#so please don't ask lmfao
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
I'd apologize for not being super active but tbh the break has been.... good
#TBD.#mental health is still shaky but we're getting through it#and idk i might just go full indefinite hiatus until i feel like being back here to write more consistently#but idk if that'll ever come bc i just haven't felt wholly comfortable in the ressie rpc for a while now#and that's its own thing that i will not get into#so please don't ask lmfao#i just don't really.... feel like being on jill when i constantly feel like i'm walking on eggshells#which is a shame bc i love writing her#but i don't feel like this is the space for me to explore her as a character anymore if that makes sense#anyway if you've read this far i hope you have a good week <3#ty for sticking around
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
doesn't it just suck when your ex girlfriend gets revived and she's literally and figuratively falling apart
#once again on my au kikyo bullshit#the first part of her to fall off her clay body is her eyes#so there's just a hallow cavern/spiral niche left behind#and the dialogue is just me making another symbolism sandwich lmfao#the leaf was in her hair before but I forgot to add it in this time whoopsss#also don't ask abt the anatomy i'm drawing on my phone screw anatomy#inuyasha#inuyasha a feudal fairy tale#kikyo#kikyo inuyasha#kikyo fanart#au kikyo#please don't tag this as inukik
94 notes
·
View notes
Note
Can i get more passage of time/music development yapping ☹️☹️☹️??? I give you official permission to yap the most you can im so interested
YES YES YES YES YES I LOVE THIS ASK
warning beneath the cut SCARY WALL OF TEXT WARNING 😱
decided to divide it into colored parts if you dont gaf about certain elements 😭
second warning all of this is unedited rambling so some points might contradict each other or just plain not make sense.
okay so for CONTEXTTTTT
i have diagnosed OCD, and like, roughly since the end of last year and the beginning of this one, the 'obsession' part of OCD that was negatively affecting me, was the concept of time. how fleeting it was. how it's basically unescapable ALL THINGS MUST PASS (get out of my head george harrison) that shit proper cold dead SCARED ME MAN. sleepless & haunting me in my dreams type shi. sometimes it still does. i try not to think about it too much
to cope, i found great comfort in the 70s-80s since at the time i was and still am hyperfixated on david bowie and that was sort of his prime (love his 90s-00s work tho.) i was also starting to think of how much parallels and similar experiences i have to previous generations and how it's not ALL that bad after all so far. i can still walk to a record store and roller skate if i really wanted to, or go to a diner.
okey here's where the life changing stuff happens. i decided i'd listen to pink floyd's the dark side of the moon. then TIME CAME ON. ohhhh god oh gosh golly god i was bawling and everything the whole song spoke to me on a molecular level. then i found out about DB's song also called time, and i ALSO crode to that. i was like. wow. i'm not alone on this feeling of utter desperation and helplessness as eventually all things Must Pass. (GEORGE HARRSION GTFO)
i used to be bitchy on how i whined i was part of the 'wrong generation.' i thought i was alone, but virtually everyone of almost every era has thought this. somebody who lived my dream life wished they had what i have now.
that's when i started to lowkey realize the parallels and oneness of human experience. i could go to a club in the 70s, and (granted the infrastructure and music remains similar) i could today. nothing would change on how i perceive events. there is no color filter on the past. unless you got huge TVs and stuff all over your house, you could walk around, and think it's the 80s. AND IT'S BASICALLY THE 80s. the way your parents or any other gen Xer saw the world with their *eyes* (not counting the changes in buildings and stuff) is the same as you today pretty much.
i already really enjoy subcultures, and particularly how they evolve and adapt. the indomitable human spirit prevails no matter how gentrified or 'banned' things become. nowadays i feel like there is No Youth Subcultures. at least, none that will pass the test of time and be memorable enough to be remembered in the books. nobody's gonna go to their child and proudly say: "when i was your age, i was a chav" or something. and i credit this to the lack of creativity allowed in the wider music industry.
HEAR ME OUT this is because 90% of youth subcultures had everything to do with music. and now, everything must be palatable. to be clear there's nothing inherently wrong with that type of music, but to me it speaks no soul. it has no risks. contemporary pop music is very much formulaic and this is because now more than ever entertainment (this also applies to movies btw) is more of an investment than passion. I WILL SPECIFY.
music production is so vastly different genre to genre, and we're not letting it flourish because of how much short form content is valued nowadays. LET ME COOK.
