#sometimes i just wanna off myself

[vsprincessdiaries]

TW! SUICIDAL TALK!!!

do you guys ever just think about killing yourselves? like every now and then it will just pop into your head and you'll think about it for the next 15 minutes - hey, i could just kill myself.

and it's not a serious thought because you would never actually kill yourself, you know you're at no risk of actually committing, but every now and then it's just a thought.

but you can't tell your therapist because she would tell your mum and you can't tell your friend because they would panic and worry for you so you just keep it to yourself.

do you ever feel a self-hatred so deep and so profound that you just think you should die? you'll spend hours picking out everything you don't like about yourself and it can get triggered by something so minuscule but the self-loathing is so deep it makes you nauseous from just how profoundly you hate yourself?

do you ever idealise suicide, knowing you'll never actually do it?

i wish i had meds, i wish i was more sick so i would be able to do something about it. because being so averagely ill is tiring because i can't do anything about it. i can't get any meds, help is simply "run your hands in water or exercise when you're anxious" and it's all useless.

do you ever feel so helpless you just want to cry? you hate yourself and everything about you so much and you know there's no fixing you that you just want to bawl your eyes out because how can this be who i am??

[xxplastic-cubexx]

cant stop thinkin bout charles and erik readin together on the couch but instead of reading with him charles is listening to eriks thoughts while he reads. Live mind commentary ……..

[vampyrebellion]

Who am I now in this world without him?

[puppppppppy]

learning abt friendship decay and "not reaching out to your friends for months at a time unprompted is not neurotypical behaviour" has me feeling a certain way

[epic-sorcerer]

“Arthur can totally dress himself he’s just spoiled” why are you giving him that much credit

[quiet-admirer]

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[albusthefakepitbull]

i love juni i do, but i fuckin hate owning an adolescent dog. we do the same things over and over and over and she just is oblivious, her engagement is shit in almost all situations. she clearly missed a lot of stuff as a young dog so now i’m doing what you’d do with a 4 month old except she’s 65lbs of sometimes i can listen sometimes i would rather die. and i know it’s not her fault and this to shall pass etc but sometimes i just want to have a relaxing walk

[sophiethewitch1]

Do you ever say something wrong and then just want to walk into the ocean and never be found again or something

[unproduciblesmackdown]

also "textless" versions of these, wahooo

[roaringroa]

they should make a life where you don't have appointments, work, school and scheduled events every single day for months on end

[side-b-bumblebi]

Men who view women as their intellectual equals 😍

[darklight-owl]

Call me a pick-me or whatever but in this modern age of "2020s pop feminism that merged with capitalism and created some chimera of female empowerment that bases your value as a woman on the amount of self-care products you own" I tend to feel more objectified by other women than I do by men.

Like my guy friends don't comment on my body in a way that makes me feel uncomfortable. But a select few of my girl friends will not stop with the "you would look so pretty with some makeup on", or "stop cutting your hair so much, it looks so good when it's long!", or "you're so sexy we NEED to get you clothes that show off your body more!". Things that sound like compliments but are really just trying to get me to present a certain way. Because they see me being more masculine as a waste, as something to be pitied because I'm not living up to my full potential.

Like idk bestie maybe I'm a real person with her own way of expressing herself and not just some barbie doll you can dress up and scribble on however you like. Maybe I'd rather be comfortable in my own skin than be an object to stare at. Stop living vicariously through my body.

[honeypot-sapphic]

Me holding on to the last threads of my asexual identity so I don't lose the one constant part of how I've identified for as long as I've known I'm queer

[marshbarks]

this is smth thats not gonna make sense to most ppl who follow me but 'm Thinking again so tag rambly

[quietwingsinthesky]

which is sort of but not really tied into why i’m sort of ???? about the particular kind of fic writers that will write like. Exclusively niche stuff that they enjoy specifically (rarepairs, weirds AUs, specific kinks) and then get upset that they don’t get much interaction in comments or kudos. like, my guy, this is what we signed up for when we wrote the ship only three people know about. you can’t be upset that you’re not raking in hundreds of clicks when you specifically chose to do the unpopular thing you were interested in. it’s fine not to have a lot of attention, you gotta get used to it happening, even if you think you worked real hard on a fic and it deserves it.

[mamawasatesttube]

i dont know why i just remembered this but i think one of the funniest anon hate comments i got before i turned off anon was the person who was like "you have such good writing but your personality is so mean :/" like... ah yes, the person sending anon hate is going to preach to me about kindness dlkfalksjdflksd