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guess it's not a birthday if i dont spend it screaming and sobbing it's like a tradition i guess.. woo.. 🎉
#happy birthday to me i guess or whatever#who even cares honestly#what else is fucking new at this point#and then i realize all over that i have nowhere but here where i can vent#because im not like.. alone anywhere lmao and i dont know anyone that well and i just have to carry everything all by myself all the time l#my own fucking fault i created my own purgatory#why do i bother lmao#why do i bother with any of it#i'll delete this later im sure and brush off anyone who'd even try to ask so why do i even give a shit#i want the idea of people wanting to care but im not stupid enough to actually let anyone in#just isolate myself more and wonder if im miserable forever as i fucking should lol what else is new happy birthday
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idec anymore. sending this out into the wild
#is this nsft idk#im not tagging this anymore than that if this post finds its people it finds them#snap sketches#this is my idea of drunk posting ig idk. highkey the whiskey's like pretty much worn off but while i was making this post i felt the effect#im still posting it idc havent posted no bullfuckery in a minute and i guess this counts if youre dehydrated enough#listen all i know is that house of m magneto is being released on my birthday and i saw the rendered model for it#and im very not normal. i drew this before seeing it on my tl but still#im just that in tuned with teh universe idk ..#anyway its my bitch ass friend kaylas birthday today. whatever. already wisehd her happy bday#i wanted to draw a comic bout pietro getting mags terrible shampoo that dries his hair out#'is that why' yeah thats why i drew this. too lazy to draw all that rn but the idea of him wearing his helmet in the shower makes me laugh#alas new mutants has shown me he DOES properly wash her hair or whatever ... who even cares ...#also 'snap thats really specific' yeah because i used shampoo my bro got me and it dried my hair out#and i know this because the second i switched shampoos my hair was good and Nto Dry agian the FUCK. evil.#ok bye. im gonna laze around on the couch until i pass out vjLEAKVJAKLJ
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beauty queen on a silver screen.
#happy birthday to this guy 😒#this was a bit last minute but i love it lol#did a bit of a new sketch/line art thing and i think i like it#i’ll have to do it more but i think it’s working better for me than what i was doing previously. anyways#he’s a primadonna girl or whatever i guess.#hq#hq!!#haikyuu#haikyuu!!#hq fanart#hq!! fanart#haikyuu fanart#oikawa tooru#tooru oikawa#oikawa toru#toru oikawa#oikawa fanart#hq oikawa#my artwork
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HBD Dice <3 <3 <3
#hypmic#hypnosis mic#dice arisugawa#i have never loved a character this much he's so. i need him to be real and my bestie idc how pathetic that makes me#i wanted to draw something way bigger and better for him but all my plans to draw got absolutely fucked the past couple weeks#so this was a bit of a rush job and i feel bad :( but i'm not totally unhappy with it so i guess it's fine and at least i made it in time#wish i had more time to spend on colors and rendering + wish i got to finish this on my pc and not my old ass laptop with a bad screen#well whatever. it's not like i don't have plans to draw more of him once i have the time and whatnot#anyways HAPPY BIRTHDAY KING!!! ilysm forever <3#7-7-cherry drawingz
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boy in silly sitting positions compilation
#cats#I especially like the last one where he just has one single paw poking out of that box for some reason lol#I still have costumes to post and like a billion other things.... grr... constantly failing at staying active on social media aughh#I think because currently my Main Focus is on trying to get my game done and stuff.. which basically just means sitting and writing all day#so there's not much to post about. Though I know the Good At Social Media thing to do would be to post about the#writing and share progress and talk about the game and characters or whatever to try to build interest or something but that is SOOO weird#to me.. I could maybe get it if it was like a tiny tiny discord groupchat of playtesters with like 5 people in#it.. But something about talking openly about things before they happen is weird to me?? Like presumptuous feeling or something#''oooo guess whats gonna happen LATER!!!'' like.. how do you know.. what if it doesnt. what if you