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FFXIV Vanilla Gpose Challenge
Day 2: Landscape/Location đȘŠ Grave of a Dear Friend
ââŠIt doesnât get any easier, does it?â ~ Lord Francel de Haillenarte
#ffxivvanilla24#vanillagpose24#ffxiv gpose#ffxiv spoilers#heavensward spoilers#female wol#female lalafell#hali aloke#oc: drops of jupiter#this is obviously a very important location for many of us#and I cried all over again once I figured out where Haurchefantâs grave was and found it#then Francel showed up and I cried even harder#so I had to choose this location#sorry for any tears shed
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day 4: family. Eventually something you love is going to be taken away. And then you will fall to the floor crying. And then, however much later, it is finally happening to you: youâre falling to the floor crying thinking, âI am falling to the floor crying,â but thereâs an element of the ridiculous to it â you knew it would happen and, even worse, while youâre on the floor crying you look at the place where the wall meets the floor and you realize you didnât paint it very well. -Richard Siken
#my art#ace attorney#KlapolloWeek2023#klapollo#sorry for the angst. itll be cute tomorrow <3#now does kristoph gavin deserve any tears shed over him? or any flowers on his casket? not at all#will there be crying and flowers when he kicks the bucket? yes. grief is funny#theyâre supposed to be older in this too. which is why Apollo looks like that
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Maybe they forgot to add me in Cars 2 but at least they didn't remove any of the songs and tried to play it off like I wasn't the reason for them
#in this essay i will-#im sorry just go look at all the lyrics of the songs yes I'm including the ones not in English#credit songs absoLUTELY counted and included as well#sorry Mon Couer Fait Vroum got in my shuffle queue and I'm listening to it now#it sounds light and happy but if you would like to shed tears i encourage looking up the translated versionđ#i have so much to say about the songs in especially Cars 2 yall. yall got no idea#self ship#selfship#selfshipping#self shipping#hey guys did you know that when C.ars 2 was originally 2+ hours long when they cut it down they cut all the parts of me out aucusix7uajdcuw8#anyđ#<-using that tag cause it is close enough
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staring directly at my incoming homework assignment as i draw luke instead
#.text#his asteria outfits did NOT have to be so good btw#if one of them at LEAST isnt in abyss remake.... đ#i hope they give them legacy costumes too. hang on let me think of a lineup for them#im not sure abt natalia but id Love to see her in leons outfit. idk why but i would. shed rock it#anise as elize xillias or rita. bc she would be a good rita.#guy as asbel or. rokurou.#jade as eizen or ludger i cant choose. either is funny. i honestly dont think anything fits fits him. u could put him in like literally any#one elses costume and hed look funny in it. cant explain that#tear as. hm. mint or raine. the healers. but also bc they look professional and to ME tear is a professional gal#luke as judas sorry i decided that ages ago. literally forever and ever ago. i dont even know who he is his design is just rlly good#tho i think yuri or lloyd would be funny too. aka lukes besties#oh my god i forgot asch#any of the traitor characters would be funny for him i think. maybe richard#the problem with asch's costumes i think. or costume. is that i think itd be the FUNNIEST thing if you gave him like a joke costume#and he had to keep it on for the rest of the game. the devs wouldnt allow it but itd be funny.#anyway thats my list ill be emailing it to bandai namco soon
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red bull could whip out a gun and shoot max in the head on track and iâd be like âyeah, thatâs just classic singapore for him!â i am deeply unfazed by this flop performance. i think he should try to collect as many penalties as possible and steal the meme from ocon.
#kinda hoping this flop era delays his championship win to cota so i can see âšâš#also being a leafs fan has numbed me to real pain#i have shed more tears over that team than any real events from my life probably#it makes me more uncomfortable that i have a successful driver than to see a flop#itâs like i donât even know myself. who am /i/ to like success#sorry to all my fellow struggling verstappies though#itâll be worth it when he doesnât win the championship after a /sprint race/
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something else that rly pisses me off about this whole thing though is like, they knew that it had imploded from the start and they still went and put hope in the hearts of their families that they might be found safe. they wasted a fuckton of tax dollars to try and find them knowing it was probably over likeâŠ
i think if they had just been like "we're pretty sure it imploded but we still have to search to confirm it just in case they're still alive" it'd be one thing, but they gave everyone false hope
not that i particularly care on the same end that a bunch of billionaires are sad, but it just seems like a dick move idk
#oceangate#sorry i wont stop shutting the fuck up about this it's just like. man.#man.#i'm not a bootlicker i'm not shedding any tears over the dead rich people#but it sucks that the kid and a researcher died for no good reason#it's literally just one massive waste of time and money all around#my only hope is that people stop trying to fucking colonize the ocean after this.#but i have my doubts that any lessons will be learned.#and don't even get me started on how this overshadowed those migrants who were drowned too like...#every single little aspect of this pisses me off so bad
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late night again, you know what that means!! [starts openly weeping about the skills]
#little brain guys who i can't stop thinking about. my god. i have to start crying now (positive)#they make me so happy... i love imagining them in scenarios... everytime i see them in fanart peeking over harry's shoulder or like#they speak a single line in a post im like AUIGHKGKJH IS THAT MY FRIEND [SKILL] HI [SKILL] I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!#aoguhhhh. sorry it's 5 am and im overly emotional about my blorbos. actively shedding tears thinking about voli. not even anything#in particular. im just so emotionally attached to him. and to chemi and empy and shiv and perce and esprit and inland and#i could name at least half the skills here. once i do my empy-centric deep-dive into character analysis of all the skills i could probably#cry about any of them. im so not normal about them. full of love and sleepiness. gotta sleep before i get delirious about them lmao.#chemi chats
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what enjolras had with france was yuri
#'hey parker can you stop making everything about yuri' no sorry#something something that one part of the book where. he literally like shed a tear thinking about his beautiful lover france#i could be misremembering this but im pretty sure one of the other guys was making a joke about how france was the only woman enjolras loved#sorry idk why im even thinking about any of this rn#keyboard click clack noises
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Studying the blade
#sorry for the scuffed pic. if I get any closer heâll drop it#why is it that a parrots first reaction to shedding a feather is to destroy it#unidentified fucking thing tear it up now
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sorry for the long post but ...
well considering how much republicans were amplifying and repeating various antisemitic conspiracy theories i would say that they are not unlike the nazis. the great replacement is one to one with hitlers theory that jews were the puppeteers and funders of queer and poc and immigrant rights movements. that they were coming to "replace" aryan germans or in america's case "true patriotic americans." (aryan is confusing because it's referring to south and east asian groups?)
nazis also resented groups they deemed "weak" or "deformed" like the disabled and the mentally ill. things that republicans outright complain about (at least since the 80s with wellfare queens and refusing to support obamacare universal payer healthcare. as well as dismantling socialized mental health care in the 70s which ..just... thanks again Ron Reagan gov of california in the 60s and 70s for all the serial killers that ran around unchecked.) the nazis used wealthy jewish elites as the excuse but notice how republicans use the dog whistle "wealthy democratic elites" or "wealthy globalists" the second one including the "rootless cosmopolitan" antisemetic theory, but cosmopolitan as a phrase meant lived in the city as well as being educated. sound familiar to the snobby blue cities the conservatives are mad at?
now this is nazis before hitler came to power, about mid 1920? to at least 1930s.
jews were the main target but they were also used to explain how "inferior" races were becoming successful and also why the economic collapse was not the fault of the wealthy generally but a handful of spoiled richy riches who were too decadent and using minority groups as pawns. you know... the (((jews)))
in my opinion, knowing the factors that lead up to the holocaust, the only difference between america and germany (in the retoric being thrown around at least) is that because we have religious freedom in the US as our first and highest principle of law it's basically legally impossible to target jews for being jewish. they would have to figure out ways to target jews, a varied group who don't share the same types of last names and who have to voluntarily register themselves as jews, without identifying jews or infringing on their religion. germany had no problems saying jews couldn't be students or teachers or saying they had to live in restricted areas and wear identifying cloths. america can't pass laws like that. unless you look at "constitutional originalism" which all the conservatives on the supreme court use, which could easily be used to say "the framers of the constitution only meant freedom of religion for the different kinds of christians which were around at the time of the framing is 1776." which is bunk because there were lots of different religions in america even in 1776, like say native religions as well as jews and everything else.
this is why legislative racial/queer discrimination in america is much more common. you can target black communities and hispanic communities and lgbt communities and urban communities much more easily by backdooring laws that target things they share as a community including where they live and their lifestyle. it is easier to hire cops and direct school funding away from and halt community investment in... communities of color and sexual/gender minorities.
all this to say... that while the republicans do mirror nazi beliefs that jews and jewish ideologies (cultural tolerance, letting people do their own thing, be open to immigration, humanistic and ethical response to communities in crisis especially if those communities are allowed to self determine, and free discussion of ideas/ varying opinions) are being weaponized by a shadowy cabal of jews and jewish allies. they very very obviously do. they are not full hitler WW2 nazis at this time.
the holocaust was the final act and goal of nazi ideology. after every last jew was dead they would have planned to cull any "jewish like" groups. they probably would have ended up enslaving more than half the population. by enslaving i mean literally worked them to death with no food, shelter, or life outside of generating the ever increasing amount of money they would need to sustain themselves. any dark haired men and women. anyone with the wrong skull shape. eugenics is a cess pit, a pyramid scheme of sorts, that only ends when enough people next in line to be culled say no. my personal favorite factoid about the eugenics movement in America (around the late 1800s) is that eugenists estimated there were only about 4% of the total us population that was good enough to breed.
America isn't going the way of the nazis as long as the first amendment holds and as long as there is "strict scrutiny" of racial bias and "scrutiny" of sexual bias. it's important to note however, that one of our supreme court justice is flying a christian nationalism flag outside more than one of his houses. you know christian nationalism? the one that wants to make america a "christian" state where christian religious laws are held above any others and ideally the country would exist as a christian ethnostate? convert or perish kind of thing.
so that said. yeah. republicans are very much aspiring nazis.
don't worry tho. the left in America is aspiring to become stalinists and moaists so they can fix the country just like the ussr and the moa fixed russia and china to have utopian societies where everyone can speak their minds and is taken care of by the government and has political determination and can be gay or a different ethnicity or feel safe in their free government provided housing.
and they also hate jews.
it's going to be fine because there are divided regions that can go their own way and keep their laws of the land as crazy or sane as they like. plus all of this would take more years to put into motion than the orange shit head has left on earth. IMO
I am taking the word "nazi" away from goyim until they realise JEWS CANNOT BE FUCKING NAZIS.
Not all fascist white guysâąïž are nazis!!!! Stop claiming our oppression as your own!!!!!!!!!
Trump is not a nazi. Desantis is not a nazi. Whoever the fuck else on that category is not a nazi. Nazis are people that went after mainly and mostly JEWS. Republican/conservative/whatever DOES NOT EQUAL NAZI!!!!!!!!!!!
Whether or not you agree with zionism, ZIONISTS. CANNOT. BE. NAZIS.
Because of the simple fact they are jews.
And the nazis? They went AFTER JEWS. Before anyone else.
Unless you also wanna start calling Black People You Don't Like KKK members, fucking stop.
