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Me to my friend: I hope we can do the thing together, that would be so fun
Me internally: PLEASE COME OR I'LL DIE THIS IS THE ONLY THING THAT MATTERS TO ME WHY AREN'T YOU FERAL OVER THIS IT MIGHT KILL ME
#today's example 1: the Taco Bell weekend that i couldn't get tickets to because my plus ones didn't understand it would sell out so fast#the app crashed repeatedly and with only me trying i couldn't get it to load in time#example 2: i went to a baseball game in LA with a friend a couple of weeks ago and now i NEED her to go to another with me#the team won and it was a great game and i am VERY SUPERSTITIOUS so i need to go back with her specifically so that they win#friends#friendship#fandom#feral#hyperfixation#social activities are hard#extrovert#introvert
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GHOSTSOAP // "you sweet fucker" MINICOMIC!!!
#cod mw2#john soap mactavish#simon riley#simon ghost riley#call of duty mw2#ghostsoap#john mactavish#soapghost#ghostsoap comic#ghost x soap#soap x ghost#jesus this took me so long to make#also sorry if ive been inactive here juggling 2 social media accounts is hard when i have finals to worry about#might have to again but come say hi on my twitter! BUT ill try to be more active here when im done with finals#ANYWAY YEAH SO MUCH HAPPENING THANK YOU FOR READING
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the thing about art is that it was always supposed to be about us, about the human-ness of us, the impossible and beautiful reality that we (for centuries) have stood still, transfixed by music. that we can close our eyes and cry about the same book passage; the events of which aren't real and never happened. theatre in shakespeare's time was as real as it is now; we all laugh at the same cue (pursued by bear), separated hundreds of years apart.
three years ago my housemates were jamming outdoors, just messing around with their instruments, mostly just making noise. our neighbors - shy, cautious, a little sheepish - sat down and started playing. i don't really know how it happened; i was somehow in charge of dancing, barefoot and laughing - but i looked up, and our yard was full of people. kids stacked on the shoulders of parents. old couples holding hands. someone had brought sidewalk chalk; our front walk became a riot of color. someone ran in with a flute and played the most astounding solo i've ever heard in my life, upright and wiggling, skipping as she did so. she only paused because the violin player was kicking his heels up and she was laughing too hard to continue.
two weeks ago my friend and i met in the basement of her apartment complex so she could work out a piece of choreography. we have a language barrier - i'm not as good at ASL as i'd like to be (i'm still learning!) so we communicate mostly through the notes app and this strange secret language of dancers - we have the same movement vocabulary. the two of us cracking jokes at each other, giggling. there were kids in the basement too, who had been playing soccer until we took up the far corner of the room. one by one they made their slow way over like feral cats - they laid down, belly-flat against the floor, just watching. my friend and i were not in tutus - we were in slouchy shirts and leggings and socks. nothing fancy. but when i asked the kids would you like to dance too? they were immediately on their feet and spinning. i love when people dance with abandon, the wild and leggy fervor of childhood. i think it is gorgeous.
their adults showed up eventually, and a few of them said hey, let's not bother the nice ladies. but they weren't bothering us, they were just having fun - so. a few of the adults started dancing awkwardly along, and then most of the adults. someone brought down a better sound system. someone opened a watermelon and started handing out slices. it was 8 PM on a tuesday and nothing about that day was particularly special; we might as well party.
one time i hosted a free "paint along party" and about 20 adults worked quietly while i taught them how to paint nessie. one time i taught community dance classes and so many people showed up we had to move the whole thing outside. we used chairs and coatracks to balance. one time i showed up to a random band playing in a random location, and the whole thing got packed so quickly we had to open every door and window in the place.
i don't think i can tell you how much people want to be making art and engaging with art. they want to, desperately. so many people would be stunning artists, but they are lied to and told from a very young age that art only matters if it is planned, purposeful, beautiful. that if you have an idea, you need to be able to express it perfectly. this is not true. you don't get only 1 chance to communicate. you can spend a lifetime trying to display exactly 1 thing you can never quite language. you can just express the "!!??!!!"-ing-ness of being alive; that is something none of us really have a full grasp on creating. and even when we can't make what we want - god, it feels fucking good to try. and even just enjoying other artists - art inherently rewards the act of participating.
