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kittenofdoomage · 2 months ago

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Currently in a situation that I can do nothing about, that I can't even confirm the circumstances of. It's out of my hands. So naturally, my brain is Dr. Strange Infinity War'ing it through every scenario and driving me insane.

I wish I could just turn my brain off or ignore that particular subject. But no. Anxiety demands I think about every outcome, only it's amplifying the worst of them in full HD surround sound 4D horror. Thanks 👍

#tw: anxiety #I hate it #and yes I could talk to friends #but then I'd feel like a burden again #or that I'm annoying them #bc guess what #ANXIETY #I FUCKING HATE IT #so I'll just be miserable over here #thanks fr reading bye

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swan2swan · 7 months ago

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I know "Images you can hear" is a thing, but do you ever find images you can feel?

#I'm sorry the animation on the Sammy shot is just so perfect?????????#besides the hair interactions--WET HAIR interactions mind you #the way her eyelid rises with the thumb below it?#the texturing is great too #....but my gosh Sammy has gotta be MISERABLE in that outfit #that coat has to weigh a hundred pounds right now #jwct #chaos theory #yasammy #yasmina fadoula #sammy gutierrez #I'll allow the over-the-shoulder shot here #it helps with the intimacy #queue it up

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shikai-the-storyteller · 7 days ago

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Backing up the billion photos I have on my phone after putting it off for literal Years, but I just hit the QSMP section and man... :(

#I'm still not over it #So many screenshots so many tags so much art so many funny posts #Just went through an entire year's worth of QSMP stuff I had saved on my phone and genuinely feel miserable #At first it was bittersweet rereading everything but then I reached the last month / two months section and I was like ah. That's right.#It's dealing double damage to me too rn because I just so happened to put one of the QSMP movie night streams on in the background #just for background noise #I miss it man... it had so many problems but I miss it so bad #It's not even that I want a QSMP 2 I just want to go back to those early days when people were happy #I want to be happy again #:(((#On a lighter note I can see the exact moment I started watching Pac on the daily because I have five billion screenshots from each stream #Me trying to desperately screenshot important subtitles and mark the timestamps like a madlad #There's some things here maybe I'll share another day because nostalgia doesn't always have to be painful #but tonight it aches a bit more than usual #i talk #qsmp talk #Anyways — I know I said I was taking a step away from RA but On God I gotta finish that QSMP finale clip I was doing #because if I see one more person say Pac / Mike / Richas are dead I'm going to lose it

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tardis--dreams · 4 months ago

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Me panicking because i have 9 missed calls and 5 emails talking about my absence and how "a colleague could take over for me" vs. Me knowing it's really not that important no matter how pushy a client is and that on top of it I'm underpaid and have way to much overtime so i shouldn't even care

#i have 14 hours overtime #collected within 2 weeks lol #you know how it's apparently mandatory for companies in germany to have a way track employees working time? yeah we're #the only company in the whole fucking country who doesn't do that (obviously that's not true there's probably plenty more but it's #still not right.) so we don't get paid overtime nor does it get acknowledged in any way #so technically we're not allowed to even it out (which most people try to do anyway because tf do they think they are asking us to work for #free) but I'm dedicated to not collect any more unpaid working hours so i take the liberty to leave work early this week #so today i left at 12pm (and then got home 4 hours later because another person decided to kill themselves by train. they should call me #first. or anyone else taking the train. I'm sure there'd be plenty of volunteers to do the killing if it means not another miserable day #stuck in a disgusting train). and i logged in again at 6pm today to see if i have anything important messages (stupid i know)#and i saw the missed calls and that there had been an email exchange with me in the cc talking about the 'changes' made in one of the #articles and that someone else could do that for me since i couldn't be reached and at first i felt ashamed and scared #but now it's honestly just pissing me off. that asshole can't write emails and communicate requests like normal people can he #he already called me last week about something completely stupid and acts like his matters are the most important shit in the world #fuck you if you can't wait one day you should have sent this a month earlier because i won't stay online everyday #just to see if there might be an 'important' change you want me to make Immediately. bitch.#also missed two calls from my colleague but she didn't send any messages about what she wanted so i asked her because i felt bad for not #being online and turns out she wanted Nothing. just hear how i was. JUST TEXT ME THEN???? I HATE IT HERE FUCK YOU #seriously i don't get paid enough for this to bother me so much. she probably gets 12-15€ more than me per hour #of course she doesn't care about her overtime as much as i do. i get minimum wage which is less than what I'd get if i still worked at uni #as a student assistant so fuck this shit it's really not important or worth it. from now on i'll only put in minimum effort too #sorry got carried away. rant over now i guess #void screams #work stuff