#jumblr#leftist antisemitism#antisemitism#us politics#republicans#supreme court#sorry to any israeli followers that have to learn about how fucked up things are#israelis and ukrainians are the ones going through actual current harm from fascist and dictatorial killings#palistinian civilians are going through awful harm as well but i don't know how many tears they would shed over america being all fucked up
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Kingdom of Ash Chapters 46-47
He didn't see Lysandra. Aelin made no appearances, either.
The queen had abandoned them, the soldiers muttered Aedion made sure to shut down the talk. Had snarled that the queen had her own mission to save their asses, and if she wanted Erawan to know about it, she would have announced it to them all, since they were so inclined to gossip. It eased the discontent-barely.
Aelin had not defended them with her fire, had left them to be butchered.
The Bane began striking their swords against their shields. A steady heartbeat to override the vibrations of the Morath soldiers marching toward them.
He had not prepared a speech to rally them. A speech would not keep these men from dying today.
So Aedion drew the Sword of Orynth, hefted his shield, and joined the Bane's steady beat. Conveying all the defiance and rage in his heart, he clashed the ancient sword against the dented, round metal. Rhoe's shield. Aedion had never told Aelin. Had wanted to wait until they returned to Orynth to reveal that the shield he'd carried, had never lost, had belonged to her father. And so many others before that. It had no name. Even Rhoe had not known its age. And when Aedion had spirited it away from Rhoe's room, the only thing he grabbed when the news came that his family had been butchered, he had let the others forget about it, too. Even Darrow had not recognized it. Worn and simple, the shield had gone unnoticed at Aedion's side, a reminder of what he'd lost. What he'd defend to his final breath.
Chaos reigned.
Aedion roared from somewhere, from the heart of hell, "Re-form the lines!" The order went ignored.
The Bane tried and failed to hold the line.
Ansel of Briarcliff bellowed to her fleeing men to get back to the front, Galan Ashryver echoing her commands to his own soldiers. Ren shouted to his archers to remain, but they too abandoned their posts.
Lysandra slashed through the shins of one Morath soldier, then ripped the throat from another. None of Terrasen's warriors remained a step behind her to decapitate the fallen bodies.
No one at all.
Over. It was over.
Useless, Aedion had called her.
Lysandra gazed toward the ilken feasting on the right flank and knew what she had to do.
The queen has come. The queen is at the front line.
For a foolish heartbeat, he scanned the sky for a blast of flame.
None came.
Dread settled into his heart, fear deeper than any he'd known.
The queen is at the front lineâat the right flank.
Lysandra.
Lysandra had taken on Aelin's skin.
He whirled toward the nonexistent right flank.
Just as the golden-haired queen in borrowed armor faced two ilken, a sword and shield in her hands.
No.
The word was a punch through his body, greater than any blow he'd felt.
Aedion began running, shoving through his own men. Toward the too-distant right flank. Toward the shape-shifter facing those ilken, no claws or fangs or anything to defend her beyond that sword and shield.
No.
He pushed men out of the way, the snow and mud hindering each step as the two ilken pressed closer to the shifter-queen.
Savoring the kill.
But the soldiers slowed their fleeing. Some even re-formed the lines when the call went out again. The queen is here. The queen fights at the front line.
Exactly why she had done it. Why she had donned the defenseless, human form.
No.
The ilken towered over her, grinning with their horrible, mangled faces.
Too far. He was still too damn far to do anythingâOne of the ilken slashed with a long, clawed arm.
Her scream as poisoned talons ripped through her thigh sounded above the din of battle.
She went down, shield rising to cover herself.
He took it back.
He took back everything he had said to her, every moment of anger in his heart.
Aedion shoved through his own men, unable to breathe, to think.
He took it back; he hadn't meant a word of it, not really.
Lysandra tried to rise on her injured leg. The ilken laughed.
"Please," Aedion bellowed. The word was devoured by the screams of the dying. "Please!" He'd make any bargain, he'd sell his soul to the dark god, if they spared her.
He hadn't meant it. He took it back, all those words.
Useless. He'd called her useless. Had thrown her into the snow naked.
He took it back.
Aedion sobbed, flinging himself toward her as Lysandra tried again to rise, using her shield to balance her weight.
Men rallied behind her, waiting to see what the Fire-Bringer would do. How she'd burn the ilken. There was nothing to see, nothing to witness. Nothing at all, but her death.
Yet Lysandra rose, Aelin's golden hair falling in her face as she hefted her shield and pointed the sword between her and the ilken. The queen has come; the queen fights alone. Men ran back to the front line. Turned on their heels and raced for her.
Lysandra held her sword steady, kept it pointed at the ilken in defiance and rage. Ready for the death soon to come.
She had been willing to give it up from the start. Had agreed to Aelin's plans, knowing it might come to this. One shift, one change into a wyvern's form, and she'd destroy the ilken. But she remained in Aelin's body. Held that sword, her only weapon, upraised. Terrasen was her home. And Aelin her queen. She'd die to keep this army together. To keep the lines from breaking. To rally their soldiers one last time.
Her leg leaked blood onto the snow, and the two ilken sniffed, laughing again. They knewâ what lurked under her skin. That it was not the queen they faced. She held her ground. Did not yield one inch to the ilken, who advanced another step.
For Terrasen, she would do this. For Aelin.
He took it back. He took it all back.
Aedion was barely a hundred feet away when the ilken struck. He screamed as the one on the left swept with its claws, the other on the right lunging for her, as if it would tackle her to the snow.
Lysandra deflected the blow to the left with her shield, sending the ilken sprawling, and with a roar, slashed upward with her sword on the right. Ripping open the lunging ilken from navel to sternum. Black blood gushed, and the ilken shrieked, loud enough to set Aedion's ears ringing. But it stumbled, falling into the snow, scrambling back as it clutched its opened belly. Aedion ran harder, now thirty feet away, the space between them clear. The ilken who'd gone sprawling on the left was not done. Lysandra's eye on the one retreating, it lashed for her legs again.
Aedion threw the Sword of Orynth with everything left in him as Lysandra twisted toward the attacking ilken. She began falling back, shield lifting in her only defense, still too slow to escape those reaching claws. The poison-slick tips brushed her legs just as his sword went through the beast's skull. Lysandra hit the snow, shouting in pain, and Aedion was there, heaving her up, yanking his sword from the ilken's head and bringing it down upon the sinewy neck. Once. Twice.
The ilken's head tumbled into the snow and mud, the other beast instantly swallowed by the Morath soldiers who had paused to watch. Who now looked upon the queen and her general and charged.
Only to be met by a surge of Terrasen soldiers racing past Aedion and Lysandra, battle cries shattering from their throats.
Aedion half-dragged the shifter deeper behind the re-formed lines, through the soldiers who had rallied to their queen. He had to get the poison out, had to find a healer who could extract it immediately. Only a few minutes remained until it reached her heart. Perhaps the gods had listened. Perhaps it was their idea of mercy: that the ilken's poison had worn off on other victims before it'd gotten to her.
Aedion scanned the regrouping army for any hint of the healers' white banners over their helmets. None. He whirled toward the front lines. Perhaps there was a Fae warrior skilled enough at healing, with enough magic leftâAedion halted. Beheld what broke over the horizon.
Ironteeth witches.
A witch tower.
Oh gods.
"Fall back!" Aedion screamed, even while his men continued to rally. "FALL BACK." Aedion whirled and began running, carrying the shifter with him. "FALL BACK!"
The army beheld what approached. Whether they realized it was no siege tower, they understood his order clearly enough. Saw him sprinting, Aelin over his shoulder.
There was nowhere to hide on the field. No dips in the earth where he might throw himself and Lysandra, praying the blast went over them. Nothing but open snow and frantic soldiers.
"RETREAT!" Aedion's throat strained.
The Yielding.
The world shuddered.
Aedion threw Lysandra into the mud and snow and hurled himself over her, as if it would somehow spare her from the roaring force that erupted from the tower, right at their army.
One heartbeat, their left flank was fighting as they retreated once more.
The next, a wave of black-tinted light slammed into four thousand soldiers.
When it receded, there was only ash and dented metal.
#Chapter 46#Chapter 47#Lysandra Ennar#Aedion Ashryver#Kingdom of Ash#Sarah J. Maas#first read along with me NO SPOILERS PLEASE#spoilers in post and tags with more quotes notes reacts sorry tried google doc shorthand lol#Ineed you2stay sane&safe-this would make a great adaptation-this was war-the ghost leopard better get her title-no speech 2 save-he knew#shield4her-shed Bfire-shell burn the world-from the heart of hell-Hope ran-mayBthis fear-he gonna realize it when hes losing her dam-LYSDON#where has our queen gone-she knew what she had 2 do-their both remembering the same words-she became defenseless so they would Bbrave-2late#living Hope she rose like a queen-Shed been willing from the start-she would die 4 it1last time yes the witches-NO NO NO NOT OUR WITCHES RU#DO NOT FUCKING YIELDING-holy fuck this better not B4eshadowing shit-no2WERS-Nox returned W a few hundred even-less-trained warriors-No magi#wielders Im just happy every time its Nox-tearing their uprising should they learn the true Heir2Perranth had been held captive in the high#tower of the castle-puppet lordThe queen had abandoned them the soldiers mutteredAedion made sure2shut down the talk-Aedion had said#similiar thoughHell hedve wept2C Dorian Havilliard&his considerable power at that momentTHINGS ARE REALLY BAD-Lys remembered the girl but#their advantage lay in the frozen river not in letting themselves Bcornered 2 endure a slow deathCome ON SOMEONEThe Bane beganAspeech would#keep these men from dying 2dayRhoes shield never had a chance2tell Aelinthe beat2hide the fear Worn&simpleshield had gone unnoticed@Aedions#side a reminder of what hed lostWhat hed defend 2 his final breathChaos reignedAedion roared from somewhere from the heart of hellRe4m the#linesThey never s2pped fightingthe right the leftNo one at alluvrIt was overUseless Aedion had called herLysandra gazed 2ward the ilken&kne#what2doAedion imagined theyd all Bkilled where they s2od battling 2gether until the endNot picked off1by1as they fled-disgrace unworthyThe#The queen has comeThe queen is at the front line4a foolish heartbeat he scanned the sky 4 a blast of flameDread settled in2 his heart-fear#deeper than any hed knownThe queen is at the front line at the right flankLysandraNoThe word was a punch through his body greater than any#blow hed feltNoExactly why shed done4the front lineHe 2ok it back she went down shield rising2cover herselfHe 2ok back everything hed said2#her every moment of anger in his heartPleaseHed make any bargain hed sell his soul2the dark god if they spared herHe hadnt meant itThere wa#2wnothing2CnothingitnessNothing at all but her death. Yet Lysandra roseShed been willing2give it up from the startHad agreed2Aelins plans#knowing it might come2thisBut she remained in Aelins bodyHeld that sword her only weapon upraisedTerrasen was her home&Aelin herQueen shed#die 2keep the army 2getherThat it was not the queen they facedShe held her groundDid not yield1inch4Terrasen she would do this4AelinHe 2ok#it back Perhaps the gods had listenedPerhaps it was their idea of mercyAedion whirled&began running carrying the shifter W him-FALL BACK!TH#TOWER RETREAT-Yielding-TheWorld shuddered-Aedion hurled himself over her-as if 2 somehow spare her-nothing but ash
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truly theres no other emotion like the one that plays after finding out that some of your relatives are Very Much Insufferable regarding an insignificant thing
#like. oh nooooo. you didnt like the olympics. should i make some instant noodles with any tears you might shed while whining abt it?#(SHE DIDNT EVEN WATCH THE OLYMPICS JUST THE LITTLE FRAGMENTS SHOWN IN NEWS OR SMTH OF THAT SORT)#oh noooooo youre not willing to open up and expose yourself to other cultures- wait no thats a bit more significant actually wtf#sorry. rant post#not a reblog
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ⳠIndex [Day 31 - Werewolves]
Pairing:Â Alpha Dom!Jungkook x f. Omega sub!Reader
Genre: childhood best friends to enemies to lovers!AU, werewolf!AU
Warnings: Kook is kinda cold at first, it is implied that OC gets sold into a forced marriage where she will be tortured and assaulted (not to Kook but a villain character hahaha), yeah...her future is not looking good, or is it?, Koo might have a plan :----)
Kinks:Â the trope of "just the tip" and "we shouldn't be doing this", yeah besties i went there, sex in a shed in the forest, sex by the bonfire, nudity, naked cuddling for warmth *wink wink*, he is bigger and stronger than her, size & muscle & strength kink, he pins her down, fuck i'm literally so small when it comes to him like bro please i have so many thots, hahah sorry i'm really into him haahah, he pins her wrists & puts his hand over her mouth to silence her, huge werwolf dick, knotting, multiple orgasms for both, "just the tip" in spooning position, clit massages, rough penetrative sex in pronebone & doggy style, he has her in a headlock at one point, breeding for the sake of scent marking her, so much fucking cum oh lord, dirty talk, he has fangs, he bites her shoulder, he growls, what if i was weak?? what then??, tears, eye contact, this is emotional & has plot and i wanna write more about them, cuddly & safe aftercare, the plot in this is so good omfg
Wordcount:Â 11.5k
a/n: i have zero (0) Z E R O knowledge of the workings of the omegaverse. i know that thereâs alphas and betas and omegas but thatâs it. and that there is heat and knots and slick and scenting(?) but how the dynamics work or what ABO each means? no clue. so if this is inaccurate, bear with me and let's see it as my interpretation of werwolves instead. Okay? Okay. Jjssjjs i also added this idea to the mix ps: i actually don't wanna talk about this, i need to recover first BRO GOODBYE this was kinktober 2024 besties FJJDF what a way to end it tbfh
The storm caught you by surprise. You wouldnât particularly mind it if it wasnât for the company you have to keep.Â
Jeon Jungkook. A stubborn, self-centred peacock of a man who thinks he is something just because he is the son of the alpha.Â
Now, to perhaps understand the situation a little better, one might need what the literary world calls backstory.Â
You lived in a small mountain town far away from any big human city. The town was surrounded by high walls and visitors rarely found their way to it. It was wanted by the townspeople because you werenât particularly human. Most humans would call you demons, but you like to call yourselves werewolves. You lived in a pack and the town was your lair.
