#so that basically makes her a good person

[andersonsgf]

Roomate Abby getting jealous/possive🧐

modern roommate!abby

thank you for the request i now have possessive roommate abby brain rot 🙂‍↔️ series link

as always any requests for this series are welcome, but i have a little queue so don't be alarmed if it looks like i'm ignoring it - i'm not!

modern roommate!abby knew she could get a little possessive over the people she cared about. before she had even started dating you she had felt that little twinge in her chest when it looked like she was going to lose her chance with you. that time when she had her coworkers over and one of them slipped her number into your jeans. now that had been infuriating. but she wasn't even dating you yet so what the fuck could she do?

modern roommate!abby who -when she got over her initial distaste for you- felt like you had a special place in her heart. you lived with her. she learnt your habits. saw your ups and downs. knew your favourite snacks. you were her roommate. she even drove you around everywhere to make sure you were alright for crying out loud.

when you started dating it was only natural that this would carry over. modern roommate!abby was aware of her tendency to get jealous and possessive. never in a way where she would want to control you. no, she would never want to do that. but she felt like she had such a good thing going with you, and she rarely had a good thing going with anyone. sure, a lot of women were attracted to her, people brought banners saying as much to her rugby matches, but she seemed to always attract the women who wanted to treat her like a boyfriend. she may be nearly six feet tall, get clothes from the men section and generally seem more "masc", but that didn't mean she was a man by any means.

her past relationships never seemed to want to compliment her properly, get her sweet gifts on anniversaries. but god she realised that was not the case with you. you made it clear that you loved how she could pick you up and toss you around, but when all tired and lovesick before bed you'd always cup her cheeks and say something along the lines of "my pretty girl" before littering her with little kisses. you'd give her little flowers that had fallen in the park, check in on how she was doing emotionally and not just assume she was tanking her way through life. so yeah, there was no way she was letting you go, and no way she would let a single person on this planet be a threat to what you had.

the first time you went on a bar date with modern roommate!abby was when you suggested getting drunk together outside of the apartment. she agreed, knowing a good spot where she sometimes went with her teammates after winning a match that made them work for it. she liked seeing you giggly, your facial expressions showing what you were thinking, if you were slightly begrudged after even a sip of beer you just looked so grumpy.

it was all going well. at least one of her hands was all over you for most of the night whilst sitting in a corner booth, the drinks basically on a conveyor belt towards the two of you as the two of you slowly lost your grip on reality. entering some kind of new world with only a language you two could understand.

but when modern roommate!abby went up to the bar to get the final round of the night, she spotted some woman with the audacity to try and sidle up next to you in the booth. abby thought that this new person was absolutely fucking stupid. surely a corner booth screams 'im here with someone else'. she scowled, watching as this woman continued to hit on you. and there was sweet you, looking so uncomfortable but so not okay with confrontation even after multiple rum mixers.

she waited for the drinks to be put in her hands before making her way back over, her balance was slightly skewed from how much mezcal was currently being pumped through her bloodstream, but she was still stomping over like a trooper. "up", was all she said to the woman, her tone demanding as she stared her down.

"oh, sorry are you two together?".

"yeah, shes mine so if you could stop making her look like she wants to run into traffic that would be great for everyone involved".

when the woman muttered some apologies and even threw a few dollars down on the table, abby simply scoffed and clenched her jaw as she sat back down next to you, putting your drink down with unexpected gentleness, before her left hand firmly gripped around your waist. "you okay?".

you nodded and leaned into her, "yeah, just didn't fucking know what to do she was so confident with it every attempt i made to get her to fuck off she just spoke over", you sounded a lot more sober than before she had left to get the final round, but you were still pretty breathless whilst talking, the alcohol making your body go into overdrive.

modern roommate!abby smiled again, the possessive pang in her chest dwindling now that the threat was across the bar hitting on someone else. "well its just us again", her voice was low, smooth, a little suggestive. she gently pushed your drink towards you, wanting you to enjoy yourself again, the scheduled time for your uber was in fifteen minutes so time was of the essence.

modern roommate!abby held your hand throughout the entire ride, hers enveloped yours completely as she used the other one to trace between your knuckles, her expression slightly unsure. she acted so sure of herself a lot of the time, like she owned every room she was in. but when she gets reminded that you could choose someone else she can get real in her head about it. even after the many drinks you noticed how quiet she was, looking out the window whilst fidgeting with your hand. a frown appeared as a tired huff escaped you, your head lulling onto her shoulder and linking your arm with her giant one, holding her close, holding her tight, trying to make her feel better. maybe you were a little possessive too.

tags: @livvietalks

[sdmnpact]

Enchanted.

Wroetoshaw x Reader angst

[] requested by @sundarksposts 💕

[] Harry, your long time friend goes on a date making your true feelings for him hard to fight.

♪ Now Playing: Enchanted by Taylor Swift ♪

I was enchanted to meet you Please don't be in love with someone else Please don't have somebody waiting on you Please don't be in love with someone else Please don't have somebody waiting on you

~~~

I was invited over to dinner by one of my best friend's Talia. I was on my way over there when I recieved a text.

Talia: ooh, I guess Simon invited Josh and Frey, do you still wanna come over? 😭

Me: it's fine, I don't hate being a fifth wheel 😚

Talia: if anything Josh and Simon are gonna be the fourth and fifth wheels babes 😘

Me: True, I'm omw!! 🥰

>>>

"Hey!!" I greeted as Talia hugged me after opening the door. "Hey!! It's been too long since we've seen eachother in person!" Talia said leading me towards the kitchen.

"You guys act like a week is a year." Simon said standing by the counter eating something. "Leave that!" Talia said smacking his hand away from the salad bowl. I chuckled at how adorable they are together.

"So, since it's basically a couples night featuring you, should we invite Harry!?" Talia said raising her eyebrows at me. Simon 'ood' like a little school boy causing my cheeks to get hot. "Stop it- no, Harry texted me he was gonna be busy tonight." I responded grabbing the salad bowl taking it to the dining table as Talia followed with another plate.

"What's he doing tonight?" She asked. "I have no clue, he wouldn't tell. He just said it was something important and I shouldn't worry." I actually didn't know what he was doing tonight. We had just hung out yesterday and he was acting weird all day. He's one of my best mates and we share so much with eachother. It kind of felt like he was holding a secret.

"Si, do you know what Harry's up to tonight?" Talia asked as Simon sat at the table. "You don't know?" He asked looking towards me. Now I was very confused. I shook my head as he let out a sigh and a worried expression filled his face.

"Harry's out on a date." My heart sunk.

Like I said, Harry and I were really good mates so it's not like we were dating but we've know eachother for almost a decade now and well, I guess I caught feeling for the man. I didn't want to admit it but I've longed for him for a couple years now. I didn't fancy him when we first met but one night, I was drunk- very drunk and I was with Harry. I don't remember much from that night but I have the most vivid memory of the way he treated me.

He didn't try to take advantage of me, quite the opposite. We were with a couple friends, many males and he became so protective. He wouldn't let me out of his sight. At the end of the night, he took me to my flat and put me in bed. He sat with me until I fell asleep stroking my hair. I found him so enchanting. He was such a gentleman. I fell in love with him after that and I've been pining after him since. I never wanted to try anything with him because I love him too much as a friend to lose him.

Hearing this news was earth shattering though. I know he has one night stands occasionally but this was an actual date. He never goes on dates unless he likes the girl and this hasn't happened in years. I fear, I'll lose him this time. I'll never get my chance, not that I would've tried. I should have, who knows how he felt about me-

"Y/n? Are you okay love?" Talia said wiping at my cheek. Tears had been streaming down my face and I didn't realize. "Oh, uh yeah, just, I've gotta use the toliet." I said making my way towards the bathroom. I felt like throwing up, I felt like my heart hurt, I just wanted to cry. I didn't realize I felt this way about him. I thought it was a simple crush.

I sat on the toliet seat letting the tears just fall down my face. I looked at myself in the mirror, my makeup was a huge mess. Maybe I should just head home before Josh and Freya get here.

Just as that thought left my head, I heard the front door open and Josh's voice boom throughout the house. He was always quite loud and made sure to make his presence known. I chuckled as he made a little joke.

I know I have to leave the bathroom but I also don't want them to see me like this. I tried fixing my makeup as best as I could and walked out. I saw all of them standing nearby staring at me.

"Awww my girl are you okay?" Freya said as she extended her arms hugging me with Talia joining in. This honestly made me cry more.

"I'm alright, but I think I should go home, I don't wanna ruin the evening." I said as I pulled away, wiping at my face. "No, don't even think about it. Let's have a little night in instead, why don't we eat a bit then, the three of us can go watch movies in my room." Talia said wrapping an arm around me. I looked over to the boys who had sympathetic looks on their face.

"Okay... sorry boys." I said still sniffling a bit. "Don't worry about it Y/n, we're just glad you'll stay here and won't be alone." Josh said as Simon nodded. "You guys are too sweet, I love you all." I said through tears. "We love you too!" Freya said as they hugged me again.

>>>

《 Harry's Pov 》

"So, you like golf?" I asked. I was on a date with this girl I met on tinder. She's quite fit and I really like her personality but she's kinda giving me nothing. Maybe it's me, I don't know why I just don't feel much for her. I was really excited for this date but actually being here is quite- strange.

"Not really, it's so boring." She said taking a small forkful of her salad. I don't think this is gonna work out to be honest. She's missing something, I just don't know what.

I felt my phone buzz and I didn't wanna pull it out in front of her but the conversation was so dead, I really wanted to check who it was. "I'm gonna head to the toliet." I told her as she nodded. I walked towards the men's room, immediately pulling out my phone, looking at the notification.

Simon: Harry, how's the date going?

Harry: oh mate, it's fucking awful. She's giving me nothing here.

Simon: well, I think you should come to my place soon then.

Harry: ??

Simon: Y/n is in shambles over here, I don't know if I should tell you why but I think she'd benefit from seeing you.

Harry: already on the way

Holy fuck. I hope she's okay. I sped walked out of the toliet getting lots of odd looks as I reached the table.

"Hey, um there's an emergency and I've really gotta go!" I told her. "Oh my god, is everything okay?" She asked with wide eyes about to get up. "Yeah, it's just something I gotta take care of. Here's for dinner, order whatever else you'd like and I'll text you soon." I said placing two hundred pounds on the table.

"Oh- um I'd really rather if you wouldnt actually." She said quietly. "Oh... okay then. Well I guess I'll see you then." I said awkwardly as I got my jacket and left. I quickly called over the first cab I saw and headed towards Simon's house.

>>>

《 Y/n's Pov 》

Talia and Freya are so great. I don't know what I did to deserve such amazing friends. They really eased my suffering as we watched 'The Proposal' while we ate snacks and had some wine.

We heard some shuffling coming from the living room and Talia went to check it out as we continued watching the movie.

"Hey Y/n? Someone's here for you." Talia said with a smile on her face. That's weird. I wonder who it is. I gave her a confused look and she just gestured for me to go. I got up and walked towards the living room.

I saw Harry standing by the door in his date outfit. I know because he only wears sweatshirts and shorts but right now he had on some slacks and a turtleneck. He looked very handsome actually. But why is he here?

"Y/n are you okay?" He asked the second he saw me coming over and wrapping his arms around me.

"Um, yeah, I'm alright. What are you doing here? Don't you have a date tonight?" I asked and he let me go and gave Simon a little annoyed look. Simon shrugged as he walked to another room leaving just us two in the living room.

"Yeah. I did. Sorry I didn't tell you, I don't know why I didn't want you to know. I just... I don't know. But- what happened to you!?! Is everything alright? It looks like you've been crying." He said pulling me towards the couch. We sat down and I just looked towards my hands, feeling the tears well up again. Why am I still crying, I shouldn't be this emotional.

"It's nothing really, just hormones I think. I'm alright now. You didn't have to come. I don't even know how you knew, you should've enjoyed your date!" I said wiping at my eye.

"Well for one, that date was fucking horrendous." He said with a breathy laugh. "The girl didn't even like me in the end and she was just not it for me either. She wasn't the girl I need to be with." He continued. "Also Simon texted me that you were upset and I knew I needed to be over here instead." He said reaching for my hand. I looked towards him, as he had been staring at me intensely.

"Seriously are you okay? You're crying again." He said wiping at my cheek. "Fuck Harry." I said now fully bawling.

"I think I like you." I said unable to hold my feelings in. Like I said, he's always so tender with me and I just love him so much. He's always so sweet and maybe I'm just being dumb and falling for any man who shows me an ounce of niceness.

"You think? Or you know?" He said as I furrowed my brows towards him. "Y/n. I've liked you for fucking ages!!" He said. My heart immediately started pounding so hard. "I know how I've felt about you since the moment we met. All these years I've always had something for you. You're amazing, the way you make me laugh like no one else, the way you aren't afraid to be yourself, the way you eat like a dog and aren't shy around me." He said with a little laugh.

"Tonight was me trying to get over you. We've know eachother for such a long time and we've never had anything together. It's been hard trying not to hug or kiss you whenever I want. I needed to find a distraction from you. All you do is cloud my mind." He said sitting closer.

"I didn't know you felt this way." I said smiling. "It's always been you, Y/n. I never wanted anyone else but you." He finished.

"Kiss kiss kiss" we heard faint voices say. I laughed at this as I looked towards him. He shrugged and leaned into me, planting his lips on mine. As cliché as it sounds, I truly had butterflies in my stomach and I felt extremely happy in this moment. After a couple seconds, we pulled away.

"I'm so glad you came."

"I am too."

