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Heyy Iâm wondering if you could write a part 2 with angst/comfort of the waiting room Pedri fic I literally need to see them get together so badly (âïčâ)
Waiting room p.2 â Pedri GonzĂĄlez.
Pairing: Pedri GonzĂĄlez x Fem!Reader
Summary: He was all you thought about for weeks after you saw him and you finally get yourself to grow up and seek him out.
Word count: 1.74k+
Disclaimer/s: this is a majority angst but will end in fluff! this is also a part two! click here for part one !
A/N: âsleeping with the lights onâ by searows is so like im clawing at my head!! this is what itâs based on !! this was so rushed soz.. also!! itâs pedriâs birthday so i will be posting quite a lot of blurbs for him today ^_^~
The dim lights that lit up the porch of a home youâd once known no longer casted a welcoming glow over you. They were cold and whispering for you to leave, to get out of there before you made another mistake.
Your eyes closed for a moment as you collected yourself. You were here. You had been planning on doing this for the past week, you couldnât go back now.
You donât get the chance to walk away, the door cracking open and in it appears a blonde. Your heart sinks the moment you see her, but it goes away quickly. Behind her is a man you recognized, FermĂn. Great.
The blondes eyes shoot wide in surprise, âshit, is that who I think it is?â He clambers down the steps, his girlfriendâpresumably, in tow. âLong time no see, Pedriâs inside. Weâre the last to leave.â
You force a warm smile, trying with all your might not to topple over. âFermĂn! Wow! How nice to see you.â Your brain goes fuzzy as he offers a short conversation, one you desperately wanted out of.
When he does finally leave, you take a few steps up and onto the porch, now only a few feet from the door. You take a long, calming breath before knocking on the door.
âDid you forgetââ Pedriâs words die on his tongue the second he opened the door, his breath being knocked out of him.
Something flashes in his eyes, something you couldnât quite decipher. The second it appeared though, it was gone in a simple blink, a look of vacancy filling his expression.
âCome to personally give me your.. invitation?â He sighs, not bothering to allow you into his home, instead opting to close his fist tighter around the door handle.
You look away, staring down at your feet for a moment as you gather your bearings. When you look up, your mouth opens and closes, seeking out words that never come.
From his stiffened posture, the spite in the crevices of his expression, you know he wants you to leave.
Forcing yourself to speak, you run a hand over your arm in a smoothing up and down motion. âDo you see a ring?â It came out a lot more sarcastic than you meant, but when Pedriâs gaze flickers to your hand, you see something short of relief cross over his face.
Pedri looks up, meeting your eyes for the first time since youâd arrived. âWhat happened?â
You. You happened.
âIt doesnât matter.â You shake your head, âI just⊠I, uhm, I miss you.â You felt patheticâweak even, showing up to his house like this. Your fiancĂ©e loved you, yet here you were on the porch of a man whoâd never one uttered those words to you.
Pedri doesnât look at you anymore, his gaze fixing on the ground as he shuffles uncomfortably, silently battling between his heart and mind.
âYou can come in, itâs cold out.â He steps aside, making room for you to enter into his house.
You give a small nod, hesitantly walking into the house. It had changed a lot, but still held remnants of the past. Everything that youâd helped decorate, was gone. Every ounce of you in that house had vanished. Your heart cinched when you caught a glimpse of the drawing you made of Camp Nau on the shelf beside a few trophies, which the collection had significantly increased since you last saw him.
But, there was no familiarity beside that. The decorations were different, the furniture was differentâexcept for the lounge chair his mother had gifted him as a housewarming gift.
âSit, I was just making coffee.â He says, disappearing into the kitchen a few feet away.
You wander further into the living room, fingers trailing the cream colored couch. There were blankets scattered across them, and you were quick to figure out why. A black puppy laid on one edge of the couch, clearly sleepy, but watching you with curious eyes.
You smile faintly, slowly sitting down beside him. His collar read, âNiloâ. Pedri had always wanted a dog, he was so good with pets.
âI made you a cup, in case you wanted some.â Pedri announces his return, handing you the mug carefully. The second it was securely in your hands, he let go, as if being that close to you would make him catch some sort of virus. He choses to sit on a seat a few feet away, watching you closely and silently.
You werenât sure what to say to him, so you start with the question youâd ask any old friend. âHow have you been?â You hum, taking a sip of the coffee heâd made. A jolt of surprise hits you when you realize he hadnât just made any coffee, heâd made your special coffee. The one that only he and you knew how to make.
Heâd remembered something like that?
âFine.â He answers bluntly, âand you?â
Setting the mug on the coffee table beside you, you meet his eyes. You were here to be honest, to not hold back anymore.
âWell, I broke off my engagement, so. Not great, but not terrible either.â You exhale, thankful to at least get that admission off your chest.
Pedriâs eyes widen momentarily. He hadnât expected you to be the one to break it off. âOh, iâm sorry. Was the guy an ass or something?â
You chuckle lightly, shaking your head. âNo, he was a great guy. I just..â Now or never, now or never.. âI just couldnât love him the way he loved me, I suppose.â
The raven haired man knew he shouldnât have felt happy about that but, a part of him was. âIâm sorry to hear that.â He was giving you small and short answers, like he couldnât form anything but.
He so desperately wanted to ask why.. to pry something out of you. He holds back though, because why risk prying when it could potentially leave him hurt once again.
âI know you probably donât want to hear from me, I know I shouldnât have shown up unannounced.. but Pedri?â You speak quietly, ashamedly, beckoning for him to show you a sliver or something other than indifference.
Pedriâs tongue darts out to wet his lips before he speaks. âYeah?â
âI couldnât love him because..â Just say it God dammit! Justâ âBecause he wasnât you.â
A weight lifted off your shoulders the second the confession left your lips. Running a hand through his hair, Pedri laughs in disbelief. âYou waited years to give me an hint of.. of anything!? Jesus, Iâm trying to move on from you!â
Your eyes glaze over and you blink rapidly to push down any hurt his outburst had caused you. Then, you pause, confusion flashing across your face. âWaitâwait, what? You? Hint? Pedri. I waited for you?â
He blinks, âyou waited? IâI thought.. what?â
A tight, tense air fills the room while the both of you sink in the revelation. Pedriâs the first to break it though, pushing himself up and off the chair. âCome with me.â He pushes his hand out in your direction, waiting patiently for you to take it.
You stare at it curiously, reaching out and connect your hand to his. A jolt shoots up your arm at the contact. That was the first time youâd felt him in years.
Without another word, Pedri tugs your hand and leads you out back, to the place youâd thought about every time you saw his face on the screen when watching Football.
Niloâs collar clinks and clangs as he pads behind the two of you, which you smile at when his soft fur brushed against your leg.
Once Pedri reached his intended location, he motions for you to sit. Your eyebrows are pulled together as you lay in the grass, the bristles itching your back when your hoodie rides up.
Lying down beside you, his hand still in yours, he gazes up at the sky. âI thought that one day,â he starts, tracing the big dippers outline with his eyes, âthat when I said I hoped youâd find requited love one day, youâd realize I was talking about me. That I would be the one to do that for you.â
âThen why did you get with whats-her-face.â You ask quietly, heart burning at his confession. Leaning your head against the itchy grass, you study his side profile. While in the midst of burning every single difference in his face compared to the last time you saw him, Pedri doesnât look at you.
âBecause I told myself you could do better, that you deserved better and there was someone out there that would love you better than I could.â He does turn to you now, âbut I was wrong. Nobody will love you nearly as much as I love you.â
You felt dizzy, like you were floating outside of your body. This had to be a dream, right? You had dreamt of a confession similar to this since you were a teenager.
âSay something.â Pedri whispers, eyes flickering across your face trying to decipher what you were feeling throughout your long silence.
âI..â You cough lightly, a small laugh slipping through. âI canât believe I let you push me away.â
His gaze drops to the grass for a moment before it raises back to you. âI canât believe I pushed you away.â He admits, âiâm sorry.â
Forcing w small smile, you take your hand out of Pedriâs, pushing yourself up onto your side. âIâm sorry I never told you.â
âTell me..?â He tries not to frown at the loss of contact, but does anyways, telling himself it was just because he didnât understand what you were saying.
âI love you.â You frown, âI love you so much I ruined a potential marriage without even knowing if you felt the same.â
Pedri pushes himself up onto his elbow, his face mere inches from yours. âIs it terrible of me to say iâm glad you did?â
A soft laugh escapes your lips and you shake your head. âNot terrible at all.â Your eyes fall to his lips, quickly flickering back to his eyes. âWhat would be more terrible would be you making me go another minute without knowing what itâs like to kiss you, no?â
Pedriâs eyes roll with amusement. He cups your cheek, mumbling, âthat would be a crime,â before his soft lips were against yours.
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Project Sekai posters be WILD they're saying shit like "This Event HURT me!" or "This song goes so hard," and I am just sitting there like???? ???? Which one?? And there are never any tags.
#I didn't realize villain was a song until like#something like a week or two after seeing a drawing/post about it#wtf do you mean why is An beside of a SKELETON??#'this song is my fave!!' you drew a headshot#am I just?? supposed to know??#I can't tell Japanese Server spoilers from stuff that was on the English Server#it took me MONTHS to realize that the English servers were BEHIND in terms of Events and gameplay#because I was on YouTube looking at sekai song collections and shit and going????#when I knew like. two. of the songs.#then someone was like 'oh yeah the Engish Server is a YEAR behind the Japanese Server'#there's no distinction between English only and Co-Ed users T0T
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don't you want to be a cult leader? - danyal al ghul au
this is mostly a joke post but i thought it was funny and had to share so--
his first mistake was, obviously, inheriting his father's inability to see an injustice and stand still. -- actually, danyal's first mistake was his lair being so big. a mountainous island with a large temple in the center resembling his old home in Nanda Parbat? With sprawling foliage and rivers and streams and waterfalls galore? What was he going to do with all that space? Let it go to waste? He had plants there! Native trees of the ghost zone growing from the soil! He couldn't let it all be left unchecked!
So naturally after helping a fellow teenage assassin ghost -- who he later learns is named Akihiko, -- from Walker of all people, he sent them over to hang low at his lair until it was safe enough for them to wander around the Zone. Walker couldn't get through Danyal's astrofield if his life depended on it, and trust him -- he's tried. Danny was clearing out debris from his stupid transport vans for weeks.
Honestly it wasn't so bad, he and Aki really quickly became fast friends and Danny loves having a sparring partner close to his level again -- he hasn't had this much fun fighting since he left the League. Aki was very dedicated and levelheaded, the both of them clicked really well because of it.
Nonono, the real trouble began after Danyal met some long-passed League members and allowed them to come join his island as well. Apparently they had made a few enemies of the zone, and maybe Danyal still felt some loyalty to the League. He couldn't just let them be left to rot. Their zealotry could be overlooked so long as they kept it contained and helped him take care of his island.
And it.. snowballs from there? He meets a teen squire aptly calling himself Ambroise -- whether that was his living name or not is yet to be seen -- who died during feudal france, who is just about as dramatic and passionate as every french stereotype makes them out to be. He calls Danyal "my moon and great muse" -- which is both flattering and little uncomfortable, but Danyal's grown up in the League as the Grandson of the Demon Head, he is used to mild worship. he passes it off as nothing more, nothing less. -- and while his energy is overwhelming on the worst of days, he helps Danny draw out of his shell more in ways that Sam and Tucker still struggle with.
Him and Aki butt heads a lot, but the two seem to hold the other in at least some positive regard, so Danny doesn't worry too much about them fighting while he's gone. It only becomes a mild issue when Aki also begins calling Danny "my moon". It's a little sweet, so Danyal brushes it off.
Then he takes in a troupe of ghosts some time after he defeats Pariah Dark and they begin calling him "great one" just as the yetis do in the far frozen. This is where he meets the twins -- a pair of sibling ghosts who call themselves Trixie and Missy (short for Trick and Mislead) -- who aren't quite as passionate as Ambroise but more energetic than Aki. Eventually they also start calling Danyal "my moon" and attach themselves to his hip, even within the living. They like to hide in his shadow and cause trouble for the rest of the students. He makes sure they don't hurt anyone.
He's pretty sure Aki is jealous, same with Ambroise, but he can't be too certain other than the fact that they become much more lingering (re: clingy) whenever he visits the island.. Something he's trying to do much more often these days due to the increasing amount of people living there now. Since when did he become so popular?
Then there's PÄnelĂłpeia from the Greater Athens, who ran away from home and joined his Island after he ran into her while she was being chased by Skulker -- and he's pretty sure the reason was because of her chimeric appearance. Her strange eyes and mismatched wings and lion's tail and talons. She assimilates into his friend group very easily, she gets along well with Ambroise and Trixie and Danny usually finds the three of them climbing the trees to pluck the most fruit from the top. They can fly and he knows it, but they prefer to climb.
Then finally there's silent poet Akkara who comes from ancient mesopotamia, who gets along most with Aki -- which is no surprise there considering their similar personality dispositions. he watches Aki and Danyal fight each other and leaves comments on this or that that he notices. He writes Danyal poems on clay tablets and leaves them by his room.
They're one big mismatched group of outcasts, and Danny's got the other ghosts on his island to tend to, because they're living on his island and he wants to be hospitable even if he struggles with that. But he spends the most of his time with them.
Sam and Tucker are making fun of him. Tucker jokingly tells him 'careful Danny, at this rate you're gonna start a cult'. Danny really wishes he had taken that joke more seriously.
He just. keeps. collecting people. Wayward souls lost in the zone, looking for shelter or refuge from something or other -- whether that be another hostile ghost, or a past afterlife, or just a purpose. Danyal finds them, he takes them in, offers them a place on his island until they are ready to leave. Many seldom do. He's not complaining -- he has the space, and it feels like it's only ever growing.
His close friends, his "inner circle" as he's heard the others call them, keep insistently calling him "my moon". He starts calling them his stars, because then it only feels fair. They're his stars, this is his constellation. It becomes a thing; little star halos begin forming behind their heads, picking them out from the rest. He loves them so much, it's hard to place. Sam and Tucker are also his stars, but they reside in the living realm, they're his tie to Life. Meanwhile, his friends here know what it's like to be dead, and sometimes its nice to relate.
Those living on his island keep calling him "Great One" and he's beginning to notice zealotry in their care for his island. He really, deeply appreciates it. His close friends gain nicknames -- as his stars, it's only natural for him to pick them out from the cluster in the skies. Akihiko, his Sirius and bright star. Trix and Missy, Castor and Pollux, the twins and troublemakers. Ambroise, his zealous Antares and close friend. Penelopeia, chimeric and loyal Vega. And Akkara, his Arcturus and strength.
It's ridiculous how long it takes for him to notice; he is, of course, a deadly trained assassin. He is meant to be observant -- and normally he is! But somehow this becomes a blind spot. One that becomes too big to be dealt with by the time he realizes it.
He should've noticed when Aki, his Sirius, stood beside him one day while Danyal looked over his island and saw the sprawling spirits carrying on about their afterlife and bowing to him as they saw him, and said: "I looked down into the depths when I met you; I couldn't measure it." They aren't one for flowing prose, it took him so off guard he was silent for over a minute before he finally spoke.
Danyal should've recognized devotion for what it is, and yet he didn't. He should've recognized it when Antares began spouting praises about him, crowing about his radiance and resplendence to the heavens. He just brushed it off as Ambroise being Ambroise. He should've recognized it when Trix and Missy nearly broke Dash's leg after he knocked Danyal's books out of his hands, he excused it as them being protective. Of them coming from times where such violence may have been customary -- after all, that's what he used to be like. What he was still like, sometimes, when his emotions nearly got the better of him.
He should've noticed it when the people living on his island followed his word like gospel, looked at him like he hung the stars in the sky. When his friends gifted him a shawl with the moon phases delicately embroidered into it, with silver, shimmering thread and moving stars lovingly stitched into it. Their constellations seen clear as day in the dark fabric. When he found small shrines dedicated to him -- but they lacked any image of him beyond stones carved to look like moons, so he ignored it. When the religious imagery began popping up.
He really, really should've noticed it when a bunch of cultists accidentally summoned Antares, and Antares had turned to him when he arrived and called them heretics. But he was so centered on the fact that they had kidnapped one of his stars, that he hadn't paid much attention to what Ambroise had said.
Sages say that faith is blind, they should also say faith in you is even blinder.
It really only hits him one afternoon while he's sitting in Sam's room studying with Tucker, Missy and Trixie lounging at his feet, Aki sat on his right, Penelopeia braiding his hair, Ambroise draped against him, and Akkara lurking over him. Its one of the rare few times they're all in one room together.
It hits him like a bolt of lightning. He looks up from his textbook. "Oh Ancients," he says in no amounting shock. Everyone looks up to him.
"I've become my grandfather."
#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dpxdc crossover#dp x dc#dp x dc crossover#danyal al ghul au#dpxdc au#dp x dc au#dpxdc prompt#ive been playing cult of the lamb recently and you can tell#anyways i thought this was funny to think about. its specifically danyal al ghul bc that makes it even funnier#tfw you accidentally become a cult leader. rip to you danny you have a cult following#not at ALL an accurate depiction of a cult but i still think its funny. innaccurate cult depictions. ur in too deep to change it now danno#sam and tucker: hey dude... this is a cult | danny still learning how to People: what. no. these are all my friends and refugees.#his inner circle are all Insane about him they just show it in different ways. Sirius is as equally zealous as the rest they just don't#show it as much. which has mistakenly convinced danyal that they are the more logical one. no danny. they would kill for you#danny: i am being hospitable | sam: you created a cult | danny: i am being hosPITABLE#i dont like ghost king aus but i love danny being in positions of power it just has to feel earned. 'accidental kingdom acquisition' is my#favorite trope it just has to be done correctly. đ«” build that bitch up with your bare hands and not realize until its too late you fool#'becoming a world power by accident and im in too deep to back out now'#danyal. a raised assassin (has no threshold for normal behavior): *sees utter devotion towards him* yeah this is fine and normal.#danyal: yk i dont see this ending horribly. *goes and collects more followers* yeah this is totally cool. welcome to the constellation#danyal: *saves a few people and houses them in his lair* (everyone liked that [to a worrying degree actually])#his inner circle: my moon! | danny: my stars :]#danny: ive become my grandfather. | danny: ... | danny: idk how to feel about that honestly.#those poor cultists that kidnapped antares were subjected to a 3hr tangent about 'the radiance of the Moon and his resplendent generosity'#before danyal found him and got him home. who were the cultists summoning? who knows! but they got Objectively the Worst out of the#constellation to summon by accident. actually they're all bad there's no picking who. they're all various amounts of Unhinged Danny just#Never Realizes It because he is also Unhinged and thinks some of this shit is normal.#like yeah thats totally normal behavior he has no questions whatsoever. this seems like Typical People Stuff.
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# tsukishima kei - perfect match
a/n: watch me suddenly appear out of nowhere after the school year has finally ended to post something!! i'm sure absolutely no one is surprised that tsukishima is the centre of this fic, but tbh idk how to feel about it (it's definitely longer than my usual ones but i didn't proofread it, so idk if the lenght is an advantage or not) but i hope you'll like it ^^ with school being over for the next two months i'll finally have time to write, so expect more works soon!!
summary: you and tsukishima decide to help your friends get together, but the plan is long forgotten when you realize what your own feelings are.
warnings: nothing really, canon yamayachi (my loves), some light swearing, bad writing
tsukishima kei did not expect any of his friends to bother him in the middle of the night. hell, he didn't even expect any of them to disturb his alone time at all. and yet at exactly 2.34 in the morning, right as he was about to turn off his currently binge watched tv show and go to sleep, he felt his phone buzzing on the nightstand.Â
his eyes focused on your name, written in white font on his phone screen, surely shocked by the sight.
'why are you calling me at 2 in the goddamn morni-'
'is yamaguchi interested in anyone?'
your question caught him off-guard even more than the call itself, his brows furrowing in a weirded-out look.Â
'if you're asking for yourself, i'm positive that he is not interested.'Â
tsukishima heard a sigh of annoyance on the other side of the call and could only imagine the exact look on your face in this very moment.Â
'well, thank god, because i'm not asking for myself.' you said. there were muffled sounds of someone preparing food in the background. 'i'm asking for yachi.'
the blonde boy smiled unconsciously.
'he does like her.' the boy stated, turning off his laptop as he put it back on the desk. 'so much so, in fact, that it can be kind of annoying sometimes.'
you squealed with excitement, a giggle leaving your mouth at tsukishima's remark.Â
'perfect! now, listen carefully.'
that singular phone call created an alliance between you and kei. an alliance with only one goal; getting your two best friends to finally confess to each other. to both of you, it was almost infuriating how blind they were; how they didn't notice just how obvious it was that they both shared the same feeling. constant blushing at as little as a mention of the other's name, the stolen glances, the very obvious pining - all of it seemed to be non-existent in the eyes of both yamaguchi and yachi.
but lucky for them, you had a plan.
his eyes lingered on you for a few seconds, as if awaiting a sign from you. tsukishima still thought of your 'master plan' as rather silly, but seeing the determination on your face, and the frown that appeared when he called your idea stupid was enough for him to sigh and go with it this once.
the four of you were currently occupied with studying for a math test coming up next week, everyone nose deep in their notebooks. well, everyone except for kei.
the boy cleared his throat almost theatrically, drawing the attention of the three of you.
'yamaguchi, i think i'll have to pass on the movies this weekend.' he said, the tone of his voice as lifeless as ever. 'akiteru insisted that i go to one of his games, so i guess you'll have to take someone else.'
the freckled boy looked a little troubled upon hearing the information. both you and tsukishima were well aware that the tickets to the cinema were already paid for; yamaguchi would definitely be sad if it all went to waste.Â
'well, i guess i can ask hina-'
'yachi, didn't you tell me last week that you wanted to go to the movies with someone?' you barged in before the boy could even finish his sentence, your friend freezing in her spot at the mention of a conversation you had not that long ago, cheeks flushed pink at the mere thought of going somewhere with yamaguchi one-on-one. 'maybe you'd fill in for tsukki?'Â
the girl glanced at you, panic in her eyes as an awkward silence filled the room, everyone waiting for her to answer. you gave her an encouraging smile, as if trying to non-verbally tell her to go for it, to use this as a chance to get closer to the boy she liked for so long.Â
'if yamaguchi doesn't mind...' she mumbled quietly, head turning to face the boy who was already shaking his head.Â
'of course i don't.' yamaguchi smiled, his small dimples showing up in the process.Â
you glanced over to look at tsukishima, a triumphant smile on your face as if you just won a volleyball tournament. his hair was slightly messy, and his glasses were sliding off his nose, two of the top buttons on his school uniform unbuttoned, showing a bit of his collarbones. surprisingly enough, the blonde boy smiled back; a small, quick smile that your eyes barely noticed. you had no idea what it was, but something about that singular smile made your heart beat faster.Â
don't. the main focus of this entire thing is to get yachi and yamaguchi together. not to think of tsukishima and how attractive he looks-Â
shit.
developing a crush on tsukishima kei was certainly not part of your plan.Â
at first, you tried ignoring it as much as you could, focusing solely on your friends and getting them to date. as time went on and yamaguchi and yachi started getting closer, you almost felt a sense of relief - you could finally stop spending so much time around tsukishima, which made your chances of getting over your stupid crush higher.Â
but it wasn't as easy as you thought. tsukishima was intelligent, pretty, and his snarky remarks and judgy personality actually drew you to him even more with each passing day. through the countless conversations and numerous phone calls, he proved himself to be more than just a salty, mean guy that everyone viewed him as.
'soon enough, they won't even need our help.' you mumbled to yourself as you opened your bento box, a smile on your face as you noticed your mom homemade onigiri inside. 'i don't know what i'll do with myself then.'
tsukishima scoffed, closing the textbook in front of him.
'maybe start focusing on your own love life for once.'
'hey! it's not my fault that i'm a good friend.' you stated, mouth full of food, as you looked up at your friend sitting on the opposite side of the table, looking through the tasks assigned for next week. 'besides, it's not like i'm the only one.'
tsukishima adjusted his glasses, looking up at you for a mere second before focusing back on his notebook.
'touché.'
'oh, come on.' you whined out, dissatisfied with the lack of response from the blonde boy. 'you won't miss this even a little bit?'
alright, maybe just a bit-
'no.' tsukishima stated firmly, fixing his posture as he highlighted one of the important sentences written down. you heard a bit of hesitation in his voice, and the few seconds of silence before hearing an answer couldn't help but make you wonder. you decided to ignore it this time - he was focused on something else right now, there was no need to disturb him.Â
'do you think yachi will like my outfit?'
tsukishima was sitting at the edge of his best friend's bed, mindlessly scrolling through his phone and occasionally looking up to see the twelfth - no, thirteenth shirt that yamaguchi has tried on already. the boy sighed, turning his device off.Â
'it's your first official date, i'm sure she doesn't mind what you wear.' he stated, gaining a frown from yamaguchi.
'you didn't answer my question.'
'alright, i think she'll like it.' the blonde haired boy said, reaching out for a bag of chips, opening it with a loud sound. 'but i'm sure she'll focus more on the date itself rather than what you're wearing.'
ever since announcing to their friends that they're going on their first official date, both yamaguchi and yachi were full of stress, constantly overthinking every little detail from their outfit to whether or not the date will go well or not. tsukishima found it rather comical - it was only a date after all. why stress over it so much? he never went on one, obviously, but he always thought that when the day came, he'd approach it calmly.
'do you have any tips on how to not freak out?' yamaguchi asked suddenly, catching his friend off-guard. 'during the date, i mean.'
'how can i know? i've never gone on one.'
the freckled boy looked at tsukishima, a confused expression on his face as he processed his words.
'oh.' he paused for a second, his voice quieter when he continued speaking. 'i thought you and y/n were, you know, a thing.'
huh?
to say tsukishima was shocked was an understatement. he genuinely had no idea what to say; he never even let a thought of you and him being more than friends, 'partners in crime', as you loved to say, slip through his mind. never did it occur to him that someone from the outside would see your relationship as being something more than a merely platonic one.Â
well, maybe there was something to it after all.Â
yamaguchi's words made him wonder - although he did find you annoying at times, it was only occasionally and to a very little degree. that in itself was very rare in tsukishima's eyes, as he found most of the people surrounding him at least normally annoying. you, on the other hand, were a completely different case. your jokes, no matter how awkward or downright cringe, made him crack a silent laugh more often than not, and every time he saw you smile, his lips uncontrollably curved up into a small, barely noticeable one themselves.Â
'oh, no, absolutely not.' the blonde blurted out after a long minute of silence, the tips of his ears turning a bright shade of red. 'there is not a single bone in my body that would want to date her. now get up idiot, or you'll be late to your date.'
the moment tsukishima opened his bedroom, after walking his friend to the bus stop, he immediately plopped down on his bed, phone in hand, instinctively opening messages to write to you. surprisingly enough, a message was already waiting for him.
'yachi almost cried because of how stressed she is T-T'
'do you think we should spy on them to make sure it all goes well?'
he found himself smiling at the words on his phone screen, quickly typing back an answer.Â
'do you really not have a life of your own?'
'idiot.'
only after a few minutes did he get a response from you.
'can i come over?? i'm bored :33'
a harmless message, one might think. in reality, tsukishima was freaking out at the mere thought of hanging out with you for a reason other than setting up your friends, his cheeks a light shade of pink as his eyes kept digging a hole through his phone.Â
you weren't any better than him - hands slightly shaky as you awaited a response for what felt like hours, but was actually just a few minutes. you had no idea what took over you; was it a sudden wave of bravery or rather an idiotic spontaneous choice to ask tsukishima that. but nonetheless, when you finally got the response, you felt ecstatic.
'alright.'
'bring some snacks.'
'kei, i think yamaguchi is he- oh, that's certainly a new face.'
you stood in front of the door with an awkward smile, facing tsukishima's older brother, akiteru, his eyes scanning you from head to toe. to say he was surprised was an understatement - he looked as if he'd seen a ghost. as if a friend that's not yamaguchi coming over to tsukishima's house was so out of the ordinary that it could become a national holiday.Â
'come in.' the younger male appeared in the back of the hall, an oversized dinosaur shirt and shorts on. his expression was softer than usual; not until he looked at his brother, whom he gave a sharp stare, signaling him to let you inside and don't make such a fuss about it.Â
you sat down on his bed, awkward silence filling up the room. not wanting to make the conversation about your friends as per usual, you slowly realized you don't know what to talk about, trying to think of something, anything, as you began unpacking your bag filled with snacks.Â
surprisingly enough, it was tsukishima who spoke up first.Â
'wanna watch a movie?' he asked, opening his drawer to pull out two bottles of soda, hidden there so that his brother doesn't devour all of them. 'unless it'll make you even more bored than you were before.'
'well, if you have a boring taste in movies-'Â
'says the one who looks like their favorite movie is mamma mia.' tsukishima scoffed under his breath, turning his laptop on and starting to search up movies. you looked at him, a dramatic expression as you pretended to be offended.Â
'and you look like you're about to mansplain the godfather to me.'Â
a short silence filled the room before you heard the blonde boy let out a short, muffled laugh at your comment.Â
'you couldn't be more wrong.' he sat down next to you, a small smile still on his face. 'i found it kind of boring, actually.'
'what do you like, then?'
'horror movies.' tsukishima stated, eyes focused on the screen. 'but tadashi gets easily scared, so i often don't have a chance to watch them.'
'same with me and yachi.' you said, unconsciously scooping a bit closer to the boy as you tried to get a better look at what he was searching up. 'i love them, but yachi jumps at every small scare on the screen. sometimes, she even gets scared when there's nothing happening at all.'
'they really do match each other.' he mumbled, putting the laptop on the bed as he pressed play on a movie he chose. his eyes quickly glanced your way to get a nod of approval on his choice.
'yeah, they do.'
and we could, too.
'are you and tsukishima dating?'
you almost spat out your drink, the words coming out of hinata's mouth catching you so off-guard you were close to choking.Â
the three of you, along with kageyama, were currently cleaning up after volleyball practice, the boys racing on who would clean more balls off of the floor.
'no, we're not.' you said in a clearly sad tone with an obvious hint of dissatisfaction in your voice. 'what the hell made you think that way?'
the orange haired boy stopped in his tracks, his signature smile disappearing for a minute as he got lost in his own thoughts.Â
'oh! i remember now.' he said after a short while, his grin coming back. 'yamaguchi told me that you two are close.'
'he did also mention that he seems happier around you.' kageyama added, joining the conversation. 'seeing tsukishima happy must be pretty scary.'
not really, you thought. but at the same time, what confused you more was what kageyama said right before.Â
he seems happier around you.
yamaguchi has been kei's friend for the longest time, so any of his observations must be true, or at least that's what you liked to believe. but would that mean that tsukishima kei, the salty, closed-off guy whom everyone finds intimidating could possibly like you? was there truly a possibility that he enjoyed spending time with you?Â
as you finished cleaning up the hall, saying your goodbyes to your two friends who ran off to practice volleyball somewhere else, a familiar, tall figure appeared in the doorframe, sharp eyes staring at you with an expression that you couldn't exactly decipher.Â
'want me to walk you home?' he asked, hands in his pockets. 'it's getting late.'
you looked at him, trying to hide the blush creeping up onto your cheeks before quickly nodding as an answer.
'sure, let's go.'
most of the walk was filled with silence on both parts, exactly as you expected. even though it might've felt awkward for some, you did enjoy his presence in itself enough that a conversation wasn't necessary.Â
the boy stopped in his tracks mid-way, reaching into his backpack and pulling out his phone and an old pair of white, wired earphones, showing them to you as a silent question of whether you wanted to listen to music with him or not. you agreed without a second thought, a small smile on your face as he put on one of his playlists.Â
'i really like this song.' you mumbled, eyes lighting up upon hearing the familiar melody. with both of you wearing the same set of headphones right now, you were practically forced to walk closer to each other - hands constantly brushing against one another, a faint blush on your face as you tried to ignore it and focus on the music.Â
tsukishima, on the other hand, couldn't shake away the thoughts roaming around his head. he felt as if what he was doing now was incredibly unlike him; and maybe it was. but for some reason, he didn't mind being like this around you. less cocky, sarcastic, mean and more... gentle.
he could feel his fingers brushing against yours from time to time, and it drove him crazy. should he go for it and play it off nonchalantly, or just ignore it? should he even make the first move or wait for you to do it?
before he was able to decide, tsukishima felt your hand reaching for his, heart rate immediately speeding up as your fingers shyly intertwined with his, looking the other way to hide your anxious expression.
his hand was much bigger than yours, but somehow it fit perfectly with yours. as if they were created solely to hold one another and nothing else. the plan to get your friends to be together was long forgotten by now - your mind was clouded with thoughts of tsukishima only, and little did you know that his wasn't any different.Â
you glanced his way only to find his eyes already on you, hiding his true feelings behind a nonchalant look. only now did you notice that the two of you were standing in front of your house, the boy adjusting his glasses as he waited to see what you'll do next.Â
'i guess i should go home now.' you mumbled, but you still didn't move an inch, hand not leaving his. 'see you tomorrow?'
his hand squeezed yours tightly before taking it away, an unusually warm and welcoming smile on his face.Â
'sure. see you tomorrow, idiot.'
but as you slowly made your way towards the door, tsukishima couldn't shake away the feeling in him, telling him to go for it. and as much as he tried to resist it, he just couldn't anymore.Â
'wait.â
before you could fully turn away, tsukishima kei's lips were already on yours, a sweet, long kiss that felt as if he was waiting to do it for years. his hand traveled to your waist and it didn't take long for you to react; lips moving swiftly with his, noses bumping into one another before you pulled away, a giggle escaping your mouth as you saw just how red tsukishima's face was.
âdon't laugh at me, moron.â he said, immediately catching the reason for your laughter as he flicked you in the forehead. âyour whole face is red, too.â
âi didn't expect you to do this.â you mumbled, eyes focused on his as you reached to hold his hand again. âdidn't expect my feelings to be mutual, either.â
âi'm glad we feel the same.â his face leaned in closer to yours, a wave of confidence taking over him as he placed a short kiss on your forehead. âbut i would still prefer to properly ask you out. if you'd say yes, that is.âÂ
âof course i would.â you smiled, âi'd be stupid not to.â
âshould we bet on how long it takes the others to realize we're dating now?â tsukishima smiled at you, eyes not leaving yours for even a spare second. you laughed at his idea, giving his hand a squeeze.Â
âget ready to lose, kei.â
âyou wish.â
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#tsxkkis#tsukishima kei#tsukishima x reader#tsukishima kei x reader#karasuno x reader#tsukishima fluff#haikyuu x reader#haikyuu fluff
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Omg hiii! I saw that your requests were open again! Please take your time and prioritize your rest, and as always your writing is such a delight to read! I always look forward to your posts! đđđ
That being said, can you please write for a Yuu/reader that has a love for painting (but is shy about showcasing their skill) , and was absolutely taken by Vil's beauty even before they met him? Of course they didn't know that he was a famous actor at first. What if Vil one day finds their sketches and paintings of him after months of knowing him? (hmm preferably after the events of book 6..? đ)
SO CUTE!!! kicking my legs back and forth at this anonnn
*à©â©â§âË the picture of vil schoenheit
type of post: short fic characters: vil additional info: romantic, reader is gender neutral, reader is yuu
How were you supposed to know?
It's not like Crowley had given you a guide on Night Raven College or its students (though, wouldn't that have been nice?)
I mean, you had to reminded of Trey's last name not two weeks ago. How were you supposed to know who Vil Schoenheit is?
You'd only seem him at a distance. Passed him by in the halls while he scolded some poor first year. He even looked beautiful when he was angry.
He was just made to be painted.
You didn't show your friends the art. You didn't need to give Ace another reason to tease you, and being a stalker would've really been the cherry on top of your weirdness sundae.
Besides, it was just drawing. Practice! Sketches from a distance, doodles done in the margins of your notes, watercolors and paintings from memory...
It felt familiar. This man, this stranger, someone you hadn't even spoken to, made you feel a little closer to home.
.
"Really, you should have some sort of organizational system,"
Vil leafs through pages of alchemy reports and history of magic homework. "Might I suggest a recycling bin?"
You smile. It's not often that your friend- Vil Schoenheit, that is- has a day off. But today is Saturday, and your room is in desperate need of his touch.
"This is... chaotic," he says, brushing a clump of Grim fur off his shoulder. "And you live like this?"
You shrug. "I try,"
"Well, try no more. We'll have this done before dinner,"
His commitment is touching. Millions of screeching fangirls would give anything just to spend five minutes with Vil, and here he is, tidying your room for you.
It's almost cute. He's humming to himself, hair tied back in a ponytail, in one of your shirts (his are too nice to get dirty), sweeping Grim fur out from under your bed.
"Rook and Epel couldn't make it?" you ask, pretending not to care that it's just the two of you.
"I told them not to bother,"
"Oh?"
Vil tsks. "They would get in the way. We're much more efficient on our own- we work well together, after all,"
That's something he'd said before. You'd always wondered what it meant.
"Right,"
You switch places, going to strip your bed of its sheets for washing while Vil tidies your desk.
Off go the pillow cases, the comforter, the blankets. You're wrestling with your mattress when you notice that he hasn't moved in a while.
He's looking through some of the papers from within the bowels of your desk, smiling to himself, a finger held to his perfect lips.
"What?"
"Hm?" he hums, but he doesn't look at you. "Oh, just... admiring your work. You have quite an eye for detail, have I ever told you that?"
He's being weird. You let go of your bundle of bedding and look at what he's holding, but it's just your sketchbook.
Oh. Oh, no. It's your sketchbook.
"OH! Um, wait-" you say, rushing to his side. "Don't- don't look!"
Vil smirks, and he holds the art over your head. "How unfair. The muse should always be the first to see, you know,"
Damn his height and perfect, slender arms!!! Your eyes widen. "It's not what it looks like! I didn't know you when I did those!"
"Yes, I saw the dates. You could make a career out of admiring me, you know~" he chuckles. "I'd pay for these. I'm sure Rook would like a few, as well."
You're practically melting with embarrassment. "Come on- give it back!"
Seeing your pathetic, embarrassed whining, Vil relents, handing you the sketchbook with an eye-roll.
"What are you ashamed of? They're fine pieces,"
"It's not that," you clutch the book to your chest. "It's just- uh- weird, isn't it?"
Vil scoffs. "I'm weird?"
"NO! I meant- I didn't even know you, and I drew you almost every day- that isn't... strange?"
He takes a moment to study you, your body language, the embarrassed look on your face. From head to toe. And then he smiles, warmly.
"I am in a dorm with Rook. There are very, very few things that I find strange now. You admire me- I'm flattered,"
He gingerly takes sketchbook out of your arms and opens it again. "Not to mention, you have an artistic eye that any director would kill for."
You stand there, a little dumbfounded, but mostly very, very grateful that he's your friend, and that you can laugh about this together.
"I'm... well... thank you," you finally say.
Vil smirks, and pinches your cheek. "You're precious. Now, back to work. I want this room over with. These paintings won't frame themselves, will they?"
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domestic gf! ellie
summary. random headcannons about living a small, domestic life with ellie as your girlfriend
notes. nothing makes me happier than domesticity so it was only a matter of time before i made smth like this ! also i haven't made any 'headcannon' posts yet so the setup might be ass bc i fr have no idea what im doing ,, to make up for it i made the post super aesthetic & i'm obsessed w it now xx
warnings. some mentions of sex, it's not necessarily smut it's just the act of loving someone intimately & sometimes being super horny !! overall, this is almost pure fluff though i swear âĄÌ
đ first and foremost, ellie def prefers a little life over anything huge or extravagant. she'd take a long morning in bed with u over the met gala any day.
đ something about sun rays filing through dusty shudders makes her heart swell.
đ dirty dishes in the sink, wrinkled bed sheets, cluttered countertops, half-finished home decor, crumples papers, miasma from the bathroom trashcan, that one light you both always forget to shut off. she loves it, all of it.
đ but what she loves most about this life of yours is you.
đ waking up in the morning to see your body sprawled across her chest, a stained band tee clinging to you'd body.
đ hearing you hum songs in the shower while she brushes her teeth at the sink.
đ coming up to wrap her arms around your waist while you cook dinner after a long day of irritable coworkers and snobby customers. then, following that, being able to look across the table at you as you complain about your own day, the taste of your burnt cooking on her tongue.
đ going to the grocery store with you early in the morning after waking to find you're out of cereal for breakfast, both of you insisting you'd thought the other agreed to buy it.
đ your lidded eyes squinting as you read the price tag, leaning heavily on the shopping cart. you're both hungry and tired and annoyed, but have no energy to argue, instead opting to ignore your shared frustration and find solace in the other rather than anger.
đ ellie loading the new groceries onto the conveyor belt while you sleepily fumble with your wallet, still smiling and making conversation with the grocer despite everything.
đ then, getting home and being able to eat your newly purchased cereal, your head leaning on her shoulder as you're both curled up on the couch in front of the tv.
đ ellie oftentimes likes to sit at her desk, scribbling little drawings or entries into her journal while you fill your head with your own random hobbies.
đ she drives you crazy when she taps her pencil against the surface of the desk.
đ the two of you have argued over that a few times, actually. you shouting at her for how annoying the repetitive sound is while she tries to explain that she doesn't even realize she's doing it (though, you don't believe that for a second).
đ over time, however, you've learned to just put on your headphones whenever she journals, the habit becoming as natural to you as drumming her pencil is to ellie.
đ whenever either of you are on your period, the other is certain to be synced, both of you hurting and angry and craving random foods you can't remember the names of. that week is either the worst of your lives, spent arguing and fighting and sobbing; or it's the best, spent singing together in the shower and cooking new recipes and laughing together at ellie's unfunny dad jokes.
đ then, following that week, ovulation hits and you're both completely different people.
đ after you just spent days upon days of working through agonizing pain, you're now unable to think of anything aside from ripping the other's clothes off.
đ dinners go uneaten as she eats you out atop the counter instead; rooms go unswept as you pin her against the nearest wall with an animalistic fervor; her drawings go unfinished as she gets distracted by the girl lying naked in your bed, fingers finding other ways to occupy themselves.
đ ellie has seen you in every state.
đ with greasy unkempt hair, unshaved (everywhere), stained clothing you deem to be 'clean enough', dirt under your nails, unbrushed teeth in the morning.
đ but she doesn't care. she'll still run her fingers through your hair, still rub soothing circles into spiky skin, still strip stained clothes off of you just as desperately, still hold your dirtied hands, still kiss you on the mouth without a care in the world.
đ sometimes, ellie will write songs & ask for your opinion on them.
đ of course, you always tell her how good they are and how proud you are of her. but sometimes you mentally cringe at certain lines or wince at a off-key note.
đ but you love her enough to lie to her face with a curt smile.
đ and even more than that, you love seeing her happy and proud of herself. the sight of her toothy grin and twinkling eyes makes it all worth it.
đ plus, eighty percent of the time, her songs are super fucking good and you're stuck by the passion and care she puts into writing them. the gentility in her intricate fabrication of certain notes and pitches makes your heart stutter. the way her entire body work alongside the guitar with such delicacy that you're sure the two have merged into one tangible being.
đ see, ellie is enamored by the simple things you do ⯠the way you rip a brush through your hair in the mornings, the gentle whistle you do while cooking or cleaning or doing chores, the fact that you seem to be incapable of making the bed in the morning, the way you always leave your shared shampoo uncapped, the pursing of your lips as you try a new recipe you wanted to try & aren't sure whether you like.
đ these are the things she loves most about you. the things that make her excited to live the rest of her life with you, greasy hair and all.
âč àŁȘ Ëđ taglist : @luvsturniolo @zombieegirl
#vxsellie !#ellie the last of us#ellie tlou#ellie williams#ellie willams x reader#ellie williams x female reader#ellie x fem reader#ellie x you#ellie x reader#domestic fluff#fluff
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rivals?
alexia putellas x messi!reader
request here
with all the alexia angst being posted (my fault), hereâs some fluff
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In the world of professional football, rivalry between two players are always one that many fans are eager to watch.
In the menâs world of football, there was Messi and Ronaldo.
