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yor forger
#i used myself as a reference so im not showing the photos this time. apologies#i was originally shooting a reference for something else entirely. but realised i needed to pin my hair up#and ended up with an even better reference lol#also the breasts are not mine. unfortunately. i was laz-- i mean i had no time to research breasts anatomy so they're not very accurate#i don't want to put the mature warning on this bc i don't want people in the sxf tag think it's corn again 😞#this is artistic nude#i don't know how to draw yor in a more realistic style at all. i can't tell if i recognise her here myself#so if you don't either i understand why#spy x family#sxf#yor forger#yor forger fanart
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maki and ouma never trying to understand each other and only seeing the other as the facades they place up is so interesting but no one in the fandom ever does anything with this except to villainize maki and call her stupid or a bitch for it
#it's cool cause like yeah they don't have reasons to want to trust each other#oumas a constant jackass to maki and maki literally choked him out about it#like yes i get why you dont want to understand each other. but it would save you both so much grief if you did#but anything i see focusing on this is so onesided cause it never addresses how ouma doesn't see maki as anything but her facade either#maki harukawa#kokichi ouma
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yk when i think about it, especially when im watching the anime with people who havent read the manga, the reason a lot of people who only watch the anime and didnt read the manga misinterpreted saikis character so badly is definitely in part because of how damn fast paced the anime is 😭
like that little smile and eye shine frame is there for not even half a second in the anime, so its easier to miss it and assume that he really did only finish those workbooks to get coffee jelly ☠️ its much more clear if you get a good look at how he reacts here that hes just a silly little tsundere and a fucking liar
#this might be really obvious but im silly#LET ME YAP !!#dont read this as me making fun of anime only fans#i was literally one until like a few months ago#i just think its unfortunate how different the vibe is#obviously i love the anime though#there are still some things i straight up don't understand how people miss though#like people who watch the whole anime and still think saiki hates teruhashi or nendo specifically#like ? he has some of his most affectionate scenes with them#but i think maybe its because they missed so many of the more subtle details#that by the time they see saikis offu or him saying he and teruhashi make a great team.. it appears more sudden to them than it really is#so they either completely ignore those scenes or dismiss them as fanservice#ugh#its. literally not fan service at all and makes perfect sense if you pay attention#idk how u can watch the sweetest line ever 'we're invincible together' and deny that saiki cares about teruhashi#in general its actually just impossible to end the show thinking he hates any of his friends unless u just ignored things on purpose#even if u ended at the first season like a lot of people#but im just saying i guess i get why its a little less obvious in the show#saiki k#tdlosk#the disastrous life of saiki k.#saiki kusuo#meows post
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I have a question for people who fervently argue that Arya has no potential for politics but think that Sansa will be one of the main political characters, and I'm asking this seriously.
If Arya learning multiple languages, how to tell + detect lies, how to rule her face so she doesn't reveal her emotions, being able to blend into different situations, thinking quick on her feet, knowing the importance of gathering information, being someone who makes friends wherever she goes, convincing a FM to help free Northern prisoners and participating in a coup, etc. don't make Arya capable of participating in politics...what exactly is it that you think Sansa will be doing as a political figure?
