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At what temperature INDOORS (not outdoor weather) do you start to become noticeably uncomfortable (sweaty, heavy, don't feel like doing anything, etc.) and begin trying to cool off yourself or your environment?
(Like, at what point do you start putting out fans, turning on the AC, getting ice water, etc. because the indoor room temperature has gotten too high for you?)
It's starting to get warmer weather where I live, so I was thinking about it/curious how this might vary :0
(sorry if the celsius conversions aren't entirely accurate, I just used a website to look them up/am not familiar with measuring things that way myself lol)
#polls#tumblr polls#summer#Honestly mine is like... 71F lol.. I would say it starts to get uncomfortable to the point that I'm distracted by it around 74/75F#but even at 71 I am noticably warm and will go try to check what the temperature is and would like turn on the air if I had it or etc.#What i get is just that my skin will be warm?? Like it almost feels like I'm wearing a sweater when I'm not. I just feel this sheet of heat#kind of lingering above my skin even when my arm is bare and has nothing on it. It feels like I'm shrouded. And I get a little flushed and#headacehy feeling. and super lethargic where I don't feel like doing anything or eating or anything else. Like today it was only 73 in my#room earlier and I nearly skipped lunch just to lay on the floor. I just don't feel hungry and I dont feel like moving or thinking#or doing anything really. I would eat food if it was brought to me but I don't desire it anymore the way I do sometimes in the winter.#BUT I'm also super heat sensitive due to health conditions and stuff so. Someone told me a few days ago that 72F is comfortable#for most people lol..??? Which is maybe true. Even though that's the point that I start looking around the room like 'ermm...is anyone#else warm??'. But yeah. I guess my answer would seriously be like... 71 for when I actually start to GET uncomfrotable. But then its like#74/75 at the point that I become soooo deeply uncomfortable that I'm like... I Must Do Something About This NOW. Like sometimes#it could be 71 and I'm just like.. grr.. whatever..and keep doing what I'm doing even though I'm warm. But at like 74F I'm getting up to ge#a fan or something and I'm so warm I can't distract myself from it. So as you can imagine. the summers where it gets like 83F IN my#apartment at night are misserablle.. lol..#I think my ideal spot for indoor temperature is like.. 64 - 68F or so. Though i would ALWAYS rather be cold than hot so. Like I would rathe#have to be in a 52F apartment for 5 months than in a 80F apartment for just one month LOL#Just the thought nearly makes me tear up.. oh imagine it only being 55F indoors... ah..#right now it's 77.5 in my room and I'm not like.. SWEATING. but I just feel the Sheet of warmth over everything and I feel more joint#achey and like I have a fever and this feeling like I can't take a deep enough breath because the air is thick. and I am NOT hungry at all#or maybe even a little nauseated. and I just want to lay down. I've been struggling to focus on any task all day. There's maybe a very very#light mist of sweat only on the underarms but it's not like the type of sweating where your whole body and chest is drenched. So its like#I stay dry and I don't look red or flushed or anything BUT it just makes me feel intensely lethargic and like everything is heavy.#I don't LOOK hot or SEEM warm visibly (like being red and sweaty) but it takes like a Silent Toll on my body or something lol
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Countdown to October 19th (10/19)
So Long London Apartment
#yeah the london apartment gets another mention#it means a lot to me okay#plus in my mind this video is just one of those videos that I remember#in my mind this was a moment#also just the oh you must be so sad and it just nope :D#over joyed in fact#this is posted a bit later because a couple days ago I realised I had an assignment due that I did not realise was due#so I worked on that#priorities#did I make the caption say so long london on purpose#of course I did#that's my song#so this was a real late minute pull together#thankfully I had the concept#but god#i'm gonna go pass the fuck out now#before I can over think this and spiral#dan and phil#dnp#danandphil#phan#amazingphil#my gifs#dnp gifs#danandphilgames#dan and phil games#daniel howell#phan countdown
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honestly continually taken aback at how squeamish citizens get if you're honest about the practical calculus of immigrating, even the ones who think of themselves as pro-immigration! like why are you suddenly stumping for The Good Immigrant archetype bc i promise the immigration bureau is NOT going to fuck you!!!
