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I feel like a lot of queer people forget that not everyone has gone through the same experience with their gender/sexuality and that it’s okay to not relate entirely to one another
#like please do not speak for EVERYONE if it is only you who has gone through and experienced your own journey#so much damn discourse#we’re all part of the same community so why are we fighting amongst ourselves#there are literally people out there that want us dead and you wanna debate identities ?#be so fucking fr#queer#lesbian
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Tbh i am not surprised that a person who openly talked about having drinking problems since 1d days, because of how crazy 1d worked has been agressive. What surprises me is people being surprised (they never seriously saw drunk person?). But i am also confused about this whole book. Apparently Maya said that that book is not fully bout Liam but compilation about her exes and some of the worst parts are not about him. But recently she said that the book is “ofc about him” so what is true then? Or did she meant it that ofc some parts are about him or that whole book is about him?
Sorry, just confused
I also am not surprised- we've learned so much more about the real stories of things and about the guys' actual lives over the last years, and the story that has unfolded around Liam has been totally consistent throughout if you've been following it, and so the information Maya is telling us is shocking and upsetting but not difficult to believe. I got an anon yesterday saying they were worried about getting similar revelations about the other boys, like "if Liam could be doing this we just don't know, any of them could", and while in a way that's always true I guess, anyone could be doing anything in private like... that doesn't really concern me. Because none of these Liam revelations are coming out of nowhere, there have been many MANY steps along the way leading us here if you've been watching, and he has talked openly about both his mental health struggles and his addiction issues. So to answer that anon... to find out something similar about Louis would in contrast contradict everything we know about him and no I'm not worried about it. Is he probably very irritating, absolutely, but an abuser or a loose cannon, well that news would shock me. But anyway as for the book I don't find it strange that she was nervous when it came out and treading lightly and later decided, fuck it. In the absolutely on point tiktok she dropped today (YES👏GIRL👏FUCKING TELL THEM👏) she even mentions attempts to keep her from publishing the book, presumably by Liam's team, that I am riveted by and cannot WAIT to hear more details about actually- like I said I don't find it at all strange that she was nervous and downplayed it a bit then. But if she says now that it's just about Liam, well, I would say it's been clear from the beginning that the book is their story. Maya herself brought up the parallel of songs being written about stuff and I think it's the same thing; it's true (she was in an abusive relationship that involved certain kinds of events) but maybe not 100% literal (I'm sure details were changed to make the story work, it's not like a word for word timeline of their interactions or whatever).
#maya henry#blah blah blah#re the tiktok also lmaoooo are people really saying she wants money her family IS RICH like RICH RICH#but hot damn the part about enabling UH HUH !!!!!#yep yep yep#in terms of the other guys and what would shock me... well obviously we know Zayn has also had a history of agression#and we know WAY too much about him being pushy about sex lol#I would not be shocked to hear he crossed a line... but think he's probably just a bit of a fuckboy#I absolutely do not trust Niall behind closed doors but the songs we have about him seem to tell a pretty consistent story;#self absorbed but basically harmless#harry... who tf knows what he is like outside of being with Louis but I would be shocked to hear of him being aggressive yeah#I have a lot of issues with him but taking advantage of people or being pushy are not even on the radar#and as for Louis... like I said yeah it WOULD shock me. I don't just love him because he has a nice face!#it's BECAUSE of the ways we do know him and know what he's like. because of his tenderness and care#and his consistent kindness and love#and his openness about his private side#so yeah- it would shock the hell out of me it really would#but then I think that anon also was worried about eleanor spiling smth about their relationship so we are not coming from the same place#my kneejerk response was I'm sure he paid her on time what else are you worried about lol#although out of everyone if someone was going to say he lashed out at them I suppose it would be her#it was probably one of the most difficult and frought relationships in his life#and one that he did not want#so! but still no it doesn't worry me#tbh there was one thing in mayas video today that did surprise me which was the premeditation#Liam actually planning using the fans against people and sneaking around doing stuff#I guess even believing everythign I had chosen to paint a picture in my mind of someone who was still#basically unaware of the wrong they were doing and more flailing than plotting#and that shakes me a little. and makes me very unhappy to hear#liam discourse
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Nah, you know what makes my blood boil?
Seeing characters degraded, vilified, and desecrated in the name of ship wars.
No, Aang did not strip Katara of her agency nor did he only accept the "digestible" parts of her, leave my baby alone.
No, Zuko isn't just a selfish colonizer, bro did not have one of the greatest arcs of all time for you to reduce him to that.