You can be human but also turn into a wolf by choice. Some choose to keep some of their wolfish features such as their golden eyes or sharp fangs, while others looked entirely human when they walked on two legs.Â
Jeon Jungkook was the son of the pack alpha and therefore heir of the title. His mother was an alpha as well, which naturally gave him the alpha gen. He was stronger and faster than the other wolves in the pack and he had control over his body during the full moon. He never hid his fangs and showed his golden eyes whenever he was provoked. He earned his pack tattoos when he was twelve after killing three enemy wolves and when he turned eighteen, he earned the pack piercings after fulfilling the maturity rituals within a day. Something only his father managed to do before him.
Ever since that day, Jungkook became even more obnoxious and unlikable than he already was.
You werenât so lucky. Born as an omega into a normal family with normal siblings in a normal house, your life has been prettyâŠnormal. You are the same age as Jungkook, which naturally made you go to the same classes from elementary to high school. And throughout your academic career, you never learned to like him.Â
He was an alpha while you were an omega. You were the only one like this from your family, but they never treated you differently. You were a beloved and cherished family member and therefore lived a normal life until your older brother made a mistake and you had to carry the consequences.
He killed the promised omega wife of the enemyâs alphaâs son. The warring alpha wanted to slaughter the entire town at first, but Jungkookâs father persuaded him to take revenge another way. Take one of the villageâs omegas and marry her to his son. âShe will be complacent and quiet. Once she is married, she will be your property. You can take out your anger on her.â So Jungkookâs father told him and the enemy alpha agreed happily. One night later, you were dragged from your home with no way to escape your future. You were born this way, it wasnât your fault and now it would be your death sentence. You cursed your brother that night who begged to be taken in your stead. You told him to choke on it. It was the last thing you said to him and probably will ever say to him. You already started to regret it.Â
Jungkook was ordered to make sure that you would arrive at the enemy village safe and sound. It has been three days ever since that night and all your hatred for anyone and anything has been directed solely at him.Â
âThe rainâs annoying me. Letâs take shelterâ, Jungkook says dryly.Â
âNo.âÂ
Jungkook glares at you.
âYesâ, he hisses, grabbing your arm by your elbow to drag you to a shed nearby. âIâm not gonna walk in the rain. Besides, itâs late. We need to rest.âÂ
âLet go of meâ, you protest, stumbling after him. There isnât much that you can do. He is stronger and bigger and because of his status, he naturally has almost instinctive control over your actions. You could fight against these instincts, but itâs a lot easier not to.Â
âWould you rather get sick in the rain?âÂ
âMaybe, yes. Maybe Iâll get sick enough to die. At least like this, I wonât be sold into tortureâ, you spit, ripping yourself free from his grasp. Again, all your hatred and anger is directed towards him, so it is easy to fight your instincts right now.Â
Jungkook gawks at you in surprise.Â
âI mean itâ, you insist.
He frowns. He steps close and lifts you off the ground, throwing you over his shoulder.
âHey! Let me down, you fuck!â you yell, flashing your fangs and kicking around you.Â
Jungkook merely shoulders you better and walks, frowning deeply.Â
âYou brought this onto yourself.âÂ
âI hate you. I fucking hate you.â
âNo, you donât.â
âYes, I do. You big, smelling piece of shit.âÂ
Jungkook kicks the shed open and drops you. You stumble in surprise, but catch yourself pretty quickly. You and he are mere inches away, sharing air. The constant lighting cutting the sky illuminates your angry faces. You and Jungkook have your golden eyes out and show off your fangs. Your bodies are steaming as your increased body heats dry the water.Â
âIâm gonna let it slip because we were classmates, but insult me again and I will make you be quiet. Understood?â he gnarls.Â
You step closer, making him taste your words.Â
âGo kiss my ass.âÂ
You turn your back to him and stomp further into the shed.
The shed wasnât much bigger than ten square meters. There were tools on each wall and some tools scattered around the ground. Clearly it was meant as storage for woodworkers. One corner had neat stacks of wood and on a table, some blankets were stacked in case some of the workers needed to stay the night.
âGreat. Thatâs luxury, isnât it?â you grumble.
The door slams closed behind you, making you flinch. You donât look however, wanting to appear stronger than you feel. In truth, you are scared and alone and heartbroken. You are frightened. You are sad. You are afraid. You are helpless and hopeless. And you are only a little bit angry. As you walked, you couldnât stop crying. You were happy for the rain because it masked the constant tears running down your face and you were happy for the loud thunder masking your sobs.
You are being sold like property to a man who will torture you for sports. All you want is to be home and to be held and to have someone pay for your fucking therapy because, goddamn, you are going to need a hell lot of therapy if you should survive this.Â
Jungkook is the last person you want to be with right now. He lacks empathy and kindness and has a tendency to impulsive anger. You are waiting for him to hurt you after slamming the door, frozen on the spot.Â
But it doesnât come. Instead, he swerves past you to get firewood. You can only watch him, frozen like a scared little girl despite having long moved past your second decade on this cruel earth.Â
Jungkook uses his claws to ignite the fire by scratching them over a stone. He blows into the amber until it forms flames, then he stands up. He hooks his fingers in his shirt and takes it off.Â
You gasp and look away. You donât know what he is going to do but it scares you. Is he going to test you out now? Make sure that the alpha is going to get a good delivery?
âRelax. I need to dry my clothes and I canât do that on my body. Iâll catch a cold otherwise.â
âOh.âÂ
Jungkook scoffs and starts unbuckling his belt. You watch his tattooed fingers work. He is wearing heavy silver rings on them. Yep, your people can handle silver without pain. Itâs only a myth that it hurts you. Just as garlic being lethal for vampires is a myth. Humans like to tell these tales to sleep better at night.
Jungkook begins taking off his pants, meeting your gawking eyes.
âStop staring and bring the blankets instead.â
âOh, uhm. Sorry.âÂ
You instinctively obey.Â
âMake a bed by the fire. Away from the door.âÂ
You obey again.Â
Afterwards you lift your head, having to gasp and stare. What? Stare? Why canât you look away?Â
He is completely naked, currently hanging up his clothes on a chair. You should want to look away but you canât. His body is sculpted, his muscles well defined. He currently has his back turned to you. It is so big and broad, contrasting against his small waist. Shit, his legs and butt are so big and sculpted in comparison to it. His back is covered scars. Slashes, bite marks, cuts. Some seem to have dug very deep when fresh.
âJust spit it outâ, Jungkook hisses, rolling his shoulders which makes his back muscles shift and flex.
âWhat?âÂ
âI can feel you staring. Just say what you wanna say.âÂ
âYour back. Itâs covered in scars.âÂ
Jungkook touches his own back, tracing the scars he can reach.
âI guess it is.â
âWho did this to you?âÂ
âToo many people to count.â
âWhat happened to them?âÂ
âThe fact that Iâm still here and theyâre not, should be answer enough. Shouldnât it?âÂ
You gulp.Â
Jungkook turns.
You gulp even harder. Look away! You know that no matter how hard you beg your eyes, they wonât look away. It is like they are enchanted.
His pecs are big, clearly sculpted and strong. His stomach is defined, carrying scars as well. But what truly catches your eyes is his cock. Sitting under a dark, masculine bush of pubes, it glistens in the shine of the fire. It is big, even soft, a little tanner than the rest of his skin and sitting against a pair of big, plumb balls made for breeding. So this is what the cock of an alpha looks like. The effect it has on you is embarrassing. You feel slick build up in your holes and saliva collect in your mouth.Â
âQuit your staring. Itâs like youâve never seen a dick before.âÂ
You shake out of your trance, looking away in embarrassment. Your face feels on fire. Holy fuck, what is wrong with you?Â
âYou have seen dick before, right? Werenât you and Tae a thing in high school?â he talks as he gets under the blanket.Â
âUh, yeah, uh. We were.âÂ
âAnd knowing Tae, he fucked you. Didnât he?âÂ
You turn away in embarrassment, rubbing the side of your neck. Of course he did, but Jungkook doesnât need to know that.Â
He figures it out instantly however, glancing at your middle when you arenât looking. Just for a second, nothing more.
âSo stop being weird about itâ, he says and lies down.Â
You shrink. Jungkook studies you. You are trembling in your wet, cold clothes. He pities you.
âGet naked and hang your clothes up to dryâ, he orders.
You want to move in obedience at first, but then stop. You are too scared to obey instinctively.
âNo. Close your eyes.â
Jungkook groans and closes his eyes.
