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Kaya I must know did you made the og who suffered more Jesus or ___ post because I just saw something and need to know if I am justified in my feelings (inniter used the layout and I almost threw up)
hi!! as much as i wish i was the og who made the who suffered more poll girl, i completely stole it from this post:
#sorry for being a fraud.#(initially i made the dresus poll right after reblogging this one so everyone could see my inspiration :3)#anogie
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I haven't really had the motivation or energy to do anything but work on my game-
Please forgive me, y'all 😭😭
#i know it's just a part of being human#but i really am sorry I'm such a fraud omg#i haven't had the energy for games or writing it's pretty bad
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the thing with george and fanfic is that i think hes a lil confused
#not hack ripoff publishing absgjdgwj#i genuinely dont see how his argument isnt nonsense here sorry#‘not as i understand the term’#which is????#like he wont sue anybody he just doesnt want u to send it to him atp#does he still argue that it doesnt fall under fair use???#like idc if he dislikes it but his argument here is rooted in ‘it’s infringement so i must act so i must protect my copyright’#‘if i am aware’#‘so there is no slippery slope with hack fraud publishing’#but it isn’t infringement bc it falls under fair use#so he can dislike it all he wants but that concern doesnt hold anymore#like he cant make that jump w nancy and paul to hack fraud publishing making bucks or whatever bc its two very different things#i just don’t understand this argument like u being aware of a fanfic and not suing doesnt mean ud have no ground to protect ur copyright#from for profit publishers
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Do you have, werehog Sonic / Shadow fanfic recs? 👁️👁️✨?
Yeah i got one called “Monsters Don’t Live Happily Ever After” its pretty cool
But in all honesty though, I’ve gotten asks about fic recs before and have been hesitant to answer bc…I haven’t actually read that much sonadow fanfiction 😭 I’m sorry!
#i feel like such a fraud#I wanted to read some of the longer sonadow fics eventually but I haven’t gotten around to it…#i plan to after i finish#im very paranoid about accidentally plagiarizing/being overly influenced so ive been holding off#but uhhhhh#I’ve heard good things about ‘moon cycles’? that’s the first one on my to read list#again im sorry i just prefer to write LOL#if this changes I will make an addendum I promise#text#asks#anonymous
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what's martyn's role in the cosmic harbingers au?
HIIII FROG DASH FRAUD my biggest online cosmic harbingers fan hello <3
Martyn and Pearl are close friends and also roommates! well. were close friends and roommates. It's currently pretty messy between the two of them right now, because the whole thing with Pearl ended up with her pushing him away and he's (rightfully) mad about it.
Martyn's whole thing is half, "The fact the world is falling apart soon after everything with me and pearl happened can't be a coincidence, I have to fix this" and half, "I have to talk to Pearl, I want to help her," which makes him pretty much an antagonist in this story :] Whoops :]
Also! I think he's only one of two people in the main cast (Cleo is the other one!) that wasn't inflicted with the Universe curse? He doesn't know the Universe is vaguely sentient and what it looks like and he doesn't have any power whatsoever. He's just a normal guy who doesn't know what's happening but sure as hell wants to.
#cosmic harbingers AU#hermitcraft AU#art out the oven#the words of a fudgecake#ask#frog-fraud#martyn and false are soooo tragic as characters </3#also sorry for all the AU posting recently my brain is on LOCKDOWN#and i don't really know what kind of hc related art i'd do rn lmao maybe i'm burning out again#as is the nature of being in this fandom for. christ. just over 4 years
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i think its very funny when ppl tell me i look healthy / good bc im below average weight for someone of my height. thank you stranger in a walmart parking lot but unfortunately me being 120 lbs is actually not a good thing! in fact its very very bad! but i appreciate the compliment nonetheless ^_^!
