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yknow i wassss gonna gut the cinderheart reincarnation plotline for razorverse because of how clumsy and insidious the original was… but i have been playing pokemon rejuvenation and now i sorta wanna take influence from that game’s reincarnation plot. where the reincarnation is actually a curse that is detrimental to both cinders and has damaging psychological effects on everyone involved
#i mean ig the original plot had hints of that but it was less that and more ‘’omg we gotta make THIS life worth it!!! (aka not disabled)#which this wouldnt have#id totally gut the disability angle altogether tbh#but im imagining like theres legit magic going on. probably bc of the tunnels#maybe cinderpelt was the first cat to realize there was something up with the tunnels. and she accidentally cast a light spell in there#and she began to experiment a bit. and this is what drives her attention away from leafpool for a bit#i wouldnt know what EXACTLY shes doing. maybe she found it before the moonpool was found and wanted to try and create a starclan entry#for the other medics#and once the moonpool was found she tried to stop but realized she wanted to experiment more#like. can she try and contact starclan on her own? could she figure out how exactly starclan ticked?#and she gets in contact with rock who sorta takes her on as a disciple…#im thinking every cat is capable of reading starclan but it varies and cinders’s sense was very low#so she was trying to compensate for that#it distracts her from clan life and pulls her away and suddenly the bubbly cinderpelt everyone knows has just vanished#but they brush it off as the trauma from the journey#but then we get to her death- she’d been trying to create that pathway and as ive said RV!Starclan is a spiritual anomaly#where cats are supposed to reincarnate but instead they linger#creating the starclan group. but in tampering with magic- cinderpelt got locked out of the starclan cycle somehow and got cursed#the same curse as rock- every time she is slain#her body shifts and transforms and is ‘’reset’’ into a young kitten. into cinderheart#the soul of cinderpelt is trapped in there and it will stay trapped til the curse is broken. and the cycle will repeat when cinderheart dies#im thinking cinderheart reconnects with rock to look into this and shes tied in with the jayfeather plotline#and she struggles with feeling like a freak of nature who was born from tragedy#she gets added to sorrels litter and they pretend shes her bio kit but leafpool and the family knows the truth#razorverse
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osha flirting with fillik saying the wicked don't brag about what they get up to? osha getting a sus tattoo on a wild night with the crew?? osha flirting with jecki saying she's more flexible than a droid???
rip verosha aniseya you would have LOVED brat summer
when her life is not Actively Falling Apart, osha is fun & flirty & no one will ever take that away from me
#now is part of the wildness her compensating for so many years training to be a monk#& also her trying to forget how angry & lost she feels?#yes#but also#osha would have loved brat summer & i am so excited to write about her & qimir having a brat summer Together!!!!!!!#qimir can't handle his liquor worth shit!!! it will be a good time had by all!!!!!!!!!!#the acolyte#osha aniseya#qimir#qimir the stranger#oshamir#star wars
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Alex Chen, your one-eyed squinty face will always be famous
#the fact that it's the same eye both times#she's so cute LMAO#honestly it would be so adorable if this was how she used to try to compensate before glasses#and now it's just a habit when she's thinking#alex chen#life is strange true colors#lis tc
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I need advice.
I’m a white intern working in a mostly white southern(ish) high school. Students of Color number at under 2%, perhaps even lower. It’s a very white, rural community - I grew up in a fairly mixed, suburban northern community, and part of my family is Black.
Several of my white students say rude things to my Students of Color. I’ve told them to knock it off *as appropriately as I can* but I’m probably one of the few adults that actively discourage that behavior.
I don’t want to let this shit fly under the radar, but I also know that if an adult of authority *who will only be here for a couple more weeks* interferes, and then doesn’t stick around, it could make things worse. Additionally, I know these kids are probably very very very used to this ‘system’ and that making a short-term change could be more harmful than helpful.
I asked one of my senior students after a very racist incident *where she was laughing along with the perpetrator but I told him to stop anyway* that I can move him, or her, so she could be more comfortable (admin either does nothing or slaps wrists, especially for seniors). She said it was fine and that he was always like that.
I must emphasize, I think they were bantering (they talk so much I think they consider each other friends?), but it was also wayyy fucking out of line, especially in a school setting. And the guy says so much out of line shit I’m surprised he isn’t rocking a full set of dentures to replace the teeth he ought to have lost by now.
