#so much captain swan

[zaharadessert]

I posted 92 times in 2022

33 posts created (36%)

59 posts reblogged (64%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@kmomof4

@snowbellewells

@jrob64

@pirateherokillian

@k-leemac

I tagged 63 of my posts in 2022

Only 32% of my posts had no tags

#cs ff - 43 posts

#captain swan - 42 posts

#zaharadessert writes - 37 posts

#emma swan - 22 posts

#captain hook - 21 posts

#talented shipmates - 20 posts

#neverland new year - 14 posts

#killian jones - 14 posts

#princess emma - 12 posts

#neverland au - 12 posts

Longest Tag: 69 characters

#but this is what i imagine would be in it if i were ever to write one

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

The Heart of the Saviour (1/12)

Rating: Explicit, mostly for the violence. But there's significant smut in the last chapter.

Warnings: Abduction, Ransom, Mortal Peril.

Summary: One night, in every corner of every magical realm, every boy aged nine to seventeen disappeared. Not one remained. That was when Pan made himself known to the realms, and from that night the eve of every boy’s ninth birthday meant their disappearance, until finally the realms demanded to know what he wanted to return their children to them. Pan told them he wanted the saviour, and while most realms were confused Snow and David knew what he meant and confessed the role their daughter was supposed to have played in breaking the curse. The realms voted and agreed to Pan’s terms, and Pan stopped taking the realms sons, holding the children he’d currently taken as insurance of their compliance.

For the next fifteen years Emma’s birthday wasn’t a celebration, it was another tick on the countdown clock to the end of her freedom. Not that she was ever free in the first place, but to save every male child in the United Realms including her younger brother, Leo… She understood that she had a job to do, and she would do her duty with her head held high. What she didn’t count on was the sparkling blue eyes of the man Pan sends to escort her to Neverland in time for her twenty-first birthday.

Notes: It is finally finished… only a month and a half late… ooops. I hope you all enjoy it and think it was worth the wait! I am so excited to share it with you all, so do let me know what you think! I won’t be posting whole chapters on tumblr because they are so damn long… but there’s a link to the full chapter on AO3!

A huge, huge thank you to @kmomof4​ for betaing this for me, and for being super supportive while I’ve been tearing my hair out over this. Thank you to the @neverlandnewyear​ mods for running this event again, I have had so much fun writing this!

Read on AO3: Chapter One

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The ship had first been seen just after noon, exactly as Pan’s most recent missive had told them it would. It had been delivered as all the others had been by the wingless fairy he kept in his employ, the magic that transported her to and from his lands not strong enough to take more than just her. So, he was sending a ship, and his envoy should be given all the courtesy one might expect upon arriving at a Royal Court before departing with the promised cargo the next morning.

Cargo.

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Read the rest on AO3

44 notes - Posted March 5, 2022

#4

Canticum Sanguinis Lux - Initium (1/8?)

Summary: Once, all Emma Nolan wanted was a normal life, but when she had a run in with a vampire as a teenager she realised that she couldn’t escape the life of a hunter. Now all she wants to do is prove herself, and she’s going to end up going above and beyond to be the hunter the world needs her to be.

Rating: Explicit. Mostly for graphic descriptions of violence, and some smut.

Warnings: There are hints at the non con nature of the control vampires can have over humans.

Length: should be eight chapters.?

Notes: So, first off, a huge thankyou to the @cssns​ mods for running this event again. Thanks so much for the opportunity. Secondly, thank you to @clockadile​for the gorgeous banner. Lastly, thank you to @kmomof4​, who not only is an amazing beta, but volunteered to deal with my panics and general insanity. Thank you so much, I could not have done this without you.

One final note, thank you for reading. I apologise, I’ve broken my own cardinal rule and started posting before I’ve finished writing. But this is kinda a prologue, so I think it’s gonna be fine on it’s own until I’m done? I hope… hahaha! Thanks so much for reading.

Also on AO3

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Emma’s footsteps echoed in the alleyway, the buzz of the streetlamps a distant hum behind her that faded to nothing amid the click of her heels on the poorly laid tarmac. She wrinkled her nose against the smell of the bins stacked at the end, her eyes flicking up to take in the fire escapes on either side. She could feel the shadows pressing in around her, ominous and foreboding.

“Walsh?” she called, her voice sounding timid and worried as she moved further away from the safety of the populated street and into the darkness. Where the hell had he gone? She’d only been a couple of steps behind him and it wasn’t that dark down here… “Walsh, stop messing around. This isn’t funny and you’re far too old for these silly games,” she declared with an almost petulant huff.

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Continued on AO3

49 notes - Posted July 10, 2022

#3

A Tarnished Proposal

Rating: T, I think...

Warnings: For me this is super tame, but Neal is an ass so… he threatens some things.

Length: ~5k

Summary: Three years ago, Neal Cassidy halted his pursuit of Emma in favour of the fortunes of an heiress by tarnishing her reputation. Now he's back intending to collect his prize, but Emma isn't the wide eyed ingénue he courted so easily last time. When he invites himself to join the family and some other guests for dinner, the night yields far more than anyone bargained for.

