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On one hand, Young Justice is kind of neglected by the actual superheroes that should be looking out for them in a lot of crucial ways and very much failed by the adults around them
But on the other hand Red Tornado straight up hosts a parent-teacher conference where their respective legal guardians all show up, barring Batman who’s in traffic so Nightwing fills in instead because Robin’s dad does not know he’s a vigilante which is objectively hilarious
#Superboy does not have a name and his ass is constantly getting groomed like Clark please take a more active role in his life#And all of these guys need a healthy interaction with their respective legacies that does not involve heroing#Take them out for lunch! Play a video game with them! Let them be a kid around you without getting criticized!#Red Tornado had barely reconnected with his own humanity and he’s taken a more active role in being like they are safe happy and learning#compared to the people who literally are the reason they exist in the first place#and is the only one who seems to recognize their potential and ability as a team! and he wants others to know that!#and it’s kind of heartbreaking because the JLA should be paying attention to them and noticing how they succeed and instead just show up#at the worst possible time and take things out of context and criticize them and bestie I bet you they are a lot better of a hero#than *you* were at 14-16 because they actually are going out and making a difference and saving people#but the ones who should support them the most are barely there for them at all#someone give these kids healthy and appropriate emotional support I am begging you#yj#young just us#young justice#yj98#bart allen#tim drake#kon el#conner kent#superboy#robin#dc impulse#cassie sandsmark#wonder girl#cissie king jones#arrowette#greta hayes#slobo dc#empress#anita fite
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Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 1: Dread on Arrival
(Part 2)
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#lan wangji#jiang fengmian#jiang cheng#wei wuxian#Yungmeng Jiang Training Arc AU#MDZS AU#The AU name for this idea is something I am 100% willing to change if someone has a better one.#There will be at least 2-3 more comics so *please*. Ideas and feedback welcome.#The core idea behind this AU is that LWJ goes to study with the Yunmeng Jiang sect instead of JC and WWX going to Cloud Recess#But why? Well I imagine Lan Xichen set it up to give LWJ a challenge (more social than skill based) and LWJ rose to it (begrudgingly)#Sort of a 'You've mastered so many Lan techniques but Other Sects have styles that are worth learning.' set up.#Lan Qiren agrees mostly on the basis that...well it's LWJ. Yunmeng Jiang is unruly but LWJ is beyond that riff-raff. He'll rise above it.#This is the story of a boy who thrives on routine and rules spending time in a place that is his apparent antithesis.#Also it is so warm there. He is used to it being cold and what do you MEAN just take off some of my layers?#I just want to see him struggle and flail in many situations. And get him in Jiang Purple. Is that so wrong of me?#(Soaking wet JC is part of my 'JC was born to swim; forced to hold a sword' agenda. Do not remove him from the water)#((Politeness notes: JFM would *not* call LWJ 'lan wangji' nor would LWJ be vocally impolite to a sect leader.))
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captain and the girlssss
#bbc ghosts#ghosts bbc#i think its sweet that captain’s better friends with the girls than with any of the guys aside from pat#even then he and pat are like co-leaders#i think its fascinating how his relationship with both of them evolved#i think sometimes about that moment where lady b’s offended about the two brides and captain gives her a side glance but obviously#says nothing#can you tell i post art just to ramble in the replies?#also when kitty’s looking for someone she yells alison’s name first and then captain’s. i just think that they#kitty’s two fairy godmothers………..#edit: why did i say replies when i meant tags. anyway
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i don't think wonderland is ready for those alices
#i have so so many things i could say about this cielois madness returns au (yeah that's what i call it. it's not even meant to be cielois)#(but like. ship names are convenient aren't they)#anyway so many things. but that would be a lot so i'll talk about it if someone asks or if i feel like it later#this post's rambles will be about the outfits!!#so. i gave ciel the dollhouse dress and alois the queensland dress#i know they could have been swapped. and it might have made more sense#HOWEVER#i do not care#i can and will put alois in red just because i want to. and of course i would give him a red fit in an amr fusion au#the vibes are rancid. it's perfect. that's what him being in this au is about!!#terrible things happen to children in kuro and in alice ok#anyway. i know queensland would be good for ciel because r!ciel BUT please envision queen luka i BEG#it's heartwrenching to see lizzie look so small in the game already so luka???? soul crushing. i want it.#now. the dollhouse dress for ciel#because of funtom mostly... and the vibes... and he's more of a doll than alois is ngl...#like. i know that it fits alois more because it's heavy on the trafficking and poverty parts but. see if i care#plus the minor theme of exorcising the evil of the city through the pain of children is more ciel-coded. so yeah#and he looks so bad in red oh my god i could not give him another dress... unless it was the mad hatter one and it would have been boring#also very much not fitting#you might notice that i changed the symbols on both of their aprons#in both cases i replaced female with male obviously but#in ciel's case the dollhouse dress has so many disgusting implications and i made them worse you're welcome <3#(replaced female with male and male with one of the symbols you can see on the contract seal. yeah yeah that's fucked i know)#(it's alice madness returns. and fucking black butler. bad things be happening to children!!)#anyway#that's it for my rambles#i got too lazy to do the vorpal blade and hobby horse light trails#so we'll live with the fact that my sketch has better vibes than the final piece#kuroshitsuji#kuroshitsuji fanart
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Okay I just finished watching tubbos vod on the whole situation (yes all 7 hours of it ) and my most prominent thought is just
What the fuck dream. Tubbo is the only person that is even willing at this point to acc listen to you (God knows the rest of us have stopped long ago bc we're sick of you) and he acc gives you the benefit of the doubt for half that stream of not more.
