#so now theres scoliosis

[swaglessboygirl]

can somebody PLEASE fuck the hypochondria out of me

[bmpmp3]

can i apply for some kind of grant or something somewhere so i can get a proper ergonomic chair and table that actually fits me and my nonstop manspreading. can i get some kind of institution to cover the cost PLEASE

[angryborzois]

i joked about it for years but I may actually have scoliosis

[tai-janai]

🦾 for any of the voices you want to ramble about

oh, well, yes!

theres, of course, Team Can't Fly

Hunted, who's wings didn't fully develop and so he's never been able to fly

Contrarian, who flew too close to the walls and got some wings torn off as punishment

and Broken, who's muscles atrophied from lack of use and now have no bone mass even if he tried to rebuild his strength.

the most-so autistic, in my headcanons, are hunted, cheated, and hero. others are on the spectrum of adhd (conty stub and smit) and add (again cheated) as well. i always have my paranoid with anxiety and my opportunist with aspd/sociopathy. oppy and broken also have ocd in my mind, of varying degrees.

i don't go into it much but i think skeptic fidgets and tics sometimes? his hands need to be busy or they'll start acting up.

i also never cleared up cheated's eternal bandages, but those cause him a lot of pain and are under constant maintenance.

oppy's got scoliosis in my head. its just real to me. he probably has to wear one of those correctors and he doesnt even dislike it because it protects him from stabs in the back.

[moss-and-marimos]

gimme doodles/character designs for ur tmnt iteration NOW

(no actual pressure i just want to draw them and need ur designs for them)

okay so I dont have much actual art of them bc I have had no time to draw lately, but ill try to like summarize their vibes or give doodles at least Donnie- hes a very anxious angsty guy, is in his lab almost all of the time, always seems to look a bit sad or tired, doesnt really like other people, kind of has similar vibes and shape language to tm(n)t donnie if that helps at all, hes a hybrid spiny soft-shell turtle and spotted turtle, hes got spots on the back part of his shell like this:

and spiky bits at the bottom edges of his shell like this:

so I imagine hes like a dark green kinda grey color mostly besides the yellow spots on his shell, his hands and forearms and legs are always bandaged up and if theyre not covered he has a lot of scars from assorted causes, he usually wears either like black shorts or baggy sweatpants, sweatpants more often, on occasion a hoodie and that becomes much more frequent after the events of the shredder apprentice arc, I forgot to put them in the doodle but he has stretch marks on his thighs and upper arms and is the tallest of the guys but hunches over so much that you wouldnt know, he has scoliosis but not very severely, you can just barely tell if you look at his shell from behind that its a bit misshapen

Raph- Raph is a bog turtle, so is Mikey, this is an older drawing and isnt the most accurate but its like the only good drawing I have of him, usually he does not look anywhere near this happy, the markings around the back of his neck and on the shell are still accurate but otherwise its kinda up to interpretation so do what you will, he also wears hoodies and pants sometimes but not always, his mask tails vary in length bc he chews on them so sometimes theyre short when he doesnt want to or longer when he does want to

Mikey- Mikey is also a bog turtle, raphs markings are a bit more red and his are a bit more yellow/orange, my Mikey wears a more yellow mask than bright orange, its kinda that yellow-orange shade, I think he has freckles but theyre more like small scale patches that are darker green than real freckles, has the same neck markings and similar shell markings to raph, has either one dot above his right eye that looks like a circular eyebrow or has it on both eyes, for now I'll say just the one though, his mask tails arent as long as Leo but go to about mid-back and the ends are frayed Leo- Leo is based a lot on 2012, all of my turtles are more based on 2012 than any other iteration, his mask tails are very long like all the way down to his waist, theyre cut at diagonals like at an angle at the end and are not frayed, he has more yellow colored stripes that go over his eyes (like rise Leo a bit) but then they run down to his shoulders and down his arms, sides, and legs, and theres also shorter segments on his shoulders that are pretty much just yellow patches. He's a black knobbed map turtle, so just imagine kinda realistic stripes like theirs but stylized. When he uses his powers they glow a really intense blue color and it looks really cool. After the events of the shredder apprentice arc he has a big X scar across the back of his shell

[corntort]

body horror headcanon

For the bioflux accelerator tentacle arm things

At least some of trace's internal organs had to be shuffled around for them to fit methinks

Or maybe it's like a woodpecker thing where the tentacles curl around his skull (yes that happens with woodpeckers and their tongues)

YESYYESYESYESEYS THAT IDEA IS SOOOO COOL

i really want to mess with the idea of organs being shifted around but in my head its just a lot of the movement of the ribs and muscles near exlusively.

his rib cage at the back is more pried apart for the bioflux tendrils to kind of wedge themselves in via hooks to sprout as violently as need be when he's healed up, muscles torn apart and mended to be attached to the base of the tendrils to be (VERY SLIGHTLY) mobile. it grows worse with his prolonged exposure to bioflux and the second injection, allowing to be nudged more laterally or medially as need be, because they themselves cant be injured!!

