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Here's the thing:
I can empathize with Emma to some degree. At the end of the day, she's just a girl with an intense crush on Itsuomi and constantly makes her feelings known to him hoping that one day, he'll feel the same way. Just peek high school girl behavior.
HOWEVER...
It has been literal years and Itsuomi has made it clear more than once that he is not interested and he's now in a relationship with Yuki. And Emma refuses to get the hint and even went as far as to try and make up a lie about spending the night with Itsuomi to chase Yuki away. So when she's at her job crying about how Itsuomi "ghosted" her over text, it's hard for me to feel even remotely bad for her.
Again, I feel for her on the "unrequited love" front. But for everything else, she needs to move on.
#yubisaki to renren#a sign of affection#a sign of affection spoilers#a sign of affection episode 8#emma nakazono#yuki itose#nagi itsuomi#something I forgot to post last week#the transition of Emma being told that itsuomi would text back if he liked her to yuki immediately getting a text from itsuomi was hilariou#but anyway#I haven't read the manga#yet#so I don't know how Emma's arc with her unrequited love is gonna go#but her constant pining for itsuomi is seriously not cute#especially if the guy's been rejecting her since they were in HIGH SCHOOL#and look getting turned down by your crush is no fun#but there comes a point where you have to accept it and move on#im just worried she's gonna see itsuomi and yuki being a couple and she's gonna have a meltdown#and I swear to god if she tries to antagonize yuki over it it's on sight#HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU#but that's just my two cents#also itsuomi and yuki were cute as hell#bow down to the OTP
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Memories of the past.
#wangxian#wei wuxian#lan wangji#wei ying#lan zhan#mo dao zu shi#mdzs#the grandmaster of demonic cultivation#myart#wow wangxian how rare can you believe it?#yeah... you'll know why I drew them soon hehehe#ANYWAY I love them actually even if I don't draw them often#also tumblr is doing something with the colors and I'm not sure if it's actually what I think it is but eh#I was frantically looking for yiling laozu references while drawing this and then I look up from my computer and there's his face on my wal#I forgot I had official art in my wall of prints#can you believe I drew this last week and forgot to post it?#edit: turns out tumblr is really sensitive to wether or not an image is in rgb or cmyn
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my boys. i miss them
#crow.txt#genshin#snippets#sfw#kaeluc#luckae#whatever yall blacklist#fluff#? sure#like yeah diluc..... you dont hide it as well as you think. embarrassing ass man. you let this happen btw#bold words from the man who did hear the words kaeya and fatui and perk up like a dog. instantly#they make each other stupid. love that for them#be cool about this or dont idgaf but keep your complaints to yourselves if you have them alright#✌️ your tears dont mean shit to me. they dont mean dick. this is my blog. started as a kaeluc blog in the first place anyway#no theyre not brothers and they were here first. be chill or leave dont make it my problem#lord i hadnt posted something since last month. i had a busy first week of july and forgot
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I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently
#facebook always does that 'here's a post from this day 8 years ago' thing. and I see old comments interacting#with people and it's so like.. OOOOO~~ where are they now?? what's going on? how much have they changed as people?#how much are they the same? this is fascinating. i should contact them!!' but then it's like... take that to it's logical conclusion though#you would contact them and then IF they even responded it would take you 80 years to respond and then they would#think there was something wrong or that you were trying to be insulting or something. To contact anyone I need to include an 85 page#disclaimer of all of my social issues & mental illness things. 'If i take 3 weeks to reply I promise it has nothing to do with u' etc lol#THIS is why more people need to be into phone calls/voice calls/some form of audio real time communication/etc.#I think one of the main things that's hard about messaging through text for me is it's so unscheduled and open ended#(plus it takes forever if you're talking about anything in detail and gets very long very quickly)#because like you can send a message and then just get a reply whenever. and then you're expected to reply back whenever#so it's like you never know when the response will come or when a new obligation to reply can come up? so it's like this sudden thing with#no outline?? if that makes sense. whereas a phone call is very like 'hello let's schedule a call from 10am - 2pm on thursday'. And you know#EXACTLY when the interaction will start and EXACTLY when it will end and you can plan around it in your schedule easily.#I have the reverse thing of a lot of people (how people don't pick up phone calls/hate calls/only text)#I would literally talk on the phone with a stranger. I would have a discord voice chat with someone I barely know.