~~~

A/n

I'm actually in love with this one! It's so adorable, I hope you enjoyed it!! Also I melt every single time he wears those turtle neck tops- he looks incredible!!

[sasukekys]

naruto uzumaki doesn’t really understand love? a few times we are shown otherwise

another attempt of rewriting my own post that is lost forever under a read more. so let’s see if naruto uzumaki is really the type of character who doesn’t understand love, as a few people claim he is. i will not put this under a read more and risk to losing it, so it will be a long post.

1. land of waves

land of waves arc delivers such a good and clear storytelling, not only for the arc itself, but it sets the tone for the rest of the manga, many important messages have its roots in land of waves and it’s unfortunate that the manga didn’t keep this arc’s level of quality, but anyway.

the reason why land of waves is so impactful it’s because it not only questions what it is to be a ninja, but how and why you do it, and most importantly, is it possible to do it without losing yourself, your values, your heart?

in this arc’s storytelling, through mostly haku’s speech, but also naruto’s thoughts, the manga tells us that you are able to become a strong ninja when you have precious people, people you care about and want to protect.

naruto is not only able to understand what haku tells him, but also he can apply that to other people and, more importantly, to himself. land of waves establishes that iruka is a precious person to naruto and naruto is able to see that.

and what is interesting is that haku doesn’t necessarily uses the word love, but the way he describes how you feel towards a “precious person”, it doesn’t take a genius to understand it either.

and then again we have naruto being able to connect such a special feeling with iruka. that should be enough to show that he understands the feeling, but naruto goes beyond that.

this translation isn’t quite accurate, because the word naruto uses in the first panel isn’t mere “care about”, it denotes feelings of affection. when haku dies, naruto calls zabuza out for seeming heartless towards it and he describes the same feelings haku has described to him, he is able to see devotion, he is able to see self sacrifice, he is able to see and tell that haku loved zabuza. and his speech is enough to make zabuza cry.

so what we can take out of land of waves, at mere first glance, is that naruto is able to see love, not only when it comes to other people, but to his own reality, and he is even able to touch people with his understanding. on a deeper look, considering the entirety of the manga as well, naruto is able to link devotion, self sacrifice, desire to protect and become stronger for someone to love, but i will mention this later again.

2. sakura’s fake confession

in sakura’s fake confession, naruto looks stunned for only a brief moment, but he doesn’t buy it and right away starts questioning her. he understands that for someone who “loved” sasuke for so long, it doesn’t make any sense that she suddenly just started to like him. sakura’s confession mostly annoys naruto and he can quickly tell that she’s lying.

as if that’s not enough, in this confession sakura basically inflames all of naruto’s insecurities, by saying she likes him because she was able to see how he has grown to be a hero. in her speech, she puts herself in the same position as the other konoha citizens (“right now everyone loves you, i am simply one of them”). but in the following arc, this is shown to be badly received by naruto through the manifestation of his dark self. naruto resents this type of demonstration because he knows it isn’t genuine. in land of waves, naruto refuses to become a tool, and later we see that he kept this idea within him. it’s not meaningful to be loved only after he’s proved to be “useful” to the village.

and besides all that, when sakura brings that sasuke is a criminal, when everybody brings sasuke’s hatred on the table, naruto talks about the deep love sasuke felt for his family and why it’s so hard to forgive those who took that away from him.

what he can take out of sakura’s confession is that naruto is not only able to understand what love is, but he surely knows what love isn’t, and in this case, it’s specifically romantic love. later with dark naruto, we are also able to see that naruto is aware that the love people feel for him for being a hero isn’t genuine, and it sickens him.

3. when he meets his mother

another thing people say to discredit naruto’s emotional intelligence is that he can’t understand love because he grew up with none. that couldn’t be any further from the truth. naruto’s meeting with his mother is pretty self explanatory.

kushina just tells naruto right away that she loves him, and this is his cute reaction.

not only that, but he feels calm and happy. naruto grew up desperate for bonds, yet with dark naruto, we see that he distrusts people who don’t love him genuinely, that clearly isn’t the case with his mother. even though he grew up without her love, he is able to recognise it as soon as she tells him, and it makes him calm and happy, as if that desperation is immediately filled.

i guess it is pretty self explanatory, he had doubts but he knows now, he can tell he has always been loved, and again we see naruto taking the notion that love is self sacrificial.

4. sasuke

like i said before, land of waves is the origin of many important messages of the manga. what haku says about “precious people” also applies to sasuke. in many instances, naruto makes sure to put sasuke and iruka in this same special group of people that were able to change his heart… because they showed love for him first. when i say land of waves sets the tone of the manga, it’s because the same way naruto calls zabuza out for seeming heartless, he refuses to act the same towards sasuke. so much of what he sees in haku is applied to how he feels towards sasuke, the devotion, the desire to protect and become stronger for that person, the self sacrifice (that is also learned from iruka and his parents), and naruto understood that that was love, it is established in land of waves that naruto understands those notions and that they are linked to love. it is established that naruto understands sasuke feels the same. even though naruto doesn’t immediately understands it, even though he says he can’t exactly put it into words, how he feels about sasuke, he is able to describe it. not being able to put a name to it isn’t the same as not understanding, and the narrative and storytelling has shown us what it is.

does he have to repeat himself? do you still not understand it? it’s almost like he is speaking to the audience.

and these are just a few instances, there are many more showing naruto isn’t emotionally inept, he is actually complex and displays a lot of emotional intelligence. it’s disrespectful to his character to say he doesn’t understand or doesn’t know what love is, that’s not what the writing shows us. if you need to believe a movie that contradicts what was written in the manga because the manga didn’t give you the love story you wanted, if you need to butcher naruto’s character like that in order to defend a ship, maybe the problem isn’t with naruto and his understanding of love, but with the ship that can’t rely on his very evident understanding. let’s not simplify a beloved character like naruto that way.

[rottingghosty]

The Realms PR | DC X DP Part 2

this isn’t as good in my thoughts because writing as bruce??? really hard. how am i supposed to write a paranoid man if i am the most chillest person i can be… anyway heres your part 2 food of this au, not sure if i’ll continue writing more parts? depends on how i feel.

errors are made and sorry the the lackluster performance this might be

if you want to use my prompt please give me credits thank you

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Danny very much prefers to have nobody intervene on his business as the vigilante of Amity Park. He’s essentially called dibs on it if you consider the fact that the entire town is basically his metaphorical grave since it’s his haunt and he did die to make the portal to the Ghost Zone open. He very much ignores that specific can of worms because that’s a heavy topic that he won’t ever talk about because Spectra really ruined his own outlook on professionals. Jazz will most likely want to open that can but that’s for future Danny.

Where was he? Oh yeah.

Danny very much likes being a solo hero with his friends and sister aiding when they can. He very much dislikes the fact that people have been trying to enter his haunt without permission. Does he know why people who tried to pass through Amity Park suddenly find themselves back at where the welcome sign is? No. Is he going to ask? Also no because it allows the residents and himself privacy even when he’s got the GIW on his tail or even his own parents.

He’s not going to rebuke this gift especially with his influx of fame. Which reminds Danny that he needs to post a new tweet, maybe a video of Cujo playing with the kids in the park from a few days ago? He figures people would be more interested if they knew a ghost dog existed. Maybe he can include one of Ember’s concerts or something.

Man he has so many videos to post and such little time to do so, but he thinks Sam and Tucker are having fun being his PR team with the way Sam had a manic gleam in her eyes when Lois Lane and Clark Kent sent her a message of twitter asking for an interview. All while Tucker basically going giddy at Red Robin and Oracle trying to get through the firewall that’s blocking Amity Park from eyes being too close for all their comforts.

Bruce Wayne stared intently at the video before him, it was only thirty seconds but it was thirty seconds enough to cause him to tighten his grip on the arm rests of his chair in the Batcave. His blue eyes staring down at the figure in the video as it replayed on loop. His shoulders tense and bunched up as he inhaled sharply at the frame that happened ten seconds in.

Because right there, staring up at the camera looked too much like Jason. It looked too much like his boy, his son that he had lost when Jason was only fifteen. Normally he would’ve brushed it off but it was the way that it then shifted into Dick, Steph, Tim and then Damian—

Ancient of Hope is what Phantom had called them, the embodiment of hope and how its form switched to what people believed in. Apparently it looked so much like the Robins of Gotham because Gotham was— is the biggest source of hope there is. Yet, this was an unknown.

Bruce couldn’t trust a word that Phantom said, ghosts are an unknown. Trying to get Constantine to talk about it was a struggle itself, the equivalent of trying to pull teeth out because the man was equally as stubborn as Bruce and it was even worse when the man had cursed up a storm when they had a meeting about Phantom’s first videos.

Ghosts are a variable in an equation that Bruce is trying to solve but he simply can’t force his way into solving it, not when this whole thing has turned into a diplomatic nightmare with the fact that Oa has started pressuring the US government about the mistreatment of the Infinite Realms beings.

The Justice League Dark even adding in the pressure— Deadman being one of the more outspoken members as he explained as much as he knew about the Infinite Realms despite not quite qualifying as one of their residents but still considered as one in an odd way. Constantine grumbling about as he came and went, saying how the Ghost Investigation Ward could’ve started a war or destroyed everyone.

Clark and Lane were writing up articles, having conversations with the PR Team of Phantom— two teenagers who were involved heavily and considered ambassadors to the Realms because of their connection to Phantom.

Phantom who is the High King. Phantom who doesn’t want his subjects hunted anymore and took a peaceful route instead of simply declaring war.

Bruce takes a heavier breath, jaw clenched as he watched the video loop one more time before the closed the tab to look more into the GIW and their backers, eyes narrowing in two names.

Vladimir Masters and Lex Luthor.

[run2ikeu]

confessions to make ; lee heeseung

college student!hee x college student!reader

word count : 2k

synopsis: you and heeseung are aware of the tension that lies between the two of you, it’s just a matter of acting on it. although it’s unspoken, you should know better than to let people touch what’s his.

authors note: hiii guys this is like my first fic in YEARS .. i haven’t written anything in so long so please be kind to me heh. this is also my first enha centered fic so yayyy. feedback is appreciated !

warnings!: smut (mdni), basically no plot, mild aftercare, jake sim mention (he’s too fine not to be a warning)

There’s something different about the way he looks at you. You’ve seen Heeseung interact with your shared friends, classmates and even strangers on the street. That's just who he is; a socialite. There’s something different about him with you, though

You thought you were imagining all of it at first. The lingering touches, whispers and secrets shared as you hangout with your friends, and the burning sensation of his eyes on you. ‘He’s like this with everyone’ you tell yourself, but you don’t know if that’s true. Your movements are always so calculated under his gaze, you liked knowing that he was watching. You were drawn to him, and he seemed to be drawn to you.

It was like he had an unspoken ownership over you. Watching you, stopping guys from getting too close. He knew what they wanted, because he wanted it too. Never going further than a hand on your thigh or a label more than ‘close friends’, you weren’t sure how he really felt about you.

You begin to let your thoughts drift, imagining those same eyes staring at you as you’re laying below him while he-

“Y/nnnnnnnnnn” Loud as ever, Jungwon snaps you out of your daydream. An exaggerated sigh of your name leaving his lips.

“Y/n, Are you even listening to me?” he sighs, “I’m sorry Won, I’m just thinking about this uh- presentation I have to do?” your face begins to heat up. You’re lying, and not very well at that.

“I’m not stupid y/n. You’re thinking about Heeseung, aren’t you?” he smiles at you, tilting his head. Jungwon is the only person who knows about your weird relationship with Heeseung, and he continues to tease you about it. Making you question why you told him about it in the first place.

