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Omg that starlet sloooow burn. I love it so so much. I have more of a logistical question- 2 houses yet theyāre together. How do they choose which one to sleep at that night? Is there a set schedule like MWF? is there a favorite house? Do they have 2 of everything? i live in LA (Iām so cal anon btw) and the paparazzi photos you see of celebs eating at a restaurant, etc. theyāre mostly taken at places where people go to be seen. You go to a quieter town over from Beverly Hills, los feliz, etc. itās much more low key. Less likely that people make a fuss over a celeb if theyāre even recognized. So my next Q is, do they go out on dates? Or is it always at home or a private location? No beach time for these two unless they rent a house somewhere?
Ayyyyy so cal anon š
So yeah, they basically live at Lexa's because she has an actual house rather than an apartment. It's just easier, more private, less nosy neighbors etc. Clarke's apartment is much less inconspicuously located. In all their years together, Lexa goes there maybe???? a dozen times. And usually only if there's other people invited for some kind of get together. Because no one would notice Clarke taking a private driver out to Lexa's neighborhood, but they absolutely would noticed Lexa coming and going from Clarke's high-end apartment building. So Clarke's place is mostly off limits to Lexa. They really do run that tight of a ship on this.
But Lexa's place is, exactly like you said, outside of that bubble of Hollywood and offers more of a cloak of privacy. And not only that, it definitely becomes their home. Yes, Clarke keeps the apartment and yes, she sleeps there from time to time - generally only when Lexa's away for work or there's an extended conflict of schedules - but overall "Lexa's house" is actually their house. The majority of their lives is spent there, and Clarke's place is a glorified crash pad that doubles as an alibi.
It's also really helpful because, again like you said, being somewhat removed from the spotlight and grind set of LA offers more privacy in their everyday lives. Still, they don't leave things up to chance. If they go out, it's almost always in a group. They may not be the most well-known actresses, but they're still very well known, and even lowkey spots could give them away. They'll grab coffee together every once in awhile or maybe a lunch in a particularly quiet spot, but other than that if they step out it's with 3 or more tagging along. Of course it's even nicer with the simplicity of stepping out with two other closeted industry men, because that's almost the ideal. The getting to actually enjoy being on a date and knowing it looks like a date.
Doesn't matter who any potential observing eyes assume that date actually is.
Vacations however are always taken in groups, and never under their names. Beach visits, island getaways, ski resorts, rented houses that allow them to share their own private room. It's a lot, and often frustrating, but those are just the rules that they set for their relationship. And they stick by them, and never let themselves deviate. But over the years they do surround themselves with people who they trust and who know about them, and give them the protection and space to be happy in private. They give Clarke and Lexa the chance to enjoy being together while being out, without... being out.
#so cal anon#starlet au#thet tried a few times in the beginning to be just be lowkey but it caused more anxiety than anything#so that was quickly stopped
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listen there really was just something about how in the book, snowās 3-page descent from hesitant lover boy to deluded mfer happens entirely in his mind. lucy gray gives him no indication whatsoever that she suspects him, that sheās going to leave or betray him. heās just sitting quietly in the cabin waiting for her to return when that seed of calculated suspicion, which he has needed to survive the capitol, takes a hold of him and chokes the life out of any goodness left inside him. it really drives home your terror as a reader that āoh my god did he kill her? did she escape? what happened to her? why would he even think that?ā in a way that when the movie had to adjust for visualization it lost some of that holy shit this guy has lost it emphasis.
