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aph-estonia · 1 year ago

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in a weird fucked up state rn where i just lost 6-7 friends in the span of a week tops and i can't get myself to do anything about it. i can't get better. i tried and i gave up and i've become more okay with being scum and now trying to go back to being better is like the hardest thing i've ever felt in my life

#being vague about this on purpose btw 😇😇😇😇#the number is vague because one of the girls i lost contact with had a lot of online friends i was also online friends with and #they're probably shitting on me in their priv server....... ahahahhhhhh................#so like the actual numbers are like 2 irls and 5-6 of one of our mutual online friends #...... Man ...........#.txt #being scum equals having thoughts i cannot control & mainly keep to myself btw . Except #I Drank A Lot And Blacked Out And Sent A Lot Of People Very Insane Deranged Messages And Now They Won't Talk To Me #so i've banned myself from drinking until i go back to being so lightweight i get blasted off 1 single cooler can (not blacking out tho)#cuz i don't remember sending them & i saw them freak out so i unsended them b4 listening back 2 them #so i am literally fucking clueless i have very very few clues #now i would also like to ban those thoughts from being had in my head. But i cannot . because the brain Does Not Work Like That #so i'm very very stuck #literally just got over not hating myself 4 something i can't control now i'm back balls deep into sheer hatred #this state of mind reminds me of when i was with my ex LMAO ok anyways back to spamming my your our timeline #i do believe i deserve this btw i am very very much in the wrong for the things i got up to when i blacked out. Do not pity me

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hinamie · 3 months ago

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bunch of portraits

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #yuji itadori #ryomen sukuna #megumi fushiguro #gojo satoru #nanami kento #choso kamo #nobara kugisaki #yuta okkotsu #fanart #crying im so tired....#busts aren't hard on their own but 8 of them ???#i should have stuck at 6 if i knew what was good fr me #but lucky fr choso n yuuta enjoyers i dont know whats good fr me and tacked on the extra 2 last minute #i did a bust piece waaay back in 2020 early jjk days and it was this crowd minus choso/yuuta so i wanted to like. do a kind of redraw #im happy choso n yuuta made the cut tho they r fun they look as tired as i feel #i've been having a lot of fun w the more semirealistic skin render so i wanted to stretch those muscles a bit more #took the better part of 3 days but u know i'm pretty happy w these i dont think i have a hard least favourite #fun game guess my favourite characters based on how i draw them it is Glaringly obvious 2 me #ik i said i dont have a least favourite but i certainly have A Favourite #uhhhh misc notes i tried rly hard to make sukuna's face look like yuuji's and only rly change the expression #i think i was successful??? i hope?????? like i didnt want to make him look like his own person as bad as that sounds #he is Wearing Yuuji that is Yuuji's Face #also i rly . wish there were more women . but as much as i like maki as a character i fr some reason don't find drawing her very fun ?#so nobara out here pulling her weight fr the girls my goat my queen <333

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 2 months ago

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Council of lovefools.

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #jiang yanli #jiang cheng #They don't have an actual sleepover in this scene but the vibes were so sleepover coded...I had to get them cozied up.#Late night talks with friends and family are some of the best conversations.#My siblings and I used to have room sleepovers with each other (Actually an excuse to stay up and talk about runescape)#Currently my flatmates and I also have really great heart to hearts late into the night.#Pondering shit like 'What defines confidence?“ and ”Why are people terrified of letting themselves fall in love?"#All that aside; There is a really great conversation between JC and WWX here. They are so close and yet so far way from each other!#Fundamentally they *agree* about many things - but JC now has to play the role of someone more 'mature'.#His temper is reigned in and he had to take a more nuanced approach. Whereas WWX can be far more reactionary.#JC has changed to become someone more mature (or at least he is trying).#Contrast this attitude with the scene *right* after where WWX literally goes baby mode with JYL. Rolling around going “I'm Fwee years old”.#When children are hurt we comfort them with hugs and warm food and a laugh. It's not enough when you're an adult. It's not simple anymore.#WWX is stuck in the past when everyone else is shifting and moving on! It's a depression allegory (and just...actual depression)#But we also get to see how some things have stayed the same. They still bicker about soup. They still tease. They are still together.#They all care for each other very much but they are struggling against trauma and are not equipped to talk about it.#You can't really blame WWX for being so protective over JYL. But JC is right: “You don't have a say in who she likes.”#It may have started as an arranged marriage but *she* is *choosing* what her heart wants. JC sees that. WWX cannot.#The final act of love is letting go after all.