#like all my international student and immigrant friends are pretty like yeah these are the things you have to do to get legal status#particularly if you're not in like one of a dozen 'highly skilled' fields#and it's like oh okay so the system incentivizes going to a university here as a smoother pathway to immigration#that gets you points on your eventual application for longer term residency#and yet both the government and other people want you to pretend that that doesn't factor into your decision making at all???#like why is it only okay if i tell you that i came here just for the love of academia and then was like oh haha it's so great i had to stay#and was just serendipitously able to take advantage of this immigration pathway that i didn't even know about that you left open to me!!!!#like why would i maintain that kind of fiction if you're not a child and should know better#like i took a gamble and figured that it would be quicker and more reliable than trying to find a job that would sponsor me#and then i wouldn't be at the mercy of some random employer who could fire me and jeopardize my status at literally any time???#it drives me literally insane how much i'm supposed to pretend that the moon is made of pudding like i'm sorryyyyyyyy#like why are you setting up a system where you can only get through it in certain ways then freaking out at me for taking one of those ways#and it must be said probably the only one of those ways that was actually realistically available to me given my resources and skillset#like it's so weird how many residual hangups people have about what 'right' way to immigrate even if they say they don't#and it must be said generally know fuck all about how immigration and its bureaucracy work in their given country so like half of the shit#they're imagining as what you should do isn't even something that most people slash anyone could do#it drives me nutssssssss okay i'm done#i just was getting a medical test done and the tech was like oh you must love [subject area] and i was like oh yeah haha and i also loved#being able to move here (rookie mistake i should not have even mentioned this but in my defense i was very drowsy)#and she got soooooo weird and terse and was like 'oh! well i just assumed you were one of those people who loves learning'#like yeah that was on me but like you're an adult who knows how tuition and employment work and i literally said i was doing a lit degree..#like MAYBE if i were soo independently wealthy that would be a sufficient reason to work constantly for shit pay and no practical benefits#but c'mon girly........#okay i'm done it just drives me up the wall to have people act like i'm some craven freak#for looking realistically at my options for immigrating and being like hmmm well this one seems the most doable for me i guess#like i have figured out you do just have to be like oh yeah haha to whatever people say and again i would normally remember to do that#but it just makes me feel soooo like we're living in two different realities. esp when i have friends who Get It due to we're all getting#fucked by the immigration bureau constantly#it feels a lot like when you have to talk about your disability with people who've literally never thought about or experienced such a thing#and they'll give you some inane useless boilerplate advice then be affronted if you talk about how you actually (have to) navigate the world
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Zim, Dib, Gaz, and Tak are actually all horribly vindictive spiteful people to more or less equal degrees, but the interesting thing is that Zim and Gaz both exact vengeance in very specific, premeditated ways, which are often wildly out of proportion but once they feel like they've evened the score they will pretty much immediately forget about whatever pissed them off in the first place—whereas Dib and Tak are both ostensibly above being ruled by petty grudges, but very obviously boiling over with a constant resentment that sends them pouncing like rabid dogs at even the slightest opportunity or excuse to make the object of their ire suffer (and if they're both working towards their own self-serving end game that just HAPPENS to involve every terrible thing imaginable befalling their enemies, well... that'll just be a happy by-product of their personal success).
I don't I have any point to make here, I just like it when these freaks are all an overwhelming danger to society (and each other)
#invader zim#zim#dib#gaz#tak#meta#my meta#natterings#iz posting#the universe was never supposed to accommodate this many lunatics gathering in one place#let alone coming into direct conflict with each other#anyway i think tak is probably the scariest of the four not just due to her competence#but because she shares dibs deeply insidious insatiable anger AND whatever irken brainworm it is that makes zim so creatively awful#also i made this joke on twitter once already but dib must be so desensitized to the OTT retribution at this point#got it from gaz his whole life and then when zim showed up it NEVER occurs to him#that if he maybe stopped throwing things at zim for no reason then zim might stop wildly overreacting#its just a given to him that sometimes your life gets ruined over stupid bullshit#you cant let that hold you back
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What if the Sacred Orb survived and was the most doomed girl to ever live... long-ish OC lore under the cut
In my AU, the Battle of the Burning is pushed back a little bit, so Kludd gets to be an alive dad to both the Sacred Orb and Coryn for a while. Don't worry he still dies
I've named my Sacred Orb OC Guinevere as a nod to Kludd and Nyra's Lancelot/Guinevere-ness (bonus points because the root for "Guin" means "white"). She goes by Gwen in daily life, though Nyra likes to use her full name.