No, Katara wasn't just a mother to everyone, for fuck's sake, did we watch the same show?
I can go on and on and fucking on, but all I'm gonna say is I'm fucking tired of y'all's shipping discourse.
It was never that serious, it will never be that serious.
I think that both Zutara and Kataang are great ships in their own right, with their respective pros and cons. I also think it comes down to personal taste.
Of course, people can have differing opinions on characters, regardless of the inclusion of ships or not. But at the very least, stick to your own.
Ship and let ship. Remember when this was fun?
Don't invade spaces that aren't yours to start trouble, and stay appropriate with the tags. Fandom etiquette, it's pretty neat.
Y'all suck the joy out of everything.
#the way i can apply this to half of the ships amd characters i like#ive seen things#ive seen some crazy shit#heard some wild takes#take a chill pill#and sit your asses down#kataang#aang#zuko#atla#shipping wars#shipping discourse#fandom etiquette#this applies to every ship btw it just so happens that i stumbled upon yet another kataang vs zutara ordeal and im fed up#ruining it for the rest of us#i get it and i do think the passion is beautiful and a show of how many emotions and how much love these characters still make us feel#but hot damn enough is enough
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what i found most interesting about the entire bvddie poker scene was that it confirmed that not only has eddie friends and hobbies outside of being with buck, he also deliberately must have not told him?because in no way does it not randomly come up between besties who spend sm time together. it's not like eddie is doing anything bad either, there is no good reason to keep it a secret. additionally, we know that buck is often the one babysitting chris, and poker usually takes place in the evening/at night, so like??? the way that buck hasn't known about this part of eddie's life for sooo long is just fascinating to me because it feels like eddie had to go out of his way to keep it a secret lmao. especially in direct comparison to the emotional cheating art of eddie in s7! we see buck having awareness when eddie uses buck as a babysitter for chris, re the timing and all, even that eddie wore cologne, just saying. bvddie shippers salivated over the poker scene, which, fair enough, buck and eddie looked great in it. but what was most memorable to me is that once again we were shown how bvddie is not nearly as codependent as shippers like to pretend they are and actually don't share everything with each other (and are cool about that, too).
nonny, these are all such good words. it feels like if you even imply that maybe buck and eddie don't live in each others pockets as much as buddie shippers act like they do, that you're saying their friendship is nothing and that they don't care about each other.
I'm actually really tired of having to put a disclaimer that yes, buck and eddie are very important to each other and their friendship is very important. but I've seen co-dependent friendships and relationships on tv—theirs ain't it. also, the insistence that eddie is the biggest influence on buck's growth really rubs me the wrong way. the biggest influences are bobby and maddie
I really hope RG's comments in the article pan out during this season, and we can see eddie hanging out with the others more
#cleo gets mail#anonymous#honestly i'm also getting tired of acting like i care that much sbout eddie#i don't dislike him#he's just my least favourite main#probably cause i find his stories boring#i don't care about his love and grief for shannon because i don't care about shannon#i don't care about him deciding to date again#his breakdown arc was interesting in theory#but the execution was a let down#and this doppelganger plotline could have been interesting if they let him get messy with it#but it was also just so damn boring#also i can't really get into RG's acting during these big emotional scenes; probably why the breakdown felt meh to me#911#911 discourse#anti buddie
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I’m definitely gonna make a stance on this, I’m on the side of Skullgirls fans who are angry about the censorship going on in the game.
If people were mad about the boobs and panty shots, maybe they shouldn’t be playing the boobs-and-panty-shots game. Just a thought.
#discourse#That’s not even going into the Big Band censorship and the stuff with Parasoul and the Black Egrets#You don’t HAVE to like or be comfortable with depictions like that but it’s so much more insulting to censor it my dudes#Like honestly Skullgirls wasn’t my thing; I have massive respect for it as a passion-project fighting game#But damn I wouldn’t demand that they change anything
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seen so many posts on twt (yeah I know my first mistake), using the qsmp purgatory event as an excuse to hate on cc!bbh, not even disguising it as crit for the character q!bbh. Just straight up hate posts. and honestly it’s pretty sad to see, because the purgatory event has created some absolutely fantastic content imo, and seeing this kind of reaction is only going to be disheartening for everyone involved, no matter what their opinions might be on bbh’s playstyle.
if the admins or Any of the other players thought he genuinely needed to back off then they would have fucking DMed him and told him, like clearly everyone is very fucking good at communicating in this server. yall need to chill for a second.