tiktoks are formulaic. algorithms are formulaic. WE'RE GETTING SOMEWHERE. there must be an instant hook or rift in music if you want to 'go viral' as a musician. digitized fame doesn't mean SHIT (to me), since clearly monthly listeners don't equate real world fans. album sales are being replaced with streams, and because of how ASS spotify treats its artists, newer, less established acts need to GET ON THE GRIND INSTANTLY to earn Coin. that means that to be smart and work with the exploitative system they're given, they have to make albums filled with 1 minute 30 second songs. so you can technically give them the most amount of streams possible. i feel with this formulaic approach, you can't get 6 minute long gutwrenching guitar pieces. no more 4 minute drum solos, hell avant garde experimental works were 2 people shout their names out at each other for 20 minutes. THERE ARE NO MORE FRANK ZAPPAS.
i'm not going to be one of those sad assholes who claim there's 'no more good rock music' and how it'll never be the same. as corny as this is, the next beatles or nirvana could be right under our noses and we'll NEVER know because of how fame is distributed. it sucks to see a small band beg on tiktok for streams to kickstart their career. but this is what we gotta work with. if we want subcultures to be created and thrive, we gotta go looking underground again, except unlike in the past it's a kajillion times easier now AND everything gets gentrified in 2 tiktok weeks. but this is evolution. MUSIC EVOLUTION
the end honk shoo honk shoo (it's midnight)
#asks#ignore how i capitalize my words like greg heffley lmfao#THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ASKING THIS AARGHHH I'VE BEEN FREED#btw. not saying these issues in the industry are new. but i feel personally now its tenfold#also due to the power of Time pink floyd i timemaxx and sit finished exams doing nothing for 20 mins imagining the drum solo#i also have a shorter rise of hip hop vs rise of rock rant that i shall one day maybe voice.#if anyone wants me to specify on anyting please don't be afraid to ask!!#The Most Gen Z Post Ever#btw wanted to mention this NOT ALL pop music bruh. some contemporary pop musicians releasing creative bangers..... just not most of them
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
who needs cnc when you have a huge fucking masochist like me? i'm so desperate to be manhandled, hurt, used, and overstimmed i can't even pretend like i don't want it! doesn't matter what you suggest, i'm always game! you wanna get me high and/or drunk first? hell yeah, let's do it! you wanna use tools and toys and gadgets? let's try 'em! you wanna dive right in, no foreplay, no nothing? you got it, all we really need is our own bodies anyway! you wanna leave me black and blue? fuck yeah, let's get a paddle! you wanna make me bleed? please do!
and i'll keep at it 'til i'm so exhausted i can't even speak or open my eyes or move, just lay there crying- and still hoping you'll keep going even past my limits! you know i can always give you another orgasm, just slap my cunt or pinch my tits and see how quick! i want you to be satisfied, and you know i can't rest until you are~
sure, playing pretend is fun, but isn't it great to not have to? go ahead, let loose. my body is more than willing <3
-this is not an attack on cnc enjoyers, ya'll do you-
#hit me please hit me#anywhere but the face. and that's only so people won't start asking questions 🙊#fr tho i can't get into cnc i'm just such a masochist i can't even pretend like i don't want it lmfao
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
Yeah fuck smokers for real once again I guess
#fuck smokers fuck smokers fuck smokers fuck smokers fuck smokers#of course she cant go more than like two weeks after i asked her not to fucking smoke in the room#and it took so much to even voice it for me and guss what shes fucking smoking again just when I'm not in the room#as if im not going to notice the fucking stink the second i enter#idk what to say to her because i really don't want to ask her again especially since she apparently doe give a shit#i don't want to be rude either we have to live together somehow#but fuck that bitch lmfao#and fuck everyone who smokes around other people please fuck off
20 notes
·
View notes
Text
going to be singing in our school's talent showcase tomorrow!! i'm so so excited, i chose the best song to sing as my final tribute to the school
#for anyone wondering the song i chose is sway by michael buble#funny story#i was asking the music director what song i should sing earlier today cause i put my name down on the list without actually knowing what-#-song i was doing#and he was like “if i could suggest a song to you#please please don't do a slow song or a ballad-y kind of song“#“because many people have already chosen a slow song to sing. of course that's great we want to show off their talent-#-but it's going to be held at 7:30pm and we don't want to make the audience sleep pahaha“#and i was like oh shit because the songs i had in mind were slow-ish. so i had to change my song#and i was like frantically looking through my playlist on the bus#wondering what song to pick#and as i was scrolling sway shows up and i was like “that song is so upbeat and people know it well enough”#“if i want to go out with a bang during my last week of school i should go for it”#so i changed the key and learnt the key changes the lyrics and the technicalities of the song (when to get louder how to add dynamic etc.)-#-in one night lmfao#now i'm going to sob over my final day as i write teachers' cards#[🌺] my posts!#[🗣️] nessa's rambles!#[🧍] ramble in the tags#probably the biggest ramble in the tags i've ever done
7 notes
·
View notes
Note
i can confirm it to everyone that keefe wouldnt like you cause im actually him irl yes sorry shannon actually put me in the book by accident instead of creating a new character and i do nawt like you slash no offence i just rlly rlly dont
credit
#BABY'S FIRST ANON HATE AWWWW#lmfao this anon seems like they are trying so hard not to offend me#“i don't like you you dumb bitch but NO OFFENSE but also i hate you” lmfaoooooo#can people send me anon hate like this. this made me laugh so hard#anon i needed that (personal life has been in the trenches lately)#asks#keefe would not like me and i don't like him#anon#if you really are keefe rest assured that i don't like you either anon :) thank you for that phenomenal waste of time though#also if any future anons would like to send me anon hate can you please send it to main. this is a cawtulk blog
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
once again regretting my decision to agree to a family lunch
#but like what am i supposed to do??? say no???#its w my dads side of the family as well and im not really close to any of them so its always a little 🙁🙁🙁🙁#i just don't want ANYONE to ask abt me or my life or my future plans lmfao PLEASE#lets see if i survive tomorrow 🫡#raquel speaks
2 notes
·
View notes
Note
girl i didn’t know you watched jjba 😳😳 who’s your favorite jojo so far??
