#so fucking sick of her. i am so fucking sick of her. i cant wait to hire someone else so she can be gone.
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my mum picking me up this morning: you're not as hungover as i thought you'd be
me, just yacked in an alleyway: yeah haha
#it's 3pm now and i still cant believe that happened that was. an experience#basically my mate's 21st coincided with her sister's 30th so they both had this big joint Event last night#where they literally rented out a farm house and the field nearby and set up a whole campsite and barbeque and everything#it was really random but also really good esp bc ive been friends with this girl since we were super young#and our mums were friends so ive just got. lots of connections to her family and it was nice seeing them all again#but there was fully like 60 people at this thing and i DID drink more than i meant to but i wasn't paralytic which is good#and my hangover ISNT that bad in terms of how bad my hangovers can get#it's just that my mate's dad picked us both up at 9am this morning which was already going to be... rough#and then proceeded to do the bumpiest drive down the country lanes ive ever experienced#i was literally grinding my teeth like i am NOT about to throw up in this man's car please if there is a god do not let me throw up#and i didn't! my mum picked me up from this (thankfully very quiet) road that has this rickety old alley coming off it#and i had the very humbling moment of 'im actually going to be sick aren't i' and had to WAIT FOR AN OLD WOMAN#TO FUCKING MEANDER OUT OF THE ALLEY AND WALK FAR AWAY ENOUGH FOR ME TO AT LEAST HAVE A SHRED OF DIGNITY#and proceeded to throw up. in a public alleyway. at 9:30am on a sunday. so of course i needed to tell you guys about it#im now force feeding myself garlic bread. im going to manchester tomorrow. i have a flight at the crack of dawn on tuesday#what is even going on anymore#also fully did just do nos last night with some 30 year olds. i cannot express how fucking odd a thing that is for me to do#actually no i can express it bc youse know that im funny about drugs so for me to not even be that drunk#and get offered a fucking balloon of all things and be like 'yeah why not!' is.... odd#i know i inhaled wrong though bc it didn't do a thing which honestly im happy about <3#hella goes home
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so very quick and sketchy but i was getting vague designs for all the tldc ladies down in one place
not so sure on gwendolen and gwilanna and i havent looked back at the books for details yet but these were just a quick cool down for the night 🫶
#ragnar art#tldc#the last dragon chronicles#fuck it sure ill main tag#too many characters (seven) fend for yourelves on this one#i um. i might be working on (have conceptualised and planned to death) an animatic#and thus actually had to figure out what people look like#im very faceblind n have aphantasia. so if they're not all on one page idk what they look like and/or if they look similar#read a little bit more of firestar and made myself sick thinking about gwilanna and her baby :(#oh old lady... come hang out with me we can... idk eat mushrooms and kick rocks together#cant wait for my gwilanna blorbo era. MOVE OVER david and tam its about to get uncomfortable in here (my brain) for you two#just Oh my god i get it now. girl id've done worse for grief. she shouldve blown the whole planet up and i'd cheer her on the whole way#<- doesnt remember most of her storyline BUT remembers The Vibes clearly#love a mean old fuck especially if they're a major antagonist. do NOT ask me about my relationship with my parents 🤡 /j#omg i also fixed my tablet's colour settings for the first time since i got it (2....3 years ago??) and wow. i dont have to fuck about#in the colour profile before i post anymore. technology is amazing <3 (i am an idiot)
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last night i was sad because im autistic and no one around me has the same niche interests and i dont really have any proper friends. but now im thinking 😒 if no one near me fucks with richard nixon or my oc x canon/self shipping REALNESS or anything else about me then maybe nobody here deserves me
#txt#because i am nice... 😒 but everyone fucks me over 😒 sick of it#imagine someone writes you a LOVE poem and then tells you shes not ready for a relationship. NIXIE KILL YOURSELF 💔#and she says 'oh ill make an effort ill ask about your interests because you care so much about mine its only fair <3' AND THEN NOTHING#'nicest gift anyones ever given me ☹️♥️♥️' i hate being lied to ughhhh ughh i cant wait for when i never see her again#shes in 2/3 of all my lessons and my classes are so tiny#ugh#and she only wanted me for my body anyway. i could kill myself but i wont#nobody wants me just for me 😒 i have not spoken to someone whos had feelings for me whos wanted more than sex from me#stupid
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having immature parents sucks so bad
#why am i the one who has to act mature all the time oh my god#we're having pest control come tomorrow and they require everyone to leave the unit for at least four hours afterwards#and my mom thought shed be working tomorrow but she called me at like 10 pm to tell me to reschedule bc /she/ got the day wrong#and when i told her she just has to find somewhere to go for just four hours her response was “where ?? you want me to go and be homeless#for four hours???“ which doesnt even make any fucking sense#its only four hours ?????? she can literally go hang out with her sister or go to the park#and she was like “YOU can go to the park im not a park person” ???? you are asking me and i am simply giving you options . its not my fault#that she got the day wrong ?????? and they cant change the appointment bc its way way too last minute.#and she got mad at me and started going on and on about how she cant wait for her life once im out of it like HUH ??????#im the one who's been putting all thos shit together i called the landlady and im the one cleaning up and clearing out all of our stuff#out of the cabinets and everything like shes literally doing nothing all she has to do is go outside for just a few hours !!!!#yet she has the gall to complain and act like im making her life so difficult when she hasnt done a single thing to help lol . she acts like#she isnt living here and it pisses me off so baddddd jesus christ im so sick of everything lol#ss
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Man I can't believe I had the chance to go to a performing arts school up through middle school and I fuckin quit after 6 months just because I got bullied. BRO YOUR HOMEWORK WAS POETRY!! YOU HAD TO PRACTICE DANCING TO COTTON EYE JOE AS YOUR BIG UNIT TEST. GYM CLASS HAD A CIRCUS UNIT!! YOU HAD A WHOLE DAILY CLASS ON IMPROV!!! YOU FOOL!! YOU ABSOLUTE IMBICILE!! YOU COULD HAVE BEEN A YOUTUBER!!! YOU COULD HAVE BEEN ONE OF THOSE TWEENAGERS GETTING LOADED BY MAKING SHITTY YOUTUBE SHORTS IN 2008-14!! But noooOoooOOOoo little miss Noellie (who WANTED TO GO!! who worked SO HARD and sent in an application essay and did an INTERVIEW to get in!!) couldn't handle disruptive classmates or little scuffles and petty grudges and general Attitude of the other students and cried to mommy to put her back in public school. I am EATING MY HAIR over what Could Have Been. I COULD BE SOMEONE'S ANNOYING YOUTUBER!! I could be a DISGRACED DISNEY CHANNEL STAR!! I could be an America's Got Talent winner! A mild to moderately successful comedian! I could be making short films!! But no no no precious thin skinned baby me heard a few new cus words and watched a teacher get heckled and begged to give up The Dream in favor of?? Quiet math tests?? I am such a fucking quitter I quit everything the second it gets too hard I always take the out as soon as it's offered what's my fucking damage.....
