#so this guy is how I figured out I was trans and he literally changed my life thank you king

[milessunflowers]

t4t!yuki tsunoda!!!!

VINVIN I LOVE THIS BRAINROT ACTUVATED

ftm!yuki tsunoda x ftm!reader

synopsis: no matter what happens, you guys are sticking together through thick and thin and being absolutely the hottest paddock couple at the same time

author's note: YUKI TSUNODA MI AMOR 🗣🗣🗣 if you couldn't tell i love yuki more than life itself like he's so cute and hot AND THE PICTURE I USED MY JAW WAS ON THE FLOOR (as much as it can be being half paralyzed lmao) IN CRIMINAL LAW I WAS BLOWN AWAY, STUNNED INTO SILNCE BY HIS BEAUTY. anyways- i got carried away because yuki 😍 so it's long and gets suggestive in parts 😅

first thing you guys bond over is transitioning/figuring out you were trans

thats how you first started talking because you're friends with pierre and pierre knew you were trans so when yuki, who is the same age as you, was feeling dysphoric, pierre dragged you over and forced you guys to talk

turns out it was the best decision pierre has ever made

because right after that you started bonding and grew close

then you, yuki, and pierre were known around the paddock as the three musketeers

though everyone thought pierre was third wheeling

pierre thought he was third wheeling half the time

however, he was glad you and yuki could find solace in each other

and even tried setting you guys up one time

youre both oblivious ™️

you guys think it's just a hang out and do what you always did

it only took months more of pierre's set ups for it to sink in for you guys

and then, all of a sudden, it clicks

next thing you know, the two of you are living together and sharing clothes

didnt seem like a drastic change for everyone on the outside, but you guys felt the change and were so giggly and happy about it

always, always sharing food and drinks because i feel like that's yuki's love language plus it helps him feel better on the bad days

you are always praising his cooking and literally obsessed with anything he makes

like genuinely

you could die and come back to life for your boyfriend's food

you also give a lot of gifts because that's your love language

so a lot of exchange going on

not that you guys mind, you get yummy food and yuki gets his favorite shirts of your's

when you guys are together, dysphoria I'd hardly known because you guys are constantly reminding each other how handsome yu are/he is

but when he's away, it does hit and you have to speak on the phone for hours to keep from crying

after the redbull seat thing, it got so bad that yuki refused to leave the bed for a few days until you finally coaxed him out by giving him all his favorite pieces of your clothing and then giving him cuddles and food and watching random shows on the tele

and if there's a bad race, you are there to the rescue as you try to be there for every race

you guys aren't big on pda, but you do love holding hands in public

because for both of you it's like an anchor

you guys go on a lot of dates to try restaurants and like walking around museums (going based on yuki's vibes)

you guys take so many pictures together and have so many photo dumps like every other week

fans are obsessed because you guys are so adorable

sometimes you sneak in some more suggestive photos

mainly of you biting at yuki's neck with him grinning behind his phone

but even that isn't surprising to anyone anymore

what is surprising is how loud you guys are though

like no one expects you guys to be that loud, nor would they expect to hear the headboard banging against the wall

seriously, whoever is in the room next to you guys has to blast music in their headphones at full blast so they can't hear you

as i mentioned in bed chem, yuki is a power bottom so he's super bossy and likes control without having to do much work

and you are so so down for it because you find it incredibly hot

no one is surprised when yuki shows up with loads of hickeys/bites litering his neck, and then you showing up with just as much

you guys have no shame in it

vcarb pr is pissed though

so that means double the media training for both of you, but none of it sinks in

you guys seriously could care less

you're having fun so you basically tell them to fuck off

because the very next race you guys show up with the same thing

pisses them off so bad

makes you guys giggle and smile, which also turns into wanting it to happen more

and it does, a lot more

seriously, no one can stop you guys since you got together, which is a blessing and a curse

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I'm just curious since I absolutely adore all your trans Ed fics, what made you read Ed as being trans? Is it more of a personal headcanon since we tend to see ourselves in fictional characters, or did you notice some tiny detail on the show that made you think so?

Oh my friend, I'm so glad you ask.

The cool thing about reading Ed as trans, I think, is that you do not even have to squint to do it. Literally you need to change exactly nothing, and this read suddenly adds a lot of nuance and additional juicy layers to his story and his journey with masculinity.

Ed's whole deal with masculinity, precisely exactly all of it, makes him feel so much like a trans guy who never outgrew the "I need to be hypermasculine so I pass" phase, fitting that read so precisely that given there are trans writers on the OFMD team I would be absolutely SHOCKED if at least some of it wasn't intentional. Every single trans guy I know has been through a version of this, where you come out and you know you're a man but you need everyone else to know, too, and so you lean very hard into masculinity to make damn sure you pass. And not just pass, but pass perfectly. Ed is forcing himself into such a heavy ideal of masculinity that it feels artificial; he needs to make sure everyone sees him as this perfect ideal of a masculine man that he cannot possibly live up to because no one could.

Certainly, parts of Ed's hyper-masculine presentation seem to be things that genuinely make him happy and bring him joy. That's important. Ed's happy to be a man, the problem is that he's trying to force himself into such a narrow idea of masculinity that it's stifling him. It's preventing him from enjoying more ""feminine"" things that he genuinely loves, because he's terrified of being seen as less of a man for it, and people like Izzy reinforce the idea that if Ed fucks up in his performance of masculinity, he's going to be in danger because of that. It's very real, and the added juiciness from reading Ed as trans adds so much to the great story that's already there, I think. There's this additional element of Ed knowing he's a man but needing to make sure everyone else could never doubt it, there's an additional perceived danger to slipping up, there's a sort of jealous admiration for guys like Stede who seem, at least on the surface, so much more comfortable with a different type of masculinity that Ed wishes he could have more of.

And on top of that, there's just a lot of other little additional things, like:

Ed making his beard his whole brand, it just screams beard dysphoria and "no one could ever claim I'm not a man because the beard is my whole THING."

Something about his relationship with his name, and how hard he has to try to get people like Izzy to call him by his name in front of others

The way Ed is dehumanized when he dares to step outside a very safe, masculine gender presentation - it's why Izzy saying "this thing you've become" when Ed is wearing a robe and painted nails hits so hard for me, I think

Okay. okay. listen. You know the scene where Ed makes CJ whip him in the balls. Listen. Ed baby. It just SCREAMS "people here don't know I'm trans and I don't know how much getting hit in the balls should ACTUALLY hurt so I'm gonna lay it on really really thick just to be safe"

There's a lot to be said about Ed and his clothing in a lot of directions, but I'm gonna leave it at how he's really figured out a safe set of clothing that works for him and consistently allows him to be read as this super masculine guy, and he's scared to step away from that. Also, I really like imagining the full-fingered gloves at the end of s1 as a way to cover up the nail polish on his fingernails until it wears off.