yes im currently on part 6 rn and plan to read the manga as soon as i finish !!! you're actually the second person to send me an ask about this so instead of bumbling on and naming a bunch of people ima just make a lil organized list of my favs from every part LMAOOOO
part 1, dio <3
part 2, KARSSSS AHHHH, lisa lisa, joseph, caesar
part 3, JOTARO <33, dio again (jotaro and dio prob top 5 overall me thinks), kakyoin, mirah, avdol
part 4, josuke, YOSHIKAGE KIRA, jotaro 🤭, ROHANNNN, koichi, okuyasu
part 5, bruno's whole crew + giorno (abbachio, bruno, and mista were special to me though), diavolo (don't judge LOL), doppio, nero
part 6, weather forecast <3, anasui, jolyne, (dilf) jotaro, ermes, pucci, f.f., johngelli a. (i thought he was interesting), emporio
#pls don't hate me for not adding polanreff#PLEASE I LIKE HIM I REALLY DO#i just felt like i was talking too much already LMFAO#i hate typing so damn much when answering asks LMAOO i feel so extra#like shut up already sosa lmao ANYWAYYYSS TELL ME UR FAVES PLEASE#—sosa’s thoughts💭#sosa’s reviewz!🧸#🍫—asks!
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
🌸。*゚+. I'm thinking I'm gonna start doing things a little differently in regards to my queue. I'll keep answered asks, memes, and random aesthetic posts in there, but as for thread replies, I think I'm gonna post them as they're done..? Just so people aren't waiting too long anymore when I finally get around to replying.
Unless people would prefer I keep queueing their replies (for staggering drafts-- I know some people prefer slower replies!), so just let me know if you'd prefer me posting them immediately or if you want yours to continue to be queued!
#MUN SPEAKING 🌸 ᴬ ʷᵉᵃᵛᵉʳ ᵒᶠ ᵗᵃˡᵉˢ; ᴾᵃⁱⁿᵗᵉʳ ᵒᶠ ˢᵗᵃʳˢ#In the long run... I am still not fast LMFAO so please don't expect every reply to start popping out like daisies#because I am still very selective with what I feel like doing at any given moment and sometimes one thread#comes to me faster than another. And sometimes??? I just don't feel like writing replies and will go silent!!#So... this is my compromise when it comes to having people wait for whatever replies I DO have done at any given moment#asks memes and whatnot are still gonna be queued though since they're more filler than anything ✨#Still at the front desk waiting for the last few people to show up and some crew but after I get to sit down#I'll be working on replies and whatnot 🌸 well. Doing my best to at least! Hope everyone has a lovely night/day~
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
Random advice hours with Wendy
For those who never know what to say in conversation: if you're not sure, a good thing is always to ask more about the other person. For example, following up on what they mentioned ("you said you were working on a drawing, what is it of?" As an example) or asking how their day is. The other person will feel listened to and most likely will be happy to answer!
It's important though that you don't internalize this to mean you can't ever talk about yourself. In fact, if the other person isn't reciprocating and asking you questions back, that may be a social engagement that isn't worth the energy you're putting into it.
Treat others the way you want to be treated - in this particular case, asking them about their interests (whether that's faves or hobbies or what have you) and actually engaging with that answer to show you care about what they have to say.
(And please don't misunderstand - I know it can be hard to come up with these questions! I struggle too! But thinking of it from this perspective helps me direct my energy.)