In the womenâs, Messi and Putellas. Two of the most sought after female footballers of this time.
You and Alexia were known as fierce rivals on the field when competing for your country. You for Argentina, Alexia for Spain. Both of your competitiveness fueling debates among fans. Little did everyone know, behind the scenes, you both shared a secret that could rival the on-field intensity.
Away from the spotlight, you and Alexia were much more than rivals and teammates â you were married.
Your love story began when youâd transferred from playing in the Womenâs Super League to Barça. From the first time sheâd laid her eyes on you, there was an instant connection. At first she didnât know how to feel about your transfer, only having played against you for the national team, where the rivalry grew and grew, but as you both played for Barça, the understanding and pressure you both experience helped you grow closer.
Late-night rendezvous, secret getaways, and coded messages allowed you to maintain your privacy. It was difficult to keep everything a secret, something youâve both agreed on. Time moved quickly from the first time sheâd seen you in a Barça kit to now, six years later.
Youâre both cuddled up on the couch, watching a replay of the match youâve just played, pointing out the things you and the team could have done better, when you heard some whining on the baby monitor searched up on the coffee table.
With a kiss to your head, Alexia got up to see what the fuss was all about. You watched on through the monitor, seeing how your wife delicately held and talked to your two year old, making you fall in love with her all over again.
âSee look thereâs Mami.â Alexia points you out, walking in with Rosa in her arms.
âMami.â Rosa mumbles, arms reaching out for you, cuddling into your body once in your hold.
âHow was your nap, bebĂ©?â
All you got was a whine. Alexia cuddles back into your side as Rosa falls back into a slumber.
âIâve been thinking.â Alexia starts.
âUh oh. MamĂĄ has been thinking.â You tease, earning you a playful shove.
âSeriously. Rosa turned two a bit ago and I want to be able to show her what her Mami and MamĂĄ do or work. The environment with all the fans.â
Alexia starts to ramble. Saving her from spiraling, you place a hand over her mouth stopping her words.
âI was thinking the same thing.â
With a bright smile on her face, Alexia pulls you in a passionate kiss, careful to not wake your daughter up.
Three weeks later, Spain has a friendly match against Argentina. Everyone played hard no matter that it was only a friendly, the match ending in a draw.
As far as the public knew, you and Alexia were still rivals, enemies, or any other term they use, so whenever they see you conversing after matches, fans and media freak out, like right now.
What the fans didnât expect was a small child running into your arms with laughter. Standing up with Rosa in your arms, Alexia wraps her arms around both of you, kisses being placed on her cheeks by both of her moms.
To say the fans and media were exploding was an understatement.
âAlexia, they need you for media.â
Alexia settles herself at the table in front of all the press, waiting for the questions to come.
âHola, Alexia. Great game today.â
âThank you.â
After a couple of questions about the match, a little kid is seen throwing themselves onto Alexia.
âMamĂĄ!â
A second person is seen chasing after the child.
âSorry, sorry. Sheâs gotten fast.â
You run in, trying to grab Rosa from your wife, who is wriggling to make her harder to hold.
âYou can leave her here.â
âYou sure?â
She nods so you give them both a kiss on the head and walk out the room.
âSorry about that.â
âWho do we have here? If you donât mind us asking.â
âBebĂ© can you tell them your name?â
âSoy Rosa Putellas.â
The room let out a collective âawwâ.
âSo-so sheâs your daughter?â A reporter stutters, stunned by the little girl.
âYes.â
âAnd Messiâs?â
âYes.â
The room full reporters burst, questions being asked over the others. Alexia just stands up, walking out of the room.
âI think you broke them.â Is the first thing you say when she walks into the locker room.
âEh.â She shrugs. âMakes it fun.â
#woso x reader#woso#greynatomy#woso imagines#woso imagine#woso community#fcb femeni#barca femeni#alexia putellas#alexia putellas x reader
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I remember everything | j.jh
âburnt-out writer!jaehyun x host f!reader
genre: smut, angst, fluff, summer fling, found home, strangers to lovers to strangers again, missed connection, 80's au
synopsis: jaehyun didnât think meeting you in that quaint lonesome countryside town would come in between him and writing something hopeful and lively in contrast to all of his gloomy work. in fact it was a blessing to have someone help him navigate the foreign country. yet life always has something up its sleeve no matter how soul crushing.
warning(s): ADULTS ONLY, MINORS DO NOT INTERACT! mentions/implementations of poor mental health, abusive higher ups, mentions of bad parenting, unprotected sex.
wc: 28.5k+ || soundtrack || ao3
© 2024 YOJEONGIN all rights reserved â DO NOT translate, take, nor repost any of my works on other platforms. reblogs are HIGHLY appreciated!
disclaimer: this is purely fictional; in no way am I condoning this behavior, trying to offend anyone, nor is it meant to place such image on the idol, these are ONLY characters. read at your own discretion.
an: summer is gone and I tried posting this for the past 2 months so here is an ode to the place that inspired it all.
The contents of the box had been sitting unwrapped for what felt like an eternity after recalling last weekâs events. The miscellaneous items your family sent were a recurring sight but it was rare that Ollie sent you anything besides his letters.Â
What disturbed you most is his choice of item. Those bold scripted yellow letters mock you. You werenât upset with him, you could never be upset with him. You know itâs not his doing, that he was put up to it. What upsets you is the resurfacing thoughts you had hid away in the vault of your memory years ago when you remained naive and to your disgrace revived with one detail.
Courage was the last thing in you. It surged through, more so forcibly, perhaps even masochistically. That seems correct because the second you open to the first page, images you believed you would never see, fly out, reminding you of a life that you can only describe as a daydream.
Every single image had something written in the back of it. You attempt to refrain from reading each note. With no avail, the loops of his handwriting draw you in as much as his piercing gaze and the smile you still dream about â those dimples you canât forget no matter how much you now look at them on someone else.
Thereâs a folded letter slotted before the dedication page. It smells like him and you canât help being transported to the summer you met him. The pleasantly strong cologne you could smell even in the masses of stench when cleaning the pen. Or through the window you two sneaked kisses at night.Â
You donât want to cry, you truly try not to, yet the waterworks flow when you finally focus on the dedication page of this damned book.Â
âTo the life I needed all along⊠I remember everything.â
Jaehyun remembers with fondness the tranquility of what he considers home. The warmth that filled his chest with every waking moment he spent in that beautiful quaint village. And now looking and thinking back at it, that fondness muddles with the pain in his heart. Thatâs not what he wants nor needs, thatâs not what he came here for.
Jaehyun could get behind it, it was nice. He immediately got used to the cool breeze which felt more like a chilly autumn rather than the grueling summer. He could definitely get used to the smell of wood burning from stoves and chimneys that indicated locals began their day. Similar enough to the rough housing from goats and sheepâs bleats to roosters for them to shut up, that the sun was enough of a wake up call.Â
Fairly loud, not nearly as much as the city. It was one thing to admire the beauty outside of his temporary residence. Bougainvillea vines, flamboyant and bright, purloining his attention to let him know they were the star of the show, overshadowing any other house around.
Jaehyun needed something and all he knew was that he had to escape the constraints of his overpopulated and 24/7 bustling city that has cursed him to hell multiple times for not giving it a heartfelt ovation. How could he when heâs been shown nothing but hatred from it since he stepped foot in that hell hole?
Things should be different here, he knows that â heâs been shown.Â
His taxi driver spoke idly about his day. Describing the breakfast his wife had made before he left. His daughter had visited to drop off their grandson while she went to work at the local market but in the process the kid had fallen down the steep steps claiming all he wanted as comfort was to spend time with his âTitoâ. So there he was making rocket sounds and hammering the glove compartment with the pale sun-eaten toy car that caused his fall. In the process, turning back to Jaehyun asking if he liked dishes he had never heard of before that the kid didnât like himself.
Jaehyun remembers it well.Â
How can such a beautiful place bring him agony?Â
He wanted to stray away from those pessimistic feelings that had shackled him for years, tainting every single one of his pieces. When his publisher and manager told him it would be best to go somewhere heâd know nothing about his world, to have time to think about a new story, he was the first one to say goodbye, muttering under his breath that he wished heâd never see them again. Jaehyun was elated to know he was given a golden ticket out.Â
The past few launches and expectations had been hectic. Drowning him with stress and though many would think being a successful writer at such a young age was all fun and games, they'd think otherwise when your team is hollering in your ear daily to come up with new content and critics claiming youâve yet again failed to provide anything meaningful besides pretentiousness.Â
Jaehyun is tired of that dark monotonous and consuming cycle theyâre forcing him to be in. So heâs hopeful and excited to see what this beautiful rural village can bring him. Hopeful that itâll break those shackles of misery that cling to him until his ankles bruise and bleed. Hopeful to find meaning to this life that heâs been searching for.Â
Struck with awe throughout his entire trajectory down the cobble and dirt-filled path from midtown to the house, the animal noises he had managed to drown became louder upon pushing open the metal door, growing wary. When he finally crossed the threshold he was met with the image of someone tussling with a ram, enough to get tackled and Jaehyun can only explain that feeling as freight.
That was the first time he met you.
From far away and with his feet grounded in fear, the fear you didnât have regardless of all those rammings. That mustâve hurt, Jaehyun thinks so. How could it not? The beast came in charging three times, each making the impact seem worse. Twisted horns able to bruise the skin of your thighs.
Every step closer increases his shock. Muffled groans and curses from you mixed with laughter from your grandfather that stood and watched. Neither of you blame him, being the victim of that damn thing at 80 had caused irreparable damage to his hip. Thereâs nothing he could have done. At best he mangles the rope beside the stake, swinging it in hopes of getting it off you.Â
Jaehyun felt inutile. He had no experience with animals nor with any labor besides what his father would drag him into. Itâs not his fault he became a writing prodigy. His brute strength was useless if he was too scared to jump into the pen to help you.Â
It was more shocking when a scrawny boy in a simple white tee, dusty jeans, heavy work boots just as muddy had pushed through him. Yelling something he couldnât understand but later found it meant âGet the fuck out the way!â He didnât mean to be malicious but he was scared himself. Jumping over the penâs fence and pulling the damned ram off of you, he slaps its rear as a form of discipline. It amazes Jaehyun how effortless he made it look.
Finally free and things having calmed down, Jaehyun saw the elderly man seize his laughter. Genuine tears slip from his eyes. He was scared, truly scared it could have been your end. Having experienced it himself, he couldnât help both sympathize and feel guilty. You and the kid reassured him it was fine. It wasnât a first but your grandpa wouldnât hear it, sighing as he continued to sob.Â
Jaehyun later found that he was insanely sensible. Laughing things off to calm himself to eventually break down.
In attempts to ease his pain, you had sent the young boy to fetch your grandpa a coke and some bread.Â
Nowadays, Jaehyun consumes those items whenever he grows scaredÂ
Making your way with a limp that your grandfather mimicked due to his own attack and age, Jaehyun finally approaches you both, voice slightly quivering.
âAre you alright?!â Jaehyun quips, your head turns to him un-amusedly. Cautious but relaxed for whoeverâs sake. âYeah⊠itâs not the first time.â You try to smile at the stranger who is obviously not from the village inside the premise of your grandparentâs home. It only dawned upon you who he was when you noticed the pristine suitcases in his hands. Holding the handles like a lost victorian count in search of a new start in the bustling dirty city â despite the contrast.
âYouâre the new tenant, right?â You ask, limp finally gone after something cracked. Jaehyun winces, amused with the nonchalant tone in your voice; he nods fervently. âYeah, um, I can pay for a few months up front if you donât mind.â Neither of you had noticed that both had stopped walking, your grandpa already in the house, leaving you to speak with the young and attractive man before you.
âMonths?â
Jaehyun nods. âIf you donât mind or have another tenant.â He feels sheepish; confident in your eyes. âDonât worry, itâs been open for months.âÂ
Itâs amazing to him how youâre acting like you didnât almost need a ride to the nearest hospital. Seeing the limp gone and crouching down to pick up a bucket full of dry corn kernels like nothing. He could have believed everything he saw didnât really happen.Â
Itâs recurring if he thinks back to it, how everything felt so fleeting and surreal. He despises and feels it mocking him daily.
Following you around like a lost puppy while you sprinkled the ground with those kernels, he took note of the expression on your face. Youâre still in pain, itâs written all over the movements you make. He rules youâre ignoring it to not seem ill before him or specifically to reassure your grandfather.Â
Jaehyun has a strong image in your eyes. It would crumble with just about anything and you felt comfortable figuring that out. Just like it has done now, with chickens rushing and flooding the area to gobble down their meal. Jaehyun was startled and scared theyâd peck him in the process.Â
You try not to laugh despite the giggles leaving in spurts. Nearing the kitchen door, you stop in your tracks to look at him. âDon't worry about the pay, it won't be necessary.â It troubles him and this time he wonât hold his thoughts. Well, he wasnât going to but as soon as his lips parted, the sprint door opened, showing a much shorter and pudgier older woman. He reckons thatâs your grandmother so he smiles and greets her accordingly.Â
She accepts it, returning the favor before going back to business in handing you the bowl full of pepper seeds and stems to feed the chickens. That left him and your grandmother alone, inviting him to the kitchen.
He studied the kitchen upon crossing the threshold, admiring the huge chimney in the right corner, soot covered it along the boiling metal bucket of water. There was a chair in front of it, one of those school chairs that cling onto your hair until itâs off your scalp.Â
A metal cabinet in between the entrance door and the hallway. Itâs dusty, showcasing fine china that was never used. He found the cracks above the very tall ceilings the most enchanting, all leading to portraits above the hallwayâs threshold. Trajectory and lineage demonstrated through the years. Most recently: one of you with your diploma.Â
Beautiful. Utterly beautiful, he thought.
âCome, Iâll show you around.âÂ
The tour was simple, the hallway that connected the main room and kitchen was a room in itself. Privacy wasnât really an option within these walls but it didnât matter, he wasnât the one sleeping in the main house.
All he had to know about this house was that it was an old canteen that your grandmotherâs father bought for her as a wedding gift. The hallway had a bed your grandfather slept on, a couch he sat to watch the TV propped on top of a dresser in the main room âwhere heâd join him oftenâ and a door that led to the guestâs area.
Despite the open concept, she didnât show him the room where you and her slept in. He caught a glimpse of a door to the only restroom in there ârestroom with a window he would spend his nights at oftenâ, a vanity you both filled with expired products, and two beds on opposite sides. He figures the one with a pristine Garfield plush was yours.Â
Jaehyun felt the clarity of finding home within these few minutes. It was summer and the house was freezing without a clunky AC unit, he was in heaven if you asked him. It felt cozy and he liked that it wasnât stuffy like his apartment back home, it felt like love. Cold, unspoken care and love.
The tour ended by the time both reached the guest area. The door was open after you swept but things never lasted clean here, the entrance full of dust again. Your grandmother looked tired and apologetic that she couldnât continue, reassuring him his room was fine, warranting her to yell your name and rushing to her side.
She asks you to show him, motioning for him to follow you with your head. It felt like a full circle when you both hopped down the step from the house to the courtyard. He looked at the threshold he entered through, the door was closed now, decorated with flowers made out of dust, crafted by Ollie when he had free time. Your grandfather sat on a chair near the pen with the young man, eating his bread and smoking a cigarette that he pretends to hide.Â
Following you, Jaehyun took notice of the mountain of rocks and flowers near his room. A monument to a holy being he had only seen a few times. It was beautiful, vibrant flowers in comparison to the rocks. Some cactus and critters roam on small trinkets and a river flows up and down each rock.
Jaehyun finds himself behind a wall of jacarandas which cover the entrance to his room. The door unlocks with a screech, Jaehyun, hopeful it was just as inviting as the home only to be shortly disappointed when it felt warm inside and the walls maintained a darker hue. It was newly made, it lacks love.
Sensing his hesitance, your voice aims to distract him. âItâs not much, the bed is new if you must know. My uncle should bring in the TV but in the meantime you have free reign to the boombox or the kitchenâs.â Apologetic smile decorating your face. âYou can open the window if it gets hot, Ollie is fixing up the fan. Feel free to go into the house, we donât mind.â You hope that will help his decision, youâd hate to see him leave.
He wants to thank you with the words stuck in his throat, something you noticed well enough that intensified the feeling that clogged your own. âUm, yeah⊠New bed, the lamp and main light work, window opens, and you have your own personal bathroom. Unfortunately, the boiler is still very old fashioned so you will have to warm it or boil some water in the chimney to shower.â You hope that repeating yourself will convince him, restraining yourself from begging.
It has its flaws but he has decided not to care. âIâll take it. Itâs still $130 for the month, right?â He smiles boyishly, putting down his suitcases. It gives you a sense of tenderness and relief. You want to sigh and smile, giggle with appreciation. âDonât worry about that, the room is yours.â You hand him the key, thatâs the best you can manage.
His lip slightly juts out and eyebrows furrow with your words. âWhat do you mean by that? Please, I insist.â He turns to you, taking a step closer, forcing you to bite the inside of your lower lip. âI can double it if you prefer.â He pleads, head tilting to the side with wide eyes. Itâs not intentional, heâs unaware of the effects he has on people. Heâs scared youâre tricking him to not keep the room, to give it to someone else. Almost like you arenât finding his presence enjoyable. If only he knew how much you would love for him to stay.Â
âItâs not that, trust me.â You walk towards the door, avoidingly. âItâs nice to not be alone. To have someone else around.â Your eyes donât meet his, he understands. Letting it go, he thanks you in a whisper. âBy any chance can I use your phone?â He asks in attempts to change the atmosphere.Â
Apologies fill your eyes like previous conversations. âItâs off until Monday.â Itâs Wednesday.Â
âThereâs a little store a block or two from here, not far at all. You can leave from either side, itâs flamboyantly yellow so you wonât miss it.â His excursion to find this place alone will say otherwise. âThe name is painted on with neon green, âGabyâsâ itâs called.â You laugh, looking at the expression on his face. He thanks you and follows behind the exit of the room, parting ways.Â
Despite the rundown homes and slight deterioration here and there, Jaehyun liked the tranquility and uncertainty in pertinence to the weather. One second he is granted with the warmth of vitamin D, the other he is threatened with the smell of wet dogs. This town had it all, yet none of it interfered with the breeze that calmed him as his hair waltzed around, singing in his ear that he was in the right hands, finally at ease.Â
You were right about not missing the store. He can laugh now â he did when taking the final corner, being met with what he felt was covered in buckets of highlighter ink. It was almost comical how opposite the owner was from her lively store and home.
âGood morning.â He mutters, âWhat are your rates for long distance calls?â She looks at him, pulling out a booklet from the phone company, arms working like itâs a chore.Â
âHow far?â âOverseas.â
She looks at him through lashes, sighing, flipping another page.Â
â$3.56 per minute.â
Jaehyunâs eyes bulge out, nodding frighteningly. The process goes accordingly: she hands him the phone, writes down his name and the location before looking at him to dial on that old dinky home phone. The wires are sticky from tape residue with some edges popping out. It was her motherâs from 1957 but she loves it more than her third born.
He rotates the wheel, hanging up one or three times until he finally gets it. When the other line finally picks up, she starts a timer. âItâll be quick.â He mentions. âTake your time.â She smiles.
âHello? Hellooo~.â The voice on the other line calls out, ready to hang up, a pair of blondes far more important than this are waiting for him. âHyunjoo?â Jaehyun asks, hand clasping the bottom of the phone. âYeah? Who is this?â His words sound slurred, not enough to call him drunk.
âItâs Jaehyun.â
An eruption of laughter and greetings is heard in the background, smiling at how welcoming it felt, although strange. âJaehyunie! How are you finding it there? Fun?⊠You know when Jude showed me the pictures I thought you were crazy for choosing that⊠place! Do you think you can hold out long?!â He laughs diminishingly, Jaehyunâs smile falters, his heart aching as it usually does when it comes to Hyunjoo.Â
He clears his throat, standing straight. âItâs great, I really like it so far and Iâve only seen the house.â He musters a laugh. âListen, long-distance calls are expensive so I think we should only communicate through letters, okay? I just wanted to call to let you know I was fine.â Heâs ready to end the conversation here. It didnât start how he wanted it and a reminder of his actuality is not what he wants.
âNo⊠no, now wait a minute!â It wasnât Hyunjoo on the line anymore but Jude, his manager who was far more sober than his publisher. Some tussling and grunting here and there on the other line, Jaehyun sighs looking at how quickly he was pushing three minutes already.Â
Eventually Jude got through, scolding the drunkard. âNow what do you mean you wonât call? Donât be dumb, I need to hear from you!â He bites onto his cigarette, scolding Jaehyun like a small kid, like the child he pretends is his. âItâs too much, Jude. Plus, the house doesnât have a phone right now so you canât reach me.â His foot bounces, scoffing like a petulant child proclaiming independence from their family.Â
Jude went on a tirade about how it wasnât good for Jaehyun to go cold on them but the younger one wasnât hearing it. The entire premise of this trip was to forget about them all so why wonât they let him? âOkay too much time, too much money, bye!â Jaehyun cuts the conversation short, giggling as the yelling got louder. Seizing when the timer hits six minutes and thirty-seven seconds.Â
â$24.92.â A wide smile decorates the ownerâs rotund face, sticking her hand out. Nothing left but to sigh and hand her the money.Â
Jaehyun takes this opportunity to explore the village, mesmerized by the intricacies of carved ornate decorations onto walls and doors. In awe with the obvious distinctions between newly built homes and colonial ones he found far more attractive. Architecture was not his only interest, not when the mocking tango of scent swirls drag him to the plaza. Taunting him with delectable treats and meals at every corner and hall.
If he wanted to fall further in love, then the market currently taking place should do. Colorful carps and music from corner to corner, swaying him through the fabric made halls. Jingles of welcomings and hollering flood the ears of every passerby. Whether he wanted fresh produce, flavored shaved ice, fruit cocktails, clothes, or even toys, Jaehyun could find it all. It reminded him of the swap meet he encountered with his friends once when living in Connecticut years ago. This was surely far more inviting and lively.Â
Through his trail around the halls, Jaehyun came to a halt upon seeing you standing before your grandfather on the bench your grandmotherâs family had donated. Worry filled your face but the older manâs laughter was far more deafening and comforting. An internal warmth forces your head to turn, spotting him immediately for your eyes to meet.
âNeed help?â Jaehyun offers embarrassedly, you deny. Your grandfather is receptive despite your light scolding. âItâs fine, really.â You try but both men insist. âDo you know how to repair cars?â Your grandfather asks, Jaehyun shakes his head apologetically, all which prompts your grandpa to huff and shake his own head.
âThe car broke down.â Heâs met with another of your apologetic smiles, as if heâs the one being wronged and not you and your grandfather. âIâm just going to finish off the shopping, mind giving him an eye?â You ask Jaehyun, the first favor to be exact and he couldn't be more elated to not feel useless.
Itâs shut down by the older of the three, complaining and almost throwing a tantrum over how he didnât need a babysitter. It wasnât completely wrong, the entire village knew him so watchful eyes were all around, itâs not like you couldnât trust him to be on his own. âNo, no. Matter of fact, help her with the bags. Go on, look at how heavy they are.â He scolds Jaehyun, throwing away any unfamiliarity out the window. Thatâs one thing about him, heâs too trusting.Â
Like a child in between parents having an argument, Jaehyun didnât know who to listen to. Fortunately you give up and sigh, motioning with your head for him to follow you. He took a handful of bags from your hand, some left in the care of your grandfather that was well situated on the bench.
He gave you both his blessing, shooing you off to embark in an awkwardly silent walk with nothing but the blaring music vendors played to fill that emptiness. He had so much he wanted to ask, to say, to know what you could teach him about the village or if you knew how he could travel to neighboring ones. He was giddish and thatâs all that took for you to turn to him with a smile.
âQuite a bad host, arenât I? I didnât even introduce myself.â You giggle, stopping at a stand. âItâs okay, I didnât either, Iâm sorry. Iâm Jaehyun.âÂ
âY/n,â You give him a quick glance, taking a bag from a vendor. âWhat are you doing here, anyways? No one comes here for pleasure.â Jaehyun could tell more words hung on the tip of your tongue, ones you swallow down. He didnât know how to answer. If someone else asked him, heâd mention how he wanted some inspiration, to see what he could bring into fruition but with you his sincere words threatened to spill.Â
How could he mutter: âI think I hate my life and those in it, so my manager and publisher shipped me off somewhere Iâd be far from that world. I think they just wanted to get rid of me but itâs what I wanted all alongâŠâ
âOh?â
Shit. Just like that.Â
âI-I⊠I didnât mean to say that.â He scolds himself. This had never happened before, what the hell was that?! Your laughter doesnât help and heâs scared youâre laughing at his problems. He doesnât want to believe someone like you could be this cruel.
âItâs okay.âÂ
Thatâs not reassuring. âItâs okay. I hated where I was a year ago too, so I was also shipped here.â Thatâs comfortingâ somewhat.Â
Your shoulders shimmy as you pay for the produce, walking towards another stand. âGranted, my aunt got sick. She was my grandparents' caretaker but it was getting worse and I took the role.â From the depths of your pocket, you pull out some pumpkin seeds, handing him a few for him to crack, not counting with the coating of salt to scald his tongue.Â
âShe comes back here and there to check in and help but eventually she has to go back for constant checkups. I hadnât found a job right out of college so this was my next best option and I like it â far more so, I think.â A sincere smile adorns your face; this was comforting.
Things went far more smoothly after that introduction. He told you about his books and what he wanted to do here. He told you about how miserable he felt and how abusive the city seemed to be towards him. You told him that you missed your city but the reality of facing adulthood in the area was weighing down on you. He figured this was your reality escape and although grim on your end, he felt ecstatic for himself. He felt like he finally found exactly what he needed.
The conversation went well with a few laughs here and there until reaching full circle with cups of shaved ice in a bag to take home and yours in hand. Bliss was momentarily gone when you reached the bench and didnât spot your grandfather. Regardless, it didnât take long for a seller to let you know his nephew gave him a ride.Â
These instances made Jaehyun appreciate your gentleness for your grandparents. Although aware of how you try to hide your emotions from him, the guard falls when it comes to them. Itâs admirable.
Noise didnât break the bubble of silence you remained in until entering the kitchen where your grandfather was sitting at a table already, your grandmother making his coffee while Ollie tired and sweaty relaxed by the door, munching on a candybar he bought when getting the fright remedy. A token of appreciation from your grandfather for the cigarette.
âWe didnât see you, I almost had a heart attack.â You mock reprimand, a smile setting on your face seeing the older man safe and sound. No matter how hard you try to act angry, seeing him eat the rest of his bread while waiting for lunch calms you down. âIâm the old one here, save the ailments for another sixty years.â he cackles, Jaehyun beginning to find comfort in your grandfatherâs ability to find humor in anything.
âI think our guest might want out already.â He teases, sneaking a piece from Ollieâs candy. The boy doesnât protest, doing the same with the shaved ice you brought. Jaehyun felt his ears warm up, nervously denying it with no avail as your grandpa kept insisting with that same laugh. Dying when your grandma scolds him to leave Jaehyun alone.
Jaehyun giggles quietly, shaking his head. âPlease believe me. I think itâs beautiful so far.â Your grandma hums, the one to speak is Ollie. âThereâs nothing here. Whatâs beautiful about it?â He shrugs with a scowl. âHe hasnât seen the other towns, give it time, Ol.â You intervene, forcing him to taste test the rice. Â
âWell, what if you and Ollie, whenever he can, showâŠâ
âJaehyun.â You help your grandmother, playfully glaring at the young boy for feedback on the dish. The elderly give each other a quick glance while Ollie makes a mocking thumbs down when he knows the smile on his face says otherwise.
She nods, scooping a spoonful of lard into the pan. âWhy donât you and Ollie show Jaehyun around after your duties. I doubt he wants to stay all hours here.â Jaehyun doesnât know how to feel. Heâs embarrassed, heâs also bashful and feels imposing. âItâs okay, I can manage. I donât want to overstep.â He nervously chuckles, ears brightening.
âOkay.â You shut him up. He turns to you, silence deafening yet comforting, even when you finally lift your head to look at him, nodding. âItâs okay, just let us know what you want to see.â Youâre much calmer than he is, it causes his body to tense despite being thankful with how inviting you are. How inviting you all are, he thinks he can see himself here for longer.
âThank you.â He meets your eyes with a smile, thankful and glad. Itâs reciprocated, knocking down the nonchalant act.
The first outings donât go past the premises of the village. With planting being the main priority, neither you or Ollie have time to take him anywhere. The younger spent his days working the tractor, taking your grandfather up and down as his mentor despite his own father being there.Â
Jaehyun tried to help once but was booted by both men and their laughter. He wonât fault them, he almost ruined a row of freshly planted beans and if he was to learn anything throughout this trip, heâd learn that any grain and imperfection was important enough to ruin the entire harvest. Instead he was left to pavement clearing, making sure no rocks or debris got in the way of vehicles.
The following week he had been left to his vices at home. You had apologetically told him they found assistance and he should enjoy his trip at home. Although there was nothing left to do, not for him at least. Your grandmother wouldnât let him lift a finger in the kitchen and she didnât like his cleaning style, leaving it to you if she was busy.Â
Ollie had fixed the fan by now. The new motor made the room freeze, mimicking the room temperature of the home. Cold enough that Jaehyun preferred to leave the window open despite the crawlers that woke him at night. Now he contemplates whether he should turn the fan on or sleep with cotton filled eardrums.Â
Jaehyun lays in bed, bored and antsy for something to do. The sound of your arguing with animals overpower the boombox next to his head, melodies he didnât understand.
The fountain pen on his hand never felt far heavier, a sign that he had nothing new to produce. No, the only thing his hand mustered to write was the noises you made. Whatever pertains to you.
âTutt-tutt.â âCluth-cluth⊠No, Constance! Donât peck me!â âBehhh, behhh! Here, what a cry baby.â
Jaehyun found joy through you and your acts of love.
âMeow, meow, meow! I can do that too! I already fed you, Fina! Gluttony is a sin, you know.â
Days went on like this, itâs repetitious but he doesnât complain. Past times heâd think what heâs doing now was all he wanted but a mind never rests and his body is antsy for new experiences. He no longer wants to lie and feel the breeze rush through the window to coddle him, forcing the sheer white curtains to dance around for his attention.
Jaehyun tucks away his journal, buttoning up his shirt and slipping on the work boots he bought with only four days here. Full of glee and excitement he bought them to help your grandfather. He reckoned if he was going to get down and dirty then he should be dressed accordingly.Â
With pep to his step, Jaehyun makes a beeline towards the pen. What used to be barking of unfamiliarity turned to a simple bark for attention, received with wagging tails. He made sure to pat their heads until reaching the fence, looking at you conversing with Camila, the donkey.Â
âAha and what else did he do?... No! You shouldâve kicked him straight in the leg, Cami. He canât talk to you like that!.â You nod and hum at her playfully, received with brays and nods. Jaehyun doesnât know what youâre talking about but heâs glad that youâre having fun.
New hay had been brought in the morning, far more greener and fresh which left the old hay to be moved around for maintenance. In the process of such, strays found themselves near the dogs, enough to crunch under his step. Like a deer caught in headlights, Jaehyun stops, ears reddening by the whip of your head and Camilaâs blaring bray.
âHiâŠâ He mutters timidly, cause of your smile. âHi.â You reciprocate with the softest welcoming. He takes the initiative to approach you, standing a few feet behind. Neither say anything, amused with Camilaâs treacherous ways in leaving you to gain his attention. Head bumping onto his hand to mimic the pats he left on the dogs.
Pleased she throws a kick, sending old hay flying towards the lambs and goats that reproach her action. You share a giggle, forcing you two to give each other a quick glance. âI think she likes you.â You mention, âI like her too.â He replies, petting her ears, as red as his. âWell donât feed her ego, now. Itâs already through the roof.â You teasingly scoff, another airy laugh leaves him.Â
âDonât be harsh, I think she needs it. I mean, I donât know what you two were talking about just now but it seems like she needed her confidence there.â He smiles at you, taking her face into both hands. Your groan makes him wink at Camila, thankful that heâs found something to converse with you. âHer and Ollieââ Camila brays, removing Jaehyunâs touch from her. âThey have such an intense hate-love relationship that his name throws her off, so Iâm giving her advice on how to deal with it. Right, Mila?â Understandingly, she nods, seeking your attention again.
âGranted itâs all made up, sheâs a little jealous but with you here I think Ollie should take the role.â She brays again, aiming to bite your hand. You get away just in time, sticking your tongue out at her. Jaehyun receives the image with laughter, his chest filled with joy.
He shakes his head, petting hers to calm her down. âNo, I donât want to be responsible for their failure.â You nod, picking up a metal rake. âMind if I help you? Itâs getting boring thereâŠâ Heâs ashamed to admit it. You sympathize with him, after all when you used to visit you often fell in his shoes.
âAlright, a heads up, this will be messy work.â He nods obediently, eyes shimmering with their natural gloss and the sunâs reflection.Â
Darn him and his cuteness!Â
Blinking the thought away you hand him a broom and the rake. âHere, hold these while I tie up this maniac.â Your eyes squint meeting those of the ram that tackled you when he arrived. His own mimicking yours, it was on and he knew it.Â
With rope in your hand, test swings approaching the penâs door, the beast starts to test the waters. ThreeâŠtwoâŠone! What ensues is a battle between both, Jaehyun trying his best to help. He envisioned that this rivalry is what Ollie and Camila had, heâd witness it a few days prior. The only exception that you and Whitey hated each other to the core. He never knew why.Â
After a few falls and tugs here and there, you two managed to get him in the isolation pen. Scoffing and laughing as he settles on newly clean hay. While he relaxes, you both huff and hold onto the fence, wiping away any remnants of sweat. âReady to work?â You question, Jaehyun felt like this was enough. Unfortunately itâs only the beginning.
With free and safe reign to go inside the pen, you lay out the map of where to go and be careful. The wall to the neighbors cooped the chickens. It was the time they laid eggs so cleaning it would be held off until a few days later. On the opposite side to the street, roosters had their own coups.Â
âAll you have to do is separate the poop from the hay, thatâs what the rake is for.â Jaehyun figured you felt apologetic for the task as the look you gave him when presenting the room manifested itself onto your face. If you only knew that heâd never say no to you.
He mutters an âalrightâ with his brilliant smile, reassuringly. âWhile you do that,â you watch him struggle, âIâll clean this one.â Your voice slowed, concentrated on how to maneuver. You referred to the pen around a large cactus. He didnât give it much thought when you went in, he also felt it wouldnât be that hard, the livestock discard balls for goodness sake.
He had the confidence that died along the way he swept and raked. For small balls they were pungent and he wasnât handling it well, the uncovered smell of piss added to it. You try not to laugh when he gagged or turned around so you wouldnât see him cover his face but it was becoming hard.
Endearing is the word youâre thinking of, even when he perceives it as mockery that his face falls into a pout when he hears your laughter. âPlease donât laugh at me.â He practically begs, head lifting for a waft of fresh air before pushing old disgusting hay into a trash bag.
âIâm sorry,â A laugh escapes. âItâs good Iâm the one here, I wouldnât doubt Ollie tormenting you if it was him here.â Jaehyun agrees, the difference being that he wouldnât care for Ollie's ridicule, heâd play along and try his best to improve. He cares for your opinion which is far different.Â
âHe did enough during harvest.â âI heard.â
Silence befalls as you continue, the sun seems to have hidden behind clouds for the time being.Â
âIâm sorry youâre not having a good time.â You broke the peace, his ears perking at the condolence lacing your voice. âI know you wanted an escape and Iâm sorry I havenât been of much help.â He couldnât believe his ears. Why are you blaming yourself for something that should only matter to him? He has free will and range to get up and take the next taxi or bus to neighboring towns. You shouldnât blame yourself for his decisions.
Escapism might not have come to him in the way intended but everyday has become a new experience for him. âDonât⊠I promise that even picking up droppings is something new for me.â He rebuttals your claim, mirroring the same apologetic look you give him. âY/n⊠Iâve been coddled all my life, this entire experience has been a new step for me and I feel like Bambi, positively.â He smiles, widely enough that itâs the first time you notice his deep dimples.
You sigh, unsure if itâs from relief, pash, or in between.Â
âYeah, okay⊠I was in your shoes too when I began to stay as a caretaker. Iâve done all of this when I would visit but it was not as intense as it is now. I donât mind, Iâm here to help. I have to.â It sounds melancholic and heâs not sure how to interpret it.
Avoiding it you look around to see heâs done a good job. Youâre actually very well impressed, the words that were meant to leave your mouth surely were appreciative but theyâre shoved back down your throat when you attempt to stand up. Itâs almost like his presence dumbifies you. Like you forget the world around you, manifesting itself in your careless and clueless actions like resting your open hand on a cactus while trying to stand up just to bring him comforting words.Â
Instead heâs met with your yelp as you prick your hand, head, and shoulder in the process of standing and tumbling down. Whiteyâs karma has served you, he bleats mockingly when you keep on hurting yourself within the premise of his home.Â
Instinctively Jaehyun rushes to you, concerned and scared of what this could illicit. He isnât safe of Whiteyâs wrath, not when he helped you and has decreed the young brunette is of your interest. Rushing to your aid, Jaehyun doesnât count on one of the sheep to leave her droppings on the path heâs taking. Fresh and new, it wasnât difficult for Jaehyun to find himself slipping straight into the cactus that has served your own aches.
They say laughter is the best medicine. Both you and Jaehyun attempt it when your eyes meet but the throbbing is far more intense that you synchronize in wailing. Loud and tuneless, enough to drag out your grandmother from the kitchen and force laughter out of Ollie and your grandfather who were arriving from their daily duties.
Camila doesnât stay too behind in her own laughter. You fear all the livestock was against you two or perhaps rooting for you in the most vicious way. Itâs rotten to know this is the start of your shared misery and ache.
The accident had forced your grandparents to make it up to you both the following day. Early in the morning your grandfather drove you all to a neighboring town. Ollie groggily dragged himself out of his home despite his fatherâs complaints that he was being a burden. You reassured him he was always welcomed, your grandfather scolded his dad. Yelling at him to stop trying to force ideas in the boyâs head.Â
Jaehyun had taken in the scenery on his taxi drive although heâs convinced something is different this time. Aside from your grandfather teasing everyone when driving along the edge of the mountains, Ollie clinging to you ready to cry as if he didnât surpass all of you in height.
It takes roughly an hour and a half to arrive at the destination and almost another to find parking they eventually found was free and available behind a cathedral. Everyone laughs at each other for missing it when minutes prior your grandfather was ready to turn the car around, hangry and annoyed at how this damn town was overcrowded with no parking spots.
For once he felt like an actual tourist, visiting the restaurant you all loved and gorging himself with the most delicious meal heâs ever tasted in his life â besides his motherâs cooking, of course! For reassurance, she will witness how happy he looked while eating through the picture you managed to snap of him.
After the meal, your grandparents attempted to walk for digestion but age made them give up as soon as you all reached the townâs plaza. It wasnât a rare occurrence, you saw no problem with it, theyâre together. All they asked was to bring them those donuts they loved dearly and a soda to share. Ollie took it in his hands to beat you to it. Now there you and Jaehyun stood looking at the elderly couple sat before you.
At the time it didnât feel like a scheme but looking back at it, Jaehyun is sure you figured it out as well.Â
Despite the accident, you both went back to the timidness that sheltered you both. Stolen glances and polite smiles when caught, stopping here and there to take pictures of the architecture and culture. He wouldnât tell you, but a good portion were candids of you. You look so pretty that he could not avoid capturing the only remnants of you he could keep.Â
Both try small talk, history pointers whenever reaching old buildings â most consisted of luring him away from hustlers. Youâd laugh after every successful attempt and reward yourself with street snacks that heâd find too salty or too sweet, still delicious enough to risk getting scolded by his physician if it meant enjoying the wonders of life.
The day might have ended with shy conversations and laughs but both could testify that comfort is what surrounded you most. On his end he felt safe and secure, comfortable enough to laugh at anything you said because in whatever way he looked at it, your presence forced glee onto him. Warmth and comfort is what you would best describe it as and thatâs what you have learnt care feels like.
Your grandmother began going easy on you after the accident and outing. You felt like a teenager visiting your grandparents again with how little she left for you to do and how she forced you to go out more often. Encouraging you to enjoy your summer as well while showing Jaehyun around.
Jaehyun is sure this was her way to make both of you appreciate the limited shared time. Heâs thankful enough for it but bitter towards himself for losing some weeks at the start.
You began showing him around other towns. On times you went grocery shopping and heâd beat you to paying for it (his form of appreciation), heâd throw in a peach or two. His favorite, you figured.Â
At the neighboring market, heâd buy fridge magnets, five for the price of a large one. All which represented his favorite snacks heâs consumed during these days. You still remember teasing him for buying a mini replica magnet of a beer bottle. Later at home while rocking on a chair he showed you a layout of how heâd arrange them on his fridge. In the meantime, you helped him decorate the door to his room, enjoying the air the fan blew at both.
When it rained, Ollie forced both to dance under the cold drops. Enjoy life as you should, he justified. At night, heâd dragged you both to the night market. Showing Jaehyun his favorite drinks and laugh when you scold him for drinking like an old man with kidney issues. He would joke about you and Jaehyun being his parents and would even grab your hands to skip in between both when it was so easy for him to drag you down. Damn him and his tall genes.
Heâd drag the joke far enough to reach home where your grandparents never missed the opportunity to throw in a âTake your brat with you.â whenever Ollie was available and you were to show Jaehyun around. Neither of you minded, Ollie was silent enough to let you two bask in each otherâs presence and playful enough for you two to feel at ease and content.Â
In another universe, this would reign true and not a fragment of a life youâre all creating that was never to bloom.
After three months the festivities had reached your village and vendors from all around the country settled by the plaza. Intrigued at first and fascinated by what they sold, poor Jaehyun fell victim to one of the home goods sellers. Spending a large amount buying your grandmother some pots, pans, a set of dishes, and stools as a token of appreciation. He went overboard but was happy to help, blinded by the cheap prices. Jaehyun shouldâve known something was off, he knows you would have talked him out of it but you had been arguing with another vendor that they took advantage of the painfully obvious foreigner in the meantime.
When arriving home and seeing he had been robbed, you got ready to argue and force them to give him his money back. He protested despite being defeated and sad he was swindled. He convinced you but not your grandparents and Ollie. The three had taken matters into their own hands while you two fetched salt blocks to replace in the pen. By the time you got back, Ollieâs hair was far more ruffled than usual and his face red while your grandfather laughed, taking a sip of his beer, clanking it with your grandmotherâs. On the kitchen bar, Jaehyunâs money was laid out. Every single cent and interest returned to him, money he used to invite all to dinner and dessert with a gift of their choice.
Ollie wore his tonight. Gleefully trotting through the threshold of the gate, careful to not scuff the boots Jaehyun gladly bought while singing to gain attention. Jaehyun laid on bed, scribbling his thoughts on his days, one-liners here and there and far more of the noises youâve made. In addition the lyrics to the song Ollie sang before your grandmother told him to stop before he ate a fly.
Fireworks had been going off all day and neighborâs music loudened with their gates open. This wasnât new but it seemed to be far more intense today out of all days. âWhy arenât you ready? Youâre not going to the fair?â Ollie questions, out of breath and frantic to see your grandparents sitting on their chairs enjoying todayâs weather with a cup of soda in one hand and pastries in the other.Â
Talks about a fair had not gone in deaf ears throughout the past three weeks but Jaehyun paid it no mind when he saw that no one else seemed concerned â besides Ollie. It seemed to be a big thing when he noticed more carps, games, and rides fully covering the plaza.
âDonât think we will be going, Ol. Their knees hurt.â Your voice manifests itself, forcing Jaehyun to sit up and put away his journal. You had been doing some chores outside his room. Hanging laundry and watering the plants, the product of everything heâs written and attempted to draw today.