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queerplatonicdiaries · 6 months ago

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less than a week until I move in with my squish and get to see them again aaaaaaaa

I have never felt such an intense mix of excitement and fear and longing,, send help

#like on the one hand #I get to see them again!!!!!! after three long long months I'll finally be able to feel their arms around me again #and breathe in their presence and see their beautiful smile right in front of me that isn't over 3 pixels of video call #and I'll see them EVERY DAY and we can talk or just sit together whenever we want!!!#and we can host parties!!! and build ikea furniture together!!! and laugh as we try to bake and probably miserably fail!!!!#but on the other hand #GODS am I terrified #what if I fuck it up???#what if I've romanticised this so much in my head and it'll really be nothing like that #what if they get tired of me and living together just makes us drift #what if it brings awkwardness into our friend group #what if my feelings get in the way #there's so much that can go wrong and so much at stake #and I can't bear the thought of losing them #I want this to work so so badly #I guess I'll find out soon #it's crazy though #three months seemed like such an unbearably long time #and now suddenly its almost over #I'm terrified of what comes next but I also want it so badly it hurts #well #come what may #I love them and I don't think that's going to change #here's to this new chapter #queerplatonic yearning hours #cosmo rambles #personal ramble #queerplatonic #aroace #aromantic

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seventh-district · 7 months ago

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I'm probably far from the first person to say this, but you can't tell me that this song doesn't just scream Aventurine, c'mon.

#like. i don't even need to explain it do i. the lyrics are Right There they speak for themselves #aventurine #hsr aventurine #honkai star rail #hsr #Seven.txt #music stuff #panic! at the disco #p!atd #another song + character commentary post wow mayhaps i'll start making more of these but i fear people and their Opinions #but whatever. if i don't distract myself with a silly little tumblr post im gonna have a meltdown so. here. character commentary be upon ye #anyways listening to this and thinking of Aven gives me chills every single time i can't help it #as usual if u disagree feel free to keep that shit to yourself this is just my opinion let me have it in peace #Spotify #'oh but it's too Positive! he's actually miserable inside! he wouldn't embody this song that's just the mask he puts up!!!'#yeah ur right. and who said i wasn't talking about the mask #i'm not saying that this song embodies his truest self necessarily. but i think it does suit Some aspect of him #maybe the side that's trying to keep going. the side that picks him up off the floor and pushes himself out into the world day after day #forcing himself to find whatever scraps of hope he can hold onto. the song doesn't say '*Had* to have high hopes' for no reason #i dunno i'm just spitballin here. there's plenty of ways you can see Aven in this song. if u Want to #if you've never peeled urself off the bathroom floor and washed tears off your face while playing the most upbeat song you can find-#-to try and summon the motivation to keep going in spite of how u just spent 20mins wishing for it all to be over. well #well then u just can't understand my vision here

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mariyekos · 9 months ago

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One day I'm going to finish my FFXVI mega essay, but for now I think my thoughts on the game can be summarized like this:

When making FFXVI, the developers sure knew what they wanted to do, and by god were they going to do it.