#random advice hours#I'm tempted to make this non rebloggable cause somehow someone is gonna take issue with this lmfao#I just see a lot of folks expressing that they don't know how to talk to others on here so... here's some advice I learned#and also an issue I see quite frequently is people trying to use me as a place to gush and not ever asking me about myself#or my faves or whatever so#🤷♀️ here ya go#so I guess in conclusion okay to reblog but if any drama starts I'm turning it off#please don't add drama to this post begging y'all#not even sure what you could add but idk man
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
stay safe y'all I'm at least 75% certain I just got an ask from a scam artist
#alic lore#it was one of those “please help pay for my cat's medical bills!” thing but the account has only been active for a day#and they want you to send them money on paypal directly which is a thing that people do but it's not as common so i'm Hm#they also requested that I answer the ask privately or in dms#and I think it's because they don't want to be exposed lmfao
5 notes
·
View notes
Note
Wait. There's a canon multiverse in supernatural? This is great news for the Hoot Cinematic Universe! I mean, supernatural already there, but the multiverse makes it easier. And did I see Tom Welling made an appearance on the show? He's a key player in the HCU, I love this for us.
I was so caught up in the euphoria of winchesters season 1 finale that for a moment I forgot about the implications to the Hoot Cinematic Universe.................
#we need to make a whole conspiracy board youtube video some day lmfao#asks#molly mumbles#sccfan4ever#spn#and yes tom welling is Sometimes Evil Grandpa on supernatural. I don't remember how he fit into the hcu before tho?#and yeah the multiverse has been there in spn for a bit now but the new development is dean can just fucking#traverse it whenever he so pleases without any spells or angelic help lmao
6 notes
·
View notes
Note
Surprised that you’re American.
Usually you can just tell when it’s an American writing hp fic and it’s… no offence, not good. Alas, the exception proves the rule.
I think spotting the American also depends on the age/experience of the American writer, among other things. I've seen more young writers make mistakes like "pancakes" or forgetting how ubiquitous cell phones weren't, while older ones like me forget to switch sidewalk and pavement all the time. ^^
My first HP fanfics weren't good by any means. But that was less because I've never had a Britpicker and more because they were just cringe.
Setting and believability are also really important in fanfics. We all joke nowadays about "write what you want, how you want; screw the details!", but people do tend to gravitate toward fics that remind them of the thing they loved in the first place. With HP, that means leaning in to the boarding school element, doing your research on the time period and using correct British spelling, terms, foods, etc... and yeahhh, we don't have a good track record for doing that. (Me included! I've done more research for Inverse than I have done for any other HP fanfic I have ever written, and I still get things wrong.)
I won't speak for all other USAmerican fans, but for me, you'll always be able to tell that I'm American because I intersperse British terms (like "shite" or "fancy" or "she's fit") between my American spelling and writing. I know it's 'colour' and 'favourite' and such over there but I hate the way it looks. 'Favourite' at least looks pleasant to me, but 'colour' does not. So I try to merge both forms of English in a way that's not too jarring for readers, and stay away from things I know don't fit at all into the 90s fantasy UK universe.
#fireandgoldposts#thanks for the ask!#not fireandgold#writing#so many of us had that awkward stage where we were just pasting our early 2000s high school USisms over 90s British boarding school lmfao#it did.... not create good fanfics. unless someone was clearly writing crack it was uh...#anyway. oh gosh. I didn't talk about it but the other one I always forget to correct for is CLOTHING NAMES.#past ''jumper'' and ''trainers'' I am lost. And I'll probably just say boots/shoes or shirt anyway bc I just forget#years ago I wanted to buy the original versions of the books to use as reference material for fanfics. now.... maybe I will not do that.#fellow Americans please don't get mad bc I said our early HP fics were cringe. I also said MY fics were cringe. we're all in this together
1 note
·
View note
Text
Every February 6th for the last 8 years I've texted [redacted] happy birthday but I haven't seen her in 4 years and ever since 2020 every attempt at communicating through more than text runs into some sort of excuse. She's more than capable of texting me "honey I love you more than you know, you're the most important person to me" but can't make a phone call? Can't drive 15 minutes to meet me for lunch? Can't tell me she married a man she doesn't even like? She texts me about possibly working at my job and against my better instincts I get her the hiring info and she never responds. A few weeks later she's in another country and saying we need to get my passport. We? Yeah sure happy birthday I guess
#as if i'd ever travel with her poptart ass husband#WHO SHE HATES!!! BTW#the last time we saw each other she wrapped me in this hug and was like#'this is the only place i ever want to be' and i haven't seen her since lmfao#i'm not in love with her anymore thank god but the imprint of that experience will never leave me#this woman is in her late 50s btw#anyway she texted me a couple of weeks ago asking if she should finish killing eve#thanked me and asked me how work is going and then I hear nothing else lmao like am i joke to you#honestly and truly#i think back to pre-covid days when we spent so much time together#and even then I knew it could never last but I never expected something like this#the only reason i haven't blocked her number is because some part of me still hopes that we can actually have a conversation#i don't want a relationship or anything resembling that especially not now but like what the fuck happened#she's so concerned with seeming 'normal' that she'll die living a life she never wanted to please people who don't care about her#and she /knows/ this that's what gets me#i was sooooooo so fucking close to getting her to go to therapy but then 2020 happened and now she never will#anyway it's her birthday lol
0 notes
Note
Hello! Could you please write a stubborn, jealous hc for Miguel o'hara? Thank you!!