#I had SO MUCH POTENTIAL and I SQUANDERED IT!! weak ass third grade PUSSY! Your life could have been SO SICK!!#or you could at least be addicted to cocain or something interesting like that!! Boring ass goody two shoes always just staying home doing#NOTHING bitch make a REAL FRIEND go to a God Damn PARTY live a little instead of just hiding in the closet eating saltine crackers for years#waiting for it to be quiet outside before you ever even toed the line#mentally ill self-isolating motherfucker#you could have shrugged it off you could have GROWN A PAIR and FOUGHT BACK but you just ran and cried for mommy#victim complex little bitch baby always whining and exaggerating and making shit up fucking LIAR I am you and I KNOW what you did and I know#you knew it wasn't the truth and you regretted it the moment it came out of uour mouth but once you'd said it you just swallowed it back and#doubled down incriminating or discrediting others with your lies. For why? Because you didn't like them? You could have ruined someone's#life you wouldn't have hesitated mayhe you did and don't even remember because you cant keep your mouth shut with your pants ablaze#manipulative little shit and to WHAT END? Pity? Sympathy? Attention? Entertainment?? What was even going on in your stupid ugly head?#This is a callout post for my third grade self that possessed demon ass evil nine year old. That kid drowned anthills in olive oil and#poisoned a wild animal once. That kid cut plants just to see if they oozed. That kid modified her whole ass personality on a dime for a boy#she had a crush on. INSTANTLY dropped a LIFELONG CULTURAL ALLEGIANCE (thats what football teams were like back then in our town) because he#said he had the opposite allegiance??? What the fuck? girl had NO integrity none zip zilch.#No empthy either that kid looked at everyone else on earth like they were friggin space aliens and she was the only one with Real feelings.#bitch literally thought like 'I have Feelings they just have Reactions' bitch what the fuckkkkk#that nine year old was fucked the hell up!!!#and for literally NO REASON!! No cause!! Just born fucking evil and weird. jesus fuck.#Evil ass bitch caused her autistic brother months of nightmares and then laughed about it and wrote poetry about how evil he was because he?#was a kid??? Normal sibling rivalry taken way way way too far defamatory ass statements#and this girl had NO CONSEQUENCES because she could lie and manipulate her way out of ANYTHING she had the baby eyes and the helpless charm#and played dumb soooo well . read people like some calculative evil AI scanning their faces for microexpressions and overanalyzing each word#choice like holy shit. its not That Deep. pretentious shit trying to play 5D chess on a checkers board.#Manipulating shit just to see what happens?? zero awareness?? no asking just skipping straight to testing for yourself??#'What happens if I step on this' it fucking breaks 'what does that taste like?' it's not fucking yours to mess with 'if I hit this person#how will they respond?' they'll be upset use your goddamn judgement you are NINE not TWO do you even care a little about any other person??#Are you just living in some other reality???#callout post for the fucking demon child inside of me#im so goddamn problematic I'm so so so deeply mentally disturbed and broken for no reason
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Ace....... my beautiful dead wife comes back to haunt me once again
#luffy will bring this country down just bc he can't have another serving of rice bc otama can't afford it#she makes hats.... ace learnt to make hats in wano.....#she is waiting for ace.... just like me fr....#i was saying i could cry and well i am....#congrats luffy now she is sick AND sad#like i get he will never ever hide something but damn#FUCKING X DRAKE TOO?????#i am crying just by seeing ace again this cant be true akdhaks#like omg him doing something else that is not dying 😭😭#going thru it do not contact me..............#talking tag#watching one piece#episode 894#you know how many times i have typed episide???. episide.... bc my fucking fingers cant coordinate listen i am on episOde 894....#i have written this word so many times and fucking sitll..#brook with a summer body tee lmao#until now the fillers have been time sensitive idk what changed now lmao#WHAT IS BOA HANCOCK DOING THERE#he said not only hancock but hancock kun.... this is a big day for her l#i accept outfit deviations in fact in luffy's case i welcome them bc the frilly shirt doesn't do it for me#but changing his chanclas.... criminal offense#i love hancock luffy team ups (have they been only in fillers/movies????) but not when it undermines hancocks abilities#for this filler they found nami in the middle of a work out sesh or what.... wristbands and all#robin too looks like that akdhskdks#sanji with the tie drawn on his tee.... so casual too#idk what brook has going on#episode 895#episode 896
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Tally's just a liiiiittle bit fed up with my clinginess today
Can't help it tho. She's my baby.
#speculation nation#and i spent an hour in a panic spiral over her and then 5 more hours compartmentalizing and Not Thinking About It#she's fine though. just got a little sick this morning but she seems to be feeling better.#probably just ate smth she wasnt supposed to. it happens.#but ykno. i hesitate to throw around the word 'trauma' willy-nilly. considering it has a lot of weight to it.#but i really do think ive got some trauma due to the cat deaths.#how else would i explain me having a whole panic spiral over tally just throwing up?#it almost makes me wonder whether i should bother with more cats after them. but i know i couldnt live without them.#ive spent all but 3 years of my entire life living with cats. i cant live without them.#but after some untimely ends i am just... so fucking afraid.#tally's about 3 years old now. she should have plenty of life left to live.#but cassy wasnt even 2 years old. and look how that turned out.#i got young cats purposefully bc i didnt want to have to say goodbye to them for a While. and then i had to anyways.#and im always so fucking anxious that im going to have to again. constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop#so when Anything happens i end up a total mess no matter how minor it is...#im sick of it. im so sick of the uncertainty. sick of being scared ill wake up one day to another cat dying.#and theres not really any way to make it better. days and weeks and months and hopefully years#just spent waiting for the other shoe to drop.#i just hope it wont come for a while still. so i can have at least a few years of peace.#animal death ment/#negative/#sorry for the vent etc etc im just. i wish i could bundle them up and keep them in my life forever.#but it doesnt work that way unfortunately. lifetime disparity really is so awful.
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MY MANAGER PISSES ME THE FUCK OFFF at work today and she pulls me aside and is like You and other coworker walked right past a customer and i was on the phone and we made eye contact and kind of just laughed about it So please dont do that LIKE GIRL ? WHY R U ACTING LIKE THERES NOT 4 OTHER PEOPLE AROUND MEEE who can serve & also its literally not my fault if i didnt see ONE fucking customer & PEOPLE HAVE VOICES LIKE speak the FUCK up if you want to be served i swear to god they want me to have eyes in the back of my fucking head i dont think any regular human being could work a deli job because its the most stressful fucking thing in the world i am so tired of customers being like you must really get your steps in mf i walk to the bus stop at 6 in the morning to work an 8hr shift which i will be entirely on my feet for and then i walk back to the bus stop and then get on the bus and then walk home like i literally am living a type of hell u Could never comprehend because you cannot comprehend a customer service job .