Notes: Great thanks to @kmomof4​ for once again being a wonderful beta. The art is by the lovely @undercaffinatednightmare​, I had so much fun talking to you about it, it really has brightened my time being ill over the last couple of days. You should all thank her too, if she hadn't made it, I wouldn't be posting this.

This fic was inspired by a visited to the National Trust property called Upton House. It is the house featured in the art in fact (we're clever like that!) So honestly it's pretty British, even if the 'era' isn't overtly stated it's meant to be regency in feel.

So I hope you enjoy, and thank you for the support!

Complete Story on AO3

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Emma usually loved the house parties her parents threw at their country home; they were more relaxed than the ones that happened in town and she felt under less scrutiny here. Anyone who was invited was a friend, and didn’t know or didn’t care about what had happened three years ago. But tonight was different, and she found herself having to step out of the long gallery and onto the terrace when the men came through from the dining room because she simply couldn’t bear it anymore.

Normally, sat across from her younger brother Leopold she had a good time glancing across the table and having silent conversations about things their dinner guests had said, but she’d been seated next to Lord Cassidy who’d happened to be in the area and had seen her father this morning. He’d spent the whole time at dinner being absolutely insufferable and she was done with the whole charade. It didn’t matter how many platitudes he offered, how many compliments he dropped with that insipid smile on his face, she was not going to change her mind.

Not after what he’d done to her.

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62 notes - Posted February 27, 2022

#2

Sneak Peek! [The Heart of the Saviour]

Rating: This peek is Teen, I guess. I expect the rest of the fic to be Mature, maybe straying into Explicit? I’m not sure, it’s not finished yet!

Warnings: Abduction, Ransom, Mortal Peril.

Length: Currently over 70k… and still going…

Summary: One night, in every corner of every magical realm, every boy aged nine to seventeen disappeared. Not one remained. That was when Pan made himself known to the realms, and from that night the eve of every boy’s ninth birthday meant their disappearance, until finally the realms demanded to know what he wanted to return their children to them. Pan told them he wanted the saviour, and while most realms were confused Snow and David knew what he meant and confessed the role their daughter was supposed to have played in breaking the curse. The realms voted and agreed to Pan’s terms, and Pan stopped taking the realms sons, holding the children he’d currently taken as insurance of their compliance. 

For the next fifteen years Emma’s birthday wasn’t a celebration, it was another tick on the countdown clock to the end of her freedom. Not that she was ever free in the first place, but to save every male child in the United Realms including her younger brother, Leo… She understood that she had a job to do, and she would do her duty with her head held high. What she didn’t count on was the sparkling blue eyes of the man Pan sends to escort her to Neverland in time for her twenty-first birthday.

Notes: So this is a sneak peek for my NLNY fic for 2022. I was hoping to have this written in time, but it’s become a monster and it’s not done. I can’t start posting properly until I’ve finished writing, so instead please enjoy the art up the top there and the opening of chapter one…

A huge, huge thank you to @kmomof4​ for betaing this for me, and for being super supportive while I’ve been tearing my hair out over this. Thank you to the @neverlandnewyear​ mods for running this event again, and for letting me push my date back, even if the only thing it’s achieved is me getting the art done so I can share that… Ooops!

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Note on the above... I took out the rest of the thing cause it's already up there somewhere, lol!

83 notes - Posted January 24, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Fallen Angel

Rating: Mature

Warnings: Mentions of attempted non-con and past ‘wifely duties’. It’s all emotional angst and feels, starting with a little Emma!Whump and misery.

Length: 5k

Summary: Forced into a marriage she didn’t want with a man she didn’t love when her parents died, Emma Nolan did everything she could to make the best of it. But when he died, leaving her with an infant son, she realised the depths of his disregard for her and the sanctity of their marriage. Not only was he a gambler, he spent his winnings on his mistresses and left his young wife and with enough debt that she ended up in a workhouse. A workhouse which, like everything she used to own, has just been sold, and the new owner is coming by to survey his new purchase.

Notes: Inspired by visits to Lavenham Guildhall and Ickworth House(the property in the art, funnily enough), set somewhen in the 1800s. Betaed by the lovely @justanother-unluckysoul. Art by me!

Oh, and I'm not posting this as a celebration of getting 100 followers!!!!! Thank you all so much for the love!

Also on AO3

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Emma’s hands had never known such hardship; she’d have said the same for the rest of her but she was a mother. Her body had been through a lot in the last couple of years, but her life had never prepared her for this. Her back was killing her, bent over this loom with the added weight of her child snuggled into the fabric holding him against her chest. He was the only thing she had left worth anything, and she would do whatever it took to give him a life better than what they were facing now.

It had been called a mercy when they’d made the ruling. They’d stripped her life away from her, taken everything she owned except the clothes she’d been lent by the maid, and the meanest of items she needed for her son who hadn’t even been a year old.

Mercy, at the hands of men who didn’t care if she and her child lived or died.

