#so I say learnings

[gongyussy]

i'll let phie-san say it:

[fractal-patterns]

When you want the results faster

I was never trained in painting, but I love painting. I just hate that they always turn bland or straight up ugly. But I never studied how to paint. I just like the thought that whenever I paint (which is only twice a year) it should turn out good, and when they don't, my mood turn sour.

Somehow I got myself a huge board canvas and cut it into tiny pieces. My goal is to make a beautiful canvas photo album. I started with a reference photo of a fabric. I was frustrated the entire time doing it because I don't know color theories, or blending techniques, or the fact that acrylic dries too fast so it uses a layering technique. And worse, the reference photo has two different colored light sources. It was hard.

I was mad, angry at myself, complaining all the time. Yet I persist. It was just a mere 15x7cm canvas anyway. I should be able to finish it within an hour.

After three hours, I was done with the painting. It didn't turn out exactly like the photo (also because my linearting sucks haha) but it is finished! The silhouette is there, the colors look nice, it's not the best of the generation but it's the best of myself. I'm proud of it.

In theee hours of frustration and messy whining, I learned the basics of color theory (I was searching as I do the project), layering of colors, techniques to not waste the fast-drying acrylics on the palette, and I even developed an efficient workspace organization to make it easier for me to work. I learned the names of colors, too! Like ultramarine blue, phthalo blue and green, burnt sienna, burnt umber, titanium white, etc.

Funny how doing one realistic photo reference forced me to learn as much as I can for 3 hours. The thing is, I did something and I learned something, while suffering the entire time, but I went through it. Now I am braver to suffer through to a process, because I know I will learn more. In the next page after that, I was still struggling, but much lesser than before. I used my learnings from the past to acquire new learnings in the present.

In our journey to self-improvement, there are moments in which we think finishing a book will improve us drastically already, so we slow down and not read the book at all. We think we can get results by watching life guru videos and sharing these findings to others as if we have lived the lifestyle our entire lives, or worse, let it shower our ego to the point that we think we are already better than others so we don't need much work at all. Sometimes, I even think the term "self-improvement" has become capitalized so much that life gurus want us to hate ourselves so we can purchase their expensive 'online courses' and books. For years I have bought these books, only to learn more from a novel and its plethora of fanfictions. We like shortcuts from materials, but we do not know that a long journey is the best material.

Expose yourself to a learning process, and BE AWARE that it is a learning process, and not a final output. You are allowed to make mistakes, and in every mistake, take out the lesson, not the dread. Do not be afraid to repeat the same learning experience over again, heck maybe it could be a lifestyle, who knows. But go on a journey. Just go. Some would have a literal journey, like going to another country and learning the trade of tourism and absorbing other cultures. Some would go on a spiritual journey by enrolling in a monastery or entering seclusion. Some would wish to learn compassion, so it's better to practice it by volunteering and meeting more people to share your compassion with than staying at home reading the bible. Some would start small by having a weekend off in another island/state. The thing is, go on a journey. Your emotions will be exposed, your patience will be tested, your talents will be used, and your skills will be developed.

Just go on a journey.

Be patient on how long you need to do this journey.

Don't rush improvement while only sitting. Don't expect to always do it perfectly the first time.

[reallybadblackoutpoems]

meditations on first philosophy (1641) - rene descartes

"who give a shit"

[catshinji]

hmm.

[shotmrmiller]

ghost getting himself a cute, soft girl he doesn't talk about much but is clearly obsessed with and price just thinks it's nice he's finally settled down, approves of the home he's made for himself, definitely approves of the one he's taken for himself.

soap asks kyle if he's seen you and he says, "yep. lovely bird he's got tucked away in her little dollhouse. makes great food, too." soap swears there's a subtle shift in his tone when he says "lovely", a hint of something deeper that flickers in his eyes for just a moment. soap simply sucks on his teeth, letting it slide. (although he knows that kyle's always been one to appreciate the good things in life.)

interest gnaws at him, a persistent itch he can't scratch. price likes you just fine, as does kyle. well what about him? he decides to bite the bullet and goes to simon with a knot between his brows, the corners of his lips tugged downwards. they've shared clothes, bullets, beds. if the other two got to meet you, why can't he?

"ya can come over for dinner on tonight. she'd 'ave my neck if she didn't formally meet ya anyway."

soap then asks, out of genuine curiosity more than anything else, if simon would have kept you in the dark from him hadn't he brought you up himself.

"ya meet 'er when i want ya to, boy, and not a moment before." the tone he takes is unmistakeable. his words are a command, not a suggestion, and soap instantly knows to not push further.

soap nods. "ah'll be there."