He follows outside, Ollie greets him, a mischievous smile on his lips forming an idea. âWhy not? Iâll drive if you want! Do it for Jaehyun, heâs never going to experience this again.â
Ollieâs childish intuition strikes again, this time in the form of a gash against both of your chests.Â
You both knew it was true but reality is what Jaehyun wanted to escape and you had made sure to enable him. It just so happens that you have fallen victim to it as well.
No matter, he said he wanted to stay months so it should still be far along in the future. You think so⊠you implore.
Perceptive is a word to describe your grandparents. Despite their ache they figure it is not as big as the one brewing in the depths of your conscious and heart. As best as they can, they agree with the younglin and head inside to get ready.
Ollie is ecstatic, heâs always been a fan of these things but now that he was of age, he could enjoy it more with a drink or two. Not to mention things like these are grounds for finding partners and like any town boy who hasnât found one, heâs looking forward to it. Thatâs what he tells you and Jaehyun at least but he knows heâll spend his night looking after your grandparents, far more giddy about you two together.
He had been smart enough to put cinder blocks early in the morning in a parking spot front and center from the fair, forcing Jaehyun out of the car to move and put them behind the car once he parked so no one would block them. Perfect was his plan that once everyone got out of the car, his friends that occupied a bench scattered like roaches to give their seat to your grandparents. Both elders find it comical seeing right through Ollie.Â
Arriving just in time for the parade, all queen candidates drove around in their elaborately decorated transportation. Colors flying around similar to their presentation favors, many which ended up hitting both Jaehyun and Ollie in the head. The older of the two made sure to take pictures of it while Ollie complained, claiming he was glad he didnât vote for whoever hit him. The new reigning queen didnât appear until the end. It was far more of a social economic competition. Whoever paid more won therefore it wasnât surprising when a queen from years prior won again.
âYou shouldâve signed up, you wouldâve won, Y/n.â Ollie elbows you, received with an eye roll. âRight, Jaehyun?â That devious brat, always finding a way to make you miserable. You try not to turn to Jaehyun, yet his gaze is so intense that it forces you to do so slowly. His face, decorated with that usually wide smile that emphasized his dimples, eyes squinting in glee when yours finally meet his. Candidness and benevolence lacing his voice.
âYes, you would have won, Y/n.âÂ
That was enough footing for Ollie to shoo both of you away, promising to take care of your grandparents while you had fun. Your attempts at protest are futile, your grandparents helping Ollie in his mission. Buying the three something to eat in the process before parting ways, promising itâll be fast.
Itâs not fast, itâs a brisk walk that both you and Jaehyun enjoy. Struggling to not lose each other within the masses going opposite or in the same direction. He jokes about feeling like a meerkat in a sea of gazelles, you laugh but heâs sure you donât find it funny. At least heâs glad you humor him.
You entertain him through food. Buying tornado potatoes, plain and simple. He mentions having eaten these when he lived in Connecticut. You ask him about the state and what itâs like, youâre not too thrilled nor believe him when he says itâs boring. As an attempt to remove the connection, you drizzle hot sauce on one half of the potatoes. Scared but willing to try it, Jaehyun lets you feed him the first broken off bit. Itâs enjoyable at first, soon his face blends with the lights behind him. Red and bright as he begins to cough. Now he will only think of this when it comes to the snack.
You both laugh at it, as an apology you buy him a drink. A piña colada for him and a michelada for you, it should work enough to ease both of your bashfulness. He couldnât eat anything from the drizzled side, leaving those for you whilst he munched on the dry. Giving you sips here and there from his drink to cool down the fire in your mouth. He teases you for choosing a spicy drink when youâre eating far more spice, receiving him with an eye roll and âYou donât know what life is about.â
Finishing that, he dragged you to a game. Youâd like to think he found it far more odd because of the mini stripper animatronics in the center of all the glass bottles but he reassures you the life-size gremlin doll pissing on people was more alluring â and disturbing. It didnât stop him from attempting to win a decrepit pale Winnie the Pooh bear.
He had spent a good amount of time trying for it, towards the end he required your help. You had been nagging him throughout the entire game to not spend more money on the game, that it was most likely rigged but when it was your turn and managed to burst all bottles, then it became a skill issue.Â
Jaehyun mopped about it, you figured the bear would bring him comfort. He held it for seconds to soon return it with a bright smile. You try rejecting it, he had been fighting hard for it so it was confusing why he didnât want it. You thought it had to do with the principle of the winner takes it all; it wasnât the case.Â
He confessed he had wanted to get it for you and only felt bummed that he wasnât able to but that you should keep it irregardless as a token of his appreciation and care for you, to give your Garfield some company. The moment wouldâve been sweet if the booth attendant didnât make that stupid doll spritz itâs faux piss your way, forcing you to flee while cursing him out with laughs in between.
That was the beginning of your journey through halls and carps, stepping out here and there to get on childrenâs rides that warrant glares from parents. Jaehyun joked about dragging Ollie so he could ride the caterpillar rollercoaster with him and have you take pictures of a father with his kid. Jaehyun is now playing along with the fantasy Ollie has created. You donât know whether to laugh or let the ache in your heart manifest.
You end at the ferris wheel only a few feet away. In the process of calming each otherâs laughter, the noises of people and music filled the silence. Comforting as the day you met, walking through the market and buying produce for that dayâs meal. It makes Jaehyun think about how far you two have gone. How one little incident with a cactus has led to having the time of your lives nearing the highest point of the ride.
Youâve felt the warmth and softness of his touch. Felt his care and appreciation through every little act yet you yearn and crave for more from him. Your body and soul know there is more both can offer, although frightened that youâve misinterpreted his lingering gazes and gestures.
âWhen I was younger my mom had decided that we would spend every summer with my grandparents and aunt. I hadnât been here since I was five for her grandpaâs funeral so it meant nothing the first few weeks. The first year, even.â
Jaehyun turns, intrigued. âThen when my mom would make the long distance calls and send letters, my grandpa would joke around how I didnât want to visit them at all â that I hated it here, similar to how he does with you. I didnât hate it, I think I just wasnât familiar with the lifestyle in comparison to back home where I donât have to worry about if thereâs hot running water.â
His hand inches closer to you. âIn attempts to prove him wrong, I spent my time here helping him with the animals, going grocery shopping with him and my cousins and it drew me closer to this. After the second summer, we spent Christmas here too and the weather killed me but they seemed so happy that I joined.âÂ
Your laugh comforts him. He thinks about the times heâs attempted to help and failed your grandparents, it only dawns upon him that things take time and he shouldnât dwell on them too much.
âThen in my last summer of college, I had taken an internship that promised a job right out of collegeâ obviously it was a lie, Iâm here.â You laugh bitterly. âI missed time with my family and my grandma ended up in the hospital. I felt so guilty the remainder of the year, even during winter break. I felt like it was my fault, that my absence was the small piece of the puzzle that could ruin it all.â
Jaehyun felt and heard the remorse in your voice, he felt the need to find a way to ease it with no avail, feeling as inutile as when the ram tackled you. Itâs imprinted in his brain that no matter what, it will weigh on his shoulders that heâs not able to help no matter how much he tries.
âAnd I think the universe is funny and cruel enough that when the internship dropped me and said all vacancies were occupied, my aunt was the one to fall ill next. Forcing her back home with her own family. It was its way to make it up to me, as horrible as it sounds.â
You share a sigh, he takes your hand in his, reassuringly. You don't want comfort words, he knows that, he knows this is enough for you. âI think what I first felt when visiting is what you feel now with the exception that you actually have so much to do out thereâŠâ Jaehyunâs actions halt, lifting his head to look at your sorrow filled eyes.
He shakes his head, trying to convince himself and you. He clings to the delusion everyone helped create in hopes to be good hosts. He still has time, Jaehyun has time, he wants to believe it so please donât shatter his joy so quickly, please!
âItâs okay, Jaehyun. You have to publish your book, weâll always be here for you as theyâve been for me.â Heâs not too sure how true that is. Life is never consistent nor forgiving, heâs learnt that in harsh ways. Peopleâs care is conditional and based on time and familiarity, heâs been at the end of that stick.
Your hand takes purchase on his cheek, consoling him for what you have just said. You didnât intend to cause this but you have to prepare yourself for what youâve known all along. âI donât think I want to go back and risk anything.â He mutters, eyes softening the longer he looks at you, the ride feels endless.
âYou must⊠All there is for you here is inspiration.â Theyâre meant to comfort him but it feels more like youâre trying to convince yourself that youâll be fine when he leaves. Jaehyunâs lips part ready to speak, words muted by the fireworks going off. Midnight has hit, itâs a brand new day and itâs received with pyrokinetic colors that aim to diffuse the pain he feels.
They illuminate your face, a smile forming in awe of how pretty they look. Not as pretty as you, Jaehyun is sure of that the longer he stares with the same smile on his face you adore. âIâve found the life I needed all along.â His touch on your cheek brings you back to him, dumbfounded with what he meant. Inquiries answered upon feeling his lips softly land on yours.
Hands softly cradle your face, eyelashes tickling your cheek as you get a taste of him. Itâs so soft and tender that you want to be here for the rest of the night, drowning the noises around you. If youâve felt heaven before, it doesnât compare to being with him like you are now.Â
The crowded path didnât feel claustrophobic, like it was just you two in the sea of booths, fluorescent lights and fireworks. The music drowned, his grasp on you doing its best to keep you with him for whatever time is left for you two.
He hadnât noticed at what point you both had gone back until Ollie stepped in between you two. âSo? Did you like it?â The giddy young boy questions, a bottle of beer in his hand, compliments from his cousin â your grandparents with their own as well, watching. Jaehyun nods, glancing at you. âMore than anything.â He smiles widely, hypnotizing dimples present.Â
Ollie giggles, a chant as he jumps near your grandparents telling them something that neither of you manage to hear, distracted by the shocking ice-cold bottle shoved into your hands. Your grandfather had been talking to your grandmother, both laughing about judgments thrown at people around them. Mean, yes, but itâs not often that they bond about things anymore.
The elderâs leg had been bouncing as they talked, cackling in the process of drowning whatever was left in the bottle. Jaehyun took notice of this, turning to the group playing up on stage a few feet away. People around were dancing, some seemed to enjoy themselves, others not too much â the only thing that mattered was the ambient and showing face.Â
Jaehyun approaches your grandpa, asking if he was having a good time. The older of the two nodded, responding by showing the new bottle Ollie handed him. You scold both of them to not drink too much but they shush you. âItâs a party, Y/n. Liven up.â Ollie laughs, alcohol having gotten into his stream, demonstrated on how clumsily he clinks his bottle with yours and everyone else's. âCome on, letâs dance instead.â Pulling you in for a quick little shuffle. Heâs not a great dancer, he knows it. He also knows his joy brings joy to your grandparents and youâll do anything for them to maintain it.
You entertain Ollie, dancing despite him having already stepped on you multiple times. Apologizing with whines and puppy eyes that make you laugh. You push him off after a while, helping your grandfather up so he could dance with you. Heâs overjoyed, finally having the opportunity to do what he loves so much, a pity your grandmother is the opposite. Sheâs content enough with just watching.
Jaehyun smiles, laughing in glee at how the ambient fuels his emotions. His own body swaying ever so slightly, brain trying to formulate how to dance to music heâs never heard. He thinks he gets it, it doesnât seem too hard but he could be proven wrong and become Ollieâs mirror.
Your grandmother, ever so insightful, watches with a glint of content with how well he has adapted to the culture. Although, far more interested in the way his eyes donât leave you. His ears are red, brighter than the light illuminating the stage and the municipal office. Jaehyun may try to hide how he feels, you may try, but sheâs older and wiser. Sheâll always know when love is around.
âGo ask her for a dance.â She elbows him to catch his attention, Jaehyun had been holding your grandfatherâs seat. The mention alone caused his ears to brighten, crimson migrating to his face. He tries not to smile, it so happens to be that his muscles are treacherous and they emphasize the lines of his smile, deepening those dimples you love.Â
Jaehyun shakes his head. Convince her that itâs okay, that he would rather watch, something she wonât allow. âDonât coward away. Whenâs the next time youâll get the chance?â Jaehyun ignores the heavy meaning of her words, he prefers to ignore the reality that slowly creeps in. Regardless, he nods, taking in the other point of view. He thanks her with a smile, standing up to walk towards you. Sacks of nervousness weighing him down, making his hands sweat.
âMind if I take her from you?â Jaehyun clears his throat, head tilting, pleading. The older man cackles, pure and utter joy that Jaehyun has made a move. Frantically he nods, agreeing by pushing you towards the brunette who seems just as ecstatic as your grandfather. Given persimmon, Jaehyun takes your hand in his. Awkwardly figuring out how else he should position himself.
You watch amusedly, hiding your smile by pressing your lips together as if your cheeks and eyes were not a dead giveaway. âWhat makes you think I wanted to dance with you?â You tease, correcting where his hands and feet should go. The smile you try hard to hide slowly creeps in. Jaehyun doesnât mind exposing his own, giggling when you begin to lead. âWhatâs this then?â He plays along, moving his feet and knees according to what he had examined. Raising your shoulders in a shrug, you donât hold back your smile, a giggle following. âA lesson.âÂ
The dance doesnât go smoothly, you have to teach him between laughs, both yours and his with your familyâs in the background but he manages. Even if you all think his dancing is horrible, as bad as Ollieâs, the younger one takes the opportunity to capture you two dancing with Jaehyunâs camera. If thereâs something to remember, it is this night and the love that has finally come into fruition.
The flash blinds you, stopping you two from dancing and even though Ollie whines for you two to continue, you both claim your feet ache. Itâs not a lie on your end but the coyness from your family seeing you with a potential partner is a bigger deal.
Itâs past two in the morning, obvious in the way your grandparents hide their yawns from your view, hoping to not ruin your night further. âWant to go home?â You walk towards them, a hand on your hip and genuine concern on your face. They admit they are tired but donât want to go home no matter how much you insist. Ollie offers to drive them home while you and Jaehyun stay back longer but youâve been away from them this entire night that you cannot fathom the idea any longer.
Ollie and your grandparents can try to convince you with the same story about Jaehyunâs limited time but that wasnât going to work now. No, you stick to your guns and manage to get them in the car. Ollie had drank far more than all of you so he wasnât apt to drive, instead Jaehyun volunteered, something that had excited your grandfather the most.
After removing the cinder blocks and putting them back in the trunk, Ollie walks towards your window, bidding everyone goodnight. You nag him, worried that he was drinking too much. He receives you with an âOkay, mom!â, the same phrase heâs been throwing around ever since Jaehyun had reached a monthâs stay. It managed to get a laugh out of your grandparents, even from you and Jaehyun but it didnât change that you still lightly swat his hand. âIâm serious, Ollie. Donât drink anymore, stay back a bit but not too late, Okay?âÂ
The worry in your eyes makes him relent, nodding before kissing your cheek goodnight and shaking Jaehyunâs hand. The interaction forced a smile on his face, every single aspect of your tenderness making him melt more.
As the moon is his witness, Jaehyun has fallen in love with this village and you. Gracious the stars are that once you manage to get your grandparents in bed and meet Jaehyun in the kitchen, the two of you quietly make your way outside with nothing but moonlight to illuminate you.
âWant some coffee?â You ask, fingers familiarizing themselves with the texture of those yellow walls. âDo you not want to sleep?â He laughs, taking those same fingers to familiarize with the tenderness of his lips. The action makes your breath hitch.Â
âPerhapsâŠâ
His eyes meet yours, inching closer to capture your lips in another tender kiss. His hands find purchase on your waist, your arms wrap around his shoulders. Itâs sweet and soft, his tongue managing to slip in your mouth to waltz with your own. The soft muscle forces a delighted sigh, one that he swallows graciously.
When neither can hold it for much longer, you separate, smiling like two fools. âSo no coffee, then?â You laugh, one he reciprocates with a nod. âToo bitter, not as sweet as you.â The flirtatious remark is received with a laugh.
âYouâre so cheesy.â You claim. âItâs worth it if it makes you laugh â itâs what I like to hear everyday.â
Jaehyunâs expression is serious, the adoration in his eyes letting you know how he feels. He may not pin a word to it but you can see his yearning and longing. You try to be in the same cloud he is in, to ignore the dooming reality but you canât. You appreciate his affection and you reciprocate it but you also donât want to become delusional.
âJaehyunâŠâ Your head drops, avoiding his look. He thinks heâs done something wrong and it aches horribly. âYeah?â He squeaks meekly, head moving in hopes to see your eyes, to understand how the atmosphere became so somber. âHow serious are you about this? You know how things are anââÂ
âDonât⊠Please donât bring that up.â He begs, eyes shutting, no longer in need to understand what you meant. âYou canât act like you donât have a life outside of here. You may stay all you want but eventually you will go back â thereâs more to life than this for you.â Your head lifts, vulnerability not as heavy as his.
He tries to drown out your words, this night has gone too well for things to fall off already. He doesnât want it to be bittersweet. Sure he can stay all he wants until itâs time to publish his book but he will come back so why are you being so cruel to him?
âNothing compares to this, Y/n.â He holds your hands, hoping his warmth lets you know how much youâre hurting him but also how much he loves you. You shake your head, a small smile of unbelievability. âYouâve been here for three months, thatâs still fine and dandy. Itâs not like truly living here.âÂ
His eyebrows furrow, refusing to listen. âBut you still love it here. I donât know what youâre trying to get at.â His voice quivers, frightened that this is your way of ripping his heart out.
You sigh, squeezing his hands. âI do, I love it but I also think that Iâve been looking at this place through the same glasses youâre looking through. What Iâm getting at is that, in the long run youâll get bored, everyone I know has and theyâve left⊠Who knows, maybe even Ollie will leave and itâll leave me here because no matter how hard I try to make a life out there, it doesnât love me back.â
Jaehyun was perplexed, eyes scanning your face. He knows youâre projecting, that you donât want to get attached despite already having done so, he hopes you could see inside him to understand that he doesnât ever want to leave. He doesnât want to leave you.
His hands cradle your face, kissing your eyelids, cheeks, nose, and lips for reassurance. âI can always come back. After publishing whatever I have in hand, I will always come back. You are the life that I needed all along, Y/n.â His whisper is heavy and sincere, the glimmer in both your eyes, evidence to what both feel.
Words donât describe what you two feel, no matter how heavy they hang on your tongues. No, itâs best that you share it in another tender kiss that the stars and moon witness. Both end the conversation, convinced that the love you two port is stronger than the universeâs will.
Quick glances and kisses are stolen for the following weeks, everyone knows what both feel but itâs more exciting if you pretend as if this love is forbidden despite the encouragement and approval of your family. Ollie teases you two about the brewing romance, pretending to act like he didnât say anything regarding it when you correct him that nothing is happening. Itâs like a game for all of you, one that you all indulge in for the sake of excitement.
You had all agreed upon visiting a thermal spring this morning, the drive was somewhat long and it was best to arrive before other people did. Ollie was the most excited about it, he had begged his family to let him go for days until they agreed. It just so happens to be that the universe doesnât often like to see him happy; you donât appreciate that.
Ollie had arrived with a glum look on his face, saddened eyes when he sat in his usual seat next to the chimney. Jaehyun approached him with a cup of hot chocolate and a pat to his head. Your grandma didnât take long to question the reason behind his state but he only sighed.
âThey moved the pension collection to today. The offices will be closed until next month for remodeling so you two have to go in before the line gets long.â His lip juts out, looking at everyone with puppy eyes.Â
You ruffle his hair, rubbing his back comfortingly. âWe can go tomorrow, Ollie. Donât worryâŠâ You mimic his pout, his head rests on your hip, pressure tickling your hip bone. âNo⊠Dad is taking me with him out of town for a few weeks to help with the ranch that hired him.â He doesnât dare look at anyone. Itâs not the first time he was taken to different places in the country but when they came back his dad usually kept Ollie locked in for a while until he became unbearable to keep in. Itâs as if he relishes in your joint misery.
Jaehyun throws you a look, looking for ways to solve this crisis. He knows you donât like the news, he hates them too. Heâs grown so fond of Ollie that knowing heâs the first to go is causing a small turmoil in his chest. Sure, he may be back and Jaehyun will still be here but one never knows how things may turn out.Â
âWhat if you and Jaehyun go? I have to take my grandparents for their pension so you two enjoy.â Ollie wishes things were that easy but his childish intuition fears that time is coming short and if you donât spend more time with Jaehyun, heâll feel guilty for whatever ending comes.
Ollie shakes his head, standing up. âNo, itâs fine. You and him go. Iâm going to take my dad anyway so I can take them too.â He attempts to smile even if he canât. It dawns upon you that missing the trip isnât his concern but not seeing any of you for God knows how long is whatâs killing him.Â
You try to deny, shake your head in protest. Jaehyun does so as well, itâs not that he doesnât want time alone with you but knowing this is his last day with Ollie for a while is killing him. Your grandparents hadnât said anything up until this point. They werenât fond of swimming, they never did.
âOllie is right, you two go.â Your grandmother spoke, standing to grab her purse. âI canât leave you two, what if you need help?â You attempt and they protest, your grandfather jumping in by throwing in Jaehyunâs limited time. It seems theyâre all far more in tune with reality than you two.
You donât know how or when but they managed to convince you and Jaehyun to go. Both attempted to protest and cancel the trip all together but here you were, in your grandfatherâs old and chipped red ford. The seats torn apart, a blanket hiding away its imperfections. The red leather of the dashboard hot under Jaehyunâs touch, its form of showing that you two being left alone was real.
That now you didnât have to talk through a window in the bathroom to spend some alone time. You didnât have to climb on the sink and hit your head on the roof just to see his face through the mangled chicken wire and be received by concrete flakes on your lips and eyelashes whenever you attempt to kiss through it. No, here you were able to hold hands and kiss without fear of being caught (even if it didnât matter â everyone knew).
The roads were messy and bumpy, dirt flew all around which forced you to keep the windows rolled-up despite the sunâs rays being hotter than the actual weather. Worse off is that once he came out of the truck, a gust of cold breeze rained upon him. Showing him everything he had missed while struggling with heat and keeping dust out of your airways.Â
It was a reward but also mockery, to him at least because you remained unphased, rejoicing on how lonely it was. âReckon everyone is getting their pension, too?â You ask, hands on your hips, ripping some overgrown grass by your feet to make sure no venomous critters are around.
Jaehyun shrugs, letting his focus remain on his surroundings. It was amazing for him to see how deserted and destroyed this place was. Overgrown yellowing grass that stray cattle eat, ruins of houses from colonial towns signaling the fleeing of whoever had inhabited them before; your grandfather had later explained that the location was a town destroyed in the process of gaining independence.
What was prettier to him was the body of water he was here for. Multiple trees around, so green and alive in comparison to the remaining vegetation. The water is so clear and warm that he could see the steam rise the closer he got.
âLike it?â You question, to his side with towels on your shoulders. Jaehyunâs head whips, a smile on his face upon reaching for your hand, âItâs beautiful.â His fingers interlace with yours, camera in hand positioning it an arms length away when he takes the initiative to lean down and kiss you, capturing it all on film.
You shove him playfully, rushing to a dry rock where you can leave your possessions. He chases after you, removing his shirt and unbuttoning his pants. Your instinct to look away is something he does not miss and it causes a blush to creep up on his face.
He takes in the temperature of the water with his feet. Jumping back when he realizes itâs hotter than what heâs experiencing right now. âItâs not that bad.â You call out, pulling down on the bottoms of your dress swimsuit. Your smile softly falters when he doesnât respond, rather his attention is set on how pretty you look.
The trees sway, leaving empty slots for the sunrays to seep through, illuminating you. Seemingly purposely done, to put you on a pedestal for him to look at with nothing else but admiration. That blush he had earlier rose again, one heâll pretend is due to the waterâs temperature.
âWhat are you looking at?â You tease, smile back on. Jaehyun approaches you with a shrug, shirt unbuttoned halfway. His fingers thread over the fabric of the straps, such a pretty lace decorated with satin red ribbon forming a bow at the front. âYou.â He smiles, warm fingers touching your arms in hopes to feel closer than he already is in all senses. You donât respond but heâs aware that the look you give him is fond.
Your hands mimic his, finding their way to his shirt and helping him undo the last few buttons, pushing off the linen to free his flesh and let it be kissed by the breeze â something you can only wish for. Once off you toss it to the pile of clothes and towels, cocking your head for him to follow you into the water. Itâs glistening and steaming, soothing once his feet acclimate.
Silent sounds escape both, little by little submerging yourselves â your hands not letting go in any instance. âMy mom and aunt loved to come here. Theyâre hypochondriacs â at least my mom isâ always claiming a trip here was healing, holistic. Forcing my grandparents to put their feet in at least so the warmth would take away any aches.â Jaehyun could see how your free hand rubbed at your knees, mimicking their action.Â
âPretty sure they take from my grandma but my grandpa was more of a people pleaser so heâd tell them he felt much better just so they wouldnât feel bad. I donât really see how this can take away all your aches. I get that it can help temporarily but not permanently.â Your shrug and words may tell him so but Jaehyun can tell that your vigorous rubbing at your own joints was a form of subconsciously believing them.
âMaybe⊠It seems like a mutual interaction of comfort and understanding. Your mom and aunt try their best for their parents to feel better about their bodies wearing down and in turn they receive praise and appreciation from them.âÂ
Your hand stops its action, looking up at him with a hum. âI guess so.â You mutter, letting go of him to float on your back. âThe writer in you just had to make it so philosophical.â he can hear the smile on your lips, your feet playfully kicking some water onto him to which he laughs, responding by splashing you too. Calling a truce when he was winning this battle.
As a way to comfort, he pulls you in for a hug. Your back to his chest, head resting on his shoulder and holding onto a railing to not float away far deeper. If it was for Jaehyun, heâd love to stay like this until it was time to go. For once in this entire trip you two have been truly left alone. No more sneaking kisses and late night talks through the bathroom window. It was just you and him an hour away from civilization with only the cattle as witness to the love you two didnât speak about but embraced.Â
There is nothing more Jaehyun wants than to have more time with you. He wonders if things would have been different if he had fallen for you much earlier or if you had. Heâs not fully sure how much you love him, he knows youâre stuck on him leaving sometime in the future which is what hinders this from going forward but he truly wishes you could see that he has no intent on leaving soon or for too long.Â
What if he had helped you clean the pen earlier? That would have meant spending more time with you and more outings with your family, surely. On the other hand, what if he had been useful enough during planting? Itâs evident he would have never gotten close to you beside cordiality in the mornings and afternoons for meals and trips to the market.Â
Jaehyun cannot think of a world where this trip would result in you two not becoming closer. He canât fathom not getting to know and falling in love with you.
Sensing his pensiveness, you turn your head, looking up at him with a questioning look that he could only interpret as trying to read his mind. Heâs noticed that quirk, the way your head tilts and your lips quiver in a way to mutter a âhmâ without voicing it. He makes sure to receive it with a smile, leaning in to peck your lips that surely help you abandon your actions.
âItâs a bummer Ollie didnât come.â He attempts to distract. âWould have been nice seeing him have some fun before leaving.â Thereâs more to what he had said. Jaehyun wanted to add âbefore I leaveâ into his sentence, itâs hanging on his tongue despite how much his brain and heart attempt to keep him wrapped around his delusion of perpetual happiness.
âI think so too.â your body twists within his arms, facing him. âI was thinking of making his favorite meal for dinner once we get back. His dad always returns him skinnier and paler than how he leaves, I need him to keep his cheeks plump, donât you think?â Your exclamation forces a chuckle out of him, nodding in response.Â
âHelp me find a gift for him too, then?â âDonât spoil him too much, heâll be an even bigger pain than he already is.â âOh come on, donât be so mean to the kid. Let me, pleaseâŠâ Jesus, if anyone was to hear you two theyâd think youâre talking about a child and not a nineteen year old. But thatâs what Ollie is to you both. A child you saw as yours or your brother that Jaehyun would spoil while you scold him no matter how much you loved him. Youâd reckon Ollieâs presence kept you sane even if he often teased you but his nature was enough to bring entertainment for you and joy for your grandparents. If Jaehyun looks back at it, Ollie reminds him of the young boy he met in that taxi on the way to that village.Â
Reluctantly (faking so) you agree, rolling your eyes before pushing him off to swim away from him. He doesnât stay too behind, chasing you for what feels like forever. Overworking your body for hours in such a hot body of water had rendered exhausting for both to the point that you basically had to drag each other out of the water just to lay on the cool metal ramp, gasping for air acclimation to avoid fainting. Jaehyun was far more concerned with you when he didnât hear you speaking nor felt you moving, calming when you stick your tongue out at him for his nosiness although all you wanted was to see him smile.
âYou complain about Ollie but it seems like the real brat here is you!â He exclaims, gaining momentum to swing his legs onto both sides of you. âCry about it.â You mutter, a smile on your face; his hair hangs off, fuzzy around his eyes and dripping onto your cheeks. âOr⊠maybe I should do something to correct it.â His hair tickles your face, sticking to your cheeks the more his lips linger on them, testing the waters.
He relents when your arms wrap around his shoulders, leaving him flush over your body with nothing left but your lips to connect. Theyâre cold and pillowy, soft against your own just like his hands when they find purchase on your waist, holding you near as if the spring water below you will drag you out of his grasp, the last thing he needs.Â
Jaehyun is gentle in the way he holds and kisses you. His hands knead your skin, warming against it the more they roam around to hold you closer. Your fingers thread through his hair, sending shivers down his spine that causes him to sigh into the kiss, enough for your tongue to slip through and deepen the kiss. The intensity rose, his hands felt much hotter against your skin the lower they went, scalding when one of them grips your upper thigh âavoiding the bruising from whiteyâs assaultâ helping it raise to rest on his hip.
Tongues mingle amongst each other, the taste of the mango juice he drank earlier still coating it to which you enjoy against your own. The thin film of saliva on both of your lips helps them slot smoothly in a far more pleasant kiss. Jaehyunâs fingers knew how to tease you, tips tickling your inner thigh that forced small groans which begged him for more.Â
More, more, more â Jaehyun would have given you everything if it wasnât for the faint sound of music blaring and tires pushing dirt through Cattle began mooing, warning you of company joining, spoiling whatever comfort you two had.
You scramble to grab the towels, Jaehyun helps you, drying you off with his own and taking the remaining items under his arm to help you towards the truck, staying guard while you change into dry clothes coming in when you knock against the window. He doesnât bother changing, claiming the air will dry him well enough upon.Â
You cross paths with the incoming truck, nodding your heads in acknowledgment before embarking on another long ride. Small talk made here and there, he speaks about how much this road reminds him of Western America: dry vegetation and barely any trees insight but with lively mountains that shield anyone from the sun. You tell him that it seems interesting how he describes that part while detesting Connecticut but he laughs and shrugs.Â
Itâs not long until you stop at a gas station, the truck nearly empty and he still had to change into some dry clothes. He met you inside, walking through the aisles in search of a snack for whatever was left of the ride.Â
Jaehyun doesnât share your sentiment. He finds himself distracted by a corner of toys, a bright red truck similar to the one youâre transporting through catching his eye. It glimmers under the sun rays that make way through the window panels. Jaehyun thinks it would be a good gift for Ollie, a menial one for now.
Paying for the items and heading outside with you hand in hand, Jaehyun recalls seeing a photobooth by the bathrooms. He pulls you along with no response to your questions, motioning with his head for you to push through the red velvet curtain. The first image is neutral enough, smiling while looking directly at the mirror, the flash comes in and you two hold each other. By the last two flashes it resulted in engraving the image of you two kissing.
You laugh at him for sneaking in a kiss and having it on film, he shrugs you off knowing that it was an image heâd like to see at all times and heâs hopeful you do too. You still needed to wait for at least four minutes for the film strips to develop, leading Jaehyun to slot in more coins claiming he wanted Ollie to have something to remind the young boy of the two.Â
Jaehyun truly wanted to say that he hoped Ollie wouldnât forget that the two loved him. He hoped a flimsy piece of paper was enough of comfort to Ollie as they will be to him.
Pulling out a pocketbook rushedly, Jaehyun manages to scribble his support and appreciation for the young boy. Thatâs an image of himself alone, handing it to you to scribble something quick before the flash goes off again. The last two flashes are paraded with you two making faces you often made towards him â sticking your tongue out or scrunching your nose, the latter his favorite one.
âGood luck in your journey, youâve done so well these past months!â âOllie! Remember to eat all your meals and no buddy-budding with any louse. Youâre a good boy!â âFighting our lovely, Ollie!â Compliments of Jaehyun. âWe love you, Ollie. More than you think.â Now that comes from the bottom of both of your hearts.
Jaehyun bought a jacket for Ollie once back in the village while grocery shopping at the market for the voyage dinner. For the first time since he arrived you had trusted him to navigate the village on his own. The everyday route was engraved onto his brain, finding you shortly with the jacket in a wrapped box. You wanted to see it but he told you youâd have to wait until Ollie opens it, he didnât want to re-wrap this himself.
Your grandparents and Ollie didnât arrive until a few hours later when everything was set up already. Jaehyun arranged the table outside with a fine china that belonged to you, not the one in the cabinet. He had attempted to help you in the kitchen but backed off when he saw your eye twitch the second he mixed a pot on the stove. There he learnt that getting in your way while cooking wasnât a good idea so he instead went to feed the pen animals and loiter around to write the letter heâd give the young boy with his gifts.
Ollie could have sworn this was a delayed birthday party. Jaehyun had arrived a week after Ollie turned nineteen, missing any form of celebration. Now he was complete, this had to be a form of celebration and not a voyage dinner, it just had to. Otherwise why would he be crying at the dinner table?Â
Ollie would like to think his tears represented the impending doom you were all to face one way or another with his absence. Both figuratively and and literally; comically and realistically.Â
The hands on his back and shoulders try their best to comfort him, whispers of how this was yet another trip meant to minimize the meaning of this but Ollie knew something was wrong, something none of you did just yet. He smiled widely, tears streaming down his face, laughing in order to control himself but your gentle wiping and hugs made him fall deeper into that feeling. His childish intuition as you all call it.
Jaehyun on the other hand decides to pull out his gifts in hopes it would help but it only made Ollie cry harder. The younger spews his thank youâs, hugging Jaehyun for comfort to which the older one takes, his own heart filling with such an aching pulsation. He ignores it, it doesnât matter what heâs feeling, he wants Ollie to take a good look and remember him in a bright light.
Ollie wore the jacket all night and took it on his trip â along the letterâ, never letting anyone touch it. He left the truck with you and your grandparents, he knew itâd be far more safe with you than with his brothers.Â
The dinner didnât spoil after his crying fit. Your grandmother had playfully scolded him to get a grip while your grandfather helped him with a shot of liquor. It progressed onto serving them all dinner, Jaehyun helping you throughout all steps while your grandpa complained about the long lines for their pension and all the old people as if he wasnât one of them. Your grandmother only backed him up a few times, rebutting his claims in others just for the sake of arguing which caused laughs to leave everyone.Â
It wasnât anything new, Jaehyun had grown accustomed to their conversations. They may argue right now but other times the tone of their voices sounded harsh when all they were doing was conversing, as peaceful as they knew how. He wonders if this will ever be you two although heâs not sure he could raise his voice at you or vice versa.
Night had fallen faster than any of you would have wanted. Usually Ollie would leave whenever he pleased and no one would bat an eye but in the past hour his father had called nearly ten times and it was bothering your grandparents. You and Jaehyun too but not as much as the elders since they were the ones inside. Your grandmother had been yelling from her bed to tell Ollie his dick of a father was on the line again, in fact by the fifth call no one answered, they just knew.Â
So when the tenth call had rung, Ollie who had been helping you put away the left overs answered angrily telling his father to fuck off and that heâd be on the way soon, received with some scolding from him that he didnât finish spewing from how fast Ollie hung up. It didnât mean your scolding wasnât on the way with how piercing your glare was.
Like a kicked sad puppy, Ollie goes to you in hopes his affection would soften the blow. âThatâs not how Iâve raised you, Oliver! Your dad may be a deadbeat but you still shouldnât talk to him like that â at least in our presence!â Your fingers nip his earlobe, a yelp leaving his bitten lips and a grunt to follow.Â
âYou know my grandparents donât like when you talk back so donât do it again when theyâre around, okay?â You say, a hand on your hip like a mother scolding her child. Thatâs essentially how you saw him and how he saw you.Â
âSo I can talk back in front of you?â A cheeky smile received with a soft pinch to his ear. âNo!â Your smile betrayed your words. He giggles at the reaction he got out of you, twisting out of your grasp to take you into a hug.Â
âI really wish you would just enjoy the present and the time you have with Jaehyun without dwelling on how long or how little he has left here. Enjoy the love heâs giving you and return yours, he needs it too, Y/n. For what is left...âÂ
He sighs, holding you in a firmer grasp. Words donât quite describe what you want to answer with but you knew he was right despite your initial hostility.Â
You kiss his cheek, nodding as a response. He mimics your actions before waving and heading over to your grandparents to bid his goodbyes before leaving through the middle room.Â
Jaehyun doesnât know why he disappeared after dessert. Perhaps he didnât want to face Ollie when he left and had to say goodbye, he wasnât good with those. So here he was, on the roof next to the water tank, filling it up as an excuse to why he was so detached from everyone else. It didnât matter though, Ollie had found him immediately that when Jaehyun heard the clanking of boots he gifted the boy against the rusted ladder, he felt dread.
He pretended to be people watching, seeing how a guy on the right side cleaned his car (it is meant to rain tomorrow or overnight). In the front, a woman bathes her dogs within the vicinity of her patio, the dog shaking and getting the water all over her. On the dirt filled path, children rode their bicycles, going around any ditches and potholes that would make them fall.
Ollie joins him, standing besides, focusing far more on how the sun was setting. He allows Jaehyun to speak first but frowns when he doesnât; the faint sound of the phone ringing again makes him shut his eyes.
âThank you for the gifts, youâve done far more for me than my own dad.â He bitterly chuckles. Jaehyun turns to him, a small grin on his face that falls when the younger one speaks again.
âYouâre avoiding me.â âNo.âÂ
His voice wavers, eyes trying to show Ollie he wasnât. Ollie chuckles again, shaking his head.Â
âI get it, donât worry. I donât want to say bye either.â âI donât want to say bye.â
Ollie nods, looking at the sights Jaehyun had looked upon. The car was clean despite the sprinkling, a child had missed a bump and fell, and the dog was laying back on dirt.
âJaehyun, it does mean a lot to me what youâve done these months. You kind of suck with labor and all but youâve been of great help.â He laughs, hoping his teasing jab will ease the tension. Jaehyun rolls his eyes, hitting the back of his head softly with a silent laugh. âIâm serious though, youâve been of great help to Y/n, itâs not easy dealing with the house work and being a caretaker. I think youâve helped liven her up more. Iâm glad youâre able to think about your present with her. I hope it doesnât change, you make her happy and we like seeing her this way.â Ollie sighs looking at his watch, the sun has set.Â
âI hope youâre still here by the time I come back homeââ He laughs, cutting himself off. âItâs not even my home.âÂ
âIâve never felt more at home than here, I understand.â
Ollie smiles at his claims, he nods with a final sigh. Before going down he gives Jaehyun a final hug and a tight squeeze. The older man mimics his actions to demonstrate his own affection.
Midway down the ladder, Ollie stops and Jaehyun tilts his head. âBy the way, this came after you left earlier today.â He pulls out a wrinkled envelope from his back pocket. Immediately recognizing the ivory color and red wax seal, all Jaehyun knows is that he wonât read it any time soon.
âBye, Jaehyun.â âBye, Ollie.â
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Things didnât go back to normal after Ollieâs departure, no matter how hard everyone pretended that this hadnât created a rupture into the atmosphere â a breach to the eco. It goes to say that Ollie helped things feel easy and fun, he was the joy you all needed and now he was gone. Things felt mundane again and to Jaehyun this wasnât a foreign feeling but one he did not want to have here.
A week and a half without him already feels like an eternity. You and Jaehyun wonder if this is what parents feel when their children finally part ways.Â
On the brightside, his conversation with you helped you ease into what you felt for Jaehyun. Yes, you still sneaked kisses and affectionate touches here and there out of respect for your grandparents but it was so obvious what you two had that the elders didnât tease you anymore for the glances and blush.
Mail day has arrived and Jaehyun once again has received a letter, one he thinks about throwing onto the pile of drafts heâs written and discarded. The letter Ollie handed him before he left tucked in between those.Â
He thanks the mailman, putting down the rake he used to pick up fallen leaves. Your grandfather had taught him to put them in a pile to later be burned. He contemplates throwing the letter in, watching the red wax seal spread as it melts. He can't, though, the bold red letters screaming âURGENT!â make themselves present to him.Â
Jaehyun sighs, shaking his head wondering what it was now as he opens the envelope. Simple greetings, some scolding and questioning, and a plane ticket. What? That was enough for Jaehyun to ignore his nonchalant attitude and let panic take over him. He took the effort to read over the letter closely without missing a detail.Â
Why the hell would he have a plane ticket?!
âDear Jaehyun,
No, scratch that. What the hell is wrong with you? We havenât heard back from you since that call and youâre not answering the one letter we sent you. We figure and understand youâre having a great time but it does not mean youâre meant to forget your responsibilities back home. Remember how youâre supposed to send drafts? Right, you havenât done that and given the changes made while youâve been gone itâs best you get to it!
We miss you so donât regard this letter as totally reproachful. Please be sure to be here and donât miss your plane. Weâll make sure to send a fax before you make it to the airport. Till then, enjoy your time and give us a call as soon as you can.
Sincerely, Jude.â
Well this has severed his plans and mood. Was it not enough to have one departure?
30 AUG 87, 17:30 time of departure, one way only. Red bold letters mirroring the ones that caught his attention to read the components of the letter. If he had known it was for this, he wouldâve thrown it in the pile of leaves and act clueless if he was to ever receive an emergency call.
His aggravation was noticeable to you the second he stepped inside the vicinity of the patio. His face sunken, something it wasnât before leaving to clean outside. Not to mention it seemed like he was biting the inside of his cheeks, holding in his breath as a form of repression. You watch carefully, pretending to not have noticed him while cutting sugar canes near his room. Â
He sees you and he wants to ask something or at least find a way to begin this conversation. He should tell you, no? He should, he knows it but heâs scared and also a coward who waits for you to throw the first stone.
âSomething happened?â Jaehyun stops by the step before the kitchen, facing you with a slight shake of head. âUm⊠does the phone run overseas calls?â Itâs your turn to shake your head, firmly unlike him. âAlright, Iâll be back in a bit.â
He bolts out towards Gabbyâs with the ticket inside his pocket, crumbled and wrinkled like the letter Ollie handed him. The older woman seemed to have understood the reason for his visit. The second she saw the familiar face, she pulled that phone she loved so much to the counter along with the catalog and timer, dialing the code before handing it to him. Jaehyun was thankful she didnât drag it out, he needed answers immediately.
One ring, two rings, âHello?â Good, rapid enough.
Jaehyun grips the phone, a tight hold that makes his subconscious scared that heâll pop this heirloom. âI donât want to go back!â Well, thatâs a way to start a conversation.Â
Hyunjoo laughs, calling Jude over to let him know their golden boy finally contacted them after four months. Jude wasnât as kind as Hyunjoo, he took the fatherly role seriously and began berating the younger of the three on why he had gone rogue.Â
âWhat if something had happened to you? Do you not care for what we feel, Jaehyun. If it wasnât for this idiot I wouldâve sent you letters and even gone to pick you up, so donât ever pull this on us again! On me, again!â One can only imagine how red he was, up to his receding hairline.Â
Jaehyun wouldâve laughed in the past but now the life heâs built here is soon to crumble and he doesnât like it. âIt doesnât mean you guys can just force me back! Iâve built something here, I have something going on! I love it here and I donât want to leave!â He whines, obvious hurt in his wavering voice.
âYeah, well, whatever you have going on should be finished soon. You know, you only went there for inspiration and to blow some steam off, Yuno. Nothing else, my boy.â If Hyunjoo was there he would pat his cheek reassuringly, unaware of how much Jaehyun hated his little acts of condescension and belittling.Â
Jaehyun didnât want to finish what he had here, he wanted to stay forever. He wanted to stay with you, your grandparents, and Ollie. He wanted to be here by the time Ollie came back to greet him with a big hug, a meal, and a trip to the hot spring he wasnât able to enjoy before leaving. He wanted to build a life with you. Court you properly, date you, travel with you. Even marry you, he doesnât care how early this is or how late, he wants you and everyone heâs learnt to love these months in his life. Of course his career had to get in between him and his happiness like always.