#seeing some discourse and im not saying lucy grey didnt know#im saying she never dropped the kind of hints that she knew like she did in the movie#or if she did snow isnt worried about them until he very suddenly is consumed by them#snow is not concerned about whether or not she believed him. of course she did! hes snow!#but then shes goneā¦. for a whileā¦ā¦#and its the sudden immediate drastic unravelling that comes across so clearly in the book#that i knew wouldnāt translate to screen yet still cant help but miss#the hunger games#coriolanus snow#tbosas#lucy gray baird#not a crime or anything just a note that i cannot stop thinking about#the ballad of songbirds and snakes#this is all from memory of reading it quite a while ago. so maybe 3 pages is an exaggeration#but i remember it happening VERY quickly and without much external cause#like we as the reader have no indication as to whether shes nearby or not.#snow has no idea either. he just SUSPECTS. and his suspicion breeds the hatred that has been bubbling inside him all this time#he hates how she undoes him. he hates that he WOULD run away with her if shed let him keep his secrets#and he HATES more than anything that she makes him WANT to tell his secrets#he wants to be vulnerable and reveal the ugly nasty parts about himself and still be loved#but he does not let himself and it is everyoneās downfall#he chooses cruelty bc it is easy and familiar and makes him feel more powerful than the vulnerable give and take that real love requires
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Good reveal au, where after learning phantom's identity and realizing the atrocities that the GIW have committed (or alternatively, ethical science au, where they find out the GIW plagarized them), the fenton parents decided to create the 'ultimate ghost-ending weapon' and sell it to the agents.
They go absolutely overboard, describing to the agents in meticulous detail how it evaporates any ghost it hits near-instantly and describing it quite ruthlessly in the blueprints, and soon the GIW have raplaced all their main weapons with the new gun.
Except it doesn't actually kill ghosts. It's the Fenton Bazooka. You know, the one that creates a portable portal to suck the ghost back into the ghost zone? What they actually did was retool it slightly to make it look more grusome than it actually is. They even added a beacon in Phantom's Keep, which all Fenton Bazookas will target when they open a portal, so the ghosts are always delivered to the keep.
From there, Phantom stationed an emergency medical team at the keep to treat the many injured and ragged ghosts that the GIW 'destroyed,' and to explain what just happened.
What they didn't anticipate was that now that the GIW have a mass-produced weapon that they believed would effectively eradicate ghosts, they would go on the offensive. They have a number of cities they've been monitoring but didn't want to get involved in without better tools.
One of those cities is Gotham.
And the Bats are ectocontaminated enough to register as ghosts.
Batman witnessed several of his children get evaporated by green energy weapons within mere moments of each other. He's absolutely gutted. Devastated. They didnāt even stand a chance.
He'll get his revenge, and it's frighteningly easy to track the weapon to private subcontractors. The Doctors Fenton, in Illinois. Their research calls for the genocide of all ghost kind, and apparently, that war started by killing his own children.
His children will not die in vain.
He gets to Amity Park and finds the Engineer's Nightmare of a building that is Fentonworks, but that night, before he can hack through the security and break in, one of the windows opens.
It's one of his kids that he had watched evaporate before his very eyes. They give him a silent signal of one of their identifying security codes and gesture for him to come inside.
Is it a trap? A prank in poor taste? Utterly genuine?
He goes through the window.
All of his dead kids are there, wearing borrowed pajamas and only their dominoes to conceal their identities. Daniel Fenton (son of the Fentons, this is his bedroom, has voiced a few arguments against his parent's views, but still an unknown) is among the crowd of teens and young adults, twirling on an office chair and obnoxiously sipping a capri sun.
"First thing you need to know, Bats," Daniel says after finishing his drink, "is that my parents are absolutely NOT genocidal ectophobic scumbags, and that is the reason why your kids are still alive."
#the bats are not the first human liminals that the giw 'killed'#whenever humans land in the keep frostbite immediates calls phantom to take them back to earth#alternate scene at fentonworks:#bruce spies maddie on the phone and overhears her saying she'll 'inform batman when he arrives'#its frostbite/phantom on the phone telling her to keep an eye out for any bats because some of their team was 'killed'#and shortly after she spots batman spying on her and gestures for him to come in#and when theyre both in the lab the spectre speeder returns chock full of various bats and team phantom members#needless to say bruce is very relieved and incredibly confused#and his kids have a pretty wild story to tell#i deliberately left which kids vague#but i imagined jason and tim for sure and possibly two others#they hadnt left fentonworks yet as to not inform the giw that they survived and knowing that bruce would find them#it would also give away the fenton's trick and dont want to reveal that before the agency has been stopped#so they have to make a plan that doesnt reveal that theyre alive or expose the fentons deceit too quickly#the fentons may have to be temporarily arrested by the justice league while the investigation is ongoing#to hide the fact that they werent actually helping the giw#dpxdc#dp x dc
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š Day 3.5 is now available! š
For the last couple of months, only Server Boosters had access to the 3.5 update... Buuuuut now it's available for everyone to play in the 14DWY Discord ā and soon itch.io once I'm happy with the QA and state of the game ā so please don't feel pressured to join unless you want to!!