#if someone I hardly even remember from elementary school asked to have a voice call with me out of nowhere I would do it.#but if a stranger MESSAGED me?? or someone I barely know sent me a TEXT or something?? I will never reply probably#It's just too vague and weird. and you can't read voice tone over text. and the interaction could last forever with no clear end#point and etc. etc. But a call is like. set. established. clear boundaries. you can read the flow of conversation better. rapport. etc. etc#I get that I guess people feel more anonymous or distanced over text?? but you can have fake phone numbers on the computer. or do like disc#rd calls. or zoom without a camera or etc. etc. Also the distance that's present in text is BAD distance because it just means that tone is#not conveyed properly and you will never truly get a sense of the person's conversational vibe or mannerisms or how well you really click.#ANYWAY ghgjh...... I'm so so so interested in concepts of like.. How did that one kid I used to talk to in elementary school#but then they moved away in 5th grade - how did they end up? what are they doing now?? etc. etc. Like despite the severe social anhedonia#and general lack of connection with others I'm just really fascinated in like.. idk. the human development of it all and like#the concept of how we're actually a million different people through the course of our lives ever evolving in different iterations and etc.#PLUS again. i love nostalgia. sometimes old peple you know might remember a shared memory or can tell you about something you forgot#or etc. like it's SUCH A COOL THING in CONCEPT but I am too socially inept generally speaking lol. which people I still talk to today are#familiar with my 'phone call once every few months' communication style. but strangers would just be like... wtf. And I don't blame them#Sure I literally cannot change the physical health + brain issues i have - but also I know enough to not put others through that lol
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Dess from the Deltarune comic Looking Glasses by @ferronickel, I loved her design at first sight so here's the promised fanart; check out the original comic! It's very much worth the read :D
#ouch brain hurt I'm adding fire to the list of things I don't like to draw#i was a bit more conscious about lighting because of the fire though so that was nice#i think compared to the last time i did something on this scale#i've gotten way less shy about including shadow and light#in that ralsei drawing my shadows were almost too subtle and while it's not perfect here#i think it's a good step :D#this also only took me three days of scattered work#as opposed to two and a half weeks#so i'm starting to learn how to approach these#deltarune#december holiday#dess holiday#the first week in three months where i *don't* have to write an essay and i turn into a crab and hide in my room drawing like it's my cave#feels nice to post something other than a doodle or sketch#haha i almost forgot to add here that i completely forgot to give her teeth#literally the last thing i did before i exported this was give her two white lines for monchers#its such a small area of the picture but apparently it does wonders for not making the character look terrifying
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The thing about freedom is that no one tells you how hard it is.
It should be exhilarating, it should be freeing, it should be the best thing he had ever experienced.
But he found himself missing control. Concrete constraint over his acts; tasks lined, sequenced, culling the creatures of hell in clear arraignments. He did not have to reason every decision, only to deliver justice as a faithful blade. Complete confinement removes the burden of the self. The control from the council cast upon him, and it cut away the part of himself that he did not realize existed.
Perhaps he did, but non-acknowledgement is always easier than to grieve the loss of it. Plus, to deny cravings is to provide proof of perfect devotion.
So, he thought of nothing and equated kindness to killing.
And when it crashed down upon him, there was no longer a home (a prison; the sheath of a bloody sword) to return to. What reverberates inside him is not relief, but grand, grotesque grief. Over his past transgressions, over the slaughter of his superiors, over the loss of control. He knew not to seek fruitless redemption, but that did little to quell the restless regret occupying the same small space between the dips of his ribs as the looming giant of emptiness nesting in the crevice between the lungs and the skin.
And the shame. Oh God, the shame.
Somewhere below the small abstract concepts of “right”, “just”, and “fair”, it festered and spread, stretched like tendrils into veins, then capillaries. It crawled into him until he wished to shed his skin. Introspection did little to help. It fed this insistent infection abundantly until he was paralyzed – spiralling in the limitless expanse between each letter of F, R, E, E that was somehow still needle-thin enough to squeeze his lungs until breathless.
