#so much talk about the grandmas haha..... they deserve it i love them | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

canon-vi · 11 months ago

Text

Eira's attitude towards the others:

Reaper:

Mom didn't say much about Grandpa, except that he worked hard, but Dad speaks very highly of him.

Geno:

Grandma is very beautiful! I love looking at her in mom’s photos!

Hope:

I am amazed at her long braid, did she braid it every day? I am amazed by this woman!

Dream:

Dad speaks badly about grandpa... Well, I’d better ask mom later, I can’t even pull anything out of dad with claws

Ink:

Well, mom and dad spoke badly about her somehow... I don’t know... I’ll refrain

Nightmare:

Um... I don't remember...

Cross:

Oh, that baker, dad doesn’t really like him, like, I don’t know, I like his baked goods, did he have bad ones before or something?

Merciless:

I feel sorry for him, Aunt Drop is really crazy, and dad isn’t even going to do anything about it...

Lux:

Dad hates her... We'll have to find out why! Detective Eira will take care of it!

Pallete:

Even though dad doesn't do anything with Aunt Drop, I still love him, he works so hard

Goth:

Mom is very beautiful! I want to be like her, but I don’t really want to lose my hair yet, haha—

Drop:

Aunt... Strange... The way she treats Mr. Merciless and baby Daff...

Elva:

This little thing is always pretending to be me in front of my friends and trying to kill someone! ... Why doesn't she understand that murder doesn't require witnesses?

Daffodil:

Poor baby... I don't understand why dad doesn't do anything about all this?

Bonus:

Callisto:

Dad says he's bad, mom says he's good... I don't know

Taisiya:

Dad didn't talk much about her, I didn't even know that dad had another sister

Artemis:

Queen Artemis? She always looks so sad, is it because dad chose mom over her? I would be sad too, but I think that guy wouldn’t have lived long because of Eli

Sunshine:

Crazy beauty! She's a lot of fun! Also, if I don't want to listen to Eli's ravings about mushrooms, then I can send her to her

Vivi:

I saw her on the street several times, but she always pretended that we didn't know each other, I hope Daffodil is okay with Aunt Vi

Shelki:

I often help her dress fashionably when she can't! Aunt Shel is very kind!!

Tace:

... Is she really older than me? She looks 10... But she likes my and Eli's wings! She's also very cute

--------------------------🦊----------------------------

Elva's attitude towards others:

Reaper:

Looking at grandfather’s work, their family life looked as if grandfather went out to buy bread and returned with milk all the time

Geno:

I like to listen to my grandmother’s stories about how she ignored my grandfather, now I know how I will torture my future boyfriend!

Hope:

Hope is so old... And why did she love someone like Grandpa Dream? I thought with age comes wisdom... He doesn't deserve you, Grandma Hope!

Dream:

I don’t know, I don’t give a fuck, I didn’t even see him

Ink:

She cheated on my grandfather, how else can I feel about her? The Drop is probably all in her, crazy

Nightmare:

Some kind of evil guy... I don't know

Cross:

A? Who? Baker? Do you think I remember every baker I see? Am I crazy according to you?

Merciless:

He’s seriously like Drop’s hostage, what kind of eternal BDSM games do they have there? Does Merciless know a safe word?

Lux:

I only saw her in photographs, and then in Miss Hope’s photo album, dad cut out all the photos with her from his photo album

Pallete:

Dad is creepy, I love mom more, otherwise he sees what that crazy woman is doing with Mr. Merciless and Daff, and doesn’t do anything!

Goth:

I love my mother, I also want to become Death in the future and then all the offenders of Eri will go to the bottom in the lava lake of hell!

Drop:

She's crazy, what else can I say?

Eira:

My bitch, I like the way she braids my hair, it’s beautiful and comfortable! How the hell does she do that?

Daffodil:

No matter how sadistic I am, even I feel sorry for this little girl, her parents are fucked up, both of them

Bonus:

Callisto:

Until you decide who to believe, mom or dad, you can go crazy, so I don’t know

Taisiya:

If it weren’t for my mother, Eri and I probably wouldn’t have known about her, well, we’ve never seen her and don’t even know where she lives

Artemis:

Queen Artemis, I heard that she was dad's beloved, but for some reason he decided to stay with mom... Why?

Sunshine:

She's crazy... She's fun to be around! I wonder if she can dye my hair too?

Vivi:

Uhh, I only remember how she argued very strongly with Drop and took away Daffodil, then it was very loud, she was screaming so much... I understand her, Drop is a crazy bitch

Shelki:

Aunt Shel is very funny! I love looking at her schyte collection!

Tace:

She's creepy... This is cool! I like her!

--------------------------🦊----------------------------

E. L. A. by @anotherrosesthatfell

E. L. A. Queen by @itzcherrybonbon / @abloomingsunflower

E. L. A. Sunshine by @il1ketulipz

#evil lux au #what if au #protect and cherish [e.l.a] merciless propaganda

15 notes · View notes

talesofesther · 2 years ago

Note

It's kinda tough to come in the search of.. unburden, I suppose. I talked to you a little while ago, about some friends and unfortunate things. I wanted to ask, again, how's everthing going.

I am going to use you as my personal... therapist, lol, and take what you said as that I could text here in your requests whenever I needed to, you know, speak about these things.

Things with my best buddy didn't get any better, to be honest.

I still adore them, and I would still kill or be killed for them, but to be honest, knowing that they don't seem to even care at least partially how much I do care for them is dragging me down. Feels almost like a betrayal, you know. I was so careful, building this friendship of mine. Careful of hurting them, of scaring them off, of making them feel comfortable and safe. Turns out, they never seemed to reciprocate those kind of things.

And I am just noticing because I am a clueless idiot. To be honest I've always been kind of.. not dumb, but you know, I just don't take hints haha. I am kind of dumb, actually. It's not even their fault, really, it's mine. That's the worst thing. I could never blame my guy for that. I do love them, still, and I still, as said, would do anything for them. So, guess I have that figured out, even though it still hurts like hell. But to be honest, it's not that bad. It would be worse not to have them at all.

Perhaps they don't adore me as a friend as much as I do adore them, but that's okay. It still brightens my day a little to see them, even if all I can think about is how clear it is that they don't care that much for me, and that I am the blindest person on earth.

About my other friends - haven't talked to them since they haven't talked to me. I am not gonna be the one who runs behind them even when I didn't do anything to deserve this. Not anymore. Not me asking what's wrong, what did I do, when even I don't know what could I have done. It's not fair that I respect them and love them and they just exclude me of their lives, and like if I am some kind of love sick puppy I go behind them like a dog, tail between it's legs.

Today I got this notice, though, from my grandma. I don't have the best relationship with her. Things have been tough with her. But I love her and respect her.

She told me that uh, my mentor is dying. From cancer. She has a 25cm x 15cm tumour, and little ones spread all across her body. Ironic as it is, it's almost 25th of the month; the day when my great grandmother passed away from cancer. The woman who raised me.

This uh, mentor, she used to coach me. I was an athlete. I started when I was 3 years old. I did it for over 10-12 years, with the same woman, going to competitions with her all the time. Now we don't see eachother often, but turns out, I'll never see her again, haha! yeah, go ahead, Mila, joke about your trauma, you lil' asshole.

She is in the hospital right now. Getting treatment. To give her a decent life quality for the time she has left. And I am so, so fucked up. Everything, everything I thought I might have left in the past is just resurfacing right now and I feel so damn stupid cause hell, I can't be that fucking stupid. I don't know how to get over things, and it just makes me feel pathetic. Cause let's be honest, after all, I kind of am.

Everything reminds me of everything and even the slightest thing makes me think and think and think and I feel like I can't breathe. Like if someone has a hold in my heart and is squeezing and squeezing and squeezing and at some point that hold is gonna make it all explode.

My uncle, through my grandma, gave me his backpack to use temporarily yesterday (mine broke and I've been using it anyways for almost a week). That's the closest approach I ever had to him over what? one? two years? I haven't even counted them, to be honest. He abused his wife. My aunt. My grandma made me watch, or well, listen to the audio of the video that she recorded and used in the court after that. He sexually abused her there, and I still can't get over it even if it shouldn't be my place to be mad, but I just can't, because I can't forgive that. That and the fact that it brings me back to times that I don't want to revive. And yet, here we are, and all I can do is go back again and again even if I don't want to.

I can't trust him. Worst thing, is he's been nothing but kind to me all the meanwhile. He used to be my heroe, you know. Someone I loved. Like my father, just that he didn't leave for cigarettes haha! He actually was someone I looked up to. A safe place with my aunt, you know. Someone I trusted, who I actually saw as a father. Even when things got a little hard with my mom he and my aunt would be there. But I just keep going back to my aunt crying, to the own fear I felt when I was in that situation, and when he brushes it off, all I see is a hypocrite. He told me himself of when he hit her. That he knew it wasn't okay. But he never said anything about the other things he did to her.

He used to come home, tell me his version of the story. I felt disgust. Because I, myself, heard the story from my aunt after she reported him.

My grandma didn't stand up for my aunt. She said she would, that what my uncle did was wrong, but first time I said something and laughed bitterly when she defended him she jumped at me. She defends everything and covers him up like if she herself didn't make me listen to that freaking video after she took me outside crying to tell me that her son was a abuser. Of his own wife.

Everything just bottles up and I don't know how to let go.

My mother told me she would talk to me when she is home and I am kind of scared she is gonna kick me out of the house again and I am so, so tired of everything. But it's okay. I'll get out of this.

Guess I just need to put all my shit together, get a job and keep going. It's not like she has the balls to kick me out of the house. Right? my birthday is close though! another day closer to death, yay 👹👹!! and I'm also getting a drivers license, courtesy of my grandma! she always gave the best gifts, even if she sometimes is.. well. You know, family. Everything's gonna be just fine. Everything's gonna get better, I'll just work and try everything I can (that is, if someone finally hires me cause damn, I've been loking for a job for months). I can do this. Or at least, I hope so.

Well, I'm not feeling like if I am going to explode now! I mean still I do, kind of, but not as much, even it it's still there. Guess talking about this really helps after all! have a good night, pal. You know, you don't have to answer. You can just leave this hanging around if you wish, or delete it. It's not a big deal, you don't need to bother yourself with this kind of stuff after how kind and attentive you've been. Take care!

Hello, honey, I'm sorry I took a while to answer you, it's been a busy few days.

But let me tell you one thing first, I wish with all my heart that I could give you a hug right now, genuinely, I just want to hold you and tell you everything is gonna be okay. So imagine I'm giving you a big hug right now, okay? <3

This situation with your friends genuinely breaks my heart, because I've been there, I know how you feel. I've had, and still have, so many friendship that meant the world to me, only for me to realize later that I'm just an afterthought to them. And it hurts, it hurts a lot. There's nothing worse than loving someone and feeling like not even a fraction of that love is being returned to you.

I'm sorry this is happening to you, honestly no one should have to go through something like that. Friendships are not meant to hurt. But I know that, eventually, you'll find someone who appreciates you the way you deserve.

I'm also so sorry about your mentor, I've lost family to cancer and it is such a horrible disease, it's something I wouldn't wish for anyone to go through. Again, feel yourself hugged by me.

And about your uncle. For me, that kind of thing is simply unforgivable, nothing less. I would never be able to see past it. So don't feel bad if you can't forgive him either, and don't feel bad for feeling disgusted at what he did; any sensible person would feel disgusted. It is not your obligation to forgive him, much less accept what he did. Though I understand the struggle, especially if he was someone you looked up to. I'm so sorry you're going through this.

Lastly, you're not dumb, you're not pathetic. You're someone who's going through so much shit they don't deserve to go through, and yet you're doing a damn good job of handling it.

Everything will get better, I promise you.

As always sweetheart, I'm here whenever you need to talk. Know that there's someone out there who cares about you and loves you very much; and that's me. <3

#ask

11 notes · View notes

fandomregression · 2 years ago

Note

There’s nothing better than something talking about what makes them happy, so my request is for u to go on a very long rant about your most favorite character. I wanna know all of your headcanons - 🐭the mouse in your oatmeal🐭

omg i honestly couldn't tell you who my most favorite character is just because it is constantly cHANGING so like?? i'm honestly not sure how to answer this so take this weird lil ramble ;;

sO i've been trying to figure out of i tend to gravitate towards a certain character type when it comes to regression headcanons. bc i do think there's a pattern of what characters i (and most of the fandom agere community lbr) tend to gravitate towards in recruitment for the Babey Army

right now my absolute fAVE is kevin wtnv (curses that he doesn't have a last name) because he is just so???? sO???? 🥰 y'know?? like he is a character you can really sink into and dissect his brain and figure out what would benefit him and how his trauma effects him yknow

also. because i'm apparently a podcast person now. jon sims is BABY i listened to a guest for mr spider today and you cannot tell me this poor boy had a good childhood his parents are dead and he was raised by a grandma that didn't want to raise him and didn't know how to handle him (because he's autistic)

i can sEE the similarities in these two in certain ways but then there's the other characters i hc as regressors like we've got 1) robin buckley 2) mal 3) hunter 4) denki kaminari 5) akiza izinski

sooOOOO i don't see a pattern ajsdlfjakfg like these are the characters that every version of them that lives in my head is a regressor

wait akiza is has horrifying powers that caused destruction and almost killed everyone she loves when she was a lil kid hmmm

i think my type is autistics who deserve to murder a few ppl as a treat and then go tell all their stuffies how much they love them 🥰 jfaksldjfaklgjasjdklfjsdk

i hope this was enjoyable in some way haha idk!! my faves are always changing and i rlly like dissecting stuffs an looking at the reasons for why i hc some characters more easily than others and ahhh yeah!!