#arya stark#sansa stark#asoiaf#cause I would genuinely like someone to explain to me why people argue so passionately against Arya being a political character#to the point that they pretend there's zero overlap between what she's learning and what a 'political' character should know#I always see people reduce her to being a fighter and ignoring her other skills so it's obvious you think they could be useful so?#/politics/ is such a broad term too...there are so many different ways for a character to be political and I just don't understand#why people are so restrictive when thinking about how characters can occupy that space#this isn't a dig at Sansa this is me genuinely wondering what you guys think being political means and what she'll be doing#if you don't think Arya having any of these skills qualify her 😭#Arya and Sansa can both be political characters it isn't an either or scenario#this isn't the show where only one person can be the poorly written so-called /smart one/#I don't need any /no one says this!/ comments either...if you aren't someone who thinks like this then feel free to move on
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thunder reminds me of nate jacobs ♡ rain reminds me of nate jacobs ♡ navy blue reminds me of nate jacobs ♡ men's cologne reminds me of nate jacobs ♡ cheekbones remind me of nate jacobs ♡ swords remind me of nate jacobs ♡ deers remind me of nate jacobs ♡ fresh laundry reminds me of nate jacobs ♡ afternoon naps remind me of nate jacobs ♡ veiny hands reminds me of nate jacobs ♡ bandaid reminds me of nate jacobs ♡ heroes remind me of nate jacobs ♡ cuddles remind me of nate jacobs ♡ drowning reminds me of nate jacobs ♡ babies reminds me of nate jacobs ♡ loneliness reminds me of nate jacobs ♡ policemen reminds me of nate jacobs ♡ stars remind me of nate jacobs ♡ crying reminds me of nate jacobs ♡ pickup trucks remind me of nate jacobs ♡ storms remind me of nate jacobs ♡ beer bottles reminds me of nate jacobs ♡ hugs remind me of nate jacobs ♡ prince charming reminds me of nate jacobs ♡ secrets remind me of nate jacobs ♡ steel reminds me of nate jacobs ♡ handsome strangers remind me of nate jacobs ♡ the ocean reminds me of nate jacobs ♡ grey sweatpants remind me of nate jacobs ♡ dreams remind me of nate jacobs ♡ wind reminds me of nate jacobs ♡ silence reminds me of nate jacobs ♡ blueberries remind me of nate jacobs ♡ long drives remind me of nate jacobs ♡ safety reminds me of nate jacobs ♡ showers remind me of nate jacobs ♡ the cosmos reminds me of nate jacobs ♡ holding hands remind me of nate jacobs ♡ dubio on ice reminds me of nate jacobs ♡ skiing reminds me of nate jacobs ♡ sapphires remind me of nate jacobs ♡ the sky reminds me of nate jacobs ♡
#i don't think anyone understands what nate jacobs is to me ♡😣💕#i don't think i understand either ♡😭💗#he confuses me so bad... like why do i feel like that abt him??? ♡#but the heart wants what it wants hehe ♡#nate x liana ♡#inspired by his-littlefox' post abt jacks the prince of hearts ♡💌#nate jacobs x y/n#nate jacobs x you#nate jacobs x reader#nate jacobs#euphoria x fem!reader#euphoria x y/n#euphoria x reader#euphoria#jacob elordi x reader#jacob elordi#saltburn#felix catton#felix x reader#felix x oliver#girlblogging#coquette girl#just girly posts#just girly things#girl hood#girl blogger#girlhood#girly stuff#girly#girlblogger
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THIS IS SO FUNNY CUZ WHY DOES OSAMU VIEW ATSUMU LIKE THAT, IT'S BASICALLY A COPY OF OIKAWA ON A DAILY BASIS???? 😭😭
AND ATSUMU DOESNT EVEN ACT LIKE THIS USUALLY LMAOO
LOOK AT TSUMU'S FACE HE LOOKS SO PROUD OF HIMSELF FOR COMING UP WITH THAT IMPERSONATING MY BROTHER THING 🤣
ALSO HIM IMPERSONATING SAMU BUT IT'S LITERALLY ATSUMU BEING HIMSELF??
(it's just you bro)
#Also why would the girls believe them when they are wearing their respective jerseys they're so stupid i can't 😭#i can understand how you could think tsumu's that quirky but please he's not oikawa either don't go too far samu 😂#miya atsumu#miya osamu#miya twins#inarizaki#haikyuu bu#hq#funny#haikyuu
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Pov: You ask your dad to make a toy for you with his weird drawing powers and you accidentally get a new sibling because your dad is also cursed for whatever reason.
