#sorry i havent been writing much lately
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redownloaded an old art program
#specifically its tayasui memopad…#sketches was like borderline unusable last i redownloaded it#which was like.. oct last year#maybe its gotten better but i dont feel like bothering with it anymore haha#memopad i never used much aside from little scribble doodles (id make a scribble and try to turn it into something)#but its changed a lot since i last used it.. which was like four years ago so i cant be too surprised i guess XD#its still pretty jank but in a more manageable way . i missed rhe sketches brushes theyre very lovely#sorry for all the rambling haha#ive been feeling really shitty lately and have barely been able to draw it feels like#a lot of what i have made ive had to really.. force myself to get out. and i havent been as satisfied with it as id like to br#this is kind of janky still but i like it and i had fun making it#everytime i draw these two its exactly the same cuz i have to remind myself what their designs even were everytime >_<‘’#hopefully i do some more stuff today. its already getting late but im feeling a little better#getting back into the swing of things or whatever#i thought someone on af was ghosting me or whatever but turns out they were just . busy. ( <- figures i need to stop assuming haha) and#they also made this amazing revenge im absolutely in love with its so cute#really made my day =)#scribbles#furry tag#good god i write way too much in these#sorry#anyways#queueing this to post again (its the 14th as im writing this) i feel like that worked alright for me last time#im kinda making this post impulsively i am. constantly going back nd forth on whether i even like posting my art nowadays#oh well#yeah queue i wanna know#mother series#<- i forgot to tag that . for blog organization mostly these r just#nothing burger npcs barely anyone cares abt (nintens sisters lol)
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how long dose drawing take you?
Omg I am actually…..very embarrassingly slow LOL I get ridiculously hung up on trying to make the tiniest details perfect and I take a long time to even draw something simple 😭 I really do want to work on being more loose and quick, but as slow as I am, I do enjoy my process!
For something even simple like sketches or memey pics, I usually take an hour to a few hours. For full illustrations I usually track 15-20 hrs at LEAST, according to Procreate’s info. It’s because I sketch the basic shapes, then sketch over it again, then if it was really rough I do ANOTHER cleaner sketch on top, THEN line. But then I’ll be like “oh but this line looks off” or “should this be 2 pixels to the left or right��….and oh god once I start coloring and doing effects/bgs….that’s probably what Really gets me bc I’m so indecisive LMAO. I’m out here trying out 10 different variations of everything and testing different opacities of the overlays and constantly switching back and forth until I maybe finally decide an hour later.
I am kinda embarrassed with how slow I am compared to how long I think other artists might spend on a similar piece, but I know everyone works at their own pace and in the end, I’m usually very satisfied with my decisions and how my work comes out, so it’s worth it to me! I only wish I could be faster to be able to draw more often because I have so many ideas I wanna see come to life. It’s just that sometimes it’s hard for me to set aside the proper amount of time and/or energy bc I know it always takes a Lot. I also tend to draw in very LONG sittings because it’s a challenge to start things but once I get going, I KEEP going lmao
Some screenshots of examples of my pieces with tracked times under the cut, I’m Really exposin myself haha
Full illustrations
Most of the time in this snack run pic was really eaten up by me trying to decide bg/graphic design. Also the snacks themselves LOL
Ok i was REALLY struggling for this halloween pic lmfao, esp the lantern and the perspective 😭
More simple pieces
What was supposed to be a simple draw-over meme ended up taking me hours 🙈
This one prob took about 1.5 hrs, I had other unrelated doodles before lol I rly can’t do anything under an hour
#its also why i havent been posting much lately unfortunately#ive been pretty busy esp this past month and its hard for me to draw anything in little bits of time here and there#i need to set aside HOURS lmao#also energy where…..#youd think id get quicker over the years with skill but i actually got SLOWER#i cant answer anything normally sorry LMAO i couldve just been like ‘i take a rly long time’ but no i had to write an essay#replies#scene-kat
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me when i write a character who is prone to dooming themself and then they run off and doom themself. core traits are stubbornness and a willingness to disregard their own humanity gET BACK HERE IM NOT DONE WITH YOU