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ask-the-rag-dolly · 3 months ago

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loser , baby

( don't tag as ship pls this is my brotp let me gush over platonic relationships )

#tadc ragatha #tadc zooble #tadc #the amazing digital circus #[ ooc ]#[ doodles ]#toybox #//#i'm not proud of this drawing at all but like i can't stop thinking about them so have them #they're opposites your honor they're literally the “ someone will die ” “ of fun ” meme #hey what if i cope in this hellscape we're stuck in by disposing my sense of self to assimilate #while you cope by trying to find your sense of self because you reject all of this #and we're also very emotionally closed off #wouldn't that be so funny

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egophiliac · 2 months ago

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ch 5 is coming in twsten ch5 is coming in twsten ch5 is coming in twsten (we gon die it's been a YEAR since I saw some clips and I have not emotionally recovered from the incredible deliveries by Silver's seiyuu because holy fuck) EGOOOOO ARE YOU READY TO SEE EVERYONE DESCENDING INTO MADNESS AGAIN (and a pool of tears??? MINE SPECIFICALLY)

YESSSSSS I AM SO EXCITED FOR EVERYONE ON ENG, chapter 5 is some of the most PEAK Diafamily content imo. 🤌 it's definitely my favorite part of episode 7 so far! (though 6 is pretty close...)

some (mostly) non-spoilery advice: on the hex maps, check out the non-required story cells, especially in the later parts! some are basically just throwaways, but there's some real good scenes hidden in there too that are potentially missable. 🥄 (it shows which cells you've cleared on previous attempts, so if you're low on resources and/or super impatient like me, do just the required ones to get through it, then when you're ready go back and restart as necessary to get to the others. enjoy! >:)

#twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 part 5 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 part 5 spoilers #i know i said non-spoilery and yet i'm tagging it anyway #we are a study in contrasts tonight #i will take this opportunity to mention some spoilers though #because it turns out i really do love silver having a good ol breakdown #loved it in the early days of 7 when he was talking to malleus at the statues #loved it even more when he got stuck in the funk and proceeded to just lose it completely #man barely emotes for 6.5 episodes and then next thing you know he's full-on screaming at a baby #and i'm mcloving every mcsecond of it #toto 😭#(disclaimer that i'm just assuming the chapters are lining up with how it was released in jp)#(i THINK that's how it's been going so far but. crucially. i am very bad at paying attention)#(this is my apology in advance if they cut it off at like...7-74 or something)#(surprise! by chapter 5 they meant 5 chapters!)

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blueskittlesart · 2 months ago

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*sigh* thoughts on Nintendo's botw/totk timeline shenanigans and tomfoolery?

tbh. my maybe-unpopular opinion is that the timeline is only important when a game's place on the timeline seriously informs the way their narrative progresses. the problem is that before botw we almost NEVER got games where it didn't matter. it matters for skyward sword because it's the beginning, and it matters for tp/ww/alttp (and their respective sequels) because the choices the hero of time makes explicitly inform the narrative of those games in one way or another. it matters which timeline we're in for those games because these cycles we're seeing are close enough to oot's cycle that they're still feeling the effects of his choices. botw, however, takes place at minimum 10 thousand years after oot, so its place on the timeline actually functionally means nothing. botw is completely divorced from the hero of time & his story, so what he does is a nonissue in the context of botw link and zelda's story. thus, which timeline botw happens in is a nonissue. honestly I kind of liked the idea that it happened in all of them. i think there's a cool idea of inevitability that can be played with there. but the point is that the timeline exists to enhance and fill in the lore of games that need it, and botw/totk don't really need it because the devs finally realized they could make a game without the hero of time in it.

