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My 13th Reason is my kamioshi, who got me into Blue Lock, jokingly saying: "Thanks, Discord Kitten." to me.
I gave him 10 gifted memberships to stop, and he hits me with that. I can't do this anymore, guys. After spending over hundreds on him in menshis alone, I need a new oshi. Get that guy away from me. I don’t know him or Blue Lock anymore.
#i'm jk btw#but i can't believe#this guy is the one who got me here#someone help me or save me#or both bc both is good#gen 2 is gonna debut this week#so i pray that one of them take me in#or i'll just hop aboard captain's ship#bc i know he's welcoming ppl today#i haven't had much of a chance#to watch capt so this is a good opportunity
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i just wanted to draw the ave mujica outfits .
#project sekai#pjsk#prsk#proseka#tsukasa tenma#nene kusanagi#nenekasa#<- i like them.#sorry i like mygo + avemuji but cant make fanart of anything im not Fucking Crazy about normally#had to touch it up digitally because i tried coloring a Pen Drawing in with Watercolor. in earnest.#Everything think the announcements gonna be a new unit. I think that would be hilarious and the worst possible timing#Given where everyone else's arcs are but the miku design looked cute so if its jsut a new game that would cheese me#My tag blabbering... what else ... im artfight slacking. my wrist hurts. course selection is next week. SCREAMS#please pray to God i do not have any 8am classes. PLEASE. my college commute takes over an hour. If i have to wake up at 6am i will k#Oh my God i have to go to the dentist tomorrow too please fucking helpme THEYRE GONAN FIDN AMILLION CAVITIES AND KILL ME. AAAAAHG.#Every time theres another proseka broadcast announced i get scared cause i have so many song covers i want in the game but.#I want to draw them first. So that if they Do get added to the game i cna go HEH... >:)....#Thats whyi did skeleton orchestra emnn and scissorhands rks. I want scissorhands in the game reallybad i love that song#3DMV EVEN PLEEEASE but also nothing can too miumes choreography from like a decade ago i wanna do a cosplay performanc eof it someday...#i ❤️ waacking.#actually the one i Really want to draw is ALSO nenekasa. record red save me. ILL DRAW IT OK
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Can we pretty please get a Grian and Xelqua meet-up?? I love how you draw Xelqua and Grian and I just need to see what they would do if they meet......for science of course
wait hold on.. goes crazy .. I don’t have a design for Xelqua, that was just Grian earlier, but…. I think it’d go well
I think Xelqua is his patron, so he’d be excited to meet him !
but I was also playing with the idea that Little Grian here is a reincarnated version of Xelqua, but still looks up to him, prays to him, would want to be picked up and hugged by him, the safety of it. (How can he be reincarnated and still have a form here ? Well the divine can be a bit finicky)
#something something abt the first thing little grian says to Xelqua is did you hear me ? When I thanked you for the food !#<- Aether showed him how to pray before meals#ask#my art#Xelqua#sketching#Late night doodle of them . Yawnssss#Also something something abt Grian being a reincarnated Xelqua and the two angels having to take care of him#he has no divine memory ! Maybe some vague feelings involving being scared of lightning and missing the ocean . But he’s just a little kid#that needs to be fed and kept out the weather and his back scratched so he’ll go to sleep#someone hold me back this is becoming a one shot au#Also Xelqua is 5’0/152cm still. Aether and Flora can’t tell if he’s another child when they see him 😭😭😭#Grian and Xelqua meet and it’s like when Goten met Goku for the first time . Bursts into tears rn live#kidxelqua
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New Gale content this patch which means I'm banned from searching the Gale tags and dodging posts on my newsfeed like I'm Keanu Reeves
#I managed to avoid most of the new epilogue stuff when that happened so that should still be brand new information when I hit it#pray 4 me LMAO#I did see one of the new kisses when I played last night it was so cute#My friend was baffled that I didn't just spam the kiss command to see all of them ngjklfdnkh I like to SAVOR THE CONTENT and TAKE MY TIME
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The Oleander Sword is so good. literally feeling like kicking my feet and giggling rn. what happened to Tasha Suri in that year between book 1 and book 2
#book 1 was fine. book 2 is so friggin good i can't stop reading. i feel like a sponge taking it all in#bhumika is bhumika but like ten times more herself and i am screaming. malini finally found a proper manipulate girlboss stride.#even PRIYA who was SO BORING in book 1 is making me lose my marbles. like i wont lie when she became an elder i was like ugh nooooooooo#but it was the absolute best decision ever her trying to rise from a maidservant to the second most important person in the country by#totally blowing off the politics and instead being some sort of a forest wizard is AMAZING#and the yEARNING. FINALLY. THE YEARNING IS HERE. i was SO BORED by the romance in book 1 but THIS IS IT. THIS IS WHAT I WANT.#malini trying to balance her controlling tendencies that are needed more than ever with treating priya properly.#no one figuring out why the godly ordained empress is letting that weirdo waltz around traitorously.#the two of them constantly being on edge bc WHAT IF SOMEONE FIGURES IT OUT. OH MY. THAT WOULD BE SUPER BAD.#AND DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE YAKSA AND THEIR SECOND COMING. BRO. THE WAY I SCREAMED. THIS IS SO COOL.#anyway i am only 40% through i am praying the book stays this slaying bc i am living for this#eernatalk
