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yousaytomato · 10 months ago

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Sometimes a laptop will just. Decide to not type even though you're pressing keys, or maybe send the cursor flying when you're not even touching it. Or maybe even freeze the screen a little.

This is nothing to worry about and are all signs of a well looked after and healthy device. You are a great mother. 50mb of available memory is actually too much if anything

#it's actually worse than this even lol #my little guy is turning 8 this year and boy can i tell #8 years of daily use. literally daily.#average... I'd say 2 hours a day. for 8 years.....woag #so i guess when you look at it like that im not doing bad #ive replaced the charging cable twice. the headphone jack doesn't work. nor the speakers #the rubber seal is literally starting to disintegrate #ive worn some keys smooth with use #sometimes the volume changes randomly. sometimes it turns itself on for no reason and overheats #the function keys are kind of broken / somehow reversed ?#like in order to NOT press a function key. i have to hold the function button...#sometimes it forgets who i am #Google constantly forgets. and i have to double verify myself. but that might be a Google problem...#ANYWAY he's my little guy whomst i love and who's crying out for retirement...#woes of emily

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corpsentry · 5 months ago

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pick your battles

#my art #my stuff #art #comic #original art #pride 2024 #pride month #trans allegory..... or not even allegory. just trans .... ^_^#i technically cannot come out yet but i don't think the people who i need to not see this stalk my tumblr #i know they stalk everything else like my twitter and my instagram but this might be safe #so fuck it we yap. this is a comic about picking your battles #this is a comic about how for almost a year now everyone at home in singapore has been crying about my sore throat #my terrible fucked up voice. my you know. etc #i came out as not cis and using they/them pronouns in 2015 when i was 14 #but no one ever used my pronouns. none of my classmates or friends even up until i left for college in 2020 #from 2020 onwards every year i wrote an angry vulnreable essay about how much it hurts that they dont remember #and people would dm me apologizing on their hands and knees and commending my bravery #and then forget about it all over again. id ont mean 'they misgender me and then catch it and apologize and correct themselves'#i mean they dont even get that far #and so you might ask yourself: why have you kept them around all this time?#and i would have to explain that by pure bad luck i grew up in the most conservative close minded community #that all of my ex classmates that stayed in singapore are cishet and upper middle class and chinese singaporean #that i Am the trans person. that they were able to ignore me for a decade partially because there was no one else #so this is a comic about how there is dignity and grace in staying in the closet sometimes #about how not everyone deserves to see you at your happiest. about how some people can go fuck themselves #you know your truth and THATS THE ONLY THING THAT MATTERS!!! YEAH!!! i love you

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krazieka2 · 1 year ago

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Blions first kill

#carrying over my posts from twitter choo chooooo #i am SO SORRY to anyone who follows me on twitter and here #it takes forever to get art over here sometimes #either i keep planning on adding more doodles to an idea #or i forget i ever drew it #when did i draw this #2023 art #fe3h #fire emblem #annette cant actually learn fire at any point #i was really hoping no one would point that out but OF COURSE someone on reddit did (lightheartedly)#anyway annette didn't use magic she just set the body on fire to make a point

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 11 months ago

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Izutsumi character study

#dungeon meshi #izutsumi #One of my goals for this year was to spend more time doing art studies.#What better way to start than with my favourite danmeshi character (not seen: a whole page of figuring out her features)#I feel like she is by far one of the most poorly understood characters in the series. Partially due to her 'late party member' status.#'She's abrasive and mean' - 'she's a picky eater' - 'she's a catgirl who acts like an asshole cat ' YES and that is the point!#Everyone in dungeon meshi is traumatized and messy about it but izutsumi is just less polite in how she tries to cope.#Izutsumi is a extremely traumatized teenager who has utterly lacked autonomy her entire life.#She is the epitome of a “If I can just have X thing then all my problems will be solved!” character. And the X is 'Freedom'.#Her epilogue was one of the best and wrapped up her character so wonderfully (WARNING: I WILL NOW SPOIL PART OF THE ENDING)#Because she finally gets her freedom! She can go where she wants to and she doesn't need anybody! Yet...it doesn't fix her.#She is so focused on doing only what she wants that she forgets her own needs. Sometimes you have to eat the things you don't want.#And sometimes you have to face the hard truths that you need more than just one thing to make you happy.#Life is not all about only seeking pleasures and avoiding pain. You need to be balanced in order to grow.#Eat your vegetables (including the metaphorical ones: I am eating more art veggies this year by doing art studies!!!)

