#sometimes I hate this game for doing shit like this /pos

[ultaslodgings]

This is fine and all, Sethos, until you realise they are Kaveh's ascension material.

[prac-ticalproblems]

suggestion based off your post asking for suggestions: what do you think all their favorite albums would be. mind you they’re in the late 1960s so like it would be an album they liked so much they would save up and buy the record. lord knows music was an arm and a leg for 10 tracks. I’m thinkin engie might be into Johnny Cash, definitely bein into At Folsom Prison and probably also Townes Van Zandts self titled album when they came out in 1969. Scout would probably be a Chuck berry fan. I can also see him knowing how to dance to 40s big band music because his ma used to dance with him in his brothers in the living room as kids but he would be embarrassed about that one. Soldier would HATE the Beatles. and I have no idea about everyone else.

You. You get it. I’m gonna squeeze you. /pos

I love this ask so much I am going to do 60’s AND make it regional and Historical! Because we are syncing brain waves rn. (With a little bit of karaoke headcanonz)

1960’s music w the mercs

Medic - I believe that Medic is a very chaotic music lover. He has a background of classical in some way, with his fascination for it in the game and it’s bled outward into loving loud booms and the thrill of it speeding up.

So maybe some early forms of rock? Especially if it’s Peggy Peter’s. He sings like shit though.

Heavy - I’m not going to lie, this immediately came to me. Heavy loves pop. Heavy loves a bouncy little jig that he can play while cleaning Sasha. He probably got it from his sisters. I also believe that he has a very strong sense of political beliefs about his country so pop that has a message.

Definitely Edita Piekha. 100%. Lovely vocals from the gods. A little rattling, but He is a perfect bass.

Scout - HE WOULD LOVE CHUCK BERRY. That man hums ‘My Ding-a-ling’ as he showers. Absolutely.

He has Sex Bomb tattooed, but I’m sure his favorite Tom Jones song is actually It’s Not Unusual. He screeches when he sings instead of singing higher.

Demo - I see him being into much older songs for his age (he’s like nearly 30) just because of the way his mother raised him. I think he’s got an older soul than he thinks. So 1940’s swing and soul. Strong believer that he has more than a few albums that he cherishes, but most of them are from his mom.

He cries every time he puts it on though, just to let the feelings out. When he’s drunk, he sings terribly, when he’s sober? Probably still a little bad but he doesn’t know his range and doesn’t care if he’s tone deaf.

Pyro - I have personal ideas about Pyro that makes me think he is a huge Jimi Hendrix fan. I refuse to explain or elaborate as I will be here all day.

All Along the Watchtower. He bounces whenever it’s played.

Sniper - Jazz. I know it’s an easy answer, but it’s also THE RIGHT ONE. I think he’s very much a “nod his head and listen” type of music lover as a posed to “can’t stop moving” sort of guy.

He also probably prefers wordless music, for focus, and lyrics in music when he’s alone. (He is dancing in his room when no one’s around.)

Soldier - FUCKING HATES THE BEATLES. I’m almost tempted to say the only thing he listens to is music about WAR. But he’s probably into punk music. But I’m sure he fucks up and listens to anti war songs instead of actual war songs. So he’s accidentally listening to ‘hippie music’. No one has the will to explain it to him.

His favorite song is probably Gene Stridel - What do you win when you win a war. But only when he’s more self aware, more aware of his situation. It comes and goes. Soldier refuses to sing the song, ever. But it’s close to his heart, even if he sometimes doesn’t know why.

Spy - secretly a hippie. Definitely into Yé-yé, a type of french-ized version of British pop/exotica (like THE BEATLES.) He shows Soldier his music taste and it sends him into a rage. I think he takes pleasure in it.

Especially Baroque Yé-yé. Very Spy feely. Also Scout’s mom has probably shown him some Josephine Baker, and he likes it. Sings in a snooty little voice but it sounds pleasant enough. He thinks he’s the best singer in the team. (it’s heavy)

Engineer - GOD, you’re so right. Johnny Cash is the most fitting for him. I feel like he’s definitely a music sharer and taker. He carries songs from the people who he loves around with him. I think his mom loves Tammy Wynette and it’s crossed over to him.

Rip, you stupid fuck, you would have loved Poor Man’s Poison. He probably does that thing where they end off words in country with like a howl, instead of just ending the sentence.

[sheepstitches]

More facts n shit from DOKIx2 bc I love yapping about this gay ass hedgehog/aff /pos

- His favorite flowers aren't a specific breed(???) but he likes to lean towards yellow ones. Dandelions count too.

- If you, as a player, are naturally soft spoken, have the same beliefs about peace and harmony, or you're just really nice to him and play along, Doki will grow attached and eventually try his best to persuade you to "join him". If the player chooses to accept his invitation, they will naturally die of a heart attack. Sadly, Doki has never figured out how to put the player's soul into his game successfully, he's tried so many times. He always cries when this happens.

Read more has more info, it's got a lot of important stuff :)

- Doki keeps badniks in the game, but he replaces their weapons / drills or whatever with softer objects. For example, if it's that one ladybug badnik with the drill hands, he'd replace the drills with bouquets of flowers.

- Doki takes place in a rom hack of Sonic 2. <== I originally was gonna make it Sonic Rush Adventure, but then you'd have to use a DS? I grew up playing that lol

- Doki's Tails is going to be designed soon, but they're also someone who plays along with Doki. Tails originally disagreed with the idea of making the world "safer", but Doki brainwashed / manipulated him so much to the point where Tails is pretty much is held at gunpoint to play along. I'm thinking of naming him Flutter (haha, not intentional bc it's part of my name, it's bc he flies and that's what your heart does)

- Eggman isn't deleted exactly, he's just locked away in a hidden file. He does have a love themed design, he actually hates it and wished he can change it but he can't. He's not super evil like the normal Eggman, if anything he's probably the most mature and well out together person.

- Amy Rose does not exist in this world (duh/LH) but if she ever met Doki, Doki would be extremely confused about her. He'd probably think that this was him in a different form too.

- ^ hypothetically!!! If there was an Amy in his game, she'd be extremely violent and hateful towards him. Her hypothetical design might be made soon either by me or my friend. She'd also be locked up with Eggman.

- "How does he feel/react towards people who naturally skeptic of his motives and try to call him out on it?"

He'd try his best to explain that this is the best of both worlds, in game and irl. He'd try to explain that not every game during this time (2016) has to be violent or be enjoyable, and that we all need break from it all sometimes. He wants to break the cycle and try to have people explore and be inspired by it.

-If a character in the game is sceptical, they're banished. I would say he'd try to somehow brainwash them into understanding it, but if they continue to fight back, they become locked up like Eggman.

- oh yeah this takes place in 2016, where the majority of content is edgy or adult humor. (Pink guy, idubbz, MLG memes, etc).

- his player is a young adult named Tyler, he's not ... A great person. He actually was told to play the rom hack by his online group of friends. He gave the challenge to fuck around and try to mess with the coding as much as he can to try to change it back to the normal game.

- Doki later on in the game, because of Tyler not understanding his motives, Doki would brick his PC. Doki dislikes it when people try to alter his plans or act rude. Doki also hates violence towards others, and he rarely ever does anything like that, even to players. If Doki gets mad at you, the worse he can do is brick your PC, or lock out his game.