dont finish it. what if its not the way#you think it's going to be. what if something changes. etc. Like I literally avoid movie trailers and game trailers for the same reason ghj#Even if it's not ME doing it it just feels... weird.. Maybe it has to do with my OCD and how I just don't like talking about ''future''#things in Certain Terms. Like if I was going to say ''Oh yeah sure. come over to my house in a few months''. I would have to follow it up#with like ''HOPEFULLY you can come over to my house in a few months'' or 'They'll come over in a few months MOST LIKELY''. Because just#stating that something will happen matter of factly takes for granted like.. what if somehting horrible happens and I DONT have a house#in a few months? or what if something bad happens to me. or to the person coming over? I can't ever DEFINITELY say with 100% certainty#that one could ACTUALLY come to my house in a few months. anything could change. So I have to allot for that in my phrasing. hbjjkn#There are a lot of situations where you're expected to just Assume Things but for some reason that bothers me. My brain literally does not#even Assume the most basic things.. like how do *I* know that just because it's someones birthday that they want to be wished a happy#birthday? what if they dont? everyone is different and has different preferences. I should check with them first. or wait until they public#ly announce that theyre accepting birthday wishes. I have to allot for all 5034859069 rare possibilities at any given time and never take#anything for certain. etc. ghjbjhbh.... ANYWAY.. I have been feeling a bit sick lately as usual.. but still slowly making progress on some#things. Moslty I need to edit costume photos. make sculptures. and work on the game. Going back reading some of the old writing from like#2018 and suprisingly I don't have to change that much of it? In fact I like it mostly. so that's good. I would be very interested if I were#playing the game myself. Though that doesnt mean much since my tastes are so niche lol..#Still really want to clear some of my million tumblr drafts as well... alas and aughh and ooughh and so on and so forth. Between all of my#evil appointments other such things...why cant I have one billion dollar to retire into relaxed hermit artist life of no stressors.. bleas
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The Madhumati Gupta Buaji Weekly
Mugzeen Adison (Magazine Edition)
Namaste Nandkisore!
Aasaa karat hain ki, nandkisore, aap sab logan theek haai. Hum logan bhi theek haai, nandkisore. Sasi babua bhi ab theek hi haai bas pahile se tanik kamjor hui gaye, chhari ke sahare chalat haain ab. Aoor humka bataye rahe ki oo ki ee halat bhi oo Syaam ki kirpa rahi. Humra mann toh karat raha ki oo sasure ko ek ghumaai ke lagay de ki jindagi bhar phir aisan kucho karat ki jurrat naa karihe, haa.
Chalo choro babua/bitiya. Arre nandkisore ab tanik aapan baat bhi karau, ghar mein sab logan theek haai na? Tohre Amma-Bauji, tohri kauno humre jaisan Buaji hau toh oo sab theek haai na, nandkisore?
Ab kaa batyay tohka, nandkisore. Kal parso ki baat rahi, Sanka Devi aayi gayi phudakti-phudakti Laxminagar. Humka kahine lagi ki Arnav babua ke daftar mein kauno mugzeen-wugzeen ke khaatir humka kucho likhna haai. Hum kahe ki ab nandkisore humre jamane mein toh hum aoor tohre phuphaji itni chitthi likhat rahe ki bas pucho naahi. Toh oo kahi ki theek haai buaji aap chitthi likh ke humko bataay dena hum aa kar le jayenge, ab humri buddhi bhi umar ke kaaran mand pari rahi, oo ka jaaye ke baad, hum bhi bhul gaye nandkisore.
Saara kaam karke aaike baithe the, ki oo ka fone aayi gaya, humka puchi ki chhitthi likhe haai ki naahi, toh hum kahe, nandkisore, kaam mein thora byast hoyi gaye the, abhi likhat rahe.
Ab hum kaa bataay, nandkisore, humri jindagi mein kauno bataane layak khaas toh kucho haai nahi. Athaarah (18) ke the, amma-bauji ne byaah karaaye diya, tohre phuphaji un dino rail maashter kaa kaam karat rahe. Byaah ke baad humka liye eehan Delhi aayi gaye Laxminagar, ab nandkisore tabahu se hum idhar hi rahat haai.
[Buaji aur phuphaji honeymoon ke liye puri dilli ghume the. Phuphaji jab bhi kaam ke wajah se dusri jagah jaate toh wahan se buaji ko chitthi likhte the. ~Buaji ki pyaari SD ;)]
Sabahu theek chalat raha tha. Byaah ke teen saal baad, ek din khabar mili ki kauno train mein aag lag gayi haai, aoor bohut logan ki jaan gayi haai, a phir hum bhi chakkar kaat kaat kar thak gaye, nandkisore, daftar se aspataal aoor aspataal se phir daftar, phir unke daftar se ek din chhitthi aaye ki tohre phuphaji toh milat naahi toh unki penson ki raakam ab humko mila karegi, hum bohut roye oo din.