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pinktinselmonstrosity · 2 years ago

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i hate rishi sunak as much as the next person but i do feel bad for him having to read from the gospels at the coronation........ they keep saying that "all faiths and beliefs" are included but our Hindu prime minister still has to do a reading from the Christian bible huh

#i know i know it's all a farce #but i am struck by just how intensely christian it is despite the constant claims of multifaith considerations #like. do they not see how intensely hypocritical it is to keep saying that charles will serve the british people of all faiths and beliefs #and then immediately say ''in the name of jesus christ''#i have such a secular existence that i do sometimes forget how seriously christian the institutions of this country are #it's weird #and i'm saying that as someone who is simply not religious at all #i'm sure it's much worse for people who follow a religion other than christianity #🧃#uk politics

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mohntilyet · 21 days ago

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let me be clear i like veilguard but it does suck that no one disapproves anymore outside of like. three choices. i want to be fighting for my life earning approval back again someone has GOT to hate my ass. i should be careful about party composition and companion reactions again. i miss tactically taking fenris out of the party before i'm nice to merrill like those were the days

#please omg can someone hate my ass . not really. but in previous games it sometimes did feel like i was earning approval back #like a. 'even when we fight i still love you. don't forget that' way . i wanted some uphill battle and dav IS super sanitised #the difference is more staggering to old players than new ones. i think dav plays rly well for someone who doesnt know the franchise #but i keep asking questions like 'should the dalish not be more worried about solas/etc' 'the crows r not this nice'#'why wouldnt isabela ask about varric' 'there should probably be more fantasy racism here'#of course these r the devs who were slandering zevran weeks before release. however its also just. man.#I AM ENJOYING THE GAME THOUGH. just wish it had a bit (a lot) more relevance and respect to what its built up in the prev games #dragon age #dav spoilers #veilguard spoilers #dav #txt #like for example i think one of my favorite small writing moments is cass asking about the inquisitor's family in dai #where she approves if you are also estranged but disapproves if you say you want to go back #because for a split second she does not just see a so called 'herald' that she's forced to work with #it's someone just like her who never got along w their family and despite herself she likes the inquisitor more for it #or it's someone who couldn't be less like her and her dislike and initial mistrust becomes more certain #it just. there's is an amount of depth lost when vg tries this hard to make rook be loved as a default

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bluestrawberrybunny · 1 month ago

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I may have to pack my bags and never return...

I have found out that some kids in my class do in fact know what SMG4 is...

It's only a matter of time before they find out how active in the Fandom I truly am and I will have to move to a different country and change my name...

#all /j #smg4 #blue strawberry rambles #but seriously tho i mentioned how these kids would like smg4 and one piped up like #oh yeah i know that guy! they cuss a lot tho #and i had to abort mission and say like...#oh no they dont curse that much #also they now know i have a youtube channel (i forget i have it sometimes too so dw about it)#y'all once they find out who i am it's over /hj #i need a good new name i think i might change it to robert /j

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daily-smol-silm · 9 days ago

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Day #138 - Disconcerting

Maedhros does not want to be involved.

#maedhros #maitimo #chibi #cute #silm art #the silmarillion #silm #tolkien #tolkien legendarium #doodle #no i did not forget abt mae’s hand what do you mean #i was planning on giving him a gold prosthetic hand the whole time. yep.#who am i kidding mae with a prosthetic is always a win. (he always looks so cool with it waaaahhhhhh!!!)#daily smol silm #this was actually drawn on the same page as toothy mairon from my other blog #this is important context #dearest spooked mae is literally right in front of a sauron drawing that jumpscares me sometimes lol 😅

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quins-makeshift-menagerie · 2 months ago

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As most of you know I try my best to be civil and kind. I’m too exhausted and the world sucks too much for me to go about making other people feel like shit, it’s not really something I see worthy of my or anyone’s time really. I try to keep things positive not only because it might brighten someone else’s day but for my own sake. I curate this space because I know a lot of you feel and experience the same things I do. Do not twist this into me being delusional. I am fully aware the internet can be an unkind place, but that doesn’t mean my blog, my space, has to follow that example.