#rambling#surprisingly this is not about jakob.. im just really consistent about my favorite character archetypes 😭😭#WARNING THE NOTES ON THIS ARE REALLY LONG I STARTED RAMBLING#“ouhh i have a headache i'll just lie down and rotate my blorbos in no general direction for a while until it goes away” and then boom.#serious plot considerations. 2 questions answered 24million new questions raised. this is specifically Not what i asked for.#so now im sitting here STILL dizzy running mental calculations on how i can get this bitch out of peril without reworking everything#but they literally keep dying in every timeline 😭😭 every single plausible road leads to them running off and screwing themself over#“character who doesn't realize they want to live until it's way too late to look back” VS#“character who is forced to live and handle the things they never though they'd survive long enough to deal with” FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT.#fucking hell i have never had this much trouble writing a character as i have with them#they genuinely do just run off and do shit without my permission and then i have to pace for an hour or two wondering#“ok they wOULD do that. but should they. do i feel like i can confidently write that.”#im like constantly in this tug of war trying to get them to CHILL#but also they are absolutely my favorite character from the entire project. but like. FUCK GET BACK HERE#is death the most satisfying end to this arc? is someone who was Set on dying then NOT dying the most satisfying end to the arc?#how many bridges can you burn until you irreparably set yourself aflame too?#would ghost or revival plotline work?? would it make sense with the worldbuilding??#do i just Like Them enough to want them to not die?? where do i draw the line between personal bias and a good arc?#is death not feeling as impactful as survival solely because i've been writing for so long that it's lost the initial impact?#and other such plot considerations...#im gonna have such an easy time writing another character though 😭😭 because THAT character's dynamic in the second act#is to stare at character 1 and be like “why are you like this. i mean i know Why but can you chill. please.” and like damn bro me too#actually wait no i think kaey.a is the hardest character i've ever written i take it back#had to worry about his 20million facades AND his Actual feelings AND canon compliance. shit is hard#i still havent finished the k/aeya fic i started back when the chasm first released which is uhh. two years ago. oops.#i think i struggle writing emotionally repressed liars i think thats what this is 😭😭 anyways.#(voice of guy who has been obsessed with nonlinear narratives and tragedies for several years):#“is it too much to kill this character in a nonlinear exploration game with tragic elements”#like bitch what are you talking about 😭😭 YOU'RE the target audience here figure it out#sorry the notes on this are just my writing journal now apparently
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sleepwalking idea from a YouTuber! I thought it be so funny!! XD
so my favs the slender brother's discovers their S/O sleepwalks & talks to themselves. like would they join in on the conversations, or drag them back to bed?
I'm laughing thinking about it
XD
Slender
YOU ARE STRESSING HIM OUUT
He doesn’t really need to sleep, but he does enjoy relaxing during the only quiet hours of the night.
And now he has a [Your Height] toddler running around and flipping off imaginary pigeons or ducks or whatever you thought the bookcase was full of.
He’ll always guide you back to bed, and if youre not causing too much trouble, he might amuse himself with participating in your conversations.
Sometimes he’s roleplaying as Jeff, or a goose, and one him he was a rat king. And you wake up none of the wiser until you mention how exhausted you feel waking up each morning.
“It must be all the conversations you have with your imaginary friends at night.”
“Oh no! Was I sleepwalking again?”
“Every night.”
“Ev- EVERY NIGHT?!”
No more sleepwalking foods for [Y/N]! Cheese, apple juice, and chocolate are off the table.
Splendor
Oh my god he thinks it’s hilarious.
He’ll record you if you let him, and watch it during breakfast in the mornings. He might even egg you on sometimes during your nightly runs around the room.
The worst part is that he cannot laugh or the whole night is compromised by you waking up
So he stays in bed with one hand over his mouth and the other holding his phone.
And there are moments when a laugh slips out, and he immediately smacks his hand over his lips as you caveman crouch and look around, dazed in dreamland.
A moment of silence passes by.
You burp and then squat-crawl to the nest you made of stuffed animals and chip bags.
Splendor cries silently.
Trender
He just puts in some earbuds and lets you do your thing.
He values sleep over many things, and he doesn’t want his beauty sleep to be disturbed, especially if he will be dealing with a snotty celebrity tomorrow.
If you jump on the bed (which you do often), he’ll groggily attempt to beat you with a pillow until you wake up.
Then he slams his non-existent face back into his bed.
