#so yeah im mad
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If you feel comfortable, what happened w the thoschei server? ( i want to join, but not if they're being shitty ppl)
hi yeah i can tell u. a lot of people in it do follow me / have my blog tho. lol.
so i need to start this off by saying even tho it isnt in my pinned post, i am literally 98% sure i have BPD. i have had very extreme jealousy issues since i was like 9 years ago. im 18 now. it has been a reoccurring theme that i feel like im slowly fading out, and i feel like people start ignoring me. it always happens, or we just drift. so i fuck things up. with my fp in third grade, i had such bad jealousy issues and treated her like shit. eventually i always explode at my fp.
so i know that has a factor in it but honestly? i do feel likr people werent treating me well. as i kind of told eclipse today (the only owner of the server now) i feel like im a toy everyone just throws around when they’re bored. i feel like most people in the server are closer to each other than i am to majority of them besides like two people lmao.
its kind of a constant theme in my life for people to only want to talk to me when their real / close friends arent around / when they’re busy. ngl this is how i felt sometimes.
even tho it was my idea to start the server, as always, i faded to the background. my mental health has gotten worse and worse and ive reached my breaking point.
( ps: sorry this is kinda long lmao)
#its up to u although a friend does see what i mean#who also has certain similar issues to me#obviously not name dropping not doing that lol#but do what u want#not saying im never going back. but i do genuinely feel like certain people were treating me like shit#i did EVERYTHING every fuckihn day to keep the server together#so yeah im mad#im not everyones toy to throw around. thats how i feel like a lot of people there treat me as.#asks#anon#discord#information
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The tac net crash chapter is one of my favorites so far~
Ah and. Guess what. I just discovered that including this post, I made 50 pieces of fanart for Mistakes on mistakes until.. I’m so sane and normal about this story can you tell👍
#maccadam#transformers#fic fanart#momu fanart#jazz#prowl#jazzprowl#considering the speed and the amount of fanart#….yeah I can see why tumblr thought I was a bot lmao#also#I mostly read during night and then drawing from memory during day so uhhhhh the accuracy is questionable haha#mainly I feel like half of the time I don’t know how tf Jazz looks. The guy switching between his looks so often jdjfjfj#IM. SO GLAD THEY RESOLVED THEIR DRAMA EHEHBJGJ#The scene in medbay was so damn cute#oh my goddddd#the scene of the tac net crash#muah#loved it~#you know the thing is - I'm a biiiig fan of mutual feelings and actions#the scene of the kiss was absolutely great but it was a bit one sided#Jazz cared about Prowl but Prowl was far more concerned about information safety and strategy and stuff#but this?? mmmm~ Them caring for each other#Prowl using his last moments of consciousness to ask Jazz if he is mad at him#Prowl actually deeply caring of what Jazz thinks about him now when he knows Prowl killed his friends#i don't know how to explain#kisses are great but this (points) this is my favorite five star meal right here#also there is something so funny about Prowl slowly discovering fow fucked up Jazz is and just accepting it#but being so scared when Jazz discover how fucked up he is. Only for Jazz to be like “boo I knew about your fuckedupness from the start”
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Brozone reunion concepts for this little thing based on this ask
As stated in the ask idk fully how this moment would go, this concept was mostly building off the premise presented within the ask :D
Bonus:
#my art#trolls#dreamworks trolls#trolls 3#trolls au#n2 au#trolls john dory#trolls clay#trolls poppy#trolls branch#trolls bruce#trolls floyd#brozone#look at them so silly#in the original script i had accidentally wrote John calling Bruce by his preferred name and i was like#he dont know it yet smh#and had to change it back to spruce#which is where the line 'its bruce but imma let it slide'#comes from#i dont think John in the movie and within this purposefully misnames him#i think its just like a force of habit#and its just harder for him to realize hes saying it wrong until hes corrected#cuz you see he doesnt really get mad when corrected he just gets confused the first time#and then just keeps forgetting after#which i think also was from his mindset of#'im the oldest im not allowed to change' so its like#his brains blocking out the change of spruce to bruce#this is unrelated to the comic as a whole it was just the on the spot thoughts i had while typing#but yeah#itd be a touching reunion for sure!
