#so i figured yall should know

[dromaeo-sauridae]

a dear visitor

heavily based off the max kurzweil painting of the same name :) i like to imagine arthur bullied kieran into bringing his horse over while he was covering from the o'driscolls incident. while grimshaw wasnt looking, of course

(reblogs>likes!)

[freaky-flawless]

Headless Headmistress Bloodgood redesign!

I've been wanting to redesign her for a while, in a way that would marry the aspects from each of her designs that I like. I'm pretty happy with how she turned out!

At some point I would like to design some more Monster High teachers and staff, because no matter what gen, that school is struggling.

[monotone-artist]

[id in alt]

some idw redraws

[marmastry]

Quarrel

[benevolenterrancy]

*glances at svsss' vol 4 worth of extras, aka 'the whump and smut pile'* you haven't seen anything yet

You guys are seriously taking an axe to my self-control;;; I'm trying to make this series last longer than a single month!! I'm trying to savour things!!! I'm trying to read something else and give the series a bit of breathing room before I pick up the last book but I want the "whump and smut pile" I want that so much I feel like a dog that's getting a treat waved in front of its face .·´¯`(；´д｀)´¯`·.

[snootlestheangel]

This might sound attention seeking so I'm sorry if it does, it is not my intention, I am just looking for a distraction.

Since my anxiety is actively trying to kill me, I'd really appreciate some asks or something

The more bizarre the question, the better, but I'll take things for my wips or ocs

Just anything to distract me from the fact I feel rather miserable lately

*i get sappy in the tags*

[herlittlebunnyboy]

As I lay here happy, content and sleepy, covered in a warm comforter, clutching one of my heavy pillows tight to my chest, listening to the blinds gently bump into one another stirred into movement by the cool night air coming in through the open window I allow myself to remember.

I remember the first couple times we met. The young Hispanic girl that was overly shy but so pretty to me. I remember how she made me feel and how hard I tried to hide it so that I could seem cool. I remember how much of a fool I was.

I remember some of our earlier fights, how stubborn and hard headed I was, how i could have easily changed so many things, how o could have and should have been better, for her, for me and for the both of us. I remember letting go and how truly sad and alone I felt.

I remember regaining contact and the rush of pure joy i had felt, how even talking to her hundreds of miles away lifted my spirits. How she could infuriate me so much and yet il never get enough of her. I remember how much I need her and in so many different ways.

I remember a recent trip back home where I got to see her, me standing at my hotel room window eagerly watching for her smile to appear along with her stepping out of her car. I remember making fun of her for her food choice as I ordered Chinese delivery for us and ice cream, laughing as she spilled cookies and cream ice cream on the sheets while watching some movie I can't remember.

I remember how I hoped she couldn't tell how fast my heart was beating, and how I couldn't look her in the eye because I never knew if that whole "your pupils get larger when you stare at something you like" idea was true. My pupils must have been huge... I remember her skin brushing against mine, her taste filling my head and making every cell in my body sing, her teeth eagerly bruising me and how much more i wanted and how I slept so soundly that night.

I remember how much I enjoyed breakfast with her the morning after and how just genuinely nice it was to be able to just be with her. She said the waitress was extra nice to me but I didn't notice, all I could see was her. I remember how we finally had to say goodbye how hard it was to see her driving off toward her home and how empty that rental car felt. I remember the song playing that I must have restated about 5 or 6 times and how hard it was to move again. It felt like I was trying to move my body but it had the weight of solid steel.

And I remember how happy i was to get her text that she had made it home safe and sound and how she was already planning out next fateful meeting. I dont think she knows that when i dont get responses from her i get anxious, or how i have alarms set that let me know shes on lunch or off work so that i can hear her talk about her day or even just sit and listen to silence on the phone with her. As long as its her. Theres so much to remember and I'm so so sleepy. Some of it is painful. Most of it isn't. But either way I already can't wait to text her good morning. To ask her how she slept.

I know I'm rambling. I told you all i would. It feels nice though. Like I'm watching a movie back in my head. One where I dont know how it ends yet.

[starboymp3]

my mental state or whatever is so bad these days i genuinely started thinking that my purpose in life is literally just to kill myself lmfaoo 😭

[boxwinebaddie]

hi uncle nina! sorry if this is kinda overbearing, but you havent posted anything today so i just wanna check in and make sure youre doing okay! <3

oh my god, sweetheart!!! this is not overbearing AT ALL! this is extremely thoughtful and makes me feel extremely validated. <3

i'm sorry for causing concern, but ty for being concerned about me.

because the school year is coming to a close, things around me at work have been pretty intense, so i've been tossed around like a ragdoll the past week and haven't had much time to write as a result. i also haven't been sleeping very well and rush a lot in the mornings, so i've forgotten to take my mood stabilizer the past couple of days which makes me v sluggish, zombie-ish and unpleasant in general. :/

...when i am like that, as a weird way of sparing you, i suppose, i try not to post on here too much because it feels quite shitty indeed for you to get a notification for my blog just to watch me bitch n moan.

however, i have taken my medication today and feel bad for fumbling kyle week...as we know i'm not really good at holding myself accountable or making deadlines. oddly enough, it's not that i don't want to answer my questions, it's just that other than not being able to really find the time recently, i just can't find the right...words?