Were they also going to do other things that would make those first thing better? Were they going to do other things that make a good game overall? Ehhhhh...they were going to do what they wanted to do, and invest all their time and effort into that, so surely that would be enough! Surely!

#i saw someone call FFXVI the most disappointing 8/10 game they'd ever played #and i agree 100%#it started off SO STRONG #and then. and then!!!#ffxvi #my overall rating is in fact an 8 out of 10. maybe 8.5. definitely not a 9 #i enjoyed many parts of it but by god were the lows low #some of the highs were very high too! i don't regret buying or playing the game! i'm glad i did #but yeah most disappointing 8/10 i ever played is an apt description #my opinion might be slightly impacted by my uh. mental state at the time #2023 was not a good year for me. for several months ffxvi was the only thing i had to look forward to in life #and that's really sad but that was just the place i was in. life was absolutely miserable #i played the demo and was over the moon. good things were coming! it was way better than i anticipated!#then i played the game and while i enjoyed a lot of it a lot was just tedious in a bad way #so many repeated plotlines and so much whacking you over the head with the points they wanted to make #like come on guys i am not an idiot do you really need to tell me this exact thing 18 different times #and have me go out of my way to get. reward which is just a slightly different flavor of that same thing 18 times #that's what i mean by them doing a few things very well. by god were they going to do them. and only them #graphics? beautiful. i had to stop at several points bc i was stunned by the quality.#but after you've seen a few forests and some fallen ruins it gets boring when that's it. the world was just so small and empty #yes i do support the rise up against your oppressor plotlines because that is a good thing to do but that was like. 90% of the story #(including sidequests) and it just kind of got old. why did i just spend 3 hours straight doing sidequests that gave me nothing new #made some of the sidequests feel pointless. especially because the rewards in this game sucked #uh oh i'm getting too negative so i'll end it here #ffxvi was a good game but it is not one of my faves. glad i played it but idk when i'll play it again.#erurandomness

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medicinemane · 9 months ago

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And maybe you'll be like "but if you don't trust businesses, how can you trust welfare?"

I fucking don't. My mom trying to get on food stamps fucked me up because a lady I never met without my permission got my SSN from my mom and started editing my files. My heart still races to this very second whenever I think about it, it kinda messed me up bad and I'll never ever ever see any kind of recourse

And I'm terrified that I'm gonna lose my medicaid just cause I inherited some money from my grandpa

And I've never even applied for disability cause it kinda doesn't matter finding out if I'd qualify or not cause of my depression, when the rules are so restrictive I don't know if I've even be allowed to keep my house

I do not fucking trust these things on a personal level. I feel like out of a lot of people I have the most to fear from them cause I'm on the edge of having things work, and that gets you punished

...but I need medicaid in order to have insurance (and when you strip out the finance side of medicaid, I love medicaid... they're honestly incredible insurance... I just... I just... dental is like 90% of why medicaid is so important to me, ever since I found out this state pays for it I've actually been able to do cleanings which is important to me cause I can't always get myself to brush)

And I think things like disability and food stamps are pretty damn important on a personal level, and honestly are also good for the economy cause they get people spending... it's practically a free cash infusion into the economy, cause these are people who need to buy stuff

There's just so much important stuff welfare does that it's worth dealing with government

No, what I want is more accountability so if someone gets my SSN from a 3rd party like my mom they're held to HIPPA styles standards where that's not ok to access my files without my permission (She changed my fucking address and tried to get medicaid to investigate me for fraud! Never even met me)

Like have some accountability there and in every situation

Secondly I want less punitive focused rules. I'd frankly prefer bezos get on disability than smack down some poor sod cause they got $2000 in the bank or cause their friend lets them live with them for free

If there's gonna be a cut off on these programs, it needs to be a solid step above the poverty line, cause... by definition I assume poverty line denotes kinda the minimum expected income people can reasonably live off of, and if you take away benefits people are gonna lose a chunk of money to covering that stuff themself, so you need a buffer before you kick people off