I think it's very sweet that Ed tends to be very private when talking about his personal and sex life with others, but a very, very easy explanation for how that got started is he just doesn't want to go around sharing personal details about his body with people!

Yeah. A trans read of Ed is so shockingly easy, fits so well, and adds so much to his journey, frankly I'm amazed it's not more common.

[sparklecarehospital]

been reflecting on my year a bit, and i was thinking about something. i think i know what the best thing i did for myself this year was.

making cometcare public. making the ask blog.

ive had this AU stirring in my brain since 2019, ever since i got really attached to doomi during the haunted arc. one reason i went so long without revealing pollarrydoomi as a ship to readers was because doom's crush wasn't public information until late 2021.

i had kept his crush a mystery for 3 years, but revealed it after a fun experience where people figured out who it was through guessing. i'm pretty sure i did a poll about it? asking people to guess who they thought it was, and uni won the vote, meaning everyone had already figured it out.

after pollarrydoomi was revealed and i started drawing art for it and people made fanart for it, i still couldn't post any of my AU art because ally wasn't public and she and howie were in the AU. in july 2022, for the comic's birthday, i revealed ally as a character to the readers. others around the time had started to notice characters i had in pfps and i ended up telling everyone i did have pollarrydoomi ship kids, but i didn't make them public.

in november 2022, i revealed eve on toyhouse. after her reveal, i would soon reveal sly as well in december 2022 on my birthday (revealing sly as a birthday present to myself is such a funny gesture now that you guys know how important he is to me). over the next few weeks i revealed cream, frosty, and marco as well. all of the main cometkids except chem.

then one day someone out there suggested that i make an ask blog for the cometcare AU. it was such a spontaneous decision, and i didn't even really know what i was gonna do with it at first. i was just kinda messing around. but when i made the blog i realized that if i wanted this AU to be experienced in complete authenticity, i couldn't make uni cis.

so i revealed uni being trans through the blog, despite the fact i'd gone so many years without ever revealing her identity. why did i do it? there's a lot of reasons. not wanting to make her a "dad" in the AU contributed, but also i felt like it wouldn't be detrimental to the story to confirm a character being trans. it also made me (and the crew in general) a lot more comfortable being able to properly refer to uni with her actual pronouns.

making the ask blog really changed me, because finally i could share this little family and comfort story i'd built in my brain with the world and make it real and make content for it and let people consume it.

but what stopped me most of all?

i've said it many times before... but i felt like it was cringey.

i felt like making an AU with 93985893844 fankids in a ridiculous complicated polycule wasn't something a Serious content creator should do, and i was really worried the reception would be negative or people would think it was stupid or something. i did NOT expect it to become as popular as it is. the blog actually has more followers than the MAIN ASK BLOG for the canon comic. it was received SO POSITIVELY and the fact it was just kind of blows me away.

it means so much to me. being able to share the most special thing in my life with people and for people to actually like it and have fun with me and want to see it, and for me to be able to not have to follow strict professionalism about spoilers and chronological storytelling, and being able to change and add in things whenever i felt like it. it's such a freeing experience.

when i was a kid, i used to make stories and OCs and i didn't take them as seriously as i do the sparklecare reboot. this kind of turned into my entire life and career kinda, so i had to take it more seriously. but making this AU honestly just makes me feel like i'm a kid again, it makes me feel like i can have fun and literally do whatever the fuck i want without worrying what people think or if it's realistic or if it makes any sense.

i know though, that some people don't like pollarrydoomi. and i know why. whether it's because of being attached to barruni (of course, they're the canon ship and main characters, i get it) or just having discomfort with the idea of shipping doom with anyone when canonically he hasn't experienced a redemption arc... i get it. i know not everyone likes it.

and that's okay! people are entitled to having their own feelings about content. i understand it. and i've come to accept that's always going to be the case with anything i do with these characters.

but i'm still going to do this for myself. i do this because it makes me happy to just have fun and not worry about being serious all the time. it feels good, especially when it's with characters that are really really important to me.

cometcare is genuinely the most special and important thing i've ever made for myself, it's such a huge piece of my identity and it makes me who i am. and being able to make this story public and share it with people and share these things that have been in my brain for so long with others means so much to me.

that's why i think it was the best thing i've done this year. it's kind of literally changed my life to be able to talk about them. it's made me happier than i've ever been making content. i'm not just making it to entertain myself alone anymore, i'm making it to entertain others like i do with other stuff. and the fact people actually like it still is unbelievable to me.

so, i guess my outlook for next year as it comes is to continue to stop taking everything so seriously. i can tell my stories however i want to. i hope others can realize they can do this too.

please make whatever you want, whenever you what, as much as you want, even if it doesn't make sense or if it's "cringe". you will be so much happier when you realize as a creator you DON'T have to take all of this so seriously. the comic still exists and people read it even if i'm doing this. You Can Do Whatever You Want And Nobody Can Ever Stop You. the only person who can stop you is yourself when you let your inhibitions get in the way of your ability to create things for yourself.

have fun! life is too short to take everything you do seriously

[velvetvexations]

This is a protective ask. It encourages you to check whether you really want to answer the asks beneath yet. Be good to yourself, you do good work for all of us <3

Thank you, anon. <3

sick of feeling like queer spaces seem to expect masculine people to be protectors and supporters without ever expecting to have to give us protection and support too. it's always how trans mascs can be allies to trans femmes and never the other way around. it's what about the scary trans man in the women's bathroom and little discussion of the threat we are under in these scenarios. it's always use your masculinity to protect me, but nobody can give without receiving. support and protection are features of community and community needs to be at least somewhat mutual. I refuse to constantly put myself in danger to protect someone who sees my suffering simply as an inherent duty of my presentation. let me be butch and slow and gentle for a change. let me be scared and held please.

I'll hold you. It's okay. You don't have to put yourself in danger to be a man, I promise.

people love love love to be blatantly misogynistic towards trans men/mascs and be like "well actually its subversive because he's a man! teehee!" was it subversive when i got told to shut up because i was the only women present (post coming-out) was it subversive when i got told i had to wear a dress to show off my feminine figure (post coming-out) was it subversive when i got called shrill mid-argument (post-coming out) was it subversive when nobody except me would clean the communal areas in the flat because i "did it so well" (post coming-out) was it subversive when i had my music taste made fun of when i was a 13 year old girl? is it subversive now that im a 20 year old trans guy? am i not the same person? is it subversive when people talk about trans men the same way people talk about teenage girls. is talking about teenage girls like that subversive if they come out as trans men later. or is it maybe a little different?

I'm sorry anon, you deserve so much better.