#text#and AURR IM SICK OF REDACTED WHO IS JUST LIke hehe let me do dishes my whole shift like why not come around the front#bc our manager is watching me like a fucking hawk#im literally soo wish there was some malicious compliance i could play into#but i swear sometimes she goes to ask me to serve AND I AM ALREADY SERVING !#its just constant serving one customer after the other i cannot fucking wait#to quit this motherfucking job and kill myself because i cant take another day of her telling me serve customers or Like#keep my eye out IM SO STRESSED OUT AT THIS JOB ALL THE TIMEEEE#and this man today was trying to play jokes with me but they werent funny so i just kept saying okay#and he was like im just messing with you haha#and ik he felt damn awkward after like yeah u should feel fucking awkward IT WASNT FUNNY & DONT TRY TO JOKE AROUND WITH ME#the way that customers say things to me they think r funny or quirky or cute and im just like okay so what were you after#and then they dont know what to do w me im not here to play arounnd Brother do u want ham or fucking not#valkyrie.txt#also i need to clarify bc apparently in america a deli is something different to in australia#which americans literlaly dont fucking say shit abt it im not in the mood 4 it#its a delicatessen
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Will Wood & the Tapeworms: Hand Me My Shovel (Live)
#flashing warning#volume warning#rly feelin this version of this song rn lmao#with my own head full of robitussen#bored+exhausted+sick as a dog. AND. cant sleep for shit#so im getting real tempted to find out firsthand why#the drug checker site lists the potential interaction between robitussen and cannabis as ''moderate'' lmfao#definitely cant take nyquil OR any of my sleep meds rn. since ive already got the former in my system#but. hhrrghgfwrgshgrwrrkrgbwrgrr.#im about to start ripping my sheets apart with my teeth like a feral princess escaping her tower rn#too sleepy for viddy games. too sick for anything Useful. AND YET. HERE I AM#AWAKE#so im in a. staring contest with the edibles on my nightstand atm lmao.#but! in an hour the robitussen will be officially done w my system. so ig i can wait at least that long; see if im still awake then#anyway. i love this song#but this version kicks even more ass#if its not yr thing nbd obv! i just think it fucks lmao#bee speaks#Youtube#will wood my beloved
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#delete later#theres gunk in my lungs and i feel it crackling abd i want it fuckin GONE so here i am laid on my side with my hips raised#above my chest so it hopefully dislodges abd it is working but feeld SO GROSS and is not helping the sinus headache#ive never had crackly coughs as far as i cab remember abd oh my god theysuck???#my little sisyer gets ill a lot abd thibgs settle in her chest real easy abd all i can say is that sje is a STRONGER PERSON THAN ME#when it comes to illnesses#i hate this shit#ive emailed to let my manaher know i cant commute in tomorrow and ill see if i can sit upright long enough to work from home in the morning#im not sure i will. honestly even if i do i may call in sick anyway bc this fatigue is unreal#im always exhausted#i lie down multiple times a day snd if i dont thwn I'm fucked the next couppe of days#but this is next level#dizzy and shaky WHILST LAID DOWN#that was when my temperature was fucked tbf. that stopped this morninh thank god. we'd gotten to the three day#start to be concerned window but it stopped so we're fine#i also looked up chest infection advice bc thats what my flatmate reckons it is and got told that unless i can't breathe or its#been over a week to just rest#as it's probably viral too and caused by the illness my flatmate has. antibiotics dont work on that type#so unless fever comes back im gonna be waiting for improvements
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(long story and no short sorry) GUYSSS I DID ITT
I INDUCED IT!!!!! I WAS PURE AS A FUCKING BABY
IDK WHAT TO SAY (ok enough w capslock)
i have so much to say and not a thing at da same time idk how
anyway i want to begin with thanking you @b4ddprincess bc youre the reason i realized why i started this thing. thank you for making my life better and make me realized what i need to do: nothing. (its same for you guys, all u have to do is nothing)
two fuckn years ago i said to myself that i need a better life, quiter life, less fight with everthing bc everything was so loud and not clear i was feeling lost like a child in the market, and i wanted to make things better for myself in every way, but the main idea of my reasons to wanting to get in the void was: making anxiety go and having better people in my life. but the ''voidlist'' just never stopped bc im kinda greedy(having the idea of controling on your life, the idea of that power makes you greedy. yes thats a thing) anyway the more i add to the list the more i feel like im movin away from my desires then i feel depressed bc ive overcomplicating it bc theres so many things to do but i dont do anything so nothing happend bc i was waiting to be someth happen. and then i started doing awkwardly silly things such as: void routines and challenges and (im embarrassed of this one bc i was too desperate) drinking water
youve read it correct drinking water.
i was sooo desperate for having those things id do anything to get them.
i am simple. i want what everyone wants🎀🎀🎀: shifting realities bc i have so many crush and i need them to be crush me in bed(for 2020 girlies)
being an academic weapon is so easy for me🎀(bc of the urge to make my family proud) +dream collage
being the girl that everyone gets along w(basic needs)
being the girl who is pretty not cute(trauma response)
glowing aura(cats loves people w glowing aura yes thats a thing too)
dream body n hair(bc i deserve this🎀)
healthy (girlyfriend)friends(basic needs)
and of course him, my sp(i cant tell wich one at that time but i releived that its not him now, bc MY BELOVED CURRENT BF. guyss he is the one. dont u dare ask me how you know? i literally manifested him🎀)
then i realized i can have everything bc its my reality so why not add these:
new phone, +macbook air
dream apartment of my own
pinterest closet
lifa app for this reality
financially free-money(a lot. like really a lot)
knowing 4 languages like a native person(bc i want to be diplomat so bad) +sign language(its in general)
a little drama(its not gonna hurt anybody)
my parents being more lovable and away from me
every time i try to get in, either i was failing or falling
and im sick of it, sick of it so much i quit.(for a year)
then i go to the theraphy(ofc no im jk ilove being crazy)
one day i saw a post ss from tumblr about pure consciousness on pinterest and i was like whaat is thiiss. no mention of void so i thougt its a diffrent thing and i download the tumblr again and search everything abt it. and same excitement again after one year same thougts and same list popes up in my head. and i was like ok maybe this time itll happen.
still waiting to be someth happen so nothing happend, it was such a waste of time trying to get in while i was already be, i was already what i want to become. i was that girl that everyone gets along with but i couldnt even see bc i was too focused on wanting to be. but still tried every night and failed. and again tried-failed-quit circle bc.. have you ever met me🎀
4 month ago i saw the girl, iconic blogger and the goddess of my dreams, her @b4ddprincess thx again love u so much
a post pops in my fyp and i see the words ''pure consciousness'' i was like noo not again. and i was serious abt it i wasnt gonna read the whole thing but it attract me n i couldnt resist it so ive read it from the top to the bottom. and she got my interest so i stalked her page from the last and to the first post. it was quiet a beautiful journey for me. lasted like 3 days, the end of the 3rd day i was ''woaw it was this easy all along? u cant be serious.'' she was. i tried one last time, no breathing exercise, no ridiculous routines and no waiting something to be happen. it was just me being real me chilling out asf.
and it was this easy and it should be this easy bc being your 4d self is being nothing also being everything at the same time. if u wanna be everything you should be nothing first(as wizardliz saying: drop the old story, leave the victimhood, for being better stop being bitter etc.)u should make a space for everything first and then u can be everything.
for being 4d self of yours stop being your3dself.
sooo long story (no)short i am writing this from my mac in my new apartment(in middle of the night bc i couldnt sleep and then one tumblr notification reminded me i have a success story to share too) and my phone buzzing two minutes a time bc of my friends while im writing this, so if theres anything wrong ignore it pls.
oh u asking my bf how cute, hes sleepin in my bed now, exhausted from the work n school balance.