“Wh- uh No?” you avoid eye contact. Your eyes drift to the rows of bookshelves, pretending to be interested in the genre sections to avoid embarrassment.

“You’re an awful liar,” he laughs, “Anyway, as I was saying before you tuned me out, there’s a party tonight. Sunoo and I were thinking of going, do you wanna come?” He begins packing up his books. He looks up at you expectantly, “Jake Sim is hosting, you know him right?”

You sigh, you hate parties. “I- I don’t know Won. I don’t really do well at parties and Jake and I aren’t really friends so I feel like it’d be kind of-”

“Heeseung will be there.” He cuts you off suddenly.

You stop, “So what time are you picking me up?” Jungwon smiles.

Immediately after your arrival, Jungwon and Sunoo left you to join a game of beer pong, leaving you in the living room by yourself. That’s when you saw him- saw them. Heeseung and some girl, they’re dancing. She has her arms around his neck and has his arms around her waist. Suddenly you feel stupid for how much time you spent getting ready and you realize how sober you are.

That’s how you ended up here, pushed up against the counter of Jake Sims' kitchen.

Jake’s sweet, he really is, but you just need a distraction. Although you spent hours getting ready with Heeseung in mind, you’re realizing how absolutely breathtaking Jake is up close.

“Fuck, you look so good tonight. Don’t think I can handle it,” Jake rasps, his breath warm on your neck and reeking of alcohol. The music is blaring in your ears and you feel your heart begin to beat faster.

“Don’t think you can handle me?” you whisper in his ear, a rush of confidence taking over.

Jake chuckles, he begins kissing a trail from your collarbone to your earlobe. He licks the shell of your ear, his breathing heavy and hot. He moves his lips to your jaw, sucking and kissing you as he begins to grind into you.

That’s when you feel it. You open your eyes, nearly against your own will, and you see him. The burning sensation of his eyes on you suddenly washing away your confidence. He looks angry. His jaw is clenched and his eyes are different. The admiration that’s normally directed your way is replaced by repulsion.

You suddenly push Jake off of you. Feeling overwhelmed, you rush upstairs in search of a bathroom.

“Y-Y/n I- fuck. Where are you going?!” He attempts to follow, but you’re gone before he knows it.

You need to breathe. The heat is consuming you and suddenly the clothes on your body are heavy. You stare in the mirror, “What the fuck just happened?”, you whisper.

The doorknob begins to shake. You open it and attempt to exit, “Sorry, you can-” suddenly you’re being pushed back in and you're moved to sit on the counter.

It’s Heeseung.

“What the fuck do you think you’re doing?” he’s pissed. “I’m not there and suddenly you’re basically fucking Jake in front of everyone?”. His stare is piercing, awaiting your response.

“I- I wasn’t fucking anyone. And what are you? My dad?” you scoff, rolling your eyes and looking away from him, “plus it's not like we’re dating or anything Heeseung, you don’t own me. And I.. I saw you with that girl so just f-fuck off” Your mind is cloudy and you feel anxious under his gaze.

Immediately he grabs your jaw, seeing a mark left by Jake. ‘Disgusting’, he thinks. “What? We were just dancing. Bold of you to be upset with me when Jake Sim was grinding on you for the world to see.” he moves to whisper in your ear, “I don’t like people touching what's mine. You’re mine, Y/n.” He pulls back, looking in your eyes for a moment. Before you can respond, he smashes his lips onto yours and you melt into the kiss.

The softness of it contrasts his rough grip on your jaw. His hand moves to the back of your head and the other moves to your chest. He stops and pulls back, “Do you want this? Do want me, Y/n?” You nod immediately, but that isn’t enough for him.

“Say it, say you want me to fuck you right here.” He moves both his hands to your waist and you panic, “I-I want you to fuck me, Heeseung.. Please” your face heats up even more, if that was possible. You feel small under his gaze. He smiles and pulls you into another kiss. You moan into it and he trails his hands down to your shorts, unbuttoning them and lifting you up a bit to pull them down harshly.

His hand cups your heat, feeling how wet you are. He breaks the kiss, “This for me, or did Jake get you this wet?” his breathing is heavy and he moves to bite your neck.

You whimper, “You- all you Heeseung, fuck, please.” You feel him smile on your neck, “Please what, baby? Use your words.”

“Touch me, please seung. Don’t be mean.” You attempt to grind into his hand and he smiles at your neediness.

“Whatever my girl wants, she gets” he says proudly, moving back and pulling your panties down.

He uses two fingers to spread your pussy open and his free hand to push your legs apart, admiring the wetness. He plunges a finger in, the stretch feeling almost foreign. You moan loudly, inspiring him to add a second. Immediately, his pace is relentless. His fingers are long, reaching places you’ve never explored. He moves his thumb to rub your clit and he continues his assault on your neck.

“Want you covered in my marks only. You’re only mine.” You breathlessly nod, you feel a tightening sensation in your core. Your moans get louder and he can tell you’re close.

Then suddenly, he stills his fingers and pulls his head back to stare at you.

You feel tears forming and your whole body burns again, “S-seung, why did you stop, please?” You whimper, attempting to grind your hips closer to his fingers that are now hovering over your core.

“Say you’re mine right now or I’ll leave you here like this. I’ll go fuck that bitch I was dancing with, I’m sure she knows how to listen.” His eyes are cold and he’s fighting back a smirk.

“I’m y-yours seung, please, I’ve always been yours,” you’re breathing heavily and whimpering in between your words, the sight is almost pathetic. At your words, he shoves his fingers back inside your dripping heat and your moans echo off the walls of the small bathroom. “Don’t want Jake, just you Hee- fuck- just y- you” Heeseung smirks and quickens his pace.

“That’s right, this pussys mine too, isn’t it?” You begin nodding aggressively, the heat in your lower belly is rising.

You’ve never seen Heeseung so jealous and possessive before, the sight turns you on even more.

He moves to kiss you again. It’s sloppy and a clashing of teeth and tongue, your mind is running wild and you feel the band in your stomach about to snap. “Close Heeseung, so close, please” The words come out rushed, in fear he might stop again.

He continues fingering you and uses his other hand to make quick work of his belt and jeans. “Hold it for me baby, want you to come on my cock,” He pulls down his boxers and you look down, ‘hes huge’ you think to yourself. You begin to wonder how it's supposed to fit.

He smirks at you knowingly, “It’ll fit, sweetheart. I’ll make it fit.” He takes his fingers out of you and uses the wetness from your core to lubricate his aching cock. “Fuck”, he moans, jerking himself off in preparation for your pussy.

He rubs the tip on your clit and you shudder. He moves his tip to your hole and begins pushing it in slowly, the stretch of his fingers were nothing compared to his cock. “Fuck, how’re you still so fucking tight?” he moans, pushing himself all the way in.

You feel your climax approaching almost instantly, your body feeling sensitive. You cling onto his shoulders in an attempt to ground yourself and he pulls you closer, kissing your neck and finding a sensitive spot behind your ear.

“I-I’m gonna cum Hee, please I’m- Oh fuck” your head falls back and you feel yourself let go.

“Yeah that's right,” his thrusts become harder, the sound of slapping and your squelching pussy drowning out the sound of the music. “Let go baby, fuck, you feel so good” He fucks you through it and brings his thumb down to rub your clit. You come down from your high and your body is beyond sensitive, “Too much seung,” you whimper. Your head falls to rest on his chest.

“Just a little more baby, be good for me.” His thrusts are slow but hard, making your sensitive body jolt. He finally releases, pulling out to cum on your thigh.

He kisses your head, his breathing heavy and laboured. He pulls his jeans up and moves away to opens the top drawer, finding a face cloth. He turns on the sink to get it wet and he moves to clean you up. It’s silent, but it’s comfortable. He kneels on the floor, spreading your thighs slowly to clean the remnants of the events. It feels as if you’ve done this with him a million times.

He finally speaks up, “I’m sorry if i was too rough,” He looks up, looking at the marks he left on your neck. He feels a sense of pride, but he does feel a bit guilty. “I’ll be more gentle next time, and next time won’t be in Jake Sims' bathroom. I promise” you smile as he finishes wiping you off.

“Next time?” you look down at him, your smile widening.

“What? Did you think I was joking when I said you were mine?” he scoffs, almost offended.

He moves you off the counter and helps retrieve your panties and shorts. “Well, are you gonna ask me out on a date?” you button your shorts, avoiding his eyes.

He stands and lifts up your chin to look at him. “Y/n, will you please let me take you on a date?” he smiles, bringing both his hands to your waist.

“Of course,” you bring your hands to cup his face and kiss him slowly.

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[thatordinaryoddity]

hot take on 3x03 sweat tent scene

and since I know that most people here seem to feel differently about that scene than I do and actually love it (which I don’t), I’m putting my thoughts below the cut. You know, don’t like, don’t read, etc etc.

I’m finally gathering the courage to voice my thoughts on why this scene bothers me so much. Please keep in mind that this is my personal opinion, shared on my personal blog, based on my own impressions and experiences with this topic.

Call me prude, but for me, the entire scene felt uncomfortable and left a sour taste in my mouth for several reasons. I honestly can’t wrap my head around why so many people seem so unbothered by it or even love it that much.

First of all, even if we assume that Moiraine and Siuan are breaking up, I’m not on board with the whole “yas, go for it, girl” rebound narrative. They’ve been in a relationship/marriage for over 20 years. Unless the word breakup is used, I don’t think we can assume they’re officially done. Yes, Siuan betrayed Moiraine in 2x07 (though, to be fair, Moiraine wasn’t exactly a saint either so I don’t place all the blame on Siuan). But considering the depth of their relationship, I’d expect them to have a definitive conversation before ending things, especially given their shared responsibilities and history. No matter what Moiraine assumes about their status, I feel like there needs to be a clear, final acknowledgment of their separation before we treat them as truly over.

And honestly, they don’t seem over. Moiraine’s emotional support fishing net, her saving Siuan and her little eyebrow twitch, the kiss from the trailer - all suggest there’s still something between them (and we know there will be). Even if they are broken up at this point, it’s only been about a month. I get that people handle breakups differently, but I don’t see Moiraine as someone who immediately starts messing around the moment she’s out of a long-term relationship.

Now, setting aside the possible cheating aspect, there are other issues with this scene: Lan. Oh my god, brother? We see in 3x01 that Moiraine is still yearning for Siuan. She’s clearly not over her and isn’t emotionally in a good place. Lan basically even mentions indirectly how unhappy she seems. And yet, he suggests this as a solution? As if Moiraine is just going to forget 20+ years of Siuan because some random stranger flashes her tits? I’m so sick of the trope that sex is a magical fix for emotional distress after a breakup. And… Moiraine wasn’t even thinking in that direction until Lan put the idea in her head, which makes it feel even more forced and icky. His suggestion kinda boils down to “quit moping and get laid so we aren‘t that miserable anymore,” without any thought given to the emotional fallout.

Does he (or Moiraine) really think she’d truly feel better afterward? Has anyone who’s ever had rebound sex actually forgotten their ex because of it? Did it magically fix everything? Did it bring you lasting happiness? Or regret and even more pain? Anyway. His advice felt dismissive, and more broadly, the way the show treats cheating as something casual or insignificant is frustrating. (Honestly, this issue extends beyond Moiraine and Siuan. Rand/Egwene comes to mind, and Egwene deserved so much better as well).

And yes, maybe it was intended as a lighthearted, funny moment, just some banter between Lan and Moiraine. But for me, it’s an absolute flop and not cute at all. I hope we don’t actually see Moiraine cheating or anything like that, but even the implication alone already makes me mad and sad. If the show actually goes there, I don’t think if I can stand behind it.

And before anyone argues that maybe Moiraine and Siuan aren’t monogamous, or that Siuan wouldn’t care. Sure, we don’t know for certain. But based on what the show has told us about their relationship, all we’ve seen so far is a deep commitment, loyalty and resilience, at least up until 2x07. And if we’re going with the idea that wanderer!Moiraine can be off having casual sex with strangers while Siuan sits in the Tower, unable to do the same because of her position as the Amyrlin… well, that doesn’t sound like a very balanced dynamic to me.