#scooby shush

8 notes · View notes

william-t-sickofyourshit · 1 year ago

Text

Charlotte observed with a smile how caring Sebastian was towards her grandson, how affectionate. He held him, reassured him, comforted him, and she could see William welcomed it. It was so very sweet. Sebastian spoke first, with appreciation thanking her for how she handled this, meanwhile William was still wiping his tears and nose in a tissue that Sebastian handed him earlier. Charlotte of course told them that they don’t have to say more if they don’t want to, but she wished that they would, actually. This was a big deal, and clearly meant a lot to her grandson, and she simply wanted to know. Sebastian commented jokingly that apparently they weren’t as unsuspicious as they assumed, and it made William snort a little in laughter too. Emotions were just overflowing.

“Ah haha, no you weren’t…” Charlotte chuckled too. “And it was actually James who noticed first, and brought it up to me. Then, I started making sense of some things I noticed myself too.” She mentioned. Which was another revelation – apparently James was in on this as well. “In the end, we both decided that it’s simply unfair that you have to hide and you don’t feel completely comfortable here at the estate. Cue my talk with William yesterday evening.” She explained briefly. “I left the decision to you, ultimately, but I’m glad you chose to share this all with me. I’m very happy for both of you.”

At that point, William finally swallowed all of his tears, and was only sniffling a little bit, but otherwise he was smiling. Sebastian still had his arm wrapped around him, and William was leaning against him gently. It felt so good to finally do that sort of things openly. “No more secrets.” He said softly. So it seemed that even though grandma wasn’t pressing to know more, William actually wanted to tell her. “You can ask about anything, grandma. You deserve to know after I spent so much time hiding this from you and lying.” He hummed, clearly feeling bad about it.

But Charlotte reassured him right away, said that she understands and isn’t holding this against him. He had his reasons. But well, of course since she was now given permission, she obviously had some questions she wanted to ask.

“So… since when are you two a couple? Oh I do adore a good love story! Tell me how did it start?” Charlotte clapped her hands a little, cutely excited for a little gossip.

For I have sinned...

The principal cleared his throat, eyes scanning the notes that he had wrote down before this meeting. It already lasted an hour, and the teachers gathered in the faculty room were becoming restless and bored. But indeed there were some things to discuss, with the concert that the senior class was supposed to perform at the end of the semester, and with recent staff changes.

William glanced down at his watch, sighing softly. His class was starting in 15 minutes, so at least, whether the meeting will be done soon or not, he will get to excuse himself. He looked out of the window, his mind wandering. Principal’s voice turned into white noise in the background. It was a pleasant day, late summer. But William was looking forward to a slightly cooler weather. Wearing all black could really be bothersome at times.

“And lastly, I am pleased to announce that we have finally found replacement for the violin teacher. Dear Mr Tanaka, may he rest in peace, was with us for so many years that I’ve been concerned we won’t be able to find someone as good as to fill this position.” the principal spoke. “But Mr… Michaelis, was highly recommended to me, and he indeed has impressive references. He will be starting this week, so please welcome him warmly once he will arrive. Ah yes… about that. He will arrive today at noon, I need someone to pick him up from the train station and bring over for the tour around the school. Any volunteers?”

William was barely listening, and definitely not paying much attention. He glanced at his watch again, and saw that it was time to leave, as his class was about to start. He raised his hand to excuse himself, and little did he know, he just volunteered.

“Father William! Excellent!” the principal exclaimed. “Just don’t be late, the train arrives at noon.”

“Train…?” William questioned, raising his brow. He had a feeling he was missing something…

***

Right after the meeting, William had to run for the class, so he had little time to clarify what exactly he had volunteered for. He was a piano teacher in this Music Academy, but also he served as a priest in local church. Well respected, and rather liked. So when he later found out it was about the new violin teacher, he didn’t refuse. Who, other than himself, would be a better choice to introduce a newcome to their community?

So even though he raised his hand by accident, he accepted this fate.

After classes, at noon, William took a taxi and drove to the train station, to pick up their new teacher. Wearing black trousers, and a black shirt with a thin tie, was absolutely dreadful in this weather, so William quickly found shelter under the roof of the station platform, that provided some shade.

The train had just arrived. William had no idea how Mr Michaelis looked like, but he figured he will just look for someone carrying a violin case with them.

He was in for a bit surprise.

@crazyvik97

#for i have sinned

15K notes · View notes

invisiblegarters · 1 year ago

Text

Dangerous Romance Ep 12 - Finale

I am never going to get over how casually Thai dramas treat gun violence. Someone always seems to be brandishing a gun or getting shot. Maybe it's just the dramas I watch.

I do kind of love how the scholarship kiddos are just...friends with the richie rich's now. Even last ep they were all sitting together at lunch even though there was no real reason to - it wasn't like Kang or Sailom were around to make them.

Also hilarious how I keep thinking Papang is gonna be evil in these dramas and he's...not. I did it in OF too, but Daddy Dan was just sweet and awkward and looking for a romantic partner in the wrong fucking place (don't fuck your emotionally unavailable employees guys it rarely works out). And Saifah might have talked his clients into giving him prezzies but he's really not that bad at all.

Why is JJ giving all the exposition? Also, why did I never bother learning his character's name?

You know, this show keeps trying to make me care about things I really don't care about, what with the sad strings and the slow motion stuff. But I still don't care, show.

Aw, the Sailom and Saifah reunion was really cute, though.

Okay, the banner at school thing was genuinely funny. Seriously, Kang?

Saifah you simp.

Huh. Okay, then.

Aw dad showed up to cheer Kang on. Of course he did (this is not a complaint).

Loing forever at these rich boys just being like "I will attach myself to this boy and follow them to the ends of the earth." Ray 🤝 Kang, for real. But I don't think that Sand and Sailom are much alike, because I think Sailom is actually serious about not letting Kang pay for things, while I'm pretty sure Sand is just fine being Ray's sugar baby now that they're dating (and so long as Ray uses his money and not his dad's), haha.

Oh. JJ is Max. And is apparently now BFFs with Auto, because okay why not. They probably bonded over the weirdness of both of the other dudes in their friend group wanting to bone each other.

Lol and both the girls will be in London. Where they can totally hook up on more equal footing (no I don't want to hear any discourse about it thank you I just want to imagine them being very cute together in London).

"You were horrible at the sport you were trying to play but really good at grabbing balls" - witness Guy's flirting skills guys. But Nawa's into it so okay, rock on boys.

SMOOOOCH!

Pffft @ Grandma adopting Sailom. Like we didn't all know this was coming.

"I know I stand before you today because I am the son of a school sponsor" - I think it, he says it.

Why on earth is he making this speech all about himself? This is why we let people who deserve it speak. What even is this? No, no I don't like it get it away no.

Although, ha, Saifah being the only one who had no clue that Kang and Sailom were together was funny and on brand tbh.

Lol are they gonna do an Eclipse thing and send them to different universities (although I think we all know that Aye is just gonna wind up following Akk wherever he goes - thus completing the rich boy "I will follow him to the ends of the earth" trifecta)? *hums "I Will Follow Him" and yes it is the version from Sister Act what of it?*

youtube

I do not think that they are actually going to make it so they don't go to the same uni, tbh. And if they do Kang will just find a way to get in there anyway.

Lol and I'm right. And now they're frolicking amongst windmills. It is pretty cute even if I'm still not really feeling them as a couple.

Eh no I am sorry I get what you're doing with the bookends, show, but you didn't do the work to earn this monologue. You made several attempts but they never landed because you didn't commit and you brushed off all the really good stuff that you had to say about class for hijinks and sports and inexplicably forgiving horrendous bullying to have lukewarm kisses with the bully. So I am not giving this to you, sorry.

Welp there we go. The end.

...wait, are they really doing escort roleplay?

What is WITH these boys getting into tubs with clothes on? First Ray and Sand with the boxers and now Sailom climbing in in trousers and dress shirt. Like what. What even. I was actually kind of feeling them for once and then they had to kill it with that. Gosh it must be so uncomfortable.

Look at this happy horseshit I can't even. This is too funny.

I dunno, man. Once I stopped wanting this show to be something it wasn't it was easier to get through, but Sailom and Kang never really landed for me and I never did quite manage to get over how fast they got over the bullying. I feel like they took it too far to then just have everyone be chill because umbrellas and windmills and love, but that might just be me.

I feel like this show opened up a lot of cans but then just kind of left them open without doing anything, just letting the worms tumble out and scoot around until they died (possibly of boredom). It wasn't bad, it just didn't really land for me at all. Final verdict 7/10. It was fine but it's going on the "won't watch again and will probably forget about it in an hour" pile. Sorry. On the bright side it wasn't offensive enough that I'm gonna be mad about it forever. It's just...there. I still like Perth and Chimon and I will still tune in for their next projects, but yeah. Hopefully they give them something better than this next time.

I still can't quite believe Marc and Pawin stole the show for me (them and Euro Thanaset as Auto. I loved that dude), but here we are.

#dangerous romance #finale #Youtube

1 note · View note

othiberry · 1 year ago

Text

Letter to my [unborn] Son III

I’m pretty sure when your Mom will read these words, she will have some type of way. She will probably be astonished and even mad at the way I’m talking to you. - So sincere and without any shame or whatsoever. And frankly, man to man, we don’t need it.

Tho you’re my son and younger than me, one day you’ll become your own man. And I’ll have to respect that. But I understand your Mom, I get why she likes to be so overprotecting when it comes to you.

You’re perfect, you deserve to be protected from this evil world.

There are some things I really want to share with you, but don’t think I’m a preacher or something like that, I’m just a regular dude. Though your grandma always has said that one day I’ll be a preacher. But preaching to you is also good enough for me.

You know, all of us are addicted to some things. You’ll also have your addictions and vices, but always try to control them and never let them control you and your life. But I’d like for you to have no addictions or vices, but this life has to be lived and you’ll need all the lessons.

Son, I’m not perfect, but I’ll always try to teach you the good and the right things of life. Like every dad, I’ll try to show you the way in this life.

I want you to be fearless and courageous when it comes to love. Try it, don’t be afraid of it. I haven’t even met you yet, still I feel like you’ll succeed at everything you’ll do. And I believe in that, ´cause I will always believe in you.

I don’t want you to be afraid of dreaming, and end up never trying.

Don’t listen to people that tell you that your dreams are way too big or unreachable. That’s not true, I never listened to any dreamkillers and here I am, doing things I never thought I’d do.

I want you to never fear anything, or anyone. But always respect people, and follow your dreams.

Never stop moving forward, just like Keri Hilson, love and life will knock you down something. But always remember, in God you’ll always find your strength. Cause you can do anything, cause He strengthens you.

You know, people will always tell you that you’ve to be yourself. But don’t forget that being yourself shouldn’t mean being unhappy. Cause then you’re not being yourself. They’ll also tell you that the enemy of the black man, is the black man himself. And they’re right, we are our own enemy. But that doesn’t mean that the white man is better than you.

You’ll have dreams, dreams so big that some nights, you wouldn’t stop thinking of them.

You’ll want to change the world, and you’ll have enough time thinking of how to. Cause while being young, you’ll have nothing but time and imaginations. But don’t get lost trying to change the world or people, and forget to change and better yourself.

We are Christians, we don’t judge people. We pray for them, cause we’re not better than them.

I want you to have a faith so big that you’ll believe in miracles, just like your granny and I do. Nothing is impossible, cause we serve and pray a Mighty God that knows no impossibility. Just believe, and you’ll see.

Life is also about timing, when it’s time for something else in your life, you will feel it.You’ve to know when to move on to other things, don’t get stuck up like your old me did sometimes. I never knew when to move on, sometimes I stayed in situations that I should’ve left a long time ago.

Haha, you know, when you’ll ask a girl out, remember that you’re the gentleman. Always make her feel good and always, always pay for the [first] date. And always remember that when she says “nothing” when you ask her “what’s wrong”, just know there’s something. Girls are like that, initially she will come around and tell you what’s wrong. Just give her time & make sure you still got her, even when she’s mad or tripping.

Always love and respect your Mom, cause she’s an angel and she has changed my life. She loves us and loves you very much. She knows you better than you know yourself. And I don’t even know your favorite color, question, do you even have one? - We’ll just pretend that you don’t, cause it’s not that important, right?

Always do things with love. Don’t ever forget that it is love that opens way more doors than hate. Your fear of loving shouldn’t stop you from opening up you heart. Cause fear is love’s biggest enemy. - Remember, you’re courageous and fear shouldn’t be in your dictionary.

Cry when it is needed, don’t ever be embarrassed to show your emotions.

Be happy, open up your heart and accept the love and care you receive from genuine people. Don’t question their love, you’ll know when it is fake and when it is not.

Make mistakes, learn form them. You’re not perfect, don’t try to be.

Again don’t try to be perfect, be happy. Don’t try to control things, let The Almighty do that for you. - All you’ve to do is trust in Him, and you’ll be set for ever.