I had the brainworms, so I hope this is what you were looking for! Thanks for the ask <3
Jealous!Miguel O'Hara Headcanons
(AO3 Mirror), Main Masterlist
pairing: jealous!Miguel O'Hara x reader
summary: stubborn HCs for jealous!Miguel O'Hara.
a/n: this was meant to be a drabble and i basically wrote a full fic. i have zero self control lmfao
warnings: smut (fingering, f receiving oral, slight brat taming, etc) right at the very end, 18+ from then onwards, the rest is more pg-13
wc: 3.5k ish
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Long story short: he's a stubborn little shit.
Pig-headed as fuck and it shows up in little things.
Let's say you first met as coworkers, and you were a lab technician at Alchemax.
Think: unstoppable force meets immovable object. He likes his labs just so, with very specific equipment in a very specific configuration.
It drives you crazy, regularly having tiffs outside the labs; much to the chagrin of your coworkers.
"Jesus." Your coworker mutters, wincing at the seemingly heated argument by the water cooler.
"Ignore it, Maeve." Another coworker rolls their eyes, nudging Mave with a snort. "They're at it again . S'pose they'll tire each other out by the end of the day."
Not that they were wrong. But this time, it wasn't your fault: dealing with O'Hara's bullshit had really taken it's toll. He was insufferable, prone to nitpicking and just plain mean. You could hardly be blamed if you gave him some of your own choice words.
"My notes were basically paint-by-fucking-numbers! How could you mess up a simple distillation? When I specify precision glassware , you don't think that's fucking important?"
"Your notes ," You draw air quotes pointedly at him. "-are illegible, you fucking cretin! Maybe if you didn't write like a goddamn pre-schooler-"
"- preschooler? Oh , fuck you!"
"Get your nose out of that highschool Chem textbook, O'Hara, this is a fucking job."
"Yeah? Stop using it to wipe your ass and you might learn a thing or two."
"Oh , so that's what we're doing?" You laugh in his face, so angry your hand curls into tight fists. You get close, staring him down as you look upwards through your lashes. His own face is contorted into a grimace; bushy eyebrows furrowed into deep shadows around his eyes. You can feel his steady breathing before he speaks, low and rumbling.
"I could do this all day, princesa. "
You scoff, ignoring the way his words weaken your knees. The one time you asked for a break during a long lab and he won't stop calling you a spoilt princess. His laughter then stings in your ears now, the ghost of a smirk on his face as you storm off. Miguel O'Hara: smug bastard. He would be the death of you, you're sure.
~~~
You spend many a late night with him, unwittingly, and find out he's more than a stubborn little shit.
You find out he's funny, and shares the same anti-Alchemax tendencies you do: both preyed upon by the company immediately after graduation, young and naive.
He's kind, even though he'd never admit it, often finishing up the lab notes and doing more than his fair share of work so you can go home at a reasonable time.
You both still butt heads, but it turns into a tentative friendship - coffees in the morning hidden as blaise convenience, covering for each other at work, and defending the other when office gossip goes too far.
That's why when he comes back to work after a week-long stint away - something about a blow up with the boss, an issue described as 'miscommunication, promptly smoothed over' by anyone official - you notice… something's different about him.
You first noticed something was off when he walked in without a snide remark. You left a mug overnight at the counter, something that would usually draw a sarcastic comment at the least , but he gives you… nothing. Blank, glassy eyes as he opens up his workstation - clicking away at the keys without so much as a glance.
"O'Hara?" You call, but he doesn't even look up. You walk to his workstation and knock at the desk. He jumps. God, he looks worse for the wear. Heavy bags under his eyes and a bruise blossoming under his collar.
"You okay?"
He rubs his temples, eyes flitting up at you. "Yeah, just…. just a long week, s'all."
You put a hand on his shoulder, and you swear he leans into your touch. "We can reschedule, tonight. The calculations can wait, Miguel."
He gives you a weak smile, but a smile nevertheless. "S'okay. Need to make sure you don't fuck it up."
"Don't push your luck, O'Hara."
~~~
As you get closer, you notice just how stubborn he is to admit the growing tension between you two.
