#so to say i looked them up and uh . new least favourite thing 2 draw just dropped :)
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for @cherryys who (rightfully!) hcs lategame megumi as having a bunch of scars befitting his status as resident punching bag
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#megumi fushiguro#fushiguro megumi#fanart#jjk fanart#megumi#guess who hasnt slept its meeeeee#finding refs fr this took forEVER#mostly bc all the pinterest boys are too gd beefy to use as megu ref#but even once i found good refs i am so used 2 drawing beef!!! so used 2 shirtless torsos tht look like yuuji's!!!!#had to keep Undefining my lines n slimming him down#n then he didnt look toned enough!!!!!!!!#constant too hot/too cold . endless suffering .#bangs head on desk all i know to draw is BEEF and this boy is 100% sinew........#but we got there . th render helped a LOT#but then right back 2 suffering bc i asked sam fr Scar Recs n they had th idea 2 give him a lightning scar from when he was taming nue#and i was like omg ya!!!! (voice of some1 who did Not know what lightning scars look like)#so to say i looked them up and uh . new least favourite thing 2 draw just dropped :)#th more accurate i tried to be the more it looked like a weird artsy tattoo#n that scar wasnt even part of what cherryys mentioned they envisioned !!! optional hurdle !!!!!!! i torture myself but fr naught!!!!#th scars tht they mentioned are the glass eye/eye scar from th sukuna/gojo fight + burns up the jaw + abdomen stab wound a la toji#everything else is just visual flavour#sighs at least i got some good shameless torso practice out of this#once i got 2 painting i took my sweet time with him and i am happy now . sleep deprived but happy <3#one of my megumi mutuals(tm) says jump i say how high
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Thank you so much @bokatan and @h3raklion for the tag!
I can tell this is going to become a patented Furby wall of textâą so I'll just throw in a cut now. tl;dr: I love you all and i draw danse way too much
This has been an interesting year mostly in that its my first time posting personal art online in, what, 7 years? I stopped doing this kind of drawing shortly after high school. I picked up painting flash and have been focusing on my tattooing since then. In that time I never did any digital drawing or character drawing until 2 years ago this month, when I drew Val for the first time.
I was terrified to post anything anywhere, I think I posted one piece to reddit, but besides that I kept everything pretty private until April of 2022. I originally made this blog as a place to silently post my drawings and screenshots while providing a sort of devlog of my mods for my own records, and didn't think I would be noticed. I didn't realize people tracked the paladin danse tag, lol!
I'm really glad for all the people I've met through here, I never would have kept this blog up if it weren't for the wonderful messages from all of you guys. So much of my art, both in subject and execution has been influenced by the other users I've had the pleasure of interacting with and I hope to keep it up this year!
You all know I mostly just draw Val and Danse, and this is the palette I use for most things:
These are all pretty drab, I use different of blending layers and photoshop adjustments to get the colours how I want them at the end.
I usually try to use different brushes in each of my drawings, but these are the ones I come back to most often. The first one is a variant of one of these brushes, I modified it to change size based on direction and tilt. I used the brush almost exclusively until august and its still my favourite for quickly laying out forms and values. I use this one for freckles. The rest are some of my top picks from True Grit Texture Supply, mostly from Chromagraph and Monomania.
I'm glad I was able to really get into drawing this year, and going through my folder I'm pleased with how my anatomy and faces have improved. However I am disappointed in how much of it is just the same ginger fuck. I'm really stunting my growth by not varying my subjects, and now that I'm more comfortable with the tools I want to push myself to actually. uh. try. Put in the effort to make art that says something, tells a story. Less single characters floating in blank voids. More people interacting, scenes, environments. I also really want to get back into digital painting, I used to be really into digital painting and in theory know how to do it. I'm going to try and dig out that old knowledge lol.
Despite being bit bland, and having some glaring errors that still bug me, that Danse drawing is still one of my favourites. I think I spent at least 8 hours on it. I was dealing with some personal issues at the time and just really wanted to scratch that brain itch that the bos knight uniform gives me. It's stupid, I hate it, I can draw it nearly completely from memory by how often I'm looking at it.
The 'tried something new' panel is difficult because I feel like a lot of my recent work has been pretty stagnant. It's all done with the same technique, same palette, same boring cel shading, same layer order, boring. This is one of the few times I did any proper digital painting, and tried to adapt the looser style that I use when I'm drawing in analogue mediums to my digital work.
I just talked about art here and not mods because that would be a whole other wall of text. But it would boil down to: love to do it, no time, and expensive.
Also, if anybody is interested, I do my drawing in Clip Studio Paint and Photoshop on a Surface Laptop Studio.
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Skuld the Sorceress headcanons
shoutout to the httyd comics for giving me a bunch of characters to use in my fanfic. (this is for my thw rewrite)
so my backstory on skuld is that sometime after the events of httyd 2, she joins forces with the northern alliance, and while she's still up to her "sorceress" bullshit (at least thats the plan for now) she also has legitimately useful information about the barbaric archipelago that she's learned from travelling around and duping people. so she is actually useful but probably uses the mysticism to embellish and make herself appear more powerful. I think it would be great if she were like the mellisandre to drago's stannis (as in a mystical advisor blowing smoke up his ass about his destined greatness. i use a lot of asoiaf characters as analogies. except in this case skuld isnt a true believer, she's just a survivor who will say and do anything necessary). I really want to have some scenes of her giving vague-ass prophecies about the outcome of battles that could be interpreted as positive or negative based on the desires of the person listening. i love when shit like that happens.
I imagine she's particularly good friends with griselda the grievous and despite not being particularly fond of children in general, she likes griselda and chaghatai's kids, especially oktai . I'm thinking chaghatai probably sees through the sorceress thing and doesn't trust her. ragnar is probably scared of her.
I want drago and skuld to actually be completely head over heels for each other but extremely hesitant to show anything other than lust because both of them think about love as a weakness. aghhh i cant get them out of my head!
also im using the premise of the fire tides as setup, so drago has that tormpentipede dragon attatched to his shoulder. uh...this is going to make intimacy between them...interesting. i have some ideas but idk how wild i wanna make things
anyway im in love with this villain couple and i need to draw them (especially with skuld in some new outfits i have in mind for her. i put some inspiration photos below)
got some mellisandre obviously. the second photo is great because wings of war (working title for the wip) is also going to take place in fall/winter and i love the image of skuld surrounded by drago's freezing, exhausted soldiers meanwhile she's all elegant and unscathed
hildur from norsemen. i love this conniving bitch with my whole heart. she's my favourite character in the show. also definitely using her fur lined cloak as inspiration
reluctantly adding skade the witch from the last kingdom because i cant stand her but i like her clothes and accesories. I love the concept of her character but idk...maybe it was the acting? something about her felt whiny and juvenile when she should have been intimidating and sultry. anyway. next.
morgana pendragon my actual wife. i. love. her. free my girl, she did all of that but like...can you blame her???
anyway, i think my ideas for skuld's clothes will look a lot like morgana's winter outfits but with the colour schemes of her gowns pre-villain arc.
i think skuld's outfits were a lot more similar to skade's before she joined the northern alliance, but the more she gained influence, the more they (specifically griselda and drago) were willing to indulge her finer tastes
#skuld the sorceress#thw rewrite#httyd 3 rewrite#httyd headcanon#httyd headcanons#drago/skuld#skuld/drago
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Old Art Archive Part 6.
Original captions under the cut.
1 -2. Title: New Icon :]. New Nea icon cause its been a while since I have drawn him :]. I do like having myself as my icon but Nea is my mascot and I like how chibi this came out.
3. Title: I need a idea 44 [original filename]. Artblock? Just tired? Melting from the current heatwave here? [Yeah but still]. Point is haven't really been drawing much lately. So here is a sketch I had lying around of an attempt to slightly redesign Meta [I wanted to give her bigger paws and more face fluff like an actual lynx].
4. Title: Met-a Cute. Hi my brain has been pestering me to draw a cute Meta for a while so here's this, its a bit rough but overall like how it came out. In doing this I tried to do a pose I haven't done before without a ref so the pose probably looks at least a bit off lol. As well as that I had fun with the symmetrical tool [for the big butterfly] and even made a very quick brush! [those little butterflies in the back].
5. Title:  What the 'dog' doing? The slightest design update, he now has hands rather then paws [oh and his scythe is now cooler now :]] Need to figure out how to get his eyes to look properly creepy though. Also I tried to do something interesting with the perspective and shading.... -w-
6. Title: Horse. This is a week or so old but didn't know what to do with it so just slapped some yellow and purple light and a bunch of sparkles :], the hair shading looks kinda nice!
7 -8. Title: Metamorphosis * Glitter. Just wanted to make another of these pixel glitter gif with little pixel borders things with Meta... Like how it came out [especially the shading and the border] :]
9. Title: Â Just a Lynx. Just wanted to draw a little Meta, cause its been a a bit. Shading is a bit scuffed but eh, whatever.
10. Title: Catboy Jumpscare! I finished this a few days ago but keep delaying posting it to get the energy to not just leave this with a blank desc. Like 100% of my writing anything energy for the past few days has been going into the yuri game jam submission I posted about a few days ago [which is currently at a whole 300 words! /sarcastic [I am not good at dialogue at all].
11. Title: My at least once a year pinkie. Been to long since I have drawn my favourite pink pony :] Even tried to make it look like a birthday card [ish], I also made a little confetti brush :]
12. Title: Â Metamorphosis now in 3D! A little Paint 3d thing? Feels a bit weird to call it a model as most of the parts are just 3d shapes in front of eachother. Also I didn't mean for the image to be so small but that's how big I made the model I guess??? Oh and the little glitchy looking stuff in the back is a brush I made :].
13. Title: Â Metamorphosis now in Motion! I have been trying to get into animating and I been starting with this very uh... square style? cause its alot easier than my usual style. That right ear is very scuffed though lol, but the rest didn't come out that bad! [for someone that can't animate well]. I think maybe I should try more tweening rather than frame by frame like this one.
14. Title:Â Them. Just a little thing of my immortal giant sentient plushies... particularly when they were younger, they look alot more like plushies when they get older [they get a bunch of stitches and scratches]. Hope that its possible to tell that there eyes and mouths are shiny plastic [which is why they can't change expressions, faces are just plastic.]
15- 19. Title: Sparkly Unicorn. Uuh wanted to make a very very simple little pixel thing but ended up just adding more and more stuff.... had alot of fun! I made the pixel star brush and the lil heart border : D Oh and Petal still does have the verrrrrry long hair but couldn't figure out how to fit it all in so gave her some short ponytails : ] Looks cute
20. Some arm practice stuff, yeah not very great at arms [or legs] yet but at least I'm practicing. Sorry just verytired so idk what to sayâŠ
21. Title:   An anthro raccon idk. Hi! been a bit busy but hopefully will be able to post more! Worked on these over a few days... originally was going to be more simple but just added more and more little accessories..... Shading the little chains and studs took soooo long [though thankfully didn't decide to draw the chains individually, just made a chain brush for that :]] Also the slight texture over everything was an attempt at a 'tv static' brush, not sure how well it will work for that but its nice for texture [love when digital art has texture to it!]
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i don't wanna be your friend, I wanna kiss your lips (corpse x reader)
Summary: Corpse suggests you flirt with each other to mess with the fans. What happens when you suddenly catch feelings?
Authors Note: This has been in my brain for so long so I decided to write it. May or may not write a part 2, im not sure. Lemme know what you think! My requests are open for fic/headcannons aswell đ
It should have been simple.
Flirt, mess with the fans a little, sit back and relax.
It should have been simple.
You remember Corpse coming to you with the idea.
âWhy would we do that?â you had asked, frowning at your phone screen. It had been another late night phone conversation with him; something that was starting to become a regular occurrence.
You pictured him shrug as he answered. âFun?â
âAre you so bored you wanna make a fake relationship with me?â
âNot a relationship. Just do what we do now, but like, more.â
You had agreed before your brain had even registered it. On paper it was straightforward. You already flirted a little anyway, you were naturally a flirtatious person, and so was he. It made sense; or at least you had told yourself that it did. You knew the fans already shipped you together, you saw the things they tweeted as you occasionally lurked the ynhusband tag on Twitter. It was just innocent fun right? No-one was going to get hurt.
For a little while that was true. For a little while he called you baby and you called him darling and it meant nothing. Your face didnât feel flush when he commented on your latest Instagram post and your heart didnât do a little flip when he would call you just to see how you were. The phone conversations were your favourite; curled up in bed with the phone on your pillow, trading secrets into the night. He had suddenly become this constant in your life, this almost routine familiarity like brushing your teeth or going to get milk.
You werenât sure what changed, when it had gone from being innocent fun to meaning something. It was like someone had flicked a switch, and Corpse was no longer a warm glow but this bright, blinding light that hurt your eyes to look at too long. It was almost cruel, the way you wanted something so unobtainable; the universeâs idea of a joke had no humour in it. The thing with Corpse was he was so unaware of the power he had. He was mysterious yes, but he was faceless among a sea of faces; of course people were drawn to him. And you were just another.
You started to pull away. You played different games with different people, you ignored his tweets. It was easier, if you never interacted with him, you could pretend there was nothing but shallow feelings instead of the crashing waves that threatened to pull you under. The fans had started to notice; your streams were filled with questions that you refused to answer.
âWhereâs Corpse?â you read aloud as you scrolled down the chat. âProbably in his house? Go ask him.â Your tone was bitter even to you and you inwardly cringed. He hadnât contacted you in 2 weeks, and while you were thankful, you were hurt by it. It was stupid and hypoctritical of you to be upset by something that was your own doing, and you werenât sure what you had expected from him. He had other friends, other people to talk to, why would he have cared about you anyway?
Your phone lit up next to you, and you ignored the pang of disappointment at Raeâs picture flashing up.
Rae: Among Us???
You hesitated for a second. The likelihood of Corpse being there was high, but you knew deep down he wouldnât say a thing to you, not on stream or in front of your friends. You could just ignore him, like you had been doing and it would be fine. You werenât sure you believed yourself anymore.
âGuys, you want to watch me play Among Us? Iâm not sure whoâs playing, other than Rae.â You looked at the fast flowing stream of affirmatives and emojis. Guess you had to do it now. You opened up the game and joined the lobby.
â-yeah she looks really fucking cute,â you heard Corpse say as you logged in. You looked down at your outfit,; he definitely wasnât talking about you in your oversized t-shirt and sweatpants. You had been on stream for a few hours now; your eyeliner was smudged a little and any lipstick had worn off with the constant drinking and licking your lips. No, he definitely wasnât talking about you.
âHey guys,â you said tentatively, swallowing down the feeling of jealousy at Corpseâs previous words.
A chorus of greetings hit you, and you smiled at their enthusiasm. You had played with Rae, Sykunno and Toast a few times before, but Felix, Jack and Ash were new to you, though you knew of them.
âHey Y/N,â Corpse said. You had hoped after 2 weeks he wouldnât still affect you so much, but the way your stomach turned said otherwise.
âHey Corpse,â you replied, hoping your tone was casual.
âI havenât seen you in a while, how are you?â he asked.
âOh. Uh yeah, Iâve been a bit busy I guess, how are you?â You looked down as you answered, picking at your nail polish. You glanced at the chat that was filled with messages.
corpsesbaby: You can always tell when someones lying coz they look downâ llamadelrey: why is this so awkward lmao arent they friends??â simpsforrae: This is like is a breakup i swear
âIâve been okay, thanksâ Corpse answered, drawing your eyes off the chat and back to the game. You nodded as you muted your mic to go back to your stream.
âI hope I donât get imposter, I always suck at that so much.â You watched as the screen counted down and the word IMPOSTER flashed up alongside Corpseâs name. âGuess I jinxed it guys.â
Great. Not only were you imposter, you were imposter with Corpse, which meant you would have to actually speak to him. Maybe you wouldnât have to.
You both followed Rae as she walked up towards Greenhouse, and you cornered her while she did her task, killing her quickly.
âEveryone seemed to go right, so we should vent back towards cafeteria to avoid suspicion,â Corpse said.
âOkay,â you answered. You vented together, and you muted your mic to laugh. âThis is kinda cosy guys.â You said to your chat. You briefly imagined what it would be like in real life to be so close to him.
You moved to Admin where Toast was doing his task. Before you could say a word, Corpse had already killed him and you both vented outside Cafeteria. âFuck, that was so close,â you muttered, chuckling a little.
âDonât worry, I got your back,â he replied, making your heart sing a little.
âOh my hero,â you said, making a point of swooning to your chat, your voice high and airy. âHow will I ever repay you?â
He chuckled, âYou shouldnât ask questions like that.â
You flushed at the suggestive tone he had taken, and you hoped it wasnât noticeable but judging by the comments in your chat, it clearly had been. This was another issue you had with Corpse; he always made these type of comments with you and it was really annoying. You knew there was no chance he was being serious, and sometimes you wished he would stop it purely because it got your hopes up.
delilah: shes BLUSHING dreamofme: uWu yn uWu
You opened your mouth to respond when Dead Body Reported flashed up, bringing your thoughts back to the game.
âToast and Rae are dead,â Sykuuno said. âI found Rae in Greenhouse and Toast in admin.â
âI was in balcony, I went there from the cafeteria,â you said confidently. You hated being Imposter, especially being teamed with Corpse, who was so good at the game, you had a lot of pressure to do well.
âI was in MedBay, I didnât see you YN,â Ash accused.
âYou only see if they enter through the left door. She entered through the other door,â Corpse answered for you.
âAnd how do you know that?â Felix asked.
âI was in Cafeteria,â Corpse replied.
âYou couldâve vented YN,â Jack said.
âNo I couldnât have, if Ash was in MedBay, she would have seen me. Unless she wasnât in MedBay,â you suggested, smirking to your cam as you muted. âItâs not going too bad I donât think? Always feel like Iâve been arrested when Iâm Imposter.â
âLittle sus of you Ash to say you were in MedBay when you werenât,â Corpse said. You gaped a little at how easy it was for him to manipulate the situation, it was almost scary.
Ash argued as the other players began to agree and discuss among themselves. You smiled in success at the text on the screen.
Ash has been ejected.
You split up this time, and while you hadnât really spoken during the game, you kind of missed Corpseâs astronaut next to yours, and you said that to your chat. âHaha, our colours did look cute together, I agree.â
Any previous trepidation you had had disappeared as soon as you had heard his voice; and you realised how much you had missed him. You would simply just need to deal with your feelings; they would go away eventually anyway. You just hoped it wasnât too late for you to start again with him.
You walked to MedBay with Skyunno, making small talk as you did.
âIâm glad to see you playing with us, itâs been a little while,â he said and you felt bad that you would have to kill him. As you turned towards him, ready to kill as he did his task, Jack walked in. You mouthed oops at the cam.
âWhatâs going on here?â Jack asked, suspicion in his voice.
âI was just saying how nice it was to have YN here,â Sykunno replied. You stood and faked your task, watching the green bar fill as you did. It would be too risky to kill here.
âAh yeah, Corpse has been asking after you constantly,â Jack said. You blinked at the response, it had caught you off guard.
âOh?â you replied simply. You mentally shrugged it off. Of course he would have asked about you, you were friends, that was all.
DEAD BODY REPORTED
âFelix was dead in Reactor,â Corpse announced. âOh Corpse, youâre taking a risk hereâ you said to your chat.
âI was in MedBay with Jack and Sykunno,â you replied, smiling as they agreed. âWhere were you Ash?â
She sighed sadly. âI was in Labs, but I was doing a task, I swear!â You all agreed quickly that Ash would be the next voted out.
â2 to go,â you said triumphantly. âI thought I was gonna drag Corpse down, but itâs going okay!â
The round started again and you could feel yourself getting tired. Hopefully this wouldnât be too much longer to finish the game.
You circled round Corpse a few times, hoping that he would understand your signal. Luckily he did, and you both vented to Decontamination where Skyunno and Jack were. The room had already started to emit steam, making it extremely easy for you both to vent unnoticed and kill them both.
You grinned at the Victory message that flashed up.
âGood game guys!â you said. The others congratulated you and Corpse on your win and you smiled at the sound of your names together. You had it bad.
âIt was all YN,â Corpse said.
âPfft you ssh being humble, it was all you,â you replied, taking your hair out of your ponytail and running your hand through it.
âYour hair looks nice,â Corpse commented and your eyes widened. Your heart started to beat a little quicker. How long had he been watching your stream?
âItâs bad to watch someoneâs stream without telling them,â you replied, making a show of pouting for the camera.
He laughed a little. âWhat can I say, Iâm a bad guy,â he said, singing the last words. You laughed at the sudden Billie Eilish.
âGuys, either play another game, or get a room,â Felix interrupted. You blushed a little and rolled your eyes, the chat going crazy from the corner of your eye.
âAnd thatâs my cue to exit,â you said, yawning. âBye guys, have a good night!â You wished everyone and your chat goodnight before closing the stream and leaning back in your chat. You couldnât believe Corpse had been watching you. You hadnât said anything too incriminating, but still.
You prepared for bed, settling back into the softness of your pillows as you grabbed your phone - a terrible habit you really needed to stop.
Corpse: Can I call you?
You gulped at the message that appeared on your screen, a gnawing feeling of nervous clung to your throat as you typed yes. His name came up almost instantaneously and your hand shook as you pressed to accept the call.
âHey,â he greeted.
âHey, whatâs up?â you asked, trying to keep your voice even while your heart beat erratically in your chest.
âIt was nice playing with you again,â he commented.
You sat up a little as you held the phone against your ear. âDid you call me to tell me that?â
âI havenât spoken to you in a while.â
You sighed a little. âYeah, Iâve been a bit busy, sorry - â
âYouâre lying to me and I donât know why,â he replied. You had never heard his voice like that before; so angry and hurt. You tapped your foot against your mattress as you thought what to say.
âI -â
âDid I do something?â he asked. You had been so selfish; blocking him out to avoid being hurt, but you hadnât thought about his feelings. He was more popular than you were, you had assumed he would be fine, that he wouldnât care if you were around or not.
âNo, you didnât do anything, I swear -â
âThen what? Because I thought we were friends, close friends and then suddenly you pretty much disappear. But youâre still streaming with other people. Itâs pretty shitty of you.â
You chewed the inside of your cheek and looked up, the sting of tears threatening to fall. âIt was really shitty of me, Iâm sorry.â
âWhat happened?â he asked. âPlease just tell me.â
âI donât know what Iâm meant to say,â you replied softly.
âWhat do you want to say?â
You blinked, the anticipation of unspoken words caught in your throat, making it hard to swallow. The taste of them was bitter on your tongue. âI...I have feelings for you.â
There. You had said it. There was no taking it back now, and you felt like your heart was about to shatter with every single second of silence that passed. You could hear him swallow on the other end of the phone. âAre you saying youâre in love with me?â
You bit your lip, taking in the meaning of the question he had asked. It wasnât something you had thought of, you hadnât conceptualised your feelings for him, not put them in a box labelled love or anything. âI donât know. I feel something for you. And it kinda sucks being your friend and having those feelings. So I pulled away.â
âWhy does it suck?â
You laughed bitterly. âWhy wouldnât it? Feeling something for someone that doesnât feel the same is fucking shitty.â
âI asked you to flirt with me YN -â
âYeah, for fun,â you interrupted.
âNo, I said for fun, but really I just wanted you to,â he replied. âI feel something for you too. How could I not? Has anything Iâve ever said to you sounded like it was just for fun?â You smiled at his response, your heart no longer on the fit of breaking, but suddenly doing flips and soaring through your chest, radiating warmth through your body.
âOh,â you said, your brain was overloaded with thoughts, and was apparently no longer capable of coherent sentences.
âOh? Thatâs a great response, thanks,â he teased, but you could tell he was smiling as he spoke.
âI wasnât expecting you to say that, I donât really know what to say honestly,â you replied.
âWell, baby, how about you say yes to a date?â he asked.
âYes.â
#my fic#corpse husband#corpse husband x reader#corpse fic#corpse fanfiction#corpse husband fic#corpse fanfic#corpse imagine#corpse x you#corpse x fem reader#corpse x yn#corpse x reader
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So itâs like 2 am rn and Iâm tired but canât sleep so I wrote this down quickly. Itâs a little Marichat fic that probably wonât be very good because Iâm running on like 5 hours of sleep. Iâll probably fix spelling mistakes tomorrow or even just delete this but for now, enjoy.