#discourse#negativity#i never usually comment on this kinda thing but I saw SO many posts#like dude. trust the damn ccs to communicate behind the scenes if they’re not happy#and this comes from a bolas viewer dude I Know how much of an antagonist he’s been to them#it does not grant you the permission to be hateful#qsmp#anyway rant over im sorry
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Defending day on the internet is not enough I need a gun
#am I satisfied with the finale? no#did the writers made some questionable choices: yes#i am disappointed and I wished the writers would have made some things differently#but if you’re here telling that mork deserved better than day#and that day doesn’t love mork#i am sorry but we didn’t watch the same show#the reason day broke up with mork is because he thought by breaking up with mork mork would have a better future and opportunities#and there wasn’t a hint of selfishness in that#he loves mork so much couldn’t bear the thought of not spending every damn minute with him#is that what mork wanted? no but that’s a different discourse#so stop talking shit about day I see you in the tags#I see you on twitter#I SEE YOU#STOP TALKING SHIT ABOUT MY BABY#last twilight
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Dentorin is cute, but also for cowards. Seymourin is where it’s at. Far more sick and twisted
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#why is there so much damn shipping discourse in my damn inbox#at least this one seems good natured#and yeah its really sick adn twisted#little shop of horrors#confession#orin scrivello#seymour krelborn#shipping#arthur denton
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if you look for a reason to hate someone you’re always going to find it, please for the love of god choose to use your energy on better things
#daniel ricciardo#f1#im so god damn#tired!!!#got home from work wanted to come here immediately hit in the face with discourse / drama FUCKS SAKE#if you hate him so damn much what the fuck ever but don’t fill his tag with your bullshit#and don’t attack people who don’t god#im so over this I love tumblr but its just bringing me down rn its my one sm I actually use and now - idk#joey rambles#why on earth are you using all that effort on hating someone who doesn’t know you exist#WHY?! why are you doing the Most to harass people who DO like him?? ‘I’m allowed my opinion#you are but so is everyone else?????#🫠🫠🫠
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on second thought, most of y’all never did actually figure out the whole aphobia being perpetuated by joke posts equating asexuality with cringiness thing so idk why im surprised to see so many of y’all falling for the same exact shit when it comes to polyamory
#I say on second thought bc I was like damn why am I seeing so many posts about poly people#when it’s obviously the same shit that was said about ace people????#and then I remembered the only reason I don’t see that brand of aphobia on my dash as much is bc I#literally general filter the urls of popular tumblr funnymen who post that shit and are constantly reblogged w no consequences#bc so long as they don’t go like ‘I’m an aphobe’ they can say whatever and no one thinks about it#hell some of them straight up have said they’re aphobic and it’s treated like a minor character flaw#rather than the bigotry it is#so yeah#I shouldn’t be surprised to see people falling for the same tricks when y’all never figured out#those tricks in the entirety of the last decade#people talk about ace discourse like its all done and no one is aphobic anymore#and then reblog post making fun of cringey ace person by funnyman420#so yeah fuck it ofc ‘look at all these cringe poly people’#is gonna be an instant hit huh#456 words#ask to tag#aphobia#polyphobia
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It might be unintentional on reds part, but they did wait until the last minute when there were no players there to counter their strategy and they made sure to do it so other players were unable to redeem any quests before time ran out. So, it's not 100% the same, but it's close enough that you can't blindly cheer for red and hate on blue for it.
#qsmp#qsmp liveblogging#also people saying red grinded throughout the day for their win#yeah?#so did blue???#literally could not have cashed in the global quests if they hadn't grinded for the stuff???#qsmp discourse#it's like everyone is able to see how much purgatory has sucked for red and green#but seem to be unable to recognise that blue team has had a damn terrible time too#they grinded for two days and got nothing#so are they supposed to be sorry they decided that today they were going all in????#newsflash all the teams play dirty#/neg#just to be sure#venting real hard in the tags
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it's not "entirely made up", which is the entire reason people are complaining lol have you seen what the fandom has done to the nazi allegory?
i agree that the people complaining are toxic, but also, a lot of the changes are both misogynistic and homophobic, and there's a lot of toxic masculinity and abusive romance tropes being romanticized, are people not allowed to call them out? representation is important, isn't it?
you literally tagged your post, adding to the toxicity
most new works follow the "new model" and people who write different things are harrassed (i've seen people be harrassed simply because they don't ship wolfstar). how are we supposed to change that if we don't call it out?
discourse in fandom is normal. you can just as easily follow your own advice and not read it/block it.