Late nights at the lab turn into takeout at your place, morning coffee turns into a pleasant 20 minutes on the rooftop away from the hustle and bustle - just you and Miguel, talking and joking with a cup of shitty coffee in hand.
Wholly, he seems more assertive at work, not as quick to roll over.
It's hot, you have to admit; watching him fight with someone else other than you.
You're at work drinks with the other technicians and engineers, nursing a watery beer when another colleague makes small talk with you at the bar.
You’ve never been that close to him, and the conversation is amicable enough, but you’re almost bowled over when you see Miguel, in the corner, staring straight at you with a stormy look.
You suppose it's a little pathetic, getting all dressed up for a casual drink. Lips shiny with gloss and gently powdered with makeup, you feel a little out of place. For all your talk at work, actually being here was another thing. Suddenly, your blouse is too tight and your skirt too short. With a manicured finger, you trace the lip of your glass filled with watery beer. You sigh. You don't want to admit it, but you were only here because of Miguel. He said he would come, and now you're sitting on a barstool counting the chips in your glass.
It was probably for the best. You sink into the absentminded chatter of your colleagues around you, until there's a tap at your shoulder.
"Is someone-" He clears his throat; a tall man dressed in a sharp suit nodding gracefully towards the empty chair. "-is this seat taken?"
You shake your head, grateful for the company. He's handsome, sharp features curving into a wry grin as he calls for a drink.
"...and something other than shitty beer for the pretty girl, too." It makes you laugh, light and lilting in the bustle of the bar.
He stretches out his hand, and you take it.
"Eddie Crouch. I work in marketing."
Eddie…. as in… head of the most profitable division of Alchemax? Your eyes widen involuntarily and you try to clamp down your immediate shock, somewhat unsuccessfully. He narrows his eyes as you tumble over your words.
"Y-Yeah, same! I mean, not same , I just work in the l-labs and I thought it was just for us guys, working behind the curtain, y'know? Not that we're not thrilled to have you here, because we a-are." You spill out, wincing. "....Is this about the performance reviews? Because I know output was down this quarter but our projections are-"
"I'm not here to talk about work." He chuckles. You squint, not convinced. As if to alleviate your concerns, he loosens his tie and undoes his top buttons with a flourish.
"Can I tell you a secret?" He leans in, and the air becomes thick with expensive perfume. He twirls the signet ring on his finger, a ring probably worth more than your monthly paycheck.
"Your boss invited me," Discreetly, he stretches a finger at your boss; a man ruddy cheeked and red-faced with alcohol. "Guess he thought it would boost morale. He's a fucking idiot if he thinks having me, the one guy that could fire your entire department without recourse, exchange empty platitudes would boost morale. But, I digress. So here I am, dragging my feet to this bar, thinking I'm gonna get in, read the lines and get out. But then, " He pauses with dramatic effect. "I see the most beautiful person I've ever had the pleasure of laying my eyes on, just sitting by the bar. Like everyone isn't already falling over themselves to talk to you."
The irony is palpable. It's sickly sweet, and a line that wouldn't usually work on you. But usually, you weren't pining over a man so prickly and stubborn, you shouldn't have feelings for. Here you were, bright cocktail in front of you and a moderately attractive man by your side. He wasn't quite Miguel, but in the words of one of the greatest thinkers of the past age: country girls make do.
And so you make lazy conversation with the man. So lost in a tipsy haze, you barely notice Miguel walk in; dark jacket on his shoulders and deliciously loose slacks. You're drawn to him, his eyes seemingly searching the room, and you sigh into your drink. Technically, he looks like shit: eyes dark-rimmed and sunken, a cut at his brow. You think he is gorgeous, eyes tracing the slope of his nose and plush lips. Like he can sense it, he glances over in your direction and you look away hastily. He's watching , you can feel its burn as you turn, pretending to listen to the man besides you. A little cruelly, you lean into him, not breaking eye contact and curling a hand around his arm to laugh at a stupid joke. Eddie laughs with you, oblivious, as you glance behind him.
Miguel stands with a drink thrust into his hands, looking straight through him, eyes low and gazing at you.
~~~
He insists on walking you home, a steady hand on the small of your back as you stumble through the streets of Nueva York.
You make light conversation, tipsy and giggly from the alcohol. Miguel seems a little more put together, but his chest still creaks with rumbling laughter.
He definitely walks on the side of the pavement nearest the street, because he thinks it keeps you safer.
He walks you up the stairs and by the door of your apartment, like a gentleman. You watch him get nervous suddenly, and he hesitates, stubbornly digging in his heels and pausing you from opening the door and coming in.