Finish reading on AO3

85 notes - Posted February 5, 2022

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[taylorkellyreporting]

CAPTAIN SWAN LIVES 🫶🏼

[mccallhero]

favourite ouat scenes: 18/?

[avengerdaisy]

Emma Swan and Killian Jones in OUAT, 3x22 There's No Place Like Home

[stubblesandwich]

[dinneratgrannys]

ONCE UPON A TIME 5.20, Firebird

[lowkeyfalleninlove]

Emma should’ve had a wedding dress that wasn’t so stiff. And i swear when i saw that dress i created a hc that Emma doesn’t like lace dresses. That dress did NOT fit her. And don’t get me started on her hair, it also felt restrictive for no reason when it’s her WEDDING?! I stand by her wearing a dress that is off the shoulder, with a swan inspired look, and her hair DOWN! (Or a loose, low bun that isn’t so tight and has some strands out.)

And it’s the fact that Killian’s outfit was so in character idk what happened when they planned her dress.

[athenascrows]

I don’t even blame hook for falling for emma after one kiss like I would too whatever my green eyed goddess wants!

[killianxswan]

ouat writers really could not have been more serious about the crystal used in robin's sacrifice. they made it very clear that the victim will be dead. gone. obliterated. forever.

meanwhile killian defies all odds, walks out of hell, meets the god of all gods who is a certified captain swan shipmate™️, and is home in time for the post funeral pot luck at granny's.

[saptaincwan]

what if we were married and i loved you and we read a book about a book about a book about a book about a movie about a house and a home and fear and love

[k-leemac]

But it was just a kiss. How is that your darkest secret?

It’s what the kiss exposed.

[colinoeyebrows]

[thresholdbb]

Can we talk about The Dying Swan moment in Coda? As someone who was once a very serious ballerina, I need to talk about the Dying Swan. Here's your context --

CHAKOTAY: Harry's clarinet solo was okay. I could have done without Tuvok's reading of Vulcan poetry. But the highlight of the evening was definitely Kathryn Janeway portraying the Dying Swan. JANEWAY: I learned that dance when I was six years old. I assure you, it was the hit of the Beginning Ballet class.

Have you seen The Dying Swan? It is dramatic.

Here, take a minute:

First of all, this dance is much too advanced for a six-year-old, even if they’re doing it in demi pointe. (Six-year-olds emphatically should not be in pointe shoes btw.) The dance is almost entirely bourees and arm movements done to very subtle musical cues, not the foundational ballet moves typically taught in Beginning Ballet.

This is a very vulnerable, dramatic dance that is effective because of its subtleties. The performer would need to embody that vulnerability in some way for a convincing performance. It's short, but it's a solo piece -- all eyes on you. I mean, it was choreographed for a prima ballerina, BUT THAT'S NOT MY POINT

Can you imagine our unflappable Captain Janeway willingly getting in front of her crew to do this ballet? I get that it’s thematically relevant to the plot of Coda, but since Janeway is only vulnerable in front of her crew when it means putting herself in harm’s way, it seems like a wild decision. She tends to hold herself apart from her crew, maintaining the professional distance of the captain. Further, when she does any creative pursuit, it is almost always in private, since her sister was the artist in the family and she was the scientist. As a captain, she commands Voyager in a much different way than she would as a dancer with this piece. I'm not saying she never shows vulnerability because she definitely does, but not necessarily in this way. Then when she talks about it with Chakotay, she just casually brushes it off with a laugh like no big deal.

There’s also the question of costume – would she have gone full tutu? Done it in her Starfleet uniform? An impeccable yet flow-y white suit? She does get into costume and command a performance in Bride of Chaotica!, but Coda is still kind of early days for our captain. Arachnia aligns more with what we know about Janeway's character.

Granted, it is Chakotay laying down these complements about her dancing ability and he is clearly biased. To be fair, Neelix does too before they leave in the shuttle. If she did this dance and performed it poorly or amazingly, I feel like the crew would look at her a bit differently afterwards.

Canonically she did The Dying Swan, but I certainly have trouble picturing it happening.

[mccallhero]

favourite ouat scenes: 55/?

[stubblesandwich]

Selected lines from Caitlyn Siehl's magnificent poem:

When is a monster not a monster? Oh, when you love it. Start by pulling him out of the fire and putting him back together with the pieces you find on the floor. There is so much to forgive, but you do not know how to forget. When is a monster not a monster? Oh, when you are the reason it has become so mangled.

[killiansprincss]

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again 5A is criminally underrated. Watching it when you know why Emma has gone fully dark is heart wrenching because it’s not because of any dark magic it’s all because of love and seeing how she acts around Killian makes me weep because girl was trying so hard to make sure he doesn’t remember he’s the dark one because she was convinced she could save him and all throughout Camelot how she’s dressed in white is just chefs kiss. Emma’s walls have been smashed down by Killian and she’s slowly accepting that she deserves a future with him and she wants that so badly she refuses to let him die, straight up refuses and makes him immortal