My heart.

My baby boy.

My beloved son.

My cherished child.

-Your Dad

0 notes

caxsthetic · 4 years ago

Text

Pampering Day

Type: Advertisement (Headcanons)

Cast: Miya Atsumu | Miya Osamu | Suna Rintarou | Kita Shinsuke

Storyline: All about how they take care of themselves. What's the impact of your existence when it comes to them pampering themselves? What they do with their pocket money?

Genre: Highschool Romance, Slice of Life

— Miya Atsumu —

This man surprisingly cares so much about his physical appearance, even though he doesn't care less about girls or boys who fawn over him.

When he buy skincare, he do it for himself. When he buy all of those hair products, he use it for himself. He wanted to look perfect because it makes him feel good. Even though he is already perfect.

You always love to feel his hair tickling your cheek when he hugs you from behind, it's so soft and somewhat fluffy. And he knows how much you like it, hence the reason why he moves his head affectionately like a golden retriever sometimes.

He buys everything monthly, and since he is in a relationship with you, he always takes you to the mall and ends up having a date.

At the end of the date, there will be maybe around three or four shopping bag at least. Yes, all belong to him. Either it's for new stuff that a clerk promote, or stuff that becomes his must to buy.

Once the two of you are home, no matter how tired it is, he always excuses himself first to the bathroom. He had this headband that he wears before cleaning up, customised one with "Top Japan Setter" written on the side.

It takes him like maybe around fifteen minutes, humming happily while he cleanse his face as he thinks about what will he do with you until the moon replace the sun. He always has this giddy smile, something that shown when he think of you, and some cool volleyball thingy.

He is surprisingly easy to be "scammed", just some word about how magical the product could be for his skin and hair, he is hooked. If he has more money, he will buy two or three of them at once.

Sometimes a week after that, he will whine. He will complain on your ear about how the product is not like how it promised. And as a good lover you are, you will calm him down, recommending him what he should do with the failed product.

He is so grateful to have you, because you are always willing to listen. And even though somedays his hair will smell different because of it, you never complain and the two of you will just cuddle like what you always do.

"Thank you, I may not saying that a lot of times and I can be such a douchebag. But I mean it, thank you, for dealing with all of my shit." "It's nothing, Atsumu..." "No, it's everything."

— Miya Osamu —

Haha, haha. This man doesn't care shit.

He loves to buried his head at the crook of your neck when the two of you have some movie night or something.

His hair is harsh. It may look soft when everyone sees it, but the look can be deceiving. Once it makes contact with your skin, sometimes you grimace from how spiky it feels.

Yet once again you never complain, don't have the heart to do it as he nom on some snacks with eyes focusing on the screen.

Every new month where he gets the money from his parents, he always call you and brings you to every new restaurant or places that he already takes note inside his head.

His pocket money will be gone in a day, usually half of the money will go to his stomach (and yours since he always wants to be the one who pays for the food).

One day you see his original hair starts to grow, so you tell him that you want to be the one who retouches his hair. He hum and just nod at this, believing in you 100%

The next day, you come in full equipment. His favourite colour, the bleaching—and a bottle of olaplex that make you broke (but then again it feels like a self-indulgence for you since it can help his hair to be a lot softer)

When you are done with his hair, he touches his hair, playing with it as his eyes fill with wonder. He looks so excited, asking you things about how can you make it feels like his hair never bleached and dyeed.

You tell him things about how destructive the bleaching for his hair. His hair is black for god sake and it needed at least three times of bleaching so the silver hair colour can penetrate inside his hair.

You give him a special shampoo and conditioner, adding some hair mask to his routine, some hair vitamin to give more strength.

He is so happy to know that and goes to the bathroom to save all of the stuff that you give him. But he pouts all of a sudden, realising that it must hurt you every time he cuddles up on your neck.

You are currently playing with your phone on the couch when he hugs you from behind, whispering on your ear about how much he loves you, saying thank you and compliment your action.

The two of you are so hooked for each other, and he promises you some onigiri every now and then to thank you for just being his lover.

"I can't believe you never complain about it." "Well, why should I? It's not that hurt. Uncomfy yes, but not hurt." "Dear God, what did I do to deserve you."

— Suna Rintarou —

He buys things so easily and his room literally fills with lots of high-end products.

At the outside, it may look like he doesn't care about his physical appearance that much. But oh boy there are reasons why his skin is like it made of glass.

He is a crazy money spender. When the two of you having an impromptu date, every stuff or products that catch his eyes, all of a sudden it will be wrapped with the luxurious package and fall on his hand.

Suna doesn't even think about either he will use the product or not. As long as he thinks it's good, no matter if he already has some at home, he will buy it—for stock purpose he say.

At the first and second date, you just go along with whatever that he wants to buy. After all his parents give him the money, and it's his freedom to choose what he wants to do with said cash.

But when you go to his house and use his bathroom, you found out there are like fifteen to twenty products that are expired there. And ny that fact, you snap.

He is sleepy after the date with you, begging for you to be his pillow. A smile grazed his face when you are out from the bathroom, now wearing his sweatshirt and boxer—doesn't even notice the discontented look that you throw at his direction.

Patting the side of his bed, he wants you to lay there with him. You know well that he is much more relaxed when he had his arms around your torso. So you wait until maybe a few minutes before you share what bothering your mind.

He had his arms topple on top of you, with his head resting on your chest. He always feels safe and sound, to hear your heartbeat. But somehow, he can feel how your body is a little bit tense than usual.

You are surprised when he suddenly asks about what is bothering your mind. You are a little bit hesitant at first since you know too well that he waste that stuff possibly by accident, but then again it's for his own good.

With your fingers gracing his soft hair (that when you think of it is a lot softer than yours), he listens to every syllable that comes out from your lips. He nods here and there. And when you are done, you are only answered with silence.

At first, you think that you mess up, that you become annoying and it's not your place to pry his life. But then he lifts his head to look at you, a gentle expression appears on his face.

"I think I need to keep you in my life." "Aye, what with the sudden confession?" "You keep me grounded, and I really need someone who look upon me with no other intention except for my own wellbeing."

— Kita Shinsuke —

Kita spends all of his pocket money with the perfect count. He knows well what he needs to do with the money even long before he gets it.

He set everything part by part. This amount for stationary, that amount for hand sanitizer, another amount for some skincare and hair routine that you tell him.

Last but not least though, of course some other amount to take you out on a date and to buy some stuff that his grandma has been eyeing and wants.

Before he's in a relationship with you, he just buys the basic stuff that is just right from his eyes. Like facial foam, sunscreen, deodorant—clean, simple, enough.

But ever since he dates you, he is sometimes a little bit nervous. You are the first relationship, the first time he actually falls in love with someone.

From everyone on the volleyball team, he is highly aware that he is considered as someone that is not stand out, someone—that some bitchy ass students said; not attractive.

So he recounts everything, asking Atsumu and Suna who he knows always pack a lot of things (skincare, perfume, haircare that always make them having the most stuff) when they have some camps or tournament.

Sunarin being your closest friend of yours from out of all of them, inform you about how his captain seems to lose in thought. And some other time after that, he even sees that the stoic man playing some advertisement video for some 10 step skincare routine.

So one day, you decided to confront your boyfriend. The two of you just walk side by side in silence, enjoying the calm breeze with the sun starting to set on the horizon.

You flicker your eyes back and forth between Kita and the road ahead. He glances towards you too, realising your look with his usual expression plaster on his face.

You jolt when he suddenly interlace his hand with yours, thumb caressing the back of your hand as if reassuring you that you can say anything to him. So you parted your lips, telling him about yours and Suna's.

He is silent for a moment before suddenly letting out a sigh. He tells you about his insecurity, about how he feels like he should take care of himself more than he used to.

It pains you to know that he has been having this poisonous thought inside his head. You let him talk and explain everything, and you wait for him to calm down first before you tell him what you want him to hear.

You tell him how he is through your eyes, how perfect he is that you will never trade the affection that he ever gives to you with anything. You say it all with a soft and genuine look.

You heard from Sunarin how your boyfriend cried when he received the captain's jersey, and now, you can see tears prickle at the corner of his eyes.

"It's just, I never been in a relationship before, and I don't ever want to see you leave." "I would never, I promise I would never." "I believe in you. Thank you."

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* ༶• ┈┈ ⛧ ┈ ♛ ♛ ┈ ⛧ ┈┈ •༶ *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

Tagged Lovelies:

@muffins-puffins @vlovers-world @blacckdiamondposts @atsunflower @miyatsunami @iwaixiumi @hihiq @the-fandom-ness @quirksandbreaths @murasakibaraa @verbluehte @simp4tsukkii @ladyalicevii @evermorehaikyuu @clowninfortodoroki @koutaroulovebot @fitriiaw @mistypoison @aquariarose @greenleaf-fantasy @t-amajiki @kuraomi @haikyuuwithadashofart @starbybokuto @shiningstar-byulxx @nerdyphantomlady @raequii @akasuns @sunaschupet @macaronnv @spicyfoodboi

#haikyuu #haikyuu headcanons #haikyuu x reader #kita shinsuke fluff #kita shinsuke imagine #kita shinsuke x reader #kita shinsuke #miya atsumu imagine #miya atsumu x reader #atsumu miya #miya atsumu #miya osamu imagine #haikyuu miya osamu #miya osamu x reader #osamu miya #rintarou suna #suna rintarou imagine #suna rintarou x reader #suna rintarou

303 notes · View notes

zhowongli · 4 years ago

Text

hello! i started a new thread because the other one (+ this one) got really long, so sorry! but i guess this is my love letters to you guys because you’ve made my tumblr experience so, so much better && i’m grateful for all of you guys + all of my mutuals and followers!!

first of all, @himawari-senpaii thank you so so much for your kind words! meggi, i love your sunflower motif because it suits you so well! sunflowers make me smile whenever i see them, and it really brings me so much joy to see you on my dash/notifs. your tags are always so fun and sweet. thank you for tagging me in this 🥺

@animoozies connie, where do i even start? you were my very, very first tumblr mutual on this account! i’m so thankful you reached out to me before, and you’re still checking up on me even now. words can’t describe how much i adore you + how appreciative of you! when i see you on my dash with your stories, i always end up cackling because you’re so fun. idk how you do it working all those hours + going to nursing school, but you is a mf boss ass queen!!

@hoekaashi ash, my queen!! my tag for you is my day is blessed because ash ✨exists✨ because that’s honestly how i feel about you. i am truly blessed with your kindness, your humor, your friendship, you. thank you for always keeping me company through our struggles in pharmacy school! you are one of the realest people i know, and i feel so honored that you always send me random kenma pics & fics you think i’d like 🥺

@kanao annette, the other half of my soul, my whole heart, my literal soul sister. you are one of the biggest blessings i’ve received this year, and i honestly don’t know where i would be without you listening to my dumb shit and supporting me through all my mess LOL. thank you for validating me all the time, even if it’s just stupid stuff like enabling me to buy all the random stuff that i’ve been thinking about LMAO. i love how we are always ✨speaking✨ and ✨manifesting✨ good things in our futures together. i literally feel like i can talk about any and everything with you, and i love that about us 🥺 i am manifesting that beach vacation 2021 for us, okay!!! 💖

@sapphitedreams leo, my cutest menace in the kitchen 💖 thank you for reaching out to me when i was too shy to reach out to you uuuu. you’re such a chaotic calm in my life, and i love your energy. i am constantly in awe with how adorable, supportive, and creative you are! even though you bully me sometimes and only make things for characters’ birthdays, you are so so talented and it floors me every time i see your creations because they are so amazing idk how they’re real. i hope you are able to get some rest even if you have to work during your break (& i hope you don’t accidentally fall during work anymore smh HAHAH)!

@onefortyninecm danielle!! my love!! i know i mention this before, but i am always so so inspired by you. you’re so tiny, but you have such a big heart and soul. you’re so beautiful inside and out + your humor is god tier. i’m so glad you were the very first person i’ve ever commissioned from (& spiraled me into comissioning indulgent kenma art HAHAHA), and i’m still amazed by your talent and kindness every time you post something new omg. i still can’t believe you DREW ON YOUR PHONE what the heck!! you’re so talented it’s crazy HAHA. i’m always thinking fondly of you + dandy wedding in a pumpkin patch 2021, okay thanks.

@p-irozhki rissa!! i am so blessed with all the gifs you create and all your content on my dash! whenever i think of you, i think about all the smol icons you use because to me, you = cuteness = i wanna hug you so much!!! i think i already said it, but i’m always so thankful when you read all my self-indulgent fanfics and leave kind comments on them 😭 thank you for culturing me about mangoes HAHAHA. there’s never a bad time with you, and i’m thankful we got to meet this year!

@hoshino-a lena lena! you actually have so much bde that i am in constant awe by you. you are such a baddie & i have this like clear imagine in my head of you with crisp and clean vibes + the skies from your pfp on discord, hehe. i love you and all your brain rots about your exes. at this point, every time i see semi, my first thought is “ah it’s lena’s ex” and whenever i hear some sad song, i would be like “omg it’s lena ab her ex semi eita” LMFAOIOAGJDLA. i love talking to you because your energy is just immaculate + i just love your presence 💖 also please get some sleep because do you even sleep 😭

@myelocin nic!! you’ve painted my world in so many iridescent shade so life, i can’t even begin to describe how much you mean to me. you works are just so beautiful so imagine how much i shrieked when i saw you followed me LMFAOOADIGDALJ i love that your blog is your safe space because it has become a place of comfort for me as well (and i’m going to miss you so much when you leave 😭😭). your makki brain rot is so strong, and sometimes i think about makki and you making dinner and teasing each other and throwing flour at each other or something idk. this is nic’s world now and we are all living in it tbh.