- there are multiple copies of his rom hack, it's actually downloadable. So....umm...HAHA every Doki is personalized OU NY GO D WHOAAA WHOOAAA HOLY SHIT WHAHATAAAAAA AHAAAAA!NNNNN!!!!.

[chryza]

I’ve had a day to process so

Final Thoughts on Dawntrail (with pictures)

Rating: man.jpeg/10 (/pos)

Those who follow me know post Endwalker was a massive fucking letdown. I still hold by that. They could have communicated what they needed to for Dawntrail in a way that wasn’t FF4 wank. But still, I tried to go into it with open eyes.

And holy shit I was blessed with the most beautiful FFXIV we’ve ever seen. Everything was dripping with light and color and the worldbuilding was spot on. It felt so Azem, exploring Tural, meeting and learning about people and their way of life. Carmine over @unionizedwizard drew the connection to the WoL guiding Wuk Lamat in the same way Venat chose to become a mentor for the people of the Etheirys. And yeah that came through so clearly. It was heartfelt and kind and clearly done with a lot of love.

They just were showing off tbh. Look at how fucking gorgeous this is.

Sometimes though…well, sometimes it couldn’t quite escape the shackles of the power of friendship. I found myself growing irritated at the lack of conflict—I liked that the stakes were personal to each character, and really enjoyed the start of the story. But over time, it became clear those stakes weren’t developing. There were no new conflicts arising to take the place of the ones we’d resolved. But it wasn’t until Mamook that I got really upset with the story.

It seems so obvious to me that the narrative was supposed to be that the Mamool Ja were sacrificing their children to bring forth a blessed sibling—the way the narrative frames this as disastrous to the people, the way that Bakool Ja Ja blames himself for it and is determined to uphold the legacy of those dead children, the way it’s all framed as so….dark. And then the story waffles around it, claiming that it was just high infant mortality rate, which removes the vast majority of the…well…blame. It becomes less a conscious decision to do something horrible and more a negative consequence that they can’t be held at fault for. The paste over is so sloppy it’s clear to me it was rewritten as to not be so dark.

And the story spiraled from there. The lack of conflict meant the cracks in the storytelling started to show. The characters were driven forward by the Gather the Chaos Emeralds rather than personal stakes and when you finally get to the skydeep cenote there’s…nothing waiting for you. No reward. Just a weird ass room with a weird ass gate.

Wuk Lamat tax.

You go back to Tuliyollal. Wuk Lamat and Koana become the Dawnservants. Everyone is happy. Everything is resolved. Zoraal Ja goes off to the golden city by himself but because the game has refused to tell us anything about it, this means nothing to us. I hate Smile, I think it’s called? That shitty Disney channel sounding song? I fucking hate that song. It’s so cheap to paste it over a montage of everyone happy and great that’s fun we’re at LEVEL 95. WHERE IS THE PLOT.

I was tired of feeling like I wasn't doing anything. I needed personal stakes that weren't entirely tied to helping Wuk Lamat. Sure, I love her, I think she's great, but the WoL's role up to that point had entirely been wander around and kill local wildlife while other people solve problems, which is massively problematic for an RPG!

We got so bored we invented a new guy. This is Foreel Ja, the sentry atop the second floor of the palace. He is a single father who is dedicated to his job as Landsguard and we love him.

And this is the story’s greatest failing—not letting the other shoe drop right away. Instead, we go hang out with Erenville who was just interesting enough to be excited about traveling with that I was willing to forego banging my head against my desk.

Unfortunately, the entire Shaaoloni section WHIFFED. The world building was sloppy, the story direction was lazy and predictable in the worst way, we weren’t given time to properly care about any of the people we were meeting (I still don’t know their names) and meanwhile there is no overarching plot happening! We’re just wandering around with Erenville doing ARR shit!

The funniest part to me was the train guys, where the story was trying to leverage our emotions from Twine in the first to care about these NPCs we haven’t been given a reason to love. Because Twine was objectively the weakest part of Shadowbringers, so calling back to it was not the play. I was so disappointed with Dawntrail I wanted to cry and it put me in a really foul mood.

And then the dome appears.

the exact moment I sat up in my chair for the first time in hours.

Oh my holy jesus fuck the whiplash of the tone shift. The Alexandrian invasion was so brutal in comparison to the cheeriness of everything else. Cutting down that old woman, going after a kid, no one was safe, no one was spared, it was a GLORIOUS disaster

When Zoraal Ja and Gulool Ja Ja were fighting i half expected the game to just beat Zoraal Ja like that and have that be the end of it but luckily they COMMITTED. There was BLOOD. Sena Bryer’s wail of pure agony in the scene where Gulool Ja Ja died brought me to tears. God that shit was good.

Immediately intrigued we leapt back into the story with reckless abandon because finally something was HAPPENING. Something dark and interesting and I didn’t even care about the tonal whiplash or the Shitty Disney Channel music playing over a half baked montage of characters we don’t care about easily resolving all of their issues through the ~power of friendship~. Let me into that FUCKING DOME BABEYYYYY

and instantly Heritage Found was the most interesting section of the story. Everything was put together so beautifully it made wonderful sense and Sphene. What a character. You know you’ve done a character right when you aren’t sure whether or not you can trust her but you want to so bad you’re willing to look past the warning signs. The fact that Queen Sphene rhymes took me out of it but whatever.

SOLUTION NINE. AAAAAHHHHHHHH I think we spent a full two hours just wandering around and looking at everything. As an avid Cyberpunk 2077 fan I was ENRAPTURED by everything. Definite highlight of the game for me.

I did not care about Zoraal Ja. Lame ass villain with weak ass motives and an unclear plot relevance, his saving grace as a villain was the introduction of Gulool Ja. After my initial reaction of “Ew Zoraal Ja Canonically Fucked” and the followup “Ew who did Zoraal Ja Canonically Fuck” my response was twofold. Firstly, to protect Gulool ja with my life. That is my child now. Secondly, I was fueled with the rage of a thousand suns towards Zoraal Ja for daring to abandon this perfect specimen of adorableness.

FUCK Zoraal ja and his daddy issues. I was rolling my eyes through that. Whatever. Gulool Ja is Love Gulool Ja Is Life.

(child support collection, 2024, colorized)

And then. Living Memory.

Oh my god they could have fucked it up so bad. It could have been cheesy and cutesy and overly done.

It was perfect.

The deeply dystopian nature of all of it contrasted perfectly with the beautiful golden sidewalks and the bittersweet happiness of the Endless. Knowing you were going to end it for them. Knowing that you have to let go. I sobbed and sobbed and sobbed as that city went dark and keenly felt aware of grief I hadn’t felt in years.

Like G’raha said. Above all, I wish they had lived. It was so true and raw and honest in the way that FFXIV, when it excels, really excels at. The final boss fight with Sphene was tragic and I wish the fight was harder but by that point I was already sniffly so I don’t know if I could have dealt with an Endsinger lol.

The end…was too abrupt. We needed more. Just a little more to resolve things and put things back. Jumping straight to the credits was not the way to do it. But the emotion still came through.

