#sorry i yap so much

[afurtivecake]

with the sunshine court i liked the insight into the ravens and them individually + as a very fucked up whole

any opinions/comments about the ravens, nest, and tetsuji and all of that?

ooh yes i very much enjoyed the bits about the ravens in tsc as well.

and god yes. the thoughts i have on the ravens are...many.

my main comment is that we can't underestimate how much the whole collective punishment thing fucks people up and how much resentment it breeds. being made responsible for the actions and behaviours of someone else, for example, child being made responsible for their siblings, is something we know can mess people up. and the ravens basically take that concept and built it into their institution. the ravens are set up in a way that mimics a familial power structure. you have the coaches at the top as the 'parents', the ravens as the children. also keep in mind that raven pairs consist of an older raven and a younger one, which mimics a older sibling/younger sibling dynamic. (it reminds me of how yakuza hierarchies are built around familial structures using terms like parent/child to describe boss/subordinate relationships and brothers/sisters to describe a relationship that's on an equal footing. but that's perhaps a different discussion for another time)

so what you have is an older raven being made responsible for the actions and behaviours of a younger student and a younger raven who is reliant on the older student to teach them how the nest works and how to survive being a raven.

this would mean that the older raven would be suffering punishments they know they don't deserve because their younger partner is just not going to be as good yet. it would be on their shoulders to correct their partner so that when they get in front of the coaches, they're not going to be a shit-show. can you imagine the resentment that creates?

i can easily picture a situation where they both get a scolding for something the younger raven messed up on and then once they're alone, the older raven berates their younger partner again for getting them into that mess. like, don't they want a place on the lineup? don't they want to succeed? then stop being lazy and start get their fucking shit together because they both know which of them really deserved to be called 'worthless' by the coach back there. and the younger raven can't do anything about it because they know they're not as good. they know they have to do better so that this one person who's been helping them through every confusing aspect of raven doesn't get punished for things they don't deserve. but neither of them will blame the coaches even if they know in the back of their minds that it's really the coaches' fault.

by the time the older raven graduates, the younger raven would be in a position to receive a newbie as a partner and guess what? the tough love that trained them up to that point worked for them so that's how they would treat their new partner.

of course, this is just one possible form a raven dynamic can take, but like, isn't that so incredibly fucked up?

of course, it's not all bad. raven partners clearly do look out for each other and probably comfort each other when they can. but just because they care for each other, doesn't mean they're any less violently angry with each other for the roles they've been forced into. there's so many more nuances to this than i can talk about all in one go.

and the thing is, they don't even need to be violent towards each other for this sort of thing to take a psychological toll. and like, having grown up being made responsible for a younger siblings' behaviour, i know it's all about the feeling that no matter what you do, you're not going to be good enough. it's like, if you're not better than your sibling (raven partner), you're a failure and will be treated like you're lower on the hierarchy. but if you are better, then you're still a failure because that would mean you let your sibling (raven partner) be worse. like i spent a lot of time resenting my siblings for being the reason i got shouted at and also for not coming to my aid when i needed help or comfort, even though i know they couldn't have done anything and it wasn't their role to have done anything anyways. i even spent a long time feeling bad for how hard i was on my siblings and feeling guilty that i wasn't as kind as i ought to have been. that i should have comforted them more. and the real kick in the teeth was them telling me that they were grateful for what i had done for them. that my hard attitude had gotten them through a lot and helped them get their shit together. and fuck, that made feel even more guilty. i wanted to shake them and be like, 'no! don't you get it? i should have been kinder! you should have felt supported no matter what you did!"

and i think about this a lot in relation to riko and kevin. i think about how being made responsible for each's success and failure might have tainted their relationship as brothers, how it might have introduced an element of anger and resentment to what could have been a supportive, caring relationship.

(as for tetsuji, well. i just picture him as the amalgamation of every hardass asian father i've ever known, turned up to 100. and uh... ha.ha. it's unpleasant, is all i'm going to say to that. )

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the whole point of this, "ask me for an opinion and i'll tell you why i have it," exercise is to examine how my personal biases and background impact how i view this work. which parts of the work do i pick up on and relate to due to my own experiences? and i think this question about how i see the ravens exemplifies what i've been trying to do here. i'm not saying that my interpretation is any more correct that anyone else's. i'm saying that we all read things a certain way for personal reasons and that it doesn't matter what our opinion is, it's all part of interacting with and enjoying a piece of media!

so if anyone has opinions they want to hear from me, please ask! or go forth and share your own opinions!

[arminsbf]

6, 9 & 28 🩵

MIAAA THX 🩵🩵

6 - what are you excited for?

i think i’m just excited to live my life… there have been some hard times but i’m doing really good now and i’m excited to be able to live my life to the fullest and enjoy myself!!! i’m just glad to be alive yk :3

9 - is confidence cute?

yes absolutely!!! in dating men, i don’t mind if he’s a little bit shy but… confidence is really important 😓 if it’s not obvious enough… i’m always gonna be the more submissive or like… docile (??) one if i’m dating a guy so like… i don’t want him to be super shy 😭 with women it’s different because it’s not like i’m looking for some type of dominatrix to take care of me,,, but confidence is always great to see as long as it’s not too much!!!!!