Bohut hi ache insaan the, nandkisore, hum behad prem karat the, ab kaa karaein, oo din ke baad se hum aapan nandkisore ke charno mein samarpit hoye gaye. Khair jaane do nandkisore. Ee sab toh bohut purani baat rahi.
Aye nandkisore, agar tumlogan ka kauno dikkat paresaani rahe toh humka bataayi dio, hum tohka tanik samajhaai denge, aoor baaki sab humre nandkisore ke haathon chor denge, theek haai naa? Bilkul kauno dikkat rahi toh bitiya humka aapan buaji samajh kar, eehan aaike bataai dena, mann bhi thora halka hoat jayi. Aoor hum toh waisan bhi jyaada kaam-kaaj naa kar sakat haai naa, toh pura din bas baith ke hi gujar jaat haai. Tohka chitthi likhan ke khaatir humra bhi tanik samay beet jaye.
Ab hum thehre bujurg, humse kaun baat karihe? Oo bhi chitthi likhke, nandkisore? Aajkal toh naa jaane kaa oosab bhatsup-discaard bhagwaan jaane aoor kaa-kaa aayi gaye haai, chitthi likhne ka phursat kaun ke paas rahai?
Khair choro. Humka toh aoor kuch soojh hi naahi rahat haai nandkisore, aoor kaa likhe? Chalao phir rakhte haai kuch batana hau toh likhat dena theek haai naa?
Aoor haan. Humka sunne mein aawat haai ki Sanka Devi ki kauno saheli ka aaj janam din raha? Ee baat sach haai ka, nandkisore? Janam din ki bohut bohut subhkamna tohka, nandkisore. Khub kaam karau, mehnat karau, Arnav babua aoor titaliya ke jaisan naam-paisa kamao, aoor tohka pati-parmeswar toh bohut hi bhagyawaan raha ki oo ka tohre jaisan patni milat rahi, nandkisore (byaah kee ho ki naahi, nandkisore?)
Aoor humri taraf se kauno meethaai wagerah khaa lena, tohka ghar ka pata (address) hota toh dukaan se jalebi aoor kucho dusri meethaai bhijwai dete par kauno baat naahi bitiya muskuraayete rehna. Jindagi mein rone ke bohut mauke milenge par muskuraaye ke mauke khud hi dhundne parat haai, nandkisore.
Chalao phir, ab rakhat haai. Garima ke saath mandir jaanat haai nandkisore. Namaste.
P.S. : Lol. I got this idea today like literally today and then thought of getting started but now I am kinda confused about something whether I should continue this one from buaji's POV only or I should write from all the characters' POV's. Let me know. And also ket me know ki yeh kuch samajh mein aaya bhi ki ekdum kachra kar diya hai maine. Lol :') Ok so I should have added this bit in the beginning but nvrmnd *shrugs* So I have considered double 'a' for आ sound, double 'o' for ऊ sound, double 'e' for इ sound and single 'a' is for अ sound, rest if you find any kind of confusion, please feel free to ask for help, considering this is not regular Hindi so :) Ok. Bye. God bless you.
#arshi#arnav and khushi#arnav singh raizada#ipkknd#khushi kumari gupta#there is a friend who follows this blog and it's her birthday today like yeah after 12 am#from being the follower to ask/wait for my Live Blogs to being one of the closest friends within a month#we came a long way#happy birthday to you dear :)#i hope this matched up to your expectations :')#may you achieve all your dreams and have a happy life ahead nandkisore#and also to all those who read#do tell me if you found it weird or did you get irritated#by the number of times i chose to throw 'nandkisore' at your face after every two words#lol#ok bye y'all#have a shubh ratri/prabhat whatever#ok bye#and also nandkisore guess who added the parts in brackets ;)#yes our beloved titaliya improvised her buaji's letter a bit y'all :)
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mutuals. i am getting caught in my own bitterness again...