That’s kind of my final takeaway. Dawntrail had some major stumbles. There were narrative choices I cannot possibly understand. But the heart of it is honest and genuine and it shines through in the sections that are weaker. It banked a little too hard on Endwalker in some sections, it lacked the necessary conviction to drive home some of its points, but the message was loud and clear. I loved it. It was an exhilarating ride and overall a fantastic addition to the game. Truly a job well done for an expac that had so much riding on it.

[house-on-sand]

for the character ask game !!

26. What's something the character has done you can't get over? Be it something funny, bad, good, serious, whatever? - vic sage!

25. What was your first impression of this character? How about now? - grant emerson!

21. If you're a fic writer and have written for this character, what's your favorite thing to do when you're writing for this character? What's something you don't like? - jason todd!

6. What's something you have in common with this character? - conner kent!

23. Favorite picture of this character? - any or all of them!!

12. What's a headcanon you have for this character? - any or all of them!!

14. Assign a fashion aesthetic to this character. - helena bertinelli!! i'm curious

26. What's something the character has done you can't get over? Be it something funny, bad, good, serious, whatever? - vic sage!

vic is an odd duck in general with many unforgettable moments but the one thing he does that ill never be able to get over is how he responds when someone asks him who he is when he's out as the question

shit like that. he's so extra for this. he also sometimes leaves fucking. calling cards with a question mark on them and i cannot even begin to explain how funny that is to me. he even acknowledges it's a "cheap stunt" and he should probably not do that but yknow.

25. What was your first impression of this character? How about now? - grant emerson!

i can get you screenshots of my first impression of grant aksgsk

my first actual intro + thoughts on him

then like immediately after that. i knew right off the bat i was gonna be obsessed with him. something about his energy compelled me and now look where i am. the hyperfixation spiraled so now i care way too much about a character very few people have even heard of. honestly i just thought his powers were really cool and his role in zero hour was fucking nuts /pos + his vibes, like i said in the screenshots, were super relatable. that fact has not changed either, me n grant... we are the same tbh. for whatever that says about me my thoughts about him now? he drives me insane, i could write a whole essay on damage as a character and i still wouldn't say everything i want to. he's a tragic character who was forced into the role of a hero as a teenager because it was that or jail. he's got tons of parents and no parents at the same time. he's angry and people act like that's unreasonable and he's not allowed to be upset about his situation because he's expected to be a hero and learn how to control his powers and all this other shit all while his teammates and the public view him as this walking nuclear bomb that's too dangerous to be around. ill never be normal about him.

21. If you're a fic writer and have written for this character, what's your favorite thing to do when you're writing for this character? What's something you don't like? - jason todd!

i LOVE talking about his relationships with the other bats im so sorry but im insane about that and if i don't include it in something i write for him i fear I'll explode. i also love getting to write how emotional he is and how he thinks about himself because jason is so so influenced by his emotions and he's not just. Angry or mindlessly violent, he's got a much deeper nd intense range of emotions than that but people tend to take him at face value and don't realise that just because he seems angry bc he's lashing out or he's yelling or whatever doesn't mean he's actually angry. idk i love writing everything about him. as for smth i don't like when writing for him, i greatly dislike trying to write bruce in relation to jason bc i don't feel like i can capture bruce's character very well so he's There but for the most part it's just jason's thoughts abt him rather than them directly interacting. and this isn't so much something i hate while writing, but if i post something i don't like how anxious i feel abt how other people are gonna react to it bc not everyone sees him the way i do.

6. What's something you have in common with this character? - conner kent!

we share a punk aesthetic!! in different ways n subcultures n shit but we do!!! also... specific mental health issues lmao. conner is STRUGGLING in superboy 94 and one of the things we share is during the end of his relationship with knockout where he tries to kill the both of them. but yeah. we're both incredibly mentally ill and that's okay

23. Favorite picture of this character? - any or all of them!!

IM SO GLAD YOU ASKED! (you're getting a selection sorry!) jason:

these panels specifically from utrh

these are also technically part of utrh but they're from the batman annual after the arc technically finished but i fucking love all of them.

and of course, the jaybin era! these r my favourites atm bc he's so tiny in the first one and i love baby metalhead jason todd!!

grant:

these panels from the last issue of his solo!!! im insane about him breaking free from the virus and his little mustache n piercing at the very end. he's so dorky n cute there.

and these ones! love these ones so much. just. the very first one is great because he looks so happy and free.

and finally these ones. i love the art here but most importantly i love that roy is giving grant a space to yell and feel and say the things he wishes he could've said to his "dad"

vic:

he's so gender in these ones

conner:

(bonus: my favourite panel so far of ted kord bc everyone needs to see it)

im not even gonna lie if i heard this man say holy cool cookie cow id be asking him out on the spot that shit is so silly akahsk i want him so bad.

12. What's a headcanon you have for this character? - any or all of them!!

jason - he picks up new skills fairly easily and is largely self taught when it comes to some of the different languages hes learned and the piano. he taught himself how to play piano just because he could and he was bored. (ik somewhere? him playing piano is canon but for me it's always real n true) & that his earth 2 counterpart, if he had one, goes to college and does a dual major in english & social work with a minor in criminal justice + goes on to get his jd and take the bar so he can still help people without being a vigilante anymore. plus it showcases how fucking smart my boy is! tied into this one, a funny hc i enjoy is regular earth jason being able to pass the bar (bc he's SMART and he will COMMIT to the bit) so now the young adult crimelord/vigilante can now also technically practice law. it's just so funny to meeee and he deserves that grant - that arsenal is his favourite hero! & this is less a hc and more an au but in my heart there exists a world where alan scott and j'onn acted as grant's mentors a little more bc i dig alan's interaction with him before his trial and every interaction he had with j'onn was great imo idk i would've loved to see it conner - im a grey eyed conner truther ngl! rlly vibe w the hc that even tho he's supposed to be clark's clone n he looks a lot like him, he does have some of lex's features. i also hc him as having freckles on his shoulders that he loves because they're something all his own.

14. Assign a fashion aesthetic to this character. - helena bertinelli!! i'm curious

oh god i am a terrible person for fashion questions but i knew the exact vibes i had in mind for her when i saw this question!!! helena bertinelli would SLAY, absolutely devour a fucking corporate goth aesthetic. & i'll have to rb this with some references images bc i hit the limit! just kind this more professional, less obvious goth vibe. get some purple in there as a reference to the huntress costume... if she does makeup? (keep in mind i do Not do makeup) maybe a nice like dark/deep red lipstick... maybe even like a dark purple? idk i can see this specifically in my head. definitely leaning more towards an androgynous vibe. she's very clothes have no gender to me. sometimes doing a more feminine vibe if she's feeling it.

[meili-sheep]

I like it when people write about Fucked up Diluc. But some of the stories I read, kind of lacked nuance.

I've encountered some fics where it's like 'Diluc is a horrible person, the fatui isn't so bad! Look at how much of a monster diluc is!'

Completely forgetting it's the Fatui who made him this way.

There's few stories where both the characters are criticised equally. Also, some authors don't acknowledge some of the fucked up things the fatui have done to Mondstadt.