YWS SCHOOL!! im in my dream collage and im going to be in paris for a week. i deserve a vacation i guess(its for another conference), i kinda hate french men bc theyre so mansplaning(not like how i imagined, its hard to be friends w them)girls are cute but i feel like theyre aware im not permanent there so we just con buddies still cute and hepful for this foreigner.
and i canceled the lifa app thingy bc i can be my purest consciousness anytime i want, so i am my lifa app.
and thx to 4 languages i make a lot of money and that brings us to the pinterest closet, yesterday i realiased that. theyre not comes to me w an imaginary way like i imagined! i go outside for shopping casually and theyre there luckily i have enough money to buy them.
and my family theyre living in our hometown now so as i want it to be, we are away from eachother.
and the most magical thing: SHIFTING REALITIESSS
i did 5 world before i met w my bf. it was such a wonderful experience. if you have doubts abt shifting you can go fuck urself
because sir i did it and i am very sure that dean winchester being my husband is not a daydream, fantasy nor lucid dreaming. believe it or not he kissed me GOD HE KİSSED ME(someone should stop me i have a bf)
is there anything i missed let me see.. cats i have 2 cats now and theyre adorable. glowing aura-check
the girl who is pretty not cute- check +make anxietygo-checkcheckcheck
dream body and hair- check and check
i wanna give u a info i didnt have all my desires by being my4dself
not directly actually. but i have them all. and thats the point.
im not trying to be a blogger but if you have any question abt anything, id be happy to help
now i need to upgrade things in my farm byeess
loves, siena.
#void success stories#pure consciousness#i am state#the void state#4d reality#void state#loass#manifesation#manifesting#shiftblr#shifting consciousness#manifestblr
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Denial is a Man’s Bestfriend. (MV)
summary: Y/n and Max have been friends since karting years, and now? Now, they’re teammates at Redbull. They are one of the best teammate duos in the Grid, but what happens when Max catches feelings?…Or when everyone but them notices they are in love but themselves?
pairing: max verstappen x fem!reader
warnings: cussing, a little suggestive at the end?
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y/n.user: disappointing day in japan. from a p3 quali to a race day dnf. we lost out this week, i’m sorry. i’ll do better in qatar ��🇦 see you then.
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f1updates: not a great race, but you’ll bounce back!! we love youuuu
maxverstappen1: the dnf wasn’t your fault. we’ll do better next week💙 you got this
↳ y/n.user: 💙💙
user2: soooo….we all seeing those hearts?
y/nfp8: don’t be too hard on yourself :( we <3 u
redbullracing: you got this next week!
racerbia: you’re gonna do amazing next week!! i cant wait to see you race. you’re amazing
↳ y/n.user: thanks bianca
f1fp33: omgggg y/n and bia?! she’s my fav f4 driver
↳ y/nsedits9: yessss, they are good friends :)
mv1wc6: i’m not breezing past the fact that max was so quick to comment like seconds after she posted…whipped
formula1pg: you got this‼️
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F1 News @f1news • 3hr ago
Redbull Racer, Y/n Y/l/n, was seen getting on her flight quickly after the Japan race last night where she dnfed.
The dnf was confusing at first, but it was not her fault. It seems that something went wrong with the car, which is rare for Redbull. They posted earlier on their story, “We are not sure what caused Y/n to dnf, but we are working with her car now to figure it out.” Not much, right?
Well, luckily she has her teammate and friend, Max Verstappen, to cheer her up in her comments. She was seen this morning, 1 hour before she posted her Instagram post about Japan, with Max. They were getting breakfast in Monaco….what do you think?
↳ Alyssa @lyssastalks • 3hr ago
Bro. Y/n did so good before the race. The car was fucked tbh. Its not her fault. As for her and Max? Shipppppp😋
↳ F1 Stat Page @stats4f1 • 2hr ago
I’m not sure if it was her or the car, but I lean towards the car. Her progress has been so good until last night. Unfortunately, that’s the game. If the car is fucked, so is the driver 🤷♂️
↳ Y/n and Max Pics @maxy/nship • 2hr ago
I ship them so hard, like pls pls pls. They are both so hot, funny, and the best drivers, imo. Power couple!!!!
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texts with max after media day, both of you in your hotels:
your pov:
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max texting daniel after he texts you goodnight:
maxs pov:
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y/n.user: so excited for the race tomorrow!! we start p1🥳 tune in to watch me beat max😋
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maxverstappen1: i wont let you win, but i would be okay with you winning
↳ landonorris: simp
↳ danielricciardo: such a simp
↳ charles_leclerc: hard core simping
user3: not the guys just calling max out LMAO
f1editpgs: you got thissssss!!! lfggggg
racerbia: you got it in the bag!
↳ y/n.user: tyy💓
redbullracing: 💙💙 woohoo!!
papayanews: not a redbull fan… BUT I AM A Y/N FAN🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳😋😋😋😋😋🤭🤭🤭💙💙💙
lailahasanovic: you got this babes!! mick and i will be cheering you on from the mercedes garage
↳ mickschumacher: i mean, i’ll be cheering lewis and george on but i’ll cheer y/n on too!
↳ lailahasanovic: yes, you will. loudly
↳ y/n.user: thank you?….
f1feministslay: beat the men!!
user7: calling in sick to watch this because it’s gonna be so good
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maxverstappen1: congratulations on the qatar win, y/n!! p1 on one of the hardest tracks, i’m so proud of you. it feels like just yesterday we were karting together and dreaming of our first wins, and here we are. we’ve made it
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maxfp1: PROPOSE ALREADY WTFFF SOBBING
y/n.user: i’m actually sobbing. thank you max😭❤️💙
↳ maxverstappen1: oh no
landonorris: check ur texts rn
user4: lando😭 guys the drama is dramaing
f1fp68: so cuteeee stopppp
wc20d: they’re gonna date, i’m calling it
y/nandmax1: FAVSSSSSSS
f1wags: our fav driver is gonna turn into a wag, guys
.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.
gc from max’s pov:
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maxverstappen1: let’s play a game, teammates or dating?
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y/n.user: hmmmm🤔
redbull19: stoppppp this is too cute. i love them
user3: DONT EVEN. I LIVE
danielricciardo: FINALLY
↳ y/n.user: wdym “finally”?
↳ landonorris: max is a muppet and didn’t ask you out for agesssss
↳ maxverstappen1: im going to block you all, not y/n, but everyone else
↳ landonorris: 🖕
booktoks777: grumpy x sunshine fr
↳ anahuangsfanss: workplace romance !!
↳ reading4ever: forbidden romance?!
carmenmmundt: yesssss, i love you guys together 💓
↳ y/n.user: tyyy carm💓
user1: yupppp. adorable
charles_leclerc: so glad you two are together!😘
*liked by creator*
.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.