Jude sighs, massaging the bridge of his nose. âListen, Jaehyun⊠Thereâs nothing we can do, have you read the letter we sent you a few weeks back? That explains it all. Believe me when I say that if it was for me, you could stay there for as long as you want and go back whenever the book is publishedââ
âThatâs the plan.â He interrupts, teeth gritting. Jude and Hyunjoo give each other a look, one that would make Jaehyun feel far more defensive if he could see it. âJaehyun⊠things have changed within the publishing house. Go read the letter and weâll see you Monday, yeah?â
Jude waited for an answer that Jaehyun never gave him. He hung up quite forcibly, receiving a glare from the store owner who muttered the amount. He didnât stay for his change nor cared for her screams telling him to take it. Jaehyun was in an irritable mood that no one could take away from him today.
Things were definitely not fine. Thatâs as much as you and your grandpa could decree when Jaehyun crossed the patio straight into his room, closing the door behind him without uttering a word. The elder and you removed kernels in front of his window, under the tree for shade. You could hear him mumble incoherently, his eyebrows furrowing the further he read.Â
âWhat bug bit him?â Your grandpa whispers, cocking his head to the open window. You shrug, throwing away the cob into a bucket, fuel for the chimney. âGo ask then.â So persistent and straight to business. âWhat? No! Iâll wait until he tells me, paâŠâ But you did want to ask him what was wrong, more than anything. Itâs just that your cowardice wonât allow you. The older man rolls his eyes, clicking his tongue in disappointment while feeding the chickens with fallen kernels.Â
Time and him can only tell what heâs feeling.
âDear Jaehyun,
For starters, we miss you dearly. At least I do but find it in your heart to believe Hyunjoo does so as well. Weâve respected your wishes on not contacting you, even through letters but itâs been over three months and you have yet to let us know how you are doing. Do you not care for mine and your familyâs well being? I care for yours, Iâve been restless all these months wondering how you are doing. Itâs far too irresponsible to not even contact your own family, Jaehyun.
Is the book in the works? How are the drafts? You know we needed drafts mailed throughout your stay, young man. How is the host treating you? I figure well enough if you havenât contacted us yet. If not then Iâll see myself forced to call the national guard if I donât hear from you soon!
Regardless, some updates on how things are going on our end. Weâve been able to fake some notices here and there to the publishing house about yours and the drafts whereabouts. If you must know, if you havenât figured it out already â which is possible, being in such an isolated village⊠â Mark is in the process of publishing his next book. His last ones have been a great success and been able to knock some of yours from bestsellers therefore things are becoming harsh around here.
The publishing house wants you back immediately and wants your book ready. Hyunjoo has managed to give you more time before itâs edited and the final print is chosen but the new investors are pushing the house and they are desperate for a contender against Markâs book. So please, cut your time short and donât miss your plane! Iâll make sure to send the ticket soon when Iâm able to obtain it.
Best regards, Jude.â
Jaehyun doesnât know what to think. He now understands multiple jobs are on the line but so is his happiness. Even so if he goes and turns in whatever he has â which isnât enough for even a first draft â what guarantees all of them that it will be published by the time Markâs is? They canât just publish some nonsensical thoughts heâs scribbled down for the sake of beating another child protege author.Â
Markâs work is far different from Jaehyunâs, heâs youthful in the way he writes, his metaphors are far more enthusiastic and fun. Heâs great within young audiences and those seeking to remove themselves from melancholia. Heâs everything Jaehyun isnât and in both their brains, they know they canât compete for something neither are reaching for.
Matter of fact, thatâs not his concern right now. His concern is on how to break the news to you and your family. Heâs supposed to leave by the end of this week, what are you going to do in such a short notice? What is he going to do in such short notice? Things were finally starting to align, why must bad things always happen to himâ youâ both.
One thing is for sure, he has to tell you immediately. But first heâs going to go back to Gabbyâs and buy whichever pack of beers and some chips, maybe even some bread in case you feel your blood pressure rise (heâll eat it, most likely). Arriving there and getting the items, heâs grateful the older woman honored the change he had left, even gifted him a chocolate as she sensed that something was off. Jaehyun thanks her and contemplates on saying goodbye but itâs too soon. Instead he nods and waves on his way back. Â
He doesnât have the courage to go past the threshold, opting to sit on the uncomfortable and textured concrete bench by the door of yourâs and your grandmotherâs bedroom. He hears the loud melodrama of her soap operas and the sewing machine she doesnât leave alone. Another dress for you, he figures sheâs making.
Thereâs the faint sound of music coming from your grandfatherâs car, the one he and Ollie worked on often and that Jaehyun began helping with due to his absence. It pains Jaehyun to know that the elder will once again lose the aid he claims to not want but appreciates wholeheartedly.Â
His sigh elicits company, or perhaps the pop from the beer bottle had attracted it so here you were, standing by the metal threshold that separated you and him from inside to outside. Your head tilts, looking at him as if trying to read the grievances on his face.Â
âMisery likes company.âÂ
Your voice makes his head snap, eyes glistening while drowning in the sweetness of your company. He smiles shortly, patting the empty spot to his right, the sun is setting fastly.Â
He takes your hand into his, kissing the palm and fingers before pulling you in for an embrace. All of this was scaring you the more and more he remained quiet and it only seems like your brain was already processing the inevitable.
âGot a letter from my managerâŠâ âSo?â
âMy ârivalâ is putting out a book soon according to them and they want me to send in a draft already for the final print.â His fingers curl at the quotation marks, rolling his eyes at how stupid it all felt. âAh⊠well, do you have anything to send then?â He shakes his head, apologies on your face. âWe can stay this entire week so you can work on it, how does that sound? Pa doesnât have to check on the crops any time soon and there isnât really anywhere else we could go, not anywhere near.âÂ
Thereâs so much pep in your voice that it hurts to think about how short the remaining days will feel. He has to tell you and he has to tell you now.
âI leave this Sunday, Y/n.â âOh.â
Jaehyun didnât mean to say it like this but how else was he meant to? He didnât want to drag it out longer nor agitate you but he also didnât want to hurt you and thatâs all he can read on your face. Hurt.
Misery does love company.
Your body slumps against the adobe wall, harsh against your backbones. The hand he holds falls limp against his touch and all Jaehyun can do as comfort is kissing it before placing the open bottle in your hand, opening another for himself.Â
He hadnât had the time to burn the pile of leaves and the sun was far more foreign by now. That shade of blue coloring his face, an obvious demonstration of his feelings from the past hour. Yet itâs you who takes the initiative to take out the box of matches from the apron you wear, forgetting that you were cooking dinner just to check up on him.
The flame catches fast, rising as you whisper your grievances into it, taking a sip of your drink. Jaehyun doesnât say anything, he tries to take a hold of your hand but he hesitates, fearful that you wonât want it. Instead he throws both letters onto the fire, helping its consumption and anger. At least now you both have let something go.
The morning after, both elders made sure to not ask any favors out of him and let him to his own vices. They understood heâs meant to get his work done so they didnât want to add stress onto him. But this continued onto the third and fourth day of the week and Jaehyun was aching more and more as his time fell short. He felt just as inutile as his first week, if not more than that week. He also felt his heart ache only having meals to spend with you all but even then he began feeling like the foreigner he was.
Conversations with him were as cordial as before but not as cheery. They asked about his book and what he had ready. They asked if his suitcase was prepared and if he was happy to go back home. Your grandpa did his best to joke around but would soon drop it when he felt his voice tremble. Heâs always worn his heart in his sleeve and another one he saw as a son will now leave him again.
Your grandmother on the other hand was the most level headed. She made sure Jaehyun was kept on track with his work and even helped clean his room when he begged her not to tire herself. Sheâs faced much loss and pain, a stranger leaving wasnât going to knock her down. If anything, she feels for how you will act once heâs gone.
By dinner time you and your grandfather had bolted out of the kitchen, feeding the animals any leftovers and giving them their own meal. That left him and your grandmother in the kitchen. She was in the process of taking some water from the bucket in the chimney, he did it instead. Pouring it into another container where your grandmother would then add cold water for balance.
She thanked him and told him he should go back to work but Jaehyun didnât want to leave. He didnât want to be alone, heâs been so for the past three days and itâs corroding his soul. He wants to take away the happy memories, he wants his final days to be fun. Heâs begging for you all to not do this to him. He needs contact and affection, he needs it.
âSo⊠you have everything ready?â She tries to converse, passing the soapy sponge over the dirty plates. He nods, rinsing it. âNot excited, Iâm guessing.â Jaehyunâs pout is enough of an answer. âLook at it on the brightside. Youâll be able to get it over with and the doors here are always open for you.â
He should know she means it, the problem is that he doesnât know when heâll be back. How long will it take for the book to be published? How long will promotions last? What if heâs forced to work on something else straight after? Jesus Christ, heâs not even back yet and heâs already stressing about his reality.
âYeah?â âYes.â
Jaehyun smiles at her.Â
âWill you take care of Y/n for me?â He asks again, putting away the dishes heâs rinsed. She laughs nodding, âSheâs taking care of us, I think sheâll manage well.â Jaehyun laughs as well, feeling foolish. âI donât think you should worry too much about her, Jaehyun. Sheâs strong and can handle this. As long as you two keep in contact, I believe it will be fine.â She pats his back, leaving a wet hand print that warms his muscles.Â
He contemplates on taking the advice. Your grandmother has said everything he already knows about you but perhaps heâs projecting his own feelings. Heâll need another source for advice and thereâs no one better than your grandfather.
Jaehyun excuses himself, rinsing and drying the few dishes left before walking out to help your grandfather on the car. The older man sat pensive while looking around the vehicle, loud music coming out of it to drown any thoughts.Â
Hopping on the co-pilot seat, Jaehyun smiles at him, dusting away some stray picked up dust. âItâs looking better now.â He compliments, your grandpa nods, humming with a following hearty laugh. âYouâre much better at this than me.â The older one shakes his head, continuing his laughter. âThese things take time, you just need to practice more. When you come back Iâll help you with it.â Your grandpa is far more hopeful than the rest of you, that reassures him enough.
âYouâll let me in again?âÂ
âYes. You make my kids happy and youâve been of great help even when you didnât have to.â His laughter subsided, turning into a smile he was struggling to maintain. âItâs a shame youâre leaving so soon.â He hiccups, waterworks on the way. âWeâll miss you, kid. Especially Y/nâŠâ The mention of your name was enough for him to begin his silent sobs, tears beginning to spill.Â
If there is one thing he can count on is your grandfather expressing what you and your grandmother arenât able to. Jaehyun sniffles himself, comforting with some rubs to the olderâs shoulder before hugging him. Now he knows how appreciated and loved he is and for that he is thankful.
Your grandpa attempts to stop crying, laughing in between to seem like everything was fine. That was always his way of trying to control himself. âYouâll come back, right?â Jaehyun nods, smiling at him while wiping away a stray tear. âAs soon as possible. I want a life here.â Your grandfather smiles at him, looking straight to where his headlights shine.
âIâm not from here either. I was born and raised in a city an hour or two from hereâ youâve been there, thatâs where the airport is.â Jaehyun recalls his first day, the bustling and loud city with historical architecture. It was beautiful, surely, but it doesnât compare to this village and its own beauty.
âIâve worked my entire life since I can remember, seven to be specific. By eighteen I found myself here, I was young and my only experience came from the mines and cleaning cars but agriculture is a booming business here so somehow I found my way to a ranch that was hiring to work on machinery. I didnât know how to work a car let alone a tractor but I was hungry and needed money to send back home. My dad died when I was only three and my mom was left alone with five kids. I had to help her. I lied my way through with the owner and I was young so he took me in.âÂ
Everyone starts somewhere and soon falls in love with the place.
âI stayed at a shack they had built by plots, their own home wasnât too far so I often went by to ask for a glass of water. Thatâs when I met Y/nâs grandmother. Sheâs always been this cold and serious. I would chug the water down and then beg her for more. She would roll her eyes and complain but would always come back with it filled to the brim, ice cold.â He laughs, tears finally gone.Â
âFrom then on I kept trying to talk with her even if she pretended to hate it. Iâd ask her sisters and sometimes her brothers but it was tricky, I didnât want them to beat my ass up for thinking about their sister! So, I would have enough with whatever conversations we would have when she brought the workers drinks and food or at dances. One time her own father told me to ask her to dance and since then I never left her alone. With his blessing, then none of her family would interfere and sooner than later I asked her to marry me so here we are, sixty years later and twelve kids.â
âIs this you giving me your blessing to be with Y/n?â Jaehyun half jokes but thereâs so much sincerity in his voice that he canât deny being hopeful. The older man nods and laughs, clasping his back. âAs if you needed it⊠I often went back to my own family but still came back because I love this place and everything it has offered me. Similar to you⊠I hope your love for Y/n is as strong as mine was years ago. I would hate to see a different fate for you two.â Â
Jaehyun didnât know how to respond to that, he truly wished to be back as soon as possible and he would fight tooth and nail to make it possible. Yes, itâs different from him and your grandfather due to the distance but he will make it work because he loves you, he loves you so much that he canât seem to express it properly.Â
âThank youâŠâ âItâs just advice.â
The older man leaves him to his vices and thoughts. With another laugh and a nod bidding him goodnight, he turns the car off, leaving Jaehyun in the dark.
Jaehyun thinks about both conversations all night. He feels a sense of relief knowing heâs had a heart to heart with two of the most important people in your life. Itâs good to know they approve of him and the love he has for you. He hopes youâre as understanding and hopeful as your grandparents.
Saturday came as a surprise to him. The roosters werenât the ones to wake him up, it was your grandpa who excitedly told him to gather all his things. Jaehyun tried to question what was going on but the elder gave him no time. His hearty laugh was enough of an answer, taking the few suitcases he saw in the corner while pushing Jaehyun into the restroom to get ready. Heâs not sure whatâs going on but he wonât protest, itâs the first time this week that he feels included.
Within half an hour everyone was ready, Jaehyun noticed you too were surprised by the sudden change of plans. You werenât your usual put-together self and kept yawning resulting in you sleeping throughout the entire car ride. He took this moment to take pictures of the road. Previously he had compared it to his time in West America, he now doesnât think itâs too comparable. The vegetation is bright and green, most of it coming from incoming crops and lively trees.
Within an hour your grandfather stopped at a town, it was time for breakfast. Both raved about the food despite how spicy it was while you and your grandmother made fun of them. Jaehyun took this chance to take more pictures, candid ones of you and your family with the prettiest decoration in the background. Every memory counts.
Afterwards, you all take a moment to explore the quaint town for a bit, simply so Jaehyun can get some souvenirs. It reminded him of two past towns heâs visited during his time here. One where he had to fight for a seat to be able to eat. Meal which ended up being one of the most disgusting things heâs ever had. He wonât ever tell the rest of you that but you share his sentiment. The second one being where your grandpa struggled to find parking and almost left. He likes that one better.
Itâs not to say this town isnât beautiful, it is. Itâs historical, colorful, and calm. Very calm and quiet, something that reminds him of the best village which is where he resided for the past few months. How he loves it there and heâll hold it to his heart.
Getting his pictures and souvenirs, it was set to take another two hours on the road, only stopping when having to use the restroom which unfortunately due to age is something your grandparents needed often. In those moments Jaehyun would reminisce on the day you two took those photos and bought Ollieâs truck, the one he saw daily perched next to the fine china in the cabinet with a passport picture of him.Â
âWell here we are, the city I was born in.â Your grandfatherâs voice made sure to take away the last bits of drowsiness from you. Your last visit was at fifteen and from the looks of it, nothing had changed. Itâs amazing for Jaehyun to tell how different life was between the countryside and the city. The moment you all came to see the skyscrapers and bridges, it felt like a totally different part of the world. It was louder, much more polluted and littered, but for sure not horrendous. Your grandfather made sure to tell him the story of this city like he had done for every village and town visited.Â
For the majority of the day you all spent it looking around. At the entrance, your grandparents pushed you to ride on the cableway that dropped you off directly downtown. You tried to make them get in it with you both but they excused themselves with being too old and preferring to meet you there with the car. You all knew it was so you and Jaehyun could spend a couple of minutes alone.
âItâs pretty.â âNot as pretty as home.âÂ
Jaehyun smiles at you, taking your hand into his. You return the gesture, squeezing his warm hand in yours.Â
âIs your city pretty? Iâve heard it is.âÂ
âIâm not talking about where Iâll go back, Y/n. Iâm talking about back home. With you, your grandparents, and Ollie.â He wraps an arm around your shoulder to pull you closer. Within you and the colorful buildings beneath, Jaehyun is sure to say the view during his time has always been beautiful.
âDo you truly want a life with me?â You shift, close yet with a distance. It was a simple answer, thereâs no reason to lie. His smile, dimples, eyes, and even his reddened ears told you he did. Words are preferable though. âYes.â leaves his rosy lips, kissing you to imprint the confirmation.
Only time will tell how true to his word he is.
You met your grandparents shortly, both bickering about where to reside when night befalls. The topic fell to deaf ears, prefering to explore more about the city. Murals that he wouldnât forget, traffic as bad as where he resides with the exception that entertainment began the second redlights turn on. Street food that smells delicious and calls his name within every second.Â
Itâs similar yet so distinct from what he has learned to love. Itâs clear to him that no matter how familiar you are to one thing, there will always be more to learn about it.Â
It was near dinner time and within an hour or two from sundown. That forced your grandparents to argue again about the same thing from earlier. This time you two got to learn that your grandfather wanted to rest in his childhood home with his family while your grandmother wanted to avoid that at all costs. Sheâll tolerate a visit but wonât give them the benefit of being their host, thatâs her role. Not to mention she wonât forget all their wrongdoings towards her and her husband no matter how much the latter attempts to have a happy family.
Words thrown here and there, you all decree to eat out. Both you and your grandmother brought up the time his sister cooked unhygienically that he ended up having a stomach bug for the following three days. He laughs at this and leads you all to your favorite spot, somewhere Jaehyun yearns to taste again for years to come.
You all do end up visiting his family before the sun falls, a quick in and out situation. Jaehyun didnât pay too much attention to the conversations, he was more entranced with the portraits on the walls and the cracks of chipped paint that told the story of this home.
âWhy do you keep looking at the cracks?â
Your voice forces Jaehyun to turn to you, extending his hand to feel your warmth. âDo you think theyâre due to poor care or the house growing old with its inhabitants? Your grandpa said he doesnât recall the ones from this wall.â Your head tilts, looking at them as if you two were in a museum. Perhaps you should take him there tomorrow before his departure.Â
âWill you write that in your book?â He laughs, taking you into an embrace. âOkay smarty pants how do you word it normally, then?â You return the gesture. âI wouldnât even think about it for starters, thereâs so many back home. Why would I care about this one?âÂ
âIâve seen how much care you all give the home, thereâs barely any cracks. The question is answered for that house.â
âThen⊠I guess you can find an answer for this one. Weâve been here for an hour or so and thereâs plenty more people living here who havenât greeted them at least.âÂ
You both turn to your grandparents. Grandma sitting silently and aggravated in the corner with a cup of water that she hasnât touched. Your grandfather enjoys his talk with his sisters despite their spouses talking over and for them. His nephews and nieces, nowhere seen but heard through these same cracks Jaehyun wonders so much about.Â
Yes, he has his answer. A house without love crumbles faster.
The sun had fallen sooner than expected and with that your grandmother finally found an excuse to leave. The other elders offered to let you all stay with no avail when even your grandfather told them it wasnât necessary. He knew of a nearby hotel, clean, and hospitable that you could all stay at and his wishes were final.Â
Immediately as the doors were closed behind your backs, the ruckus of the other four families living there could be heard. Itâs clear as day where their intentions laid and why not a single picture of you or your family was on their walls.
When questioning why he denied their offer knowing other times heâd agree immediately, he only muttered a simple: âThey didnât even greet you or Jaehyun. What kind of hosts will they be?â Jaehyun felt a part of the family.
Room distribution went as follows. Your grandfather and Jaehyun would share a room, each with their own bed. Same thing applied to you and your grandmother, a concept you knew too well. This was the first and final night in which you two wouldnât share a kiss through the bathroom window. You miss it like youâll miss him.
The following morning isnât as kind to either of you. The previous day none of you were able to process the severity that it was his final day with all of you. Enamored with what the city offered and the warmth of feeling loved by everyone within the circle, no one felt the harsh reality that is now overcoming you all. Thereâs ten hours left of his stay. Â
Silence is the first thing that you all notice, no matter how hard you all try to erase it. Being aware that time is ticking weighs down on your shoulders. Walking through these streets feels slightly surreal. Like a Dali painting, walking through a sea of melting clocks. A torment is what heâd call it.
He manages to get a few more souvenirs, heâs not sure for who or if heâs trying his best to collect every single piece as a memory, heâll lean towards the latter. Besides, he snags some final gifts for you, your family, and even Ollie, itâs the least he can do besides memories. Heâll be taking those and who knows when heâll be able to show them to you all.
Within the fifth hour your grandparents rendered themselves tired and tried forcing you two to go on your own. Jaehyun didnât want that, as much as he loves time with you, he also loves spending time with them. The two have taught him many things, brought many laughs and anecdotes he cherishes dearly.
To be maintained happy, he invites you all to a final dinner. Itâs much earlier than usual but he would miss his flight if youâd have to wait till usual hours. Your grandparents attempt to protest, claiming theyâre bad hosts if they let him pay but theyâre fighting a losing battle and Jaehyun will make sure he can grant them everything before he goes back to reality.
Itâs by far enjoyable and it helps him reminisce on all previous meals within those cold adobe walls he loved since day one. Itâs dim in the restaurant, recalling the time it rained so hard the streets became rivers and light went out for the remainder of the day. You all ate under candle light while your grandparents told scary stories of the village.
Dinner was the only condition for you to leave your grandparents to rest. With all the heaviness in his heart, Jaehyun fulfilled their wishes. And while you thought it was best to leave them at the hotel, the two continued their stubborn streak and ended up sitting at a park to people-watch. Naturally, they needed live entertainment.
Three and a half hours left, so little time and so much left to do.Â
You essentially were a tourist just as him, both experiencing new attractions that you only saw in passing the one time you came by. It led to both jumping from museum to museum. National and independent, art and history, for food and tools. It didnât matter but it filled the empty space and the forced silence helped neither of you spill what flooded your minds.
âI liked the tools museum better.â You retort, almost skipping down the steps to avoid the sun rays. It was much hotter than it ever had been back in town. âReally? I thought the history museum was really nice.â He covers his eyes, rushing to your side. âNothing Pa hasnât told you.â He nods, shrugging with a little shimmy to his shoulders.
He looks at his watch and sighs, there isnât much time left. âWhere to next?â His words form a pit in your stomach, forcing yourself to look at the numbers on it. You ignore it, dawning on you that youâve never spoken in-depth about his job. Whatâs your thought process when coming up with your books?âÂ
He hums, âFor my first books, they were all inspired by cases I heard back home. Where I was born. Theyâre bleak but thereâs still a sense of hope. On top of it I read a lot of Dostoyevsky and Tolstoy growing up so I felt like a cynic comparing both their work, trying my best to create a middle ground that would represent me.â He cocks his head, itâs a bitter taste to him these days.Â
âThose two lead to my last two. Iâm not fond of them, I wonât lie. Theyâre rushed and robotic, itâs noticeable in the tone but the publishing house wanted something fast and since they sold well, they didnât care about how I felt, thatâs why Iâm here now. They wanted this book to be rushed and as miserable as those but I canât handle writing anything of the sorts anymore. I wouldâve ended up like Plath, Hemingway or Dazai if I wrote about how miserable life is once again.â
Jaehyun couldnât understand if the look on your face was pity or empathy, he didnât want to see it. âDonât worry about this one. Iâve found meaning and great inspiration. Iâll dedicate it to you.â
You laugh against his lips, pulling away to kiss his cheek. âHow will I know when itâll come out?â He shrugs, kissing your hand. âI donât either but Iâll make sure to deliver the copy straight to you.â
âWhat makes you think Iâll still be here by the time itâs published?âÂ
Jaehyun was under the impression that youâd be here too. Your grandmother had reassured him they would always have their doors and arms open for him but he never thought that meant without you.
âIâll find my way to you even if I have to go to the end of the world so I can read the token of my adoration for you.â
âOf my loveâ is what he wants to say, hanging on his tongue yet too scared to dive out. You seem to read his mind, kissing him instead to swallow what neither of you can say just yet.
 There was still some time left but nothing else worth seeing. Perhaps it was best to gather all your belongings from the hotel, you had the keys to the car and it shouldnât take you too long. By this point it would be best to waste time at the airport, as dreaded as it is.
Upon arrival time made itself present. The father clock in the lobby allows its ticking to echo through the tiles that you love. The ones in each room werenât any better. Screaming far louder than the rest that when Jaehyun finished packing his and your grandfatherâs bag to make way towards your room, all he could hear was the ringing in his ears. Dreadful and painful as the feeling in his heart.
He watched you look through the night stands, making sure your grandmotherâs medication wasnât left behind. He had done the same for your grandfather, his medicine case tucked inside his bag. Thereâs a forlorn look in his eyes, you donât miss it when turning to smile at him, comfortingly. You want to ask about it but fear it will consume you as well if you dwell on it.
âReady?â
Jaehyun shakes his head, joining you on the bed and taking you in a tight embrace. In every sense he wasnât ready to part ways. You try to laugh it off, kissing his cheek and tightening your grip. Your hands caressing his back to bring some type of comfort but it does the opposite.
Jaehyun can now understand why your grandfather breaks down so easily. The weight of oneâs emotions are soon to leave when you allow yourself to be free. That may also explain why heâs always so joyful, heâs free of all his grievances but for Jaehyun it will follow him for eternity if things are not fixed as soon as possible.
âThis isnât the last time, Jaehyun⊠Please donât cry.â You cradle his face, wiping away his tears that shine like diamonds under the sun rays peeking in through the window. He hiccups, sniffling to control his sobs. âIt doesnât change how difficult it is to say goodbye.â He pouts, lips so rosy and puffed. You kiss them tenderly for comfort and warmth, itâs the least you could do. Words arenât your forte and you donât want him to see how gutted you truly are despite trying to hold a front all this time.
Jaehyun returns the actions of affection, holding you for dear life while kissing you like no tomorrow. Muffled words leave him, incoherent to you yet you swallow them. Like the blood of Christ, you donât let a blood drop if it means your salvation.
âI-Iâ He attempts to sound what he wants to say, you donât allow him. Shaking your head fervently, slipping your tongue in the cavity of his mouth to mute him further. You know what he wants to say but if he does, it will make things far more difficult than they already are.
Jaehyun submits to your cowardice and lets the ticking of the clocks guide him. His hands hold your body near him, pulling you onto his lap to feel you closer. He wants more and so do you, God knows when youâll meet again.Â
Fingers threading through his hair, sliding down to his neck, kneading the warm skin you love so much. The actions lead to silent mewls to leave his lips for you to take. Youâre so appreciative of the gift that you deepen the kiss, letting his hands roam under your blouse to feel you closer and closer. Itâs your turn to gift him a sweet sound that he wishes he could trap into a music box for him to wind and listen to it on repeat daily.
Jaehyun decrees that your blouse is in the way. Too thick and cold, nothing like your skin as he feels now. His large hands take a firm grip of the textile, pulling it off. Youâre exposed and he can read what your heart has hidden all this time. Jaehyun prefers to kiss it away, his pillowy lips delicately falling against your chest. Kissing it tenderly to create more of those pretty sounds that hypnotize him.Â
You hold him while he does, kissing the crown of his head. Granting him what he wants while your hips softly rock against his, friction forcing him to become rougher. A soft gasp leaves your lips when he softly nips the goosebump filled skin, nimble fingers undoing your brazier. One hand covering one while his teeth take your nipple in between them.
âJaehyunâŠâ Itâs all he wanted to hear. His tongue is warm against your tit, kissing it like his life depends on it. Perhaps it does, neither of you are sure but prefer to act like so. You on the other hand work on unbuttoning his shirt, the cool linen doing no justice to the warmth of his skin that you crave. Little by little you both feel closer to each other.Â
He gently lays you down, between the warmth of your bodies and the sunrays witnessing your farewell ritual, the cold had nothing against you. You watch him, admiring every crevice of his body while pushing off your bottoms, leaving you bare for him to gawk at while unbuttoning his pants.Â
Your giddy smile teasing him to hurry, giggles reinforcing the sentiment. Taking his shaft in between his warm hands, Jaehyun begins to pump slowly. You attempt to replace his hands with your own which he denies. Your touch will send him overboard without even beginning.
Instead he crawls on the bed and over you, kissing you like he always does. With sweet adoration and love, one you take thankfully. You make sure to cradle his face, his upper body in contact with yours as his fingers thread closer in between your legs. The digits waltz around your inner thighs, reminiscing on the path you and him often took to the plaza and market for your daily shopping trips.
He smiles into the kiss, the memories of all heâs experienced with you consuming him. The position alone brings him to that day at the hot spring where you two began this but never got to go further. The wait was over and he had you here. Caged between his arms, flesh against flesh, warmth radiating and your pretty sounds that he couldnât get enough of.Â
Slowly his fingers intrude the cavern between your legs, a gasp leaving your lips that helped him deepen the kiss. His tongue enters your mouth, finding yours immediately to participate in a waltz where the two could share the words that neither of you were strong enough to share. His fingers curl and pump languidly within you. The action is so foreign and long forgotten that you feel like putty beneath him.Â
His name falls from your lips like a prayer, warm breath danced across his skin. Lips perfectly wrapping around the flesh of his red earlobe. Heâs so sweet and easy to digest, you wish to swallow him so he never leaves you but you know that canât be so you will make do with what these few minutes can bring to you.
Itâs not far off that he takes his fingers out of you, sticking his tongue out to savor you. Just as sweet as you find him. He moans in delight, rubbing off the dripping essence on his throbbing cock that had earlier been rubbing up against your leg. Jaehyun looks directly at you while pumping himself once again. You no longer look playful but rather hungry and desperate. You needed him like one would need air. Like an addict needs their fix and you fear yours will be taken away from you once youâre both done. The ticking clocks are making it boldly aware.
His eyebrows turn up, eyes softening as if asking if youâre ready. You nod as a response, replacing his hand and continuing his strokes, dragging him downwards slowly in the process. He knew if you touched him he would be thrown overboard, heâs near it but heâll try to last just for you. And for the sake to excuse being together for longer.
Jaehyun fixed his position above you, nudging your legs minimally to fit between them. He went in slowly, bit by bit. Avoiding any discomfort that he could bring you. You pay him with pleasured moans and kisses to shut yourself up, he graciously takes them.Â
âIââ he wants to say it, he wants to tell you how much he loves you. This feels like the perfect time. You shot him down again with that sweet smile of yours, shimming your hips to which he responds by beginning his thrusts. Theyâre gentle and steady, enough to make you feel something that youâre only able to describe through silent mewls. He holds you tightly, pulling one of your legs above his hip. Jaehyun tries everything to feel you closer, he wants to go deeper and deeper to no avail, his thrusts can only go so far and it makes him yearn for the possibility that he could have more of you but so little time and resources to figure it out.
Jaehyun canât believe this is it. Heâs thankful this is the memory of you heâll take with him, heâll cherish it with every fiber in him, treasuring it like one would the eucharist. All he could think about was how wonderful you felt and how perfect your body molds to his. If this isnât a sign that youâre meant for each other then he doesnât know what is.Â
He worships you in these moments and will continue to do so when heâs gone. He now understands the feeling devotees feel when finding their God and as sacrilegious as it is, Jaehyunâs mind wonât change. He loves you, he loves you, he loves youâŠ
And most of all you feel his love within you. It manifests itself through tears streaming down your cheek, moans muddled with sobs that he canât decipher to stop and comfort you or continue his thrusts. You answer for him, begging him to keep going, that youâre so close but he knows thereâs more to those words besides lust.
He prods, kissing you, being the one to beg this time to let him know what was wrong but you smile and kiss him along. Leaving a trail of kisses along his jugular and shoulders, hands grasping to his flesh for dear life.
âMy sweet girl.. Please tell me whatâs wrong? Y/n, I loââ âI love you, I love you, I love you! I love you, Jaehyun.â
Jaehyunâs thrusts speed with every repeated word, elated to hear you say what he has wanted to all this time. To hear you spew the words he finally had the courage to let out. For you to hear and engrave in your heart and brain the way he has done so with your own.
He smiles, kissing you with a final thrust. Pulling out to place the proof of his love on your cramping stomach, the pain leaving when you, yourself release. Without a care for the mess, he lays on you, craving your warmth and touch.
âI love you too. More than youâll ever know or understand.â The whisper pollutes the room, kissing you to cement the sentiment. You sigh, kissing the crown of his head, cradling his body against yours. If it was up to you, you would not mind dying like this. With the cityâs racket as background noise, your heart palpitating against his ear, and his breathing the anecdote to tranquilize you.
Time wasnât forgiving, his departure time was coming sooner than ever. Reluctantly, both pull away for a quick shower. It felt surreal how slow time felt when enthralled within the love you both had for each other but when reality hit, it rushed you all through the motion. Picking up your grandparents from the park, driving in silence to the airport while dealing with some traffic and the static of the radio. All of this just to arrive at the airport with minutes to spare and for the universe to not understand the pain you all felt.
Itâs surreal how cruel and love can be.
âI guess this is it, huh?â Jaehyun is the first to break the silence, holding back his sobs, the redness of his nose and ears give him away. Your grandfather laughs, nodding as he takes him into a hug in which both men break down in a fit of cries. Your grandmother gives you a look, she wants to say something snarky but her tough exterior proves futile when even she feels a weep stuck in her throat.Â
âYouâll contact us, right?â Your grandfather wipes his nose, sniffling while smiling warmly at the younger. Jaehyun nods, taking out his pocket book, scribbling his address for you all to send him letters. He doesnât need yours, he has it saved by memory.
Your grandmother is second in hugging him, slipping in a bill for him to buy something back home. Both know itâs useless where heâll go but heâll cherish it as a memory from her just like the box of cigarettes your grandfather had gotten him. He doesnât smoke but a token of love is a token of love.Â
The elder woman pats his cheek, smiling at him tenderly. She hopes this isnât the last time sheâll see him but she more so than anything hopes he doesnât disappoint you after this departure.Â
âTake care.âÂ
It leaves you at last. No more to say, no more actions to show. You just hope he comes back to you as promised.Â
âIâll miss you.â Your fingers fiddle with the paper in hand, his pretty handwriting hypnotizing you to believe this moment isnât real.
âI love you.â Thatâs enough to call your attention. His palm cradles your face and he steals a quick tender kiss. Embarrassment of having done so in front of your grandparents floods you, you only hope they understand which they do.
âI love you tooâŠâ
You had all drowned the calling from the greeter at the door earlier on but things had to be done and reluctantly you both let go. Watching him enter that path had taken a piece of you and when he was out of view, your entire body felt like it would crumble.
You tried your darndest to not cry. To not show your grandparents how much his departure was hurting you. Futile is what they would call it, your sobs were becoming louder as your grandfather drove back home, hoping to get there before night caught up to you all.Â
Nothing good ever comes out of crying. Youâve known this for a while, for you and your grandmother crying only continues to further make you miserable. Not like the relief it brings your grandfather and Jaehyun, thatâs something you think youâre both cursed on.
It wasnât too far on the road that you kept missing him. Regretting not carrying the film strip with pictures of you both to look at him at every moment now. Your only token of his existence came from the piece of paper between your fingers. Flapping around with the harsh air coming in from your grandfatherâs rapid driving.
You believe it smells like him, Jaehyunâs soft musk that you love with all your being. Itâs even warm from his grasp, and his pretty handwriting taunts you, letting you know it was permanent on it unlike with you. The paper will remember Jaehyunâs actions against it, it has proof, not like you who will rot at the fact that his actions can be erased easily. Whatâs worse is that the paper continues to torture you, freeing itself from your fingers and flying out of the car at a rate that even if your grandfather stops you wonât catch up to it nor find it.
âNo!â
Your words are useless and frightening to be heard from the elders who question what happened. You tell them between sobs, losing all composure. Hunching over yourself to cry against your knees. This was it, you knew it was too good to be true. Your only hope relies on the letter Jaehyun will send you.
Letters that will never arrive.
Questions. Thereâs plenty of those that have plagued Jaehyunâs mind since he left. He remembers leaving on great terms but as the months progressed his letters were left unanswered. If he had taken in the home phone number or Gabbyâs heâd call for them years ago. Instead he found himself at the front door of the place he once called home with a panic rushing through his blood stream but hopeful nostalgia in his heart.Â
There was a doorbell outside of the patio door, it had been painted orange. Very fluorescent, it reminded him of Gabbyâs store. He had passed by it on his way here, buying a few beers like the day he learnt he had to go back. She didnât remember him and he made no effort to remind her. Some things are better left in the past.
He didnât hear many animals inside and it worried him, scared of how much change had been done. It took a couple of minutes for the door to be answered. Received by the presence of a kid he didnât know but seemed to be around three years old.
âWho?â He looks at Jaehyun quizzically, tilting his head like Ollie used to do. âUm⊠is Mr. and Mrsââ âDonât open doors, how many times do I have to tell you that!âÂ
Well thereâs a voice he recognized. Jaehyun stood up straight, looking up from the kid to the owner of the voice. When both took in the image of the other, Ollie was the first to take Jaehyun into an embrace. So much giddiness and joy in his squeal that he felt like that nineteen year old again. Even his grasp is childish and brute, shaking Jaehyun around. Jaehyun laughs, squeezing Ollie in return.
âI didnât think youâd ever come back! When did you get here?â The patio looked the same. Fewer sheep and goats in the pen, Camila was gone and replaced with a pig. The dogs were strangers to him and the cats seemed to have forgotten him just like the chickens.
Ollie led him to the kitchen, at least that remained the same and he felt comforted by that fact. The two took a seat not far from each other, firewood crackling in the chimney to bring them warmth. Jaehyun handed him a beer bottle, cheering for his return and Ollieâs growth.Â
âWhy didnât you think Iâd return? I promised you all I would.â Jaehyun smiles, wiping away the alcohol residue from his lips. Ollie shrugs, doing the same. âYou never kept in contact so after a few months of not getting your letters we lost hope. I was really mad at you for the longest time⊠I thought you had just abandoned us⊠Y/n.â
Jaehyun is aware of the spite in his tone but he canât help but feel vindicated for something that isnât true. His eyebrows furrow, leaning over the table for Ollie to feel his confusion. The younger one tilts his head like the boy from earlier.
âOllie, I kept sending letters nearly every week for the past five years. I thought you all were the ones to leave me in the cold. What do you mean I didnât keep in contact?â The roles seemed to have reversed. Ollie mimicked Jaehyunâs stance, elbows on the table while downing the remains of his drink.
âWe never got a single letter. Pa was so disappointed he cried often about it. Ma didnât but it was obvious in the way she took care of her plants. Your departure was enough but you really hurt them after that, they saw you as a son, you know.â Ollie shakes his head, swatting a fly away to avoid looking at Jaehyun.
âAnd Y/n⊠you really ruined her, Jaehyun. She would spend days in your room hoping to find an address or a phone number. At least to reproach your actions but instead she would cry herself to sleep in there. Her parents had to take her back home after a year, so she found a job and Ma and Pa were taken in by their daughter. She was doing better by then but still had to stay in the city just in case. They left me to take care of the house but itâs not the same.âÂ
Ollieâs voice is no longer harsh, itâs hurt. Jaehyun canât help but blame himself with how things unfolded but he was sure he wrote those letters. He kept copies of them to recall everything he once said to you and them and if he had known you never received them, he wouldâve bought them.
âI-IâŠâ He sighs, âI promise I sent the letters! I made sure to drop them off at the publishing houseâs mailing room. I canât believe thisâŠâ His hand comes to his forehead but Ollie shrugs, picking at some peanuts he had laying around. âBeats me then. Why didnât you visit in that case? We waited long enough.âÂ
Reality is that there will always be evil lurking around and seeing how this place brought you joy and peace, the publishing house did everything in their power to yank it away from him. Jaehyun isnât a bubbling author full of life and hope. No, Jaehyun is a bleak cynical writer who dwells on the hatred he has for the house and manifests it through broody characters that find no meaning in life. If they had to bring that back, they would. He can have his one train wreck of a joyful book but newcomers have to go back to what they were.Â
Jaehyunâs head hangs low, all excuses feeling useless. âManger and publisher didnât let me. We spent two years editing the final draft and by the following, publishing was in the works but the investors tried everything to change it that we had to fight for another year or so. I wasnât even allowed to visit my parents, they had to come to me. Isnât that insane?â
Ollie nods, sympathy and pity muddling on his face. Cruelty at its finest.
âWe only traveled for promotions at the end of last year once it was published and some months after this one but I âescapedâ if you will and here I am.â His smile twists to the side, dawning upon him that misery will accompany him everywhere he goes.
âIâm sorry.âÂ
âFor what? Itâs not your fault.â Jaehyun hands him another bottle. Ollie nods, âI know, but things couldâve been different if you didnât work in hell.â
The two laugh, clinking their bottles again. All was lost but one thing and that was the hope of Ollie helping him connect with you and explain it all. He didnât want you to have such a bad image of him when all heâs ever done is show you how much he loves you.
âWhat have you done with your life then?â âI got married and had a kid. The brat from out there.âÂ
The kid had been playing with the hens outside the sprint door. Cats surrounded him and reminded Jaehyun of Ollie when he used to play with the animals while pretending to be doing labor work.Â
âLooks just like you.â The younger hums. âHeâs just like me too.â The two laugh heartily, reminiscing on your grandfatherâs laugh.Â
He hesitates for a moment but ultimately asks. âHowâs Y/n doing?â Thereâs longing in his voice but the look in Ollieâs eyes tells him something isnât right. The fact that heâs holding back a cough, a grave clue. The younger one wants to stall but knows that eventually heâll find out if he keeps looking.Â
âY/n is soon to get engagedâŠâ Like a bucket of cold water, Jaehyun feels his arteries clog and his body run cold, turning stone hard. âSheâs been seeing a guy from work for the past two years, they relocated him to somewhere in Maranello, and now theyâre living there. He sent a letter asking me to be there for when he proposes⊠I got the letter yesterday actually.âÂ
Ollie handed him the letter still inside the envelope. âHeâs a nice guy but lacks some sense. He treats her well and provides for her but Iâm not sure if itâll thrive.âÂ
The now father stands up with a bucket of corn kernels, calling his child to feed the chickens while theyâre all huddled together. He gives Jaehyun one last look with a mischievous smile plastered on his face.
âYouâre welcome to stay, in your old room or here.â Jaehyun thanks him. âLandline has long overseas calls now, do with that as you will.â A toothy reassuring grin, Ollie walks out of the home leaving Jaehyun to his vices.
He gives the boys one last look, gaze dropping to the letter and reading over it around four times. It lacks emotion, itâs formal and only demonstrates excitement when describing your work on the garden. The only thing that reminds you of this place now that youâre miles away. Behind it is a letter written by you.
âVery well, Iâll send you a care package later, Ollie. I wanted to remind you that we have a new phone so Iâve written it down. Donât forget to write it down in the contact book or youâll have to find a way to call me this time!
I love you, Gremlin, take care!
Sincerely, Y/n.â
If the angels werenât clear as day, then he was stupid if he didnât take the opportunity.Â
Jumping out of his seat to the bar, Jaehyun stumbles to grab the phone, nothing like Gabbyâs old dinky phone. He dials the foreign numbers, fingers tracing over your written name to feel the connection you did with the paper that lasted you a measly few hours.
âHello?â
That sweet voice transported him five years to the past. Trembling within the walls of his brain and heart, waking up whatever joy he once felt before leaving this wonderful place. Even when your voice seemed aggravated from the silence on his end while garnering courage, he felt alive again.
