#sorry I'm so negative lately

[awesomewithoutme]

I've felt so lonely and isolated here lately. I know it's literally all in my head, because everyone here loves me. 💅 but just because somethings all in your head doesn't mean it doesn't bother you. 💔

[joelscruff]

the amount of anxiety this site gives me lately is ridiculous

[chainslobber]

There's nothing shittier than being constantly reminded of your own shortcomings and failures than your dad bragging about all of your older sister's achievements and going 'why can't you do that? Why can't you be like her?" Like, gee, I dunno dad, I'm too dumb for college, and I can't afford it anyways. Nobody wants to go to college in their 30s. I don't want to have kids. I can't afford my own home. I can't work a stable job because I can't drive with fainting issues/inability to stand.

I pay rent. I pay taxes. I clean the house as best as I can. I don't know what else you want from me.

[terezicaptor]

everyone is being so pessimistic about frubbo jesus christ...

You guys are all entitled to your opinions but holy shit you are depressing the fuck out of me acting like there's zero possibility of frubbo later and acting like tubbo doesn't want fred in his life anymore

Maybe this is just me being emotional or something but... I feel like the love is worth it even if it has risks. And we all know tubbo prioritizes sunny over anything so it's not like him choosing between her and fred will ever be a thing...

The frubbo arc continuation shouldn't happen now bc it won't fix tubbos abandonment issues obviously but like... that doesn't mean it can't pick back up later

Maybe I'm reading too heavy into your words but it is not completely doomed. I feel like there were so many chances to kill fred if they wanted to ultimately end the arc...

[capricioussun]

I was really thinking about if I would ever be comfortable merging my art accounts and I don't think I will. At least not unless I did a full rebrand which I'd really rather not since I'm very happy with how things are situated now.

But I think it boils down to acceptance seeking. I've been socially isolated for a very long time and it's difficult. Even back when I first started drawing au stuff years ago, I contemplated making a separate blog for it because I knew how many ut fans didn't really like the aus. I didn't want to alienate any of the "audience" I'd already built but I also knew there would be a turning point I would just wind up barely posting on one account or the other and it would feel like trying to limp half the time on one leg and then limp the rest on the other, which would be pointless.

But with mirrorshipping (selfcest) being a much more universally contentious topic, I got worried it would only deter people even more. I certainly didn't want to lie about it, especially bc I don't associate it with prshipping the way some others do, so it's not really that im "ashamed" of it, or want to hide it, just that I know it's the kind of thing that's very likely to make some who just walked in turn right back around.

To some degree, as someone who hopes to one day make a career out of being an independent artist, it makes sense to prioritize "growth" over personal satisfaction, but on the other, I've always struggled to care about that sort of thing. Any time I've cared about "alienating" a potential "audience", it's always been more about personal acceptance. I don't want people to see one little aspect of myself or interests and judge me entirely based off of that, even though that's all anyone really can do on the internet. I don't take blocking personally, despite how the prior sentiment seems to contradict that, I get it, I block all the time too, for a variety of reasons. But if there's a chance there're others who don't really mind that I mirrorship, they just don't want to see it or have to block the tag, I don't want them to feel turned away or annoyed, and so I kept it all to a separate account.

There are a few other reasons I won't really get into, too, like how people often do associate it with prship, and how I don't really want to draw that type of a crowd to my main blog, either, but I know in my heart it's the acceptance/approval seeking that was the biggest motivator.

I really honestly wish I knew how to connect with others beyond just trying to "do things right" and hoping that earns me positive attention. I really wish I didn't always feel like my only chance at affection is to improve what I can offer in return.

[musette22]

I feel bad but I agree, the beard looks so bad on him 🫣(hides) I’m sorry! I love him but i just don’t get it 😭(runs away) I know it’s a me problem. Beards just truely gross me out 90% of the time. No hate! Not a big deal just a me thing clearly lol glad you guys are having fun though💙

But nonnie, the beard doesn't look bad on him - you're grossed out by beards and don't like this look. There's a distinct difference there. (Also, he has a beard 90% of the time?) I'm glad you don't mean to hate, but I have to admit I don't see the point of sending me this ask. You know I LOVE the beard and I love this look, so why would you feel the need to let me know that you hate it? I'm sure it wasn't your intention to make me feel bad, but you kinda did, a little bit.

