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catkin-morgs-kookaburralover · 2 years ago

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I was actually having a pretty good day until just now :/

#i reread and made notes for two solid hours! 15k of words!#i went for a walk and got ransom a toy and stocked up on chocolate (my excuse is that sometimes when i'm feeling awful eating a bit of #chocolate helps lol and this stuff was 50% off) and generally had a good walk!#and i had a bath. first bath of the season! and i read like hafl of out of hte silent planet while i was bathing and it was wonderful!#mum made the BEST ginger pudding today!#so like. i've had a great day today!#so many blessings!#and now i just feel awful because i ate something and i wanna throw up and i mustn't #been struggling more with dealin w eating lately too at times and in the last week have been deviating from what the dietitian's been #encouraging me (variety) bc i couldn't deal with it #but today was a good day! a great day! and now i feel terrible for no apparent reason #yay me :/#puddleglum hours #personal #incidentally am SO grateful for the job that requires me to wear short sleeves bc i know that by now i would've harmed deep enough to scar #on my arms as well if i hadn't had the knowledge that the next day id have to be at work w that. the reason this is coming up rn is #bc SURPRISE i rlly wanna harm #and i CAN'T my mother found my knife. honestly even having it htere whether or not i used it felt like it gave me an option even if i #didn't take it. it was a comfort. and now it feels awful not having it esp as idk when i'll get it back and also even worse my parents #litcherally gave me that knife for my last birthday. i don't know how mum feels about that #but yeah i just. i want to do smth drastic so bad #and i CAN'T #tw sh #i don't even know why #ugh

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wingsofhcpe · 13 days ago

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extremely exhausted. probably coming down with a cold. and unable to fall asleep because I'm thinking about the stray cat I've been taking care of for 5 years who's in the hospital and probably won't make it.

#my mum (who's also been taking care of him) noticed a few days ago he had lost a lot of weight. wasn't eating or grooming himself #and today she managed to get him to the vet with the help of my aunt's partner #and the prognosis... wasn't great. we dont know what's wrong with him yet (will know by monday) but he's in very bad shape #the vet was very worried. put him on iv and is doing bloodwork on him #and i just. i dont wanna have hope that it may be sth fixable. because i know it probably isn't.#and it's better to not have hope. than believe he'll be ok only for him to be gone by Monday #i just wish i was home so i could see him one last time and say goodbye. I'll miss him so much.#he's like my own cats atp he just doesn't live inside our apartment #and he's such a good sweet boy. has the cuttest saddest meow. is a bully to other cats but loves humans. fluffiest man ever.#he deserved so much better. and im glad that if he does go it'll be in a warm safe place #and not in the grass and out in the cold all alone. but i just wish i could have said goodbye.#tw animal death #idk im just. I've been crying on and off all day #but i went out with a friend for 6hrs and it helped. but now im all alone tryig to sleep and i just cant #and my head and eyes and nose also hurt because i probably caught a cold #i hate everything

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moon-jellie · 2 months ago

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Liveblogging from mandatory resume workshop!: I need to be sedated

#I'm so freaking tired dude and I forgot I had to do this today #I've needed to cry for the last hour and a half but not a choice I suppose!#starting to realize that I've stumbled into the freshman dilemma again...are these people really my friends or do I just see them regularly #feel a great disconnect from the class I was most in love with at the beginning of the semester #don't have a relaxing weekend until the after the last day of classes #imposing myself on my acquaintances again because I just assume the world revolves around me #it didn't last weekend? my bad sorry for being annoying about it then. surely it will next weekend though!#___ remains an obligation albeit a fun one (but isn't everything)#& bless my acquaintances' hearts for trying to help me figure out my party planning but I'm not so sure I even want you guys there!#I'm actually getting nervous about this I feel like it could result in a judgmental affair...but only if x y and z are there!#mj has feelings

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zombeesknees · 7 months ago

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had to drop $812 at Midas today for all new tires/a realignment, and then i got home to find wimsey bleeding like a stuck pig from a giant gash across the underside of his neck (not sure if one of the other cats literally went for the throat, or if he just clawed all the fur and skin off), and then i had to work an extra two hours to make up for the Midas jaunt, so today has just been A Day.