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y/n.user: austin dump🖤
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user2: “austin dump” of max?
charlottesine: okkkk, love🔥
↳ y/n.user: love you
↳ charlottesine: i love you😘
f1wags: brooooo stoppp that’s too HOT
rbw88: my fav drivers are literally dating 😩🩷
user7: butterflies 🦋💗
maxverstappen1: 🖤❤️🖤
↳ y/n.user: ❤️🖤❤️
landonorris: hm. partial slay bc that second one is tmi
321lightsout: austin is my fav track now🇺🇸🦅
form1234edits: let’s talk about how fit they are wtfff🫠
francisca.cgomes: love you two together
↳ y/n.user: ty kika💓
user5: obsessed 🔥🔥🔥
edits4f1: can’t wait to edit them cuz they are the hottest couple fr
danielricciardo: YESSIR 🦅🇺🇸 the power of austin brought everyone these pictures (we didn’t need the middle one)
↳ y/n.user: ugh but we look so good
.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.
(reposts, comments, and likes are appreciated!^-^)
#formula 1#f1#formula one#max verstappen#max verstappen smau#max verstappen x y/n#max verstappen fluff#max verstappen x you#max verstappen x reader#max verstappen fic#f1 max verstappen#mv1 x reader#mv1#mv1 imagine#mv33 x reader#mv33#mv33 imagine#smau#f1 smau#f1 fluff
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summary ; you cannot talk your way out of this , for the first time in your life, you're given no choice.
warnings ; angst, cursing, mild violence i guess??? , arranged marriage trope.
a/n ; maybe i'll turn this into a series? who knows, let me know what you think <3. also the accent is a mess, but im trying.
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"no!" your eyes are wide , glassy with anger filled tears "i will not be treated like some piece of land."
"would you listen? your father and i are thinking of your future." you mother is looking at you with a stern face, sitting beside your father as you stand in front of them
"what future do you think i'll 'ave with thomas fucking shelby?" you raise your voice
"do not speak to me like that , i am your mother."
"we're old, i'm sick with god knows how many illnesses." your father speaks, his cane in his hand as he leans against it, still on the sofa
"don't start with that talk" you shake your head with a chuckle, you sniffle and turn your head away
"i don't know if i'll live another day , i am too sick to work, too sick to care for the farm, there is nothing left for me to give you" he speaks slowly with a serious voice, and it makes your heart sink "this isn't a joke or some game, i've survived the war and lived long enough to see all of you grow , but i know that my time is near, i cannot risk dying and leaving you with nothing"
your father never spoke to you like that, he was always jovial , happy.
it seems like it hits you for the first time, how much your parents have aged, how much the illness took from your father, how his sicknesses have changed him.
"celest got to marry who she chose and so did oliver and so did abraham, but i don't get to do that? i dont get to choose my own husband?" your tears start falling, your voice cracks
"i need to know you'll be taken care of , that you'll be in good hands when im dead and gone."
"and you think his hands are the good hands you speak of?" you cant help the humorless smile that graces your face, hot tears stain your cheek "you can't be serious"
"he is the most feared man in birmingham," your mother chimes in
"you are willing to sell your daughter! to some gangster!" you raise your voice again
your mother stands and faces you
"i am not selling you off, i am securing you a future, with a wealthy man, who can give you everything you can possibly want. you'll live like royalty" her words come through gritted teeth "i am not giving you away to some old pig, you're marrying a respectable man, a man with a reputation."
"a reputation? don't you know what 'appened to his first wife ? you are securing me a grave" you come nose to nose with your mother, both of you almost vibrating in anger "you are killing me is what you're doing, you're selling me off to the highest bidder"
the next thing you hear is the sound of your mother's palm against your cheek, the sound of the slap echos throughout the empty house, your head is turned, your cheek stings
your parents never laid a hand on you, even as a rebellious teenager when they caught you sneaking out the window or smoking on the roof.
your head turns slowly, eyes wide as you look at your mother, she looks mortified at her own actions,
you turn and run off and up the stairs to your room, hearing your father yell at your mother for what shes done.
at some point during the night, you had fallen asleep, but not for long. you were awake when the sun rose, your back pressed against your bed frame, looking ahead at the painting on the wall, it was a family portrait, and you were sitting on your father's lap.
you knew your sister was here when you heard the sounds of her five children, running around the house.
she knocks softly but doesn't bother to wait for an answer when she opens the door after a few seconds, she walks slowly, and sees you on the bed.
your eyes stuck on the portrait , your face almost emotionless, your tears have dried and stained your cheeks, she wonders for how long you cried, your back against the wood of the bed frame, no pillow thrown in her direction for waking you up, no annoyed words saying "you couldn't fucking come in the afternoon?" . the curtains are parted, letting the light in, which is very unusual for you.
you hear the bed creek under her weight when she gets on it, laying next to you
"i heard about yesterday" she says softly, her head turned to look at you
you only glance at her , but your head doesn't turn, then you look back at the portrait
"they're doing this for you, they want whats best for you." she's not sure if it is you she's trying to reassure you or herself , this wasn't ever supposed to happen.
her little sister was supposed to marry a man she wanted, a simple man, a man capable of love
you hum, or you make a sound at least , acknowledging her.
"he isn't all that bad, you know."
a weak chuckle escapes you at her words "in what world is thomas shelby not a bad person?" your voice is hoarse , from screaming and crying all night long no doubt.
"he can give you a good life."
"ya 'ave a good life don't you? with the man you chose, the man you love." your gaze doesn't move, still staring at the painting "its not fair, you lot got to be happy, and i don't."
"ya don't know that." her voice is full of sympathy or maybe pity, you didn't want to know.
you finally turn to your sister, "do you honestly think that i can be happy with 'im ?"
your sister hesitates , she licks her lips "he's a powerful man."
you chuckle at that too "that tends to 'appen when you're a gangster."
"i tried with them, i really did." her voice is weak too, it cracks.
your eyes well with tears again, you didn't know you could even cry anymore "i know..." your voice is a whisper
you knew she'd be against it, she wouldn't agree, maybe oliver would tell you to consider it, abraham would too, just to please your father.
but celest wouldn't
"what are ya goin' to do?" she whispers back, her tears start rolling too
"what can i do?" you ask "i dont 'ave any other choice"
she looks at you as if she didn't expect that. you were always stubborn, always talking your way out of anything you didn't want, you always got your way with your parents, thats what she taught you.
but this time, you don't want to fight back.
"you're goin' through with it?"
"i cant live knowing i disobeyed my father's dying wish."
your father was sick, and getting worse everyday. you were a stubborn woman, but the little girl inside of you couldn't bear to disobey her father.
celest wraps an arm around your shoulder, holding you to her chest, her hands runs up and down your arm , like she did when abraham would bother you to tears, or when oliver wouldn't let you play with him.
"at least he's easy on the eyes, eh?" she tries desperately to lighten the mood, her lips pressed to your forehead
" hes old." you say with a weak laugh
"hes older, not old." she corrects, with a laugh too.