Which brings me to another issue: Moiraine is off in the Waste, thinking about casually hooking up with some stranger, while Siuan is back at the Tower, dealing with absolute chaos? I saw other posts about how lonely Siuan seems, and I felt that. Imagine being in her position! I say it again; Imagine being in her position! She’s probably riddled with guilt and regret and hurting too (as we can see in her expressions in both 2x07 and 3x01, and in her conversation with the kiddos). But she’s got responsibilities, political turmoil and an entire broken Tower to manage. I’m pretty sure she’s not off checking out some other naked woman because, you know… she has business to handle and shit to deal with (as does Moiraine, actually). Idk, I just feel so sorry for Siuan. And again, if we assume they’re truly broken up and will try to reconcile later, Moiraine’s “one hour of happiness” would/could complicate things even more.

I also know that Tumblr is obsessed with Moiraine/Lanfear, which is another idea I don’t love and haven’t been quiet about. But honestly? I’d rate the sweat tent scene as even worse because that is happening in real-time. Moiraine isn’t dreaming, isn’t having a vision, isn’t being threatened or forced. She isn‘t even gaining knowledge or power or whatever by (considering) sleeping with that woman.

Moreover, the sweat tent scene rubs me the wrong way because I cannot see Moiraine‘s character behaving like this. Yes, she’s human and has needs, blah, but I personally just don’t see her doing this. All of it feels like such a loser move. Why does there have to be so much toxicity and awful tropes all the fucking time? Can’t we just have that one pairing that is loyal and loves each other? I know this is my hopeless romantic side speaking, but I’m just disappointed in this scene and how the show suddenly portrays Moiraine and the fishwives.

That being said, I do love how diverse the show is in its portrayal of different relationships and I do think that‘s great and beautiful, and I do embrace it! But when it comes to the fishwives? I personally can’t mentally go there. Sorry.

If you made it through my TED Talk, my condolences.

[scavman-john-2462]

🐌🐱:Survivor, and I'll tell you why. Every other slugcat has something going on, maybe they have a mission, maybe they have some power, or some curse. But Survivor has none of that, he's just a little guy. Just an avatar to experience his world. And is that not what the game is about? The rain world?

🍐: no damn clue what any of these words mean

💞 : Lilypad is basic enough to neutralize hydrofluoric acid, and it is by far my favorite ship. It lacks the problematic elements of Sunstone (srs enabling FP's suicide attempt) and is one of the more lore friendly ships. I don't see any problems with it. This ship is definitely the "going to a restaurant that has a whole page for drinks and ordering a dr pepper" of rw ships but my favorite terraria class is ranger so I think this might say more about me as a person.

👿: the tone of the game and it's insistence that ascension is a "good ending" is kinda distasteful to me. For as much as I love this game, I would have written the lore a bit differently. Perhaps have it take more of a cosmic horror angle. Perhaps have the ancients driven mad by discovering some unknowable truth to the universe. Perhaps this "logic plague" (halo reference for those who know) was spread from the ancients to the iterators, and from there to the player. Idk, these ideas i have aren't necessarily better, I'm more just describing the kind if story I find compelling.

🐌💢: artificer. Gameplay wise, she's a combat oriented slug whose main opposition is a creature in the game that I really don't like to fight. Her portrayal in the game is alright, but many of her fan interpretations are kinda obnoxious. Something about girlboss arty just frustrates me.

💔: Artyhunter. There is not a single element of this ship I like. It conflicts with my own headcannon by portraying hunter as female, it has artificer in it. There is nothing for me to like.

💭: that artificer is a purposed slugcat that decided to disobey orders. Explains the explosives.

✨️1 moon x Nsh 2 pebbles x unparalleled innocence 3 gormand x artificer 4 Moon x SoS 5 inv x nightcat

🏳️‍🌈: I might get a bit of hate for this but I don't think any of the iterators are trans. Nonbinary, sure. But going out of your way to give your giant sentient computer gender dysphoria is kinda cruel, especially if everyone who can make the necessary modifications is planning on peacing out.

🧸 gourmand isn't actually obese! He has a lot of fat, sure, but he also has lots of muscle. But he certainly has breathing issues.

🪰:SRS. I will not elaborate.

🙏: Unparalleled innocence

🥱: i haven't played all campaigns yet

🤩:Survivor so far.

Rain World Ask Game!

🐌🐱: What is your favorite Slugcat and why?

🍐: Do you kin/copinglink any characters?

💞(insert a ship): What is your opinion on (insert a ship)?

😈: What do you like the least about rain world?

🐌💢: What is your least favorite Slugcat?

💔: What is your least favorite ship?

💭(insert character): What do you think is the most unique headcanon you have about (insert character)?

✨: Rank your top five ships

🏳️‍🌈: What are your Lgbtq+ headcanons for the characters?

🧸: What are your health headcanons for the characters?

🪰: What character portrayl do you hate the most?

🙏: What character do you think deserved to get more lore?

🥱: What is your least favorite campaign?

🤩: What is your favorite campaign?

[velvetvexations]

I genuinely enjoy Chappell Roan's music but as a bi and butch woman I def do have trouble getting as into it as other queer people. I try to remind myself that right now in the mainstream it IS revolutionary to have a huge pop star be so vocally disinterested in men, and on top of that Chappell is legit just one person who went from being basically no one to a pop sensation in like a week, she isn't gonna be able to be perfectly articulated 100% of the time, but yeah it does also kinda feel like she is very much a product of "girls, gays, and theys" queer culture which like unfortunately is super alienating to anyone who hasn't traded in their masculinity or identity as a man for their queer card. Every time she talks about how trans people matter she always comes back around to drag queens and trans women. I don't think I've ever seen her mention trans men or butches or drag kings. And yeah her music is very painfully cis.

I think at the end of the day the real problem is that Chappell is one person. In an ideal world we would have room for more femme queer culture alongside masc queer culture. We should have famous musicians who are trans men and butch and masc too, and ideally the bisexuality of so many current pop stars wouldn't be completely fucking ignored(also tbh that history of bisexuality being treated the way it is might be part of why Chappell went from publicly IDing as a queer woman to a lesbian), but we don't live in this world and so Chappell is serving as an icon and saint of ALL queer culture when in reality she's just a person who embodies one specific facet of queer culture. Chappell's camp and glitter and drag style queerness is never going to represent all queers. It can't, and instead of treating her like a saint and acting like she's going to save the queers or whatever we should uplift other queer artists alongside her.

I do wish she would back off on the man hate tho. Good Luck, Babe does feel really mean(and honestly more than a little biphobic now that I look at the lyrics, I'm sorry if a bi girl broke your heart Chappell but liking men isn't the problem there it's her leading you on, and trust me, lesbians are perfectly capable of doing it too) and like again, I give it a pass because she's almost certainly doing it to rebel against being treated like she should be focusing on or obsessed with men, I fully believe if she ever let out even the slightest hint of finding a man attractive the media would eat her alive and never shut up about it(I mean I stopped hearing literally anything about Lil Nas X from my queer friends after he posted about how he might actually be bi) and she's allowed to write music about her expiriences being a highfem4fem cis lesbian drag queen pop star, but still. It makes me flinch when she makes sweeping statements about how men suck in bed or how only women know what women want and how she never mentions trans men when she talks about how much trans people apparently mean to her.

I don't even think it's that revolutionary to be vocally disinterested in men. That kinna performative feminism is a well-trod gimmick and I'm not trying to say all of her feminism is necessarily performative but it can't begin and end with saying women rule, men drool.

[thechildofshadows]

PARTNERS IN WINE

Avery Grambs x Jameson Hawthorne - 2.1k

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Hello and a Happy St. Patrick's Day to all who celebrate! Here's the promised 'Jameson takes care of drunk!Avery' fic, @saythewordheiress. You did not ask me to write it, but I have done so anyway! (because I like doing fun things, especially if it means skiving off schoolwork!) Let me know if you guys want a part two, because I think I set it up pretty well to write a chapter for Grayson and Lyra. This is different from what I usually write, so the quality might be worse. This fic, as I said earlier, is one where Jameson takes care of a drunk Avery. She's drunk for about half the fic and hungover for the other half, so if you don't like reading about people being drunk, or people throwing up ... wrong place, I will see you next week! It is also partially a chat-fic ... you'll see what I mean, because it alternates between actual storytelling and texting. It sounds bad rn, just read it. If you hate the texting, there is actual writing, and if you hate the writing, there is texting. Have fun!

CONVERSATION: KEVIN, JOE, NICK AND THE BONUS JONAS

NASH: Alright you’re going to love this

JAMESON: am i

NASH: Maybe not

NASH: so you know how the girls had a night here

JAMESON: yes

JAMESON: get to the point nash

NASH: there was some rum involved

GRAYSON: Is anyone dead, bleeding, or currently in the hospital?

NASH: no

GRAYSON: Then what’s the problem?

JAMESON: you text like a karen

XANDER: Nash hesitates to tell you, so I shall!

XANDER: They got really drunk.

NASH: …

NASH: Y’all have been quiet for a while

NASH: I’m not afraid of a fight

NASH: I have Oren

GRAYSON: Oren won’t help.

JAMESON: they’re not hurt, jfc calm down loverboy

JAMESON: how much is really drunk?

NASH: like a lot.

NASH: Avery and Max kept drinking after Libby stopped

NASH: they’ve gone through a lot of bottles.

XANDER: Avery recited Shakespeare off the top of her head

JAMESON: do you know which one

XANDER: A Midsummer’s Night Dream

XANDER: The queen’s monologue

JAMESON: omg she was learning it last week for that lit course

NASH: Gotta say

NASH: if this whole inheritance thing stops working out

NASH: she has a future in theater.

GRAYSON: From one solo?

NASH: hey she and Lyra got a pretty good recital of Hamlet in

NASH: they sound better than you do when you’re sober

JAMESON: i think gray might cry lmfao

GRAYSON: I’m not.

Jameson’s favorite thing (person) in the world was Avery Kylie Grambs.

That being said, he had no idea how to handle the woman while she was drunk. And in denial.

“Look, I’ve walked in a straight line, and … and I got back home fine. I’m not thaaaaat drunk.”

Jameson looked at Avery, who has tucked herself into his side. “Oren drove you here, and that line was definitely not straight.”

“It was …” she mumbled. She tried to take a few steps by herself, and fell over against Jameson, who wrapped an arm around her torso to steady her.

“Jesus Christ, how much did you drink?” Avery had a pretty high tolerance for alcohol, and her liver probably died three times over for her to be this drunk.

“I’m not Jesus, I’m Saint Avery, remember?” Her voice slurred as they reached the stairs. Avery tried moving, but she tripped on the first stair and nearly brought Jameson down with her.

Okay, that plan is out the window. Jameson hooked an arm around her legs, and lifted her in a bridal carry, walking away from the stairs.

“Where’re we going?” her words were basically mush at this point, but Jameson was able to make them out.

“Your room is pretty high up, Heiress, and we are taking the shorter route.” He stopped at a random point in a hallway, and tapped it three times. The wall slid away, and revealed an elevator.

Jameson put Avery down, and half-pushed her into the elevator. He clicked the button for her floor, and kept her within his arms as the elevator. It was a pretty short ride, but the sudden stop (which was pretty smooth) caused Avery to lose what little balance she had, and nearly fall over.

Jameson saved her from an encounter with the floor. Again.

She was still putting her full weight on him, so he picked her up again.

As they were walking to her room, she started giggling.

“What’s so funny?”

“You!”

Jameson had no idea what she was talking about. “What?”

Avery giggled again. “Like that. You’re funny. And pretty. Like really pretty.”

Jameson nudged at the side of her head with his nose. “Just pretty?”

“Yeah. Really pretty.” She rested her head against his chest.

“I thought you’d say I’m sexy.”

“That too.”

As soon as she reached her bed, she fell asleep. She was already in pjs, and it didn’t seem worth waking her up again to get fully ready for bed.

Jameson, who had been in bed fiddling with a puzzle Xander gave him, had already been in ‘sleep mode’ for the past hour. After making sure Avery was underneath a blanket and wasn’t about to fall off the bed, throw up, choke on said throw up or all three, he got in beside her, and was surprised that Avery promptly attached herself to his side.

“You’re not really asleep, are you, Heiress?” He asked with a smirk.

She pulled him closer. “I … love you.”

Jameson gave an amused smile and dropped a kiss on the top of her head. “I love you too.”

She didn’t respond, and Jameson figured she was truly asleep.

“Good night, Avery.”

Avery woke up the next morning- and ran straight to the bathroom.

Jameson was sitting on the counter next to the sink, as if he had been waiting there, but she barely acknowledged him as she bent over the toilet. He held her hair back as she threw up, and rubbed circles in her back. His touch was gentle, and Avery would've appreciated it more if she hadn't been spilling the contents of her stomach into the toilet.