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hehe ghost-turbo haunting felix au
turbo is connected to the last piece of his code in the whole arcade - a trophy he gifted to felix in mid 80s as a symbol of him genuinely caring about their relationships on par with being the best racer. felix also gave him one of his medals and both kept their gifts next to other rewards, but when roadblasters and turbotime were unplugged, the medal was gone with everything else
now, after burning in cola-lava turbo is basically dead, but scraps of his code still were intertwined with the trophy (after all, it was his first winner's cup, but felix never knew about it), giving turbo an opportunity to exist as a shadow incapable of interacting with anything and anyone besides felix, who kept the trophy even after the roadblasters incident
also I went crazy in tags, feel free to check them out
#turbo#turbotastic#fix it felix jr#80s boyfriends#hammertastic#headcanon about them exchanging their trophies isn't mine but i loved it A LOT#and “darling” is turbo making fun of how felix was calling him in 80s#this hc about “doll” and “darling” pet names also is not mine but i adore it#turbo here is a complete freak who just stays around felix most of the time even when felix has moments with calhoun#and felix is an ass who keeps secrets from everyone bc he doesn't want his dirt to come out#he's ashamed of his previous relationship with turbo and doesn't want anyone to know any details#and calhoun to just know about it#this just gets worse and worse#they also didn't actually break up and were still technically dating when turbo went gamejumping#and he's mad af at felix because he's the reason ppl in the acrade made a boogeyman out of turbo and he couldn't come back#like imagine your bf says to you what you are better than others think of you#and then behind your (presumably dead) back tells everyone that you're just an egocentric maniac#i believe turbo has other reasons why he gamejumped (besides jealousy which took place but wasn't the most important reason)#and felix is an unreliable narrator#so yeah turbo HATES his ass#(but still would-) no im not making it suggestive#anyway i hc that turbo had put A LOT of emotions in this relationship even tho he's bad at this#he tried his best with felix but they were just making each other worse#and turbo while feeling betrayed never really moved on (yes even after 25 years he's PATHETIC)#and felix is just full of regret about everything but he won't admit his mistakes in his relationship with turbo#bc “well he turned out to be a bad person so that automatically makes me in the right about everything”#but felix had made a lot of bad decisions while dating turbo and was just classically ignorant about a ton of things#sorry about this random ass essay in tags i'm done for now#wreck it ralph#wir
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as an aro/ace man. i'm aromantic and because of that im queer. being a man does not make me any less queer. and neither does being aromantic. if you disagree with this i hope you have wet socks for the rest of your life
#aromantic#im so mad. aro rage is going#aro#oh yeah and im cis too. im not less queer for being a cis man whos aromantic. im queer. because im aromantic. ugh
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Topless outdoor coffee mornings anyone??
Treat me ~ Tip Me ~ More of me
#I'm not mad I promise. I just dyed my eyebrows before I dyed my hair so I look rly pissed off abt everything 😂#Also i am freshly showered so I decided to dry off in the sunshine instead of the normal boring way#Trying to decide if tonights look will need clothes over the top (pop to pub version) or 😻 out kinda vibes (wine at home)#I'm leaning towards the later fr#satans knitwear#girls with piercings#alt pinup#pinup girl#Does my face give masc vibes just bc im wearing no makeup??? Kinda yeah. Very sexy of me.#Maybe it's the tired/dead eyes lmao#cheeky#Happy Friday my loves! Lots to do today but thinking about fun things for us this evening 👀✨#Spotify
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if i had a reliable kouhai i would hype him up so much. everyone clap and cheer or i'll hollow purple this whole building
[ID: A screenshot redraw of Gojo introducing Nanami Kento. Gojo has light brown skin, with silver earrings shaped like two eyes stacked on both ears. He's gesturing grinning widely and gesturing to his right, where Nanami stands with his arms folded. Nanami has tan skin with many faded scars, wearing his usual suit and glasses. His left hand tangles with where Gojo's right hand drapes over his shoulder. The manga-style text reads - Gojo: "This is Nanami Kento, ex-salaryman dropout sorcerer!" Nanami: "Please don't call me that." END ID.]