#tommy shelby x reader#thomas shelby imagine#kadwrites#tommy shelby imagine#thomas shelby x reader#thomas shelby fanfiction#tommy shelby fanfiction#peaky blinders fanfiction
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so high school ; JB5
pairing(s) ; jude bellingham x singer!reader , jude bellingham x student!reader
summary ; twitters favourite new(ish) artist drops her new album right during her school year.
warnings ; nothinggggg & mainly just fluff bc i love happy people
note ; SORRY ITS SHORT AHHAHA, i’ll post a new lando fic soon i just have no inspiration… ignore any dates that are wrong or don’t match - im lazy. also this is VERYYYY LOOSLY based off so high school lol (it’s mainly the aristotle line)
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youruser surprise !!!!! as an end of term present (for myself🤭🥳) and in honour of knowing the loml for 15 years, here’s 15 new songs for you guys to (hopefully) enjoy 😊 noah, thank you for trusting me and letting me join you on what might be one of my favourite songs ever!! i loveeee youuuu. && to my jude<3 thank you for inspiring me every single day of our lives. i love you bigger than the whole sky 🩵🩵 (guys he’s actually v v talented and he helped me write scared of my guitar, hard to sleep, and feels like) j, you are my safe place and these songs — especially the ones i haven’t let you hear yet — are for you.
ps guys idk how to only write happy songs but jude is the only one who makes me feel safe enough to express my emotions through my songs 😁 i looooovvveee him and am NOT 🙅♀️ breaking up with him. he is stuck with me forever💞
‘the alchemy’ is YOURS tonight at midnight 💓
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user1 WHAT
user2 YOU CANT JUST DROP THIS ON US WTF
oliviarodrigo my girl💞💞 i’m so so soooo excited😭
user3 GIRL I KNOW YOU DIDNT JUST CALL THE ALBUM ‘the alchemy’ FOR NO REASON. WHERE TF IS THE TITLE TRACK I KNOW YOUVE GOT HER SOMEWHERE
youruser jude and i love the alchemy the most out of all the songs and wanna keep her just ours for a little bit longer but maybe if you guys enjoy these songs i’ll let you have my baby
user4 YNAJDKJSKDKDIS
user5 WHATTTT songs did she not let jude hear omfg i need to know
youruser he’s heard them all except for daylight, paper rings & so high school lollll
judebellingham refreshing my spotify every minute til midnight you guys don’t understand she’s kept these songs in a VAULT
user6 jude i know you love spotify but apple music get new music 10 minutes early xxx
judebellingham just made an apple music account
user7 TEN MINS TIL THE ALBUM OF THE YEAR DROPS
taylorswift so so proud of you beautiful 🩷🩷
judebellingham I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH
judebellingham putting ALLLL of these on the pre-game playlist
youruser babe idk if some of these will pump you up before a game
judebellingham hearing your voice will pump me up idc how sad the song is xx
user8 why’s no one talking about how she’s in UNIVERSITY and dropped a FIFTEEN song album like …??? she’s INSANE. WHERE did she find the TIMEEE
user9 not to mention she lives with him in madrid and does school online coz her uni is in the uk
user10 she’s insane i don’t understand how😭😭
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youruser just posted to their close friends story.
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youruser surprised my fav person in the uk for his england game and he scored for me 😆🩵🩵
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user1 she wrote “you know how to ball” and he said “yeah” then scored a goal and did a celebration for her😭
user2 zoom in on pic 6 and you’ll see me laying on the road waiting to be run over
judbellingham ‘unemployed girlfriend’ but you’re the greatest singer on earth while also doing online uni full time and you still make time to be able to come see me
youruser it’s coz i love you so so bad
jobebellingham you make me sick
youruser i love u too jobeyyyyyy
england our favourite visitor💙💙
user3 how does she do all this whilst going to uni😭😭😭
oliviarodrigo 💖💖💖
judebellingham I LOVVVEEEE YOUUUUU
user4 i NEED the top in pic 8 where is it from
youruser i found it on depop and HAD to buy it😭😭 i think someone made it x
chappellroan HOTTTTT (you not ur bf)
youruser I WOULD DIE FOR YOU MY WIFE💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓
user5 i don’t understand how you write sad songs like the ones on your album if ur ‘in love with jude’
user6 jude deserves better than someone who’s so caught up on and still writes songs about her exes
user7 WHYS NO ONE TALKING ABOUT THE LYRICS SHE POSTED ON TWITTER IM GOJNG INSANE
user8 LITERALLY?/!;!!/;@:8@ LIKE ??????? “WHERES THE TROPHY? HE JUST COMES RUNNING OVER TO ME” IS SO JUDE CODED WHEN Y/N IS AT LITERALLY ANY OF HIS GAMES
user7 EXACTLYYYYY HE ALWAYSSS RUNS TO HER IMMEDIATELY AFTER HES ALLOWED TO DO HIS OWN THING. ITS FUCKING ADORABLE
user8 IM SO GLAD SOMEONE UNDERSTANDS ME
user7 were both insane let’s get married
user8 dm me right now wife
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youruser lol little life update coz i’ve been m.i.a. for the last almost two months. 1: i went blonde again. 2: my man still as fine as ever. 3: got engaged or whatever lol. 4: slaying up exams. 5: i miss tour so i decided imma come back and see you all soon 🤭🤭 tour dates soon <3
ps in honour of becoming fiance or whatever🤗 the alchemy and 4 other songs are yours on the deluxe version of ‘the alchemy’ ,, out tonight !!!
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user1 WHAT THE FUCK
user2 GIRL LET US BREATHE
harrykane juudddeeeeee!!! congrats🥳❤️
declanrice mr bellingham that is a ROCK
user3 SHE DISAPPEARED FOR TWO MONTHS AND THEN CAME BACK AND DROPPED ALL OF RHAT ON HS
gracieabrams OMG WIFE IS GONNA BE A WIFE
user4 BLONDE YN IS BACK AND SHES A FIANCÉ OH MY GOD
judebellingham WIFE WIFE WIFE‼️‼️‼️
youruser not yet my love but so close🥰
judebellingham I CANT HEAR YOU MY WIFE IS AN ACADEMIC AND LYRICAL GENIUS
user5 she’s still writing break up and sad songs whilst engaged… so weird
user6 yeah and jude helps her,, he must be so disgusted right? seriously get a life and go touch grass
taylorswift so so happy for you 💓💓
youruser 🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶 i love you
user7 TOUR TOUR TOUR TOUR TOUR
england juddeeeeee💙 sooo happy for you two
trentarnold ❤️❤️❤️
user8 how girl just gonna casually drop a ENGAGEMENT announcement in the middle of a photo dump
user9 REALLLL LIKE THATS A BIG ASS RING TOO
noahkahanmusic YESSSSS🤍🤍🤍🤍
user10 HOWWWW is miss girl gonna find time in her schedule to do uni, make music, keep a healthy relationship, AND TOUR
judebellingham mrs*
my other works !
#Spotify#jude#jude bellingham#bellingham#jb5#la liga#real madrid#england#nessa barrett#taylor swift#jude bellingham x reader#jude bellingham fluff#jude bellingham one shot#jude bellingham smash#smau#fluff#fanfic#jude bellingham x yn#bellingham fluff
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lol you insult people by calling them stupid for not having brain cells? how is that not like lily orchard, you put people down when they are just sick of people putting them down. You do performative hand wringing for all the racists and weirdos wishing death on vivziepop or her fans but your probably just like them. I cant wait till your brother or sister comes out with the abuse you probably did lily jr.