And to end it by saying "He also pretty much just said like 'Yknow Tommy doesn't like you therefore I don't like you' essentially'" (this is legit word for fucking word 5:23:47 of Tubbos VOD what he said)
What the actual fuck. That's so demeaning and throughout the entire thing he keeps making comments about Tubbo behaving the way he is 'cause of his fans' or 'Cause of his friends' like he's not his own person. As if he lacks autonomy.
It actually pisses me off and is genuinely so dehumanising. He acts as if Tubbo forms all his opinions and thoughts because other people tell him to think and act a certain way. After Tubbo is so nice to him the entire stream (and the previous stream!), he watched that entire 3h long stream willing to hear ever point you make and you act like he's some robot incapable of forming his own thoughts without the input of others???
What the actual fuck. Are you hearing yourself????
That's an insane hill to die on regardless but it makes it worse because Tubbo is actually willing to listen to you, to hear you out and provide constructive criticism that you would know had you bothered to watch the entire stream.
And you wonder why half the Internet hates you, maybe we'd be more willing to listen if you actually listened back and offered genuine apologies or if you were just a slightly better person. Tubbo deserves better treatment and you need to actually give him basic goddamn respect snd you know it.
Goodnight everyone I hope we don't have to deal with this for another couple years.
#dream discourse#dream#tubbo#tubbo deserves better#fuck dream for that#ive never been so pissed off#the fucking audactiy#its unbelievable#to tell someone that is insane#are you serious#hes his own person#thats insane#he can form his own thoughts#acting as if he isnt his own person#with his own reason#thoughts#and motivations#the disrespect is insane#im so mad rn#gives tubbo the respect he deserves#fuck dream#actually fuck you#tubbo dsmp#Tubbo is so much better than me#Tubbo is a better person than me#dream smp#dream situation#PUT SOME RESPECT ON TUBBOS NAME
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desperately need people to understand that alicent is a victim but she’s also an abuser and a perpetrator
that she actively makes choices to harm other women because of jealousy and envy and the greed deep in her bones because submitting to suffering didn’t get her what those women fight to grasp for themselves.
she is absolutely a victim, in show.
that doesn’t change that she abused rhaenyra and her children, her own son, most likely helaena given how she flinches every time her mother touches her, and is actively weaponizing the patriarchy of westeros against other women- rhaenyra primarily, but also mysaria and dyana.
she isn’t the moral, righteous force of good that even she thinks she is, she’s a wounded woman directing all of the rot, pain, and fury inside her at the wrong people and forces.