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The class decided to have a picnic to celebrate their last year at Francois DuPont high school. They were about 17 now, some were 18. Everyone lounged around, eating pastries, talking about their first day back from summer and just genuinely having a good time. Unfortunately Adrienâs father had instructed him to go home so while he packed his belongings, he listened to his friends conversations. That was when he saw a younger girl run up to Lila.
Now Adrien knew he had a lot of fans, as Chat and as himself. The older and more, how you say, well defined he became, the more fans he acquired. Though when it came to Chat, being a fangirl was much more dangerous. At one point it got so bad that Ladybug had to schedule an interview with the Ladyblog telling them to stay away during akuma attacks. They would quite literally, chase after Chat while he was being chased after by an akuma. He even saw one of them pretend to be hurt so he would swoop in and save them. Yeah very dangerous stuff. Which is why it was quite a scared to hear that Lila was a fan.
âOf course Iâm a fan of his, in fact, Iâm quite close with one of Parisâs superheroes.â She spoke, hiding the lying tone to her voice. As irritating as she was, he had to admit she was good. âReally?â The girl squealed. She was on the younger side, maybe 13 or 14, about his age when he first got his Miraculous. âOh leaving so soon Adrien?â She said in a sickeningly sweet voice. âYeah, my father again.â He replied, trying to sound friendly. âI can walk you home if you like! I wanted to speak with Mr. Agreste anyways. About our up coming photo shoot.â Damn it, heâd almost forgotten about that. He hated shoots with Lila. Adrien had always liked physical affection, but with her it was almost unbearable. âNo thatâs ok, I can walk him.â Marinette offered, stepping in to shield him from the object of his discomfort. And what a beautiful shield she was.
Her days of pigtails were over, instead she would wear her hair in different styles everyday. Today was a half up half down style with space buns, very reminiscent of her fight as Multimouse. She has also settled for a mint green t-shirt and a black skirt which clearly paid homage to his superhero self. It was nearly impossible to wipe the Cheshire grin off his face as she strode over, picnic basket in hand. He was visiting her while she finished the little paw prints along the hem of the skirt, but of course she wouldnât know that. âWow miss, I really like your outfit! Whereâd you get it?â The girl squeaked rushing over. Her eyes shining with pure joy. âOh why thank you, I actually made it myself.â She curtsied, very adorably in his opinion. âWow thatâs so cool! Could you make me one?â If she got anymore excited she would float into space. âYou know, I can get Chat to stop by if you wanted.â Lila chimed in, drawing the girls attention back to her. âReally?â She turned and ran towards her new favourite person. âOf course I can, my boyfriend always seems to find me.â She faked a gasp and quickly covered her mouth with her hand. âWhoops.â She exhaled. The class gasped. That was what she was looking for.
âYouâre dating Chat Noir Lila?â Marinette snickered, silencing them. It was clear that Lila had more influence over the class now. As much as they all loved Marinette, Lila had successfully made herself more interesting. âYes I am, but I wasnât supposed to say that. Oh no, Iâm going to get into so much trouble.â She delicately placed her fists over her chest for added effect. Marinette burst out laughing and thatâs when Adrien slowly started to back away unnoticed by his friends.
He ran and ducked into an alley way making sure he wasnât followed. âOh come on kid, I didnât even get anything from the picnic. You should have at least slipped me something.â Plagg groaned. âI will after I go sort this mess out, itâs dangerous if people think Lila is dating me, she could be targeted by Hawkmoth.â He rationalized. âBig deal, if she gets akumatized we can just purify her no problem.â âUh yeah Plagg it is a big deal. What if Hawkmoth kidnaps her instead, as much as I donât like her I donât want anyone to get hurt because of me.â âWell kid if she gets kidnapped because she lied about dating you itâs not your fault is it? Now can I at least finished eating?â He sighed, Plagg was right. If she got kidnapped now she only had herself to blame. An idea did pop into his head. Maybe if she was proven wrong, she might stop saying things like that, and he knew the purrfect purrincess to help him achieve his goal. âLater, Plagg Claws Out!â A flash of green later and thereâs stood Chat Noir, in all his leather-clad glory. Hopping onto the roof, he made to move towards them when the sound of shouting caught his attention.
âDo you realized how dangerous it is to even say things like that!â Marinette squeaked, really living up to her super identity and the mysterious multimouse. âYou canât just tell people youâre dating superheroes for attention Lila, youâre safety could be at risk.â She pointed, Lila seemed to be unphased but there was something about her posture that showed she was guilty and ticked off. âI already told you I didnât mean to let it slip, I have a rare condition c-â âcalled Liars Luny or something like that right?â Marinette interrupted. He had to hold back a laugh at her clever remark. âMarinette that was incredibly rude.â Rose intervened, and one by one everyone turned their faces to Marinette, a glared placed on almost all of them. All but Nino and Alya, who had long discovered Lilaâs manipulative ways. Though they were still afraid to say anything about it, they didnât want her to get akumatized after all.
âLook Marinette, if youâre jealous just say so, I wonât be mad. Iâm sure a lot of other women would love to get their hands on my sweet kitten. I mean, considering your outfit itâs pretty obvious you have a crush on him.â You know, for a compulsive liar, Lila seemed to be good at getting the truth out of others. Marinetteâs face turned pink and her fists began to clench. Her back stiffened up too, was she really jealous? Or was it just his imagination. Maybe he hoped she was, he had fancied her for a while now but he never made a move. Suddenly his classmates were surrounding her and she looked like she was on the verge of tears.
His anger from earlier started to rise to his chest as he let out a low growl and leapt off the roof. Thankfully, his years as a model made him a fairly decent actor as well.
âFancy seeing you here my purrincess.â He purred walking over to the group. âYou look radiant as always.â Lila stiffened but quickly tried to look relaxed as she confidently strode towards him. âItâs nice to see you here too kitten, couldnât stay away from me I see.â She smiled, it almost looked genuine. It didnât take long for her possi of classmates to follow behind, leaving Marinette standing there clearly distraught, he growled again as a tear slid down her cheek. Keeping it cool, he cooked up a response. âUmm, Iâm sorry but do I know you?â He said in mock confusion. The class gasped slightly, âOf course you know me, didnât you just call me your princess?â Lila chimed, placing a hand on his shoulder. âNo. I have no idea who you are, I was talking to the lovely lady in green and black. She is radiant isnât she, and she looks fantastic in my colours.â He replied cooly. Before anyone had time to react he ran through the crowd and picked up Marinette, twirling her in a circle. She giggled slightly, her throat a little strained. She placed her forearms on his shoulders, intertwining her fingers behind his head as he slowly lowered her to the ground. âWhatâs wrong love?â He reached up, gently brushing a tear from her cheek. She got the hint to play along. âNothing Iâm all good kitty.â She smiled genuinely and he smiled back. Ignoring the eyes of everyone around them. He held up his arm and gestures to her skirt. âDo you see all of these little paw prints? She sewed them all herself! It took her 4 hours too, I almost couldnât draw her attention away from the stitching.â She blushed and buried her face in his shoulder, oh mon dieu she was so cute. âAnd these shoes,â he scooped her up bridal style and she laughed. âSee the little toe beans, how adorable.â The girls squealed and ran over to admire her craftsman ship while the boys kept glaring daggers at Ms. Lie-la. âOk now stand back everyone! We have to show you how it spins.â Marinette cocked and eyebrow at him. âHow it spins? Excuse me sir but my pronouns are she/her.â He chuckled before pinching the black fabric of her skirt. âNo I mean this, you did wear shorts today did you not?â âI did.â She confirmed. âGood,â he subtly winked at her before continuing, a little louder than necessary, âWouldnât want everyone else seeing whatâs mine now would we.â Before she could register his words he held a hand above her head and gave her a little twirl, her skirt flowing beautifully in the wind. âSee whatâd I tell you? Absolutely beautiful.â He turned and smiled down at her, she blushed back up at him. Dieu, he could happily die drowning in her eyes. The two of them seemed to be in a world of their own, just looking at each other.
Until a voice snapped them back to reality. âI canât believe you! You filthy cheater!â As well as a liar, Lila was a good actor. Tears streaming down her cheeks, arms straighten and hands curled into fists. He rolled his eyes before forcing them to look at a more revolting sight. âLike I said miss, I have no idea who-â he paused âOh wait I remember you! You were the liar that nearly got Marinette expelled werenât you! The one who tried to intervene when Onii-chan was akumatized just because you disliked Ladybug.â He didnât mean to get so angry but he couldnât hide it anymore. His hand gripped Marinetteâs shoulder a little more tightly than he would have liked but she wasnât hurt by it. Everyone gasped on cue and turned to Lila who stood there pale. Karma is a bitch isnât it? In his fury he barely registered Marinetteâs hand on his arms. âCome on Chat, letâs get out of here.â She whispered. Coaxing him back to the present. âYeah ok, Iâm sure your friends will deal with her.â She smiled at her classmates who had turned towards Lila with furious looks on their faces. âDid you have a place in mind mousinette.â She giggled at that. âWell thereâs always that spot you took me to the first time you came to visit, remember where it is?â She smiled. âI donât think I would forget that.â He turned towards the crowd. âWelp, me and the princess will be taking our leave now, though I did enjoy seeing you all again.â Then he stooped down to pick her up bridal style as she giggled. For good measure he placed a light kiss to her temple before racing off towards that lovely spot they had just discussed.
âWHAT THE F***.â The fangirl screamed after all the confusion.
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So itâs been a month or two since I first posted this and I decided to clean it up a bit and add a few more details to it. Not that this is suddenly going to blow up but I do like the impurrovement (hehe I have puns for days). So yes, if by some miracle you are reading this, I hope you enjoyed!
#marichat#multichat#miraculous lady tales of ladybug and cat noir#miraculous adrien#miraculous marinette#miraculous ladybug
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Aforementioned long ask post please excuse me while i try to figure out tumblr's new text editor. Iâll get into the art meme questions first and then the rest at the end.
Ok first of all thank you all for sending in questions! Giving me an excuse to talk hehe. Iâll address these in number order. Hereâs a link to the ask meme for reference but also Iâll restate the question for ease of reading.
1. When did you get into art?
Super cliche answer but I donât remember a time where I WASNâT the weird art kid! I started keeping a dedicated sketchbook when I was about 12? But hereâs a page from my kindergarten journal about what I want to be when I grow up.
2. What art-related sites have you ever signed up for?Â
LOL this is a weird question. Not sure why so many people want to know. Anyways I definitely had a dA. more than one dA account. I used to browse oekakis when I was a kid but I think I was only signed up to some small ones that internet friends owned. What else...? Mangabullet,Tegakie, Paintberri, iscribble back when that was a thing, instagram if that COUNTs, I used to post art on livejournal and dreamwidth too. Patreon, I guess. Gumroad, inprnt, bigcartel, storenvy all for selling stuff.
In terms of resources.. I have a schoolism account that Iâm sharing with friends. Used to take classes on coursera for free. I signed up to textures.com for work recently haha. I canât remember if I ever had an account on posemaniacs. Did they have accounts...? I definitely used to visit all the time.
3. Show us your oldest piece of art you have on hand.
Alright hereâs me actually logging into my old deviantart account. These are from September 2008 So I was 13 years old. I donât have a deviantart account from before then because 13 was the required age for having an account and I didnât want to lie about my age because I wanted people to be impressed by how young yet clearly incredible at art I was LOL.
4. What defines your artistic style?
You guys are probably more equipped to answer this than me but uh... I wanna say... Focus on colors. And... a slightly heavy hand? Like confident... not always well-considered mark making HAH...
Also I think I have a pretty healthy mix of american comics/manga influences. I feel like people who are into american comics always think my art is too manga and people who are into anime/manga always think my art is too american. And Iâm taking that as a good sign.
5. Do you practice other styles/have you tried other styles in the past?
I like to think I switch it up a bunch! I mean, these are pretty different, right?
I think Iâve mentioned this before but one thing I really took away from art school is that, for an illustrator at least, art style shouldnât be consistent. Your greatest weapon is changing the aspects of your style based on the task, the emotions and message you want to illustrate etc. So depending on the project Iâm working on, the fandom Iâm drawing for, whether I want something to be funny or serious or dramatic, Iâll change things about my style all the time.
One thing I donât rly post on here is really tight polished work and thatâs because I do that for my day job haha. If youâre not paying me... Iâm probably not gonna color in the lines.
6. What levels of artistic education have you had?
I have a whole ass diploma LOL. Bachelor of Fine Arts in Illustration. from the Rhode Island School of Design. And I had a great college experience tbh. Besides the student loans. If any of you guys are thinking about art school feel free to e-mail or message me questions or concerns, Iâll be happy to help. Be as honest as I can be.
7. Show us at least one picture you drew or sketched recently that you did not put on a public site.
heres the wandavision kids. Uhh what else do I have...I feel like Iâm rummaging for loose change here...
assorted valentines prep doodles
8. What is your favourite piece that you have done?
Well, obviously this is gonna change all the time and generally itâs gonna be my most recent piece LOL. So yeah, why the hell not. Iâll say itâs this one. I have a pretty short memory which I count as a blessing for an artist. I donât dwell that long on older work and it keeps me moving forward.
10. What do you like most about your art?
I like that itâs something that only I would make! I had this thought fairly recently and I wrote it down in my sketchbook, itâs pretty cheesy and rambling but it felt revolutionary at the time:
So yeah. I like my art best when itâs the most me and for me. And I like it least when it feels like Iâm just making something for social media or for other peopleâs expectations or whatever.
14. What do you like drawing the most?
Kids in baggy clothing are like my go-to LOL idk if thatâs obvious. but also I like being challenged so lately Iâve really loved drawing multi-character compositions, environments, weird angles, etc.
oh i LOVE drawing the underside of shoes lol. And bandages. People that are kinda beat up.. I think it comes from getting a bunch of cuts all the time. Iâm always patching myself up and I want to patch characters up too.
15. What do you like drawing the least?
mmm I try to find something to like in every drawing but lets see... I donât like doing commissions of peopleâs dogs. Just because itâs normally like... a family friend and my mom volunteered me without my consent and I donât even really know what theyâre expecting me to draw and I donât even get to meet the dog. Also Iâm not that great at dog anatomy. Trying to learn though.
18. What is your purpose for drawing?
This could have a million answers! Uhhh to GIT GOOD??? But also to express myself... and also to make money... I mean it depends on what the drawing IS. I draw fanart mostly to connect to people in the fandom so if you ever see me drawing fanart please take it as like an open invitation to talk to me about the character haha.Â
20. How would you rank your art? (poor, mediocre, good, etc.)
Good!!! I have a lot of self-confidence primarily born out of ignorance and a short attention span. If I donât think too hard about how many other artists are mindblowingly unfathombly good... its easy to think Iâm good too! LOL
In all seriousness though, I think the opinion a person has of their art is like a crazy balancing act, right? Like you have to think you suck enough to want to get better but also you have to think youâre good enough to not want to give up. I think weâre all walking that line, I know I am! But also Iâm a glass half-full type of person so. Most of the time I feel good about it.
22. List at least one of your âartspirations.â
This is a good question because Iâve been trying and failing to put together one of those âinfluence mapâ memes for like a full month now. Whatâs giving me a hard time is I feel like none of these are actually really obvious âââinfluencesâââ in my art? Like itâs hard to see a lot of them in the work I make...? But idk maybe you guysâll see what I canât.
And these are just a couple! God thereâs so many more. I could talk about other artists for ages, from all different genres of art. Daumier, Rockwell like every illustrator out there, Dana Gibson, Alex Toth, Hiroshi Yoshida, a lot of the Brandywine School. Lots of current working artists too, Karl Kerschl, frikkin Masashi Kishimoto lol, Jake Wyatt, Richie Pope, Edouard Caplain, Matt Cook, Sachin Teng, - lots of big internet artists, Sophie Li, Freddy Carrasco, Milliofish, Angela Sung... like all my friends from art school too. I could just keep going but Iâll stop for now lol.
24. Do you have a shameful art past? (recolour sprite comics, tracing art, etc.)
I mean if thatâs how weâre defining shameful?? sure LOL. Itâs not sprite comics but I used to do pokemon sprite recolors all the time. And I used to trace manga panels and color them... Granted this was all when I was like under 12 yrs old so itâs not even embarrassing. Can you really call it shameful when a 7 year old wets the bed or whatever? Not really. In fact some of these are cool as fuck. Look
25. Draw a picture!
Man Iâm so tired now but here.
I used to get a lot of compliments for drawing people smiling lol but I donât think Iâve drawn a lot of smiling lately.. hereâs proof Iâve still got it.
OK MEME DONE. onto the rest.
I read this ask first thing when i opened my computer in the morning and it made me really emotional.. Iâm so glad my sketches could help you!!
I think a lot of artists on social media talk about the struggle of making art but imo not enough people talk about the joy! Like I know itâs corny but. I really meant what I said at the beginning of that sketchbook about re-contextualizing art around process and progress > product and perfection. I think its super important..! The strength of messy, unfinished, and energetic art! For the feeling of it, for the love it!
That's crazy!!! I hope you like 'em. The whole line of x-books is really good rn imo.
Hi! I totally have the answer for digital stuff on my faq lol. But in terms of drawing on paper.. it varies! I tend to use sketchbooking and any on-paper doodling I do as a way to loosen up/warm-up or experiment. But right now my go-to aresenal is:
from top > bottom
- kuretake no.55 doublesided brush pen
- tombow fudenosuke
- muji 0.38 ballpoint
- medium size poscas
- grey tombow double brush pens
- good ol bic mechanical pencil
not EXACTly sure which inking you referring to from my sketchbook but if I had to take a guess it'd probably be the kuretake no55. That's been my main inker, lately. Great for sketching with the thin end too.
You can print out and eat my art if you like. Just please don't mass produce or re-sell. <3
Thanks! I've come to accept that my art is always gonna be sort of gestural and painty naturally. It's getting it to tighten up enough to be legible that's hard lol...
uh yeah lol I agree actually. I think yolei is great.
I assume these asks are related? LOL
1) Yeah totally true. I love David.
2) I donât take requests, sorry! But if you want to commission me to draw Legion i would be MORE than happy to. Just e-mail me at [email protected].
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This took foreverâŠâš (Click for Quality!)âš SO! I finally got a proper fully colored drawing of my Obey Me MC! Character info + her relationship with the bros under the cut so I donât clog up the tags!
Character info first!
Himiko is the third oldest in a family of seven sisters and is arguably the most responsible of the bunch. You could say sheâs the Lucifer of her family, but if youâd like to continue living Iâd recommend against saying that. âš
She puts on the facade of a proper and polite lady but deep down sheâs hiding a metric tonne of snark and sass, and even deeper sheâs hiding a caring older sister type who would take a bullet for you.
You may be asking yourself, why is she wearing a devil horn headband? The answer? Spite. She was wearing it pre Devildom too so it has nothing to do with the boys! âš
Her family is *incredibly* wealthy, so while she did learn a lot of things, itâs kind of turned Himiko into a bit of a dumbass when it comes to normal everyday household things. Ask her how to understand the political history of Japan and sheâll give you a five hour lecture on the topic, but ask her to cook dinner and youâll need to call the fire department. âš
Her birthday is December 25 and sheâs 20 years old at the start of the game.
Himiko has⊠problems with emotional intimacy. Sheâs never really had the opportunity to really bond with anyone outside her sisters, so the idea that she could ever care deeply for someone that ISNâT family is absolutely terrifying to her. (Welp, bad news for her because sheâs about to be forcibly adopted into a family of crazies) âš
When she first got dropped into the Devildom⊠Hoo boy⊠her entire life she had been put on a pedestal and no one other than her sisters had dared to say ANYTHING critical of her in her presence and now sheâs figuratively AND literally at the bottom of the food chain⊠letâs just say reality hit her hard in the face.
Relationships!
Himiko thought Lucifer was the one sane person in the entire House of Lamentation. That opinion did NOT last long. After the first attempted murder and the shit he said at the retreat, Himiko and Luciferâs opinions of each other were in the gutter. Then the London trip happened! Their opinions of each other rose! Then the first timelineâs Belphie incident happened and oh wow would you look at that, back into the gutter. Damn. FINALLY, after all the time travel shit, they both think of each other as a pain in the neck, but if anything happened to the other thereâd be blood spilled. Itâs tough when Himikoâs biggest flaw is her own pride and sheâs actively needling the Avatar of Pride.
Mammon was Himikoâs worst nightmare made reality. This person, widely regarded as a scumbag moron was supposed to protect her??? Uh uh. No. Mammon thought that Himiko was the human embodiment of annoying. At least till the Goldie hostage situation, Himiko mainly went along with it because she wanted revenge for all the eating-related threats and name-calling. Now, Himiâs way to prideful to ever admit this buuuuuut, she was incredibly lonely during her first week. She needed a friend and she needed one FAST. Before the two needed to binge TSL, Himiko took Mammon shopping under the guise of needing him to carry her shopping bags, and ended up buying him a sick new jacket and sunglasses. You can buy affection right? Apparently. Or was it the compliments she gave him while she was making him try on the jacket? Weâll never know for sure. Listen, just because the two of them want to spend a lot of time together DOES NOT MEAN THAT THEY HAVE A CRUSH ON EACH OTHER ALRIGHT?! HAND HOLDING SHOULDNâT MAKE HIMIKO THIS NERVOUS UGH-
W E E B P O W E R U N I T E! Well, not at first. Himikoâs a closet weeb! She probably teased the crap out of Levi about how much he obsessed over his âtotally stupidâ anime. It was all fun and games until Levi walked in on Himiko watching Sailor Moon. âYOU LIKE ANIME?!â âN-NO!â âYOUâRE AN OTAKU TOO!â âW-WAIT! NO IâM NOT!â âWHATâS YOUR FAVOURITE ANIME????â ââŠMadoka Magica.â Now the two are anime and gaming buddies! At first Levi was miffed about Himikoâs rampant hypocrisy buuuuut they both moved past it for the greater anime good.
Satan and Himikoâs joined energy is too much for Lucifer to handle. The two are constantly pestering him to let them get a cat, and they somehow found the time to collaborate on a 50 slide PowerPoint presentation on why Lucifer would suck 55% more if he didnât let them get a cat. At first, Himiko was low-key intimidated by Satan, and he generally seemed pretty disinterested in most of the shenanigans she got up to until they made a pact. Now theyâre pretty good buddies and think quite highly of each other.
Himiko: The circumstances of oneâs birth is irrelevant, itâs what you do with your life that matters.
Satan: Thanks Himiko. Thatâs nice of you to say.
Levi (whispering to Himiko): Are you quoting Mewtwo???
Himiko (whispering): Shut up! Itâs making him feel better isnât it??
If this were a musical, Asmo definitely would sing a rendition of Popular with Himiko. Before the pact was made, Himiko *really* wanted to be Asmoâs friend but would never admit it, his sass was impeccable! Asmo thought Himiko was cute yeah, but nothing special. After the pact, total besties. It takes a true friend or a certified insane person to tell the Avatar of Lust that the shade of blue heâs going to go clubbing in isnât doing him any favours and he should change into different shoes. The Himi/Asmo duo is to be feared by all who come across them.
For the love of all things good in the world DO NOT LET BEEL AND HIMIKO NEAR YOUR FRIDGE! At the start, Himiko found Beelâs near constant eating annoying as HELL. Like, heâs the avatar of gluttony but all that *gross* junk food must be wreaking havoc on- Holy shit junk food is amazing. After the hiding Luke incident where Himikoâs big sister instincts âą kicked in and she got between Beel and Lucifer, Himiko had to come to terms with the fact that she may *actually* care about some of the people she had met. After all the other shenanigans, Beel is basically her thousands of years older little brother.
 Belphie⊠hoo boy⊠strike one: He took advantage of Himikoâs rarely seen sweet side. Strike 2: he fuckin killed her dude! Belphie is yet to hit strike 3. I like to think thereâd be a mini lesson between 16 and 17 where the two hash out their issues. After that, their relationship is probably the closest to an actual sibling relationship. They annoy and tease the everloving shit out of each other but if anyone messes with one of them the unfortunate soul will have to deal with the other AND Beel.
I might do the undatables if anyone actually cares and Iâm not just talking to a brick wall lol. Thanks for making it this far and reading all my OC brainrot!
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F#$%ing uh Calm After the Storm cuz the Storm Thing
guys this is 10k words already ripppp
chapter 1, chapter 2
Chapter 3
The emergency lantern was still on, dimly illuminating the room. That's when you spotted the alcohol from last night or perhaps lack thereof. The bottle was completely empty. Luckily it was not that large or both of you would have died from alcohol poisoning. (Drink responsibly!) The terrible hangover symptoms make a lot more sense now, normally you barely suffer from a night out.