(No hate to any author, this is just something i noticed)

Ok so I think genshin is really pretty good at showing nuisance because as I expected the Fatui are getting a lot of development like the Doctor is still a massive piece of shit. And after this last quest, they are going to have to work their ASSES off to get me to like him. But I think experimenting on kids put you in redeemable territory.

But ya. Diluc is a little fucked up, but he means well. So is Kaeya. The Fatui isn't good…. The not everyone in it is inherently bad.

And I think a lot of that is hard to work with sometimes if you don't like... enjoy when stories are like that. Or having to break down complexities like that. And that's OK.

You do get under my skin a bit when you start acting like your interruption is canon. That's what really grinds my gears. Because, like nothing, no one says but Mihoyo says is canon. Like, anything outside of what is physically writing into the game/manga is not canon.

Like you can bring all the evidence you want to prove Diluc is a pos, and it's still just gonna be an interruption. Like... dude, all you did is make an argument? Maybe soild one. But it's still just an argument. It's not canon or "right". But to that it also means what I say isn't canon or right either. And I will never treat my opinion like it's canon.

(And let's not forget, Diluc came out sword ready when he thought people were sexual harassing his staff. That is canon)

The beauty of this all tho is I don't have to pay attention or read fics that don't work for me. It's great!

[mirazia1200]

I’m not gay I’m just very slightly angled diagonally in a straight line (this is a lie I’m very much a squiggly spaghetti noodle) ((By which I mean I am very gay))

I miss him already :( so fuck it I’m doing an appreciation post because SHE DESERVES IT!!! HE’S THE BEST HUSBAND FUCKING FIGHT ME ON THIS YOU WON’T WIN!!!! (Don’t actually fight me she doesn’t like it when I get hurt and I don’t wanna upset them. I’m not being a coward I’m stating a fact cough ahem anyways)

Gay

Can scientists please invent the time machine already please? Like uhm hello spend less time making scifi movies about it and more time trying to UNITE ME AND MY HUSBAND IN EVERLASTING MATRIMONY via a time machine that will let me skip all these long distance waiting game shenanigans (not that I mind waiting) and skip DIAGONALLY (because let’s face it it’s not straight/silly) to the part where we kiss because…

Hehhehehehehebb… she’s so… clenches my fists… RRRAAHHH… wanna just… kiss her and be gay… I usually try to be normal about his existence and stay composed but fuck it this one time I will openly admit that I am not, in fact, normal about their existence and that I am not, in fact, the least bit composed. Rrr… lemme kiss them already why does the universe do this to me… I willingly signed up for this long distance but that doesn’t mean I gotta not complain like I’m sorry you want me to sit there looking at her face on a screen… A SCREEN? AND I CAN’T FUCKING KISS HIM?

I swear I want to just

Do this and appear out of their phone screen. I’ll crawl through their screen and tower over them menacingly (IGNORE THAT WE ARE BODILY SHORT.) and then loudly exclaim “I WANT WAFFLE FRIE- AHEM. Sorry, what I meant to say is, I’VE COME TO CLAIM YOUR HEART” and then I carry them off into the sunset in the distance or some random ass romance movie cliche like that I don’t know

My point is guh I am gay and I want to KISS. HIS. FACE. AAAGH.

You’re probably thinking to yourself “get a load of this guy, he thinks he has it sooooo good.” Uhm yeah, hello? Have you like. Not even seen who I’m talking about? (You haven’t but that’s ok we’re the only one who gets to see their smile cuz society is too horrid to lay witness to such beauty) Clearly you haven’t so let me go ahead and explain THE WONDERS OF RAINE.

Their fucking giggles. That’s it that’s the post cya/j /silly

I love their laughter and their giggles and their silly little smile and the way they pause to process something for like 3 seconds before laughing in response sometimes, he’s so laggy like a super old computer living in modern 2024 technology era but that’s ok I still love him guys he’s so… RRRRRR I wish I could grab him by the collar and just surprise him with a quick kiss while he’s in the middle of laughing and then I run away because why did I do that what uhm anyways

I love the way they hide their face sometimes it’s adorable. She usually does it when I call him adorable and her doing that is NOT helping them beat the adorable allegations guys!!! And it’s funny because sometimes I can tell when she does it even if she doesn’t have her camera on cuz like I can just. How the fuck do I explain it my brain is dead. I just know sometimes

GIVE ME YOUR GENDER!!!/silly /pos Ugh… he’s so… everything… like… who made it legal for him to be so girl boss slay but so fucking daddy at the same time like. Holy shit why did I just say that- anyways. Like they pointed it out during our VC earlier how their voice sounds both feminine and masculine and he can shift it higher or deeper like… give. Give me your voice GIVE IT TO ME NOW!!! I wanna stuff your vocal chords into a cassette player and hit play on loop for the rest of my fucking life and I know that sounds creepy maybe but I mean it in the most loving and complimentary way possible

He makes me like bad weather now because I always hated the rain because sometimes the rain pounding against the window is so loud I can hear it over my music, but now I love it and I willingly listen to the rain because like. That’s my husband talking/ij She makes me enjoy the changes in weather and I hate to say it but maybe this werewolf is a little more willing to venture into the cold outside his den than he used to be

I love him he’s so… LOOK AT HIM. (Insert poorly drawn reference image of them) I wanna staaaaare… I wanna get lost in his gaze… her eyes are so pretty… and their hair looks soft I wanna touch it… rrrrr… run my hands through it… SURPRISE! I’m totally pulling his hair at random at some point in our life together, I just wanna see how they’d react to that

He is the light at the end of the tunnel… which is almost scary to say? That tunnel’s been dark for a really long time… I’m scared to go back to the darkness that was there before he showed me that light… but they’re always there, telling me they’re never gonna leave. It’s so comforting, but sometimes it does more harm than good, sometimes I think to myself “you say that now, but what will you have to say when you’re proven wrong…?” But I can’t think like that. I have to trust him. I want to believe her words, and I do believe them too! Sometimes it’s just a little harder to shove away the nagging voice in my head is all. But he helps with that too… the moment she hears I’m struggling she knows exactly how to make that little voice shut the hell up…

And he still says he’s not doing enough… I disagree, they do so much already, and they still want to do more…? It inspires me… they do so much… for us, for others in general… what about me? What the heck am I doing? Sitting around and waiting for rescue like a damsel in distress. That isn’t what she deserves. No, she needs more from me too… so I’ll give that. We’re so far apart from each other in real life, there’s only so much we can do for each other, but with each and every day, I’m growing stronger thanks to him, and I wanna show him that. I’m not gonna sit around and wait, I’ll climb down the tower and meet him halfway… that’s what he deserves. I gotta put in the work too… the effort, the dedication, everything…

So let’s go, universe, throw obstacles at me left and right, I’ll climb your stupid mountain if it means he’s waiting for me at the top of it, and when I’m there we’ll look back and admire the view… look back and see all the things we accomplished together, and then maybe we can both be proud of ourselves too, instead of just each other

I smell a fire, and the thing on fire is me! I’m gonna go throw myself into a lake now, goodnight

I could say so much more… I should say so much more! But I’m tired and my mind is fleeing reality so time to daydream cuddles with her while I stare at the ceiling fan