@tsu-kiss nina!! you are someone i find such comfort in. i’m not really sure if that even makes sense LOL. but your blog and you are a source of comfort for me. in my head, you have such an older sister vibe even though i’m older than you LMAOOADGHDAKJ. i hope life is treating you well because you deserve all the best!! seeing you thrive makes my heart so full 🥺 i love you so much!!

@souheii lisa!! i kid you not, the first time you dropped an ask in my ask box, my heart skipped a beat because you told me you love me and i love you and you are so cute and i cri!!!! i know we don’t talk often, but every time i see you on my dash or in my notifs or when we do talk, it’s like a little shot of serotonin every time :”) thank you for being such a lovely human being mrs. iwaizumi hajime, 27, althetic trainer😭

@ultkags cas!! my first child 💖 i know you’re on a hiatus right now because school really, really sucks BUT you are seriously one of my biggest blessings. you are literally my ray of sunshine because every time i talk to you, i gain so much warmth and energy from you. every time i see your edits, it absolutely AMAZES me because i literally don’t know how i am able to see all your edits FOR FREE?? all your thoughts behind the composition and symbolism for each piece is CRAZY. please remember that i’m always your biggest fan + i love you so so much. please take care and remember to drink water and get some rest!! your grandma is always here to send you love + forehead kisses because this grandma can’t bake :(

@u-make-my-heart-tsumtsum ree!! hi, i know we’ve only started talking recently but i love how open and warm you are. our love was so strong that even tumblr tried to stop us 😭 conversations with you are always so easy and lovely, and you are just such a cool person!? i love reading all your thoughts (& i can’t wait to dive into your masterlist after school ends because we live for fluffy tsumu content 😭). i’m not sure why you even follow me, but i adore you so much!!

@neonghxst el, where do i even begin!! you are such a lovely person, and i literally have no other words to say because you always leave me speechless. your writing is so so gorgeous, and you are so so beautiful. i love reading all your stories because they truly leave an everlasting impact on me, and i love reading your interactions + just seeing you on my dash. you are so thoughtful, and you take care of everyone around you so well. i hope that you are also giving yourself the same treatment because you deserve all the best as well! remember to drink water in between your coffees and get some rest as you go into your final 2 weeks of the semester!!

@und3lla maliha! hi love! i know we haven’t spoken much or in a while, but i really do always think of you randomly. you were one of the first mutuals i made && you are such a sweet soul. i love how every time we talk, it really fills me up with happiness. thank you for just being such a lovely person && you truly are one of the softest people i’ve met. thank you <3

@deadontheinsidebut angel, my dumb ham, my queen, my hoe (heaven on earth), my everything. i know you are also on a semi-hiatus right now because everything that’s going on, but i hope you are properly taking care of yourself >:( i’m always here to remind you to drink some water in between your coffees and teas and to GET SOME REST. you are so so driven, and i really admire how open and friendly you are. you truly are your namesake because you are literally an angel, and i always feel so blessed to be in your presence (even if you bully me sometimes for being a boomer 😔). words can’t describe how much i love you and care about you && i hope that you are able to find what you’re looking for during your break! 💖

@rumprich ananya! hello! i am so thankful to see you and all your content on my dash. you have so much creativity, and all your edits are so aesthetically pleasing to look at? like it’s so light + pretty!! i’m so so grateful that we are mutuals somehow because ahhh i really don’t deserve you. you are so adorable, and i truly am blessed to see your presence!

@yuki-souma vee! i know we only started talking very very recently, but you are so much fun to talk to! i love how diverse our conversations are, and i love that we have similar favorites, and even when we don’t, it’s always a fun conversation that i look forward to! i love how open and inviting you are, and i’m really grateful that we are mutuals + i love and appreciate you so so much!

@owlywrites owly! hello! you are seriously one of the most supportive souls i’ve met on this website. your kindness and drive to learn always leaves me speechless because you’re so amazing. thank you for being so kind to me, and i hope you extend that same kindness to yourself! don’t be so hard on yourself and remember to take breaks and take care too. you are such a beautiful soul, and i hope you’ll remember that i’m always here to support you!!

@graphicstills-in-motion hi arianne! thank you so so much for always being so kind to me. i don’t know what i did in life to deserve you, but i must have done something right to have someone so kind like you in my life! thank you for being such a sweet soul + always boosting everyone around you up. your kindness is definitely contagious! i love seeing your edits and reading our conversations because there are always so many thoughts put in. thank you <3

@applepienation justine! thank you so much for always checking in on me whenever i post random shit on my dash. i really do appreciate you and all that you do for not just me, but also for everyone around you. you are such a ray of sunshine, and i’m so thankful that you’re in my life! i know uni is crazy for you right now, but i hope you’re still taking time to take care of yourself! sending you lots of love and positive energy!!

@touyax drake! hi love. i absolutely LIVE for your tags LMAOOADJGALD. they are literally my thoughts but you just typed them out HAHAH. i’m so thankful that i get to see your beautiful content on my dash, and i’m always in awe by all your edits! thank you for always being such a fun person + never leaving me feeling like a fool whenever i post ask games LOL. i love and appreciate you so much! 💖

@kagehjna ilayda! my kagehina supplier 🥺🥺 i love seeing your presence on my dash because you truly post all the best things! you are such a lovely person + i love reading your tags HAHA. you are truly a joy and we will definitely have matching kagehina icons one day okay 😭😭 12/7 is finally here/coming SO I AM SO EXCITED FOR YOU!!! thank you for always blessing me <3

@sadaharus hi mei! you are literally the definition of softness to me. all your content and edits are just so soft and beautiful, and i love seeing everything you post. you are my main gintama supplier HAHA. i really appreciate how kind you are + how you’re always so sweet to me. 🥺 i know it’s kinda funny how i started following you because of a random ask game, but i’m so so glad i did because i always feel so thankful you’re here!

@fake-charliebrown charlie! my little sprout babie!! i have so much admiration for you because you have so so much talent! your style is so distinctive, and i love that!! it’s so soft + vibey, and i’m honestly so so amazed by it all. not to mention, you have the best haikyuu thoughts! thank you for sharing all of that with me! i’m thankful for you, thank you <3

@itachihaa ay! my froggy princess 🥺 thank you for always being so kind to me + having the patience to deal with how slow i am to responding!! i’m really appreciative of you always because you make/have so much beautiful content and you are so so sweet as well!? and the way you call me miss starlight 🥺 that makes me so soft like!! uuu i love you.

@stardust-make-a-wish star! you are so so adorable!! i LOVE reading your tags because they make me feel so fuzzy and soft but also relatable HAHA. your presence is such a joy + thank you for always interacting with me even though i just spam random stuff LMAO. i love how thoughtful your answers are + how much you love cake/sweets (very suiting because you are so sweet 🥺). thank you for being interested in me even though i am the one asking you questions!

@karasu-hoes daisy! hello! i have so much admiration for you because you have so much creativity and kindness! like your events are so cool and unique + your writing is so beautiful! i love reading your feral thoughts + all your work. i also really love reading your witching hours!!! thank you for blessing me with you 🥺 you are always so kind + i love how much you care about your friends and the people around you. i hope you’re taking care while renewing your teaching certifications! 💖

@frailuta nico! hello love! i know we haven’t really spoken before, but i just want to know i love you so much. you make the most beautiful gifs + i truly am in awe every time you post something. life is tough sometimes, but you are tougher! sending so so much love and positive energy to you + please remember to take care! <3

to all my mutuals and followers: thank you so so much for sticking with me and my mess of a blog. i honestly don’t really contribute much to anything, but i’m so thankful you guys are still here! thank you, thank you, thank you! i love and appreciate all of you guys + my ask box/messages are always open if you want/need someone to talk to 💖 thinking fondly of everyone today + so much love to you guys mwah mwah!

#text #this got really long but #i am really truly thankful for everyone of you #i have so so much love for you guys #sending all my love and positive energy to you guys #i'm so sorry sometimes i'm really slow at responding but #i really do think of you guys!!#love you all mwah mwah

93 notes · View notes

supercorp-hosie · 4 years ago

Text

My thoughts for legacies 3x13: I’ll try to put the point chronologically

1. When Kaleb blew the candle, I’m so confused because the first thing that comes to my head is: he’s blowing that because is daytime, but why put it so far from Cleo? Why use a candle when you have electricity? And apparently I’m a fool, because that’s how the confinement spell works duh! I only recalled that when Alaric blew it in the end. I’m so dumb lol.

2. I love that Kaleb is the first to seek Cleo out, wanted answers and ready to accept them. When he tries to comfort Cleo in her memories, that’s me too! But apparently being the badass she is, she immediately come up with the idea of replacing her grandma to go with Malivore.

3. Poor Cleo! My heart sores when it started with a little girl, just like with Finch. She’s a hero! She’s so brave! She’s a queen! And weirdly she likes frogs(or toads?) very much. I wonder why. And although she tried to kill Hope last episode, I never see her as a villain. Never for a second. Instead I’m impressed. Tbh I didn’t understand why she is always playing with clay/mud since the beginning of this episode. But after her backstory, I just feel sad and proud at the same time. Sad because it’s shaped from her painful time of enslavement. Proud because she’s using the thing she learned from it against Malivore as her weapon despite the painfulness. I remember she talked about her sister dying, but nothing about that occurs in the memories. Did she lie before or it’s just another thing that the writers forgot?

4. ‘Jonch’ is horrible! I prefer Finsie as the ship name. Why is their moment always so cringy? I get this second embarrassment from them a lot, mostly from Josie tho. I always felt there’s something lacking in Finsie, just like what I felt when Handon started it’s kind of sudden. Maybe because of my perception, I really didn’t know why Josie think Finch is hot. I have to learn how to appreciate her beauty. But goof news, I actually appreciated Finsie first kiss, because I see why they haven’t kiss before, and why they finally kiss. It’s cute and the sparkling, haha. Tbh I start to appreciate Finch’s beauty from the kissing scene angle. But this episode, again, I still feel cringy in most of the Finsie scenes. I have to put my palm on my head. Anyway, I enjoy the “girlfriend” scene tho, like Finsie starting to grow on me(again, the first time is their first kiss, hopefully no more cringy afterwards). It’s really good to see Josie happy. Btw, since Finch decided to enrol, will she be the new alpha now that she defeated Jed? That’s good for her, she finally has a pack and no longer lonely.

5. Along with Finsie scenes, does anyone realise there’s actually other students there? And there are actually other witches at the school?? I remembered that there’s like only four witches? Because Josie was the only witch at the school when Berbelang!Hope happened? Annnndddd! To that! Does anyone remember there’s this girl Gaby/Gabby? She’s also a witch, and she loves dnd like Wade? They can’t tease us with Penelope using her then just let her disappear?

6. Oh great there’s actually other wolves at the school. I’m starting to think Jed is the only wolf left (of course there’s Hope, but she’s tribrid). As much as I enjoy Finch being badass that she can stand beside Josie, I felt so sorry for Jed and his actor. He’s been there for 3 seasons and yet Finch get a backstory before him. He has none! The actor is great, look at the siren episode! He hardly gets any decent lines and scenes now. Instead, they make him looked useless, hard to be respectable. Like anyone can just harm his alpha reputation. Justice for Jed please. Oh and the fact that Finch got a backstory before Kaleb too? It’s unacceptable. They deserve more. Jed doesn’t even have a last name, my god! Anyway that doesn’t change the fact that I want to hug baby Finch so much bc she’s adorable!

7. With MG gone, Kaleb looks like the only vampire left in the school. I miss MG. What about Ethan?

8. Josie and Cleo finally met! I’m glad that she’s learned something from her too. I think it’s true that other kids never felt as easy as Josie at the school. They finally addressed it.

9. I’m frustrated that Hope never wanted answers from Cleo. The only friend that helped her grieve. But hey maybe she’s too hurt to be able to bear Cleo in her sight. But then again there’s the Landon problem, so she’s off with Landon again. Only taking to Landon the whole episode, being the only one that only talk to one person in the whole episode. Feel bad for her about this. Poor Hope.

10. I really feel bad for Landon, because there’s a lot of hardships to make him like that. Someone please give him hugs and a therapist. The show is doing a full cycle by stating what he’d done is just like what Hope did when she returned from Malivore. I understand why he kept himself away, but weirdly, the way the let those words out, it feels like he wants to get back at Hope when I think he wanted Hope’s understanding. Maybe he wanted both?

12. Someone told me that every 13th episode is the episode where Landon’s power are explored. I kind of agree with it now. Because he’s finally having the fighting skills that he’s longing now. Finally he can achieve his desires to physically fight alongside Hope. For what though, I don’t know, because in the case of supercorp, Lena never needed it physically to be Supergirl’s partner in saving the world, or of course to protect Kara. Glad for him, anyway, bc that’s what’s he wants. And the blow to the head? It’s awesome.