You don't want it to end, opting to take the walk up the stairs as opposed to the lift. It's one of your more questionable decisions as you stumble up the stairs, almost tripping over your own feet. Miguel is quick to catch you even though he was just as drunk. Arm around your waist, he leaves searing touches to your hip. You giggle despite yourself, and he can't help but smile at your clumsiness.
"If you break your legs I won't carry you, princesa ." A lie and you both know it. He would carry you to the ends of the earth like a blushing bride, if you asked him.
You both stagger to up the stairs and through the corridor until you reach your front door. You rummage around your bag for your keycard, it's contents click-clacking in the quiet of the hallway. Miguel watches, quieter than he was in the journey. If you looked up now, you would see something else behind his eyes - a storm of apprehension and tension.
You find your keycard, and look up to find Miguel placing a careful palm on the door. He's surprisingly still, eyes on your lips as he steps closer. You look everywhere but to meet his eyes, tracing the curve of his collarbone, the slope of his exposed forearm, and the tempting juncture of his strong jaw. You watch it tense, as he brings a gentle hand to your chin. His thumb swipes over the fat of your lip.
"Got somethin' right… there." He mumbles, before tucking his hand away. You can barely breathe. Without thinking you take his hand in yours, lacing your fingers together like a gentle hug. You bring his hand to your waist, and he squeezes, ever so gently. Your hand drops and he moves his slowly, knuckles dragging along the smooth silk of your blouse, and then sending shivers when he reaches your bare neck.
He has to bite down the plethora of things running through his head - his drunken brain threatening to spill all his thoughts. You are so beautiful and soft it makes him short-circuit, desperate to pull you close. Instead, you do: hand inching up his chest and laying to rest on his shoulders.
He kisses you, finally ; a little messy and impossibly soft. Like his lips on yours would shatter you both. You deepen the kiss and wrap his arm tighter around you, angling your chin to drink up even more of you. You both come up for air, panting in the heat of one another. Miguel's eyes are full of lust and blown out.
"Do…do you want to come in?" You whisper.
Something catches in his throat and his expression changes, like he just woke up from a dream. Do you just want to sleep with him? He's not built for one night stands, can't do just sex, especially if it's you. No matter how much he wants to, he can't, he won't, "....I shouldn't."
The disappointment on your face is palpable. You want to ask why - after he kissed you like that - why doesn't he want you? Instead you nod dejectedly. He gives you a chaste kiss on the forehead, lingering, and a shaky smile.
You open your door with a buzz, and slam it in his face.
~~~
It takes Miguel some time to properly put a name to what you two have: not knowing if the kiss was a drunken mistake, animal attraction or something more.
He's not a grand gestures kind of person, he believes in action rather than words.
Which is why it takes so long for him to admit just how in love with you he is.
He steals glances at you all the time at the office, and tries to anticipate all your needs.
When you stretch and yawn in the morning, he happens to pass by your favourite coffee place and happens to buy one too many cups of your go-to order.
So imagine his shock when he arrives from his lunch break, churros and coffee in hand, and there's one of the top brass from the night at the bar perched on your desk - 2 polystyrene cupfuls of something half drunk on the desk.
He's never been insecure, but he can't help but feel possessive, something tense and tight growing at the base of his stomach.
"What was it you wanted to talk about?" You step into the equipment cupboard, Miguel close behind you. You rub your temples, anticipating an argument. "O'Hara, if this is about my calibration tests this morning, I swear to God -"
"No, no , nothing like that." He's quick to say. "They were… okay." He strains.
You raise an eyebrow. Okay? Since when did Miguel pass up an opportunity for a mindless fight? Your mind races with his actions of the past few days. He has been different since the night at the bar, a little nicer, sure, but nothing this out of the ordinary.
"That guy you were talking to. I saw him at the bar, and now here. Who is he?"
Your eyebrows shoot up. "You do not have the right to ask me th-"
"Are you fucking him?" A pause, and you study his expression, deducing that he is completely fucking serious .
"Are you insane? You definitely don't have the right to ask me that." You make for the door, and he steps in front of it, blocking it with his body.
"I need to know. Tell me and then I'll leave you alone, I promise." His voice is low and thick with something.
You step closer and he wraps his hands around your waist absentmindedly. The pressure feels good, and makes your brain fog up.
He repeats himself, softer. "Are you fucking him?"
You look at him for a moment, before shaking your head. His facial expression is steady, just as unreadable.
"Do you want to?"
You hesitate, wanting to be cruel and say yes, just to see his reaction. Perceptive, he sees your hesitance and says something that almost knocks you over.
"I could fuck you better than he ever could," He kneads your thigh now, lips close to the shell of your ear in the tight space of the cupboard. " Princesa , look at me."
