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voidpunker · 1 year ago

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warmies my beloveds...

#woke up to both my legs cramping #(not at the same time ahah i woke up twice to a different leg trying to selfdestruct)#so theyve been hurting all day #but ourghhh that plush helps so much #forgot how much heat helps w pain <3 #vent #kinda i just need to complain bc walkign fuckin hurts today #im just tired and in pain but at least these plushies are cute as hell and help a bit #well a lot

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emoreooo · 9 months ago

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i love you, i love you, i love you

#FINALLY i worked so hard on this my body hurts sm #ive been wanting to do ship art with this song for YEARS and im so happy its sunkel #i wanted to show how theyve loved each other since the first time they met. and through all the way til they get to this point #and they love each other all the same #manifesting this doesnt flop im SO tired im gonna be resting for a week #<- says guy who likely will drop another piece in a few days #omori kel #omori sunny #kel omori #sunny omori #sunkel #omori #omori sunkel #omori fanart #fanart #my art #oh also the song is pink in the night by mitski :)

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josecariohca · 1 day ago

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#jesus christ my new job has had me working literally every day all closing shifts so i dont get home until after dark #which like. TERRIBLE for the social life and ability to do anything else. but also. the paychecks are looking very sexy. alas.#god im so fucking tired though #and the job itself isnt bad and neither are my coworkers. theyve all been so sweet to me and are very patient with me learning the fucking #1930s-esque system they have going on. im enjoying myself i just also wish i wasnt scheduled so damn much #and i wish my brain would let me finish whats left of my responsibilities. the way my anxiety has SKYROCKETED lately and i #cant do a single fucking thing about it bc my brain just says. no <3 #ill get it all done. i know i will. i just need to. idk. sit down and suck it up a bit #okay i need to shower and eat and also my feet hurt a lot so i need to mope about that too #KISSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#personal

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indiegame · 7 months ago

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i just napped for like 4 hrs. uh. hello.

#logbook #did my half day ate lunch and then was like. i'll go rest at rents while they're out and about.#ended up napping. knew it was happening once i couldnt keep my eyes open but i swear i set an alarm. now its after 7.#i bet exes arent home. havent heard anything. and if i go home i'll have to watch the dog til they come back.#'just leave him crated' he'll whine and cry bc ofc he knows i'll be home. and i dont have space for him in the room rn.#but he also deserves to be out and spend time. and i love spending time with him.#idk that whole mentality of 'not your animal' pisses me off bc when you live with someone elses pet they sort of DO become your pet.#like sorry but you share the space. i dont pay vet bills or buy food but i do actually feed fhem. and walk him #sometimes. and i spend time with all 4. i take leia outside to smell the air. and i nap with them #the cats and the dog snuggle me and greet me at the door. i think they know i'm leaving bc theyve been sooo affectionate.#and also half of these problems wouldnt exist with them if it wasnt negative towards me or i still slept in the bed lol #im going to miss them so much it hurts. . .and i know its going to affect them bc it did with the puppies and it has with emira.#didnt mean for this to become a sad log yet here we are. sigh.#so much for my half day. i was going to game and plan out house stuff but. oh well.#my body probably needs the rest anyways.

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thetangibleghost · 1 year ago

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i called out... like right before my shift too. i am truly a monster. like they're going to have to find someone to cover my trucks. i just can't. like yesterday wasn't even that bad and i've been having fun, i enjoy the job i enjoy working and i just.

#like i put up with deep open sores on my ankles for this job. theyve only just now healed #and that didn't drive me to quit #but the last week has just been. like i didn't even go in that much because i hurt my knee last week and monday was labor day #my knee is fine now and i'm fine but i like had to leave early on tuesday because i was about to start fucking sobbing #and my brain was like . going joker mode.#i feel like. i have failed.#well actually i feel like a failure but i'm going to try and not be a bitch about this #i just want to have a job i keep and that i can go to while still like... feeling okay. and this is certainly not it #i guess i still had hope that this was... sustainable. because it was fun and easy #and really i'm being a baby like im not injured or anything #god being a quiter used to be so much easier before i like. realized i was doing that thing #that greg does in school in crazy ex girlfriend #he sings a song about it #like 'well i failed cause i didn't try'#and now im like. i tried. and i still weh weh weg #im also quitting before i like worked my self to the absolute bone and for some reason that makes me feel like i actually didn't try at all #do you think that black and white thinking is autism or bpd? vote now in the comments #i feeling like carving something pretty into my skin #wehhhh i made this whole post hoping to feel better after i vented but i still feel bad #i hope i die in my sleep #and the timing you know? the timing like this is just so fucking embarrassing but i dint fucking care #like congrats you got what you wanted there was a retard within 2 feet of you and now there's not