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To bask in the light of a god
#funny thing is#i cant fucking take this man seriously#hes so stupid and just silly bird man in my head but i only draw him like an etherial god#he absolutely is not#noooot at all#obligitory look at me tags#reapertale sans#reaper#reapertale#geno is mentioned#hes praying to hus hubby.....#utmv#undertale au#can i tag this as afterdeath?#nah#but wouldnt it be funny#no but fr you cant convince me geno wouldnt make himself the god of spite#out of... ya know... spite#maybe thats why reapers praying to him#as one does#ANYWAY THOSE RIBS WERE A PAIN IN THE ASS TO DRAW#FUCK YOU REAPER FOR HAVING COMPLICATED BONES#damn skeletons and all the bones in them...
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i sprained my wrist but duty calls
#rgg#ryu ga gotoku#yakuza series#yakuza 7#yakuza like a dragon#masumi arakawa#ichiban kasuga#snap sketches#OW#i WAS inspod by my y7 gameplay last night but while i was watching this cutscene and going He's So Sugoi#i realized he DOES have a mole on his neck :) so i WASNT going crazy yay me !!!!!!#i tried drawing with one hand.. it was annoying this is awful#its not impossible it just takes so LONG plus im less willing to stress over details which. arguably good but I Dont Like It#THIS LIL THING TOOK A SOLID HOUR BYE LMAO#w/e it was worth exploring the option. its not impossible so i can just continue to practice off screen#pray my other wrist gets better so i dont take nine years to draw tho#'snap are your shortcuts really THAT important' YES#even if ive redone some shortcuts o be cnnected to my pen and tablet i dont have all my shortcuts#even then moving to click the buttons on my tablet takes about as much time as it would to click them on my keyboard#ok this is pain bye#hopefully i feel better soon i keep having thoughts i wanna share and i like to do so Without taking days on One post
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i think the part i like the most about jem, tessa and will as characters is that they show love is what makes them human, what keeps them grounded. jem, throughout tid, has to live with the knowledge he will die soon, but the love he feels for the people around him, specifically tessa and will, is what keeps him sane. we see that even more with him as a silent brother, when silent brothers block their emotions and become almost robots, the thing that keeps jem human is remembering the people he once loved and still does. remembering tessa, will, their children, the people he cared for and the people that cared for him. it is what keeps him grounded, what makes him feel human again. and with tessa, tessa who is immortal and outlives everyone she loves, and has and will have to watch them die again and again, she continues to love. she chooses to do so. it is what makes her human, and it is rare for a warlock to continue being attached to and loving mortals. and will who believed himself to be cursed so that everyone who loves him back would die, he shut off a part of him to the rest of the world, the part that loved freely. but he didn't do it to jem. he allowed jem to love him, as much as will loved jem. their unconditional love for each other was what kept will sane. it was what kept him human, and not the emotionless farse he had around everyone else.
#to me will is definitely the most passionate tsc character and the one who loves strongest#he is so loving and we can't see him act upon that throughout tid bc of the “curse”#but it's still there and it becomes so much more obvious throughout tlh#jem carstairs#will herondale#tessa gray#praying someone out there understands what i'm talking about#herongraystairs#the infernal devices#tid#the shadowhunter chronicles#tsc#this is very much a stream of consciousness yes this was not very well structured#the core of this series is truly love and respect. the love they all feel and the respect the hold for each of them#(and that is also what made the love triangle work so well)#btw herongraystairs isn't necessarily inherently romantic to me besties bc i could look at them through so many different perspectives#and take away many different things#not to talk about the fact that i can't really place will and jem as only platonic or only romantic or both or neither (or even filiar-#if we take that route)#anyways have a good day or night besties#to me it is night and i should be sleeping but i am listening to the prophecy!! oh how i love suffering 😍😍
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I hope we get a scene of Alicent with Aegon's body. If her son is damned to die, if she is damned to spiral into insanity, if she is to lose her life too the grief, let me see her with his body.