Y'all are quick lmao
Okay, okay, so, to get the easy stuff out the way:
I unfortunately made another hasty post, I didn't elaborate enough, that's definitely on me.
In my defense, it's 2:30am, I need to be up in five hours at the latest, and I saw the fifth post hating on jegulus and/or other fun parts of the fandom that I genuinely cannot find anything objectively problematic about.
I got pissed.
I tagged my post, and I agree that I further fueled the discourse.
This has been something that I've done before, unfortunately. I'm used to thinking of tags as part of screaming into the void, I'll be sure to erase them after this.
But as you said, it's normal for there to be discourse in fandom.
And honestly, that's what I usually do. Ignore it. Like I do with a lot of things I don't agree with on the internet.
I don't remember contributing to this whole ordeal before tbh, and I've been here for a decent amount of time.
But I got so ticked off, I wanted to get it off my chest for once.
Lost my grip there, but I honestly didn't think too deeply about it.
Anyway, yes, yes, obviously it's not entirely made up. We have the HP series, aka the source material, in which we do see quite a bit of Remus and Sirius.
I was more referring to the fact that every single other character in the marauders era, is, in fact, made up.
It's undeniable that, despite the bits and pieces we've heard throughout the books, we can't possibly have any sort of concrete understanding of how these characters were during their Hogwarts days, before the war.
Not only because the bits and pieces don't in any way make up a whole picture, but also because some of them might've been entirely unreliable.
So these characters; younger Remus and Sirius, as well as James, Peter, Lily, Regulus etc etc etc, have more or less been crafted on very arbitrary ideas.
They are made up, and very rarely reconcilable to their adult counterparts, which makes sense from several standpoints. (E.g. their canon characters have been severely beaten down and traumatized. AUs take place in entirely different settings; the context changes entirely, and so do the characters)
Now, as for the nazi allegory, I assume you're referring to a) morons who are glorifying the death eater tattoo (jesus christ), or b) the 'Slytherin Skittles'?
In b's case, I'd wager it started with Regulus and the potential to explore the Black Family dynamics, which then escalated to giving him his own friend group and creating entertaining dynamics between them.
However, I genuinely do not see the harm in this.
It hardly matters that they're canonically deaths eaters, or that they were most likely blood supremacists and horrible people; or whatever else could've been going on with them.
They were so barely mentioned in the actual story. Doesn't matter what effect their existence had on the story and how it served the narrative, because they were barely ever directly there.
We know next to nothing for fact. So it's next to impossible for most people to care for their actions in canon, and just see them as blank canvases.
I can't really fault them for that.
People project whatever they want on characters that are firmly established and thoroughly explored; characters that are borderline non-existent are free real estate.
And yes, changes can totally be problematic.
A prime example is definitely the hyperfeminization of Sirius, to make wolfstar fit the classic heteronormativity that plagues queer ships.
As for the romanticization of abusive romance tropes, I honestly have never seen it.
I mean, I hear people complaining about it, but I swear to fuck, it feels like you guys are fighting ghosts sometimes 😭
Either it's a part of the fandom I've somehow steered clear of, despite being balls deep in it, or some people are exaggerating, which isn't out of the realm of possibility, but I kind of doubt that's the case.
As for toxic masculinity, again, I literally haven't seen it. Hand to my heart, scout's honour, I have not.
Hyperfeminization? Definitely.
Toxic masculinity? Macho men? Written in any context that's not challenging it, and is promoting it? Nope.
Representation is important, and that was the other part my post was based on.
I've seen people hate on the liberties others have taken to explore gender through these characters, which ticked me off even more.
And this is coming from a cis individual, who doesn't really fuck with he/they Sirius, they/them James, etc etc.
I don't think that there's any harm in people creating/enjoying content that is representative of their struggles/experiences with gender (or any other part of life).
Exactly because in the marauders fandom, characters are incredibly flexible, for aforementioned reasons.
Blank canvases, remember?
Usually this hate, from what I've seen, comes from people who prefer sticking to the canon part of this whole story.
In which case, totally, the 'new model' is very. Very. Unrealistic.
(There are definitely harmful headcanons out there. Even within this context, there also exists content that fetishizes the very thing I just defended. But I physically can't sit here and list off every problematic thing that has happened in this fandom. I don't have the energy. And that's not what the post is about anyway)
-"People who write different things are harassed".
Yes, glad that you get my point, even though I obviously didn't get it across.