Gwen is Kludd's mini-me, right down to her appearance. When Gwen is still very young, she's closer to her mother, but as she gets older and her parents tell her about their plans and her role as heir, her father becomes her entire world.
(As far as Kludd's parenting goes, I can't imagine he likes babies at all so he's in distant father mode until Gwen starts actually having a personality, at which point he's like "Wait. This thing (my child) worships me and I get to tell it what to do and mold it into whatever I want? Sick this rules")
Gwen's worldview and sense of self are entirely built upon the idea that she is not only superior to all non-Tyto owls but also superior to everyone--she hatched from the Sacred Orb, she is the most Pure, she is the perfect heir who will inherit her father's kingdom.
The first crack in this view is the birth of Coryn (who's still Nyroc at this point). Nyra starts paying more attention to Coryn because he's born on the eclipse, which irks Gwen. She's the one who hatched from the Sacred Orb; who cares about some moon magic?
Gwen develops a complex about not being an eclipse baby and takes it out on her little brother, but otherwise ignores him. She thinks he's weird in classic mean big sister fashion. They are not close.
Before Kludd dies, Gwen is unshakably confident; she is, after all, the perfect heir, a great fighter, a Tyto Most Pure, just like her invincible, infallible father, right? The world will be hers one day. She is perfect, her family is perfect, and nothing will ever go wrong.
(Also, there's no way Kludd and Nyra are letting their precious heirs kill each other, so Gwen's TUPSI is her friend Cinder, a Lesser Sooty. Cinder was born into the Pure Ones, completely buys into their ideology, and is perfectly honored to be a sacrifice.)
("I'm honored that my death will make you purer," Cinder whispers. "I'm so happy to die for you." Gwen can't afford to hesitate. Her father is watching.)
Kludd dies in the AU equivalent of the Battle of the Burning, which completely shatters Gwen's worldview. After his death, she takes on the title of High Tyto, dons his mask and his battle claws, but they don't quite fit. She tries to be strong just like her father, but she slowly starts to crack.
Coryn still has firesight, so he still leaves for the Great Tree after seeing visions in the flames of Kludd's final ceremony. Nyra is deeply upset by this. Gwen is glad her mother belongs only to her again, but also plagued by the idea that maybe her mother would prefer for Coryn to have become the High Tyto instead.
In the wake of her father's death, sometimes Gwen wishes her mother would hug her and hold her like she's a chick again, but she knows that can never happen. She's the High Tyto now. She can't afford to show weakness.
Gwen is a good soldier but not as talented of a commander as her father was (or at least, she believes he was). The Pure Ones lose battle after battle after battle under her command, which only makes her spiral even further. (She puts on a facade of confidence to mask this. It mostly works.)
Nyra and Gwen argue constantly after Gwen becomes the High Tyto. Nyra wishes her daughter would obey her. Gwen wishes her mother would trust her abilities. They're all the other has left and yet they make each other miserable.
("I'm the High Tyto," Gwen says. "I'm the one in charge." Nyra counters by pointing out that she is the one born on the eclipse, the one with the great enchantment. Gwen resents her mother more and more, but she has no one else to rely on.)
She wonders if maybe Nyroc would've been better. Maybe it should've been him after all? Maybe this is all because she wasn't born on the eclipse. Maybe she was the wrong choice, except she can't be wrong because that would mean Cinder died for nothing. She can't be wrong because that would mean her father (who taught her and raised her and believed in her) would be wrong too, and that just isn't possible.
Coryn obtains the Ember of Hoole and becomes king of the Great Tree. Gwen wishes she'd been allowed to kill him in her TUPSI after all.
During their final confrontation, Gwen corners Coryn and tries to kill him--tries to avenge her father, defend the legacy he left her, justify her entire existence--but can't go through with it. (It's all too much. She wishes she was still a hatchling. She wishes her father was still alive. She wishes none of this had ever happened at all.)
Gwen surrenders, but, seized by the need to not disappoint her father even after his death, tries to kill Coryn one more time in an act of betrayal. She almost succeeds, but is stabbed through the back by Twilight.
Gwen dies a bloody death, just like her father. As the world grows dark, she wonders if he's proud of her.