The full devlog + even more screenshots are under the cut ^^
What's been added to the 3.5 version?
šŗ Streamer Mode!
I've been told that it's difficult to stream and monetise age-restricted videos on YouTube and Twitch, so I added an option to remove the sexual content and strong language used in the demo.
Now y'all can invite Ren into your bed for cuddles without putting your streamer career on the line /silly /lh
This won't affect the 18+ rating or dark themes/elements of the game, however! Although Streamer Mode will prevent you from seeing any "gruesome" CGs in the future, most of the core elements of the game will still be tied to the choices and decisions you make. So you won't miss out on the overall experience by using streamer mode!!
āļø Custom Pronouns!
It only took me one entire year to get around to it, but you can finally choose your own preferred pronouns (or use a set of pronouns instead)... At the cost of being able to change them mid-game ^^;
Since the original pronoun screen wouldn't update until a new scene was displayed, I temporarily disabled the feature. But once I find a workaround, I'll bring it back!
š Choose how others perceive you!
You can now choose how the cast and narration perceive you! Originally, the narration was kept strictly gender-neutral (outside of pronouns and genitalia picked by the player), but this will soon change in future updates.
For more clarity: you don't get to choose the words specifically, but you can choose between masculine, feminine, and androgynous terms!
š Separate top and bottom genitalia!
You can now choose your tatas and pps separately! >:3
Alongside that, you can also choose your preferred body type!
I removed the "both" genitalia option because a few players still assumed it was an obscure version of "intersex". That wasn't my intention and I don't want to mislead anyone, so I took it out for now ^^;
I also didn't want to include a screenshot of the new genitalia choices in action (because it's NSFW), so y'all get the same character menu screen for the nth time instead lmao
š± Relationship Screen Overhaul!
You can now change your own status for more immersion, and long-term Server Boosters will eventually be able to submit and use their own icon within the game as well!
Stalking finding your friends has now become easier by using "Buddy Maps"; a new app that allows you to see the location of all the cast members!
I want to offer players more incentive to check the relationship screen since they tend to miss the status updates, so hopefully this might help ;v;
It also says it "updates every few hours" so folks don't go overboard and check every 5 seconds to see where Ren is gdsghf (also keep in mind that he's a hacker lol)
š¤ Additional Scenes Update!
Day 2 received a brand new CG!!!!! Originally, I planned on only adding a few CGs sporadically throughout the game, but it didn't feel right to leave Day 2 so... empty... so I added a brand new CG to (hopefully) make things feel more balanced and natural!
If you decline Teo's offer on Day 3, Leon will now call and try to convince you to reconsider. However, players are still allowed to decline, and if they do, they'll reach a dead end.
After listening to feedback on itch, I changed some of the dialogue during Days 1-3 to make it seem more consistent! They're only small changes though, so it's honestly not worth looking for sdgjssga
š¶ Updated BGM and SFX!
I wanted to try out a different style of music to see if it fits the vibe of 14DWY more! The BGM features more acoustics to suit the "beachy" theme of Corland Bay, though I made a conscious effort to include piano elements as well to stay true to the original!!
I figured it'd be better to give players a live example before I make a poll (to see if they prefer the change or not) and publish it to Itch.
Some new SFX have also been added, though it's very minimal and honestly not that noticeable.
How to download and play the update?