i wasn't raised wealthy. whenever i make a post about art, someone inevitably says something along the lines of well some of us aren't that lucky. i am not lucky; i am dedicated. i have a chronic condition, my hands are constantly in pain. i am not neurotypical, nor was i raised safe. i worked 5-7 jobs while some of these memories happened. i chose art because it mattered to me more than anything on this fucking planet - i would work 80 hours a week just so i could afford to write in 3 of them.
and i am still telling you - if you are called to make art, you are called to the part of you that is human. you do not have to be good at it. you do not have to have enormous amounts of privilege. you can just... give yourself permission. you can just say i'm going to make something now and then - go out and make it. raquel it won't be good though that is okay, i don't make good things every time either. besides. who decides what good even is?
you weren't called to make something because you wanted it to be good, you were called to make something because it is a basic instinct. you were taught to judge its worth and over-value perfection. you are doing something impossible. a god's ability: from nothing springs creation.
a few months ago i found a piece of sidewalk chalk and started drawing. within an hour i had somehow collected a small classroom of young children. their adults often brought their own chalk. i looked up and about fifteen families had joined me from around the block. we drew scrangly unicorns and messed up flowers and one girl asked me to draw charizard. i am not good at drawing. i basically drew an orb with wings. you would have thought i drew her the mona lisa. she dragged her mother over and pointed and said look! look what she drew for me and, in the moment, i admit i flinched (sorry, i don't -). but the mother just grinned at me. he's beautiful. and then she sat down and started drawing.
someone took a picture of it. it was in the local newspaper. the summary underneath said joyful and spontaneous artwork from local artists springs up in public gallery. in the picture, a little girl covered in chalk dust has her head thrown back, delighted. laughing.
#writeblr#warm up#this is longer than i wanted i really considered removing that part about myself and what i went thru#but i think it really fucking bothers me that EVERY time i talk about being an artist#ppl assume i just like. had the skill and ability to drop everything and pay for grad school.#like sir i grew up poor. my house wasn't a safe space. i gave up a FREE RIDE TO LAW SCHOOL. for THIS. bc i chose it.#was it fucking hard? was i choosing the hard thing?? yes.#but we need to stop seeing artists as lazy layabouts that can ''afford'' to just ''sit around and create''#when MANY - if not MOST - of us are NOT like that. we have to work our fucking ASSES off. hard work. long and hard work#part of valuing artists is recognizing the amount we sacrifice to make our art. bc it doesn't just#like HAPPEN to us. also btw it rarely has anything to do with true talent.#speaking as someone with a chronic condition i hate when ppl are like u have it easy. like actively as i'm writing this my hands r#ACTIVELY hurting me. i haven't been posting bc my left hand was curled in a claw for the last week#this isn't fucking luck. after a certain point it's not even TALENT. it's dedication & sacrifice.#''u get to flounce around and do nothing with ur life'' is a narrative that is a direct result of capitalism#imagine if we said that about literally any other profession.#''oh so u give up 10 yrs of ur life to be a doctor? u sacrifice having a social life and u get SUPER in debt?#u need to work countless hours and it will often be thankless? well i wish i was that lucky''#we should be applying that logic to landlords ONLY#''oh ur mom and dad gave u the money to buy a house? and all u did was paint it white and rent it? huh.''
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Stay informed, but resist the urge to doomscroll, or to stay glued to the news all day/night long. Get your news from actual news sources, not social media. (This is an important strategy to prevent misinformation and disinformation.) It's okay to take a step back from the news, turn off the push notifications, etc. It doesn't mean you don't care, or that you're callous/selfish/a bad person/etc. Your brain was simply not meant to handle everything, everywhere, all at once. (And that's true no matter how privileged you are or aren't.) It's okay to use Tumblr for fun, or for other non-activism-related things. (Same with any other social media site you use.) It's okay to not devote every waking minute to activism. In fact, it's good to take a break every now and then, for the sake of your mental and emotional well-being. And with that...
Please, please, please take care of yourself. Make sure you're eating and drinking water, getting rest and sleep, showering, taking your meds, checking in with your support system, etc. etc. etc. The causes you're fighting for need the best of you, not the rest of you...and more importantly, you need the best of you. You are your most important ally. Rest and self-care are not rewards for success, and they are not selfish, or frivolous indulgences. They are absolute necessities, and they are part of the work. Think of them as an act of defiance against the people, the forces, and the systems that want you to disappear, or to burn out and give up.