This goes both ways. This goes all ways. Yeah, people who don't ship wolfstar get hate.
But people who headcanon Regulus as trans get it too.
People who prefer Jily get hate.
But jegulus shippers have their hands full as well.
People giggling over silly headcanons that are honestly just that: silly; can't catch a break.
What was that, you like the new model? Here's all the ways I think it sucks ass.
Oh, you prefer canon? What a loser, you're in the wrong fandom.
Ultimately, the joy gets drained out of everything.
This is meant to be fun. This is meant to be a break from real life stress.
It's not meant to leave you exhausted because you're too busy apologizing about not taking something too seriously, or defending your ship preferences.
In the end, however, I obviously get what you're saying. There are harmful changes that deserve to be pointed out.
But I never said that they didn't. Calling out the notions that are inherently problematic when perpetuated is important.
Constructive criticism is welcome. It's crucial. It only adds, it deepens people's understanding of media and brings attention to problematic aspects of certain interpretations.
That's not what I was referencing in my original post; at least, not intentionally.
I was talking about how so many people love to mindlessly complain about things they don't like, without actually bringing up any substantial points.
The only goal is to tear other people down.
As we've agreed, some of these changes are problematic.
But so is the way some people convey their disagreements.
Some of y'all use your complaints about new character developments to also hide your general prejudice against something.
Like, there's no need to get this heated over genderfluid Sirius.
In this particular instance, it's because the general concept of the 'new model' is pretty mainstream, so it's hard to avoid it. So I know that I'm being a bit unfair when I say, 'ignore it'
Ignoring it is rarely easy though, no matter how mainstream or minor.
It should be, because logically this is all fictional and it doesn't matter if someone dislikes your OTP, or if you think someone's hc is painfully unrealistic.
But we can't help it. It's impossible to care about how fictional something is when it means so much to us.
And seeing something antithetical to our interpretation can feel like some sort of personal attack, even when it's really not.
Part of it also stems from how, when you see fifty other people throwing in their two cents, you also want to.
Because it's a base instinct to want to be heard.
All that said, ignoring it, despite the circumstances, is often the best way to go, because a lot of the time it can be irrational.
Hating on someone because they don't like your ship can be irrational.
Starting a fight over someone's differing interpretation of a character can be irrational.
Think critically before you speak, and be careful when phrasing your points.
Being respectful is crucial, and if you're not getting the same courtesy, then stepping back is the smarter choice.
I'm still working on always maintaining these things myself.
I've been doing a bang-on job, broadly speaking.
I had a slight moment of weakness earlier :P
(For those wondering, I took the og post down. It wasn't anything tragic, I just said that most people who complain about the fandom's toxicity actively contribute to it when they hate on stuff others enjoy.
In the tags I went off a bit, my ultimate points being that the fun is often sucked out of everything, and that if I personally don't like something, I avoid it, stick to my stuff, and don't venture into others' spaces if I'm not willing to be open minded.
But I was definitely more aggressive with the delivery, which was my bad. I hate it when I break my own rules on how I want to behave on here.)
Anyway, so sorry for this long rant, and sorry if I've missed something or made a bad/harmful point. I'm borderline asleep.
And it's now 4:10am and I got too absorbed in this *sigh*
#i think ive gotten my point across fine this time. i also think it's a pretty good one#marauders fandom#the marauders#usually my tags are so much more fun but im keeping this concise. succinct.#i need to go to bed#sirius black#regulus black#discourse#fandom etiquette#because i think this definitely fits#damn this is pretty long#sorry for the ramble#what else#oh yea#anon ask
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tiny fandom rant
thinking abt how being an Intellectual Brown woman isolates me from fandom experiences bc since i call out orientalism/racism against swana and my people in media that makes me too "anti" but the shit id be into and ship since i was 13 would land me 100ft deep into "proship" territory....