This discourse is always so fucking bizarre because IRL I'll be hanging out with trans women, getting fun updates from my friend on how her E dosage is going and her first foray into wired bras, spending time with the only other transmasc I know IRL at a 'women + nonbinary people' event because that's literally the only queer space near us intended for transmascs, and it's just incredibly obvious people perpetuating this discourse don't go outside

touching grass is vital

The shortest line joke reminds me of the fact that when I was more femme presenting & the women's toilets were blocked off, I went into the men's bathroom and a man went 'Ah! You scared me' and I was like at last, I am the threat <3 I haven't tested to see what will happen if I go to the men's bathroom now that I've started getting weird looks from women from being in theirs. Probably more of the same. It's hard out here being a bathroom liberation free the nipple communist

so true

i spent an hour arguing with a TRF and i'm exhausted. there's a reason i have a boundary with myself about getting into discourse. i don't know how you do it, but thank you for doing it from those that can't <3

I do what I must because I can <3

oh and then the same person said she think its funny to call trans men ‘birthday boys’… i neeeeed to mock and infantilise all trans men because a couple of them disagreed with me!

context

if someone treats you that way call them a slur back until they stop

(do not do that)

Yo it hit me over the head just now- i think there's a large portion of transfems who never did any gender work beyond their own. Like the running joke of 'of course every guy secretly wants to be a girl'; I'm not sure they can conceptualize us wanting to be masculine for any reason so there has to be some sort of 'ulterior motive'

Correct, though stupid selfish assholes with the same lack of comprehension or desire to comprehend the experiences of others come in all kinds.

[hockeyisforthegays]

firm believer that yuuji realises her indifference to fashion (she has preferences but not strong interest) is because of a certain amount of gender dysphoria that she was entirely unaware of before realising shes trans. even after transitioning shes still stuck in the "function over form" mindset until nobara starts bullying her into wearing cuter shit.

her being into like, cute athleisure but also like... over the top cute/creepy/gothic fashion is so... she has such weird taste canonically i love her being into weird fashion♡♡ (i say weird with immense affection in my heart)

nobara & yuuji as besties is like. 50% of my trans yuuji headcanons ngl. nobara suddenly going "i suddenly find you less annoying now that you're a girl. huh." and yuuji just. unsure if shes insulted by that or not.

ALSO

pairing this with itafushi in which megumi does a big old 🏳️‍🌈✖️❓🤨 because he kinda figured he was gay before yuuji transitions and now hes ???

and of course yuuji not changing her name & people getting confused about which is which between her & megumi when nobara or gojo or maki or whoever talks about them

plus like. t4t itafushi where megumi is a trans guy... gojo out here with experience with trans kids pulling out his wallet like "imma make this girl's entire year :)"

hi anyway i saw your reblog of my egg yuuji comic & was reminded that i love trans yuuji ♡ (starfai is my main/snailmp3 is my sideblog)

YES. LITERALLY THATS WHAT IM TALKING ABOUTTTT the eternal trans experience of oh i dont care that much about how i dress (changes gender) oh i. well hm. this can be joyful actually?

yuuji in creepy cute is so perfect wait. her horror movies... wearing cutesie-fied human earthworm earrings she got off etsy... nobara is like those are ugly as SIN and she's like??? D: theyre so cute though??? and the movie is about LOVE???

t4t itafushi reallll im too about to fall asleep to say anything coherent about it except ITS SO REAL

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Hi everyone,

I found a very disheartening article about an 11 year old boy being handcuffed and put into a patrol car after he had an incident in one of his classes. According to the article:

The Douglas County school district and sheriff’s office have resolved a lawsuit with a local family and agreed to safety improvements for students with special needs.

The ACLU of Colorado filed a lawsuit against the Douglas County School District, Douglas County Sheriff’s Office and specific school resource officers in 2021 on behalf of an 11-year-old boy with autism.

The boy was handcuffed and left in a patrol car for hours after an incident with another student. There is police body camera video showing how the 11-year-old was handled.

“He unfortunately harmed himself in the back of the car, becoming so dysregulated based on what had happened to him. He was also then taken to a juvenile center, and his parents had to bond him out for $2,500,” said Sara Neel, an ACLU attorney.

The full article will be below.

This is just unnecessary. I get that some autistic people, and people in general, can have issues with emotional responses and aggression. I’m not sure if this incident was caused by said behavior, but handcuffing a kid is going a bit too far. They should’ve tried to talk to him and figure out why this happened, not handcuff and throw him in a patrol car. (Not literally throwing).

This is just another example of how autistic kids are treated by an authority figure.

In one article I posted, a boy was kicked out of a theater because he went to the bathroom with his mom. The person running the theater was very disrespectful and even had the audacity to be transphobic at the end when he said the bathrooms aren’t meant for trans people.

The boy was only going to the bathroom with his mom, who mentioned that he needed help when going to the bathroom. The other women in the room seemed understanding and didn’t say a word. I wish the guy running the theater would be more understanding. He was just rude and very disrespectful.

I found the article if you want to read through it.

Anyway, I just wanted to talk about an article I found today that made me a bit upset and angry. I hope those of you who celebrate thanksgiving are having a wonderful day/night. ♥️

[xf-cases-solved]

S1E14: Gender Bender

Case: In what is arguably one of the most "why did you write this??" plots so far, our dynamic duo (per Mulder's request, I might add) investigate the deaths of five victims who appear to have, like... been fucked to death? Or something?

Actually I have to interrupt my own summary here, bc I just looked up the Wikipedia page (yes, bc I was trying to remember the state, shut up), and Glen Morgan is apparently quoted as saying he wanted "an episode with more of a sexy edge." How that ended up being this particular episode, I cannot say. That is an X-File in and of itself.

But I digress. People are dying of mb really high levels of pheromones caused by super mind-blowing sex. Sure. Also no one is sure if this killer is male or female. (They somehow manage to not even entertain the idea that any of the victims might have been gay, which I thought was an impressive feat of elephant avoidance.)

ANYWAY. Their investigation leads them to Massachusetts, where a bunch of sci-fi not-Amish people are chilling out doing not-Amish people things. Stuff kind of just snowballs from there. Mulder jumps down into the not-Amish people's ritual cellar with no backup and then proceeds to reprimand Scully for being reckless; Scully (for the first, but unfortunately not last time) almost bangs someone bc she is being manipulated due to some supernatural phenomenon; I laugh A LOT alone in my work office bc I had forgotten the stupid twist ending; and Nicholas Lea is a starving artist who has to take the roles he's offered if he ever wants to be bumped up to recurring character status. Sigh. Hustling the club scene used to be so simple...

Does someone die in the cold open: Yes. He is fucked to death. Or something.

Does Mulder present a slideshow: Yes! Of dead people! Who were fucked to death! Or something!

Does the evidence survive the investigation: The evidence doesn't even stay on this planet.

Whodunit: A horny alien cosplaying as a gender fluid Amish person. No, seriously.

Convictions: Zip.

Did they solve it: No. This is my very first explicit no with no qualifiers. They 1. did not figure out the cause of death definitively, 2. did not apprehend the suspect, 3. lost literally all of their evidence, and 4. the government wasn't even hiding anything this time, they just got outsmarted by some horny aliens and were left with nothing. In fact, I bet they actually know less now than when they started. Failure from top to bottom, guys, good work.