Offender
Oh he loves it
He thinks it’s hilarious and he takes naps during the day just so he can stay up and watch you. Half because he doesn’t want you to hurt yourself, half because hes fully invested in this reality show you got going on.
There’s a full plot of characters and its the same every night with new drama, new tea, new settings.
But its hard to track because he had to go off with what you’re dialogue is.
“WHAT DO YOU MEAAAN? I WASNT EVEN AT THE BOUNCY HOSUE??”
Offender didn’t know if Joanne was framing you for hurting her child or cheating with her husband or committing a bouncy house related crime but he was here for it.
He’s had to softly guide you from leaving the house several times, and even had to chase you down one time in your summer PJs.
#jussa lil something for being gone for so long#life has been busy lately so i havent had much time or motivation to write even tho i have so many drafts#even so#I still pop in sometimes so im open to talking if you want :]#But Im sorry for going MIA again#its hard to keep up with things nowadays#creepypasta#creepypasta headcanon#creepypasta imagines#creepypasta blog#slender#creepypasta imagine#slender brothers#splendor#trender#off#ive seen those videos theyre so funny#bu celiena spooks or something
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hi yeah yes this blog is dead buts the only one that still has reader insert content on it and I just gotta say like
What the fuck is up the with exclusivity of reader insert shit these days? If it's about a marginally attractive man all of a sudden its f!reader afab!reader (which should NOT BE INDICATIVE OF PRONOUNS????????? YOURE NAMING THEIR SEX, AND LABELING THE PHYSICAL SEX IF IT HAS EXPLICIT CONTENT LIKE THAT IMPLIES ITS GOING TO BE GENDER NEUTRAL AND THEN ITS NOT AND ITS IMMEDIATELY TRIGGERING FOR A LOT OF TRANS PPL LIKE MYSELF??)
Like it was very very common that reader insert content baseline be gender neutral unless requested otherwise that way everyone who finds the character attractive can enjoy it?? SOOOOO fucking fed up with this smh
Fandom space is supposed to be inclusive and ngl like. when you cater specifically and only to one set of pronouns with this kind of stuff its soo deterring to so many queer people
#sorry this has just been pissing me off so fucking much lately because every character i like reading about#over the past year or so is like. mear exclusively written with a fem perspective and that shit is infuriating#because if youre loterally just writing a oneshot that has no reason to be catered to a specific use of pronouns Why are you usinv them#like youre writing a hc about how they hug why is it Gendered#fucking christ sorry if this seems like.#yknow what no im not sorry actually#idk man i made a huge effort to make people feel included n thats just dropped off the face of the earth with some fandoms for fucking real#not calling out tf here havent been in that space in a minute#i AM calling out anyone that writes for jjk dc comics any part pedro pascal has played in media ever uhhhhhhh etc etc#im not saying the authors have ill intent or problematic#im just saying it perpetuates an exclusionary soace and makes people feel left out#and ngl.... as much is i love everyone joining sites and blah blah blah post pandemic and w the popularity of tiktok#yall need to fucking Learn fandom edicate that shit is so fucking infuriating#not all of u ofc but some of yall are so disrespectful#anyways hi!! bye <3#vent
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lingthusiasm has transcripts omg how did i never check. gonna go disappear into a hole to read every episode now bye guys
#i have auditory processing issues i just absolutely cannot do podcasts or audiobooks so this makes me very happy#sorry i havent been very active here lately there hasnt been too much actual conlanging going on#im just writing my little story#ramblings
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Upcoming fic plans:
Hi/fu/do req
Chu/uya req
Very self indulgent fuku/zawa allergy fic
Getting to some older Gen/shin reqs
I appreciate all the patience from everyone 🫠 sorry I'm such a slow writer lol!!!