I don't fucking trust the government for a second, I've actively been fucked by them and on a personal level I avoid everything but medicaid and only that cause everything but the money is pleasant to deal with and I kinda need it (honestly if I was rich I'm not even kidding that I'd rather give medicaid like $400 a month than some insurance company, I sincerely like them as insurance)

But I'd trust them a lot more if they were less punitive, less out to hunt me down and gut me cause someone handed me a fiver or cause I started to get on my feet, and if government employees had concrete rules they had to follow that were actually transparent and enforced

Like 90% of my problems with welfare go away if they're held accountable and there's less "catch the welfare cheats" mentality going around

I don't trust the government in the slightest, but sadly there some jobs it kinda has to do, so I'd just rather force it to be an open book where the public can keep an eye on it and if they step out of line there's consequences (sort of like I don't trust most mega corps but happen to sometimes need stuff from them... did you know literally every cell service provider has been illegally selling shit like your location data to random people like bounty hunters, and the FCC just slapped them with a fine that's 0.02% of their yearly incomes and debated even doing that? I even can offer a source on that)

...I don't trust much of any authority cause they constantly fail me and kinda screw me. Don't trust doctors either, but I still gotta go to them, you know? ...they're just... they're real bad at listening... so many systems need systemic change

(You know who I really don't trust is the cops. I could point to so many examples. My uncle doesn't trust cops either, and he's an ex Fire and SWAT paramedic, he worked with them and we still got into a long conversation where he basically tore into them far better than I can)

(I don't trust authority that's not accountable)

#anyway; if I'm a lousy cheat or whatever least they can do is give me a gun so I can solve that problem #shit makes me wish I was canadian so I could take advantage of their sick implementation of assisted suicide #what should be a system that gives people a choice about the quality of their life; and I don't think should be relegated to terminal illne #...there was... think he was dutch; had been burned by his girlfriend all over his body; was in constant pain #and he ended up using assisted suicide in the end cause he was just in constant agony... think that's his choice to make #but of course the canadian system concretely pushes people; mostly the poor and disabled; to kill themselves #not theoretically; as in literally says word for word to them 'you should really kill yourself; just sign here'#it's sick; it truly is #but for any americans that want to dunk on it; I'm telling you we're no better #we have the exact same miserable desperation and people (again; mostly poor and disabled) into despair #only difference is we don't offer assisted suicide #the underlying issues in the US and canada are so damn similar; so much of what's happening ends up being the same #you can't act smug just cause you only make people want to die instead of also offering to help #that's like saying that you're the good guy cause while you did everything you could to drive someone to the brink #get them fired; slash their tires; just cartoon level villain stuff to personally harass this person... at least you won't hand them rope #we have such similar systemic issues to canada; and I am explicitly telling you that like the people in canada that have said #'I can't take it anymore; disability doesn't cover my expenses and I can't get any help... I'm at my wits end so I'm gonna go die'#I'm telling you that I feel that same way; just without any eugenics agency I can call up #I'm really working to get things stable; but it feels like I'm teetering on the edge of falling into permanent failure #and... and I'll actually tell you the amount even though I don't like to mention money... makes me feel guilty #my gramps left me $27k; which sounds like a lot; but I got 20 windows that need redoing (house has a lot of windows)#...if they ended up being 1k each; that's most of the money gone; if they end up being more...#and I got a whole lotta other stuff I've been putting off like plumbing around here; need to replace that faucet #it's an amount of money that helps; but it's an amount of money that isn't gonna last #...that's like a year of bills; and my mom already needs me to pay like $400 to the propane bill since she got behind #I want to use it to... to try and really get my feet on the ground; but it might loose me my insurance... it makes me want to die #and not to be a selfish bastard; but if I could I'd like to try and take and invest a bit to maybe build some passive income #given that... that a job never seems to work out for me cause I fucking suck and cause like... my insomnia has me up at 5:30 am right now #mm tag so i can find things later