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General Total Stats:

(green means stat has changed since last ep; red means new stat added to list)

Total Cases *Definitively* Solved So Far: 6 (streak ended. brutally)

Total Number of "Mulder/Scully, it's me" phone calls: 1

Total Number of Times Scully Has Conveniently Not Seen Something Crucial: 4

Total Number of Times Mulder Has Been in Mortal Danger: 5

Total Number of Times Scully Has Been in Mortal Danger: 4 (upped it another half point, bc i don't thiiiink the guy coercing her intended to put her life in danger. he just ("just") wanted to sexually assault her, but also apparently fucking those guys kills you, so. another toss up)

Total Number of Sexually Charged, Uncomfortably intimate, and/or Flirty Moments Between Friendly Coworkers: 8 (for an episode that was meant to have a "sexy edge," it was deeply unhorny all around, even between our good good coworkers. they should have brought back that horny fire expert from episode 12 to bring up the heat, pun not intended)

Total Number of Autopsies Scully Has Performed On Screen: 1

Total Number of Times Scully Plays Doctor: 1

Total Number of Times Mulder Talks to an Informant: 5

Total Number of Times People Making Out in a Car Are Hurt or Killed: 2 (when i made that stat, part of me was like "mb i am misremembering how often that happens, and it won't even come up that much," and then it happened in the very next episode)

Total Number of Nosebleeds: 4

Total Number of Times Mulder Has Tasted/Sniffed/Touched Something Questionable Without Following Proper Safety Procedures: 2 (don't touch and sniff the weird alien goo wall??? i know for a FACT you keep rubber gloves in your pocket)

Total Number of Times Someone Says "Trust No One": 1

Total Number of Times Someone Says "I Want to Believe": 2

Total Number of Cigarettes Cigarette Smoking Man Has Smoked: 2

Total Number of Maggie Scully Sightings: 1

Total Number of Alex Krycek Sightings: still 0, but like, uh... definitely the closest we've come so far

Total Number of Times I Had to Look Up What State the Episode Takes Place in Even Though I Literally Just Watched It: 4 ½ (yeah i couldn't even pretend that i paid attention)

Total Number of Times I Had to Look at an Episode's Wikipedia Page to Fill This Out Because It Was Fucking Confusing and/or Too Boring for Me to Pay Attention: 2 (i didn't need to, but i did read the wikipedia page anyway just out of pure curiosity, bc why did they write that episode? i mean like, i was entertained, which ig makes it a win, but also just... why?)

[squarebracketsmileyface]

Okay, so I saw some art of fem Jay a couple days ago and it inspired me to finally sit down and draw Jay from Sorry, It's Locked in a sort of "What Could Have Been" piece of art showing how he'd have progressed if he didn't die in entry 80. It got me to figure out what her name would probably have ended up being, too, and I've settled on Lark.

Specifically, she'd have become Lark Wright and she and Tim could have raised their kid together (whose name is Birdie in the 'canon' of Sorry, It's Locked because Tim named her by himself after Jay died) but it's such a cute name I kept it even for an au where Lark survived.

I had to kinda guess at how old Jay would have been in around 2013, so yeah if 26 is wrong, whoops. I feel like the outfit i gave Lark is pretty 'right' for someone in their mid thirties in 2024 though so 🤷🏻‍♂️

I adore the idea that Lark goes grey early, and that she has a few wrinkles she otherwise might not at her age because of all the stress she's been through. She's so goddamn pretty because of it though, I'm so not surprised that Tim married her. She's literally a milf.

Also, her wearing Tim's shirt :] just. So cute. She's just trying to figure out her style and ends up in unintentionally the cutest outfits Tim's ever seen. Poor guy walks into the kitchen and is immediately struck by the debilitating urge to kiss the heck out of her.

Anyway.

You'll probably see me switching between using Lark and she/her, and Jay and he/him when I talk about S,IL depending on what part of it I'm talking about. If I'm talking about Lark's gender exploration, I'll probably(?) call her Lark and she/her, whereas if I'm talking about anything before he figured out his gender I'll probably(?) use Jay and he/him. Just to help me better differentiate between 'canon' S,IL and 'no one dies au' S,IL. Because unfortunately in the S,IL I'm actually going to write, Jay never gets to the point where he's comfortable to change his name or pronouns.

Anyway, individual shots of Jay and Lark under the thingy Bob

Love the little trans flag feather and bracelet I gave her.

[megabuild]

so you like transfem etho right? how do you think she figured it out?

did pause call her a girl once and etho decided she liked it or was there more thought involved

i don't think she ever "figured it out" in the way most people would but that's mainly because i see etho as having a very weird upbringing. she was very lonely as a child and didn't really start meeting people from wider society who treated her like a human but also would inflict gender roles on her until mindcrack when she was like... mid 20s. and yeah there definitely was a bit of teasing there but i don't think it really awakened anything in her more just confused her. if you pushed him about a bit and called him a girl insultingly he'd be like ? No I'm not. Because he has lived so far detached from society he can't even conceptualise the idea of feminity being a "weakness" yet #feminist but also he was raised to play very particular roles and wear very particular masks and girl is not and never has been one of them, he is a Guy, theres no questioning that.

But then yeah of course there is because she leaves mindcrack on pretty bad terms and spends some short time alone before she gets pulled onto hermitcraft and while she's sitting alone she does eventually realise oh, people can do that, people can change. And that fucking terrifies her, so much, because she already has horrible identity issues and doesn't really fully understand it so to her it's an all or nothing 100% change of self, and that's sort of awesome in a way but also really scary because that means rejecting literally everything about herself both past and present and she goes AHHHH FUCK and puts that back in the box and then xisuma recruits her like at the end of iron man when they were setting up the avengers movie. And she goes to hermitcraft and doesn't think about any of that for a really long time despite the never ending horrors happening all the time.

In my head he sort of. Doesn't Get Over It but he comes to terms with all the weird shit that happened to him when he was younger re: 404 and the LP between HC 5 and 7 like he was away on a soul searching mission. And then HC7 has its own fresh nightmares as he comes to terms with HC5 because that was a can of worms itself but this time the difference is that he has friends around him who gets it and can help him. And this is roundabout the time she starts to think about it more because she gets quite close to grian post-mycelium resistance and grian is a trans girl who takes estrogen and everything which is like, everything etho was terrified of, and they have some very clumsy and candid conversations where grian is definitely Not the best person to talk to because she's like well you're fucking stupid. But after talking to her and maybe cleo a bit too though idk if they would have been close enough at that point and bdubs too because while he doesn't know anything about this he knows a lot about etho, she eventually realises wow this doesn't have to be a new mask or a massive upheaval this is just something i can try out on the side if i like it. And so she does! Originally just with her absolute closest friends using she/her sometimes (she ends up using he/she alternately, because she doesn't really have any problem with he/him) and while she never formally Comes Out because that's not her style it spreads until most people use it.