#ive been pretty stressed out and just overall. not very into snz lately#so i havent had motivation to write much#but its coming back!!! i definitely want to get to these#there are some that wont get done becahse i just. dont know the characters#im sorry daz/ai anon if youre still aroubd. i want to do it SO bad ifs such a good idea but hes just. not a character i enjoy#ill try my best to lush through but hipes arent high 💔#not snz
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im so disappointed in my art lately . im not a beginner artist, but i feel like everything i do looks like i am . i feel like it would only be acceptable for a beginner . i havent made any progress since i was 11 . today is not a good day
#artist problems? except i barely even count as an artist atp#non serious vent sorry#i dont usually textpost because i much prefer just sticking it in the tags and hoping i forget about it#but i dont have anything to post. i literally have not been able to make anything at all.#does any other artist feel like this?#i know everyone says they feel like this but i cant decide if its comforting or condescending#all the other artists say “oh i hate my art!” when their art is good because its just the artists eye or whatever its called#and on one hand its comforting because everyone hates their art#but on the other hand its so discouraging because if you hate your art so much#how does mine look? how bad is mine?#i dont like talking abt weed bc its kinda weird for a 14 year old but i feel like the only times i can draw without crying -#- is when im high#i dont know i need to take a break or something#might focus on writing but everything is just so frustrating to me lately#i cant promise literally anything anymore because everytime i get excited to create its just GONE so fast#becaus i cant like anything i make#i keep searching for some kind of art advice that will actually help but i never can figure out how to apply it#and most of it is just “keep practicing!” as if i havent been practicing since i was 8 years old#i feel like at this point i have to just start all the way over but i dont even know how#at this point i would rather art regress than keep churning out the same mediocre garbage ive been drawing since 2022#and its not even that im pressuring myself to draw. its that all my art has just looked the same for so long and im so frustrated#i literally cannot draw anything without crying anymore its really upsetting#anyway sorry for the negativity on main :( this blog has kinda become my diary and im just an overdramatic teenager or whatever i dont know
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#speculation nation#sorry tobi this is a reaction image now#anyways. i am. thoughts. vibes. enjoying music. thinking about my fic. so it goes.#havent been posting much lately bc ive been at work or writing or reading or playing Zoo Game#no time for tumblr. im a busy lad. u must understand.#anyways yea today is going pretty well despite the ankle pain lol#and. yesterday. hoooooooo
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#ALMOST DONE WITH TPG 36#everyone bully me into finishing it pleasee oh my god.home stretch#sorry it's taking so long i havent talked about it much but ive been. reaaaalllyyyy going thru it and lately#writing has felt like pulling my own teeth#really fighting for my life to finish this one but we're almost there.ALMSOT THERE#tpg
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hiii :333 i think i am alive !! ( small update in da tags )
#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#WOOOAGHHHHH HAVENT BEEN HERE IN AGES. WOW>#sorry guys im a straight a student in their senior year of hs... i have been enjoying real life ^_^ i miss it here tho. :(#will be active soon bcs school is gna end. fucking sobbing but we don't talk abt that#i am here instead of working on the uh. 2 group presentations i need to work on. and the 1 Solo presentation.............#which is crazy btw bcs it's a whole research event thing bcs im in stem ^_^ closing remarks heehaw. Just Me.#so i'm proud of myself & for better understanding myself lately but there is still sm i want to do!!! like On here <3#in a much better headspace and life and etc. its good yay.#anyway hashtag wanna be an astrophysicist (a+ physics? ez. but also ive always loved math & astronomy) astronomer musician#author video game dev (future compsci student! or physics. still deciding.) uhhh psychologist philosopher blablabla phd one day#yay ^__________^ I MISS WRITING ON HERE THO and interacting w moots :P altho idrk how to get back into that shit#anywhere really but it's ok we find ways. man. i miss it here. before i get active again tho i should rlly makes lists to do and Fix stuff.#bye for now yay just a lil update from me !!! ^_^ it's been at least... 4 months? bcs i rmbr not properly saying happy new year on here HEL#raaaaaaaaaaaaa apollo is so back babaey the world is so beautiful & so am I. anyway. u all take care mwamwamwa
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I have three different asks in my inbox within a fairly short amount of time requesting basically the same thing over and over again, and I have a sneaking suspicion that maybe someone wanted to be sure I saw their request?
Please don't flood me with the same (or basically the same) request over and over again as if you're making multiple asks. If you want to double check that I received something or clarify your request that's fine!! but flooding my request box with the same request again and again just slightly changed each time is kind of stressful on my end. Like I'm aware that my master list of requests isnt up to date, and I've mentioned that in a few recent posts, but you don't need to resend your request again and again because of it.