You snuggle into the bed as much as your constraints would allow, the warmth and comfort easing your headache. As you move, you feel something crumble on your neck. You use your burnt arm to lightly touch what it was, only to find it to be dried snot. Ew. You were going to need a shower later. 2D lightly snores his head by your shoulder like how it was last night, not that you remembered. A trail of dried snot fell from his nose, and the thought that he sobbed on you tore you up. At least he looked at peace while he slept. With the soft light from the lamp, his eyebags were barely visible. His worry lines disappeared completely. His big, lost eyes were closed. He looked innocent and untroubled, how you imagined him to be were it not for Murdoc. You appreciated the rest of his face too. His button nose twitched while he slept. The clean line of his jaw. His thick eyebrows, surprisingly, do not make him look angry but adorable. It was about time that you admitted, to yourself at least, that you found all of him adorable, not just his eyebrows. His smile, his clumsy movements, his accent, his habit of being so attentive, it was all adorable. You liked adorable. You liked drawing adorable, you liked watching movies with adorable, you liked holding hands with adorable, you liked getting drunk with adorable. Hell, you even liked having hangovers with adorable, so long as you got to wake up captured in adorable's embrace.
Adorable, adorable, adorable.
His whimpers and flinching snapped you out of your trance. He frowned, "No...no..." he whispered, sounding in pain. "Lemme out! I'm in 'ere!" He started to shout and thrash around, messing up the covers, and even hitting you a couple times (only slightly less adorable than normal). None of which helped your hangover.
"2D, wake up. You're having a nightmare." You gently pushed him. That did nothing to change his behaviour. "D!" you said more forcefully. He calms down and then opens his eyes.
He sits up and rubs his eyes. "What's, What's goin on?"
"You were having a nightmare. How are you doing?" It was awkward. You didn't know if he was aware of how you two were sleeping before his nightmare. Would touching him be inappropriate right now? You refrained from doing so.
"From one nightmare to anofer, this 'angover will be the deaf of me." he grumbled.
"At least only one is real." You stand and go over to where he took out the ibuprofen yesterday. You open the drawer and find it filled to the bring with drugs. Thankfully, most of the bottles were empty, but 2D had enough pills here to turn quite a profit. Most had unpronounceable names and were completely foreign to you. Why does he have so many painkillers?
"Bof were real for me. I was relivin me coma." He said nonchalantly. He saw you shuffling through his pills. "Jus bring the lot of 'em ofer, I take make me mornin mix."
You grabbed as many as you could and brought them over. You wanted to ask about his experience, but if it bad enough to give him nightmares, then perhaps it's best left alone. "I guess it was a good thing I woke you up then?"
"It's always good to wake up to yew." He dumped around six pills into his hand and dry swallowed them like a professional. You were concerned about his drug habits and confused by his forwardness.
"Yeah, thanks for letting me crash here."
2D's grin slightly fell as he looked at you. He reached out and touched your neck with his finger, brushing away some of the dried goop on there. "Sorry for cryin on yew last night."
You lightly chuckled and you could still feel his ghosting over your skin. "I thought that might have been you."
"Yew don remember what 'appened?" He pulled his hand away.
"Should I?" Did something important happen last night? You worried that you were forgetting a pivotal moment.
"No, it's fine. I'll take yew to the showers to wash up." He got up and stretched, the shirt rising to expose his stomach, causing you to flush and turn away. You hoped you would remember if you made any advancements in that department. He leaves his outfit from last night on the floor, adding to the piles of clothes already there, as he walks to his closet. "Do yew need somefin to wear after your shower?"
You flush even deeper. You had forgotten about that. "Yes, please. Sorry."
"Don apologize! I 'ave enough for the bof of us." He pulled out a white tee and some loose black shorts. "These are the cleanest clothes I 'ave. I'll throw yours in the wash."
You grab them from him. "Thanks, D."
He leads you to the showers. "I'll be waitin in the kitchen for yew. See if I can grab us some breakfast."
You thank him and step inside. You set the clothes down and lock the door, stripping down now that Murdoc won't accidentally enter. 2D insisted that Murdoc doesn't even shower in the first place, but you still felt apprehensive. You nearly screamed when you turned on the water and it was ice cold. You fiddle with the knobs a bit. Burning hot, freezing cold. You start to understand Murdoc's position better. You finally managed to get it slightly not cold and reached for the soaps, finding 2D's cedarwood and vanilla scent.
It was so intimate. You felt like you were violating his privacy like you were borrowing a piece of his identity, his scent, at least until it wears off. You were secretly thrilled by it, smelling like him. Would he care? Would he notice? Would others notice? And, as Russel had before, suggest something that you desperately wanted? The smell washed over you like it did the first night you were with him. Only two days ago, you wanted nothing more than the interview to be over, to be finished. But now, you had made a great friend, and, you selfishly hope, something more.
After you finished rubbing your neck raw, you step out and put on the clothes 2D gave you. You took off the bandage he wrapped, and the edges of the burn had started to scar. He forgot a towel, so you were soaking wet. You left a trail of droplets as you navigated the halls you have memorized by now.
You were shivering by the time you reached the kitchen, your soaked through clothes doing little to help with the heat. 2D saw you enter and turned slightly red at the sight of you in his clothes. He wouldn't tell you, but it was the first time since Paula that someone else was wearing his clothes. He then noticed that you were shivering. "Yew cold again? Russ managed to get the stove on wifout anyone burnin so I'll bring you a cuppa."
"When you and 2D disappeared halfway through yesterday, Noodle got worried and thought y'all were kidnapped. She'll be glad to see that I was right about what really happened to you." Russel said, sitting on the couch, smirking again.
You blush furiously, getting his implication, and join him on the couch. "Russel! We didn't do anything!" You say in hushed tones, hoping 2D in the other room doesn't pick up on anything.
"Who said I said about you to doing anything?" He raised his eyebrow and grinned. Checkmate. You groaned and shield your blushing face from Russel, causing him to chuckle. "You know, I haven't seen 2D this open since-" He stopped himself.
"Paula?"
He nodded. "I'm surprised he told you about that. Look, you two are very close, hell you're wearing one of his favourite shirts and you smell like him. You seem to bring out a new version of 2D, he isn't even that worried about Murdoc anymore. I like this 2D. But, I gotta warn ya, other people may not. A broken person is easier to control than a happy one." Russel looked at you knowingly. "That being said, if you make him broken again. I will break you. Understood?"
You nod vigorously. "Crystal clear!"
"What are yew talkin about?" 2D comes over with a tray of food and two steaming mugs.
"Weather!" You blurt out as Russel says "Politics!"
2D looked confused as he set the food down. "Right. I brought us some oatmeal and I 'ope yew like peppermint tea."
"What? Come on, why does she get some, but when I want to use just one teabag, you smack it outta my hands!" Russel complained, throwing his hands into the air.
"It was the last one in the box!"
"You and I both know that you keep three boxes in Kong" he grumbled.
"Some pretty special tea then?" You ask.
"I drink it whenefer I need a pick-me-up!"
"Explains why you drink it so much," Russel said.
"To fink I was gonna give yew a cup too!" 2D feigns hurt as Russel vehemently apologizes. 2D eventually concedes and leaves to make a cup.
"See," Russel turns back to you, "two weeks ago he slapped me. Now, I get the tea. Not much has changed here other than you."
You blush. "I really didn't think I was doing anything."
"You help remind him of the outside world. That is doesn't always have to be how it is in Kong. This place can really suck the life out of you. You should stay in contact, even after you leave."
"Are you doing okay, Russel?"
He avoided your gaze. "Not really. But it helps to have a new face here. Somethin to shake things up a little."
You saw 2D approaching again. "Well, then I hope his tea is as good as he promises."
"What are yew talkin about dis time?" 2D said again, as if on repeat.
"Politics." you say as Russel goes "Weather." You look at each other and start laughing.
"We really need to get that down." You insist. 2D sets down Russel's matching mug and sits by you. "Always loved tea. It reminds me of Austen's writing."
"Friendship is certainly the finest balm for the pangs of disappointed love." 2D recites in a posh accent. You all chuckle at his poor imitation of it.
"I didn't know you could read!" Russel jests.
The conversation then shifts towards literature and you learned how well-read your companions are. It goes unspoken that 2D remembered the quote because of Paula's disappointed love.
The impromptu book club breaks up when Noodle and then Murdoc enter the kitchen. Noodle grabs a box of cereal and starts eating from it. "Ohayo!"
"Good morning!" You call back. Russel and 2D both look surprised. "You're telling me that you've been living with someone who exclusively speaks Japanese and you haven't tried to learn any?"
They both grumble. "We... make do." Russel finally manages.
"Hello, pet." Murdoc gently whispers, suddenly appearing by your ear, causing you to yelp. His presence scared off 2D who went to the kitchen to refill the tea. He breathes in. "You smell like the Face Ache." He growled. "I know what you're trying to do. You can't take my singer away from me."
He then stepped away from you and walked to the windows, saying loudly: "Would you look at that, the storm's slowing down."
You got his hint. "Right. Then I best pack my things."
2D looked crestfallen. "What? Yew's leavin already?"
"Yeah, sorry D, but I think I may have overstayed my welcome."
"I'll 'elp yew pack up then." He sighed and led you to where your clothes were.
It was a rather anticlimactic packing up. You kept trying to drop hints ("Your bed was so comfy, I'd love to sleep over again." "Your hair was so soft last night, I'm sure I dreamt it up") which he kept avoiding ("Yeah, it's a nice bed, innit." "Nah, it's normally pretty soft."), so you decided to stop altogether.
When you reached the front door, the rest of the band was waiting. Noodle acted first, giving you a hug "Sayonara!" You wished her farewell in return.
Russel was next and gave you a bear hug. "Don't forget our agreement." He whispered into your ear. "Wouldn't dream of it." You whisper back.
You hold out your hand for Murdoc to shake, but he just scoffs, so you move on to 2D.
"I'm going to miss you."
"I'll miss yew more, love!" He gave you a tight squeeze. You two were slow to pull away, but when you did, you caught sight of tears in his eyes that matched your own. He hands you something. "'ere's me number so yew can call."
"This won't be the last you hear from me, D." And with that, you got back into your rusty company car and left Kong Studios, but couldn't leave behind the thought of a blue-haired singer.
#gorillaz#2d gorillaz#2d stuart pot#stuart pot#stuart 2d pot#gorillaz fanfiction#gorillaz fandom#stuart pot x reader#2d x reader#stuart 2d pot x reader#i love russel so much#russel hobbs#murdoc sucks#murdoc is his own warning
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Sk8ti theories!!
Spoilers for all the current episode of sk8 (up to episode 6)
- also sorry if this all over the place lmao
so i have many theories but i wanna talk about the one that im most leaning towards! so personally what i think is going to happen is that reki and langa are going to fall in love, they both fall in love with each other and i think there is going to be hinted canon romance??? i dunno they will DEFINITELY have a deeper bond than they currently are at. we can see that each episode they are getting closer and closer, langa is smiling more and they are starting to become more "touchy-feely" with each other (*coughs* the latest blessing of an episode we had, ep6, the beach episode <3). we can also see that they love each in the translation of the end credits the lines. "i like what ive always liked", "lets keep feelings", "lets keep your heart" , "let's go together" ,"you are always in my heart" - (fuckin sobs kakjdsh). i see the end credits as a convo between langa and reki so these are things that *both* of them are saying. so, yes, i think it will be requited love....at first. (fuck here comes the angst)
time to talk about fucking ad*m,,,,so what i think is that adam is going to draw langa away from reki and sort of influence him into the world of reckless skating. langa is so drawn to adam that he starts to skate more dangerously and adapt the same ways of skating that adam does. becuase of his, he starts to drift away from reki. reki usually skates by the rules and doesnt cheat, or at least he doesnt go as far as adam does. reki is always ready to try new things but he defientley isnt as reckless as langa will end up being. reki will start to feel as though he is falling more and more behind langa until langai so caught up in reckless skating that he is just gone. reki realizes its too late and that langa is too far ahead he cant keep up (just like in the intro when reki falls and when langa doesnt turn around to look back at him and how langa dissapears).Â
so, besides reki falling behind langa, how will this *directly* affect reki? well i defientley think that reki has some trauma surrounding adam considering how he fucking screamed langas name and had a nightmare about adam,,,like,,,,idk :( but continuing on, i think that langa is going to make a very dangerous bet, like a life threatning bet that impacts reki. and i think that langa *finally* realizes his mistakes when its too late. so, this is where my theory starts to go 2 ways.Â
1) reki will,,,*takes a deep breath* dies. what if langa makes such a dangerous bet and adams influence is too much that he accidnetly kills reki? BUT tbh this is one of my theories that i dont actually lean a lot towards. the next one is what i actually think is more likely to happen based on the ending credits,
2) reki *will* get hurt, but emotionally not physically (or maybe physically but i dont think so). he will see that langa is never coming back to him (or at least he thinks that) and decides to just leave him. its at this time that langa realizes "fuck ive gone too far" but its too late too chase after reki because reki already tried chasing after him and langa just ignored him. reki and langa will then drift apart although as they spend time apart they realize how much they need and miss each. what gives me this impression is when the end credits say:
"we are grown up now, can be honest i will remember tightly tied shoe laces, lets make it , my favourite colour, its infinte, i like what ive always liked" this whole phrase reminds me of how anga talks about how he still thinks of the times when he and reki would skate *for fun* together, and not for the thrill/adrenaline rush.
"i like what ive always liked' implied hes always liked reki and despite drifting apart, he still does love him. his love for reki is infinite.(and rekis love for him is infinite)
"lets talk silly stories be with you forever i want to smile by your side" implied that langa (who i assume this verse is in the pov of) still wants to be with reki and regrets the choices hes made. "lets go together, go with you" he still wants to go with reki, he still wants to skate with him.
"even if tomorrow this world ends, i dont need anything special at the same pace as usual lets just be who we are. yes, "now" is so beautiful" so lets disect the first part of that, i think that by this langa or reki (i dont quite know who, i think langa tho) is thinking that all he wants is just go back to all the days (at the same pace as usual) and just go at the nice easy-going  pace they were at.
a very big indictor of langa realizing he sitll loves reki is the line "lets go togehter, go with you *not only in happy times*" i think that langa is saying that despite reki being upset and feeling behind, langa does in fact wish he had been by his side and he wants to be there for reki.
"at any time, be by your side", "lets go together", "as long as we have that feeling", "i am here by your side", "you are always in my heart" literally is so gay like guys cmon, langa deifnetley still loves him
so what happens next? langa now realizes he *does* love reki and that adam is a big piece of shit but reki is gone (reki still loves him and thinks about him tho: as seen in line âyoure always in my heartâ i believe this is said by both of them)Â
so, in conclusion my favourite theory is that at the very end of sk8 reiki and langa will sort of have individual shots and then they will run into each other in the street, both carying skateboards. langa will reach out to reki to "catch him" or something idk SOMETHING WILL HAPPEN WITH HANDS AND WE WONT SEE FACES AT FIRST and then the shot is their faces and they look at each other and just smile! I THINK IT WOULD BE SUCH A GOOD ENDING AND I THINK IT WOULD FIT THE END SO WELL YA KNOW??? SO yeah!!!! thats my fav theory!!Â
i do have one more i just wanted to touch up on tho :eyes:
HANDS!!! OMG HANDS R SO IMPORTNAT IN THIS SHOW MY GOSH. and as each episode goes on we can see they are getting closer and closer with their hands. it starts off ith taking off the water bottle, and bandaging each other hands, then the hand shake, the hand shake TO THE CHEST, and then as seen in episode 6, the hug, and finally langa reaching out to save reki and pulling him close. i have a feeling as the episodes go on they are gonna get more "touchy-feeling" and what if langa or reki like touches the others face or brushes hair out their face? like what if,,,,reki forgot his headband or cant find it and he leands over to fix his skateboard or something and langa just brushes the hair out of his eyes? or what if one of them puts their hand on each others cheeks and kisses them? IDK GUYS I HAVE A STRONG FEELING WE ARE GONNA GET A BIT OF ROMANCE- But uh yeah
I have a tone of angsty theories involving adam but i deinfetley think we are going to get a bittersweet ending,,,,
 I'll probaby upload more theories later on but these are them so akjdhsa yeah! my dms are open for sk8ti discussion and if u want my discord (which is easier to commuicate on for me) then just dm me!)
#renga#reki#langa#reki sk8#langa sk8#sk8#sk8ti#sk8 the infinity#sobs#*sobs uncontrollably*#MY POOR BABIES I DONT WANT ANYTHING TO HAPPEN TO THEM BUT THE DIRECTOR IS THE SAME AS BANANA FISH SO WE R IN DANGER-
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1st part of my old Black Sails scraps and doodles from 2016â2021. Not in any particular order.
This post has a glimpse to one of my BS binders with the most less-effort-and-crack-idea doodles. Also lots of puns and the Walrus crew shenanigans. Flint is a dick and Billy is tall and Silver keeps bringing the parrot into canon one way or another.
And of course, please, do not steal and repost elsewhere! But if you do get inspired, feel free to make your own interpretations! :)
I put them under the cut, because this is a very long post!
Puns with âBlack Sailsâ lead of course to all kinds of things, one of which ended up becoming the Full Walrus Speed! comic (2018). Here I was thinking how to convey âthe scarf sailsâ with Silver as he sneaks out at night to test Flintâs words (and how the wind keeps blowing âthe sailâ onto his face) although it didnât end up in the finished comic.
Thereâs also Eleanor holding a chart with Vaneâs name and âblack salesâ as he wasnât doing so well. The Death is sailing a variation the trash raft with âblack sailsâ as it did in this other art: The Death following the Walrus (2016).
Thereâs also a comic with Flint, Thomas and Abigailâs letter, but thatâs gonna be itâs own post when I finish it (but wanted to mention it here as it was related to these). It includes âBlock Spoilsâ, âBlock Soilsâ, and 2 x âBleak Sealsâ ;)
âIâm going to make you the Princes of the New World!â and some of the Walrus crew as âprincesâ. Flint made them paper crowns and these were the very first BS doodles I ever drew, or at least one of the firsts (no date written tho). This was done right after I watched the first episode and when I got the spark that this show was going to be something... truly spectacular.
Also I hadnât drawn anything for months (closer to a year) and even holding a pen and the thought of drawing anything felt almost nauseating at the time (I was crawling through depression) but I just had to do something with the excitement. And doodling ended up helping me a lot to get back on my feet, so thousands thanks, Flintâs bloody feral face (and billion thanks to Black Sails fans who have encouraged me during all these years!).
Around early season 3 by the looks of it. Doodling cool Flint with a felt tip and then the parrot and goofy Silver photobombed. The parrot is parroting Flint of course. I was wondering if they were going to include the bird in the show and this is how it manifested.
Season 1. âFraming problemsâ inspired by the scene with Flint and Billy (although in the doodle thereâs also Silverâs top of the head)
...because the height difference and I wondered if it was hard to get them fit into the same frame lol
I love Silverâs face here and the sock-parrot although I didnât even bother with Flint here other than the pose. This lead to the art: âLet Me Tell You A Story...â (2018) although the composition changed. Tbh I like this version a bit more in retrospect but I coudnât make it work with the hammock/pallet at the time... Silver is trying to cheer up Flint.
Half way through of this post, btw!
Alternative scenes for this art: âNeverland!crack!AU!â (2017) which features Captain Silver Hook, Billy Pan and Ginger Bell.
The texts are the bolded parts:
Gates dreamed it (he wakes up in cold sweat and is like NO.)
Israel Hands as Smee, and another one where Dufresne is Smee. Silver as Captain Hook as in the art too, although here itâs very obscure.
Billy as Peter Pan + lost boys and Silver saying âI thought you never grow upâ and it ended up in the final piece too, but a bit differently.
Some texts in the lower left corner: âRobert Stevenson and Bay roll in their gravesâ (uh..Michael Bay? Heâs not dead. I guess I added Bay later and lost the thought anyway)
âThe hyena guy laughed when I was doodling these at 2 amâ (I had a weird neighbour at the time and heâd randomly laugh like a hyena at nights and it happened again while I, too, was sniggering at my late night silly doodles because I couldnât sleep). I didnât bother to start cropping this snippet out :)
âFlint as Tinkerbellâ and âOnly one emotion per time, needs to be believedâ (in). Hereâs a close up:
The other doodle is Flint sleeping, because instead of Mr. Gates, maybe Flint dreamt this weird au with the faces of people around him. Silver (or Billy? Gates?) is trying to wake him up and he mumbles âMmmh, NO, donât throw food aroundâ (this was a nod to the movie âHookâ and the Lost Boys waisting food in that one dinner scene).
âNo, Iâm the fairy!â (I canât remember was I thinking of someone else to be Tinkerbell at the time or maybe it was because I was also thinking Flint as Hook? but instead he âwantedâ to be Ginger Bell in his dream instead so...) and âFuck you England crocodile!â (whoâd be the antagonist in this au).
Mr. Gates: âLook at my lad!â
âThe reason why Billy didnât have a beard in early seasons.â
...was because otherwise he might have been pressured to style it like his father figure, lol. Also *sob* with Gates gone, Billyâs beard became wild in the show as the time goes on (remember beard of betrayl?).
Flint, after the fight with Singleton, here sleeping peacefully with a nosebleed. The text (someone saying it): âGross.â
Flint: âI think I was in heaven for a secâ (because he bumbed into Billy). âIt felt like hitting a brick wallâ. Texts: Flint being a dick (and blind from blood-loss), and Billy thinking (and getting the idea for the legendary Black Spot early on): âI have been marked... with a red spotâ (and itâs his doom).
In the left corner: âfavourite Billy Bones faceâ
inspired by this one:
And the last two doodles for this bunch:
âSomeone get me a glass!â ... and the aftermath of Silver shouting for a spyglass and of course the Walrus crew providing âa glassâ... which here is an hourglass, a wine glass and another one, a magnifying glass, a mirror (looking glass) although at first it was supposed to be an ice cream (Swedish word, because hey, there might be some Swedish pirates on the crew etc..) and some one bringing a glass of water but making it fancier with a coctail umbrella. For their beloved new quartermaster, you know. Oh yeah, and someone threw Dufresneâs glasses at him but they got stuck on the rope.
Aaaand doodles for âA Tattoo Boom on board the Walrusâ. Everybody wants a walrus tattoo and there ends up being all kinds of variations on board. Cute ones, sexy ones, creepy ones, and so on, all featuring a walrus in some form xD
For a long time I was going to draw this properly but never really got into it, so feel free to draw bunch of pirates with cool Walrus tattoos if you need something to draw! (or need an excuse to practise anatomy, as I was planning to do...lol) :D
Thanks for reading, I hope you had fun <3
#black sails doodles#tag for Block Spoils doodles#(<- in case u wanna black list these)#from 2016-2020 but mostly from the early years#I always draw the first idea doodles on a cheap copy paper so I won't stress about getting things right#and... yeah it shows xD#recently I tried to organize my wip folders to get some kind of plan in which order to draw and finish things#and kept finding these kinds of doodles that still make me laugh but also agonize as simply cannot finish them all in proper manner#so I decided to share some of them and also have a look back into the early days xD#or how the doodles haven't actually gotten any better (and aren't meant to) but the art I post is just more refined these days
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im definitely not ripping off my friend by making a list of au ideas i have no siree //gonna slap this under a readmore cause i. well i say a lot. all of the time. i tried so hard to format this Good but tumblr fucked me up i am so sorry
so first-off i know i already have one WIP AU (Auckland) on ao3 so i wont talk about That one cause like. spoilers. i actualyl have it like 80% created so its likely gonna truly get finished for once and i dont wanna ruin shit
the other one ive posted about is something me and ben (catgirlrepublic) have worked on together its not at all close to done or anything but it's. a fun little crossover. Between jdate and my fuckinuhm. Original characters story âUntitled Villains Projectâ. the sketches of the comic version ive started is actually my pinned post đđ its like the first chunk of the story, i think half of part 1? yea.
Tldr john fucking Somehow is able t oget into contact with a certain curious scientist from another reality whoâd just love to study the Soy Sauce, most certainly not for her own nefarious purposes
John and Dave meet up with the scientist, her name is Boss, and her lab assistant, Toxic, and after a bit of a preliminary Vibe Check where john determines her trustworthy (which Dave doesnt agree with,) the two agree to be taken to the world UVP is set in. from there they stay in Bossâs lab (big old fucking abandoned military lab). John and Toxic are fast friends due to mutual love-of-chaos. John n Dave get to fuckin, camp out on an air mattress.