THIS ALSO AFFECTS HIS SPINE. to the point the suddenness of the initial tendril eruptions from his back has snapped loose some lateral processes of some vertebrae, spinal disks bloated with fluid from the violent nature of it and his spine starts meandering around the tendrils, cause i doubt theyre symmetrical along his back, some closer to his spinal column than others. that scoliosis is FUCKED UP and COMPLEX. this also causes some pinching of his spinal cord which is absolutely agonizing if he tilts a certain way so he walks a bit leaned to the right. theres also just shrapnel of bone in his back now but he's lucky enough to not have it puncture any vital organs, not that he'd be left to die if they did. it does take some iterations of deaths for his spine to somewhat accustom to the tendrils but it by no means becomes more "comfortable." just pinching becomes less frequent and the bones are essentially restructured around the bioflux.

as his body modifies more and more the tissue turns more red hot and distorted towards his back to allow more mobility. the tendrils no longer erupt from under the skin it's more of like pods in his back theyre situated in to recover in when he's hurt that can more safely protrude from when ready.

Tissue as minute as the vessels are rerouted, treating the tendrils almost like a tumor that requires more oxygen but its split the vessels to still leave some oxygen for his normal tissue.

OHHH though now that i think about it more, all that mass from the bioflux Does Need a place to retreat into. i was thinking he could have more like, the back equivalent of SEVERE barrel chest as the flesh back there gets more lumpy, his skin more stretched out to nest the tendrils but that probably cant do all the heavy lifting. HMMMMM

although not much can be shifted without affecting his performance which i don't think elsenova would allow much of. i think she still is deriving a little bit of satisfaction from his pain but they do need him. and they can't allow him to resent them Too much, or else he'd be a threat and not fulfill the purpose they need him to.

MUCH TO STINK ABOUT..!!!! ill ponder on if his ribcage just splits open at the back for the space or if it closes Around the tendrils for better anchorage. and also if it's the latter if the rib cage Encloses the pods the tendrils come from or if it is just underneath them. like how fucked up are we getting with it

I WILL DRAW THIS... WHEN I HAVE THE ENERGY!

and i have NO IDEA if this is coherent i love stinking about it. specbiooo <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

[judeiscariot]

same anon i want to talk about stomachaches so bad like. stitches bro what did he d o to you. it was so bad that dude was bursting at the seams with it couldn't even help himself and HAD to reference the scoliosis dkgsgkjf. same disclaimer for franks whole discography obv but some of this shit. man..... why'd he say all that. he said all of the things in 24k lush and like medicine square garden The Year of the reunion. underneath it all. exists. in the interest of being fair i need someone who is vehemently anti-truthing to fucken explain THAT one to me. "milky white and they smell like shit, full framed and their numbers unlisted". etc etc etc. sorry for all this but it just is So Much

THISSSS THIS THIS THIS like its the same deal where his solo music is about a super wide berth of topics many of which have nothing to do with the band and have their own intrinsic value completely separate from that BUT DUDE so much of stomachaches is like genuinely difficult NOT to read through that lense. 'i want what i want i need what i want but im not what you wanted' 'these 40 days of night have severed all our ties' 'someone i love threw me away but i dont mind no i dont mind at all' 'ive seen rock bottom and it was love at very first sight' LIKE HELLO??? then theres the entirety of all i want is nothing like fuckign 'all i want is nothing all i want is what i cant have' 'all we are is a memory i used to have a best friend now just one more enemy' 'if I can't have just one more second of a time when I was yours and you were mine and all I want is everything we never had before' oh my god it makes me sick. and if we're bringing parallels into it man 'i wanna take your hand, make you understand my side and our kind' vs 'you don't understand we dont hold hands' i need to fucking puke. I COULD KEEP GOING.

[a-wise-rat]

yeaaahhh

especially with the fact im realizing im disabled..

thats been a journey

ive been going along in life without even knowing theres something that doesnt let me function like the others. But now im finally realizing so yay!

Along the path we take in life, we discover new things about ourselves and the world around us.

[I have Autism and ADHD irl. So life can be hard at times. My doctor, also believes that I might have scoliosis. (Yay! That's fun!) And on top of all that, I've had chronic pains since I was 7... I'm now 17. When I was little, I didn't know how to prosses or understand the world around me. I was always in fight or flight. So I could be very violent at times. When I would get over stimulated, I would try and hide. But the teachers didn't like it to much when I would hide in closets. They would often forcefully drag me out, then crowd me, which only escalated the situation, causing me to become violent. Because of all this, I hardly remember anything from before I was 12.]