-Luminescence

[jamisonwritestf2trash]

ever since I was a lil bean growing in the womb to be birthed prematurely and with jaundice, I always knew I wanted to torture twinks in a gay way. like scout from tf2? hell yeah. sometimes I wish I were a feral animal so I could be allowed to bite people for fun, like what are they gonna do shoot me? well buster you came within biting distance I dont know what to tell you!! its like Yellowstone park how they have to tell people do not approach the bison they gouge a hole into your chest and you will die!! anyway, I think I want to watch out from tf2 get beaten up and choked out and I dont know what that says about me as a person. its a good thing hes fictional and I would never do that to a real person without consent at least. side note I think my tomatoes are going bad I dont want to have to eat them all raw again that sucked I hate when the juice gets into my paper cuts and cuticles. I know like two French people in real life and one is a dear friend and the other is a guy i sorta know vaguely. theyre very nice people. its really unfortunate I think of spy from tf2 every time I think of French things now, im literally the worse person to play games with because words like spy and soldier will make me say. "omg spy from tf2!" or "soldier, just like soldier form tf2!" my friends are sick of my shit. well, I hope you have a fine morning or evening or even afternoon I love your head canons by the way.

Woah a whole essay!

I was also born prematurely and with jaundice, how cool! But as for the rest of it I don't have much to say, I feel like I just got hit with a baseball bat after reading this. (/pos)

Have a good morning/afternoon/night too anon! And I'm glad you like my headcanons:)

[starified-lizzy]

I figured I should redo my intro to my blog-

ELLO >:DDDD

(Edit/Update:) First of all, because my friend and I just had to deal with an art tracer;

YOU CANNOT TRACE, REPOST, CLAIM MY ART AS YOUR OWN OR *WHATEVER*. MY ART IS *MY ART*. MAKE YOUR OWN. ITS NOT THAT HARD AND EVERYONE STARTS SOMEWHERE.

Reblogs and comments are appreciated tho :3

Also- if you wish to use my art as a profile picture, you MUST give me credit as the first thing in your Bio/About me.

(Back to the original post)

Name’s Lizzy! Or Star! I really don’t give a fuck which you use!

Here’s my pronouns card! https://en.pronouns.page/@starified_lizzy

I draw shit for FANDOMS

I write shit for FANDOMS

I got OCS whom I LOVE and ADORE.

“Can I draw fanart of your fics?” My sibling in Christ, we are married. /pos

“Can I draw fanart of your fanart(like DTIYS)?” My sibling in Christ. /pos

“Can I draw fanart of your OCs?” CHRIST. /pos

RAHHHHHH (it’s really fucking early I shouldn’t be doing this now ;-;)

Here’s a list of my socials, it is very limited because I hate the “standard” socials like Twitter and Insta and stuff like that. So it’s more like- fanfic sites, and any other blogs I own for you guys to check out >.>

My AO3

My Art Fight

My YouTube

My TikTok (basically dead at this point, I only ever like/favorite things on it, but I might start up again with my FNF au instead)

My Pinterest

My Spotify because sure

My FNF au blog

My demonpocalypse blog ([possibly] forever retired due to a severe issue in the community it was for)

Blog for food/recipes I want to try because MMMMMMMMMMM FOOOOD

Wow that’s actually not limited like I thought- hot damn I need to touch some grass.

HERES A LIST OF FANDOMS IM EITHER CURRENTLY IN, OR HAVE RETIRED FROM (Also CCs):

Retired-

DSMP (and MCYT as a whole for the most part), dude our community is in *shambles*. I’m so glad I left when I did, but at the same time O W.

ATLA. Technically I’m still in this fandom, but I only really get back into it/brainrot about it if I get a reminder, otherwise I kinda forget about it

FNAF. Same with ATLA, still technically in it, but I gotta be reminded it exists sometimes.

BATIM. Ditto

Wings of Fire. Ditto

Undertale. Ditto. Lizzy, my main persona, was actually an OC created from Undertale, who just ended up becoming her own person, and then ended up being associated with mine and my friend’s Minecraft au instead.

Onto CCs I no longer watch:

Any of the DSMP ppl, with very few exceptions

Jacksepticeye. Don’t get me wrong, I’ll still watch a video of his if it pops up and spikes my interest, but I don’t actively seek his content out anymore.

Any of the old Minecrafters. Like DanTDM, Stampy, Tiny Turtle & Little Lizard. Hell, I don’t even think any of the ones I listed even do YT at all anymore. I’ll still watch their old videos tho.

Current-

FNF. I really could give less of a fuck if y’all think it’s “bad” or “for kids (it’s not, I promise you)”. The music slaps, and quite a few mods are really well made, so eat my ass.

Day of Dragons. The dragons are cool. I don’t care about any drama in the community. I’m here for the cool fucking dragons.

The Isle. Once again, I don’t care about any drama in the community. I’m here for the cool ass dinosaurs because you can customize your own skins and they just look and sound cool (Dilo, Herarra, and Ptera are my faves)

Lethal Company. Do it for the Company.

RainWorld. Scugs and Scups. Need I say more?

Hollow Knight. Sorta falling out of this one, but until I beat the entire game (P5) I am not finished.

Minecraft. Technically in “the fandom”, but not really attached to a specific YTer or anything like that anymore. I just like the game.

CCs I still watch:

Astral Spiff. Sprog is a good gamer.

Smii7y and his friends like Grizzy, Droid, Puffer, Blarg, etc.

Jack Manifold. I only watch his You Laugh You Loose and Ghost Sighting Compilation videos. I don’t even know if he still does Minecraft anymore.

8-BitRyan. While he doesn’t swear in his videos, it’s kinda a breath of fresh air. Plus his edits are quite funny.

Markiplier. Yes. Just… yes…

IGP. His content is just interesting. The way he freaks out over shit is funny as hell. Does he do content with IcyCaress anymore? Their banter was funny, but idk if something happened, cuz I just don’t see much stuff with Icy in it anymore.

As of right now, that’s all I can think of. It’s nice to meet you!

[foxtricksterwriting]

Lani Clatcher

Author's Note: this is 1 of 3 mcs, I'll link the others when they're posted. While making this I wanted to think of like, what genre their band would be considered but like.... I'm terrible at figuring out genres for music😓

Credits: This is a mc for the interactive fiction game-thingy Infamous. Find it here @infamous-if

Preferred Name: Lani Clatcher

Alias: Ivy ("I know it's not original! Shut it!")

Gender + Pronouns: Agender/Nonbinary + they/them and ve/vir

Singing/Voice claim, if any: Andrew Volpe from Ludo is a really close singing voice. Specifically in the album You're Awful, I Love You. I don't have a speaking voice for them unfortunately.

Age: 26

More About Vir; Lani is often described as overwhelming to strangers. They don't tone any part of their personality down, ever. Vir loud, outgoing and loves meeting new people; textbook extrovert. They'll be the first to greet someone walking into a room and try to make someone comfortable. Ve talks fast and only gets faster when ve gets excited... which is often. They often accidentally volunteer their friends for things they definitely didn't sign up for. Ve realizes it quickly and will either backtrack it or take over for whoever they volunteered.