#this sucks dont get me wrong i fucking hate this#but man. its so funny also.#little do they know i got here by starving myself. like a FRAUD!!!!#you could not pay me to work out. not eating however.... i have a gold medal in that !#sorry for joking about my ed am i still hot. lmfao#also this IS NOT a vent do NOT!!!! take this as me being depressed#im actually pretty ok i just had a really stupid interaction and needed to joke about it.#lest i go mad with. idk guilt? not guilt. lest i go mad In General i suppose#ed mention#speaking.mp4
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I ended up with "god of longing for connection", which is funny given my current situation (housing/attempting to get comics into animation etc) and I'm noticing that some others are getting deep sea god (when they're actually studying the deep ocean as their major) etc... so my q is, are you somehow an ancient greek oracle pointing things out using modern technology to see what the mortals do with this knowledge? (Also thanks for a fun quiz)
you're going to get a long answer for no other reason than I'm at work and I hate my job. sorry
like way to long. i am so sorry.
So.
personality stuff
I'm going to say that first and foremost I am a massive skeptic when it comes to stuff like personality types, astrology etc. I think a lot of these things are people making very broad statements which many people identify with and become more convinced of their reality. a messy rabbit hole. I'm hardly the first to say this so lets move on
I also am a massive fan of personality quizzes (done well) and things like tarot ( i literally love doing tarot readings does anyone want a tarot reading). so not super well meshing opinions you may say?
yes.
however. i make them fit like this. I don't think all people can be split into 12 or 16 or whatever number of groups. I do think there are many shared human experiences and emotions. I know that most people taking my quiz are of a smiliar age and mostly western. This means we have even more shared experiences in this very global world.
I also know that from a lifetime of studying people and trying to understand their motivations (thank you autism (in case you couldn't tell)) I have got reasonably good at understanding various types of feelings and states people experience. and yes i suppose 'types' of people.
From this observation I have understood that (on top of us living in a very similar/global environment) we all (not all but basically all) go through the same emotions at some point during our lives.
From this experience and my understanding of our shared reality and feelings it is not exceptionally hard for me to then craft a quiz and retroactively apply the answers.
Example:
I'm going to give an example here because I feel my explanation has got incredibly rambly. Uh spoilers for my god quiz
Let's look at this result: the sky and the earth (because it's one of my favourites)
the first thing i'd say about this is that it's literally based on one of my favourite songs of all time. written while the author was in a mental instition no less (stream dory previn). so i am hardly the first to identify this 'type'.
When i look at this result and am assigning answers for it, several things about it stick out to me. Its main focus is the in between feeling, the longing for more spirtuality but also a desire for the physical and real. while at the same time feeling as if those are very confliced desires. there's obviously more to it but i can only hold so much info in my brain.
i think this is a state many in modern society will experience as we live in such a new and confusing and separate world. i am exposed to more of the world every day, and yet i feel as if i understand it less. the opportunities for me to truly experience the natrual are few and far between. i want to crawl around upon the earth. i want to see the stars and be enlightened.
knowing this i will say
does someone who is sky and earth want to be a god?
(this was the hardest question for literally every type btw.) here i'd say yes. because only something divine can be two opposing concepts surely. surely to know the sky and earth is an impossible goal for a mortal.
ok moving on (im not doing this for every quesion, don't worry, just a couple more to hammer home the point)
this one was harder. i was torn between fruit, dedicated to one issue, and drowning. I think all fit but went for dedicated in the end
for this one i knew i was using a picture of an iguana and i thought iguanas come from deserts so i chose desert. they're not all hits
this one was so easy. to me the confluence of rivers, bringing together something that's normally apart. that felt like the duality of sky and earth to me.
basically the exact same thing as above with mutilation.
i chose the painting of the building surrounded by people. i felt like this building crushed between the sky and the earth, looked upon by passers by, felt like a monument to the dichotomy. when i am feeling sky and earth i feel like the building, i cannot move or touch or really experience. i am just stationary watching it all move around me
So you see. I have identified here an emotion which i felt, which i have witnessed others feeling. i have identified the likely responses i believe a person in this state would give and i hope for the best.
Tarot
OKay you definitely get the point bt now. but i am nowhere near done, i mentioned tarot earlier. there was a reason for this beyond me wanting to do more tarot readings.