#pinning bc i gwenpost on occasion. look upon my OC ye mighty and despair#what if coryn had a sister and she was the false king to his true savior#what if ur parents put you in The Cycle and you could never escape because doing so would invalidate your entire existence :)#can't draw so i hope you enjoy my notes. i hope you can see my vision#i toyed around with the idea of redeeming gwen and letting her live but i think for thematic purposes she has to die#gwen is too deeply entrenched in the pure ones' ideology for her to be redeemable. but i think in a better world she could be a good kid#gwen's not a good person (owl) but it's largely due to the circumstances of her birth + her parents#she still must die but she never had a chance to be good. that's the vibe i'm going for with her. if that makes sense!!!#my ocs#high tyto guinevere#my posts#guardians of ga'hoole
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in fraser's defense I too would have been severely at risk of risking it all for victoria even after the all of the everything. have you seen her.
#thank GOD for ray. i am always saying this but it does not make it less true. the mvp#due south#benton fraser#victoria metcalf#the manic pixie nightmare woman representation we so richly deserve#she truly is that charismatic and beautiful tho like sure I could abandon all of my ideals and be a sort of underappreciated henchman#of the devil herself who only gets pets if she needs something from me if I got to hang out with her sometimes. I get it ben#so unspeakably impossibly sad that the one person who makes fraser admit he needs something for himself#is in fact the worst person in the whole entire world. watching him place those candles around his awful apartment with NO heed#for fire safety whatsoever had me gasping like oh no it's BAD bad in there I mean I knew that from circumstantial evidence#but I didn't think the state of the psyche was quite at the 'placing a burning candle directly onto a chair cushion with no heed#for the basic fire safety he must have been taught before he even knew how to walk' levels already. oh ben#the way he tells his father 'go away' exactly like a little kid might. augh. ow. ouch. oh buddy#(did he EVER say that to his father in life? probably not huh. he'd have to have been there to be told to go away :') )
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Silent Protagonist.
#potion permit#chemist adam#the game really does make me think of a silent protag truly - so adam is mute and communicates as best he can...#which aside from Matheo is like LMAO THATS ROUGH BUDDY YIKERS#because I think that Matheo would in fact know sign language due to his own work sooooo#i like the idea of them talking and stuff and then you have the other townies#and they go like its almost eerie to be around the chemist cause hes so quiet and like i get it but -#and matheo is like what are you talking about hes SO chatty#he wont stop saying he loves me so consider yourselves lucky jfc#anyway pretty cool that my favorite to draw farming crafting potionmaking sim pc's to draw#are literally an abomination from hell (asmo a la sdv) who has fangs and legally cannot cuss in art (must be redacted)#and then just a guy (adam a la pperm)#good for them theyre so fun to draw and are opposite sides of the social spectrum#adam just wants to be friends with people ! and hes trying !!! but aside from the sometimes capitol visits and matheo#no one knows what hes trying to say
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i loooove when ocs unrealized development makes them feel like real people like no i dont know whether talon is genuinely attracted to women after years of both clinging to them for safety and years of putting them onto that untouchable idealized Perfect Protector Pedestal that must remain untainted by any bad experiences, so he doesn't even try to Be With any. He doesn't know either
#like i heart bisexual men so part of me is like no yeah he does like women. he literally loves women#>what if this is just love as general blind devotion solely on the basis of them not being men#we all know he likes men without much of what would be societal shame but he still grapples with it in that personal way#in the if i like men it means i like them despite what happened to me -> i secretly like what happened to me way#talon like i like men and women but i could never spend my eternal life with a man. as a way to just focus on one thing (finding said women#instead of letting himself think about anything else at all#oc text#ill let it float into my mind but idk because this would mess up his original plot before i kept him#though tbh i want to keep keeping him idk if ill ever let him go back home ykwim. long gone concept at dis point he's mine now. ours#talkys#also this makes things more interesting too in the way of#well it was previously thought that talon has a great interest in [smunker] because of smunkers Body#a sort of unintentional and subconscious rejecting of [smunker's] gender and seeing him#as not a man#now its like. what if its not that. it rly is just sole attraction to men because well al is also a pretty feminine guy#views challenged because no‚ men one way (bad) and women another way (good)#but theres TWO guys here who exhibit femininity so he's like wait hold onnnnnn waittttt#that subconscious conflict still exists though in the fearing al (at first) due to his body and both terrorizing and clinging to [smunker]#because of his#the terrorizing because talon sees his original self in smunker (weak and youthful‚ cherubic‚ naive)#theres so many layerssss#anyway yes. loving women as in of course i love women. beautiful and they keep me safe#but not in any way further than that... i love them i can and will kiss them and do much more but it doesnt feel The Same#i dont think i actually even have any fully gay guy characters [EXCEPT MAYBE THE SELF? LMAO IDK] bc i love bisexual men so much#groundbreaking...#wait sorry more oc rambling this actually would also make sense too because how i imagine talon with women is exaggerated#complete personality change to be pleasant and pliable and you can do whatever you want to me#when its also known that the reason he ''acts out'' with al and [smunker] is because he feels safe enough to drop any and all masks to do s#hmmmmmmmm i must keep thinking
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Shoutout to Long Face by the Vampire Lestat for being an actual real song that actually made it onto my top 100 songs this year btw. Do you think Lestat will make one of those little "thank you fans" videos to thank all of us who streamed his music?