Etho is very much a character of certainty imo, he likes rigid ideas when it comes to himself so he knows what to live up to, so i think not making her label her gender (or sexuality except that's. A different can of worms albeit a slightly less complicated one) is a bit of a character growth thing as much as it is a personal decision. Learning he can not constantly stress over the finer details or try to live up to what others decide he should be whether that's a man or a woman or something else entirely and just accepting that she's herself, and that's her own choice, is a Big Thing for her. though i don't know if she recognises that .

[serpercival]

The Third Doctor is so they/them coded to me so here's how I think the UNIT crew would react to them explaining singular they pronouns:

Sergeant Benton: He literally could not care any less. He's already dealing with a person who's way smarter than him, is an alien, and has never told him their name. He does not have the strength to give a shit or question anything the Doctor says anymore. Punches a guy who insults the Doctor's dress sense in a pub a few weeks later.

Captain Yates: Has a gender crisis for about two weeks and is ridiculously proud of himself when he comes out the other side of it with a good grasp on what it means that he's comfortable with he/him pronouns. Absolutely rips on anyone who gets the Doctor's pronouns wrong.

The Brig: Literally nothing changes between them. He'd already been quietly transferring staff who said homophobic things back to the regular military.

Liz Shaw: Figures it out on her own and starts using the right pronouns for them out of the blue. Doesn't ask questions. Once she's left UNIT and gone back to Cambridge, she occasionally gives out the Doctor's phone number to trans students. They always answer the phone.

Jo Grant: Literally all she's ever wanted is a gay best friend to talk about boys with. This is the happiest day of her life.

Sarah Jane Smith: Begs the Doctor for an interview for a queer journal she occasionally writes for. Finally gets one out of Four, who cannot take it seriously to save his life.

Harry Sullivan: Actually incapable of understanding despite being semi-canonically bisexual. He finally gets his head around it after the Doctor regenerates, which doesn't help much because Four alternates between he/him and "I don't remember what a pronoun is"

The Master: Fellow Time Lord, doesn't give a shit. Does relentlessly tease them for getting stuck in the 70s and/or 80s in an incarnation that needs to explain 21st century gender politics to every person they meet.

[pannman]

Other Motives

Part 2

Yandere Vox x Trans Masc Delivery driver reader

Tw: manipulation, mind control, possibly non consensual kissing at the very least dub con, yandere behavior, toxic relationships

Working for Vox wasn't really that bad. You got paid decent. You were treated well. And you were given a vehicle to do your deliveries

Although it seemed almost like special treatment compared to Vox's other employees. His assistant getting blamed for everything and being forced to run around practically the entire building when not following at Vox's heel. Poor guy

You on the other hand were practically fawned over. Vox constantly checking in to make sure everything was to your liking. Were you getting enough breaks? Did you need anything? Were your coworkers being respectful?

You didn't know why you were being treated differently but you decided against questioning it. Anytime you got to questioning it Vox would look you in the eyes and you'd feel your worries melting away and the rest of the world disappearing around you and then you would completely change your tune

There were a few things that were also odd. Whenever you made a delivery Vox always wanted you to check in with him. But of course that was just his way of making sure you were safe

And he also insisted on having lunch with you whenever possible. But you were sure he was just trying to make you feel welcome... right?

It wasn't until you got kicked out of your apartment that things started to escalate. Your landlord was so sure you were the tenant that stole from him. You insisted you had nothing to do with it. He insisted that you return what you had stolen or pack your bags

Since you literally DID NOT steal from him. You were forced to leave. You showed up to work as you did every day but apparently your boss could tell something was wrong

"Come on. I know that face. You can tell me what's going on" he reassured you. You did have a closer relationship with him than anyone else. So you opened up to him

"I got kicked out of my apartment. My landlord thinks I stole from him. Which I didn't!" You started crying. You had never been homeless before and you were sure being homeless in hell would be ten times worse. He sat down next you and pulled you into a hug

You leaned you head on his shoulder. You felt so safe with him. You felt in that moment that you would do anything for him

"I'll get you one of our employee apartments" he said in a soft caring voice. You looked up at him in shock. "No you don't have to do that. I'll figure something out."

Once again though he looked in your eyes and you felt yourself relax and your resistance towards his help diminish. You felt like you owed him your life

"You will move in to one of our employee apartments. Let me help you" he spoke with his voice making you a bit sleepy. "Ok" you replied. He was right. You were just being stubborn and he was only trying to help

"I wish there something I could do to repay you for everything you've done for me" you wanted to show him how much you appreciated him. But you didn’t have much you could give him

"Your friendship is more than enough" he said finally releasing you from his arms. You thought for a minute. What could you do for him? What could possibly offer him that would be even close to all that he's given you? At this point you would give him anything. Your life, your heart, your soul....

"What if I give you my soul" you offered. You were ready for him to turn down the idea immediately. It almost seemed like he perked up a bit though. But you chopped that up to him just being surprised by your boldness

"I mean... if that's what you really want. I wouldn't take it unless I felt you trusted me with it. You do trust me... right?" He leaned in staring into your eyes. Those damn eyes again. You barely noticed his voice get distorty before you answered with confidence "yes. I trust you. I will give you my soul"

"Then its a deal" he said.

"So do we shake hands?" you asked. He chucked. "I have a better idea" he grabbed your face and pulled you into a kiss

Your mind melted and your heart fluttered and you barely registered the glowing electricity in the air and the heavy feeling of a chain around your neck. You sunk into him and he kissed you harder pulling you into him more and more

When you finally pulled away. There was this feeling. This sinking feeling in your gut. You looked at him and saw his eyes. They looked different. They had this hypnotic swirl in them. Suddenly you had memories you didn't before of that same hypnotic eyes wedging their way into your subconscious. The warmth you felt suddenly felt icy cold. Dread filled your entire body from head to toe as if something had been holding it back until now

What did you just do?

Part 3 will be coming

[samskaterguy]

I kind of wonder how being trans would work in the Ever After High universe with destinies and all.

Let's say you're the daughter of Snow White, but surprise!! Egg cracked, you're trans. You're actually the SON of Snow White now.

Does this kids destiny change from Snow White to Snow White's destined true love? Or would "Snow White" just be a prince this time around and maybe a princess (or another prince!) saves him with True Loves Kiss???

I mean, we have examples of kids genders not exactly matching up with their fairytale parents like Alistair, Maddie, Melody, Jillian, Cedar, Bunny and I think some others.

I have a theory that in their stories their gender doesn't exactly..say, matter as much as, for example, the Queen of Hearts, her title is literally the queen, if Lizzie was a boy would she just be the King of Hearts (the queens husband)? Or would she be "King" but still have the same role to play as the queen?