âYouâre so stuck up. You should practice being naked in front of other people. I heard that Alpha Urquard likes for his pack to watch wedding nights.â
You bite down tears. Great. Not only will you be assaulted, it will happen in front of god knows how many people. What if you just throw yourself onto one of the sharp tools? It would be a bitch way to go, but itâs better than what will happen to you.Â
You ogle the pitchfork. Maybe you could do it. Maybe.
âHey!â
You snap out of it. You whip around, meeting Jungkookâs eyes.
âHurry up and come here.â
âWhat?â
âCome here. Itâs better than over there.â
You ogle the pitchfork then his darkened face. Did he figure you out?
âIâm not gonna repeat myself. Get out of your wet clothes and come to me.â
âPle-please close your eyes.â
Jungkook sighs in defeat and obeys. With shaking fingers, you get naked. With trembling knees, you walk to his side. With weak muscles, you get under the blanket next to him. There is only one blanket and you try your fucking hardest not to touch his body in any kind of way. He left you the spot closer by the fire so you were warmer and he could oversee the door.
Jungkook, who senses your presence, opens his eyes. He studies your face, then your body. You have the blanket pulled up to your neck, shivering uncontrollably. Even now, you seem plagued by the cold.
He furrows his brows in distaste and closes the distance. He manages to put his arm around you before your quiet beg freezes him.
âPlease donât hurt me.âÂ
He moves away, studying you in shock. Your eyes are squeezed shut, your fingers are trembling as you grasp the blanket.
âWhy would I hurt you?â
The honest confusion in his voice forces you to open your eyes.
The fire casts deep shadows into his face as much as it illuminates other parts of it. His wet hair is drying slowly, sticking to his wrinkled forehead. He is furrowing his brows which explains the wrinkles.
âWhy would I hurt you?â he repeats his question with more urgency.Â
âI donât know.â
âI was ordered to make sure that you arrive unharmed to Urquard. The last thing Iâll do is hurt you.â
âPlease donât.â
âPlease donât?âÂ
âDonât make sure that I arrive safely.âÂ
Jungkook blinks in surprise. Such vulnerability isnât what he expected from the once feisty, rude woman of before. You are tiny in fear, trembling uncontrollably and begging him with greyed, hopeless eyes.Â
âDonât be ridiculous. Youâre gonna be an alphaâs wife. Thatâs every omegaâs dreamâ, he snarls, sounding weirdly jealous.Â
You burst into tears instantly, turning your back to him as you curl into a small ball. You wail loudly, unable to pretend any longer. You donât want to be married off. You donât want it.
âNo, uh⊠stop crying. I, Iâm ordering you to stop cryingâ, he panics, hissing his words which only makes you cry harder.Â
He stares for a while, fumbling with his words. In the end he doesnât know what to say, turning off his brain to speak from his heart instead.
âDonât cry, itâs gonna be okayâ, he says softly, rubbing your shoulder.
His touch is tender and soothing. You sob despite it or perhaps because of it. It feels so weird to receive because it is nice.Â
âHey, itâs okayâ, he tells you, draping his arm over you. Like this, your bodies are touching under the blanket. He feels so warm against your skin. âItâs gonna be okay.â
âItâs not gonna be okay. Iâm being sold like a pig to a man who likes to watch his daughters in law get raped in front of the entire pack and who will use every second of his life to torture me.â You shrink into yourself. âI just wanna die. Iâm so scared.âÂ
âHey no, donât say that. Donât be scared, Iâm here.âÂ
âI heard that Urquard killed his first wife by ramming a medal hook into her stomach and hanging her like this. All because she couldnât give him a child with the alpha gen. Please just kill me, please.âÂ
âIâm not gonna kill you, ___.â
The last time Jungkook said your name, you and he were both eleven and played adventurers in the forest. He celebrated his twelfth birthday two weeks later and another two weeks later, he killed those three wolves and got his tattoos. He stopped playing with you and stopped saying your name. Quite frankly, he stopped playing with any children since that day, saying stuff like âa man wouldnât play stupid stuffâ or âmy father says that itâs weak to playâ and he became quiet and distant. Maybe he became sadder as well and lonelier.Â
Your name from his tongue after almost fifteen years forces you to turn in his arms. For just a second, the same innocent and playful boy looks back at you before you blink and come back to reality. His features and eyes are still the same shape and colour but he seemed to have grown into them. His left cheek carries a scar these days and his brows are furrowed more than they are relaxed.Â
âIâm not gonna kill you, ___. And Iâm not gonna let you kill yourself either.â
âSo you would rather see me sold to a monster?â You squeeze out tears of anger and frustration. âI hate you so much. You sadistic, heartless piece of shit.â
Jungkook frowns deeper.
âYou alphas are all the same. You think just because you are stronger than the rest of us, you can push us around like cattle. We arenât cattle. We are people, we live normal and good lives. We are nothing special but thatâs good. Weâre boring and mundane but we love deeply. Unlike you disgusting, selfish alphas who see us as nothing but merchandise.â
âAre you done now?â
âIâve only started. You are heartless, selfish, self-absorbed, apathetic and a snob. At the spot where your heart once was, a rotten piece of coal is sitting and when you talk, plants die out of spite.âÂ
âAnything else you like to add?âÂ
âYou are the worst person to ever exist. You are elitist and stubborn and way too obsessed with status. And youâŠâ Your eyes fill with tears. â...you broke my heart before I even knew what heartbreak was.âÂ
Jungkookâs eyes darken in an unfamiliar emotion. Guilt? Regret? More anger?
âWe did everything together until one day, you decided that I wasnât good enough anymore. For fuckâs sake, we were twelve and you acted like I was embarrassing for doing stuff kids our age were allowed to do.â
âYou think that I had a choice?â He finally speaks up and you get a feeling that it was your turn to listen. âI stopped being a kid in my fatherâs eyes the day I killed those wolves. I didnât wanna push you away, but father made me.â
âWhat?â
âI became his heir that day, I sealed my fucking fate. I had to stop playing a-and doing kidâs stuff. He forced me to train day in and out. I had to be the perfect man. I was twelve, for fuckâs sake. I was a fucking kid who wanted to play adventurers in the forest with, with hisâŠ.with his best friend.âÂ
The silence which follows after his confession is deafening. Fifteen years of hating him. Fifteen years of thinking that he hated you. And all this time, he only acted like this because his father made him. You meet his emotional eyes, feeling emotional yourself.
âI was your best friend?â you whisper.
He nods his head, biting down on his lower lip to stop it from trembling.Â
âI miss you, ___â, he presses out.Â
You feel lost for words. You are so shaken in fact that you canât even find it in you to cry. Fifteen years. Fifteen years of hating him for what he did and wishing for an apology you thought would never come and here it is. His confession. His apology.Â
âItâs been fifteen years and I still do. I miss you and Iâm sorry.â He cups your face, wiping away the remnants of tears. âIâm so sorry.â
You stare. And stare. And stare.Â
âPlease say somethingâ, he whispers.
âI donât know what to say.âÂ
âJust anything, please.âÂ
âYouâre the most selfish piece of shit I have ever seen.â
Jungkookâs face falls in shock. His eyes show how much your words hurt him.
âWhy tell me your stupid apology now? Why confess to me now? Knowing that I will be sold into a life of sex slavery and torture?â You hit his chest. âWhy tell me now when you literally deliver me to my fucking death? You piece of shit, youâre selfish and cruel and I want you dead.â
âNo, you donât.â
âYes, I do. You and your entire family and the rest of the pack. Die. All of you just die.âÂ
You hit him with more vigour. More and more and more.Â
âEnoughâ, he stops you, pinning your wrists into the ground and with it, rendering you helpless, âstop hitting me, please.â
You spit at his face.Â
Jungkook flinches back. He sits up and wipes it away.
âWhat the fuck? You spat at me. Why would you do that?â
âGo to hell and shove your sappy confession up your sadistic assâ, you hiss. You feel no ounce of remorse for what you did.Â
Jungkook wipes your spit into the blanket and moves quickly. He puts your wrists together and pins them above your head. Before you can spit again, he puts his other hand over your mouth, rending your legs useless as well by slinging one of his muscular legs over yours.Â
There is no fabric between your bodies. You are skin against skin. Raw and naked and hot. You can feel his dick against you and you know that he can feel your tits against his arm. You are rendered useless, vulnerable to whatever he plans to do to you now that spat at him. You are scared, but you are also droopy. It is that same droopiness you felt when you looked at his naked body. Except stronger and more unbearable. You are hotter and there is slick gathering in your holes. You can barely breathe, but maybe this is because of his hand over your mouth.Â
âStop fighting me and listenâ, Jungkook talks with his lips close to your face. You canât stop staring at them. You fight him while your mind goes droopy at the sight of his lips moving. âYou can either go to your new life or listen. Are you gonna listen?â
You nod your head.
âGood. Iâm gonna pull my hand away now and you wonât spit at my face again. Promise?â
You nod hesitantly.
âGood. I trust your word.â
He pulls his hand away, keeping his arm around you. It lies exactly over your tits, rubbing against your nipples. You know for a fact that he is able to feel it. You curl your fingers, trying so hard not to get affected by his closeness. Or to make a sound for that matter.
âI said this stuff to you because I wanna make it right between us. Your brother fucked up, but what Urquard did in retaliation is crazy and what father allowed is insane. If you want me to, I wonât bring you to him.âÂ
âWhat? ButâŠyour father promised.â
âI donât care. Itâs barbaric that omega trading is still a thing. You are right, you are people not cattle.âÂ
âIf he finds out that you refuse, he will disown you.â
âI have a plan for that.â
âUrquard will kill you.â
âThatâs why I have a plan.â
âWhat plan?âÂ
âItâs gonna sound insane.â
âJust tell me please. I donât wanna be sold.âÂ
âThe only way I can free you of this pact is if you get marked by another alpha. Youâre unclaimed right now, but if you were to be marked by an alpha other than Urquardâs son, then the pact would be invalid.â
âWhat do you mean with marked?â
He hesitates.
âTell me.âÂ
âAn alpha would have to put his dick into you.â
âSo assault? I would have to be assaulted?â
âNot if you wanted it.â
âHuh?â
âNot if itâs with someone you trust. Someone whoâs gonna be careful and gentle and whoâs gonna make it nice for you.â
âAnd who should that be? Last time I checked, Iâm not really friends with manyâŠâ
Your eyes meet Jungkookâs. He seems shy all of a sudden.