(warning: clicking on the following links will open Discord!!) To download the Day 3.5 update, simply join the 14DWY Discord server, verify your age, and visit the "14dwy-updates" channel!
Alternatively, you can also wait until the update is publicly released on Itch to play it as well!! (It normally gets released shortly after a round of QA testing/getting feedback from the server, though I may release it earlier if I feel like it hehe ^^)
Enjoy!!
#14 days with you#14dwy#š ā 14 days with queue.#š¤ ā updates.#š¤ ā spoilers.#I'm not gonna say much about my current doxxing situation because I've got it under control now + it's being handled privately#Plus I don't wanna give it/the people involved any unnecessary attention. I just wanna announce the update and Get Back To Itā¢ļø#(''it'' bein the grind šŖ It never stops lmao /silly)#OG followers will also know that these topics aren't the vibe I normally have on this blog (or any of my accounts); so I don't think I'llā#āmake ANOTHER public post about the situation and bring more attention to it (when I just want everything to be over and put to rest ^^;)#However I also don't want people to think that I'm... ignoring?? the situation entirely (because gettin doxxed is a very endangering thing)#So I DO want to quickly acknowledge it here and say that it's all currently handled + I'm safe and okay + this won't stop me fromā#ācontinuing to work on 14DWY (and other future projects). I also don't want to give these awful people more power and incentive to continue#āthis kind of pathetic behaviour; so the less attention and encouragement being shown will ultimately be better in the long run :3#Aaaaaanways!! š®āšØ#My other accounts will be restored shortly and my askbox will be opened once I feel comfortable. I'll get around to following folksā#āagain in my own time; so please don't feel offended if I unfollowed you during a moment of vulnerability and anxiety!!#This is all EXTREMELY overwhelming and scary for someone with SAD/AvPD; and I /gen can't handle seeing it all over my timeline ;v;#Sorry this got ranty and personal again hjdsgjsdh T_T I said I wouldn't say much; so I'll shut up now hehe#š¤ ā shut up sai.
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yuujiās the friend thatās ridiculously affectionate, but heās that way with everyone heās close to, so itās easy not to pay it any attention. he drapes his arm and his entire body weight across megumiās shoulders, he plays with megumiās fingers when heās bored, lays his head in nobaraās lap while they gossip, on a good day, he can even be found brushing and braiding her hairāyuujiās even twirled gojo around in a hug on more than one occasion, so itās nothing out of the ordinary. except, he seems to have a thing for just picking you up. when heās trying to get by in the cramped kitchen, instead of squeezing behind you, he often puts his hands on your hips, lifts you and swivels and places you right back on your feet before fetching cereal from the cabinet like itās no big deal. youāre one to fall asleep on the couch, but yuujiās one to lift you up bridal style and carry you back to your roomāor over his shoulder in a firemanās carry when youāre drunk and want to fight back and insist that youāre sober. thereās a puddle on the ground and instead of helping you hop to the other side, he just wraps his arm around your waist and carries you while he jumps across, puts you down, and continues on walking. you get good news and yuujiās the first to pick you up and throw you up and down like you weigh nothing to him, like youāre a kid and heās your trampolineā¦ heās so casual with all his affection, you know itās second nature to him, but that doesnāt make it easier for your brain to short circuit in those momentsā¦ makes you stop to wonder if heās that strong unintentionally and attractive without thought, then what can he do when heās tryingā¦Ā
#bites a brick wall he's so . hes so effortlessly attractive i need to bash his head into drywall.#it probably wouldn't hurt him...#two things we brush over too quickly as a society:#(1) yuuji just. punching through a concrete wall and being surprised that other people cant. what the hell what the FUCK#and (2) 'if it's just pain itadori yuuji won't stop'. like///thats crazy..... GOD. i need to have him#yuuji itadori x reader#yuuji x reader#yuji itadori x reader#yuji x reader#š
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i found some fanarts & fanvid [ x.x.x ] and watched a bit of book 7 playthrough where sebek cried
