#sobergirls

[freedombygrace]

Inexplicable implosion

Breaking through tears

Loneliness all over

Darkness outside

Creeping in

Breaths grasping

Internally aching

I try to escape my body

But it needs me

And I must come back into

To come back out of

[sobergirl0]

9 days away from a year sober

I remember being proud of myself for spending 5 days without roleplaying, already noticing changes in myself, spending hours rotting in bed and wondering if it would always be that hard. It's been 356 days since I decided to leave it behind and never looked back.

I'd spent so many years hating myself, I was furious. It's crazy to think now I look back and only feel greatful. Past me didn't think she had nothing to live for, to fight for, but she still believed in me enough to stay and to take the decision to get sober. If it wasn't for her (me), I would have never reconnected with my loved ones, with my art, with my city, with myself.

Life is still fucking hard, my anxiety still follows me wherever I go, the question "is it even worth it???" comes back to me over and over again. But also, I'm the happiest I've been in 7 years. All I can say is thank you not-sobergirl for giving me a chance, not matter what I'm never going back to that shithole.

[straightpathjewlz]

@doingitsober #soberlife #sobergirls #SoberSoldier #AA #alcoholicsanonymous ☆☆ #Etsy #etsyseller #etsysale #etsystore link in bio. #straightpathjewlz ��� ☆ ☆ #oneofakind #handmadenecklace #blownglass #art #wearableart #unique #Jewelry #Jewelryforsale #forsale #supportsmallbusiness #spiritual #positive #madeinamerica #Hiphop #Godhop #glassonig #beadwork #dichro #customjewelry https://www.instagram.com/p/CSrIIT9LQnb/?utm_medium=tumblr

[sobertribevibes]

The support that comes with living in Recovery is more than I could ever image. People loving, accepting and encouraging you every step of the way. I’ve prayed and never doubted God would bless me with the strength of an army. Lovin life #19monthscleanandsober 🙌🏼❤️🙏🏼 #RecoveryRevolution #thereisLIFEafteraddiction #godsgrace #sobertribevibe . . . #sobergirls #sobernative #sobermomtribe #sobermom #recoveryispossible #wedorecover #soberfirstnation https://www.instagram.com/p/CDh_VYTjBQt/?igshid=12gz3qpp2tqwv

[katieputnam18]

Truth.

[malaloves]

My identity was that of a party girl. I never thought alcohol would ever leave my life. And it didn’t happen over night. Identity shifts don’t. They can be slow, messy and even painful. I got sober once and at first nobody could believe it when I said I didn’t drink. They thought it wouldn’t last. And one year in, just as they started to accept this new me, I had a sip of champagne and I was back on the train. Until I wasn’t. And whilst the decision felt easy I had built this fortitude from within. That held me on the path. My identity switch didn’t happen right away, it never does. I had to harness myself in for safety. I had to steer the ship towards the new identity I desired. It was only then that I could truly embody her. The new me. The girl who stayed sober for 5 years. And is now heading towards six. You can take on any identity you wish to. You just need to hold the vision with your spine, and dare to do it. You’ve got it in you. What identity are you leaning into? 📸 @loveandlegends #identitycrisis #sobergirl #sobergirlsociety #selfcareforprofessionals #mindsetcoach #mindsetcoachingforwomen #mindsetcoachingforwomen #nextlevelthinking #changeyourhabits #changeyourhabitschangeyourlife https://www.instagram.com/p/ClAqaAWuWM4/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[gregorychatman]

#emotionalsobriety #sobergirl #survivinggrief #survivinggracefully #travelingmercies #cleanandsober #mentalhealthmatters #kindnessmatters https://www.instagram.com/p/CbZrY_iLF99/?utm_medium=tumblr

[katieputnam18]

Truth.

“You have so many layers, that you can peel away a few, and everyone’s so shocked or impressed that you’re baring your soul, while to you it’s nothing, because you know you’ve twenty more layers to go.”