#sorry my irl life has been really stressful and busy lately so other than the one fic ive been working a lot on i just havent had much#emotional energy for anything else#like i see yall and i definitely want to write and i have ideas!#i just need the time and the emotional energy to put fingers to keyboard#please be patient#or just straight up ask if you think something got lost?#im a person not a writing machine
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( Bad news: it's been confirmed that the union is forcing us public government workers to strike for 3 days next week. And the mandatory time for "administrative agents" like myself is 2h48m
Good news: The boss has confirmed that I am allowed to do whatever I want in that time as long as I'm not working. I live next door to the hospital so-
Gonna be a great time to play through the Nobu event !)
#sorry for all the OOC lately !#ive basically been doing nothing but fgo in my free time so i havent time to write#me and all the other admin agents are like sick to the back teeth of this tho fr fr#because our mandatory strike time is so much higher than the other staff#its basically half our working shift#and yet we're expected to still run a full clinic#¯\_(ツ)_/¯#not to mention thats like 9 hours i never asked for off my paycheck total#buuut anyways#to be deleted#noble phantasm is charging ( ooc )#vent cw#?#guess this is half vent half positive because i really am gonna enjoy that event im sure
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listen i dont like fëanor but i can't deny that getting so mad you literally burst into flames and crumble away into ash is kinda fucking relatable
#i was about to go “do i have to tag this for spoilers” in my own head as though the silm isnt literally older than me#tbf not as many people read it as lotr or the hobbit but still. come on brain wtf#esp since someone would have to be really weird to come on my blog specifically to complain about spoilers lmao#i do think its funny I've only now gotten around to readinf it but its taking me so long to make myself listen to it that i keep forgetting#things especially in the really long chapters#to the extent now i find myself going “oh maybe i need to write down names because of course everyone has to start with an f”. i was doing#okay and then i went a really long time without reading so now im like wait wait go back#which sucks because i usually dont have trouble getting through long books. admittedly i listen more than read lately#but still. i think it took me maybe a week to get through priory the first time? like i dont think its that im not interested i just havent#had a lot of energy to expend or to get really into things? idk i keep forgetting from finals up till now has been extra bad in terms of..#..pain. chronic migraines gonna migraine ig. i bitch about it like i havent lived this way for years n years. but they were never as bad..#..until i started college and now theyve been worse than ever. i hate thinking about how much time i always lose. how much time ill always#be losing. sorry how the fuck did this turn into a tangent.
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K im kinda back into scp so what did i miss? Are there any new interesting tales? Its been like 4 years bro since i last checked in
im going to be honest i havent been reading any new scps lately 😭😭😭😭 last thing i read was in memorial adytum, which is VERY fun and good if u like sarkicism. it strays away from the typical "hurr durr sarkicism evil flesh scary" thing the wiki usually has and actually goes into the nalka's roots as a rebellion and how they got corrupted which is SUPER interesting. it also gives a lot of characters to not only the klavigars, but other members of the nalka as well. VERY fun and cool read if u like lore and worldbuilding like me :p
oh also cool war 2 has some actual plot now, which was written for the canon revival contest but it doesn't look like its being updated anymore which is a shame :/
#SORRY I TOOK SO LONG TO ANSWER THIS LOL#havent been reading that much lately either. sigh. college and whatnot#re: cw2 its actually pretty well written the writing style is very close to the original with is nice#its rlly goofy but thats just inherant to cool war so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#answered
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english 101. the self esteem killer
#I HATEEE THIS CLASS sorry. im so tired of writing WHY did i choose the 8wk course#i was so determined to do well in this class and then i turned in my first essay and my outlook did a complete 180#i got full points on that essay. why do i still feel like shit about it.#literally my mental health has declined so fucking much after that essay and i DONT KNOW WHY since i did good on it#ive been turning in less and less assignments these past few weeks as a result bc i cant get myself to do anything#i think i turned in like. one thing last week. out of seven assignments#and theres no late grades in this class so i cant make up those points#i have my third essay draft due tonight and i havent even started it#i just cant get myself to do anything bc for some reason i think it wont be good neough. even tho it was the first time. what the hell#anyway i hate humanities classes i wish i was drowning in equations and chemical formulas rn and im actually rotting away as i write this#two more weeks. i just need to write two more essays.#vent post#college stuff#slug rambles
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