You look at him, almost whimpering and putty in his hands. He's like a siren and you are lost in the pull of his gaze. It may be the proximity, but you swear you see a tinge of red in his eyes, like deep pools of lust.
"Will you let me fuck you?" He pulls you closer so the meat of his thigh presses against your clothed cunt. Your stretchy pencil skirt rides up suggestively, and you rock your clit against him, searching for sweet pressure. You nod.
Miguel titters softly, a hand on your chin pulling your lips to his. You moan into his kiss, body aching. It's hot and heavy like the kiss outside your door, but he swirls his tongue around yours and expertly nips at your lower lip. He guides your hips to rock against his thigh, tensing to make sure it's corded muscle hits the right places. He wants to break you apart, leave you so cock-drunk, you wouldn't think of even glancing at another man.
You separate and he dips a hand under your skirt. He pulls it up and places a big palm at your pussy, with a well timed slap. You bite into his neck with the pressure. You definitely don't expect it when he rips open your stockings like they were paper.
"Fuck, Miguel."
"It's okay, baby, I'll get you new ones." Your eyes roll back as he slips aside the gusset to run a finger through your lower lips. Shamelessly, he slips a finger in, then two, basking in the wet squelch of your heat. You claw at his forearm, as he curls them into that sweet spot.
You press your forehead to his shoulder, chasing his fingers with your hips. His sharp eyes watch every movement, every stutter and start that his fingers pull from you. He's practical, a man of action, and he is desperate to show you how much he cares.
"I've thought about you… about this." He hisses as you cover your mouth to dampen your moans.
"Wanted you for so long, princesa. Want to know how you taste, what this beautiful pussy feels like. What you look like when you cum."
His wrist aches with the back and forth motion but his pace barely faulters.
" M-Miguel …"
He applies pressure to your clit, and watches in awe as you spasm, nails digging into his forearm.
" Oh, there it is. Right there, hmm? Does that feel good?"
You nod frantically with a stifled sob.
"Not quite, baby. Need to hear you say it. Or I won't let you cum."
"...fuuck you."
" Oh, you'd like that. Still not what I want to hear. Tell me how much you like it when I fuck you with my fingers."
"F-Feels good." You stutter. He stops, wrenching his hand out of your pussy to leave you clenching around nothing.You almost scream.
"You're being a brat, not my princesa , hmm? Only good girls get to cum."
" Miguel , please. I'll do anything." He guides you along his thigh, still lodged between your legs, and licks up your wetness on his other hand. "You m-make me feel so good. So good. And I want you so much it hurts, sometimes. I just want to cum, don't even need your cock. Fuck me with something , please."
"Miguel? Not asshole? Or fucking idiot, this time?"
"Please, Miguel ." Your pleas go straight to his cock. He throbs with need, cock rock hard under his slacks.
He relents, not able to bear your dopey puppy-dog eyes for much longer. He slips three fingers in, without bothering to prep you. He hisses at the tightness of your heat, pounding into you and knuckle deep with his fingers. Shamelessly, you fuck yourself back on them, hips rolling over his thigh. He can't tear himself away from the sight, palming himself through tented trousers.
You kiss and nip at his neck, as he whispers obscenities at you under his breath.
"Can you cum for me, princesa? Cum f'me, and I'll take care of you, I promise."
You clamp down on his fingers and moan into a kiss as you ride out your orgasm. It's intense: leg-shaking and leaves you shuddering in the aftermath. You were rusty, sure, hadn't had sex with someone in a while. But Miguel made you cum so hard you saw stars, with only his fingers. Your chest heaves with the thought.
You thought he would leave you, torn stockings and all, in the little cupboard. But he stays, to sink down to his knees and lap at your folds. You rest a hand on a shelf for purchase, head back in bliss. You cunt is still sensitive, throbbing at the orgasm he's just given you, as you licks you clean. He's taking care of you. You card your hands into his hair, tugging gently as he moans into your pussy.
He gives your clit a gentle kiss, and swipes up a trailing tear that rolls down your inner thigh. You watch as he pops his fingers into your mouth, cleaning off the cum. Your cum.
Miguel gives you a lazy grin in the bare bulb of the equipment closet. He seems completely unfazed by the fact his fingers were in you not a moment ago.
"Are you free after work?" He asks, and it takes a moment for you to process.
"Uhhh… s-sure. Probably?"
"Let me take you for dinner, somewhere nice."
All you can do is nod, dumbly, ripped stockings still around your ankles.
"And then I can fuck you properly, princesa."
_
_
_
#across the spiderverse#miguel o'hara#spiderman 2099#miguel o'hara x reader#miguel o'hara smut#smut#spiderman 2099 x reader#light angst#kat_writes😼#miguel o hara x reader#headcanon#miguel o'hara headcanons#jealousy
12K notes
·
View notes