So please, and this goes for everyone who follows me and sends me asks: if you don't have anything nice to say about the boys' looks, please don't say anything at all? You're entitled to your opinion, but I'd really rather not hear unnecessary criticism of their appearance (I frankly think it's a little bit rude), and particularly of a look that I have made very clear I love.

ALWAYS feel free to send me messages about things you do love about Chris and Seb or their looks, though! Those messages are always appreciated because I do very much love to love on them with you guys 🥰 Thank you for understanding 💛

[zhongrin]

it's hackathon week next week and there are so many things i need to do (passport renewal, accommodation stuff, dental appointments, packing for flight, chores, etc), so i apologize if i'm kind of inactive or off in this blog or discord!!

[spacebubblehomebase]

hi, just letting you know that ahmed 90s-ghost doesn't verify fundraisers anymore! he quit after it got too overwhelming, so you shouldn't @ him asking him to. you can probably find the post about it by searching his blog.

Thanks for letting me know, Anon...

I get it... I REALLY do.

I understand. Y'know I used to be so excited to get Asks. It means someone wants to talk about art and silly cartoon characters with me. But now all I feel is dread. Not because I don't want to help, but because the help I give is never enough. I used to privately mesage back to those Asks, but one became 6 became 10 to... Well. I can't donate. Euros and dollars are valued a lot higher here, thus the opposite is also true. The value of our money is but a paltry bread's worth and even if I split it in crumbs, with the amount of people who approach me for help, it'll soon run dry, but I'm just a student who still rely on my parents financially. So I thought I'd share instead, but that quickly got out of hand. I post one thing and get multiple asks by the HOUR. I already had to apologize for struggling to meet demands before and I only had 3 or 6 rare to come-by short Asks about art. Now I have a hundred and counting I have to check personally. I didn't want to admit it, but I've also long been overwhelmed. I just didn't feel like I had the right to say so. I still don't. But the truth is, anyone can say they're verified too, which is terrible because not only will I be partially responsible for my followers who got scammed by bots or scumbags who take advantage of those at war with fake fundraisers, but even worse is that the help and money may not even reach those who actually need it. I thought I would be fine the first time. I don't really like posting too much about our depressing reality or watching news in general because my account was supposed to be a "safe SPACE" and a "nice little BUBBLE" for us to be happy and escape for awhile, so I didn'tmthink much about rebloggingit at first. I only wanted to help. But it just kept going and I got swept away. There's so many of them, but there's only one of me and I've been spiraling lately. So for now, I will no longer take any Asks about this subject (which I always avoid mentioning directly because the algorithm has it out for putting you guys down and I wanted you all to make it so I didn't tag those reblogs with such). I'll still take Asks provided they're related to my actual content and of course I'll still support raising awareness for Pal est ine, yet I also get it if this may appear selfish to some of you. I tried. I really did. But if you'd rather ignore, unfollow, or block me for this decision, I understand. I'm just sorry it had to come to this and that I wasn't strong enough to help more. -Bubs.

[thehollowwriter]

I still remember someone doing parent hcs and for either Floyd or Jade or both they were like "it doesn't matter whether you want a kid or not, you're having one"

And I just

No?

Is that supposed to be funny?

The tweels wouldn't do that to their partner????

Forcing your partner to have a bio child they don't want is literally rape? And if it isn't a bio kid it's abusive af

They're high schoolers that are kinda bullies that doesn't equal literal rape and abuse?

[kozidraws]

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[wejustvibing]

they lucky bc he be making anything look good

[marazhai]

why do you dislike bg3 so much? just curious, no judgement. all i've seen for the game so far is praise, so that's why i'm asking!

Oh, I don't dislike it, but I do think it's very much overrated. The only thing that separates it from the other cRPGs is that it has full voice acting (love it!) and mo-cap (I wish all that money and resources went into writing instead) but those two qualities are not what makes a cRPG good. Not to mention, they keep changing and adding stuff here and there to cater to their loudest fans and Reddit bros. Good for them, I guess?

[blatantlyhidden]

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[loveydoveylex]

being uncomfortable with sharing sucks sometimes ;; it makes me feel like such a douchebag. I feel like I'm gatekeeping a fictional character 😭😭😭 I don't want to come across that way augh

[nervocat]

man.

[lucyvaleheart]

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