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gentlethorns · 10 months ago

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okay i'm struggling again

#she bork #tbd #idk i'll be fine life is just very mean and unfair and worst of all ordinary and dull. i go to work i come home i do nothing worthwhile.#weekends are never long enough and i never get to cram enough into them to enjoy myself. if life was mean but also generous and glamorous i #could maybe put up w it bc for every low there would be a high but it's not. it's just mean and you hit that low and then instead of it #being followed by a high you just end up on a plateau and eventually you hit another low. god i just don't think i was supposed to live in #this ordinary boring tedious life like i'm not made for it. not in a pretentious arrogant way but in a way that's like i'm going fucking #crazy like i have cabin fever but w my life rather than my environment (which tbh maybe they come down to one and the same). idk sometimes i #want to just blow up my life and go somewhere else and do something else and have fun and not feel so weighted down by responsibilities and #bills and worry about money specifically. like i was miserable in high school but now i think i look back on it fondly bc 1. no true #responsibilities or high stakes and/but 2. the stakes always FELT high like i was CONSTANTLY up and down and euphoric and depressed. not #healthy at all but it always felt like something was HAPPENING and now it just doesn't. i have always though that bored was the worst thing #to be and now here i am all the time it feels like. bored.#and again at the root of everything is that life is mean. mean mean mean. sometimes shit just HAPPENS that's bad and fucks you over and #there's nothing you can do about it. and again if there was something guaranteed to make up for it that would be fine but there's not. you #just have to recover and let it go and move on. and i'm not good at that

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mootmuse · 10 months ago

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the downside of subscribing to a substack telling me about US trans news: i now know about US trans news

#and i know about one guy who has a real high chance of being elected in my area if he gets past the republican primary #when have we ever not elected a republican? it's all up to who republican voters decide they want to run #serious post #us stuff #would tag this for trans stuff too but I'm hoping this doesn't end up in tags for anything #venting about it in detail would dox me I guess but.#the 'upside' of not having gotten my shit together enough to start hrt or anything: can go back into the closet pretty easily #is it stupid that i'd chose shaving my face and going back into the closet over potentially having to leave my cat?#he's such a sensitive little dude idk if he'd be able to keep food down if I moved him to a totally new environment. he'd be too stressed #not enough money to get a loan for a house and can't rent a place with all the cats so i'd have to just go by myself if i went #they'd be fine here with just mom but. idk man. i guess we'll see what my options end up being #even if we could magically get a house with a really low loan mom wouldn't have a job #and i've found the least miserable job i'm ever going to be qualified for i think. might be stupid to not want to leave it #just so I don't have to go back into retail #but I don't want to leave the job either. not going to find anything better #so I guess I'll stay even if it would be smarter to go #proud to be an american huh? fuck.

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hysteriasgarden · 1 year ago

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I had a conversation with my brother the other month, and it's making me wonder just how much we don't remember, how many bad things have we simply forgotten? he doesn't even remember that time we genuinely were scared our dad was mad enough to kill us, and we were clinging to each other in fear waiting for him to snap. it's not like we were that young either when that happened

#mine #apparently I never knew why he hated being touched until he told me in that conversation #our dad would constantly grab his arms all the time as a kid #and I either never noticed or just never remembered #if I didn't have my old diary around. even with how sparsely written it is #would I even remember how miserable and upset I was as a child?#how much I hated my family and felt hurt by them #I feel as though I'd have just forgotten it #I can only remember what I remember #but I know there's more #I can see things like vague flashes of me crying and screaming on the stairs during some argument #but what was the argument about? what did my parents say. what did I say. what did either of us do?#I don't remember. I know it happened but I don't remember any details #and that's just one example of many #and having memories so vague it makes it impossible for me to know if I was the villain here. or my parents #as much as a young child can be a villain but-#how much did I instigate or bring upon myself for acting the way I did?#I'll never remember if I was the reasonable one or if I was simply an insane child who my parents didn't know how to deal with #a lot of the 'abuse' could've just as easily been my fault for acting out and misinterpreting the situation badly #I've always had a tendency to overexaggerate and get upset over things that are entirely reasonable in retrospect #who's to say I wasn't just an awful kid who could've just behaved better to avoid any of it #I just decided the world was unfair and ended up being entitled and ungrateful. thinking I suffered when I didn't #but seeing as I'm missing huge parts of my memory. I guess I'll never know for sure