#anti team green stans#anti team green#anti alicent hightower stans#i don’t wanna say it’s anti alicent bc honestly it’s more ‘accept her for who she is bc she’s so much more complex and interesting when you#but i made this bc someone genuinely tried to say that the reason people hate her is that they don’t see her as a victim#most rational people know show!alicent is a victim#it’s the point that’s she’s an abuser as well#that makes them dislike her#that she’s a hypocrite and a traitor#i don’t even like young alicent bc i don’t at all think she was a good friend to rhaenyra#‘it’s not your place to question the plots of lords and men’ to the named heir#dismisses rhaenyra’s hopes and idealism entirely out of hand#is baffled that rhaenyra is more worried for her fathers happiness and mother’s wellbeing than her position#she knew as early as ep 3 that otto was conspiring against rhaenyra and never told anyone#condemns ‘targaryen customs’ only to wed her daughter to her son even younger than she was when otto dangled her before viserys#acts entitled to rhaenyras secrets whilst condemning and judgemental even though she did not give rhaenyra that same courtesy#made no attempt at apology for the insensitive comment of aegon’s birth#though rhaenyra DID try to apologize for the ‘imprisoned in a castle’ line and tried to comfort her#uses her power as queen to push past the space rhaenyra is trying to create because she feels heartbroken and betrayed#rhaenyra took part in alicent’s culture with prayer at alicent’s urging because she cared about alicent and alicent was trying to help her#alicent is never once shown to return that favor instead condemning it for ‘queerness’ and growing to later#erase and remove all targaryen and valyrian heraldry from the red keep to replace with her own#like alicent is a victim and i DO have empathy for her. but i don’t like her and never will#especially not after the way her stans behave#she deserved better than otto’s machinations and viserys’…. viserysness#but that can also be true whilst i condemn her actions and behaviors
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oh her new song is so sinister
#the chokehold that white feminism has on this woman's soul FREE HER!!!#WHY is she making this soulless shit when she has such a beautiful voice and the artistic capabilities of someone who made TFJ and EH#not that i need her to be miserable but omg... pls be poetic and thoughtful#HOW is this the same artist who wrote 'Girls' before “one of the guys” girls were even a fucking problem!!!#or 'i am not a robot'??? i feel like thats a good comp to the direction she WANTS to go in#and its critical!!! and hopeful and beautiful#which is honestly shocking that its on TFJ that album is so fucking dark LMAO#need to put out a missing persons for her critical thinking skills#i know im being so mean but this song is just such a slap in the face to her own work and talent#what is this made for tik tok slop ass chorus. the whole thing is just so one dimensional. even the name#i do not know who the audience is for this song genuinely#unless its simply just trying to pander to tik tok but i dont even see that happening its so out of touch and trends its trying to land on#I KNOW her ass can live luxuriously off the royalties im giving to her alone#at least charli gave a shit with her sellout album (crash)#AND I ATE IT TF UP!!!#if she wanted to sell out again i wish she wouldve at least picked something that would actually sell#marina if u see this im sorry for being mean. i love you. and im glad youre happy. i just hate this song and think youre better than this#BUTTERFLY by Marina#marina and the diamonds#marina#butterfly
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second hardest part of trying to make an OC . giving a name that fits .
#AUGJHHHH i#dont know what to name her. at all.#I did like the name Rosaria but I dont want her to share a name with a genshit impact character#she deserves better than that#i really dont know what fits.#I also like ruby#and rye#idfk#i jsut wanna get her out there#collect my few notes from my beautiful amazinf lovely people i have following .#i#ijust wnat to draw some lesbos kissing#sevika deserves so many kisses SOMEONE has to give them to her#i want soemthing that starts with r idk#i am tired . and sad . i eill be going to bed without my nightly TikTok sevika edit scrollinf :((#goodmight i love u all mwah 💋💋💋
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I think on this fine Saturday afternoon it's a good opportunity to take a breather and remember that there are really no ethical paparazzi pictures. Every single one is inherently exploitative.
Just because photos were taken on a movie set, when someone is 'working,' does not make the practice any less invasive and creepy. Imagine just going about your day, doing your job and having some weirdo snapping pictures of you to sell without your consent for others to endlessly repost online.
There are thousands of pictures of your favourite actor online already. Plenty taken with his knowledge and consent. I'd really like to see more of them on my dash, rather than the creeper shots.
And don't get me started how disseminating these pictures directly leads to people going to said sets. What starts off as admiring how good someone looks has real world implications.
No, hanging around a movie set and disrupting people doing their jobs is not harmless fun or a way to show your appreciation.
If you hang around a movie set, you are a stalker.
Don't tell me that it's okay to take your online admiration for someone offline. You may admire him but he does not, and will never, personally know you. He will never be your friend/boyfriend/daddy. He is a stranger.
The only way meeting your favourite actor is going to happen is at a convention or maaaaaybe a movie premiere if you're incredibly fortunate. You know, places they appear specifically to meet fans (or not in the case of premieres, where the purpose is to promote a movie. Which is also completely understandable if actors don't stop. You are not owed an interaction).
Of course, you cannot help it if you randomly run into someone you admire in the wild. Even then, consider that they probably won't be all too thrilled to be approached in public by a complete stranger. It's up to you to gauge the situation, but remember there is a person at the heart of all of this.