Logically, he knew he should not be ashamed for delivering one final justice, for the total liberation of all that still exists. It was the only choice he was given, and he chose what was just.
He did not regret his actions, but that did not mean he was not hurt and haunted.
So all of it does little to quell the spill of thorned vines in his veins. Shame was jagged and cruel, aggressive betrayal born from the same place that once hosted the holy Light. Between hell’s stagnant air and the sharpness of silence, it slotted firmly into the depth of his psyche, steadfast and unwavering like faith. They snagged and sliced his flesh at every movement until reality flayed apart at the edges of his mind. When he was still, he had the sensation of falling.
Was this the damnation?
To suffer in freedom in the last few hours of his life? To experience all and thrash under the terribly tangled amalgamation of emotions unfamiliar and frightening? To falter in the complex contradictions at the core of all creations and come undone by the simple brutality of it?
To see into reflections on his swords and unable to recognize the self that stared back?
How ironic, to be free from chains and miss them profusely so; to be released and realize your incapacity to function without imprisonment. Freedom is the absence of restraint, and he found himself lost within the infinite abyss.
When he looked inside of himself, he found the same chasm confined under the thin layer of skin. It swallowed him whole.
#giving my malewife babygirl slop of a top tier omega man crisis once again#<- sorry u had to read this sentence#i just got enough sleep to make up for my sleep debt this week i have no excuse#anyways#ultrakill#gabriel ultrakill#az thoughts#i actually started writing this and promptly forgot abt it last week bc uni is once again picking up speed#it is only when i wrote that previous post i was like wait i had something i was writing abt#i am getting ran over under the wheels#anyways i love giving him religious guilt <3 its enrichment
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can't wait to soar (charlos, model!actor au)
chapter 1 - something we can build
chapter 2 - hey i'm just like you (a little messed up and blue)
chapter 3 - we could be so good
chapter 4 - a wandering heart
Charles didn’t cook, as Carlos would soon discover.
#charlos#I took an eternity with this one because I forgot to post it on here basically#I had a weird week and I updated this on like Sunday or something and then stuff kept piling up and I kept putting this off#I got a comment last night and went oh mother of jesus I forgot about posting this on tumblr#so!#now with an updated chapter limit let's see if author can keep that or will author go off another tangent and ends up writing so much more#and by author I mean my own wandering brain that keeps coming up with ideas and things I can do either with this fic or another one idk#can't wait to soar#my stuff#my fic#my fic writing
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my baseless palisade 2 speculation is that while listening to Jack + Austin in pal56 I thought it could be fun if the protocol was part of the next system they're using somehow since it's become so important. like characters have "favors" btw them instead of bonds or w/e. now I don't know how much sense that would make for returning characters who have a sense of arbitrage contracts & how scary they are - while of course the protocol doesn't have anything to do with contracts, as it's been stressed, one could make a comparison - or the revolution in general? It'd immediately compromise player characters to an extend given arbitrage is the big bad, but this can be cool (really depends on the story setting out to be tell(hence the baseless part of the speculation)). mostly I just like when big setting stuff is directly reflected in the rules for the game so the narrative & system can influence each other back & forth.
#this was too baseless to even reply on ellis' post about baseless speculation#though idk I just think if we get a 'this is how the world works now' then the PCs definitely need to be affected by it right?#but I don't know if it has to be a 'actively participating' affected. So.#and ik they had the game for palisade picked long in advance but i wonder if that's more the exception than the rule?#I feel like Austin talked about this(picking systems) at Some point#palisadeposting#palisade spoilers#From last week.#I had something else but I forgot while retyping a tag I deleted by accident...#wait I remembered. equally hoping for branched next season vs worried about the horrors that might bring (to them)#what's happening over there!!!!