The day after they arrive, the two get split up, not exactly intentionally; big plot points of UVP are liek. Fueled by Boss sending Toxic to go fetch her âresearch materials,â which are usually important artifacts
Fuckin side note i guess i have to explain my dumb bullshit: Bossâs, uh, field of expertise so to speak is actually fckin, basically the scientific study of magic and superpowers n shit like that. This shitâs all real in that world. Toxicâs got fuckin superpowers, so do 4 other main characters, whatever. Itâs got a bit to do with spirituality, iss Bossâs hypothesis. So she has Toxic fetch important artifacts that might have âenergiesâ to them. The thing is actually way more fuckin complictated than that, this is just Bossâs initial hypothesis.
Motherfucking anyways. So Boss gives Toxic a job to do, and John get excited about how Cool that sounds, and ends up going with Toxic, leaving Boss and Dave alone. Neither is thrilled about this. But Dave and Boss get to have a bit of conversation (while Toxic and John are off bonding and having a good time) and come to a⊠mutual grudging understanding of some kind. They still dont like each other though lmao
Theres gonna be deeper shit going on but we havent sorted it out yet/tbh havent like Written For It in a while but i still like thinking about it a lot lol
Also pretty sure our endgame is john and dave steal toxic and bring them back with em lmao boss is kind of not nice and toxic would most certainly be better off in Undisclosed. Actually theyd fucking love it. Theyd become a local cryptid im sure. Undisclosedâs mothman is a teleporting spike baby.
I have. Another crossover AU that i might. Post something about for halloween? Maybe? If i have it finished?
Crosses over into, you guessed it, another one of my original-character projects. God, am i vain or something?
I promise this is just because i think blue and dave should get to team up to beat up some monsters
Quick briefing on my fuckinuh. Original character story, this one doesnt have a name (yet? Idk lol my work never actually goes anywhere sso who gives a shit). It centers around two grim reapers, Red (26, bi woman) and Blue (22, aroace agender asshole). In this reality or whatever, grim reapers function kind of like low-level office workers. They get told whoâs going to die + when by some middle-management types, and upper management only involve themselves when punishment needs to be doled out. These Higher-Ups can be seen as analogous to Korrok; theyâre decidedly not human, never were, and fucking terrifyingly powerful. Additionally, grim reapers are sort of .. designed to be âbackground noiseâ people. In reality theyre supernatural beings and, uh, look Real Fuckin Weird (the whole deal has a neon aesthetic im terrible at drawing uwu) but most humans just perceive them like extras in a movie. A bodyâs there but the cameraâs not focused on it.
To the narrative: the shit starts when Red n Blue get relocated to Undisclosed. Relocation is something that just happens every now and then to reapers; they usually work in teams, but they get split up into different cities to avoid any strong bonds forming (a counter-union strategy from the Higher-Ups).
Red, Blue, John and Dave end up running into each other for the first time in a McDonalds where John n Dave are getting some 4am âhey, we just survived another horrific monster fightâ celebration burgers. John and Dave are the only two people who can see how⊠strange Red and Blue are. Nobody else notices.
John unintentionally pisses Blue off, leading to Blue whacking him upside the head with a dildo bat. They all four get kicked out of McDonaldâs. Dave and Red both are less than thrilled
Blue and John end up resolving their differences, somehow. Red and Dave briefly bond over their dumbass best friends being, well, dumbasses. They all part ways amicably.
somehow-or-other (idk yet) they end up running into each other a few more times, and eventually john invites them over to his place, and the four (plus Amy now!) get to know each other a little better
while there, Blue gets a text about some guy who's gonna die and John offers to drive them to where that's gonna go down. they take him up on the offer and get to have a bit of one-on-one conversation
after that ordeal though Blue has had Enough of people and bails, leaving John to head home alone
theres a sort of mirror-development going on with the five of em. Red, John, and Amy would all like everyone to get along, though theyre a bit tentative about it (John moreso than the other two, actually, jsut cause. well Red n Blue could still be Sauce Monsters). Dave and Blue on the other hand do Not like people enough for this shit, and Dave's not unconvinced theyre Sauce Monsters. he will not trust them until proven he should
the story's kinda nebulous but i got an idea for some Shit going down that involves both Sauce Monsters and also the Higher-Ups to have some fuckin absolute chaos go down.
Oops! All Trans
Everybody is transgender. Everyone
Ive actually workshopped this one both with ben (catgirlrepublic) and ghost (ghost-wannabe) lmao its a fun lil concept ive had from the get-go cause i mean. Whatâs an internet tran gonna do other than hit all their favourite media with the Everyoneâs Trans beam
Dave transitioned post-high school and faked his death for it. People go missing in Undisclosed all the damned time, after all. He moved to the next city over, transitioned fully, then came back as a completely new man. Yes i know this doesnt exactly fit with the âeveryone knows David from high schoolâ thing alright, hush.
Anytime anyone brings up Johnâs old best friend (pre-transition Dave) John throws an entire fit like an overdramatic grieving widow. Full-on sobbing âwhy would you bring her up?! I miss her so muchââ to the point that people just stop bringing up because Jesus Christ That Sure Is Uncomfortable KJHGFDS.
This is a scheme he and Dave came up with prior to Dave leaving, though Dave hadnt exactly anticipated John putting on this much of a performance about itâ but itâs stopped Dave from ever having tto hear his deadname again, so hey.
Amy transitioned sometime in middle school/early high school. Her family was super supportive and loved her a ton and most people just know her as Amy. she was super shy her whole life really so. Yeah. people just dont think to bring it up lmao also i Feel Like big jim would absolutely wallop anyone who gave her trouble of any kind
Johnâs nonbinary (genderfluid specifically) and not exactly Interested in transitioning ? like hes fine with how he is. mostly.
he came out to Dave in high school but hes not out to anyone else exactly. Maybe his bandmates. Probably any other trans person in Undisclosed knows, too, cause theyre safe to tell lmao. Johns mostly a âhe/him out of convenienceâ kinda nb whoâs cool with any pronouns but does prefer they/them most. Dave and Amy use they/them when the trio are alone
Also this is a totally self-indulgent caveat that i think would be great, Daveâs actually agender but because he's transmasc and transitioned when he thought there were really only two options, and being Boy at least felt less weird than being Girl, he just kind of assumed he was a dude. Itâs only through a lot of (like fucking years and years hes probably in his 30s/40s when he puts 2 and 2 together on this one) talks about gender with John that he realizes he actually feels like No Gender. Masc aesthetic with none gender.
I Just Think Itâd Be Neat Is All Okay
Also Amy came out to Dave about being trans early on in them seeing each other and his response was to get very nervous before blurting out âme tooâ and then just being too embarrassed to talk about it for the rest of the day. Hes got a lot of hangups on talking about it actually it takes years for him to get comfortable in that
by contrast when Amy comes out to John about it his response is to yell âEYYY ME TOOâ and give her a big ol hug lmao
I think itd be neatt if Amy ran a like. Transfem help/advice blog on tumblr. Kind of helped-with by John who can give her transfem nb insight for certain asks. I also just think that would be neat.
Cowboy AU - i put this one last cause its got drawings to it actually. Theyll be at the bottom
Basically just. Hey you ever watched a western. I think they look neat
This is another one me n ben have come up with lol
The soy sauce and all that shit still exist, im not sure where korrok fits in yet but ill figure it out
Theres no real like solid narrative yet ? but heres the barebones of everybodyâs arcs.
John
Johns an absolute troublemaker, Of Course. Hes wanted in several towns for absolutely stupid shit. Hes a loner who shows up, causes chaos, gets drunk, does some drugs, runs away if people get too mad at him
He definitely had the same kind of deal with the soy sauce as in canonâ he was at some kind of party, somebody offered it, he took it cause why the fuck wouldnt he, now he can see monsters and shit
Hes kind of a mooch also. Like. dont let him stay in your barn man heâll never fucking leave and drink all your booze.
He runs into Dave when they happen to just, cross paths in the same town. the bullshit John stirs up ends up involving Dave in a way that makes it seem like it's his fault too, and they both get run out of town
after that he just tags along after Dave. hes decided this guy's Cool he wants to stick around. Dave is pissed at first, but not enough to shoot him or anything, and eventually, John grows on him
Dave
Dave also is a loner but unlike John hes simply so fucking awkward and bad with people. He doesnt feel like he belongs anywhere so he just travels
Heâs the stereotypical Lone Ranger tbh. He wanders from town to town, solving their problems, though hed deny its out of any moral obligation (it kinda is, a little bit, tbh. He does like feeling useful). He shows up, fixes things, leaves. He's kind of a legend but most people think he's hiding something dark. other people jsut know him as that guy who farted real loud in the middle of the saloon and promptly skipped town out of sheer embarrassment. you know how it goes with Dave
He ends up involved with the Soy Sauce when a snake (not Actually a snake,) bites him. The snakeâs more like the wig-monsters, really. Anyway, it injects him with the soy sauce, he fucking trips balls in the middle of the desert, he can see monsters now
He runs into John and shit goes tits-up, as said, but they become traveling buddies after that. he'd never say so, but he's glad for the company, actually. it's nice. hes not used to companionship but he feels a strange kind of easiness hanging out with John....
not sure how the Monster Dave concept will like fit in to this reality but like. trust me i want it in here. I'll Figure It Out.
Amy
Amyâs been living in a town John and Dave end up passing through and she is very curious about these two new Handsome Strangers who claim to fight monsters and just kinda. Persistently tags along til they let her join for real
Her familyâs all dead, unfortunately, just like in canon, and sheâs been living alone for a few years before meeting John n Dave. she had nothing left in that town to stay for, she'd been fantasizing about escaping on wild adventures for a long time and this felt a little like a dream come true. (Dave still gives her a spiel about how Difficult it is, but really, her fantasies were pretty grounded-in-reality already. i jsut think thats how she is, yknow?)
Shes the first person to react to the whole âwe see monstersâ shit with a kind of âoh, okay. neatâ kind of response lmao
John and Dave fix whatever the fuck is up with her town (maybe thatâs where the Korrok shit can fit, who knows) and Amy ends up being integral to that. After, she insists they take her with them because âthey need her nowâ and Dave just cant really say no. John too is very much "the more the merrier!" and hes actually glad to have another person along he loves people lmao
At the start she has long hair but after she joins them she chops it short with a knife for convenience
also she still is an amputee. justt. idk. it was a wagon/stagecoach accident rather than a car accident lmao. just to clarify since i hadnt mentioned it, i wouldnt rob her of her ghost hand or yknow. all of the significance to her character that Missing A Hand has. although also now im going to have to research what was used as painkillers way-back-when, but im betting shes still got, like, her pain pills, they probably had those, maybe i wouldnt have to try too hard there. old timey medicine could be WACK though,
Shitload
Yeah hes in tthis shit mostly cause i liked designing his cowboy self lmao
Hes a kid (like 16, 17, technically i think in those days that was more Young Man than Kid but whatever. Hes Young i mean.) who got possessed by the Worms out in the desert and, by his familyâs perception, just went missing!
Hes also a wanderer, but he ended up at the same town john and dave met in, at that same time, and starts following them after, already aware of who/what they are.
He keeps his face covered 24/7. actually he covers a Majority of his self for reasons. kinda want him to be a slightly more horrifying Worm Entity rather than human idk,
I kinda dont have much for this boy yet sorry Shitload
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with some editing notes for me cause im doing a very specific aesthetic with this lmao. i might change some lil details/colours though ...... idk
im also kinda đ€ about shitload's colour palette. i want things assoicated w the sauce to be black'n'red predominantly but i think his palette might mirror dave's too closely. also im working on a korrok design i jsut am too busy to draw it now
#jdate#john dies at the end#aus#erh. tthe hell do i tag this as#rambles.txt#long post#well let me know if youd wanna hear more or. or something#send an ask. or whatever#yaknow#:jazz hands:
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days go by and seasons change (lets try again next winter)
julie's ready for a year away from home, studying and trying to refind the magic in music. luke's about to start on a summer tour around europe opening for a band. they meet one night, sparks fly and emotions run hight. now they've just got to try and see if they can maintain a long distance friendship.
ok hello hi so this is my wild ride of a fic that iâm working on, a scene (much later on) came to me in a dream, and much like how smeyer wrote twilight, i just had to find out how they got there fhbdj thereâs some drinking which would be classed as underage in the us but is legal in the uk which is where itâs set soÂ
trigger warnings!! alcohol and swearing
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winter
There was a line almost outside the door for the coffee shop, people wanting something to warm them up or just to avoid the sudden downpour of rain. Julie had been in England for just over a month now and she still wasnât used to the randomly changing weather, how were you supposed to plan an outfit for the day if it started mildly sunny and ended in a thunderstorm? It was January! She had come prepared for snow, not rain, damn it.
From her table in the back corner of the cafe, hands wrapped around a mug and headphones blaring music, Julie people watched. Sure, she was supposed to be working on an essay, but sheâd been there for half an hour already. She deserved a little break.
Even through her music she can hear the sounds of the cafe around her. Customers placing orders and rain on the windows and cups hitting tables and people laughing and itâs comforting. The sounds of life going on around her while she pretends to be doing work.
Pretends, because sheâs been trying to work on this essay for a week now and getting nowhere with it.
When sheâd signed up for the study abroad scheme her mind had been on experiencing a new country, on the places she could visit, the new friends she could make, the thoughtful looks she could escape.
She hadnât thought much about the work she would have to do, the essays that would need to be written, the awkwardness of settling into a new place, the strangeness of hearing new accents.
The actual creative side of her course she found easy enough, but when it came to writing about her stylistic choices and her themes and her influences and how they all tied back with what theyâd been reading about? She was drawing a blank.
Blowing on her drink, Julie let her eyes wander around the coffee shop. It was a fairly small place with an extensive collection of teas and fresh baked cakes and free wifi. Sheâd found it by mistake while looking for a music shop her first week in the city, theyâd lured her in with carrot cake and coffee and sheâd been coming back at least once a week ever since. A group of boys push through the door, shaking off hoods and laughing at something as they join the queue.
Something about them seemed vaguely familiar, like sheâd seen them from a distance in a dark club, or scrolled past a group photo of them on her instagram suggested posts. Or maybe it was because they just looked like every other group of young adults sheâd come across, both back home and in Liverpool. One thing she had learnt pretty quickly was that boys were the same everywhere.
She was saved from mulling it over by her phone vibrating on the table with a text, Carrieâs name popping up on the screen and Julie swapped her cup for her phone, a small smile already tugging at her lips as she read the series of texts on her screen.
Julieâs attention is dragged away from her phone by something â someone â knocking into her table, sending her pen rolling off and her cup to shake. Pulling her headphones out of her ears she looks up as the culprits eyes widen, mouth pulling into a grimace as he stares at the coffee now running down the back of her jacket that had been happily sitting in the spare chair.
âShit,â he mutters, already pulling a napkin out of his back pocket and dabbing at the mess. âIâm so sorry, I uhâ wasnât looking and the chair leg and fuck Iâm so sorry about your jacket, can it be dry cleaned?â
And he looks so sincere in his apology, all wide sad eyes and words stumbling out too quickly and messy brown hair curling out from under a beanie and accent that sounds like home, that Julie swallows back the annoyed retort she had ready to go.
It was just an accident. Accidents happened. At least it wasnât over her laptop. Blowing out a breath, Julie shakes her head at him once, pushing back her chair to inspect the damage.
âItâs fine, honestly. Donâtââ she pauses, holding up the denim on either side of the collar and frowning at the pretty large brown stain. âWorry about it.â
Can she wash it? Sheâs never tried, but well. She bites her lip as she looks at it, the stranger awkwardly standing just a short distance away with a wad of used napkins and his half spilt drink, and yeah, she definitely won't be able to wear it tonight.
âIâm so sorry.â He says again and someone must catch his attention over her shoulder because his eyes dart away from her, eyebrows shooting up and shrugging his shoulders and, itâs kinda cute. The way he seems to be hovering, unsure if sheâs going to shout at him.
âSeriously, itâs fine. Accidents happen, right?â She shoots him a quick smile â though not missing the way his cheeks turn slightly pink â before turning back to her jacket, carefully laying it out on the chair to hopefully dry out enough for her to stuff it in her bag before she needs to leave. She really hopes it stops raining.
âI uhâ shit Iâm sorry. Again. I gottaââ He gestures to the door where Julie can see his friends waiting for him, barely contained grins on all their faces that has Julie rolling her eyes. Boys. She looks back at him, raising an eyebrow even as her lips tick up into a small smile, sheâs rewarded by his cheeks going red, the hand still holding the napkins rubbing at the back of his neck and a stuttered âgoodbyeâ.
Sitting back down, Julie rolls her eyes again, muttering under her breath about âannoying cute boysâ and âfavourite jacketsâ. Leaning down to pick up her fallen pen with one hand while the other tapped out a reply to Carrie. An hour more of sitting here, attempting to do her essay and then sheâd have to go if she wanted enough time to get ready.
\\
âSo where are you?â
Julie couldnât hear what was being said on the other side of the phone, but judging by the way Carrie was rolling her eyes the answer wasnât correct. Flynn leans her head on Julieâs shoulder, their linked arms drawing them closer as they walk, itâs not the most comfortable way to walk, but theyâve already had a few drinks and Flynn gets a little clingy after one. Julie puts her head on top of Flynns as they stumble along cracked stone streets.
âShe actually might end up killing Bobby at this rate,â Julie mutters and is rewarded with Flynn letting out a laugh that has Carrie looking over her shoulder at them, eyes softening for a moment before sheâs rolling them again. If she hadnât known the other girl as long as she had, Julie would be worried about permanent eye damage.
âFucking hell. Okay. Yeah, okay weâll be like, ten minutes then. Yeah, yeah, okay bye.â
Sliding her phone into her back pocket Carrie took a half step back so she was walking with them again, linking her arm on Flynns other side.
âTheyâre at the Cavern Club,â Carrie looks at Julie over the top of Flynnâs head and lets out a loud sigh, âI know. Thatâs where we were going to go anyway. Theyâre so annoying.â
But she says it in a fond sort of way. Like how you talk about your neighbour's dog that barks too early in the morning and wakes you up, but always runs over to say hello to you through the fence when you walk past and brightens up your day. Annoying, but sweet.
Julieâs only met Carrieâs cousin Bobby once, it had been a short âhelloâ and âgoodbyeâ type interaction as he ran into Carrieâs house to pick up his bag and then run straight back out again.
Sheâs never met the other three members of the band at all, but she knows, after doing a little bit of internet searching, that their band isnât half bad. Theyâve got some pretty good songs and a small following that she is sure is bound to get bigger by the time theyâve finished being the opener for whoever theyâre touring with and their first album is out in the world.
The three of them flash their idâs to the security on the door, slightly giddy smiles on all their faces even now, still not used to it all being legal for them to drink under the age of twenty-one. But the security guy doesnât even blink and then theyâre walking down a flight of stairs, the air getting warmer and the sound of drums and guitars reaching them.
Carrie grabs hold of Flynn's hand and Flynn grabs a hold of Julies and then theyâre weaving through people and avoiding knocking drinks out of hands.
Her attention is pulled from the crowd to the stage at the back of the room, a band playing a cover of something she canât name, they donât sound too bad, and the part of her that used to fall in love with music every time she heard it wants to stop and listen. But that part of her is small and quiet and shy now, so she keeps her grip on Flynnâs hand and follows along.
Julie doesnât know how Carrie knows where sheâs going but all of a sudden theyâre coming to a stop, her free hand reaching out to balance herself on Flynnâs shoulder even as a small part of her is still trying to work out what the song is.
Turning her eyes away from the stage she looks at the five boys sitting at the table, a collection of bottles scattered across the wood, and Julie smiles at Bobby whoâs standing up to hug Carrie, opens her mouth to say hello before stopping. Her brows furrow as she locks eyes with a shaggy haired brunette whoâs own eyes are widening in realisation.
âYou!â She blurts out before she can stop herself, and if anyone asks she would blame it on the three drinks she had before leaving the dorms, detangling her fingers from Flynnâs to point at him. With the music blaring so loud only the boys still sat at the table and Flynn heard her, the latter turning to raise her brows while Julie can see the boys trying not to laugh.
âHeâs the guy who spilt coffee on my jacket earlier,â she shouts over the music, hand gesturing wildly at the table and Flynn follows her hand, eyes resting on the culprit.
âThat was her favourite jacket!â Flynn props one hand on her hip and almost glares at him, but it loses part of its âscare factorâ when she starts swaying a little in place to the music. Well, Julie thinks it should lose some of itâs scaring power, but the guy still looks kinda worried, so whoâs Julie to know?
âI said I was sorry!â He puts his hands up, shoulder raising to almost his ears, and with his eyes already open so wide and his hair curling slightly at the ends, Julie has to wonder how much trouble that look has gotten him out of over the years.
âYou guys have already met?â Bobby jumps into the conversation before Julie has a chance to reply and Carrie is looking between them, lips pursed.
âThis is the girl whose jacket Luke ruined earlier,â the blonde one says and Julie vaguely recognises him as being one of the boys from the cafe.
âDude,â Bobby raises his eyebrows at the jacket ruiner â Luke, Julie reminds herself â shaking his head in disappointment.
âIt was an accident!â Luke turns his sad kicked puppy look on Bobby before looking back at Julie, his hands lowering but his eyes still drastically wide, âI really am sorry about it.â
Julie tries, she really does, to hold on to that small kindle of annoyance that sheâd felt upon seeing him again. But well, the jacket is already ruined and sheâs come out to avoid doing an essay and sheâs finding it really hard to be mad at someone so cute. Blowing out a breath she shakes her head at him.
âItâs fine, Iâll forgive and forget the whole thing if you buy me a drink.â
âThat I can do,â the furrow in his brows smooths out and his shoulders relax and suddenly thereâs a smile spreading across his face that seems to light up his eyes.
âSo, youâve met Luke. Thatâs Reggie, heâs our bassist,â Bobby nods at the dark haired guy sitting next to Luke who grins and waves, and itâs such an infectiously happy wave that Julie can't help but wave back. âAlex, kickass drummer,â the blonde who spoke earlier ducks his head a little, an almost shy smile on his face as he nods at them, âAnd Willie. Officially heâs one of our roadies, unofficially heâs just here to hype us up and do cool tricks in empty arenas.â Willie, whoâs sat pressed against Alexâs side, raises his hand in a wave.
âThis is Julie and this is Flynn,â Carrie points at them each before claiming the seat next to Alex and looking at Luke, âWeâll take 3 vodka lemonades. Please.â She only adds the please on the end after Flynn sits next to her, nudging her elbow into her side, Julie notices with a smile.
Thereâs a moment of bodies moving as Luke gets up from his side of the table, pulling Bobby along with him towards the bar and Reggie is waving his hand at her, nodding at the empty space along the bench next to him that she slides into gratefully.
They canât really see the stage set up from here, but the music is still just as loud and Julie starts nodding her head along to the beat, trying to focus on the conversation happening on the other side of the table. Something about Carrieâs group and choreography and convincing someone to add in a dance break to a song. Sheâs laughing at something Willie said when a glass is slid across the table in front of her, a bottle of something passing over her to Reggie and she looks up in time to see Luke sliding into the space next to her, a small smile on his face.
âForgiven and forgotten?â He asks, eyebrow quirked as he lifts his own drink, tilting it towards her in invitation.
âForgiven and forgotten,â she agrees picking her glass up and tapping it against his beer bottle, shooting him a smile of her own before chasing the straw of her drink to take a sip, trying hard not to blush at the intensity of his stare.
//
Itâs two hours later, three drinks and a deeply regrettable shot later, happily on the precipice of truly drunk but hanging out in tipsy land, when Julie shakes her head at Luke whoâs standing on the bench. Tongue poking out of the corner of his mouth in concentration as he writes on the curved brick of the ceiling.
âDude no ones gonna be able to even read that!â Reggie complains from next to her, his eyes squinting as if it will help him to read their names better. It doesnât, Julieâs already tried.
âWhy did we let the one with the worst handwriting do this?â Alex tilts his head to look up at Luke, who waves the hand not holding the pen in his face, almost hitting him but missing by several inches to the left and it sets them all off giggling.