#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#nanago#gonana#gojo satoru#nanami kento#jjk fanart#usersaint#userart#//#FINIIIIISHED THIS WAS SO FUN. OMG#deeply self-indulgent and so so fun#not sure if i've ever done a screenshot redraw before...#i feel like i've always been Meaning to but#nvr got around to it. as per my usual#i think gojo's earrings are SOOOO cute im hyping myself up#i love em . i want them for myself#also i know in the official transl. gojo doesn't say dropout (i think)#i remember it being rlly funny from a fan transl. tho#like yeah he still mad nanami peaced out and left LOLLL
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it just sucks because nothing is ever fucking made for you, and if it is made for you like 75% of the time it gets chopped into little pieces by every person alive because this is the one thing you have, so it has to prove itself to you.
like, a thing can't just be for women. men need to assign it to women. women have to experience "must" or "should" before their hobbies and passions - women are allowed to do silly, passive things like tuck our ankles and titter behind a fan, or something. women are allowed to, they are welcomed to. like the world is a house and we are supposed to be in the kitchen and now we are being given the divine right to enter the living room if we bring chips
because when it becomes for you, or about you, that is when the thing is vile. you should/must wear makeup so you can appear beautiful to men. once you wear makeup for yourself, or because you yourself enjoy putting it on, then you are no longer doing the right thing. there is a reason men hate certain fashion trends. there is a reason men hate things like the pumpkin spice latte - because it's not about them. you are buying it because it is good for you. they degrade your passions and interests. there is a reason women-led fields are largely seen as being "not a real" profession. when you are a good cook, that is because you can provide for him. close your eyes. you're not going to be a chef, be honest. that is a man making food for himself.
bras are made so breasts will be appealing to men. they are rarely about comfort or support. you have given up entirely on the idea of pockets. young girls have to worry about a shorter inseam on their shorts. a girl on instagram gets her septum pierced, and men in the comments are rabid about it - i just want to rip it out of her face. she'd be beautiful without it.
and fucking everything is for them. even the media that is "for you" is for them, eventually. remember "my little pony"? remember how hard it is to convince any executive to believe that little girls are worth selling to? in the media that is for you, you see little ways that you still need to make it accessible for them - the man is always powerful, smart, masculine. he is a man's man. the media usually forgives him. it usually says okay, some men are awful, but hey! gotta love 'em. because if you don't hold their hands and say "this is literally just a story about my lived reality", they shit their pants about it. they demand you put them into the media that's for you.
these are people who are so used to glutting themselves on the world. they are used to having every corner and every dollar and every place of leadership. so you say can i please have one slice of cake, just for myself, please, holy shit. and they fucking weep about it. they say you're being unfair, because some of their one-thousand-slices aren't beautiful, and your singular cake slice doesn't have their name on it. and aren't you being rude by not offering to share?
and honestly. fucking - yeah, man. you were kind of surprised, because the cake is a little basic (you bake at home, you're way past this stuff). but holy shit, it was nice just to be offered cake in the first place. you're used to having to starve. you're used to getting nothing, but going to the party anyway, because you're expected (professionally) to show up. you liked that it is a simple cake, and that it is warm, and mostly: you like that there is, for once, a cake-for-you.
in the real world, outside of metaphor, it feels like fucking being slapped. barbie didn't even say anything particularly unusual; it literally just made factually evident points. there are less women in leadership than men. we can look at that fact objectively. that is a real thing that is happening. and the movie is aware that it has to defend itself! that it has to spend like half an hour just turning to the camera and saying: i know this is hard for you to understand, but this is a real thing that women experience.
it's just - this is that one kid on the playground who thinks its allowed to hog all the toys. he builds this hoard that nobody else is allowed to even look at, or he'll get aggressive. everyone's a little scared of him, so they let it slide, because his daddy gave him the golden touch. he hates when people cry and thinks bullying is cool. he writes boys only! on a big sign and makes all his friends take "alpha male" classes.
and then girls pick up barbies, because there was nothing left for them. and in the void they've been given, with their scraps: they make long, spiraling narratives about how barbie is actually descended from snakes and has given her righteous followers magical (if concerning) powers and can speak 32 languages (2 of which are animal related) and has big plans for infrastructure (beginning with the local interstate). and the boy comes over, and he has a huge fit about how the girls aren't "including" him. he wants to know why the girls aren't making the story about ken.