Ok, but like if Alan accidentally made Hangman like that with the intention of them being a plush, Hangman could have like plush physics like their body is generally more limp and ragdoll-like due to being made as a plushie rather than a regular stickfigure. [Sorry any mention of Hangman makes me go insane, they appeared in one short and now I need to see them explored as a character-]
(don't mind the coloring, i just wanted a way to color code it so i don't get confused by it later........ i'll probably find a better color for hangman later)
that's such a funny idea...... also they'd be extremely small since they're made for the kids but i think it'd be really funny if they were more around Chosen/Dark's initial age actually (which i hc at like. something like 10 or 11.)
their name also almost definitely wouldn't be hangman obv but. yk sklfgslkfjlksg
#tommy's foolery#sc is very confused as to why they're moving and alan has to explain that this is not a plushie this is a person#well. they are a plushie but they're a person. and that means you shouldn't play with them like a plushie#selkie!alan has to explain the concept of morality to his kid and is VERY STRESSED ABOUT IT#sc does not understand why he's stressing this so much. it's not that hard to understand#(they Don't Know)#tommy's stickmen tag#tommy's aus#tommy's stick!alan#selkie sticks au#anyway i can't exactly like. make hangman grey since that's vic's color and i don't want it to be too close to black either#because i will inevitably get confused when i look at my doodles#i guess i could make them white? idk#we'll see
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ngl it makes me want to die a little bit that it's so often trans people who feel that sex is mutable but oppression is always-forever based on asab in ways that allow them to demand that information from other trans people. like it feels fucking bad. it feels bad when it's people holding up someone who posts a lot of selfies as transition goals to a degree they have to clarify what they have or haven't done or what "direction" they're going in, it feels worse when people are out there like "caster semenya is not tma" or whatever the fuck. i am, as always, not a trans woman, but here's a sentiment echoed by many of the trans women around me who log the fuck off, quoted directly from one: "people who draw a clear line where they say that semenya or khelif are tme and then call me tma are just calling me male at this point".
like i get it. i really do. we seek community and shared experiences, and we feel betrayed when people have less in common with us than we thought they did. [*more on this later.] but that's not those people's faults and my god in the case i'm seeing play out on twitter rn this poor person did absolutely nothing to intentionally mislead people, just posted pictures of their actual kid self. who looks a lot like i did, because shockingly enough "we can always tell" doesn't fucking work for trans people either!
on the one hand i move in intersex circles which are unapologetically welcoming in cis "dyadic" people with pcos, because it serves nobody to draw a clear line where mutilation or genetics or some ineffable childhood suffering are what make somebody intersex, especially when most of us (esp in places like nz) have never been karyotyped and are being treated for symptoms without a pinned-down cause anyway. the more of us there are the stronger we are, the more pressure we can exert on a medical profession which doesn't like to consider how common outliers are, how uneasy sex is at all. and then on the other hand there's dyadic trans people on the internet who've yelled me out of spaces because a couple of traumatised incarcerated trans women i worked with as a prison abolitionist assumed i was also a trans woman and i didn't immediately tell them my entire csa-involved history of being sexed in varying ways as an infant and child and/or exactly how big my phallus was at birth or where in my junk config my urethra lives so they could decide i was tme or whatever.