Ve has a habit of not thinking before doing something and often gets in some kind of trouble because of it. Ve's surprisingly a bit of a pushover; they're overly willing to help out and is very willing to do something for someone if they're lead to believe the person can't do it for whatever reason.

Ve's gained a love of nature from Yijun, but it's evolved into a love of travel. Ve wants to travel everywhere they can and honestly fears settling down someday. They collect little souvenirs from every place they go, but they're a little weird; a pinecone from a forest in Y City, a broken thing they found in Z City. And shiny things. Vir kind of like a crow. Sometimes they'll use the random knick-knacks they've collected to make necklaces and bracelets.

Lani has a certain chaotic energy. Everything ve does has at least a hint of this and it almost makes up their foundation. And ve embraces this chaos. Ve loves fast paced things and get very fidgety when they have to slow down. That's not to say that they won't; ve tries to go slow for vir friends and loved ones. It doesn't always work out, but ve'll try vir damnedest so they aren't alone.

Fun Facts:

Their Pinterest here.

Like I said in Yiijun's post, vir band is called The Cult of Dionysus. Ve calls vir fans Dionysians.

Ve has a habit of accidentally talking over people. ("HEY GUYS DID I TELL-- Oh wait fuck, shit, no keep saying whatever you were saying, I'm sorry!!")

HATES silence. If it gets too quiet they'll tap their foot loudly, hum a song or start a conversation. Usually has headphones so ve can listen to music if it gets too quiet for them.

Allergic to nuts and lactose intolerant. Doesn't really care about being lactose intolerant, will consume dairy products anyway.

They tend to wake up early to watch the sunrise and try to always watch the sunset.

True to vir nature, they LOVE talking to fans. They happily invite fans to take pictures with them any time, any place. Recently, ve had some....issues with a small group of 'fans', which caused vir to set very firm boundaries with vir fanbase.

There's a video out there of I think Misha Collins walking somewhere with his security and he hears a fan or someone call him and just fucking ignores his security to go hug this person; Lani would definitely do that lol

Wants to open a PO Box for fans to send them things

Calls everyone bestie, doesn't matter if they're actually best friends or not. Does have specific nicknames/pet names for vir friends tho.

Ve's probably the kind of person to out-loud say lol or lmao

Like the other two, Lani is one of my regular ocs. Vir backstory is the same as Yijun's; the two met when they were 8. They met Storm in high school and started a band after that. Lani is the bassist and backup vocalist. Ve can play keyboard, too.

"You and me, man. Ride or die! Yep, ride or die!"

[navxry]

Rate your friends

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well damn alright fine LMAO

My mutuals from discord and/or Tumblr (utc cause the post is LONG)

Carmine: def a 100/10 if I have to be honest. They dealt with me SO much and my absolute nonsense as well since 2020, no words can describe how much I appreciate them for being there with me in my highest and lowest of my era. I also love terrorizing them with my muses (Lyney simp in denial), and I dont regret at all meeting and befriending them. Love you bestie <3 /p

Ryan: also a 100/10, I genuinely owe him a lot for helping me realize just. how certain things in life isn't 'normal' and fueling my brainrot/s so much. We both had so much to talk abt during the 3 years I've known him (and we're still friends to this day!), and Goddamn do I enjoy playing games w/ him and esp abt our current hyperfixations (Persona and Raincode. I still want to rattle your Yuma bot you little shit /t)

Esther (@mixed-kester) : I just met you like months ago when I first joined astronetwrk, and tbh I genuinely am v happy to have met you and enabled you BAHAHAHAHA I've been friends with her for a while but its so fun just going through the plot + AUs, and also going through pain (and making me go through a crisis with enabling and "NO YOU DID SO MUCH FOR ME" "NO, I DIDNT" LMAOOOO). Yeah, there were times when we both have our disagreements, but I genuinely could never ask for a better friend to yell at Tinuvion/Kunimitsu and the rarepare between Wanderer and Kaeya than her.

Meirin (@meimeimeirin) : I'LL SAY THIS ONCE AND I'LL SAY IT AGAIN: You are so cool and amazing and I'm so amazed with how you deal with my nonsense. I never saw an opportunity to talk to you outside of being on anon back then, and I genuinely thought that it won't be possible, but when EBG happened? I saw it and took it. You were so so so enjoyable to talk to, to rant about the entire event, and even after that, I enjoyed talking to you about even your simping with Zhongli and Alhaitham! I also enjoy bouncing off ideas with our threads (even if I have them on hold, I swear I'll reply to them orz). You're the sweetest person I've known and I am so, so glad to have met you and got to know you as a friend ;v; you also inspired me in writing for Genshin and for my faves, and for also sharing my thoughts on my sona and my selfships. I know you're busy but I hope you can see this because I genuinely appreciate you /pos

Yami (@pastel-rights) : YOU'RE SUCH A GOOD ARTIST WHAT THE HELL— honestly, how the fuck do you deal with me, Sam and Tae? (/lh) like I genuinely am so surprised I'm actually friends w/ you, but in a good way because you are?? So cool?? I swear I sometimes admire your art and when I say I wanna eat it, I would. You're such a good friend and I wish we can talk more fr

Tae (@nice-chiaki) : My first victim (/j), but really, I am in awe that I've met you in the mun's corner. I saw your blog with Itha and I genuinely loved interacting with him— your muse of him helped a lot in bringing me out of my idv writer's block slump because I had no ideas and ooooh, genuinely having you on vc and hearing/seeing you go through your cycles and bs with Sam and Yami (and Fifi as well) is the funniest thing. I also hate you (/exag) for the fandubs, and you making me go through a huge moment with Andrew and Cro. 0/10 wont recommend voicing villains (/j /j)

Sam (@paperbcy) : You are the biggest menace I know, and tbh I wonder if you're like a mirror to my menace self /j, but I'm kidding BAHAHAHAHA. I dont regret enabling you so much for your immorphy AU and our own shared AUs, and I sometimes wonder what would happen if I hadn't met you, Tae and Yami. Also, do not pull Father on my inbox ty

Fifi (@fffiii) : You dealt with my ass for years and I honestly question how you're still sane BAHAHAHAHA, but fr, even till now we're still together from 2016 - 2017(?) and I cannot stop but wonder how long it's been. It was v fun just looking back on our days at Q and even now, and I still appreciate you for everything even if you're a bigger menace than me.

Shiro (@leftdestiny-posts) : We may not talk as much or as often, but you are so kind and ouuuu you make me ;-; honestly. I am v thankful for you in dealing with my brainrot over TCO (which! I plan on revisiting and reviving as a long drawn series haha), and I hope that we talk more often when you have the time (ofc, no pressure!)

Ying (@yinyinggie) : OOOOH YOU'RE SO SWEET AND LUCIEN/YUZU TOO LIKE AUGHHH, I genuinely love you both as mods in astronetwrk AND outside of it. I genuinely appreciate you as a mod and a friend in keeping the server together and hosting games for us, and even when those went awry (read: the mafia game), you and the others made sure we had fun anyway and prioritized our comfort, which is so?? sweet??? I genuinely wish I can hug you and I wish we can speak more orz ily /p

There are more but I can't remember them all so o7 o/ hope this is enough anon

[autisticempathydaemon]

hellooooo if the match up stuff is still open I would like to participate ^^

Song I'm hyper fixated on would be Love like you by Caleb Hyles I feel like it captures how I feel. because like I always feel so horrible about people who appreciate me, I feel so undeserving of it and how I want to be better for them

I unfortunately do not know my ennagram type but I do know my mbti that I'm unsure if it changed because I've taken the test last month the result I got is INFJ

Yes I do! alot actually, I love love love the ones that talk about issues basically anything new that happens. sometimes I also like those who go into a deep dive about artists, what the inspo for their work is, the meaning of their creations all of it.