( this ask is long and irrelevant, but read if you wish. ilysm. )

or, rather, i don't feel knowledgeable enough the subjects to answer? specifically in the areas of my tsot/tfbw styles and ncuniverses, i feel a little insecure because i don't know sp or the games as well as many other people do, so i'm trying to speed watch episodes/watch speed runs of the games online so i can at least keep some canon intact?

i also am finding that creating and understanding how high fantasy universes work is...difficult? lmao? also because i did crazy stuff with mutations and science and politics in my tfbw ncuniverse, that's also complicated and out of my wheelhouse...tldr: i have big ideas, but i'm not very good at backing them in fact or doing analytical stuff.

but...iiiiii need to, lmao. mental illness, but if i make a universe it has to be fully realized, it has to all make as much sense as possible, echo the canon, enhance it, feel real and be fluid...so if i'm not around too much it's because i'm trying to bolster myself with my sp knowledge ( ik, i'm a fake fan ) and watch/read/research high fantasy concepts and superhero/scientific fiction/dystopian stuff...so if anyone has any recommendations for me to watch or learn from in those realms, i'd appreciate it. again, this is intense...but i care a lot about my craft.

and specifically crafting something worthy of all of you, that makes sense, lives and breathes, reflects the show we love & is interesting.

ANYWAYS!!!! with that said, i got a cool ask about whether or not i have a gunslinger kyle? which? not yet? BUT YOU'RE A GENIUS BABY I AM SOOOOO ON IT!!! please let me cook and watch some things because actually, oh my god, i am very down. i'll update you. i might make a board to gather ideas, omg, omg, it'll be SPICY.

i got an ask about princess kylie, which, bless you, i am also still developing her character, i am going to pour over the books, watch some GOT, do some mapping out, watch some intricate dnd play throughs...and have some answers for you very soon: hang on, baby.

( she's little, bitchy, prissy and does need to be babysat, i'm afraid. )

got some on jersey i'm excited about! sorry for writing that ask meme about the sour skittles like that, again, writing has been trying for me lately and i had a concept that i wanted to share but wasn't sure how to express that. if you guys are alright with getting my asks in the form of notes some times i would appreciate it! anyways, keep your eyes out for some of those...if kyle week runs into next week, sorry.

idk...this is so long. all this to say...i'm really sorry? i haven't been a very solid creator lately, but i'm a little unstable rn. but i am working on it and i hope to be back on the horse by tonight and share my notes at least and show you guys how my brain is working.

in the mean time, please direct as many questions as you would like in the direction of riley, teri and ana who not only are epic writers but have been an epic support system/helping me get back into things.

thank you for caring, thank you for reading...keeping up with this blog and the questions and creating constantly is sometimes challenging, but very rewarding. i promise that i am not neglecting my asks or all of you because i don't care, its actually because i care very much and only want to give you stuff that is awesome and cool and well researched. so, again, just give me a second to get my barings and while it kind of eats at my bad bpd brain i might try and share stuff with you guys that's half baked because the feedback might help.

tldr: i love you, this made no sense, i'm a mess, but i am fine.

miss you and love you. happy kyle week.

-uncle nina

[cavity-collector]

i genuinely need to be put down like a dog i cant do this anymore man holy shit

[toytulini]

god I know this is like The Wrong Stance on AI. I know its not about whether the art is Real and Human or If It Has A Soul and how a lot of the arguments against it are the same bullshit arguments people made against digital art like I Know. I Knowwww. but god, I'm really sorry, not to post like one of those annoying poetry bloggers I cant stand (yall are valid, live your truth, theres nothing wrong with what you post I'm just a petty bitch who hates poetry. unless I dont hate it.)

But theres just something about the way AI art will almost certainly never be able to mimic the exact way my pencil leaves an indentation in the paper, the way some of the lines I can never fully erase cause I pressed too hard, theyll have to at least train them to draw with a physical pencil first, and sure, they could train it to draw with a pencil and even erase the exact same piece I drew, line for line, on a piece of paper with a robot arm powered by AI, but they can't replicate. idk. the lineage of lefty bitches in my family, and the way I grew up going through school with my entire left arm silver with graphite, from doodling on my schoolwork. not yet anyway. but I guess I do live for the day we make the ai sentient enough that we can traumatize it by giving it homework after kneecapping its executive functions so it copes by drawing a big tiddy lobster monster. sure

[ratwars]

My new plan of action is to be more unapologetically me at work while still being work me because I am fucking tired of everything and my lack of fucks has apparently hit a new level so instead of fretting about that I am just accepting the damage periods of unemployment does to my personality (work personality? Ability to maintain said personality?) And going with it. If it works great. If it doesn't then they gotta fire me it is whatever I am not even pretending like I care to make a cookie cutter impression.

[daedalusdavinci]

lil more effort for day 13 bc im in a drawing mood (for now.)

[shannonsketches]

y'all ready for a lore drop I rambled at my friends for two hours this afternoon about eidolon gan's descent into his villain era and I only edited it a little for tumblr

[aziraphales-flaming-cock]

I want to grab your tiny face in my hands, look you in the eyes, and say I WANT TO GET TO KNOW YOU BETTER, LET ME CARE ABOUT YOU ON PURPOSE

but instead, this is the internet and there is no eye contact, so I am just going to be weird about it and make you go away forever

[qwuilty]

Also some snippets from old web archives of the gopostal(dot)com website, back in it's younger days circa the late 90s.

I'm super fascinated by the small changes in the story these website archives give, and god i am still so sad we never got that novel. </3 Still that original journal entry is. so good i love it