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lusalemaart · 1 year ago

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#letting go. rather. been doing things in a day lately.#if it goes past 2 days im not allowing it. bc i need to stop obsessing over everything.#so ofc i took the time to have my daily doodle be bullshit as always.#i do need a break tho. pain bad. very bad. need to charge up bc this month is fucking busy. need to stop drawing .#ghost stories quote popped up in my head with this one. it is what it is.#irony of this one. forced myself to draw something about trying to quell the Perfectionist demon in a single day.#acceptable.#fk #m fk #c-c fk #i honestly cant remember the last time my pain was at a 6 or lower. its just been. 7-9 range for months now. im miserable. its whatever. i #kind of doubt i'll ever be that low again at this rate. its like. 2020 all over again. i cant. take it.#kinda hopeless but still here unfortunately #future isnt scary. its terrifying. its petrifying. dont want to live in this much pain anymore #sigh.#thats why doodles done in one day are good. less stress on drawn-out things.#hard for me tho.#ngl tho i found it unreasonably funny drawing this. i was quite physically cracking up imagining like. ok. youre quite literally choking to #death. and your face is all red. but only one half on account of the Syndromes. idk. idk why i found that so comical. i couldnt contain #my shit. so much so that i almost became the very picture i was drawing. bc i began to choke on the pizza i was eating. only for a #fleeting second. but still. saw my life flash b4 my eyes.#also a firm believer that pretentious artists are fucking stupid and annoying and at times quite ableist. and i personally revel in how i #literally am just like.oh. my anatomy i drew looks fucked up? botched hands? flat collar? asymmetrical eyes? like jokes on you. those thing #in my irl LEGIT are like that so technically my 'wrong/bad' anatomy is correct. suck it. however me drawing the brachial region vs me #drawing anything else is silly.#bc the amount of knowledge i have for the anatomy there specifically in comparison is so much more vast. so like i hyper render collars #and necks. meanwhile whenever i try and draw anything else im crying bc its such a struggle due to the fact that i dont fucking understand #how these other places work.

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senseless-blabbering · 5 months ago

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well hey at least i have therapy on the 13th

#and too bad i also keep feeling i'm failing my therapist too! lmao #i don't wish it upon anyone to end up where i am right now with thoughts #my nightmares were awful and i am not happy about anything going on #only the occasional blessings of people being nice to me when i'm out in public and masking what's going on #i feel like a discarded piece of shit nobody wants around. simple #and i don't even blame whoever feels this way #only friends i got over here can only joke around and won't be able to talk seriously to me #and i refuse to burden closer people with myself even more than i already do #so i'll keep being silent and pretending i'm fine and nothing's going on #and maybe things will just stop on their own #i don't wish anyone to be loved and betrayed by love and learn paranoia and mistrust #you become a specific type of miserable. it's just becoming worse and worse #and i'm very tired #tbd

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spikystar · 6 months ago

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opening tumblr after forever just to complain about shit nobody gives a fuck about I'm so sorry to whoever finds it in the internet void but this Is my og internet diary so.