My childhood imaginary friend was kinda weird... basically they we're a changing person, but most of the times I imagine them as a girl with short black hair a blue dress above a white long sleeved turtle neck, basically my ideal self at that time. she was really nice and loves butterflies idk why I made that up because butterflies are kinda boring to me

my go to way of falling asleep is just kinda laying there playing some music of traditional maybe boyfriend asmr on the background and hope I fall asleep sooner or later

ohhhh tricky, I would say Eris, because the name belongs to the Greek goddess of chaos and discord! daughter of Nyx also because it just sounds pretty

Milo's spring back audio where he comforts sweetheart from a panic attack. I often get those and the vid helps extremely well for them. also because of how sweetheart actually felt like they we're having a panic attack, it feels so real and comforting I love it sosososososo much

I'm gonna say... Cam, I get he sounds really nice but not exactly someone I'd say I love.

I don't really have one memorized yet but... the one I'm really close to would be... Up, my cousins love it and I do too. makes me feel sad a little and it's a really nice story

VINCENT- might be a little weird but considering all the responsibility of dating him I'd much rather be besties with him, he's fun and chill to be with and all the connections you'd get is just...

my go to ramble! a new game's story or lore maybe a webtoon sometimes, anything new I found that day that intrigued me most of the time it's a random wiki page I read

I don't have a local has station nor do I own a vehicle to go to one so imma have to pass on this one

A princesscore playlist I found, it has great classical music I play to focus, makes me feel like I'm in a ballroom dancing with the guy of my dreams

I would say true crime stuff mostly murder ones. It helps me analyze what do serial killers do and why do they do it. Also some extra murder facts I pick up that I absolutely wouldn't ever need

This entry was very interesting to me /pos I had inklings, I had leanings, I was percolating, but what really got me thinking was your difficulty with being appreciated and how Sam Collins would nip that shit in the bud.

Sam is an aggressive man in notable ways- he’s quiet but he’s not subdued, you feel me? He can be polite and introverted, but he wouldn’t entertain something that doesn’t make sense or devalues the people he cares about. Like, “You think you’re undeserving? What, you think me and mine don’t have the good sense to decide that on our own? That’s a load of horseshit.” He’s an aggressively loving mother hen of a friend and lover, and he would not tolerate that.

There’s also some lovely, lighter notes that make me think y’all would be cute together. Your love of true crime amuses me because I think Sam Collins hates that stuff but in a fun way. Like, he watched the Netflix documentaries with you and makes little faces the whole time, questions your sanity as affectionately as possible. Your daydreams of ballroom dancing also works in that favor because man is a Duke; he can make those dreams real at the Summit.

Song:

If I gave you my hand would you take it/ And make me the happiest man in the world/ If I told you my heart couldn't beat one more minute without you, girl/ Would you accompany me to the edge of the sea/ Let me know if you're really a dream/ I love you so, so would you go with me

I’ve got to give you and that cowboy one of the most romantic country songs that’s ever been sung; I just gotta. It’s not classical, but it’s fantastic for dancing, and the sentiment of loving and staying together really hits when you think of Sam asking you to become immortal and spend forever with him.

Runner-ups:

I like Damien as a runner-up, because he and Sam would have a similar, forceful attitude about your feelings in response to being appreciated; I just think Sam would be better at tempering that attitude. Anton, I’m choosing as a runner-up mostly because I thought of him being a true crime junkie and binging My Favorite Murder with you, and it tickled me pink.

note: thank you for waiting so patiently! 💕

Read this post and send me an ask if you’d like a match-up of your own! 💌

[almacambiondaughterofsaleos]

Is viv gonna do the trick of how to keep a male character is by letting the female character having sex with them despite they hinted to suffer from SA. Stephen King Harlan Ellison. The game i have no mouth and i must scream i'm glad Ellen didn't have to intercourse sexually with anyone that is remove. Oh yeah in the game she was assaulted by worker who work with the same company as her, in the elevator. AM Make her relive the trauma to show her abuser they didn't show face or name, they only show invisible Man wearing work clothes. Ellen is also shown very uncomfortable with the color yellow. Wait wait SHIT

Ok so hazbin hotel but we keep the name happy hotel. So angel dust mafia mob theater actor porn star drag queen. He formerly work as a mafia and porn star, when he work as a pornstar. He was exploited by a man who's name is John, his boyfriend lie to him about he have debt angel who really fall in love try to help. Little that he know he was sold off by him his boyfriend just watch him get gangraped while he got the money. Angel wait for the right moment he murder his pos lover he hide the body and then run away. He want to start over so he become theater actor and drag queen he really enjoyed it. That's why he was in hell and why he really distrust around man. When he met with husk he just act flirty but act nothing more. When husk being Grumpy and rude it make angel feel more safe, atleast he knew husk is one of the few man he can actually trust. With Charlie it took time since angel really hated people who polite to him they just fake underneath so he always intentionally cause problem but Charlie always patience with him. Sir pentious angel often tease him a lot and he love how pathetic he is. When sir pentious touch him unintentionally angel snap pentious who didn't understood why immediately apologize to him. Vaggie one of the few he loved to tease, vaggie talk about how she felt guilty for murdering someone who abused her. Angel told her he know what it's feel like, husk who happen to listen in hell there's people who have regret. Husk notice how angel always sitting alone in bar never want to close with any man at all. Husk who didn't think too much never ask, angel reveal he like husk being Rude and Grumpy atleast he knew he wasn't fake. The betrayal he got is someone is very dear and close to him, angel didn't notice he was crying. He ask for drink he reveal in his drunken mess that he was stupid for believing his boyfriend and he got raped. Husk just told him sometime love is stupid the people he can think to trust sometime is their judas. Husk who carried angel to his bedroom. Angel woke up he realize he told husk about what happen, then he decided to talk with Charlie. Angel talk about his trauma Charlie who is prepared tell him her uncle and her aunt can help him, asmodeus and naamah help with angel dust case. Angel dust love to perform as an actor and he even sometime come to fizz show. With cherri bomb and angel naamah letting them perform and sing a song in Ozzie club. At first he thought he gonna be alone but he was wrong he got cherri fat nugget husk Charlie vaggie sir pentious heck even alastor. Alastor and him bonded having abusive father, angel even started dating husk

Yeah

[teeth--thief]

Have you seen Tetris (2023)? Unrelated: what music do you like, or listen to?

-R

I have seen Tetris, yes! Just a few weeks ago, sometime in March, matter of fact, so your timing is particularly incredible. It first haunted me in music form, believe it or not, I kept getting songs from its soundtrack recommend on Spotify.