Be kind, be patient, and be respectful, not that the majority of you haven’t already been doing so. Asks are open again. Anonymous will be turned on again when I feel comfortable.

Apologies to those who used anon because they were nervous/anxious. I completely understand where you’re coming from and this is nothing against you. Regardless I do hope you stick around, and maybe one day work up the courage to be open with me. Or continue to keep your distance, I completely understand that too.

#I feel like #as my following grows sometimes people forget I am indeed a real person #I see that happen a lot with a lot of creators #people end up feeling like they can be disrespectful and unkind just because they can’t see me #but I’m here #I don’t know how much more open I have to be for people to realize I am a person with feelings too #we all are #so maybe just #take a few breathes and relax #I may not say it often but this is a safe space #I’m not gonna bite you or anything #anyone who knows me personally knows just how patient I can be or how I can give kindness beyond what one may deserve #anyway I hope people have a good day/night #high chance I’m just passing out again after posting this because I haven’t been sleeping well again #eat your favorite thing/something yummy for me would you?#I miss sweets and milk

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thedreadvampy · 6 months ago

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sometimes I forget that my experience has been. um. not 'your experiences are not universal' vibes but more like 'your experiences are EXTREMELY atypical'

#red said #recent events have reminded me that my life has involved like. a LOT of other people's psychosis #like not in a way where i have been Beset By Terrifying Crazies bc that's not like. a thing.#but a lot of people in my life have had a lot of really severe psychotic episodes #and i FORGET sometimes. that actually that is an Unusual Amount Of Experience With Psychosis for someone who's not #for somebody who has not really personally ever had psychotic episodes (unless severe PTSD flashbacks count)#actually i tell a lie i have maybe had One psychotic episode but because it was very situational and i knew what was happening #i was able to ride it out. because i am literally only psychotic Inside Hospitals and so that's all fine #as long as i LITERALLY NEVER HAVE TO HAVE INPATIENT CARE. Very important to me to never ever ever require surgery i think.#i can handle the amount of psychosis i get from a 1-4 hour stopoff in hospital #as long as i know I'm leaving soon then i can just Cope with the fact that the walls are moving and reality is thin #ANYWAY that's not the point the point is i forget! that most ppl i know have experience of at most a handful of severe psychotic episodes #some people i know have experienced more for sure. especially if the episodes were mostly theirs.#but people really seem to expect me to be more freaked out by their symptoms of psychosis than i am #bc i don't think i really register it as frightening unless they're in actual danger or Currently Aggressing Actually At Me #like i WORRY about them bc it can super suck but it's not SHOCKING or WEIRD #there have definitely been times ive been frightened. one time i woke up in the night and my friend was standing over me with a knife #but also like he was still HIM he was just having a moment. and as soon as i got the knife off him he just came back and broke down.#and we were fine and he was safe and i learnt the valuable lesson that even when people seem like they wanna kill you they probably don't #tbf now I'm thinking about it it's honestly a tossup whether he was there to threaten or because he felt a need to guard us #like to be clear probably don't try and take a knife off someone having a psychotic break. i was 17 and it was 3am and i knew him very well #i probably did not make the smartest call but nobody got hurt is the point #anyway you know there's that kind of psychotic episode and my granny got very violently angry a few times. buuuut you know there's also #been plenty of other times I've been with somebody having an episode and it's been chill as hell.#my ex saw and heard monsters so much that eventually she just got sick of being scared. we used to watch TV with them #i would sometimes have to sit on a bit of sofa that wasn't haunted and we might not be able to watch certain things bc they didn't like it #most of the time she was hallucinating there was absolutely nothing to worry about we just had a few extra variables #honestly of everyone i know who's had psychotic episodes or schizophrenia the amount of times it's been a material risk #is like. low single figures? maybe low double if you include self harm but idk what the cause and effect is there.#idk why you would need to be frightened like 99.99% of the time it truly is usually just Oh No That Seems Distressing For You I'm Sorry

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xxrat--punkxx · 1 year ago

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Vashie having a bath, that is all

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smimon · 1 year ago

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Käärijätober day 3: Tiny

En oo mikää korsto eli lontooks no biggie mut voit odottaa mult suurii

Mitä pienempää koiraa sitä suurempaa suuta mä mielummi nostan volumia ku oon suu kii