Another student took me up on my offer to move people, but I ended up moving him, which sucks because he was the victim in this situation. Unfortunately, I have to keep his aggressors in their spots, as they are highly rowdy in all the ways and require a lot more supervision than he did. And the class is really full. These were also all freshmen, so I wouldn’t be surprised if that affected the victim’s reaction.
So I’d really appreciate advice as to whether I should let it be, or continue as is, or step it up even more, from People of Color in largely white, especially rural, communities. Like any advice from current or previous educators, especially Educators of Color would be appreciated, but specifically southern/rural ones would be wonderful. I’m going to talk to my family members about it, but they’ve lived in more Northern settings their entire lives and they may have less … applicable (?) experience to the situation.
Again, I’m an intern, I’m going to only be there until winter break 2024, and I don’t want to fuck things up for these kids in the long run with my northern ally ‘sensibilities’. Thank you!
#education#help#advice#educators of color#students of color#academia#slightly more context: the senior was a Black girl. there are not a lot of Black students but there’s multiple of them from different#families (though I also tutor her little brother). so she may have community to fall back upon and that might feel like enough for her#the freshman boy is mixed Asian and as far as I can tell is the only Asian kid currently in this high school#since we’re in Appalachia of course a lot of people say shit like ‘my great grandmother was Cherokee’ (apologies to the Cherokee community#but I’m quoting these people) but some of my students are much more tan and experience a bit of colorism. again I try to shut that down but#idk how far to take it. the one girl who is definitely Indigenous (I’m not going to specify further because it’s a small community) doesn’t#seem to be treated negatively for it and seems quite proud so I’m glad for her#but she also passes as one of the tan students so idk if she’s just comfortable bringing it up around me and it doesn’t come up near#racist students or what.#more context I forgot to bring up: I’m pretty sure most if not all of the Black students are mixed or have mixed parents. so they may#have white family members that make this system of poor treatment seem okay? or white family members#who help compensate for the racist people in the community?#I really don’t fucking know and I really don’t want to make things worse for anyone#getting ‘aggressive’ protection from a student intern may NOT be helpful#idk#thank you for reading this far
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It's been a while since I've seen Kan-kichi!🦊🧡 Kan-kichi is the same as ever On second thought I want my parents to be here……🐮
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#14shyx#kamen rider#kamen rider geats#star of the stars of the stars.kr#toku translations#toku alumni#geats cast#hideyoshi kan#yuna hoshino#the sounds i made when i saw geats main cast 2/5 reunion....you couldn't tell the difference between me and a whale asdfghjkl#yuna calls hideyoshi 'kan-kichi' ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و ♡ that's so cUTE#hideyoshi-ccentric cast interactions have a special place in my heart#the gap moe of everyone admiring ace vs everyone being fondly exasperated of hideyoshi's bumbling antics <3#usually my kanji struggles are compensated by context and google translate but the last line of yuna's tweet had me (╯°□°)╯︵ ┻━┻#it was a toss-up between yuna going 'oh kan-kichi is the same as ever <3 the little prankster needs 親 supervision lol (affectionate)'#or 'i want my 親 to be here - and that 親 includes 🐮 (...michinaga??)'#i almost wish she wrote 親し then i wouldn't have spent ten minutes trying to understand why she mentioned 親 😂
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discussion of the week in language and gender is about drag and whether it's misogynistic and I. am going to explode something. the topic itself is loaded. but why is this the only discussion where she's specifically asked us to respond to people we disagree with 🤨
#shitpost#quil's unholy underworld#like. i understand the value of engaging with other perspectives. why have you ONLY said it here though#the very first post on the discussion board is about how she wouldn't let her children go to a drag show#get me the ben affleck meme#it's been a little awkward so far being a genderfucked person in a gender studies class#because like 90% of what they teach is very man/woman#but the professors also know that and try to compensate but it's like. the infrastructure isn't quite there yet#but nothing's been outright bad. i think this discussion might be though
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I absolutely adore that vintage chocolate ad that's been making the rounds and just had to do a version with Gale and my Tav, Morrigan
#bg3 fan art#bg3#gale dekarios#gale x tav#my art#meet morrigan! she's a half-elf druid and i've been having a lot of fun with her#i ended up not doing as much detail as i would've liked#but frankly i already spent 2 days on this and was at the point where if i looked at it any longer i would've started hating it 😅#i am pleased with the papery texture i added though i think it's a nice touch#compensates a bit for not being able to mimic the painted style of the original#still trying to get the hang of digital art tbh#pencil and paper is more my speed but you gotta practice to improve so here we are#moon and stars