“Good morning, Heiress.” he said with a smirk once she was done.

She shot him a glare, but quickly looked away as her head began pounding. “Don’t even try.”

“I didn’t say anything.” He joined her on the floor, placing a kiss on her temple, and offered her a bottle of water.

She began to drink it, and felt her headache ease somewhat. She leaned into Jameson and closed her eyes, taking a minute to relax and allow herself to slow down. With the nausea out of the way, she felt closer to sleep than ever.

She checked the clock on the wall. 9:45.

It was still too early for her.

"Woah." Jameson tapped her hand. "You're not sleeping until you've had something to eat."

"What?"

Jameson shrugged. "You're probably going to throw up again when you wake up, you might as well have something to throw up instead of pure stomach acid. You're lucky you ate before drinking last night, otherwise you would be in significantly worse shape."

She opened her mouth to respond, but she felt her stomach turn, and quickly dove for the toilet. Jameson held her hair back as she threw up bile, and kept dry heaving. She almost collapsed against the toilet and felt Jameson tie her hair and walk out of the bathroom. Avery wondered if she was in such bad shape that he couldn’t even be around her.

Avery tried to move, but her vision went temporarily black as she got up, and she wobbled for a second before catching the countertop. "Ow."

“How much did you end up drinking last night?” Jameson re-entered the bathroom and helped her sit on the countertop, giving her a bottle.

That’s why he left.

Avery noticed it was Gatorade rather than water and raised an eyebrow.

“You need the extra hydration, don’t look at me like that.”

Avery would’ve rolled her eyes. She instead decided to open the Gatorade bottle, but lacked the energy to actually open it.

“And she said she didn’t drink at all last night.” Jameson gave her a smirk -oh god, how could he be hot and helpful and unhelpful so early in the morning?- and helped her tip the bottle into her mouth.

She finally found the strength to talk. “Did I really say that last night?”

“Among other things.” He stood between her legs, and gently took the bottle from her, capping it as he moved it to the side.

Avery poked his chest. “What else did I do?”

Jameson gave her a crooked grin. “Finish the food.”

Food?

He produced a packet of crackers out of nowhere, and Avery groaned. “They’re disgusting.”

“They’re what you’re least likely to throw up.”

Avery frowned, and Jameson tore open the packet. “Take it from a Hawthorne man; we know the best ways to get drunk, and the best ways get over a hangover.”

He fed her a cracker, which was bland and flavorless, but the thought of any other food made her want to throw up.

Avery got halfway through the packet before she felt drowsy again. She didn’t realize it until she felt a series of gentle taps on her hand.

“Just one more, Heiress.” Avery was leaning almost entirely on Jameson, her head in the crook of his neck.

Avery tried to respond, but she was almost fully asleep, and Jameson took it as an answer. “Alright, you’re too sleepy for this, let’s get you to bed.”

He lifted her off the countertop almost effortlessly, and gently placed her on her bed, placing a kiss on her forehead. He might’ve said something, but sleep washed over Avery, and anything he said was long gone.

DIRECT MESSAGES TO: GRAYSON HAWTHORNE

JAMESON: how drunk did the girls get

JAMESON: even i never got hungover this bad jfc

GRAYSON: I couldn’t tell you.

GRAYSON: She’s stubborn as ever.

GRAYSON: She won’t even eat food.

GRAYSON: She also says that she’s not drunk.

JAMESON: she’s not tho????

JAMESON: she’s hungover??

JAMESON: don’t tell me you’ve been telling ur girl shes drunk.

GRAYSON: Don’t tell Xander.

GRAYSON: Or Avery.

JAMESON: lmfao i just got avery back into bed

JAMESON: try harder

GRAYSON: She just ran to the bathroom.

JAMESON: have fun

She ended up waking up about two hours later with a blinding headache-

“-And that’s what the painkillers are for.” Jameson sat on the edge of the bed and handed her two pills and a glass of water. She quickly gulped down the pills and all of the water, and she felt relief wash over her about five minutes later.

“Jesus Christ.” She moved closer to Jameson and leaned her head against his shoulder.

“How are we feeling, Heiress?” She looked up at him and he flashed her a smile.

“A lot better now. How are you so patient?”

His eyebrows rose. “I’m not.”

“You knew exactly what to do.”

“That comes from a combination of regularly having gotten hangovers, and being a Hawthorne.” He gestured wildly with his arms. “Efficiency is key.”

She bit back a laugh as Jameson talked about his ‘process’ and how many tries it took him to perfect the hangover routine.

“-so you got the better end of the deal, you hopefully will never have to experience a true, raw hangover.”

“Thank you.” Jameson looked down at her and she shrugged. “You didn’t have to help. It was pretty gross.”

“Anytime, Heiress. And I’ve seen gross. I lived with Grayson.”

Avery swallowed. “We woke you up last night as well, and I didn’t plan on getting drunk at all. You were completely unprepared.”

Jameson’s eyebrows flew into his hair. “If you ever meet an unprepared Hawthorne, please disinherit them.”

When Avery didn’t laugh, he sighed. “It’s okay, Heiress. We all drink a little too much sometimes, and no one goes out planning to get wasted. We have a whole shelf in the pantry with ‘hangover-safe food.’ It’s not a burden to help you, and it’s never a bad thing to spend more time with you.”

Avery opened her mouth to argue back and Jameson clapped a hand over her mouth. “I will always be there for you, whether you like it or not. It’s not a bad thing.”

She felt her breath catch in her throat, and she paused for a minute before she spoke. “Alright.”

He flashed her a smirk. “It is also fun not being the one drunk for once.”

She rolled her eyes and Jameson wrapped an arm around her. “Brilliant. Now do you want to see whether Lyra finally stopped arguing with Grayson?”

“Oh, she never does.”

“Today might be different.”

“How so?”

“She’s hungover for one thing …”

GRAYSON: Where did they get the alcohol again?

JAMESON: avery’s asking if Lyra’s okay.

GRAYSON: She’s sleeping.

JAMESON: gray it’s like 1pm

JAMESON: why did it take you so long to get her to rest.

GRAYSON: Apparently, Lyra has a severe distaste for all things involving alcohol.

GRAYSON: How did Avery get her drunk?

JAMESON: she says Max did it.

GRAYSON: I shouldn’t have expected anything less.

GRAYSON: I thought I was done with hangovers when you stopped drinking.

JAMESON: and then you decided to fall in love

JAMESON: this is not my fault

GRAYSON: she’s waking up.

GRAYSON: Maybe I’ll finally sleep.

JAMESON: that’s what you get for not sleeping when people do

GRAYSON: I’m not going to grace that with a response.

GRAYSON: Goodbye, Jamie.

JAMESON: you’re not going off to war jfc dont sound so dramatic

JAMESON: well, you kinda are

GRAYSON: … I’ll pass on the sentiment to Lyra

JAMESON: he didn’t mean that -Avery

JAMESON: I did

JAMESON: see you later.

fin.

ENDING NOTES This fic was kind of a rollercoaster, and it was harder for me to write ... for some reason. I specialize in angst. Thanks for reading - please like, reblog and leave feedback in the notes. Or just throw blackberries at me. Anything works. It's St. Patricks Day, and I literally live in Walmart Ireland, and I ... made this fic blue. (yaaay) This looks shit in light mode, im sorry. The taglist has a grand total of one person (thank you, Jude) and is looking for more people, so if you want to be added, lmk. (I joined the writing side during TIG's lowest point, but we are going to deal with it by throwing more fics into the pit.)

Taglist: @inmyheaddd

[thrashkink-coven]

One of the big breakthroughs that both Lord Lucifer and Lord Hermes have really helped me understand is the idea of sensing energy in objects.

So often we talk about sensing and observing energy, but to beginners, our vague descriptions can be confusing or miss the point entirely.

When we talk about sensing energy in objects, people, crystals for example, remember that we’re not searching for some hypothetical mystical thing that “only REAL witches can see”. Every single person is capable of observing energy.

Lord Lucifer really helped me understand that energy is not just this mystical imaginary thing that we’re trying to tap into. You are very used to observing energy, you are already a pro at it.

Light, sound, touch, texture, solidity, surface tension, color, yes, all of these things are also energy, information. So many times I have seen practitioners in crystal shops waving their hands around the rocks, feeling them in their hands, staring into them deeply, even putting them to their ears, and I always thought “WHAT is it that they are sensing that I am not sensing?”

It wasn’t until I found myself in a crystal shop waving my hands above the crystals to feel which ones felt like they were radiating heat that it clicked for me. When Lord Hermes tells me to feel the crystal in my hand, he’s being very literal. When he asks me why this crystal is reflective, he is asking me why light interacts with this object the way it does. What does this tell me about the structure of this object? This feedback that my body is telling me is not just mundane, it is inherently telling me vital information about the object and it’s composition. These are universal truths.

Why do I see pink inside the quartz structure of a rose quartz? Why does angel aura reflect rainbows the way it does, why is obsidian shiny and onyx matte? Why is Sapphire a different shade than Opal and why is Opal different than Opallite? What makes all of these things different than lavender and water? Why are these things different from fire and sand?

What you are seeing in the mundane is not just an object. You are seeing a reflection of its attributes, quite literally. You are also hearing, feeling, even tasting these things as well. Sensing energy, feeling the vibration of a crystal, is not this talent that some people just have. You have it too, you just have to learn how to make sense of the information you’re already receiving. Those witches that seem so experienced aren’t waving their hands around the crystals because it looks aesthetically pleasing. They are actively trying to understand the structure of the object and how that relates to its energy.

Good magic takes root from good observation. I can feel that my friend is troubled, perhaps because of the vibes their ethereal aura is emitting, sure. But also because their quietness can be observed across multiple spectrums, through their appearance, through the rhythm of their breathing. My subconscious brain understands all of the billion subtle cues a body can produce before I can. I trust it.

When I approach my friend and say “hey, your hair actually looks great” and they go “wow! really? How did you know I was nervous about that?” , I might reply saying that I sensed it. What I actually mean is that I saw it, I heard it, I felt it on my skin, all at the same time. And before I even understood all of these things individually, I knew that her vibe was somewhat off. I don’t need mystical powers to understand that. Everything from the sweat on your brow to the sound of your voice is an energy and vibration. The way your hair falls tells me how damp your scalp is. The way your face looks indicates to me how you tongue is sitting in your mouth. All of these things I can sense, not through super powers, but through the basic information that is also available to you.

My friends constantly tease me and say that I can “read minds” because I constantly finish people’s sentences or know what they want to tell me before they can even form the words.

“how did you even know to ask me that?”

“woah wait I haven’t even told you that yet”

Im a terrible person to buy gifts for because I know what everyone is going to get me before they can buy it. Am I a mind reader? Do I have superpowers? Probably not. I have simply gotten so used to interpreting subconscious information that I’m just a little bit quicker than usual. I see someone’s gaze shift, I see their forehead wrinkle which implies that they are about to speak. I see their arm subtly move in a direction, I see in their eyes that they want something. We’re standing in the hallway. Yes I can close the door, no problem. How did I know you were gonna ask me that? For the same reason I know that amethyst heals. Energy reveals itself through context.

edit: Lucifer gets real quantum with this idea. There’s a concept that dark matter- which is matter that does not interact with light- still affects matter, and therefore what cannot be seen can still be revealed in what can be seen. Coming to intuitive insights means access the ability to see what is hidden, to have prophecies and all that jazz. These effects are subtle, so you have to focus, but they can be seen.

Obsidian is not just protection because it has some innate fantasy quality that is only found in obsidian. Your brain understands black obsidian as black and sharp for a reason. That translates both literally and symbolically.

You’re reading right now, right? You see squiggles on a screen and yet you completely understand these concepts I’m presenting. A whole message has been communicated to you through nothing more than lines and squiggles. This form of transferring information is not limited to words. This thing that you’re doing right now occurs every single time you observe anything. A whole message, understanding and idea is communicated through the texture of Labradorite in the same way that it is in this post.

The next time you try to feel a vibe or energy, don’t just try to feel with your soul. That is a super important step, yes, but also make sense of the information your brain is already great at interpreting. In fact, I’d argue that as soon as you stop thinking of magic as this fantasy thing that some people just have, your abilities will absolutely explode.