When vs a character like Alice, it doesn't really matter as anyone can just fall down a hole and go through a strange land regardless of gender.

How much does your agab really matter in this society? Also say you figured it out after you had already signed your name in the storybook, would you need to sign it again if you chose a new name?

Edit because I had more thoughts: My previously stated theory came from the idea that characters like Alistair, Cedar and essentially the entire crew minus Lizzie, I believe their genders can be different and still inherit their stories is because TECHNICALLY within their stories they don't have love interests, when off book and later in their lives they most likely did to be able to have children. If say Alice did have a boy she fell in love with what if Alistair ended up being that hypothetical boy?

When Snow White DOES have a love interest, and I wonder if that's why it might matter a little more.

Long story short: This society is very heteronormative and probably cis normative as well and goddamnit do I wish we actually had a trans character to go off of.

OR what if a character was from a very #girlboss story and was a trans guy? Can his story even continue because he's not a girl anymore? Or would his story just change to reflect him better.

We have canonical evidence of Hunter and Ashlynn hypothetically changing their story so the same message is still in place, it just fits their particular love story better. So I wonder if the system would have something in place like that for trans characters. (Keep in mind I'm not too sure on how canon the doll diaries are so take that with a grain of salt. It's from Farrah's btw if you're curious)

[unknownanomoly]

Do you have any rainworld headcanons? if so, what are they?

Oh my! this is gonna be a long answer!

My head cannons really depend on the AU, So I do hope you don't mind reading, I'm just gonna do the AU I'm working on now! (+Only slugcats for now)

A Journey ahead AU:

Survivor (16) is the older sibling of Monk (10), they both got separated from their colony and then from each other. They never knew their true parents as they were found and raised by gourmand a long with a lot of other slug-pups that were not related with gourmand. Survivor was found my Artificer when they reached Five Pebbles (5p) and was shown how to fight by her and practically adopted by Arti and Inv. Survivor then ended up finding Monk when Hunter came to visit Artificer and brought Monk along which he found a few weeks before hand. Survivor and Monk found their way back to the slug tree to only find no one there and now live there alone. Survivor also has learned how to grow his own food and takes care of Monk technically alone. He HATES cussing, will wash his own mouth out if HE cusses. He does end up dating Rivulet later on.

Monk used to be friends with everything, or tried to be, but one time she tried to befriend a lizard and it tried killing her, and how of fear and instincts she attacked it and killed it, making her realize she can't be friends with everything and everyone. Hunter found her and she almost attacked him, but with giving food and taking care of her for a few days she grew to trust him. Following him to 5p to meet Artificer she reunited with her brother and they went back to the slug tree. She does not really remember anything about gourmand or the rest of the old colony, she doesn't really care either.

Hunter and Spearmaster are of course iterator made slugcats. Hunter made by NSH and Spearmaster by SRS. They both end up falling in love and getting together until Hunter goes rot mode and loses his ability to think for himself and loses all control of life.

Hunter is a normally chill guy, but for fun and if he doesn't have anything to do he will go and find other slugcats, mainly female, and... you know, to only leave them, who knows how many pups he has out there. He doesn't realize his wrong doing until Artificer talks to him, and starts to help him change, for multiple different reasons other then just the... uh things mentioned earlier. Hunter then slowly starts to realize himself more and comes out and trans fem and starts to date Spearmaster. He called Monk little Lemon and monk thinks of him as a dad type figure. He is the mentor for Monk.

Spearmaster doesn't really have a gender of course, but do go by they/them and doesn't mind he/him. He started dating Hunter after realizing he has truly changed. After hunter becomes rot Spearmaster visits him every day and sometimes brings him stuff, even though rot hunter does normally just consume them. Spearmaster is friends with Artificer and sometimes even gets a slight feeling of knowing her in the past.

Artificer's story is literally the same, but after defeating the scav king she takes the role of scav queen and starts to become softer. while venturing garbage wastes, hoping to maybe find any trace of her past pups, she find Inv and takes care of him. After a bit they get together and start a family together, having around five pups, non of them biologically Artificers as they came from Inv's egg things.

Blue pup (Marbles) was able to survive the spear hit, being taken care of and healed by a kind scav mother who had two kids of her own. They were raised with these scav pups and by this scav mother until one day everyone disappeared. Not a trace of the scavengers were around. Marbles then started to venture on their own, later on finding her sibling and rivulet and then reuniting with their mother. In the end they do end up leaving anyways and starting their own family in the future.

( @ask-the-pioneer I do hope you don't mind me using your OC marbles and putting a slight twist onto it! )

Green pup (Seaglass) is the sibling of Marbles, they are non-binary. Seaglass was able to survive being drowned by the leeches because of a current pipe that took them away. They ended up getting to a dried off land area in the piping systems, right before the rain was about to start. The pup version of Rivulet ends up finding them and drags their unconscious body to a den and saving them. They end up raising themselves together and clarifying each other as siblings. One day while Seaglass was getting some fruit, a green thing snatched them and took them far away from Rivulet, this was Saint. Saint threatened them, trained them, and taught them the ways of the Ancients and the Echoes, making them a little Saint. Seaglass was then forced to get full karma and right before being forced to ascend Rivulet found them and pushed Saint down into Rubicon, making him the Echo he is now. Rivulet and Seaglass find Marbles and soon end up finding Artificer as well. Just like Marbles, Seaglass also leaves to start their own life while Rivulet goes with survivor and monk back to the slug tree.

Gourmand is a old guy who would take care of any pups he found on his adventures and take them back to the slug tree with him. He took care of survivor, monk, and my nightcat. When Survivor and Monk got separated gourmand did try to look for them with no luck and ended up leaving them behind. They went to a area that I call "The Otherside"

(If your part of my ask-blog you know what it is)

And they settled there. Only after a few days they got attacked and almost all the pups ended up dead. Gourmand found the last two together hiding under some fallen rocks and started taking care of them again, taking them away from the area. He now only wanders and never settles in a specific area.

Bubble (Green pup) was found alone and a newborn in a den alone, he was taken care of by the entire colony and made friends easily. He does not remember or care for where his actual parents are or who they are. Bubble ends up clarifying Daffy as their sibling once they got attacked at the New Camp and gourmand finds them alone. Bubbles favorite food is Bubble fruit.

Daffodil [Daffy] (Purple pup) was found in a lizard den, really hurt and almost dead. Gourmand killed the lizards that tried eating them and took them back to the slug tree where they were nursed back to health. Daffy is a nervous pup and didn't make friends easily, but Bubble somehow was able to break their bubble! When they got attacked Daffy refused to leave Bubbles side and was really attached, scared to be left alone. Their favorite food is baby centipedes surprisingly but they are too scared to eat them alive.