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my across the hall neighbour is really good at cooking like 30% of a good smelling meal and then she always fucks it up by the end literally tragic
#i think she undersalts it and then uses too many powdered spices to try to compensate like it always end up smelling so bitter#who am i to judge though 50% of my caloric intake is mangos at this point. so
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Was having thoughts about blue beetle since I’m about to make my brother watch it sometime this week, and just had a Thought. I have come to the conclusion that Jaime Reyes and Peter Parker (specifically Tom Hollands iteration, for reasons soon to be listed) would be best friends. Nerd and nerd consolidation. Khaji-Da and Karen however, would absolutely not be able to stand one another in the slightest
#khaji think Karen is beneath her as an ‘inferior AI’#Karen thinks khaji is an idiot who can’t do anything by herself#khaji thinks karen is a people pleasing sucker#Karen tells Khaji she must be compensating for something with her ‘I can create anything’ mojo#Peter and Jaime just want them to stop technologically sniping at one another whenever they try to hang out#spider-man#blue beetle#peter parker#jaime reyes#khaji da#I don’t know if there’s a tag for Karen so let’s go with this instead
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I know it's been a few years since I've run my own dog training business instead of working for someone else for exploitation wages and that previously I was working in the rural south where prices are a bit different in general, but out of curiosity I decided to look at some dog training services in my area in upstate NY today and got hit with sticker shock ngl.
Most places don't post their prices so I could only compare a few (which... I sort of get since they want to avoid competition doing what I'm doing right now lol but as someone who has run a dog training business and had business marketing included in my education it's something I see as an... *interesting* choice, because most clients want to know price up front without having to contact you and wait for a response because they probably already have a budget in mind and just want to be able to quickly see if you fit into it or not, which means not having prices posted will make some potential clients immediately look elsewhere and if you don't even have some sort of price range for services posted somewhere then most of your calls and emails will just be people asking for pricing and a majority of those calls and emails will not lead to services purchased so it ends up wasting a lot of unpaid time on office work BUT THATS AN UNRELATED TOPIC, I DIGRESS) but WOWZA the ones that did have prices posted really made me realize I do NOT live in a low cost of living place anymore.
One of the popular places here that I looked at charges $150+ for ONE training session with one of their APPRENTICE trainers. It's double that price to train with one of their more experienced dog trainers for just one session.
I looked back at some of the trainers I was competing with back in FL and NC to compare as well as the dog training school I went to just to check and see if prices were getting that high in other rural areas, and nope. Most places $300 would still get you at least three - maybe up to six - private lessons spread out over three (or six, or whatever) weeks, which is the pricing range I'm used to seeing dog trainers in the rural south suffer with because of places like Petsmart setting the pricing bar so low.
I'm pretty sure I have more formal dog training education and certification than most of the employees at this place too since even their main "behaviorist" (not a protected title in the USA so anyone can call themselves that) has no certifications listed at all that I can find, so... I guess now that I live here if I ever start training again I'm going to have to rethink my pricing lol even if I don't charge those kinds of prices I clearly still need to bump them up in this area from what I used to charge in order to be competitive with these other training businesses.
#pricing too low compared to competition is a business killer btw#another think i learned in my marketing classes#most people buying dog training are wealthier#not necessarily rich but... not poor#and although id love to offer sliding scale for low income clients if i ever do training on my own again#your normal prices being too low WILL turn away those clients who are higher income#cuz EVEN IF IT'S NOT ACTUALLY TRUE higher class members of our society have a subconscious idea that price often = quality for services#I KNOW I KNOW I did not believe this either straight out of school and underpriced my services still anyway despite being taught that#because it did not make sense to my poor person brain to assume that wealthier people think like that#but i learned very quickly after having a couple of wealthier people literally LAUGH at my pricing#or make weird faces and say “that's it?'