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Walker from Masters of Horror character scene pack
#I got notifs for bestie talking about this cowboy i wanna ride and it made me remember something#i completely forgot i uploaded this last week on youtube#WELL ITS HERE NOW#also am i posting this too late?#yes but who cares this man is so fuckin niche it doesnt matter#walker moh#walker masters of horror#slaasher speaks#slaashers edits#video#walker#moh
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Your Weekly TV Guide
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2:30 PM: Sona reacts to holidays
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2:30 PM: Original - Old Adopts
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2:30 PM: Undertale - Papyrus
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2:30 PM: Original - Old OCs
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2:30 PM: Original - Nequam (ft. Papyrus)
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2:30 PM: Handplates (ft. Baby Todd AU)
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2:30 PM: Sona reacts to happies!
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#Weekly TV Guide#It is here! The 2024 doodles! Here they come! It is time!#Lol#I made good on my threat/promise of more Original Content stuff this year lol#At least y'know - immediately upfront lol#There's still more after this but it has gotten a little fanart-heavy again I never would've guessed lol#But for now! My lads! >:D Yesss and yayyyy#Oh and - I'll make a post about it after the fact too - all but the last Requestober video will post this week as well!#Just a little more and that'll be all of October 2023!#Keeping up with my other queues has kinda fallen by the wayside trying to keep up but hopefully MBD and Drabbles will be back up soon#It goes for months at a time and then I leave it for months at a time lol#And that's Still not counting my secondary behind-the-scenes project - although another one has cropped up in the meantime lol#Stop bullying me my own inspiration 2ksometime eventually#ANYway lol - lots of lads to look forward to :)#Update: WAIT! This list is wrong!#Alright fixed now :)#Forgot I had something seasonal planned lol
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I think. Perhaps I will reblog some old art
#I have something new to post soon#but I have to finish ch 21 of clean sneak first#also I updated it last week I forgot to make a post but#shrug
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I suspect if I was smart I would use this burst of popularity to shill for my not-a-sideblog sideblog.
But i still only have a handful of posts so it feels very weird to do.
None of them are even about shopping yet!
#i had a hoodie shopping post slated for last week#but i forgot until fri and the post still needed work so i posted something else#stop b think of the children
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I should totally learn how to brew my own mead or cider
#not with elderberries tho i wouldn't trust myself not screw something up and accidentally poison myself#alcohol#incidentally my dad actually made his own wine a few times when i was a kid#my family is pretty straightlaced so i never got to try any#THAT SAID i did have a tiny disgusting sip of too strong homebrew mead at a pagan ceremony when i was 8#went my entire life thinking i hated mead until i tried Baltimore's own#Charm City meadworks#and discovered i liked the variety pack i got last year#got elderberry mead for my birthday a few weeks ago and liked it even tho i normally prefer sweet over tart#anyway today sucked ass and i had ONE can of mead#but i forgot I'm currently on cyclobenzaprine so i am stupidly drunk for one can#anyway i should learn to homebrew where's that tumblr post about making twelve dollar mead#i mean I'm sure the cost of ingredients has gone up because of covid inflation/corporate greed but still
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are you for fucking real. okay so back in spring 2020 i didnt have friends on campus yet but i met this guy in my physics 1 lecture who i started talking with and i was like oh wow yay maybe we can be friends and i really wanted a friend on campus bc i was a lonely freshman but then he started getting weird. like really clingy. i was like my good dude ive only known you for 2 weeks why are you talking about going to get dinner off campus at a restaurant together. i was all around kinda weirded out and he was like always wanting to hang out like i need private time and he was constantly texting me and then getting MAD when i took a day or two to respond and then he started criticizing my personality for it, like oh you know youre going to lose everyone you love if you keep doing that, and i was like. well my closest friends who i love very dearly recognize that im really bad at texting and theyre fine with it so i mean.... but he was just so weird and he was kinda pushy about getting me to drive him around which made me uncomfortable being alone with him in my car but he was so pushy about it etc etc just a bunch of weird shit so i quickly came to dread having to be around him despite how eager i was to have a friend
so then . covid happened. and i used it as an opportunity to ghost him LMFAO i never talked to him since
BUT NOW. GUESS WHAT. on linkedin on the side of my profile it says "people also viewed" AND IT LISTS THIS FUCKING GUY. WHAT ARE THE ODDS.