Rivulet was left alone as a child and doesn't remember his parents. He found and helped Seaglass back to health in the piping systems. after Seaglass disappeared they instantly went looking for them, sometimes going into the end of the cycle. When they finally found Seaglass and Saint they had so much built up sadness and rage that they threw Saint into Rubicon and made him become a Echo technically. Seaglass and Rivulet are both now terrified of Saint coming back and fear to even say his name. WAY later in the future Saint finds Rivulet and takes him hostage, doing the same treatments Saint did to Seaglass. Rivulet ends up being forced to Ascend and ends up succeeding. No one ends up finding out what happened to Rivulet, but Rivulet does end up having a child with survivor before this though.

Saint has an unknown origin, no one can get him to talk to them unless it's for teachings, he was not created by SS, he just killed them like how he does with Moon and Pebbles. He always has had his ascension powers. He ends up becoming an Echo when Rivulet pushes him into Rubicon and then he comes back, to continue his plans.

[artistic-lj]

Okay so I “made” a new gender apathetic/apagender flag because the one I found/we have was just kinda lacking for me?? Like it’s okay and I don’t dislike it, but I thought it needed something

So the current one, according to gender fandom wiki or whatever (https://gender.fandom.com/wiki/Gender_Apathetic), is by @pridearchive (idk why I can’t tag them but I also just don’t understand tumblr so oh well)

But anyway, I’m not a huge fan of the fact that a lot of the definition relies upon the usage of the word “lazy” a lot, because like, while it’s true that laziness and apathy are similar, they are not the same. I was confused for MONTHS as to why everyone around me cared so much about their gender, both cis and trans people, and I just didn’t. Like, I thought my dad might understand cause we talk about queer stuff all the time and he was like “???… but I am a man, that’s just a fact… are you saying there’s people who don’t care??” And that confused me more cause I was like “wait even cis people care that much about their gender expression??” Because for me, I thought that trans people really cared about their gender identity and expression because of the dysphoria they dealt with from being born as the opposite sex. So, to hear that cis people also have a strong sense of gender and really care about the way they present and are perceived threw me for a loop.

So I went down this rabbit hole for, as stated previously, MONTHS, just trying to figure out if anyone felt the way I did because I felt fucking crazy. No one else spoke about not caring about their gender identity, not caring if someone called them a guy or a girl or something in between. I found labels like Aporagender (“a gender identity that is neither masculine, feminine or inbetween the two but nonetheless involves a strong sense of gender; a term similar to maverique.” - https://en.pronouns.page/dictionary/terminology#aporagender) and genderfluid (“a gender that varies, or changes over time.” - https://gender.fandom.com/wiki/Genderfluid) and bigender (“a gender identity which can be literally translated as 'two genders' or 'double gender'.” - https://gender.fandom.com/wiki/Bigender) but none of them felt right, even if I liked their flags.

But then, out of frustration, I decided to google “what is it called when you don’t care about your gender” and gender apathetic popped up. And I read the description and I felt so… understood. I felt like, no matter how small the group was, I had finally found people who understood me and felt the way I did. And then, because I’m annoying and visual, I saw the flag… and I was just… feeling very… ehhh…

Like, the brown, purple/lavender/light blue, white, and gray on their own aren’t inherently bad, but something about it just felt bland and… nothing like the sense of relief I felt when discovering I wasn’t alone.

And then I clicked through onto the post about the meanings of each color and began to like it even less

But, I pushed forward, ignoring my dislike of the color arrangement and meanings behind them and sharing my newfound label/identity and flag with my friends. I finally felt like I had something I understood.

That is, until one night when I got bored. And I started searching for flag makers to see what was out there. I came across a Reddit post about a custom flag builder (https://www.reddit.com/r/lgbt/comments/ooz3tb/custom_pride_flag_builder/) which lead me to Team Ultima’s custom pride flag maker: https://www.teamultima.org/flag/

Needless to say, as an artist and someone who’s nitpicky about colors and designs, I was stoked to find something that allowed so much creative control! After messing around with it for a bit, I made this:

Now, I know it’s not really that different from the current flag. But, to me, this feels a lot more balanced and cohesive. With the one by pridearchive, the “light blue,” which we all know is just lavender tbh, was the only color that had a bright saturation besides the white. Our eyes are naturally drawn to it and this does not allow our eyes to flow along the flag and take it all in. We kinda see the purple and get stuck there. Not only that, because we expect white to be in the middle of pride flags (as well as Im sure a lot of other color theory reasons that I’m not knowledgeable enough to know of or explain), the flag felt top heavy and uneven, with no equivalent saturated color along the bottom. The flag was lacking horizontal symmetry and I think/hope I did a good job of bringing it to this flag without it feeling like it’s too much or too little.

With all that being said here are my/the new and improved color meanings:

Brown - The natural human desire to find a sense of belonging and community, even if said community is formed around having a label for not caring about labels. It can also represent the warmth and security felt by having a label that represents how you truly feel.

Light Blue - A feeling of tranquility and peace towards one’s gender identity and expression

White - The limitless void of possibilities in which one can express themselves

Lavender - The mixture of all genders, feminine, masculine, neither, and everything in between

Gray - Lack of gender stagnation, not caring if one’s gender presentation is not as simple as black or white

Anyway, I’ve never posted anything like this before so… lemme know if I’m totally doing it wrong and all my color meanings are terrible and way off base or whatever. I’m gonna make a separate post of just the flag and the color meanings and whatever so that people don’t have to read all my dumb backstory to get to the actual “redesign” 💅💅

[fandomfluffandfuck]

delete this if you're uninterested in this i just need to spill the beans to someone. anyhow. hi im a trans man and as much as i lovw to see trans man steve for the feels i had the thought of trans woman steve today.

why have i never thought of this before?

im new to this fandom so many i havent seen it yet but i also love angst with all my heart so maybe i want the angst of steve being transformed as she is in canon and being extra dysphoric before realizing she can be the muscle mommy she was always destined to be be the change

angst aside i wonder when trans steve of any variety woman man nonbinary whatever has her moment of realization

I may not be taking writing requests right now, but I'm never uninterested in ideas. I really like this idea! Ever since I entered the fandom for Captain America, I've always thought a trans narrative fits Steve really well--being trans and/or being queer, there's, just, so much about his story that lends itself so well to being a social outsider and other in a way that parallels queerness.

Further, I mean, come on, on the topic of being LGBTQ+... *squints eyes a literally every detail of Steve and Bucky's entwined story*

I think I've seen some, some trans nonbinary Steve art floating around and I know I have seen art and fics of trans man Steve (none of which I can locate right now, thank you Tumblr search 'function') but I can't recall seeing anything for trans woman Steve. Either way, I'm sure you're not the only one who's had the thought, great minds do think alike!