#the first dude who laughed at my pricing actually gave me a tip that doubled my price for his services every time i worked for him#and another regular of mine often left me envelopes of cash because she said she felt bad that i was charging so little#and that it actually made her second guess hiring me at first#SO JUST TAKE THE ADVICE AND CHARGE WHAT IS COMPETITIVE IN YOUR AREA AT LEAST INSTEAD OF TRYING TO UNDERCUT COMPETITION#or compete with the big chains DEAR GOD DO NOT TRY TO COMPETE WITH THE BIG TRAINING CHAINS PRICE WISE FOR YOUR OWN MENTAL HEALTH#you will burn yourself out and make yourself hate dog training if you try to compete at their exploitation prices#at the least price around what other people who are NOT working for chains in the area do#and ideally price what you think would make you feel like your time and labor is being adequately compensated#which means enough to afford to live and afford to pay for things like health insurance as an independent contractor#and have enough left over for some QOL stuff and to put some into savings for emergencies or slow periods for your work#a lot of people working with animals ridiculously undercharge and then end up screwing themselves over mentallt and physically#anyway this post and the tags are long enough and i could rant about pricing and fair wages forever so im done now lol#just reeling a little at the idea of charging $300 for a single dog training lesson and that PEOPLE HERE ARE PAYING THAT#THAT PLACE IS POPULAR AND SUCCESSFUL#they do not pay their trainers that much though lmfao they make only like $6 over minimum wage OF COURSE#which I know because I got into this pricing deep dive after seeing multiple of their job listings because they're hiring right now#i hate business owners that do pricing vs employee pay so differently like that they are honest to god EVIL that is exploitation
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so i think the most likely thing is they were doing something related to her music. THAT i can believe but the engagement photoshoot rumors......like have you SEEN that man he'd rather get kicked in the balls
#like what in the live laugh love#he'd be mortified to even consider it and i don't think she's type to do that#they're so artsy and alternative wannabe as a couple they wouldn't do something so lame.........i think#but then again he tends to take stupid decisions when he's in her company so. eh#but anyway even if they were doing smth for her music it would still be so funny bc miss girly has forgotten she's supposed to be a singer#for like years and now she remembers. and ngl him helping her with her projects always seems kind of like.... compensating#like paying for her stuff and trying to launch her non-existing career bc maybe he knows he's not the best bf#idk idk do you get what i mean. tell me you get it#they're so weird why are they so weird#ramblings
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#it's an old frustration. an old pattern of thought.#i just feel that i have a brain that doesn't hold information. that lacks the discipline to gain knowledge. that is incapable of deeper#thought. and i cant teel you how maddening that is. to sit in a room and listen to other people discuss a paper you read in depth 5 times#like it's the 1st time you ever heard anything about it. how is that possible? how do i work with that? i read and nothing sticks.#nothing stays with me. how??? i was talking to a prof recently who ive heard is hard on her students with disability accommodation. and she#was saying how she doesnt see these things as a disability. how we're just different not disabled. ive heard the phrase differently abled#a lot of times. and i get what she's saying. i do. ad i get why she's hard on them. she wants to push them. but there comes a point where#you are quote unquote differently abled and you run into a wall that other people dont have. then what are you supposed to do? work harder?#but what if that doesn't help? what if that just compounds the hurt that's always been there? what if that leaches away all the wonder? what#then? at what point does a thing become too much of a barrier? i think there's a reason i dont run into many other dyslexic grad student.#everyone has adhd. it's a place where those with adhd prosper. but dyslexia not so much. at least not with the level of hanicap i have#and everyone's really nice. they want to help. but there's nothing anyone can do for me at this stage. it's up to me to compensate for my#leaky head. and i kno im not stupid. ive got a piece of paper stating my iq is above average after correcting for uneven intelligence. but#i dont feel very smart most of the time. i feel more like my uncorrected iq score that comes out at just below average even with me trying#my very best. iq is bullshit but there's something to be said for that gap. im smart if unconstrained by language and time. but were bound#by language and we're bound by time so what am i supposed to do? is there anything i can do? im stuck with this forever. theres no getting#better or making it easier. my brain is wired in a way that gives me the reading skills of a child. forever. and i just have to accept that#and im trying to swallow around that idea easier because the only other option is to choke on it. but maybe i chose the wrong career path.#one of my lab mates said she wants challenges all the time and ive chosen a path that's challenges all the time but im jsut trying to do#what everyone else can without a second thought. it's deeply demoralizing. yet here i am. trying to be easier abt it.#maybe im just nit cut out for this. doing a job im not built for.#unrelated
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Thinking about my Rook hours </3