âBecause the rest of you are cowards!â He wobbles a little as he shuffles his feet to change angle, and Julie reaches out on instinct to hold his leg, fingers wrapping around his calf as if it will stop him from falling. His head drops down to look at her, teeth biting his bottom lip as he smiles at her quickly before going back to the ceiling.
To leave his â their â mark on a legendary musical site. Luke's words, the rest of them hadnât been able to talk him out of it so theyâd gone right into encouraging.
âI think youâre getting cowards and idiots mixed up,â Carrie mutters, head propped up on her hands, elbows resting on the table. Well, Reggie and Julie and Willie had gone straight to encouraging, the others were still on teasing.
âDo you want your name added or not?â Luke grumbles but Julie can see his pen moving, going over the letters of what she assumes is meant to be Dirty Candi, and bites her cheek to not laugh.
âDonât forget itâs an âiâ instead of âyâ for candy!â Flynn leans forward, eyes on the ceiling as she shouts up at him and Luke says something, but itâs too quiet for any of them to hear.
It isnât until he moves to get off the bench that Julie realises she still has her hand wrapped around his calf, her fingers idly tapping along to the song some guy with a guitar is playing behind them. Heat fills her cheeks (that sheâll blame on how warm it is in the club and the alcohol in her system thank you very much) as she lets go, pulling her hand back into her lap, watching from the corner of her eye as he jumps down and back into his seat, a proud smile on his face.
âNow when weâre big and famous people can come and hunt our names down.â
âAnd finally realise that you have awful writing and question how any of our songs get written,â Bobby grins at him, elbow nudging his side which sends Luke leaning into her to try and avoid it, sliding along the bench until thereâs no space between them, and she canât find it in herself to be too mad about it. He smells like tequila and mint and aftershave all mixed together, not really a good combination, but one she finds herself liking anyway.
âWell why donât you start writing the songs, huh?â Luke retorts, and starts a back and forth with Bobby, Alex chiming in and Flynn watching it all like a tennis match, and Juile tries to follow it, but all she can think about is how Luke hasnât moved back. How his thigh is pressed against her leg and his arm is resting around her back, hand near her hip and how if she wanted to, she could rest her chin on his shoulder and kiss his neck.
Not that she wants to kiss his neck. Does she?
Julie furrows her brows, biting her lip as she examines those thoughts, tries to decide if itâs the alcohol or the music or her lack of sleep or if she just wants to kiss him.
Flynn says something and it makes him laugh, loud and bright and unrestrained, head thrown back and eyes closed. And yeah, she just wants to kiss him. Fuck.
//
Reggie slings an arm around her shoulders, the other going over Flynns and tugging them together until their cheeks are all pushing together and Julie giggles, poking at his side with her partially trapped arm.
âWhat do we think chocolate tequila is like?â He asks, eyes glued to the chalkboard menu above them.
âNot as nice as the summer fruits one,â Julie says back, wrinkling her nose a little at the memory of when sheâd tried it. If you liked chocolate, it was a bitter disappointment in her opinion. But she was also drunk enough now not to mind.
âAlex says we canât get the coffee one. Thinks weâll have a repeat of the red bull incident.â Luke appears on her other side, pushing his body into the small gap between her side and the next group of people. Heâs stood so heâs facing her â them â and rests one arm on the counter top.
âMan heâs gotta get over that, it was one time,â Reggie mutters and Julie wants to ask what the âred bull incidentâ is, but then Flynn is sliding three shot glasses towards them, salt and limes following, apparently having ordered without any of them noticing.
âWeâre standing with mango!â Flynn shouts, shot already in one hand and salt on the other, clearly waiting for the three of them to catch up. Reggie lowers his arms and Julie can feel Lukeâs hand brush past her arm as he moves to lick the back of his hand, she can feel herself flushing as she watches him do it. And is happy to note that he flushes just the same as he watches her lick her hand in turn.
Idly, Julie notices that Reggie counts them down, that Luke inclines his head at her before he lifts his shot to his lips, that Julie lifts her own, the liquid sliding down her throat with a slight burn thatâs not eased at all by the lime she bites into. She squeezes her eyes shut against it and when she opens them sees Luke grinning at her, eyes full of something she canât name but makes her want to blush again.
âYâknow what? Screw Alex, four of the coffee my good man!â Reggie shouts next to her, waving a hand at the bartender in front of them who just rolls their eyes but puts out four more shot glasses.
âOkay, you gotta tell us about the red bull incident,â Flynn finally asks what had been nibbling at the back of her mind from the moment Luke had spoken so she pulls her attention away from him and back to her friends as Reggie launches into his story that even grabs the attention of the bartender for a moment.
But Luke is a warm presence at her side, leaning into her space and breath ghosting against her neck as he chimes in the story. If she stepped back, just a little, she could lean her back against his chest. She wonders if heâd wrap an arm around her waist to hold her steady? Julie blinks and blows out a breath, raising an eyebrow as Reggie talks.
âWait, howâd you get onto the roof?â
//
âSo why Liverpool?â Luke asks, hands stuffed into the pockets of his coat as they aimlessly walk through almost empty streets, faint music coming from clubs and other drunk people giggling in doorways. The fresh air has helped a little to sober her up, but not enough for her to know where theyâre going. But theyâre following Carrie, who has a plan for the night and theyâve no option but to follow it.
Julie wraps one arm around herself, the other pushing hair over one shoulder as she thinks about it. There isnât really a big fancy answer, no special reason for her choice, she shrugs at Luke, lips ticking up into a smile.
âIt was the only place still with spots open,â she can see the slight confusion on his face and explains more, âI wasnât going to take the study abroad year, but I changed majors and I needed to get away from home for a while. Carrie and Flynn had already signed up and the internet said the train didnât take too long to get to Manchester or Glasgow.â
âYou changed majors?â
Of all the things sheâs said that hadnât been the part sheâd thought Luke would zone in on. It wasnât really something she liked to talk about much, her fall away from music. She still loved it, still listened and wrote and sang, but the passion sheâd once had, the magic sheâd once felt whenever she sat at a piano? It had gone away. Had been gone for a long time. Had been gone for four years and sheâd only been pretending she still felt the magic.
Everything she played or wrote was missing something and no one had seemed to notice but here.
It hadnât been until one of her teachers in first year had pointed something out that Julie had finally confessed. And changed course and major the next week.
Everyone had tried to understand, had listened as she explained why she couldnât do it. How her mom and music were so intertwined together in her head and her heart that it felt impossible to detangle them, to love and play music without always feeling like there was something missing. But she knew they didnât really get it
So sheâd signed up for the study abroad, and picked Liverpool because they had a good English Lit course and was close enough to her friends if she needed them. Okay, so maybe sheâd lied a little, there was a fancy answer for why sheâd moved, but picking Liverpool had just been random.
âYup,â she pops the âpâ and glances ahead of them, where Willie has Alex clinging on to his back, running through a puddle and laughing loud and clear. She canât help but smile at them, at the carefree way Willie spins around and Alex holds tighter, face red with whatever heâs trying to say between laughs. Luke must follow her gaze because he lets out a soft snort of laughter, and she can see him shake his head from the corner of her eye.
âIâd hate them if they werenât so adorable together,â he muttered, but his gaze is soft as they both watch the couple; Willie lets Alex off his back and grabs hold of his hand before he had a chance to get too far away. Theyâre all soft eyes and teasing smiles and vibes that scream about being in love, youâd have to be blind not to see it. Julie looks away, feeling like sheâs intruding on a private moment as they share a kiss.
âTell me about the tour,â Julie says, drawing Lukes attention back to her and itâs the right thing to say because his face lights up with a smile that sheâs sure is going to drive girls wild one day soon.
//
Julie nods along with the song blaring through the speakers, mouthing the words so herself as she scrolls through her phone, ignoring the press of bodies crowding the smoking area as best she can. From her spot near the wall, opposite the door, she can see Carrie and Willie and Alex dancing together, wide smiles and heads thrown back.
Flynn and Reggie are talking to a group of people off to the side and Julie can see the way Flynn has pulled her braids over one shoulder and is gesturing to Reggie every few words the way she does when sheâs trying to hype someone up (she knows, from having been on the receiving end of it, many times). Bobby, standing with them, seems to find the whole thing hilarious, grinning around the cigarette hanging from his lips.
âOkay, favourite book?â Luke asks, leaning in close to be heard over the noise and if he doesnât move back, well Julieâs not about to complain. The little space heaters on the wall donât provide much warmth, and itâs January and sheâs cold and someone ruined her jacket.
âCurrently or of all time?â She asks, raising an eyebrow as she turns her head a little to look at him. Her heart stutters for a second at how close his face is to hers, she can see the small flecks of green in his eyes, can feel his breath ghost across her cheeks.
âCurrent,â he says and she can see as his eyes flicker down to her lips quickly before back up to her eyes and Julie really hopes sheâs not blushing right now.
âStardust. By Neil Gaiman. Iâm reading it for one of my classes and it hits all the boxes for a fairytale.â She likes fairy tales, likes the idea of them, likes the message of true love and pure of heart and happily ever afters. This one just happened to involve lightning pirates which was a bonus. Okay, so maybe the lightning pirates were mostly a film detail, but still. âFavourite food?â
âThereâs this little hole in the wall place down by the strip? They do the best cheeseburgers. If I could have one for every meal, I would.â
Theyâre still standing close together, eyes staring too intensely for a game of twenty questions and comments about cheeseburgers and Julieâs eyes flicker to his lips, can see the way theyâre pulling up a little on one side. She wants to lean forwards, close the gap between them and press her lips against his. But then she shivers, shoulders hunching up around her ears as she rubs her bare arms, conscious of how close theyâre sitting and how much she just kind of wants to steal his body heat.
âAre you cold?â Heâs biting his lip, pulling back out of her personal space and Julie almost whines at the loss of contact and body heat and â well maybe sheâs too drunk to be making smart choices right now if sheâs five seconds away from whining.
âWell someone ruined my jacket,â she points out, eyebrows raised at him and is rewarded with his cheeks flushing and one hand rubbing at the back of his neck which sheâs quickly coming to realise means heâs embarrassed or just a little flustered.
âI thought weâd agreed to forgive and forget about that?â He mumbles and before she can come up with a response Luke is standing up, shrugging his jacket off his shoulders and then heâs carefully draping it over her shoulders, fingers tapping lightly on her arm until she holds it out for him to slip through one arm hole, doing the same on the other side and then pulling her hair out from under the collar.
Itâs too big on her, but the faux fur inside is soft on her skin and still warm from Luke and she can stick her thumbs through the little gaps created by the fastened buttons and if she turned her head a little she could smell his aftershave clinging to the collar. Julie canât help the little smile that graces her face, rotating her shoulders to let the coat settle better on her body.
Looking up at him her brows furrow a little at the look on his face (if she wasnât so drunk and giddy and tired sheâd say it was something like awe but that made no sense. Why would Luke be looking at her in awe while she wore his jacket?), but itâs gone just as quickly as it appeared and heâs smiling at her, that wide smile from back at the start of the night when heâd handed her her drink and sheâd tapped it against his.
âThanks,â she tilts her head to the side, loose curls falling across her cheeks as she looks at him, a wide smile of her own and she opens her mouth to say something else â though sheâs not sure what sheâs going to say â when another voice cuts through and pops the little bubble theyâve created.
When did they even create their private conversation bubble? Julie doesnât know, and from the way Lukeâs head whips around to land on Flynn and Reggie and Bobby with wide eyes, he probably doesnât know either. But itâs nice to know that heâd been enjoying their conversation as much as she had.
âWeâre gonna get food, come on!â
//
âI wanted to be wrapped up in bed an hour ago,â Julie sighed but thereâs no real annoyance in her tone as she hugs Lukeâs jacket closed tight across her chest, shoulder brushing against his arm as they walk.
âBut you also wanted pizza instead of McDonalds like everyone else.â And Luke has a point but she still pulls a face, sticking her tongue out at him and getting a laugh in return. She couldnât even be annoyed at it, he had a nice laugh.
Plus, when sheâd said she wanted pizza Luke was the only one whoâd wanted to come with her, the rest of their friends going back to their hotels. Heâd walked all the way to the takeaway with her, shared half of his chips and then started walking her back to her dorm, insisting on carrying her half eaten pizza too. It was all very sweet and kind and not helping her not want to kiss him.
âWhereâs your first stop?â She asks, because he was about to start a tour and she had school and maybe if they were both back home they might have been able to give something a go, but they werenât and Julie wasnât really a one night stand kind of person.
âWeâre heading up to Newcastle on Sunday to kick it all off,â there was a slight bounce in his step, his excitement almost palpable and Julie could tell that this was all heâd ever wanted. To play music to as many people as he could. A small part of her remembered what that was like, to want to share your songs with the world.
âSing something!â She pulled him to a stop in the middle of the street, bouncing a little on the balls on her feet and grinning at him. Because she was still a little drunk and she missed feeling excited about playing music and here was this sweet charming guy who loved it so much and felt it with everything he had and Julie wanted to be like that again too. She wanted to think about music without it being tinged with sadness.
âWhat?â He laughed, eyes a little wide and glassy and with his hair looking more wild then it had when theyâd started the night, but Julie was pretty sure she looked the same so she didnât comment.
âSing! Anything! Please?â Julie tried pouting at him, doing her best impression of Carlos and his puppy dog eyes and something about it must have worked because Luke huffs out a laugh as he looks at her, biting his lip in thought for a moment before he nods his head for them to keep walking before he starts singing.
His voice is a little rough, from screaming lyrics in the clubs and shouting to be heard in the bars, and his words are a little slurred because heâs a little drunk and a lot tired, but Julieâs sober enough to decide itâs one of the best versions of Mamma Mia sheâs ever heard. As he gets to the first chorus she joins in.
They were just two slightly drunk young adults, singing in the street and if nothing else comes of his night sheâll always have this memory of unadulterated joy.
âYou can sing,â he whispers and now itâs Lukeâs turn to pull her to a stop with a hand on her arm and a look of wonder on his face. Julie shrugs a little and can feel her cheeks heating, but she keeps their eye contact and smiles at him.
âOnly drunk in the streets.â Which is more true then heâll ever know.
Luke opens his mouth to say something but she cuts him off by pointing over his shoulder at the building behind them.
âThis is me.â Sheâs not sure what to do now, take her pizza and run? That seems a little rude, and unsafe. Julieâs not sure she can actually run in these shoes without falling. Luke looks over his shoulder quickly before looking back at her, blowing out a breath and nodding.
âRight, right.â He seems just as unsure as she is about what to do now, which makes Julie feel a little better about it.
âI shouldââ
âCan Iââ
They both start at the same time and then Julie is laughing and Luke is huffing out a breath while a smile grows on his face. The only thing between them is a pizza box and she doesnât miss the way his eyes keep flickering down to her lips.
âI canât kiss you!â She blurts out, a hand quickly going up to cover her mouth and Lukeâs eyes widen, taking a half step back, retracting his hand like heâd been burnt.
âThat wasnâtâ Iâ thisââ Luke started stuttering, face going red and Julie quickly shook her head at him.
âThat came out wrong! Fuck. Iââ She curled her hands into fists at her sides, squeezing her eyes shut before opening them, âI want to kiss you, but I canât.â
The shock on his face had softened at the start of her sentence only to morph into confusion at the end.
âYouâre gonna have to explain this to me, Molina.â Luke still looks confused, but heâs still standing in front of her and thatâs enough for her.
âI like you,â she dips her head as she says it, because Julieâs pretty sure she could really like him if given the chance, âbut Iâm no good at one night...things and youâre about to go on a tour and Iâm stuck here and I just, I thinkâ I think Iâd like us to be friends. I think we could be really good friends actually.â
Because theyâd only spent a few hours together and sheâd laughed and smiled more in that time then she had in awhile. Luke was sweet and funny and had something to say about every song the DJ picked to play but sang along anyway. Which is why she doesnât want to risk a friendship for one night in bed. The confusion on Lukeâs face turns into understanding and the soft, slightly sad smile that he gives her tells Julie that sheâs right. A friendship with him would be better than one really fun night.
âI get it,â and he carefully puts his hand back on her arm, squeezing slightly before pulling away. âAnd, for the record, Iâm not very good at one night things either.â
Her heart beat sounds loud in her ears and it takes Julie a moment to refocus her thoughts. Friendship. No kissing. Friendship.
âWell, maybe if we can keep a friendship going until we next see each other we can try this moment again,â she waves her hand around them with a small laugh. They could probably keep a friendship going long distance, but Julie isnât so sure that theyâll ever get a moment like this again.
âDeal,â Luke grins down at her and pulls his phone out of his back pocket and unlocks it, Julie raises her eyebrows at him when he holds it out for her, âIn order to keep in touch weâre gonna need to exchange numbers.â
âYou make a point,â she agrees, putting in her information and handing it back to him in exchange for her pizza box. âText me when you get back to your hotel, okay? So I know you didnât get lost.â
âYes, boss.â His smile is a little teasing now and Julie shakes her head at him as she brushes past him to walk into her dorm. Sheâs half way across the road when stops in her tracks to turn back at him.
âWait, Iâm still wearing your jacket.â Julie stars to shrug the item off when Luke shakes his head, already starting to walking backwards down the street.
âNo, keep it!â He shouts with a smile, âMeans weâll have a reason to see each other again and have another go at this.â
Julie just shakes her head at him with a laugh, watching as he walks away before tightening her grip on the box and finally making it into her dorm. Sheâs still got an essay to write and a pile of laundry to put away and magic in music is still missing, but sheâs gotten herself a new jacket and a friend who she thinks could make her life a little brighter. So sheâll forgive and forget that she's home an hour later than promised.
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Little Accidents, Big Developments
Chapter 8: Sink and Float
[This is an age regression story]
Chapter Summary: Roman is anxious, Virgil has some compelling things to say, Logan deduces Virgilâs true regression age, Patton gets emotional, and we say good-bye.
Chapter word count: 11,750
Other chapters: 1 / 2 / 3 / 4 / 5 / 6 / 7 / 8 / bonus
Read on AO3 or below the cut!
Content warning: Light angst, but cuteness galore to make up for it.
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âAll right, little prince. What should I write here?â
âHis coolness rating,â Roman replied as if it were the most obvious thing in the world. His tongue stuck out slightly as he concentrated on his drawing; a picture of Kanga on the top half of a small piece of paper. Underneath the character were five rectangles, all coloured to varying levels of completion.
âOf course,â Patton said, nodding solemnly as he wrote âcoolnessâ underneath the fifth rectangle on his own piece of paper. âAnd Iâm guessing Tiggerâs coolness rating is -â
âTen.â
âTen. Obviously,â Patton giggled. He picked up the red crayon from the dining room table and coloured the final rectangle to completion. Just like the four rectangles above it. They signified Tiggerâs bounciness, funniness, orangeness, and Romanâs seal of approval ratings, all maxed out. âIâm starting to think this card might be rigged.â
âNu-uh!â Roman cried, finally looking up from his drawing with a pout. âNot rigged if itâs true. Tigger is the funniest, bounciest, orangest, coolest character, and heâs my favourite. He just has to win all of the rounds!â
Despite the frankly questionable logic, Patton was simply glad that Roman was back to his cheeky self.
While they baked, Roman had been strangely well-behaved. The way he had obediently mixed the batter, rolled the dough, and shaped the cookies without so much as a whinge was highly unusual. Patton was glad he didnât have to tell the boy off for anything, of course, but there was nothing relieving in seeing Roman stand patiently at the side of the room while Patton washed up. There was no singing, no dancing, no bouncing, not so much as a peep from the little prince. It just wasnât right.
Roman was boisterous, whether he was little or not; he was excitable and hyperactive and loud. Usually, he would have baulked at the mere suggestion of standing in silence awaiting instructions. Though that was precisely what he had done in the kitchen by his own volition, staring at his feet in quite a pensive manner.
By the time he had set the gingerbread haycorns and hunnypots on the counter to cool down, Patton had made the decision to extend their father-son bonding time. He knew Romanâs strange mood would persist if Patton didnât get to the bottom of it.
âWhere are you going, sweetheart?â Patton had asked when Roman had started walking towards the living room once Patton had finished the dishes.
âBack with Vee and Mom,â Roman had replied. âWe canât decorate them yet.â
âItâs still father-son bonding time though! Why donât we find something fun to do while we wait?â
He wasnât quite as bouncy as Patton had hoped he would be, but Roman at least smiled at the suggestion.
Now, after almost an hour of crafting Pooh Cards (all design credit owing to Roman, of course), the creative side had finally been coaxed out of his sombre, contemplative mood. Patton himself had even perked up from the reassurance that he still knew what was best for his little prince.
âWhat if another player that isnât you gets Tiggerâs card?â Patton asked, neatening the edges of the coloured rectangle. He was careful not to budge Roman with his elbow as did so. âWonât you be sad to lose?â
The scritch of Romanâs crayon paused for a moment, then continued. âIt will be a worthy loss.â
What a funny little boy, Patton thought with a chuckle. Having finished with Tiggerâs statistics, he put the crayon back in Romanâs Lion King pencil case. âOkay, last one!â He slid the card across the table to Romanâs spot. âDo you need your dadâs help to draw Tigger?â Patton asked. (Not so much because he was expecting a positive response, but because he knew the question reinforced both of their respective headspaces.)
âI got it!â An orange crayon was snatched from the table.
Patton sat back and watched as Roman drew his favourite character with a bright smile. It was impossible not to mirror it. âOnce youâve finished drawing Tigger we can decorate our cookies!â
âDad,â Roman whined without looking up from his drawing, âtheyâre not cookies. Theyâre haycorns and hunnypots.â
âRight, haycorns and hunnypots,â Patton quickly corrected himself. âI keep making that mistake, donât I?â
There was no response from Roman, who was clearly concentrating on getting Tiggerâs tail just so.
âCutie pie,â Patton couldnât help but coo. When he pinched Romanâs cheek the younger side laughed so sincerely that Paton was hit by a wave of equal parts joy and guilt.
Joy because Roman was happy and so utterly adorable. Guilt because Patton clearly didnât spend enough time with his little prince if this was such a rare sound to him.
âIâll get the icing ready,â Patton whispered, leaving the room quickly.
By the time he had moved the cookies and the icing bowls into the dining room, Romanâs drawing was complete. Patton praised him heartily for his work (to which Roman blushed and giggled) as he arranged their workspace with the three different bowls of glace icing - yellow, pink, and mint green - and the cookies, plus a tube of white writing icing for the hunnypot labels.
Excited to be in charge of yet another creative project, Roman instantly took on a leading role. âDad, youâve gotta do the writing on the hunnypots and fen - and f-th-then Iâm gonna do all the pretty colours!â
âRight-o, kiddo!â Patton saluted him, then got right to work. âYou always have such wonderful ideas, donât you, little prince?â The lid to the writing icing tube put up a slight resistance as Patton unscrewed it.
âMhm⊠Iâm clever,â Roman mumbled slowly, concentrating as he spread some green icing onto one of the haycorn cookies.
âJust like your mom. Iâm sure him and Vee agree too.â
âVee thinks Iâm clever?â Roman asked, his voice a pitch higher from excitement.
âOf course, sweetie. He looks up to you a lot.â The tail of the âYâ that Patton piped accidentally curled off of the hunnypot in his hand. Patton placed the cookie back on the cooling rack and licked the sugary blob off from his fingertip. âYou two are such lovely brothers - youâre practically inseparable.â
There was a gentle snap. Both Patton and Roman looked down to see that the haycorn in Romanâs hands had snapped in half.
âOhâŠâ Roman breathed as he looked down at the broken cookie. The pout on his face was so intense that Patton was almost worried he would start crying.
âNo, itâs okay. Here,â Patton gently took the gingerbread pieces from his fingers. âYour dad can work his magic and glue it back together with icing. You just keep making them look pretty, sweetheart.â
They resumed decorating in silence, with something indescribable hanging heavily in the air between them. Patton kept quiet, allowing Roman space to speak if he wanted to say anything. Then, after a couple of minutes:
âDad?â
It sounded shy, so instead of looking at Roman and possibly making him more nervous, Pattonâs eyes remained on the haycorn halves that he held together. White icing oozed from the crack as he waited for it to set. âYes, my bright ray of sunshine?â
The nickname pulled a little giggle from Roman, brightening the atmosphere infinitely. He sounded a bit more confident when he asked, âIs, um⊠is Vee wearing a diaper?â
Pattonâs gaze snapped onto Romanâs face in faint shock.