11. I can’t believe Landon is blaming Hope for not coming to save him sooner?! What the hell? What happened to “I’m going to be the one that always fight to find Hope”, idk whether I quoted it precisely, but the meaning is there. I am furious. Is this some sick drama that the show wants Landon to think that Hope was not coming to him because she had a perfect version of him?? That aside, when I see that Handon is going to fight together physically, I actually think the scene is good and they will overcome the blaming thing, and going to be a power couple. Just when I have that thought, Landon have to fucking throw the artifact towards Malivore(whether it is Malivore I’ll discuss afterwards, it’s contradictory)!! That’s such a stupid move! Where’s your brain? And it’s broken, oh god. And the show have to show Hope being so weak during the fight. I mean why? She’s a badass, why do they have to make her weak to glorify Landon?? They made her look useless. These things just really kill the budding Handon spirit in me. The show really knows how to make people resent Handon and Landon. Just please change the show name.

12. Anyway to be fair, Landon do care for Hope and do love her. Before, though I don’t think they are endgame quality, I think that if they do improve, Handon endgame is tolerable, acceptable. But now, I’m not so sure of that anymore. Other than the above mentioned points, Landon did leave Hope for a solid third time. Why the show have to establish that for Handon when their fans desperately defended Landon that he wasn’t always leaving. I mean I’ve seen Handon shippers fought really hard against the “Landon is always leaving Hope” argument. What a way to make a couple being endgame. In Chinese proverbs, there’s a thing for a third time. Like the three strikes law, I think? It says not to do anything or tolerate anything undesirable that has happened more than three times. So please do not make Handon together ever again. It’s an insult to Hope too.

13. To see it differently, poor Hope will finally have time out of Landon to think of herself and her future. We need to see her having her own storyline. So maybe we can see Hosie eventually? Sorry Finsie for anticipating your break up in the future. But please enjoy yourselves when Hope grows on her own, because Josie deserves a decent relationship on screen too. Hosie didn’t interact this episode, I’m sad.

14. I just can’t help but wonder why Alaric oversee the artifact being destroyed so easily. And when Josie introduces Finch, she deserves a decent conversation with the headmaster, really. Oh he’s an adult, be a responsible and respectable one, especially you’re Josie dad. Help her with her impression with her crush. Alaric really need help, we need another adult figure. It’s okay that’s not Caroline.

15. I kind of thinking that Landon and Cleo are shippable too when I know that they are leaving at the same time. Cleo being the sole reason to Landon existence is one of the reasons to ship them. She’s the one that tell Malivore he can make vessels and create legacy, that leads to Landon existing. Not to mention she did literally made Golem Landon by hand (we all know the thing that Hope made doesn’t have a body, so Cleo must have made his torso and limps right). Or maybe we prefer wandon endgame? Wade is precious too, he’s the one that point out Landon is not himself.

16. I’m so confused by this episode Malivore. I thought Cleo trapped him inside that monster Handon defeated this episode. But if it was trapped this long? How did the pit, Clarke and Landon even exist? Did Malivore escape from it?? It must have escaped.

17. In the promo for the next episode, we’re seeing Lizzie and Hosie interaction! I’m excited! I think maybe Josie will be the one that bring Hope out of the cult’s enchantment. What will happen? Maybe they will realise something or develop something towards each other? Anything hosie that MAKE SENSE please. Oh and Hizzie friendship/banters, and Lizzie suddenly being and “angel” will be so fun to watch. Finally, the trio!

18. I know it’s irrelevant but since I mentioned Clarke, I miss Holarke. I have some shippable thoughts about Finch and Penelope too. P is the she-devil in good girl attire; F looks like a bad girl but she’s good hearted. They are both fiery, imagine what they’ll be like when they’re together, erupting volcanoes?

19. Applause to Aria’s acting skill, this is like the eleventh role he’s played in legacies? Original Landon, Hope’s (subconscious) Landon, Landon’s (subconscious) Landon, Josie’s SimuLandon, Hope’s therapy Landon, Malivore Landon, golem Landon, ptsd Landon, oni-possessed Landon, golem Landon micmicking Necromancer, Clarke-Landon. Keep up the good work!

#hosie #finsie #jonch #legacies #legacies spoilers #kaleb legacies #jed legacies #cleo sowande #josie saltzman #finch tarrayo #alaric saltzman #hope mikaelson #landon kirby #holarke #aria shahghasemi #handonedit #wade legacies #justice for Jed #justice for kaleb

24 notes · View notes

letoscrawls · 4 years ago

Note

What are your Extremely Italian Opinions? Anything from politics to pasta, drop some hot takes

mmmmm good question! even though i'm not a proud italian as i'm very critical of this country and i'd love to live abroad in the future, i do have typical italian opinions that i'm ready to die for. I’m sure these will be mainly about food, but let’s see:

-say whatever you want, but italian food is the best food in the entire world, not only it’s healthy but it’s also delicious and no nation can compare :) no you can’t change my mind :) every time i watch Ratatouille i cringe so bad at the beginning when they say that French cuisine is known to be the best in the world??? that’s so false and i don’t even find it funny, we italians take food so seriously and if you dare criticize something about our food we take it very personal, yes, IT IS THAT DEEP.

-idk if it's a take but i find it funny that we don't use ice that much?? like i was so shocked to learn that smoothies are made WITH ICE?? we almost never use it, we definitely don't put it in coffee and we have this strange belief that ice gives you stomachache, especially if you want to take a bath, we usually wait two or three hours before taking a bath after a meal, especially if there's ice in it somewhere lol i think it's a typical Italian Grandma Advice but we all follow it religiously. Even though i know it's bizarre i can't help but wait at least two hours after my meal before having any kind of contact with water

-No one dubs movies and cartoons like italians. Our voice actors are superior (but the italian Rebels dub is terrible, don’t watch Rebels in italian, everyone sounds very bad except for Thrawn, surprisingly his voice better than the original and i've already talked about this in my ig stories some time ago haha) and i often watch shows and movies in italian even tho it's "trendy" nowadays to watch everything in english. Tbh i think that a country with a strong tradition of voice acting shouldn't neglect it in favor of the original language, just because something was made in english it doesn't make it better. For example, the prequel trilogy is insanely better in italian, while i love Hayden's performance as Anakin i think that sometimes...it lacks emotion? the italian dub makes up for those parts, i couldn't understand why international fans used to despise the PT so much at first, especially the acting. There isn't one single character in the prequels that sounds bad, really. Same thing goes for Disney classics, i find them 100% funnier in italian (the most memorable example is Emperor's New Groove, the main characters are voiced by some of the funniest comedians we have, they all did an amazing job), even tho some characters are voiced by celebrities who don't do voice acting on a regular basis the result is always phenomenal. Honorable mention to the Genie in Aladdin who is voiced by Gigi Proietti, an actor and comedian of immesurable talent who passed away a few days ago, his performance is on the same level of Robin Williams' imo. So yeah, i'm a huge fan of italian voice acting in case you didn't notice

-regarding politics, lots of people here say that we have the "best democracy in the world" or something like that.........eh, i highly doubt it. I hate this country because there is no meritocracy, you're most likely to succeed if you have good connections or a powerful family. The worst part is that this applies to EVERYTHING and it's terrible. Also there's a big imbalance between North Italy and South Italy, so it's hard to succeed and have access to a good education if you're born in the South and you're poor. And it's a shame. I was lucky enough to live near a very good university so i pay for taxes and nothing else, but only those who are born in wealthy families in the south can afford university in the north as universities in the south are not that good in general. it's really a shame bc south italy is freaking beautiful but the government doesn't spend the same amount of time, energy and money and that's also one of the reasons crime rates are so high there. truly every single issue in Italy could be resolved by funding our education system but most politicians don't give a flying fuck about it and it shows :/

-University in italy is considered a privilege, something that people do because they are too lazy to go to work and get "a real job". we have one of the lowest rates of student getting a degree in europe and yet a lot of people are expected to be jobless for years after graduating uni. it's crazy. there is no respect or consideration for university students since you're not obliged by law to attend one but it's your choice. university professors are terrible, they act like we don't have a personal life and in most cases will make everything so hard that you'll need to take an exam even 15 times before passing it. a friend of mine who is a prodigy in Math attended a really good university in Switzerland and he told me that you can take exams a max of 3 times there but you usually don't need to because they are much easier to pass?? also exams are so hard to pass, my degree is a living hell, you have to take multiple tests, do projects and assignments to pass one freaking exam, while the entire world has the paper system, so you basically write a paper and then the teacher grades it and guess what??? YOU LEARN STUFF ANYWAY. i hate that university in italy takes so much years, tears and mental energy to finish and this leads me to my next point

-healthcare. Italy has one of the best healthcare systems in the world because, well, it's free! You have some kind of bills to pay, but they are not as expensive as in the US, the country got a huge debt at some point in the 60s/70s (i guess??) to afford free healthcare but it was really worth it!! HOWEVER, i think it's pointless to have free healthcare for literally anything besides mental health. sadly, mental health is a tough topic here, if you suffer from a mental illness you're considered crazy, an attention seeker, incapable of being a normal citizen and stuff like that. therapists are super expensive and only wealthy people can afford them. personally, i can't afford one and i would love to since i suffer from anxiety and maybe other things (but i guess i'll never know since my country doesn't give a fuck lmao). and university students are most likely to have mental health issues due to the terrible conditions we live in, yet society ignores us, this results in very high suicide rates among students in their twenties. i honestly hate it so fucking much, especially because studying psychology is considered "easy" and you'll probably be jobless after your degree. psychologists are doctors, they deserve to be paid like any other doctor because they save lives, for real.

So uhm this was supposed to be funny but ended being very critical hahahaha

#ask #long post #THIS TOOK ME WEEKS TO WRITE WTF #hahahaha

60 notes · View notes

letskidnapsenpai · 4 years ago

Note

Hi boo, I'm here for an MHA matchup if you don't mind 😗 (No gender preference)

I'm an afab trans man who uses he/him pronouns and I'm 19 (and never fucking learned how to read). I'm bisexual demi romantic and I am professionally diagnosed with schizo-affective, chronic PTSD, depression and bipolar, and as such I take a lot of medications. I'm a Muslim, Leo sun/Aquarius moon/Cancer Venus/Sagittarius Mars/Virgo rising.

My hobbies include drawing and writing, playing Pokemon and Animal Crossing (and other video games), watching horror movies, cooking and cleaning, fantasizing about romantic situations, caring for my grandmother and doing my daily prayers.

My likes include tiny and baby animals, cute journals to write in, astronomy and astrology, plush toys (I own like 30 and I love them all) and mythology.

My dislikes involve being underestimated (specifically by my dad), loud crowds, events or items that trigger my illnesses, Endeavor (he reminds me somewhat of my dad), being left alone anywhere, a lot of my family members (they're all drunkards, drug abusers or both), people who don't look up their facts before trying to disprove me and unnecessary arguments and yelling, and math.

My habits are smoking cigarettes, scratching myself endlessly, bouncing my legs, binge eating, responding to texts out loud and constantly texting my friends as if I'm unaware they're getting tired of me lol.

Around new people I try to appear harmless but professional. When I'm comfortable with people I pull out the crude jokes, all my stuffed animals, every detail about my past and present, and discuss American politics. I like to play wrestle with my friends. When a real fight occurs however, I go all out. I once kicked the asses of three guys twice my size. My dad is a retired Navy Seal who taught me how to defend myself so I have him to thank for that. I tend to be the funny friend who does stupid shit to get a laugh out of people.

I tend to shut down when people get angry with me. There are times I feel hyper sexual and times I feel sex repulsed. I go far out of my way to prove myself to others that I'm not useless or deserve to be in my mom's shadow, but my dad can't overlook that he only compliments her and how hard she works because he's hopeful he'll get sex that night. It's difficult for me to open up to other people because I'm scared I'll get hurt. I never cry but it affects me greatly when my dad "jokes" about me being fat (as if he's any better than me). I'm simply tired of being the butt of his every joke. My brother is Autistic and my parents make excuses for him all the time to an unfair extreme, but never do the same for me.

Haha this kinda turned into a micro vent but oh well. I hope I didn't write too much and please have a great day! I love reading what you write daily.

Hiya 💖💫 I didn't write for him in a long time, so maybe he's a little bit out of character 🥺💖 The longer I was reading this, the more concerned for you I got, if you want to talk about something, you're always welcome to message me! 💫💖 I tried to avoid the topic of your religion and mental disorders, because it's something I don't know much about and I didn't wanted to get something wrong 🥺💖 Enjoy! 💖

My choice for you is... *drum roll* Dabi! And here's why:

• Dabi would accept all your mental disorders, he probably has few himself

• He'll find your drawings cool and he might even steal few to take into his room

• Hes used to Shigaraki playing games, so he doesn't mind that you do, as long as you give him attention when he wants

• He'll watch horror movie with you, so he can tease you if you get scared

• He's messy and he doesn't eat unless somebody gives him food or he's really starving, so it's good that you like cooking and cleaning

• He's not much of a romantic, but he cares for you and he'll try

• He doesn't care about what you believe in, he's atheist himself, but he doesn't say anything against your religion

• He might help you take care of your grandma sometimes, but since he's villain, he doesn't want her to recognize him

• He finds your collection of plush toys adorable and he gets steals you new one sometimes

• He'll also get you new journals, but he'll read what your write into them

• He also has problems with his father, so he fully understands you

• He hates being underestimated as much as you do, so another thing you two have in common

• He doesn't care about loud crowds, but he'll try to dodge them when he's with you

• He loves you even tho he's asshole so he'll do everything he can to not trigger your illnesses

• He's capable of arguing with anybody, but he'll try to not when he's with you

• He also smokes, so you two take smoke breaks together plus he's practically lighter, so you don't have to worry about carrying one with you

• He doesn't have any life, so he's free to text all day

• He finds amusing how appear quiet and collected at first, but you're badass

• You two go to missions together and then he brags about how good you're in a fight to everybody in lov

• Other members of lov also like you, Toga has crush on you and Shigaraki discusses and plays games with you

• Dabi and Toga might make little trip to visit your father, with knives.