âOh.âÂ
You gasp for air.Â
âOh.â
âI know itâs crazy. I thought of other ways. Iâve been plotting ever since we left town. Thatâs why I volunteered. To give us time, to give me time to think of something. I thought of lots of stuff, but they all ended in hypothetical death or enslavement of our pack. The only peaceful option was this.â
âYou volunteered to bring me?âÂ
He nods his head, âanyone else would have been too scared of or too loyal to my dad. I know youâre scared, but Iâm not gonna let anything happen to you.âÂ
âAnd you thought of this?âÂ
âItâs the only way. We kill Urquard and his sons? Their pack comes after us. We run away? Their pack is gonna punish our pack. We kill everyone? Impossible weâd die and destine our pack to agony. Itâs only death and pain u-unless you get marked by an alpha.â
âBut I would have to be with you afterwards.â
âOnly if you want to. We can pretend, make everyone think that itâs real. You wouldnât have to be with me ever again.âÂ
âOh my god, this is insane.â
âI know. Iâm sorry. The choice is yours. I promise.â
You study his face. You are still trapped under him, sharing heat. Skin against skin. arm against chest and cock against hip. He is semi hard by now, smearing slick on your skin. The fact that he is affected by this - by you - doesnât make it easier to stay calm. You are glad for his leg over yours because it forces your legs to be closed and therefore hide the masses of slick having accumulated by now. His hair is still damp, hanging into his face messily. His fingers feel so strong and protective around your wrists. You swear that each time he breathes out and you inhale it, you feel high. You are so attracted to him right now.Â
Truth be told, you always thought that he was handsome beyond comparison. He has a mesmerizing aura and a captivating smile. His physique is your dream physique and his face often caught your attention in a crowd. You were utterly and insanely attracted to him which made your hatred for him grow deeper. He betrayed you, but he is still haunting your thoughts. It was unbearable until right now.Â
âIâm scared. I never did it with an alpha beforeâ, you confess, suddenly feeling so vulnerable.
And Jungkook takes that vulnerability, cradling it in his safe palm just as he cradles your cheek the same way. His eyes softened, his voice did too.
âDonât be scared. Iâll be gentle. I promiseâ, he almost whispers the words, tracing your brow and temple between cradling your cheek.Â
âI donât know you like that.â
âNeither do I you. Itâs gonna be a one time thing.âÂ
âIâm scared. Iâve been scared ever since all of this started.â
âDonât be. Iâm here. I wonât let them touch you.â
âBut youâll touch me?â you ask in a whisper, lifting the inner corners of your brows.
Jungkook has a hard time staying calm when you look at him with such puppy eyes.Â
âIf you let me, I will.âÂ
You exhale shakily, squirming under him.Â
âIâm scared.âÂ
He lets go of your wrists to cradle your other cheek. You lean into the touch, barely wanting to keep your eyes open. Your arms stay in their submissive position naturally.Â
âJust the tip. Thatâs all it takes. Just the tip for a few seconds so you take on my scent and then itâll be overâ, he says.
âJust the tip?âÂ
âYes, just the tip. Nothing more. I promise.â
You are going to do something which you thought never to do. But if it saves your life, you would do anything. Even something as crazy as allow Jungkook to stick his tip into you.
âOkay. Just the tip.âÂ
Jungkook exhales shakily, moving closer for a kiss like it was instinct before he stops himself. You shudder, craving nothing more than what he denies both of you.Â
âWe shouldnât be doing thisâ, he breathes.
âWhat?âÂ
âKiss.â He lets the word dance over your lips, running his thumb under your lips as his eyes stare. âWe shouldnât.âÂ
âNo, we shouldnâtâ, you whimper, chasing him.Â
Moments of craving and yearning where both of you try so hard to kiss the other. But you shouldnât. Just the tip, nothing more.
âRoll to your side, pleaseâ, Jungkook breaks the electric silence, guiding you with his hand on your shoulder until your back faces his chest.Â
You can see the fire and the rest of the shed like this, but not Jungkook.
âWhy like this?âÂ
âIf I look at your face, Iâll stick it in completely. I canât do this to you.âÂ
âOh.â
Jungkook closes the distance, connecting his hand with your hip. He guides it up your body, travelling along your waist and arm. His touch leaves goosebumps where it goes. His palm is slightly calloused from fighting but incredibly tender in how it touches you. You feel yourself breathe heavier and heavier the longer he touches you.
He reaches your shoulder, closing the last of the distance by lowering his lips to your back.
âAhâ, you let out quietly, tensing up. Your eyes are widened comically big, staring into the bright flames. He is kissing your naked skin. What the fuck.Â
Jungkookâs eyes are closed in contrast. His head is foggy, but he tries to fight these feelings. You smell so good that it is very difficult to do so.Â
His hand is still on your shoulder at first but moves to your waist when he guides his kisses to said shoulder.Â
âOh godâ, you whisper, sighing afterwards.Â
Jungkook feels droopy from the sound, digging his fingers into the softness of your side. He shouldnât be doing this. Just the tip. Thatâs what he said. And yet here he is, kissing your soft skin as if it was his right to do so. He shouldnât be doing this, but he canât stop. He traces and holds your side and stomach, telling himself that he only does it to relax you. He kisses every inch of your exposed back and shoulder, telling himself that he only does it to calm you down. When in truth he does all of this because he wants to make it nice for you. And maybe he wants to be a source of tenderness after what you had to go through.Â
Lies. These are still lies. He fucking does this because he wants to. He fucking does it because he wants to know how it is to touch you. Taehyung talked when you and he were high school sweethearts. Oh, Taehyung talked and Jungkook had to listen and secretly seethe with jealousy. It should be him, he thought back then, he would know how to treat you right.
You had no idea of these thoughts. You still havenât as you lie here next to the warm fire while Jungkook touches you oj so carefully. You donât know if youâre allowed to close your eyes. Just the tip, you agreed on. Can you close your eyes for that?Â
But it feels so good. His lips are soft, while his piercings are hard in contrast. His touch is currently dancing up the middle of your torso slowly. You fight the shivers wanting to run through you.Â
You lose the fight a moment later when he pulls you against his strong chest and kisses your neck.Â
You whimper, trembling like crazy. You arch into him, craning your neck to give him more of it. Your heart skips beats under his lips. Jungkook grips the blanket to stop his hand from cradling your tits.Â
âFuck, I shouldnât be doing thisâ, he presses out under his breath, mouthing at your neck hungrily. âI shouldnâtâŠ.doâŠthis.âÂ
He drags his lips to your jawline and sucks. Your eyes close.
You mewl, rolling your hips back into him. His cock slides between your legs, rubbing between your puffy folds. He trembles in shock, gripping your hip to stop your wiggles.Â
âDonât do this. Donât act like this when it is supposed to mean nothing.â
âIâm sorry, I canât help it.â
âMhhm I know. You canât, but I can. I wonât do it again, Iâm sorry.âÂ
You swallow your begs, not wanting to appear weak or desperate. It is so difficult not to beg when you have his cock between your legs. Hugged by your folds and exchanging slick. He feels hot and his veins are pulsing desperately. You have never before felt so stupidly horny than you do right now. Quite frankly, he might be forcing you to go into impromptu heat if he keeps being like this.Â
âJust the tip, yeah? Just the tipâ, he whispers as he puts his arm under your head so you have something comfortable to rest on. You practically melt into him, biting back tears. You are being held and it feels so good. So safe and warm.Â
He kisses your neck and cheek, whispering his words.
âAre you comfortable? Are you ready?â
âYeahâ, you sigh, pushing your hips back.Â
Jungkook slides his other hand between your bodies, using it to align his cock with your dripping entrance. Just the tip, he reminds himself, nothing more. Donât be greedy, keep calm. This doesnât mean anything.Â
âLast chanceâ, he says, wanting to stall time so he can calm down.Â
âI trust you.â
Jungkook bites back his moan, having to take a deep breath before he can act. You are messing him up without knowing. With a racing pulse, he applies pressure on your puffy cunt and slips inside.Â
You squeak, shaking against your will. You convulse around him, gasping repeatedly. He went in so easily, despite his size.Â
Jungkook growls, âfuck, holy fuckâ, he gets out and bruises your hip as he grips it for support. It takes everything inside him not to push it all the way in. Jungkook genuinely has a hard time not to moan. You are so wet.
Judging from your tremors and the way you fight for air, it is just as difficult for you.
âOnly a few more secondâ, he forces his voice to sound as normal as possible. He wants to fuck you, but knows that he shouldnât.
âMh-hmâ, you squeak out, nodding your head. You want him to fuck you.Â
Jungkook closes his hand to a fist, growing his claws to dig them into his own palm. The pain keeps him from acting up. He wouldnât be able to handle it otherwise.Â
Jungkook always hoped that he would marry you one day. There it is. Itâs out there. Jungkook had feelings for you for decades. In his dreams, you marry him and he can spend the rest of his days spoiling you rotten. He would be your protector against any danger, your best friend to laugh with, your remedy for your heats and the lover you can be yourself with.Â
Being with you like this is everything he ever wished for. You are so soft and warm around him, your slick is so wet. He knows that it would be so much more deeper inside.Â
âI think it should be goodâ, he presses out. He canât do it anymore. One more second and he would push in all the way. He canât do this to you. You trust him and he canât abuse this trust.Â
âReally?â
You turn your head, looking up at him in droopy devotion. Jungkook whimpers, instantly cradling your cheek. He furrows his brows, throbbing inside you. He fights the urge to kiss you, to rest his forehead against yours, to bury himself deep inside you.
âPlease donât look at me.â
âJungkook.âÂ
His name hasnât rolled off your tongue ever since he left you at the playground. It almost brings tears to his eyes, forcing his arm around you tighter.
âI canât do thisâ, he drops his forehead against yours âI think I remembered that I need to put in all of it. Itâs not gonna work otherwise.âÂ
He is lying, because he canât accept the truth yet. That he is selfish and totally addicted to you.Â
âPlease do.âÂ
âNo. No we shouldnât be doing thisâ, he fights it still, shaking his head which makes his nose rub against yours.Â
âPleaseâ, your words tickle his lips, âsave me. Whatever it takes, save me.â
âUrghâ, he growls through gritted teeth.Â
âPlease.âÂ
Jungkook lifts his head. He wants to look into your eyes as he does it. He wants to see the utter bliss in your eyes as he turns your relationship status from ex childhood best friends to two adults reunited. Â
He rolls his hips, feeding your warmth his length inch by inch. Your brows furrow and lift, your lids flutter, your mouth falls open.Â
âA-ahâ, you squeak out.
âShhh, itâs okay. Iâm here. Iâm all hereâ, he whispers. He closes his arm around you, cradling you in a gentle headlock.Â
You close your fingers around his lower arm, spilling tears from your eyes.Â
âDoes it hurt?âÂ
You shake your head.Â
âBut?âÂ
âSoâŠfilled out. So big.â
âI know. Iâm big, but youâre taking me so well.â
You whimper. Jungkook feels so insanely protective over you right now.Â
âYes, you are. Taking me so wellâ, he insists, brushing the back of his hand down your cheek.Â
Jungkook continues until he bottoms out. He shudders, choking down a whimper. You feel so good. He never ever felt like this before. It feels like coming home which is insane because he was never with you like this.Â
â___â, your name comes out of him against his will.Â
âJungkookâ, you answer him, clenching around him. Â
âStay still, please.âÂ
âOkayâ, you whimper, looking at his lips.Â
The pull is magnetic. Jungkook draws closer with parted lips, you meet him with parted lips. Once you kiss, it will be over for you and him. There will be no coming back from this.Â
âNoâ, he croaks, putting his hand over your mouth. The headlock tightens like this, giving you such a sense of being protected that your walls clench against your will.Â
âWe shouldnât kiss. Neverâ, he rasps weakly, mouthing at his own hand right where your lips lie beneath. You close your eyes, trying to move your lips under his hand. It is starting to feel cruel to be denied his kiss. Especially when memories of your past come back to you.Â
You remember that it was a group of eight kids and you were doing âdaresâ to see who is the coolest. Taehyung was dared to prank call his mom and he actually did. He pretended to be a grown up insurance clerk and once he hung up, you really thought that he managed to prank his mom (he didnât hide his phone number and had a childlike voice). Jimin, another friend, was dared to climb a tree. Which he did and he was sooo cool for it. They were silly, childish dares who did no harm but made you feel so cool. Then it came to you and you were dared to kiss Jungkook. Which you did. In a childlike, innocent way but which made you and him feel so grown up for a moment.
