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hey so I fucked up and my bills came out before my paycheck and my account is in the negative. I wasn’t working last month and I’m getting laid off tomorrow. I might be able to get unemployment but I don’t know if they’ll approve me or if they’ll take a cut of it because I still owe them money from covid stimulus back pay. I need this paycheck to last me about a month and a half. So it would mean a lot if I could get some help, any bit would be a huge help.

$hauntedgum is my cash application.

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recently had to go to the hospital and take time off work to recover from kidney problems. my upcoming paycheck is going to be real bad. i need money for food and rent for the upcoming weeks. i would appreciate it if you lent a hand. not asking for much, just enough to make sure i have money for groceries next week. anything helps. https://ko-fi.com/cknelysium thanks.

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was talking to a group of various non-americans and I was trying to explain the concept of a BB gun, and I think every subsequent clarification made it sound so much worse

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the inquiry takes shape

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fandom seeming to endlessly choose to read possession as a metaphor for intimacy instead of violation even though the second reading makes significantly more sense to put it mildly and also is how its utilized in the piece of media that the plot point has been lifted from. sits in a chair alone in a big empty room

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color practice

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i love when the “it is my god given right to remain miserable and take things personally. fuck you for making a post about the importance of drinking water. a bottle of dasani tried to kill me in the fourth grade” crowd and the “you guys are so stupid. you can actually cure every disease on earth with diet and exercise. no i’m not ‘lucky’ to be in ‘good health,’ i just take care of myself :) i have a superiority complex about this by the way” crowd start arguing. it’s a real unstoppable force v. immovable object situation

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if you unironically think men are so misogynistic now because people are “mean” to them or that somehow, it is women’s jobs to be nicer to men to convince them that maybe women are actually people and not objects, you are a fucking idiot who cannot see three years into the past. do you really think this is because women are too mean to men? they aren’t mean enough, clearly.

cis men benefit greatly from the patriarchy. from conservative families to liberal, men are taught that they deserve a lot. they deserve as much space as they want. they deserve as much time to do whatever they please. they deserve to have as much sex as they want, with whoever they want. they deserve to do whatever the fuck they want, and this is how it’s been for a very, very long time. men compete with men for status. men reinforce the masculine ideal of power, control, and freedom, often by tightly enforcing that upon other men. from fathers to sons, from peer to peer. you should always be a man’s man. you should always look out for your brother. even if it means women are shoved out of every space imaginable. even if it means joking about how all women are bitches and whores in the break room, away from where a woman could hear. even if it means defending your rapist friend and continuing to hang out with him. even if it means accusing sexual assault victims of being liars, of being sluts, of asking for it, because no man could ever be at fault.

so why is it MY job to coddle cis men? why is it MY job to reach across that gap, and not other men deconstructing masculinity and building positive communities with other men? why is it anyone else’s job other than men’s? by putting the responsibility on women, you are once again reinforcing the idea that women have to take care of men. it can never be a man’s responsibility to improve his outlook. and it’s not safe for anyone who ISNT a cis man to try to convince violent, patriarchally-drunk cis men that we’re human beings!!! trans men cant! trans women can’t! cis women can’t! im a transmasc butch lesbian and i certainly can’t!! fun fact: do you know how many men are out there that proudly tell you how much they want to rape you the moment they find out you’re a lesbian? a not so small amount! nobody can EXCEPT for cis men!!!

it’s tiresome! so no, we shouldn’t be nice to cis men to convince them everyone else who isn’t a cis man is a fully fleshed human being who deserves to take up as much space as they do. CIS MEN should take that upon themselves. but a lot won’t. a lot will refuse to. because it’s too hard. and the benefits they enjoy are too great to give up. but to be honest, good fucking luck to every lower-to-middle-class man out there that decided to vote for trump. the patriarchy will certainly not save you from end-stage capitalism under trump. you’ll be ground under the wheels too, and you would have asked for it.

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when I was in the hospital I had the tv on in my room to sleep to and christmas movies were on and they played Elf twice in a row so for a good half of the night I was drifting in and out of consciousness like this

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hi im over here now

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hey reminder that connecting humanity is extremely low on esims rn and desperately needs esim donations and also that there are a lot of cool things you can get in exchange for a donation

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People really do not give a fuck about Arab boys and men's lives. For more than a year now we've seen the constant dehumanization of Palestinian men and how their lives are deemed worthless.

I've been talking for a while now about my friend Mahmoud Jomaa (@mahmoudjumaa1238) and his difficulties fundraising for even a small goal. He has been at it since March and only recently reached his first goal after months of stagnation, but now we're back at a stage where he doesn't get anything for days on end.

And when I open his fundraiser to take a look at the progress and how little support he gets, I can't help thinking about how a french cop who killed a 17 years old Algerian boy was able to fundraise 1.6 million euros in around a week. A racist cop can become a millionaire by shooting point blank an Arab boy (named Nahel) in little more than a week but Mahmoud can't raise 20k in 7 months to survive a genocide.

Please let that sink in. Do you realize the violence this difference displays? How much villanization and dehumanization we fostered in the Global North to get here? And yes, it's not only the US, Europe has greatly contributed to the current climate of Anti-Arab hate, which in turns facilitate the current escalation of the genocide of Palestinian people.

That's why I can't believe I still have to come on here and ask people to donate to Mahmoud. Yet it makes sense : people just don't give a shit and that's it. They don't care that he already had to evacuate from the North of Gaza because of the constant attacks. They don't care that he is in an area that is currently very dangerous. They don't care that he lost his house, his university, his friends and family members, he is an Arab man. We shouldn't care, we should instead support the cop or the governments killing them right?

This has to stop, his life is worth that of any of you reading this post. I'm sick and tired of having to ask for people's help and constantly explain what he is going through when I shouldn't have to. He needs money to survive, that's it. That should be enough!

So please, help him. Share, donate and make your own posts to promote his fundraiser. He was supposed to reach 15k last month yet he has been stuck at around 12k for weeks. You CAN change that, so don't stay complacent please!

DONATE HERE

Vetted by @/gazafunds

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you guys hear about matt mullenweg being sued on allegations of wage theft and human trafficking

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It seems Tumblr is continuing with their mass deactivation of Palestinian blogs. This time they've gone after @nourfamily1989, a mother with five young children in Gaza. Please continue sharing and supporting her fundraiser while she tries to get her account back.

[Vetting info / Nour's most recent post]

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Hey guys... maybe I know why tumblr is so hellbent on accusing fundraisers for 3 Muslim-majority nationalities (Palestinian, Lebanese, and Sudanese) of being scams...

Maybe it was because Matt Mullenweg was alleged to have committed fraud through a shell company he and his mother used to run, along with islamophobic & sexual harassment and a swathe of other forms of racist harassment, including anti-blackness, specific racism and fetishism towards East Asian women, hatred of Mexicans, along with various slurs (.29). All this was revealed by former employee who was a Muslim woman who experienced racist and islamophobic, & sexual harassment by Mullenweg's mother and harassment specifically for her wearing hijab (.28).

Don't take it from me though! Take it from the lawsuit:

Reblog before tumblr deletes me :)