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@hedgehodgy, this is my attempt at a Triton first sketch for your fic 'Mercy Upon Ourselves'! I hope he looks similar enough to your vision of him!?? I'm open to ideas so if you have an actor face-claim or something similar, I'd love to see it!
Happy writing! I really love your fic!!
#triton#it's almost 2am and i am sick#i hope i sound coherent enough??#i had a desire to draw triton#so i gave into that desire#i still wanna change some things#and i'll get to those changes!#percy jackson#percy jackson fanfic#fanfic fanart#fic art for a great fic writer#pose is from our great melon soup i believe!#... melon soup?#idk i'm tired and sick and the demon of the month has come for my blood#i'm having a nIGHT
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SUGGESTION — The lieutenant looks like he needs a kiss.
#disco elysium#harrykim#harry du bois#kim kitsuragi#my art#my animation#i don't have the energy and time to make a proper harrykim art so here's this for now#also im still learning how to draw harry#harry gave him a forehead kiss bc he's keeping it profesh (it's not after hours yet)#also that quote about something something desire is that it's stronger when it's not totally satisfied
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ring kiss
#inspekchin#capochin#ggg hector#great god grove#id in alt text#been watching some friends sims streams of them and i loooove their party outfits we gave them so much#theyre a nightmare to watch though they both have the jealous trait and capochin get insecure so so much#and then occasionally they get the desires to express devotion to each other and i start clawing at my enclosure#great god grove spoilers#ggg spoilers
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It's a time-honoured tradition- every time Sam comes across Izzy (and Ed) in their travels, he asks Izzy to marry him. And every time, Izzy turns him down.
At this point, Sam is asking more for the sake of it than any belief Izzy will ever say yes, a remnant of childhood dedication touched with 30 years of heartbreak and regret- though even now, a small part of him still holds out hope. Sam's promises have only got more extravagant over the years, from a job as his first mate, to a captaincy, a fleet at his command, a whole fucking island if that's what Izzy wants- but he knows it isn't though, not really. If Izzy was ever going to agree to marry him, to leave his life and go with Sam, it wouldn't be for anything Sam could offer him. Izzy never did care for flashy shows of wealth, for a ship or to be captain. The only thing that ever mattered to him was loyalty given, and loyalty shown in return.
It all comes to a head after Stede left and came back, after Izzy lost a toe, lost his leg. Sam hasn't seen him since before things with Ed started to really slide off the rails, before stress permanently set into the lines of Izzy’s face. So, when he sees a dishevelled man with a hoof for a leg in a no-name port, he doesn't even consider the idea that he might know him. It's only when he turns towards him, and Sam catches a glance at those oh too familiar tattoos, he realises this is Izzy, his Izzy, that stands before him.
Knowing Izzy's discomfort with pity, he doesn't treat him any differently than he would in years gone by, positioning himself in Izzy's line of sight before approaching and sweeping him up into a bone crushing hug.
“Israel-goddamn-Hands!” he exclaims, as Izzy grumbles back a begrudging “Samuel-fucking-Bellamy”, a tradition almost as old as their friendship itself. Izzy might not hug him back, but he can’t keep the corner of his mouth from twitching, just for a second.
(If Sam holds Izzy a little tighter and a little longer than usual, well. That's his business)
By the time Sam lets go, most of the crew has appeared in the town square, drawn in by the commotion. They may have given Izzy his leg and welcomed him as one of them, but still there’s an underlying tension, with nobody quite ready to set aside everything that happened before the Kraken. Seeing him cosying up to an unknown man sets everyone on edge, unsure whether to come to their first mate’s aid, or to assume that they've been betrayed once again.
When Ed sees that the yelling was Sam, his hand goes tense where it's held in Stede's. He knows the routine, has seen it more times than he can count, but as he watches them part he realises that this is the first time in a long time he's unsure of what Izzy's response will be.