âThere was a weird sound when Mom moved him earlier,â Roman explained. âAnd you said he feels littler âcause you tried something new.â
There was no variation of upset or amusement on Romanâs face, so Patton was not concerned when he confirmed, âYes, he is wearing a diaper, youâre right.â Though he still felt it important to add, âDoes that make you feel okay?â
Roman quickly nodded, clearly desperate to show that he was not in opposition. âNo, itâs fine. W-wait, I mean yeah! Yeah, itâs okay.â His eyes fell down to the cookie in his hands as he continued decorating. âIt makes sense. Babies need diapers, right?â
âRight.â
The way Roman gazed at his cookie reminded Patton of how he had appeared in the kitchen; contemplative. It was clear that Roman had more to say, going by the way his toes tapped at the foot of Pattonâs chair rapidly. Patton waited.
âOkay, wait, so,â Roman eventually said, sounding as if he were a student troubling himself over a difficult math problem and Patton was the teacher who could shed some light on its solution. âVirgil really canât go to the toilet?â
Patton readjusted himself to lean his elbows on the table, settling in to patiently help Roman through his confusion. âNot when heâs regressed, no.â The cookie halves wobbled a little in his hold.
âAnd can he really not speak properly?â
This time Patton had to take a moment to think over his answer. He hadnât actually considered questioning whether Virgilâs hindered speech was genuine. Now that he thought about it, Virgil did appear to try hard when he spoke while regressed. Although the babbles were quiet and seemed to meld into each other, they were notably forced. As if he was putting a lot of effort into getting them out. And yet they were only ever half-coherent at the best of times.
âNo,â Patton said, smiling to himself at the realisation. âI donât think he can.â The reminder that Virgilâs regression was all-encompassing sent a rush of excitement racing through Pattonâs veins. He truly was responsible for an incredibly vulnerable baby. While that thought might have been intimidating to some, Patton was filled with pure comfort at the mere thought. It was like he was finally fulfilling his purpose. It was like coming home.
âSo⊠Vee is really, actually a baby.â Romanâs eyes were wide and his voice laced with astonishment.
âYes,â Patton confirmed with a giggle. It sounded like this was a new revelation to Roman. âYour baby brother is really, actually a baby.â
Romanâs brow pulled into a light frown as his spoon swiped over his cookie one last time before dropping into the icing bowl with a clatter.
It was clear Roman wanted to ponder over the answer, for whatever reason, so Patton turned his attention to testing the cookie in his hands. At the slightest pressure, the two halves broke free from each other, and he tutted. Replenishing the icing more liberally this time, he held the jagged edges together firmly again.
âI like that,â Roman muttered.
âWhatâs that, sweetie?â
âI like having a baby brother.â Patton saw Roman nodding as if assuring himself of his decision. âI donât want Vee to be like me, I like that weâre different.â
The last part seemingly came from nowhere, and the whole discussion seemed oddly disjointed, though Patton didnât show his confusion. Instead, he opted for his standard smile of loving support, which would always be appropriate in any situation as far as Patton was concerned.
âWell, Iâm glad you like it!â His tone bounced cheerfully. âAnd I know that Vee really loves having a big brother.â
âHm,â Roman hummed and picked up a hunnypot cookie to decorate. Something in the slow movements of his fingers as he iced the treat felt off.
Patton nudged him gently, jostling his elbow. A sympathetic smile wormed its way onto his lips when he saw distant eyes snap onto him. Romanâs throat rolled with a gulp.
âWhatâs the matter, little prince?â Patton murmured sweetly. It never took Roman long to blurt any troubling thoughts that hurtled through his mind when Patton asked about them with such softness.
Right on cue, Roman sighed explosively. Then he began: âNow that Iâm part of the family -â
(Pattonâs heart twisted. Now that Roman was part of the family. As if he hadnât been before.)
â- Iâm kind ofâŠâ Roman paused, nibbling his lip. His eyes fell to the table as he whispered, âIâm scared.â
Patton instantly dropped his cookie to the table. He didnât care that it split apart once more, leaving a thin line of white, sugary goop on the wooden surface - his only priority at that moment was Roman. His little prince always placed so much importance on being fiercely brave and strong. Patton knew this must have been an exceptional circumstance for him to actually admit to feeling afraid.
âWhat are you scared of, honey?â he asked, his tone as steady and firm as the arm he placed around Romanâs shoulders. It was of utmost importance that Roman saw him as a supportive, strong father figure during that moment of rare vulnerability. It had to be known that Patton would protect him from anything that was causing him distress.
âIâm scared itâll end.â Thankfully, Roman clearly found Patton supportive enough to lean against him as he spoke. âYou know, us being a family.â
It was difficult to contain the urge to shrug off the mere idea. Though Patton knew better than to dismiss his loved onesâ worries, no matter how seemingly unlikely. âWhy do you think it will end?â he asked instead.
A sharp shrug jostled both of their bodies. âI donât know⊠What if Vee stops regressing?â
âI donât think that will happen,â Patton said gently as he swayed them to and fro. The weight against his side got heavier as Roman leaned into his one-armed embrace. âYour mom thinks the regression is written right into Virgilâs brain since heâs done it for so many years. Itâs a part of him.â
âOkayâŠâ Roman sounded uncertain still, reaching forward to fidget with the hem of Pattonâs cardigan. âWhat if me and him start arguing all the time again?â
Taking the long fingers in his own, Patton whispered, âYou wonât,â with absolute confidence. âI donât think you could go back to how you used to be after everything you boys have shared with each other.â
When Patton pressed a soft kiss to Romanâs cheek, he honestly expected to feel the tension leave Romanâs body.
Instead, the grip around Pattonâs fingers tightened painfully. âWhat if he says he doesnât wanna be brothers anymore?â Romanâs words were frantic, panicked. âI donât wanna lose him, heâs the best brother IâŠâ
Silence reigned.
Pattonâs gaze sunk to the tabletop where the two halves of the haycorn cookie lay torn apart, joined only by a thin trail of icing.
âI just donât want us to be split up,â Roman whispered brokenly.
Memories flooded Pattonâs mind. Of two boisterous children, identical twins, perpetually by each otherâs sides despite their constant arguing. Of fearsome fights; scratching and biting and screaming. And of a thought, just a thought, that had passed through Pattonâs mind one sunny day like an innocent floating cloud. The thought that one of the twins had potential and that the other was⊠wrong.
Memories of the following day and only seeing one child come out from their room. Of little snippets of conversation between Janus and Logan. Of realising that the other twin had not ceased to exist, but had been moved to the lower parts of the mind. (No one understood how. It was the only time a side had been moved between the conscious and the subconscious.) (That would change over a decade later when Virgil timidly knocked on their door.)
Memories of the âgoodâ twin - Roman - seeming unaffected by the loss of his brother. Happier, even, that his ideas had no contenders. That there was no longer a double of him suggesting all manner of disturbing things that Patton simply could not stand to hear.
Warm fingers tightened further around his.
As Pattonâs awareness was reeled against that cold, crashing wave of regret, his mind spluttered. Unaffected? Patton realised now the ridiculousness of the mere notion that Roman would have been unchanged by the split. By the fleeting thought from Patton - he himself still being a child at the time - that had acted as the catalyst for such an irrevocable shift in the twinsâ lives. In everyoneâs lives.
âDad?â Romanâs gentle voice broke the surface of Pattonâs turbulent reverie.
With a steadying breath, Patton forced himself back to the present and clasped both hands around Romanâs. He prayed that the tightness of his grip would dispel the trembling of his fingers.
âYou and Virgil love each other very much,â he said, âand youâve both become a lot better at showing it; when youâre little and when youâre big. Even if you did argue, you could never stop being brothers. Not now. I promise, nothing will -â Pattonâs voice was suddenly strangled by an involuntary gulp. He felt his cheeks burn as he swallowed past the knot of nerves in his throat. âNothing will tear you apart,â he finished quietly.
âWhat if you and Logan break up?â
It was easy to forget how different Romanâs voice was when he was little. Him being such a master at adapting his voice for different roles, the shift in tone was subtle, though effective. The slightest bit higher in pitch, though not unnaturally so. Much bouncier in intonation, but not inappropriately so. Changed, but not overexaggerated. (Perhaps Roman was accustomed to minimising the impact of changes, Patton realised.)
Though now it was clear. This question was deeper, louder, bigger than the previous ones. It was a question from adult Roman.
Patton sighed and met Romanâs eyes equally. At that moment he was no longer a father speaking to his son, but rather a friend reassuring a friend.
âIf, for whatever reason, Logan and I stop datingâŠâ Patton paused. That was the first time he had verbally acknowledged that they were an item. It truly felt amazing to admit to someone besides Logan himself. Though it was a melancholy experience, to be announcing their relationship while simultaneously theorising its demise. âIf that ever happens then weâll still be very good friends. And we will all still be a family, I promise.â
The reluctance faded from Romanâs expression and he wriggled his hand free from Pattonâs hold. A finger raised between their faces. âPinky promise?â Roman asked in childlike hopefulness.
Patton curled his little finger around Romanâs. âPinky promise,â he said earnestly.
Taking advantage of the fact that Romanâs hand was apprehended - and desperate to distract from the loaded atmosphere - Patton swiped some icing onto Romanâs face.
âHey!â
âWhatâs wrong?â Patton asked in mock-confusion.
Roman glared at him past a smile. âThereâs icing on my cheek!â
âOh, let me get that for you!â Patton pressed a long, wet kiss to Romanâs cheek, the icing spreading between his lips.
âDa-ha-d,â Roman giggled, trying to squirm away.
With a loud smack of his lips, Patton pulled away laughing. As he licked his lips clean, he took a moment to appreciate the pure joy on Romanâs face. âI love you, little prince. And I love Virgil and I love Logan. And I know for a fact that you all love each other too. That will never, ever end. No matter what.â
There was a loud screech of chair legs against the floorboards then Roman was on his feet, hunching over to hold Patton in a deadly-tight hug. Patton returned it with a strained wheeze.
âI donât want it to end,â Roman mumbled into his shoulder. âI donât want anything to change.â
That was a loaded statement if Patton had ever heard one. The sentiment behind it was clear and admirable, of course. Like Roman, Patton too loved how their family was faring and wouldnât change it for the world. Though he was hit by the reality of just how much had changed in the past few weeks, the past few days, even the past few hours!
Regardless, he knew what Roman meant, and he wasnât one to magnify the ambiguity of language choices. That was Loganâs job.
So - despite his uncertainty in the generalisation of the statement - Patton held Roman closer and said, âNothing will change, sweetheart.â
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As much as he had enjoyed his and Romanâs Father-Son bonding time (which they agreed would become a weekly ritual from then on), Patton was more than eager to return to the living room and be the happy pappy again. It was hard to shake the melancholy from the earlier conversation, after all.
Once the hunnypots and haycorns were decorated and left to set in the kitchen, the two traipsed back down the hallway. Patton stopped just short of opening the living room door when he heard a muffled, unintelligible conversation coming from the other side of it.
He looked behind him to Roman, who mirrored his confusion. The distant voices sounded as if they were holding a full-fledged discussion. Could Virgil have been grown-up again?
Patton pushed the door open with a deep disappointment that he didnât quite want to acknowledge. Though on poking his head into the room, it didnât take long to see that Virgil was still regressed and in Loganâs lap. He sighed in relief.
âMamanaba,â Virgil muttered, rattling Meeko with fervour. The inflection of his voice was similar to that of normal speech, even if the actual content was gibberish and his tone was still decidedly babyish.
Loganâs hands readjusted on Virgil to hold him steady as the boy kept bouncing in his lap. âMy goodness, I never considered such a thing! Though I donât believe that is quantifiable.â
âWhat are you talking about?â Roman laughed from behind Patton, then stepped around him in the direction of the couch.
There was nothing but pure paternal instinct that made Patton hurriedly reach out and pull Roman backwards against his chest and into his arms. He just could not bear to see the others being so sweet while his own arms were empty of one of his babies. Thankfully, Roman just settled against him and didnât comment on it.
âThis is an academic debate, little prince,â Logan explained very seriously, offering one of his false-stern looks. His lips twitched. âNo interruptions, please.â
âW-waba, mamama,â Virgil babbled, his voice now squeaky with excitement.
Logan gasped loudly and looked at Virgil in amazement, to which the regressor giggled. âWhat a fascinating hypothesis! But have you considered the subjectivity of such a theory?â
There was a moment of quiet while Virgil looked over at the doorway to Patton and Roman. It seemed he had only just noticed their appearance. Meeko was raised to hide Virgilâs face as he collapsed against Loganâs chest. âBaba,â Virgil whined, muffled by the toy at his chin.
A loud chuckle rang out. âWell, youâve certainly given me a lot to think about,â Logan said, cupping the back of Virgilâs head protectively.
âMom, can you speak baby?â Roman asked, sounding thoroughly impressed. As he spoke, he launched himself away from Pattonâs chest and skipped over to stand in front of the couch.
âIt certainly sounds like it,â Patton murmured, watching Roman go. The sudden emptiness in his arms couldnât hold a candle to the emptiness in his chest. Why was he so sensitive all of a sudden? Why did his chest physically ache when he wasnât holding his boys?
Then his thoughts came to a crashing stop. No. This wasnât about him and what he wanted. Roman obviously didnât want a hug so he was perfectly within his right to wriggle out of it. Patton had been keeping him from his brother, after all. The memories of his and Romanâs previous conversation rose in tides, threatening to spill over. Patton had been keeping Roman from his brother again.
âWhat did you two get up to, little prince?â Logan asked. âDid you have fun with your dad?â
As Roman launched into an impassioned regaling of the creation of Pooh Cards and his expert cookie decorating skills, Patton floated over to the couch - specifically towards the baby in Loganâs lap. His knuckle ghosted over Virgilâs smooth cheek and elicited a small coo from him. The contact and the sweet sound filled Patton with a sudden motivation that he hadnât realised he had been lacking.
Then Virgil pulled himself to sit up from Loganâs chest and shook his rattle right by Pattonâs ear with a bright smile that threatened to dislodge his pacifier. âBabababa.â
âWhat a fun sound!â Patton gushed, only faintly acknowledging that Romanâs monologue had just drawn to a close. âI see someoneâs woken up a bit since we left.â
âHe is rather enraptured by the rattling sound,â Logan said, shuffling Virgil in his lap so that he could more directly face the others. (It was true, the way Virgil stared at his toy looked as if we were both confused and amazed by the sounds coming from it; almost spellbound.) âI think itâs safe to say that it is a âgood stimâ.â He directed his gaze to Roman and said, âVirgil appreciates his present from you Roman, even if he is not able to tell you as much at the moment. Thank you for making your little brother happy.â
Roman flopped down to sit on the couch a couple of feet away from Logan with pink cheeks. âSâokay,â he muttered with a nonchalant shrug that was betrayed by his wide smile.
Quite unexpectedly, Virgil whined loudly and dropped Meeko to the couch. Then he wriggled and reached his arms out towards his brother so insistently that he slid right off of Loganâs lap.
âVee!â Logan yelped.
Patton acted lightning fast, dropping to his knees and catching Vee in one fell swoop. A fraction of a second later and Virgil would have hit the ground.
âWoah, there we go.â Patton hoisted Virgil onto his hip and stood upright again, keeping a firm arm under Virgilâs diaper to support him. âAre you okay, angel?â he asked breathlessly, residual adrenaline surging through his veins.
The shock didnât fade from Virgilâs expression for several seconds. Then, at last, his eyes swam with thick tears and he broke into a constant stream of whimpers.
âAww, my little baby,â Patton cooed. He started bouncing him lightly as parents often did with wailing infants. âYouâre all right, sweetie. Shh-shh-shh.â Virgilâs whimpers quickly quieted at the bouncing so Patton kept it up, warm adoration swelling in his chest at just how alike a real baby Virgil was.
With a wet sniffle, Virgil buried his face against Pattonâs shoulder.
âThatâs it,â Patton murmured. âPapa has you, youâre safe.â He felt a pinch at his side and looked down to see that Virgil was gripping his cardigan and tugging on the material harshly. Without looking away from his baby, Patton held his free hand out to the couch. âCan someone please pass me Meeko?â
A few seconds passed without any softness being pressed into his hands. Patton looked over to find Logan and Roman sat staring at him in stunned silence.
It felt as though he had unknowingly done something horribly wrong. Heat flooded his cheeks. âWhatâs wrong, what did I do?â Was he being a bad Dad? Would they take his baby away? His grip on Virgil tightened.
âN-nothing,â Logan stammered.
A loud snort sounded from Roman. âWow, Dadâs pretty strong, isnât he, Mom?â
âOh,â Patton breathed with a nervous chuckle, trying to hide how utterly relieved he was. The look of betrayal Logan was directing towards Roman inspired enough amusement for it to be passable. âYou carried him earlier too, Lo.â
âI know that,â Logan defended, his cheeks dusting pink as he looked back at Patton. âJust⊠not with one arm.â
Pattonâs eyes trailed down to realise that he was indeed bouncing Virgil easily with only one arm.Â
Logan cleared his throat then muttered, âIt is rather impressive.â
âWell, Iâm a dad,â Patton giggled lightly. He would never have imagined Logan would be flustered by such a thing. âDads need to be strong for Dad Stuff!â
âLike catching Moms when they swoon.â
At Romanâs cheeky remark, Loganâs mouth dropped open. The creative side quickly descended into giggles.
Patton witnessed the shock on Loganâs face be wiped away by an evil grin. âOh, Iâll give you something to laugh about.â Then Roman was being tugged towards Loganâs chest, Loganâs fingers wriggling in his underarms.
âW-wait! Wait!â Romanâs legs kicked against the couch as he was dragged into Loganâs lap. âMom, ple-he-he-ase!â he pleaded through already hysterical laughter.
Patton giggled and shook his head. It wasnât often Logan tickled their little prince, but when he did he was merciless. Romanâs begging would not help him.
Amongst the raucous laughter and tumbling on the couch, Patton managed to swipe Meeko from the cushion before Romanâs ankles thrust into it with a squeal.
âHere you are, honey bunny,â Patton said, worming the toy between his cardigan and Virgilâs fingers.
The weight on his shoulder lifted as Virgil looked up with a curious hum. On seeing that he had been reunited with his raccoon, his eyes sparkled with joy rather than tears. And, as expected, he rattled the toy for what must have been the hundredth time.
âWhy did you jump off of Mamaâs lap, Vee?â Patton asked, fully aware that Virgil might not have been old enough to even understand the question. It was worth a try at least.
The question seemed to break Virgil from the trance the rattle had him under and he started whining and wriggling violently.
âBaby, baby, itâs okay,â Patton tried to soothe him. It was only met with louder whines and harder kicks. âAll right, down we go,â he sang, doing his best to make the words bounce with joy. It was difficult considering the immense sinking sensation in his stomach as he carefully lowered Virgil to the floor.
âIs everything all right?â
Patton looked up at Loganâs breathless question, pleasantly surprised to see Roman still in Loganâs lap, finally free of the tickle attack.
âI just asked him why he jumped off your lap.â
At the reminder, Virgil thrust his arms out towards Roman again and pleaded, âWo⊠Wo-Wo!â
âI didnât do anything!â Romanâs shoulders raised defensively as he looked to Patton. âIt wasnât my fault he fell!â
âWe know that, little prince. Itâs all right,â Logan assured him, embracing him to his chest.
With a gentle smile, Patton realised that Virgil was not blaming Roman for the fall whatsoever. âSweetheart, I think Vee just wants to play with you.â
Virgilâs arms stretched even further into the empty space between himself and the couch. âPway!â
âOh, um,â Roman hesitated, looking at the ground and running his fingers over Loganâs arms, which were fastened around his waist.
âI would like to stretch my legs anyway,â Logan said, carefully sliding Roman off of his lap.
There was a short moment of thick quiet. It was over in an instant as Logan quickly rose to his feet, announcing that he would fetch some more toys for them before promptly leaving the room.
Before long, Logan had returned with supplies and the caregivers had set up a baby-safe play area for the boys. A large fluffy blanket lay across half of the living room floor and more than two dozen soft toys sat around the edges of the blanket, cordoning off the area. Around the room, cushions and pillows padded the harsh corners of the coffee table, TV unit, and radiator to avoid any painful bumps.
Roman was as bubbly as ever, overspilling with exuberant playfulness as he finally had his little brotherâs full attention.
âAnd what doth the King Meeko have to say to this usurper?â Roman cried regally, bouncing his stuffed dog Bumpkin in his hands to indicate that he was speaking.
Virgil giggled and bounced in place where he sat against the foot of the armchair, carefully propped up by two pillows. His laughter mixed with the rattles coming from Meeko as he shook him.
âVee, what do you want Bumpkin to say?â Logan mumbled from where he sat beside Patton on the couch.
A happy hum rolled from Pattonâs chest. It was rare that they got a chance to sit together while both boys were little, but Virgil had gotten surprisingly fussy when Logan tried to sit with him on the blanket. It seemed the excitement of being with Roman had chased away his languid energy and he wanted to sit alone with his brother while they played.
Despite Pattonâs increasing panic at seeing his little baby sitting all on his own, not in his arms, Patton felt comforted by Loganâs closeness. It meant he could run his fingers idly over Loganâs thigh as Loganâs arm draped heavily across his shoulders. He took the rare moment of casual intimacy in stride. Usually, they had to sneak around while the boys were asleep to cuddle and kiss. Though since he had spoken so openly about their relationship with Roman in the dining room, and seeing as Virgil was either unbothered by or unaware of their displays of affection, they allowed themselves this intimate moment.
âA-ababa,â Virgil babbled, pointing to the soft toy in Romanâs hands.
Roman sucked in a pained breath through his teeth. âOof. Thatâs brutal, Vee.â It earned him a bright symphony of babyish giggles.
Over the next few minutes, Patton brought his cellphone out to take pictures of the littles. Then when Logan pointed out that he had taken more than twenty almost identical photographs, Patton rolled his eyes with a playful nudge to his partner. He would have easily taken a thousand pictures if it meant he could remember this day by the adorable scene in front of him, rather than the blunt, heavy regret hammering away within him.Â
âHow old is Vee right now?â Patton wondered aloud, partly because he was watching Virgil through his phone screen. Partly because he just needed Loganâs voice to drown out Romanâs sorrowful words from earlier that kept replaying in his head.
âGoing by his babbling and playfulness,â Logan replied, âI would place him around eight or nine months.â
All of the breath wrung from Pattonâs lungs as he snapped his gaze onto Logan. âMonths?â
Not seeming to notice Pattonâs shock, Logan continued watching the boys with a gentle smile and nodded.
âThatâs way younger than he usually isâŠâ Patton placed his phone down on the couch, feeling shaky all of a sudden.
âI am not so certain.â A thumb started circling softly over Pattonâs knuckles as Logan explained in a low murmur, âAt first he told us he regressed from two to five years old. Though I have been observing his behaviour over the past few weeks, and I believe he has been greatly mistaken in this estimation.â
The soft material of Loganâs slacks bunched between Pattonâs fingers. âWhat, do you think heâs not that old?â The new information bombarded him with the horrible thought that he hadnât been doing his job as a father if he hadnât even noticed how old Virgil was when he regressed.
Gaze fixed on their boys, lips fixed in an oblivious smile, Logan went on: âNothing I have seen of his regression has suggested he is ever older than two and a half years - though even then, being that old is rare for him.â He tilted his head in thought, which would have been adorable had Pattonâs vision not been pulsating with his frantic heartbeat. âI wonder whether he misunderstands developmental stages, or whether it is simply a case of him being unaware of his own behaviour patterns.â
âWhat ages does he actually regress to?â Patton whispered. He stared intently at Logan, desperate for the answer that he had apparently been too incompetent to see for himself.
With utmost confidence, Logan said, âThree to twenty-four months.â
Hot tears sprang to Pattonâs eyes. âThree monthsâŠâ he echoed under his breath. Practically a newborn. With a gulp, Pattonâs watery eyes settled on Virgil. A newborn who had been alone for so many years.
His wet eyes being glued on Virgilâs steadily blurrier form, Patton was startled when he felt Loganâs arm pushing insistently at his shoulders. Within seconds Patton was on his feet and being swiftly ushered into the hallway. His heart lurched when the blue and purple blob fell out of sight as he was guided past the corner of the doorway and the tears finally fell to his cheeks.
âYour dad and I are right outside if you need us. Keep playing with your little brother,â Loganâs voice said, then the door was pulled mostly shut and Patton was surrounded by long, warm arms. âWhatâs wrong, Patton?â
It all happened so quickly that he had no hope of burying his emotions, so Patton didnât speak. He just clung to Logan and sniffled into his shoulder, thinking about what he had learned. About Virgil being so young and consequently about everything he had ever had to deal with on his own. The loneliness, the accidents, the bullies.