[iscdisc]

(Replying to the 2012 Kirby O'Neil part-)

Oh absolutely, this man is completely forgettable in the grand scheme of the entire series. LMAO

But in my opinion, he's also one of the most annoying characters in this entire show. I still somewhat stand by my point (The "somewhat" applying to him specifically here-) that both Kirby and April were handled a lot better in the first Season of 2012-! But even as early as Season 1, he still does things that kind of irritate me? Lmao

For starters, from the very first episodes of S1 ("Rise of the Turtles (Parts 1 & 2)' / EP 1-2), we see how unreliable he really is? Why was his 16 year old daughter, who clearly doesn't have much physical prowess or any experience in combative situations at this point, doing more to help them escape from this alien confinement then he was? Why was he just watching his daughter try to take on this like 6 ft robot by herself? Hello?? This is also the earliest that we've seen his defeatist attitude- This man is so quick to just give up and give in, rather than actually making an effort to change the situation that he's in (With his DAUGHTER, by the way. "April, I'll do anything to protect you! 🤓" my ass bro- Lmao).

It doesn't help that ALSO throughout Season 1, he was just sending April a lot of messages that were basically him telling his daughter, "Forget about me, I'm probably going to die here- You should just go save yourself and you'll probably never see me again. Okay, goodbye, I love you. 👍". Like bro- What?? And you're surprised that your daughter said, "Fuck that shit-" and decided to go save you instead (Technically she more so asked the Turtles to help save him, but I guess same thing-)?? My goodness. 💀

It was kinda nice to see that around the time we got to the episode, "Operation: Break Out." (EP 24) he kind of changed his tune, since his encrypted message in this episode was him asking April to send help for him instead of being like, "Yeah, my daughter who's only 16 years old and has only had me in her life up until this point / depends on me, just forget about me- Blah blah blah."- But at the same time, I honestly can't even say that wholeheartedly, because we find out in this same episode that he was being controlled by the Kraang to get to April. So I don't even know if that was really him genuinely asking for help or if he was just being controlled to do so- 💀 (But narratively speaking, this was actually some pretty great foreshadowing, given his personality change in this entire episode and how he was reacting to the entire situation- At least, in my opinion !)

And then in the Season 1 finale (EP 25-26, "Showdown!"-), we go right back to him basically doing nothing and being kind of useless. Him handing April over to Shredder (Karai technically-) and the Kraang is not his fault, since he was being mind controlled, so I am omitting that. But what I'm not omitting is how he decided to handle the situation moving forward, which was to basically do nothing and throw himself a little pity party in the Lair because he gave his daughter to the exact things he was trying to prevent her from getting abducted by. I'm not saying people aren't allowed to feel emotions in the show, but damn, can you feel your emotions and do something productive at the same time? Lmao || It just angers me how it seems like he never makes the effort to do anything even when it comes to his own daughter. Like even SHE'S not enough to make you get off your ass and do something?? And we actually kind of see this with his own Wife / Mrs. O'Neil too, since (During her recollection of the event in Season 3 EP 3, "Buried Secrets"-) we see how he was so quick to just abandon her after she got abducted?? And it doesn't even seem like he made any effort to save his wife or find out what happened to her at all- Like, he just decided to pretend like she never even existed and carry on with his life with April. 💀

The only crumbs I'll give him as far as being a good Father is when he protected April from the falling mutagen canister (Which resulted in his mutation as "Kirby Bat"-) in S2, but that's a 50/50 situation to me. On one hand, he did a really good job actively doing something to protect his daughter from harm or potential harm this time around. On the other hand, now he's not in her life yet again because he's a deranged mutation of a Bat Man and she's alone once again. Lmao

I also have to say that I think this entire situation was incredibly stupid. The O'Neil's truly are plot devices in the 2012 narrative, because what even was this situation? April's been training with Splinter to be a Kunoichi since EP 7 of Season 1 ("Monkey Brains" / However, this is the episode where she makes this kind of announcement that she's going to be training with Splinter. We don't actually see her on screen training with him until EP 19, "Baxter's Gambit" and again in EP 21, "Karai's Vendetta"-), and we've seen her react quicker to more dire scenarios like in S1 EP 14, "The Alien Agenda" with Ms. Campbell- So it doesn't make sense (Logically speaking-) why April just stood there even though the canister wasn't even close to reaching her for like several seconds. To me, despite April having this lack of definitive character in 2012 arguably (I more so have this opinion of her character from Season 2 onward-), it would have been more "in character" for April to grab her Father and start running away rather than standing there. But that's just me. Also, this might be a hot take from me, but I genuinely think April's Dad getting mutated was more of her own fault than the Turtle's fault. If April wasn't standing there like an idiot (For some unexplained reason- 🙃), Kirby wouldn't have felt the need to "protect her" from the mutagen canister. Plus, if the Turtles had been physically present when this was happening, Kirby wouldn't have gotten mutated at all. We know this. Which makes her cutting the Turtles off in this Season feel really over the top and unnecessary? They've literally been there for April since they met her, I think she should've given them some grace here- April's allowed to be upset, of course she is-! But I think it would have been better if she just needed like a day or something to feel her feelings, and then she came back and they tackle the situation as a group- You know what I mean? The cutting off part was just so out of left field to me-

This also feels like insult to injury narratively speaking, since we find out 15 episodes later (In S2 EP 16, "The Lonely Mutation of Baxter Stockman"-) that April's immune to mutagen?? So it wouldn't have mattered if it hit her in the first place. These writers really mutated her Father for seemingly no reason other than "drama". 🙃

It's also super unfortunate that April losing her Dad was such a running "bit" in this series, because the writers turned something that was actually really meaningful / heartwarming and something could have added a lot of character depth to April into something that became kind of monotonous with April's character instead. 💀 || This should've been about the fact that April's Father is literally the only person that she has left, so it makes sense why she holds on to him so tightly and is deathly afraid of losing him- But instead of that being the message (Like it should have been-), it just became, "Oh no! April loses her Dad AGAIN, and then she cries and throws a fit about it AGAIN, until he comes back AGAIN and then she's better! :D" (At least, this has always been my impression when it came to April constantly crying about her father for like three Seasons straight- I'm sorry, but it's my truth- Lmao).

It's also hilarious how April and Kirby really feel like a, "Like Father, like Daughter" duo, because these two are always getting captured or kidnapped or something. The O'Neil's are just "destined" to be victims in distress in this series I guess. Lmao

I just find it really stupid and annoying that April genuinely can't rely on her Father very much at all. No wonder she's so self-sufficient / independent (Even if that does act like a detriment to her character sometimes, since she can be super close-minded and not really consider those around her. Like all those times that she decided she wanted to do something and acted on her own just for the guys to have to come save her. I'd even consider the Aeon Crystal Arc to fall under this. 💀 || Although, as annoying as this is with her character in my opinion, it would have been fantastic character depth. Where we come to understand that April only acts this way because of how she grew up- AKA her father's an unreliable coward, so she's basically had to face everything alone, which gave her both positive and negative traits-). This man's impossible. The Season 2 finale was such a prime example of that too. The fact that she stays in her apartment for a majority of that conflict because her Father was having a breakdown and "didn't want her to leave" even though her friends are out there trying to handle what's going on- Like dude- (It was also super annoying how this took out Donnie and Mikey from helping, since Donnie "can't bear to leave April's side" and Mikey rightfully didn't want to go out there on his own- 💀) || There's even the Season 3 finale, where we briefly see Kirby just reacting to the Triceraton broadcast and like fainting or something in their apartment? Though I have to say it, was refreshing to see April's character not get held back by him in this finale, the way that she was in the Season 2 finale.

He also just comes off super stupid and goofy to me when he has these moments of like, "That's my daughter grrr. Back off. 🐺" or something, like we see in this screenshot from, "The Deadly Venom" (S3 EP 18) when April was coming back from the movies with Casey. The way he acts so disapproving towards Casey is honestly funny. This show really wanted to push Donnie as "the better love interest" for April so badly that they did some goofy shit like this with Kirby. Lmao || I also didn't get screenshots of it sadly, but talking about this same episode, Kirby was such a nuisance here. Omg. When he started yelling at Donnie about not helping April fast enough / for not doing "the right things" (Since this is the episode where Karai, who's also being forcibly mind controlled at this point in the story I'll add, poisons the group-) and then had the audacity to say, "I should have just taken her to a human hospital! >:(" ?? Like are you serious right now?? You're yelling at a child- I know Donnie wasn't the best in relation to April and everything, but this just felt very unwarranted to me. He's trying his best and you're just yelling at him. Once again, this man is just pathetic and doesn't do much to help the situation at all. He just whines and complains throughout the entire episode about April and then gets released when she's healed / alleviated of the poison. Which again, he did nothing to contribute to that outcome. 🙃

So yeah, I guess it's basically my stance on 2012 Kirby O'Neil. I just really don't like him (Canonically speaking-), and it would have been incredibly real and valid of April to have blown up on him more imo. 👍

Here's my collection of doodles from the Whiteboard from today ! ✨

I was having fun while doing the 2012 Jonatello art, but then some stupid shit happened (IRL) and that put me in a mood, which is why the 2012 April centric drawings are what they are- Lmao || But I like talking about those things anyway, so it's still a win for me-

Also Big Top Burger mention, because I love Big Top Burger- 😌

(Sorry for so much writing this time around- I hope it's even remotely legible in these images,, 💀😭)

[changingplumbob]

First Round - Day three (Jerry Group)

While most of the Jerry group were happy enough to settle in to the main hall and make small talk Posy heard one criticism from Cassiel and needed to urgently go check out the back yard.

Cassiel: Geez, it doesn't show that she's been on a reality show before at all

Harmony: She seems interesting to me

Quetzalli: She's definitely not here for Deanna. I think I would have died if someone else applied for me

Posy: I almost did

Jerrica: There you are! How uh... how was the yard?

Yasmine: See any solar panels?

Posy: *sighing* No solar panels. Look, let's just address the elephant in the room-

Harmony: You couldn't fit an elephant in here, they wouldn't even get through- ohhhh. Sorry all I heard was elephant, it was a metaphor wasn't it

Jerrica: Yes but English can be a tricky language

Cassiel: No kidding bookworm. What were you saying Posy?

Posy: I know I've been on a reality show before and that it probably seems like I have an unfair advantage but don't worry. I am here to show I keep my contracts, especially those with my clients, regardless of my own personal feelings-

Quetzalli: But are you looking for new clients or aren't you

Posy: A professional like me must always be open to new artists wherever they may be

Quetzalli: So could you-

Cassiel: I've had enough small talk, I'm going to watch a cooking show before lunch

Posy: Oh I know where the TV is

The pair leave followed by Harmony and Yasmine who decide to checkout the pool.

Quetzalli: Can you believe Cass just cut me off like that? What's her problem, it's not like she's a musician

Jerrica: Totally pretentious but... her dislike of me is mutual

Deanna (voiceover): I went in for lunch like I had the past couple of days and it was tense. I know yesterday there were problems between Nephinae and Kristina but their dislike was like ice cube where as the tension between Cassiel and Jerrica was iceberg. Harmony and Yasmine came in from the pool to chat with us but Harmony stayed pretty quiet. She doesn't seem to handle conflict well which I totally get

Jerrica: How was the pool

Yasmine: Good

Cassiel: I imagine it's the perfect place for a lazy person to spend their time

Jerrica: *unamused* Is it available for our skill time

Deanna: Not today. Production said they really don't want anyone trying to swim for four hours in this chill

Harmony: I hope it brightens up

Posy: Last time I was here I got plenty of sunlight, normally Tartosa does

Deanna: The weather is wonderful normally, especially in the warmer months. We don't really get much of a winter here

...

Quetzalli: I don't suppose we could get some hints for what the challenges are before the skill sessions?

Deanna: Sorry, I can't. We've just got the list of things you might want to brush up on

Yasmine: I've found it hard to pick

Jerrica: Same

Cassiel: *scoffs* Of course you did. I had no problems

...

Cassiel (voiceover): Alright maybe I did have problems but I certainly wasn't going to tell Jerrica. End of the day this is a competition. I want to get far enough that Deanna can have some of my cooking. People connect through food after all. But I admit my tension at the situation was getting to me, I'm socially awkward remember? So yeah I chose to focus on charisma

Jerrica (voiceover): I was so mad, Cassiel just gets under my skin, I hope I hid it though. It's like all her bravado just rubs me the wrong way. I do still think she's hiding something, surely no one can just be that confident. Anyway I'm going to focus on self improvement and chose fitness to work on. NOT because she got under my skin, just because I do tend to be lazy so having a few pointers before any physical challenges makes sense

Harmony (voiceover): If there's one thing you learn from growing up around animals it's how they'll react when they're put with others they don't know. Some go straight to showing they're the boss, they'll puff up big and be loud and basically say don't mess with me. Quite a few others will lay low, give the other animals space and basically signal that they're not a threat. Can you tell which one I was this morning *laughs*. Anyway I'm sure with time they'll settle. I chose to work on my charisma, when the others do notice me I want to show I know what I'm doing, even if I am clumsy

Posy (voiceover): Total nightmare, thank the watcher for Cass. I love her, she takes no BLEEP. Wait can I say that? Whatever. In general they don't seem to like me, but that's their problem. I'm here because I'm a professional. I figured I'd study up on some logic for the skill time, I feel like I'm going to need to be good at arguments with this group

Yasmine (voiceover): Was it cowardly to check out the pool instead of picking a side this morning? Maybe, but I'm not a picking sides kind of girl, I'm a picking up trash kind of girl. I should probably make an effort with them later though, I don't want to get on Cassiel's bad side and I still think Jerrica would be an awesome friend. So yeah for skill time I worked on my charisma... In my swimwear...