Knowing that something’s different, knowing that Izzy's feeling vulnerable already, Sam doesn't go for the same flashy proposal he’s been giving for years. He doesn't promise Izzy the world, he doesn't cause a scene (or, any more of a scene than he already has, anyway). He looks at the fractured man in front of him, takes his face in his hands, and says the exact same thing to him he said when they were little more than boys. “Israel, I have to ask you. I know what you'll say, but I have to try. Come with me. Marry me and sail away with me. I'll keep you safe”
And Izzy… hesitates. He glances over at Ed, at Stede, and says to Sam “...We’re staying in port for a week. Ask me again then”
That's the moment Sam knows there is something deeply, horribly, wrong. He's not just looking at an Izzy who got seriously injured in a fight and is struggling to cope, this is something so much bigger than that- and that Ed has something to do with it. Izzy wouldn't even be considering leaving if he didn't. Whether it was negligence or something more sinister, Sam doesn't yet know, but he intends to find out.
#i feel like the little paragraph about the crew is real clunky and out of place but i wanted some kind of establishment of where those#dynamics are at. its important that the crew is something for izzy to consider in his decision; but also that their relationship isnt so#solid he would stay for them alone; yknow?#im sorta aiming for a s2e5 era but like. early in those themes. he cant be all sorted yet i need him to be struggling#anyway this is part of a much larger scenario in my head that im never ever doing anything with but i wrote THIS bit in a daze in like. jun#and i got thinking about it again and i think?? it holds its own as a 'hey think about THIS' snippet. idk you decide#youre welcome to interpret this as solo bellhands but in my head it Has morphed into sam/izzy/ed/stede#because i cant not put edizzy in things any more. izzy has two hands#i also think the comedy potential of one of your boyfriends HATING your other boyfriend is gold. 10/10 dynamic#stede is mostly along for the ride in this but also i think they need him#aaaaand. the sam/ed bracket i think can only be closed in exceptional circumstances. i think they 'hate' each other too much#...which is WHY someones getting kidnapped!!! yay#anyway its all irrelevant because ill never write it out. i can do silly chill things but thatll require work#nyxtalks#ofmd#our flag means death#izzy hands#israel hands#sam bellamy#bellhands#i wanna also say. the general concept of repeated sam proposals has been floating around my head forever#it used to be a more silly thing like i referenced at the start but. s2 gave me angsty feelings i guess#i cant not have izzy have feelings for ed right now which inherently adds layers to Any bellhands scenarios i think.#but yeah. its a Classic Bellhands vibe for me. sam seeing izzy at sea or on shore and asking him to marry him (again)#i like to do this with jackie too. i think i just want that man to be obnoxiously desired#(theres also layers of my personal hornigold era lore built into this but i hope it holds up without u knowing it. tldr. sam lost izzy by#being an idiot n fumbling the bag. thats what matters. izzy went with ed and sams been trying to fix it ever since)#i probably should have readmore'd this but i didnt think it was Quite long enough. or had a good break point. sorry <3
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Yes, this is an Open Season poster reference. No, I won't be elaborating.
#cartoon saloon#the secret of kells#secret of kells#aisling sok#song of the sea#saoirse sots#the breadwinner#parvana alizai#wolfwalkers#robyn goodfellowe#mebh óg mactíre#see i mostly tag my stuff so that people can navigate my blog easier and block whatever tags they're not particularly fond of seeing.#here however? i am tagging this for no reason but pure spite and a desire to make the fans of these movies suffer from this image.#you can even see all five stages of grief i went through as i drew this until i just gave up on aisling and parvana
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#im soggy. i feel like bread thats been waterboarded. mentally#i saw this piece and died#dgs#iris dgs#i forgot#iris watson#there we go#herlock sholmes#barok van zieks#the composition leaves much to be desired but i put a lot of love into this#since how many years this game has been out?#dont sue me#fun fact: when i was in this fandom i randomly went around and drew fanart for fics and gave them to the authors anonymously and then ran#its been years so i can reveal that now#sorry for startling y'all that was me. i was too scared to talk to people#mainly cuz i drew a fanart of a fanfic once and the author got mad at me for ruining the impression of their story
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I’m in the little store today and every time I think I’m gonna have downtime I pull out my laptop and every time I pull out my laptop we get a bunch of customers.
I feel like I’m just gonna post up on a bed with my kindle instead of chancing fate a third time.