I think even though im good, i am really not that good. one thing i have noted over doing many tarot readings is that often the subject needs incredibly little input from the reader. oh, they may need your help guiding them towards the symbolism on the card, but once they've got that they launch into an explanation of how this answers their question.
Because I Always make sure they ask a clear question. this to me is the most important part of any kind of reading or quiz. you want the person to think about this themselves and then perhaps help them to the conclusion. once they're at the results screen/have a card they already have some idea in mind. it doesn't matter if they were expecting something a bit different, this is just a vehicle for their own self truth anyway.
ok im done.
i am a god
woah woah woah. im not done though. you're talking to a classicist so ive GOT to address the oracle comment. my favourite oracle of delphi theory is that the oracle's chamber sat above some kind of natural gas deposit, this gas was possibly hallucinatory. The oracles would get high and then deliver prophesies. I believe that if you combined my observation with powerful drugs I could come up with prophesies like "if your empire goes to war with another empire a great empire will fall ;)". Therefore, yes i am. and i'm taking requests ;)
tldr? uh. i take very universal feelings, use some skill to present those to people most likely to identify with them, they do a bunch of the work
/tldr i am a divine prophet and would like my place at a nice temple and access to good drugs asap
#you can take brackets out of my cold dead hands#i have many asides and i find them the neatest way to do this#please do not kill me and take my brackets#this is not to say i dont believe in the more mystical aspects of tarot and other forms of divination.#i do not think self relflection and divine providence are incompatable#i feel like i similtaneously called myself a fraud and way overstated my abilities#so hopefully we land on a nice centrist everyone hates me#using the tags as footnotes her#important to note: i think you will see far more people saying my quiz was good than saying it was bad and they didn't relate because most#who don't simply won't interact#ok#done#ask#ninjakittycomics#wait not done#i need to say sorry again#to you and my followers#i need to stop writing horrifically long rambles to every question#well i say need. ill never stop. but ill never stop being sorry#sorry if you read all this#to my point about people not agreeing with results#see everyone reacting to getting tech company campuses/made up finance things. my 'meaner' answers#they definitely don't agree (mostly) though i would say in some cases that's because people don't like reading bad things about themselves
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finished my rewatch of nijigasaki and i'm about to say something that may shock everyone.. you will need to brace yourselves for this......... i think i like rina more than shizuku
#flora thoughts#i am so sorry shizuku im a fraud ur not my best nijigasaki girl anymore#i just think rina is the best written character in the show and just so loveable.. she's so caring and so cute#her moments with mia in s2 were SO PEAK like best interactions in the series#she is an autistic icon to me#THAT BEING SAID SHIZUKU DOES STILL HAVE THE BEST SOLOS OF NIJIGASAKI#so i am conflicted..#i think my top 5 though are rina shizuku mia kanata and karin
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I think one reason why idgaf about people joking about sukuna being a fraud and people taking offense to it is because people genuinely called yuki useless, a fraud, fodder, or going "what was the point of this character" when she lost to one of the most powerful individuals in jjk with little to no pushback from the same people running defense for sukuna with gojo. so idk I kinda do not care if they are putting a clown wig over the villain.
#jjk#jjk spoilers#yuki tsukumo#ryomen sukuna#there's this one youtuber who runs defense about sukuna not being a fraud who would turn around and call yuki a bum#like sorry yall dont give the same leniency of being silly or losing to the strong woman character like the strong man character#do the same shit with yorozu and hana but this is the one i get petty about#i can recognize he's not a fraud but also idgaf bro let it go like how yall say the same shit with yuki
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I’m so glad people are liking and sharing my otasune tummy kiss art but it’s a little
#also thank you people tagging it as t4t#you’re right!!!!#always nice seeing people tag their partners on my cute art tho I do appreciate it#I feel like a fraud being like thank you….. it is metal gear fanart…… so sorry………..#it’s in the alt text image description tho so idk#.doc
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this brilloant idea came to me earlier today.. I'll draw law and my one piece s/i as the selfish machines cover cuz it's an amazing album I love ptv. but not while im back in my kia/we phase wow hes so ugly in that picture
#on my 1 billionth design for the op s/i law you suck.#affectionate#kidding no#you deserve a soggy piece of toast#im kidding why am I so mean to him#the joke is that he doesn't even like bread#I think the bigger joke is his fraud of a character#ok no I'll stop being mean#law came to me as a curse#like your white lead disease 🤣🤣🤣🤣#fun fact law made up his backstory so ppl would feel sad for him#ok i need to sleep now sorry law. not#wrenlaw
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@outofthiisworld asked-🔥 - character designs (like pet peeves in designs? things you like that others don’t? Whatever rustles ur feathers let it rip) unpopular(?) opinions (accepting)
I kind of don't really like super complicated designs? Yeah, they can be cool and all but if they're kind of hard for me to draw, I'm not exactly going to like them very much. (Yeah, I can always simplify it but my brain's very particular about that kind of thing. See, idk, Gen.shin Imp.act as an example bc hoo boy, I do not like the way a lot of those character designs look.)
