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stuckinapril · 11 months ago

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friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !!#& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

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kay-enemy · 10 months ago

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Jason Todd is far more forgiving than I, who was never raised as a child soldier, could ever be.

if you’re looking at it with purely watsonian in universe reasoning, yeah Jason is the “holding onto a grudge for years” guy, but if he wasn’t also incredibly forgiving he and Bruce would’ve been no-contact years ago

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dizzybizz · 4 months ago

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im so

im so .. insane about him right now

I LOVE HIS BIG PEEPERS . HIS BIG PEEPERS WHEN HES SO DEEP IN THE ZONE !!! ITS ALMOST EERIE LIKE AUHGDJJFGGH

look at him hugging his bag. look at his sproing.

i love!!!!! when his eye goes

BOKUTO YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#YOU NEVER SEE THE CHARACTER HYPERFIXATIONS COMING IS THE THING #THEY JSUT HIT YOU OVE RTHE HEAD OUT OF NOWHERE #haikyuu #bokuto koutarou #i was gonna go to bed like. 2 whole hours ago and instead i gave myself a headache looking at my phone bc i need to see bokuto right now or #i will fall apart #forgive this incomprehensible post i need to get my love of him out everywhere. ranting on discord is not enough. tumblr must know as well.#if i was coherent and had a way with words i would write an essay about him as a character but alas art remains my only outlet #bokuto jsut makes me SO emotional??? its so weird idk. i will see him and immediately want to cry bc im so overcome w feelings.#hes jsut so good #hes so so mcuh larger than life that it makes me eant to cry like hes so and also so but also so and so like its crazy damn i cant yknow

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the-squriel-man · 1 month ago

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Re-upload bc it flopped

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assiraphales · 1 year ago

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every time one of my mutuals gets into a new show or something and start reblogging popular posts about it, at least 3 of those posts will be yours from like 2 years ago. how is this possible. have you watched and blogged about every media there is

don’t mind me I’ve just been building my resume

#LMAOOOOO OH NO #I’m kind of glad that top posts only show recent posts. bc then ppl run into my older popular posts it’s a surprise #yes assiraphales did infiltrated that fandom too on a whim #asks #my past haunts me #and I have covered more fandoms on my other blog. so #fandom is def a hobby for me my friends irl don’t get it (and don’t know) so tumblr is my outlet #I actually forget which fandoms I’ve been in until I go to that site that shows you your top posts and notes if you plug in your url

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rainingincale · 10 months ago

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#i am only typing this because im tired and feeling more loosey goosey than i usually would i guess #but ive just been debating something for a while now #so basically i used to just openly talk about like. everything on this blog but then due to a multitude of reasons #i stopped posting about certain things 1. because irl people found my blog and probably still could if they Really tried #2. because i didnt want to post about certain things and have absolutely anyone know shit about me #like as much as it can feel like a cosy wee community. just me and my mutuals <3 etc. its like. actually the fucking internet djdbdjdhdhjdh #anyways whats prompting me to type all this is that i used to post kinda negative stuff on here i guess you could say. like just my feelings #and shit. but i stopped because i want this to be a positive blog and i do feel like you can manifest shit you know? if i constantly reblog #posts where im like “i feel worthless and i am a piece of shit” that isnt helping anything you know? i think what really hammered it home #for me is when i saw a mutual rb something from me like that and it made me so sad tbh. because like. no youre not. youre amazing and ily #you know? anyways. overall i think it has been a decision for the best and i enjoy that my blog has become a more positive space. but i #do sometimes just feel like im kind of going the opposite direction where i act a certain way when im really just. feeling crap.#like all the time. idk maybe tumblr isnt the place for it but it used to be my outlet you know? and i have other things like my diary and #art and even a sideblog lmao. but i guess i do just mourn my whole self not being on this blog. idk what im trying to say by all this #is it this deep? am i thinking about this way too much lmao. idk. idk.#le text post

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ofliterarynature · 2 years ago

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I missed this one in my book haul post, but that’s because it’s this month’s book club read!