picture of the recuperating, grompy patient:

#the only plus of the day is i read half of a new-to-me lucy parker book while waiting for the mechanics to finish #state of the angie b.#i've been SO GOT DAMN CAREFUL with my budget this month. i was $300 under it!!! i only had FOUR DAYS TO GO #and then today happened #so now i'm $500 over budget AGAIN and i'm not allowed to buy/do anything fun or get take-out for TWO MORE months #which is an EXTRA bummer because the oddities expo is july 20th #which means i can't get any new taxidermied friends or bones or nifty art this year. *sad siiiiigh*#also i gotta cut my groceries in half next month. i spent $300 on groceries alone this month. that's untenable.#(and it's not like i was buying fresh fruit and veg or meat or anything. that was just canned soup and pasta and microwave meals)#so july is gonna be a ramen month baaaaybeeee. what fun.#ANYWAY this is enough tag venting. i'm gonna go stab something 800 times (finish a cross-stitch to replace one lost in the mail)#(because YEAH a sampler that someone commissioned from me was lost in the mail and now i gotta make ANOTHER ONE #and then eat the extra cost for the second shipping. lololololol everything is GREAT.)

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whipped-for-fictionals · 8 months ago

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going to be singing in our school's talent showcase tomorrow!! i'm so so excited, i chose the best song to sing as my final tribute to the school

#for anyone wondering the song i chose is sway by michael buble #funny story #i was asking the music director what song i should sing earlier today cause i put my name down on the list without actually knowing what-#-song i was doing #and he was like “if i could suggest a song to you #please please don't do a slow song or a ballad-y kind of song“#“because many people have already chosen a slow song to sing. of course that's great we want to show off their talent-#-but it's going to be held at 7:30pm and we don't want to make the audience sleep pahaha“#and i was like oh shit because the songs i had in mind were slow-ish. so i had to change my song #and i was like frantically looking through my playlist on the bus #wondering what song to pick #and as i was scrolling sway shows up and i was like “that song is so upbeat and people know it well enough”#“if i want to go out with a bang during my last week of school i should go for it”#so i changed the key and learnt the key changes the lyrics and the technicalities of the song (when to get louder how to add dynamic etc.)-#-in one night lmfao #now i'm going to sob over my final day as i write teachers' cards #[🌺] my posts!#[🗣️] nessa's rambles!#[🧍] ramble in the tags #probably the biggest ramble in the tags i've ever done

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eatember · 4 months ago

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#I want to do a full clipper haircut #but I've never done the top before 💀#I have a 2“ guard and a 1 1/2” guard #I'm just sitting here like ...how much am I willing to fuck up today? hmm. 🤣#my tarot card today was nine of swords even though I've had a great day so far oh man. It knew I would be dumb.

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thestrangestwatermelonofall · 29 days ago

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i will never forget the time I was hanging out with two other people who were new friends and they were like "let's do a sonic fandub" and one of them started looking up sonic game footage on youtube for us to dub while we discussed who would speak for who and we decided I'd voice tails. But also I knew nothing about sonic at the time, i'd only seen the snapcube fandubs because I'd heard they were good and funny, I didn't know the plot or characters very well. I couldn't remember what they sounded like so while the other two started to say silly things in sonic and amy's voices I asked "what does tails sound like again?" And I was laughing because I was embarrassed and also shocked by how quickly they had started commiting to the bit of trying to do some voice acting and my friend just said "he sounds like a twink" and I could not stop laughing and I could not take the idea seriously and I just told them that I couldn't do the voice oops. And so we moved onto a different topic pretty quickly and just enjoyed the pizza we had while we waited for our other three friends to get back from the store

anyways all of this is to say that Tails is NOT a twink, he is an 8 year old little boy and my friend was misguided.