#this is hilarious to me lol#I mean it's a great song!#it's just so meta that the season with his rockstar career isn't even out yet but I've got one of his songs n my top 100 2024 recap playlist#I mean it's number 50. don't eat me pls Lestat. or well#if you're gonna eat me at least make it hot. I mean who said that. anyways#but yeah my youtube music top 100 finally got here!!!#I'm so excited I've had my recap for weeks but no top 100 playlist and I was honestly thinking it wasn't coming due to a glitch or something#it's like Christmas! haha ;)#the Vampire Chronicles#interview with the vampire#the Vampire Lestat#Long Face#iwtv#Sam Reid#youtube recap#2024 recap#spotify wrapped#it's not but I know that's what most people use#but yeah I'm so jazzed to have my top 100 finally!#Lestat I'm your biggest fan (lying) (but then how many of you had him on ur recap? it's probably not just me but still. I must be up there)#lestat de lioncourt#i ramble#even in the tags i ramble#happy 2024 everybody. may your 2025 bring vampires <3 vampire rock stars even!
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i appreciate him very much
#fiona and cake spoilers#fiona and cake#i love shermy a lot hes such a silly guy And i would love to know more about shermy and beths story also this is like one of the only parts#i really really liked… the finale makes sense and i did like the ending scenes with all those flowers Very pretty but it was very anti#climatic :( i still like the series for what it did and what they managed to put out there though:) ty f&c crew#edit i take that back It was a very good ending but it must be hell for petri//grof shippers lmao#i think im just going to keep documenting my thoughts about ths ending here anyways i think my main issue with the series as a whole is def#the pacing. f&c was definitely a different experience that at with how they paced there episodes and i think thats one of my favorite thing#s about the main series#how they manged to fit so much into so little time and how it didnt feel rushed at all#i feel if f&c just got two more episodes i would be completely satisfied with it . and also if we got to see prime finn & marcy more than#once. they leave a lot of open ends for things incase they get to make a series about it and i do think we’re probably getting more content#in the future due to that apple end credits thing#many many thoughts
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Potential September Reading
The Hobbit by J.R.R. Tolkien (ideally in audio)
An English Squire by Christabel R. Coleridge
A Sherlock Holmes story (and/or a screen adaptation)
C.S. Lewis nonfiction
A sensation or mystery novel
A piece of one of the Psmith stories
Some kind of nonfiction book
#monthly reading lists#books#a nicely restrained list#mostly made up of my strong september associations#of course it's psmith pseptember so i must read at least a chapter or two#(i know too well that i don't have the discipline to expect more but i would like a taste)#sherlock holmes audiobooks made great commute reading during several septembers and now it's a vital part of the season#(i'll prob only read one or two short stories rather than try for a whole volume)#i've vaguely been feeling i'm due for a hobbit reread for a few months#but now it hit me strongly that i must read it in audio#(if i can't find a good audio version i'll have to skip that item)#i read 'surprised by joy' one september while my sister was in ireland and i was missing it#and now it feels right especially because there's an oxford academia vibe that's great for back-to-school#i want to read some kind of female-written mystery#but yet to decide if i want victorian sensation novel or agatha christie#or if i'll just try a vaguely gothic christian novel#an english squire gets on the list thanks to thatscarletflycatcher and it just feels right to have that be my next obscure classic#i wanted something for back-to-school but i didn't know if i wanted a non-psmith school story or what#so i just went with nonfiction because it's about me learning new things#also several things that didn't make the list but may be read#i was very close to putting the tenant of wildfell hall on the list#but i don't want the pressure#if i do read it it needs to be something i'm not required to do#i will probably try to finish chesterton's 'varied types'#and prob read more emma m lion#and maybe pride and prejudice on audio?