[thebeegalaxy]

tw suicide, violence, medical negligence, medical bs,

IM SO FUCKING DONE. Im in CONSTANT. debilitating. pain. Im in so much pain that I'm almost always thinking about killing myself because i cant fucking handle it.

and my fucking doctor does NOTHING. shes doing basic bloodwork on me. AGAIN. IVE BEEN THROUGH THIS SO MANY TIMES. CHECK MY HIPS. not my blood. not my spine. CHECK MY HIPS. that is the o n e part of my body that I've complained about.

I understand that its possible for scoliosis to cause hip issues- but we just checked that! now do something else to help me!! for fucks sake!!! I asked her to do a scan for something about my hips and she literally said "and what do you think that will do?" as if I'm the fucking dumbest person in the world?! i wanted to punch her so FUCKING bad.

she told me to go to a physio therapist, claiming that they would know whats wrong with me and theres nothing further that she can do. she has tried 2 options and given up. I'm pissed.

maybe I'm not a doctor but I'm not fucking stupid

hopefully the physio therapist is helpful in some ways though...cheers to chronic painnn...

[daenystheedreamer]

Have you seen requiem of the rose king? It's an anime/manga that really reminded me of your content, like the omaegorverse :)

Oufgh deep cut i remember back in the day before it got adapted...... (before 2022 literally last year) and i remember going Damn i might like to read that it sounds fun. and im glad it got an adaptation im glad weird gay content is getting made :) unforch ive so heavily divested from anime 😭 actually now im wondering what ricardians think of it... remember how much they cried over him having scoliosis imagine if you told them theres fujoshis out there making him trans and gay

[actualbird]

oversharing medical woe adventures: recent breathing problems edition (but dw im overall fine)

so basically this whole month ive been plagued with a near constant cough and occassional chest pain and it worried my mom a lot so she pushed me to get checked especially when the chest pain started happening especially since ive got a history of asthma and been smoking half a pack everyday for 5 years.

turns out: it's not actually my lungs that are the problem. it's my throat, theres an infection there thats causing a bunch of the cough. ive also developed thoracic scoliosis that goes [beyonce voice] To The Left To The Left, which i did not have in my last chest xray back in may, and that slightly pushes against the very lung where my pain usually comes from. but the pulmonary doctor i saw said it wasnt severe, so i just need to watch my posture so it doesnt get worse and cause more problems

thankfully the throat infection shld be nerfed with antibiotics, so i hope that works and im in generally better health by my next followup (if only because the sheer scheduling and errand-ing and SPENDING for medical stuff causes more pain to me than any physical pain jhavfkjashf) but, the pulmonary doctor did scold me in general

pulmo doctor: you smoke?

me: yeah...

pulmo doctor: stop that, quit smoking

me: thats a long term goal for me, yes

pulmo doc: what do you mean 'long term'??? quit NOW. youre only 23 and youve had 2 respiratory infections in the past 2 years

me: //diplomatically choosing silence and a vague affirmative mumble noise bc agh...i got a bad grade at lungs and got scolded by the doctor ;-; jHVJHAVFKDHSVFJSD

[zeeposting]

BREAK! MY! BAXK!!! dont actually

GAH THAT SOUNDS TERRIBLE IM SORRY…we dont do lockers here we just carry our stuff with us but we carry so muxh we have scoliosis ❤️❤️❤️❤️ /srs (that thing gave me slight back problems)

i also have pe for first block if that makes you feel better…do you have block schedule?? the wording makes me think you do…ik most schools like. just put all the periods in the same day. and also some block schedules rotate which is cool i like challenges sometimes when theyre not hard for me otherwise i hate then

im sure youll have plenty!!! you can tell me stuff on sneaky dayd like this

ALSO MY SCHOOL ALLOWS YOUTUBE AGAIN HOORAY BUT NOW THERES PROBLEMS WITH MY AUDIO NOOO ill go to the IT guy i guess. i probably did something messing around with the settings to get youtube back. or maybe i can just hard restart that does the trick sometimes

~☁️

breaks you back anyway

we cant carry around backpacks but we can carry drawstring bags for some reason. so im getting a drawstring bag for this year!! woohoo i have an entire plan for. how im going to do it so yay..

yes i have block schedule ^_^

huzzah!! like how mojo and little john felt like being really annoying and bitey. and rockstar was apparently a bully. like really bad he hurt sweetie very bad on her neck and from what ive heard (i didnt see rockstar + others when i last went) its. SO bad

huzzah youtube!!! i remember inki watched a bit of ii in school and then drew cabby with legs once

[biscuitsngravie]

vent under cut // disability, injury

sometimes i wish i was just born with the disabilities i have now. like, im sure that i was already disabled to an extent (most teenagers don't get sick once a month for a year i dont think) but it's like

when ppl say ur one accident away from houselessness or disability they're right. cause after my first car accident i was mostly "fine" (fine enough to walk home instead of taking the ambulance cause i was scared of the cost). i was lucky that i ended up working from home for that year coincidentally enough. credit score? shot. finances? shot. but i could still "function" mostly.