let her hold her baby in her arms one more time. let her wipe the blood that poured from his mouth and nose as he died. let her run her fingers over the viscous burns that adorn his skin. let her fix his hair. let her bathe him with a cloth as she had when he was a babe. let her kiss his cheek, his forehead, his hair, his hands. let her lay her head against him, hugging him like she had failed to do for years.
he was her firstborn and yet, her heart was still beating and his was not, she was not yet cold in her grave, no, no her son was cold, her flesh was warm, too warm. he was her baby, her son, the boy she tried so hard to protect, who had loved even when it hurt, who she had stood in front of a dragon for. she loved him, the very bones of him, and now he was dead.
let her lose her mind right there, in that room, still clinging to her body, one that's too cold, too still, too quiet. let her scream out to the gods, damning them, cursing them for taking her eldest son, amongst everything else in her life.
I want her to drive away anyone who tries to take him from her, forcing the silent sisters or whoever would be left to deal with his body at that point. let her curse and spit and claw at anyone who comes too close.
she would stay there for hours, reflecting on her memories of him. maybe she talks to him or hums a lullaby until she finally loses her battle with what remains of her consciousness and sanity, falling still against the table.
she dreams of Aegon, she dreams of the life she wish she could have provided, the life she had tried so hard to give him. a life where he was safe, a life where she had been a better mother, a life where she didn't need to live in and impose fear up on her children. maybe if she had tried hard enough he would still be alive, she'll think as she floats in the space between consciousness and unconsciousness.
she'll wake in plain chambers she only partly recognizes, she'll learn of her sons lackluster and sparsly accompanied burning, she'll learn her son was gone and she was alone. there won't be much of her left to care. she just continues dreaming, dreaming of her dead children and spiraling to madness until her broken heart finally gives out.
[my previous post inspired this, cause all I can think about now is Alicent mourning her son and its gonna put me in an early grave]
#[I know she isn't with him in the book but shhhhhh enoughs already changed let me be delusional]#I don't want to see this happen. my girl need a goddamn break. but if its gonna happen just demolish my heart in one foul swoop#all or nothing#cause if I watch a slow decent into madness I'm going with her#let her break quick and fast for my sake#I haven't read the book (as i've said a trillion times before. I'll get to it eventually) so take this with a grain of salt#I don't think book alicent didn't love her children#I do think the love she held for them and the love show alicent held for them is very different simply due to circumstance#and I don't think show alicent is lasting very long after Aegon's death#i wouldn't be surprised if she died of a broken heart shortly after him#part of me fucking prays for it cause I don't know if I'll be able to cope with her grieving for 2 years#my heart just can't#and she doesn't deserve it#just let her reunite with her children and be at peace#don't make her suffer#let her say goodbye to her baby. give her closure. let her go#I beg#alicent hightower#pro alicent hightower#aegon ii#aegon ii targaryen#aegon targaryen#pro team green#hotd#house of the dragon#its fine. I'm fine. I totally like my emotions.
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#ts2#*sw#dirk dreamer#lilith pleasant#bella goth#**#teaser#everyone please pray for me i have 10 pics left to take before i can post and if my game doesn’t Act Up like it has been#trying to get them all in one go so i can upload them lmao
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I don’t even fully know why but “what do I do when I miss you so much?” / “Just wait, and pray desperately” was a knife to my heart in the best way.