#ramblies#thought I’d get to work on commissions but alas#also I gave frozen food but literally no desire to eat it and I’m on a shoestring budget so I can’t justify getting lunch so instead#im just not eating
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hey look it's the title card from the original series
personally hc Peri as nonbinary and Irep as genderfluid. also dev is transmasc but fairy godparents is what this is about
#peri fairywinkle cosma#irep anticosma#perirep#dev dimmadome#dale dimmadome#fopanw#fop fanart#my art#more digital practice with my tablet#i gave up on the shadows they were not working#if you so desire then dale can also be trans. this aint about him though he can eat a lizard#if you prefer transfem dev that is totally valid and accepted here#i just personally see dev as a transmasc. i'm projecting#oh FUCK i just realized that i forgor peri's eyelashes#guess only irep can slay in this picture sowwy peri-weri#i thought the letters would be annoying but they were actually a lot of fun to do#hopefully converting krita to png didnt fuck up the resolution too badly
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can we talk about the brilliant execution of Dot and Bubble's big reveal!!!
i am still absolutely gobsmacked by what a well-written episode Dot and Bubble is. startling, disarming, confrontational, and tremendously impactful. and holy shit i really really want to talk about how excellent the 'twist' (which really should've been obvious in retrospect 😭 was done):
as a white person it took me about ten minutes to clock that Lindy's friend group were a nightmare Aryan Tupperware Party collective: all white, all blue-eyed, and even Gothic Paul was dressed in blues and whites, with no black at all. but you know how i responded to that? mentally i went 'oh i'm sure it's nothing!' and shoved it aside. and i think it is exactly that insidious tendency to ignore, normalise, and validate overt and covert racism that the episode does such a tremendous job of tackling! everything in the episode gives us the lore we need to understand Lindy and the people of Finetime are white supremacists. Lindy's disgusted face and immediate blocking of The Doctor versus the amount of time she spends with Ruby. Lindy's shock at the Doctor and Ruby occupying the same room implying segregation on the Homeworld. Lindy calling the Doctor and Ruby 'criminals' not for being in the Bubble, but for breaking segregation. Lindy using Ricky September, a white influencer, to calm herself down not just from the monsters, but from interacting with a Black person. the tradwife aesthetic of the Finetime residents making a comeback in real-life right-wing racist circles. ugh, there's so much and it was all right in our faces!! yet many of us who aren't POC had the privilege of going through the episode baffled and uncomfortable, without being able to put a finger on why until the final bit of the episode. doesn't that tell us how quickly and easily we've all taken to ignoring both micro and macroaggressions? that we needed talk of being 'contaminated', improper use of the word 'voodoo', and Lindy straight up telling the Doctor that face-to-face contact was unacceptable, to understand they're white supremacists? oh my God 😭😭 what a genius play, to make Lindy so detestable from the start. she's an arrogant, vain, self-absorbed, moronic, uncompromising, traitorous bitch...and by layering that abhorrent personality and then giving us the reveal of her white supremacy, there is no argument even the most wishy-washy of people could have re: their awful views. Lindy and her friends are revolting racists who are so wrapped up in their own echo-chamber 'bubble' that they would genuinely rather be devoured alive than challenge their own narrow, bigoted views. i'm still blown away by the power of Ncuti's final scene. the disbelief, the frustration, the sadness and the fury...and yet the Doctor still tries to save them against all odds. i think the most common response to this episode was 'The Doctor should have gone all Time Lord Victorious on them', and you're right - he should have! but doing that would've affirmed the beliefs of the real-life racists viewers. the Doctor responding not with violence or righteous vengeance is a very deliberate writing choice: we are supposed to come away feeling revolted that he needed to behave that way, to almost be supplicant to the white supremacists. because that is the real-life view of so many people who don't even view themselves as racist: Black people need to 'perform' to a higher standard, than white people just to be considered worthy of respect. the more i watch it, the more i'm convinced this is the best episode of the whole season, and one of the best Doctor Who episodes we've ever had. we were taken off-guard by having an episode overtly about racism set in the future rather than the past, because our tendency is to assume equality is a natural consequence of becoming technologically advanced. this clearly isn't the case, and Dot and Bubble is a masterclass in confronting racism head-on rather than dancing around it for the comfort of white viewers. just. aaargh!!!! absolutely amazing 🔥🔥🔥
#talk about a much-needed slap in the face AND addressing the elephant in the room#this was an episode that did the Fifteenth Doctor so much justice and he deserves it all and more#i hope that in future episodes we also don't shy away from the Doctor's Blackness as a core aspect of his identity#and are able to discuss it with as much nuance and thought as this episode gave us 💖💖💖#bro you know it's good when the whole episode just eviscerated my desire to talk about Susan Twist's appearance because it's so juicy omfg#doctor who spoilers#doctor who#dot and bubble#15th doctor#fifteenth doctor#the doctor#ruby sunday#lindy pepper-bean#ricky september#ncuti gatwa#millie gibson#callie cooke#tom rhys haries#starleskatalks#long post
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Helllloooooooooo
#my skin is so good at the moment#I had no desire to wear makeup before I went out tonight I felt so cute as is#personal#photo#me#oh and one of my best friends gave me this too love love love
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﹒ IRL yandere, continue if you want.