#bec posts #from Instagram #2023 #Alice isn’t dead #this is entirely due to cecilsweep in the tumblr sexyman poll lmao #it made me think to look up the night vale books when I was putting together my book outlet order #and there it was!#an lgbtq stand alone!#I put it on the book club list and it got immediately voted in for the next month #books #also it was VERY cold and windy so I had to give up on my photo shoot #this pic isn’t perfect but I only got like 5 and I liked the lighting in this one the best #book photo

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orcelito · 4 months ago

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ok i am actually so very angry and there's literally nothing i can do to fix it. life keeps going on. she might even be happy. and fuck dude, i'll make sure im happy too, i was a fully developed person before she was in my life and i'll continue to be one without her. but God Damn, the fact that she can just do something so blatantly awful and unfair to me and then run off without any actual repercussions is just so fucking rankling to me.

like perhaps she feels guilty. she said she did when it was all going down. but it was just something she "needed to do". so obviously she didn't feel guilty enough or she wouldnt have done it like that lmaoooo

i really did deserve to have a good solid yell at her. but unfortunately, by the time i did see her in person i just wanted her out of my fucking life. so. no yelling was done, unfortunately.

#speculation nation #the duality of being a deeply resentful and angry person. and being a person that Tries to be mature and peaceful.#like im not gonna actually Do shit even tho i keep wanting to message her just to yell at her some more again #it's like there's a beast in me that keeps yelling for retribution. she wronged me in such a disrespectful and humiliating way #and yet she just gets to walk away like it was nothing? live her life like it was nothing?#be in 'love' with her new 'soulmate' after cutting me off like a rotten limb?#i feel so DEEPLY angry. i want to spit vitriol and fire. i want to dig my claws into her bones. make her really FEEL how i feel.#i want to wander into her dreams and make her experience what i felt. every miserable second of silence.#the humiliation of admitting you might be falling in love only to be told you were never loved at all.#and i want to knee her in the gut and spit in her face and really make her regret ever fucking wronging me #but unfortunately im a stupid fucking pacifist so all the aggression and anger and violence has no FUCKING outlet #ive been. trying to not think about it too much. ive been trying to just live my life. because i dont want her to run my life.#but the anger keeps catching up to me. filtering in when i dont expect it. endless constant fucking thoughts coming back to me #on and on and on and on i live and i eat and i read and i game and i hate and i hate and i hate and i hate and i hate and i HATE AND I HATE #the greatest injustice is that i cannot make her truly feel every single ounce of my resentment and anger #it's so overwhelming i think i could choke on it. and she gets to live her FUCKING happy little life with her stupid fucking 'soulmate'#i hope it collapses around her and she loses her too so she's single and alone and miserable and regretting all of her fucking impulsivenes #she deserves to have it fail after what she did to me. and all i can really do is hope that karma has its fucking kiss for her.#if only curses were real. what i wouldnt give to put some energy into that karmic payback lmfao.#ok . ok ok ok ok love and peace on planet earth. i am shifting out of vitriolic little shit mode.#just had to let some of the steam out. im still angry but i am going to go back to not thinking about it.#i think i should go on a nice long bike ride tomorrow. to decompress and work some of the steam out.#it's something that she can never take from me. something that is so wholly mine. fuck that stupid bitch and fuck her new girlfriend too #...............................ok NOW im shifting out of vitriolic mode. lol #negative/#WAHOOOOOO i am certainly not taking this breakup well. but i dont think anyone would be lmfao.#all things considered i think im doing a pretty great job at handling this breakup.#bc at least im only recounting unrealistic threats and fantasies on my tumblr dot com instead of messaging Any of this to her.#i may kinda want her to read it so that she knows anyways. but i wont message her directly. bc i am Trying to be at least a little mature.#complaining on my tumblr dot com so i dont message my ex with more vitriol. gotta cope Somehow.

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khaotunq · 5 months ago

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#i miss twitter. i need an outlet for the weird but not Weird shit that crosses my mind #it feels weird to post stuff on tumblr in the same way which is mainly what my tagposts are scratching the itch of #i know twitter still exists but i also feel like there are only 3 people there these days #anyway i am back climbing again after my injuries and i just flexed my bicep and it is SOLID and i'm :)))#like i have no fucking. tone? there's no muscle tone at all but my arms are beasty atm i'm v happy #don't need core strength if i just gorilla my way up a wall right???#i'm very much the clown of the people i climb with. they are all very very good climbers. i am a mockery of a climber. but it's fun.#anyway i'm gonna go watch the trainee now #save me off jumpol i beg ye #so it is decreed

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sparkystarlight · 2 years ago

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Merry Christmas

Listen I am merely at the whims of my TikTok followers. I will make human soapghost tomorrow