returning to the * for a related but not identical thought: i think presuming shared experiences leads to some fucked shit in general! "oh we all had a radfem phase" or "oh we all were channers" no we fucking weren't and it's particularly obnoxious when me & mine are trying to build trans community locally to organise and resist the growing wave of far-right backlash against our existence, and there's just white people in there on a spectrum from "straight up being antisemitic and trying to get the n-word pass" through "handwringing about how they need to make space for people who aren't politically correct" to "handwringing about how brown people are right to be mad at them but doing shit fuckall". and then the other fucking brown people in the space are on some identity politics shit where they're like "trans joy inherently excludes those of us who could get deported" or "big city white queers are killing us by being visible instead of going stealth bc it stirs up the discourse" or whatever the fuck i've heard pulled out this year. there's a bunch of reasons i primarily organise outside of trans spaces and that's one of them. i've never felt more alone in spaces where people claim we're all the same than being left as the brownest moderator or organiser in a space full of people to whom "this is a safe trans space" apparently means they get to abdicate all other responsibilities not to lapse into presumed shared patterns that are fucking racist or otherwise alienating. i've never felt more alone than surrounded by exclusively trans people who sort people into boxes and assume everyone in those boxes has the transition goals they have. like i was on cypro until it disagreed with me to the point of endocrine crisis and now i'm on t and at both those points people were so fucking presumptive or entitled to my reasons or journey or personal relationship w my body
literally just submitted on (and was invited to consult on) the nz law commission's review of the human rights act and like. it's straight up fucked how many nz trans people fully do not comprehend that any "sex assigned at birth" type definitions fundamentally exclude migrants who have no way of proving it and many intersex people who happen to have been reassigned later or many times or never assigned at all as a baby. we can't make law with this shit and that's why we have to have symmetrical protections for all genders/sexes/expressions/presentations, bc naming and defining a protected class here often leaves the people who already are left out from those shared experiences of marginalisation out in the cold when they face violence
#reblogs turned off because obviously i'm already bracing to be pilloried for saying one thing not quite correctly or whatever#and also bc i have zero interest in having this be boosted by trans dudes on their own transandrophobia agenda either#i'm just venting#but frankly the first time i got yelled at for saying that as an intersex person some of the immense violence i experienced as a child#was motivated by transmisogyny#i was a teenager and it was someone a fair bit older than me with more local clout so like. it's been a decade. how is it worse now.#intersex spaces have made SO much progress and yet#also yes i'm femme! i'm femme in a trans way! many dykes who aren't women are!#many of us got more comfortable w it as adults who had gender agency!#in literally the same way it took my wife ages after transitioning to work out she's also butch and doesn't actually want to do femme thing#bc that's a shared experience in how we've navigated the expectations of womanhood before opting out of the parts we don't want!#anyway the lawcomm shit was fucked bc honestl i don't give a shit if someone lost their gonads as an adult in an accident#they should be protected even if they don't consider themselves intersex#and we know that gender as an axis of oppression comes back to the reproduction of the nuclear family#and that cis women who can't have kids sometimes become the political football though ofc not as much by far and like#idk. y'all ever heard about solidarity? sometimes i feel like i'm back in the place where the loudest traumatised person at the party#is yelling at another young woman like “you'll never understand what it's like to be a victim”#when said young woman was assaulted the week before.#a politics that starts by defending and defining oneself w oppression kinda fucking sucks actually#and intersex people stopped policing intersexness by who got mutilated a long time ago#bc actually we want the generations ahead to not get that treatment#and when i see “trans elders” going on about how “if you pass and got on hrt before 18 you're not trans like i am” i'm like. why! what!#anyway. tired.#may regret this. we shall see#tony muses
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Someone come explain monotheism to me, I don't GET it
#religion#christianity#judiasm#islam#Sikhism#Baháʼí Faith#Like I understand the concept#but I don't understand how it works from a faith perspective#like to me having only one god seems either so complicated or so simple that it basically loses all meaning#I like polytheism because it helps break down big issues into manageable metaphysical chunks that I can engage with more fully#I just don't know what you guys are getting out of the only one god situation#but it seems very popular so I WANT to understand#like this is a legitimate request#please come tell me why you're a monotheist#I'm trying to get it