#activism fatigue#compassion fatigue#stop doomcrolling#seriously stop#take care of yourself#mental health#you matter#make yourself a priority#boundaries#people pleasing#self compassion#self care#self care is not selfish#self care is not an indulgence#give yourself permission to rest#give yourself permission#rest#play#work life balance#showing up#doing the work#doing the hard stuff#adulting#social media break#news break#rest but don't quit
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💖 EVEN MORE DAY 4 SNEAK PEEKS! 💖
#>:3 /hehe /nefarious#+ One extra screenshot to make it look neater ghsjgds#14 Days With You#14DWY#yandere#yandere visual novel#yandere vn#yandere OC#💖 — 14 days with queue.#🖤 — spoilers.#🖤 — updates.#🖤 — shut up sai.#ETA: 14DWY Discord I have not forgotten about you <3 Y'all will get a unique update 🔜 + access to Day 4 before the public (as always)#I appreciate everyone's patience though!! Once my Uni break rolls around I'll be sure to post more consistently and be more active online!#Because right now it's been kinda hard to find the time to go through all my socials AND indulge in my own personal interests/hobbies T_T#Sometimes I wanna Dawn some Trails...... But Ren yearns to be acknowledged...... /silly#Anyways!! I'll stop yappin and complaining now lmao ^^; I hope y'all enjoy these lil updates!!#14DWY Discord... I sill see you all soon....... >:3c /j threat
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jin guangyao#lan wangij#jin ling#LWJ shifting into fight mode was so damn cool. He is always ready to start throwing hands.#It's in a way that befits someone with a bit more bloodlust that his calm demeanor lets on - but nearly always in defense of someone.#What a great synergy with his personal philosophies! see that he is a Genuinely Noble Guy time and time again!#Is is also way more hilarious and unhinged than most people give him credit for? Also yes.#Nothing and no one ever said he did not or would not rip off JGY's hat mid-fight. I think LWJ needs to snatch more wigs LITERALLY.#Yes I'm delaying the part where I have to address the emotional turmoil of Jin Ling stabbing wwx. It gutted me terribly.#What is worse that realizing that someone you respected has done horrible things#than discovering someone who did horrible things being a kind and trustworthy person?#What is more horrifying that realizing other people are extremely complex and cannot be categorized into black and white?#When people hurt us or our loved ones we very much want to make them out to be irredeemable monsters. But they are not.#It is not actually such a terrible fate to just be a person. To be forgiven and forgive is possible. To change is possible.#This lesson is hard. It is something you have to actively challenge yourself to do. Black and white is the innate path to go down.#And its *why* I love Jin Ling so much. He is the character who fights the longest and hardest to challenge social and personal beliefs#He gets a pass for stabbing wwx for being so deliciously conflicted and tormented by it.#And with wrists THAT limp I can't imagine the wound was particularly deep
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happy holidays mi gente, i love you, i hope that you guys have been holding up okay
i am aliveeee, but surviving, i'm doing my very best to hold on w everything i got but man it got grim for a while
#That November made my depression consume me not gonna lie#but im trying so hard to hold on#i'm not as active on social media anymore because i just dont have the energy for it. but im trying to reach out more
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sniffles….dose anybody know if there’s any like pmtok discords out there or just somewhere to hang out even if it doesn’t last a very long time…i just wanna talk to ppl again and yap abt headcanons or smth…im so loanly i feel like i havent properly hung out with anyone in months i need social interaction so badly my heart hurts!!
#i feel like a sopping wet animal sadly howling hoping someone pays attention to meh#auruuuru…..(sound of me being so sad)#i know this is a very very bad idea bc i try Very hard to never interact w/ ppl in fandom if i can help it#but lately im so deprived of social interaction im almost tempted to just cast eveyrthing aside#I might even delete this later bc im pretty content w/ just making art and sharing it when i can#but man…..sometimes im so lonely i just want a spot where i can do that more actively#halp meh
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Maple Leafs discourse on their team social medias makes me lose brain cells because wdym they're first in their division and coming off a 5 game win streak & people are commenting that the top players are only in it for the money and have no drive, that particular players are useless and need to be traded asap, that they're a garbage team, that they'll never make it past the first round just because they lost one game.
Apparently because they are being payed handsomely the players must be mindless automatons who perform perfectly every night. It drives me absolutely nuts how quickly alleged fans will completely turn on their own team.