âHello?!â
He sighs, clutching to the phone for dear life, facing the outside allowing the sun rays to fall on him like the day he rested over your exposed body to feel your heart and soul envelop him in the love you once âand he hopes you still haveâ had for him.
âY/nââ â...âÂ
The hesitance hurts, old feelings swarming in like a desired plague. You wonât ever forget that voice.
ïżœïżœïżœJaehyunâŠâ âI remember everything.â
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The idea of Wade as a used car salesman found a love of his life during his midlife crisis before he met Logan. They donât have a clue that heâs Deadpool. They just fall in love with Wade the used car salesman Wade Wilson, even see him as a funny, harmless person till one day his partner showing a picture of Deadpool and goes âHe looks hot, could we find some costume to wear next time we fuck, dear?â
Wade totally forgot that heâs retired from Deadpool cause heâs in his suit, ready to fuck the love of his life for eternity. đ
Wade Wilson knew he was in love the first time you cried laughing over one of his stupid jokes.
Youâre probably too good for him with your easy smile and kind heart, and he knows heâs punching above his weight when he asks you out - but somehow you end up saying yes.Â
At the bar that night he keeps you laughing until there are tears in your eyes and then continues the show in bed. Itâs so lovely to have you all giggly under him, pressed into the mattress as he makes you cum so hard all you can do is moan.Â
You lie there, walking your fingers up and down his chest, molasses-slow as the streetlights outside your apartment silhouette you both in fluorescence.Â
âI like you, Wade. Youâre nice,â you sigh, in a way which suggests you donât often meet nice people. Ah man, he fucking melts. Heâs never letting you go.Â
Your relationship is pretty easy. He never feels like he has to work to impress you or keep you onside, you like him for him. Itâs a⊠refreshing feeling, from a world where Wade Wilson constantly feels like heâs too much.Â
He catches the Deadpool keyring on your house keys one night after the two of you have grabbed pizza on the way home; spotting the telltale red and black while trying to keep a pile of boxes in place between his hands and his chin.Â
âOh, Deadpool fan?â he asks, trying to affect nonchalance. He sees you get a little flustered.Â
âI mean⊠yeah? Back in his heyday I thought he was cute, kindâve a shame he disappeared. Merc with a mouth, whatâs not to love?â you pause for a second. âHe reminds me of you actually.â
Wade laughs at that way too loud and way too hard.
âWhat? No. Thatâs crazy!â
You throw him a side-eye but donât comment further.Â
He lets it rest for a couple of days so as not to draw suspicion, but when you make yourself a cup of coffee and his own mask is staring back at him from the ceramic, he canât hide his wandering eyes.Â
âWhatâs up?â you ask.Â
âNothing. Just didnât realise they made those.â He didnât get a cut. Should he have gotten a cut? Would have been nice if whoever had merchandised his face had asked him if he was cool with it. Â
âOh, look, everyone has a crush on at least one superhero, okay? Itâs impossible not to. Theyâre everywhere and theyâre hot!â
He lets himself digest this. You think Deadpool is a superhero? He didnât get that much. Mostly he was referred to as âgodâs curse to crimefightingâ. But also you have a crush on him? Both of these facts are⊠interesting.Â
âI⊠think Deadpool is hot, too,â Wade blurts out when he realises heâs been silent for ten uninterrupted seconds.Â
âOh,â you reply, settling down a little when it turns out heâs in agreement with you. âWell, cool! Glad we can agree.â
Phew. Got outta that one, then.Â
He really doesnât think any more of it, or tries not to, until a couple of weeks later when you bring it up in bed.Â
âWade, can I ask something kinda kinky?â
Cuddled in post-coital bliss, his fingers tracing lazy patterns on your skin, he pauses.Â
âAbso-fuckinâ-lutely, sweet cheeks. Iâd be offended if you didnât.â
âHow do you feel about roleplay?â
He turns to you with a grin which threatens to split his face in half.
âOh, youâve been keeping that under your hat!â he laughs, âBut, in answer to the question, very positive. What were you thinking? Cop and criminal? Nurse and patient? Iâm down to play any of those roles by the way, I believe in equal gender opportunities in the bedroom.â
You chuckle, but when you tuck a piece of hair behind your ear and try to work out how to phrase the next part of the question, he cottons on.Â
âOh my god. You want me to roleplay Deadpool, donât you?â
âItâs okay if you donât want to! Itâs just, you said you thought he was sexy⊠so I wonderedâŠâ
He puts a finger on your lips, stoppering the spill of panic from your lips.Â
âBaby, I am so down to clown that you might as well call me Pennywise. Let me sort the details and Iâll give you the best night of in-character boning thatâs ever been known to man.â
You look giddy at that promise. Truth be told, heâs kinda excited himself.Â
Wade retrieves the suit the next day and feels a little weird putting it back on, covering his body again with red and black. When heâs done this in the past itâs in order to go and kill like, a lot of people, not to fulfil a fantasy. But hey - thereâs a first time for everything. And itâll make you so happy, too.
You scream when he taps on your window from his perch on your fire escape. Admittedly he should have told you he was coming, but he thought it could be a fun and sexy surprise. He was wrong.Â
âWHAT THE FUCKâ!â
Wade whips off the mask as you lunge for your kitchen knife set, hands up in a gesture of peace.Â
âBaby! Babe, itâs just me!â
You go limp with relief, leaning against the counter to support yourself.Â
âHoly shit! Wade, what the fuck do you think youâreâŠâ
You trail off as you take in the picture of your boyfriend crawling in through the tiny window decked out in his suit. An eyebrow raises.Â
âOh.â
âYeah! See, I told you Iâd sort it.â
Anger and fear now completely ablated, you walk a slow circle around where he stands in your kitchen, appraising his look.Â
âThis is a high quality suit. Where did you get it?â
âPeter,â he says quickly. This isnât a lie. He did get it from Peter⊠Peterâs locker anyway. You look confused.Â
âOur coworker Peter?â When Wade nods you furrow your brow. âHe⊠he hasnât fucked in this suit, has he?â
âNo!â says Wade with far too much force. Actually he canât prove that. Now itâs an image he canât shake from his mind. Not super conducive to the mood.Â
He takes a knife from his belt, and your eyes go wide in a mixture of panic and arousal.Â
âOh my godâŠâ
âItâs blunt! Well. Itâs sharp enough for me to cut your underwear off, which Iâve been rocking a semi all day from imaginingâŠâ
From the smile which takes up your face, he knows heâs done right.Â
Any way you ask him to fuck you, he does. Over your dresser. Against your wall. While running the dulled point of baby knife over the curve of your ass as he pistons his hips inside you, getting the mess of your cum all over the front of his suit. Itâs filthy. Itâs fantastic.Â
But when you lay there cuddled up to his chest that night, Wade feels⊠conflicted. It isnât that heâs lying to you, exactly, but it feels like heâs keeping a pretty fucking big secret.Â
If you knew, would you still like him? Still want to be with him? Having a crush on a superhero is one thing, but being with one is entirely different. Ask any of the assorted Spider-Man and their various fucked up partners. It isnât always pretty.
As if determined to take his mind away from this thought you nuzzle into his side, blissfully fucked out. He buries his lips into your hair.Â
It never needs to be an issue. Deadpool is retired. Heâs never gonna be used for non-kinky reasons again.Â
âŠright?
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Temptations Pt.2
Early Seasons Spencer x Roommate Reader// NSFW MDNI
I just wanted to thank everyone for all the love on part 1 of this story which was also my first ever Spencer post. It truly means a lot and your comments, reblogs and likes are so encouraging and make me want to write more đ„șâ€ïž
Warnings: SMUT!MDNI!!, Sub!Spencer, Inexperienced!Spencer, Dom!reader, dry humping, palming. Whiny Spence makes me go BARK BARK. Mommy!kink, Light choking, Male and female orgasm.
3.4k WORDS (sorry i got a bit carried away)
Please like, comment, reblog if you enjoy! Im also keen to write more for Spencer so if you have any requests my asks are open :)
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It had been a couple of weeks since the incident with Spencer. You knew that you should have been riddled with guilt and shame after spying on him while he was vulnerable⊠and joining in, but you didn't. After all, he clearly wanted you and you definitely wanted him so what was there to feel bad about?Â
That night had exposed Spencer to you in a whole new light and it was getting increasingly hard to be around him. You found your eyes lingering longer on him, your mind concocting sinful visions of his long fingers, pullable hair, creamy skin that was just begging to be marked. In the dead of night, your hands would travel down between your thighs, a puddle of arousal waiting for you as you replayed the sounds of his needy whines and tried your best to imagine the parts of him that have yet to be seen by you. You had spent the last two weeks trying to come up with a plan to get inside his head⊠and his pants. But you were struggling. Spencer was sensitive and inexperienced and you didn't want to scare him away or embarrass him by being too forward or revealing that you had discovered his dirty little secret.    Â
Luckily for you, there seemed to be some mystic force watching and putting into place the ideal situation for the both of you to finally get what you want.Â
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âAlright spill, what is up with you tonight?â you asked with a hint of annoyance in your voice as you continued to clean up after dinner. Spencer had been off ever since he came home from the office, being especially quiet and sulky. You could tell something wasn't right when he got like this, you could practically see the wheels turning in his head as he sat through dinner eyebrows furrowed, his mind trying to put puzzle pieces together to resolve whatever was bothering him. Normally it was the case he was working on or some complex scientific concept he had been researching, but tonight felt different. There was an air of hesitancy and frustration that loomed over him like a storm cloud about to burst.Â
Spencer quickly met your gaze, his brown eyes widening as if he was shocked you had noticed his behaviour, like he hadn't just sat through dinner barely speaking two words.Â
âN-Nothings wrong. It's just uhh the case we're working on right now.âÂ
Spencer stuttered as he spoke, peering into his lap to fidget with his fingers. God those fingers, what you would do to feel them on your body or slipping in and out of your⊠Fuck no focus focus focus.
You finished drying the last plate and placed it back into the draw before you leaned both hands against the counter. Your position had you towering over Spencer who was seated on the other side,
 âYou are so cute when you lie.âÂ
You spoke playfully but couldn't conceal the underlying flirtation in your tone that was dying to come out and play. What you were able to hide was the bitter pang that shot straight through your heart. Not because he was lying to you, but because whatever he was going through he didn't think that he could talk to you about it. Â
Despite his enormous intelligence, Spencer was sensitive and he let things get to him. You knew how his team could be, picking on him because he was the youngest and less experienced in most areas of life. Despite your raging sexual attraction to the boy you also cared deeply for him and knew that if he didn't talk to you about it he would keep it bottled up.Â
Spencer looked to you again, he swallowed at the way you loomed over him his Adam's apple bobbing up and down in his throat. His cheeks had taken on a slight rosiness at your comment and you relished in the effect you had on his body, knowing exactly where his mind was probably heading.Â
He instinctively leaned in closer as he rushed to defend himself,
 âW-what! I'm n-not lying.â
You met his challenge by coming even nearer, now face to face with the boy wonder. You couldn't help but admire his beauty being this close, the way his glasses framed his big brown eyes, the sharpness of his reddening cheekbones and the way his pink lips were slightly parted almost welcoming you in.  Â
âYou think I can't tell when you're lying Spence? We've lived together for almost a year.â
The nickname made Spencerâs breath catch in his throat, he shifted nervously in his seat suddenly very aware of your close proximity. He tore his eyes from yours fidgeting anxiously, trying to ignore the familiar feeling of arousal bubbling in his stomach.
Spencer prayed that you were oblivious to the fact that being around you often excited him in more ways than one. He also prayed that you would drop the subject as he was sure discussing it with you could only result in his own humiliation. Spencer stood from his position and walked over to the couch partly to hide away from your questions but also to hide the way his pants had begun to tighten in a not-so-subtle way.
âFine, I lied! I just don't think you can help me out with this one. It's personal and kind of⊠embarrassing.â He let out a defeated sigh and buried his face in his hands. His attempts to detur you only heightened your curiosity and if his problem had to do with what you thought it did there was no way you were backing down now.
You sat down next to him on the couch and gently pulled away his hands so you could see his face.
âSpencer, you've literally seen me at my worst. How many times have you held my hair while I emptied my guts into the toilet after a night out? Or have to comfort me when I'm a mess after coming home from a bad date?â Or have me weak in the knees while I fuck myself to the sounds of you getting yourself off, âNothing you say could be any more embarrassing than anything I've done.âÂ
You place a reassuring hand on his thigh, feeling him tense up under your touch, you meet his eyes and spoke smoothly, âLet me help youâ.
If Spencer wasn't hard before he certainly was now, having you so close with your hands on his body made his brain go fuzzy and a burning heat had begun to engulf the air around him. As much as he didn't want to tell you what happened, he wanted your attention more, he wanted you to continue dotting over him and talking to him in that gentle affectionate tone. Maybe it was his nerves or the uncomfortable pressure of his cock straining against his briefs but before he knew it he was a blubbering mess trying to explain to you what had occurred earlier that day.
âI-its not really a big deal. It was just at work we got to talking about relationships and sex and everyone had stories to share but when it got to me I didn't know what to say and M-morgan made a joke about how I wouldn't even know how to get a date with a woman let alone please one and I know it was only a joke but I just-âÂ
You gripped the frantic boyâs arms tightly and stroked them soothingly trying to get him to slow down, âWoah woah slow down sweetheart. None of that is true, you shouldn't lis-âÂ
Spencer interrupted you, big puppy dog eyes staring into yours, âThe thing is it is true. Not the getting a date aspect, I think I could manage that but when it comes to sex I⊠Iâm not really the most experienced with that type of thing and Iâm worried that when I am put in that position I wonât know what to do.â
Spencer's cheeks burned with embarrassment at his admission and he struggled now to meet your eyes. You felt terrible for him and the way his work colleagues teased him but you also couldn't help but think how fucking perfect this all was. This was your chance to finally get a taste of the man who had been destroying your body and mind for far too long.
You sat up straight making yourself tall and turned yourself to face him, âI seeâ You replied and pretended to be deep in thought before lowering one hand to draw faint patterns on his knee. Spencer's jaw clenched at the gesture, his eyes glued to the spot where your feathered touch roamed.Â
âMaybe you just need some practice.â You spoke in a sultry tone as your fingers pushed deeper, nails scraping lightly at the skin beneath his pants.Â
Spencer let out an almost non-existent groan at the pressure, he was absolutely dumbfounded by the situation and shift in your behaviour. There was no way this was happening, no way you were offering what he thought you were. It had to be some kind of sick joke. The boy's voice had risen at least two octaves as he breathlessly replied,
 âP-practice? I umm Iâm not sure I understand.âÂ
You moved your hand from his knee and gripped his thigh firmly, moving it back and forth, sensually stroking. With your eyes on his lower half, you could clearly see the large tent that had formed under his pants. Your pussy clenched around nothing at the sight, your arousal intensifying rapidly and leaking into your panties. You were so in you thought to yourself a satisfied smirk forming on your lips.Â
You leaned in and whispered into his ear, âI think you do genius.â your hand slowly crept higher and higher towards his cock, ghosting delicately over his hardness, âI think your body definitely does.âÂ
Spencer let out a delicious whimper, sheepishly bucking his hips up to meet your hand. You chuckled at his eagerness and continued your torture, adding some pressure so you were lightly palming him, âIâm more than happy to help you out Spence, if thats what you want. You need to tell me if you want me to stop.â
Spencer was a mess, replying to your command with a blissful whine. He continued his attempts to push up into your hand needing more friction to relieve the unbearable ache between his thighs. To his dismay, you removed your hand completely from his crotch, instead wrapping it gently around the slender column of his neck.Â
The way he looked at you in that moment was enough to make you cum on the spot. His innocent big eyes were slightly watery from your teasing, his cheeks a new level of flushed and strands of his dishevelled hair hung loosely over his eyes. He looked at you with so much want, you knew he was putty in your hands. You shifted yourself so you sat in his lap, staring down at the heavenly sight below you,Â
âI'm gonna need to hear your words, baby. Do you want me to stop or keep going?â
The pressure of your body on his made Spencer squirm beneath you and you could practically feel the way his thickness throbbed against your core. Spencer looked at you with despair in his eyes as he involuntarily bucked up into you and begged,Â
âP-please don't stop!â
That was all you needed to hear to let the fun begin. You began to grind down with a slow but sturdy rhythm, earning an array of breathy groans from the boy under you. You leaned down and pressed a soft kiss on the corner of his mouth and whispered an encouraging âGood boyâ into his ear.Â
Spencer gasped at the nickname, his movements becoming faster and more frantic. Your warm body on his, the dominance of your tone, the realisation that you wanted him. It was all to much. He was grinding into you like a horny teenager, a mixture of moans and broken words falling from his open mouth,Â
âFuckk. Ahhh, please, pleaseâ his whines were like honey as they melted into the air around you and you couldn't help but let out your own at the way he writhed underneath you. You planted two hands on his chest giving you more leverage to rub back and forth over his clothed hardness as you slowed your pace, the new sensation sent you both into orbit, Spencer shutting his eyes tight with his mouth agape letting out shallow laboured breaths. His big hands went straight to your hips, fingers digging into the supple flesh there as he pushed you into him even harder. You threw your head back taking in the way his large bulge repeatedly bumped perfectly against your sensitive clit.  Â
âFeels so good baby, tell me what you want pretty boy.â you managed to ask through moans.
Spencer's eyes remained shut, completely wrapped up in the pleasure of the moment as he begged, âN-need to feel you. F-feel more of you. Need to kiss you please let me kiss youâ
The pathetic tone of his voice as he asked for your permission to kiss was borderline ridiculous, but he had been so good and you'd be lying if you said you weren't dying to feel his wet mouth on yours. You halted your movements climbing off his lap, earning a disappointed whine from the boy. Spencer opened his eyes and peered at you, waiting for your next move. You couldn't believe what a mess he was for you, the FBIâs golden boy absolutely pussy drunk and waiting for your instructions. It was laughable. And the hottest thing you had ever seen.Â
Spencer's anxious mind started reeling at the loss of contact and he began to fumble an apology thinking he had done something wrong, âI'm sorry, we d-dont have to. I just wanted to-â
You cut him off speaking in an authoritative voice, âclothes off and lie down.âÂ
Spencer looked at you hesitantly for about half a second then hurried to undo his belt and buttons, almost falling over himself in the process. While he worked you did the same, removing everything but your bra and panties which had become practically see-through from the wetness that had soaked through. By the time you were finished, Spencer was already lying nervously on the couch, his hands covering his exposed cock from your view. He spoke awkwardly,
âUmm, I don't have any uhh⊠protection.âÂ
You let out a condescending laugh as you stalked over to him, kneeling beside his head. You ran a hand through his soft hair,
âDon't worry sweetness, Iâm not gonna fuck you tonight. We have plenty of time for that.â Â
As much as you wanted to fuck his brains out, you were going to take things slow with Spencer and show him all the different ways two people could pleasure each other. He looked at you confused and began to ask what you meant but you cut him off by slamming your lips onto his, earning a surprised yelp from Spencer as your tongue slid into his mouth.Â
Spencer's kiss was sloppy and filled with need as he gripped your head between his hands and explored your mouth with his tongue. He tasted like peppermint and cinnamon and you found yourself lost in his kisses, falling deeper and deeper into an intoxicated bliss. You could stay with him like this forever, but you knew that there was a more pressing matter that needed to be taken care of. You moved from his lips to his neck sucking and biting every tender spot you could find that made him groan beneath you. You trailed your way down his chest to his abdomen, which was surprisingly toned despite his thinness. You stopped when you reached the place he needed you most, taking in the sight before you.Â
Spencer's cock was better than you could ever have imagined. He was bigger than you expected and extremely hard, his length pressing straight up against his abdomen. Your mouth watered at the way precum dripped from the top of his aggravated tip and slid down over the veiny thickness of his length. The view put you in a trance and you couldn't help but reach out and wrap your hand around him, stroking him softly and moving your thumb around his swollen tip. Spencer's hips lifted up off the couch as he moaned into your touch, you thought he might cum there and then so you halted your movements squeezing him at the base. Spencer whined desperately, his red tip had begun to turn purple from all the stimulation. Fuck he was so sensitive, so desperate to come that he began moving his hips, fucking himself into your hand as you watched on in awe.Â
But you didn't want him to cum like this so you removed your hand which didn't stop him from continuing to fuck up into nothing, getting closer and closer to finishing while you straddled him. He stopped moving when he felt your weight on him, he looked wrecked as he looked at you, his eyes glazed over in a dreamy, eager haze. You kept his gaze as you lowered your clothed core down onto the flatness of his length, his slickness only adding to the already-soaked fabric of your panties. You were throbbing at the contact and the friction of his cock sliding through your folds with only the rough cotton of your panties keeping you apart.
âWere you about to cum baby?â You began to move back and forth on top of him, matching his quick movements.
âYes.. Iâm S-so closeâ he panted suddenly jutting his hips against your slickness.
âWell that's too bad, you only get to c-cum when I say so okay? You spoke through moans as Spencerâs pace increased, a familiar tingly warmth beginning to radiate through your core.
Spencer didn't answer back, too caught up in the feeling of your wetness between his cock which had become drenched in your juices. You leaned down and gripped his throat, a lot rougher than you had the first time, âI asked you a question.â you ordered and Spencer was quick to reply, hips still moving at a frantic pace,
âYes! Yes Mom-â he whined but stopped himself stuttering to finish, âOnly when you sayâ
He had no time to feel embarrassed at the name he almost called you as he felt his cock twitch signalling that he was close to release. Little did he know that you were already aware of what he wanted and you were more than happy to give it to him.
Spencer's pace began to falter and his nails dug deep into your hips his own bucked wildly underneath you. He sat up a little allowing gravity to pull you down even harder onto him, each time he moved his cock pounded right against your clit creating a rhythm that sent you spiralling closer and closer towards release. All the air was sucked out of the room replaced by a sinful heat as the both of you used each other to get yourselves off.Â
Spencer whimpered incoherently, mouth hanging open, eyes screwed shut as he begged you to let him finish,
âPlea- fuck - please let me cum, please let me cumahhâÂ
Tears were forming in his eyes as you looked down at his desperate state, wrapping your arms around his neck you pushed your chest into his so you were as close as possible and whispered to him,
âYou wanna cum?â
âYes!â he cried âpleaseeâ
âOkay cum for me then. Cum for Mommyâ
Spencer let out a choked cry as he jutted into you with an animalistic force, holding you tight against him as he cried out,
âFuck Mommy, gonn- gonna cum. Thank you mommy, Thank you, Thankyo-â His own release interrupted him as he whined loudly into your shoulder hips rocking as thick ropes of cum spurted from his cock onto his abdomen. The sight of his pleasure sent you over the edge too, your orgasm crashing down on you as you rode it out overstimulating Spencer's already leaking cock.Â
The two of you panted heavily trying to catch your breath, you leaned down and planted a sweet kiss on Spencerâs lips which he gladly accepted. He chuckled underneath you and looked at you with bewilderment,
âI can't believe we just did that.â
You giggled lightly back, running a hair through his messy hair and replied,
âI can't wait to do it again.â
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synopsis: Gojo isn't feeling up to going on a date with you and Geto, but he thinks of another way to have fun with you.
feat.: Gojo Satoru x afab!fem!reader x Geto Suguru [established relationship] (Gojo's only in the start and end.)
warnings: 18+ content/smut; sex toys [reader wears a vibe in public]; edging; orgasm denial/delay; public sex [reader is fucked in a public bathroom.]; unprotected sex; p in v sex; creampie; praising [reader receiving]; pet names [princess, baby, good girl, pretty girl]; picture taking [Geto takes a picture without asking]
w.c: 5k
a/n: This took me entirely too long to write but hey its finally done. There is a planned part 2 but it's going to be a bit before that one gets posted. banner by @/benkeibear
Minors and Ageless blogs will be blocked.
"Come on 'Toru, are you sure you don't want to come with us?" You ask with a pout as you get ready in the mirror.
"I'm sure. I woke up with a headache, plus you two haven't got to do anything without me in a while. You and Suguru go enjoy yourselves!" Gojo says as he leans against the doorway watching you get ready. A new cafe had opened up that you had been wanting to try, so you were going to go try it today with Geto after doing some light shopping.
"We can go some other day if you're not feeling up to it? You know I like spending time with both of you, it doesn't have to be one-on-one."
"It's fine, you two can go try it and let me know what to order next time we all go."
"Fine, if you're sure." You say, drawing on your eyeliner. Gojo is quiet for a moment before letting out a hum.
"Actually on second thought, since you want me there so bad, I have an idea." He says before walking back into the bedroom and returning shortly with something in his hand. "Since you want to have fun with me so badly today too, how about a bet?" He asks with a cheeky smile on his face.
"A bet?"
"Yep! Since I won't be there physically with you, how about you take this with you as a reminder of me?" He says as he moves what was in his palm to hold between his thumb and index finger. You look back in the mirror to see him holding a pink vibrator. You recognize it as one he had gotten you for Valentine's day last year. It was a remote control bullet one that could be controlled from a phone app.
"You're kidding, right? And what does me wearing a vibrator in public have to do with a bet?" You ask incredulously.
"The bet is, if you can wear this the whole time you and Suguru are out, without you removing it, and without you coming, then I'll be your slave for a whole week! Whatever you want; I'll be at your beck and call!" He smiles at you cheerfully while he spins the bullet around in between his fingers.
"And what do you get if I take it out or come?"
"If you take it out or come, then you're my slave for week. Equal punishment." He shrugs before smirking at you. "So what do you say? I'll obviously have my phone on me at all times so if you ever need me to stop all you have to do is text me and I'll stop, but that will mean you forfeit the bet."
Your eyes flick back and forth from Satoru to the toy and then back again, worrying your bottom lip with your teeth as you thought about it. You weren't terribly keen on the idea of getting caught in public, but you couldn't deny the thrill of it either. Plus the opportunity to have Gojo completely at your control for an entire week was too good to pass up. You let out a sigh and hold our your hand to him to put the toy in.
"Okay, deal." You couldn't believe you were going to go along with this, but you did trust him to stop if it did become too much, so it couldn't be that bad right?
"Excellent!" He says. You wait for him to put the vibrator in your hand. He just raises an eyebrow at you and makes a spinning motion with his hand, silently asking you to turn around. Of course he would want to put it in himself.
You resign yourself to your fate and turn around so your back is to him as you bend over the sink. You feel him walk up behind you and playfully grind himself into your ass before flipping up the skirt you had put on earlier. He pulls your underwear to the side and teasingly slides the toy down your folds, using it to circle your clit before sliding it back up. You bite back a small moan.
"'Toru, hurry up, Suguru is waiting."
"As you command princess," He chuckles before pushing it past your entrance, just out of reach of your sweet spot. Gojo lets your panties snap back into place before giving your ass a playful swat. He bends over and gives you a quick kiss on the top of your head then leans down to whisper in your ear.
"There, all set. Just remember, this is the one that gives feedback to the app, so I'll know if you come." He straightens back up before yawning and stretching. "I'm going to go lie down, see you when you get home."
As Gojo returns to bed, you grab your purse and head out to the living room where Geto is waiting for you, dressed in a plain black t-shirt and a pair of jeans. When he sees you he gives a small smile as he stands up from the couch.
"Ready?" You nod and let him lead you out the door.
You both decide to take the train, the station wasn't that far away of a walk and you didn't have Gojo to complain about the fact you have a perfectly good functioning car to take, one that he rarely drove himself, the passenger princess he was.
The ten minute walk to the station passes by smoothly, you managed to walk normally despite the toy inside you. You couldn't help but get a little suspicious though, as Gojo had yet to turn the toy on.
It wasn't until you both had boarded the train that Gojo decided to start the toy. It was fairly crowded, so you and Geto had to stand. As the train went to take off, Gojo turned the vibrator on, setting it to a slow pulsing setting. You let out a squeak and rock forward into Geto, the sensation catching you off guard for a moment. He's quick to wrap his arm around you to try and steady you.
"Are you okay, Y/N?" He asks, looking down at you. You give him your best reassuring smile.
"I'm fine, just lost my balance for a moment." He accepted your answer easily before picking back up your previous conversation.
Which made you realize, you and Gojo hadn't discussed the possibility of Geto finding out about the bet. If he found out would you lose? The rules were you couldn't take the vibrator out and you couldn't come. It wouldn't really matter if Geto found out so long as you didn't go against the rule right? He might give you and Gojo a disappointed look for leaving him out, but that would be it surely? Or would he get genuinely upset?
Either way, you were determined to not let him in on the bet, at least not yet. It would be an interesting surprise for him when you both got home. Who knows? Maybe you could have him help you find some fun punishments for Gojo for the upcoming week.
The first store you stop in doesn't go as smoothly as you hoped. It was a clothing store, and you needed to pick yourself up some new work clothes. So far Gojo had been keeping the speed relatively slow, instead opting to just change the pattern in which it vibrated, from a pulsing one, to a constant one, to a deeper, rumbly one, then back. You could handle that with relative stealth, Geto seemed none the wiser to what you and Gojo were doing.
You had already decided to skip trying on any pants today, feeling how damp your panties were already. Shirts should be fine though, and if it ever got to be too much you could use trying one on in the dressing room as an excuse to get away long enough to adjust.
As you were about to pull a shirt you liked off the rack to show Geto, you felt the toy almost double in speed and return to a constant buzz, causing you to pause as your hand had touched the shirt. You felt your body involuntarily shiver at the change in setting. Unfortunately, Suguru seemed to notice.
"Is something wrong?" He asks, confused. You quickly let go of the shirt like it burned you.
"Yeah, just, wasn't the texture I thought it would be." You say as evenly as possible. You walk around the clothing rack to put some distance between the two of you, hoping he couldn't see the blush that was slowly starting to rise in your cheeks. As if to sabotage you, you felt the toy pick up in speed again. You needed to excuse yourself from Geto's sight and fast or else he was going to catch on.
You snatch another shirt off the rack you were vaguely thinking about before turning back to your boyfriend and announcing you were going to go try it on. You moved as quickly as you could to the changing rooms, leaving him far behind you.
Once you located an empty one, you went inside and almost slammed the door in your haste to get it closed. You sit on the bench provided and lean back, letting your head gently hit the wall as you rode out the wave of pleasure the toy was giving you.
You take deep breaths, trying to focus on your breathing as opposed to how good the toy was making your pussy feel. You spread your legs and pull up your skirt before looking down at yourself. Just as you expected, your panties were already soaked through from your arousal. You felt the toy change patterns again, this time back to the pulsing one. Good, even at a higher speed you could handle this one easier.
Deciding you couldn't hide for much longer before drawing suspicion, you steel yourself and open the door to find Geto waiting for you. He looks up from his phone to see you and pouts when he notices you weren't wearing the new top.
"Not going to give me a little show?" He teases.
"No, didn't like how it looked on me." You shrug as you put it on one of the return racks in the dressing area. You grab his hand and go to lead him out of the store.
"Already done?" You turn back and smile at him.
"Yeah, I'm not seeing much I like, plus we still have to stop by that bakery for Satoru." Even though the last thing you wanted to do right now was treat Gojo to anything. You could picture his smug face as he lazed in bed staring at his phone, thinking of the best way to push your buttons. As if on queue, the jerk changes the speed again to another setting higher.
You try to make it through the bakery as quickly as possible, both you and Geto picking out something you think Gojo would like and waiting to check out. He had yet to turn the speed down from earlier, and was cycling through the patterns faster than before.
You weren't sure at this point if he was trying to make you come or if he just wanted to torture you. Just as you could feel yourself starting to tip closer to your orgasm, he changed the settings, causing you to lose any progress you had before switching it back again with a vengeance. One particular cycle hit you hard, maybe because your body was almost to the point of begging for release, that you had to cover your moan up as a sneeze, burying your face in the crook of your elbow to hide your face while you got your bearings.
You kept silently praying that Geto couldn't hear the buzzing of the toy inside of you, but if he did he acted like he didn't notice.
"Are you sure you're alright? Your face is starting to get red and now you're sneezing. You're not getting sick are you?" Geto pushes your hair away from your forehead, trying to feel for a fever as he looks down at your face.
"I-I'm fine, really! Just allergies is all." You lie, hoping you sound more convincing than you feel. He looks at you skeptically before letting out a sigh and removing his hand from your face. "Fine, but we're stopping at the store on the way home and picking up some medicine for both of you."
By the time you make it to the cafe, you're surprised you're even managing to function. You're so wet that every step you take causes the friction from walking to slide just right on your clit. Gojo hasn't let up on his ministrations either, making it impossible to ignore the toy inside you with how often he was playing with the toy. At this rate you didn't think you could make it one more stop after this. You had already been so tempted to tell Geto that you were already tired and ready to go home, but seeing as how you had been talking all week about how badly you wanted to come, you knew that would clue him in that something was wrong which would lead to more questions and him possibly figuring out what was really going on.
By the time you got to the register to order, your mind was so hazy you could barely be bothered to read the menu, and just ordered the first thing you saw that your over stimulated brain could comprehend.
"I thought you didn't typically like those types of drinks?" Geto questions as you both sit down at a table closer to the back of the cafe with your coffees in hand.
"I thought I'd try something different. Since the place is new, maybe they'd make it b-better." You take a sip of the drink as if to prove your point but find that you did, in fact, not like the drink you had picked out. Too late to change it now you thought as you went to take another sip, trying to convince Geto you had totally made this drink decision with your sound mind, and not your horny one.
Gojo had other plans though as you feel him crank the vibrator setting higher, a little whine slipping from your lips as you brought the cup up to your lips. You quickly set the cup down and cover your mouth to stifle any more noises he might wring out of you.
Geto immediately narrows his eyes and you could tell he was catching on that something was amiss with you. He watches you closely for a moment before going to open his mouth to say something.
"I-I need to use the restroom." You say shakily as you abruptly push your chair back and head towards the bathroom at the back of the cafe. Damn Gojo, for picking the worst timing to turn the toy to a higher setting. You thought you heard Geto calling after you, but you were so focused on trying not come in public that you couldn't be sure.
You make it to the bathroom and let out a sigh of relief when you notice it's a one toilet kind and not a restroom full of stalls. Less risk of someone walking in and hearing you.
Or so you thought. As you opened the door to go inside, a gentle hand pushed you in, and you felt the presence of someone behind you as you heard the door close and the *click* of the lock. You turn, ready to tell whoever off only to see Geto had apparently been close behind you as you made your escape.
Geto gives you a stern, worried look, but before he can ask you what was really going on, Gojo decided to change the setting of the toy again, changing it from a constant whirring to the deep rumbly setting, causing you to let out a small moan. You slapped your hand over your mouth but the damage was done, Geto's worried expression turning into one of recognition.
He backs you up against the sink, using a knee to spread your legs open for him as he slides his right hand up the inside of your trembling thighs under your skirt and cups your throbbing cunt in his large hand. You couldn't hold back your whine, the feel of his hand on you and the toy inside of you almost pushing you over the edge. Geto quirks a brow.
"You're soaked. Did the coffee taste so good it got you this wet?" He teases before leaning forward and pushing his fingers passed your underwear into your pussy, poking at the toy inside you before murmuring hotly in your ear, "Or maybe it was this?" He goes to push the toy into your sweet spot, but you grab his arm.
"I, I can explain. P-please let me explain, I c-can't come yet." You rush out, squeezing his wrist tightly. Geto withdraws his hand from your cunt, opting instead to gently hold your waist.
"I'm listening."
You breath a sigh as you feel the vibrator inside you slow to a lower setting. Finally a break, you might just win this yet.
"Satoru and I made a be-" before you can finish, the toy spikes to what you assume might be the highest setting, causing you to whimper and drop your head onto Geto's chest while your hands grip the counter edge. You try to control your breathing and focus on literally anything that might distract you enough to keep your orgasm at bay. Geto being so close and smelling so good did not help.
As quickly as it started, the toy slows inside you. It was so going to be over for Gojo once you won this bet. Oh right, you were telling Geto about the bet.
"Go on," Geto says soothingly, rubbing what would normally be comforting circles into your hips but now it only served to further overstimulate you in your edged state.
"Right. Satoru made me a bet that if I-I can wear the vibrator while we're out and not come, then he'll do w-whatever I say for a week." You manage to pant out, bracing yourself for the inevitable speed spike you knew Gojo was going to throw at you any moment now.
"Hmm, that wasn't very nice of you two to leave me out." He mutters, still rubbing circles into your skin before seeming to lose himself in thought for a moment.
You had a sneaky suspicion that Gojo would of clued Geto in to sabotage you, but none of Geto's earlier actions suggested he knew about the deal. Maybe Gojo hadn't clued him in after all. A surprise really given how much they both love to tease you.
Geto lets out a small hum and you notice a dangerous glint in his eye when you look up at him. Taking advantage of your hazy state, Geto begins to slides your panties down your legs, letting out a low groan as he watches a string of your essence break away from your pussy. "God, you're so fucking wet."
"W-wait, Suguru what are you doing?" He picks you up and sets you on the counter next to the sink before he finishes pulling your panties off to let them dangle around one of your ankles.
"You and Satoru are getting to have your fun, so I'm going to have some myself." He pushes his fingers inside you again. You cover your mouth with the back of your hand and bite to suppress your moan as his thick fingers pull the vibrator slowly out of you. He holds the pink bullet in his hand and observes its buzzing. Gojo must have changed the setting again as now its pulsing instead of the one continuous buzz you had previously felt.
You hear as the speed changes, the whirring becoming louder and echoing off of the walls in the small bathroom. Geto brings it closer to his face and licks your wetness off it, letting out a small moan at your taste. Your eyes roll back and your head falls back into the mirror with a dull thud at the obscene gesture. He chuckles.
"Poor thing, Satoru 's been so mean to you all day." He coos as he pockets the vibrator and goes to unbutton his jeans and pull his cock out.
You didn't quite know what to do with realization that he was going to fuck you here and now in the bathroom. The competitive part of you didn't want to lose the bet, and knew if you told him to stop he would, but the part of you that had been edged all day was very excited at the idea of having his thick cock inside you. In the end all you could do was whine out, "Suguru, please."
"Shhh, I know. Trust me baby, as soon as I'm done here we'll go home and you can end your bet, yeah?" He peppered your forehead with kisses as he ran his fingers up your dripping pussy, carefully avoiding your clit, before using the wetness he collected as lube to stroke his cock to fullness.
Once he's fully hard he lines himself up with your entrance before slowly pushing in. He slides right in from how wet you are. You bit your lip as he bottoms out to try and hide your moan but to no avail, he just felt too good inside you. Screw it, if you came from this you could deal with the consequences of losing your bet.
Geto grabs the backs of your thighs, pushing them up and almost folding you in half before he starts thrusting in.
All you could do was let your head fall back as you moan. His cock felt heavenly stretching you out compared to the small vibrator you'd had inside you all morning. His thrusts start out slow, giving you time to adjust to his girth. Not that you needed it with how turned on you were from the vibrator. It doesn't take him long though to start a fast and brutal pace, leaving your eyes rolling back while moans and whines fall from your mouth.
You were close, so close, that hot coil that'd been tightening in your belly all day just needing that one final push before it would snap. But why hadn't you hit it yet? You're lust riddled brain trying to sort through the fog to find that last spark needed to trigger your release. It's then when you realize that at the angle Geto was thrusting, he was purposely missing grinding against your clit, and just barely grazing that wonderful, spongy spot deep in you. How mean of him, couldn't he tell how badly you needed to come?
You snake your hand down between the both of your bodies. If he wasn't going to be of any help then you'd do it yourself! Except right as your fingers find your clit, he stops you by grabbing your wrist and pinning it to the mirror above your head. You whine, tears starting to well up at the corners of your eyes from how frustrated you were.
"Sugu pl-please! I'm so close, wan' come," you plead, looking up at him through the tears clinging to your lashes. His lidded eyes were locked on himself sliding in and out of you, fixated on the ring of creamy white that you were leaving at the base of his cock with each thrust. He smirks down at you and lowers himself closer to your face.
"Just a, fuck, just a little longer baby. I'm almost done, be a good girl for me, yeah? This pretty pussy 's takin' me so, so well." He ends his praise with a groan before covering your mouth with his own and giving you a languid kiss, contrasting the rapid snap of his hips into your own.
He kept his lips on yours, muffling your whimpers, causing the lewd sound of his body slamming into yours to echo through the small bathroom without any interruption, any fear of being heard by a someone else completely forgotten in the moment.
It didn't take long for his thrusts to become erratic and sloppy. You could feel his cock throb inside you before he shuddered against you, moaning into your mouth as he filled you with his white hot release. You moan with him, arms coming up to wrap around the back of his neck as you kiss him while he finishes fucking himself through his orgasm. He drops his head on your shoulder for a moment, allowing the both of you to catch your breath before he straightens up.
"Hold your thighs for me pretty girl." He commands as he fishes in his back pocket for something. You do as your told, your hands coming up to hold the back of your thighs the same way his own had earlier, keeping your ruined pussy on display for him. He pulls his phone out and you can see his thumb swipe a few times before angling it down at you. Geto pulls out of you slowly, both of you groaning at the loss of the other's warmth. "Eyes on me, baby."
You feel his release slowly start to drip out of you, mixing with your own juices that had dripped down from your entrance and onto the bathroom counter while he fucked you. You watch as his eyes roll back at the sight as he lets out a low moan at the sight. You also hear the sound of his phone's camera shutter several times before he shoves it back into his pocket.
He reaches back into the front pocket of his jeans and pulls out the pink vibrator, it still whirring lowly. "Stay still and relax for me. You're being so good for me pretty girl." He murmurs as he presses the toy against your fucked out cunt, causing you to shudder at the feeling. It slides in with a wet squelch, causing some of his come to slide out as it enters you, dripping down your ass to collect with the rest.
You're not entirely sure that you're thankful that its set on a lower setting or not, desperately wanting to come. Geto doesn't slide it in deep enough for it to rub up against your sweet spot, instead leaving it closer to your soaked entrance. He moves your legs around to slide your panties back up your thighs, causing the toy to jolt inside you slightly, making you whimper.
Realizing how close you must of been, he grabs your chin in one of his warm hands and forces you to look at his face. "Don't you dare come. Focus on me baby, deep breaths. You're almost done, don't ruin it now." You look up and focus on his face, still flush from his own orgasm, sweat dripping down his temples and part of his bangs stuck to the side of his face. You manage to slow your breathing down enough to bring yourself back from the edge. He gives you a quick kiss on your forehead as he stuffs his cock back into his jeans and zips them up. "Let's clean up here and head back home so you can have your victory lap, yeah?"
You nod meekly as he helps you down from the counter. He quickly wipes the it down before leading you out of the bathroom, not even bothering to check if there was anyone watching.
Gojo sits on the couch wearing nothing but a pair of gray sweats. He's staring at his phone with an intrigued expression. The app on his phone he's been using to control the toy inside you showing him a lack of feedback from the toy. It looks like its been lodged in one relatively restricted place for a good moment, meaning there was no way it was still inside of you.
Had you given up and taken it out to shove it your purse? He could tell you hadn't come from it yet; were you too embarrassed to have an orgasm in public? Or did you remove it temporarily to see if you give yourself an orgasm and avoid him finding out about it?
He smirks to himself. Either way, it looks like he won. You had taken the toy out before making it home, effectively forfeiting the bet. As he starts to think of all the ways he's going to punish you for losing the bet, his phone dings with a notification from Geto. Figuring it was an "on our way back" text, he opens it before realizing its an attachment.
Gojo's smirk is wiped off his face when he's greeted with a picture of you looking up at the camera. Teary eyes had caused your mascara to run down your face as you were leaned back against a bathroom mirror with your hands holding your thighs up and apart, putting your pussy dripping with both yours and Geto's combined spend on full display, his come dripping down your ass to pool on the counter while your underwear dangled around one ankle.
His sweats become tight as his cock that had been at half mast before was now fully awake and throbbing. As he takes in the filthy sight in, he receives another text from Geto.