Quetzalli (voiceover): The villa is amazing! I want a house this big one day. I'm glad I got a chance to chat with Jerrica, my first impression about her was definitively wrong. She might normally live in her own fantasy world with Judith Ward but she's very aware of what's happening. I think she's a strong contender so a good one to befriend. For skill time I did charisma. If I get that first challenge date I want to be able to impress Deanna

Deanna (voiceover): I made fish tacos for dinner. When I called to let Joey know he wouldn't stop laughing for some reason so I guess I don't get family time today

Everyone takes a plate and a seat. Cassiel and Yasmine head out to the patio to eat despite the clouds while everyone else stays inside.

Quetzalli: I still can't get over this gorgeous villa

Deanna: I know! It's like my mansion baron dreams have been answered!

Jerrica: I can think of so many novels that would thrive in a setting like this

Yasmine: Are you doing okay Cass

Cassiel: *sighs* I just kind of needed a break from all the people you know. Well mainly little miss Jerrica

Yasmine: Think you can handle sitting through a movie

Cassiel: Depends, do we know if it's got a hot female lead

Yasmine: *smiles* It's bound to

Deanna tidies up the dishes and everyone moves to the living space.

Quetzalli (voiceover): I was trying to keep it together but that movie score, it just hit at all the emotional bits you know. The composer did an amazing job. I cried, but you know what so did Jerrica so that's bonding right

Cassiel: You okay there Quetzalli

Quetzalli: *sniffling* Totally fine

Yasmine: Do you ladies know how much waste gets generated by movie sets? Spoiler alert, it's a lot

Posy: Maybe but filming, especially on location, can do a lot of good for the local economy

...

Tensions seemed to ease as the film played. Harmony had many jokes the she delivered at just the right moments, meaning the group got to laugh together... a little.

Jerrica: I'm so tired, I can't wait to crawl in to bed

Cassiel: I bet you can't

Jerrica: Hey, it's been a big day

Cassiel: I imagine any day you get dressed is a big day for you

With the film over Quetzalli took some to catch up with Deanna.

Quetzalli: Hey cutie, I love the dress

Deanna: *dubious* Really?

Quetzalli: For sure, it fits with the warmer climate better than the purple I'd say

Deanna: I worry it's too low cut

Quetzalli: *laughing* Girl please, look at my v neck

While they chatted Cassiel and Harmony tried to stay awake but ended up crashing on the sofa.

Yasmine: What are you doing out here Jerrica? I thought you were heading for bed

Jerrica: I'm having a solo dance party. They're better at home in my pj's but I feel like I need one

Yasmine: Sounds fun! Hey I hope you didn't get offended by my leaving for the pool this morning

Jerrica: Not at all! I am absolutely going to be soaking up sun beside it on a less cloudy day! Just maybe don't let Cass know I'm going to indulge my lazy side *giggles*

Sims created by: @berrysims-lp, @cawthorntales, @fallin4fiction, @invisiblequeen, @matchalovertrait, @simstagramsomeone

[creampuffqueen]

Hey:)

I feel you’re one of the, if not the most qualified people to ask this question, how would you describe Yangchen? Like, personality, emotions, thoughts, everything that comes to mind. I encourage a nerd out.

I’m thinking of doing a thing at a later date when I’ve chased down all my thoughts, got my confidence and my notes in order and I want other interpretations of her than mine and what’s on the wiki 😅 you’re the next best after the wiki when it comes to details regarding her

(It’s just shedding season, I’m still panda beneath all the fur🎈🐼)

Nerd out about Yangchen???? Actually, forget veterinary medicine, this is the dream career for me. 

To me, Yangchen’s character is made up of a few basic things:

Her deep compassion for other people

A constant, underlying sadness

Major imposter syndrome

Feral Little Sister Energy

I feel like when I want to give someone a basic rundown on Yangchen’s character, these are the first things that come to mind and therefore the things I mention. Obviously, just mentioning these character aspects doesn’t exactly tie them together cohesively, so that’s what I plan to do here!

You guessed, it under the cut… it’s 2415 words long…

Without further ado, Avatar Yangchen!

Compassion

To start off, it’s important to understand that Yangchen is a deeply caring and compassionate person. For better or worse, she cares so, so much about other people. It’s one of the things that makes her such a fantastic Avatar, and it’s this deep compassion that keeps her from abandoning all hope when it seems like the world just keeps on taking. 

Her compassion is also what compels her to do the things she does in the novels – and arguably her appearance in the comics as well. There’s a quote she gives during Dawn that I think encapsulates her feelings on this quite well: “We fight for people we’ve never met and never will”. 

Yangchen cares for humanity, and truly believes in its goodness, or at the very least its worth. She strays from this belief occasionally during the books, but at the end she always comes back to it. She will continue to fight for humanity as the Avatar – the most thankless job in the entire universe – because she believes there is good in the world. Does she have bad experiences with some of the worst of humanity? Yes. Does she have some jaded views of people? Also yes. But at the end of the day she still believes in goodness, and strives to do what she can to promote and preserve it. 

This compassion shows up in many ways during the novels. She is a talented healer and largely enjoys the work. I touched on this a bit in my post discussing her relationship with waterbending, how she prefers healing as a skill because of the way it directly benefits others. When a maid in Bin-Er is injured on the job, Yangchen quietly pays for her treatment. When she first meets Kavik, believing him to be homeless, she immediately offers him money in a hopeful attempt to help him. She donates all the gifts she receives as the Avatar to the air temples to help fund the nearby towns. She heals Yingsu from an arrow wound – the woman who was trying to kill her five minutes before!

Really, this is the ultimate reason why she is the way she is during the novels! Namely, a cunning, manipulative spymaster. This all starts because she heard things were bad in the shang towns, and wanted to do whatever she could to ease the suffering. She is the way she is because of past experiences of being spied on, because when her plans are revealed before they’re ready she isn’t able to help people. She is a person who cares unfathomably deeply about others, and found the best way to help as many people as possible was to play the awful, twisted game her world was intent on continuing. 

Sadness & Imposter Syndrome

While Yangchen’s deep sadness as a person and her extreme imposter syndrome are highly connected, there are a few extras about both that need to be touched on. 

Namely, the fact that Yangchen doesn’t really feel like her own person, and all the ways that affects her. 

It isn’t always obvious during the novels, as her POV is only half of each book and she has a few coping mechanisms to help her out, but the voices of her past lives never stop talking. Never. Like I said, she has some ways to cope, to keep herself present, to tune out the voices at least enough to focus, but they are still constant. 

And that is just… yikes!!

I’ve said it before, but Yangchen and Korra have some eerily similar parallels to their stories. Both of them learned they were the Avatar at a very young age. Korra learned when she was 4 because she started bending other elements. Yangchen began experiencing voices and visions from her past lives when she was around 7, after which she quickly put together her identity as the Avatar. 

Avatars are typically not revealed until they turn 16. Clearly, there is a good reason for this. All of the Avatars we have stories for that found out younger than that have had… a lot of pressure on their shoulders. Pressure that affected them deeply. Yangchen is no exception. In her case, it is honestly even more extreme, because not only did she have the pressure of being the Avatar, she was also constantly reliving trauma from her past lives.

Unlike other Avatars who have to specifically call up their past lives in order to hear their stories (or explicitly trigger them, as Aang did during Avatar Day), Yangchen is constantly and unwillingly reliving her past experiences. She is hearing voices, she is having flashbacks, and at certain points even dissociating fully from her body as another Avatar takes over and speaks. 

This has created a warped sense of self for her. The idea of Yangchen The Person is pale compared to Yangchen The Avatar. She has her own personality, opinions, and beliefs, but to her, none of those are important without her also being the Avatar.

Which brings us to Jetsun. Her older sister. From what we learn in the novels, Yangchen had a happy enough childhood in the Western Air Temple, and that was largely because of Jetsun’s influence. 

Jetsun treated her like a person. She argued with her, she teased her, she played with her, she comforted her. While everyone else was thinking of Yangchen The Avatar, Jetsun was always thinking of Yangchen The Person. Yangchen, her little sister. Who was stubborn, annoying, and most of all loving. While the elders worried what to do about her visions, while the world leaders conspired to take control before she came of age, all concerned about the Avatar, all Jetsun cared about was Yangchen. 

This is why Yangchen is hit so very hard after her death. This is why Jetsun haunts the narrative throughout the novels. After Jetsun died, Yangchen was alone. 

Not only did Jetsun die, she died in a pretty horrific, traumatizing way. A way that was not only horrific and traumatizing, but that Yangchen fully blames herself for. It’s obvious to us as the readers that Yangchen was in no way at fault for Jetsun’s death, but Yangchen is unable to see that perspective. At the start of the novels, she has been blaming herself for her sister’s death for six years. 

The pain is not as sharp, but it is still there, just as constant as the voices in her head. 

Without Jetsun by her side, Yangchen truly feels as though she can’t reach her full potential. She imagines how different she would be if she had Jetsun there to guide her. She imagines she would be better if she had Jetsun there to guide her. 

Which brings us to how this tragedy and sadness ties into her imposter syndrome. 

Like I mentioned earlier, Yangchen has known she was the Avatar from a very young age, and as such has felt the pressure of that role for a long time. She doesn’t know who she is outside of the Avatar, because that’s been her defining life event for as long as she can remember. 

And because of the aforementioned compassion, she takes her job as the Avatar incredibly seriously. She is serious about trying to bring balance about and ease suffering wherever possible. She wants to be a good Avatar, and tries desperately to be one.

The issue is that because of how her past lives work, she doesn’t truly believe it’s possible for her to be a good Avatar, despite all evidence to the contrary. The visions she gets the most are visions of failure. When she speaks with her past lives one on one, the stories she hears are ones of failure. Avatars who couldn’t save their loved ones even with the most powerful bending in the world. Avatars who couldn’t prevent war no matter how hard they tried. 

Yangchen does not want that to be her ending, going into the afterlife with regrets.

(Of course, for those who have read the Kyoshi novels, we unfortunately know how that ends...)

Yangchen is a woman of action. This is rather in conflict with her upbringing from the Air Nomads, who generally prefer to evade, defend, avoid, and observe. Air Nomads don’t seek out conflict. But of course, as the Avatar, Yangchen can’t avoid it. If anything, seeking out conflict is sort of her job.

Her job is to bring balance to the world, and because of how many lives full of regret she’s witnessed, it’s no surprise at all that she prefers to take action. She doesn’t want to sit and wait, she wants to solve problems now. A part of the books I think about often is when Yangchen talks about a recurring theme of her past lives and their regrets – every single one regrets waiting, regrets not taking action when they could have.

So Yangchen takes action. Most of the time it works out. Because she takes action rather than waiting, she often ends up having to do things she considers morally questionable – or even morally reprehensible. I feel it’s important to remind everyone that she was disgusted at herself for using the vacuum technique on the combustionbenders. But Yangchen couldn’t wait around for some other solution to show itself. 

These are the kinds of things that breed her imposter syndrome. The things she has to do to keep balance in the world many times directly go against her views as an Air Nomad. As much as she hates it, she will sacrifice her own spiritual wellbeing for the sake of the world. That is, after all, the single thing she said in the original ATLA show, and therefore the literal start of her personality. 

Just because she is willing to do it doesn’t mean it isn’t painful. Doesn’t mean it doesn’t make her question herself. There are so many moments where she wonders if she truly hates things like spying, manipulating, lying, etc. She thinks if she keeps doing them, clearly she doesn’t hate them. Clearly she isn’t doing them out of desperation or a lack of options. 

When some servants are moved by her performance with the shangs, she feels physically sick. She has to look away. If only they knew. They wouldn’t revere her so much. She doesn’t deserve their love or their praise, she’s nothing but a fake. 