• Dabi will asure you about how awesome you're

• You'll get all the love you deserve in lov and from Dabi

#bnha #bnha fanfiction #mha #mha x reader #bnha x reader #my hero acadamy #boku no academia #denki kaminari #boku no hero x reader #bnha dabi #mha dabi #dabi x reader #dabi my hero academia #dabi #dabi x you #dabi is touya #league of villains #league of villians x reader

32 notes · View notes

carryonmywaywardcaptain · 5 years ago

Text

Six Feet Apart

CarryOnCap’s Masterlist

Summary: Dean is fed up with a lot of things about the Coronavirus and safety guidelines, but he’s got a compelling reason to follow them. Sometimes it’s funny what a little faith can do.

Warnings: Obviously everything surrounding the ‘Rona, mentions of terminal illness, some angst, some feels but a positive ending

A/N: @rileynicole1967 requested a Dean x reader fic based on “Six Feet Apart” by Alec Benjamin. This is definitely not what you asked for because it took a weird turn, BUT it was very therapeutic for me to write and I still managed to give it the ending you asked for. So I appreciate the request more than you know :)

[IF you happen to be curious about the inspiration behind this: I’ve been in a rough place for quite some time-- hence my Tumblr absence. Not that the self-disclosure is really needed, but my grandma is in really bad shape with her cancer and I’ve been trying to make things work with a guy who very well could have been “The One” under non-’Rona circumstances. I’ve been caught in a terrible, anxiety-inducing middle between obviously wanting to date and spend time with a guy who is out in the world everyday, but only being able to do so much without risking my grandma’s health. Aaand kind of mine too. Stupid faulty meatsuit haha. Anyway. Life has been so stinking heavy but this helped a little.]

Keys.

Mask.

Wallet.

Phone.

It was routine now. Dean had gone through the process so many times that his body practically went on autopilot as he grabbed the items on his way out of the motel room he’d checked into late last night.

There were days he thought the guidelines were frustrating, inconvenient, and even a little pointless. He knew he’d probably get the virus at some point anyway and he’d made peace with that. Maybe he’d be able to fight it off just fine, maybe he wouldn’t. But the chances of that happening were like anything else in life. Even if the world had managed to come to an eerie halt, that didn’t mean it applied to people like him and Sam who still had work to do.

Although he knew he had everything he needed, he checked his pockets again just to be sure. If it were up to him, truthfully he wouldn’t even bother with the mask or the “social distancing” crap.

But it wasn’t just about him anymore. And he couldn’t afford to take any chances.

Oh, I miss you most at six feet apart when you’re

Right outside my window, but can’t ride inside my car

And it hurts to know just how lovely you are

And be too far away to hold, but close enough to break my heart

I miss your smile

Feels like miles

Six feet apart

Dean pulled into a worn concrete driveway in front of a modest white house. The front porch, which he’d become quite familiar with lately, contained two cast iron chairs and a matching table. He’d never been inside, couldn’t risk the possibility of bringing the virus into her home if he’d unknowingly come into contact with it. While he was constantly on the road chasing cases, she only left the house for treatments, appointments, and intermittent trips to the porch when he could make it back to visit.

He sighed heavily, putting the car in park before turning to glare at the offending bit of fabric on the leather seat beside him. He hated wearing that stupid mask. Hated the way the material trapped each breath, circulating the warm air right back to his face. He hated how stuffy and suffocating it felt. Sometimes it even made him feel a little claustrophobic.

But she’d sewn it herself and given it to him so he could stop using t-shirts, bandanas, and any other piece of clothing he could find in his trunk as a makeshift mask each time he came to see her. Sometimes he struggled to keep in mind what a thoughtful gesture it had been. That having to wear it might be annoying, but it really wasn’t a big deal in the grand scheme of things. And if a stupid piece of fabric had even a small chance of keeping them safe, then he could deal with it for a few hours, couldn’t he?

A few hours, he thought sourly. Nowadays they were lucky if they could even get that much time together. But he’d take what he could get.

Reluctantly, he grabbed the mask and looped the elastic bands around each ear. After fussing with the edges, trying in vain to make it fit comfortably, he let his head fall back against the seat in frustration. As he examined the space above him, sinking deeper into his ruminating thoughts, he began to wonder how much longer he could keep this up and if all of this was really worth it.

So far, so far, but so close

Like a star out in the cosmos

Can’t touch the beauty I see

That’s how it feels at six feet

It had been a while since the last time he’d been able to visit her. When the front door opened and two women emerged, he climbed out of the car and walked straight to his usual spot on the overgrown lawn. As he got closer and appraised her condition, he tried to conceal his reaction.

She looked rough. Despite the fuzzy robe she wore, he could tell how feeble her figure was beneath. Her movements were slow and deliberate, making him suspect she may have fallen again recently. He clenched his jaw, recalling how she’d been too weak to pick herself up last time and had remained on the floor until someone came to check on her the next morning.

With help from the other woman, who he assumed was a new caretaker, she settled into the cushions on one of the chairs. Her chest heaved and her eyes fell closed as she took a moment to recover from the exertion of her short walk. When her eyes finally fluttered open, they were a stark contrast against her sallow skin.

“Long time, no see,” she teased, her voice a hoarse whisper.

Dean nodded. “How’re you feeling today?”

“Can’t complain.”

In a way, he knew she was lying. He had a feeling she was having a rough day, but she was never one to complain. He had quickly learned that no matter what was going on in her life, she was the kind of person who worried about everyone else and put their well-being before her own. He wondered what kind of update the doctor had given her this time, but he was too afraid to ask.

“It’s so good to see you.”

Her gentle admission shook him from his thoughts. The edges of her eyes crinkled and he could just imagine the smile she wore beneath her mask.

Space and time are interwoven

Well, at least that’s what we’re told

When I was young, I was suspicious, but it’s true

Time sticks like glue

I feel so blue

Here missing you

So I think I’ll build a time machine and go back to a time

When we didn’t need to measure six feet on the ground

When I came around

That’s not allowed

I can’t go back now

He’d never really been the relationship type. He hadn’t been looking for anything when their paths had first crossed, but there was something about her that had captured his interest. The more they’d gotten to know one another, the more he learned just how much they had in common.

It had made him feel uneasy at first-- how easy she was for him to talk to. She rarely pressed him on anything and she had a way of making him feel comfortable even with the hardest conversations. They’d shared their life stories; their favorite memories, biggest letdowns, family dramas, and everything in between. After all of the monsters they’d each faced in their lives...this one was the deadliest and ugliest he’d ever had to face. And of all the people in the world who didn’t deserve to go through something like this, she topped the list.

Okay, sure, no one really deserved a death sentence. But didn’t it always make it worse that bad things always seemed to happen to good people?

Dean had beaten leviathans and reapers. He’d taken out loads of vampires, ghouls, and ghosts. He’d ganked more angel and demon douchebags than he could count. But when he had asked her to let him help-- when he’d mentioned what Cas could do or offered to work with Sam to find a spell that might heal her-- she politely declined. She had simply thanked him and explained that it wouldn’t be fair to everyone else fighting for their lives like she was. That her life was in no way more important than anyone else’s. She’d told Dean sometimes these things just happen and have a little faith, you never know.

Dean had of course tried to argue, but he couldn’t quite put into words just how special she was. That she didn’t deserve this and he’d give anything to change their circumstances. At one point he’d even considered tracking down a crossroads demon and making a deal to switch places with her, but he knew she wouldn’t have wanted that.

No matter how many times he tried to bring it up or how much he wished he could fight this one for her, there was nothing he could do to fight the monster slowly killing her from the inside out.

So, I miss you most at six feet apart when you’re

Right outside my window, but can’t ride inside my car

And it hurts to know just how lovely you are

And be too far away to hold, but close enough to break my heart

I miss your smile

Feels like miles

Six feet apart

It seemed like there was never enough time. They’d talked all afternoon and neither one of them were ready to say goodbye but, when she suddenly shivered, he knew it was time for him to leave. It wasn’t cold outside by any means, but it took a lot more to keep her warm these days.

He couldn’t help but linger a little longer, admiring her from where he still sat in the grass. Sometimes just being in her presence helped ease a little of the hopelessness he always seemed to grapple with. It was starting to take a toll on him-- not knowing if things would ever get better or if the world would ever return to some sense of normalcy.

What he wanted more than anything was to walk right up on the porch and wrap his arms around her. It didn’t make sense how much he ached to just be near her. He’d never admit it out loud, but it was almost physically painful how much he wanted to reach out and touch her-- to hug her, kiss her, or even see her smile without their stupid masks.

But she was barely holding on and he knew her body was fighting every moment of the day just to keep her alive.

He hated wearing his mask. He hated how he could be so close to her and still feel so far away. He hated not being able to hold her and he hated that there didn’t seem to be an end or a solution in sight for the state of the world at the moment. He hated that she was dying and there was nothing he could do about it. And he especially hated the fact that the universe had to have a pretty damn cruel sense of humor to let him meet someone like her in a time like this. Even though he was fed up with feeling like he was stuck in another one of Gabriel’s twisted, incessant pranks...the thought of walking away and not having her in his life at all was far worse.

So he took it one day at a time. He knew there was a chance he might get the virus at some point and usually he was ready to accept whatever cards fate dealt him. Maybe he’d be able to fight it off, maybe he wouldn’t. But she wouldn’t be able to. And he knew if he slipped up, if he somehow managed to pass it along, that that would be the end for her.

He hated a lot of things lately and he wasn’t sure if they’d ever really go away. But there wasn’t a doubt in his mind that every single inconvenience and moment of frustration was worth it for him to be able to spend time with her-- even six feet apart.

***

Dean was staring up at the ceiling, unable to fall back asleep. The nightmares didn’t come as often anymore but, when they did...well, they were no walk in the park. He let out a sharp breath, squeezing his eyes shut as he pushed the images of her sunken face from his mind.

The movement had jostled her, and he hugged her closer when she began to stir. He placed a gentle kiss on top of her head and she hummed softly as she nestled further into his chest.

When they were in the thick of it, it had been so hard to see a way out. To believe they’d be okay or ever have a shot at actually being together. To believe there would be an end to the virus or that there was any chance she could get better.

Sometimes those dark days, when all hope seemed lost, felt like nothing more than a distant nightmare. But Dean refused to let himself forget. Maybe it was morbid, but every moment with her felt a little bit sweeter when he reminded himself of how grim those days had been and of everything they’d had to overcome. When he remembered everything she’d had to endure.

It was honestly a miracle that he was lucky enough to hold her in his arms like this. Everyone had asked him on numerous occasions if he’d done something, but even he didn’t have an explanation. He really didn’t care whether it was faith or something supernatural or even just one of life’s unexplained mysteries-- all that mattered was that she was healthy and alive.

So he kept the memories of those days close and promised himself he’d never take the time he had with her for granted. They had made it through one of the darkest times in either of their lives and he had no doubt they’d face more in the future. But, with her by his side, he had faith they’d find a way to make it through those days too.

So far, so far, but so close

Like a star out in the cosmos

Can’t touch the beauty I see

That’s how it all feels to me

So far, so far, but so close

Like a star out in the cosmos

Can’t touch the beauty I see

That’s how it feels at six feet

CarryOnCap Crew (Forevers):

@abswritesfandoms @amanda-teaches @cosicas-cuquis @crist1216 @droidyouseek @emoryhemsworth @ericaprice2008 @flawless-disaster @janeyboo @jenn0755 @ksgeekgirl @maresmiley @memyselfandmaddox @notyourtypicalrose @randomparanoid @rynabarnesrogers @sandlee44 @scarletsoldierrr @shann-the-artist-moon @sheerioasteroidpanda @shynara51 @someday-when-you-leave-me @star-spangled-man-with-a-plan @thisismysecrethappyplace @torntaltos @waywardbaby @waywardrose13 @weebid @whimsicalrobots @wintersoldierbaby @wintersoldierissucharide @yesfanficsaremylife

Cap’s SPN Crew:

@adoptdontshoppets @akshi8278 @alexwinchester23 @deangirl7695 @dean-winchesters-bacon @fandomoniumflurry @pisces-cutie @supernaturalenchanted @superromijn @waywardnerd67 @x-waywardaf-x

189 notes · View notes

fredweesleyismyslut · 4 years ago

Text

I’d Still Choose You - George Weasley x reader

A/N: this is a writing in response to this request, “Heyyy! Could you do a George weasley x reader where you, his girlfriend, is a super famous singer in the muggle world and she takes him with her to her meet and greet for the first time and he gets jealous and I imagine him being a bit insecure too about all the male fans being all over her?” I really hope I did you justice!! Anywho, my neck now hurts because I basically have the physical capabilities of a 50 grandma and my neck is super stiff from looking down at my keyboard. I really you guys enjoy this because I love writing for George! Also, hope you guys are staying well, remember to take care of yourselves because you all deserve to take up space on this earth don’t forget that. Writing at 12am for some reason makes me really sappy sorry guys, I’m just really tried so I’m gonna go curl in bed now haha.

