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jackietaylorsghost · 2 years ago
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YELLOWJACKETS 105. Blood Hive
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walkingstackofbooks · 1 year ago
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Every time I watch Shore Leave, I become more convinced that Ruth is dead.
Like, Jim's hellbent on chasing after Sulu, Yeoman Barrows has just been attacked, and then he stops for these flowers with a look of wonder on his face?
My theory is that he's terrified he'll be too late and something will attack Sulu, he thinks something along the lines of "how many more flowers will I have to lay on graves?" and then he sees the exact flowers he lays on Ruth's grave and he has to stop and take one and smile sadly.
And then the whole conversation with Ruth, I mean... Yeah, it does make sense if they were once together and then broke up, but the /pain/ and /longing/ in his eyes, man.
(Also this leaves open the possibility that because he's already seen one dead loved one on this planet, after McCoy is "revived", he might be half-convinced that the McCoy who came back was just a reconstruction because he wanted to see him, and the real Bones is still just as dead as he was. Oh, I want to write this fic so badlyyyy.. if it wasn't a work night ...)
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astracora · 5 months ago
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A Mandated Holiday Break - Chapter 5
Characters: Sylus x gn!mc (poly lads)
Warnings: Loose spoilers for 'Mischief' anecdote and Sylus Myth.
Word Count: 1275
Written: 21st December 2024
Notes: Post-relationship Sylus/MC-centric but poly LADs, with my personal pov of the game and lil headcanons littered in.
Chapters: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11
Masterlist AO3
You've passed out, midway through some movie about a man in green visiting some city in search of his father. Sometime during your movie marathon with Sylus, he'd noticed you'd stopped caring what you'd put on. He'd gotten too invested in Die Hard (a Christmas movie, you swore), and had been more than horrified that the inaccuracies didn't bother you.
At that point you'd stopped showing him movies you really loved, instead giggling with glee at making him watch some of the worst or silliest things you could find. To see his nose scrunch, and what you'd (incorrectly) called his snobby rich boy taste.
Of all the movies you could watch, he refused to understand why toilet humour had entertained you so.
It hadn't, he thinks, his inability to not roll his eyes, had been your goal.
Still, the laughter had been worth it. He would do anything to hear it forever, so perhaps he'd let you play terrible movies for the end of time.
As you murmured in your sleep, at which he'd lowered his head to try to make words out. (Something about a farmers market, and a duck?) He'd left your side, reluctant but knowing you needed to eat. Something other than cookies. You'd at least drank the water he made sure was at your side, if he left you alone he thinks you'd subsist off caffeine.
When he untangles himself from you, carefully, so carefully because while he'd love to bring you with him, the bags under your eyes demand more sleep than you've been getting. He checks you over once more, tugging the soft pink blanket over you. (It doesn't match the decor but you'd said pink suited him. He'd given you a look of disbelief... but he hadn't stopped using it since. Despite running a higher temperature than anyone you knew.)
He met the twins in the kitchen, stuffing sugar cookies into their mouths, as soon as they heard the door open. Two pairs of guilty, wide eyes shot to stare.
He's seen raccoons before, digging through food in the bins. He won't compare them, out loud, but the look is similar. "You better hope the doctor doesn't count those." Luke gulps, Kieran fidgets.
There was little the doctor was protective over, or possessive over. Sugar, and the kitten curled up on his sofa, were the two that mattered. He'd also been informed of their presence, waiting for him.
Sylus knows no matter what, even the N109 zone wouldn't keep the good doctor away from either of those things, especially in the same room.
With a smug, little self satisfied purr, he stuffs one of the fresh baked cookies into his mouth.
Food was always better shared, than alone, as he'd learned over the years.
"Is it dinner time?" Luke asks, swinging his legs as he jumps back up on the counter. Watching Sylus grab things from around the room, pulling his phone out to find a recipe he'd been sent by the prince.
'I want to make this.'
'I'm not letting you make it in my kitchen.'
'They'll like it.'
'They won't like the base being set on fire.'
In the end he'd promised to make it instead. If only to save everyone from the prince's electronic based curse.
He nods at the question, and as he watches the two out the corner of his eye, he realises he has no idea when they started living here.
He's aware of the time they've been working for him, he remembers the day he met them vividly. He's deeply familiar with how he felt watching them struggle against Ever's bonds.
The crystals gouged out of skin, the pain, the yearning. It had twisted parts of his chest, and torn at old memories he wished he could forget.
It was never easy to separate from the past, it stayed a part of you even if you desperately wished it wouldn't.
Still, he has no recollection for when they went from visiting for work, to staying, always present unless they wanted to explore together. Talking to him with candour... no, formality was never the twin's forte.