#i did not mean to get so attached to this character so immediately#but god the scenes with harding and taash and solas have given me so much to chew on#like. first of all raised in the mournwatch as an orphan fully removed from her culture as a qunari#but also being very aware she didnt look like any of the other young mournwatch recruits and there was something Different about her#being genuinely invested in the work they do but also being so afraid to step out of line and be ousted#only for that to exactly happen the one time she pushed back against the nobility#then she's throwing herself into her new job helping varric search the realms for solas#and suddenly because of a call she made he's too weak to fight and she has solas in her head telling her how badly she fucked everything up#and she just feels so small and worthless#but no. she cant let her emotions get anyone else hurt#fuck solas. fuck him for trying to pin this on her.#as a matter of fact fuck anyone trying to undermine her while she's doing what needs to be done#she sees how harding is blaming herself for what happened and she tells her she cant blame herself#'blame me' she says secretly in her head#'im the reason you got hurt'#but she knows harding would see right through her#so she puts on a happy face for her and stays optimistic when she starts showing signs of being the first dwarf to cast magic#but deep inside rook is panicking because what if something is changing her harding? what if something is going to take her away from her?#she compensates by trying to seem as laid back as possible#and then they meet emmrich and rook is launched back into her mournwatch mindset#she stands up straighter and uses bigger fancier words to keep up with the professor#and harding calls her on it and suddenly she realizes how much shes been compartmentalizing everything#fully shifting her personality around her friends based on what she thinks they need#she realizes with horror that solas of all people has seen the most unfiltered version of her#the version that is angry and frustrated with how unfair everything is#but is also very aware that no matter what she does she will be seen as a villain in the eyes of some#simply because she cannot save everyone#and then she hangs out with taash and sees someone who also compartmentalizes to hell and seems like. okay about it#and taash doesnt need anyone to take care of them. sihu feels oddly relaxed around their no-nonsense approach to socialization#datv spoilers
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even if i am literally not talking about yeri in the slightest i find a way to circle back to her which is honestly impressive . and i’m not even doing that consciously which i think is even worse . really what has the world been doing without me 💜
#i’m just like her biggest fawking fanjdjxjjejf i should be in charge of her advertising#well i also just think there’s a lot to say about her#i enjoy everyone else’s content but since she’s my bias i just have more to say like idk#i also think i under express how much i like her which i’m constantly trying to compensate for#even tho i know that’s not true cause i never stfu about her ⁉️#i just don’t think u guys get it… like she’s so cool… i need everyone to know Now.#so anyway i am ot5💔 please i love them loving her and her loving them and i love them all and💔#i see them all and i weep#esp with the 10 year anniversary being this year#i just love them all so much… all five is so special to me#🧸
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thought dump
#venting in tags can be soo therapeutic#just a bunch of feelings may not be totally related to each other#sometimes (a lot of the time) theres just this sinking emptiness in my gut. some mixture of loneliness and and self loathing but it also#feels like nothing#part of me is convinced that im hard to love#and i try to compensate by avoiding conflict at all costs and trying to live up to my high moral standards#and i feel so much shame for feeling anger that i try to avoid it but it always bubbles up and gets worse#i wanna be heard i want the people i care about to understand how i feel!!! but i feel like shit for feeling all this and isolate myself#and i wonder why i turn out so resentful and why im struggling to form new connections!!!#feeling like a double edged sword GOD I HATE TALKING ABOUT THESE SYMPTOMS SO MUCH#suspecting (quiet) bpd... but who knows#me when i suffer but i try not to let anyone see even though the Thoughts are swirling in my head constantly and i suffer 10x more#the little things just feel soo big#at least i love hard and try to be kind <3#trying to heal#brought to you by lena luthor s6 talking to alex about not feeling like part of the team and not feeling like enough of a hero#and trying to atone for her past actions and feeling so horrified at the things she did#i felt that
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i know this sounds crazy but. get this.
sometimes…with visual media…you do have to actually LOOK at it. sometimes…they put Important things in the visuals (because it is visual media) that you will Miss if you’re only glancing up once a minute.
sometimes you just have to suck it up and actually WATCH the thing instead of listening to a visual medium.
#moi#like imagine trying to read a book but you skip EVERYTHING that isn’t dialogue.#like. audio dramas do so much work to compensate for the lack of visual cues!!#but that is not something that visual media has to do!! so they don’t!!!#my mom agreed to watch some of tgcf. i even sucked it up and put the dub on for her sake#(even though i don’t like many of the translation choices and have a hard time hearing without subtitles)#and i even told her ‘hey be aware that there’s a lot of non-verbal communication and other stuff that you’ll miss if you’re only listening’#and she’s still glued to her match 3 games the whole time#i even backed it up a couple of times and just waited for her to finish#bc there was all sorts of things happening in the visuals#and instead she just got annoyed at me#like. i’m not making her watch it with me. i asked if she might be interested#we watched the first few#it was pretty clear she wasn’t#but she keeps suggesting watching another and then barely pays attention#i don’t get it.#personal#salt is salt
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