Patton bit his tongue through a wave of overwhelming anger. Over the course of the next minute, he simply took in deep, shaky breaths, glad that Logan did nothing but tap out one-second intervals on his back to aid his breathing.
Then, just as he thought he had overcome the worst of it, a babyish giggle rang from behind the living room door.
A sob wrenched its way from Pattonâs throat.
âMy love, please tell me whatâs wrong,â Logan pleaded, his voice gentle though pained.
âSorry,â Patton choked, pulling his face back from Loganâs shoulder to scrub his sleeve over his eyes. When he opened them and caught the utter sincerity in Loganâs concerned expression, the tears started anew. What exactly had Patton done to deserve such a wonderful man?
Patton couldnât bear to hold back his lament any longer, keeping quiet so as not to upset the boys in the next room. âHeâs just so - heâs literally just a baby. Heâs innocent and - and vulnerable and -â his voice wobbled and broke off with a shuddered breath. As he recollected all Virgil had told them of the hate he received on his blog, that same boiling rage oozed through Pattonâs entire being. It stung and made him tremble. Like poison. âI canât believe those horrible people would bully him for it!â
At the hissed tone, Loganâs face crumpled with a wince. Patton was ready to vehemently apologise for himself - about to claim he had no idea where that came from, it wasnât him at all - until Logan said, âI know. I am angry too.â
There was no way Patton could have predicted how comforting those four words were. They doused the fire in his chest and left him dumbstruck. The raging indignance that had been snapping and flaring within him all afternoon suddenly disappeared and all that was left was a smouldering, pathetic sorrow.
Patton slumped back into Loganâs arms in defeat.
âHe was on his own for so many years, Lo. Itâs bad enough he couldnât look after himself,â Patton whispered and shook his head, Loganâs shirt rustling faintly with the movement, âbut on top of that some strangers attacked him just for - for -â
âFor trying to feel safe,â Logan finished, twining his fingers gently in Pattonâs thick hair.
Delighted, squeaky laughter echoed from the living room.
âNot everyone is accepting.â The deep voice vibrated in Loganâs chest. Patton held onto him tighter. âIt is an unfortunate reality in both Thomasâ world and ours, and I understand it is upsetting. As much as we would like to, we simply cannot protect our boys from every possible threat.â
The icy pang of dread in Pattonâs gut was twice as toxic as the scalding anger from before. What was Pattonâs whole purpose if not to look after his family?
âVirgil was not completely helpless to it, though,â Logan continued. âHe disabled anonymous asks without being prompted to do so. That shows he had the foresight to prevent it from happening again. He was protecting himself.â
Gentle shivers radiated over Pattonâs scalp as Loganâs fingernails combed through his hair. âThatâs meant to be our job,â he argued weakly, âand he didnât even tell us about it.â
âNot at first,â Logan conceded. âStill, that does not mean he did not trust us.â Then Logan pulled back from the hug, leaving Patton cold. âYou know how reluctant he is to share things that he perceives as embarrassing. Your conversation with him yesterday proves as much,â he said, turning and walking down the hallway.
âWhere are you going?â Patton shrieked, his hands curling into tight fists by his sides.
Logan looked back in shock. Then he carefully reached out to pick up the tissue box that sat on the cabinet by the staircase. The movement was slow, and Logan watched Patton all the while as if he were a startled animal that had to be monitored.
Shame flooded Patton. âOh. Sorry, just⊠not done cuddling you yet.â
A soft smile replaced Loganâs frown and he brought a couple of tissues back to Patton, holding him again and dabbing at his itchy eyes. âI didnât realise you would be competing with a box of tissues for my attention,â Logan chuckled.
Patton knew it was a joke, of course he did. He loved jokes and he loved that Logan was finally comfortable enough in himself to make them without fearing people's opinions of him. But suddenly the heat in his chest was reignited.
âWhy didnât you just summon them?â Patton asked flatly.
The tissue that Logan stroked over his cheekbone faltered.
âYou always say how important it is that we donât challenge the mindscape,â Patton went on, glad that this topic had distracted Logan enough from his sudden clinginess. âI donât think Iâve ever seen you summon since you realised the whole - whatâs it called?â
âEquivalent exchange,â Logan supplied, blushing. It was he who realised that the programming he had set up for their mindscape to follow real world laws of physics glitched whenever the sides took advantage of their powers; summoning an object would make another of similar mass and/or sentimental worth disappear, and breaking the laws of physics would train the mindscape to disparage Loganâs carefully crafted code. For the sake of stability in their environment, they had long since all agreed to sacrifice the convenience of summoning unless in emergencies. Logan most of all, which is why Patton was so shocked when he saw he had summoned a baby book earlier. âI understand it was hypocritical of me to break my own rule. I apologise, it wonât be happening again.â
Patton nodded. He didnât want Logan to think he was upset with him, though he was satisfied that he had redirected the conversation effectively. âWhat was so urgent about a baby book anyway?â
âI could not think of anything to calm Vee down,â Logan explained, pocketing the crumpled tissue as Pattonâs face was perfectly dry by then. âRegretfully, I acted quite impulsively in response to his crying.â
âOh no, was the poor thing upset?â Patton asked, all harsh emotion replaced by softness and concern for his little one.
With a soft sigh, Logan leaned forward to press a kiss to Pattonâs forehead. âYou know how his separation anxiety is,â he murmured against his skin, lingering there.
Patton frowned at Loganâs chest. âHe still has separation anxiety?â
âOf course,â Logan said, putting some distance between them to look down at him.
âBut,â Patton blinked rapidly, âearlier he was okay with me leaving and he - he hid from me, I thought -â
âPatton, it doesnât disappear from one positive experience,â Logan explained, his arms still wrapped around Pattonâs shoulders. âIt may have been dimmed momentarily though it is still very much present. I believe it may be a permanent fixture of his headspace, simply due to the ages he regresses to and his anxious nature.â
âOh⊠okay.â It was hard to know what else to say. Earlier Patton had thought he was proud of Virgil for overcoming his separation anxiety. But hearing that Virgil would perhaps never get over it sent a wave of warm comfort over Patton. He wanted to smile, but the fluffy feeling was sullied by something. Something distant that he couldnât identify. Something unpleasant.
âDo you know what time it is?â Logan asked softly, spoken as if it were a love confession.
Patton instinctively reached into his pocket, only to come out empty-handed. âSorry, I must have left my phone in -â
A featherlight touch at his lips made Patton fall silent: Loganâs fingertips. He could feel Loganâs pulse thrumming through them.
âItâs later,â Logan whispered, his eyes swimming with utter adoration. Then the soft fingertips were replaced by softer lips and Patton fell into a dream.
They floated together for a while, suspended in the short space between their hearts. After a few gentle pecks and a quick swipe of tongues, Logan pulled away.
âThat was sweet,â Patton whispered airily, letting his eyes flutter open. Then he saw that Logan was frowning deeply at him.
âPattonâŠâ Logan licked his lips and grimaced a little. He started chuckling, âJust how much lemon did you put in your tea?â
It wrenched Patton from his dreamy state.
Guilt. The unpleasant feeling that was sullying his emotions was guilt. Guilt because how could he think himself supportive of his family if in the face of their developments his response had been extreme jealousy? So extreme that he had had to literally suck on a lemon to pull himself out of it.
As if that werenât awful enough, Patton had actually felt happy when he learned Virgil would continue to be distressed by his separation anxiety. He had failed his baby, just like he had failed his little prince by neglecting him and not recognising his insecurities. He had failed at being a dad; the one thing he thought he knew. Why was he even trying to be a caregiver when he kept accidentally hurting his family?
Roman called loudly from the living room, âDad?â
A switch flipped in Pattonâs brain. No, he wouldnât give up. His boys needed their dad and that had to be him. No matter how many mistakes he made, how wrong he was, Patton would never let go of the only thing in the world he could do. He would never let go of his purpose. The one thing he lived for.
He was nothing if he couldnât be Papa Patton.
He slipped right past Logan, not caring to check his reaction to Pattonâs avoidance. With a huge smile, Patton bounced into the living room. âWhatâs up, my majestic little songbird?â
It was immediately clear why Roman had called.
Where Virgil had been sitting on the blanket before they left the room, giggling and rattling Meeko excitedly, both boys now sat. Romanâs arm was thrown over Virgilâs shoulders protectively, supporting the younger boy as he swayed and blinked slowly. His eyes were decidedly teary and he was tugging at his pacifier again.
âOh, my sweet little baby,â Patton cooed, rushing over to them. The storm of guilt and jealousy cleared from his mind in an instant, leaving him a little light-headed. It was replaced by a muffled determination and affection that made everything seem softer around the edges.
Dropping to his knees, Patton pulled Virgil into a hug. There was a little whimper, and then his shoulder was immediately used as a hiding spot for Virgilâs face. âWhat happened, Roman?â Patton asked, leaning back against the foot of the armchair. He rested his hand atop Virgilâs head and felt as though his heart had started beating for the first time in hours.
âHe just froze and went super quiet all of a sudden,â Roman explained, letting go of his brother and collapsing back onto the blanket with a pout. âThen he didnât wanna play anymore.â
âItâs all right, Roman,â Logan said, settling onto the floor beside Roman with a reassuring pat on his knee. âVirgil can play with you again another time.â He began clearing the mess of various toys on the blanket, assembling them into an ordered line.
âAre you upset, baby?â Patton whispered, rocking Virgil slightly in his hold.
As was to be expected, there was no answer. Virgil only hid his face against Patton more fiercely.
âPerhaps it was the separation anxiety.â
Patton nodded faintly at Loganâs suggestion, but internally he knew that wasnât it. In the past, if Virgil was anxious about being separated from Patton he was much more vocal in his upset; sobbing and whining loudly. Plus he certainly hadnât heard Virgil calling out for him before Roman beckoned him in, so Patton remained doubtful that that was the issue.
Another difference became obvious as Virgil hugged Patton tighter, forcing Patton to hunch down a little to accommodate it. Where Virgil would always scramble into Pattonâs lap at being reunited with him, this time he had remained on the floor with his legs pulled tightly to his chest. Patton experimentally nudged Virgilâs knees to convince him to lower them but was met with a whine and Virgilâs whole body tensed up.
As Patton shushed his baby and swayed him back and forth, he just knew. There was no solid thought process he could attribute to his realisation. He thought it must have been his paternal instincts (which sent a rush of pride through him). Though regardless of how he knew it, Patton was quite certain that Virgilâs diaper was wet.
Then Logan spoke. âI think I would like to -â
âIâm handling it,â Patton assured firmly without looking up from his baby.
There was a short while of silence before Logan spoke again. âI was going to say I would like to play Pooh Cards with Roman.â
Shame flooded Pattonâs mind. He chased it away by rubbing soothing circles on Virgilâs back.
âOh yeah!â Roman cried, jumping up from the blanket so fast Patton was surprised he didnât fall face-first to the floor with the momentum of it. As he bounced in place he grabbed and tugged on Loganâs hands. âMom, Mom, Mom, quick, come see!â
There was a slight reluctance as Logan raised to his feet. âI said I would play with you Roman. Please do not pull me.â
Patton rolled his eyes. Roman was merely excited, and he knew his own strength. It wasnât like it hurt Logan. There was no reason for him to be so strict with their little prince.
âAre you sure you two will be all right?â Logan asked, and his voice actually wobbled.
Logan - who always kept a steady, calm voice even in moments of distress - was presumably so worried about leaving Virgil with Patton that his voice had actually wavered.
Patton had to unclench his jaw to reply, âOf course we will, Iâm his papa.â It came out far more snappish than he had intended. He ran his fingers through Virgilâs hair, using the soft tendrils to distract himself from the sinking feeling in his chest. âI mean - heâs okay. I know what this is.â Finally meeting Loganâs gaze, Patton offered a small smile that he knew didnât meet his eyes.
âOkay, love,â Logan said softly, lovingly, and Patton knew he didnât deserve it.
Then Logan led Roman out of the room to fetch the card game and the papa and his baby were left alone.
For a minute they simply sat, Patton still swaying them gently. Going by the fact that Virgil was no longer whimpering, it was clear the cuddle was soothing him. Patton too felt himself relaxing as their bodies moved as one and their breaths synchronised.
Over the course of those few quiet moments, Pattonâs worries all seemed to float away. As if Virgil were a calm breeze, clearing the muggy clouds of guilt and bitterness from Pattonâs mind and replacing them with crystal clear skies. Patton nuzzled his nose into Virgilâs hair and breathed deeply, feeling as though he hadnât tasted oxygen until that very second. There was no other feeling in the world that could compare.
âCome on, sweetheart. Letâs have a proper cuddle.â
There was no protest as Patton shuffled both of them up into the seat of the armchair. Virgil kept a tight hold on Meeko all the while, clearly afraid of dropping the toy. Admittedly, Patton had hoped he would have an opportunity to check Virgilâs diaper during the movement, but their positions simply didnât allow for it. As soon as they were seated with Virgil on Pattonâs lap, the regressor whined and hurriedly wriggled off of his legs to squeeze into the small space between Patton and the armrest.
âItâs okay, honey,â Patton murmured, letting Virgil curl up to his side instead. His knees were flush with his chest once more; hiding his lap on instinct, Patton realised.
âDad!â Roman yelled, skipping back into the living room with a bright smile. âMom really likes my game and says Iâm really clever!â
Feeling Virgil jolt at the sudden noise, Patton carded his fingers through his hair softly. âThatâs wonderful, sweetie,â he said, trying not to feel disheartened by the interruption to his and Virgilâs time together. âI think youâre very clever too.â
Roman appeared to vibrate. âAnd - and n-now Mom is gonna play with me!â
âWell, I hope you win, little prince,â Patton chuckled, enamoured by Romanâs sweet enthusiasm. Then he put on a loud stage-whisper, âTry to get the Tigger card!â
A deep gasp sounded from the doorway. âI heard that, Patton!â Logan entered the room with a look of mock-offence. He held a red sippy cup in one hand and the stack of Pooh Cards in his other. âI cannot believe youâre conspiring against me.â
Patton giggled, twirling a lock of Virgilâs hair around his pinky. âIâm a supportive dad, I have to be on Romanâs side!â
âHm, I suppose I can concede that,â Logan grumbled, throwing a quick smile Pattonâs way. He handed Roman his sippy cup, praising him when he said, âThank youâ.
There was a quiet whine from Virgil and Patton rocked him a little. He was probably upset by the others being so close given his shy headspace at that moment.
âCome here, little one,â Logan called, moving to sit by the coffee table at the other side of the room. âI need you to teach me how to play.â
Roman did not react.
âSweetie, thatâs you,â Patton whispered, reaching out to squeeze Romanâs hand.
A blush overtook Roman as he looked over at his mom, a smile forming on his lips. âMe?â
âOf course,â Logan nodded. By the casual shuffling of the Pooh Cards in his hands, it almost appeared as if Logan didnât recognise the gravity of calling Roman âlittle oneâ, though Patton knew his partner better than that. He knew that Logan must have noticed Romanâs need for coddling in the face of Virgilâs younger headspace.
Patton grinned as he watched Roman rush over, sitting as close to Logan as was physically possible.
Then he felt Virgil trying to burrow into his shoulder further and looked down. The boyâs neck was noticeably strained by the action since he had to stretch awkwardly seeing as he wasnât in Pattonâs lap like he usually was.
âDo you wanna sit in Papaâs lap?â
A slight nod came in reply.
âAll right, on three. Ready?â Patton secured his arms around Virgilâs back and under his diaper. âOne, two⊠three!â As he easily lifted Virgil onto his lap, he took the opportunity to subtly pat and pinch the diaper through the fabric of his onesie. Definitely wet. With a swell of satisfaction at being correct in his assumption, Patton lowered Virgil to his lap and kissed his head.
It hadnât gone unnoticed though. Once he was sitting on Pattonâs thighs, Virgil immediately whimpered and hid his face behind Meeko.
âItâs okay, baby,â Patton reassured, rocking him again. âPapa was just checking if youâre still dry.â
The explanation was met with a tiny squeak. Virgil lowered Meeko, revealing his pink cheeks and rattling the toy once more. Though he did not shake it with the same vigour he had earlier; this time Meeko was gently waved to and fro quite lazily. âBababa,â Virgil mumbled.
Apparently, the diaper check had comforted Virgil and reinforced his younger headspace. Patton sighed and held his baby closer. That was just utterly adorable.
Logan cleared his throat quite pointedly from the other side of the room, and when Patton met his eyes he mouthed silently: Is he dry?
Patton responded with a slight shake of his head. Then, strangely, he felt his lips curl into a smile. Even stranger, Logan mirrored it, and Patton was quite sure they must have been thinking the same thing:
That Virgil had had an accident again, but this time there was no sobbing. There was no hyperventilating. There was no panic attack. In fact, the only indication he had wet himself at all was the fact that he had been pushed back into his sleepy baby state, and that wasnât a bad thing whatsoever!
Looking down at him now, it was clear to Patton that the diapers were a hugely positive change for Virgil. Despite his lethargic energy, his dimples were showing at the sides of his pacifier which bobbed lazily in his mouth. As he rattled Meeko softly, his eyes sparkled with babyish curiosity. He was calm and happy. It soothed Patton immensely.
oOo
As their time together went on, Patton and Virgil cuddled and played so much that it was impossible for Patton to wipe the cheesy grin from his face. He had rocked Virgil gently, tickled his cheek softly to watch him blush and giggle, dutifully kissed Meeko whenever Virgil held the toy up to Patton with a smile, and nowâŠ
âAre you ready?â Patton asked in his most exaggerated baby-talk voice. âIs my baby ready for more bounces?â
Virgil giggled and kicked his feet a little by Pattonâs hips, facing him in his lap. Meeko was hugged tightly to his chest as he nodded.
âAhhhhâŠâ Patton started, securing his grip on Virgilâs shoulders. âBouncy, bouncy baby!â He bounced his legs on each syllable, making Virgil bob up and down in his lap with little squeals of happiness. âWhat a cute little stormcloud!â
Sweet laughter continued to tumble from behind Virgilâs pacifier. âBaba, g-gen!â
âAgain?â Patton repeated, chuckling. They had been doing this for several minutes by that point, and his legs ached from the constant lifting. But who was he to deny his baby when his eyes glittered with such joy? âOkay. Last one, sweetie.â
There was no protest, only a squeak of anticipation. Virgil really was a sweet baby.
âAhhhhh⊠bouncy, bouncy, bouncy, bouncy baby!â
Delighted laughter escaped the pair and danced in the air surrounding both of them. Then Virgil smushed his face into Meeko and made a strangled, high-pitched sound. It was a common verbal stim when he was overwhelmed by happiness.
âOh my goodness,â Patton gushed heartily, huddling Virgil closer in his lap and wrapping him in a tight hug. âYou are the sweetest, squeakiest, most adorable little baby in the whole world.â He emphasised his point by pressing a great number of kisses to Virgilâs cheek in quick succession.
Virgil suddenly whined quite desperately and pushed at Pattonâs chest to be released from his hold. Feeling a rush of concern, Patton held Virgil at armâs length, still supporting him but trying not to crowd him. âIâm sorry, was it a yucky feeling, honey?â he asked, fearing he had set off Virgilâs sensory sensitivities.
Though Virgil still smiled and promptly held Meeko up in front of Pattonâs face.Â
Patton bit his tongue through a wide smile. âWhy hello again, Meeko! Would you like some kissies too?â
âMnh,â Virgil hummed insistently, rattling the toy a little.
Chuckling, Patton leaned forward and pressed a loud, âMwah!â right on Meekoâs button nose. When he pulled back, Virgil dropped Meeko to his lap and held Pattonâs cheeks softly between his hands.
Patton was frozen in place. His brain simply couldnât handle the adorableness.
âDad, Dad, look!â
Patton held Virgilâs hands softly to stop him from squishing his cheeks for a moment. Looking over to the coffee table, he saw that Roman was holding a full deck of Pooh Cards up to him with a triumphant smile.
âYay, you won again!â Patton cheered, laughing when Virgil giggled and poked his cheeks again. âWell done, my clever little prince!
âHeâs a complete expert at this game,â Logan said, stretching his back with a click. It must have been an awkward position to be sat on the floor hunched over the coffee table for so long (though exactly how long Patton wasnât sure, he didnât care to check the time.) âI donât think I will ever be able to outsmart you at Pooh Cards, Roman.â
It was clear that Logan had purposefully let Roman win every game from the snippets of laughter and dramatic sighs Patton had heard as they played. Though Roman either hadnât clocked it or didnât care about it going by his extreme happiness.
âHow about we have some hunnypots and haycorns to celebrate?â Patton suggested, knowing the cookies would have been set by then.
âWhy donât you and Virgil go and pick them for us - only one each,â Logan hastily added with his eyebrows raised at Patton. It was a fair point to make; as much as he and Logan didnât care much for sweets and would be happy enough to share one cookie between them, Patton probably would have let the boys have several if thatâs what they so wished. He was grateful Logan was there to be a sort of filter for his blind generosity sometimes. âMeanwhile, I think Roman and I may need to expel a bit of excess energy.â
By him and Roman, Logan obviously only meant the creative side, who was currently shaking and fidgeting quite energetically in his place on the carpet. It was true that a quiet card game was quite a rare activity for the hyperactive boy, as was obvious by the energy overspilling from him.
Patton nodded, holding Virgil closely against his side as he stood from the armchair. âOkay, letâs go pick some yummy cookies for everyone, baby!â
As Patton carried Virgil to the kitchen, he heard Logan set up the soundtrack to The Tigger Movie on the speakers. It was followed by the unmistakable sound of Roman launching to his feet and starting to jump and dance around.
âAll right, can you look up for me, Vee?â They were stood in front of the rack of multicoloured cookies now. Virgil lifted his head from Pattonâs shoulder and made a hum of interest when he saw the treats. âGood boy. Now youâve got a really important job: I need you to pick some pretty cookies for everyone!â
Virgil pointed at himself with a surprise in his eyes.
âUh-huh,â Patton nodded, jostling Virgil further onto his hip with one arm as he picked up a plate from the drying rack.
âBaba,â Virgil mumbled, and Patton looked down to see he was pointing at a cookie that had gone slightly wrong. It was originally a haycorn but as the cookies all spread in the oven it had been crowded against the corner of the baking tray, becoming misshapen and wonky. It was coated in pink icing.
âThis one?â Patton lay the plate on the counter and picked up the cookie to hold it in front of Virgil.
âWub!â
âYou love it?â Patton asked.
Virgil shook his head and pointed at it again. âHarp!â
âOh, youâre right,â Patton smiled, looking at the cookie in a new light. âIt does look like a heart! That means itâs a special love cookie.â
âBeshul?â
âVery special.â He pressed a kiss to Virgilâs head. âJust like my special little baby. Do you want this one, honey?â
In response, Virgil suddenly pushed at Pattonâs hand and the cookie got lodged between Pattonâs teeth. He giggled in surprise, pulling the cookie back out of his mouth. âYou want this to be Papaâs one?â
âWub Papa!â
Just as Patton thought there were no more harsh, icy emotions in him to thaw, he positively melted at Virgilâs innocent love confession. He smiled and placed the cookie on the plate. âI love you too, baby. I think me and Mama can share that one. Now do you wanna pick one for your brother?â
After some quite serious deliberation, Virgil had decided on a green haycorn for his brother and a yellow hunnypot for himself. Patton carried both his baby and the plate of haycorn cookies back to the living room. The hunnypot cookie was held in Virgilâs fingers as he suckled on the edge of it (Patton had stored his pacifier in the pocket of his cardigan, making a mental note to invest in a pacifier clip for the future). It seemed their bouncing game had tired him out once more, as Virgilâs head promptly dropped back to Pattonâs shoulder once his task was complete.
âIâm putting your cookies on the table, you two,â Patton announced over the sound of Tiggerâs theme song once they had returned to the living room. He swerved himself and Virgil around Roman as he bounced (and Logan who bounced only when Roman looked at him, then stopped once Roman looked away), careful not to bump anyone as he lay the plate on the coffee table.
Patton then settled into the middle of the couch with a sigh, letting Virgil drop to his lap again. Thankfully the music was not overly loud and Virgil seemed unbothered by it as he sucked quite lazily on his cookie.