Something had changed, however, and he wasn't sure when.
He follows steps as he muses, though doesn't share his thinking out loud, after all, they seem content to just watch. Sticking leftover crumbs in their mouths, and chattering to each other.
Sylus doesn't really know when making meals for others became like this, he started because it made you happy, he continued because he liked doing it. A simple task, but it garnered praise, and joy. Food was not something he'd needed before, now, however, it was a gift to be shared.
It was simply just as easy to prepare for four (five, as he makes enough to save a plate for the prince), as it was for two.
Kieran hums the song that you were playing earlier, still out of tune, and he has to bite back his laugh, but finds himself joining in. He doesn't remember the words yet he's never discontent for his mind to remember you in every song he ever hears.
"Hey Hunter!"
"Morning!"
You enter the room, rubbing at your eyes, and he finds himself smiling at you easily. It's more a quirk of the lips, and garnet eyes melting, but you smile back as though he's beaming.
Perhaps in his way, he is. He's still unpracticed with joy. With emotions.
Showing them is hard, so he speaks them and he places them into your hands (for your heart to keep) in actions.
He refuses to let you think he is not earnest. Never to lie, never to flatter. You will never doubt his affections, he promises.
As you yawn and pull yourself up onto the kitchen counter, and he wonders why he bothered to buy stools for the bar. None of you seem to use them, content to hover too close. Comment and talk and titter away.
When he'd asked, you'd shrugged. "I like to be tall." You'd teased, kissing his forehead at the height the counter allowed you.
His cheeks had flamed and he'd blinked. Surprised and confused. Until the feeling settled into a burning need. So hungry and desperate and clawing, he'd pulled you in by the back of your neck and bitten, kissed and licked his way up your throat.
Your laughter and sighs had stuck in his head for weeks after.
He found himself wishing you'd do it again, every single time you sat on the counter to watch him cook.
Instead of the twins singing, though you seem to find it entertaining to watch them relax, you reconnect your phone to the sound system he installed in the kitchen.
For you, ever since he visited your own place to see your speakers hooked up on the wall, humming away as you baked bread. Told him music made any task better, even the ones you hated.
Sylus has been so used to solitude his entire life. Before the abyss, after the abyss. He's spent longer alone, than he has with others. Even when he built Onychinus, ground up, clawing and scratching to his makeshift throne, nothing had touched that solitude.
His time in the clouds had been short in comparison. A blip.
A torn out moment as close to bliss as he could ever have thought to get.
This. Here. A low chuckle in his throat, songs in the air, and warmth in his joined heart... he could not bear to trade or lose.
Even when one of the twins, pointing at each other when whirled on, throws a slice of carrot at his head.
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random-autie-fangirl · 3 months ago
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I drew another Chara- living with the Dreemurrs edition
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"The King and Queen treated the human child as their own. The underground was filled with hope."
I don't like this as much as the last one but oh well... I ended up rambling a huge amount in the tag, so if you want details and headcanons about the actual drawing again, you'll have to look pretty far down this time, sorry (Also, I ran out of tags after a while. Tumblr is tired of me, lol. I might reblog this more tags later if I remember what I was going to say.)
#chara dreemurr#undertale#next up: the narrator#(I know that's not a title they receive in game like the other two but... just let me have this)#The future monarch of monsterkind. The prophecized saviour. One of the most important people in the underground. An angel apparently.#Chara puts all of their effort into appearing perfect in both appearance and manners. They're representing all the underground now and they#don't want to let down the king and queen! (Plus Chara's scared of getting kicked out or worse should they ever disappoint their family)#But... they're gonna save everyone! They're gonna make sure the monsters win this war! It's their destiny! The prophecy says so!#(... That's why all this happened to them. Chara sees themself as smarter more careful and maturer than their peers... because of the way#what a strange child...#hey look! I did a thing#my art#they were raised on the surface. They believe they have the skills to lead monsterkind to victory because of what they suffered.#Almost like they were trained or led to this moment. Like they don't have a choice. But this makes all their pain worth it right?#It was always for this fated grand purpose right? That's why they hate feeling robbed of their ''purpose''! Might be part of why they hate#determination! What do you mean you can defy fate? What do you mean things could've been different? That I didnt have to go through this?#that it wasn't written in the stars?... Oh shit I forgot to talk about the drawing!#The little bunches are supposed to look like monster ears. Especially with the monster soul locket. They're doing a curtsy which they alway#upon meeting someone new and introducing themself as the future monarch of monsterkind. Calling whoever they're talking to sir or ma'am.#Wanted to make it a curtsy/bow combination but I couldn't draw that. They have a little golden flower clip to pull their hair back and#they gave themself the belt and flouncy petticoat. They iron and polish everything they wear literally everytime they go outside.#Chara wears heeled boots whenever possible because they really hate being so short...they somehow think it makes them look weak.#The blushes and lashes are make-up! Chara wants to look perfect after all! They also really really hate their red spots/birthmarks and will#cover them up whenever possible...and they're wearing their crucifix again. Of course they are! Through it all they'll always keep#their faith. ....Until Chara finds themself a figurehead of an entirely new religion. I think they're...newly 11 here. (Second year in the#underground. 10 when they fell. 13 when they did.) Comfortable (comfortable as they can be) with their new family but not yet desperate#to get them out as soon as possible. Might not even be working with Gaster yet. But Asriel already gave Chara their locket.#I definitely think it was...a while before Chara really thought of returning the favour. Not that they don't utterly shower#Asriel and their parents in other gifts or affection! But they're just not one to make... promises of forever lightly. Especially because#Chara isn't really planning on staying around for a long time at all! They will break the barrier like prophecized then climb the mountain
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rinsko · 2 months ago
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spring cleaned so hard i found my missing airpod < 3
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ohslenderaphrodite · 7 months ago
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coridallasmultipass · 1 month ago
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theguardianace · 1 year ago
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it should be illegal to feel like this on your birthday
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zipquips · 7 months ago
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i rememorized how to solve a rubik's cube!