#i really do have a love-hate relationship with this timeline #because it's FASCINATING lore. genuinely. and i think it carries over the themes of certain games REALLY well #but i also think it's indicative of a trend in loz's writing that has REALLY annoyed me for a long time #which is this intense need to cling to oot #and on a certain level i get it. that was your most successful game probably ever. and it was an AMAZING game.#and i think there's definitely some corporate profit maximization tied up in this too--oot was an insane commercial success therefore you'r #not allowed to make new games we need you to just remake oot forever and ever #and that really annoys me because it makes certain games feel disjointed at best and barely-coherent at worst.#i think the best zelda games on the market are the ones where the devs were allowed to really push what they were working with #oot. majora. botw. hell i'd even put minish cap in there #these are games that don't quite follow what was the standard zelda gameplay at their time of release. they were experimental in some way #whether that be with graphics or puzzle mechanics or open-world or the gameplay premise in its entirety. there's something NEW there #and because the devs of those games were given that level of freedom the gameplay really enforces the narrative. everything feels complete #and designed to work together. as opposed to gameplay that feels disjointed or fights against story beats. you know??#so I think that the willingness to allow botw and totk to exist independently from the timeline is good at the very least from a developmen #standpoint because it implies a willingness to. stop making shitty oot remakes and let developers do something interesting.#and yes i do very much fear that the next 20 years of zelda will be shitty BOTW remakes now #in which botw link appears and undergoes the most insane character assassination youve ever seen in your life #but im trying to be optimistic here. if botw/totk can exist outside the timeline then we may no longer be stuck in the remake death loop #and i'm taking eow as a good sign (so far) that we're out of the death loop!! because that game looks NOTHING like botw or oot.#fingers crossed!!#anyway sorry for the game dev rant but tldr timeline good except when it's bad #asks #zelda analysis

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faunandfloraas · 4 months ago

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fav skz // Sick as!

#i never realized this was an aus/nz special... 'sick as' 'sweet as' 'choice as' they're like brothers to me #anyway his struggle to explain that he wasnt in fact saying ass was very funny to me- made only funnier by the fact I'm utterly- UTTERLY #100% certain the reason he was so stuck when he said he'd give an example is bc the only real thing to follow sick as up with is 'fuck'#like sick as fuck. sweet as fuck. you /can/ use hell i guess but first thought in my mind was the good ol F and i think it was his too #thats why he was like UHHHHHHHHHH *internally* wait wait i cant say fuck Uhhhhhhh uhhhhhh Sick as... Yeah. haha yeah...#he's funny #bang chan #chirstopher bang #skz #skz gifs #skzedit #bystay #stray kids gifs #analook #stray kids #jesskz #chans room

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helsensm · 8 months ago

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I haven't drawn anything in days even for practice or warm-up, so here's the dump of old wips I doubt we'll ever see finished oTL

headcanon mk1 Kung Jin design sketch for the comic

the next two are inspired by my fav railao fic: the suns shadow (shines so brightly) by Lunar_Starline 💗

bonus sketches of Kung Lao with different hairstyles for my last art before I changed the hat (special thanks to @nicetoart for listening me yapping about this piece 🌹)

#it's actually a very sad feeling #to look through all your wips and realize that you lost interest in some of them #also I'm STILL stuck with my current wips #so the situation is... not great #helsensm art #kung lao #johnny cage #takahashi kenshi #kenshi takahashi #raiden #mk raiden #kung jin #railao #mortal kombat #mortal kombat 1 #mk1 #earthrealm defenders