Idk, I think I like simplicity but as long as it's not too simple of a design? Like do a little extra something with it while also being easy for me to parse and I'll be pretty much fine with it!
#//idk how else to describe what i like in designs other than gesturing to a picture and being like that#//this probably doesnt make much sense sorry about that hbfndffnhjg#//its really hard for me to accurately explain what i dont like in a design outside of saying its ugly or doing a little too much#//but it probably doesnt help that my brain is like I HAVE TO GET EVERYTHING RIGHT OR ELSE PEOPLE WILL CALL ME A FRAUD lmao#//adding on but idk if anyone has seen a lot of 90s comic book hero costumes but some of those designs are so fucking goofy#//i cant help but like them despite how utterly dumb most of them look#//their attempts at being cool charm have won me over#//and even then its the ones that lean towards being super super simple bc hoo boy a lot of those costumes are UUUUUGGGLLYY#//like yeesh there's a whole lot of stinkers there eugh#why are you botherin' me? {answered memes}#backup log {ooc}#outofthiisworld
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ok taking a very deep breath 🫶 i will be ok
#honestly my mental health usually takes the biggest fucking nosedive every october-january bc of . several reasons . and like.#all considered. have done SO well this time around ! but this was kicking around in my head lately#especially bc theres a gay elder at my work and he just thinks im a lesbian 😭 which is like sweet but i feel like such a fraud in wanting-#to tell him im not a woman. i feel like i dont 'try' hard enough#<- feel like that comes across like i think being thought of as a lesbian = i am perceived as a woman ie lesbianism requires womanhood#i dont sorry this is just piggybacking off of my post about not being out as a trans person and being perceived as gay semi-correctly by-#someone older in the community#just not accurate to me
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I wasn't diagnosed with hEDS, despite very much suspecting it before that. my doctor used that testing method (I always forget the name of) that looks at like 5 joints only and judges based on that. some of those happened to be joints I don't have as much issue with (for example, my elbows and knees don't bend past the degree required and my back is way too stiff to touch the ground without a lot of stretching first) but I was told I have general, basically harmless joint hypermobility and there's no treatment to help me or anything. I'm basically fine I guess?
I was told by a few people on twitter that the test is outdated and the issues I mention having sounds a lot like hEDS and I need a second opnion (but can't get one because that's the only doctor in my hospital/insurance system) so all I have to go by is what people online have told me from a guess and what a doctor told me. so I really don't know what the truth it. but I feel obligated to go off of what the doctor said and say "I'm fine" because I was also told by twitter people that this "isnt something to wish for/it's a very serious condition/you can't just self diagnosed this/etc" so I can only assume I just have a few joints that bend more than they should but it's fine.
(this is longer than i expected so i'll cut it)
my joints are always popping and cracking and feeling very loose and floppy. I don't get big dislocations requiring hospital visits that I am told are a required symptoms of hEDS. )I can dislocated my jaw on demand though and have to use my hands to put it back lmao and other joints get stuck and feel like they're trying to dislocate and stuff like that? i've had toes and fingers dislocated and my parents just yank on them until they pop back in. my hips are some of the worst joints i think. of course those aren't tested in the EDS test. i'll be walking and suddenly my hip feels like it pops out of place or gets stuck. if i'm standing and shift my hips, I can feel it pop really dramatically. always a dull pain, sometimes sharp pain that makes it very hard to walk untol it goes away. but I try to ignore it.