Your legs were shaking slightly as you sat in the car with your boyfriend, your manager in the front seat doing the driving. “You alright, y/n?” George asked, placing his hand softly on your knee, “You’re about to drive a hole into the floor if you keep shaking your leg like that.” He chuckled softly as he kissed your forehead, “Yeah, I’m just so nervous this is the biggest fan meet I’ve had.” Taking a deep breath you forced your mind to focus on not shaking so much. “You’ll be fine your fans love you and I’ll be here the whole time,” George said, taking your hand in his, fitting like a puzzle. You could feel the slight callouses on his fingers from the times he played quidditch in school and making things with his brother, Fred. You had met Fred in your fifth year after a prank gone wrong that you had got caught in, and ever since then it’s been history. “I still can’t believe that you’re so popular amongst muggles… every time I see your pictures in the streets I get surprised.” “Alright, we’re almost there, y/n. Be prepared to run in there’s gonna be a big crowd.” You nodded, meeting eyes with your manager in the mirror, “We’ve got security outside waiting for you and inside just in case so don’t be too worried. Just enjoy yourself alright, you deserve this, y/n.” she smiled back at you in the rearview mirror, focusing on the road again as you pulled into the front of the building. The door slid open and there were two tall, suited men standing, one of them grabbed your hand to help you out as the other held his arms out on either side to prevent rogue fans. “Omg, y/n, I love you!!!” shouted a female voice as it got drowned out among the rest of the loud shouting along with flashes from cameras as you were rushed in, George fast on your heels trying to not be swarmed.

Once inside, you sat at the prepared station set up for you as George followed you to the back where you could get changed for the meet and greet. In the back, there was a group of boys, about seven of them who all stood up and gave a swift bow as one of the members walked up, “We’re just here to say hello, we had a photoshoot near here and heard you were having a meet and greet and couldn’t leave without saying hi to our favorite senior.” said the leader of the group, a tall boy named Daniel. They were a new rookie boy group signed under the same company as you, all tall and good looking, the exact type that drove most teenage girls into a wet dream. You smiled pulling him into a hug, “Why are you being so formal? Gosh, come on in you guys, stop acting like a stranger.” you said to the rest of the boys. They all crowded in, giving you bone-crushing hugs, “George this is the new rookie group I’ve been working with, they’re amazing.” you said, to your boyfriend who was standing quite awkwardly to the side, as you pulled the youngest member into a hug, “You’ve grown taller since last time, Jin.” you gasped as you stood on your heels to ruffle his hair. “Stoppppp. I worked hard on it this morning,” he whined, softly pouting his lips as you smiled wider. “Oh so now that you’re taller I can’t admire your hair, ugh boys are always like this you give them all your affection and suddenly they don’t want it anymore.” Daniel laughed as he smacked the youngest’s shoulder as he put his arm around your shoulder, casually leaning. “When are you gonna treat us to dinner? You keep making promises but you don’t actually do it...I mean I get that you’re the new hot thing right now but you can’t just forget about your juniors like that.” You laughed wholeheartedly as you punched his shoulder, “You know it’s not like that….hmmmm how about tonight after the meet and greet I don’t have any plans, you guys?” He nodded, looking to his members for agreement, “Okay, we’re holding you to that, right boys!” They all shouted in agreement as they gave one last bow and walked out of the room to go see their manager. You were about to turn to George and talk with him until your manager walked in, “Y/n we’ve gotta hurry, come on hair and makeup are waiting.” You nodded, going to kiss George on the cheek but he pulled away slightly, smiling down at you. Pretending to not notice the action you squeezed his hand, walking out, Maybe he was just tired from the ride?

After hair and makeup, you walked out, the large crowd screaming as you sat in the chair. Slowly but surely each fan got up to get signatures from you and given a quick hug and picture. George watched from the corner where he could see the crowd but the crowd couldn’t see him. Most of your fans tended to be teen boys, in a row, a couple of boys walked up, clearly nervous as they fanboyed, “Omg I love you!” The next fan, also male, came walking up, and before reaching you got to his knees and bowed down, “My queen!” he shouted, as you crouched to the floor as well, “Oh my! No, don’t get your pants dirty because of me.” you said, dusting off the knees of his pants before sitting back down. There was one male fan, his deep voice shouted through the crowd, “Y/n Y/l/n you criminal!!” you looked up shocked slightly, mouth agape as he continued, “You stole my heart you, thief!!!! I want to marry you!!” You started laughing, not sure how to respond, half from surprise as you responded, “Bring the documents, then I’ll meet you in court!” A loud content shout echoed the walls as he shouted out, “Yessss!!!!” Laughing you signed more albums before finishing up the meet and greet and stood up, giving a last bow to the crowd and waving before walking backstage. Walking into your waiting room you looked around, “That was one heck of a crowd” you said until you realized no one was in there. You found your manager, “Do you know where George went?” she nodded, “I think he went outside, last time I checked.” Nodding you followed the direction she pointed you in, finding George sitting on the edge of the sidewalk, picking at the grass near his feet. “Something wrong?” you asked sitting down next to him, “Was it just too much noise?” George looked up, shaking his head softly, “Did I do something wrong, Georgie?” you asked pushing his hair away from his face. “I-I just forget how important you are sometimes in the muggle world.” he stopped for a second, trying to form words, “I just feel as if...as if I’m not enough for you. I mean you’re this big superstar and I own a joke shop with Fred.” He continued picking at the grass, at this point, there was a pile of grass near his feet and you kind of felt bad for the grass as he continued, “You could have literally anyone else, like that Daniel guy, you two seemed friendly.” His gaze traveled to the ground as he picked a flower out from the ground, taking his hand in yours you smiled, “What’d the grass do to you?” Kissing his forehead and then each of his knuckles you continued, “I don’t want any of those boys, or Daniel ugh, they’re like younger brothers to me.” Pulling his chin up to face your gaze you continued, “I love you, George. I love that you opened a joke shop with Fred because you’re true to yourself. You guys made something out of yourselves I think that’s admirable.” Leaning closer you finished, “I don’t want anyone else, George, because even in this big ocean of eight billion people, I would still choose you in this life and the next. You got that?” His face brightened slightly as he nodded, you closed the space placing your lips softly on his, feeling the same butterflied you always get in your stomach when you’re near George. “I’d choose you too, y/n. You’re the only one for me, I love you.” Standing up, you held your hand out, “Now come on you mope, I got a promise to keep with those little squirts because I know good and well if I’m even a minute late they’ll use that to make me buy them extra food.” Laughing George stood, placing a kiss on the crown of your head, “Alright, alright, let’s go eat dinner then.”

156 notes · View notes

colorfultrashcrusade · 4 years ago

Text

Who knew

THIS STORY WAS WRITTEN A LONG TIME AGO AND I WANTED TO POST SOMTHING FOR CALUMS BIRTHDAY. I know its not good grammar and all that but if I'm being honest I didn't want to edit it. Spacing it correctly was enough for me haha.

“Babe ready for tonight?” Cal said as I tied my shoes. I decided to go pretty casual. Black jeans, white tee, black converse. Hair tied back in a low ponytail.

'Yeah just about.' We head outside to the car over to Ashton's for the long awaited house par-tay. About 20minutes later, Cal and I reach Ash's place. And get inside quickly because it was beginning to rain.

“HEY EVERYBODY!” Michael yells with a drink in his hand. 'Well someone is already shit faced' I say causing Calum to laugh. I look around to see Luke talking to Miranda and Casey as well as newbies, who I haven't gotten to know yet. Ash and Sasha were fetching more drinks from the 'beer fridge' Nia and Rena giggling at something one of them said and of course, already drunk, Michael (lol).

“Here guys” Casey says while handing us a drink, 'now let's get this house party started!' He shouts and we all laugh.

(Couple hours into party)

The music was blasting; so loud I could feel every beat in it. Luke, Casey and Miranda were "dancing" I think (lol) Michael passed out a while ago. No one wanted to move him so we left him in the middle of the floor. I was sitting next to Ash who was sitting next to Sasha who passed out on the couch. Rena was across from us and passed out as well. As I turn to see what calums doing I couldn't believe my fucking eyes. With his drunken gaze and smile he stood flirting and giggling like a fucking school girl with Nia. I'll just say it. I don't like Nia, she doesn't like me either. So I normally wouldn't waste my time on her but she was too close to my boyfriend and I wasn't having it. I jumped off the couch,and I walked over to Calum and Nia.

'What the fuck are you doing?'.

'Fuck off Alyssa, can't you see he's busy with someone he actually likes?' Nia says.

'Aha Nia you're so full of shit' I fake laugh to finish off my sentence.

'The fuck is that suppose to mean?

' 'You're a fake ass bitch who no one likes, if you were actually respectful, you'd have real friends. 'Removing herself from cal she pushes me. 'Excuse me bitch,' I go to push her back but am hit in the face with a big, strong hand. Calum's hand. I turn to him, a hurt expression on my face.

'Fuck off' he simply said. I turned back to Nia who was smiling like the bitch she is. That's when I went to her. With a fist full of her hair I began bashing her head and face with my other fist again and again and again. I was so engulfed with rage and didn't care how much my hands were hurting. Her hand managed to grab hold of my hair too. She started punching me as well faster; harder. I closed my eyes as we moved around trying to throw her to the ground. But suddenly I was the one thrown down. She had kicked the side of my knee causing my knees to buckle backwards. As she sat on top of me punching and scratching. All I could do was try to cover my face and head. I don't understand why I wasn't winning this, I could easily take her. But I realized it was because of Calum. He wounded me mentally and emotionally. He's such an asshole when he drinks. I tried to look over at him to see if he was seeing this. And he was. I feel the blood oozing from my face. I feel where the bruises will be tomorrow. I started to see little black dots. I was blacking out.

'That's right bitch, I'm gonna take your ma-.'

'NIA WHAT THE FUCK!?' Casey yelled. Ashton, being closest to us got here first.

'Nia... Get... The fuck... Off her!!!' Ash said as he literally threw Nia off, with Miranda and Casey catching and holding her back. Ash came over and I felt my body being lifted up; hearing Sasha repeating my name as well as Ashton yelling.

'What the fuck is wrong with you mate?! You're just gonna watch as your girlfriend gets beat up?! That's a dick move man. You don't even deserve Liss, I can't fucking believe you!' Then I hear a smack and something that sounds like a body hit the floor. Then it went completely black.

(Couple hours later)

As I come to, my body aches everywhere; my head is killing me; and I can barely open my eyes. I sit up very slowly taking in my surroundings.

'Liss, honey don't sit up, you need to rest.' Grandma's voice boomed like thunder in the room. I grimaced. 'Sorry' she said.

'How did I get here?'

'That Ashton boy came, I nearly had a heart attack when I opened the door but he told me what happened.'

'Oh' I said simply. Over the course of the next few days I stayed with grandma till my body wasn't as achey. I was moving around and doing minimal tasks around the house. Grandma left for the weekend with her boyfriend, so I got to play music softly in the house. Just as I was going to make myself some food, there's a knock on the door. I go over to open it and it's Ashton. I smile spread over my face, as painful as it was. 'Here come in.' He comes in and immediately gives me a hug. Not that tight though. The embrace was so warm and loving I didn't want to let go of him. When I did, he was in tears. 'Ashy? What's wrong?'

'Nothing I'm glad to see you up and moving. But I'm here to take care of you.'

'Take care of me?, Hun I'm okay.'

'Please, it will give me peace of mind?' I looked at him; his eyes so glossy, I couldn't say no.

'Okay ash.' As the weeks pass, I've been with Ashton 24/7. Meanwhile Calum hasn't made any effort to text or talk to me. And normally I'd be depressed but for some reason, I'm not. Ashton has made me feel so good and so warm and so loved that I'm not sure about Calum.

(Couple days later)

'Yay movie time!!!' Ashton yells running down the stairs.

'Ahaha, what movie tonight ashy?'

'The best of me.'

'The best of me? Aha.'

'Yeah, I'm feeling romantic today. Aha.'

We pop in the movie with our blanket and popcorn and my dots gummies. Something about tonight felt different. I noticed Ashton was wearing cologne; he was just extra hot tonight. As the movie played on, I couldn't really focus, and neither could ash. At least in the movie.

'Liss?'

'Yeah a-' before I could finish his lips were on mine. So soft and warm and I couldn't help but kiss him back. There was a spark bigger than any I've ever felt, even with Calum. His hands felt all over my back, arms and legs. I felt so safe in his arms. Next thing I know, we are making love on his couch. Gentle and passionate love till we reached our highs and fell asleep in each other's arms.

(Couple months later)

Mikey's birthday is coming up and I wanted to get him something he'd like so I went with Sash. We went into the shop and looked around.