#u see my dilemma?#too proship for the antis and too anti for the proships#i think the entire proship vs anti discourse is stupid anyway just have basic fandom etiquette#of “dont like dont read”#but also feel free to openly criticize media that u consume too bc now media is flawless#also i hate that u can call out smth racist in media but then all the white gays jump you bc u pointed out a flaw in their favorite media#like SHUT UPPPPPP#anyway the islamic symbol appropriation in legend of Zelda ocarina of time for the gerudo sparked this#and also the gerudo being basically desert thieves dressed like bastardized belly dancers like im so tired#and then on twitter i remember seeing a huge thread calling out every instance of orientalism in gacha gaming#and non brown ppl stuck their asses in saying “who cares shut up anti these are good chara designs”#like i hate yall fandom mfs soooooo much u are all so allergic to basic critical thinking#the woes of being an intellectual are so heavy on my beautiful brain and body#also racism DOES show up in your “harmless” fictional media bc EVERY MEDIA CREATED IS INFLUENCED BY POLITICS#WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT!!!!#like take a damn university social science class u stupid motherfucker
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Seeing stuff like the bottom comment makes me want to kill myself
i want stories that revolve around queerness but y'know...minus all that Bad Sex Stuff™
ok. so you want stories where SEXUAL ORIENTATION is at the forefront of the narrative. but without any of that horrible icky gross perverted...y'know...sex.
(and I just know someone is gonna jump on this and be like "SO YOU WANT TO SHOW EXPLICIT FULL PENETRATION WITH TEENAGERS WHILE THEY'RE HAVING ANONYMOUS HOOK UPS IN A SEX DUNGEON?" Which has to be the most bad-faith, false binary, dumbass interpretation of this critique. first of all, no. but there is a monumental amount of middle ground between depictions that are totally desexualized (i.e. utterly disingenuous assuming the characters in question are allo) and hyper-graphic-full-penetration-just-shy-of-actual-porn. Like....there is so much goddamn middle ground between those things it crosses multiple fucking time-zones. ALSO that kind of response was exactly the kind of thing ultra conservatives used to pull out any time people were like "hey, maybe queer youth experiences should be part of media." Why are any of you recycling BS discourse ultra conservatives used to revel in using against you?)
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The way people will treat extremely new definitions for labels as the Only Acceptable Definition sometimes is fucking WILD
Anyways I'm a proud butch panagender (mix between pangender and agender) & genderfluid lesbian and ily all other lesbians who get shit for not fitting the newest box for what people expect lesbians to be <3
#'lesbian means non men loving non men only!!!' that definition has been in high use for like 3 years calm down#and my butch lesbian multigender ass is not giving up my label based on a brand new ass definition#some people aren't going to fit your idea of what a specific lgbtq label looks like and thats okay#and honestly some of you really need to get the fuck over it#putting so much damn energy into policing others identities based on the most popular definition SCREAMS privilege#I promise you some trans person online IDing as a lesbian while having a gender that is partially a man is not#going to be what makes the whole damn community collapse. or the cause for prejudice towards lgbtq people at all#anti lgbtq people actively discriminating against us is what is causing that not us#rant#mini rant#lgbtq#lesbian#multigender lesbian#genderfluid lesbian#genderqueer lesbian#butch lesbian#discourse#not putting this in all the discourse tags because certain discoursers I dont want to deal with keep finding it when I do that
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loki season two has me screaming crying throwing up trying not to get dragged back into the mcu trenches
#i am stronger than this. i am better than this!!#by the trenches i mean consuming fanfiction at an unhealthy rate. fourteen year old me was insane i think i was on ao3 more than i slept#that’s not exaggeration. i was getting four hours of sleep on school nights and frequently went to bed at 5am on weekends#it is ONE good story. one. literally not worth it. i don’t even care about ninety percent of the mcu characters#i will ignore the little voice in my head reminding of the sheer amount of fanfiction. this was my pre-tumblr days#so my fandom interaction was like. youtube and ao3. maybe instagram posts sometimes. it was so much fun like. zero drama zero discourse#i was honestly living my best life. got less interested when i joined tumblr and went full doctor who mode#and after endgame i watched i think wandavision and loki and that was it. just didnt care anymore lol#i know exactly why this is happening tho. currently the thing i am insane about is my own damn project. which i am in the process of writin#for obvious reasons no fandom there. bc it lives in my mind twenty four fucking seven#i do wonder if i’m kind of growing away from fandom anyway? the closest i’ve got since toh ended was homestuck tbh#i want to feel obsessed with something again!! everything i’m into now - tma tlt and the like - i love them#but it doesnt hit like it used to. i don’t know it’s hard to explain#like video essays that i would have loved a few years ago!! the hour long ones about representation and queer media#they just irritate me now! i got halfway through one last week and had to bail i just could not care less#how did 2020 social media have me convinced that x character being gay was super important politically economically socially etc#ofc the answer is that i was a baby lesbian getting even less social interaction than normal#like representation is important obviously but also. sometimes it was not that deep#i don’t know if i’m making sense tbh but you get my drift#morganposting
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