anyway fuck ai so much fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you

#mari shut up #tldr I'm forced to use AI to fucking graduate and I'm so furious and upset and actually heartbroken about it #Like literally crying about it all my effort to finally get here feel fucking worthless lmaoooooooooooooooooooooooooo #not to be cringe but oh my god just another cog in the machine not even creative liberty n artistry at the end of my education nothing #having to copy what ai gives me feels like a fucking joke !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! soulless stupid directionless no intention all stolen piece #It's stupid and childish I'm getting so crushed ab it n I know nobody gives a fuck ab ai anymore but I feel miserable #I think it's the dawning realization that this is exactly the kind of jobs offers I'll get forever n ever #I'm not a good enough artist to make a difference so I'll just have to recreate whatever ai img the client gives me I'm so so so so so sad #maybe I'll really have to give this whole thing up and just. have a dumb degree attached to just a hobby :/#guilty about my parents paying for all this feeling so worthless feeling beyond upset lmfao #anyway I'm just furious I'll get over it eventually n do it I'm just overworked n tired n this feels like such a slap on the face.#I WAS SO LOOKING FOWARD TO THIS FINAL PROJECT THIS FUCKING SUCKS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#Tantrum over art is dead and I need some fucking sleep

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dhoranbolt · 1 year ago

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I need reader who's shy/easily embarrassed, and Sukuna who just pops up whenever to say the most unhinged out of pocket shit on the side of Yuji's face just to see her go bright red.

read fic here

Sukuna who takes the opportunity to lick her face when Yuji tries to reach out and move some hair from her face. The gasp she let's out is choked, and Sukuna grins as Yuji is quick to pull away with a sound of disgust.

"That's not all I can do with my tongue. I'll show you one of these days, when the brat let's me out to play." It's a threat and a promise. Sukuna can't wait to take the drivers seat and devour her.

Sukuna who taunts the both of them for his own amusement, keeping her walking on eggshells whenever she's around Yuji

Who pops an eye open to watch as she bends over to pick something up, taking a moment to admire her ass before he opens his mouth. And when he finally does, "I cant see the swell of your cunt, bend some more for me." Yuji's quick to slap a hand over his cheek and ignore the sting, only for Sukuna to make his way to the back of his hand and cackle

Sukuna who isn't paying attention to what the brats are doing until he hears her moaning. Cracking an eye opened to see she's putting food in her mouth, eyes closed and a faint smile pulling at her lips.

"Do you always moan like that when you put things in your mouth? Or are you just showing off for me." She nearly chokes on the food, eyes going wide and cheeks burning red as she looks at him.

Sukuna who refuses to acknowledge the fact he enjoys her reactions for anything more than his own entertainment.

But who does start to notice the subtle change in Yuji's behavior towards her

Who makes it his new goal in life -to keep himself entertained of course, no other reason- to make the both of them so uncomfortable in each other's presence.

Because if he can't physically toy with his new (not favorite) human, he'll gladly do it from the passengers seat of his vessel and make everyone involved miserable.

@saiki-enthusiast here's the tag!! I hope you enjoy 😊 I have a fic that's like a follow up to this that I'm still working on, it's a little dark/ noncon though, if anyone was interested!

#jjk #sukuna jjk #sukuna x reader #sukuna x you #sukuna #sukuna ryomen #sukuna hcs #I did the thing ayee #sukuna smut #jjk x reader #jjk smut #yuji headcanons #jjk x you #sukuna ryoumen smut

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h3ck · 1 year ago

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guess it's not a birthday if i dont spend it screaming and sobbing it's like a tradition i guess.. woo.. 🎉

#happy birthday to me i guess or whatever #who even cares honestly #what else is fucking new at this point #and then i realize all over that i have nowhere but here where i can vent #because im not like.. alone anywhere lmao and i dont know anyone that well and i just have to carry everything all by myself all the time l #my own fucking fault i created my own purgatory #why do i bother lmao #why do i bother with any of it #i'll delete this later im sure and brush off anyone who'd even try to ask so why do i even give a shit #i want the idea of people wanting to care but im not stupid enough to actually let anyone in #just isolate myself more and wonder if im miserable forever as i fucking should lol what else is new happy birthday

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