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hi everybody. im a disabled trans person of color (mixed afrotaíno/white) living w their bf. currently, my bf is the only one that works, i’m waiting on a disability determination.

i can’t drive because i have epilepsy and my seizures are too frequent to hold a driver’s license. i have a dr’s appointment tomorrow that’s important, and i’d like to try to raise enough to make it to it by uber. (i scheduled it today so i’m unable to use medicaid transportation.)

anything extra will go towards food for the next two weeks, we’re running a bit low on everything.

thank you!

[c@sh4pp]

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“I’ve really tried to understand the Israelis. I used to work on a farm in Israel. I speak Hebrew. I watch their news. All the time they talk about fear. How they have to run to their bunkers to hide from the rockets. How their children can’t sleep because of the sirens. This is not a good way for them to live. We Palestinians don’t talk about fear, we talk about death. Our rockets scare them; their rockets kill us. We have no bomb shelters, we have no sirens, we have nowhere we can take our children and keep them safe. They are scared. We are dying.”

— Mohammed al-Khoudry a Palestinian farmer in Gaza. (via champagnefather)

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mother 3 has me crying so hard i cant see. cant even play the game cause im blind from tears. cant fight cause theres a puddle on my keyboard cant do anything im snotty im sniffling im choking on my tears im dying im not making it out alive. and then lucas is just standing there like. =|

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i think the only games ive ever bawled my eyes out at was disco elysium (being an addict in a broken world and all you have is the hope that one day itll get better) the end of undertale (i dont know it just Got me. it Gets me bad) and mother 3. mother 3 was particularly rough for me to play bc any story about siblings will just Get me. but mother 3 is just brutal with your heart. its hard for me to return to it sometimes. its hard just to get through the first half alone without crying. but then you go through the entire game, find the masked man, and the final fight plays out the way it does. like theres no hope for me at that point i'm sobbing over my keyboard my desk is a puddle im snotty i cant see cause im crying too hard. NO HOPE!!!! ITS OVER FOR ME!!!!!

ok well i forgot i also cried at LISA. lisa is another game that is genuinely very difficult for me to return to without my heart breaking thinking about it. like it hurts thinking about that game they dont lie. the LISA series and mother 3 are holding hands in my brain for games that i can't play without being psychically attacked with pain and agony (in a good way). i like it when a game rips out my heart like that. but it does make it difficult to replay cause i gotta be emotionally prepared to get kicked in the head. repeatedly

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“hes a woman to me” IS HE? or are you equating women with submissive character traits you've arbitrarily put on a random man

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no longer despairing. i love my grandma :) got to chat with her a long time this morning. she talks like she's got one foot in the grave so i told her she better live long enough to see me get married and she said she'll make it to 90 just to be sure. the hardest part about being up here is just. missing her something fierce. and i call her every morning but. i miss her dearly...... i luv my mimmaw. shoutout mimmaw

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also nothing has radicalized me more against capitalism than just being in the workforce. i was already an anti-capitalist before but knowing how a grocery store is run, what it takes, and how little our labor is valued to make it run has really made me realize how stupid this is. how much could be improved. there are people above me collecting six figures with 20k bonuses for.... not doing much at all to keep the store running. they're not the ones actually creating the profit, but they're collecting all of it. and us at the bottom have to overwork ourselves just to put more money in the pockets of people who are already wealthy enough just from doing nothing! i work with so many honest people, and all of us- collectively- just get fucked over. over and over and over again. fired for no reason. denied benefits to cut costs. because we're "disposable." because our labor is "unskilled." because "anyone can work retail." if anyone can do my job, i'd like to see those cushy white collar office guys who dictate how i do it break their backs trying to do what i do. they wouldn't last two days before they gave up over it being too hard.

i know what i know now. and i know how much power and value there is in being a worker. but in the face of sheer indifference and wealth, it just doesn't matter. i feel like i'm just wasting my time. being overworked for such little money. i can't wait to pick up a trade. be a part of a better union. do honest work, and reap more rewards from it. help people in a way that matters. i just don't know how long i can take seeing behind the curtain. knowing what could be and won't. i understand why factory workers dragged their bosses out into the streets now. i really do.

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im just at a point where i need to just give up. no matter how hard i try to fight for myself i'm just not going to win. if anyone was going to do anything about my boss for being an abusive misogynistic pos they would've by now.

trying to convince someone who makes four times as more than you for doing less work that you actually dont sit on your ass all day is like talking to a brick wall. i hate retail more than anything right now. my boss lied about me to another manager. and then my coworker whos on good terms with that boss bc she lets herself get exploited tried to tell me that he isnt “that bad”. girl you didnt have to sit there and hear him grill into you that you’re just lazy because youre a woman. like i work so hard. for barely anything. and yet i get treated like i’m crazy. i just want out of this fucking pit. i’m tired.

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trying to convince someone who makes four times as more than you for doing less work that you actually dont sit on your ass all day is like talking to a brick wall. i hate retail more than anything right now. my boss lied about me to another manager. and then my coworker whos on good terms with that boss bc she lets herself get exploited tried to tell me that he isnt “that bad”. girl you didnt have to sit there and hear him grill into you that you’re just lazy because youre a woman. like i work so hard. for barely anything. and yet i get treated like i’m crazy. i just want out of this fucking pit. i’m tired.

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It makes me sick to my stomach to see the worsening famine in Gaza, not only because it’s such a vile and hateful thing to be happening in the world – but also because of how going hungry as a child can leave permanent physical and psychological marks on people. I work with infants and small children, and even toddlers need at least 1000 calories a day and on a consistent schedule.

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Team Hussain is another grassroot initiative that I didn't see being shared much around Tumblr. Like other grassroot orgs in Gaza, they're also helping multiple displaced families at the same time.

Their X account is here: Hussein_Team

Your contribution is greatly appreciated

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also stirring the pot a little bit really funny to check in on an artist i havent seen around in a while and they still cant draw fat ppl. lol

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u still have to make hyde kind of older tho hes definitely looking like hes pushing 40 and his hairline is receding a bit. but thats just my humble opinion……..

always a pleasure to see 50 year old man sleazy ass untrustworthy jekyll designs. stop drawing him cutesy and young he’s a 55 year old man that i’d see in public and go oh he seems like he has weird opinions about women. hes a freak. but hes #myfreak…..

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but also inverse i love it when ppl draw hyde as a normal guy. like hes kind of weird looking but he is just kind of a guy. idk i have strong opinions about giving “evil” characters “ugly” features to make them Scary like i have bad teeth and seeing designs like that is kind of upsetting. but when u make him just some weird guy you cant look at straight on. perfect

always a pleasure to see 50 year old man sleazy ass untrustworthy jekyll designs. stop drawing him cutesy and young he’s a 55 year old man that i’d see in public and go oh he seems like he has weird opinions about women. hes a freak. but hes #myfreak…..

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always a pleasure to see 50 year old man sleazy ass untrustworthy jekyll designs. stop drawing him cutesy and young he’s a 55 year old man that i’d see in public and go oh he seems like he has weird opinions about women. hes a freak. but hes #myfreak…..

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dude i love how chill and selfless you are 😄 by any chance is your wildest fantasy to be Useful?