heretical "savage," and idk I'm a slut for corruption ig

[arsenicflame]

& we are mcm bound! i have definitely overpacked & yet. convinced ive forgotten something

[scribblemoon]

doodles + small update!

it’s been awhile but here’s some doodles! feel free to ignore the update under the cut, it’s just me rambling about my life/mental health

for roughly the past six months I have slowly started struggling more and more mentally. I won’t get into it but due to it i really lost my love for art and other hobbies I normally love and reached a low I hadn’t seen in years. School + personal events nearly drained everything from my life. On top of that my physical health declined in the winter and drained any strength I had. Luckily for the past month I’ve slowly worked on finding what I enjoy again. I’ve got people who love me who have helped tremendously, and I’m slowly trying to get back into art. These doodles are a small step but I see them as me finally returning to a healthier me. I hope to be able to do art more as I continue working on my health.

sorry for the ramble and thanks to anyone who likes my silly doodles!

[strawberriesforcait]

Feeling like her even though we never even made it to our wedding day

[trickstarbrave]

shezzarine nerevar REALLY scratches the itch in my brain because

voryn doesnt know it. but he's always been drawn to lorkhan. perhaps hes always been doomed, in that way. he fell in love with nerevar, adored him, worshiped him, loved him so much he could hate him. he was going mad with love.

and then he sees the heart, the heart of a dead god, the heart of a god he has no idea he had been worshiping this entire time. lorkhan's heart, his beloved's heart, calling out to him like a siren as he guarded it and the tools.

he can feel it. in his bones, in every fiber of his being, that he was made for this. he tampers with it, cooing softly at the heart that he wont hurt it like the dwemer did. the air smells like nerevar, dizzing and comforting despite how profane it was. the heart is alive, his beloved his alive, whispering promises of all he can provide for voryn.

and then nerevar returns, demanding the tools, saying he'll hand them over to someone else for safekeeping. safekeeping? who else besides voryn could possibly guard these tools? they could hurt nerevar. kill him. ruin everything--the entire world itself. doesn't nerevar trust him? doesn't nerevar love him? why entrust the tools and heart to someone else who doesn't know and love him like voryn does?!

voryn has come too far. he loves nerevar too much to allow him to hand over something so dangerous to those retched councilors who will no doubt abuse it, killing nerevar in the process. voryn is so close to discovering it's secrets--nerevar's secrets, his beloved's secrets--that he can't let this go. why doesn't nerevar understand?

he'll have to take the tools over voryn's dead body

[gandhiclonehighlover]

Line up of unimportant characters in clone high because they're important in this au cause i love them

[butchgeorgefayne]

something fun about drawing other peoples characters is you get to reverse engineer the design and learn the choices the artist felt were most important to the character. additionally you get to see their sense of fashion, their sense of color, you can sort of get inside their head for a minute and see all those little biases. and in turn, you get to look at your own design with fresh eyes

[lilfishowo]

I made some Buckshot roulette beer in blender.

[cluedoenthusiast]

Al is just crying in the back /j