#i cannot understand how some people can't seem to comprehend that the players are still human who will have off days and make mistakes#regardless of their work ethic or drive or passion#it's not actual critiquing either it's basically just grown men cyberbullying other grown men#over a GAME#& they have a ton of people in the organization to critique and help them improve! have you ever heard of a coach!#it's like people want to assume the worst so when the leafs perform badly in the playoffs they aren't upset about it bc they see it coming#but they clearly are upset about it because they're commenting on the leafs own social media pages#& these losers never seem to realize how their own behaviour does actively make it harder for the players to perform#maybe some players will not want to play in Toronto because the pressure is so insane & the fanbase can be so toxic!#it really just is bullying#& those people think it's completely fine & warranted because they don't know the players personally & they're famous & rich#maybe try basic human decency for a change? & not letting yourself get super angry about a game?#& just the bad faith element of it all...#it makes it not fun! this is supposed to be entertainment!#stop assuming the worst#some of these people even assume the worst when things are going well! wdym jt is only playing well bc he knows his contract is almost up#isn't it more interesting & inspiring that someone legitimately improved through hard work & the power of the amulet#to the benefit of your team#let's bring back being a fan of your own team ok?#we are basically already doing that with the lb#(affectionate)#thank god for us!#toronto maple leafs#tml#leafs lb#my thoughts
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I like Tumblr, it feels more like a community on here than the other sites. I love y'all.
#insta feels like i have to put on a show to get attention and i dont got time to put in that effort#twitter is a dumpster fire. reddit is scary. discord is aight. artfol is dead. tiktok is a no no zone. and YouTube is#i dont make videos so thats also a no no zone. i dont have time to edit videos or be funny...i mean i am funny but i dont got time for video#if i dont got time to draw i dont got time to edit together a funnee video. i dont have to try so hard on here#i mean i do reblog my art like once or twice but thats the extent of my TRYING HARD#im happy to see the same 12-24 folks in my notes. you guys are the real ones. and its nice to know there are still 100+ of you lurking#maybe not actively lurking but still around. im just going thru it right now bfndjsj#social media is awful. content creation is too much. being an influencer is a joke. i like being me and being here#words
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his dumb jacket
#guess it wouldn’t hurt to put this here#bad sketch but#he’s still cute#art has been so hard for me this past year#i’ve hardly made anything at all#but i still think about zim and dib literally every day#iz continues to be my special interest#even if i’m not as active in the fandom#but that’s more just me not being on social media much in general#dib#dib membrane#invader zim#iz#iz fanart#invader zim fanart
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Okay, making a proper posy for it, I made a bluesky and have been very active there as i've been posting old art and such. I really like it there so far!
I'm @ hibiscera as always!! :D
#i'll still be active here#i just have been trying to limit social media consumption for now#i have things i need to focus on so trying hard to not get easily distracted#adhd problems you know...#mir talks
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Today is a great day for me to get some love from my f/o.
#we're struggling hard todays boiz /gn#Already have done and said some shit I regret (irl) so a w e s o m e#Me @ me: go fuck yourself you stupid useless meat sack why can't you just not have fucking mental issues 🙃#Won't be active. Won't be social.
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"a masterpiece" I WILL KISS YOU ON THE MOUTH RIGHT NOW
#is chapter one really that good? 😭#guy I thought my writing was mediocre AT BEST#I had too many moments where I paused my writing and was like “this is not good; this is mediocre; why am i even writing”#but the feedback so far <33 ily all#actively fighting social anxiety on tumblr and on docs it's my impostor-syndrome#at least the next chapters will be smaus!#idk if I wanna cry or not !#coming up with tweets is so hard i hope Inspiration will kick me again like it did with the intros#because those Intros nearly made me quit writing a smau LOL like it took me two hours but when I entered my moms house suddenly i had ideas#the voices are speaking
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This was the final push to make me actually look into and consider Anarchism as a legitimate ideology to adopt, that it might be what is actually needed in the world.
The reading I’ve done on it so far really aligns with my values. Autonomy, Consent, actual freedom, responsibility, mutual aid, ect.
I’ve always thought some form of democratic state is necessary but now I’m not so sure. It clearly doesn’t work, after all.
#anarchism#thinking hard about if#what held me back was fear about criminal activity#and lack of social support for the vulnerable#but reading on it even if the system isn’t fleshed out#it doesn’t mean we should throw out the baby with the bathwater#no laws no kings no corporate control no capitalism#sounds pretty fucking good
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This is what making plans w someone older and more normal looks like btw
#LIKEEE it’s not that hard…..#I also understand shunning social activity for a lil while like u have to lock in sometimes and I get that even 30 mins is a lot#This is ab when ur at the stage where u want to make plans and ur not doing it in a normal way
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