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too-many-rooks · 3 months ago
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God I’m so tired of being sick I’ve had an utterly brutal cold for like two weeks now and I think it’s going away but I still feel so bleugh. I’m disgusting and full of horrible goo. Woke up three times the other night basically to just blow my nose and hack up into the sink for ten minutes. Just ploughing through the tissues. I think I’ve drunk my body weight in lemsip.
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nerdie-faerie · 8 months ago
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Currently unpacking all my shit into my new flat. And it's never more apparent that I have both, a shopping and hoarding problem, until I have to once again move and confront my problems
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srdcovka · 8 days ago
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was in the garden from 8:30 to noon, my back hurts and im tired and then i open instagram to find out these city kids are like when are are going to the lake can u guys do today ? 😣 FIRST OF ALL i just channeled the spirit of my slavic peasantry to do this AND had to be part of my family's psychological warfare and u want to plan impromptu trip ON LABOUR DAY ⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️
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itspileofgoodthings · 9 months ago
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#I once made a joke to my students that even though I never worked out I was always mentally lifting weights#in the gym of my own mind.#and it’s been such a helpful metaphor#not to make an outrageous statement here or to overestimate how smart I am (often not very smart at all!)#but just. my brain gets use. it gets exploration. it has been honed.#if it had an embodied form (other than my body) yeah! it would be lifting weights!#and/or doing gymnastics lol (for a zeitgeist-y metaphor)#(actually I am legit so good at mental gymnastics)#but ANYWAY the point is: the metaphor struck me because it highlighted how little my brain gets a break#and again—it’s not all worthwhile or deep or insightful or GOOD. a lot of it is useless or downright silly mental activity#but it IS activity. it is mental motion. day in day out. and it is so so so so so so so hard for me to give my brain a break#or even know how to do that#and I am absolutely tearing mental muscles and getting whatever it is athletes get when they work out too hard#or too strenuously#to extend the metaphor to the limit#and I need !!!!!!! a rest day#vacations are almost worse tbh. I feel like I hit this point a lot in the summer#because school forces me to think about things but actually much more helpfully it forces me to stop thinking about things#and do something else. it’s thinking on a schedule lol#and so the breaks are just built-in#but on my own I’ll just go go go go go and fall down every rabbit hole and chase my own tail#and it’s so tiring#anyway it hit me the other day that I could actually set limits for myself#like I was thinking about something in the shower (as you do) and it was stressful#and then I was like you have until the end of the shower to think about this and then you have to stop#and it was super helpful. I need to do that more. but yeah.#I don’t know how to give myself a rest day because who knows what will set the brain off#I also Know it wouldn’t be as bad if it wasn’t all interwoven with anxiety. but anixey is very deeply interwoven with how my brain works#so stressfully going down a million thought paths#ANYWAY !!!!! it is 1;41 am and I can’t sleep!!!!!!!
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orcelito · 21 days ago
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Good News for me, it seems like my application to the new apartment is being accepted :]
The leasing coordinator messaged me to say she's sending the lease to me to sign tomorrow, & so long as I submit the payment by the start of the term (April 30th), then the apartment will be Mine.......!!!!!
Wonderful News!!!