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icewindandboringhorror · 3 months ago

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I made a few new wax seal stamps out of clay (like the ones I did for my worldbuilding stuff forever ago), this time just of random symbols that I thought might look good done in the style of painting over the raised part of the wax or etc. :0c Some of them aren't carved deep enough to really show up that well, but overall they worked okay for being clay lol

#wax seal #crafts #wax stamp #stationery #Window one is kind of stinky.. I was imagining like a swirly night sky sort of looking thing so it would be a surreal contrast of a night #sky with a window in the middle that shows a daytime sky - but the silver and purple wax kind of mixed too much together #with the black and it just looks very plain black and not all that starry or anything hjbhj.. Of course the eye is probably my favorite #since all I ever do is draw eyes and still like eye imagery for some reason. The four leaf clover is very lumpy and skrunkty but also it wa #the smallest in size out of all of them so was easier to do multiple stamps of just to try it out.#The heart with eyes wax is actually more swirly in person. I wanted it to be a mix of light pink and red and white. and the wax #did kind of all blend together but in person you can definitely see MORE of the intentional swirlyness. in this it just looks plain pink.#I was going to do one eye in the heart but it looked weird. but now two seems too plain. i could have done 3?? in a pattern.. hmm #alas. I wish I could make actual metal ones. With the clay i have to paint them in a thin layer of olive oil before stamping because #otherwise the wax just kind of gets stuck in the grooves of the clay and then you can't pull it up. Very wacky ''unprofessional'' looking #set up where I'm hot gluing circles of sculpey clay to short stumps of a wooden dowel that I sawed apart with a serrated bread knife #and then using an old paintbrush to put olive oil on them whilst holding a spoon over a yankee candle flame hjbjh #ANYWAY.. I think if I were middle class/rich/etc. this would be one of the main things in my crafting room is like.. SO many colors #of wax. and all different custom made stamps designed by me. which could be much more elaborate in actual metal.. muahaha.... >:)c #RHGghhh... I actually don't want to talk much about it since (this is probably just my Obsessed With My Own World Artist Delusions) I #think I have a really cool idea for a game that could genuinely be successful if i ever get to make it and I don't want to give #everything away and spoil the whole plot/concept in hopes that one day I can actually do it - BUT - a game that I'd like to make after the #visual novel I'm making now has partially to do with the main character working as a sort of writer/scribe/artist assistant in an elven #city (set in my world/with my worldbuilding species and versions of elves and etc) and I was thinking of maybe incorporating #somehow being able to collect little writing type items like these like.. you can get different wax seal patterns or pens or etc. when I do #stuff like this in Real Life it always makes me think of that like.. ouh... this is good research.. what it shall be like to be a littol #elf collecting wax seals and such.. indeed... GRR i need to be finished with my current game NOWWW... i MUST work on other #thingss... aughh... ANYWAY.. yay. accomplishment to do One Single Thing other than Sit In The Summer Heat And Rot #though also hilarious as this was the first cool-ish day that was below 80F in a while hgvh #waking up like 'wow.. i actually feel okay today?? like I could do things?? how mysterious.. I wonder why..?? :0'' Its The Weather You Fool #Tis Always The Weather

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theactualsunshinechild · 3 months ago

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I think Aventio and Screwtio shippers shouldn't fight. After all, Ratio has two hands!

That's right. Two hands.

One for his chalk.

One for his codex.

Both of which he's holding in an embarrassed death grip as they chat away with each other about him.