#ill vent because this is basically my bedroom#my younger older brother is caught up in that phase of romantic love when nothing else matter but girlfriend#thats fine i guess it happens#the thing is he forgot about my birthday and i was sad. then he remembered that he forgot and called and said#heyyy lemme make it up to you. lets go grab dinner this weekend (last weekend)#he forgot he even said me and went wine tasting with his gf. so now im double sad AND pissed because#i said no to my friends who actually wanted to see me because i was under the assumption that we were going out#so i sent him a passive aggressive message like heyy dinner was great thx for that xd and he was like what dinner??#long story short he realized he fucked up again and invited me to dinner for realsies this time#but like. he isnt really inviting me? he and my niece were going to a kiddy place he promised he would take her and said i could tag along#i told him i realize now he just invited that to save face and to forget about it#but now im even sadder cuz i love my niece and she is always happy to see me... i just feel like im stupid or something#theyre going tomorrow and im debating on whether i should swallow my pride and go for her#i probably wont#im still not over it#anyway whatever i got work to do
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Finally returning to one of our two favorite vacation spots ✅
Other family members coming ❌
#my mom is charitable and generous for providing a trip for some family members but hey why don't you give that money to me instead 😄😄#I'll be hiding in the room and reading and staying away from everybody I just gotta think of an excuse#this is also the same family member I embarrassed tf out of myself in front of#where 2 months ago she was asking me personal questions about a potential phd and why my thesis defense got pushed back#and I just totally shut down in front of her#so it's like greeaaaat thanks for inviting her along#it is shitty and selfish for me to be thinking I wish they weren't coming so it could be like our previous vacations#but I guess I'm happy for them that they get to experience this area#I'd rather stay home alone tho but they already bought the tickets for next month. we'll see#and even shittier of me this is my moms birthday trip so really she gets to do whatever she wants I suppose#I would never say any of this out loud to them I'm just secretly not wanting to go on a vacation with them or hang out with them again
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i am feeling so linspired today i might even write that email when i get home-
#i can & i will#it's the right time i guess#also i love seeing all this lin-love on my dash today#it makes me so happy 💜#once again happy birthday king#lin manuel miranda#lmm#i say whatever and whatever that i want*
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I would absolutely love for at least one of my friend groups to completely go all out for me for my birthday. The way girls at school get huge sashes and gift baskets from their friends. I've never really had that. I've never really had a group of friends band together to do something super special for my birthday aside from getting on call with my two best besties to play roblox. Which i guess is a bit disheartening because I've organized stuff like this for several people. I've put together calls so we could all sing happy birthday to someone and celebrate with them. Hell, not even a birthday celebration, but i once organized a going away party with my entire friend group for one of our friends who was moving to another state, because i loved them i wanted to them to know they'd be loved and missed by us. It would be nice to be on the receiving end of that but also it feels really silly to just Ask my friends to plan something special for me cause 1. Those are supposed to be surprises 2. I know it is My birthday and I have every right want to be treated like the center of the universe but I still feel very selfish asking people Hey can you make this day all about me and put effort into it please. Also it feels less genuine when people have to be Asked to celebrate me yknow. Idk maybe the realization that I'm turning 18 years old is finally fully kicking and that's what's got me down lately but man. For my birthday I really just want to know that I'm loved and wanted and not a nuisance that pisses people off every time I open my mouth
#Also and this is where I get really annoying but most of the time I don't get gifts from people who aren't my family#My last birthday i got gifts from two people out of my several friends and friend groups who really didn't do much#Other than wish me happy birthday or my two friends who always get on roblox with me#Which is also disheartening because i try to make gifts for everyone for their birthdays and christmas#If it's not something huge like the animatic and the animation meme and the attempted pmv I made then it's a thoughtful art piece#And if it's not that then it's at least singing them happy birthday and giving them a hug and letting them know I love them#Which I'm not gonna stop doing and I will never stop doing#I have too much love in my heart to ignore someone's birthday out of spite and I do not make things expecting something in return#Even if someone never ever gives me a birthday gift I will still give something to them every year because I don't want to be bitter#But I guess it just gets tiring after a while#Trying to do everything for everyone while barely anyone puts in the same effort for me#Again I'm not gonna ask anyone for a gift cause 1. Selfish 2. Disingenuous if it needed to be asked for#I guess I just wish more people valued me enough that they'd already do all this stuff for me#Make me gifts and treat me like I matter the most#Because I know i try to do that for everyone else#Idk I still feel selfish saying all this but also it's My 18th Birthday I think I deserve to be a little selfish#Man I need to go to bed midnight is always when I get ungodly sad over things I have no control over#harry osborn or whatever the fuck the new generation says /j