I feel like I have high pain tolerance (not sure if due to being autistic and having weird sensory issues, or from basically being trained my while life to ignore my pain because my parents couldn't afford to take me to doctors, being told to suck it up i'm being dramatic, getting ignored or told others "have it worse," etc.) so i've just been accepting the joint pain I get, especially from my very physically demanding job, and don't do much about it. I'm pretty sure most, if not all my sleep problems are due to chronic pain and discomfort. everyone tries to tell me it's all in .y head and I can't sleep because my mind is "too active" and i'm just "thinking too much" so i've been suggested so many things to treat anxiety. thkae don't work and meds made it WAY worse. i'm the definition of "head empty" when i'm trying to sleep. I don't think that's it lmao. if it's anything in my head, it's the vivid dreams I have. but do dreams make you feel like you got physically hit by a truck? maybe mentally, yeah.
my mom, who I work with, has chronic pain and back and other problems. so since she "just deals with it" she applies that to me and says "mine is worse/I deal with it every day and it mever stops/I can't help you/you have nothing to complain about/etc" and not just her, my whole family seems to have chronic pain and stuff. it's like it's genetic, idk. so i'm expected to work through it and ignore it. she doesn't use any mobility aids despite probably needing to, so it was never suggested to me. i've had pain and issues most my life but was always told i'm "too young to have any pain. wait until you're 25/30/35" (the number changes as I get older for some reason...) "you arent allowed to complain/experience pain now, you're too young. exercise more. you sit at your computer too much. etc" so i've just tried to ignore it and deal with it because i'm overreacting and it's not bad, right? others have it worse.
I visited some friends this past week. One friend is disabled and uses a cane/wheelchair to aid her mobility due to severe chronic pain. I brought my hip brace with me, which helps hold my hip in the joint a little and helps stop it popping out as I walk (there's still pain though, but it stops my joint from popping out sideways when i move it, if that makes sense?) my friend noticed me struggling and despite me telling her i'm fine and this or normal, she demanded I don't just "deal with it" like everyone else. she made sure I had my brace on, shared her pain meds, and made me borrow her cane while she used her wheelchair.
we went to an anime convention and met up with one of my friend's friends for a little bit. she also uses a cane when walking around a lot. she noticed my hip issues and my skin having a bad reaction to the double sided tape I was using for cosplays and asked if I had EDS because I showed signs like people she knows who have it. that kind of further makes me wonder if maybe my doctor misdiagnosed because of the bad outdated test? perhaps it's not and i'm overthinking it. i'm just thinking that if that's what it it actually is, it would be nice to know so I know how to help myself? like maybe there's more treatments than just ignoring standard hypermobility? and what if there's other related issues i'd have to watch for amd not know about?
but anyway, borrowing my friends cane, with and even without my hip brace (sometimes with wrist brace too if i remembered because wrist pain particularly due to an old, severe injury as a kid), doing a ton of walking all week, I noticed I never got sharp hip and knee pains that I get normally that almost down me every day at work or when going for a walk. I always try to ignore them and push through and continue what I'm doing. I assume that's fine and even get annoyed at myself for being so overreacting to it????? i'm suppsed to have high pain tolerance, right? i'm making a big deal out of nothing probably!!!!
but using it that whole week and finding that it helped makes me wonder if I should get my own???? not that I really go anywhere and I can't use it at work because I have to use my hands the whole time. (or is that attention seeking behavior? I know using one draws negative attention because people are assholes about that stuff. but it's still attention. am I secretly wanting attention???) I also wonder if i'm experiencing more issues than I think. like have I gotten so used to ignoring things that it's actually worse than I think? am I a walking imposter syndrome? i've heard you can dull your own sense of pain by ignoring it long enough and being autistic with sensory issues can also cause a reduced sense of pain. it seemed like being around other disabled people and people who actually paid attention to me meant people noticed me struggling more than I notice, if that makes sense?? but I don't know i'd I am truly struggling or i'm unconsciously making it up????
when I was on my way home walking through the airport, I thought I was doing fine. yeah, I was going slower than everyone else and leaning on my rolling carryon luggage, but i'm sure I was fine......I must have looked like I was struggling. a man driving one of those little transport vehicles through the hall stopped and asked if I was ok. I said i'm fine and he insisted I get on and he take me down the rest of the very long hall. he got to the end where it splits and I needed the opposite way he was headed so he called for someone with a wheelchair to scoop me up and take me to my gate and wouldn't accept a no.