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B'Elanna, Neelix, Tuvok and Chakotay needed to star in an episode where they just talked about their different beliefs and approaches to spirituality/religion. Paired off and all together. I need to gain more insight. I need characterization and I need it to be messy.
#B'Elanna's difficulty with Klingon myths and religion (especially due to her internalized racism)#Chakotay's current strong belief in his own spirituality despite his initial complete rejection of it (and how B'Elanna seems to admire#and have talked with Chakotay about it extensively in the past given how many specifics she's aware of)#Neelix's belief in an afterlife being the only thing that comforted him after his entire family was killed - the knowledge that he would be#able to reunite with them again and that knowledge being ripped away from him#Does he still believe? Are there other aspects of his previous spiritual beliefs that are thrown into question?#Just because it isn't 'real' does it make it unimportant? How do we even know whether or not it's 'real'?#He died and doesn't remember reaching that tree and seeing his family - does that mean it didn't happen?#Tuvok's line in 'Innocence' about how he's begun to have doubts about whether or not a katra exists and what happens after someone dies#and his firm ties to Vulcan spirituality and ritual#ALL SO INTERESTING!!!!!!!!#star trek voyager#I don't think it'd be a calm or healthy conversation either - they're not therapists and I don't think anyone but Chakotay#would be particularly careful with his words#and before you say Tuvok's a Vulcan so he would be let me remind you that Tuvok told B'Elanna to her face that he thought Klingons#were basically savages - he is INDELICATE to say the least#Neelix is careful with his words bc he's a people pleaser for survival but also he has a tendency to bother people and be overly pushy#and I think he'd do a lot of research and be the one leading the conversation/the reason they get on the topic and continue on it#B'Elanna wouldn't want to talk about it. She wants to talk about it the least. But she must!!!! Bc the episode demands it!!#st voy
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Kalina is the most interesting character to me because of all she has going on…
she is Cassandra’s familiar, she is simultaneously a pet and a friend and a servant and a family to a goddexx that is simultaneously her owner and friend and creator and parent and her god and reason to be—Kalina’s relationship to Cassandra is hard to put a name or label on (since what does being a familiar even mean?) but the bottomline is that this cat loves her deity enough to put everything and everyone on the line for her…
And adding in that she is a child of divorce. So to speak. I am extremely normal and haven’t been driven mad by the detail that baby itty bitty kitty Kalina was at Cassandra’s wedding to Ankarna and is remembered to have been toddling after her as she walked down the aisle…
Kalina will be the death of me /lh
#fhjy spoilers#fantasy high junior year#kalina#oh my god and the fact Kalina was there at that wedding—there at the period of time where Ankarna was alive and still a known god and not#presumed dead… this makes the Sylvairean Heresy even WORSE of a life event for Kalina and Cassandra…#the existence of baby kalina implies that Cassandra *raised* Kalina… and the fact they were married means that Kalina wouldn’t have been#raised by only Cassandra but *also* Ankarna.#you are Kalina and one of your parents just was killed by your uncle—their domains were too alike—and you can never talk about them again.#you can never speak their name—share in their memory—the only place they exist is quietly in your memories that must go unspoken due to#Oblivata Mori. And there’s nothing you can do about it…#And then the followers and clerics of your remaining parent start trying to kill her—being mislead by the followers of your goddexx’ sister#Cassandra is the only family Kalina has left—and Kalina’s sentience leds me to think she agreed to become a Curse#kalina let herself be unmade and changed to keep Cassandra alive… and even as the shell of herself—a familiar once but now a living plague—#is so deeply loyal and only interested in what is to the benefit of her *everything*… even if they are currently a Walking Corpse.#Kalina dislike Kristen so much because Kristen is just not being a good cleric and is in the precarious spot of being Cassandra’s only#follower… but ultimately won’t harm or attack Kristen—killing herself first—because Kristen is the only one keeping Cassandra uncorrupted.#yeah im crazy about the relationship and history between a cat familiar and her witch goddess and the layers of their relationship