"we didn't like your story." the girls blink at him. they point to his war stories and the gi joes and the millions of male-led narratives and how still in the modern day men get two-thirds of the speaking roles in movies and they point to men making mediocre shows that don't get lambasted and they point to men encouraging toxic masculinity and they point to men everywhere, men and men and men. and they say: "how is this our fault? you had ken."
"no!" he is already back to screaming and stomping his feet and tearing at his hair and intentionally reminding them that men are holding back thinly concealed violence and he says: "if it's not for me, it's actually sexism."
#it's almost as if you spent your entire life fucking denying us things and then get mad when god forbid#we point out that you've been denying us something#writeblr#almost as if . u ACTUALLY think women dream of being in a male-run society#like dude mostly i dream about not having a tummy ache#love when ppl tell me that men have to deal with more rejection than women do#im like. just say u have never had a hard day in ur fucking life. if u think the most difficult experience is getting turned down at a bar#men: this one movie doesn't suck my entire -#women: yeah so i went to the doctor and was bleeding out of my eyeballs but like the doctor said#it was probably just my time of the month i guess?#anyway so i died there and had to be revived but they think i faked dying bc it was hysterics#so i took 3 advil and now im back at work i guess
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my contribution to the fmab fandom, slowly but surely (click for better quality)
#you can make the argument that ling yao is forced to dilly dally but i think its a choice on his part#he didnt have to pretend to be a silly lil guy he just really wanted to#but yeah do not underestimate him he is always locked in. the dilly dally is usually a farce#greed however wants so badly to be locked in but he is forced to dilly dally for months on a camping trip#greed the avaricious#<hes born to lock in forced to lock in but went and dilly dally-ed until canon rolled around#yes i view all of them as individual characters. id even say greedling (when the lines blur n you cant tell) is its own fourth character#greedling#ling yao#fmab#fullmetal alchemist brotherhood#born to dilly dally#forced to lock in#yes i know these are usually done with one image but im indecisive and couldnt pick T^T#also i have a million screenshots of them and i need to use them or it was all for naught#moss' madness
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"Even though Sonic lives by his own rules, his destiny is often shaped by the two constant figures in his life: his best friend, Tails, and his dastardly nemesis, Dr. Eggman." - info.sonicretro.org/images/6/6f/Sonic06_Prima_digital_guide.pdf#page=6
im not normal…the brubbersssss
#ask#anon ask#‘’the two constants in his life’’ IM INSANE#everytime i see something like this i just get reminded of all those sonic 2 parodies where they made it so sonic doesn’t even like tails#like no!!!!! that’s his best friend!!! his lil bro!!!#i used to get so mad at those when i was younger holy shit#anyway yeah i’m gonna be thinking about this for the rest of the day#guh i love when it gets mentioned that tails and eggman have both been there since the beginning#sonic the hedgehog#miles tails prower#unbreakable bond#the brothers ever#dr eggman
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Shiro with a full sleeve tattoo 💜
#takashi shirogane#voltron#voltron legendary defender#fanart#vld#LEap Year Boyyyy#i have ONE thing in my mind and it is... i want to learn to tattoo so here is one guy with a full sleeve bc life#those are violets February flowers#not very traditioal japanese to have that purple but whatever#you know that thing that says that if you dont personalize anything you will die with nothing by your name or something like that#yeah#im a bit mad i finished it after midnight
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Can we get more of the murder drone x rain world au?