âIs that yummy, sweetheart?â
The soggy cookie left Virgilâs lips and was held up to Pattonâs. He humoured his baby by pretending to nibble it and humming in enthusiastic approval. âOoh, thatâs lovely! Mm-mm, very yummy. Thank you, Vee.â
It satisfied Virgil as he smiled and continued sucking on it himself, nuzzling further into Pattonâs hold.
Soon Roman had gotten tired of bouncing and Logan switched the music to set up the next chapter of their Winnie-the-Pooh audiobook, claiming that it was quiet time now.
While Logan was preoccupied, Roman had finished his cookie deftly in three bites (making Patton giggle) then he approached the couch quite shyly. âDad, can IâŠâ
âYou wanna cuddle too?â Patton asked softly, smiling in encouragement.
The acknowledgement of Romanâs unspoken request was apparently enough permission for him and he practically jumped into the spot beside Patton.
âExcuse me, I believe you are in my spot,â Logan announced on his way back to the couch. As Roman made a noise of offence, Logan pulled him up from the seat to collapse into it himself.
âHey, I was -â Roman started whining, but cut himself off with a yelp when Logan swiftly tugged him back down into his own lap. Romanâs cheeks flushed pink and he clammed up.
âYou were saying?â Logan asked in a lightly teasing tone.
Patton shook his head at their silliness. It was strange that whenever the two showed affection to each other they seemed to want to set it off with jokes and teasing. Though as Patton rocked Virgil in his lap delicately, he realised it wasnât really for him to judge how they showed affection. As long as his family was happy, he was happy. And it was clear from Virgilâs sleepy hums and Romanâs blushing cheeks bunched in a smile and Loganâs soft chuckles that his family were all perfectly happy.
His gaze dawdled a little on his partner until Loganâs eyes met his and softened, crinkling with a smile. Patton bit his lip and looked down, feeling bizarrely like a shy, lovestruck teenager.
âDad, can I have a kiss?â
The question threw Patton a little, not ever having heard such a blunt request for affection from Roman. It was unexpected but made Patton extremely proud of his son for being brave enough to ask.
âOf course, little prince!â He leaned up slightly to press a firm kiss to Romanâs cheek, noting a very light stubble there.
âAnd now Vee!â Roman immediately cried once Patton had sunk back to his seat.
Patton chuckled at Romanâs strange antics, but complied, pressing a softer kiss to Virgilâs head. The baby squeaked and buried his cheek further into Pattonâs shoulder. Some gingerbread crumbs littered Pattonâs cardigan, but he hardly cared.
Then Roman spoke again, âNow Mom!â His voice was all childish innocence, whereas his eyes screamed pure scheming adult.
A short, surprised huff escaped Patton as he looked over to Logan. His cheeks felt warm.
âWell,â Logan hummed, his lips pulling into a shy, crooked smile, âI suppose you have kissed everyone else.â He looked down at Patton expectedly. âItâs only fair, right?â
Patton thought his face would split in two with how he beamed with a smile. No more hiding, no more sneaking around. Not needing to be told twice, he pushed forward, thankful that Logan leaned down to meet him in a quick kiss. It was entirely chaste, lasting a fraction of the time all of their previous kisses had done, but it lingered in Loganâs blush and Pattonâs smile as they pulled back from each other.
The look of absolute calm in Loganâs eyes instilled such an overwhelming feeling of content in him that Patton had to take a slow, measured breath. Everything is going to be all right, Loganâs eyes seemed to whisper. I love you and I believe in you, I believe in us, and I believe in our family. Weâre all going to be all right.
And Patton believed that. He knew things werenât perfect, that they might never be. That Roman would not overcome his insecurities overnight, that Logan was still struggling to balance sternness and playfulness, that Virgil still struggled with asking for help and that they would have to deal with the repercussions of Virgil coming out of this new headspace likely confused. Reluctantly, Paton also acknowledged that there might have been something to his own caregiver headspace that was less than ideal if his jealousy and clinginess earlier were anything to go by.
Still, in that exact moment, everything was fine. They werenât going anywhere. They would continue to be a family no matter what. They had plenty of time to address these difficult things. Presently, Patton just wanted to appreciate the rest of the evening in peace.
âIs everyone ready?â Logan asked, holding his phone up to show that the audiobook was ready to play.
Virgil breathed deeply, still sucking his cookie. Roman nodded and scurried back in Loganâs lap to lean back against him.
When Loganâs questioning gaze turned to him, Patton simply nodded and shuffled on the couch to rest his head on Loganâs shoulder. âReady.â
A gentle kiss from Logan pressed to his head and Patton held Virgil closer with one arm while reaching to hold Romanâs hand with the other. He knew now that the perfect family wasnât possible. Though being surrounded by the three people he held dear in his heart, Patton also knew that this was the closest anyone could get.
âChapter Ten, in which Christopher Robin gives a Pooh Party, and we say good-byeâŠâÂ
†The End â€
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Catch me in the Club | Klaus Hargreeves x Reader
Fandom: The Umbrella Academy Pairing: Klaus Hargreeves x Reader (same as from Playing with Fire) Word Count: 1844 Warnings: Swearing, Suggestive dialogue
a/n: So this is completely self-indulgent and honestly ridiculous, but ever since seeing the new season 2 promotional posters and learning more about the plot, plus reading this post about Klaus running a strip joint in the comics (which who knows if itâll even be part of the show or not), I couldnât get this scene out of my head. Basically just an excuse to write my Reader and Klaus being 60sâ fashion icons and the shameless flirts that they are. Also titles are harddd. Donât laugh at me lol.
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Pride might not be the first emotion one would connect with the idea of a strip club, but damn if you werenât proud of what youâd built â you and Klaus, together.
Finding yourselves stranded in the middle of Dallas in the year 1960 after jumping back in time, youâd come out on the other side very much alone, only Klausâs hand still clasped in yours; the rest of the Hargreeves nowhere to be found. Thinking them dead, the two of you eventually settled down, making a new life for yourselves, deciding if you were stuck there then you might as well at least make the best of it.
As you emerged from the back dressing room to walk the main floor, you bobbed your head to the music blaring over the speakers, singing snatches of the lyrics under your breath as your gaze swept the room -- at least youâd been stranded in an era with good music, you thought. Â
In the hazy light several topless dancers gyrated and twirled effortlessly around their poles as patrons watched hungrily from the bar, some nursing beers while others stared transfixed, completely forgetting the drinks growing warm in front of them. You had to admit, there was a certain elegance to the way they moved, and you often found yourself staring, probably more often than you would admit; picking up certain moves to make use of in the bedroom later -- Klaus never complaining.
Speaking of which, you spotted Klaus behind the large circular bar filling the center of the room and you ambled toward him, catching his eye before leaning flirtatiously over the smooth shiny surface.
âHey you,â you greeted, grinning up at him as he met you with a roguish grin of his own.
You had to admit that the 60sâ surprisingly suited him. Heâd let his hair grow long; his silky brunette curls artfully framing his thin face as they cascaded down, brushing his shoulders. You probably spent about half your time running your fingers through it, relishing just how soft it was and the appreciative sighs it coaxed from Klausâs lips as he practically melted under your touch. Â
The long teal and cream coloured Nehru jacket he wore today was one of your favourites; his fashion sense just as eclectic and eye catching in the past as it was in the future and the pair of you had swiftly become connoisseurs of a strange mix of hippy and mod fashion which on anyone else would probably just look like a hot mess, but for some reason it worked for you.
The one thing you couldnât stand was staring you right in the face at the moment and you tugged on it with a frown as you batted your lashes at your boyfriend. For some ungodly reason you still couldnât fathom why Klaus had decided to trade in his dashing goatee for the long scraggly abomination that currently decorated his chin and though you tolerated it as best you could, you never missed an opportunity to remind him of your displeasure toward it.
âHey you, yourself,â Klaus replied with a chuckle, leaning in closer, gazing at you dreamily.
âHow goes the front of house?â You asked, slipping up to sit on the bar next to him, planting your hands behind you and leaning back to gaze around the room.
âOh, the usual,â he mused, âjust a lot of horny guys watching some half naked women dance for them.â You snorted in response, glancing over at him. âEverything alright backstage?âÂ
âJust a little drama, nothing I couldnât take care of,â you answered and Klaus nodded.
âThe same old drama?â he asked.Â
âThe same,â you said, rolling your eyes. Two of the women were notorious for not getting along, and while you attempted to keep them apart as often as possible they were both drama queens and liked to start shit over the pettiest things.
âSoooo,â Klaus prompted, his hand slipping toward your bare leg; crossed over your knee, your foot bouncing idly. âAre we still on for dinner later tonight?â Â
When his finger traced along the length of your thigh from the hem of your miniskirt down to your knee you glanced down, your lips twitching.
âOf course,â you replied, pointedly taking his hand from your leg with a teasing smirk and turning it to trace the âhelloâ tattooed on his palm with your finger. âIs there anything in particular youâre craving for dessert?âÂ
You could practically feel the shiver as it ran through Klaus and your smirk widened. Â
âI think you know exactly what Iâm craving,â he purred in your ear, returning the favour as a thrill ran through you as well, warmth and want filling you. Â
Unfortunately there were still several hours left til your little date, and you were now feeling incredibly impatient.
Opening your mouth to make a suggestive retort the sound of raised voices caught your attention and your eyes quickly sought out the source of the disturbance, cutting you off. Across the bar a rather rowdy patron had stood, grabbing one of the strippers and yanking her toward him, attempting to cop a feel. Without missing a beat you jumped down from the bar, your face a thunderhead as you stalked across the room.
âHey!â you snapped, stepping between the man and the dancer, murder in your eyes. âThere is a strict no touching policy in place here. So get your hands off.â
The man swayed, obviously drunk, his eyes sliding from the woman behind you to you, his gaze lazily traveling downward before finally coming back to your face before he released his grasp on the performer.
âTouch any of my employees again and youâll regret it,â you growled, your voice lowering dangerously as you met his gaze. As you confronted him the woman quickly slipped away, hurrying to the back room to compose herself.
âOh, and what are you gunna do about it, missy? Throw me out? Iâll just come back tomorrow,â the smug bastard slurred, laughing raucously, glancing over at his buddies. Crossing his arms over his chest he turned back around, leering at you.
Having caught up to you, Klaus appeared, sweeping in to stand at your shoulder, silently offering you backup in case you needed it.
âNo,â you replied, no trace of amusement in your voice as you glared the man down, âfirst Iâll break your hand, then Iâll throw you out myself.â
âOooh, real scary!â he laughed, glancing over his shoulder for support from his friends. âIâd like to see you try, girly.â
His laughter cut off with a yelp as you snatched his wrist, twisting til you felt resistance, the manâs surprise turning to a panicked whine and his eyes locked on Klaus at your shoulder.
âHey man, w-what the fuck? C-control your woman, why donâtcha!â he cried, trying to pull away from your grasp, but you only wrenched harder.
Klaus looked from the man to you, a small smile playing at his lips and he shrugged lightly. âThatâs not really how it works around here,â he explained, the look in his emerald eyes decidedly proud. âSheâs the boss and what she says goes, so unless you uh, want the use of your hand, which ooh that looks painful,â he exclaimed, his brows drawing down in faux concern as he covered his mouth sarcastically with his hand, âthen I suggest you do as the fraulein says.â
The man gaped at Klaus, his mouth moving soundlessly, eyes darting back and forth between the two of you.
Lifting your eyebrows impatiently you gave his wrist one more yank before he was cracking. âAlright, alright!â he cried, his voice climbing in pitch, âIâll go!â
âSee that you do, and if you try to come back, youâll find we wonât be as welcoming.â With a tight smile you released him and he instantly stumbled back, pulling his arm tight against his chest, cradling it as he backed away. Â
âYou and your girlfriend are fucking crazy, man!â he exclaimed before stumbling for the door, bumping blindly into several other patrons on his way and weaving through the two bouncers who were now looking your way. Turning your fiery gaze on the manâs group of friends they quickly turned back to the bar, their shoulders hunched as if to say they wanted none of their fellowâs problems.
Clapping your hands as if satisfied you turned to Klaus, finding an awe filled grin on his face. Â
âI love it when you threaten people, [Y/N], itâs so hot,â he murmured, reaching for your arm and pulling you close.
âOh? You like that, huh?â you asked wryly, cocking an eyebrow up at him. âToo bad weâre on the clock right now.â
Klaus shrugged. âYâknow, I really donât care,â he mused, leaning in for a kiss, hooking his finger under your chin to tilt your face up.
When you pulled back you frowned slightly. âKlaus, you know I love you, but⊠when the fuck are you gunna lose that God awful thing?â you huffed, tugging once more on his long beard.
âAw, but you love me more than you hate my beard,â he pointed out, his lips twisting cheekily. âIâd say that's a real testament to our relationship, you know?â
âMhmm, and one of these mornings youâre gunna wake up to the damned thing cut off,â you replied, turning to walk back to the office.
âH-hey! Hey hey hey,â Klaus exclaimed hastily, hurrying to catch up to you, your airy fringed kimono billowing out behind you in your haste before he caught your wrist, yanking you around and back toward him, catching you in his arms to hold you in place.
âI promise Iâll trim my beard once we get home tonight, okay?â Klaus relented sincerely. âWill that make you happy, [Y/N]?â he asked, staring down at you with those damn effective puppy dog eyes of his.
âHave I told you yet today how much I love you?â you asked, a smile cracking through.
âHmmm, I do seem to recall, vaguely, you saying something to that effect this morning, while we were in bed,â he mused, âbut Iâd love to hear it again, if you please,â he said hopefully.
Resting your arms around his shoulders you grinned up at him, your foul mood instantly evaporating and you were past caring who saw -- it wasnât as if your employees and regulars werenât used to this sort of thing by now anyways.
âKlaus, I love you, you wonderful, wonderful man. Now, we really need to get back to work.â
The silly grin that lit up his face at your words was more than worth it and he laid a quick peck to your lips before pulling away reluctantly.
âYes, [Y/N], I am your willing slaveee!â he called, bowing to you with a flourish. âUntil later,â he drawled, waggling his eyebrows at you suggestively before he swanned off, and you shook your head fondly as you watched him, biting your lip to keep from grinning too much before you too turned to get back to work as well.
#the umbrella academy#tua#klaus hargreeves#klaus hargreeves x reader#klaus x reader#klaus hargreeves imagines#tua s2 spoilers#??? not really spoilers idk#my writing
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Finishing up SoNY, âbadâ end and final thoughts!
But first, the early game over.
Wow, she just gets shot. Not even slurped? Thatâs rude as hell XD;;
And on to the âbadâ end!
Beginning is much the same, ofc.
âYouâre too in love with weaving a good story and establishing a seductive narrative to let facts get in the way.â Foreshadowing for the âgoodâ end, maybe?
God that Embrace scene gives me literal goosebumps.
Alright! Last time I did Danse Macabre and Retributive Justice, letâs try The Risks of Swiping Right!
lmao god Iâd eat this guy too. Back to the ghost club! That legitimately is a really neat scene. ...Ooh yes so thatâs where the girl was from.
Panhard just lowkey dying at the mental image of Katherine Weise in a fast food restaurant is so good.
The sweet scene between Julia and Dakota hits a bit different after the âgoodâ end XD;;
Went to the park, reminisced, and helped out the guy. That was sweet ;_; High-humanity Julia, this time!
âFairy God Mother?â is great but âVin Diesel?â is objectively the funnier response.
âShining even more brightly than usual, Aisling.â Samira got a cru-ush~
Poor Julie. Itâs probably been tough without Sophie around :(
Huh. Interestingly, refusing to lie to Mia results in Julia actually feeling genuine loyalty to the Cammies (for now, at least).
Believing Agathon is still alive = more optimistic = different dialogue! See, this is how you make choices have consequences, game!
Oooh boy time to meet Adelaide XD;;
âShe uncrosses her legs in a strangely seductive motion. In her mindâs eye, it probably looked like Sharon Stone in Basic Instinct, but in reality, it had all the grace of a tracksuit Slav squatting.â *snickering*
Fight me, Adelaide >:(
âsup Nastya. Went with the slightly less disruptive routine here XD Huh, sheâs an aspiring DJ! Julia is deeply confused as to how being a DJ and being head of security works together.
lmao Julia referring to Hope as a girlboss. That phrase has lost all meaning to me...
The conversation between Julia and Father Leonard is still really interesting. Man, you know who I want Julia to talk to? Anatole. Interesting insights into balancing being queer Catholic vampires there for sure.
lmao oh my god I want to fight this street reporter.
âI can almost feel my brain losing its wrinkles.â *snort*
Yeaghhhh the Abyss bit is still so creepy...
Oops. Being honest regarding Tamika and Torqueâs relationships gets a fail :(
Oh, or not XD That works! Also, uh, apparently the giant albino ghoul alligator is real, according to New York by Night. Heâs Calebrosâ pet.
âBecause I think I have a pretty good nose for peopleâs auras. And when I take a good look at you... ...somehow, I have a feeling youâre a surprisingly decent person. Whatever way of unlife you choose, I hope you donât change it. And that you remember my advice.â :)
âI know.â Oof.
âHi.â âWAAAH!â lmao sorry Princess XD;; Just trying to imagine Qadirâs face as he tells Julia to find a 1990 glass statue of Scrooge McDuck... dying...
Oh sheâs so a Toreador XD Low art options are a fantasy book, an anime DVD, or a video game... those can all be arty, though! And went with the anime DVD called âRirisu no Daiboukenâ... that translates to âAdventures of Lilithâ. How on the nose XD âThe cover says âLilithâs Carnal Carnivalâ.â Oh. Yeah, thatâd do it XD
âThis 90s original video anime presents us with a tale of five big-bosomed samurai warriors travelling through America in search of General Hastavista, The Incubus King. Donât let all the titillation misguide you: the main draws here are peerless direction, a nearly avant-garde editing rhythm and dialogue that coyly comments on traditional gender roles in anime. Once you see the animation in the final battle, youâll understand why it never fails to set a sakuga fanâs heart ablaze!â
Sheâs my new favourite.
âSo can I know your name now?â
âHmmm... Let me think...
No. <3âł
I need to stress that the heart appears in the dialogue box. Like. The actual less-than-three heart.
Didnât investigate the rat this time, so Qadir did and I die. âGlad youâre alright, little guy.â Qadir...
Still not over the drunk blood doll rats.
Kaiserâs still a goddamn creep and this time Julia is not going too far. She still has her humanity, dammit. Final set of traits:
Loyal to the end
Glass half-full
Not into a bad cop schtick
Honesty is the best policy
No more human, still humane
Onwards to the âbadâ end! Oops, and Dakota still did the Single White Female thing XD;;
Man Iâm still really curious who the âgood friendâ is!!
Okay! Time for end game!!
So thatâs the good friend, huh? âLet me phrase it differently, then. Youâre not Ecaterina the Wise, the Agitator of Prague, a Brujah elder causing turbulences all over the world... are you?â
Mention of Christof! Mention of Christof doing shady shit :| Poor Hana.
âAn immigrant from Eastern Europe comes to New York City, takes the position she always expected to find herself in, is molded into someone who is no longer herself.â
Julia and Dakota representing Carthage is kind of neat.
I want to say the mention of St Jude is a reference, but Iâm not sure what to XD;; Is that from Redemption? Christof could have been the one to tell Hana that.
âLike a two-person human centipede loop or something. An Ouroburos? Or an, uhh, Mobius strip?â No, thatâs the other traditionally Sabbat clan XD
Thatâs. Thatâs a hell of a reconciliation XD âYeah, letâs give it a try. By the way Iâm on the run for my unlife, want to go to California and try to find utopia?â
Julia, wear a fucking mask XD
âHey.â
âYeah?â
âDo you love me?â
â... Of course I do. For now, at least.â
I still donât know if I love her. Or even if I can love anyone, for that matter. Iâm a fucking monster, after all. I donât even know if weâll exist next month. The prospects are not looking good. But although I canât see myself in the rearview mirror right now...
...I will remember this image of us leaving the city, somewhat melancholic, and somewhat hopeful, forever. And maybe the meaning of this image will be clarified with time. Or maybe I will just force a more positive description on it, and that is what Iâll believe.
No matter what happens... even if oceans of blood lie before us, I will make this a cherished memory.
Whatever possible salvation still remains for me... ...it probably lies in the eyes of another.
Oh dang I have chills.
So the âbadâ ending is about the subverted compromise. Julia resigns herself to letting the compromise about the truth of Callihanâs death go ahead. âCatherineâ is a walking compromise to hide the Ecaterinaâs real deeds. But while Hana is still stuck in her role for now, Julia refuses to accept the compromise sheâs made, both the one relating to the investigation and the compromise she made of her own views and morals. It might blow up in her face, yeah. But damn, sheâs going to try.
So, final thoughts! For the sake of completion, this is what I said about Coteries:
And of course this is the part where the game all falls apart :-\
Just⊠god. This is probably the biggest problem with CoNY, and the reason I didnât bother getting it until it was like⊠60% off. The bulk of the game is great - the writing is intriguing, the design is stunning. But the choices themselves are so limited itâs barely worth even getting it at 60% off!
You have three choices of characters, with their own opening chapters and own individual scenes with their touchstones. You have four choices of coterie members, and three sidequests. You can probably get in at least three full story arcs and a sidequest or two, but youâre only ever limited to two of your coterie members showing up at the not-yet-endgame.
So letâs say you decide to play all three protags, which, indeed, is encouraged (thereâs an achievement for it). You are going to repeat coterie arcs and side quests, because there simply arenât enough for three unique playthroughs.
And then you get to the end and literally everything is scripted. You get attacked by the SI. You get rescued by your two coterie members (and then never see them again, despite the game being called Coteries of New York). You meet Torque, you escape the SI, Sophie reveals her plan to Torque, you go to Ellis Island, Adelaide kills Sophie (and despite the fact that youâre given multiple options there, none of them work), Arturo does his spiel, end of game. You donât even get to choose between ending up blood bound or going âno fuck youâ and at least dying with a bit of dignity!
I just. I really want to like it, and there genuinely is a lot there to like! But uuuugh the ending. Like damn at least give the poor protag the option to choose what happens to them!
Anyway. Not sure whatâs next. To get all the achievements, you have to finish with all three protags, so thatâs three full runs and a lot of repetitiveness (compare to, say, Bloodlines or Night Road. I have eighty-five hours on Night Road and thereâs still stuff I havenât seen!), so I canât even just⊠rush it through up to the meeting with the touchstones on the third play. Nope. Gotta finish it :-\
Final rating: 6/10
8/10 characters, 9/10 atmosphere, 8/10 story aside from ending, 3/10 story ending, 2/10 replayability. Final consensus: get it on major sale if you can, otherwise, you might as well just watch an LP. I might do that instead of doing a third run, although I at least want to do a second.
I ended up revising that 6/10 to 5.5/10 after finishing all runs and getting the achievements just out of how goddamn repetitive it was. So, how does Shadows measure up?
Absolutely continued with all the things I enjoyed about CoNY (characters, atmosphere, and writing), and of the bits I hated (cookie cutter protagonists, lack of real choice, repetitiveness, the godawful ending), every single part has been completely improved.
Instead of three fledglings so similar they even have the same internal thoughts, we have Julia, whoâs got such a distinct voice that she becomes the most memorable game protag Iâve seen in years, and Iâm including non-VtM games in this. This is absolutely her game, and itâs just... absolutely fascinating to read and watch.
Related - actual real choices. There are five key choices that determine the ending, and every single one has actual consequence in-game. You get different dialogue. Different introspection. Different philosophies. And this carries across - if Julia believes Agathon is alive, sheâs more optimistic about her relationship with Dakota, too. And of course, both endings are completely distinct and incredibly written - the âgoodâ ending where Julia gives in to her most Lasombra instincts, plays the game, wins it, gets power and respect at the expense of her humanity and avoiding all those wraiths... or the âbadâ ending when she listens to her morals, reconciles with Dakota, and leaves for California, uncertain, but hopeful.
Not a lot of repetitiveness. Yes, by design, youâll probably do two playthroughs. The main plot is much the same, but there are enough options there to get multiple dialogue options and stuff. And for the little sidequests, you can actually get all in with just the two playthroughs, only repeating like... two, I think. Still, I wasnât feeling actively bored like I was midway through my second run of CoNY!
Loved seeing more in-depth backstory and development for the coterie members. Agathonâs section was particularly fascinating, literally getting into his head.
And just. Atmosphere and music is so, so good.
Final rating: 9/10. Thank you, Draw Distance, you hit it out of the park.
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