#Can you tell that I'm mentally unwell and also that I had a falling out with these friends and also that I miss them dearly #I actually went to see the sonic 3 movie today on christmas day and I saw a group of people that I know- one guy in the group was one of #The three that was at the store while we were doing the dub. I had a falling out with all five of those friends after that.#That day was really great. It was like a year ago now. I feel like that was the first time where I was really vulnerable with friends #And I had never been so honest about my interests and thoughts before with a group of people and it. It was nice. But after that day it...#I think it was all my fault. Or at least mostly my fault. I was honest with them but no one else #So I couldn't accept the truth of myself and I wasn't ready for everyone i know to know me that way so I tried to hide it and ignore it #And in doing so I stopped being honest with them and I started avoiding them. And I regret it. I could have just been a weirdo with them #I could have spent every tuesday afternoon hanging out and talking about life with them over pizza. But instead I ran away.#And of course they kept asking about me and wondering why I was being weird but I couldn't face it. And I kept running away #And they kept trying to chase after me. I even left for like two months and completely went no contact and no explanation #But then I came back because I had nowhere else to go and it... it was so awkward. It was too much. And now I'm overthinking #everything. I was so jealous of them. All of them. And when I got to be friend with them it was too much for me. My brain couldn't accept i #I'm not allowed to be happy unless it's in secret. That's what my brain thinks #That's the mantra I've been living by recently. For like the past 3-5 years. That's just how I was raised I suppose #Um. Oops I ranted too much in the tags. Sorry if you read all of this. But also thank you if you did. I hope you're well #Rant in tags #rant #personal #Why is this literally just my journal. Goodness gracious #I'm so sorry. Everything I post here is like completely dumb and irrelevant and stupid and pointless and matters very little.#I am just mentally unwell and I can barely think clearly. I am sorry. I hope you look elsewhere for actually important or meaningful words #Dang I just had a dramatic soundtrack melody start playing in my head but I have no idea where this song is from or what it's called. Damn

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guhhhhhhhhhhh · 1 month ago

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Oh little people in my phone, we're really in it now 😔😔

#it's lay on my bed yell into mattress hours #I can't tell if I'm reasonably stressed. over stimulated. or emotionally heightened because of the steroid I am on. but #today has been too many things and I feel.#sooooooo done #so done with everything #it raining and I haven't seen the sun in ages. I have bronchitis and haven't been Not Sick in a whole ass month #I have so many things to get done before Christmas which is IN A WEEK JESUS CHRIST #my CAR isn't drivable which SUCKS and it needs new TIRES and probably very expensive ENGINE REPAIRS and #my dad says he can fix them but I still have to take it into the shop just to make sure we know for sure what the problem is but #the it's already going to be in the shop and HES SICK and also like. busy. and doesn't have time to fix car #and so I might as well just pay out the fucking wazooo for them to fix it #but idk how long that will take #and I'm borrowing my grandmas car which is GREAT! like I'm so grateful to have that as an option but also! I feel BAD because it's her car #and she does actually use it and like. I don't want to take that away from her for too long #because then I feel BURDENSOME #and my mom just told me that one of my relatives just passed away and I didn't know her too well but her mom ALSO died last year like #On Christmas Day like very traumatically and I feel soo soo bad for all my cousins who have basically just had the entire Christmas season #ruined for them because they will have lost their mom AND their grandma around that time #and that HORRIBLE like oh my godddddd #and like #this holiday seasons is feeling very weird and different and worse and not BAD But like many things have changed this year and as someone #who does NOT enjoy little changes in routine and appreciates tradition uh. hehe the lines are blurring and it's stressing me outtttttt #and I got home and I had to pee and I look like shit because I've been running around all day #only to realize I left my keys Inside The House and my roomate had locked the door when he went to the gym and #thankfully the gym is a stones throw away from our house but he wasn't answering his phone #so I had to GO THERE. THROUGH THE RAIN. looking like the amount of tired and done that I am. and walk into the gym that is naturally PACKED #because it's right after work. and do the walk of shame past the v friendly gym owner who I haven't seen in MONTJ because I've been SICK #and haven't been able to work out which i ALSO FEEL GUILTY AND BAD ABOUT and #walked past all the Busy Fit Gym People in my normal person clothes to the very back where my roomate was and stand there while he finishes #his silly little reps to get his keys from him