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago

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#ugh. the fucking struggle of a thing i will not talk about. its just an off shoot of one of my many #obessive compulsive tendencies. it just makes me think of my dad. like hes also a fucking anxious person but hes like. i have the thoughts #but then i dont let them control me so its not an issue. and he knos i get caught up on the structure and identification of problems so #hes always like. its only an issue if its like ruining ur life. and hes right and i definitely meet the standards of both of those things #bc im fucking thinking abt these things constantly. its in my head literally all the time. every second of the day #and i mean i guess this specific thing isnt ruining my life but it certainly isnt helpful and in combo with everything else my quality of #life is not what it could b. idk it just feels all empty which is y i became a fucking workaholic #bc i just get so fucking bored stuck in these stupid patterns that at least i can make myseld useful as i drive myself nuts #it also doesnt help that im still trying to unfuck my leg and not being very successful bc theres this fucking voice in my head like #keep moving. u cant sit down. walk around. dont stop. dont stop. dont stop. i can feel the muscles getting irritated again #its unbearable bc it doesn't really even hurt. i just kno im fucking it up for myself and i have all this excess energy that i cant get rid #of bc i cant run. anyway its just irritating #i probably triggered myself by watching the bear all day lol. its so good but it reminds me of working in a shitty banquet hall when my #brain was on fire. and theyve got that toxic workahoism that i so desperately cling to. and in a weird way i can relate tho their fucked #up mom when everyones just trying to help but shes so fixated on this thing that's clearly causing her distress but shes just screaming at #them. like i mean i have insight into my issues and i try not to let them affect anyone but me but its so hard when its like. i have to do #this thing. i have to do it. i kno its bad. i kno its fucked up but shut the fuck up and let me do this. u dont fucking understand #but i wouldn't say that bc i kno its irrational. ugh. i also have to go to a lab dinner tomorrow. maybe #no time has been listed so idk. its for my leaving so im technically the focus. hate that for me. whatever. itll b fine #at least the place is within walking distance and its like less than 3 weeks until i leave #unrelated

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grimmthorne · 4 months ago

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i need to get new crocs (generally, new shoes, but we'll see) because mine are losing traction while i walk on campus especially with how rainy its been this week. and the amount of times im having my life flash before my eyes because my foot slipped a little bit is not at all fun.

#its so scary lmfao #im like. one bad step away from having a bum knee for 6-8 weeks again. i need Traction #its so scary esp bc of how weird my knees are. theyve been doing alright suprisingly this week considering its been raining every day for #a couple weeks but i guess i just adjusted to it. i dunno!#can feel the tendons/ligaments but it doesnt actually hurt. like at all. i can just feel them

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lonelyplanetfag · 4 months ago

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when is somebody gonna care abt me the same way i care abt them🤣🤣🤣🙏🔥icant do this shit anymore

#i shiuld call her probably #why isnt anything like it fucking used to be lmao #like yeah iwas fucking miserable but ive always been fucjing miserable #at least i had somebody #or felt like i had somebody #cuz i havent felt like thst in so long n ijust pushed it down n pushed it down n pushed it down n im never gonna get it back #but i cant just ignore it anymore but i cant not ignore it either #it just hurts either way n i dont know how to fix it #i wanna feel important again or like i matter or Somethjng #wanna feel like skmebody knows me #n im so fucking repressed n terrified n stupid that i dont know how to make it happen #i cant make friends at school or anywhere else n ive tried yk im always fucking trying #n i cant hardly go anywhere else anyway cuz i dont pass #n everybody says its cuz im not trying enough or i dont want it enough but i AM trying n i DO want it #i fucking tear myself apart about it every fucking night and people say im not fucking trying n im dont fucking want it #but they dont fucking know anything cuz why would they #im always trying so fucking hard #n lord knows i'm always fucking wanting #ijust don't hardly talk abt it to anybody cuz it makes them miserable n just cuz i'm miserable doesnt mean anybody else needs to be #im so tired man im so goddamn tired #idont wanna have to try so hard. nobody else has to try so fuckjn hard just to mess it up n get laughed every fuckin day #n people say to just ignore it but theyve never been there they dont know how it feels #n it's so tiring #i don't wanna do this shit anymore idont care how fuckin good it gets #i just wanna be done #n iwant somebody to love me so much it hurts #cuz m always loving people thst much n i never get it back #n im trying to jsut take what i can fucking get but it hurts all the time