The memory is haunting you right now, making you want to redo it in a grown up, mature way. You open your eyes, meeting Jungkookâs gaze. Judging from the foggy desperation in them, he is haunted by the same memory.Â
âPlease get out of my headâ, he gets out.
You whimper his name behind his hand. Jungkook furrows his brows, grinding his teeth.
âNo please. Stop itâ, he croaks, squeezing his eyes shut.
You want to fight it as well, of course you do. You swore to hate him forever and now you want nothing else than his kiss. You want to fight it, but your hands move against your will. They rest themselves over Jungkookâs hand and try to dig between your face and his palm.
He growls, huffing out air. The only thing keeping your hips from joining the impossible fight is his hand on it. Shit, now he is concentrating on down below. Your puffy walls around him, so soft and warm. Being inside you, Jungkook swears he will never be cold again. Or maybe he will be, maybe he will never find warmth again once this stops, once he has to slip out and pretend that it meant nothing.
What will happen afterwards? He is so needy and he knows that you are too. What will happen? Are you going to lie next to each other, wet and needy and force your bodies to calm down? Or maybe he will need to excuse himself to outside, fuck his own fist as the loud thunder masks his desperate moans while inside the shed you most definitely would touch yourself as well?
Jungkook was so lost in his haunted thoughts that he realises too late that you managed to tug his hand away. Your lips brush hisâ.Â
Jungkook moans from the bottom of his heart, going in for more at first. He even rolls his hips into you. Like instinct. Like it is meant to happen.Â
âNoâ, he pushes you away, slips out, breaks the moment. âWe shouldnât be doing this. Not that far.â
You sob, shrinking into yourself.Â
âPleaseâ, you whimper your words, staring at him with desperate, sad eyes. You lift your hips, begging him silently.
âI wonât be able to stop if I do it again. I canât do this to you.âÂ
âPleaseâ, you beg.
âDo you even know what an alpha does when he fucks? I wonât be able to stop until I bred you. I-Iâll knot you and, and you wonât be able to get me out until Iâm soft again.âÂ
âI know.âÂ
âThis could take hours. You will feel out of control and vulnerable.âÂ
âYou said that you will protect me. That I-Iâm safe with you.âÂ
â___â, he chokes out and crawls to you. He picks you up in his strong arms, holding you against his chest. His heart is racing like crazy against your back. âStop me. I beg you. I canât pretend any longer that this means nothing to me. You have to stop this.â
You reach up and twist his hair, pulling him down to you.Â
âWe shouldnât-âÂ
You silence him with a kiss.Â
Jungkook trembles, resting his weight against you as the kiss renders his body useless for a moment. You are kissing him. You stopped this stupid farce for you and him. You sealed your fates. Jungkook knows that it wonât be the same after tonight. He will never fucking give you up.Â
He breaks the kiss, but stay close.
âYou shouldnât have done this.â
âPlease. More.â
âAre you even hearing me?â he hisses.
âYes. Please, more.âÂ
âFuck, we really shouldnât, but maybe IâŠI have to move it a few times? To really mark you?âÂ
âYes, sounds good, mark me please. I donât wanna be sold.âÂ
âI-Iâll do it just for that. To make sure.âÂ
âYes. Okayâ, you sigh and melt into him, lifting your leg.Â
Jungkook slides his hand under it instantly.
âLet me do it. Relax.âÂ
You let your muscles relax, allowing him to carry your legâs weight. He does it so easily, tracing your hairline with his fingertips as he looks down at you. He moves his hips so his cock would slip between your folds, working you up to what was coming by grinding back and forth. He really drags out the movements, sending trembles through your legs each time his thick tip rubs your swollen clit.Â
He exhales shakily, whispering his thoughts.
âYouâre so wet. I have never felt slick so warm and, and wet before.âÂ
You look up at him with shy, nervous puppy eyes, making him want to protect you forever.Â
âIs it bad?âÂ
âNo, fuck noâ, he puts his arm around your chest, pulling you up to him until he can rest his forehead against yours. âItâs perfect, baby.âÂ
âBaby?âÂ
âIâŠâ he drops you, hips stilling in shock. He doesnât know what to say. Anything he could say feels like too little of an apology.Â
You however increase the lethalness of your puppy eyes, reaching down to try and move his hips again.Â
âPlease. More.âÂ
âWeâre only doing this to save you, right?â He asks, picking up a rhythm again. It is the same as before but way more arousing because he purposefully makes sure that his tip slips into you every now and then. He starts off with just a little poke, increasing the inches more and more. But it stays just the tip, for now, donât be mistaken. If he slips inside it should happen accidentally. He likes to tell himself if it happens like this, it will mean that it wasnât his fault.Â
âYes, only to save meâ you lull your words, getting droopier and droopier. Each time he has his tip inside you, it feels so good. Before he slips out and you feel sad, until of course he drags his cock over your clit instead. Â
You canât do this for long anymore and Jungkook seems to share your feelings. The tip he buries in you starts to go way past your entrance and it seems to stay longer inside. His golden eyes never break contact, his fingers rub your arm as he holds you so close.Â
He slips into you again. So deep.Â
âMhhhhmâ he lets out in a rumble, furrowing his brows.Â
You whimper, lifting your brows.Â
Deeper. Deeper. Deeper. He wonât be able to escape like this.Â
Deeper.
He bottoms out.Â
You moan, eyelids fluttering and lips chasing his kiss.Â
He shakes his head, talking as he falls into the kiss.
âWe really shouldnât be doing this.â
You kiss and Jungkookâs cock doesnât leave you again. It stays buried deep inside you, reshaping your walls as his hips move. Slowly for now, daring not to be too rough with you. Because being rough makes it real. Maybe if he keeps his movements tiny enough, it will still count as being nothing of importance.Â
Because thatâs what this is, right? Something that doesnât mean anything, something that wonât change who you and he are. This is what those needy, hungry tongue kisses mean, this is what the desperate touches mean, this is what the exchanging of warm slick means. Nothing. Because if those things meant something, it would force Jungkook to admit that he is doing This for himself. Of course he does it to save you, but if it meant something, he would have to admit that he is also doing this for himself.Â
But it doesnât mean anything, right? Right?
You break the kiss for air, looking up at him submissively and droopy.
âIt feels so goodâ, you whisper.
âClose your eyes, please.âÂ
You obey and Jungkook has to come to the realisation that it makes no difference. This fucking means something. Holy fuck, he is done for.Â
âMaybe I have to make you cum?â
âWhat?â you ask, eyes still closed.Â
âI think I need to make you cum once. Then youâll be marked.â
âPlease do. I trust you.âÂ
Trust. He thought that he would never earn it again and yet here he is. With your weakened, trembling body in his hold as you trust him to take good care of you.Â
âMhhm shitâ, he presses out, biting down on his own tongue to calm himself. Be tender with her, he thinks, you swore to be a gentle alpha so fucking get it together.
He moves you into another position, draping your leg over his hip so you wouldnât have to use your muscles. You are so open and spread like this, allowing his big cock entrance. He slides his hand to your clit and takes it between his thumb and middle finger to massage it.Â
âA-haâ, you let out, arching your back and lifting your hips.
âSsssh, relax. Iâm here.â
âPlease, deeper.âÂ
Jungkook buries his cock deep inside you and stays there, circling his hips. He is so big and long that he stimulates both your g-spot and your cervix. He is so gentle that it doesnât hurt. It just feels so good that your fangs grow against your will and you leak masses of new slick.
âLike this? Am I making it nice for you?â
âSo niceâ, you mewl, nodding your head vigorously.Â
Jungkook is gazing at you as it happens. He watches every change of expression on your face, fighting the urge to call you beautiful. Because thatâs what you are. Beautiful. You would deserve to know but he is scared of the consequences. It would mean the fluttering of his heart is real.
âIs so niceâ, you sigh, writhing happily. It breaks him.
âYouâre beautifulâ, he says, moaning softly when you tighten and arch your back. So you liked it. His cock throbs inside you, leaking into you needily. âYeah thatâs right, youâre beautiful. So fucking beautiful. Taking me so well, feeling so good on my cock.â
âAh, aaaahâ, your moans are so loud, your pussy so fucking wet and your clit so swollen.Â
Jungkook fucks you gently, massaging your spot of pleasure with his long, skilled fingers. He can feel your heartbeat in your back, as much as he can feel you rub against his nipples.Â
The blanket over your bodies is so hot, making you and him sweat wherever you are touching. He canât deny it anymore that this is real, that this means something. This means fucking everything to him.
âYouâre such a good omega, taking me so well.â
âYouâre making me cumâ, you croak, grasping his arm for support, âplease, can I cum?âÂ
âYes, baby. You can. Cum for me.âÂ
âJungkookâ, you gasp, ripping your eyes open to stare in shock as his gentle touches bring you over the edge.
Your eyes flicker golden, you moan silently with an open mouth.Â
âThatâs it, cum for your alpha. Let me mark you, thatâs it.âÂ
He has a hard time saying these words to you. His thoughts are running wild. This is the face you make when you have an orgasm. Never in his wildest dreams could he have imagined this to be a face he gets to see. And itâs so beautiful that he treads the moment your high stops and he has to pull out. He doesnât want to pull out. He needs more of you. He needs you like fucking crazy.
âMore pleaseâ, and then your beg releases him. You are down from your high, yet still so hungry for more. You feel so fulfilled with him that you donât want this to stop.Â
âWhat?â he croaks.
âMore please, more.â
âIf I do this, I wonât stop until I cum too.âÂ
âI know.âÂ
âMaybe youâre right. Maybe I have to cum inside you to mark you?âÂ
âYeah, maybe.âÂ
The pretend continues. The fucking charades that this is only to save you from your fate, that you and he arenât doing this because it feels so good to both of you.Â
âPlease Jungkook, fuck me properly.â
âAre you sure?â he almost squeaks the words because he has such a hard time controlling his urges.Â
âYes. Please.â
âHoly fuck. ___ urgh.â
Your needy beg does the rest. His animalistic instincts take over.
Jungkook growls, grabbing you roughly to flip you onto your stomach and therefore pin you down. He straddles you from behind. His right hand slips to the back of your head, his left hand has a possessive grip on your hip. His legs cage in your legs, keeping them squeezed together as he drills his thick cock into your pussy. You are so tight like this, jerking him off in such a maddening way.Â
You scream up as you didnât expect him to take on such a punishing pace instantly, but you arenât complaining. It feels so good to take him. He fucks you so well. His cock is so filling, making you feel whole.Â
âIâm not holding back now. For you, just for you. Is this good for you? Do you like this?â, he growls through gritted fangs, shifting his eyes between your face and his cock.
âYeaaâ, you sob, clawing at the ground helplessly. You were aware that Jungkook has been an adult for years, but this is still changing how you see him. Whenever you thought of him, you saw that twelve year old boy calling you immature for playing. That boy is gone as if he never existed. Jungkook is a fucking adult and he is rewriting the image in your mind one heavy stroke at a time.