'Liss, are you okay? You look a little pale.' Sasha says with concern on her face.

'I'm a fine girl, it's good.' I smile. But actually I don't feel fine. I've been like this for a while. And right now I felt even worse. 'Sa.. Sash, I don't...,' the room started spinning and my legs felt weak.

'Liss? LISS!' She said it when dark.

When I came to, I was in the hospital, and Sasha was rocking back and forth in the chair next to me holding my hand. 'Sash, what's happening?'

'You fainted Liss, I freaked and called an ambulance and they did some tests. I'm er... We're waiting for the results.' Just as she finished, the doctor came in.

'Miss Perkins, how are you feeling?'

I'm feeling better.'

'Good, we gave you some fluids to help nourish your body. We did some blood work and noticed you're not nourished enough due to your pregnancy, an-'

'WHAT!?' Sasha said.

'Wait, I'm pregnant?' The doctor nodded her head.

'Yes Miss Perkins, the tests show that the fetus was conceived about three and a half months ago.'

'THREE AND A HALF MONTHS!?' Sasha said and turned to look at me. '

I see you need a minute ladies, I'll leave you be.' She left and closed the curtain.

'Three and a half months Liss?' I stared into space thinking.

' three and a half months ago I had sex with Calum but at the end of that month, after all that, I slept with Ashton to-.' Sash sat with her jaw dropped. 'I don't know, whose it is.'

'You have to let them know Liss.'

'Can you go with me?'

'Course Liss.'

(The next day eh... Night)

I asked Ashton to come over and without hesitation he came. And with the help of Sash, Calum came to. I'm nervous, I haven't seen or talked to him in months. How would he react to this news, how would both of them react? But they're both here. And I need to get this out. I walk to the living ash and cal are sitting on opposite sides of the room. I clear my throat as I enter.

'Hey guys.'

'Hey liss.' They say, one quieter than the other.

'I...uh.... I....uhh..' I look to Sasha for help. And she came.

'Listen guys with everything that has happen, Liss need you to put it behind you and listen the fuck up, Liss is...

“I’m Pregnant and either one of you can be the dad. I'm not sure but I wanted you both to know.' Calum's eyes went wide. Ashton's hands went to his chin

As the months come and go. Each appointment was just a reminder that the baby was coming soon. Sasha went with me for every one. I told the doctor I didn't want to know the gender of the baby. All I care about is that it's healthy. Ashton was there helping every step of the way. Making sure I was relaxed and calm and that there was no stress around the baby. When I needed a back rub, Ashton was there to give it. If there was no ice cream in the house, he was on it. Calum on the other hand helped more in a financial way. He had stopped by two days ago, which I was shocked by, just to talk.

(Flash back)

'Uh.. Come in.'

'I'm not staying long princess.' Princess? I just looked at him more confused than ever.

'I haven't been around or contacted you because I don't know how to forgive myself from that night. I lost myself after that. I...' He started rubbing his arms.

'Cal, no. Please tell me you didn't.' As he looked at me a tear left his eye.

'I'm sorry princess, I.... I didn't know what to do. I went to rehab and... I do-.' I wrapped my arms around him, hugging him. Stopping his words in their tracks. He squeezed me, getting as close to me as he could due to my belly.

'Liss, I love you, I've never stopped loving you. You're my one and only. I'll do whatever it is for you to forgive and take me back. Please. Baby please.'

End of flashback)

Since that talk, he's been around the house more and the tension between him and Ashton was very uncomfortable. The dirty glances they give each other. The shoving into each other. At least that's what Sash tells me. They behave themselves in front of me and the baby. I was lying in bed continuously tossing and turning. I don't know why I couldn't sleep. Then all of a fucking sudden, Sasha burst through my door. 'SASHA!?'

'Shhhhhh!!!'

'What the hell I almost peed on my-.'

'Shhh, listen.' I didn't understand what she was talking about till I heard voices.

'Cal and Ash?' I mouthed to her. And she nodded her head.

(Whisper yelling)

'Listen, I don't give a fuck that you like her Ashton, she's my girl, so you need to back up off her.'

'Me? Are you fucking kidding me! I've been here for her all this time you stupid fuck, she wants me. I don't care what you two used to be, but I know she cares for me. I'm here all day every day taking care of her and when I'm not I-.'

'When you're not blah blah blah, I'm the father of that child, Ashton. Not you. Get over it. Whatever you thought you had with her is not there anymore.' It went quiet. They must have been angrily staring at one another. Till Ash spoke.

'As much as I want that baby to be mine, as much as I want to stand here and brag about how my dick got her pregnant, we won't know whose it is till its born, and till then let's act like men and cut the crap Calum, we've caused enough drama in this house.' Two pairs of footsteps walked in opposite directions and two doors slammed. Sasha looks at me with her mouth partly opened.

'I don't know what to say or think about that.'

'Me neither Sash, me neither.

With the baby coming in less than a three weeks, sasha is busy getting everything ready for the baby shower being that we don't know the sex yet. The color theme is light grey and soft green. Everything looks so cute. I look around the living room to see Ashton putting up streamers and Calum putting up the giant pacifier piñata. Calum and I are better and by that I mean back to being couple-like. Ashton has gotten a bit distant. After that night when Sasha and I heard them talking, they act like neither one is there. They don't talk to each other and it makes me sad. They were really good friends always joking and playing around. And now, nothing. They're just strangers who know each other really well. But they're okay for right now.

(Later that day)

It was time for the shower to start. Sasha made me a special seat covered. The guests arrived and everyone came. Everyone except Nia. Everyone got situated with food and drinks and we socialize for a while.

'Okay everyone it's time for a game!!' Sasha shouted. She was more excited than anybody. 'So in this game you will pick up a diaper. All the diapers have a number on the-.'

'Why do they have numbers?' Mike butted in.

'Michael shut up let me have my moment!' Everyone laughed. 'As I was saying, all the diapers have a number because inside all the diapers is a little mess. Don't worry it's all candy, the point of the game is to guess the candy!'

'Why does it look like shit?' Michael says as we laugh again.

'What the fuck do you think babies do in diaper's Michael.' Everyone laughs harder.

'Babe I'm just messing with you, you're doing really good at this.'

'Well thanks butthead.' We ended up not really finishing the game. We just kinda are all eating the chocolate in the diapers. Mine was a snickers, there was also the Milky Way, Twix, and... Well just a lot of chocolate. 'PRESENT TIME!!!' Sash yelled. And everyone went to grab their gifts.

'Hey Liss.' Miranda said.

'This is from Nia. She handed me an envelope. Everyone got kinda quiet as I opened it.

'It's a card.' I said aloud.

'What does it say?' Ashton and Calum say in unison. I open the card and starts scanning with my eyes

"Congrats on the pregnancy Alyssa, hope all goes well. I'm sorry for giving you hell. I realize I can never have what you have and I'm sorry for trying to take it from you. You're his dream girl and I can't compete with that. You're more a woman than I ever will be and I hope one day we can get passed this. You deserve great things. But anyways, congrats."

'What does it say Lissachu?' Sasha says to me.

'She said congrats on the baby.' I say feeling a weight lift off of me, not knowing I even had one. The rest of the baby shower went well. I just sat and ate everything Saha handed me (lol). These cravings were getting the best of me.

(Night time) Today was actually really good. There were a few spills at the shower, and after the shower that was mainly Michaels fault but got cleaned by 'mother Sasha'. And surprisingly Ashton and Calum, after a couple drinks, started talking again. (I know what you're thinking, alcohol at a baby shower? Blame Mike). It was as if there was no bad blood between them. It filled my heart with warmth and happiness. As I lay down and get comfy I close my eyes and give a big, calming sigh and begin to drift off the sleep. Then I get a tickle in my nose and... 'ACHOO!' I sneeze. 'Aw shit, did I? Fuck I peed on myself.' I get up slowly and grab a change of clothes and go to the bathroom. When I finish changing. I go to change my sheets. Pulling on the corner closest to me, I start to feel pain, a really sharp pain. As I hunch over my bed, breathing heavy and choppy, my door opens and I feel arms around me.

'Princess what's wrong? Are you okay? What happened?' Calum says. His voice rang with panic.

'I..uh.... I think...my water broke.'

Calum's eyes went wide. 'Okay, come on. Let's get you in the car.' He walked with me letting me stop whenever there was a contraction.

'GUYS!?? GUYS WAKE UP, THE BABYS COMING!!' Sasha ran out of her room and straight for the bag she made me put together for this very moment. Ash moved at a slower pace but we got out of the house pretty fast. With Ashton at the wheel, driving beyond the speed limit, everything was kind of a blur. Sasha to my left; Calum to my right. Both letting me squeeze the fuck out their hands as Sasha does breathing technics with me. We finally get to the hospital and Calum picked me up bridal style and ran through the emergency room doors.

'SHE'S IN LABOUR!!!' As soon as the sentence left his mouth, nurses came around so fast. I was put in a wheelchair and rolled away; In the distance I hear Calum yelling. 'NO I HAVE TO GO WITH HER!'

'Sir please calm down you're frightening other patients.'

'NO, GET OFF ME! ALYSSA!! I LOVE YOU!' Pain. Excruciating pain. I feel as if these are the absolute worst cramps in my life. I feel like Satan is shoving a small trident dagger in my uterus and turning it around in circles

. 'It's okay ma'am, just breathe an-'

'I AM BREATHING!' After moving me from the wheelchair to the bed with wheels, I'm rolled into a room. They change me into a gown and I'm left there by doctors checking in from time to time.

'ALYSSA! Oh god princess are you okay?!' His voice rang with worry.

'I'm okay cal, did they finally let you in here?' I joke. Then Ashton walks in with Sasha.

'How ya feeling Liss?' Ashton says.

'Like I'm gonna have a baby.' Then another contraction happens. FFFUUUCCCKKK!' I grabbed Calum's hand and squeezed till its blue and purple. He says nothing.

'Guys? The doctor is gonna ask if the "father" wants to be in the room and cut the umbilical cord.' Sasha says. 'Which of you want to do it?' Calum and Ashton look everywhere but at each other. Then to me.

'Princess it's up to you.' Just then the doctor walks in.

'Okay Ms. Perkins, time for another look see. May I ask you three to step outside please.

'C'mon guys,' Sasha grabs both of their shirts. ' it's not like you haven't seen it before. It's the same. I giggle. The doctor chuckles to himself.

'Well Ms.Perkins, if you're ready, the bed is set up and down here, looks good. So who do you want in the room with you?'

'Doc, I don't know who the father is.'

'Doesn't have to be the father, no aha. The young lady, is your friend right?'

'Yes.'

'If I was in your situation, I'd pick her. She was there for you. Besides, we'll find out who the father is later.' He walks out. And Cal, Ash and Sash come back in.

'Sash I want you in the room with me.'

'Am I godmother?'

'Yes.' She claps her hands.

'Well okay, let's go deliver a baby!' I'm already in the delivery room. Sweat dripping on my face. The doctor gave me the epidural when I first got here. It hurts but no where near the contraction pain. More like I'm really constipated. The pushing is exhausting my whole body.Sasha to my right letting me squeeze her hand.

You're doing good Liss, couple more pushes then it's coming out.' I nod, my eyebrows furrowed

. 'Alright Ms.Perkins, push!'

'Aaaahhhh!' I pushed with as much force as I could. Then I hear crying.

'Okay Ms. Perkins one more push like that and it's out. Ready. Set. Go.' I take a deep breath and push letting out a massive fart (Lol jk yell).

'AAHHHHHHH!' Then the crying got louder. And louder.

'Liss! You did it! It's a, it's a...'

'Congratulations Ms.Perkins, you have a girl.' The doc smiles and wipes the baby enough for me to hold.

'She's beautiful.' I let out the tears. Streaming down my face in joy.

'She's beautiful Liss.' Sasha says. 'Hi little one, I'm sashie. Your god mom.' She was crying too

'Alright Ms.Perkins, we'll get her all cleaned up while you sign the birth papers. And then she's all yours.' The nurse took her to get cleaned and I handed her papers. '

Liss...' '

Yeah?'

Congratulations, I'm so happy and proud to be here and experience this, even though I can't feel my hand anymore. Thank you.'

'No thank you, for actually being her all the way.' We hug.

'But Liss, she looks like..... Calum.'

'I know, and I'm happy that she's his.'

'And yours Liss, don't forget that.' As I put pen to paper to full in the name part of the certificate, I pause. Then write. How the nurse comes back with her and I give her the papers.

'What's her name?' A voice says. Ashton and Calum walk in the room ( you were moved back to the other room to recover). I look at them.

‘She looks a lot like you Calum, aha. She has your nose.' Calum sits in the chair next to your bed, across Sasha; Ashton at the foot of the bed.

'Congrats, you two.' Ash says with a hint of disappointment in his voice.

'Come here.' I say as I give him a hug and a kiss on the cheek.

'Thank you for helping as much as you did.' He smiles and backs out the door

. 'I take it you guys are gonna be here a while so I'll leave and come get you later.'

'Wait!' Sasha buts in. 'Don't you wanna know her name?'

'Yeah, what's our daughters name?' I look from Ash to Sash. Sash to Cal. Then Cal to her.

'Schyler. Schyler Joy.'

#calum hood #calum 5sos #5sos #calum hood imagines #5sos imagine

20 notes · View notes