I thought i'd be fine shuffling the hour long layover I had to the opposite side of the airport to my gate, but turns out I made it a minute after boarding time started even with other people running me through on wheels double the speed or more i was going myself. I may have missed my flight if I kept shuffling on my own.....
even though it was a lot of help, I still felt bad, like I was taking up resources from people who really needed it. I never considered myself physically disabled despite my weird joint issues, weakness, chronic pain, lack of balance and coordination, etc. it was a lot of help, and like I said, I may have missed my plane without it, but I still felt really bad and still do, like a fraud, like I was wasting something others needed more. I just feel like my struggles aren't enough to warrant any thpe of disability aid, if they can even be considered struggles at all. I felt like i'm an able person being fake and taking something that doesn't belong to me, wasting resources that aren't meant for me, despite it not being me who chose it or asked for it. I tried to refuse, but it was given to me by someone who seems to have felt I needed it????? should I have rejected it more and tried to be more insistent on being fine? (though i'm not sure i'd be capable of that since I was overwhelmed and my autistic brain can barely handle airports....so talking at all was kind of out of the question)
i really feel like I don't need or deserve help like that! I need to deal with it on my own and ignore it, right? others have it worse! it's not that bad. I can deal with it on my own. maybe i'm being dramatic about any pain and stuff i'm experiencing and need to suck it up and stop complaining. It's not bad enough to even mention it! maybe i'm unconsciously trying to get attention or something like that. unconsciously looked like I was struggling for some kind of attention or something (despite trying to always shrink and hide myself in public to be left alone, especially when sensory overwhelmed). I hope I didn't impede anyone who needed and deserved help more than me 🥺😔
#lee rambles#disablity#hypermobile eds#disabled#i dont know what to tag this but if anyone wants to share their opinion i'll allow it#tell me if you think i did bad and stole resources from people who need it. am i a fraud? and i horrible for not being able to reject?#how do i stop limping around and look find instead so it doesn't happen again? 😔 why do i feel sl bad about this? 😭#look fine*#am i an abled asshole who is overreacting and taking up space i dont deserve? 😭😭😭😭😭#do any actual disabled people ever feel like this?#i truly genuinely feel like a fraud who wasted people's time and resources and feel bad and cant stop 😭#i'm sorry if anyone thinks this way too. i didnt mean for this to happen 😔#also im not proofreading this. too tired. so apologies if typos or things dont make sense or i repeated the same things D:
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not unsubscribing from mlb emails as an act of contrition
#the sin is being a fall out boy fan who feels like a fraud to the baseball community with my little ballpark app and mlb mailing list#I’m so sorry chicago cubs#I’m so sorry wrigley field#I even watched field of dreams#I actually don’t care about baseball at all#sorry. i care so much about fall out boy#fall out boy forever baby#personal#fall out boy
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Sorry but if I see any donatello fans call mob swagless again or insult him I might lose it.
#like idk i am not saying mp100 fans always behave because LORD KNOWS.#but i just looked in the notes on the mob vs donnie poll while it was going on and it was just soooo many insults towards mob#and its like i dont care if u want donatello to win but just dont insult the other character esp when u clearly know nothing about him 😒#anyway never look in the comments.#it is always ny downfall#but for real the anger i felt seeing insults towards mob 😭😭😭 he means so much to me......#just be nice hellooooooo#uts just a fun internet poll we dont need to throw around fraud accusations and insult other ppls charas#sorry i just am thinking abt this with the final coming up and donnie being back in 🙄
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