"course ya will. she'd be terribly disappointed otherwise."

yeah, he'd hate to have that.

soap sits in the living room, the soft glow of the lamp casting a warm light over the cozy place. with a full stomach and an unfastened belt, nursing a glass of kentucky. he can't remember the last time he ate that well or that much.

maybe it's the alcohol that loosens his tongue, or the fact that he wishes he also had a sweet little thing to keep at his side just like simon's doing with you now, but the thoughts he's been mulling over all evening since he first saw you tumble out of his mouth.

"while ah can attest to yer taste in sweethearts, can't say much about your alcohol. bourbon, LT?" he says, chest warm.

simon's arm tightens around your hips, fingers splayed possessively over your thigh. he shrugs, completely unbothered by the backhanded compliment. "can't be perfect in everythin', can we, sergeant?"

soap's cheeks burn furiously hot when you come to his defense with a smack of your palm onto simon's chest. "be nice to johnny. he's got a face that make up for some of his other flaws."

the teasing lilt in your voice unashamedly gets his southern blood pumping. he can't help it if certain things stir when someone as pretty as you look at him like that. soap swirls the amber liquid gently in the glass while keeping his limpid eyes on you, not even trying to hide the fact that his gaze hasn't wavered since your cheeky little comment.

you then whisper something in simon's ear, your cupped hand not even half the size of his head and soap has to rearrange himself from the outside when your teeth catch your bottom lip. simon looks up at you then, eyes heavy and half lidded, and a smirk plays at the corners of his mouth.

"'m not sure, love. you'll just 'ave to ask 'im yourself. go on."

you open that sweet mouth of yours, but simon cuts you off with a decisive wave of his hand. "no. you know how to ask for things."

your reaction to that is visceral, and you're on your knees faster than his alcohol-muddled brain can comprehend. don't look down 'er shirt, don't look down 'er shirt, don't-

"johnny, will you touch my pussy?"

he splutters at your question, completely taken aback, but it seems you're not done just yet.

"hands to yourself, sergeant. tha' not all."

you pout at simon, one that earns you a look that promises consequence, but do as he says.

"will you touch my pussy, johnny? pretty please?"

[fevekko]

🏹🐦💘 happy holidays from your favorite super-heroes!! 💘

(i am not late today is the 25th everyone please shh)

fanart inspired from @kitsuneisi and @xmaruu11 's DDVAU! my brain is so rotten with these two silly gooses...

[timelessbian]

actually that ao3 post about calculating kudos-to-hits ratios to decide if a fic is worth reading has me so pissed off. someone put real time and energy into something they are SHARING WITH YOU FOR FREE on a site where you can quite literally filter and search by anything you want and you're STILL trying to find a foolproof method to find stuff that's "good enough to read"???

YOU ARE NOT THE TARGET AUDIENCE FOR EVERYTHING

you don't have to like or read everything in a given fandom or tag, but you also don't have to be a cunt about it and imply that it's not worth reading. this is the kind of shit that moves people to stop creating altogether, and to see people agreeing in the tags is so disheartening. absolutely unserious behavior.

[cozylittleartblog]

Columbo and the Knight (1984)

put me in the universe where Columbo ran through the 1980s and had a crossover episode with Knight Rider. I think they deserved it, and I am not just saying that because they're my two favorite Old Shows. @telebeast wrote a little fanfic blurb about it and I HAD to visualize it into a comic (which is also the longest comic I have finished thus far at five pages...), so writing credit goes to them.

Autism W!

[mokeonn]

"But if college was free, then people would abuse that and get useless degrees" hell yeah I would! If I could go to college without debt I would make it my job to get a degree in every little thing that interested me. I'd get a doctorate in film studies. I'd have a bachelor's degree for every science I like. I'd try to learn at least 5 languages with varying results. I would learn something "useful" like coding and then follow it up with a ""useless"" degree like art history. I'd be the world record speed run holder for getting every degree possible.

But I can't afford college without going into massive debt, so instead I spent the last 5 years trying to figure out what I am passionate enough about to consider going into debt over, because unfortunately being passionate about everything is extremely expensive to pursue.

[chloesimaginationthings]

FNAF Abby and Gregory discover Michael is an artist too

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Who is this sassy lost child?

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I like to think Ogrim put his professional voice on for that little speech. (Next page will be out January 6th. Merry Christmas & Happy Holidays)

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[taimanzano]

We need a proper name for this ship, I BEG YOU don't let it be MegaPrima, it sounds super stupid in spanish TToTT

[theophagie]

I thought I was losing it but no, kh1 Sora's fast swimming animation really does change after you've been to Atlantica. It's a small detail, but also a cute and smart one 🥺

[bardicbird]

a little siffrin comic about touch, violence, and oranges

[parisoonic]

'We go together!' 🤝