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schizononagesimus · 7 months ago

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being in a family of other addicts is weird, i never really thought of it like that but us all being in town together for my graduation has just been like (ENABLES U) (ENABLES U) (ENABLES U)

#i dont even think of us as addicts rly even tho we all are. like. medically and socially. hell i may not know him but my birth father is in #PRISON for addict behavior soooo #anyway i made some mild drug choices and though i was pretty immediately displeased with the sensations and their consequences nothing #overtly bad happened this time so id call it a neutral thing #i just had a couple beers bc i was sad and my grandad had an entire bottle of wine by himself prior to that #and like a couple beers is Fine but i didnt realize my tolerance had tanked and i shouldnt drink out of sadness and i only got. sadder. so.#at least they tasted good mm duvel (LOUD CRYING) anyway good luck babe by chappell roan #and i had some weed w my dad. i forgot how much i hate getting weed from other ppl bc ive never found a Soul who knows weed like i do so #theyll just go 'oh it's for sleep.' 'no like what strain is it' '8 #ignore the 8 lol anyway #'idk' 'ok then is it like hybrid or do you not know' 'yeah idk' cool at least my dad knew the mg #i honestly needed to eat like in a bad way ive had so much trouble eating recently even eating out so this was helpful on that front #think this might be my first like properly full stomach in a while #and i definitely did need the nap but i DIDNT need the muscle pain #so to answer my own question to my dad earlier that was a HYBRID with the worst characteristic of sativa in it #cause that shit makes pain far more obvious sometimes and man has my whole body hurt for a few days #anyway speaking of body pain im helping a friend move tomorrow THEN going to bjj skdnsksms #it's fine im fine #anyway yeah long story long im Good and i couldve refused my family's offers yes and i have before and have often while theyve been here!#but i didnt because we all in my family got that same 'ehhh fuck it i deserve this' attitude sometimes #but nothing blew up this time though i still didnt like it so again. reminding myself that even when it goes well i still just Dont Like It #ergo do not do the thing #sobriety update #drugs tw #lessons of the hand and the mouth

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arolesbianism · 7 months ago

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I should rly get around to designing the Jackies and Olivias from my swap aus now that I have ideas for how to differentiate them for their non swapped counterparts, but at the same time the eternal dread of having to commit to either keeping or changing the gravitas uniform for the swap aus hangs over me with ever increasing pressure, so maybe I can just only draw headshots of them and commit to that til the end of time instead

#rat rambles #oni posting #but actually I probably will keep the uniforms because I like them and theyre fun to draw #plus I dont think making olivia director inherently means that the uniform would change so I can get away with it #olivia and jackie would have probably come up with that together anyways simular to the rest of gravitas branding #theyve probably had all of that decided on since their college days lol #but yeah Ive been thinking abt the swap aus more since it's fun to put olivia into a more antagonistic role #even if the levels of antagonistic varry heavily and in most of the universes jackie is also an antagonist even as the primary pov #a lot of these in universe would be mostly jackie pov rambling about some bullshit that doesnt matter while the real meat in the other logs #all imply some gnarly shit abt olivia and how shes faring as director #shes typically not as bad as her non swapped jackies but she rly pushes it in the swapped rat universe #and by that I kind of just mean she is simply just worse but she at least almost handled the divorce better than canon jackie #I say almost because she did proceed to kidnap the woman after she admittedly broke into gravitas facilities after being fired but still #generally speaking kidnapping and semi murdering your ex for science is t a cool move no matter how justified you feel #the other two olivias are a lot less openly corrupt with rabbit au olivia being mostly just more mean and raccoon au olivia just having a #smidge of a god complex that she generally never acted on to be shitty #also one of those olivias was in a toxic codependent relationship with her unstable wife and the other was also in an toxic codependent #relationship with her wife but her wife proceeded to murder her about it #the jackies are all pretty shitty tho even if in mostly different ways #we have petty incel jackie we have emotionally manipulative jackie and we have the reason raccoon au olivia has a mild god complex jackie #and then we're forced to sit and watch as each jackie reads through their shitty actions as memoryless pods acting like theyd never do that #only to remember and sit in horror at the fact that at the end of the day their actions had little concequence to the greater universe and #that the only thing they achieved in life was hurting the woman they loved most and dying in a way that ultimately meant nothing #which is another reason Ive been thinking abt these aus sm as I love narratively kicking the shit out of jackie its fun #its a sign of my deepest love <3 #Im so much nicer to main au jackie which is saying smth since one of them gets literally murdered #albeit swap rat au jackie also gets sorta murdered so raccoon au jackie rly isn't special in that regard #at least she wasnt held hostage before hand it was a spur of the moment event #anyways I need to shower before it gets too late Im trying to maintain a msidgen of a sleep schedule