[Found out about your little bet. Hope you're ready to clean up the mess you made when we get home.đ€]
Realizing that Geto must of taken the toy out of you to fuck you, Gojo decides that technically wasn't against the bet. He was hoping if Geto found out that he would of sabotaged you, but instead it looks like he decided to have some fun of his own, and helped you win in the process.
Granted you still hadn't made it home, so he could be a jerk and try and trigger your release. But he decided against it; he knew when he lost, and now that Geto was involved he thought losing the bet was going to be just as interesting as winning it would of been.
He decides to give you a break and turns the vibrator off. Gojo leans back against the couch and begins lazily palming himself through his pants, eagerly waiting for you and Geto to make it home.
#jjk smut#jjk x reader#geto x reader#geto smut#satosugu x reader#he's barely participating but#gojo smut#gojo x reader#satosugu x reader smut#cherri writes
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unckuna au hcs migrated from x
main post: i cant draw rn but like this for a random unckuna au hc (from my verse so dont come @ me if it doesnt fit with yours)
unedited btw so don't come for me!!! some things are subject to change bc i said so
1. sukuna daps up young choso as a greeting bc he thinks its funny with the size difference + how choso goes along with anything
2. sukuna has the passcode and key to jin and kaori's house so they find him randomly in the house sometimes. he likes to nap on the couch bc its nice and deep
3. sukuna met kaori first but they were all involved with bad company when they were students. kaori and jin immediately started to clean up their act after they started to date
4. yuuji used to cry looking at sukuna but at one point after seeing the twins side by side he just started laughing and never stopped???? rorschach test on sukuna's face â
5. sukuna and jin kick their feet behind them when they do tummy time with yuuji
6. yuuji named sukuna's cat cheese burger. they call her chizu
7. choso is kaori's first child and jin's step son. he rarely calls jin "dad" (usually something similar to "mr. jin" "uncle" "sir" etc) but when he does he's shy about it and jin also tends to get teary eyed âčïž
8. sukuna lives in tokyo. kaori has long stretches where she lives in tokyo for work. jin travels back and forth between sendai and tokyo. yuuji lived with wasuke until high school+his passing, then he moved in with his parents in tokyo.
9. choso is wherever yuuji is. but when he moved to sendai the first time they cut his hair short and he sulked for a week. he had to keep it trimmed short until he graduated middle school. he went to a local vocational school instead of high school
10. when choso and yuuji go to tokyo during holidays everyone stays at sukunaâs place bc itâs bigger. otherwise kaori stays at company housing (if jin is visiting kaori he also stays with sukuna)
11. kaori is older than the twins by two years đââïžđââïžđââïž âââkenjaku (kaoriâs brother) is older than the twins by three years (kk irish twins!!) jin is the older twin.
12. kaori had choso at 20, only started dating jin a couple years after that bc he was too busy pining and she was dating someone else, married jin at 26 and had yuuji the same year. choso and yuuji are 6 years apart
13. sukuna likes to offer to stand in for parent discussions about yuujiâs life. kaori never takes him seriously even if he is only half joking (he says that yuuji is also HIS bc jin and sukuna are identical twins. genetically itâs true but this does not impress her at allâŠ.)
14. megumi and yuuji met during one of the holidays he was in tokyo for. they occasionally met the following summers and sometimes ask their parents to call each other until finally they became classmates in hs (when yuuji moved out to tokyo)
15. the twins and toji knew about each other by reputation (same circles but theyâve never met and they dont wanna talk about it either đđđesp not around his innocent wife)
16. tsumiki is megumiâs neighbour+childhood friend and they basically grew up together. she sometimes stays with megumiâs family bc megumiâs mom is friends with hers and she works a lot of nights.
17. sukuna pretends to be annoyed by choso but one time after he said he doesnt love young choso he went to cry in his bed and it hurt sukunaâs feelings lol
17.1. (he remedies this later by talking to him and saying he really likes him though and heâs his best friendâall while frowning and shaking his head at kaori who was watching)
18. sukuna and uraume have been besties since elementary school. uraume used to have a crush on jin (but they never liked sukuna that way for reasons related to his personality â ïž)
19. sukuna fixes cars and motorcycles in his free time. he only has space for a single bike in his garage, but he often visits one of kenjakuâs properties to work on other ones that kenjaku has.
20. kenjaku is in prisonâŒïžâŒïžâŒïž
21. yuuji and tojiâs rs is exactly like that one radio episode where they talked about yuuji being a (lovable) nuisance to his lifeâŠmegumiâs mom and tsumiki both treat him like family
See: [podcast] Will Toji & Itadori get along well?
22. when jin and kaori ask yuuji about nobara they always refer to her as his gf (not true, they arenât dating, never will). nobara always complains about it when she comes over and begs on hands and knees for them to stop (they dont bc they think its funny)
23. as an infant yuuji liked to sleep on sukunaâs chest bc of the cushion :robloxmanface: jin got jealous and started working out just bc of that
24. nobara and kaori are so close sometimes they go on little shopping dates and send the pictures to yuuji and jinđ€·ââïž people on her insta keep asking her if âher momâ is single and yuuji fights for his life in the replies
25. sukuna also gets a lot of attention on yuuji and nobaraâs socials but they leave him to the dogs. if it gets crazy they just start blocking everyone after sending them the link to sukunaâs account
26. megumiâs insta is just candids of his friends and dogs mixed into photography. no captions except on bday posts
27. if yuuji asks his parents for something and they say no, he will sometimes ask sukuna if he is desperate (who will always say yes if its amusing enough bc hes an enabler)
28. yuuji makes sukuna do a duet with him every time they bring out the karaoke machine at big family parties (sukuna just stands there breathing into the mic)
29. jin is a stay-at-home husband đ kaoriâs the one making bank and insisting jin wear his cute lil apron when she comes back home
30. as an infant yuuji only ate whatever jin/wasuke/sukuna made. they didnt feed him any processed food unless it was baby puffs or something like that
31. heights for fun (sorry uraume they gave you a lil boy bodyâŠ.or am iâŠđ€š)
32. the only person sukuna is scared of is jin and maybe wasuke one time when he got mad (he's usually pretty mild-mannered, just frowns a lot)
33. sukuna has never had a steady gf in his lifeđ€·ââïž when they start getting too comfortable with him and telling him what to do he cuts them off
34. he always introduces girls he's interested in (beyond hooking up) to uraume. if uraume thinks the vibes are off even a little bit he drops them. jin and wasuke have only seen a few in passing
35. tw????? sukuna uses "gay" the millennial way. as in "wack"
36. yuuji has tried to wash/rub off/erase sukuna's tattoos on several occasions
37. jin and sukuna greet each other by wrestling and doing silent takedowns. when yuuji gets big enough he also does the same thing with sukuna (sukuna never lets him win until he actually starts taking martial arts classes and he has to take him seriouslyđ sore loser)
38. besides his own food sukuna only eats homemade food his family (wasuke, jin, yuuji + uraume) make. heâll eat kaoriâs food if jin makes him but he pretends to have a hard time swallowing it
39. sukuna is always in bed by 11pm!!! he sleeps in the dark with blackout curtains and a pillow on his head. doesnât move an inch. hotel sheets with high thread count. bedroom never above 20 degrees celsius
40. sukuna used to steal food off yuujiâs plate to mess with him but after he noticed that yuuji would push his plate closer to him on purpose (to feed his poor uncle) he stopped đ
41. child yuuji has called sukuna to finish a tub of ice cream (to get rid of evidence) that he shouldnât have been eating but bc sukuna was all the way in tokyo and yuuji in sendai he couldnât save him from getting scolded by wasuke đ
42. sukuna has billed a girl for staining his shirt with makeup
43. sukuna and uraume sometimes pretend to be father and child to get family discount đ
44. twins and uraume are only one year apart. they are just built differentâŠsukuna built like an industrial fridge, uraume like an immortal elf on the shelf.
45. sukuna and yuuji decorated yuujiâs first helmet together (for skateboarding). the theme was dinosaur but it ended up looking like a rooster
46. the glovebox in his car still has stickers yuuji stuck on when he was small
47. once jin caught sukuna goingđ„°đđ with baby yuuji and when sukuna realized he was being watched he pretended to be asleepâŠâŠ..
48. sukuna has an album on his phone just for yuuji. half of it is burst pics of baby yuuji in action (dont ask why he didnt just take a video)
49. jin matches his outfits to yuujiâs
50. when they lived separately sukuna would sometimes get blurry pictures from jinâs phone of things yuuji would photograph (baby foot, jinâs scalp, wasuke in the garden, etc) and sukuna would text back very seriously (eg âtell your dad i can pay for his trip to turkeyâ)
51. whenever he babysits outside of the house and comes to pick up yuuji sukuna asks where âhis accessoryâ is in reference to the baby and kaori hates itđđđ
52. if he HAS to, sukuna only uses metal tin containers for food. you can distinguish who made yuujiâs lunch that way (metal tin + looks gourmet = sukuna, food with faces +cute dividers = jin)
53. uraume and sukuna always invite yuuji to test new menus so heâs kind of acquainted with sukumeâs industry friends. they think he has a gift in it too.
54. megumi and choso are so awkward together they usually sit in silence if left alone in a roomâŠ.yuuji and sukuna think itâs so funny for some reason
55. jin is the last person to realize yuuji and megumi are dating when they eventuslly do. sukuna is the one to tell him but kaori (clocked it, asked nobara) and sukuna (mental math) realize first.
56. sukunaâs cat is a ginger maine coonđ
57. sukuna built a catio behind his shophouse for his cat
58. sukuna wears saxx underwear
59. sukuna and gojo go on food and bar crawls together (they play stupid games to see who should pay. gojo always pays)
60. choso is a nurseđ«¶
61. yuuji gets ""free"" scans at the hospital whenever he thinks he broke something (9 times out of 10 he's fine)
62. when yuuji calls for âdadâ sukuna will always look, sometimes heâll catch himself almost responding (jin always catches him too)
63. choso doesnt actually have the face tattoo in this au. i just draw it bc i thats what iâm used to đ sukuna has all his tattoos though
64. sukuna thinks blended chicken protein shake is an abomination. he believes in chewing your meat (his fav protein shake is vanilla flavor)
65. jin always greets yuuji at the door when he comes home (before anyone asks he likes to act busy when kaori does so she can backhug him hahahahhaha)
66. difference between bffs
đŻđș= they also kissâŠ
đŻđš= act like siblings
â©ïžâïž= evil girl telepathy, will snicker about you together without saying anything
67. sukuna is the type to get a new phone just bc his gallery is full also âdoesnt it look cool thoughâ (jin gives him the dad look)
68. yuuji was the deciding factor (excuse) for sukuna not to have his own child bc when he realized during a discussion b/w jin and sukuna that his uncle wouldnât have time for him he got sad and cried lol
69. when sukuna takes choso and yuuji out together he makes them hold hands and walk infront of him so they dont get kidnapped đ
70. sukuna has gotten emo over yuuji outgrowing his baby clothes. jin straight up bawled
71. if they donât meet for a while (12+ hours) and sukuna lifts his hand yuuji will get under his arm for a hug. choso will get a shoulder squeeze or a sidehug and jin will get his ribs crushed. he nods his chin at kaori (very rude)
72. bc they grew up together and choso has been fussing over yuuji ever since he was born, yuuji is the only person choso is comfortable hugging and making extended physical contact with. he doesnât mind his mother touching him but anyone else?? very flustered
73. sukuna treats nobara like family and heâll call her his neice if a random person asks. has let her apply makeup over his tattoos for fun, will drive her places if kaori isnât around. they also talk about luxury brands togetherâŠ.
74. when yuuji was sick as a baby jin would cuddle him the entire time so he can feel warm. if sukuna is around heâd also take shifts with jin. they wouldnt let wasuke bc he might get sick (sukuna: he might pass away from a cough)
75. sukuna got jin a baby wrap for the above reasonâŠ.otherwise yuuji would cry his head off if he was put down for even a second
76. (when sick) yuuji cried less the older he got but he would still hold his caretakerâs hand and follow them around the house if they were making food, etcâŠ
77. yuuji doesnât cry a lot or make a fuss in general though đ€·ââïžheâs the kind of kid to wave at strangers and say hello
78. the rare times yuuji gets combative is bc sukuna is provoking him đ that stands true throughout his life. bc if he has questions they all answer him and he takes it as true (sukuna will lie and then yuuji looks foolish which will lead to arguments)
79. callback to the tweet below but yuuji has asked sukuna on several occasions if he has a job to do when his uncle gets on his nerves
i realize sukuna acts jobless in the unckuna au but its only bc he gets to make his own hours most of the time if heâs not booked for an event/job đ
80. after yuuji and nobara start posting sukuna online his insta and business profiles go viral. the requests get concerning sometimes but every time thereâs a big private/foreign one yuuji asks if he can go (answer is always no)
81. sukuna, jin, and yuuji (after childhood) come down with a cold maybe two times a year. choso and kaori get sick more often. and choso plays it up bc hes dramatic
82. megumi has been scouted by modeling agents a few times. of all the times it happened while out with nobara she chased them away out of spite (not that megumi was interested in the first place)
#unckuna au#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#ryomen sukuna#itadori yuuji#itadori jin#kugisaki nobara#fushiguro megumi#fushiguro toji#itadori kaori#itadori wasuke#kenjaku#satoru gojo#hc thread#crumplstiltskin archives#unckuna au: hc
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Hey, Hi, Hello!! I donât know if youâre not taking request or not but If itâs not too much of a hassle or if you have the free time, could I please request a part two of that unrequited love post where the reader starts intentionally avoiding those same characters you posted? Like basically the aftermath of the confession. If youâre closed or busy you really donât have to accept this but thank you for that read đ
âAversion to HeartacheâŠâ Zenless Zone Zero x gnReader
Von Lycaon, Zhu Yuan
a/n: not including Anby, since sheâs the one avoiding you at the end of Unrequited. also i am always open to requests or chats! just know that it might take some time to get back to you, since i write when i take a break or canât draw
Sequel to: âUnrequitedâ (Lycaon, Zhu Yuan, Anby)
Itâs been a couple of weeks since your failed confession. You had been purposefully avoiding Lycaon- even Victoria Housekeeping as well as the cafe they used as a front. Ads would pop up on websites, various members on it but the pure white fur of the Therian on your mind sticking out like a sore thumb against the muted colors of the rest of the staff.
Sighing, you clicked on the X to delete the ad, not wanting to see it any longer. You misclicked, accidentally clicking on the web link and being rerouted to the contact page of Victoria Housekeeping. It was familiar- having used it to venture into the Hollow, where you met Lycaon.
Quickly closing the tab, you tried to clear your mind. Lycaon, Lycaon, Lycaon, every day it felt like you got reminded of him. The good times you both had, spending afternoons and sometimes nights with him. Then quickly being soured by you confessing to him- the look on his face more unflattering than what really occurred.
You should go out for a bit⊠maybe some fresh air would help. Standing up, you put on some casual clothes, fixing a hoodie on and zipping it up before taking your keys.
Closing the door behind you and locking it, you took a deep breath of the cold afternoon air. Fresh, with only a couple of people milling about. A car or two passing by every couple of minutes. Stepping out from the front of your apartment, you began your aimless walk. Letting the sounds of the city fill your ears.
After tens of minutes, you found yourself in Lumina Square. Somewhere bustling with traffic. Following the crowd, you looked through the windows, commenting on things mentally- before something caught your eye.
Lycaon. The wolf-Therian was sitting in front of a noodle shop with⊠someone else. A figure wearing a blue-orange jacket, hair reaching their chin. Here you were, constantly on the verge of tears and Lycaon had already moved on. Seemingly having replaced you, seeing as how expressive this person was to him.
His ear twitched, a tell-tale sign of where he was going to look- having either heard or smelled something of note. Quickly you lifted your hood up, hiding your face as you quickly followed the crowd, hoping to avoid his gaze and possible confrontation, forever if possible.
Yet he knew you were there. With the aroma and cooking of the noodle shop covering up most of your tracks, but that familiar scent you had snaked its way in. Yet you were already gone, faded back into the crowd.
After the revelation of who Zhu Yuanâs heart had been captivated by, you had begun to slowly avoid Zhu Yuan. The heartache you felt as you spent time with her became more pervasive with each day. Something you wanted became poisoned, leading you to call hangouts off or declining Zhu Yuan whenever she invited you.
She very easily figured this out, but the question was âwhy?â. The two of you hadnât had a falling out- nothing egregious and there was no reason for you to have any bad blood. Yet every time she approached you, you quickly tried to find an out- you werenât as slick as you thought you were.
It became harder and harder for her to initiate anything, being stationed in different areas of New Eridu, as well as growing feelings for her partner Qingyi. Yet it still ate at her.
One day on patrol, you were responding to an urgent call, pulling up with lights flashing. A man had a girl hostage, blade to her neck as they ordered the cops to hand them a vehicle to make their escape from a robbery gone wrong.
Just as you were about to go in, a blur passed you, a familiar figure grabbed the girl, cuffing the suspect before roundhouse kicking them, knocking them and a piece of the wall out. As well as a couple of molars.
You watched her in a trance as she consoled the victim. Then you noticed that she was about to turn, with you quickly walking away back to your car. She stepped to follow you but was stopped, having to give a recount and file paperwork for the arrest, as well as return to film the rest of the promotional material for the director.
Qingyi watched you leave as she stepped out of the car, dots connecting in her head as she watched the hurt look on both you and Zhu Yuanâs face. She needed to do something about this...
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INAMORATA . *àż SUNDAY, MOZE NSFW
âThink of what it could have been, Think of all the suffering, Nights of crying, wondering, Tell me what awe youâre in?â Deception comes second-nature to incubi; twisting serpents lay dormant in their flesh. This is truth. It is also true that for a wayward incubus, it is particularly hard to disguise one's demonic nature in the presence of an angel and an irritatingly sharp human. You don't recommend it at all, actually. I MADE IT BEFORE MIDNIGHT!! halloween babyyy!!! anyways I promised to deliver a halloween fic and I did :3 this idea lowkey came to me in a dream and I think it's singlehandedly the freakiest shit i've ever written edit: see I knew I was rushing to post when I forgot art creds Moze drawing by @ma_mori74 and sunday is by @nai_pizx pairings: angel sunday, human moze + incubus m reader (+ some foxian jiaoqiu) warnings: nsfw, male reader, voyeurism, lowkey stalkerish moze, mentions of death/hell etc, religious imagery wc: 16.1k
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. *àż
Tinny music crackles in your earphones that knot haphazardly at your chest, almost in sync with the subdued spark from your lighter. The song isnât particularly good (neither is the weather: a drizzle that always seems to drip from a perpetually ultramarine sky), but any shitty song would do to liven up the ambience of the smoking area in this particularly bleak corner of the campus.Â
Itâs blue, you note boredly. The smoke, that is, mingling with the vapour wisps of condensed breathing. Thereâs a certain meaning to be found in standing outside in subzero temperatures, finding peak entertainment in the clouds produced from your mouth as if you were some child. You just havenât quite found it. Meaning, that is.Â
Youâre sure thereâs one or two bad songs about it, if you scroll through the playlist enough.Â
Inhale. Bitter menthol washes over your tongueâyouâve long gotten used to the flavour. Of course, the glaringly red car that slows down on the road in front of you also helps in forgetting to appreciate any new notes of the stick between your lips, but you digress.Â
A window rolls down. The street-lamp glowing a frigid lazuline flickers precariously. You exhale, watching the smoke trace shapes over the bloody carâsome boxy shape that could totally be used as a muscle car. These things happen simultaneously. These things also wash the murky taints of calculus from your mind and instil some form of amusement into your week.Â
If you donât count maintaining your cover at a human university as being thrilling enough to regale anyone with.Â
Brusquely, a hand sticks out into the drizzle to wave at youâself-consciously, you wave back with a question clouding your mind. Though, it is almost immediately answered when street-lamp strains a bit more and you finally see the outline of an acquaintance you met while hauling boxes into your new dorm room at the beginning of the semester.Â
A tentative alliance, more like, with the both of you sniffing something off about the other.Â
âYo, Jiaoqiu,â you greet back after he beckons you closer. His glasses are slipping off his face, and your hand itches to push them back up.Â
Of course, it perhaps doesnât hurt in establishing closeness by being guts deep in him just a week ago.Â
âYouâll be there for the Film Fair, right?â he murmurs. You canât possibly miss how his eyes flick to your lips briefly: how his pretty throat is wrapped tight with a scarf tonight to protect from both the boreal chill and prying eyes, how his glasses canât seem to hide his incandescent gaze on the marks on your body, barely hidden by the loose shirt draped over you today.Â
He was on the culinary course, heâd told you a week ago, but you couldâve figured out that much from the exquisite breakfast heâd cooked for you in the morning: one you didnât need to eat. Instead, the sanguine flesh of berries had ended up being smeared on his skin alongside the mellow creamâyou couldâve surmised his degree from the divine taste of his body, easily. That, in your opinion, had been your best meal for a good while yet.Â
âYou want me there?â You take another drag of your cigarette, watching him watch you. In his eagerness, your keen eyes pick up on the glamour disguising his fluffy ears starting to wane; and unbidden, a memory rises to mind of a night much like this. Those same ears, pressed flat to his head, with that lilt of his voice sounding far less confident.Â
A friendship is forged with a good fuck, you wisely conclude.Â
âYeah, duh,â he breathes, and the vapour coming out of his mouth mingles with the smoke pouring from your own.Â
Or two.Â
âSend me the details,â you smile, a slanted one that mirrors your lax attitude. âYou still have my number, right?â
Of course he does.Â
âYeah, I do,â he clears his throat, almost shaking himself out of a stupor that he never noticed he was in. Thereâs a tense dance occurring between both of you constantly, and unfortunately for him, he can never quite outpace you. Itâs present in the regretful line of his mouth as he glances at the time on his phone, the lingering gaze that traces your being, and the downturned mirage of his earsâas if he forgets that you can see through his glamour. âIâll see you.â
âSee you,â you return, savouring the rich scent of energy that exudes from himâone he can never mask, for he cannot himself tell that it even exists.Â
As the cherry-red Mustangâor whatever car it isârolls away, you stroll back to the smoking area to appreciate the remnants of your cigarette: something you hadnât been able to due to all the distractions, as youâd like to put it.Â
But all is not well.Â
Instead, you resume your road-and-cigarette-smoke watching only to discover another pair of eyes meeting your own from the shadows cast by the lamplight across the street. With the prussic overcast to the sky, you once more donât recognise the figure afore you initially; until a car drives past and its glaring headlights reveal him for all but three seconds.Â
Moze.Â
You think youâve seen him around Jiaoqiu several timesâperhaps enough to rationalise that they are indeed friends, forged with something a bit more innocuous than a one-night stand.Â
But regardless of how you stand tangentially with your mutual buddy (or fuck-buddy in your case), the common threads that bind you also included that as of this year, he is your roommate. And classmate, too, in perhaps one of the most obscure classes to ever be known to man. If you had less of a spine, you mightâve wavedâbut as it stands, the wintry chill between the two of you suits you just fine. If anything, the fact that he hasnât beaten you up for sleeping with his friend leaves a positively amicable aftertaste in your mouth.Â
Absent-mindedly, you stub the cigarette into the already-bleak wall, leaving a rather abstract trail of ash behind. His nose wrinkles in distaste, but you ignore it. Â
Is it a sin for an incubus to be any more addicted to human creation? Wow. You really shouldâve been a philosopher.Â
Well, any more than it is being an abomination, you muse one final time, almost ruefully.Â
Almost.Â
. *àż
This ill-fated relationship begins as it does ordinarilyâby the two of you both taking an elective nobody else takes.Â
Well, more accurately, it begins the morning you see a poster for the strangest night class youâd ever seen.Â
Humans and their machinations.Â
This is truly a special version of hell.Â
Fragile wisps of breath condense in the autumn chill as you carefully read the poster pasted on the bulletinâformal black and white typeset, so painfully tasteless amongst the vibrant leaflets nestled around it. Though, the size eight lettering and bland format soon becomes the least of your irritations as your eyes wander down.Â
âWhat a joke,â you scoff incredulously, a bit too invested in your human persona to truly grasp that youâre losing the plot. Just a bit. Â
Really? âIdentifying and Apprehending Olde Monsters in Our Midstâ was granted approval to be introduced as a new class, whereas the Cryptology course had been defunded and subsequently discontinued? The thought burns your mind, your soul, your very being.Â
âHow stupid,â you mutter, swiping open your phone.Â
The irritation surges, until it gnaws and bites at the cartilage of your sternum in a desperate attempt to free itself from the confines of your chest.Â
âReally, are they crazy?â you shake your head, typing your name right onto the form that finally materialises.Â
You may be loyal to your Cryptology elective, but itâs not like it ultimately makes a difference.Â
A class is a class, and your tenure in the human world relies on your ability to assimilate into this stupid place.
. *àż
You lied earlier, by the way. The piddling number of students in âIdentifying and Apprehending Olde Monsters in Our Midstâ is not two, but three. Your moody roommate (whom you barely saw yesterday), you (who, as an incubus, really shouldnât be here) and the distinguished Sunday (who is also weirdly out of place but in the opposite way). Honestly, he probably knows this tooâglancing at the way your clothes are never weather-appropriate and always tousled as though you were wrestling in bed for a nap (given your nature, you probably were doing some form of wrestling), whereas his own shirts and slacks are always immaculately pressed and ironed. Heâs even got a damn overcoat for every day of the week, for fuckâs sake. Honestly, youâre half convinced the guyâs running some cult.Â
Regardless of how mismatched the Professorâs three students are, the bigger problem is how awkward the lecture hall is when the damn chairs outnumber the students. You can barely concentrate on Professor Hopkinsâ droning on selkie characteristics when you, Sunday and Moze are arranged artfully in an equidistant triangle from one another. Any more civil person would perhaps sit next to one of them to make the air a tad bit warmer, but youâre not even a person.Â
Youâre a demon.Â
You think you can afford to be uncivil.Â
Or at least, itâs the very bare minimum of rudeness you should maintain. Youâve suffered enough askance looks from both of them (which they never seem to level at each other) to comfortably assume that they have some sort of problem with you that theyâve formed a business partnership over. Shaking hands, all for the pursuit of disliking you more efficiently.Â
During the next lecture on kelpies, itâs the same story. Even the damned coordinates of the triangle are the same, thus when you stride in a minute before the Professor, you make the creative decision to shift one chair to the left to ruin whatever coordination theyâve got going on. It doesnât deign a glare, but you can feel the air grow even frostier. Amused, you stop paying attention to the information you could probably recite in your sleep, and instead decide to just people-watch the three sad individuals before you.Â
Thereâs Professor Hopkinsâperhaps one of the most insane people youâve ever had the displeasure of meeting. Heâs human through and through: reeking of such a scent that would put most madmen to shame. Alas, this madman is perhaps one of the most unrecognised in the realm of mortalityâconsidering only three people are taking his class, and a solid third is the very thing he is lecturing the dangers of. Youâve met your fair share of people who believe in monsters, but youâre amazed every time you walk into the elective: both by his zealousness and by the fact this class even got approved.Â
What a strange world the human world is.Â
Thereâs Moze. Over to your far left, and one row upâthe perfect place to observe the whole hall, but also the perfect place to look like a weirdo considering there are only three students and one stout little teacher yelling his wee lungs out at the front. You donât actually know why heâs taking this class, considering his other class is something on forensics. Or something. Youâre not exactly on amicable enough terms to interact with him, but youâd hoped that you had a somewhat sane roommate.Â
Itâs somewhat hard to hold onto that hope when he shoots you that look whenever Hopkins starts speaking. Actually, you canât exactly see the look considering heâs behind you, but you can feel the white-hot stare pierce your back: rolling energy tainted with suspicion.Â
Perhaps it was stupid to disguise yourself in an institute of higher learning where one would hope its students had an ounce of critical thinking.Â
But youâre choosing to ignore his glare to protect your own peace. The only person whoâd ever believe his deductions would be the madman lecturing now. Or not even him, since youâve been such a model studentâalready knowing so much about these creatures of the night.Â
Then thereâs Sunday. Youâve perhaps had half an interaction with the man, earning a polite, utterly distant âthank youâ as you arrived before him for once and held the door open behind you. Impeccable manners, straight-A student, and perhaps the most confounding. Your suspicions of him running a cult are only confirmed when you overhear he also studies Theology.Â
Heâs polite. Very polite. A bit too polite, so much that it honestly creeps you out more than any eldritch stuck in hell does. Because, why be that courteous to someone if youâre not planning on sacrificing them? However, youâre half convinced that behind those eyes, heâs planning some elaborate exorcism that nobody apart from himself knows about. And maybe you now.Â
Itâs unnerving.Â
Up close, the flow of his energy is humanâtoo perfectly so. Thereâs never any malice, or anger, or even boredom that taints the low thrum running through his vessels. Yes, the base is undoubtedly mortal, but with none of the complexities that make up the average human experience.Â
He regards you with a similar look to Mozeâsâfixing you with a stare that appears to be figuring you out and picking you apart. A scrutiny that should fall under its very own brand of suspicion, one that makes the heat under flesh and sinew only increaseâfor you donât think youâll be able to predict his next move, not if you canât ever read how he truly feels.Â
Or maybe that is how he feelsâand you donât know if thatâs more terrifying.Â
Unfortunately, these three profiles suggest your lunastic of a professor is the safest to be around, since the ebb and flow of zealousness pretty much remains consistent for each lecture (seriously, they approved this guy?). He poses a far lesser danger to you (the one who took this elective for fun) than the two other students (who took this elective for nefarious purposes, youâre sure). And he actually likes you; despite him conservatively eyeing the attire you wear in subzero temperatures, youâre a pro at his essays!Â
Alas, your propensity for avoiding your classmates has not worked out for you, you miserably conclude.Â
. *àż
You shouldâve stuck with your regular dinner of passively absorbing peoplesâ horny thoughts like some weird fucking sponge.Â
You really shouldâve, and now youâre cursing yourself as you morosely shovel what appears to be some inscrutable form of soggy college food past your stony lips. The food isnât the problem, though any self-respecting college student would probably be wincing and picking at it rather than dispassionately taking bite after bite like you are. Itâs a bit disheartening to know your cover could be blown from how you seem to truly appreciate the cooking, but in another life youâd argue your soullessness befits the statistics analysis youâre half-reading, half-doom scrolling past.Â
But the differential equations arenât the fucking problem either.Â
The problem is the man sitting across from you. Or more accurately, across and one seat to the left, because apparently heâs gracious like that.Â
You thought nothing of the flash of soft, dove-grey that you saw from your peripherals at firstânor the fluttering scarf that brushed ever so slightly by your bare shoulder. You were, after all, too preoccupied with clicking and unclicking your pen in irritation at the thick stack of paper by your tray. A bit too preoccupied, but you look up and suddenly youâve got a cult member all up in your face with way too many slices of raspberry cheesecake on his plate.Â
Thatâs what you notice at first, then you look up and itâs fucking Sunday of all people, resembling a word problem a bit too much with how many pieces are on his plate.Â
You disguise your shock. You hope itâs successful, but judging by his soft cough of surprise, you donât think you are. Mind racing, you turn back to your own plate and equations, connecting some dots far better than others (judging by the mindless scribbles on the sheet). Just to check, you observe his energy fluctuations a little longerâtheyâre still as incomprehensible as ever.Â
Inordinate amount of food. Emotions you canât read. A penchant for ignoring the finer points of human assimilation, such as staring at others a bit too fucking much.Â
âDo you need something?âÂ
Quit staring.
Of course, you keep the quiet part quiet.Â
Youâre sitting opposite an angel, after all.Â
Well, opposite and a seat away.Â
When you finally look back up, his usually cold gaze is even colderâyou wish you never said anything, even if itâs making your concentration in statistics flounder. With bated breath, you pray itâs simply because he doesnât like you, not because heâs about to possibly exsanguinate youâthen you laugh at yourself because youâre a demon, therefore no god will listen to your prayers. No matter how earnestly you try, nobody will hear your plea.Â
No demon would knowingly provoke an angel like this, or at least you hope they wouldnât. But youâre not most demonsâyou donât actually want to be sent back down to hell.Â
You hope that small fact erases whatever suspicions he has.Â
âNo,â he finally replies. His voice is strangely soothing, but you know that angels are never depicted as the temptation your kind are painted as. And as your eyes flick to your surroundings, you notice that some of the people sitting nearby are glaring daggers at you for even breathing in his presence. You half wonder if heâs recruited them into his cult already. âProfessor Hopkins told me to notify you that weâll have a group project briefing for the next lecture.â
âRight.â And he couldnât send an email? And this was important enough to break your silence for? And this merits your staring? The words, though poignant, die down on your tongue, but youâre sure he can feel the vexation contributing to global warming, just a little. Angels are unable to discern the rich nuance of lust and love, but even a plant would wilt from the shockwaves bursting from your tension headache. âMessage duly noted.â
He does not leave like youâd hoped. His fork instead cuts deep into the raspberry cheesecake, and you watch it bleed out on his plate.Â
Heâs no longer staring at you, but you know he is just as keenly aware of you as you are of him.
. *àż
Itâs not like you can avoid your damn roommate either, because that would probably raise more questions than youâre comfortable answering.Â
Youâre thankful Mozeâs quiet, though that gratitude is somewhat abated by him in general. Heâs too quiet, and in contrast anything you say will be far more incriminating. And while he stays in his room most of the time, you canât help but notice he seems to hang around on the living room couch a little too often whenever you stumble home late at night: reeking of a perfume not your own with kiss-bitten lips and a satisfied smile on your face. Like some fat cat licking its chops after a particularly gratifying meal.Â
Except youâre avaricious, and you come to the dorm often enough to recognise the pattern.Â
Not tonight though. Devil forbid you whore yourself out on a respectable Sunday evening (itâs totally not because the angel named thusly will know somehow, spotting the faint shimmer of tattoos, horns and a tail materialising in a brief mirage). Somehow.Â
On Sunday you rest. Or more accurately, you study from homeâglasses carefully perched on your nose, pen substituting a cigarette as you teeth at it with canines a little too sharp to be comfortable. You canât be expected to be biblical about itâfor good measure, you crack open a bottle of red wine with it, drinking straight from the bottle as you stare down the thick pack of proofs that are due tomorrow morning.Â
Itâs not hard to imagine why so many humans in hell become overseers, rather than good, hard-working demons.Â
Humans can simply be more evil and still convince themselves that this is for the better.Â
It may be foolish to display your vices sprawled in the living room armchair, but you blame both the wine, the record player you brought, and the sensuous ambience youâve carefully curated in the space. Is it a sin to do work in an environment that makes your heart pump just a beat faster?
Well, the seriousness of your crime is weighed against the salient fact of the matter: that youâre trying to avoid your roommate, not maximise your chances of encountering him.Â
What a pickle.
You, like the hard-working demon you are, would prefer to not fail your degree and thus decide prudently to remain where you can wallow in both languor and academia. With cherry wine staining your lips, and the flicker of a warm cedarwood candle perched on the coffee table, itâs no wonder youâve settled into a strange rhythm. Or maybe itâs something in the air, like the doleful sounds of old records youâve collected throughout the yearsâones youâll always regretfully dismiss as replicas, but who knows?
What a pickle indeed.Â
Tonight, the roles have switched. At around ten, you hear the almost-silent glide of keys in your lock, and you brace yourself for the maelstrom that Mozeâs presence will inevitably bring. Like clockwork, you scrutinise the flow of energy that you can dimly feelâonly to be completely blindsided when you feel a distinctly familiar one beside it. Two presences that are much too observant, but one thatâs withdrawn and almost curling in on itself, whereas the other flows with ease.Â
Brusquely, the door is shouldered open. You lock eyes with the Moze who prowls in, the Moze who is uncharacteristically gazing right back at you, the Moze who still for the life of him canât soften that guarded expression that casts deep shadows onto his eyes. Then, despite yourself, your focus shifts to the one behind himâJiaoqiu.Â
The waves radiating from the Foxian seem to expand on seeing you, and almost immediately the taste feels warmer as you absorb itâa perfect consistency you know heâs feeling as an embarrassed prickle beneath his skin. Even if you werenât an incubus, you could put two and two together from his slightly parted lips, the peony gently brushing over his features like watercolour, and his tentative steps into the dorm.Â
He murmurs your name in surprise, and perhaps thatâs the most conversation these walls have ever heard since you and Moze became roommates.Â
âI didnât know you and Moze were rooming together,â he begins with that soft cadence of his. Subconsciously, you sit a little straighterâkeenly aware of him, after learning the signs of his body so well.Â
But before you can reply, Moze answers for youâthe most youâve ever heard him speak.Â
âDidnât get round to telling you.â Each word is heavier than you can comprehend, tainted with a bluntness that suits him. It makes your gaze snap back to his face, and you swear the corner of his lip twitches upwards before he turns to you to talk. âHope you donât mind me having him over for a bit.â
âItâs fine. I like him,â you shrug, and the corner resumes its neutrality once more. Not like you see itâyouâve turned back to your work as if there isnât a gnawing hunger slowly uncoiling under fragile dermis, as if you canât smell every speck of desire and bashfulness slowly undulating within Jiaoqiu. You do like him, and not just as a meal. His tongue cuts sharp, beneath his fumbling, clumsy touches that seem so graceful when not encumbered by sheets.Â
You just hope you wonât die of starvation before you wrap up the calculus. That would be an embarrassment for the ages.Â
Alas, you donât actually end up finishing your work. The sanguine liquid pooling into your mouth may not be enough to intoxicate you, but you can feel a pleasant warmth buzz through your veins. Of course, thereâs warmth from that and warmth coming from sitting close to two heated bodies in a tipsy screening of some horror movie youâve never seen.Â
Calculus can wait another day. When Jiaoqiu stumbled from Mozeâs room with a sweetness on his breath and a tight grip around your wrist, you gladly let yourself be rescued by the surprisingly strong Foxian. He led you right back in, and you were practically floored at how easily you just⊠stepped into the space, with Moze simply eyeing you rather than that cautious glare he so often wore.Â
The Foxian pushed you into soft carpet, and you could feel Mozeâs body tense up as your side collided with his ownâthe floor space was just about large enough for three guys to sit, but he made no move to move, thus you attributed it to the buzz he felt.Â
Itâs dark.Â
Itâs dark, and youâve got your reticent classmate on one side of you, and the acquaintance-or-not on your other, practically curled up into your body with how heâs draped himself.
Naturally, you donât end up paying attention to any of the movieâsome flick you think you saw a century ago. Sure, the screams are totally realistic, but who can blame you for being distracted? Youâve got the object of your avoidance on one side, and then someone you think is deliberately pushing himself into your âhungryâ radar.
You would be quite partial to imploding, but unfortunately that is not a power you possess.Â
But despite all your gripes, this is nice in its own, painfully ironic sort of way.Â
. *àż.
Of course you donât end up stealing a kiss outside the buildingâMoze taking the opportunity to clean the bathroom obsessively while buzzing from the liquor, while you walk Jiaoqiu out.Â
Of course you donât mean to, but youâre drunkenly complaining of the professor for your statistics module, and heâs merely gazing. When the sunâs long gone to its slumberâand the only light available is the halo around your head from the flickering streetlampâwho can blame him for the way his eyes drink your pout in, the way heâs getting lost in the way you smell? Menthol cigarettes and something sweeter, something his nose picks up that could be caramel but could also thrum deep in your veins to intoxicate others.Â
He cuts you off when it gets too much for him, right when you push your glasses up to continue to ramble comfortably.Â
ââevery lecture, I swearâmmphââÂ
You swear up-and-down you werenât planning this; youâre taken completely aback as he surges, pressing you up against the rough brick of the building. Heâs warm, you think deliriouslyâwith his hand cradling your cheek and his other nestled in the back of the loose pullover youâre wearing, youâre warmer than youâve been in weeks.Â
Itâs not desperate, but you can feel the build-up of emotion behind it: taste the cherry on your breath, the tequila on his. Alcohol may have prompted this, but even a fool could savour the heavy yearning on his tongue.Â
âJiaoqiu,â you mumble, but he merely tilts your head, nipping at your slicked lips with an eagerness he only seems to display when itâs the witching hours. Heâs shorter than you, yet tonight heâs the one caging you in an inescapable lockâso hungry, so avaricious and naturally, you oblige, raking your hands in his pink hair.Â
You taste blood. You taste life as you feel his steady pulse against your body, lust as he groans and melts into your touch, desperation as he entwines his arms around you with the sole goal of pressing himself into you even further.Â
You are equally insatiable, gradually feeling the vivid colours flow from his tongue onto your own.Â
You are equally gluttonous, but your work isnât going to finish itself and youâre quite a good demon, if you do say so yourself.Â
You are equally voracious, and perhaps completely degenerate, yet still you wistfully and regretfully ease your lips from hisâthough your hands remain white-hot on his body.Â
Itâs enough energy to get through the rest of this day and then some. Itâll do. It has to do.Â
âIâll see you at the Film Festival,â he murmurs, but the two of you know the encounter between you both will be soonerâa clandestine encounter between sheets, in fact.Â
Heâs walking home, so you watch him disappear into the nightâand when his small figure is swallowed up in the void space between street lamps, you watch a little while longer.Â
Unbeknownst to you, someone else has been watching this entire time too.
*àż.
Film - demons, seduction, succubi and incubi, you scrawl in your notebook, already feeling a healthy dose of apprehension, amusement and mild horror at Professor Hopkinsâ chosen group project.Â
â...due a week from now. Since there are only three of you, why donât you boys work together?â Clearly, he is impervious to the chill that still lingers between you and your fellow classmatesâthe triangle is still at its maximum area, and you donât envision it changing any time soon. Horror upon horrors, he then adds something that makes you shiver in your seat. âIâll play it as our departmentâs submission for the Film Festival.â
Once more, you wonder how the department was approved in the first place.Â
Then, the thought slips your mind as you first lock eyes with Sunday, then Moze only a minute later. Iâm screwed. You donât think youâve ever been on such a tightrope before: wildly cartwheeling your arms back-and-forth while dangling over a fatal precipice. You will not survive thisânot the research on incubi, nor the actual group project.Â
You can only pray your two intelligent classmates do not put two and two together for once. After all, youâre the mathematician out of this mismatched trio. Any semblance of hope you had at making it through the year is slowly dissipating.Â
*àż.
ââŠedit it documentary style. Itâs professional, organised, and will suit the Professorâs tastes.â Sundayâs mellifluous voice washes over you as you sit in the campus library with your classmates, desperately trying to look engaged.Â
It does not work.Â
Sundayâs fountain pen wavers in the air and turns on you, and your heart jolts and skips past a few beatsâit looks far too close to a weapon for your liking, and you would not trust an angel with a dagger for the life of you. Or without the dagger. He does not inch it closer, but itâs rather an unconscious mirroring of his thinking that betrays that heâs about to scold you for falling asleep. Youâre thankful for the table that separates the two of you, but you fear wood can only do so much to counter flames of divine punishment.Â
But before he can lecture you, Moze beats him to it. And for the record, you donât know how he ended up sitting right next to you, and youâd like to complain.Â
Leaning across his chair, he gets unnecessarily close to talk to you, and itâs not like whatever heâs saying is important.Â
âDo you have anything to addââ and here his leg ghosts up against yours, but you donât flinch. At least, you donât think you do. ââor did you not get enough sleep last night?â
His voice is lowâenough that thereâs an undercurrent of tension without him even trying. You choose not to reply directly to him; instead, you look at Sunday once more, and you swear you feel a spike of irritation from the angel. But, surely not, right?
Mulling your words over, you carefully select a sequence that wonât land you a one-way ticket back to hell. Thereâs a certain trick to this, you seeâand thatâs crossing your fingers and thinking of an escape plan in the event you fail, or the shameless cowardly demon approach. It may not land you a spot among the Lieutenants, but it sure is better than being skewered by some angel.Â
Especially one named Sunday. You disguise your grimace.Â
âUhh,â you wrack your brains, before settling on the first thing your mind falls uponâyesterday night, all cozied up with Jiaoqiu. Fuck. âA horror movie.â
You can feel Mozeâs stare burn into dermis, sizzle a bit, then singe your very bones.