Boundaries and respect are a kindness which deserves to be extended to each and every human being regardless of their looks/talent/fame/wealth.
Fandoms blur those lines a little too often for my liking and I think just scrutinising what you're interacting with, or what behaviour you could be possibly falling down that slippery slope towards is nice to do every once in a while.
I mean no malice with this post and it is not directed at anyone in particular. It's something I cannot help but feel strongly about because I've seen this destructive cycle time and again in fandoms over the years. It's not healthy and it makes us all a little bit more disconnected from our humanity for it...
#not naming names but....... screw it#pedro pascal#pedro pascal fandom#accepting you will never interact with or meet this man will set you free from misery and jealousy i promise#he's great! if you think he's great watch another movie! write about a character! edit some photos of him! make gifs!#there are many MANY ways to engage with his work which don't include reposting creepy invasive photos taken without his consent#it's bs that this is just 'part of the job' because WHY... why should it be any different than any other job??#i know we always venerate talent and put people on pedestals.... that's a tale as old as time#but seeing him blow up last year was wild to witness and some of the behaviour from newer fans is very disheartening to see#he's just a human who poops and farts and is a dick sometimes like the rest of us. let's not treat him like a god thanks#spud rants#a lot LOL#i've bottled this up for a bit because the way this developed in real time to people actually going to the set is. what#and don't 'if pedro was in your city' because NO??? i wouldn't STALK SOMEONE? there's 0 justification for it#i have far better things to do than stalk people#i may be an autistic flop but i'm not a CREEPY STALKER autistic flop thanks x#anyway like i said this is truly not @ anyone in particular and i don't think you are a terrible person if you interacted with the photos#but please just remember there is a person at the heart of all this#a very talented and attractive person yes... but a person all the same#i would truly hate to be famous it gives me so much anxiety just the thought of the constant scrutiny#good thing i never will be LOL#fandom wank#discourse
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saw this tweet and it made me think of all the samdean ai generated images posted here that has sam dressed in a trenchcoat...ai using destiel art to fill samdean/wincest prompts by swapping castiel for sam is first degree betrayal to the brotherspouces belief system so know you are a class traitor
#samdean#wincest#the level of hater we should all aspire to be#jokes asides you are actually a class traitor for using an ai that uses art to train without permission from the artists#and uses parts without permission too...you are a dick <3 fandom has always been about making things out of love of what gives you brainrot#posting ai “art” is no better than taking someone's fic and swapping the names to match your pairing and you fucking suck <3
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Season 8 was like 6 years ago(I feel old) and I know ppl have differing opinions on the Mr Echo thing (but it was intended, made it to storyboard and blocked animation and then dropped, soooo) but. I can see his recruitment p easily tbh. Bc the whole reason Dr J was in that lighthouse was because he was resurrected, forced there, and ordered to build Skulkin vehicles by Samukai. But Samukai in the flashback we see has already been deposed as leader of the Skulkin/Underworld. Which means the orders to do so most likely came from Garmadon.
And since Mr. E is one of the head honchos, he's likely an early arrival to the team, so I don't think Harumi has a whole lot figured out at this point, she's just got her Trauma and some Bad Influence Friends and an obsession with Lord Garmadon. So. Like. Plausible deniability road trip that she's just visiting important markers of Ninjago's recent past, all of which involve Lord Garmadon in some meaningful way; its sightseeing, its cathartic, and it gives her time to develop her dream Motorcycle Gang/Resurrection Cult. She's not looking for anyone at the Lighthouse, but she is looking for vehicle blueprints so she can be the Koolest leader on the block. But oops she looks in the basement and there's an Echo.
And she's flipping out bc??? A Ninja???? In the Lighthouse basement??? I mean it makes sense that it would be this one but???
Except this rusty old robot has no idea what she's talking about with this Ninja stuff, he's just waiting for his dad to come back.
And Harumi pauses.
Because how long has he been waiting? He's not sure, he had no proper way to measure time in the basement, and he doesn't have the best view of his clockwork heartpiece. But it was after his father saw a strange ship docking; Echo was worried it was the People who had locked up his father in the first place, but instead his dad sounded happy when he saw whoever was out there. It could have been a front, though, as clearly it was never safe to let Echo back out. Then Dr J popped down briefly, while everyone above was resting, to tell Echo he was desperately needed elsewhere, that it wasn't safe to bring Echo, but that he'd be back in no time.
And the pieces are fitting together for Harumi. And she's like. Your dad's dead, bro.