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Every once in a while I think about the ship I've been obsessed over for close to two years now and feel like I'm ascending to another plane of reality. Like sometimes you just encounter a ship that hits every single mark and is perfect in every regard and you're left stunned how something like that can even exist
#Anyways I'mma put the actual inane ramblings in the tags#Medic and Engie make me so ill every time I think about them for a while I feel like tearing into things and biting people and throwing up#How something like that can exist completely defies me#I don't know how something that perfect can exist#I'm typically a multi-shipper and while I still kinda am I honest to god don't really care to write other ships#Not cause they ain't good (they are pretty damn good) but because Engiemedic is just on another level#Like dammnnn!! that's why I've spent so long writing a fic about them!#I can't fathom it honestly how characters like that can exist#They're like a slightly warped reflection of themselves#They're both intelligent mentally ill lunatics with no morals whatsoever#The only thing is that Engie is marginally better at hiding it#If you go into headcanon territory than WHOO!! OHH DAMNNN#Like what gets me the most about Engiemedic is how they're so similar#They think and exist on the same wavelength#In tune with each other. Their neurons braided like wires#If I start talking about how the machine and the flesh are not opposites but rather one in the same we gonna be here all day#I just can't...believe the ship exists#Like man how does this happen#You want humour? Goofy wacky experiments and silliness of them violating several conventions#You want angst? Hell yeah they've got plenty of it#Fluff? Buddy I start wailing and sobbing if they accidentally brush hands while working on stuff#I could write about them for ages and not get bored they can fit in every circumstance#They make me SICK they make me CRAZY I love them so so much#They would do anything for each other#I look at what they have and I can feel like I understand what love is#I need to write more oneshots and minifics about them they're so flexiable and fun#Can't wait to do parallels with them in these upcoming chapters#Either way GODDDDD I love these two so much I could go on for hours about them#especially if I'm allowed to talk about headcanons#sp-rambles
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EVERYWHERE I GO I CAN'T AVOID MARTLET SHIPS. /NEG
#ok I'm more chill with Martlet x Moray#bit more flexible with that one#but i REALLY hate Martlet x Ceroba#and i really don't understand why people ship it in the first place#other than to meet their lesbian quota or something#/lh#Martlet literally calls Chujin her father figure and Ceroba is the wife of that father figure#Chujin and Ceroba are older than Martlet#and this is why i don't like Starlo x Martlet either very much HFGDFEH#aside from that i just can't see them romantically either#like i said the other day i wish people didn't immediately jump to ships#there's a lot of interesting friendships and dynamics you could delve into here#ANYWAY. point of todays Sock Stresses post is that It Makes Me So Uncomfortable.#and I can't really avoid it anywhere#why does nobody realize the weird implications 😭#but i digress I can't stop people from doing these things#sometimes it be that way#just going to sit in my corner and do my own thing LOL#sock talk
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Getting real sick of a certain subset of Destiny players complaining that it’s a baby game and crying to Bungie to nerf exotics and abilities when their ENTIRE POINT IS TO BE STRONG in specific ways as if they are being locked into using them.
IF YOU WANT AN EXTRA CHALLENGE STOP BEING SUCH A DPS GOBLIN AND JUST EQUIP SOMETHING THATS NOT TOP TIER META AND STOP COMPLAINING JESUS FUCKING CHRIST
MOOD. Go off.
It's incredibly annoying to me. They always use the argument of "the game should FORCE me to do things, I should not SELF-IMPOSE challenges." And like. ? I'm sorry but what? It's a video game for a big audience, it's here to be playable and accessible to the widest possible playerbase. There are plenty of ways to make the game difficult for yourself, so knock yourself out if that's your thing, but don't force others into it.
Like, I enjoy hard content, I regularly at least attempt day 1 raids, I do master raids, GMs, solo and solo flawless content and all that. But only when I want to. Sometimes I don't and I don't want to suffer in a patrol zone or struggle in a seasonal activity I'm doing for the story. The majority of the players don't want that. Designing games for the professional gamers only has NEVER been a good idea and never will be. Fifty streamers can't sustain a video game. It needs casual players who will want to come back to the game instead of feeling defeated.
One of the reasons I really enjoy helping others is because I know that casual players tend to struggle in stuff that's basic activity for me. I've seen people unable to get through a strike. I've sat for 10 minutes rezing someone who couldn't do the jump in a seasonal activity. I want those people to be able to play basic content without feeling frustrated and I want them to know that there are people out there who will help them out.
And this doesn't apply just to basic content, although it should start with that. I think all dungeons and raids and everything should be things that all players can complete. Fine, doing a master raid with all challenges should be tough, but it should be achievable with time and practice, not impossible. What a lot of these "pros" want is just completely divorced from reality.