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hyunlore · 2 years ago

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mischievous puppy and his accomplice

#HE WAS WITH SEUNGMO :((((((#i’m crying . i’m crying over them at 11am #they’re such loverboys <3 #they look so happy ! i hope they get to feel that way everyday of their lives #i cant help the big smile i get when i see more kyocera vids bc i am so SO PROUD of them!!!#they’ve always been accomplished in my eyes even when i first saw them back in 2018 but to see them perform 2 nights at the dome? so proud #there’s no other words i can think to describe it i’m just so proud of them. they’ve been thru so much and such hardships since day 1 but #it’s really all paid off and they can finally really be appreciated and respected and perform smwhere theyve only dreamed about performing #my heart hurts w how much love and adoration and thankfulness i have for them #they’re everything to me yk :((#hyunjin #seungmin #loml #🕸️#skz #<3

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samwisefamgee · 1 year ago

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Love being reminded that no matter how hard I try or what I do for them that every single person in my family wants me to kill myself so so sooooo bad

#i only walked halfway across town in 40 degree weather to help you specifically it's fine #i love being lied to i love being ignored i love being used by people i thought cared just to learn theyve been lying for years for my labo #i love emotional abuse i love perpetual disrespect i love manipulation and disguised hate #and at least im out of weed so I can have a real proper fucking meltdown about it cause god forbid i help myself not hurt myself too #gonna be a super super fun couple days let's see what inside the shitty fucked up freezing molding box i live in makes it through!!!!!!!!!!#did i mention i cant keep it above 55 degrees in here in this weather during the day cause its a fun addition to my times #ive only been lied to about being given a heater for my efforts for *checks watch* two years of 'living' here #just wait til night falls thats when the REAL fun staying warm starts #id pay anyone $20 to shoot me in the heart if i had $20 #also smth actually good happened this morn n i just realized i completely forgot n buried it under all this lovely pain and dissappointment #so cool i waited for literal weeks to have one good thing i worked hard for to happen and i dont even care anymore why do i fuckin bother

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autisticlee · 1 year ago

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I keep forgetting to bring my hip brace to work and my hip just tried to dislocate itself and got stuck and I fell on the ground and everything hurts fdhdjdjd why is this my life.

#hip joints are so bad #all joints are bad but hips give me moat issues with my job......#and the doctor i saw says i don't have hEDS so she cant help me or suggest anything except “exercise more”#when my job is literally a full body workout almost every day #doing other working out hurts and i keep injuring myself??????#i went for a very slow and short jog a few weeks ago and my hips amd knees and ankles havent recovered. theyve been horrendous #what do!!!!!!#cant afford a trainer and physicsl therapy didnt help....#lee rambles

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interstellarbookofflowers · 2 years ago

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wow i did not think it would be this quick

#mine #i was blocked NSMDMDMA #i mean it hurt but idc #like at this point i just want to be okay #i want you to be ok too bro #im so mad im extremely upset that u put me and the others through all the bs #but i also hope this is gonna be eye opening for you #god knows how much you need a reality check #i do hope one day we can try again #but its your fight. you will need to prove to me you can change and that you did change. i need to see the results #and the apology ofc - for the breaches of privacy and the lying and the manipulation and all that rot #cuz it fucked me up so bad #mind you i dont trust anyone now #like i trust one person and thats my best friend of years #bc theyve been here with me through thick and thin #thats it.#idk if i can ever trusr anyone again #but i finally know now i wasnt insane!!#all this time i thought i was going nuts cuz surely that wasn't normal??? IT WASNT! I WASNT GOING NUTS!#god #therapy is gonna be fun #screaming into the void

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krispiecake · 2 years ago

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sorry just. can i be insane a second? can i be completely honest but also batshit for a really quick second?