#crash landing on you#my grandma once said most of life was waiting and praying#and when he said it it just resonated so deeply#I think because. it’s not like a revelation or anything#but I think it’s just because she was suffering so much and had suffered so much#and so in that moment#he just takes care of her so completely and gives her hope. and not a false hope#a true one#and on deeper reflection the ending does work within the context of this (in my opinion) most powerful scene#/ apex of the show#it’s just the tone that’s a little wrong. that’s too aesthetic-y.#because the kind of steady way he keeps taking care of her from afar. and the slow build of her recovering but continuing to hope#couldn’t lead them anywhere except a happy ending. even if the final pieces of it couldn’t be unraveled (or put together)#by the show’s writing. so it just kind of has to fade to black so to speak#because the characters have been so steady and consistent a) in their personalities motivations and desires#and b) in their love for each other! that never falters or betrays a false note#and it’s the truest thing you’re left with. which is why—again—I actually think the problem might have been the tone#I would have gone for something more muted. I would have had them be talking and/or arguing a little more in their old way#to keep and sustain the idea that there is more work ahead for them that we’re just not going to see#but that is ultimately a kind of nitpick. and the take me to the lakes vibe of that final#scene is also not untrue.#also circling back for a second can I just SAY. that I love the balance of their vulnerabilities#there are such clear and distinct times where one of them is stronger and the other more vulnerable#and it’s sooooo perfect to watch and gives you many instant layers#anyway I’m crying in this Chili’s tonight (*my bed at 7:00 am)
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@ onk writing team
#if onk has ten haters I am one of them if onk has one hater I am that hater#if onk has no haters then I am no longer here because I am the ultimate onk hater#why like what's the reason for this like ??? hello ?#guys somehow someway it went from worse to worser#do not even try to debate me or come to its defense on the comments or my ask I genuinely dont wanna hear it#as I said on my previous post I will PRAY Kana and Melt from the writers I will literally take them away from this they are MY oc's now#kana melt I am SO sorry ugly ass onk would do this to you#onk#oshi no ko spoilers#oshi no ko#manga
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something that's been weighing on my mind ever since learning about the situation with ezra / toonimal is seeing how these predators will take the active hostility that is frequently directed towards minors in online spaces to their advantage and use it to prey on vulnerable children. i think that we as adults in online fandom should probably come together and maybe rethink the language / manner we go about interacting with kids bc clearly the way things are rn is causing active harm.
like obviously, if you're an adult and aren't comfortable with minors interacting with you or your content, you should be allowed to set that boundary and should be vocal about it, ( especially if the content you create isn't safe for them to consume. ) but i don't think talking to them like they're a blight on all that is good and holy is the way to go about it. maybe just saying you're an 18 plus account will suffice, you don't have to tell them to fuck off.
#i'm opening myself up for ppl to leave the stupidest takes on this post but whatever i need to get this off my mind#before anyone says anything about the kids on that website. they're grooming victims. they're literally kids being taken advantage of#show them some fucking kindness and be understanding that they're the victims in this situation#idk what it is about becoming an adult that causes so many ppl to lose their empathy towards minors it's weird#like yeah kids can be annoying and pushy on online spaces sometimes but a lot of them are old enough to know online etiquette lbr#alot of us were annoying kids on the internet at some point we should understand that you don't just. get a handbook for how to act online#that's shit you learn overtime but ppl seem to forget that#they also seem to forget that talking down to kids isn't gonna teach them shit they're not gonna listen to you if you treat them like idiots#what i'm trying to say is that we really need to talk to minors more respectfully and maybe give them a little grace#( obviously there will be situations where some of them need to be yanked up by the collar but there's ways to go about that >>>#without treating them like shit )#these kids need to know that there's spaces for them to be online safely without having to stumble into places that'll pray on them#we all know how much it sucked to be a kid online we should want better for the ones coming in after us ya know#sorry if this comes across as preachy it just breaks my heart and boils me blood to see kids being taken advantage of like this#especially when there's ways to prevent it idk#how do i even tag this....#mj.txt#there's trigger warning on the linked post btw#tw csa mention
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I recently got out of a toxic and unhealthy friendship on here. I had to be the one to end it; hopefully the other party decides to leave it be and not smear my name due to realizing it wasn't healthy and that I had to end it because of it.
Basically, if someone makes you start feeling like shit, from your life, to your goals, passion, and everything else, then it's not a rewarding friendship. And it's hard to sometimes see it in the moment. Because you want to think the best of peeps, especially ones you care about.
But sometimes the healthiest thing for You is to know when to put your foot down and end it, even if it hurts you and them. At the end of the day, you matter and what you're doing matters and no one has the right to make you feel shit for who you are when you're just living your life. Life is hard enough without adding peeps who make you feel that way or question how you live when, prior to them showing up, you were happy with all of it.
To anyone in a relationship or friendship like that, I hope, like me, you are able to take a stand and realize you deserve better.
I knew I was being manipulated but not how much until I talked to others close to me. I pray you all never have to experience such a thing because damn, you know you did the right thing, but feel so fucking guilty at the same time.
But your happiness matters. You matter. Please remember that.