#speculation nation#honestly that's really not far from now. it's the last day i could have it start where id get the discount tho#dancing a little jig as i realize my apartment search is OVER!!! and i got my absolute first choice!!!!!#the 2 bed 2 bath WITH the rent discount!!!! yay!!!!!!#it was the last unit of that model available so i got nervous. but it all seems to be working out in the end :]#im gonna be living by So Many Things........ ehehehehe#i will also hope that i can in fact fit my bike in my car. bc i will not be within easy biking distance of the woods at new apartment#but i dont want to give up my woods bikes. i havent tried sticking it in there but it's got a decent size back so ??#if i put down the back seats then Hopefully..!!!!#gonna be by so many other things tho heheheheheh. and i'll have a GARAGE and IN-UNIT LAUNDRY and AN ICE MAKER!!!!!!!#and a walk-in shower!!!! walk-in closet!!!!! deep kitchen and bathroom cabinets!!!! the biggest bathtub ive ever owned!!!!!!#and the leasing coordinator mentioned how i could switch out the shower head if i wanted to. said while i was testing the water pressure#ougugjhghg and im gonna have that 2nd bedroom for my Workshop Room. which is to say. the room where my cats wont be allowed in#so i can get up to whatever i want in there without worrying about my cats mucking it up#maybe i'll even get into dice making like ive been wanting to!!! who knows!!!!! the world's my oyster!!!!!!!#once the apartment is 100% confirmed mine (and i also have the time for it) i want to take stock of all of my furniture#and make a plan for where i put everything in my new apartment. it should be Much less cramped than my current apartment is#i hope i have enough room to get a new bed frame tbh. idk when id do that but i wanna go to IKEA or smth and find smth that's like#like it's been my dream for a long time to have a bed with some kind of shelving attached to it. or drawers. a bed that is also storage.#IKEA seems like the place to go for smth like that that wouldnt entirely break the bank lol#probably a full or even a queen size... like i like my twin size top bunk but. i kinda do wanna have smth a bit more. adult i guess.#id still keep the current bed. put it in the spare room maybe. top bunk could be extra storage space lol#bottom bunk as an extra lounge area i guess. but also keeping them so i have an extra place or two for people to sleep#if i ever have anyone sleep over. hasnt really been a thing But who knows!! i could become the type of person who has guests overnight!!!#man now i wanna go look at IKEA beds. i dont even know if i'll be able to fit that bed yet (w/o it ending up cramped)#but im daydreaming..... very excited about having this new apartment.....
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regular-lord-reckoner · 4 months ago
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well, i guess i'm as winter storm ready as i can be !
i clocked out of work for a bit to go run the errands i normally do on fridays because tomorrow we're supposed to get a few actual inches of snow (we'll see !!) so that was..... exhausting to do in the middle of a work day (and right before a snowstorm in the south... the traffic....) but it's all done !!
i've gotta work a couple of hours tomorrow because i ended up taking longer than i meant to (mostly because of the traffic) but hopefully i can get up and get that done before there's any possibility of even losing power so fingers crossed !
hope you're safe out there if you're reading this and stay warm/safe if this shit's about to hit you as well !! <3
#i had to go to not one but TWO pharmacies as part of my errand run#walgreens to get some more toradol for what i'm pretty sure is another goddamn kidney stone#(that keeps having this on and off pain that's been going on since at least thanksgiving if not earlier so....#we've probably got another stuck one and i can't even begin to fucking think about it#i do have an appointment with my pcp on monday tho so hopefully we can figure out what's going on)#and costco to get my regular meds#i also made the mistake of getting to costco right about the time everyone was getting off work and just...oh my god#to be fair i've seen it worse but i had also just left the grocery store so like...ahhhhhhh#also part of the reason it took me so long to even get there was because i also took the trash off#and we finally got a new water heater (yaaay!!! i missed enjoying showers) but that meant i had to break down the box it came in (booo!!)#so that took goddamn forever#i even worked on it during my lunch break just so i'd hopefully speed up the process but nope !! not really !!#but it's done#and all the trash is taken off#and i've got food#we've got a grill and some propane and propane accessories#and mom got the fireplace cleaned out and we've got some wood#i'm gonna charge my portable batteries tonight and fingers crossed we don't end up needing any of it#and it's just a nice snowy day !!#anyway after that little trip to overstimulation city and feeling like i haven't stopped moving for several hours now#i'm gonna go unplug my brain !!#:3
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queenerdloser · 4 months ago
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my issue with cleaning is that it takes me FOREVER to get up the motivation to do it. like there's nothing that takes as much effort to get past my executive dysfunction except maybe. cooking. (because i hate them both.) but when i actually get started and force myself through it for longer than like 15m? holy shit i can clean forever. i will clean forever. i have done my gross apartment that hasn't been cleaned in like four months in one (1) day multiple times because of this.
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