#[ art ]#art #artists on tumblr #idk if I'll deign this with proper tags #soapghost #ghostsoap #I want to cry maybe #I feel so strange abt this piece. the cringe is trying to get me #mlp #mlp au #cod mlp #brand new tag there #I drew most of this crouched under our Christmas tree bc it was the only available outlet. my back hurts so much rn #rip me

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alaskan-wallflower · 7 months ago

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i can’t wait until i’m 18 and am able to make an instagram where i can just make fanart of my favorite tings and people and not have my family judge me for it

#rn tumblr is my only outlet #and whenever i post on my other socials my brother is there to bully me into taking it down because ‘it’s cringy’#so i’d block them because i don’t wanna have them know about it #that’s why i like my tumblr so much #i can post whatever i want and not get judged too hard #skipper speaks

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generationa1trauma · 6 months ago

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flatmate has a girl over i am suddenly extremely uncomfortable

#sorry i only ever come here to rant its bc im losing all my interests / passions and always need someone to talk to but have no friends 🤪#negative cw #thats a lie partially in that i am emotionally incapable of talking ab it i just. i have no people i have no outlet #but tumblr hasnt been doing it for me lately. im not sure if jts #its the mental illness or if its just being full time employed leaves me so burned out that i can barely function #so hobbies just become non existent #doesnt really matter either way tho bc i can barely pay my bills on full time wages theres nothing i can do to fix things #time off or less hours isnt an option and i sont have the money to get anything diagnosed #i think i need. a lot of support ive been kinda rawdogging life for 26 years but ill be honest gang its starting to really impact everything #i do not. feel like i am a fully functioning human. i am not capable of being a functional adult in society #but its also like. i have to be #my parents dont really believe in mental health stuff or autism or anything and certainly wouldnt believe if i tried to say i was disabled #its just like. no one ever believes me ab that kinda stuff and i dont have the money to get it diagnosed #and without a diagnosis theres not much that can be done but also even with a diagnosis theres nothing #government disability allowance is $78 a week maximum and only covers specifically medical costs for that disability #like i genuinely feel on the verge of a breakdown so bad that i would need a care person #but alas. thats just literally never a possibility for me #i dont have money and i dont come from money and i will be forced to work full time through breakdowns until i die #there is nothing that can be done to help me or fix me #and that just. it sucks #anyway #hope this girl is nice bc my cat refuses to be in my room and its giving me anxiety bc what if hes scared of her and runs away #2 much going on in my head but i can not stop it so here we are #sorry y'all r my rant place #i have been thinking ab trying to step away from the internet a bit but its also.#not really a thing i can do bc everything costs money these days #social clubs r barely existent and the ones there are cost a shittone #I'd just. I'd like to be in a better place. I just don't know how to get there

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lordsardine · 1 year ago

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#commenters on the genshin fic: this is nice *asks question*#me: *unhinges my jaw and rambles because my only outlet for talking about genshin really has been my brother #and my friend from high school #and i have not wanted to subject them to brain rot fatui headcanons *#though they still get some anyway if we're being real #miscellaneous #okay i need to go to bed #see i Could make a genshin blog but that fandom aint active on tumblr #and though ive lurked on twitter since 2014 ive never actually posted any goddamn thing once #so that's daunting. also fuck twitter

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poinsciuri · 1 year ago

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i feel like, reincarnation is like. absolutely not a regular part of genshin impact's world. with the kinds of stories hoyo tells with it, we would have had some very explicit acknowledgement of some characters having significant past-lives, especially since cycles repeating is such a heavy theme.

not that i don't think there couldn't be exceptions, i just think it's funny when people start making crazy theories about a concept that would definitely be present in the text if it were relevant

#tydeblogging #i only have like 1 genshin friend so tumblr is my outlet

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loustatdivorce · 1 year ago

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so we recorded a video today and i put in a huge hint about mine and b's big big secret but it is also so subtle that other people will not notice now but once they find out about this big big secret they will be like holy shit she did that

#and i think it's very slay of me i'm a mastermind i'm a succession writer when they came up with season finale episode titles #anyways i love being so vague on here but literally i cant talk about it and tumblr dot com may be my only outlet so im microdosing #txt

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toesuckler · 1 year ago

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quiet quitting but on my bf. jk i dont believe thats a real thing that is what im doing though. im throwing things at a wall to see if they stick

#ollie rambles #i dont think he likes me the esy i sm so im only gonna respond if asked a quesyion #im not going crazy imjust. j dunno #he tells me he loves me but i dunno if im capable of beinh loved #so tumblr blogs are my main outlet

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