﹒ ☆ minor, nonbinary. mascneu terms.
﹒ ☆ my posts are directed to and about my love.
﹒ ☆ devotional.
﹒ ☆ basic dni + i'll block if i wanna <3
﹒ ☆ my love has my account information!!! yes he monitors this account!!!
﹒ ☆ i condone everything i write about, if that scares you, i suggest not sticking around!
#✿ ˚ ◞ so endlessly we're intertwined#<- yan posts#✿ ˚ ◞ squeeze on my heart and drink all the blood#<- asks#✿ ˚ ◞ i forgave them with the love i gave#<- reblogs#✿ ˚ ◞ entwined in red rings of blood and desire#<- posts about my love#yan blog#actual yandere#obslove#obsessive love#actually mentally ill#actually obsessive
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on my knees begging this man to save me from the clutches of desire
#i’m in the THROES of it#I SWEAR this man is so unearthly sexy it’s UNREAL#a more beautiful man there has NEVER been#sexiest man alive every year every century every day#i don’t know who gave him permission to spread his legs so wide but 🥵🥵🥵#i’m on my knees getting the full view honestly#the INTENSITY#the GRIT#the PROMISE OF PASSION HOLY HEAVENS I CANNOT#i need him to absolutely disintegrate my ribcage with his embrace#being normal? never heard of her#broooooo look at his arms#his WRISTS I AM SO ATTRACTED TO THEM#those forearms are thicker than my neck#i need to BITE THEM#the way he’s looking up in the second picture 😱#he is so attractive as the mysterious silent spaniard#literally tripping over myself getting to his bed#this man could do ANYTHING to me#need him to bang me so hard we break the bed and fall into the basement#i would do him. so. good.#he wouldn’t be able to breathe for awhile#sorry guys i’m just FERAL for this photoshoot#it’s so SEXY SO HOT SO ENTICING#i am a simp for maximus every single day of my life#he’s my beloved husband whose heart i treasure and whose forehead i long to kiss tenderly#but i am also FLAMING WITH DESIRE for this big strong warrior#GET ME IN A FAMILY WAY MAXIMUS I AM BEGGING YOU#gladiator#russell crowe
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bobby paused on the stairs and forlornly asked, “aren’t you glad to see me?”
bobby kennedy if i had been your family …
#bc if you think about it . bobby only ever felt loved or appreciated or worthy when he did things For his family#when he served Others even at the detriment of his own health and needs#he gave up his JOB . a life of his own to serve his brother#because he had always been made to feel that if he wasn’t propping someone else up#he just didn’t matter#and he most especially didn’t matter to the person whose approval and love he wanted the most#which was his father#i would argue that that natural and inevitable desire to feel loved and appreciated and like he’s worthy of it is what drove him to#to california . so to speak .#rfk#bobby kennedy#robert kennedy#robert f kennedy#kennedy#jfk#jack kennedy#joe jr.#kennedy for your thoughts
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Top Gun: Stamps!
#my art#top gun fanart#top gun fandom#tgm fanart#stamps#digital art#the poll I put up is still going but I heard you loud and clear on the desire for more top gun! 😅#I’ve had letters on my mind so it gave me the idea to make little top gun stamps#I think they look so cute!#top gun maverick#Maverick
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(abt my last ask) thank you for the answer, your understanding of charas is trully stellar!
I wanted to ask, what's your take on recovery!au (unless you intend to cover it in your fic)? In the universe, where Jimmy happens, but the crew somehow survives. Everyone is traumatised, Anya is pregnant, Curly is disabled (could he even be able to afford disability aids? Pony express in no more, would they even be paid a sufficient compensation?). There is also a question of p*lice investigation (or whatever agency is responsible for space crimes), even more trauma... Man, it's bleak.