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shima-draws · 1 year ago

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Currently in my banging my head against the wall phase. Hope you all are well 🥰

#Doc told me to schedule another MRI on Tuesday. They said they sent the order over on Tuesday.#I call on Tuesday to schedule the appointment. They don't have the referral yet #I called yesterday to try and schedule. They STILL don't have the referral #I message my doc and make sure they actually sent it over to the right place. (They did.)#They say they'll fax it over again! Great!#I call AGAIN today. They STILL don't have the referral #Bro I just need to schedule this fucking MRI so I can find out what's WRONG with me #The girl on the phone was like 'Oh yeah we're real busy we get orders all the time it must not have hit the system yet'#BRO IT'S BEEN THREE DAYS. HOW HAS NOBODY SEEN IT. TEARING my hair out #I went to their website to try and schedule online. Guess what? THEIR GODDAMN SCHEDULING ASSISTANT IS DOWN FOR MAITENANCE #SCREAMS #Anyway yes so in my banging my head against the wall phase. I'm so tired #And still in pain! To nobody's surprise!!#They can't fix what's wrong with me if I can't even get in to get an MRI. Hello. PLEASE #This isn't really smth that can wait a couple weeks #I should've been in to see them like YESTERDAY.#My pain is so bad I had to stay at home today. And I go and ice my back every hour or so #Bc I can't sit down for more than 45 minutes without wanting to kill myself ;))))#Shima speaks #I'M SORRY I'm just so. I've been over this for months. And now that I'm THIS close to getting answers #I can't. Seem to get these people to schedule an appointment for me #Grinds my teeth

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maydayfireball · 5 months ago

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Ya know. Wild that I got so many replies from people correcting / trying to correct things that were super minor or didn't matter on the vmd blog

BUT NO ONE POINTED OUT THAT I HAD THREE SEPARATE TAGS FOR つばきP!!!! anyway that's fixed now bc they put all their motions on their booth account to "avoid careless downloads" and it made me realize i missed a few. So the queue is very full again.

Also, my smoke detector started doing the low battery chirp wednesday morning. Unfortunately, the ceilings here are about 8 feet high? I think? so there's like no way in hell I can get to it on my own. The leasing office has a service request system that specifically lists "low battery smoke detector" as an option (bc ALL the ceilings are high, and i know a good number of elderly people live here).. STILL HAVEN'T HAD ANYONE COME OUT AND FIX IT YET.

IM BEING DRAMATIC BUT MY APARTMENT IS VERY SMALL AND ECHO-Y BC OF THE CEILING THING AND IT'S VERY LOUD AND I AM LOOSING MY MIND.

Anyway, assuming I don't end up dead from a smoke detector related casualty, I'll have something to post very soon.

#i don't want them to finally show up just to find it on the floor in like 20 pieces. i feel like that would reflect badly on me.#but like. does it take that long to stop by and replace a battery???#This is honestly the first time i've had this issue. i've had to call them three times before (each time AC or filter related)#and they showed up like. THE NEXT DAY.#SO LIKE WHATS UP. DO Y'ALL JUST NOT HAVE A BATTERY ON HAND AND UR PUTTIN OFF GETTIN ONE?#DO OTHER PEOPLE JUST KEEP HAVING BIGGER EMERGENCIES AND I KEEP GETTING PUSHED DOWN THE LIST?#I CANNOT KEEP SLEEPING WITH MY INCREDIBLY LOUD BATHROOM FAN ON FULL BLAST AS A DESPERATE ATTEMPT TO MUFFLE THE CHIRPS #whats worse is i know they don't work weekends and there's only about half an hour left in their work day TODAY so.#great sign. i'll probably be dealing with this until monday at least.#at this rate im like “man i hope the whole 'battery fully dies after about 7 days' thing is true”#valkris says shit

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neverendingford · 4 months ago

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