#oh and on the last day of school before we went online for covid#he walked with me to the bus. wanted me to drive him home#which i was like. uhmmmm. no. i used covid as an excuse#but really i just dont want this man in my car period leave me tf alone !!!!#and i think he did want to be in my car so we could be alone#because he begrudgingly handed me a WHOLE ASS CARD!!! there outside the bus stop#which im assuming he wanted me to read it in the car alone with him#it was just SO WERID LIKE I HAVE KNOWN YOU FOR ONE (1) MONTH !!!#LIKE SIX WEEKS!!!#forgot what the card said i still have it but i really do not want to re read it.#he wrote something about like missing me during lockdown or something#just all around . so much. like dear god#brot posts
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the keys to the car is such a michael woman moment
Tonight when he hands you the keys to the car
And he says, "You can drive, some, but don't drive too far"
Tonight when she tells you you're her only one
Remember the morning brings on the sun
And they're watching you stumble and fall
Until you're lost down below like them all
Today when they give you their words of advice
And tell you you're free, friend, as long as it's nice
Today when their words of sweet wisdom come down
Remember their smiles are hiding their frowns
And they're watching you stumble and fall
Until you're lost down below like them all
If you say you're their friend, I'm afraid you will learn
They want only friends they can have on their terms
But the love that you show them will give you an edge
For authority is more than wearing a badge
And you'll be watching them stumble and fall
Until they're lost down below like them all
Until they're lost down below like them all
#like how you'll never be taken seriously because you're a woman do you see my vision?#and the last verse is so relatable to me because i studied computer science for a while and every week there was a new boy who befriended m#and every friday without fail he would ask me out and when i turned him down he wasn't interested in being friends anymore#this was because i was one of four woman-adjacent ppl in a class of 30-40 not cause i'm hot shit i'm not bragging about being irrestistable#i'm complaining about frat boys unability to see women as something other than an opportunity for sex#i forgot was the post was about and just started venting in the tags anyway if i'll make a mike woman moments playlist this is on it
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I was sick for a day and my manager had to run some of my scripts and whatever she's changed she has NOT put back so now IT DOESNT FUCKING WORK AND SHES ON HOLIDAY FOR THE AFTERNOON
FUCK
#delete later#WHAT DID YOU DO#also she was gonna have a meeting to discuss ways to improve tge script so others can run the script#but she moved it to next tuesday AND LEFT THE SCRIPT BROKEN#also i could run it fuckinh fine on Thursday so idk what was broken for her but not me? but niw the script is fucked#akso the other script had a random extra { that broke the entire thing#im so fucking frustrated at her. SO frustrated.#she changed a part of the svript so it only works for one option. i have no idea why but it broke for the other two options ahe should#have also done yesterday#HEY MANAGER WHAT DID YOU DO#ow my fist i just smacked a fucking wall out of pure frustration. i dont UNDERSTAND WHY SHE CHANGED THIS#im just so annoyed. and so annoyed that thus was presented as an i fucked up when shes left the script in a non functional way#like i probably did fuck up somewhere but fucking she has left it in a completely broken state ive spent 40 minutes having to fix#EUUUUURRGGGHHH#this is what happened last time i was off and she had to run some of my things. there was a miscommunication between her#and someone else so she reworked something to fit that miscommunication and made it worse#so i came back to an extra hour of discussions to unfuck it. and like im not being ungrateful i appreciate her helping me so much#but sometimes she just breaks it and its so frustrating bc i know full well that meeying next week is gonna be about making#code friendly for others when i sign posted where things were AND SHE BROKE IT BY ADDING SOMETHING UN NOTED IN#GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. AGAIN I PROBABLY ALSO FUCKED UP BUT FUCK ME IM ANNOYED#coyld run it fine Wednesday i mean. but like legit thr references are all off and shits like proper fucked on stuff that ive had saved since#Monday. like maybe i forgot to save Wednesday bc migraine but what the fuck some of this has been changed around for no apparent#reason. im sure she has a reason but there is no possible way some of these changes worked for her. so what the fuck
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