It takes days and days of practice every time a new master raid is out for me and my team (all with thousands of hours of playtime) to get comfortable to finally finish it. We're far from casual players and it still takes a lot of time to be able to finish hard content. Making it even harder is insane to me. Like, if something is so hard that my team full of people, each with 5000+ hours of playtime and a coordinated team that's been raiding together for years now can't finish it, that means it's absolutely impossible for probably 90% of the playerbase. That's wild to me. Raids and GMs should have more people playing them. If master raids are too easy for you, Mr. I-Play-Destiny-For-A-Living, that's on you buddy. Unequip the super god tier god roll meta guns and loadouts or play something else.
And ofc, another excuse they make is "if I don't use meta, I am not going to win a raid race!" Then don't. Idk. Let me play you the tiniest violin. This affects literally nobody except a grand total of 50 people. Run your meta in day 1, and play with random shit otherwise. Play raids with all white weapons. Play without mods. Play without a HUD. Do things solo only. I don't know, make up a way to spice things up for yourself. I'm not interested in that and neither are 99% of the players out there. The game is genuinely hard enough for the majority of the players. On top of that, I am here to feel like a powerful space fantasy superhero. I am NOT here to die to dregs in patrol zones. If there's ONE thing that I know for a fact that put people off from Lightfall (as in this year of Destiny), it's the difficulty changes. They're annoying, frustrating and for some a barrier to entry more than anything else.
#destiny 2#gameplay#ask#long post#i really do love helping but i can't not feel bad because once the people i helped are out of my fireteam...#...there's no telling what other experiences they'll have#there's so many speedrunners and people who don't care and people who just aren't helping and are instead mocking others#you can only do so much for a few people you see in activities#this season's activities are super tough. every time so far I've played everyone in the team was struggling#i'm gonna have to start going into altars of summoning with my full support build warlock just to sit in there and help people#istg the 'pros' have to get their loadouts restricted. go play with non-god tier armour sets and guns#equip the same loadout that some casual player has available and let me see you then#this idea that everyone has minmaxed best equipment available at all times is bizarre. please get your head out of your ass#'i have perfectly rolled all artifice armour with perfect stat exotics for every loadout because i have infinite time to grind' okay dude#most of us aren't being paid to play destiny. lmao#'the game used to be hard' no. you got better. you mastered it#why is this so difficult to understand. everything is hard when you first start. 5000 hours later it no longer is#the game is fine. the 'health of the game' is fine. you mastered it and outgrew it#either impose challenges on yourself or find something else#like. when i first started GMs they were almost impossible for me#now i play them for fun. they're still challenging but they're not the same level of hard and I'm fine with that#i enjoy them as content and they're still entertaining#and when a new GM comes out it's a new challenge to master so it'll be hard at the start#as everything ever in the world#if that's no longer enough for you then you just outgrew the game and should probably move on#the only reason why some things used to be hard was poor quality of life that got improved over time#not being able to mantle in d1 is not difficulty. it's just not good design. it was fixed and improved#the bitching about light 3.0 as well. man. just don't use the 'OP' fragments. it's so easy to unequip them#i personally love the variety and all the options i have now as opposed to before#okay tag essay done. fhkajhakfhksjf
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Honestly, getting real tired carrying and supporting other folks around here when most of them aren't returning the favor...