….okay, so
Anon, I said that because you literally compared me, a 14 year old turning 15 year old teenager running a blog to a woman who wrote a CP mlp fic and SA’d her sister just because I make posts criticizing a tv show.
Wtf do you mean "performing hand writing for all racists and weirdos wishing death on Vivziepop or her fans"????? Since when was I ever racist? Since when did I ever wish death on Vivziepop?? Like, I dont even hate Viv that much, she just seems very immature and incapable of taking criticism. The fact that you say I’m "probably" just like Viv and her fans because Im critical of a fucking tv show tells me you didn’t even bother looking at my blog and just assumed that I am like Viv’s fans just because I make posts criticizing a tv show.
…wow. You just called me "lily jr." Anon, I sincerely believe that you should sit back, and take a moment to reflect on this moment, the day you decided to call a teenage boy who makes critical posts for fun "lily jr". If your an teenager, your annoying, and if your an adult, your fucking pathetic.
#vivziepop critical#hazbin hotel critical#vivziepop criticism#helluva boss critical#helluva boss criticism#hazbin hotel criticism#lily orchard
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baby
y/n and rafe had been married for 2 years and have been trying to have a baby for a year and 6 months. they had tried everything. rafe gave up drugs, she took fertility pills, tests, looking through family history, and even shots. y/n hates shots but she would do anything to bring a baby into the world. it all paid off eventually
warnings: throwing up, difficult birth, blood, stitches, hard pregnancy, some cursing, mention of wards death, lmk if i missed anything
y/n leaped out of bed, rafe slowly opening his eyes and following her to the bathroom. “you good, babe?” he asked peeking through the crack she left in the door.
“i think i’m gonna throw up.” she sighed lunging to the toilet and lifting up the seat. rafe pulled her face out of her hair.
y/n turned around and smiled at him.
“bro, why are you smiling. it’s fucking 7:32 am and you just threw up. i wouldn’t be smiling.” he said after dropping her hair.
“babe,” she paused, “do you know what this means?” he smile just got bigger and bigger. rafe sat to think for a minute
“wait…” he started to smile after he realized, “when was your last period?” he unlocked his phone to open the period tracker he got on his phone to keep track.
“i didn’t want to get your hopes up, but i think throwing up is a good sign.” y/n chuckled. her period was 4 days late, but they are never on time. morning sickness might have just confirmed the news.
“oh my god! oh my god!” he got up to pick her up and spun her around in his arms. “we need to go get a test!” he yelled, thrilled.
“babe, it’s so early.” she smiled
“oh right… as soon as the open. can i get you anything? water, snack?” he asked excitedly.
“all i want is to brush my teeth.” she laughed. she didn’t want to be to excited, in case she was getting her hopes up.
rafe hopped in his pickup truck to run to the pharmacy. he didn’t know how many tests to get, so he got three.
he checked out and got home as soon as he could.
“i’m home!” he said, barging into the door of the house on figure eight.
he handed her the tests and led her to the bathroom. he waited outside as she took them.
“babe.” she said as she opened the door, tests on the counter. “i really don’t want you to get your hopes up. it might not be anything. i don’t want you to be disappointed if it’s negative.” she said, looking down at her feet.
“i know, babe.” he said pulling her in for a hug and resting his head on hers. “i just need to feel confident. all i want is for you to be healthy.”
the timer went off a few minutes later. “rafey, im scared” she admitted.
“it’ll be alright either way, ok?” he reassured her. she was more worried for him to be upset with her. she knew he’s been wanting to be a dad for a long time, and this finally seemed like his chance.
“three two one” she counted down as the flipped the tests. “OH MY GOD! I CANT BELIEVE IT!” she yelled and cheered
“i’m gonna be a dad!” he picked her up and spun her around. “finally! it paid off, babe! i’m gonna call a doctor and we’re gonna get you an appointment. i’m so excited!”
a few weeks later was your appointment.
“i’m nervous, babe.” y/n admitted in the car ride there.
“it’ll be alright. i can’t wait to see baby’s heartbeat.” he put his hand on y/ns thigh as his eyes stayed on the road.
“there’s the heartbeat!” the doctor smiled as she pointed to the screen.
tears of joy ran down both y/n and rage’s faces as they admired the screen. “how much longer till the baby comes?” rafe jokes.
“due to the issues with getting pregnant, we are going to have you come in every other week to check on baby, ok?” the nurse smiled.
“we have to tell everyone!” rafe said, ecstatic as they got to the car. “they’re gonna be so happy. sarah is gonna be so excited.”
him and sarah had figured things out after the death of their father. they were really close, and rafe finally accepted the pogues.
“well we can tell them to meet up at the house, and we’ll tell them there!” y/n told him.
rafe called sarah to bring her and her friends over tonight.
“what’s up, rafe?” sarah asked, concerned as she walked in the house, he friends piling after her.
“y/n! they’re here!” rafe shouted upstairs. “it’s good, don’t worry.”
sarah let out a sigh of relief at the good news.
y/n hurried down the stairs, still careful not to fall, and rafe watched her, nervous. “slow down, babe. dont want you to fall.” he said, protectively.
“i wont” she giggled. she still grabbed onto the railing and rafe relaxed a little. “come, sit!” she led them to the living room to sit on the couch.
“what’s wrong?” kiara asked, raising an eyebrow.
the couple looked at each other and smiled. “your want to say it?” she whispered in his ear. he smiled in a really? way. she nodded and he looked backed over to the pogues.
“we’re pregnant!” he laughed.
“oh my god! really?!?” sarah yelled hopping up and hugging y/n
“yes!” she smiled, tears rolling down her eyes.
“when did you find out?” jj asked. jj was best friends with y/n when they were little. they’re still friends, but not as close.
“a few weeks ago. we wanted to make sure before we told anyone.” rafe answered.
“congrats, guys!” john b said, patting y/n on the back as she wiped her tears.
the cat was out of the bag. they didn’t need to worry about anyone finding out about the pregnancy if it didn’t work out. they had grown pretty close to their unborn baby.
rafe had set up the nursery, sarah and y/n went to buy the baby clothes, they had a gender reveal party, (it’s a girl!) they threw a baby shower, everything the baby needed.
y/ns belly had grown a lot, it was painful for her and not one day went without crying and throwing up, even after they were told it would get better. she had a meltdown over little stuff, but rafe didn’t let it bother him, considering she was carrying his baby and she couldn’t control the hormones that came with that.
“do you want anything to eat?” rafe asked.
tears welled in y/ns eyes. “what’s wrong, babe?” he asked
“i’m hungry b-but i don’t know what i want to eat.” she put her head in her hands.
“do you want a sandwich? i’ll go get you one.”
“i want something sweet.” she never liked sweet stuff, but rafe wasn’t going to argue with her about that.