âThatâs anâ unconventional idea,â Sunday coughs, and you remind yourself that angels are way meaner than youâd expect.Â
âIf you think itâs ill-founded, then I would like to remind you our professorâs maturity doesnât necessarily mean heâll enjoy an orthodox style,â you argue, suddenly remembering that angels are also ill-suited for debates and âgotchasâ, and also that incubi can honey their tongue to saccharine degree.
Fuck. Youâve really spent too much time in the human realm.Â
Before Sunday can get a word in, you keep talking, desperate to look enthusiastic to discuss incubi and possibly give yourself away. âIf itâs being entered into the Film Festival, a mockumentary or a horror film could be both informative and entertaining. Or even a silent film.â
âItâs succubi and incubi,â Moze mutters. âIf there were more people Iâd bet thereâd be one group submitting porn.â
You stifle a cough, but you donât think you did it well.Â
âWhat, with Hopkins as the intended audience?â you glance at him, and see the traces of laughter on his mouth, and suddenly your own feels somewhat dry. Just a little.Â
âYeah, imagine,â he matches your airy toneâand the proximity forces your heart to lapse. Just a little.Â
Sundayâs glare bores into both of you. âCan the two of you take this seriously? We are absolutely not doing that.â
If you ever forgot he was an angel, this is a poignant reminder. Should you squint, you think you can see a faint halo around his head, but that could also honestly just be the library light causing the incandescence.Â
âYes, which is why we should do horror or a mockumentary,â you interrupt. This is the only fight youâd ever attempt with an angel, and boy do you deserve a medal for it like the humans do. âThe topic isnât particularly⊠uh⊠safe for work, so horror would convey the right message that we investigate in each class, while still having space for detail. Think something like found footage horror films or something.â
âYou raise a good point,â Sunday deliberatesâif there was anything good to say about angels, it would be that they are gracious with their concessions. Some concessions. âFine.â
Fine.Â
Fine.
Fine.Â
With glee, you save the moment to brag about when you next visit downstairs. I got an angel to agree with me.Â
But simultaneously, you compose your face, knowing the next item on the agenda will inevitably be the very topic of the proposal.Â
Suddenly, you no longer feel the glee of just a minute ago.Â
Oh shit.Â
*àż.
The most abject misfortune in your long life, it should be duly noted, does not in fact occur that particular night.Â
It occurs the next night. Perhaps it was too much to ask for when you pleaded for just this year: uninterrupted, normal, uninterrupted. It mightâve stemmed from you spamming omg on social media too much, but itâs not like you could realistically use any other alternative without getting flagged as suspicious. Call it a habit caused by humans, or whatever.Â
Disregarding the blasphemy, the day starts normally, and gives you hope (ill-founded, you know). Like all mornings, you begin with breakfast, a coffee and a cigarette outsideâand a quick dose of Mozeâs early-morning glare. As with all days, you ignore itâbut there seems to be something underlying beneath its surface. Something deeper, as if heâs trying to figure you out; as though his eyes are meticulously stripping away your dermis with forensic precision, paring away sinew from your bones and finding the interweaved remnants of your blackened soul.Â
Itâs a Friday, with exactly one morning lecture on probabilityâthen a project research session with Hostile and Hostiler in the comically empty lecture hall.Â
Or Hostile and Slightly Less Hostile.Â
Or even Awkward and then Tentative Teamwork.Â
The bowl of cereal from this morning does nothing to suppress the ravenous feeling thatâs slowly taking over your mind. It would be fine if you didnât have a morning class, but alas nobody ever seems to hear your prayers as you sit through two hours of quite possibly the most onerous yammering youâve ever heardâand youâve heard the Avatar of Pride yap.Â
Every day your hypothesis seems to be proved rightâhumans would do a fine job running hell.Â
But no one will ever listen to the humble incubus, you muse as you sling your books onto your bed and pick up the folder youâve compiled on incubi, succubi and demons of seduction. Itâs detailed, but everything is neatly cited and completely untraceable to your brains specifically. If you rang up your friends and falsified a few sources along the way, who could possibly be able to tell?
Strewn within the sheets is some inaccurate information. If they correct you on it, itâs all well and good, but perhaps even better if they gain some misconceptions along the way.Â
You donât mind cheating a little in academia, if the subject is idiotic enough.Â
And if your perfectly perfect human life stays intact because of it, you donât mind being a little unethical with your information practices.Â
Just a little.Â
Irregardless of your questionable academic ethics, youâre beginning to feel light-headed by the early afternoon. Some would say itâs karma for defiling the sanctity of this fine learning establishment, but you know full well it was the measly kiss youâve had as a proper mealâsomething insubstantial and far too light to count as a true dinner. Jiaoqiu was more of a snack, and already youâre reminiscing over the flavour of his lips.Â
Really, you should be a gourmet.Â
âŠItâs also becoming increasingly clear that your thoughts are veering substantially off-track, though who can blame you when your head is beginning to throb and your mouth is becoming more parched by the minute.Â
You donât think itâs ever been this bad before, but then again youâre one of the oldest of your speciesâyour full maturation is only moons away. Or more. Or less. Itâs hard to conceptualise the time of the underworld when youâre on the surface.Â
Tonight, your skin will likely burn like molten rock, reshaping and rekindling you into a form better than yesterdayâs. Hunger will only intensify the process, making it far more painful. And you are hungry, with a body practically screaming at you to absorb some emotion. Anger. Hatred. Misery. All of these are copious in this highly pressurised environment, but these are fleeting on your tongueâbitter and grainy and not worth the effort of satiating yourself with.Â
The clock is only ticking forward. You canât not make it to your project meetingâthat would for sure rouse the angelâs suspicion, and you cannot afford that. Not tonight. Not any night, actually, if you can help it.Â
You donât want your time here to end. Â
With each step towards the door, your ribcage feels like itâs about to swallow you wholeâso insatiable it mightâve been easier for you to be labelled as an Avatar of Gluttony instead. Not a lot of sand remains in your hourglass, though youâre not stupid.Â
There are contingencies for times like these.
Jiaoqiu has class, you wrack your brains. If thereâs anyoneâŠ
It would probably be the Avatar of Lust whoâd be able to help youâyou think youâve seen her several times around before, feeling the familiar âfingerprintâ of demons amidst a crowd of human energy.Â
The walls are far too grey as you roam the halls. At some point, you think you start seeing the people you pass morph into a singular identity, filled with the same struggles, crises and misery as everyone else.Â
Itâs barely enough to sate the throbbing that beats in tandem with the secondsâa dull ache that only grows more poignant with time. If you tried, you could probably manually take your mind and crack it like a pomegranate to quell the pain, but alas you havenât quite figured that one out yet.Â
There.Â
âWow, you look a mess.â Bleary-eyed, you watch as the colours coalesce into a faint figure, but it may just be delirium. Her cold hands brush across your face and tilt it from side to side, and you hear her whistle lowly at the heat from your skin.Â
You think youâre delirious.Â
âMost definitely are,â the woman shrouded in purple replies. Can she read minds? âPoor little incubus, babbling his little heart out. So, what will it be? I can bring you the finest strains of human joy and wreckage, or I can send you straight back from whence you came for your metamorphosis. Pretty boy, I could even get you set up for the night with a few humans.â
Her words merge and plume into smoke in your brain.
âGot a meeting for a group project right now,â you slur. Your sluggish register of your surroundings makes it impossible to sense the faint, familiar energy so far off in the distance. Itâs a soft dove-grey, and utterly neutralâso removed from the filth of the human realm that youâd stop and admire it any other day. âCould you make this go away for a bit? Iâm screwed if I donât.â
âOh?â Lust bursts out in a too-loud peal of laughter, slamming her hand on the wall behind her to stabilise herself. You wish someone would do the same to your head. âI see. Iâve heard the rumours, but I didnât think youâd be this deprived.â
She doesnât make any sense, you note wonderingly, but strangely her giggles make you slightly more reassured.Â
âI make all the sense,â Lust informs you. âWhat a rude little demon you are. But donât worryââÂ
Her nails dig into your skin, and you feel the air grow slightly colder, as if some equilibrium has finally been disrupted. Or maybe youâre stupid, and youâre finally succumbing to whatever this process will require.Â
But she glances behind you, and brings your face closer to hers a brief second later. ââI just found somebody very interesting to help you out, and I barely need to do anything to help you.â
âWhat?â you mumble. The strange feeling youâre getting from the distance is growing stronger. Just a bit, but you donât really think it matters.Â
What truly matters is that your group project meeting is only twenty minutes away, and youâre barely holding on to the wisps of your sanity that still linger.
âYou havenât been very helpful,â you add, but then her eyes roll exasperatedly and Lust kisses you with all the weight of a butterfly. You donât think youâve ever kissed anyone this casually, as though itâs the absent-minded brush of powder across oneâs nose, or the faint tap of blotting lipstick. She tastes like the rich last bite of cake, and she pulls away with the speed it typically gets eaten with.Â
âUh, thanks?â you mutter perplexedly, for the emotion of other demons simply doesnât satiate incubi the same way other speciesâ do, but it is appreciated nonetheless. At least, it temporarily soothes the faint pounding of hands against your cranium like an Ibuprofen does a head-splitting migraine. Sheâs still close to your face, and you can see a self-satisfied smirk slowly unfolding under that maraschino glossâall pink and conniving.Â
Lust. What a strange woman she is.
âI think youâll be fine,â she whispers one last time, before traces of bergamot and vanilla seep into the candy-tinged air. She really doesnât make any sense, you drowsily reaffirm, but before you can ask her to elaborate on her cryptic message, something vice-like tightens around your wrist and wrenches you from Lustâs clutches.Â
Youâre being dragged, practically, by something attached to a soft pearl-hued glove. A hand. No, a person. No, an angel whom you were so careful to not touchâwho is now gripping onto your arm as if you could possibly run away.Â
It takes you precious few sand grains to realise the true gravity of the situation.Â
Shit. Shit shit shit. To make matters worse, your lucid thoughts are limited to only one section of your brainâthe rest are all struggling to keep up with his fast pace.Â
âWhatâs wrong?â you ask the wall of grey before you, and for a brief moment you think you see the flash of a halo in the dim hallway. You think you can feel the impenetrably icy wall of his composure crack, just a little.Â
But thatâs impossible.Â
Angels arenât subjected to the sorrows of human experience.Â
âSunday.â You say his name for the first time, tainting the angelâs identity with a tongue that has been coated by filth and sweetened with the most saccharic honey. âSunday.â
He casts a long look over his shoulder, one that reflects his usual disapproving stare. Without looking, he easily fits the key into the  âIdentifying and Apprehending Olde Monsters in Our Midstâ lecture theatre, and you must remind yourself once more that this is the most simple of childâs play to a being like him.Â
âIt is time to work on our project, is it not?âÂ
Can he feel your fever? Can he feel the tense energy that youâre struggling to control?
Your eyes slip past him onto the clock, which still indicates a good ten minutes remain until the pencilled slot. âAlmost. Mozeâs not here, either.â
His grip tightens, minutely. âHeâll join us later. Iâve asked him to purchase some film and get a better camera from the Media department.â
Then, he lets you go abruptly as though burntâyouâre left clutching your folder and with a profoundly confused expression on your face.Â
âRight,â you mention awkwardly, rubbing at your wrist and wincing at the painful feverish heat youâve been emitting. Thereâs still that awful dry feeling in your mouth, but youâd rather keel over and die rather than give yourself away in front of an angel. âNo time like the present, am I right?â
âThat truly is the principle we should strive to embody.â Sundayâs voice grows muffled as he carefully rummages around in the cupboard at the front of the auditoriumâyou take the opportunity to both pat your back for diffusing the tension, and place your folder neatly on the large table that also loiters at the front. Youâd normally take your seat at the back of the lecture hall, but tonight the eve grows dark and the only light is the harsh fluorescent one that shines from above and casts only the table in a clinical ambience.Â
âWe can start slightly earlier,â he murmurs, closer than you anticipated, standing right behind you as you sink into the swivel chair by your research. You fight back a scream at his sudden appearanceâthe unexpected pop-up of an angel never bodes well, after all.Â
âThatâs⊠not a problem,â you smile, ignoring the pounding headache that seems to have decided to make itself known once more. âDo you want to compare research first to make sure weâre on the same page?â
âNaturally.â His voice is slightly lower than it normally is, and you attribute it to the lull of the lecture hall and its secluded location within the building. Even on the most busy of days, you never actually see anyone walk past the glass windows that panel a strip in the doorâyou swallow nervously at the thought of being sequestered here with an angel. âIs it alright if I record the behind-the-scenes process of our progress?â
âLike to bolster the found footage feeling, or using it to bolster the mockumentary?â you probe, trying to conceptualise his earlier ramblings of sending Moze off for a better camera. He appears to notice the puzzling expression you sport.
âThere was a rather grainy camera in the cupboard here. We should record with both to compare the texture,â he explains, and you accept it with relative ease.Â
After all, angels canât lie. âAlright.âÂ
He murmurs something under his breath, a low âperfectâ before heâs setting the camera up to capture both of you.
Perfect.
Perfect.
Perfect.Â
The word lingers in your mind. You donât quite know why.
*àż.
â....incubi are thought to feed on the life force and emotions of their victims, and may also cause sleep paralysis. They are male demons who seduce their victims, particularly women, and have sexual intercourse with them,â Sunday pauses. Youâre acutely aware of his knee brushed up against yours, how he monitors your face and notes between reading out whatever heâs written in neat, looping handwriting.Â
Heâs warm. Heâs warm, but youâre scalding to the touch: feverish and more than somewhat delirious. Sundayâs words fade in and out like the two of you are underwater; you can only curse at Lust for misleading you, as help is nowhere in fucking sight. Instead, sheâs doomed you to be stuck with an angel scrutinising every move you make.Â
âThatâs what I got too,â you mumble, shuffling your sheets to find the relevant information. Your glasses slip down your nose, but before you can push them up, a pale glove gently slides them up your faceâand you startle. âAh, thanks.â
âNo problem,â he smiles, yet it doesnât reach his pale eyes. âDid you get any more information?â
âNot that I can think ofâŠâ you trail off, mind going blank at the most critical time. âSorry, Iâm a bit under the weather tonight.â
âDonât worry,â he chuckles, but thereâs something thatâs sharper than usual in the cloud of energy surrounding him. Something off in the angel masquerading as human, in the computer designed by the creator. âIâve already got some ideas on how to portray these ideas in the film.â
Thereâs a slight sheen on your faceâhalf nerves, half the fever thatâs consuming mind and body at a ferocious pace. With glazed eyes, you can only nod.Â
âPoor thing,â he hums, sympathetically distant in the way only angels can be.Â
Somethingâs wrong.Â
The cold back of a gloved hand touches your forehead tenderly, like if he were cradling the divine metal of his weapon.Â
âDidnât get enough emotions lately?â he asks condescendingly, and you freeze.Â
âWhat?â you squint up at him through the lenses, still trying to play it offâbut really, youâre attempting to process what he said.Â
âIâm joking,â he smiles once more, but thereâs something awfully false in the curl of his lipsâsomething wrong and twisted in how his hand shifts to cradling your face in his palm. Still so gentle, but now with a terrifying sort of control that was not there a mere second ago.Â
âRight,â you mumble, peering up at him with wide, hazy eyes. Itâs no longer the fluorescent lighting thatâs hurting your eyesâbut rather the emergence of a halo behind his head that you force yourself not to react to. That would be a dead giveaway.Â
You can barely breathe. No longer does oxygen circulate through your vesselsâthere is only the thick undercurrent of tension you swallow, only the suffocating grasp he has on you, both physically and mentally.Â
Too close. Heâs still smiling like nothingâs wrong, as though you arenât a filthy demon and can still be forgiven if you merely clasp your hands like the humans do and confess your sins.Â
Hell is filled with humans like these.Â
âIt must be so hardâŠâ he breathes. A soft, gloved thumb strokes your cheek, feather light, but you barely feel it over the hummingbird thrum of your heart and mind beating in sync. Like trapped prey, youâre honed in to each and every move; and like trapped prey, youâre wondering why the executioner chooses to trace the path of the arrow over your body.Â
Your tongue is leaden.Â
There is nothing you can say to save yourself.Â
âIt must be so hard being a demon,â he purrs with that quiet, lenient tone of his.Â
A feather brushes past your cheek; the angelâs wings have now unfurled.
An Archangel.Â
You pray your end is quick.Â
His hand moves up, and with demulcent grace, he thumbs the ridged edge of the horns that spiral from your head, ones that you didnât even notice had appeared.Â
Your mouth opens and closes, but embarrassingly the honeyed tongue you so valued has failed you with your neck on the line.Â
âNow, now, you didnât think youâd get away with it, did you?â he soothes, and you feel each and every ministration the Archangel delivers to the manifestations of your otherness on your head.Â
This only feels more cruelâa disturbing mercy to grant a prisoner about to be executed.Â
âIâŠâ the sinner closes his mouth, already knowing itâs futile.Â
âYou,â Sunday repeats, tilting his head. The halo tilts with himâlarge, unblinking eyes interspersed with smaller ones, all honed in on you. Theyâve all got the same psychedelic quality, and in any other life you may have been fascinated with how they gaze so earnestly at somebodyâs soul. But not tonight.Â
Tonight, theyâre the eyes that will see through you and judge the very mettle intertwined with sinew and flesh and blood.Â
âPlease kill me quickly,â you murmur. Perhaps the Archangel will grant you a final mercy thatâs never afforded to even the most pious of humans. The uncertainty of death is infinitely longâgrain upon grain upon grain of sand. If your soul burns up in those divine flames angels so like to use on your kind, youâre not sure youâll even regenerate back in hell.Â
His hand pausesâitâs settled on top of your head now, brushing past the hair and merely resting upon it. Heâs not looked away from you all this time: watching how your eyes grew wide with denial, with fear, and now how your eyelids lower with the weight of resignation. What a heavy burden, he may be thinking, but you wouldnât know for itâs impossible to guess what an angel thinks, and an Archangel specifically.Â
Your breath catches in your throat.
Slowly, experimentally, his gloved hand bows your head far enough that youâre forced off the chair and onto the ground with your knees scraping the frigid linoleum. Like this, youâre a sculpture of repentance: hands desperately clutching each other, lips open in what appears to be grief, and perhaps the anguish of the unknown that resides deeply in each pupil. Of course, if you were human that would be one thing, but on your head lie two jagged horns, sweeping the ground is a long tail, and inked across your arms and lower back are constant reminders of your sin.
You are an abomination masquerading as human, gazing up at the being who holds your lengthy life in his hands.Â
Thereâs a painful sort of irony in this situation.Â
You canât even beg for your life.Â
âPoor little lamb,â he repeats, with an empty sort of pity in his eyes. Empty, for what youâre finally feeling rolling off him in waves isnât pity, nor sympathy, but something that makes you believe youâre truly hallucinating. Maybe the shock made you go mad.Â
He leans down to examine you, and the wings that flutterânestled in dove-grey hairâbrush carefully over your face, with softness you still remain puzzled by,Â
Bitterly, you smile at himâa wretched thing, tasting acerbic and of your birth on caustic brimstone.Â
âThereâs no point in dragging this out,â you mutter, too tired from the pain of your growth and the exhaustion of fear to prolong this any longer.Â
Thereâs a sudden jolt of irritation in the tranquil waves emanating from the angel, and youâre starting to think that maybe that first emotion you felt from him wasnât a hallucination.Â
You glance up finally, and the expression on Sundayâs face is mired by shadow with a faint flush beneath it: like heâs the one besieged by a fever and not you.Â
âI could help you, you know,â he breathes, and itâs then youâre able to finally put a name to the feeling clouding whatever the hell was going on with his energy waves.Â
Lust.Â
Thereâs also something so painfully ironic about thisâthe emotions youâre absorbing from an Archangel are enough to snap you out of your trance. In fact, their purity and abundance are hastening your transformationâheâs aiding you, and the very fact makes you quiet.Â
âYou wonât survive even if I donât kill you, demon.â His gaze is cold, but heâs entrancing.
You focus your attention on his legs spread in the chairâthe pressed and meticulously ironed grey slacks he wears in particular. Theyâre soft, wool-blend, worth several thousand easily. Imbued within each strand is the intrinsic scent of him: the bergamot, the vanilla, the faint vestiges of cake. But beneath that is a clean scentânot quite the fragrance of fresh laundry, but one that seems to perfume the air with sunlight.Â
Heâs an Archangel, you remind yourself.
âGo on,â he goads, voice all breathy. An Archangel far too used to authority, whoâs currently cradling your life in glove-covered hands.Â
âSunday,â you murmur, trailing a finger along the neat crease in his slacks. While he stares down at you stonily, there are monumental cracks in his composure that you detectâthe tensing of his thighs, and the sudden spike in vitality from your readings. âYou really wanna make a mess of these?â
His face flushes a more delicate pink, yet to his credit the angel doesnât waver at the implication.
âThey can be cleaned, can they not?â Heâs pristine. Without a doubt, you ruining the almost sacrosanct cleanliness of Archangel Sunday signals a shift far too corrupted.Â
You swallow, resting your hands right where each thigh is plush with muscle. Heâs watching: every move carefully documented, every sin filed away, every blasphemy to be recited at the confessional. The first wrinkle in his clothes by your fingers marks the irreversible transgression youâre about to commit. The camera, too, silently records this clandestine affair.
(âWill your creator see this?â you want to ask.)
(More importantly: will he forgive you, Archangel Sunday?)Â
You wet your lips, tasting the residual cherry gloss that lingers on the flesh. He keeps vigil: taking in how your tongue darts out, how you lower your head until your cheek is a mere breath away from his thigh.
He feels it, the hot air slowly being blown onto the muscleâas evidenced by the further hues decorating his energy. A twinge of impatience now taints the otherwise unsoiled intensity; it causes far more marvel in you than you wouldâve thought.Â
Every minute shift of hands against fabric is distinctly felt. You know thisâyou see it in his slacks growing a little tighter, in how his chest briefly stops its rise and fall.Â
Sunday is no better at playing an angel than he is at playing man.Â
Pointedly, you peer upwards as you let your mouth finally osculate the fabric. Once soft, grey and perfect, they are now stained and miredâan ever-tangible reminder of the decision of two non-humans in this lecture theatre. You hope the camera captures the small, strangled noise Sunday lets outâsomething halfway betwixt cough and splutter, approximating to a gasp.Â
Kiss after kiss you press to his thighs, inching closer and closer to his half-hard dick: so agonisingly slowly you can hear his teeth grind in frustration.Â
âIncubus,â he breathes in a horrified sort of fascination. âYouâre doing this on purposeâahââ
You easily cut him off, letting the heat from your mouth linger on his hardon as you gradually unzip his slacks: tooth by tooth, until the poor man practically shivers in his seat. No, you forget. Archangel. Thereâs an Archangel whom youâre scraping your knees forâwhose undiluted energy is allowing for you to safely undergo your maturation. This situation is ludicrousâonly spotted in the most sordid of underworld printings, and even then youâd be hard-pressed to find something as blasphemous as this.Â
His fingers wrap tightly around your horn, and you suppress a groan at the frigid sensation. Maybe if you were a better man, youâd keep your composure and remain sluggish for him to get used to every new sensation.Â
But you are neither better nor man, so you ignore the thought. Instead, you increase your pace, just as he so desperately wanted. Hooking his briefs down, you take a moment to appreciate his hiss as the cold air hits him, followed only by how pretty his dick looks in the fluorescent light: flushed the same delicate pink cast across his features, trimmed neatly and already a drop of pre is pressed against the very tip like pearls.Â
âYouâre evil,â he gasps as you experimentally twist your hand, and the length of flesh twitches. You smile.Â
âYou think?â You finally speak, gently circling the flushed head with your thumb.Â
His amber eyes glare down at you like two suns, and that is perhaps the warmest youâve ever seen him. Those boreal fingers practically fracture your horn as he squeezes, and you glare back.Â
âTaking advantage of a defenceless demon,â you chide; every syllable is accompanied by the motion of your hand as it begins moving up, then back down again. Sunday bites down on his lip, clearly attempting to stifle the sounds that would no doubt emerge when you speed up. âHow shameful, Archangel.â
âMmhââ Sunday shuts his mouth, and the camera takes it all in: how you lower your mouth to the head, licking the salt from his skin and the pre, and how he squeezes those slacks around your shouldersâfuck. Thereâs heat crawling all under your skin like millions of fire ants.Â
You move deeper, rocking yourself against the floor to quell the ache in your lower stomach: sucking and using your hands at the base to elicit more of those sounds from him. He tastes like rays of light on a cold winter morning: a clean energy you canât help but swallow eagerly, ravenous for this stupid, misguided angel. Your hands roam his thighs, the smooth curve of his waist, and finally settle right where it begins curving into his plush ass: gripping the fat tightly as you continue taking him down your throat.Â
âYou were born for this, werenât you,â he mutters, and you can hear his wings flutter and rustle at your ministrations. His low voice forces your eyes shut, but itâs not just that. Gazing at the long strings of precum that are leaking down is beginning to stir unbearable warmth in your chest, while your breathing is slowly becoming more laboured as you choke on his girth. If anything, youâre the one getting off on this: tightening the muscles in your thighs to keep feeling that dull ache in your gut.Â
He notices.Â
Of course he does; those hawkish eyes that shine from his face and from his halo are attuned to every little move you make, every little sigh that leaves your nose.Â
âHow shameful,â he mocks, echoing your previous words. Adjusting his leg, he presses a polished shoe against your bulge, and you moan around his dick.Â
Fuck.Â
He rocks the sole onto you, hard; you canât help but grind up into the impeccable leather, already feeling a damp patch growing on the front of your pants. Each sensation is only exacerbated by the lack of airflow caused by his fat cock in your mouthâamplifying your senses to a dizzying, heady state.Â
Youâre gazing with teary eyes right up at him, and you swear he throbs in your mouth; but the thought leaves just as quickly when his hand comes to cradle the side of your face, wiping the salty liquid away with a gentle thumb and bringing it to his own lips to taste.Â
âYou want to get off too, huh?â he coos sympathetically: a pink tongue darting out to lick his thumb clean. In tandem, his foot presses even further down, and you can feel the frigid linoleum press up against you.Â
âAh,â you choke around his dick. No words dribble from your lips, but Sunday feels the plea regardless. Those gloved hands of his pull you off his length with a pop and retract just as quickly. He grabs your arms as if he were handling a ragdollâsitting you up on the desk in front of him as though you only weighed that muchâand you need to remind yourself that he is not human, he is something far superior in strength and agility.Â
Itâs also aptly demonstrated in how he handles the buckles of your pants: deftly and expertly opening each clasp with monstrous speed, before tugging on them until they pool on the auditorium floor.Â
You shiver.Â
âGo on,â he encourages. âSince you so clearly canât focus, why not entertain me?â
Why not entertain me?
âWhat?â you mumble, but he levels you with a stare that feels far more sadistic than anything youâve faced before. Youâre not faced with a human, nor the warmth of your fellow demonsâbut rather a damn Archangel thatâs making you feel more exposed than ever.Â
âWhat?â Heâs the picture of innocence, though heâs got his dick in his own hand nowâkeeping his hand slowly moving as he speaks, and your eyes hone in on the motion. You canât help but focus on it, how it looks against the pearl-white glove, how it tasted in your mouth. âYouâre desperate, arenât you?â
His words and the crude tone behind them stir a coiling tension in your stomach; you can only stare at the sudden change.Â
Angels, too, can be deceptive.Â
âGo on,â he repeats, tilting his head. âHereâs your opportunity.â
Damn it.
Hesitantly, you pull down your boxers: exposing your cock thatâs slowly been dribbling precum in your pants, exposing everything to the angel. Heat rises to your face, but his eyes on you also make the heat pool at your gut; you canât help but slip a hand down your body to wrap around your dick, so desperate to be attended to.Â
The effect is immediate. With a hand already slicked wet, the tight grip you have on yourself, and the voyeur whoâs watching each and every one of your moves with his pairs of eyes, itâs apparent you wonât last long. You gaze at him, embarrassed, with a face sheened with sweat and eyes clouded with lust on your own.
âSunday,â you bite outâthe fist heâs making clenches ever so slightly, and you think his breath hitches.Â
He reaches over for the camera, tilting it towards you and capturing each and every expression, every single moan you let out as you succumb to the soothing rhythm of getting yourself off.Â
âBeautiful,â he murmurs, and you feel your abdomen tighten. âBut you can hold on a little longer, right?â
Your eyes snap wide open as a slick, gloved finger trails the curve of your ass and around your hole; Sundayâs expression is of utmost concentration as he records each minute detail.Â
âWhatângh,â you whine as he probes just the fingertip in; the glove has been dampened by his precum already, but still feels so powdery and dry as it slowly enters deeper. Heâs cold, and his fingers are downright glacial; the sudden change in temperature has you tightening around the digit as your hand flies to steady yourself on his shirt.Â
So close.Â
You can feel his breathing fan across your face; itâs shallow and reeks of lust, the kind thatâs always the most dangerous.Â
âKeep going,â he hums, gradually pumping the finger in and out until itâs almost completely covered with the wet precum leaking from your tip and down your cock. The burn in your abdomen is indescribableâyou can barely focus on the simple, mindless motion of up and down, when heâs so close like this, when heâs pressing another finger right in and stretching you out with ease that belies his inexperience.Â
In. Out. In. Out. You can barely breathe with the pace that heâs setting, seeming to deliberately miss that particular spot inside you that would end this oh-so-quickly.Â
The camera captures it all: the oozing, non-human precum that trails and coats his gloves, the careful scissoring motions heâs doing to ease you open, and the desperate heaves of your stomach as you fight off the tightening of your abdomen.
 âSunday, please,â you moan, and you jolt as his fingers pull out and the same damp hand wraps around your tail to bring it to where he was just mere moments ago. Sluggishly, you barely register whatâs going on until he opens his mouthâand his proximity makes his words reverberate and coalesce in your sternum, tightening your very chest.Â
âI wonât do it all for you,â he croons, but heâs setting the camera on the desk next to you and adjusting his gloves once more. Your scaly tail is further pushed in, and the strange sensation forces your eyes back into your skull. What the fuck? The Archangel uses your own tail to get you off, and the conflicting sensation between your legs and inside you is hurtling you towards an orgasm you donât think youâll ever forget.Â
But heâs not done.
His wet hands trace up your sides, bundling the shirt youâre wearing until itâs at your neck. âOpen wide.â
Blearily, you do as youâre told; fabric is shoved into your mouth as he uses you to hold your own shirt up, while he appreciatively hums at the metal pierced through your nipples. Cold, slick hands massage your tits, and even with the thick wad of material in your mouth you canât help but moan loudly.Â
âSo sensitive,â he mutters condescendingly. His thumbs brush rough circles against the pierced nipples, and involuntarily you feel your legs tighten around his waist. Heâs callous with his motions; itâs slowly growing overwhelming for you, what with the tail stuck inside you, your hand still moving, and now his hands stimulating the tender skin around your chest.Â
Itâs not until you look down that you see his dick rubbing up against your own, and the sight almost makes you let go right there and then.Â
âMmphââ you groan as he lowers his head to your chest, rubbing one areola affectionately while his tongue swirls around the other.Â
With the hand now freed up in place of his mouth, he presses both your dicks together tightly, just barely moving his hand for the minimal amount of friction.
You think that makes it worse.Â
Tears leak from your eyes uncontrollably, and the tautness in your stomach feels as though itâll claw out by itself if you donât let go.
You move your tail just a whisperâitâs growing unbearable, just how overwhelming the rush of stimuli is. Sundayâs teeth graze your tit in such a way you desperately grit down on your shirt to not cum right there and then, but itâs growing impossibly hard when the motions of both his hands speed up: stroking you both in such a way that rubs precum everywhere and feels like fucking heaven.
You mewl as he bites down on the flesh, hard, leaving a throbbing mark as he laves his tongue right over it. Â
âPlease,â you babble incomprehensibly through the fabric. âSunday.â
His gaze meets your despairing one.Â
âPoor little thing,â he whispers, which only blows air over the saliva-slicked area and forces even more tears from your eyes. âGo on.â
He wrenches his hand particularly tightly, and you wailâa choked, garbled thing that comes right from the chest. Your back arches as your orgasm washes over you and blinds you for a brief moment: mind completely blank with only the purest form of pleasure hazing it, scalding robes of white staining your shirt, his shirt, and ending up on your face.Â
âWhat a mess,â he murmurs, rocking his hand as the waves hit you with full force.Â
âAhââ you sob out as he continues through the waning ebb and flow: your legs twitch around him, and youâre sure he can feel the shallow, heaving breaths youâre taking to desperately cope with his continued movements. Your tail slips out from between your legs, and the sudden exit is followed by even more white dripping down your legs and onto the desk.Â
âThere, there,â he coos. âThat wasnât so hard, was it now?â
He peels off the ruined gloves and tosses them to the side, tenderly wiping away the tears that streak your faceâyouâre still reeling, still feeling the aftershocks of intense, mind-ruining pleasure.Â
What the fuck?
He handles you like a proper loverâan absurd scene between lowly incubus and overmighty Archangelâsettling his hands on your waist in something that could almost resemble an embrace. Some bastardised, corrupted version of one, anyway.Â
Heâs not your lover.Â
Heâs not even his own person.
You meet those deceptive eyes: as old as you, yet far more lonely.Â
âIs it my turn now?â he asks, a smile curving on his face like it truly was nothing that you witnessed in his amber gaze.Â
The Archangel, true to his inquiry, lulls in his movements: body freezing in both motion and temperature, while he tilts his head in a silent question. Do you want to continue?
The nature of an incubus is simple. Every act of consuming energy inevitably makes the incubus far more alluring, while it naturally replenishes whatever fatigue the demon has.Â
In the case of consuming an Archangelâs energyâŠ
Well.Â
Suffice to say, it only fuels your libido.Â
In response to his question, you wrap a scorching hand around his dick; now a furiously flushed red, with a desperately leaking tip thatâs practically begging for attention.
âNot like that,â he says lowly, and itâs not until heâs lifting you with strong arms and sitting you on his spread thighs that you vaguely realise what heâs doing. âYouâre nice and stretched out now, right?â
Those long fingers of his trace the slope and dip of your waist, rubbing small circles in wait of your response.Â
This canât be Sundayâs first time, you instead wonder; those piercing amber eyes of his make you feel the blushing violet instead. His heavy gaze burns where it lands: taunting and prickling your skin with a nervous fire that further kindles the one that revived in your stomach mere moments ago.Â
âNeed something?â He tilts his head, and the taunting smile stretching on his face brings up the words you spoke all those days ago.Â
You scowl. âShut up.â
âI thinkââ he trails off, lifting you partially out of your straddle with ease. Even as your mind goes blank, you feel each and every sensation that fires within your neurons. ââyou have a problem with being honest with yourself.â
âStick to your theology degree, angel,â you bite out, looping your arms around his neck to stabilise yourself and your racing heart. You quit breathing, momentarily. Thereâs something hard pressed onto the bottom of your thigh, imprinting stiffly and hotly into the flesh like some brand; naturally, you squeeze your eyes shut. Waiting. Anticipating Sundayâs movements, just as he anticipates yours.
âWhich psychology is studied in,â he returns, goading you. Heâs got his hand underneath you now, adjusting himself but still not pushing the engorged head in. Your frown deepens. âWhat, no please?â
âYou canât seriously be lecturing me about manners rightâahââ
Your sharp nails dig into the muscle of his trapezius as he cuts you off by stuffing the tip right in; he groans low in his throat at how damn tight you are, but also the feeling of poignant pain thatâs beginning to sting across his shoulders.Â
You think you can smell the faint coppery scent of blood, but you only half-feel bad.Â
âYou have a damn problem in not listeningâhngâto others,â you pant. Heâs tightened his grip on your ass, kneading and squeezing so tightly as he struggles to control his own breathing. The two of you linger in the lull for precious few moments; it seems time has capriciously stopped for the pair washed in fluorescent light, so desperately entwined yet ever at odds with each other.Â
âAnd you think youâre any better?â he counters. If you were more lucid, youâd be able to properly understand the tension in his arms and how he leans fully back on the chair, letting those wings brush past your body and practically engulf the two of you.Â
You shiver.Â
âYes,â you hiss indignantly. âI actuallyâfuckâ
You paw uselessly at his chest as he slams you down, and your sore throat lets out a choked out wail at the sudden sensation of being filled to the hiltâstuffed so full you almost feel him in your throat.Â
Each vein, each stupid ridge is vividly felt with every motionâhis chest urgently rising and falling, your own spiralling into a sweat-slicked display of ecstasy, and his face. It contorts into the basest expression youâve seen yet: flushed, mouth half-open, with a burning gaze honed right onto your own.Â
He looks like sin itself.
Sundayâs losing his composure, fast (you are too). Â
âFuckâoh, shit, Sunday.â Imprecations cascade from your lips like waterfalls as the angel begins his movements, building up from a slow roll of his hips to accustom both of you to the sensation.
Like this, with his face mere inches away, you canât help but stare a little at his faceâhoned in on his soft lips that wobble despite his struggle to keep his composure.Â
You wonder what they taste like.Â
Tea? Raspberries? Salt, like your own?
His lust-stricken gaze darkens somewhat as he appears to look over your shoulder briefly, but youâre too lost in the way heâs rocking himself into you to notice. But you do notice when his soft hand slides up your spine and cradles your nape. You do notice when he pulls you down so his breath mingles with yoursâas he searches your eyes for any signs of discomfort and finds none.Â
âThe fuck are you planning?â you murmur, and this time he actually lets you finish speaking before he cuts you off. Except, this time, it differs from his usual modus operandi. One moment, youâre staring intently at the angel beneath you; the next, heâs capturing your open mouth with his, and the effect is instantaneous. You moan into his mouth upon tasting him: not quite placing the saccharic flavour, but heâs fucking divine.
Heâs languorous with his motionsâto any outsider, it would look like heâs done this a thousand times and still wishes to savour the rest, pulling you so youâre finally flush with his chest.Â
Youâve never kissed an angel before.Â
You may not even be alive right now.Â
Itâs only natural, then, that your eyes flutter shut and your head tilts to kiss him more deeply to relish in this final mercy. Heâs biting at your lips, and the iron tang of blood combined with your dick rubbing against the soft material of his shirt begins the slow spiral into maddening pleasure.Â
You cannot see. Your eyes are shut, thus the only semblance you have of the visual situation is the light shining through the blood vessels in your lids; not the way Sunday isnât looking at you, but glaring at the door far behind you.Â
Practically on cue, it opens, and you hear the clatter of wood against woodâsomeone stumbles in, then abruptly freezes in place.Â
Eyes blown wide open, you attempt to pull away from Sunday, only to have his hand keep pressing firmly against your neck to keep you in place while his mouth begins exploring lower down your neck.Â
The person behind you doesnât leave like you expected.Â
âIgnore him,â Sunday breathes against your neck, and itâs then you look to your left and see your roommate shrouded in the shadow not reached by the clinical lighting. Heâs holding a camera and film, and clearly fell into the roomâjudging by his hand steadying himself on the desk, and from what you can see, the dishevelled look on his face.Â
What you miss, concealed by the darkness, is the deep red flush that mires his face, and the straining hard-on against his pants.Â
âWhat the fuck?â you attempt to sit up, but Sundayâs next words make you freeze in place just like Moze. âMoze?â
âDid you enjoy the show?â
The question is quiet, but Sundayâs soft voice makes it carry across the auditorium regardlessâand despite its polite form, the cadence beneath it hides a frightening sort of irritation. No surprise like you mightâve thought, but exasperation.Â
âWhat are you talking about?â you mutter, but itâs hard to concentrate on your roommate when Sundayâs busy thumbing your slit.Â
âHeâs been watching for the past few minutes. I was wondering when heâd reveal himself,â he sighs, less bothered than you wouldâve thoughtâwhat with the horns coming from your head, and the wings and halo sprouting from his own body.Â
Moze is human.Â
Heâs human, so you finally turn your eye to him and watch him make his way closer, until you can easily identify the most prominent emotion that radiates from his body.Â
Lust.Â
You swallow. Despite the new information, youâre not a mind reader. You canât tell exactly what Moze is thinking as he sits just a few seats away, irritably tapping a finger against the camera heâs holding.Â
âYouâre early,â Sunday comments, making sure to sit up so Moze has a full view of how well youâre taking himâand the angel doesnât miss how you tighten around him.Â
âDid you plan this?â Mozeâs voice enters the hall for the first time this evening, and Sunday definitely doesnât miss how the low reverberations make you practically flutter against him.Â
âSo what if I did?â the angel replies boredly. âItâs not like you havenât figured out who I am. And itâs not like you werenât eagerly lapping up what was going here when you were watching us through the door.â
Moze stays silent, but you swear you can hear your roommateâs teeth grind as he shifts in placeâand this time, his bulge is prominent in the blinding lights. The sight, though Moze doesnât hear, makes you whimper quietly in Sundayâs ear; the angelâs eyes turn to you, each and every pair.Â
âWhat a slut,â he murmurs, and you shiver at his tone: so crude, so mocking. âYou just canât stop, can you?â
You moan as he tightens his grip around your weeping cock and slowly begins circling a stiff nipple with his other hand. On your back, you can feel a burning stare, and the knowledge that Moze is getting off on this only makes you feel it deeper in your gut.Â
âYouâre lucky heâs all hard at the thought of someone watching,â Sunday coos, and through your hazy thoughts you barely work out if heâs talking to you or Moze. His thumbnail presses right onto the side of the headâwhich makes you almost fucking writheâbefore you flop onto his shoulder in a daze.Â
Sunday goes quiet as he focuses on moving; it seems heâs said all heâs needed to say to the man, and you really donât mind having an extra energy source to draw such salient waves of lust from. With that being said, you take the opportunity to sit back up and gaze at Moze while Sundayâs moving his pelvis beneath youâonly to find that heâs already staring at you.
Heâs pretty like this, you realise, dazed. His pupils are almost completely blown out as he takes in every inch of you; thereâs hardly any hints of opalescence left in those eyes. Deep cerise coats his cheeks, and heâs almost trembling as he keeps vigil of the scene afore himâwith hands that desperately crack the arm rests, intensely avoiding his lower body.Â
His breathing is in tandem with your own. Shallow. Fucked-out.Â
Those pretty eyes of his flick up to meet your stare directly, and you tighten around Sunday; heâs hissing and digging his nails into your waist once more as he manoeuvres you. As if to distract you, he slams himself deeply inâand you fucking buckle as you sob out a moan, blearily watching while the man at your side picks up the camera he came late because of and looks through the viewfinder.Â
âPerfect,â he breathes.Â
The coil in your stomach tightens with each flash.
âFuck,â you sob; the harsh tug of Sunday is gradually overwhelming you, and the quiet snap of each photo numbs your mind. You know Mozeâs getting each shot in detail; his meticulous nature comes through in the way he murmurs âjust like thatâ and âbeautifulââsyllables that only contribute to the heat you feel in your body, spreading effortlessly throughout your face.Â
Any train of thought is cut off when the angelâs lips brush against the junction of your shoulder, and he bites. Sharp pain will undoubtedly be followed by a deeper bruise, but in that moment the ache makes the wave of pleasure increase twofold.Â
âSundayâah,â you groan, knotting your hands in his grey locks. âPlease.â
You donât quite know, in the end, why youâre begging.Â
You donât, but when Sunday pulls back with his soft mouth stained red and a hazed look in his eyes, you think youâve got it figured out.
Snap.
Blinding white goes off behind your eyelids as you slam your lips desperately into the Archangelâs. He tastes of iron, of an intrinsic saccharine flavour that nobody else could possibly replicate.Â
Snap.