— Craig Thompson, Carnet de Voyage (via books-n-quotes)

[sobahinthecity-blog]

Kind is cool. 😎 
https://www.instagram.com/p/B0isFpspqhC/?igshid=ip1lk061gna3

[amberpoppitt]

Today I celebrate six months of my sobriety 🎉🥳 It's been a difficult experience at times, yet one that's enriched my life in ways I hadn't expected. I was terrified during the first few weeks of giving up the booze, but as the days progressed, I slowly begun to realise just how much alcohol had been jeopardizing the my overall quality of life. Year after year, I'd been drowning my sorrows, growing forevermore miserable as a result. So many forgotten evenings, so many shameful faux pas, so many wasted weekends, so many regretful nights, and so many years of trying to hide away from my underlying problems. Although things still remain far from perfect in my world, I can confidently say I now feel more in control of my life than I've felt in decades, not to mention happier than I have been for a long time. The choice I made on that difficult September morning has transpired to be the best decision I've ever made 💗 #sobrietyrocks #sobrietyrules #sobriety #soberjourney #sobergirl #sixmonthssober #sixmonthssobertoday #soberversary #soberliving (at Telford) https://www.instagram.com/p/CMC9dTtHd2A/?igshid=1iff28qiqlnoh

[riafendpinup]

On set today shooting with one of my favourite crews for unnamed TV show 🧑🏼‍🎨 Had a fantastic day! Been really busy the last few weeks with moving house and reorganising my life. Sorry for the lack of posts #selfie #actor #actress #actorslife #beret #pastel #blonde #springsummer #london #tvshow #natural #vegan #sobergirl #springcolours (at London, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/COi121mpJuo/?igshid=1fxa4l0zzxn00

[katieputnam18]

It’s always darkest right before the dawn.

“What hurts you, blesses you. Darkness is your candle.”

— Rumi (via surqrised)

[straightpathjewlz]

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[mylonelygrl]

Day 3

I’ve had so many day 3 I can’t even tell you. Someday there will be a last day 3, it’s too soon to tell if this is the one. I have to just take everything one second, one minute, one hour, one day, one week at a time. All I think about is using. I wish I could take a pill to get rid of those urges, but isn’t that the problem in the first place? Just wanting to take a “pill” of some kind to fix my problems? Facing this thing head on is really hard, and I feel like I have so many eyes on me all the time. My aunt and uncle, I know, don’t trust that this will be the last time. They had never quite seen the severity of my problem until the day I made my first post and ever since then I feel like a charity case, like they are constantly surveilling me. “Can I go to a meeting with you?” “We are here for you.” “How are you feeling today?” 

How am I supposed to answer those questions? “My meeting leader said it’s best to come alone.” (No, you can’t come to a meeting with me. We’re all our most honest selves when our families AREN’T around. Family trauma is partially why I’m in this position in the first place!) “I know, thank you.” (I know you’re here for me, but I feel smothered. I feel infantilized.) “I feel fine.” (Today I feel like I want to use, and it’s the only thing I can think about. You constantly checking in on me makes me feel worse, makes me feel like I can’t even trust myself. Like you can’t trust me. I feel like I need to move out of this house for my sanity. I feel like I’m grasping at straws to find any semblance of independence.) “I feel totally fine.” 

I need people in my corner, absolutely. That fact I will never deny. There are certain types of people, however, that are far more... I don’t want to say valuable but I will say valuable to my journey than my aunt and uncle. They would never want to hear that, and of course I’m never going to tell them because they have the best of intentions but really, they have NO clue what I’m going through. They have NO clue what kind of trauma I’ve dealt with in my life. They know, to some extent, the trauma that my immediate family put me through. The divorce, the step parents, my brother’s physical and emotional abuse towards me. I tried to open up the other day about the other non-familial traumas that I’ve been through and it was clear immediately they didn’t know how to handle that. This is what I’ve been trying to tell them. They constantly ask “how can I help you?” I DON’T KNOW. I’m in a constant state of grieving and that is not something a grieving person can answer. I don’t know how you can help me because you guys don’t understand. You have everything. You have each other, beautiful children, multiple homes, cars, stability, a healthy relationship with food and alcohol, never done drugs, little to no debilitating trauma. I don’t know how you can help. 

I need people like me in my corner. I know it sounds counterintuitive, like the blind leading the blind but that’s the truth of the situation. That’s the only way I’ll make it through. In group therapy we like to think of it as creating a chain. Everyday we extend (virtually) a hand to the next “sister” (I don’t love that that’s the phrasing this group uses because I think it is a bit cis normative but whatever I will overlook that for now) to promise another 24 hours of sobriety. We hold each other accountable, and when we do it it feels more supportive than accusatory or shameful. That’s the vast difference in the way “Help” feels from them and my family, because my sisters know. They understand. We can connect on a level that even those who have known me my whole life will never understand. 

[katieputnam18]

Addiction in general.

[hanalasagal]

I'm twice as fit as I was half my age. 🤩 All ya gotta do is dream it and follow through with action everyday. #fitnessmotivation #miracle #gymrats #Sober #fit #grateful #thursdaythoughts #soberlife #fitandsober #sobergirl #workout #sobriety #works (at Marina City Club) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1wIL_znaKy/?igshid=kljaaxh33s2