#considering watching the whole playthrough because when will ortho release me#twisted wonderland#twst#sebek zigvolt#baul zigvolt#twst silver#only his pants visible tho fsh#twst grim#twst yuu#twst mc#twst baby#book 7#fanart#they really had their moments silver and sebek#and the whole diasomnia family gang#HE QUICKLY STOPPED HIS CRYING THO that sebek#IT CRACKS ME UP#i mean the story has to proceed BUT U DON'T HAVE TO TURN OFF UR TEARS TAP THAT FAST#that fanart of baul thinking that his grown up grandson would not be interested in sweets anymore so he offered sebek coffee#but then his grandson like um... i still... can't drink coffee... maybe if i keep trying i'll be able to one day...#and baul just N ever mind pl ease have this whole cake#FSFH#H SEBEK
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Oh no heās fuzzy
#and heāll cuddle#and rip flesh apart too#art#fanart#my art#original art#Splatoon#Splatoon 3#Splatoon fanart#splatoon art#Splatoon fan art#Splatoon big man#big man Splatoon#big man#big man fanart#splatoon big man fanart#mantaro#apparently I lied. yes I will continue posting because if Iām being honest itās what I do all the time. not even my homework#and while I am still busy working on commissions even if it doesnāt look like because of how long I take- I still have like#nighttime and some breaks to still draw stuff to post. and yeah I mean I draw quickly when Iāve got good ideas#man I really have to stop procrastinating so bad#Splatoon fuzzy au#Splatoon au#fuzzy au#comfort au#original au#just now I realize I didnāt tag the Frye post with the fuzzy au smh
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im sorry but i choose to believe that tim drake is the most insufferable "my man, my man, my man" girl about bear. he does not shut up about him. steph is cooking smth in the kitchen? oh my man can do that. bear cooks really well. dick triaging some poor victim on an emergency site? oh my man is really good at that. mhmm, bear is on his way to becoming a paramedic. damian building something? oh my man is really good with power tools. have you ever seen him build ikea? it takes him less than an hour. for our anniversary, he built me a coffee table. mhmm isn't he amazing? yeah my man did that. yeah my man, mhmm that's my ma-
#and on and on and on#like it never fucking stops#jason gets a tattoo? tim manifests in the tattoo parlor to talk about his man's tattoos#'yeah they're sooo gorgeous! he has a grasshopper over his heart cause that's what he calls me! yeah that's like his little nickname for me#'and there's two cardinals in flight on his forearms! isn't that sooo cute!!! he says he's keeping me with him!!!'#and like everyone thought is was cute at first bc like first gay relationship!!! let tim gush about his boyfriend!!!#but then it like quickly and i mean quickly became annoying#like dick puts on his police uniform and tim immediately is like 'have you seen my man in his paramedic uniform? dont his biceps#look so good in it? and he's providing service for those in need without being a pig! isn't my man so great!'#and dick just has to sit there with his eye twitching bc the last time he tried to defend his police job the whole family laughed so hard#they almost cried.#also i hope you know that all of tim's lines are said in a valley girl accent. with the tone of a woman who is so fucking annoying about#her man. like he's the kinda guy at sunday brunch 2 mimosas deep trying to one up bart on like who has the better bf#spoiler alert bart wins only for the sole fact that he's not annoying about kon the way tim is about bear#meanwhile the rest of the group is creating enough of a ruckus that they're like 2 seconds away from getting kicked out of dennys#and while i would like to say that bear knows about this i just think that he has such hearteyes for tim that it completely flies over his#head. like he sees tim and he turns into a fucking idiot. he's putting in the saline line wrong he's doing chest compressions on a guy#who is perfectly fine. he's letting the steak burn on the stove#so theyre like both fucking useless together. and i think that's love.#bernard dowd#tim drake#timbern#timber
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ALICE [NÄco z Alenky] (1988) dir. Jan Å vankmajer
#alice 1988#nÄco z alenky#my gifs#gifs#gifset#soupy's#alice in wonderland#stop motion#animationgifs#dailyworldcinema#filmgifs#filmedit#filmdaily#moviegifs#junkfooddaily#fyeahmovies#1980s#80s#movies#making these made me so fucking hungry...#it must've been so hard to control that fire spreading like. ok shot's done lets quickly put it out
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Batman / Superman: World's Finest #30 by Mark Waid and Gleb Melnikov
#i literally had to stop and take a screenshot every five seconds while i was reading this it's so gorgeous#dc#dick grayson#robin#clark kent#superman#bruce wayne#batman#diana prince#diana of themyscira#wonder woman#gleb melnikov#<< between this and his shazam covers he is quickly becoming one of my favorite artists#tbh i wouldn't mind if he permanently took over for mora#and i LOVE mora#milowing
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I hope someone hasnāt asked but what did you use to rig the deformed Maleanor? It looks so cool!!