ok
#ive been working on artfight refs and also so i can have the plot in a comprehensible fashion#as much as i love bulletpoints theyre too scattered to work#yeah the yellow lizard is just from the original sketch i really didnt feel like changing anything#and just used it for the ref#its so fanficy and cringe and whatever but we all know what a very unwise woman once said#jcj has a design but no name nor ref. do you even know how little cool words begin with j#and then theres a c inbetween. what the hell am i supposed to do with that#probably misinterpreted some rain world lore for this but i dont care its headcanon now bite me#art#murder drones#rain world#i should probably give this like a special tag if im gonna keep posting about it#will i? no#god i hate character design so much#doll and tessa also have design sketches but you'll have to find me in the right places for those until im satisfied enough to make a ref#oh my god i forgot the lower back spike things on n im gonna do nothing about it except get mad at myself
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ULTIMATE SHIPS CHALLENGE - First Love Ships [4/5] ↳ I haven't really touched anyone since. (insp)
#moonlightedit#filmedit#dailyflicks#*#*usc#userraffa#tuserella#userrobin#userk8#userrin#userkraina#omgari#usergiu#underbetelgeuse#userannalise#userbarrow#usersem#userdyamond#again before anyone gets mad at me for calling them a ship just look at the gifset#i obviously just like the movie. im so tired of the annoying ass ppl in my tags lol#but yeah.... this is the most tender romance in film history 2 Me#moonlight#movies
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North and Simon: (shaking hands on killing Simon potentially)
#detroit become human#north wr400#simon pl600#markus rk200#josh pj500#jericho is just... so funny to me as like. how they function (or dont)#like im v glad that i did a Good Job my first run and no one hated me but i also felt like a very distraught parent#in regards to how markus is just able to either hurt them (by suggestions OF THE OTHERS IN THE GROUP)#or help them because hey what the fuck i just dragged simon to safety and now north wants me to kill him#and then simon like oh no north got shot you should leave her BUT ! i saved her and made simon happy#so its like you know what they have to have some animosity but also respect#i feel like i wanna see more of north and simon being buddies ... and i might have to do that myself#but i also apologize if this is ooc for them because i really did only just play through once and got a not good end#i probably missed a lot of lore and stuff so im v sorry if im Messing Them Up#its currently just me liking their designs and vibes and hoping im not ruining other fans lives by being wrong#and i honestly dont know when north would kill simon but hes on her possible victims list#so since both of their victim lists include themselves for suicide it just reminded me of the meme#with im so mad im gonna (remembers suicide jokes are bad for my mental health)#and it was like yeah watch north be like im gonna (well if i cant kill myself because markus said no suicide) murder someone
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desert vampires au-killing him killing him killing him killing him
this is the beautiful stage of designing i like to call Banging my head into rocks until something falls into place, with a side of screaming and crying and rage . everything just feels Slightly Off in this stage and its genuinely the most infuriating thing ever
#sonic the hedgehog#sth#sonic au#desert vampires au#everytime i try to design something i remember oh yeah !#im TERRIBLE AT THIS LMAO#( really mad about this . oguh why am i still so bad at designing !! fuck !!!!!)#grr grr bark
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To me the joy and beauty of vocal synthesizers has always been that they don't sound real and exploring that to create artistic expression that can't be achieved by human voices, so seeing them become more and more realistic is disheartening, almost? Especially since a lot of artists make the same voice banks sound so different and have their own personal charm. I'm glad that people will be able to make things that sound realistic, but I'm worried that songs that intentionally play out of sounding as realistic as possible will be sidelined, discouraged, no longer created, impossible to find, or unsupported by fans of vocal synthesizers. I don't want things to just push towards being as realistic as possible. There is beauty in how everyone's usage of the same voice banks sound different. There is beauty in the lack of realistic sounding vocals in vocal synthesizers.
#vocaloid#utauloid#vocal synth#book of kells#edit: i think some people are misunderstanding (and im not saying this upset or madly at all)#i absolutely have no ill will towards realistic tuning#i think it's cool as fuck and wonderful#this post was meant to be a personal post that bordered on venty and I didn't expect anyone to reblog it 😅#however people are enjoying it so i wont turn rbs off#but yeah i was moreso trying to express ''im scared that non realistic tuning and creativity in vocal synth will trickle away''#rather than ''i think realistic tuning is bad''#i dont think that at all#:}#also i recognize this likely wont happen but im still worried—hence the post#im expressing a worry#and also expressing my love for non realistic tuning#this post is not a criticism realistic tuning whatsoever!#and again the tone for all of that is kind/neutral—i dont want to sound mad at all ^w^
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