And he's like. What? Did he die doing what was needed of him?
And she's like. Oh, no. He died a few years later.
And he's like. Why didn't he come back for me????
And she's like. Probably because they kept him away.
And he's like. Who's they?
And she's like. The Ninja I was talking about earlier.
And it surely can't be hard in universe to find pictures of Zane and Dr J post s2-pre s3, so she pulls one up and shows Echo who is freaking out bc why is that one kind of like him and Harumi explains that that was the droid his father created first, that he became a Ninja, and that hes probably the one who took their father away and kept echo waiting for years.
But Echo has doubts, shocked as he is abt a new older brother, he wants to believe the good in the situation so he's unsure. But Harumi mentions that the Ninja's failures to uphold more than their self preservation/interests has led to uncountable losses and devastation in Ninjago time and time again, before delving into her own story. And she seems so kind, and so hurt, and I do think there's a genuine connection btwn these two that forms from this shared emotional torment that they decide came from the Ninja, and now Echo is more receptive.
And then Harumi gets to start her Garmadon pitch because wait! If Echo was made here, then that could only have happened because of Lord Garmadon. And she reiterates that he's the reason she and her city could have even survived The Great Devourer. And maybe Echo's family-by-creation left, maybe they were untrustworthy and lacking, but that's OK bc if you look at it all a certain way, Garmadon is more of a father to Echo than Dr J was. And Echo is a vulnerable, overwhelmed mess who just found out his dad fucked off for years without him and also died, and also he has a brother??? Who their dad clearly seems to have favored??? Did they even know about Echo??? Did they delight in their life free of him???
Basically. Kinda Spinel-core but getting abandoned and left completely alone does that to you. Especially when the first person to find you after being abandoned is a deeply hurt and misguided teen who is probably kinda desperate for someone, anyone else to see the Ninja the way she sees them.
#i was thinking abt the idea of citrusshipping#and how it could have flowed into Mr Echo. with morro as the vengeful influence tinting these#one sided experiences to associate ninja with loss#but theni was like 'wait a sec tho bc Harumi does that also and its her gang called the sons of garmadon#and if youre very carfeully squinting and cherrypicking out pesky details and nuance. like harumi would be.#echos existence is thanks to Lord Garmadon. and there is no better replacement dad than garmadon. you should be a son of garmadon.#and echo would probably listen and she could get him out the lighthouse and off the island'#and anyway i kinda ship Harumi and Echo now?#i like citrusshipping its funney but i think i actually ship this dynamic now#its. fucked and manipulative but its also like. genuine and just. two scarred young people and harumi gives echo her distorted view#of the world as the gift of her love#so its like she wasnt trying to manipulate echo. not like she was trying to manipulate Lloyd.#but she did take someone in a v fragile state and begin shaping his worldview to match hers. unconciously but still done.#like i can also see her bringing him to the mainland and she and UV and Killow are his tethers which means everything he sees radicalizes#him further...and draws him in closer to the fold#anyway if he and harumi smoochie kiss then shes why he got rebuilt in Crystallized. also i think mr F stands for 'Mr Fun Guy'#echo zane#harumi jade#ninjago harumi#quietmystery?#idk what the ship name would be but im here for it#mr e ninjago#mr echo#echo/harumi#tbh i said i kinda ship it now but it could also be friendship#sons of garmadon#...ok til abt the morro-echo-harumi trio hcs and Yes#this is just more of a like. canon compliant ish take where morro is still gone from the narrative#love the idea of the 3 in a vengeance trio tho
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One of the hardest things about writing superlantern is figuring out what’s the deal with clois in this universe…they’re literally soulmates….why is clark with hal and not lois….