“we have a watermelon. do you want me to cut it for you?” he asked. it took her a second to think, but then she nodded her head and looked at him. “i can do that. go head and put on something to watch.”
he cut the watermelon and y/n was relaxed for about 5 minutes before she heard a curse from the kitchen. “FUCKIN SON OF A BITCH”
“rafe?” she asked, sitting up and walking to the kitchen. she saw blood all over the kitchen, which made her nauseous. she ran to the bathroom to throw up while rafe had to deal with his bleeding finger.
he ran it underwater and tried to save the watermelon, but there was no use. there was blood everywhere, even if it was just his finger.
y/n came rushing back to the kitchen. “are you ok, babe?” she asked eagerly as she traced circles on his back while he washed his hand.
“i just cut my finger, it’s alright.”
“why did it bleed so much?” she asked looking at the kitchen.
“it was deep, but it shouldn’t need stitches.” he looked at the still bleeding finger, and showed it to y/n.
“uhhh- that’s pretty deep. can we just go to the hospital? it’s making me nervous, it shouldn’t be that deep.” she told him.
“i’m going to wrap it with this and then your gonna drive us and you will get stitches and we’ll get back.”
rafe wasn’t going to argue with her, although he really wanted to. he drove them to the hospital and got it stitched up.
they came back and cleaned the kitchen. they started making out. “do you want to?”rafe asked her. they were nervous to have sex while pregnant, but at this point,
both of them were basically helpless.
“yea” she gasped out as he led her to the bedroom. they still had a month until the baby would come. they went 7 months without having sex, they needed it with everything that happened the past few weeks.
“how do you want to do this? i don’t know what’s comfortable for you.” rafe asked as she sat on the bed and he watched her and tried to come up with a plan.
“idk just do what feels right and i’ll tell you if it hurts.” rafe layed down next to her and pulled down her shorts and panties and he pulled down his shorts and boxers, lifting his shirt over his head not long after.
“do you want this off?” rafe asked as he tugged on her shirt. she shook her head “no” she didn’t like how she felt with out her shirt on while pregnant.
rafe kissed all over the back of her neck and rubbed her back. he made his way down to her thighs and caressed them until she was wet enough. “your gonna tell me if it hurts?” he asked, leaning on his elbow to look at y/n in the face.”
“yes babe, i promise.”
he lined himself up and slowly pushed in his nine inch cock. she was still really tight, even though she was growing a baby not to far ahead.
he waited for her to nod until he started thrusting. both let out moans. it relieved a lot of pressure for y/n, making her super pleased with the performance. “ooh keep going” she moaned as he picked up speed.
“oh fuck,” she whispered under her breath as her eyes rolled behind her head.
“how’s that, babe? does it hurt or are you good?” he managed to say as he thrusted even faster.
“it’s good baby” she moaned out. “gonna come…” her legs started shaking and rafes thrusts got sloppier. he pulled out and finished with his hand. “thanks, babe” she said as she came down from her high.
“sure, babe.” rafe walked out and came back with a glass of water and a wet towel to clean y/n up. he helped her get dressed into comfy pajamas, and he changed into different boxers. “good night.” he kissed her forehead and her belly.
about three more weeks went by of pure craziness.
“babe, babe!” y/n whisper yelled as she hit rafes shoulder.
“what” he asked groggily. rafe was never a morning person.
“im having contractions, i need you to time them.”
“ughhhh im sleeping tho.”
she looked at him and hit him again. “just do it.”
he timed them on his phone. “they are just getting longer. should we go?” he asked showing her the phone. “there like four minute apart. i think we should go.” he brought her to the car, and packed their gas into the car.
“can i stop for a coffee?” rafe looked at her as he drove.
“what the hell rafe! i’m in labor!” she yelled at him as she threw up the what the hell hands.
he didn’t say anything and just drive past the dunkin. he called the hospital to get her a room.
they got there and got led up to her room. they settled her into the bed as rafe held her hand.
“i’m scared” she sobbed. “i don’t think i’m ready” rafe kissed her on the forehead.
“it’ll be alright, i promise.”
a blonde doctor came in with a clipboard “hello, mr and mrs cameron! i’m going to be delivering your baby today!” she spoke as she walked in farther.
she checked y/ns heart beat and blood pressure. “i need you to relax a little. your heartbeat is going up, and so is baby’s. it’ll be alright, nothing bad is going to happen” the doctor reassured in a nice voice
“i think im going to have to break the water, it’s going to speed up labor and help your cervix dilate a little more.” the doctor announced.
rafe held y/ns hand tighter, he could tell she was scared.
“so this, is going into your parts and i’m going to find the amniotic sac, and poke it with this, and it’ll break your water. it might be uncomfortable, but i’ll make it fast.”
the doctor stuck her two fingers and the tool in, as y/n whined at the pain. it popped and liquid spilled out, the nurses cleaned it up quickly.
“now i can monitor baby more closely.” the doctor said patting y/n on the leg.
her contractions grew more painful, rafe helped her through them. “can she get anything to help with the pain?” rafe asked the doctor, concerned for his wife, considering she has a super high pain tolerance.
“we can give her an epidural, but there’s a line of people waiting.” the doctor told him as she checked y/ns heart again.
“do you want to to that, babe?” he asked pushing the hair out of her face. she nodded eagerly. rafe knew it must be bad if she wanted a shot.
after an hour of painful contractions and waiting, she finally got the epidural.
“how are you feeling, baby?” rafe asked, looking you in the eyes.
“better” is all she could say.
“it’s time to push, are you ready?” y/n nodded. “ok, dad. i’m going to need you to hold her leg up.” rafe obliged and lifted her leg up, a nurse doing the same on the other side. “ok three, two, one push” the doctor told y/n.
she yelled in pain as she tried to deliver the baby. rafes heart broke at the sound of her in so much pain and he couldn’t do anything about it. he pushed the hair out of her face as she kept pushing and crying.
“i can’t do it” she yelled
“yes you can, y/n. it’s only a little more.” the doctor told her.
she continued to push with cry’s and screams.
“i see her head, i see her head!” the doctor yelled as y/n kept pushing.
“we’re almost there, babe!” rafe smiled to her.
y/n felt a tear that caused even more pain, but as soon as she heard the baby cry, it was worth it. “you did it babe!” rafe cried to her.
“dad, do you want to cut the umbilical cord?” the doctor handed him scissors to cut it. he smiled the whole time.
they placed the baby on y/ns chest as the doctor delivered the placenta and stitched her up. “how long is she going to cry?” rafe asked the doctor.
“she’s probably hungry, but most likely your supply hasn’t come in yet. you can feed her once it does, but that could be a while. just try to rock her and hold her, she’ll calm down.”
y/n scooted over so rafe could squeeze in with her and the baby. “what are we gonna name her?” rafe asked smiling down at the baby.
“ do you like blake?” y/n asked.
“perfect. blake cameron. can i pick the middle name?” rafe asked.
“yes”
“blake isabel cameron.”
“i love it.”
sarah and the pogues came to the hospital to meet the baby.
after a few days at the hospital, they could go home.
“this is your home, baby!” y/n whispered as she brought blake into the house.
she handed her over to rafe to carry her upstairs. “this is your room!” rafe sat down in the rocking chair with his baby, admiring the work he got done on the nursery. “this is perfect,” he said smiling at blake and his wife. “ all i have ever wanted is right here, thank you babe” he kissed y/n on the forehead and rocked baby blake isabel cameron to sleep.
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