#im getting absolutely furious at the fact that staff are just casually having a convo like laughing and gossiping #maybe like 40ft away from me or something #while im sat her alone in the garden obviously not doing well and theyre just… having a giggle #like theyve asked me ONCE the entire fucking day if im alright its fucking insane #and yes i know things feel more intense and more targeted bc im triggered and have a pd ect ect ect #but this js MY blog and im sick of making disclaimers for how i feel so im not going to anymore #bc im sat here in the freezing cold bc if i stay in my flat im gonna try and end it #but i cant sit in the louge bc theres a meeting going on #what fucking meeting needs to be happening 10 at night #and like lets say it does #why is it not happening in their flat #you know a private place that doesnt impact anyone elses care or needs #like i know they have a living room too like its not fair theyve been using the communal lounge all day and all night for now the 4th day #in a fucking row #other people need it too #but no. bc im not as important or as pressing or as ill or as whatever as them #i have to sit alone with no support cold in the fucking garden #great im sooooo glad that everyone is being treated equally and that everyones needs are being taken into consideration 👍👍👍👍👍#i just feel like screaming and crying and throwing shit and hurting people im so sick of referring to a fucking text book its not changing #ANYTHING like i still have to deal with it all but now its prolonged and now its worse and now i dont even get any results #im so fucking sick of all of this why cant i just be fucking normal #i dont get why i have to be stuck with this stupid pd and all my other shit bc of other ppls actions and i dont even get a fucking APOLOGY?#im so fucking exhausted and i just dont wanna do this shit anymore #update not even the crisis team gives enough of a shit to fucking pick up the stupid phone lol #its a sign i suppose

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the-s1lly-corner · 8 months ago

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Hi!! this is my first time requesting anything but i was wondering if you could do creepypasta boys were you kiss / compliment there scars!

Kissing their scars (various crp)

Bro I scratched my skin right next to this burn last week and it HURTS so bad

Characters: Jeff the Killer, Ticci Toby, Eyeless Jack

Notes: Reader is GN, fluff, these boys need help

CWs: talks of violence in.. well all of them, mentioned of self harm in Jeff's part

Jeff

You decide to kiss the gashes in his cheeks, the ones that he carved.. he never really viewed them as anything very negative; sure it reminds him of the night he killed his entire gamily.. a fact he has a very wishy washy feeling of guilt over depending on the day

At first he thinks you're trying to kiss his cheeks but you make it very clear what you're trying to do when you begin to compliment them- they've healed so well since theyve been put there

Between the three he tries to play it off the most, of course it looks nice- they make him beautiful, and he always will be beautiful! What are you talking about reader?

Hes not at all willing to be vulnerable around you, it doesnt matter how long you two know each other or how close you get he never.. really let's himself just be in his feelings around others

But just know that hes going to be sitting in bed tonight looking up at the ceiling replaying what you've said and going back over the events that lead him here- rare moment of self reflection essentially

But to your face.. hes just the same as hes always been, even teasing you for having such a huuuge crush on him- bonus if the two of you are already dating

Eyeless Jack

You rarely ever get to see him without the mask, but when you do.. it's best not to do something like this the first time you see his eye sockets- hes very cagey about his face in the first place and hes not quiet ready to handle more attention drawn to it. The first few times it's off it's best to meet it with indifference

But when more time passes, you're more than welcome to test the waters. You already knew Jack had a fair collection of scars, but there was a different feel to the burned and gashed holes where his eyes would have been

He wont let you kiss him, mostly because hes unsure of what exactly the goo was made of, as well as naturally not liking the idea of someone putting their mouth where his eyes just to be- but you're allowed to trace your fingers along the scar tissue

Hes never going to tell you what happened unless theres a reason to, hes very firm when setting this boundary. It's just something that makes him feel.. gross..

He already doesn't talk much but he becomes silent as you trace your fingers and talk to him

He might go back to wearing his mask all the time again for a while but it's not exactly your fault, it was just a huge step- it's okay to back up a bit to process things

Ticci Toby

Due to his CIPA he has a bit of a disconnect between him and his injuries, scars included. He didnt really feel them when they were being made, sure he may have felt some pressure depending on what caused it but other than that, nothing really.. for a lot of them he doesnt have much thoughts- neither good nor bad

The only ones that really make him feel something are the ones he sustained from the crash- they're scattered across his body...

If you kissed or complimented any other scar he would tease you for being a little "weird", even making it a game to guess where he got the current scar from- with outlandish answers of course

But the second you reach one of /those/ scars the fun is immediately cut, you can tell theres something off

Similar to Jack, its something that has to be eased into due to the weight associated with the injuries. It's not the fact that it hurt when he got them but they serve as a reminder of what he lost

The only one who really tries to change the subject, perhaps by asking if you have any scars or markings on your body or simply changing the subject all together

Probably the only one who wouldn't want to be complimented due to the nature of some of his scars

#creepypasta x reader #creepypasta x you #creepypasta imagine #jeff the killer x reader #jeff the killer imagine #jeff the killer x you #eyeless jack x you #eyeless jack x reader #eyeless jack imagine #ticci toby x reader #ticci toby x you #ticci toby imagine

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