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#AUGH the birday blues hitting again.........#only my bff wished me happy bday nobody else out of my irl friends did :((((#and like im not holding it against anyone obviously i myself barely remember my own birthday let alone other peoples#but it doesnt feel good😔#i guess its kind of like this every year tho no matter who wishes me happy birthday or whatever#last year was a farce tho i cried for like 5 hours fshhdhdj so already doing better!!#nothing perfect but im not having a horrible time i guess#the loneliness peaks during birthdays but other than that its good#bought myself ben n jerrys as a birthday treat that shit is expensiveeeeee#:// oh well#my post#rewatching the karina digimon smash and passes
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i’m back temporarily, bc it’s my birthday in an hour and a half, and i’m having a mini breakdown, hehe x
#there’s also so much pressure to make it a good day but that might also just be me honestly#i’m kinda having a quarter life crisis? a tiny bit?#like just thinking about time ya know?#i was looking at my baby pictures which is a super good idea when you’re going through a crisis#but it feels insane that that tiny human is me#and i feel so bad#i’ve been so hateful to myself and i think about that little girl and i’m crying#but i’m trying to fix things but it’s not i can completely make everything perfect#i’ll still have the same problems it’s just finding new ways to deal#anyways happy (early) birthday to me i guess#as for me using this blog again?#idk really#just trying to pop in and try to keep it fun and staying away when it’s not instead of forcing myself#i half want to just get rid entirely but i also don’t#but idk my reasons for staying don’t feel very right#it’s just not fun anymore#and trying to make it fun again just feels like forcing the issue#so i really don’t know#i’m just trying to figure out the right thing to do#i don’t have the energy to deal with it all right now#just don’t expect to see me around a lot#i’m sticking to my detox for a while#again if you want to reach me you can add my discord or whatever
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that "people singing you happy birthday" embarrassment goes extra hard when your mom's recording it and she has to sing extra loud to drown out your dad singing your deadname
#happy birthday to me. i guess.#i hate saying he's transphobic because he really doesn't have a problem with trans people#he just... wants to ignore that i'm trans#idk. something about my 80 year old grandma writing my name on my birthday card and then. that.#like frankly i don't care if he ever accepts me as a trans person. like that's whatever. i don't see him that often unless i'm home anyway#it's just so incredibly embarrassing to be called two different names because one parent absolutely refuses to change.#especially in public. and on recording#i'm never gonna fight him on it. we don't argue about it.#he's probably going to be calling me his daughter for the rest of his life#and i've accepted that#zephyr talks
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suddenly feeling really sad at 3 am after my birthday this blows
#aaaaaagghhhhh noooooooo its the soul crushing melancholic over how lonely i am again#this sucks my life is so depressing. my brother didnt even wish me a happy birthday today. i mentioned it and he just mumbled at me#my mom didnt get me anything. none of my other family members said a word either#i just stayed home all day on my computer just like i do every single day of my life#ill do the same on halloween and on christmas and on new years and whatever else#i dont know i guess i still feel like holidays should be something special#and when they arent im just reminded of how i have nothing to celebrate and nobody to celebrate with#i just feel alone all the time as i have since i was old enough to remember. lame shit
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wow dad remembered my birthday this year, he forgot how old i'm turning but at least he remembered that i exist lmao
#for the past 3-4 years hes either forgotten my bday completely or he wished me hbd like a week or two late#almost felt happy for a sec there till he was like 'so uhhhh how old are you turning again??? twenty........six????'#oh well. he sent me money so it's whatever i guess ¯\_ (ツ)_/¯#gonna get wasted with friends tomorrow#it's been ages since i've invited them to my apartment bc i always visit them so i'm kinda excited to show them my new layout#anyway my real birthday is on sunday#personal
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there’s something very lonely about being the planner friend on your birthday
#like don’t get me wrong i love being the planner friend#i’m the one that picks restaurants and activities and navigates public transit or if it’s somewhere we’re driving to im the driver#i’m the one that pays for everything#unless we split the bill#but if one person picks it up it’s almost always me#i’m the one who arranges hang outs and asks everyone if they wanna do smth#i’m the one that hosts everything#and generally i enjoy this#but my 18th birthday is in a week and i’m planning dinner and i wish one of my friends would plan instead#and i know none of them are gonna pay for my food or gas or anything#like i love them but i’m going broke 💀#but i cant ask someone to cover it for me that feels so weird#it just sucks#especially bc when you plan everything there’s always the worry that it’s selfish and they’re not enjoying themselves#i’m aware this is unreasonable but sometimes it feels like they don’t care enough to plan anything#i know it’s not true i know this is just our dynamic and overall i love being the planner#but i guess i was sorta hoping they’d plan smth for my birthday#whatever#as long as they’re there and happy i’ll enjoy it
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