âYou should have never seen me like this. Fuck, this shouldnât happenâ, Jungkook spits, high on your body. He is embarrassed by his actions, but canât stop them. âBut I canât stop. Holy fuck, I need you so fucking bad.â He needs to fuck you. You are so small and weak right now, so goddamn vulnerable. Once so unclaimed until he took you.
You are his.Â
Jungkook growls, pinning you harder into the ground.Â
You are his.Â
You reach behind yourself because his hand on your head hurts. He grabs your wrist instantly, using it to pin your arm against your back. You wail up, kicking the ground as best as possible as you writhe in your imprisonment.Â
âIâm sorry. You shouldnât see me like this. Not you. Iâm sorry.âÂ
He apologises, knowing that he wonât be able to stop until you are claimed. The thought makes him crazy. He is claiming you. The girl who was his first kiss, his best friend who always came to him when she needed help, the woman who counts on him to protect her from her fate and the wife he always hoped to have one day. And he is claiming her. He is marking her, making you his for anyone to smell.
Jungkook drills you harder. He pulls out all the way to his tip just to thrust into you sloppily. He does it over and over again, reminding your dripping pussy of his size with each possessive thrust.Â
And you take it with grateful sobs, existing only for him right now. You would never recover if he stopped right now. You need him to finish what he started even if it ruins you in the process.Â
âWe really shouldnât be doing this, fuck, this shouldnât happenâ, Jungkook gets out, gawking at where he buries himself in you.Â
Your slick is slowly taking on a milky colour from the intense friction. It sticks to his veiny shaft and his dark pubes, smearing all over your ass and his thighs as well.
If this shouldnât happen, why does it feel so good? If this shouldnât happen, why does it look so hot? If this shouldnât happen, why does he not want to stop?Â
Jungkook scrunches his face in anger. He lets go of your arm so he can grip your hips with both hands. He pulls them up until you are kneeling. Your face is still buried in the ground, your back is arched.
You shake and convulse instantly, sobbing in embarrassment because the open position of your legs forces your slick to run out of you.Â
âHoly fuckâ, he gets out, staring at it with blown out pupils, âholy fuck, ___.âÂ
âIâm sorry, please donât judge meâ, you beg, trying so hard to keep it inside with clenches around his cock.
âNever. Holy fuck, I could never.â
âIâm so embarrassed.â
âDonât be. Relax, baby. Donât fight itâ, he says, knowing that you and he shouldnât be doing this.Â
You obey instinctively. You relax around him, releasing the slick you so desperately wanted to hide from him. It begins squirting out of you messily and audibly, marking him yours.
âYesâ, he growls and begins pulling your hips onto his cock possessively, thrusting into you at the same time. He does it with one hand because the other he slips between your legs to pinch your clit. Gently of course, keeping her between two fingers to massage her in circular motions.
âLet me help you.âÂ
You wail and shake, releasing more and more of your pretty slick. It runs down your thighs, covers his legs, smears all over your ass and his stomach. Â
âRelax, thatâs it. My pretty omega shouldnât keep it inside. Itâs not good for you.âÂ
âJungkook, I canât do thisâ, you sob.
âI know. We canât do this, we never should have.â
âNoâ, you wail, âno. I have to cum again.â
âWhenever you want to. Your alphaâs right here, baby.âÂ
âJungkook!â you scream, breaking apart as if you never orgasmed before. It feels so good.
âHoly fuck baby, ah!â Jungkookâs yelp, hips stuttering in shock, âyou feel so good, what the fuck ah! Ah! I canât control myself. Baby!âÂ
Jungkook growls and lays himself over you. He holds you up with one hand around you, biting down on your shoulder as his body breaks. You sob from the pain of the bite, loving every second of it.Â
And then it hits you.Â
His seed.
His thick, hot seed.
It shoots out of him with such strength that you feel punched in the gut. The effect is instant. You lose control over yourself. Quite literally, you lose control. You can still talk, using it to scream his name as you orgasm in a way you have never experienced before.Â
The first one was intense but familiar. This right now? You didnât even know that your body could feel this way. It is truly, seriously, religious. It is as if you finally found your purpose in life. And in a sense you did. You found your alpha. He finally claimed you properly. You are hisâ. You arenât unclaimed anymore. Nobody ever educated on this, so you have no idea that these religious, soul fulfilling feelings mean that you changed forever, but you donât mind right now. You are just riding on these feelings, screaming his name and milking him dry.Â
Jungkook whimpers. He truly, honestly whimpers from the bottom of his heart, collapsing on top of you. He knocks you into the ground like that, burying you under his weight but he couldnât stop it from happening.Â
He never experienced this feeling either. He had sex with people, but it never felt like This before. He orgasmed in them but it never felt like this. It feels as if his seed finally has purpose. Thatâs how it feels. Like his efforts and all the rutting he is doing has fucking purpose.Â
And then it happens. Something that he was only told could happen to him, finally happens to him. His knot swells. He actually fucking grows a knot and has to writhe on top of you, burying his nose deep in your hair as he sobs your name.Â
You sob as well, insides suddenly feeling like bursting. His knot is so big and thick that it should feel like an intruder but it doesnât. It feels like the best drug ever. You didnât even know that you could stretch this far. The amount of stimulation it gives you as it rubs against your walls is otherworldly, making you chase one orgasm after the other.
âI donât know whatâs happening to me. Ah! ___!â Jungkook yelps, having to orgasm again as your tight walls stimulate his knot. The amount of sensitivity he feels on it is insane.Â
His hands slide together with yours, holding them tightly as he pins them into the ground. His tears fall into your hair, your own tears soak the blanket.Â
âI canât stopâ, you get out, shaking in fear, âI canât stop cumming!â
âMe neither.â
âIâm scared. Iâm so scaredâ, you sob, riding on the unfamiliar, scary sensations.
âDonât be scared, Iâm here. Iâm hereâ, he talks you through it, shaking beyond saving.
You arenât even moving much. There are no thrusts, no sloppy wiggles. Just and you and him, actually stuck together because of his knot while he pumps one cumshot after the other into you. There is no movement and yet it feels better than the most passionate rutting session you each had. No movement and yet you are fulfilled beyond comparison. Is this how it feels to find your mate? Is this what it is?Â
Did âwe shouldnât be doing thisâ turn into the finding of your other half? Was âwe shouldnât be doing thisâ fateâs way of protecting you from what will happen once you gave in? Or was there ever a âwe shouldnât be doing thisâ strong enough that could have prevented you from doing this?
Whatever it might be, it is too late to think about the what ifs now. The reality is that you and he canât stop climaxing, lost in the most addicting and intense pleasure you and he ever found yourselves in. It is never ending. When he climaxes, you have to too which sets him off again, triggering your need to as well. It is a vicious, never ending, orgasmic cycle.
âThis feels so goodâ, he croaks out, writhing on top of you, âdoes it feel-âÂ
âYes! Yes! Oh god please Kook not again. Kook!â
âKookâ, Jungkook repeats the nickname in a whimper, curling his toes as another orgasm hits him as well. He never thought to hear this name from you again. He canât handle it any other way than filling you with more of him.Â
There is so much of him inside you by now, having no way to escape because of his knot that your body reacts in the only way it knows how to survive. It opens up for his seed to go deeper. It trickles into the deepest parts of your sex organs, warming you from the inside out. It is like he is alive inside you, feeding you with the strongest drug you ever took. You think that you black out for a moment. You are still aware of what is happening to you, but it is hidden behind a thick layer of blurriness.Â
âEhâ, you let out, falling into the darkness gladly. It feels so good to do. There is something because you are aware of your orgasm, but there is also nothing. It is as if you are standing next to your body, watching it shake and tremble as he makes a home inside you.
And then there is nothing. Truly nothing. No more orgasmic pleasure, no more watching yourself. Just darkness.
â___? Hey, ___? Holy fuck, whatâs wrong with you? ___, open your eyes pleaseâ, Jungkookâs distraught voice comes closer and closer, his hand on your face becomes clearer and clearer, âplease ___, open your eyes, please. Oh god, what have I done? I should never have done this. I- Oh god ___ please, Iâm sorry. Wake up, please.â
He shakes your head gently. It brings you back to reality. Your body regains the ability to feel.Â
âJungkookâ, you whimper, opening your eyes. You writhe instantly, throbbing around his knot happily.
â___ hey. Holy fuck, thank god. Heyâ, he says, dropping his forehead against your temple and kissing the side of your face desperately, âIâm so glad that youâre back. I thought that I killed you.â
âNo, just made me black out.âÂ
âWhy? Does it hurt? Are you in lots of pain?âÂ
âNo, just havenât felt so good before. Ever. Kook, Iâ, you suddenly have to whimper your words, âI feel your cum inside my uterus. Itâs so warm and alive andâŠ.right.â
âIt is?â He whimpers as well, feeling weakened in emotion.
You nod your head. Jungkook sobs quietly, using the hold he has on your hand to guide your arm under your body and against your chest. Like this, he rolls your bodies to their sides, instantly cradling you against his chest while his trembling lips kiss any part of you that he can reach.
Your face, your neck, your shoulder, your arm, your back and the bite mark he left, your face again. Over and over he kisses each inch of you, whispering your name every now and then as if he is trying to make sure that he remembers who made him feel like this. As if he is trying to make his brain memorise who it was who made him experience his first knot.
He is still swollen, keeping everything inside you safely. It is still so intense, but suddenly it feels more emotionally intense than physically. Enough time must have passed for the fire to reduce the logs by lot. And all of a sudden you and he donât feel the uncontrollable need to orgasm anymore. You still want to be close, moving your hips in emotionally needy wiggles in hopes of keeping his knot alive for as long as possible, but it is not to chase another orgasm. You want this to last because it feels so safe.Â
âI donât know whatâs happening to me. I donât want this to endâ, Jungkook confesses, holding you protectively.
âMe neither. I feel so safe like this.â
âHoly fuck, ___. What did we do?â he presses out, kissing your cheek over and over again.
âI donât know.â
âI never knotted before. I never felt like this. Holy fuck, ___.âÂ
âWhat is gonna happen to us now?â
âI donât know. All I know is that I canât let you go again. Ever. I donât wanna fucking share you. Never. Iâm trying so hard not to tell you that youâre mine âcause I promised you that this would never happen again.â
âPlease donât.â
âWhat?â
You turn your head, leaning deeper into his embrace. Like this, you feel his racing heart against your shoulder and you are entirely protected in his arms. His knotted cock throbs inside you as your eyes meet. The same playful, gentle boy of the past looks back at you, except that his once boyish features are mature and aged up. A gentle, adoring man stares back at you and you canât seem to find your way out of his galaxy eyes.Â
âPlease donât promise me that this wonât happen again.â You cradle his cheek. âDonât hold back on telling me that Iâm yours.â
âYou donât know what youâre saying. Youâre high from my cum, these arenât your real feelings.â
âWhy shouldnât they be?âÂ
â___, we-â
You put your thumb on his lips.Â
âWe shouldnât have done this, I know. You kept telling me as we kept doing this.âÂ
Jungkook gives up in a sigh, having to chuckle afterwards. You giggle, cupping his cheek again.
âJust the tip. Thatâs what we agreed on. Just the tipâ, he says.
You clench around his knot, touching your bloated stomach. You instantly guide his hand to it, wanting him to feel what he did to you. He purrs deeply, biting down on his lower lip. You grin goofily.