While I usually really don't like the KGB is in your walls stuff that the Western films always insist on showing, I'll make an exception for this movie because it's pretty fun. I actually liked the Evil Liar KGB had going on, I thought it was very funny. I do have one complaint about the whole thing, though. I wish the pixel animation was utilised throughout the whole movie, not just in That One Scene... :( Just small, little bits (ha) would have been fine...

Fun (not really) fact: I was first introduced to the character of Robert Maxwell through this movie (you have to forgive me for not giving many fucks about the aristocrats of Britain). I have then immediately learnt that his daughter is Ghislaine Maxwell. The Ghislaine Maxwell. Jeffrey Epstein's partner (in crime). How delightful...

What music do I like... That's a terrible question to ask me because I'm very passionate about music... I have playlists for everything I like, even Chernobyl related one... there's not a free minute in my day that I'm not listening to something. I associate music with everything.

I mean, judging solely by the fact that my wardrobe consists of one too many Sabaton and Rammstein shirts, I'd have to say I'm particularly fond of metal. And punk. And rock. I occasionally listen to Hollywood Undead because I discovered it when I was a... young teen, much too young to be listening to that kind of stuff lmao, and so I feel oddly nostalgic about them.

I really like the... weird and experimental stuff? If it has some kind of a connection with nature, I will probably like it. I've been a long time fan of Cosmo Sheldrake - and he just released a brand new album Eye To The Ear on the 12th of April AND a new single just a few days ago... it's everything I could have expected and more, truly. His brother, Merlin (whimsical names is the theme) is a biologist and he wrote a book about fungi, which I really like, but haven't finished because I didn't have the time nor brain capacity to take in all that new information.

And continuing with the theme of slighly weird, I also enjoy video games/movies OSTs. The creepier the better. Little Nightmares (I&II) soundtrack? Perfection. I talk a lot of shit about HBO's Chernobyl but that show's OST is phenomenal (and that's the last nice thing I have to say about it 🙄). From not horror-esque soundtracks: stuff from DOOM.

I've also been mesmerised by the Polish folk music used throughout The Peasants and have been regularly listening to the whole soundtrack. I need to rewatch that movie ASAP... more on movie tracks, I also really like Mad Max: Fury Road's and Moon (2009)'s OSTs.

I also like older, classic bands... Pet Shop Boys, Soft Cell, Bronski Beat, Depeche Mode... Kult, if we're talking local... And because I AM beating the toxic masculinity allegations: MARINA, Paris Paloma, Caro Emerald and sometimes even Lana Del Rey and Mitski. Other than that, I'm rarely attached to one particular artist or band, I usually like two or three songs and hate the rest haha

I'm gonna add a bunch of songs I like under the cut as a little treat, just because:

[silver-wield]

I want to wash my eyes, today I saw for the first time the indoctrination files c/rith gives to their audiences. I saw a new player waving it around as proof. Selected ultimania quotes and of course, essays. I like how they write down ways to argue with clotis and zeriths. Such as, "if they say C isn't himself as soldier C, tell them A is the only one who can bring out the "real" him as shown in part 1". They keep repeating the "real" part again and again and trying to emphasize the appeal of the crackship which is ~healing~

No wonder they thrown toriyama away for directly stating C only shows his real self with T ONLY and unlike them I'm not going to put " marks on the word real. And no wonder they hate T with a burning passion because she actually does heal him.

If they include AC and say she heals there? First, C's ultimately the one who forgave himself of his guilt, let's not forget that because they like to erase that part and that everyone, T, A, and Z are part of that process of reminding him that it has to be him. And geostigma is her direct responsibility as a steward of the planet nothing singled out there.

They like to manipulate and rely on the player's laziness to look for information (what are they? Fucking Jenova?). Even to give ways to "fight" back. No wonder they all sound the same. Ugh I just realized the existence of LTD and ship wars in FF7 is giving the illusion that nothing is canon even if CT have more sources than any other ship in FF franchise. It gas lights them into thinking nothing is canon even if it's quite literally right in their faces.

P.S. I fcking hate with a burning passion how anybody gives interpretation essays as proof. Or media tropes and fan service as proof of canon. No wonder sometimes I see some former C/As getting angry at their creators because what they have are only interpretation instead of in game content.

Yeah they all have this weird shared doc they use to argue from that's basically just more lies and bullshit because it's all incorrect info and shit translations they skewed in their favour.

At no point does it say anywhere that aeri brings out Cloud's real self.

It's this quote they lie about. They claim Cloud being "conscious" is him being his real self while Tifa wants a soldier or whatever garbage they make up to ignore the proper text.

I could go into a whole thing over AC using the script and ultis to show what those idiots claim is total bullshit, but the short version is Aerith didn't do fuck all except trigger Cloud's trauma. She wasn't actually present for most of the film, even in the scenes she's shown in, and she didn't cure geostigma.

Ideky the devs put those stupid ribbons on everyone for someone they knew for three weeks two years previously. It makes no fucking sense to be mourning still.

I really want a rewrite of AC. It needs fixing so badly.

I'm honestly so tired of people acting like Aerith is bigger than god and nobody's allowed to say anything bad about her. She's not even a good character. She's selfish, spoiled, her job role in battle can literally be taken by every other character, she doesn't listen to anyone, whines, acts like she's the leader and everyone should do what she says because she exists, she harasses Cloud in ways that are so not ok but because she's a girl and "cute" she's somehow exempt from consequences, and people constantly put their feelings on her feelings alone on Cloud and turn him into a two timing pos douchebag because they and she refuse to fucking listen to the literal protagonist.

I'm actually annoyed we're stuck with her for the entirety of Rebirth. I was hoping we'd get rid of her halfway through at the most, but nauuu we get 40hrs of stupid ass sidequests that include flower picking because the devs think that's good content and one way or another they will make us put up with her.

Well, I ain't putting her in my party and I ain't doing her shitty sidequests, and lucky me, idgaf about trophies so it won't even matter that I don't platinum the game 🤷

[iamthecomet]

From your ask game:

GOD. Sadness/bad feelings being externalized as rage is so fucking shitty. That’s what happens to me too. Its probably one of my biggest gripes with myself. Its gotten me into so many arguments with my family. It sucks being sad and going through it, not knowing how to really deal with it, and then the rest of the world just thinks you’re a POS.

Im sorry last year was shit for you but Im glad you have some good things this year (yay for a better kitchen and a stove!). And we have 3ish more months to the year, so you have 3ish more months to have even more good things happen! You deserve good things, especially with how you make so many people happy in this silly little community.

Damn this feels like a heavy topic.

Have some Pe(a)rs, specifically with smiles.

Thanks Vee! Your kind words and understanding mean a lot to me ♥ I'm glad to know I'm not the only one who reacts that way. I genuinely hate it. And I try really hard not to do it, but man sometimes shit is just too much and I'd do much rather be pissed off than actually have to feel anything. But, I'm working on it. 2022 was just a fucking rollercoaster. None of it feels real or possible. Definitely taught me the lesson that just because shit is bad, doesn't mean the world won't pile more on you. Which, has not been great for my anxiety haha. But genuinely--thank you. I hope for more good things in the next three months too--and the months after that. and god Per's smile just brightens my whole day EVERY time. He's just so fucking pretty and sweet and how DARE HE. ♥