28 - what was the last thing that made you laugh?

so i’m staying in a hotel with some friends right now, and we were all very tired after flying. last night, i woke up at like 1 am half-asleep. i really needed to pee, but, for some reason, i felt like i couldn’t use the bathroom in the hotel room. i guess in my dream world it wasn’t there or something. so i get up and try to leave the room… and the door is locked. so i get back in bed super angry. my friend wakes up thinking that i let someone in the room or something, then he sees me all angry in my bed and he’s like “dude what,” and he laughs, and then i’m mad at him because he’s not taking me seriously. i’m like “i have to piss and i can’t get out!!” all annoyed. he tells me the bathroom is literally right there next to my bed, so then i finally go and get back to sleep.

we just laughed about in the morning because i was so mad over nothing, and tried to leave the room for no reason… we were talking about what would’ve happened if the door was unlocked because i would’ve just been wandering the halls looking for a bathroom 😭 i think i was just delirious from the jet lag and all the flying… but i was definitely embarrassed after all that 😓😓😓

[heartorbit]

figure skating set right now please. thanks

[tatretot]

hellooo danandphilgames buddies!! happy belated 10 year (more like 5 but shhh) anniversary :-)

[kenchann]

uh oh

also change my yuus outfit www

[blossoms-phan]

[eightspringdays]

I've been crying the whole DAY. Look back is literally an ode to someone who loves to create, who works their ass off to improve at it and sometimes it just doesn't matter because they are still going to be people that will be better than you and then you think you don't love that much anyway, so why care to keep doing it at the end? You enjoy it better as an spectator, without all the trouble that comes with doing it yourself

Until you remember WHY you started loving in the first place, why despite the fact it takes time, it's stressful, makes you angry, makes you sad or even if people tells you that you should be doing something else... at the end, still makes you happy, still makes you find people who love the same thing as you and you made them happy too, still makes you feel that you can do something that comes from you and no one else can because it's You.

And if you worked so hard for it once, it was for a reason, and sometimes you just forget what it was, but doesn't mean it isn't there anymore. Because the past you, the now you and the future you, come from the same place and it deserves to be happy, and that's unique and it is something worth working for

[theythemmer]

phinktober day 11: ur fav AU

i dont rlly do AUs so i just drew them how i wish they would dress xo

(dan’s tats r carnations and snowdrops and phil’s r roses and honeysuckle. for no reason 🤗)

ALSO bonus version w makeup bc i couldn’t pick <3

[heshmmity]

i cant even fully explain how much i love bill and mabel's friendship. they paint their nails pink together. throwing sleepovers with candy and grenda, he is like a girl dad but uncle to all of the girls. (including pacifica, shes also a guest on parties when she isnt busy)

bill gives mabel dating tips (poorly. these tips suck.) and all these tips suck bc bill is a pathetic dude. he literally whines to mabel every time ford is busy with researches and ignores him for five minutes. mabel knitted like a million sweaters for him with personal designs (sooo much doritos jokes)

and they dont allow ford, stan or dipper on their sleepovers. bill teaches girls how to play all sorts of gamblings and at first he was like doing all sorts of giveaways to girls but then he realizes that he cant actually win them in damn poker. he lost a lot of sweets that day. sweets and dignity

i have so much headcanons for them helppppp

[luxbub]

The bond between a girl and the middle-aged actor she saw in a movie years ago and now coincidentally has a big fat crush on is unstoppable

[sexy-sapphic-sorcerer]

jesus fuck the BBC Radio 4 Sherlock Holmes audio dramas are gay

I mean, I heard Mary accuse Watson of marrying her "under false pretence" while his heart belongs to Holmes

I heard Holmes and Watson reciting Tristan and Isolde to each other about "existing only in each other, wrapped in love"

but Watson being so scared to tell Holmes that someone wrote a play about him where he's straight! "you're not angry? it's hardly in character"

insane. hilarious. iconic.

[satandoesntwannabehere]

HAPPY 9TH ANNIVERSARY UNDERTALE !!!

and a couple silly things from the past couple of months

[arson-09]

Have been seeing some discussion again about tamlin being a good High Lord or not and I just have to remind everyone of one of the best little facts from acotar I never really seen mentioned.

Acotar, Chapter 25 Page 221

She [Alis] simply said, "Summer Solstice. The main celebration used to be at the Summer Court, but... Things are different. So now we have one here, too. You're going."