#sometimes i forget how short Käärijä really is #käärijätober #käärijä #you know at first i thought it's really heightist to call Käärijä tiny #but then i realized people say it in the same way teenage girls say 'hot' when they see an athlete's flexed abs #that's definitely his strength uwu #art by op #my art #fanart #yes i am going to juggle the lists however i please #sometimes maybe mix them who knows

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knifearo · 2 months ago

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hey dad so when i was ten years old and i told you that i'd gotten tired of romance plotlines in books and you told me that i'd be interested in them when i got older. i just want you to know that i was right

#might've been younger than ten even but it was thereabouts haha #i remember. standing on the driveway. complaining about romantic plotlines. hearing that i'd like them again when i was older.#pressing x to doubt. and now here i am #sometimes i wonder if being aromantic has made me more averse to romantic stuff just by virtue of like. conditioning myself into it #but no actually... this is one of those times where i Have been this way since childhood... openly and actively...#it's never made sense to me. never been super compelling to me. never been my thing. never really wanted that never longed for that.#you'd say 'imagine your wedding' and i would be planning my cool 2014-era tumblr doctor who wedding dress if i Had to plan smth #forgetting that you're maybe supposed to have like. a groom.#anyway dskfjghds #talking #aromantic #aromanticism #arospec #aroace #aro positivity

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skrunksthatwunk · 5 months ago

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this could be kuwameshi if you guys would like. take my hand and trust me

#yyh spoilers in tags #like major spoilers ok #which ig i dont usually tag but whatever #the if i had to choose between the world and you it's you thing happened. and it was KUWABARA like hhhhgghh #yusuke makes him forget his honor code sometimes and i need you guys to see that with me #bc it makes me wanna fling myself into the ocean over and over again #kuwabara literally is like you need to be alive bc otherwise im nothing idek who i am. please let me punch you #and he wails this multiple times #and yusuke would burn down the world himself if he thought it'd help his friends we all know that #and doomed by the narrative? mmm with the ever escalating world ending nature of being a spirit detective thats kinda there #throw in the sudden demon-human age gap post yusuke death 2 and you've got some narrative dooming in a way #but not enough for me to well and truly call them doomed by the narrative #yyh #yu yu hakusho #kuwameshi #kazuma kuwabara #yusuke urameshi #ofc i can handle you at your worst thats basically you all the time is Very kuwa to yusuke #and maybe we can figure out what the hell ur problem is over dinner sometime is Very yusuke to kuwa #actually i should draw that. or make it a textpost or something #but like turning up the protectiveness/possessiveness thats already there with them in line with the whole #'ive watched you die' trauma they Both have means that like. i think they would Need to have each other around for a period of time #in the wake of sensui's bs perhaps. and then yusuke cuts it all off and they start to get a bit healthier about it. hm #i think about them all the time it's like if typicsl shonen rival/bestie homo-ness was kind of scary and painful #like they love each other but the ways they hurt each other and hurt over each other drive me fucking insane

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le-agent-egg · 4 months ago

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Erm what the scallop

#danganronpa #mondo owada #miku binder #trigger happy havoc #dr thh #digital art #i am so sorry #zachs art tag #me to every character who i see as a trans man: that’s it get in the Miku binder meme #idk if the name replacements are accurate im just doin silly shit #please don’t take this seriously #sometimes i forget my future employers/future partners/my family might end up seeing my tumblr acc and therefore the miku binder mondo post #we ball ig

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myokk · 20 days ago

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Hi! Sorry if anyone has asked you yet, but I was in the voice chat with a friend (Kiwi says hi), and we were wondering: how do you pronounce your username?

Hi Lily (and Kiwi😆💓)

Hmmmmm that’s a good question🤔 it’s just my initials so I guess…my-okk? But I’ve never actually said it out loud and I guess when I’m thinking in Spanish I pronounce it more like me-ok in my mind😆 so I guess however you want to say it!!!

#sometimes I forget that people only think of or know me as my username #which shouldn’t be a surprise bc I do it for the vast majority of you as well😆😆💓💓#also thank you to everyone who left comments/sent me messages etc #I am kind of embarrassed about that post and never wanted it to blow up I was just trying to figure out myself #what was going on😵‍💫😵‍💫#im slowly going to be responding to you!!!🫶🫶🫶#just overwhelmed tbh but at least the VAST majority was positivity & people supporting each other💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

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