With each roll of his hips against yours, you feel him lazily pressing up against that spot inside youâinch by inch, building up on slow pleasure that trickles viscously through you like honey.Â
Snap.Â
You lock eyes with Moze, and the intense look he wears while he gazes at you feels like heâs parsing through the layers of dermis, sifting through the nerves and sinew, and finally exhuming your bones and tendons. Itâs quickly driving you past the brink, everything about him is. His laboured breathing, the way his eyes remain honed on you despite the faint agony tainting his deep lust.Â
Snap.Â
âRightâ there,â you choke out. Mozeâs still staring, absorbing each minute detail: the sheen of sweat on your body, the way your torso and legs tremble as you attempt to keep it together, and perhaps most poignantly the expression on your face as you stare at him.Â
Snap.Â
âPerfect,â he repeats, and itâs this particular version that finally pushes you over that precipice.Â
You sob out as your vision blurs, pawing uselessly at Sundayâs chest. His hands are firmly back on your hips, letting you rock the waves outâuncaring of the white ropes that ruin his shirt, or perhaps savouring them instead. Or perhaps heâs not paying attention. After all, you hear him swear for the first time since meeting him, and a mere moment later you feel spurts of heat leaking into you.Â
He shudders. By the god you donât pray to, this angel groans so sweetly as he comesâthat fact alone has you twitching around him.Â
More.Â
He still hasnât softened, but that isnât enough.Â
By chance, or maybe the best timing of your life, your eyes land on your roommate againâhis eyes, too, meet yours through the screen on the camera.Â
Snap.Â
âMoze,â you whine, and the camera ceases in its photo-taking and filming. Well, except for an image of you looking so sweetly at him as you call his name out.Â
âWhat?â your laconic roommate murmurs, standing and casting his shadow over the two of you.Â
What a joke this is: a human watching an entangled demon and angel, and being completely captivated by it. Thereâs a buzz in his veins tonightâsome from an awe-ful sort of fear at having his conjectures confirmedâbut most of it is from the object of his desire finally within his grasp. An insufferable idiot, he may add, but one he cannot help but be captivated by.Â
Maybe heâs the fool, reaching for the moon, but tonight he no longer feels so foolish.Â
Your clawed hand fists his shirt, and he swallows: stone-still, watching with bated breath for your next move.Â
What will you do?
He gets his answer when you drag him down: tasting of blood and that inexplicable caramel sensation you always seem to carry. Your tongue is hot against hisâimpatient enough to keep your mouth open, but he is too. His hands, cold from the biting wind and the frigid irritation heâs been building within, fly to cradle your face.Â
Moze has enough sense to memorise this feeling of your lips on his, moaning and twining a lazy hand around his neck.
He thinks he feels a particular angel glaring at him, but it's none of his business, really.Â
âHeâs not enough?â he mocks when you pull back, poignantly aware of the front of his pants ever-so-slightly brushing against youâhow he fucking bites down on any sound attempting to escape his mouth.Â
âDonât you want me to help you out?â you slur your words, clearly dazed from getting fucked by his stupid classmate. Yes, he wants to say, but he feels like some damned second place prize. Your hand brushes his crotch, and he bites his lipâhardâuntil the skin breaks and warm blood runs down his lips.Â
âShit,â he hisses. Mozeâs self-control is normally iron-hard, but itâs been so incessantly worn down today by two certain idiots that he canât help but let the damned thing snap. Within moments, his hand is deep in your hair, tugging as he nips at the flush of your lipsâletting copper entangle you two together in something he hopes can twist your fates together forever, even if he ends up in hell for it.Â
âAhâMoze,â you groan, and it really doesnât help his situation: dick pressed against your side, painfully hard due to a combination of factors that all have you (in bold, capital letters) written all over them.
He canât help it. He really canât.Â
He canât help it when you pump him from base to shaft with hands far warmer than hisâhe canât help stealing your lips away from the angel youâre still fucking riding. He canât help it, either, when you gaze at him like thatâhe just has to press his tip against your ass. Youâve been complaining about it not being enough, havenât you? Whatâs the problem?
Thereâs a mutual agreement between human and heavens for just this night. That being, to make you spiral into a mess.
Thus, Moze doesnât baulk at the thought of sharing this nightânot when youâre sinking down on both of them, not when the added tightness makes his head black out for a moment. Fuck.Â
Thatâs all his brain is clinging to.Â
How fucking good you feelâhow warm your back feels pressed to his chest. Heâs desperately trying not to bust, doing so by biting over the mark in the juncture that damned angel left. If you ever think of the man in front of you, you need to think of him too.Â
This is far better than any stupid pornoâastronomically so than fisting his cock and imagining you in his handâs place.
Moze buries his face in your shoulder, letting his hands roam around your bodyâsupple skin that yields beneath his greedy fingers. His hands find your nipples, rolling and twisting the peaks to hear you let out sounds far louder than what heâs heard so far. That little fact makes him smile despite himself.Â
On the other side, Sundayâs grown accustomed to how your breath hitches when his finger scrapes past a particular vein on your weeping cock, how your pupils dilate just a little more when he squeezes particularly tightly. No, heâs grown accustomed to youâall the small tells of your body. Itâs why he endures the arrogant human across from him, for all humans deserve grace.Â
They do not know better.Â
Itâs just for tonight, he rationalises. If he wants to successfully remain undercover to achieve the goal of his operative, he must not do anything to draw attention. Thatâs why heâs helped you out, nothing else.Â
Angels cannot lie to others.Â
It doesnât mean they cannot lie to themselves.Â
Despite Sundayâs heart that skips a beat whenever you look his way and all you see is him, he doesnât acknowledge the racing thrum of the organ. In fact, as heâs sucking and licking marks into your skin as a reminder of thisâof your sinâhe reminds himself that heâs doing you a favour.Â
Heâs doing the rest of the pitiful humans a favour as well. The more he takes up your attention, the less time you have to seduce them.Â
Actually, this is probably the most rational solution for getting one of the oldest incubi under control.Â
Good job, Sunday.
A plethora of broken imprecations are forced out of your mouth as they slam into youâwhen one slips out half-way, the other nails your prostate, over and over and over. You donât think youâve ever felt so fullânot by any other demon, and certainly not by any human.
This counts for your mind tooâstretched tight by what seems to be an eternity of satiation, and perhaps on the verge of breaking. Youâve forgotten the name of your project, the class youâre in, and why youâre here in the first place; and these broken trains of thought are interspersed with the quiet flash of the camera as it captures your fucked-out state.Â
âPlease.â
It seems to be a permanent fixture on your lips, though you still donât know what youâre asking for. No, you do knowâmore.
More, as streaks of white stain your thighs and drip onto the cold linoleum floor. More, as your lips bleed from the number of times youâve been kissed, and kissed them yourself. More, as you wind up on the outskirts between consciousness and unconsciousness.Â
Youâre barely lucidâhaving gone through a metamorphosis safelyâbut they seem to be more insatiable than you are. The energy store that pulses behind your heart has never experienced such satiation; in your drowsy state all you can focus on is the drunk high youâre getting off this.Â
Itâs well into the night now, and perhaps the only thing that fully snaps you back into consciousness is the feeling of something wet laving away the mess between your legsâMoze. His tongue is warm as he clears the salt and white globs from your thighs, and when he sees those eyes of yours finally focus on him, he leaves a chaste kiss pressed against the side of your leg: continuing while you drowsily stroke the strands from his sweat-slicked forehead.Â
Only then are you aware of the warmth at your back: the angel behind you holds you fast to his chest with wings that envelope the two of you in a damn cocoon.Â
And finally, beside you and displayed on the laptop on the desk, is a video file paused with the name across the title bar:Â
The Catching of the Incubus.Â
*********
There has long existed a pact between a certain human boy and a pink-haired Foxian. Well, itâs not truly a pact, but more like a casual agreement thatâs never been broken: the exchange of emergency keys, for the two trust the other will have his back.Â
Itâs used today, when Jiaoqiuâs looking for the culinary textbook he left the last time he came around, a mere week ago. He may have been frustrated with himself for it, but thereâs something about coming to Mozeâs dorm that he looks forward to each timeâand if he said the incubus that lives in the room opposite the reticent manâs, he wouldnât be lying.Â
In any case, nobodyâs home.Â
Jiaoqiu quietly slips his shoes off, checking first the living room. Nothing. Your room? Also nothing, though he lingers a little longer and takes in the burnt caramel scent that pervades the spaceâone thatâs only gotten stronger, it seems.Â
Mozeâs room it is.Â
The first thing he sees is the thick book, neatly aligned on Mozeâs dresser with a meticulous pile of forensic texts. The next is two cameras, tucked away on the shelf behind it. Theyâre just sitting there innocuously, but Jiaoqiuâs curiosity is piqued. The man seemingly never takes interest in things other than crime scenes and keeping everything tidy, so the Foxian carefully picks up one and turns it on.Â
These Succubi Suck, the file reads, and heâs immediately hit in the face with unedited footage of what appears to be the most slapdash mockumentary heâs ever seenâclips and retakes and bloopers in a long reel that he skips through amusedly, gazing at your face a little too long when youâre speaking.Â
This is their film submission? He whistles lowly, impressed by the quality despite only having three people in your class.Â
Heâs about to turn it off, when he spots the only other file that remains in the camera, something something incubus.Â
Just like before, he presses the fast forward buttonâ
The Foxianâs face suddenly heats up, and he presses a hand to the lower half of his face.Â
Oh.
Oh.
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Fairytale Witch Player Character Rules in Eureka: Investigative Urban Fantasy
Eureka has six playable "monster" types, and about ten total supernatural character options all together. Each supernatural trait is taken basically as if it is a normal trait like the ones you have been seeing us post. You cannot give a character more than one supernatural trait--and from what you are about to read, you probably wouldn't want to. Playing monsters is recommended for "advanced" players only, people who like a lot of "crunch" in their games, as require you to keep track of a lot more mechanics than playing a normal human.
Here is the Fairytale Witch Trait. This is going under a Read More because it's long as hell but we really hope that you will check it out and comment. This is, like, the whole entire ruleset for playing a witch in Eureka.
Fairytale Witch (Monster Trait)Â
A âwitchâ has been many things throughout history, so many things in fact that it is quite difficult to form a cohesive thesis statement about them, and, like vampires, and the Hollywood werewolf, are something whose origins are obscured and severely misunderstood by more recent pop culture and pop history.[1][2][3] The âfairytale witchâ in Eureka draws inspiration from a vast range of folkloric sources, ancient, medieval, and early-modern. Literary and folkloric figures, typically women, who wield the power to heal and to harm, and whose aid or ire are nearly always earned.
[1. Off to the side in the final formatting] And like those things, many things which were said to be witches were not and are not.
[2. Off to the side in the final formatting] Certain more recent folkloric elements of the idea of âwitchcraft,â including sacrifice and drinking of specifically childrenâs blood, have been deliberately omitted from mechanization, as these elements stand as direct and recent foundations of present-day antisemitic conspiracy theories. Both in real life and in Eureka, grand conspiracy theories are a comforting fantasy for those who turn a blind eye to actual problems which stand right in front of their face.Â
[3. Off to the side in the final formatting] Most witch trials happened in America during the Enlightenment.
Fairytale witches in Eureka may draw on ancient knowledge of these arts passed down generationally, may have learned these abilities from their peers, or may have simply stumbled upon this knowledge some other way and discovered that, while it is simply a silly fantasy to most others, they have an exceptional talent for it.[1] Now what will they do with this power?[2][3] This particular Trait tackles some different themes compared to the other monsters.
[1 off to the side in the final formatting] Regardless, this is not something which can be taught to others over the course of an investigation. Plus, itâs said most people simply lack the talent for it in the first place.
[2 off to the side in the final formatting] Witches are not satanic, at least not literally. The idea that âthe Devilâ can grant anyone any arcane power is found nowhere in the Bible.
[3 off to the side in the final formatting] You couldn't imagine the hazing.
A lot of a witchâs powers hinge on them knowing someoneâs âfull true name.â What exactly is meant by a personâs âfull true nameâ is a matter of discussion between player and Narrator, but as a general guideline, if a person is named Jeremy Matthew Jones IV, then âJeremy Matthew Jones IVâ is needed, and just âJeremy Jonesâ or âJeremy M. Jonesâ wonât be enough. Nicknames also do not generally count.
A fairy cannot make their magic work by just guessing a personâs true name, but a witch can.
Curses
Assuming they have the right materials, a witch can place a terrible curse on an unsuspecting victim from anywhere in the world. More powerful curses have two stages, while simpler curses peter out or fall off after about a week.[1]
[1. Off to the side in the final formatting] For all the many terrible things that the medieval Church was, stagnifying and technologically regressive do not make the list. The institution of the medieval Church was one of philosophy, education, and what we would now call âscience,â and medieval clergymen were by and large literate, and relatively well-educated men for the time. The medieval Churchâs suppression of âwitchcraftâ had less in common with the âsatanic panicâ of the 80s, 90s, and 2000s, and more to do with the idea that even believing that âthe devilâ or pagan gods could grant anyone wicked powers was a dangerous superstition, enabling of swindlers and charlatans, and this was likely to result in the wrongful persecution of people who behave oddly, as well as, and especially, Jews. This was true of the âsatanic panicâ and is still true today.
[1.1. Off to the side in the final formatting] This is not to posit that the medieval Church was a champion of religious freedom and equality. One might say they wanted uncontested control of who got to persecute Jews and exactly to what degree.
Casting a Curse Directly
In order to place a curse directly on a target, the witch must be in possession of the targetâs full true name[1] clearly written on some material, or a large sample of their DNA (such as a large lock of their hair), or both. These items are destroyed as a part of the casting process.
[1. Off to the side in the final formatting] What exactly is meant by a personâs âfull true nameâ is a matter of discussion between player and Narrator.
Casting a curse requires a supernatural ability Composure roll.
Casting a curse takes 1 Tick or 5 Actions, during which all components are destroyed.[1] The curse will last for 7 days by default before either wearing off completely, or advancing to the next stage. As the curse is cast, roll 1D6+1+[Relevant Skill]. Which Skill is used will vary depending on the curse. The result is the number of days by which the witch may extend or reduce the curse's duration. If the curse is an advanced two-stage curse, the result is the number of days by which the witch may extend or reduce the first stageâs duration. If the result is a negative number, reduce the witchâs Composure by the same amount. A witch may use the Focus Eureka! Point ability to add an additional 1D6 to this roll (and this also adds 1D6 to the advanced curse roll, below).[2]
[1 off to the side in the final formatting] What the act of placing a curse actually looks like varies from witch to witch.
[2 Â off to the side in the final formatting] This works exactly like using the Focus ability when Incapacitated - add 1D6 per Eureka! Point spent to the roll, and then drop all but the highest two.
If a simple curse is reduced to a duration of â0 days,â it will only take effect for the duration of a single Scene. If the first stage of an advanced curse is set to â0 days,â the curse will advance to the second stage immediately.
When an advanced curse is cast, after the witch decides the effect of the second stage (see below), roll an additional separate 1D6+1+[Relevant Skill]. The result is the number of days by which the witch may extend or reduce the second stageâs duration. Like with a simple curse, the default duration is 7 days, after which the effects will wear off completely.
If the witch only has one of these components, then only a simple curse can be cast. If the witch has both the full true name and the DNA sample, an advanced curse can be cast. If the witch mistakenly has the true name and the DNA of two separate people, then, unbeknownst to the witch, both of those people will be struck with a simple curse.
Witches may place curses upon themselves if they so desire, without needing to use their own full true name or DNA.[1]Â
[1 off to the side in the final formatting] Theyâve already got it.
A second curse placed upon the same target will extend its duration, but only the effect of one type of curse can apply at once. If a simple curse is placed on a target already suffering the effects of an advanced curse, the simple curse will fail to take effect. If a different kind of advanced curse is placed on a target already suffering the effects of an advanced curse, the new curse will replace the previous curse if the caster can make a Full Success on a skill check with the new curseâs relevant Skill.Â
Effects of Simple Curses
A simple curse makes the target suddenly feel extremely feeble and ill.[1] The target will have a -2 modifier applied to all Skill rolls for the duration of the curseâs effect. Simple curses that have no advanced stage always use the Medicine Skill.Â
[1. Off to the side in the final formatting] Symptoms include shortness of breath, nausea, fatigue, muscle weakness, loss of appetite, excessive sweating, dizziness, and a sense of impending doom. However, no medical doctor will be able to diagnose exactly what is causing the problem.
Effects of Advanced Curses
Advanced curses typically have two stages, with the first stage appearing nearly identical to a simple curse, with all the same effects. When the second stage takes effect, the effects of the first stage cease. The effect of the second stage is decided as the curse is being cast, before the 1D6 is rolled.
Each advanced curse has a different Skill associated with it. This Skill is used for both the first and second stage of the curse.Â
Curse of Transformation
This curse uses the Nature Skill. The target will be spontaneously transformed into an animal of the witchâs preference.[1]
[1 off to the side in the final formatting] Their clothes donât transform with them.
The witch must make a Full Success on a Nature roll to choose an animal that is not on the following list.
Cat
Frog
Mouse
Newt
Pig
Rat
Toad
Wolf[1]
[1 off to the side in the final formatting] For the stats of a wolf, see p.xx âWerewolfâ. The rest of these do not have official stats, but we expect you to be able to figure out what they would be good and bad at.
The target will maintain a functional degree of human intelligence while in this form, at least for some time. Once their human mind is lost, the curse cannot be removed, and will never revert after any amount of time. The curse will also never revert if the target dies while transformed.
For an NPC, the Narrator rolls a hidden 1D6+3. This is how many days the target will retain their humanity.
For an investigator, the Narrator rolls a hidden 1D6. After this number of days, if the transformed investigator ever reaches 0 Composure, their humanity will be lost.
Curse of Reduction
This curse uses the Visual Calculus Skill. The target will be spontaneously reduced to between 5% and 10% of their original size.[1][2][3][4]
[1 off to the side in the final formatting] Their clothes and items may or may not shrink with them, at the casterâs preference.
[2. Off to the side in the final formatting] For a 72â person, that would be between 3.6â and 7.2â.
[3. Off to the side in the final formatting.] In most cases, a person reduced in size like this will be at the mercy of the witch, and can be captured without any rolls needed. However, they still have opposable thumbs, and the means to explain the circumstances to others. Witches may wish to weigh the pros and cons of this compared to transformation into a rat, which can make victims quite hard to catch if they start running right away.
[4 off to the side in the final formatting] A person reduced in size counts as one meal.Â
If the target dies while shrunken, the curse will never revert.
Curse of Petrification
This curse uses the Chemistry Skill. The target, including their clothes, will be spontaneously turned to stone. At the preference of the caster, they may or may not retain awareness of their surroundings. If kept aware, they will lose 2 Composure per day, and if unaware, 1 Composure per day, until they are effectively dead, at which point the curse cannot be reverted.[1] If the curse is reverted, either by it wearing off before the point of no return, or being broken, any damage the target sustained as a statue will immediately take effect. For example, chips in their stone body become lacerations in their living body. If an arm was broken off of the statue, their arm is now severed. If the statue suffers fatal damage, the curse will not be able to be reverted. If unaware, then reverting the curse will feel like waking up from a long and restless sleep. The target does not need to eat or sleep so long as they are petrified.
[1 off to the ads in the final formatting] For NPCs, consider them to have 1D6+1 Composure to lose before it starts to eat into their Superficial HP.
Curse of Slumber
This curse uses the Medicine Skill. The next time they fall asleep, the victim will fall into a coma-like state for the duration of the curse. The target will lose 1 Composure per day until the curse either reverts or they die.[1] Unlike with petrification, the body must breathe and be fed during this time.
[1. Off to the side in the final formatting] For NPCs, consider them to have 1D6+1 Composure to lose before it starts to eat into their Superficial HP.
Curse of Death
This curse uses the Blacked Out Skill. The target begins to take 2 Superficial Damage each day for the duration of the curse or until they die, and will be unable to regain HP or Composure through sleep. In addition, apply a -3 modifier to all their rolls.
Defense Against Curses
Upon being struck with a curse, a witch can recognize the intended effect, and may immediately make a Skill check of the curseâs relevant Skill in order to cast it off. This will take one Movement if time is measured in Turns.
Full Success: The curse is fully cast off.
Partial Success: The curse is partially cast off. The witch will suffer only the simple effects, at half the intended duration, and no advanced effects.
Failure: The witch will suffer the full effects of the curse as usual.
Placing a Curse on an Object
Cursing an object works similarly to placing a curse on a person, except no names or DNA are needed, the witch need only be holding the object with bare hands. The default duration of the first stage is 7 days and so is the second stage. Roll 1D6+1+[Relevant Skill] for each to determine by how much the witch can adjust them. After the witch has removed their hands from the object, it will be actively cursed, and anyone who touches it with bare skin, including the witch themselves, will be cursed. The Narrator rolls a hidden 1D12. The result is how many times the curse will transfer to people who touch the object.
Breaking a Curse
There are a number of ways a witch may know to break a curse. If the ailment is not immediately identifiable as a curse, a Full Success on a Blacked Out check by a witch will positively identify whether it is or not.Â
The death of the curseâs caster will not remove the curse.Â
Manual Removal of the Curse
A curse can be removed in the same way it was cast. If the curse was cast using a true name, the witch can remove the curse using the victimâs true name. If the curse was cast using DNA, the witch can remove the curse using the victimâs DNA.[1] If both, it requires both. Regardless, this takes 1 Tick or 5 Actions. If neither, the curse cannot be broken in this way.
[1. Off to the side in the final formatting] This has to be the victimâs human DNA. If they have been transformed into an animal, their new formâs DNA will not suffice, it will have to be something removed from their body before the transformation.
True Loveâs Kiss
A kiss can sometimes be all it takes to lift a curse. The Narrator rolls a hidden D6 once the victim has been kissed. On a 7+, the curse will be broken by the kiss. If it fails, another kiss from the same person will not work either.[1] If time is measured in Turns, this will take an Action from the kisser.
[1. Off to the side in the final formatting.] Morgieâs kisses always lift curses.
Add +1 to the roll if the kisser truly loves the victim.
Add +1 to the roll if the kisser is female.
Add +1 to the roll if the kisser is of noble or royal lineage, or is a fairy.
Curse Removal and Cure by Potion
If all else fails, a potion can be brewed to lift the curse. A potion to lift a specific type of curse will require the same recipe as a potion that would have caused that type of curse, plus one additional Table 3 ingredient. However, the victim must be able to drink the potion for it to take effect, meaning a curse of petrification cannot be lifted in this way. See p.xx âBrewing Potionsâ. Using the same method, a Non-Lethal or Lethal Poison Potion can have an extra Table 3 ingredient added to make them antidotes for their respective poisons, and a Love Potion can have an extra Table 3 ingredient added to make it a cure for Love Potions, etc.Â
Brewing Potions
If thereâs one thing witches are known for, itâs potions.[1] Potions represent the most reliable and effective vehicle of a witchâs magic, and are often something of a magic spell in and of themselves.[2][3]
[1. Off to the side in the final formatting] A large metal cauldron is classic, but takes up a lot of space in an apartment, so a stovetop is usually fine.
[2. Off to the side in the final formatting] The âmagic wordsâ may or may not have any true power in and of themselves. Sometimes, the time it takes to recite the entire âspellâ three times is just about how long the potion needs to be left on the heat.
[3. Off to the side in the final formatting] In the Middle Ages, until about the mid-1400s, the conception of a âwitchâ was often cautiously positive, and may conjure up the image of an unmarried woman living outside of town who has vast generational knowledge to draw upon in the way of midwifery techniques, herbalism, medicine, and poison.
When a witch brews a potion, it is often going to be something of an ordeal to gather all the right ingredients, but the payoff will be an effect that the witch can set the exact delay and duration of, and which can be applied to anyone who consumes it, bypassing both the element of uncertainty, and the prickly details, of casting a curse by hand. A successfully brewed potion can be made to have any length of delay between consumption and effect, and the effect can be made to last for any length of time, including permanency.
Potion brewing is as much an art as a science, and no two brews will be the same, even if they aim to achieve the same effect across the same duration. The process of brewing a magic potion is influenced by factors barely understood by the witch and certainly not under their control, it wonât be until the the process is underway that it becomes clear exactly what is needed to finish the concoction.[1][2] Not counting the time required to gather the ingredients, a witch must spend at least 1 Tick a day attending to the potion in between the time the base is added and the final two ingredients are added, as well as 1D6 Ticks finishing the potion once all of the ingredients have been added.
[1. Off to the side in the final formatting] When it became clear that prayer alone would not suffice, ordained priests may be the villageâs most avid practitioner of âfolk magic.â Folk âmagicâ of course just being another word for an observable effect to which the cause is not fully scientifically understood.
[2. Off to the side in the final formatting] Sometimes, the ingredients required for a potion will be realistically impossible to obtain in certain scenarios.
Every potion has three ingredients: A base, which is always going to be the same for the kind of effect the witch is trying to achieve, and two additional main ingredients which will become clear only after the brewing process has begun.[1] See below for the list of possible potion effects, the required bases, and the two other ingredients, which will be rolled on the relevant ingredient tables.
[1. Off to the side in the final formatting] This is not literally all the ingredients, just the ones that matter most mechanically and which will not be understood until the process has begun. The witch will be throwing all sorts of things in there in the meantime.
The base for a potion must be acquired and added, and after the other two required ingredients become known, those too must be acquired and added. For ingredients that would be reasonable to have on-hand, a Wealth roll using the witchâs home (or whatever home theyâre doing this in) may suffice, but many ingredients will require the witch and any other investigators willing to help them to divert their plans to seek them out. If the investigators decide that a particular potion is necessary for their progress towards solving the mystery, then consider rolls that seek to gather information on where to find the necessary ingredients to count as Investigative Rolls.
Potions do not work on any subject unable to ingest or digest them.
Any potion which applies an advanced curseâs effect does so without applying the effect of the first stage.
If a potion is intended to be mixed with food, a witch may take steps to make the potion more difficult to detect by taste or smell with a Blacked Out or Chemistry roll, hidden by the Narrator.
Full Success: The potion is impossible to detect once it has been applied to or mixed with food.
Partial Success: The potion may be detected by a Full or Partial Success on a Senses roll.
Failure: The taste or smell of the potion is immediately obvious to just about anyone.
To make a potion undetectable in an autopsy or other examination of the victim, a witch can make a Chemistry or Blacked Out roll.
Full Success: The remnants and evidence of the potion in the victimâs system will dissipate completely before any examination can be conducted.
Partial Success: Evidence of the potion within the victimâs system will be undetectable by normal means, but a witch may still be able to identify it.
Failure: Any medical examiner will be able to detect the traces of the potion, but only someone versed in witchcraft will be able to properly identify it.
Potions which apply the same effects as curses count as those curses for all intents and purposes, including their removal. Thus a curse caused by a potion could be removed by use of the victimâs hair and true name, by use of a curse-removing potion, or by a kiss.
Starting the Adventure with Potions
A witch can start the adventure with potions already in their inventory in exchange for WP, either because they recently brewed them, or bought or traded from another witch (who is unavailable for a refund of takeback during the adventure). The witch will not be able to buy potions during the adventure. Any potion bought by WP in character creation can be made curative by spending 1 extra WP. (See p.xx âCurse Removal and Cure by Potionâ.)
2WP: Random potion.[1] Roll 1D6+1D12 on the list of potions.
[1. Off to the side in the final formatting] Itâs only random to the player, not the witch. They know what they got it for.Â
4WP: Specific potion. Choose any one potion from the list.
List of Potions
2. Potion of Invisibility
Cat (boiled live), Table 3, Table 3. Renders one invisible to the naked eye for a single Scene, including clothing and small held items.
3. Potion of Transformation
Blood of the animal that this potion is intended to turn someone into, Table 3, Table 3. Applies the second stage of a transformation curse. See p.xx âCurse of Transformationâ.
4. Potion of Petrification
Powdered marble, Table 2, Table 3. Applies the second stage of a petrification curse. See p.xx âCurse of Petrificationâ.
5. Potion of Waking Sleep
Apple, Table 2, Table 3. Allows one to remain awake for one full night without suffering any Composure loss.
6. Love Potion
hair of the subject of affection, Table 2, Table 3. All rolls made by the subject of affection towards the drinker of the potion have a +2 Contextual modifier.[1][2][3]
[1. Off to the side in the final formatting] This works like any other curse - though it can only be applied by a potion, the love potionâs effect may be undone by other means (e.g. with a sample of DNA and the personâs full true name).
[2. Off to the side in the final formatting] The world is a little fuzzier when the subject of the affection is in view, but their voice is always loud and clear.
[3. Off to the side in the final formatting] Easily slipped into a drink - one more reason to be vigilant at bars.
7. Potion of Slumber
Sand, Table 1, Table 3. Applies the second stage of a slumber curse. See p.xx âCurse of Slumberâ.
8. Potion of Nourishment
Bread crumbs, Table 1, Table 3. Consuming this counts as 3 daily meals at once.
9. Potion of Death
Rat (boiled live), Table 1, Table 2. Applies the second stage of a death curse. See p.xx âCurse of Deathâ.
10. Sleep Aid
Wolfsbane, Table 1, Table 1. Grants one 1 additional point of Composure restored after a single full nightâs rest.
11. Pain Relief
oak bark, Table 1, Table 2. Grants one 1 additional point of Superficial HP restored after a single full nightâs rest.
12. Potion of Glamour
Lavender, Table 1, Table 3. Apply a +2 Base bonus to this characterâs Charm and Seduce Skills for a single Scene.Â
13. Non-lethal Poison
Thorns of a thorny plant, Table 1, Table 3. Applies Poison (Non-lethal, OT: Witchâs choice, DF: Witchâs choice). See p.xx âNon-lethal Poisonâ.
14. Potion of Healing
Copper shavings, Table 1, Table 3. When applied with a Medicine roll, add +2 to the amount of HP restored, even with a Failure. This can also rid the body of non-chronic diseases, such as a short-term virus or bacterial infection.Â
15. Juice that Makes You Explode
Gunpowder, Table 2, Table 3. When the potion takes effect, the Narrator rolls a hidden D6. On a 6, This causes the consumer to violently explode as a Shrapnel Explosion. On a 1-5, the option has no effect. See p.xx âShrapnel Explosionâ.
16. Lethal Poison
Hemlock, Table 2, Table 3. Applies Poison (Lethal, OT: Witchâs choice, DF: Witchâs choice). See p.xx âLethal Poisonâ.Â
17. Potion of SoothingÂ
Simmered liquor, Table 2, Table 3. Restores 3 points of Composure.
18. Potion of Reduction
Salt, Table 3, Table 3. Applies the second stage of a reduction curse. See p.xx âCurse of Reductionâ.
Potion Ingredients Table 1
A witch with a +2 or higher in Nature can roll a second time on this table and use either result in the potion.
1,1. Beetroot
1,2. Beetroot
1,3. Adderâs fork (trout lily)
1,4. Beetroot
1,5. Wolfsbane
1,6. Yew leaves
2,1. Tigerâs blood
2,2. Oak leaves
2,3. Blind-wormâs sting (wormwood)
2,4. Eye of Newt (mustard seed)[1]
2,5. Eye of newt (actual)
2,6. Geckoâs blood
3,1. Tongue of dog (houndstongue, the plant)
3,2. Tongue of dog (actual)
3,3. Lizard leg (ivy)
3,4. Lizard leg (actual)
3,5. Owletâs wing (garlic)
3,6. Owletâs wing (actual)
4,1. Scale of dragon (the plant)
4,2. Tooth of wolf (club moss)
4,3. Tooth of wolf (actual)
4,4. Gall of goat (st. Johnâs wart)
4,5. Bloody fingers (foxgloves)
4,6. Bloody fingers (actual)
5,1. Tigerâs chaudron (ladyâs mantle)
5,2. Baboonâs blood
5,3. Toe of frog (buttercup)
5,4. Toe of frog (actual)
5,5. Fillet of fenny snake (arums)
5,6. Wool of bat (holly leaves)
6,1. Wool of bat (actual)
6,2. Snakes
6,3. Snails
6,4. Puppy dog tails
6,5. Rose petals
6,6. Snips (eels)
[1 off to the side in the final formatting] There is little evidence that âeye of newtâ and âlizardâs legâ and stuff like that was actually code for regular household ingredients, but thereâs also little evidence that every witch would know that.
Potion Ingredients Table 2
A witch with a +2 or higher in Chemistry can roll a second time on this table and use either result in the potion.
1,1. Human hair
1,2. Cobwebs
1,3. Sugar
1,4. Human urine
1,5. Human bone
1,6. Human wart
2,1. Catâs whiskers
2,2. Dog hair
2,3. Snake egg
2,4. Feather of crow
2,5. Chicken egg
2,6. Sharkâs tooth
3,1. Booger
3,2. Salt
3,3. Silver shavings
3,4. Copper shavings
3,5. Tobacco
3,6. Gold shavings
4,1. Iron shavings
4,2. Magnet
4,3. Human liver
4,4. Human nose
4,5. Human lips
4,6. Sand from an hourglass
5,1. Bronze shavings
5,2. Aluminium shavings
5,3. Honey
5,4. Gunpowder
5,5. Rabbitâs foot
5,6. Eye of spider
6,1. Ocean water
6,2. Expired milk
6,3. A piece of burned meat
6,4. Tail of rat
6,5. Nightshade
6,6. Neon
Potion Ingredients Table 3
A witch with a +2 or higher in [Blacked Out] can roll a second time on this table and use either result in the potion.
1,1. Cat (boiled live)
1,2. Human hair (red)
1,3. Something sold based on a lie
1,4. Candy stolen from a baby
1,5. Witchâs blood
1,6. Washwater from the sheets of a deathbed
2,1. A picture taken moments before disaster
2,2. Something thrown away in anger
2,3. Blood drawn from a toe
2,4. A murder weapon
2,5. A family photo.
2,6. A divorceeâs wedding ring
3,1. Powdered skull from two-headed cow.
3,2. Cremated human remains
3,3. Picture of a sniper rifle from a video game released in 2009.
3,4. Ash obtained by burning wood from a shipwreck
3,5. a silk mourning veil (used)
3,6. Something stolen from a neighbor
4,1. Coffin nails
4,2. grave dirt
4,3. Blood of a virgin
4,4. Pants of Matt
4,5. A petâs favorite toy
4,6. wine which has not seen the sun for at least ten years
5,1. Hair of a murderer
5,2. Orphanâs tears
5,3. Sock of Matt (oven baked)
5,4. Engagement ring (used)
5,5. A flower picked as it blooms under a full moon.
5,6. An adorable sneeze
6,1. Love
6,2. Water from the lungs of a drowned man
6,3. Menstrual blood
6,4. Gamer girl bath water
6,5. Something stolen from a friend
6,6. Human semen
Casting Spells
Without taking up a Trait slot, a witch can be considered to have any Power from the Mage Power List, but only one at a time. Swapping between these Powers requires a non-skill supernatural ability Composure roll, as well as taking an Action if done in combat.Â
Enchanted Vehicle and Flying
As a non-skill supernatural ability, the witch may enchant a vehicle, broom, or other object of similar category (or theming), allowing it to fly under their control so long as they are piloting it.[1] The enchanted object will not fly for anyone but the witch, and will become inert soon after the witch stops piloting it. If done in combat, this takes 1 Action.[2][3]
[1. Off to the side in the final formatting] Old-fashioned brooms are traditional, but there are a number of other objects, modern or otherwise, that would logically be suitable as a substitute. Figure it out.
[2 off to the side in the final formatting] As a warning, virtually any flying vehicle will be extremely obvious and visible during the daytime.
[3 off to the side in the final formatting] Watch out for birds.
Witches have a âFlyingâ Write-in Skill, used in place of the Athletics skill when piloting either a flying Manually Powered Vehicle, or a flying household object. It does not allow the witch to fly without an enchanted object. Unlike other Write-in Skills, the Flying Skill starts at 0 and can be set to any value between -3 and +3, so long as all of the witchâs Skill modifiers still add up to 0.[should this be able to go below 0?]
A roll is not required to control this device under normal circumstances, but intense maneuvers will require a Flying or Driving roll.
Flying objects have an Acceleration of +12, unless the object already has a higher Acceleration.
If I Canât Have You, No One Can (Fairytale Witch True Nature)
Flat Composure Damage from Skipping Meals = Yes
Composure restoration from Three Meals a Day = Yes
Flat Composure Damage from Skipping Sleep = Yes
Composure restoration from Full Nightâs Sleep = Yes
Eating people, or using oneâs powers against others for petty and/or entirely selfish reasons will restore a witchâs Composure, though the witch has no connatural need to do these things.[1]
[1 off to the side in the final formatting] A witch canât stop being a witch any more than a soldier can stop being a soldier.
For use of powers, an act that temporarily affects the victim will restore 1 point of Composure, and an act that permanently affects the victim will restore 2 points of Composure. These acts do not necessarily have to involve the use of magic. If the witch has a non-magical opportunity to exert power over another individual for petty and/or entirely selfish reasons, this could work as well.Â
For eating people, making a meal of a person will restore 2 points of Composure. Making a meal of a person who was alive until moments before preparation and consumption, or is still alive when consumed, will restore 3 points of Composure. If the victim happens to be a former friend or lover of the witch, restore 1 additional point of Composure.[1][2][3][4]
[1. Off to the side in the final formatting] This only restores Composure one time per victim. Eating multiple meals made from the same person will not restore Composure for each meal.
[2. Off to the side in the final formatting] Clever witches are said to make use of magic to consume their enemies more efficiently.
[3 off to the side in the final formatting] Eating the flesh of a human that has been transformed into an animal by a curse does count, at least for Composure restoration. This is also, probably, a lot healthier.
[4 off to the side in the final formatting] If the witch makes multiple meals of a single person, only the first meal will restore the extra Composure. Any leftovers will count as ânormalâ food.Â
Dangerous Games (Fairytale Witch Weakness)
As relatively normal people (at least by monster standards), fairytale witches donât have much in the way of supernatural weaknesses, except for the fact that their bodies simply can not handle excessive prolonged use of so many arcane powers.
Whenever a fairytale witch uses a non-Skill supernatural ability, the Composure roll is made at -3 instead of +3. There are, however, ways to reduce the strain these acts of sorcery put on the body.
Casting Implements
There are certain tools of the trade which can relieve some of the strain by drawing the energy out of the witchâs body before manifesting it in reality or facilitating it by other means. [this sentence kinda sucks but Iâm on 5 hours of sleep. Fix it in copy-editing]
Each casting implement in use provides a bonus to the non-skill supernatural ability Composure roll a witch makes to use her powers. A casting implement must be being touched (or held telekinetically) by the witch in order to provide this bonus.[1] The cumulative bonus given by all of a witchâs casting implements cannot bring the Composure roll higher than a cumulative +3. The process by which an object is prepared to be used as such a device is arcane and cannot be accomplished mid-adventure, nor can one of these be bought with a Wealth roll mid-adventure. They can only be acquired through Wealth Points.
[1. Off to the side in the final formatting] The implement does not *necessarily* have to be pointed in the direction of the target of the power, but many witches find that this helps them focus.
JewelryÂ
+1 [2WP] A piece of jewelry. Multiple can be worn to further defer strain and increase the Composure roll bonus.
Wand
+1. [1WP] Could be a gnarled old stick or a black rod with a white tip, or anything in between, as long as it is elongated and about 10 to 24 inches. Only one wand or staff may be in use by the witch at a time.
Staff
+2 [1WP] Like a larger, more heavy-duty wand. Must be at least as tall as the witch themselves. Only one wand or staff may be in use by the witch at a time.
Spell Book
+1 [1WP] Could be an old leather-bound tome, or a spiral notebook containing the witchâs scribbled research notes. Must be opened and read from to confer a bonus, but does not necessarily need to be touched. Only one spell book can confer a bonus at a time.
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so, I could request jamil, leona, vil, rook, azul, jade, rollo, malleus and lillia with a heroic fantasy lover reader (well, not so much fantasy, since it's basically a fantasy world. i mean, jaskaja, malleus is a freaking fairy prince). a reader who wakes up reading, watching series or movies in the genre, who makes his own maps of his worlds in the back of his notebooks in class, who in potions class takes notes for his own inventions, who starts inventing recipes in the kitchen and when he's supposed to be studying he's actually writing his fantasy stories or novels, maybe he's not even yuu, he's from another dimension! just another x student who is a bookworm. but that his sleep schedule starts to be affected by these habits when midterms come and at the same time he wins a major writing contest, and that between the hobby and the studies he sleeps, eats and rests less.
thanks and good day đđ!
of course! this is actually quite cute
*à©â©â§âË fantasy writer reader
type of post: headcanons characters: leona, azul, jade, jamil, rook, vil, lilia, malleus, rollo additional info: romantic or platonic, reader is gender neutral, reader is yuu
well, well, well
for all his teasing, and there has been a lot, Leona actually starts to like you
damn it...
you were just another wide-eyed, naive herbivore to him
and a little bookworm, too
and now...
strangely, he finds himself missing you
thinking about the stories you'd told him...
...even wanting you to ask him about his magic
which he did find annoying, but now, it's kind of endearing...
you do strange things to this man
*à©â©â§âË
Azul will admit that he was... a little wrong about you
after all, when you first met, he took you as a rather naive person
so... curious
asking him about magic, the sea, potions and spells and...
well, he read that as innocence
for weeks, he answered all your questions, even showed you a few simple spells, all free of charge
...hoping that you'd come to trust him
then, you vanish
he later reads a fantasy story published in the school newspaper
...about him
you were just using him for fantasy character inspiration all along!?
...
...actually... that's quite flattering
he'll let you get away with this one
*à©â©â§âË
Jade is drawn to you
and by that, I mean he finds you before you find him
so curious...
he can tell you've adapted to life at Night Raven College much quicker than most would
quicker than he did, even
and he's actually from Twisted Wonderland
magic doesn't surprise you, nor does the politics or history of this world...
how... interesting
he'll follow you around, asking question, reading your stories, never too far away from you
he's never met anyone so strange, really
*à©â©â§âË
Jamil can't imagine being from a world without magic
...and, apparently, neither can you
disregarding your... ahem... heroic interests, you fit right in at NRC
seriously, a few months here and you're already ahead of Kalim
...he could learn a thing or two from you...
it starts making sense when you tell Jamil that books from your world are full of magic
where you lack experience, you make up for in knowledge
he... respects that, actually
you're more well-read than most of his peers!
now, if only he could do something about that terrible sleep schedule of yours...
*à©â©â§âË
Rook thinks you have such a beautiful eye for detail
and a creative soul
of course, he knows a writer when he sees one
and you catch his eye right away
he just can't help it! such imagination, such talent... you inspire him just by being!
...okay, maybe he's a little overexcited
being a poet himself, it's not often he meets someone who understands the beauty of life like a fellow writer
he will eagerly read everything you give him
every story you write, every map you draw, even your own notes and potion recipes
...and he'll give you detailed praises on each one
*à©â©â§âË
Vil is already used to writer shenanigans
...too used to them, maybe
the last thing he wants is another Rook waxing poetically about a bug you saw on the north stairwell
at least you seem quiet
what really captivates him, though, is your interest in potionology
you're already at such an advanced level that you're making your own recipes
even if it's just for your stories, that takes some skill
you'll have to forgive him for fussing over your health and wellbeing
he can sense your potential
goodness, at this rate, you could replace him as housewarden by the end of the year
*à©â©â§âË
there's nothing Lilia likes more than a good story
after all, he's got lots of his own
so, to him, writers are the greatest thing since... whatever the hell he eats
and he can be a little... pushy
leering over your shoulder, pestering you to show him what you're working on...
he can't help it!
he's just so curious!
the one thing he's good for, though, is details
you ask him if this language, or outfit, or invention, is appropriate for the time period, and he'll be able to answer
*à©â©â§âË
Malleus is always flattered by your curiosity
one might think that a human from a magicless world would be frightened by his appearance and his title
but you...
you're just curious
he likes answering your questions
you seem so interested in magic, he can't help but show off a little
he's already promised to show you around Briar Valley
and, of course, he loves hearing your stories
the ones you write, the ones you remember from home...
you're just a fascinating little human
and he always feels special when he's the first to read something you've written
*à©â©â§âË
now...
Rollo doesn't quite understand you
no, actually-
he's jealous
not that he'd ever admit it...
but the thought of a world that is so devoid of magic that its people make fantasy of it is so very enticing...
...he's willing to excuse your childish interest
and indulge you in your maps and your potions and your stories
you don't know any better
but to him, your world is the fantastical one, not his
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