"so now we have one here too..." Because of amarantha and Tamlin being just a good person he allowed anyfae from any court to come to spring. And because no one could really go back to their courts for their respective solstice celebrations, Tamlin made sure Spring Celebrated all of them

I just think that's such a cool fucking thing. That Tamlin cared for the people coming to spring for safety, and he made changes to help everyone feel comfortable and at home. He cares about the people who live in Spring, he cares so damn much :(((

[jontaro-kun]

That one time a pose study (looking at art of pretty women and telling myself I was being productive) turned into Portia

[choccy-milky]

tag nine people you want to get to know better!

ty for the tag @myokk and @theladyofshalott1989 !!💖💖

LAST SONG? - i deadass don't know💀i don't really listen to music i just always have streams/youtube vids on (I KNOW IM SORRY DONT @ ME) ....does the baroque noble party ambience i was listening to while working on my oneshot count??? shoutout to that video btw

FAVORITE COLOR? - yellow!!💛⭐

CURRENTLY WATCHING? - i also don't really watch shows💀....do 6 hour video essays on youtube count? in which case i love action button if you haven't watched his stuff (his boku no natsuyasumi video and his tokimeki memorial video are amazing, and his pacman video), and also super eyepatch wolf & hbomberguy (especially hbomb's 'pathologic is genius' video). also i listen to a podcast called '372 pages we'll never get back' that i highly recommend

LAST MOVIE? - 💀💀💀this is just a meme at this point💀💀💀I DONT EVEN REMEMBER....me and my roommate love watching crappy adam sandler movies so probably one of those??? or my neighbor totoro since i forced my niece to watch it 😍

SWEET/SPICY/SAVORY? - SAVORY BABY I LOVE SALT IM A SALT FIEND!!!🧂🧂🧂i put my grubby little hands straight into the olive jar and FEAST...also when i was in uni i used to keep a little ziploc bag of salt on me for when i ate out LMFAOOO and i always steal the salt shaker and bring it to my room and my roommate is always like DO YOU HAVE THE SALT AGAIN???......what can i say i love salt........(tho i still love sweets and spicy foods as well. and im addicted to coke zero btw. my body is comprised of 50% salt and 50% coke zero)

RELATIONSHIP STATUS? - almost 2 years in my poly relationship with seb and clora😍😍

CURRENT OBSESSIONS? - girl do u even have to ask........

LAST THING YOU GOOGLED? - probably timezones for when im talking to mutuals LMAOO...i just like to know what hour it is there no pressure tags: @the-ozzie @sparxyv @ccelicaa @kaviary-blog @siboom777 @boxdstars @versailles-black @limonnitsa @dwightschrute11 @ethniee @celestinawarlock @moonstruckmoony @syaolaurant @bassicallymaestra @lilac-ravenclaw @vienguinn @noelles-legacy @4ever2000lover @lamieboo @magic-in-onyx (NO PRESSURE FR FR I HATE TAGGING PPL BC I FEEL LIKE IM BOTHERING YALL BUT I ALSO DONT WANT TO LEAVE PPL OUT AT THE SAME TIME...SO IF YOURE READING THIS U CAN CONSIDER YOURSELF TAGGED AS WELL🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️OR CONSIDER YOURSELF UN-TAGGED IF YOU DONT WANNA DO IT BAHAHA)

[arthursfuckinghat]

The fate of Evelyn Miller is so fucking fascinating, I had no idea.

Although Dutch admired him like a saint, his books and writings were heavily criticized by others in the same field as him. Miller wrote very poetic and socially progressive novels (a big deal considering the time period), his empathy and understanding of the world around him was the main reason for the criticism.

He was painted as a fraud and a fool who had ideas far above his station, his books also sparked a lot of controversy in the gang. When Dutch tried sharing 'wisdom' from one of the books, Lenny was especially critical of Miller's philosophies. Lenny also said that Miller was a fraud, a man who came from a privileged life and was pretending to live like a lower class citizen. Dutch took it personally, but carried on reading, he does this in a few interactions with explaining or reading out some of Miller's writing to gang members.

But the interesting part is despite Dutch preaching Miller's philosophies and reading his books to the last letter, he proved to not fully understand the meaning behind the writings after all.

It was shown that Miller was an advocate for nature, the Wapiti, and native Americans in general. He tried to help them with the situation regarding the peace treaty and convinced Arthur to help them too. Miller's allyship with the Wapiti was met with a lot of scrutinization, he was insulted by guests at the mayor's party for sympathising with minorities, but Miller still aided them when they needed it.

And as we know, this is quite the opposite to what Dutch did. Dutch took advantage of the Wapiti and helped fuel the war between them and the army for his own gain. He preached his idea of a fair and free world, but killed innocents and indoctrinated the vulnerable. He preached second chances, but shot without hesitation. He preached loyalty, but left his sons to die.

I could go on, but ultimately, Miller was also critical of himself. He pushed himself hard to write and improve, so much so that he died of starvation whilst trying to finish his last book. His last request was wanting his body to be burned so he could soar in the air with the eagles.

Dutch loving and preaching Miller till his dying day only further cemented the hypocrisy that ran deep in Dutch as a person. He fed on the thrill that came from leading people to a 'better world' - and it killed them all.