#Im so tired of. being alive

[downfallofi]

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[jemmo]

i don’t want to jump the gun, but i think hwang daseul might have just done it again. two episodes in to let free the curse of taekwondo and i am obsessed. more than obsessed. transfixed. this show feels special in a way hwang daseul’s touch only can give, and just using these two episodes to compare to her previous works, i love that i can already spot the continuity in the kinds of stories she tells, the messages she portrays and how she portrays them. she just knows how to let her characters exist in harmful and difficult places and show how their experiences affect them while also just showing them as normal human beings. it is so so easy to overdramatise these kinds of stories that have these difficult topics and have it be so surface level, but she has never done that. instead, she shows how those experiences shape a person and how they go about living in spite of them. all the way from where your eyes linger to now, she gives us characters that are wholly themselves and not just the traumas they have gone through and i just adore that. i can’t remember what i was talking about specifically, but i remember talking about this sentiment and how it actually helps to build empathy in an audience as opposed to just showing a difficult topic at the most surface level bc you think that makes it accessible and easier to understand and hence empathise with. i don’t think that ever works. it’s only when you do what hwang daseul does, when you give us characters we can get to know and fall in love with and care for that you help us to empathise with their experiences. it’s hard to understand the weight and the hardship of experiencing something traumatic, but when something bad happens to someone close to you, a family member or a friend, you understand and feel that pain astronomically more. that’s what hwang daseul manages to do. and more so, she makes you feel that while also seeing these people as people. you get to see them away from the hurt, you see them smile in moments of happiness and you see that too with people you’re close to, and you feel even more how special and important those moments of happiness are.

and that’s why, whenever hwang daseul is at the helm of something, i will be seated from start to end with endless boxes of tissues ready. i can’t wait to see what else this show has in store.

[depressiv]

ʷʰᵃᵗˢ ᵗʰᵉ ᶠᵘᶜᵏⁱⁿᵍ ᵖᵒⁱⁿᵗ

[fastidious-and-a-mess]

guys can we PLEASE stop shipping riz w people. honestly at this point i kind of don’t even care if you yourself are also acespec/arospec/aspec.

yes, aspec people can be in relationships, etc etc, but riz specifically has expressed over and over and over again that that is something he personally has absolutely zero interest in.

he’s not just canonically aroace, he also canonically does not want a relationship.

“aroace people can be happy in romantic/sexual/queerplatonic relationships” is a true statement. “people who do not want to be in any kind of monogamous committed relationship can be happy in a monogamous committed relationship” is quite a bit harder to argue.

i’m just so sick of it. i’m glad we all understand that there’s nuance to aspec identities, and everyone’s expressions of and experiences with their own aspec identities are going to be different and personal.

like, it’s not even just about the asexual/aromantic aspect anymore. it’s also just refusing to let him not want to be in a relationship. why are so many people so resistant to the idea that he does not want to be in a relationship. like genuinely, why can you not accept that there are people who just don’t want that. who would just be unhappy in a relationship. why can’t you wrap your head around the idea that wanting a relationship is not a thing that everyone secretly wants. like, No, he hasn’t just not “met the right person” yet. because there is no right person. because he’s simply not interested.

this post is kind of rambly and not as effectively phrased as it could be i think but idc.

TL;DR: riz being aroace is not the only reason to not ship him. he also, explicitly and repeatedly, has stated he does not want to be in a relationship. “aspec people can be in relationships” is completely irrelevant because regardless riz simply does not want a relationship. please just respect thag.

edit: plz don’t like this is u wont rb. i won’t guilt you into rbing, it’s ur blog i’m not ur dad do what u want etc etc. it’s just irritating for me personally to see ppl interacting w this but not willing to actually put it on their blogs.

[b-blushes]

Psyching myself up to do more batch cooking tomorrow (would not do this at all if I didn’t have a very limited amount of things I can eat and being totally out of a staple of 2 of my meals per week and I couldn’t even do it in advance bc I’ve been too sick to do that) but I can do ittttttttttttt

- kitchen prep

- floor time

- chop and wash veg

- floor time

- actually cook the thing (fast) and portion it out to freeze

- floor time

- be free of cooking (aside from heating stuff up) for 2 weeks and prosper

[angellurgy2]

in the backs of my eyes, light does not reach. black and white, monochrome stars, inky null and blinding full.  others dream, and my thoughtlessness seeks.  though i cannot see, and though i cannot breathe  in every moment my eyes breach free- i dream. not for grandeur, not for fillment,  i dream of nothing but hope.  for days where i could, for the days i would dream.  sitting in the back seat. squalid radio turned to rage. looking at her shoulder’s locks, dreaming of the cage. taken to my first bar, shown my first rave not forgotten, not forsaken, the only love i will take to my grave. cigarettes and mud, alleys and grunge all i wanted was saving.  gone so far, seeded so deep, until it whittled into camaraderie. when the shows over, she’d take me home and leave me in her bed. that night i would be cherished, and that morning we'd be fed. i see their faces in my dreams, as every possibility, every tangle, every thread, every filament held together. like a bastion of memory, creating false to fill the empty. to grant hope to a greyscale null. * * starlight ash, the null of the void, the hopes of a begotten child. is there anything to hear, when the screams are of fear, or choking of brittle and tears? his hopes were so mild, his rage was unbridled, how could she be any different? feel her eyes shiver, feel her soul take, feel the ties of the poverished ingrate. your help cannot find it, your thoughts cannot find it, your hands cannot feel it, your heart cannot take it, your legs cannot shake it and your teeth cannot break it.  in every part of you is her no matter how hard you fight it has been the end of her not of her blight. only of her light.

[bastard-thing]

woagh..

[galacticnova3]

Magolor: Trying to catch up on stuff you missed? Well, yaoi is a thing now. Along with uhh

Lor: What’s that?

Magolor: did not think she would ask a question that fast It’s. A genre centering around romance between men..?

Lor:

Lor: Do you actually think being gay is a modern invention? Do you think homosexuality hasn’t existed as long as love itself? That two men or two women never once felt happy just to be with each other until some arbitrary time after I was put away?

Magolor: … Sometimes there is only one bed

Lor: Magolor.

“>Do you think gay people are a modern invention?” Is definitely a sentence in my brain now.

[laggs-cringe-corner]

head empy

jus

pemkin

[kits-ships]

hi this is how some of my self inserts held up to the bingo board

seraphina - olive - ione

poppy - lunette - maple

aether - mana - dela

eden - delilah - pepper

cain - zolana - ophelia

mcu holly - raimiverse holly - spiderverse holly

briar - wren - aurora

[1am-s0-veryt1red]

"katsuki is such an ugly baby"

"horikoshi must hate him fr"

man he's like THREE MINUTES OLD leave him alone y'all ain't ever seen a newborn before? all newborns are gross and wrinkly like little old people. stop comparing him to baby shoto who's probably at least a month old in that flashback. he's had time to develop his tiny little baby face

[calic0-png]

☀️ Happy Birthday Haechan!! ☀️

Drawing I made some time ago for a friend, hope you like it! ^^

[gumy-shark]

<- god's wettest most pathetic most stressed most anxious beast btw

[adharastarlight]

small question

when does it stop hurting

[socks-bog-wench]

Thoughts

[radiotorn]

going to do it makes me nervous. not going to do it makes me nervous. i have to do something or else my nerves will be the death of me.