#I'm on to something here #screwtio #aventio #hsr aventurine #veritas ratio #dr ratio #screwllum #hsr #honkai star rail #now as a disclaimer I'm not personally a huge fan of aventio #exclusively because i think they are so SO much funnier as gay friends #but something about combining the two clicks really well to me #Aventurine and Screwllum would be pretty fantastic metamours i think #they'd have a lot of fun playing off each other #but also Screwllum being there to dispute Aventurine's doubts over whether or not Ratio cares as a verified outside perspective #listing off shit like upticks in heartrate pupil dialation etc on top of being like #he talks about you fondly he knows your favorite things i can personally attest that you are very evidently important to him #stuff Aventurine can't easily write off when coming from not only an outside perspective but also a literal Genius #and on the flip side Aventurine would finally have someone other than Ratio and the Trailblazer he can talk to with relative ease #someone who has also been through a frankly incredibly traumatizing historical event #someone who is also under constant pressure to perform a certain way #someone who has gained wealth and power at the cost of carrying responsibilities on his shoulders and never being truly free #appearing free to anyone who glances but neither of them really are #Screwllum seemingly able to freely pursue whatever research he wants but ultimately permanently shackled with his titles #and public pressure to be the perfect poised representative for all of inorganic kind #forever treading the line of being both a desirable ally and a sufficient threat that you wouldn't want to cross him #and similarly Aventurine stuck in his cycle that he feels only death can free him from of gambling with his life on the line #because the IPC basically owns him #because let's be honest Jade's offer was just a lifetime labor contract he couldn't refuse #granted the illusion of freedom through gaining money and power but never truly free

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tiny-breadcrumbs · 1 month ago

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I love this green robes but only if I don't have to paint it

#mysterious lotus casebook #di feisheng #been stuck in bed for two days so I paint this #when I'm not feeling miserable ofc #this is actually a very quick and tiny potrait study #gouache on paper #tiny's art

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valiant-portabella-pirkko · 5 months ago

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#gw2 #guild wars 2 #gw2 polls #my posts #polls #went with these since they were the main ones #literally ran out of slots to use here so yeah lol #was DEEPLY torn between Cerus and Eparch but Eparch is TECHNICALLY the bigger bad tho Cerus'd prob get more votes #and i stuck Ryland and Bangar together since they work together for part of it. tho i wish i could have both separate #anyway here. i'd never seen a poll on this before so #I'm very curious even tho i'm pretty sure i can guess lol

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tapakah0 · 7 months ago

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JUST WHEN I MANAGED TO CALM DOWN ABOUT THE UPDATE YOUR ANIMATIC IS MAKING MY SEROTONIN LEVELS RISE AGAIN (not really complaining it’s so good)

That's the only job I would have been happy to work if it was possible

Don't calm down, be serotonined, feed Cass I need material

#there are just so many cool songs #and since I'm very bad with getting into any fandoms or properly reading something #And I don't feel so happy with doing something with my ocs and feel nothing over comments about them #So I'm stuck with this ink creature to annoy them even if I'm waaay more calmer now #since I have animatable characters to work with and plots that fit to plenty of songs that have been dusting in my collection

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delicioustarong · 8 months ago

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"I had to save them"

Rest in peace, Liam. Your sacrifice will never be forgotten. 😔✊

I finally finished this, YAY! This animatic is a mix of digital and traditional art. I definitely learned a lot of tricks while making this (also, can you notice the slight difference between art styles??).

This animatic singlehandedly explains what happened to JD after his mom sacrificed him. He was definitely ready to accept his faith until he discovered Branch's was with him (which almost gave him a panic attack). It was a good thing that everyone decided to help him, and Liam (a troll around his age, maybe older?) helped him escape.

For more context about my au check this post!

I obviously don't own the audio, only the animatic. "Bruno is Orange" by Hop Along featuring Francis Quinlan, so credits to them. Here's the link

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effen-draws · 8 months ago

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“Oh tragic clown, so much sadness now. You built your mountain and now it blocks the sun.”

Alts and lines under cut:

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lopa124 · 8 months ago

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Don't you love when a fictional (almost always) non canon couple is a blond dude (bonus point if he's taller) + a dark haired person (bonus point if they don't have a leg/harm and have scars in their face) and their adopted daughter (bonus point if she has powers)

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