And maybe it's how "One of Your Girls" by Troye Sivan came on shuffle earlier--which, obviously that song is not the same as being trans, it's about Troye's gay longing for a straight playboy guy and pretending or persuading drag him just to try men, even if it hurts Troye, but follow me here, I swear it's relevant--which now has me considering that maybe Steve (Steph perhaps? I've seen Stephanie floating around for various versions of femme Steve, whether she be cis or trans), she has the first breakthrough moments of realization through what she believes to be at that time as gay yearning for Bucky?

She has this private moment where she's so fucking jealous of Bucky's girls, how they can be together in public, how Bucky touches and moves them, how Bucky looks at them, how Bucky and whichever girl he's with now look together, how the girls sound, how Bucky talks to girls, how Bucky talks about girls, how, how--how?

How can Steve get some of that? What even is that?

But, then, with that line of thinking, I got caught up in my own political thoughts and historical context--her political and moral thoughts, too, based on what we know of Steve's canon moral compass.

Maybe at first she just tells herself--trying to self sooth and not have the terrifying realization of opening up another part of her identity that could be weaponized against her--that as a skinny, short, disabled person, it might be easier as a woman. She has her Ma as a wonderful example of strength in womanhood, after all. Plus, at least, if she were a woman and skinny and just as frail looking, she'd be considered pretty rather than scrawny and useless. But, denial aside, she quickly shakes that out of herself--if she were born a woman, with her luck and genetics, its probable she'd be just as disabled and probably unable to get pregnant so, just, as ridiculed and bullied with just less rights and still many opportunities to be cut down by men, just in a different way then men bullying an unmasculine figure.

I think I've discussed something with femme Steve, as Stephanie on this blog about the transformation and her body as relates to feeling less feminine with more muscles, but, again, I can't find it. (Edit: I found it! Right here!) And it would be super interesting to have it either way.

(A) I can see the angst and deep dysphoria that would ensue with the transformation happening as it does in canon. Then, there could be some silver lining to waking up in the 21st century where she can find things more readily to aid her dysphoria with the internet and more visible trans people, whether it be social or medical.

(B) I can also see the delight and euphoria ensuing from the transformation, giving her the body she wants. You could have angst there, too, I mean, this was the 40s, I am absolutely sure, unfortunately, there would be cruelty in the situation where the people surrounding project rebirth expect someone they assume to be a man to transform into the ideal, masculine, yolked fucking man soldier only to result in a strong, commanding woman soldier to be the result. If Peggy reached out and touched Steve's chest without asking in the original scene, I'm sure the men surrounded a transformed femme Steve would do that and much worse 🙃

P.S. 'Muscle Mommy' immediately had me thinking of these two pieces of fanart by @/kimeido (1) (2)

[livingthedragonlife]

I am consulting the dragon council to ask about your rook. gimmie the goss. (if you are doing the ask game lol, fighting the urge to say all of them i will be back to ask for all the rest if not one else does lmao) The Magician, The Chariot, The Wheel of Fortune, The Devil, The World

thank u!! i love ask games and since im gonna be writing so much with my rook in the coming days i figured i'd better flesh him out lmao

[the ask game in question]

[my Rook, real name Valonril, also Val, I'll be using all 3 interchangeably]

The Magician: What are Rook's thoughts on Solas? Do they change as the story progresses?

So all Val knew about Solas at the beginning was what Varric told him, and since he's Dalish he also knew everything about the Dread Wolf (though not necessarily how much of it was true). Since joining the Veil Jumpers and learning that most of his people's gods kind of sucked, he was prepared to accept that Solas also sucked.

He was proven right, and took every opportunity to snark (he "exchanged verbal jabs" you might say). Later after discovering his memories, Rook started to feel kind of bad for him? Like yeah, he caused all this horrible destruction and hurt tons of people, but these memories wouldn't be here if he didn't want to lock them away forever. He was genuinely grateful for the help at Arlathan, that whole clan would have died otherwise. And then he met the Inquisitor, who loved Solas, and went... okay maybe he can have an ounce of sympathy.

And all of that was completely squandered by the end. The first thing Valonril did when he found Solas again after getting out of Fade Jail was swear profusely at him. He only handed over Mythal's memories because he knew it was the best way to convince Solas not to destroy the world, and just sort of... accepted that he couldn't convince the Inquisitor that he fucking sucks ass. They can be weird and happy together, he has bigger problems than Solas' love life.

The Chariot: How does Rook fight? What are their preferred abilities and damage type?

I picked a rogue with a Veil Ranger specialization and mostly used the electricity damage abilities, which is a me thing, not a Val thing lmao but I'm sure I can manage to work it into his personality anyway

He can dual wield (obviously, class type), but prefers a bow. He wasn't a fighter in his clan by a long shot, so it was smarter (in his mind) to stay in the back while he was learning how to fight after he joined the Veil Jumpers. It just feels better, as the first weapon he ever mastered, and the electricity is also just habit from his time spent in Arlathan. Without the stress of an active combat situation, practicing archery is like... meditative for him, as a guy who is almost incapable of sitting still. Having poisoned daggers is a close second, though, because even if he has to get up close and fight, he can at least ensure whatever's coming after him won't last long!

The Wheel of Fortune: Describe an interesting character moment for your Rook. What made this moment stand out to you?

I feel like I have to talk about the trans stuff. It just completely knocked me on my ass.

So I went in intending to make Val a trans man, which I did, but the quote when you talk to Taash about it the first time, where Rook says, "Something opened up in my chest, like I'd relaxed a muscle I'd clenched my whole life without realizing it," made me cry in real life. Because that's a lot like how I felt, when I stopped denying myself. I didn't expect something so resonant from the option I chose, but it sure as fuck resonated!!!!

Idk there are a lot of great character moments in this game, but that's one I will never be forgetting any time soon.

The Devil: What type of demon is most likely to target Rook? Why?

Despair. And not just because it happened to me in game literally every single time I ever met a despair demon.

As mentioned previously, Rook is a trans man, and not everybody in his life was happy about that, especially not his dad. One of the reasons he left for the Veil Jumpers was that his situation was too suffocating for him to bear staying in his clan anymore. He had to get out, and has a lot of unaddressed baggage because he left without addressing it, on purpose. As much as he misses his clan, he's positive he'll never be able to go back (even though they would, in theory, accept him) unless he can be sure his family isn't around. He dreads the day he ever accidentally runs into them again.

Despair demons see this trauma and go ooo yummy snack!! And then he kills them. And then he has nightmares 😔

The World: What does happily-ever-after look like for Rook? Is it attainable, or just wishful thinking?

He and Davrin go riding into the sunset to go on adventures, seeing the world, and killing monsters for fun and profit. And raising their bird son. And nothing bad ever happens to them <3

Also, at some point, finding someone with the skill and willingness to do magic bottom surgery ("surgery", more like transgender magic) on him. He'd rather avoid blood magic to do it, which is a steep request. It was hard enough to find someone who knew how to do top surgery, he's not sure if it's possible to do something like that without blood magic, but that's something he can look for on his adventures. And for now he can sling the strap