#ily clois <3#i’m writing this bc i’m considering giving lois mayson drake as her gf in this superlantern one shot i’m writing#as a throwaway line but still#bc like as much as I like superlantern I think I write them as one of those couples#who kinda just come out of left field. like both in-universe and meta speaking#like clois is Meant To Be ykwim.#romantic or platonic Lois is always going to be an extremely important person in Clark’s life. maybe The Most important person.#so in superlantern fics I always think abt her and her dating history with clark#and if they didn’t work out why? and if clark and hal work out why is their relationship different from clark and lois’v#oooh wait hold on I’m thinking#one of the main tensions in Clois relatiomship (at least in Lois & Clark: The New Adventures of Superman)#is that Clark is kinda flighty. it’s not his fault bc being Superman is a really time consuming job that he needs to be able to go whenever#but maybe in this universe Lois and Clark date but they realize that that issue is smth they cant get past#<- esp w Lois’ issues w her military dad putting work above her as a child#so like they can be best friends and they’re fucking great as best friends#but that can be my reason for why they both choose not to date#bc this clark doesn’t figure out how to have a more stable Superman-Clark balance and he thinks that lois deserves better#whereas with hal#hal is even MORE busy than clark always getting called off to space and shit#so i think they would both be extremely understanding whenever one of them#needs to leave#as for Lois/Mayson (do they have a ship name? this show is from the early 90s surely someone must’ve thought of one)#they’re character foils. need I say more.#ok but no fr like they’re character foils in the sense that they were written to be polar opposite love interests for Clark#Lois loves Superman and likes Clark#(in a super reductionist oversimplified manner of speaking)#(really Lois is infatuated with Superman and has a slowburn with Clark)#whereas Mayson is immediately taken with Clark but disapproves of Superman’s modus operandi#simu's two cents#lois & clark: the new adventures of superman
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lady vanserra
on the day she became lady vanserra

#the lady of autumn#mommy autumn#CAN SOMEONE JUST GIVE HER A NAME#autumn court fashion#MOVE OVER BERON MOVE OVER HELION#I'M GONNA GET MY GIRL#SHE DESERVES BETTER THAN A MAN (derogatory)#SHE IS MOTHER#acotar#i feel the need to clarify that the red is not her hair#it's a veil#because it's her wedding#and autumn court fae get married in red
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do you ever think about how most of the mega famous celebs (or not even that famous) in their majority are... not great ppl and that's fine? (<- thoughts that visit you when you've already fried your brain by being on twitter a lot)
#i see a famous young woman that gives kind of mean girl energy and wwll i dont like her#but then i see stans on twitter doing the most trying to ~expose~ then or w/e#and like yeah.. you probably right they dont deserve endleas praise just for existing and being influential but. u r being Extra weird rn#and it's especially weird when it's done in the name of other famous woman like 'stream [insert name] instead'#like that one probably isnt better than the last one why r you acting like this lmao#though ig the answer is that most od these accounts are run by teenagers#anyway the point is. most of these people are probably not great to put it mildly and also have hige PR teams to promote them#why are you doing their jobs? you arent even getting paid for that#though back to my comment about teenagers i probably know the answer to that queston#i also um u know understand parasocial relationships and being a fan of someone whom idk and who doesnt know me#i post abt them because i have this irrational inkling that they're not only talented (and hot) but also are good people#but i really really do not know them and i may be wrong just as easily. and i allow myself to be a naive or stupid a bit ig#but keeping that in mind#stan culture is weird
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I frequently feel completely isolated no matter how much I talk to people. So that's fun
#sorry if anyone sees these im tired of using my personal discord servet to vent. i always spiral too much#anyways i have an idea for a good poem to write for class because of recent events#ughhhh idk i just wish i wasnt so annoying about asking if i can open ip to people#or if someone would just ask if i was okay. i mean actually id probably lie i am not actually good at being open.#but like hey idk it feels nice to feel like people genuinely want to know#ughhhhfhfhf i do this to myself sometimes JSHSJSKDJDJD#welp its just how life goes. i feel lonely all the time and i soldier on#surely helping the next person will make me feel better! nope. surely helping yhis next person will make me feel better! nope. surely-#tgats me. thats what i sound like#yeah idk it feels like everyone is going through something worse than me so itd be a moral failing on my part#to ask them if i could just like. feel bad. noticeably#not even talk about it just look down and out of it for a day#yknow i emailed one of my teachers asking permission to go by a new preferred name#this is at like. a massive very queer and trans art school.#and i asked him permission to do this#and i was joking with my friends about how pathetic i sounded in it#and one of them patted me on the head and said “there there buddy” like very jokingly#but i almost cried because thats the first time in so long someone has like. really tried to comfort me#or shown me much physical affection#my mom gives me hugs and stuff but thats always about her. i dont blame her shes got a lot of stuff going on#but idk its really selfish of me but i just wanna have people see me and feel bad for me and it be about my pain for a little while#ill get over it im just being a teenager but shit god fucking damnit#i just want a break from feeling like my world is falling apart#then getting some footing#then it falling apart again#okay i feel a bit better now better stop the complain train JDJDJSKSJD#hey why do i never hear that it rhymes and everything thays so good#damn i gotta use that more#welp weve reached our stop sorry if anyone ever read thjs. hope you have a nice day tho lol
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