then there was my second car accident. being the passenger, that quote about passengers getting the bulk of injury? yeah. couldnt walk, couldnt stand, could barely breathe. but i did it. did my at home exercises and learned how to mostly do things again. like yeah my back hurts more often than not, and i cant stand for as long as i used to, and there are these weird pains all over my torso sometimes, but im "fine."

then that fucking ladder months after my second accident. if those two didnt take me out, the ladder sealed the deal. barely able to do anything by lie down and stretch my muscles as needed. constantly on painkillers just to go to exist. and after months of physical therapy (i had to go to myself because it wasn't "far enough" to be covered, which included a minimum of an hour walk and occasionally more) im deemed good enough to go back to work for one hundred percent care. yay me.

im "totally" healed, right? buuuuut i just gotta do these back exercises every day for the rest of my life to stand and oh yeah, im at risk of scoliosis now. im "good as new," right? yeah for sure, i just need to take some form of painkiller on occasion because all the places that "used" to hurt (they never really stopped hurting) will have flair ups and, oh would you look at that, i cant walk today. i cant stand today. i cant breathe today.

im so tired. jobs dont take me seriously cause im not legally registered as disabled. but if i even put on the application or mention that ive at the minimum history of disability, they ask me if i can "handle" the job. they send me emails saying they "filled the position." so since im not "really" disabled they can just basically give me bullshit. and i would register, and i wanna register so bad! i want a prescription for a wheelchair, to get a proper crutch, or crutches when both my knees arent being agreeable. i wanna be able to sit in the fucking disability spot on the bus without people staring at me to get up just because someone with a visible disability came in or an elderly person walked on.

im tired of having to pretend that im not in constant fucking pain because im so young. young people arent disabled. black women arent disabled.

but its also so scary. to prove disability is one of the most frightening and dehumanizing processes ive heard of. even when i was doing the claim after i fell off the fucking ladder did prove to be a hassle. and that was in my favor. the fact that ive been working is definitely not gonna help the situation. "if disabled, why work? 🤔"

theres also the savings cap. i have trips i wanna go to, places i wanna be. having a savings cap on being a recipient of disability is actually asinine. theyre pushing to raise and it and GOD i hope that bill goes through.

they basically fuck you over if you're married so there goes my aspirations of partnering ig. countries that wont let you cause ur disabled. countries that wont let you immigrate because of disability. its all so much.

this is all so fucked and this system is so fucked and its so tiring. i just honestly wish i was just born with whatever i have going on right now so that id know what to do. i just woke up one day and now i have an entire routine just to exist and i just wish it was already part of my life in some way ig. idk.

part of me is so mad. why did i listen to those people pressure me to get a car? why did i have to comment on missing that turn? why did they try to make that turn? why didnt i just, idk, not fall off the ladder hello?? why didnt i just take the medical debt from the hospital? would i be able to walk better or get care or get a case and be approved if i just kept going to the hospital instead of working?

hell, those fuckers at the original emergency room didnt even touch me, saying that i'll "bounce back because [i'm] young." its been a year now. theres not fucking "bouncing back."

i cant fucking walk as well as i used to. i cant stand some days. some days i have to practice how to breathe. i just wish that instead of having repeated trauma i was just born with it or something so that this isnt new. i hope that doesnt come off as ignorant as fuck or rude. idk how else to word it.

i wonder about if i can even take the sports i want to next year. or if i can even work at this new job that wants me to work all these hours a week. idk. working all those hours a week is ridiculous anyway. if the accidents didnt disable me that shit wouldve eventually anyway ig. guess i just got a head start. look at me, an overachiever. i did next week's work, too, teacher.

i feel like if i could get diagnosed or if i got diagnosed as a child that i'd be "legit." that i woudlnt have to "prove" to anyone that im disabled. i hate telling people i hurt and hearing about how much i "dont know about." or hear "wait till ur older." im tired of having to constantly tell ppl that young ppl can hurt, too, just to divulge in my medical history to "prove" that im "actually" disabled. im so tired. i just wanna say my knee hurts and someone passes me an ibuprofen or acetaminophen.

[coratorium]

im running out of doctors to ask to fix this shit bc so far they have all failed horribly so if anyone wants to take a stab at diagnosing why my whole immediate family (especially my siblings and especially especially me) have poor circulation and have developed chronic joint pain in the past couple years, go nuts

[grinchwrapsupreme]

The mortifying ordeal of the pain not being there when the doctor is looking for it

[yutadori]

hmm t’s as if having mild scoliosis wasn’t enough but im randomly experiencing other weird health problems as well . hm . ive had Enough