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there is a story trying to form in my head that sounds like a perfect plot for one of those yaois you read once and never find again, which sucks because I am so bad at drawing comics bigger than one silly page
#youni originals#it feels like a yaoi i should be able to find. and yet. i doubt i will#so instead i must consider creating guys to star this in my head#they are fumblr (fake tumblr) enemies but irl acquaintances due to their 'friend of a friend' circles being pretty much the same#one of them accidentally sends the other dick pics one day and the other is like. initially annoyed. but then ends up using the#pics as art reference for a project. and ends up having to ask the guy for permission to submit the art to a contest since he's the model.#and then they have an art gallery 'date'. and well. yaoi happens. and of course they both swear that was a one time thing#and they will just go back to hating each other. and they kinda do. except new reasons to meet up keep coming up.#and then things get complicated and that's as far as i've got#it could end close to the art gallery thing for a short yaoi. or keep going with the extra entanglements for a long yaoi#one of the 'entanglements' is also a 'classic' romance plot (date each other for a month on a dare) so it would be a good end point#(it's not actually 'dating on a dare' but the full explanation is too convoluted to explain in tags)#and anywayes. idk why i'm even posting this. probably because it's been plaguing my mind.#i've been trying to think of pre-existing blorbos to put in this plot but it's very very doubtful that i will#owell. new modern weirdos i guess.#they could be wizard college students. vaguely related to the aurek and day plot#(which is also a classic fanfic plot that i did not have pre-existing blorbos to fit into so i made new blorbos for it)#(note: by blorbos i do not necessarily mean blorbos from my shows. it's blorbos from my brains as well)#merry christmas have some vague nonexistent yaoi#two likes and i will seriously consider making these guys a thing
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Bruh

'These sounds are very rare in languages'
'These sounds are common in disordered speech'
I wonder if these 2 facts have anything to do with each other.
#Anyone who has a lisp or other 'speech disorder'#i am so fucking sorry for your natural variations in speaking being pathologised as something to be corrected#i literally just wondered 'whats the IPA for pronouncing p or m with your tongue instead of your lower lip'#and guess fucking what its not even on the standard IPA chart#i am literally making a sound with my mouth i cannot find in the INTERNATIONAL PHONTETIC ALPHABET#wikipedia at least has it#wtf#this is like the 3rd time ive looked up a sound example and the comments are full of#'oh this is a real sound? this is what my lisp sounds like i had speech therapy to stop making that sound!'#and similar sentiments#*screaming*#obligatory 'not every speech therapy is unnecessary or entirely due to pathologisation'#have a lisp and dont want to and go to a speech therapist to try and stop having one? awesome valid i love you#viewing a lisp as an inherent problem or illness that your or your child must have 'fixed'? *screaming again*#ableism#i forgot to put real tags sorry lol#cw ableism#jus in case
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thought about ryoga shindai too much
#no one gets him like i do#do you understand that he grew up being taught to repress his feelings and to distrust people outside the guild and devote himself entirely#to his duty? do you get that he isn't capable of making connections due to his isolation and devotion?#do you get that he's awkward due to it being drilled into him that he must remain stoic and cold?#do you get that him wanting reika not to be a swordsman stems from her being the only solid connection he has in the world and he doesn't#want anything bad to happen to her? do you get that they have codependency issues that were built up as a method of control?#do you understand that ryoga craves kindness? but he cannot say it so openly that he cannot stray completely from his teachings and from th#way he has been brought up? no it is far too complicated and the poison runs deep but he's trying and he's healing and god does he want#reika to be able to heal and live peacefully#she's his sister so he wants her to be safe but she wants him to be safe too bc they're family and they're all each other has had for a lon#time but they are going to branch out and become less dependent and learn what it means to be their own people it's just going to take time#i have a lot of thoughts about this like ik they get watered down to just have complexes but i really feel it's far deeper than that#i also feel ryoga has some biases to reflect upon but that's another story#kr saber lb#kr lb#umbrella.thoughts#umbrella.posts
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