These are thoughts that plague her almost constantly. At one point she tells Kavik that he has to let go of his failures, and not let them haunt him. Later that exact same night she spends hours flinging herself around with airbending until she exhausts herself. Clearly someone who has let go of their failures, right?

This severe imposter syndrome she experiences makes it so difficult for her to recognize her good work. She feels her failures make any good she’s done completely null and void. How can she let herself feel proud of her successes when her failures weigh so much heavier? When there’s still imbalance in the world that she needs to solve? When her own spirit is on its way to be just as spoiled as the peoples’ she’s had to defeat?

Which is why her meeting with Jetsun at the end of Legacy was so, so necessary for her. She needed to meet her sister’s spirit, see that she was alright despite everything, that Yangchen wasn’t at fault for her death. She needed to hear from Jetsun herself that she was good, that she was doing well in the world, that she wasn’t a total failure. And most of all, that even without Jetsun at her side, she was still a good Avatar. 

Feral Little Sister Energy

Ending this on a happier note! Yes, Yangchen’s character is very sad and even tragic at times, but she also has so many moments of fun and light. It’s part of what really draws me to her, I think. She may be the all-powerful Avatar, but she’s also Very Seventeen. 

She can just be an absolute menace at times, and it’s so great. She’s a little sister, it’s in her blood.

Probably the biggest parts of this particular personality trait are her sarcasm and her teasing. She’s also rather blunt at times, not at all afraid to tell it like it is. As well, she has no problems demanding respect from world leaders, which is honestly a good thing because she has to put up with so much shit from them all the time. 

She’s basically a Disney Princess. She has (had) a sky bison that likes to preen and show off. She throws things when she gets mad. She can scream loud enough to burst eardrums, and regularly does. She likes to make little kids laugh. She tells jokes. She teases Kavik because she thinks it’s cute when he gets flustered. She gets worked up over the sound of handwriting. She loves to do crazy tricks on her glider. She’s captain of an airball team and regularly partakes in trash talk. She has a whole wardrobe of creative disguises. She hates the cold. She likes to toss people around with airbending just for fun. She’s almost frighteningly intelligent. 

There are just so many fun little quirks to her character. I’m probably forgetting some, honestly. 

Conclusion

These are the aspects that I feel make up the most important parts of Yangchen’s character. Certainly there are more, but I feel like these are a good starting point, as well as things that all the other parts can be tied into.

Overall, she’s such a well-written, interesting character, and I absolutely loved getting to break her down! Others can feel totally free to add other parts they think are important as well; a more comprehensive view is always better.

Thanks so much for the ask, and I hope this helps!!

[fatalism-and-villainy]

I genuinely love Mirror Sisko so much. I think he reflects and refracts our Sisko in so many compelling ways, and feels to true to how Sisko actually could have developed if he’d been born under very different circumstances. (Part of it is the script, and part of it is Avery Brooks’ marvelous performance.)

The Sisko we’re presented with in the mirror universe is wilder and angrier and more cynical, boisterous and fun-loving in a palpably threatening way, where you sense that he could spontaneously break out into violence at any time. And he projects a decidedly predatory vibe every time he interacts with our Kira. It feels deeply off, and yet also strangely reminiscent of Sisko Prime’s darker side. Because even though Sisko as presented in the show is a much more decent man, and much more committed to higher ideals and moral rectitude, he also had a wild side when he was younger, and his anger can be quite threatening when he’s pushed or under duress. (This manifests more often in later seasons, but even early on, there’s the scene in Past Prologue where he tells Kira, “Go over my head again, and I’ll have yours on a platter.” He has a real way of smiling like he’s baring his teeth that Mirror Sisko dials up to eleven.)

Mirror Sisko is representative of who Sisko would have been without the Federation, without the utopian society to nurture his most heroic and humanistic traits and without a structure of higher ideals to build his identity around. He has many of the same personality traits, but his jagged edges are more pronounced, and it’s clear his aggressiveness is a protective wall he’s built around himself. His interactions with the Intendant really illustrate how traumatized he truly is - when she comms him in Quark’s bar, he shuts down for a second before snapping out of it and sharing a lascivious chuckle with his crew about his going to see her, and then in her quarters, he has the line about how he “never had any [feelings] to hurt”. He’s cultivated a “fuck you, I got mine” mindset, and takes pleasure in intimidating O’Brien as a way of indulging in what limited power he has, because he knows - as Kira points out - that he’s still a victim.

(There’s something very poignant as well in how How Far Beyond the Stars links Sisko’s Black identity to the value of the Federation - it’s his trip back to a racist past that reminds him of what he’s fighting to protect against the Dominion. Meanwhile, with Mirror Sisko, in a world without the Federation, we have the imagery of a Black man from a enslaved people whose very conditional freedom and privileges are tied up in his ability to sexually service a white woman.)

But his fundamental heroism still comes through, and it’s explicitly through his concern for the wellbeing of his crew. When Kira challenges him as to why he hasn’t fought more for freedom for the Terrans, he says:

You’re looking in the wrong place for a hero, ma’am. I’ve made the best of a bad life for my crew. That’s my contribution.

I love this line so much, because while Sisko Prime is very devoted to the broader ideals of Starfleet and the Federation, and very invested in the symbolism of “the uniform”, he’s also very devoted to the people under his command, and willing to bend the rules or look the other way to protect them. It shows up in all kinds of ways, like him finding a loophole to shield Kira from getting in trouble for disobeying orders in Progress, or him fighting for Worf in Rules of Engagement despite disagreeing with his judgment call. So it seems completely fitting that for Mirror Sisko, who never had that ideological structure to nurture him and shape his worldview, his heroism - his “contribution” to the good of the Terrans - is entirely centered on protecting his crew, and his world has basically shrunk to his ship and its command structure. And there’s something so perfect about the fact that it’s Kira who makes him see that he can be more.

Of all the Mirror Universe characters, he feels to me like the most thorough use of the conceit to shed light on the character we already know.

[bambisturns]

Matt x Poppy!Reader

Matts tiktok feed does something to him. He cracks.

Everything Matt x Poppy!Reader related here!

Matt knew you were on tour, at least thats what Madison told him the last time he and his brothers hung out with her. Today was supposed to be like any other sunday, a reset lounging around maybe getting some more needed sleep he knew he needed. After sitting in the living room for roughly the majority of the day, Matt let both his brothers know he was taking a nap, and not to wake him unless it was an emergency.

Laying in before Matt decided to do his routinely scheduled “tiktok scrolling until he passes out” his eyes blurring from the heaviness of him being so tired. With one last swipe a video of you pop up he sits up straight breath caught in his throat. Matt couldnt believe what he was seeing. ‘Is that Poppy crawling on the ground?!’ His eyes dont deceive him. Its you. Basking in all your glory. You crawl towards a fans camera leaning in giving it a kiss. Matts eyes widen. Hes never seen you act this way. Hes intrigued, this is a whole new you. ‘Fuck did I really fuck her up that bad?… yes you fucking idiot’ he answers his own thoughts.

Scrolling he sees another clip its just a regular video of you talking about how you making some music changes. “So we all know Ive kinda like always been a pop girly… if you guys have known me for a while you’ll know that I actually enjoy alternative music.” You say in the video ‘I knew that!’ He thinks to himself remembering you really loving deftones. Always had it playing. “Well Im actually going through the process of a genre change..” the crowd screams. The screaming echoing in Matts room.

“So ive written a song I cant tell you much about it yet… BUT BUT hear me out… what if i gave you a taste of what youll see from me next… hmm…” you smile tilting your head to the side before the lights dim and you run off stage, the video cuts out. ‘What thats it?!’ Matt thinks to himself. He goes to the persons account and finds the part two video. Clicking it instantly. Your outfit changed no longer wearing your pink sparkly corset mini dress but now a black corset mini dress his eyes widen ‘holy fuck’

The crowd screaming again. The lights dimming more fog and a soft red hue lingering. Then he hears it. “Change (in the house of flies)” by deftones starts playing. Your voice a little more raw more intense more… you. His eyes widen even more. Oh he’s invested. He’s never seen you like this swinging your hair around on your knees being seductive, your in your element.

You see the girl recording so you gave her a little show for her video getting on your knees bouncing up and down, swinging your hair around some more, running your hands through your hair. Finally tilting your head to the side you give the camera a little smirk and wink then the “ahh’s” from the song start you lay on the ground arching your back sliding your free hand down your body while making direct eye contact with the camera.

“HOLY FUCK Y/N YOUR SO FUCKING HOT” he hears the girl behind the camera scream. Matt is completely speechless eyes basically bulging out of his head it also helps that the girl recording is in the front row. Hes getting a good ass view of you doing your thing. ‘I fucked up real bad’ he thinks to himself. Without thinking Matt saves the video. Yea hes definitely gonna use that later.

But he cracked. He broke no contact.

Matthew:

Seen you on stage, you looked great poppy.

Really proud of you.

Read at 9:40pm

Poppy is so sexy I wanna be poppy.

🏷️: @thecrawlys

a/n: poppy is planning to do a sound change. Since she left her old record label and just started doing shit on her own. Her record label didn’t envision her the way she envisioned herself.

[frankthesnek]

A sad, sad part of me is convinced that Homelander's first sexual experience was part of the psychological manipulation that Vought used to control Homelander growing up. This is a long ramble, so I'm hiding it under the cut. If that sounds interesting, click and dive in!

We know he discovers masturbation like most kids. What is strange is that he hides it. Embarrassment and shame are learned behaviors, and he grew up in a cage with zero privacy and probably little to no understanding of what privacy was. So why hide it? How does he himself describe it: the only time he got to feel anything good. He hid it not because of modesty but because it was something good he could control and was afraid of losing. What would Vought do when they found out about this? Simple, find a way to turn it into a tool for their benefit. For example, like I don't know... bringing in specialized hired help, specifically to make his first sexual experience with another person somewhat maternal and further ingrain his need for love—specifically the need to have a maternal figure and the ability to be manipulated by female figures.

I hate this idea. I really really do, but it just feels soooooo much like something they would do.

Madylen, being his handler, is no accident. When we meet them in the show, he is completely obsessed with her. That is not something that happens overnight. Grace says it to Butcher when she's deacribing Homelander and Madylen's relationship: she is closer to him than anyone, not a mother or lover but something different. Grace knows all kinds on inside things about Vought, so what she says here is good insight. They put Madylen there over Homelander as a security measure because they intentionally instilled kinks in him for control.

Look at the scene where Homelander and Madylen have sex... and even calling it that doesn't feel right. The whole sequence is so awkward, so staged and clinical. It feels like watching a procedure more than anything. And yes, part of that is obviously because Madylen isn't actually into it and is using sex as manipulation, but how Homelander responds?

His face from the moment she says "take off your pants" is weirdly blank. Not excited, not thrilled, not happy—he's just there, letting it happen (yes, you can argue he is dumbstruck with lust. I give you that). Why does he react this way? Theory, because that is exactly how Vought wants him to respond. He's like a dog just sitting waiting for a cookie or a sleeper agent hearing their trigger word.

Madelyn knows how to manipulate him and all his quarks. We also see this with the scene where she puts her fingers in his mouth to simulate breastfeeding him. Think of that old saying "in case of emergency break glass". This is basically what Madelyn is doing by sleeping with him.

What happens right before the sex scene? She finds out Homelander is responsible for V being distributed. She is NOT happy about this. But she knows yelling at him will accomplish nothing. He doesnt need a firm hand, he needs a manipulative one. So she has sex with him. Her goal is getting him back under control and reinforcing her power over him.

Lets break that scene down:

He tells her what he did, and asks her to say something. She is shocked/pissed and says nothing, but kisses him.

Next scene they are in her office, a place she has control not him.

He tries to touch her, she tells him no. He immediately listens without a word.

She teels him to take off his pants, he does as told and waits for her to proceed.

He tries to take control, he clearly he wants to. She again says no, and he again listens even though it's not what he wants to do.

She feeds him words of affirmation that are undeniably maternal.

Homelander makes a fool of him self and finishes immediately. Madylen looks obviously pleased by this reaction.

Its only AFTER he embarrasses himself and apologizes does she say she is proud and he did good.

She withholds what he actually asked for and wanted to hear until after she has exerted power and made him look weak. This is clearly preplaned. A fall back to try and regain power over him and reset his need to listen to her. Ultimately, in the end, it obviously fails. But from the moment she kissed him, she was following a plan to reset his needy, maternal, love driven behavior. Behavior that was programed by Vought and ingrained by manimulating his sexual foundation with his very first sexual experience.