thank you! :D :D :D I drew her in Photoshop (there's an overly-long speedrun video here) and rigged her in Spine Professional! her rig is...very messy...but it works for a silly little fanproject where nobody needs to know how many bones I kept shoving in to try and force her cape to stop breaking. :')
it was easier to just export images directly from Spine, so all the backgrounds and credit text are in there too as separate skeletons! who needs compositing when you can just throw everything into one project and let it simmer. į( į )į
(I figured I should probably have a tag for this stuff by this point, so I've added #spineposting to posts of/about my Twst chibis and Spine!) (once again I am reminded that I really need to go back and fix poor Che'nya for a third time...)
#spineposting#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 5 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 5 spoilers#i don't know if 5 is out in eng yet so i will continue to tag until forced to stop#me: should i just accept that i did a bad job on her cape meshes and restart from scratch to fix the fundamental problem š¤#me: no it's the bones that are wrong (adds eight more bones to control a single stray vertex)#thank you for this though because when i was looking back at the project to take a screenshot i did notice#one of her arm attachments had somehow rebelled and was giving her an extra elbow for her history lesson...#w h o o p s time to very quickly make some edits
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the way ppl see the star of david now is actually so gross and blatantly antisemitic it makes me sad. my gf's mom, who is jewish, got me a star of david pin w the trans flag like a year ago and I have it on a beanie I wear to work at a coffee shop sometimes. and today a group of Young White Gays came in & were staring me & the damn hat down like I'd spit in their coffee and they start whispering amongst themselves going "first starbucks and now this?" like abt the starbucks boycott lmfao I'm like
begging yall to understand that the star of david =/= israel and you assuming everyone you see wearing it is some violent islamphobe is actually incredibly shit. you should probably work on that. I've heard WAY too many stories of jews lately actually literally getting attacked for wearing one, which is much worse than annoying comments at a coffee shop to someone who's only jew(ish). if you Don't see an issue w that I really don't know what to say
#like do yall think the star came from the flag?#and that's not even getting into everything I could say about this but.#anyway. people suck so bad#antisemitism#also I hope some of yall come get mad in my ask abt this bc it's a free blocklist#edit: turned off reblogs not bc anyone was rude or anything#but this feels like a post that will get quickly out of hand so I'm putting a Stop Sign at 360 notes lmao
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I've seen people make human AUs and equate Winter's scavenger fascination with being like. a crazy cat person. and while that is really good and I do think Winter would and should be crazy about cats, I do think like... if you are going to give him an equivalent interest you gotta go nicher than that. Like, being a Cat PersonTM is a thing like half the population identifies at. You GOTTA go stranger. He needs to be regularly attending reptile conventions. He needs to daydream about owning a praying mantis. He needs to yell at underpayed PetSmart workers about how small the fish tanks are that they keep the bettas in. He needs to be offered the chance to hold a snake and he needs to talk to that snake like he's greeting the queen. He needs to show you photos of tarantulas please please please look at his pictures please of his tarantulas
#in my. non magic AUs I mean where the scavenger characters just kind of stop existing as opposed to like. the scavenger characters Are The#Animals because I think the ways that get handled can get pretty dicey really quickly especially depending on the like#type of animal one picks to do that with if you don't make them just The Dragons Instead which I think is more appropriate#wings of fire#wof#human wof#winter#winter wof#i don't mean to imply that fish are a weird pet to keep but i do mean to imply that like#being a cat person is not necessarily a personality trait so much as it is a like... preference of a person. but if somebody told me they#were a āfish personā the way they would identify as a dog/cat person I WOULD count that as a personality trait and I'm saying whatever that#trait is winter has it