#personal#me#had to make a post. it's been eating at me since I ended it#you feel so fucking guilty but know it was the right decision.#i feel happier and lighter#its weird cause I've met my closet friends on here who are so incredible and supportive and respectful and I am in return#so to have one spiral into....that....was hard. and hard to realize despite my stomach aching day after day trying to tell me that#this was a shit situation and I deserved better#if someone makes you feel like shit and makes you believe you deserve to feel that way: leave#just leave#block them#life is to damn short to share it with people who will only make it worse and and make you feel bad as a person#i have more self respect than that#and sometimes it's hard to tell cause I want peeps to get along and have a good time when I care for them#i like making peeps happy. it brings me joy. and I tend to do it naturally without thinking.#so it's hard to sometimes see when it's not healthy#i pray for anyone in a relationship/friendship like this#know you are worth it and no one has the right to make you feel like that.#when someone doesn't respect that you have a life and can't be there 24/7 and take it Personally when you can't....like no#I've had so many friendships on here that respect your time and realize messaging comes second maybe even third or fourth#and it sucks when the opposite happens and it just gets worse and worse.#And them using 'i used to be a therapist so I know you better then yourself' should never be an excuse for them putting you down EVER.
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I know I technically passed the Trigun Stargaze date but I was busy fighting demons (sane Trigun fan reactions) until night became morning
#NO BECAUSE ITS INSANE#WDYM ITS NOT JUST GONNA BE TRIGUN STAMPEDE SEASON TWO#ALSO THE SECRECY OVER MILLY HAS TO BE WORTH IT BECAUSE GOD I LOVE HER SO MUCH 😭😭😭#THE CONCEPT ART IS TO DIE FOR DAWG LIKE THE PUPPET MASTER IS SO MUCH MORE SINISTER AND IM PRAYING THAT ELENDIRA WOULD BE LIKE THE ART#I NEED THEM BOTH BACK SO MUCH 😭#also THE NEW PLANT LORE????#THERES SO MANY IMPLICATIONS BECAUSE WHAT DO YOU ACTUALLY MEAN BY TWO POWERS WITH ONE BEING ABLE TO TAKE AND ONE BEING ABLE TO BRING#AND THE FIRST ENTITY???? PLANTS BEING PROGRAMMED???????????? AND MORE ABOUT THE DIMENSION??????????????????????????#God I hope that Trigun Stargaze would be a little longer because I need to know all this#and hopefully they would go in-depth with other stuff too like the Eye of Micheal and the cities#maybe even delve into backstories of the Gung ho Guns… (puppeteer in the manga was sooooo vague bc wdym Vash knew him#like bro really came and went without any further knowledge of that)#oughhhh this is me rambling but holy smokes dude I’m going insane over this#also praying that Milly Thompson comes back 😭🙏🙏🙏#Trigun
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Applying to an apartment with little income and terrible credit score, in hopes that they'll be desperate enough to take me
#im not even getting my hopes up for this one folks#but this same company rook me when i had no rental history so maybe?#unlikely for the aforementioned piss poor income and credit score#im just praying they remember me feom when i used to rent from them and liked me enough then to take me again#the bathroom is not in the apartment btw#that's the wildest thing. like its a basic studio with a kitchen closet and main area#but you have to go across the hall. to the private bathroom#im hoping they realize that thats wild and give me the apartment#i neeeeed to leave my parents house. and i really miss that city the apartment is in#i wish there was a little essay section where i could tell the landlord how much i like the city#and that ill get a better job once i live there and my parents are going to pay my first month and security deposit#that would be nice#i applied knowing that i won't get it but also knowing that i cant get it if i dont try#mostly i just miss that city#there was a really nice coffee shop within walking distance of my apartment#(the apartment i applied to is next door to the building i used to live in so same area which is great)#but i didnt have wifi so i would go there a lot to do work. it was so cozy in the winter especially#and i went on a lot of walks. so i wiuld swing by there and grab a drink to sip on my walk#and it was literally within sight of a great lake. a literal great lakw of Michigan lol#i loved walking along the lake on a nice day. or a windy day and just watch the waves crash#and my favorite band is feom that city so i got to see so many of their performances. and theyre a small band so the most i ever paid#was $50 and that was for the vip package. i saw them for $10 once. and free once. and $50 for the vip#its a big art and music city and i love it so much. i miss it so fucking much and i regret leaving#but at least it made me realize that no other city is for me. that city is my home#oh and it was literally right next to a bug beautiful library that i loved to wander. i still have my library card from there#mostly used it to print stuff and you have to pay at the box next to the printer. and one time i forgot to pay. i still feel bad about that#but i dont want to reminisce too much cuz i know i wont get it#im trying to pay off my credit cards to bring up my credit score but its slow going#its much nearer my gf and all my friends so i would love to live near them. rn im hours away from about everyone i love#i ran out of tags. maybe pray for me if you pray? or just hope for me. i dont want to let myself want this but its there
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