âJust the tip indeed.â
He laughs softly. You snicker and stub his nose with your own.Â
âThis is the messiest and deepest tip I have ever givenâ, he jokes, making you laugh.Â
âOh god, this was funny.â
âMhm, Iâm pretty funnyâ, he says and nuzzles his nose into your neck to tickle you gently.
You squeak and giggle, feeling happy beyond comparison. Jungkook ends his loving attack with kisses to your ear.Â
You sigh, melting into the affection. You and he lace fingers, using the position to melt closer.Â
Your droopy eyes stare into the flames while Jungkook relaxes you with soft kisses all over your neck, shoulder and back.Â
The thunderstorm stopped outside. It is already a little brighter. Fuck, so you were really trapped in this orgasmic state for a few hours. It felt as if so little time passed as if it was happening.Â
âWhat is gonna happen now?â you whisper.
âNow? Weâre gonna cuddle and Iâll be kissing you until youâre asleep.â
âI mean after that. Do we have to show Urquard that Iâm claimed?â
âI guess. I havenât thought that far into the future yet. But yes, he will probably want proof that youâre marked.â
âIâm scared. Do I have to get naked in front of him? And his pack? Will he put something in me to get a scent?â
âHe can try if he wants to die.â Jungkook pulls you closer possessively. âYouâre under my protection now. Okay? You wonât have to do anything youâre not comfortable with and Iâll hunt down anyone who dares to overstep your boundaries. Even Urquard and his pack.âÂ
âReally?âÂ
âYes, really. I promise you.â
You close your eyes, spilling tears.
âThank you.âÂ
You never thought it possible to have your dreams fulfilled by Jungkook and yet here you are. You are being held and comforted by Jungkook and it feels like home.Â
âDonât thank me. Youâre mine. My darling ___ to keep safe. You have my body to protect you and my heart to find a home in.âÂ
There is deep rooted honesty in his words, but you are suddenly too sleepy to ask him what he meant by them. There will still be another time. This wasnât just a one time thing after all.
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Ghost x Reader x König
Paris
Summary: You were bored at home so your roommates gave you a visit to the Eiffel Tower!
CW (MDNI): MxFxM threesome, PIV (no protection, cream pie), oral (M receiving), degradation mixed with a bit of praise, rough sex, face fucking, spanking, one facial slap, talk of anal, slight ass play, the boys r a bit perverted and donât rlly see u as a person when theyâre fucking u, reader doesnât orgasm but itâs insinuated she will after ;) sorry
Word Count: 1433
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You werenât sure what prompted this situation. Maybe it was your constant whining and bitching about how boring your small town was and how you were destined for more. It wasnât your fault, their lack of talking always led you to yap more, and more, and more and they had to shut you up somehow.
The room was filled with splutters and gargles as König held your head down on Simonâs girthy cock, his angry mushroom head tickling your tonsils as you choked, bile threatening to rise before you were pulled off for a second. Your nose was running, drooling almost as you gasped for air, tear-shed eyes staring up at your roommates as you coughed.
âNot so talkative now are you, Liebe? Just needed a mouth full of cock, ja?â
Königâs words were degrading, yet you found your wanton mouth panting as you chased the taste of Simonâs precum again, the salty tang quenching your throat as you kitten licked the tip, a hiss-sounding from his throat as you were guided back down his length again.
You let out a pleasant hum as your mouth shallowly bobbed around his cock, two hands working the remainder of his length in gentle flicks of your wrists. âGood fucking slut, hm? Dirty cock whore loves being used by her roommates, isnât that right?â
You nodded in agreement, gargling around his member as you took more of him down your throat, a hand coming up to gently squeeze at his heavy balls, a light fuzz of pubic hair littering them. A gentle hand stroked your cheek as Simon groaned, bucking his hips further into your mouth as König muttered gentle praises about how good you were.
âThatâs it baby, so fucking good at this. Just like that â fuck.â
You felt a warmth of satisfaction in your chest as you hollowed your cheeks against the throbbing cock that buried itself in the warmth of your mouth, your tongue flat against the veiny shaft as you traced along every one of them, Ghostâs hips stuttering before he let out a guttural groan, the taste of his thick cum gorging down your throat.
König pulled you away hastily as the finishing spurts landed on your parted lips, tongue quickly darting out to lap at the residue as you panted. âYou deserve a treat for doing so good, donât you Maus?â
You practically whined in response, thighs rubbing together as heat radiated off of you. Your throat was dry as you squeaked out a âyesâ, desperate hands resting on Simonâs meaty thighs as he pulled you up, the pair leading you to your bed as wanting hands groped at any flesh they could find. You were far past embarrassment as they stripped you off, Königâs actions rough as he flipped you onto your stomach, holding your hips up to present your aching holes to them.
Simon sucked in a heavy breath, his cock straining against his hand as he wrapped a hand around it carelessly, giving it slight tugs. Messy digits pulled your cheeks further up, the site of your gooey entrance beckoning them as your asshole puckered, coos leaving their lips as König pressed a thumb against the tight crevice, laughing at how your body jolted in reaction to the unusual sensation.
âAnother day, Taube. Need to feel that wet mouth tonight.â His voice was rough and presiding, calloused hands reaching out to his belt as Ghostâs hands gripped the flesh off your ass, a rough smack landing on it as he watched in satisfaction at the jiggle. Â
âPlease,â you begged as you felt riotous digits rubbing at your slit, admiring the way your slick spilled from your twinging entrance. You were pulled back roughly, cotton burning your knees as you felt the familiar hardness you took in your mouth. Simonâs tip leaked precum once more as he spread the fluids in between your folds, nudging your sensitive bud as he barked out a laugh at your mewls.
âDesperate girl, arenât you? Donât know why it took us so long to do this.â
âWorth the wait, nein?â
Simon made a gruff noise as you buried your face into the sheet, a tight burn spreading across your body as you bit down on your blanket, a foreign stretch searing through you as you let out a pained whine. He laid a reassuring hand on the small of your back as he told you to relax, your legs spreading slightly as you let out shallow breaths.
âFucking Jesus, sheâs tight,â Simon barked, fingers spreading your cunt open as he sunk his cock in deeper, soft squelches sounding the room as he hissed in pleasure. You let out a wail as he bottomed out, your pussy stretched to the brim as you felt him nudge against your gummy cervix.
You let out a series of expletives as Ghostâs hands grabbed at your hips, gripping the flesh roughly, a series of bruises most likely to appear tomorrow. Königâs hands reached out to lift your head, beady eyes welcomed by the site of an enraged cock, the tip a flushed purple, the impressive length supported by two handfuls of girth, sensitive veins visible as your mouth watered. Both were large, but as to be expected with the Austrianâs sheer size, he was bordering insanity and you clenched in both fear and arousal at him breaking in your tight ass like he suggested he would.
Ghost held your hips still as you attempted to rock against him, pussy aching in desperation as you huffed. âPatience,â he snapped, heavy hand sounding down on your ass, the crack sending vibrations through your body as you barked out a yelp.
âHorny thing,â König quipped as he gripped your mouth, holding it open before he leant down and spat in, strings of spit sliding down your throat as you wet your full lips, tongue darting out to lick at his sticky tip, flushed with his own arousal. The moan you sounded was pornographic as you felt Simon pull his aching cock out before thrusting it back into the hilt, the jiggle of your breasts sounding together as he kissed your sensitive spot.
Your mouth lapped around the Colonelâs cock, working the massive length into your throat slowly as you drowned it in your spit. You were a mess, your chin dribbled in slobber as you moaned and whined around Königâs dick, horny hands gripping tightly at the shaft as he held your hair in a firm ponytail.
You looked up at him, doe-like eyes shedding with tears through wet lashes, a satisfied grunt leaving his lips as he guided you along his member, his thrusts matching with Simonâs as they worked you like a hooker, pounding both entrances with little respect, chasing their highs through desperate pounds.
âThatâs it slut, taking us both at the same time.â
âPathetic whore only shuts up when sheâs stuffed with dick, schmutzig MĂ€dchen,â König cooed perversely. Their thoughts were littered with perverted images of you, drowning you in their cum as they forced you to take them hour upon hour, bruising your holes and mounding their walls to the shape of their cocks.
You gargled around the giant manâs cock, every agonising thrust from Simon sending him further down your throat as you spluttered. âJesus â gonna cum in this cunt, hm? Fucking breed your pussy? You would like that wouldnât you?â
âF-Fuck â yes,â you begged, pulling away from Königâs dick before he landed a harsh slap across your face, forcing you back down. You hummed around him happily, spit pooling at your chest, puckered nipples aching in the air as your tits bounced rhythmically.
Simon let out a satisfied laugh, his pace picking up as he slammed his hips against the flesh of your ass, heavy balls banging against your clit as you whined as well as you could. His pace faltered slightly, growing sloppier before he groaned once more, hot cum staining your walls as you choked, slowing your movements against Königâs cock as he growled.
Rough hands gripped at the side of your head, holding it in place as he set a brutal force, shoving his member down your bruised throat as he growled before he pulled off from you, fists gripping his cock as he milked his length across your face, painting it with hot flashes of ejaculation. Your eyes closed as you collapsed, worn-out body shivering with pleasure as you felt the leak of Simonâs semen drooping from your abused cunt.
âWeâll let you rest for a moment, Liebling, but donât forget we havenât seen that pussy cum yet.â
Pic credits: @ave661
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#vent#hep me </3 I feel sooooo uhh. negative. uhm#Iâm having difficulty feeling rn I did smth to trigger this I think#see. I know Iâm not fully there cus my sister is being silly and cute but Iâm kinda. putting on a smile#instead of it being my natural reaction. mmm.#ooohohoogoho why canât I just talk to peopleeeeee why is is contact so close yet so far awayyyy#ghhuuugg. Iâll just. finish my drawing and post it. bury this. get ignored. yadda yadda#I donât like making ppl feel sorry for me but see also. I have less than 4 years experience holding relationships this close. so I am uhhh.#very bad. at starting and holding conversations. continually checking in. making myself be someone ppl wanna keep around. yknow#siigghhhh uhhh. realized that the reason Iâm so good at creating a bunch of fleshed out ocs that can pass as real people is cus I want ppl#to be around me. and to uh. stick around for more than a year. and be genuine. and easy to read. and understand#yea. also theyâre to help me understand ppl cus I donât got enough experience with real people to understand how to people#itâs much easier to play out a conversation between characters. and know theyâre inner dialogues. and their history. and why theyâre speakin#the way they are. and I can replay it over and over until I understand it inside and out. and hope Iâm able to play the part I need when#itâs called upon. mhhhmmm. woaoowwww weâre going into the own mind tonight huh? will anyone read this far? lol. idk ÂŻ\_(ă)_/ÂŻ#the only thing that gives me any idea of who has read a post is if they like it. or if they come in my inbox like â:( sorry. condolencesâ ha#haho. preemptive thanks and hugs y kisses love u. mmm itâs so hot outside but Iâm sooo literally cold rn yknow how it is boys#ahh. love seeing people get along with others sooo much. gives me so many ideas on how to write my characters. being lovey on each other.#ahmm. yea. soo. letâs hope tomorrow Iâm better and less. like this haha woaoowww wish I knew how to be human#I will NOT be crying tonight. or maybe I will. idk. weâll see I suppose. tears have already been shed today so I guess anything is possible
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