#i'm two seconds away from nuking everything in my queue and drafts out of spite#but i don't feel good about that bc there's innocent collateral#this is tumblr‚ the place you're supposed to fucking share the stuff that your friend's and other people are making#and i get it‚ it's not possible to like and reblog everything here‚ i understand that and i'm not expecting that#it just sucks constantly feeling like no one gives a shit about the stuff you're proud of and put effort into‚ y'know?#there's an entire subsection of this fandom that basically ignores any vper that isn't running modded on pc#which is like half the fucking fandom and i definitely pissed some of those people off just for choosing who i associate with#i've been writing in this fandom for three years now and i still don't feel like i have any fucking writing friends#or a good place to get technical support#the writing associates i do have either don't read anything i write or when they do won't comment for some inexplicable reason#(if you're an author on ao3 you know‚ first hand‚ damn well how much comments mean to authors‚ so what's the deal?)#(if you actually don't like it‚ it's fine‚ don't even touch the kudos button‚ no one has to know you were there)#i'm traumatized from my previous discord experiences and am very reluctant to let people into my circle without vetting them first#even tumblr communities is a struggle for me because it still feels a like a popularity/social influence contest#and i know i'm fucking slow#sue me for having a life outside of the internet and wanting to be mindful and thoughtfully engaged with other people's artwork#i talk to people in the tags#i've been leaving comments on every fic i read now#i'm not expecting people to bend over backwards for me#but fostering community and friendships requires mutual exchange#and it's shitty feeling like you're generosity is constantly being fucking wasted#i'm trying to keep it fun around here but a lot aren't helping with that and this isn't a job for one person#sorry not sorry for the rant but i've been feeling very salty about this as of late#i know the holidays can be stressful and the fandom in general has been slowly shrinking which has probably exacerbated these issues#a lot of folks have moved on#but these issues have always been here and they aren't magically going to go away unless people work on them#i'm not expecting anything i make to break the bank at this point but when your friends won't even put your crappy art on the fridge anymor#like why are we here?#i also don't understand the people who are following me but never interact with anything i make???#rambling into the void
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gang I'm not sure I have the courage to come out to my boxing coach
#I need to do some sort of physical activity and that always felt good#but it has always been deadname and women's locker room#then big hiatus from my part#and now I'm back again. again with the deadname and women's locker room#but it feels so wrong#and today I felt like shit because there was people in the locker room#but what is the solution?#to come out ?#they'll laugh.#I don't pass#I never pass#I think people at university don't misgender me only because they're kind#but I don't pass#maybe they'll even nod solemnly and say ok we accept you#but we all know they'll never not see the hips the chest the face the high pitched voice#and I have been stuck here since forever#everyone I know. EVERYONE#is now either on t or can pass#even people who've idk started after I was already going to the therapist because of it#and yes everyone has their own oath and yadda yadda yadda#but why I'm stuck?#I don't understand why I can't go on.#I feel like shit#and mother is ok with it but I know she still hatesthis whole thing#I gave her time I swear#but I miss her#and I tried telling her this and she. she doesn't want to hear it#because in her mind “if you really want it you do it”#like I could pass by sheer willpower#personal
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Looks at the influx of FNAF Movie posting on my dash. Hey remember when it was revealed that Scott Cawthon donated the maximum amount possible to several far-right Republicans and everyone just fucking ignored that.
#and scott cawthon was involved in the production of the movie so that's not safe either#what are you people doing!! I thought you guys were leftists!!!#you could do it with the terf wizarding school why not fnaf?#I don't understand#briar.txt
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Doomsday Cult Christians when the Doomsday Cult ideology causes Doomsday anxiety in their kids:
#I talked about it a lil on a different post but then I once again remember how my grandfather told me#that he believes that climate change is a thing that will harm the planet#but christians don't need to worry about it because you'll either die before it kills you and go to heaven#or you'll be protected from it and just live in the climate change ravaged world#watching the people around you suffer from it but magically being okay yourself#and he couldn't understand why that made me feel so much worse#he's also 82 so that could partially be it#and yes this is the same grandfather that made fun of me and our neighbors kid for attempting u know what#doomsday christians are so fucking terrifying#because they don't fear death in the wrong way if that makes sense#like they view this as the practice round of war before the spiritual war aka the rapture#so they feel like if people aren't suffering they aren't fighting and therefore insist on making people suffer#and the more you suffer the better heaven will feel or whatever#it's fuckin wild#even when I was a christian I was terrified of it all#ex christian#religious trauma
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