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I like them sad but for emotional and physical recovery reason rather than all the actual legal stuff that would ensue.
I like when Swansea relapsing is explored and Daisuke losing a little bit of his light. I am clearly a big supporter of Anya and Curly remaining close friend after but I think exploring the unhealthy dynamics of the trauma bond they’d develop should be played with way more. I think it’s a bit annoying when people are on the nose about Anya telling Curly he should’ve done more, especially when he’s struggling through recovery.
I feel like people really want her to be a character to rub salt into wounds, just to give her something cathartic, but it’s just OOC for me. It’s not a kindness thing but I don’t think she wants that sort of guilt to stay with him like that? He did not do what Jimmy did, he could’ve done more to stop it but she would not intentionally try to direct what she can never take out towards Jimmy at Curly. At least when they all make it out. This is not to say she doesn’t think he shouldn’t have any remorse but she understands that no one else could have foreseen Jimmy crashing the ship or getting that bad.
I like when it gets psychoanalytic in fics with the crew. Talk about Curly finally opening up on details on how he and Jimmy were friends, have the others realize how bad Jimmy was to even Curly, not a lot of people realize that they don’t know how Jimmy was to him. Have Anya be angry and snippy, have her worry she’s becoming like Jimmy even though she could never be like him, it’s that fear though, that she is owed that cathartic release and may take it out on others in some selfish subconscious desire to reclaim control for herself. Have her actualize-herself, is med school the only option? What does she want now? Does Swansea divorce his wife, give up on the life he created because he was just following the path of a good man, one he didn’t believe? Or does he stay and use the time he has left to make it something he believes in. How is Daisuke? Is he more mature or does he lose a little light? What are his new aspirations if any? His relationship with his parents?
Ultimately, I think a recover au should really focus on just them actually getting to know each other and filling themselves. So much of their interactions were likely based on coworker dynamics first. With that out the window they are now people who can’t really move on from each other but need to move on in life.
#ngl I’m a baby and do like recovery aus where jimmy dies and Curly is injured but not as badly#mainly because the theme of characters not getting what they desire both as like a reward and improper punishment hurt#like that should’ve been Jimmy in the damn cockpit like again wtf is wrong with curly cause he was just no fear or plan willing to risk his#life like again he would’ve eventually done the right thing and had to live with the guilt of not doing it sooner cause mans effectively#killed himslef with that stunt idk he’s an odd white fellow#I want Anya to be happiest in these aus because no one talks value the fear of becoming like ur abuser in a way like she’d be stuck on so#many ways he affected her and not know if she was like this before or he brought it out of her like would she feel like she gave curly to#him to abuse the bruises has to be obvious to a nurse did she really think they wouldn’t get into the med bay#was she being merciful to curly or not caring anymore like Jimmy wouldn’t? it’s not fair to her to have these thoughts#her attempts at doing the right thing were not misguided by selfish delusions but god she thinks they are for a bit Polle haunts her in a#different way as she realizes none of this was her burden and it shouldn’t be anyone else’s#idk post aus are fun but I just hate when people make it about punishing a character or overly pessimistic like damn get rid of that fix it#tag if nothing is resolved and everyon still wants to die 10 chapters in im trying to cry tears of relief i will be back for chapter 11#mouthwashing#ask#💀 anon
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I didn't mean to go down this rabbit-hole but now I need to exhume Anne Rice and shake her until she tells me if Armand is based on Tadzio/Bjorn Andreson because I swear to god these are the same story. A teenaged boy being pursued and taken advantaged of by older men who do not care about his mental or physical well-being? Objectified and reduced to this ideal, androgynous beauty that infantilizes them and strips them of their burgeoning manhood? That youthful beauty being immortalized forever, against their will? The Venice and Paris of it all???? There is too much going on here for it to be a coincidence
#interview with the vampire#death in venice#the vampire armand#the vampire chronicles#armand#char.txt#Like okay I thought it was another european film that portrayed the desire for youth and mental/physical/artistic prime in a pedophilic way#because that is like an entire genre of film by itself#but this kids face literally gave birth to bishounen#every detail ive read about the character and the real actors life rings alarming true to Armand like its astound#like all tumblr user dreadfuldevotee rabbit holes this too comes in threes so ig watch this space while i go watch bjorn's documentary
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