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god ling accepting greed is really fucking funny actually. literally everybody else in the scene is like "what the fuck" and "why aren't you fighting it" and "it'll kill you" but ling is a particular kind of freak and he's just like ">:) everything is going according to plan"
#my post#fmab#fullmetal alchemist#ling yao#greed fma#greed the avaricious#it's SO FUCKING FUNNY like!!!#hes so weird. hes homunculus georg#this is not to negate the fact that this is an incredible character moment for him#and him accepting a homunculus is fundamentally tied to his characterization as exactly the right person to host greed#but that does not stop it from being hilarious how quickly he's like 'this might as well happen'
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During the fall leading up to my fifteenth birthday, I came very, very close to committing suicide. Today I turned twenty-five. I had that fifteen year old girl I almost wasnāt sit down with me for a metaphorical conversation.
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[Fifteen Speaks to Twenty-Five] Leah Saint-John
Are you alive
Yes
Does it hurt
Yes
Are you glad
[instead of an answer there is a helpless look]
Is it all still green
Especially in June
Do you still love it
Especially in June
What colour is our blood
Garnet
Itās thickened
Yes
Is it a sickness
Yes
What does the garnet make you think of
Mouths Godās mouth The inside of His eye sockets
Are you happy
Sometimes
Is it enough
Sometimes
Are you lonely
Yes Garnet Like God
Did it get better
Yes No Yes Yes
Are you living
Yes Almost
#spilled ink#poetry#poets on tumblr#poem#writeblr#2023#there is a reason the number fifteen crops up quite often in the greater web of my writing :)#also lord can't believe starting monday i'll have to begin indexing these under 2024...time please stop going so quickly PLEASE
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I do have to ask. Was the docsuma ever planed or did they force themselves into exsistence. did you go into this expecting them to have so much homoerotic energy or did it just spawn b4 bc of how other people went insane over doc and Xisuma (separately)
it was 100% completely genuinely unplanned.
I went from a diehard rendoc shipper expecting them to be lowkey The Ship for dbhc doc (or not making doc a focus character at all, really), to thinking it would make a lot of sense/would be funny if Doc ended up being an android mechanic, to thinking it would be cool if Doc and X were close in this au because they both do android tech, to then being like... oh they can be research partners.... to then planning the [REDACTED] comic to then thinking... oh... what if they cared a lot about each other :(((( and the dynamic kinda stole my heart tbh
BUT IT WAS ALWAYS SUPPOSED TO BE LOWKEY bc i know docsuma is... Very Rarepair-y even though doc and xisuma have been good friends for aaaages hehe
THAT BEING SAID I DON'T PLAN ON SHOVING THIS SHIP IN ANYONES FACES LOL they ended up being kinda downbad for each other in a few of my unposted side-drawings but i don't want to make it a central thing unless people really wanna see it LKDFJGLKDJFG
#basically it started as a joke and then it very quickly stopped being a joke#but i dont wanna be obnoxious abt it bc quite frankly besides intense pining i don't think the characters would be obnoxious abt it either#dbhc ask#dbhc#dbhc doc#dbhc xisuma#dbhc docsuma#docsuma#ask#anon#in fact i wasn't really planning on making the docsuma thing confirmed or obvious for a while#but the GUY.EXE song thing started a rabbit hole i couldn't help but keep digging hahaha#its been fun to watch people put the pieces together =w=#but anyway!! i had wanted to say all of this at some point anyway so ty for the ask!! :>
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